Dumb

Dumb by Nirvana plays.

What is happening?

Good question.

Are you asking it? You should be.

I know? And yet…like Jack…I don’t.

If the CIA is right…Jack is still in denial.

Maybe Purgatory is real.

Maybe…Jack is unable to come to terms with his life.

What happened?

He was a terrible person objectively speaking. And he ruined people’s lives. Possibly killed Marilyn Monroe. But…for some sad reason he always trusted Lem Billings. Always. And now that he’s dead he’s in shock still realizing that Lem killed him. And…now…that Lem was also straight. I’d bet he can handle them separately but not together.

And I Love Her covered by Kurt Cobain plays.

Why? Maybe because if he realizes that Lem killed him because he was straight…he has to deal with a lot of terrible things.

Like…what an awful person he truly is and was. And he can’t manage to give a shit at all about himself anymore. He maybe wants to go to Hell.

“At times!” Lacey hears JFK say.

And he has to deal with his family. In an honest way. And that’s extremely painful.

And his boiling despair is proof that there’s God. Because it’s so intense he could cease to exist if there wasn’t God.

Gimme Shelter by The Rolling Stones plays.

“I needed him!” he hears a male voice (slightly resembling Lem) say.

“Yeah. That’s not Lem.” says Zelda.

“Yeah. I’m gathering that!” says JFK.

He hears and sees demonic hallucinations that do vaguely resemble Lem, possibly. And that’s the fate awaiting lots of people who aren’t going to Hell. If they reject God without fully rejecting God. Possibly. If there’s Purgatory.

The problem is JFK…has to deal with the fact that he sees Lacey as…Lem’s wife. Michael’s wife in a way. But also…bizarrely as both a former sister and mother…and he found her attractive too… It’s actually extremely disturbing to him. …And yet the only one that works really…is step-mother.

“Well or something like that.” says JFK.

Not because she is. She’s Lem’s. But…Lem may have killed him. And yet he has the sense that in a jam as a little boy he could have ran into her arms.

Was it really a facet of his father’s love he was looking for in Lem? Warmth. Safety. To be accepted as a dope. Allowed to cry. Because if Lem could accept him…then maybe in a convoluted way…dad would have to think he was really okay?

Why didn’t Joe love Rose the way he loved Lacey or Janet or Gloria Swanson?

Funny thing is…he stayed with Rose. And even if he’d have left Rose for Lacey or Janet…he wouldn’t have left easily. So what was it?

Janet and Lacey both seemingly are…better than Joe in his mind. They aren’t Irish? And they’re intelligent and possibly capable of rejecting him. Truly. Truly not needing him. And that’s beautiful to him for some reason. Perhaps Joe wants to fall apart. At least slightly. But then come back and save the day. Prove that he’s…really…amazing. And different after all.

But…Rose…wasn’t…down for that.

“No. That was not what she was looking for.” says Joe.

“Why do you always screw me up?!?” asks JFK of his older brother. “I have it clear in my mind and then you mess me up?!?”

“Because I can’t stand it.” says Joe.

“Too bad!” says JFK. “What I like about Lacey is that she’s really primarily attached as we all should be to God. And that’s what works and that might even be secretly, what my father likes believe it or not about her at the very least. And no, she can let go of people. She really can when she has to. Not her children but I’m not sure you’re supposed to let go of your children in a Godly way, and that’s the problem I can sense her maternal love and at times it’s actually very helpful to me and I’m angry at you Joe that you won’t just let me experience that because I might need it.”

