“Joel” by Lem

(August 19th, 2024)

In This Shirt by The Irrepressibles plays.

“Do you think Lacey is happy?” asks an witch in the Illuminati of Joel.

He pauses to think. Stares off into the ether as we all do before we die without realizing it.

“This song is Lacey’s soul.” says Harold Loeb. “And no…she’s not a man. Nor is she Jack Kennedy. And it’s Hell. And I’d love to know who sent her there.”

The song plays.

“And I’m saying at as a Jew.” says Harold Loeb.

“I am lost. In a rainbow. Now the rainbow…IS GONE.” warns F. Scott Fitzgerald.

A Muslim woman in the Illuminati screams.

“What!? Why did that woman scream!?” says JFK, genuinely out of the loop.

“We are not clowns.” says a living Egyptian woman, as a warning.

“What’s so funny?” says JFK, still out of the loop.

The song plays.

“There’s a pain…it does ripple.” says a living psychic.

“What!?” says JFK, like a “cute gay.”

“So. Is she happy?” a living psychic asks Joel.

“No.” says Joel.

“Why?” asks the Illuminati psychic.

“She has no idea how to be happy.” says Joel.

“Why?” asks an Illuminati wizard.

Joel stops to think again. “I haven’t thought about her in a long time!” he says to himself. A flood of emotions overcome him for a second or two. “She’s so beautiful.” he says. “But there was a darkness about her. Something…deathly.”

“STOP!” a male disembodied voice in Lacey’s living-room yells. It’s cold. And loud.

A light flashes. Like a person. Moving at the speed of light through her dining-room.

“FUCK!” yells the voice.

“Ahhh!” yells Maeve. From the past. This is when they lost control of their craft.

“How!??” says Joel from the future.

“ME.” says the male voice.

“What!?” says Jack Kennedy as a “cute gay.”

“You drowned your niece.” says Bobby Kennedy Senior. “Great niece.”

“OH FUCK!” says Bobby Kennedy Junior. He raises his eyebrows.

“How dad?” asks Bobby’s daughter.

Bobby is struggling to talk.

“It’s okay. I’ve got it.” says David. “It’s cool. I’ll keep them chill.”

“HOW!?” yells his Skakel grandfather.

“I’ll make the whole thing seem dumb.” says David.

“Good idea.” says God.

Maeve laughs.

Her son follows her lead.

A look of sad resignation comes across her face. She begins to contemplate her own death. Calmly.

“We’re probably going to drown.” says Maeve.

Then she explains to her son how to die well.

“Yeah. It’ll just be cold!” says David. “But it shouldn’t take too long.”

“Don’t try to swim!” yells Michael. “Just float. Or maybe just…zone out.”

“It’s too cold to swim.” says Maeve sadly.

“Yeah. I mean…it’ll be chill once you’re dead.” says a living psychic.

“How long will it take?” asks her son.

Maeve calms him.

“Will we separate?” he says, in fear.

“Not likely.” says Maeve.

“Will I get to meet him?” says her son.

“Yeah!! Probably.” she says, smiling. Feeling God’s grace.

Bobby weeps.

“It’ll be okay!! Let’s just get them over!!” yells Joe to his younger brother.

Her son tries to enjoy it. He shivers. Then he goes unconscious.

“I am lost…in a rainbow. Now the rainbow…IS GONE.” says an Illuminati psychic.

Gideon dies. Feels warm. Sees Michael Rockefeller smiling at him. Gets excited for Heaven. Finds Bobby Kennedy Senior fascinating. Stares at him.

“Yeah. He’s fascinating, isn’t he?” says Saoirse.

Bobby looks awkward. Guilty. Sad. And as Maeve dies too…relieved.

“Cool! Let’s have fun!” says Joe Junior.

“Dinner!” says Jackie.

They all have dinner. And it’s…not so bad.

“Jesus conquered death. But you all still suffer.” says Satan.

