Alligators, Turtles and Cows

So, if you’ve followed me on Instagram for long enough you may realize that I’m in the middle of a handbag hurricane of sorts. …Basically, I have had this idea of acquiring the perfect handbag for years. And to this day I have yet to find it.

For a while I thought the Louis Vuitton Noé was going to be my signature bag. But then I bought one and realized that while I do love it, it’s not “me” in the way I had presumed it to be.

Then I bought a Gucci Jackie thinking that would be right. It isn’t. And in the meantime I bought a Speedy too.

I’ve loved the Hermès Kelly for as long as I can recall loving handbags… And last year I decided to just invest in one of those. But…I’m not sure anymore. They’re lovely but I worry they’re not quite right for me either. As someone on Instagram commented, “You think of Hermès and Grace Kelly [when you see an Hermès Kelly] and not the woman wearing it.” Of course, this is much like the Gucci Jackie and Jackie O. (Hence the name) and the Louis Vuitton Speedy and Audrey Hepburn…

And so, as silly and frivolous as it might seem to some, I’m currently lost in a sea of confusion in regard to handbags. Images of Fendi bags and the Louis Vuitton Alma swim in my head as I fall asleep and I feel a rather peculiar anxiety over which bag I should buy.

Go ahead and roll your eyes. I understand.

But, you see, I have this ideal in regard to art that we wear. I would like to think that we all have a perfume, handbag, and etc. out there waiting for us to find that has our very name on it. Or at least one that we can share with others and also make our own in the way we wear it (and etc.). So, I’m going to keep searching.

To reiterate: So far, I haven’t found it. Chanel No. 22 is very much my signature. It seems to follow me everywhere I go in this life and it’s comforting… There’s no one bag that’s been like that though and again, I’m hoping to find it as silly that may sound. Still, what we wear is a means of expression and so perhaps this kind of dilemma should be taken more seriously than it might seem at first glance.

Anyway, I hope those reading this are having an at least ok day. And if you too have considered what the right handbag is or perhaps how to express yourself as a person in general and it’s been a challenge in some way, hopefully you’ll realize that you’re not alone. It’s genuinely hard to manifest one’s true soul in all the arts and even if one does manage to free one’s truth and allow it to be seen it’s possible people just won’t quite understand. Some things are incredibly complex and at some point it’s hard to know where to draw the line between sharing how much something has affected you or how much you love something and etc. and giving people the proper amount of respect and space (ie wearing a “stinky” perfume that could be genuinely offensive to those around you who have to share the same air). Boundaries can be tricky. *smile* And seeing someone else’s point of view can be tragically elusive… BUT, in the perhaps somewhat humble world of handbags I’m going to hope I find a piece of art that communicates just the right thing, even if I’ve failed elsewhere. Wish me luck! *grimace and smile*