“No it’s not crazy he’s right if he’s not lambs twin flame or soulmate and he isn’t I’m sorry then I think he really was interested in them for unfortunately human but not eternal, romantic or sexual reasons. The sad truth is that Lacey could actually be his father’s soulmate if we have many soulmates, and very few people who could actually be with us for eternity, but these are theological things that Christians just don’t bother talking about and probably should some people have discussed them like Swedenborg, perhaps in vain, both theologically and another ways, but There is possibly something to it and the problem is I think most people think about people just know that there’s one person you are for eternity but people don’t know that anymore. Even Peter Craft struggles with that concept as brilliant as he might be theologically on this issue relatively speaking, which is sad and not meant to be an evil cruel commentary on Peter Craft know and I should disclose. I am Joe his father saying this note Lacey is a soulmate of mine, she first became aware of my family became fascinated by them because of me that’s just fact I’m sorry I was the original Kennedy that she was fascinated by not anyone else. She might’ve found Jack fascinating, but I was the one who is she is really genuinely fascinated by it was me sincerely.

So see how that’s that’s how the whole thing with New Age stuff is so tricky because there may be some actual reality to it that Christians don’t understand and then it makes people incredibly in trapped by it if you’re curious in a compassionate, loving way to try to help people Because they see truth that is not discussed correctly in Christian churches. It and it’s very sad because this whole thing started because she was looking for her soulmates. I am one of them F Scott Fitzgerald, but actually one of them as well. She’s a rather unusual person, but not any more than anyone else we just don’t see it we see it with her because of how beautiful she is and how wealthy I was and how intelligent we both are, but you don’t recognize him that in yourself because that’s just not how the fallen world chooses to see people.

Lacey and I both know that that’s objective fact survival. The fittest is part of the fallen world and death it’s not some thing that was part of gods original design so now everyone’s fascinating but maybe not as obviously as I am. How about that?

So no it and I’m one of her soulmates it didn’t work out and no it’s it’s it’s fine I have other people that really might even be better for me than she is but no there was something possible between us. That was the idea of gods original design was that there was something about both of us where we could understand each other, maybe more than most people could understand either of us and probably love and except each other in ways that other people can’t.

So we are capable of falling in love oh, and it’s different possibly than what I had with Rose rose might’ve become a soulmate of mine. I don’t think she’s my twin flame if that’s how God would describe it, but it maybe wasn’t as natural as it is with Lacey, I had to work at it more motivated actually try it believe it or not, I believe in the sanctity of marriage I was actually Catholic. I had all those kids vain reasons for wanting her to work to him that I might’ve actually tried to be a good husband and it wasn’t easy but we did become soulmates both Lacey it’s like I don’t have to try and it’s heartbreaking, how easy it is to fall in love with her and understand why she doesn’t love me and doesn’t matter and yet it doesn’t mean that we’re supposed to be together and that’s been very hard for my sons. Ted not so much. Robert is overwhelmed Joe and I are on speaking terms, hopefully and Jack Prefers to think of her as not a stepmother, but conceptually as a stepmother they try to fathom his own life potentially for now we’ll say.

And the thing is, though it seems as though her ultimate twin flame is actually one yes Kirk, Lloyd Billings, the Lem’s who you associate with my family, but the child the tragic truth may possibly be that you don’t understand what he ever said you don’t understand. we are months you don’t understand who he was and his mannerisms and what they really were, nor do you understand me and my flaws, my children’s flaws and pass which is helpful in the world actually is how I could be her soulmate and yet be so far removed from making sense which is actually devastating to me being dead and holy recognizing that God exists, and that our sin is really that serious.

Lacey knows that she’s not supposed to be channeling me and writing this on the blog but I don’t think she knows what else to do. If there is an illuminati, you people really are a problem and you really won’t leave her alone. My family is very dysfunctional. I am trying to cope with it as best as I can. Boldt dealing with this insane situation situation where I’m in love with her and a no no no, but loves her soulmate or twin flame at and then you’re calling my son, his soulmate and insisting that that’s true, as I am having her say this, I’m so tempted to try to give her a stroke and she was like she’s having one and yeah it’s far more appropriate than giving her I mean suffocating her understanding people just give her a stroke or a heart attack why do you if you can’t do that with me we’re not supposed to kill her.