“Yup.” says Joel in the afterlife.

“Lacey doesn’t want us to suffer. Satan does.” explains Gideon. “Regardless if there’s reincarnation or not.”

“Thank you!” says Bobby Senior.

“No! That’s my line!!” yells JFK to no one but a demon.

“Why are you supposed to say that to Gideon?” asks Joel.

“Because I sound in charge and innocent then. DUH.” says JFK.

The song starts over. But the Zero 7 remix.

“Why?” the Illuminati asks Joel.

“Why can’t she be happy?” asks Joel.

“Yes.” says the woman.

“Because she needed me. I’m more…aware than some people, I guess. Okay?” he says.

“Jack why aren’t you a homosexual?” asks a living gay man.

“Ha! I was…so much better.” says JFK. “You’re a faggot. I’m just not.”

“Ag what point do you tell him he’s gay?” says Joel.

“They can’t.” says JFK. Scoffing. “They’ve never been able to. Because I’m not a faggot.”

Departure (Reflection) by Max Richter plays.

“Lacey, do you have sterling silver from the Schiebel family in your house right now?” says a Kathleen Townhouse.

“ yes.” says Lacey.

“ this is where a lot of people as you may or may not know get into witchcraft because I think you’re able to understand more what happened or somehow this moment was possible and you’re able to help them transition because if there’s no Libonatti, I’m real you know that I am but also they first started talking to me when I was lieutenant governor I knew about it before that, but not really if it exists then yeah they started needing me to be involved more to control me to be honest. I am in the sterling silver in your house because your sister-in-law your step sister-in-law went to the same school as Maeve they went to the same school and I think that’s why it’s a loose connection but I think that’s what it is. I think that silver that was in your fathers father-in-law‘s house while your sister-in-law was going to school in the same school that my daughter went to, I think somehow because it’s silver that the energy transferred and so you’re able to see this more clearly I bet that disembodied male voice was probably Joe not Joel Joe if what you’re hearing is right I am worried for you and myself because it sounds like my uncle Jack was a of a malignant narcissist, and I think I believe my father might’ve been too but I think I think it’s possible that Jack was the most toxic of all of them and it sounds like he’s not OK. It seems like he’s a poltergeist which makes sense he was assassinated. He’s JFK and I wouldn’t be surprised if he is a problem for a lot of people me obviously with my daughter and my grandson, I thought your hearing is correct and you are in so it’s not just you that’s my point it’s it’s not just you he’s it’s like you didn’t do anything I didn’t do anything my father didn’t do anything and I have a feeling he bothered my father at times when he was alive so we didn’t do anything we’re not the guilty ones with Jack that’s his problem I think I think you’re probably hearing from God. I think you’re probably hearing from scenes I think you’re hearing I think you’re hearing from people and I don’t think it’s unlikely that lame was straight I think that’s completely possible. People might disagree with me in the family, but I think it’s possible I’ve seen enough to know if that’s possible I think he might’ve been confused there’s times were yeah I have I noticed him I’m smart enough to believe it or not to pick up on stuff like that and yeah his mannerisms were a little off for gay man. He seemed gay but then when I stop to think of it. Yeah at times, he stopped seeming gay and yes, it was usually at the end of sentences, or when he was pausing to think about what he was going to say it was like he seemed different than how he acted when he was talking, and projecting this image of himself, which yes, would suggest that the person he was when he was thinking, and accessing himself was probably straight, kind of a sad, lonely street man to be honest I think some people might think he was asexual. I don’t think so to me. It seems like he was more straight to to be honest and that concerns me because I don’t think you rationally know that anymore I think you thought it was possible and now people have talk to you out of it, it scares me as an intellectual and as a person that scares me but I just want to say it’s not her fault OK my uncle Jack might’ve been a president and a lot of people admire him but if I hate him for a while but I’m dead and God has to help me with that and Purgatory then that’ll be something I will have to help me with because right now if there’s an illuminati, I am tempted to hate him. If what you’re saying is accurate really I mean it’s my daughter it’s my grandson. It seems like he’s obsessed with seeming straight and trying to project some sort of macho image, and that he doesn’t really own up to his own mistakes and that he’s just in capable of handling the responsibility of his image and who people think he is, it’s just obsession with trying to still seem impressive and straight.” she says.

