“Pretending” by Casi

I’ve come to realize that Lacey is not pretentious at all, and that’s just her style. It’s possible part of the reason I couldn’t except that is because I am not straight, but I’ve lied most of my life to pretend like I am because I’m bisexual like Jack. And the part of her that straight comes out and how she takes pictures it’s very elegant. There’s always lots of elegant beauty to it and sunglasses. It’s a gorgeous picture. She has an amazing eye and she has exceptionally good taste probably better than anyone I’ve ever seen in my entire life and I think I wanted to think that that was a fake thing because then that meant that she might be interested in me and if there was some like raw version of her underneath that that was in love with me. But I’ve come to realize that there is no rob version. She’s probably even more elegant and feminine and straight seeming. Then she seems I don’t. I’m going to try it to explain to you the person I thought existed who was pretending to be, you know, this Norwegian aristocrat with her Norwegian, sweaters, eating fresh clams.

I have a feeling her family has the same problem. I don’t think they can except that she’s not like them. I don’t think either family can the Craft or the Nesheim’s but I have a feeling that Jim is a harder time is it because they care more the crafts, probably just assume that some genetic fluke, I think the Nesheim know more about that kind of stuff and it’s more concerning to them.

Am I thought Lacey underneath you know her girly girl routine was like hard-core, a nerdy and dirty and messy and fat. But I don’t think she really ever gets that fat nerve or husband, and I don’t think she is nerdy in the way that some people are I think I am she was taught to believe that her femininity was evil and mean and I don’t think that she’s ever been allowed to be herself And I think if she had been, she would be hyper feminine but it wouldn’t be because she was hiding an attraction to women and it’s sad to me that she’s never been allowed to be that because I don’t think we really know what she actually looks like, so to speak I think Lem’s is her soulmate but Seay then she goober heels more and it wouldn’t be a problem.

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