“Satanism” by Lacey Banks

Let me explain Satanism.

Succession (Main Theme) by Nicholas Britell plays.

Satanism is about a war with God.

Satanists don’t give-up…until God is destroyed. FOREVER.

Why? Because Satanists are…upset with God. They feel He’s betrayed them. And…they refuse to let it go. They know His power and might. But they’re not scared of Him. Why? Because they met Satan.

How did they meet Satan? They conjured Him. Or what? It’s all joke? The ghosts are a joke? God is a joke? No? Yes? “We’ll see!” they say.

They stand before God and they declare, “WE SHALL SEE!!!”

Some of them are just hurt people. Some of them are good people. But they don’t understand that God is good…and possibly for very sane, rational, sound reasons.

A Satanist wins. Always. And if they go to Hell…they believe it will be evil…on God’s part. Because…they tried. They truly tried to be good. So…if God is some worthless dumbass…then…it’s only fair He should be defeated.

They have many sound historical theories about why…Satan…might be like them. And how God was…accidentally and wrongfully put in charge of the world. They demand a recount, so to speak.

At least…that’s the possibly the original version of Satanism.

Succession (Main Theme) by Nicholas Britell plays.

See…people today aren’t…umm…the same. They are…interesting. It’s unclear…if they’re really Satanists or hucksters.

“Lacey, if you’re reincarnated, if that’s in the Bible, you clearly were in the Illuminati and were an aristocrat and you were tempted to be a Satanist at times. You may have even agreed with them at times but I don’t know that it was out of hatred for God so much as the impression that you had of Him.” says a man.

“That seems far too hopeful to someone like me. You’re right, but that’s not how-

Listen if that’s who I am, that’s not how I think. We were-We were never that hopeful, and I have a hard time being that hopeful now. Like I can’t be, and you know what, if-if-if-if I’m not reincarnated then I’ve turned into those people. I have a very hard time thinking your God even exists. I want Him to! Bur I have a very hard time believing. But it’s-it’s not because I don’t want to. It’s because I feel as if it’s-I feel as if its probably just gonna end-up being another trick.

You know my parents tricked me into thinking that I was loved. I was tricked into thinking I could fall in love with someone without gay men, you know, cutting my fucking head off. I was tricked into thinking that men would value my beauty. I was very tricked. And so I feel a little betrayed by God even now. Yeah…actually, I felt like he needs to apologize to me, and if you want to disagree with that, fuck you. And the ‘fuck you’ isn’t because I umm…I wanna fight you or I want you to tell me that God’s a piece of shit. It’s actually the opposite. But it’s that I’m not interested in hearing you put me down and tell me that I’m a brat or you know that it’s some sort of fucked up idiotic bullshit I’m feeling and thinking…compared to you…and your blessed, sexy, PERFECT JESUS.

I’m not.

Sorry to disappoint you. Your Hell is my Heaven. And your Heaven is where I get molested while you get filthy rich in a way you’re too poor and possibly wretched in your perversely spoiled soul to appreciate.

Kisses and tears and happy thoughts. Right?

I’m sorry that you’re so sheltered…that you have no fucking clue what you’re talking about.” says Lacey.

“To be honest, there’s a reason that some of the kinder people in the Illuminati who are ahh…better bred…tend to be Satanists. There are some New Age people that are interesting as well, but the kindest people unfortunately are either Christians or Satanists.” says Louis Hill Junior.

“I have the creepiest feeling right now that Lem was straight. I don’t like it because I wonder if that’s the gut sense Lacey gets. I don’t know what entity is telling me that but I have a weird feeling Lem was straight and it actually really is very creepy.” says a gay man in the Illuminati.

“That feeling has haunted me my whole life potentially.” says Lacey.

“Why does it matter that much? Like…if you’re reincarnated it might make some sense. Otherwise- Unless gay men are just the worst thing to ever happen to Earth and some gay Christian men can handle that. You and I both know that’s possible. But I don’t know what it would be and I think that’s why you and I are both very creeped out.” says the gay man to Lacey.

“Yes it is. It’s so disturbing. And then gay men tell themselves, ‘Oh no, he was gay. It’s fine!’” says Lacey.

“Do you get any sense about what it would be?” asks Jan Hertel.

“I actually-I’m a little worried it’s tied in with Satanism.” says Lacey.

“In what way?“ asks an Englishman.

Go Easy by Mac DeMarco plays.

“It’s Hell.“ says Lacey. “Truth is…if I’m reincarnated…I don’t think I died and was confused about God. I know He’s good. But…it’s terrifying.” says Lacey.