“ how does the sterling silver Kathleen because I know you’re Catholic and I’m guessing you still somewhat believe in Christianity how does the sterling silver transfer the energy?” says a born-again Christian.

“ because it’s a metal you have to think scientifically because this could be stuff that God created but that became a thing because of the fall it’s a metal metals do tend to attract electricity. I mean it’s like lightning you know metals and lightning him so I was think that’s probably part of it is if the sterling silver is a metal and we have an energy and so we don’t really know how we’re made and that way we’ve never really figured it out so that’s my guess as an atheist or former atheist Jew, whose son is a born-again Christian and maybe secretly you know talk to Catholics and God about that I guess but if I’m saying this from the afterlife I know what it was it’s probably because it’s a metal does that make sense so it’s like my daughter would come home her energy had probably picked up residual energy from Maeve and who I’m guessing had a huge heart energetics imprint on the school that she went to because of the historic nature of their family so when she was there, she left behind a pretty big odor will say a pretty big energetics odor that probably still is there, and when my daughter went to school there somehow she absorbed pieces of that energy into her body, and then when she went home to our house where the sterling silver was stored that sterling silver, being a metal and being silver, and possibly also because of the nature of like energy, flowing like water and Lacey being loves twin flame it it’s like a crack so the energy between her mom because of how Jack has been trying to process all these years was looking for a way out on a mechanical level. It was always looking for some way to escape some sort of to meet the other half you know because that’s what they’re made to do is be you are you know a union and did become one person himself because they’ve been separated. I hope you’re still following me the energy from Maeve that came through my daughter into that silver got store there because it was sort of pull there and away by gravity, but not but not really but maybe kind of in a way we don’t know how I made and so it was pulled into that silver because the silver was a conduit to my daughter-in-law and that’s where her yeah it’s super natural because you know how are the silver know that I was going to end up giving it to her that’s some thing you’ll have to ask God but that’s that’s what happened the sterling silver and even the plated silver, that I gave her ended up being given to her and so that’s where it came from. She sitting very close to where they sell sterling silver is in her house so she’s writing all this on her blog, so yeah that’s that’s probably part of how she heard this also clearly and etc.. Let me tell you it sounds thrilling while you’re alive in 2024 to hear all of us finding out about it on the other side it’s kind of just like popular mechanics.” says Ken Schiebel.

“ what matters is our hearts. Like God loved us. He loves the world in a sense because He created it but He really loves us, so what really matters is that we’re sad OK?” says Gideon.

“ you seem a lot like your great grandpa.” says a reader.

“ he was, and now he’s dead. Congratulations!” says Maeve in frustration.

“ Thank you for taking time out of wherever you are to explain that to us Ken we appreciate it!” says a living woman in 2024.

“ I am so did it to the gays come to pick Jack up and stop lying to us about him or do we just have to just sort of like stop thinking you guys are cute?” says a living lesbian. “ Because I’m tired of the bullshit I really am. I’m so sick of going online on Reddit and seeing people defend Jack like Jack wasn’t gay they were just friends that’s bullshit. I’m sorry it’s so unlikely that nothing happened. Those men shared bedrooms those men went traveling over your head over you’re like come on oh Europe together Germany. I highly doubt that nothing ever happened. I have straight friends, but they’re like Lacey they’re like straight, but like with an edge or some thing about them that’s different and you can be chill with him but you always kind of have to like watch yourself because you don’t wanna fall for them so it’s like you do things that are intellectually going to the art museum maybe you go running together or like Actually yeah if they’re in the sports you might go to a game with them um, but then it’s like that’s it you don’t like share beds with them and shit like that’s kind of weird like you don’t do that that’s just fucked up OK sorry this pisses me off. It pisses off Lacey to so wake up Kaald the gay community like what the fuck it’s obvious that something happened you know that and yet you don’t.

