Rita la Caimana by Jose Alberto “El Canario” plays.
I am going to be making this year’s Kennedy Center Honors particularly interesting. Lacey is the oldest Kennedy to be alive this year and has been for a while. I would argue that ah…her marriage to Joe is what counts. I really don’t think that I want that whole building to be even be standing anymore. I did do work there, but I had maggots in my sink at home.
Why did I have maggots in my sink at home because I would leave stacked up dishes in the sink and it was New York City and it was the late 1970s or early 80s and I was very lonely and I was a drug addict and I would leave food in the sink. Because half of the time I didn’t even notice. Sometimes I would throw-up in the sink because when I looked in the toilet I would see snakes and it was just too gruesome. Whereas in the sink I just saw the sink.
Why did I see snakes in my toilet? Probably from my time in the south. I either heard about that and got it stuck in my head or actually saw one once umm and I was probably paranoid from being molested and raped almost my entire life of snakes biting me in my asshole or grabbing my cock with their mouth, but the sink was just the sink…so when I would drink too much or get sick in some other way from drugs, I would just throw-up in the sink and after a while they were maggots in my sink.
So yes I was working at the Kennedy Center but I was also vomiting in my sink and afraid of hallucinatory snakes in my toilet.
For those of you that read the last post yes, Diego Blue was inspired by the Hispanic audience in Purgatory. Some of them reference her in their head slightly like Lucille Ball, and they have to deal with the fact that she calls herself Lacey because to them it’s a little creepy and then they have to worship God because it’s too creepy. Some of them have started say, “No, it’s not Lucy I’m watching. I’m watching Lacey. It’s Lacey not Lucy. It’s this new show.” I know it’s not typical to have a fan base in purgatory it’s not the same thing as a crowd of witnesses. It’s people watching her in a sense for entertainment value. It’s entertainment.
Diego’s got quite a fanbase so speak. He’s one of the more popular characters in her life.
It’s especially creepy considering that it’s Ethel and Lacey. Not Ethel and Lucy. This Sunday.
When Lacey dances like a snake, I do not think about snakes in my toilet. I am entirely focused on her body. For those of you that read that and assumed that I was umm repulsed by it, no I am not repulsed by her body. I was repulsed by the snakes in my toilet in my head and the maggots literally physically in my sink.
Someone showed those maggots to Lacey the other day and they were huge. They actually literally showed her images of them. They showed her images sometimes of me with my physical quirks. Sometimes they let her hear my voice. And it’s never to been flattering to me.
I have been through a lot with Lacey in the last three years. Before then I was possibly involved in her life, but she wasn’t consciously aware of me, but in the last three years she became aware of me. Actually last four years well that was closer to five actually but the last less for five years, she’s become very aware of me. It’s been awful not her, but it’s also been awful dealing with the reality of what people think of us. The other night she was terrified she was going to die and it was a very real threat. Her mother really isn’t being loving or her mother maybe really didn’t love her at all, and I’m aware of that more than she even is. Because I just know. I can see everything that she can’t in the sense that I can look at her mother and view what her mother is experiencing.
*pause*
Hey everyone in that audience who has hatred towards me in the way that I deem hatred has been defined in accordance with God will not be cursed, but they will definitely get my retribution. I make no exceptions for gender or sexual orientation or social class or how well dressed the person is or how beautiful their wife is, or anything of that sort. Anyone in that audience who has hatred towards me, will regret it, and that whole event will be a disaster. I don’t care what it looks like, I’m destroying the place. I’m flushing it down the toilet and this is a warning.
The Kennedy Center is my vomit. And I wasn’t just some gay man who liked art. Jack liked art in a different way than I did. I liked art but it’s not in the same way.
If Bobby wins, I would expect that place to have violence if he ever makes a mistake as president. And the way things are going, he could easily win so when he becomes president if Lacey and I and my two children are totally blown-up I’ll play nice. Or you can leave them alone entirely and then we’ll see.
And he can’t do a damn thing about it. It’s my vomit.
If he bothers them God Himself may have to kill Lacey and her children and not in some horrific way, but rather quickly. Or he may decide to kill all of them. I don’t know, but if that happens if He has to kill them or if he has to somehow save their life in some drastic way or that place is toast and I’m saying this just to get it out in the open. I’m not protecting the Kennedy Center anymore just to be nice to say, “There are no hard feelings, Lacey and I just want to move on.”
So if Bobby becomes president and Lacey, and I are a little surprised by that but she saw it as a possibility – you know Bobby you really are talking to one of the most intelligent women politically to have ever existed, who is living who really if she been born earlier, could have been your aunt potentially for a very short time. And yes your grandfather was in love with her. And I am her soulmate. Well, I’m her other-half and we’re together for eternity but that doesn’t mean that she’s not married to Michael. …I’m just trying to explain something to you. If you become president, and that must be very exciting to think that that’s possible, and if anything happens to that building…it’s because I stopped caring. I’m just warning you.
Oye Guajiro Mi Son by Maraca plays.
Just so you know, if there are any mistakes in your presidency, Bobby, you can’t blame me. And when I say me I mean Lacey and me because we’re one and she’s not your uncle. She never was. And she’s not Jack reincarnated just because I am me, Lem and I am one with her. And I am also not homosexual. There’s a sizable majority of people who are in the afterlife, who are extraordinarily annoyed by your inability to grasp that.
Those are the people who vandalized your house. Those are the people who might blow up the Kennedy Center and I’m not going to tell you about my reaction to that. I’m extraordinarily angry but it’s possible that it’s it’s separate from me and the more you do to antagonize me, the worse things are going to become. And if there is an AntiChrist, it’s very possible that it’ll end up being a joke. I don’t mean joke, as in the antichrist himself is a joke in terms of the pain that he may cause or they may cause I mean it more in terms of the thought that people will be so in torment at that point that for some people, he may seem totally inconsequential, and beyond the point or maybe not correct my theology for once correct me for once in a real way.
And I mean it’s exasperating dealing with the thought that you don’t seem to quite get it. I really am angry. I really want to kill everyone in the center of this Sunday and this is not Lacey saying this she’s literally channeling me. I’m Lem Billings and I can’t stand that place. She doesn’t like it either but I’m the one that really hates it. Believe it or not. I hate that place.
I hate the architecture. I hate the memories. I hate what it stands for. I hate it. I can’t stand that place and it isn’t you know because I fell in love with her and she stole me. It’s because I I hated that place while I was alive. I never told anyone I was straight and I didn’t realize it until my last few years, and after everything I’ve gone through with her in Purgatory, no I can’t stand the Kennedy Center. I wish it was. I wish it was a place that had been torn down like you know Penn Station. Penn Station was beautiful. But that’s been torn down to have many other buildings in this country nor is it even this country anymore and yet the Kennedy Center still stands. It’s disgusting.
And if you watch the event, or if you go to the event at the very least try to understand if this is the Illuminati, I have nothing to do with that place. I wash my hands of it as much as I can. I wish you well as much as I can in Christ but I have nothing to do with that. That’s that’s my vomit and I don’t want, I don’t want it anymore. I’m walking away, I’m flushing it down the toilet. I’m not gonna keep protecting my vomit. Do you know if the maggots want to eat it that’s fine but hopefully you people aren’t maggots.
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