I I don’t I don’t get it OK she shows you pictures of her body really to try to help you understand you’re talking to a woman who is not normal and could easily really be the daughter of a man who was born in 1894. Or has become that, but that is her father and let’s just let’s just nail this down my parents owned a saloon in Boston her father owned bars and liquor stores as well. If he had anything to do with raising her, he influenced her I may have even known him and the thing is we both had dealings in Hollywood. We both were involved in politics I don’t know what why don’t you I don’t know what you’re looking for. I don’t know what you want me to say, it’s just it’s simple. We have something in common have a lot in common and I found her very very very beautiful. She’s perfect. I mean her body is very beautiful. It does look like the greatest generation, but it also looks like some thing that would’ve been incredibly attractive in the 1920s That’s just a fact chat it slightly did too I guess every generation has different tastes but but then there will be some you know cross over here and there but I just I don’t know what you want it’s very simple it’s very human and it’s unfortunate isn’t it because you have it all mixed up if I was straight and let’s just say that he was he was definitely not Jack soulmate and 80 capacity but he was my son and I was his twin flames soulmate. Michael’s also one of her soulmates probably closer to being a twin flame than I am so Sarah lope, so is Louis actually, P had anything to do with the death of my son and his love had anything to do with the death of my son, my goodness it’s starting to seem, but like life is starting to see messy and complicated and it also possibly very real and believable.

Is Lacey the holy Grail? No absolutely not, but Thomas Banks is her father. He says he’s not the father of the holy grail. I wish you understood these people we’ve been dead for far too long apparently or something but but no, I am no he’s he’s just Thomas Banks he’ll liquor stores. He owns a nightclub or two here in the hotel and other properties as well and he was actually very wealthy And I have that in common with him to owning real estate know it I mean is it address like I don’t want to keep saying I don’t know what you want for me I don’t know what you want from from all of us. Let’s just repeat that one billings is her twin flame. He was in my family. I’m her soulmate, I had a very dysfunctional relationship with my children and you might say well that’s fishy. There’s a lot of twins play some soulmates they’re not really not really you know it’s amazing how God created things such that people really aren’t meant to be alone and be lonely so there’s a lot of like you know, pushing and pulling of our spirits that we don’t see based on his design And it’s not witchcraft it’s just how he made us as people and it’s him. It’s actually very sad to him to see it ever be perverted or fall apart and if I if I’m actually a real ghost if I’m actually Joe and I’m her soulmate it’s awful to me to watch her be alone because she’s not supposed to be this lonely that was a huge flaw. Do you know that was a huge part of the fallen nature of the world that was Extraordinarily tragic and what I did with my kids was awful. I was a terrible father and anyways I’ve said that before and this blog and I mean it I really was an awful father, even if I loved them and so now my kids apparently found my soulmates twin flame and made him a part of the family. Several of them may be a fun fall in love with him. He was so interesting to them. I think unfortunately for you because he’s Lacey’s soulmate if it wasn’t him a sexual, romantic bond that he had with my children and couldn’t, including Jack, he didn’t have one with me either, but that actually would’ve been less bizarre but that wasn’t what happened, but that wasn’t what happened what happened is that he found he found his twin flames, soulmate, son and him I worry that level felt parental towards Jack not just you know thinking that he was a husband but that he actually felt parental no I don’t think that lamb was a pedophile he may not have understood what it meant though to be in love at, and I think he might have thought that being gay when he wasn’t that parental love that he felt for Jack was a was love, not in a pedophilic way believe it or not, but more just Kind of like well Jack is needing love and I’m gay you know and I am my heads all mixed up, so I guess he never got a father, so I guess this I guess this is love him I might not be quite what he is expected, but he must’ve thought it was a super sort of or almost controlling sort of patronizing, condescending, fatherly affection that he had for Jack you know, organizing his day I’m helping him plan things saving his life actually was more parental the Lem’s realized, but I think you know it it is he he must’ve thought this this isn’t my son, but she seems There’s something to this you know and I really need to get out and try to be loving to this man. He loved Jack his whole life you know no Jack was not his stepson, but the truth is I am if I wasn’t the best parent in that way, will say to sort of keep things kosher it’s possible that Jack got confused and thought that the parental bond with a lover made sense You know not being cognizant of the fact that that was bizarre if there was anything incestuous or inappropriate about any part of our route of our family I think that that’s some thing that my my family that’s alive needs to stop lying about him because I have a feeling it’s possible that Jack really did try to sleep with his siblings Using surrogates like people that could even been a fascination with him. He could’ve felt some bizarre familial bond with him. Oh yeah, so no we care about Joe we care about Joe we care about Jack we can we hopefully hopefully though you care about Lem’s and Lacey as well, and you know it’s it’s actually going to be extraordinary, dangerous and tragic. If you make a film about them being in love with my son because you’re going to have to lie to make the film because there’s no proof that any of the scenes you’ll invent ever happened and this blog if there’s an illuminati is an astounding amount of proof that that at at that actually is a misunderstanding that historians should really be crafting right now, instead of promulgating in people magazine, you know you’re not supposed to read her blog and then be rebellious like a bunch of buffoons and write some bullshit and try to double down on your ass hole and I feel better about the fact that she’s not in love with some TV journalist who thinks he’s me reincarnated And that’s sad that your people don’t get that it’s pathetic actually but no, she’s not in love with Chris Hayes. She hasn’t been in love with him for probably a decade. At this point she has been in love with me within the last decade for certain poor thing, a thrown down the stairs, because of it and almost died, had nothing to do with Chris Hayes, and her feelings for him that don’t exist Get a fucking clue and as I say that OK I feel sorry for you to appoint you don’t know, but I’m telling you and you can choose not to believe that but that’s not my problem. I can’t help if you have a peasant brain and you’re not able to understand that people aren’t what you want them to be because of what you’ve seen on television