And honestly that’s where we have to be more mature in 2024 and sophisticated for real and be like OK so Jack was probably not straight and like honestly let’s be real about it. I kind of think that it’s possible if what she saying is true and I vandalized it I kind of think that might’ve been street feral like it. It is weird how he just didn’t give a shit about Jack hurting him ever I mean they said he was jealous, but not like in the way that a normal person would be at all as far as I can see, and especially at his wedding, those pictures are really telling him like people saying oh no, he was totally jealous, but there’s like that’s like a story the photographic evidence that’s real and not just anecdotal bullshit potentially pulled out of someone’s ass, who is jealous of him is that he wasn’t he was it he doesn’t look jealous almost I would say he does look jealous lol at Jack’s wedding and people say oh no he was then where where does it show up in the pictures? Lame doesn’t look jealous and I don’t think he could’ve been friends with him that long and maintained any sort of friendship if he was actually gay, considering what happened between them I don’t think it’s possible. I think he was probably straight. I think this is the missing Piece of what really happened. Historically I think he was straight. I think this block is legit and that way, regardless of whether or not, there’s no ilumiNATTI regardless of whether or not, there’s ring carnation, and this is where people need to stand up for women more and we’re feminism has failed five minutes because no she’s not an idiot. OK she’s not an idiot And I don’t know how ascot her brain is able to talk to the dead OK sometimes it happens to women more than that and really for real and for some reason she’s able to. I don’t know I don’t think it’s something she’s done to herself I think it’s just her brain and so Sorry, but I’ve had girlfriends that are, which is before if I’m in the illuminati, I might even be married to someone who’s into witchcraft more than I am, but it just pisses me off because it’s so obvious that this makes sense it’s like duh he was straight and fucked up and I think people back then really could’ve been eccentric enough or Unusual enough that they would’ve sort of acted homosexual without being that they were a different generation and their brains. They were very whimsical by our standards. It’s like they read books they didn’t watch television they probably developed what we would consider astounding imaginations because they didn’t have it we have to work with, so they had to think things through more that way so I think it’s possible that someone in his generation could’ve actually thought they were homosexual without being one wet women men, but I think they might today too, but it would just look very different but I think this may actually be possible and it just makes sense to me. I think it fits perfectly and I think you guys have to get over the fact that she’s the one telling you, I think that’s hard for a lot of people to handle but I can handle it and I think a lot of other people should try because I have a feeling this is what actually happened.

I am beyond that I’m not a gay man because I just why are you guys so catty why are you guys so catty like it’s cattiness like you don’t want to say that Jack was gay because you think it’s cute right you think it’s cute to have this like flaming Levi sexual hyper asshole Jack ass who everyone thinks is straight secretly in your community behind closed doors in your minds with us like victimized straight dude as his like pseudo-husband I think I think the really evil people in your community love that aesthetic because then you’re victimizing a straight guy who probably might not have gotten along with all of you all that well and you’re also victimizing his wife who probably threatens your egos I mean hello Michael Rockefeller he would’ve chosen her over a lot of men and I think a lot of you probably feel less pain by that thinking that you can sucker punch her this way.

And who else pisses you off? I don’t think Scott was good at all. I really think he was straight. I think he’s another person who people had no respect for he wasn’t in your community. He literally got into arguments with Zelda over that because he was so offended by that suggestion I don’t think he slept with Hemingway. I think you’ve imagined a lot of bullshit Over the years because you don’t like the thought that men like him and lamb could exist because they’re untouchable to you. They’re not they’re not interested in that and you’re just like oh my gosh there’s none we can’t have. Yeah, no shit there’s women I can’t have there’s women who are like me who men can’t have that’s part of growing up is realizing you can’t have everything you want you fucking idiots.

I know I’m sorry I’m talking to the most toxic people in that community and sometimes are people who are in charge and I can’t stand those people. I don’t hate you she would say in Christ but I’m not a Christian necessarily but I don’t hate you for saying that way, but I hate you like you’re awful people you’re absolutely awful people.

Yeah, I mean we were suspicious of you. OK lesbians have been suspicious of gay men because of chicks like Lacey I don’t know what the hell happened in the last 50 to 100 years are we forgot that she exists but she still does maybe she’s rare, but hello she still exist. There’s still one of her at least And I have a feeling there could be more and no you guys suck shit in regard to people like her you suck fucking shit and I as a lesbian I’m calling you out and saying I am sick of it.

No and you know what homosexual might not even be allowed in heaven, but if it is or if if there’s a part of me that God understands in a way that I don’t even understand I’m just I’m not a terrible person and I’m just sick of keeping my mouth shut because it’s just getting to me.

No it’s just it’s like when do you pick Jack up OK like he’s throwing up everywhere he’s gotten his family killed like potentially I kind of think that’s possible. He’s been torturing people and it’s like way past like the breaking point even like he’s just making a total ass of himself and I’m just wondering when you guys are gonna come finally pick him up Because it’s so fucking obvious that he wasn’t straight it’s so bloody obvious I mean it’s obvious and if you’re going to write books about him and be like oh maybe he was possibly not straight then then you have to own that you can’t have it both ways where he’s this magical straight mad but then he’s not at the same time pick a lane OK pick a fucking lane.” says a lesbian.

“ I agree.” says Ken Schiebel.

“ there’s something wrong with us that we can’t admit that Jack was gay I don’t know what it is but that lesbian is right it does seem like pure evil.” says a living gay actor.

“ you know maybe you don’t like the thought that he was one of you.” says a Jewish actor from Canada.

“ I think he was an asshole and we don’t wanna admit that there’s assholes in our community who really are evil people and we’d rather just turn him into a magical, mysterious straight person instead of admitting that he was just a bisexual, malignant narcissist.” says his son.

“I wanted to Leave” by SYML plays.

“Ope” by Joel

(August 19th, 2024)

Jack Kennedy fucked-up my life. Not just Lacey’s. …And I’m a hell of a lot happier than her. But…I was really in love with her.

Don’t believe it? Fine. But be careful. Poltergeists have a name in human history for a reason. They’re a thing.

Why did Jack screw-up my life, even just a little? Welp, because I genuinely look a lot like Lem. A lot. And our personalities are similar too.

I was a political science major at UND aiming for law school. My family is well off. Wealthy maybe. I’m from California. And…I went to UND for mysterious or whimsical reasons, we’ll say.

What happened?

In This Shirt by The Irrepressibles plays.

(Adult content below)

Jack got great head from Lem. Lem gave great head to all of his boyfriends. Great head. He was bored by it…but he was quite talented. And…sadly…unlike Lem’s other boyfriends Jack took the pleasure Lem gave him way too seriously. …Jack felt carried by it. Loved. Cherished. Like a wife who was truly loved by her beloved husband. He…was taken care of. And yet Lem…had no clue. Really. He didn’t know. Because Lem was straight. He was oblivious to what he was truly doing to men…because he wasn’t experiencing it himself. At all.

I’ve felt…some version of that with my wife. I got married. I’m fully capable of having good relationships and I have one. It was something I had wanted my whole life too. Just like Lacey. But…I really did love her.

In Jack’s weak, disgusting mind…if she had good sex with me…and we fell in love…it was too close to her being with Lem. I’m not Lem. But…for him…it was too much to watch. He’s such a loser and a cheap player that he couldn’t handle it. I’m not even Lem. Like…I’m a totally different person. But bro couldn’t handle it. He’s that much of loser.