The truth is what our Putin really is basically running the world right now and that happened because of this and there really is a pandemic that hasn’t truly gone away. You have two failed first term presidencies if to declining political organizations and then you keep insisting that Linn was gay, even though it’s horribly obvious that he really wasn’t and it’s very likely he wasn’t even bisexual or pansexual, it is bizarre. How happy he was at my sons wedding it is strange how he seems straight even though he acts gay and he is the one that told her that he was straight and faking being gay. She didn’t come up with that on her own you know I don’t know how you people get those things in your head. You were there when he told her or someone was listening if you actually exist, she didn’t make that up. You guys know that but that’s the world you live in you leave live in a world where she invented that and she’s in love with Chris Hayes and the problem is if that world isn’t real and it’s crumbling underneath your feet, almost literally, you’re really actually in far more Parral then you cognitively seem to realize if you exist.

Will edit this later I’m not worried I’m worried about you because it’s it’s it’s dangerous what you’ve done to yourselves at this point is very dangerous because she actually is married to Michael. That is the spiritual authority that she’s under at this point even though she’s lame, soulmate, twin flame, she never married someone who was capable of protecting her the way that Michael lives and God doesn’t like that and that’s the problem you’re not gods and God does exist her writing these posts and what happened last night whatever that was is actually very serious at this point and should’ve been a lot but that’s not my fault that’s not my problem last time but he wasn’t fruitful and multiply that says that was his choice not to have kids not to follow the Bible that way that was his choice. I didn’t make that mistake. I made other mistakes, but I didn’t make that one one.

No, you people almost killed her when she got thrown down the stairs those I’ve had anything to do with it I was part of that, but I wouldn’t have probably throwing her down the stairs. If she hadn’t been talking to you, I mean it’s beyond ridiculous this whole thing is absurd at this point But know it if you don’t you wanna write you want to you are you want to make a movie? Do you want to make a movie about them and Jack you know him I’ll write your movie for you OK the next post will edit those, but the next post is going to be a real quick quick plot and if you do if you deviate from this, it’ll be interesting to see what God decides to do the leasing who quickly write us with our Hollywood, DNA and a F Scott Fitzgerald will help And it will be interesting to see what will happen if it’s you it’s from the next post.