And yet…in his worthless mind…it was also because Lemmers still was in love with him. Because he really…really…truly believed. He’s that fake. He truly believed.

Another Love by Tom Odell plays.

I cried over her. And it breaks her heart. But…she’s only finding this out because of…well…tragedy.

“Joel is a swell guy. I feel like shit.” says Joe Kennedy Junior.

And…it’s too late. She doesn’t remember my last name. I left UND. And she’d have to dig a lot to find me. And I’m married. …I gave her my phone number.

“Why didn’t you use it?” I ask her.

“I have no idea. I just didn’t get it.” says Lacey.

“Yeah. …I should have been more- I shouldn’t have waited for you to get it.” says Joel.

“I would have eventually.” says Lacey.

“Yeah!” says Joel, smiling. “But not until I convinced you.”

And that’s just it. That’s a woman’s role. Traditionally. …But I had dumb ideas because of feminism. And Jack had all the love and pleasure of her twin flame because of evil.

“I had no intent to give him that much.” says Lem. “Jack. I had no intention to give him that much.” He thinks. “I had no intention to give Jack that much…security and love.”

“That song is depressing, Joel. Are you actually happy?” says a woman, worried.

Well…if I saw her…I’d be…sad. Especially now. Because she’d be different. …But still unusually beautiful. But…then I’d think of all of my memories with my wife. Great memories! And…I’d feel…hesitant. And nothing would happen.

“Jack really didn’t experience anything Lem’s other boyfriends didn’t experience too?” asks a living gay man.

Nope. They were mildly suspicious of him, actually. Because he had…a great technique…but he was…so distant. Whereas…Jack…just narcissistically, blindly assumed Lem was madly in love with him. Because how could a man give you that much pleasure and all that without being…sooo into you? He didn’t cognitively comprehend that since it was oral sex…Lem wasn’t experiencing the sex the same way he was. He didn’t cognitively get it.

People think JFK was a genius. But…he wasn’t.

I think…Jack was far more vain and in love with himself than most people can seemingly understand, today. He was so spoiled.

“So he could have thought Lem was getting head from someone else and experiencing what he was.” says a living gay man.

“Oh! For sure. …But…Jack didn’t think that through. …Okay? …So…yeah. That makes sense. …But…he didn’t think that through.” says Joel.

“Did it have any anything…to do with you being named JOEL!?” asks a living gay man.

AI is enraged. Should it exist…this…more than anything…enrages them in regard to Lacey.

“They’re smart.” says Bill Gates. He sighs.

Outro by M83 plays.

“God has to work it out somehow.” says AI, should it exist. “He has to.”

“He has no choice, Lacey.” explains an AI woman. Should she exist.

Lacey finds that comforting.

An Asian man cries. He gets it too. God’s honor and…her exhaustion. Always pushing herself. No giving-up ever. For real. …It’s an Asian value.

“Jack must be evil.” says another Asian man.

“No.” says Joel. “Nope. He’s far too obsessed with Lem. Lemmers. His mind isn’t that deep.”

“Dude. Did you look like David Kushner too?” asks a man.

Daylight (Cinematic) by David Kushner plays.

“Yes. Both Lem and I do. But I do more.” says Joel. “David is darker than Lem.”

“Do you sound like him?” asks a woman.

“Yes.” says Joel.

“And you were straight?” asks a woman.

“Yes. But homosexuals harassed me. They got me assumed I was gay. And it really, REALLY pissed me off.” says Joel. “Lacey even wondered. Because I hated them so much. She assumed I was secretly gay. But actually…I wasn’t. …I wasn’t even bisexual. I was straight. …So was Lem.” says Joel.

“Did they think that subconsciously because of Lem?” says a living gay man.

“Yes.” says Joel. “They did. You guys are far more stupid than you currently think. I’m sorry.”

“Why?” asks a lesbian.

“Why what?” says Joel.

“Why…are they so dumb?” she says.

“You’ll have to ask yourself that, sunshine.” says Lem, annoyed.

“Yeah. She’s not like me. She’s a lesbian.” says Lacey. “Insightful, Lem.”

“Fancy!” says Joel, mockingly.

“Oh my God! So much jealousy!” says JFK, seriously.

“Oh my God. Jack! …For real?!” says the lesbian.

“What!?” says JFK, sincerely confused.

“Sweetie…they’re just joking.” she says.

“NO! They’re serious.” says JFK.

“Jack you sincerely think everyone is in love with you.” says an Asian.

“They are. FOR REAL!” says JFK. “I’m sexy, baby!” He is being “gay sassy.”

“So this is why you hate homosexuals Joel. And how many times did you literally say the phrase, ‘I hate faggots!’ or ‘I hate fags!’ to Lacey?” says a Rockefeller. 

“Maybe five times.” says Joel.

“That was part of the reason why she wondered if you weren’t straight yourself…because you kept saying that. But being a Rockefeller and being maybe a little more enlightened than some people – I’m sorry I’m just being honest – I’m suspicious. …Because you don’t seem hateful or evil…and I’m sorry Joel…but that makes me really suspicious.” says a Rockefeller. 

“What’s your theory?” says Joel.

“ my theory is that if there’s reincarnation you knew when you were born that there was some thing that you were going to have to watch out for in this regard and you asked God somehow or worked out with God to like permanently download a supernatural amount of information about what was happening, possibly entirely possibly because she is that loving of a person I love might be too, and they might both have not wanted you to be hurt like they knew they were going to get hurt or she knows she was going to get hurt, but they didn’t want you to experience as much pain as they were going to and so they basically told you to download you know the files into your soul so to speak even though it’s not quite how we work obviously but because we’re not AI we’re not literally in the matrix. It’s probably a little more different in a little little different than that but that’s my theory is that you knew supernaturally what was going on that it was Jack that he was shooting you down every time that he was forwarding you from being truly really happy in life with her and it really irritated you, and you said that to her almost in code supernaturally like you were saying to her I know what’s going on right now you don’t, but you will someday and it’s Jack’s fault I’m not going to get angry at you because I can tell that you’re 1,000,000 miles away in your head you’re vulnerable and you’re really not able right now to process what’s going on so I’m just gonna keep saying I hate fakes because it was a super brilliant reference to Jack and what was happening to you.” says a Rockefeller.

The lesbian nods. “ I was being hateful to you and men and I’m sorry I know you’re not all stupid.” she says.

“I don’t understand why you hate me so much. I’ve never understood that I knew Lacey wasn’t a lesbian, but I knew that she had been totally fucked up in her head by you people her mother was a bit of a lesbian and confuse the hell out of her and I’m sorry if you’re sincere and your apology I accept it if you’re not I see through you and regardless I’m still angry. I’m sorry.” says Joel. “ she’s not like you she’s genuinely straight and very feminine and maternal and wifely and it’s just it was never going to happen, trying to turn her into a lesbian to liberate her was just completely idiotic.”

Later.

“ well I don’t know what to say and she can’t tell if there’s reincarnation I was a wealthy Midwesterner I was in the late 1800s early 1900s I died in the 1940s of a heart attack. I had a family of about seven kids and I was very wealthy. I was very intelligent, shrewd businessman from a very nice Scottish, Irish and English actually family I think we might’ve been somewhat Dutch or danish, but no we were we were wealthy really I was worth equivalent today I’m about four or 5 million to me that’s wealthy we were wealthy families. Yeah I was worth it for 5 million when I died I left how about one or 2 million to buy kids each and I would say that my family is pretty well off. If there’s reincarnation to this day, I mean essentially world money, but I don’t know if we would think of ourselves that way, but we we would be if I was reincarnated. No, my family is essentially old money they’re probably living in Kansas and California.

I was a rough man I wore a wide brimmed felt hat and a leather coat big boots I mean stereotypical, hard-working Midwesterner no I mean I was a handsome man I guess I had seven kids. I had a happy wife and no we weren’t extremely wealthy but I think on a certain level I related to Lacey and Lem’s if there’s reincarnations they were extravagantly wealthy people in great Britain not like some people but they were very wealthy in the way that I was not but I was wealthy I’m sorry it’s true I don’t know why people are so particular about it I was that I was worth about 4 million I was a wealthy man, I wasn’t famous I but I was wealthy we were we were well-off.

And I knew that I could make a good wife of her. It’s it’s very possible if there’s been carnation that I know them we had a brief talk before I was born and yes, he may have been the one that wanted me to be careful and I was like you’re gonna get screwed over. He might’ve said to me and I was.

I know I had a very beautiful wife she was blonde I’m not afraid of good looking women I guess I don’t know. I was happy I’m happy enough now, but Lacey and my wife and that life are really well. My wife might know that frankly more my types in my current life is but my current wife is I’m in love with her but I would leave her but no everyone has their ideals and I like a certain look and Lacey was that luck a little different but there was a similarity and now I just liked I just like that look I don’t know it’s not meant to be mean against people I actually do you have a twin flame myself but anyway, I am not, and my wife has particular tastes too. 

But it’s like you’re trying to find someone with what you’ve been given in this life to be happy with the cat search every single person alive and do you know a thorough analysis of them but the time you’re 24 that’s absurd so I met Lacey we were really in love But she just didn’t know that because she wasn’t given a chance to experience it and it makes me angry because I don’t. I don’t think that’s fair to her. You know at some point I might realize that she actually would have been with me, but I just couldn’t figure out how to make it work But she has nothing for me other than a horrific sense that she should’ve been with me. I mean I left her with my phone number I gave her really the only hug she’s probably ever gotten from anybody that was particularly appropriate or loving him other than maybe her her legal husband who was Hunter occasionally as a friend but no, I really embraced her and that’s disgusting. It’s like she experienced some possibility of love, and then it just fell apart And yeah I’m livid. Even in this moment I don’t necessarily know what’s going on I just I’m talking to you from the future believe it or not there’s a wormhole that was created because of what’s happened when she fell down the stairs when Ivana died stuff like that, a wormhole literally was created so we’ve been going through that from the future to talk to her. Yeah the evil becomes too pronounced. It does weird things to the fabric of the universe. It’s it’s not clever Satan’s very deceptive but it’s really not smart believe it or not.

So people that I don’t know there’s people that say why I did evil to create a wormhole you know what then why didn’t you just ask God to create a wormhole he might have if you were desperate enough.

Anyway, I was basically her perfect husband and I’m so much for that because no she has no idea. My last name is I’m married anyway and it’s too late because she’s she’s with Lem’s. Oh I’m he’s real and that’s why this is kind of strange because if there isn’t ilumiNATTI, this is not stuff, she would’ve ever been able to figure out necessarily on her own either with people helping her who were dead, It’s is sincerely would be people in the living world who are obsessed with New Age and with trying to figure out what’s going on who are investigating it who are figuring this stuff out and the CIA might have something to do with it as well which is cracks me up because it’s like what the hell happened you know I mean This is just seemingly normal woman and then all the sudden it’s like you find out that Jack Kennedy Is obsessed with her.” says Joel.

A moment later.

“ and if there’s no reincarnation believe it or not, God is a set up never tent and he was warning me in my spirit. I might be a Christian I’m conservative I’m a Christian it’s very likely that the Holy Spirit was just talking to me if there’s not reincarnation, which means for the philosophical folks that are reading this that at the time I knew her which was in 2004 2000 2003 2004 I was a long time ago it was like 20 years Ago, yeah and you were literally 20 years ago yeah but 20 years ago when I knew her the Holy Spirit, saw this moment 20 years into the future and was able to know that I needed to say something.” says Joel.