“Lacey’s Evil” by Lem

Helena Bonham, Carter and Lacey have decided if there’s an illuminati to try to pin down her evil there might not be reincarnation at all, but if there is her last life is the one where she would remember it. Yeah. So they’re going to discuss Lacey‘s actual evil today.

first, I will discuss my evil that you don’t know. I threw Bobby and Jack to the ground. Bobby metaphorically speaking in his psychology, and Jack literally speaking on more than one occasion, and possibly also psychologically. I grew up in a family that was really aristocratic. We were related to the spencers we were worth about $800 million and we had a very ground state. Let me refresh your memory:

That was about what our house looks like if there’s reincarnations, so it was both that ground and that not grand. You have to remember what I’m saying not grand. I’m also comparing myself to Romanoff at this point slightly. And in the Guggenheims. And the Hill family believe it or not, and the Rockefellers.

Oh, so the problem is that I’m competing with those people when it comes does that such things so yes it is it an enormous house but it’s it’s not. It’s not like some peoples houses but it really is quite astounding yeah.

I’d I am I did I did throw them to the ground. I am not a terrible person, but I am in the film Howards, end in mind the last scenes when the man takes the sword and beats the poor man and then the bookcase kills him. I am who that bourgeois prick was imitating. In that film, they seem extravagantly, wealthy, and part of that is because of the brilliance of those actors and their background but part of it too is because they were wealthy the characters in Howards end who live in London in that house are very similar to Lacey‘s family. Lacey sits around and acts as they did. She doesn’t work so to speak but she does around the house but is similar more than they think possibly so she said that the Nesheim is really are those people they weren’t that wealthy but they were wealthy, but they weren’t that wealthy. They were part of the upper class, but they didn’t have a country estate they didn’t have a country estate they didn’t work. They had very nice things. They had a very nice townhouse in London, but they were renting it but it had been in the family for a long time and they had come from Germany. There is a very silly sort of notion that people who are wealthy, are just as wealthy as every other wealthy person possibly end, that’s not the case.

So Lacey is those women they land on their feet they inherit $8 million estates from oil money that just happens to show up they could fall in love with ghosts. If that’s allowed, they could fall in love with poor people if they so choke chose and generally people like Ken Schiebel find them both obnoxious and endearing and lovable at the same time. Ken Schiebel is her father-in-law is he loves that film that’s one of his favorite films and he in large part not entirely but in large part he is that man played by Anthony Hawkins hurt her father-in-law is the character played by Anthony Hopkins, in large part. He’s brash he’s difficult he’s worth seven or 8 million possibly or less but he’s definitely a wealthy man Harvard University of Michigan and he has an ax to grind. He hasn’t asked to grind in society because he’s a little better off than a lot of people there a lot of people in the conversation who think they’re as wealthy as her father-in-law and they’re not unfortunately, he really is a very wealthy man. He’s also very shrewd he’s very cutthroat and he is very cruel at times to people not all Mike Anthony Hopkins character.

Call and the people like that tend to be drawn to people like her more than they realize or is ever been noted because she’s part of the old money established upper class but she’s sort of available because they don’t have country estates there. They’re wealthy they’re suitable, but they’re not going to be, a disdainful of him and his background. Because as long as he is respectful and appropriate, and they feel as though they can sort of party with him so to speak, they can sort of socialize with him him, and sometimes those people can be very cruel as you see in the movie end as they were lazy, and usually when that happens, the women run back to their family and hide, and those people generally end up being shunned from the upper class old money.

I am Lacey not divorcing her legal husband is similar to MOM I marrying him Anthony Hopkins character it’s sort of an agreement where it’s like I guess or not P or evil will try to work together and you know to be honest her legal husband is kind of a nice man in his own way. He’s not nearly as evil as Anthony Hopkins character and so it’s working out OK But um, that’s not what happened in the EM Forrester novel and as possible the F Scott Fitzgerald identified so much even though he’s actually from a nice family himself with the character in the EM Forrester novel, who is Poor and a poet at heart, or just a poet really who died in a field of flowers after making love in a boat that he thought I’m not going to let her just with her on the vine I’m going to find a find out if God would be OK with her being with ghosts We’re going to see what happens and that was a long time ago that was a decade ago over a decade ago so if she’s been allowed to interact with the dead within God’s mercy and grace that was F Scott Fitzgerald’s doing possibly because he just couldn’t stand it he thought this is disgusting She’s such a nice person and she’s so miserable.

That is where she’s not Emma she is more like calendar and things are OK but she has been morbidly lonely on more than one occasion and he knew that and being a romantic it, just it irritated him he could stand it.

That’s not what I want if there’s reincarnation I was a little about that I was I owned that house literally hundred percent no mortgage no debt. My family was worth 800 million and that house was included in that but still we were worth 800 million and she is my wife and so whatever is in the Nesheim family is not some thing I am going to to be worried about. Truth is, I might have even considered marrying one of those people and her family back then if there’s reincarnations if they were good, looking enough and charming enough, I might’ve married her. I know I’m at I would’ve it would’ve been fine to be honest, I might not have died From part of the reason why I died in World War I was because of sort of the burden of her family not just mine so she was a Scottish aristocrat with a title through her uncle Seay and that’s I know maybe there’s not reincarnation but that’s what she’s hearing right now that it was an uncle. It could’ve been a great grandfather or grandfather, but at any rate She felt the burden of being a Scottish aristocrat and and a no Helena might be falling asleep poor thing or she might be busy and that’s fine. I will just do it anyway it was a good idea even if she’s asleep but no, so the thing is, that’s who I was I was kind of a jerk and so peoples estimation so people like the Schiebel‘s and cirrhotic because they imitated my family in the situation too. They lived in Swickley I was in Swickley so they so they they may have imitated me in America the same way that they imitated me in the end, forest or novel.

Yes they’re Jewish but he is anyway it’s the wife Mary may not have Jewish beliefs but she’s not a Jew by birth but that being said that isn’t really relevant because if anything it’s made her legal husband a nicer person.

I wouldn’t assume that all Jews are safe, but it has been a sort of positive thing for a lot of people.

Him but no I I threw them to the ground I threw I threw Bobby and Anne Jack to the graft very briefly, with no regard for their safety because I thought they were trash possibly and I felt as though I had a right to throw them into the gutter That’s my evil and it’s evil that is putting me in the ass because I do love Lacey but no I just thought oh you’re trash and I sort of did it through them off broke their bones or broke their psychology. I just threw them to the ground like meaningless riffraff so that’s a little bit of my evil.

Lacey is evil OK oh she’s gonna have to try to think she actually was a pretty good person but let’s let’s see what she comes up with.

  1. I used to waste things I get the feeling I used to waste food and I used to waste resources at times I think I could be a little wasteful
  2. I was a cult people. I didn’t wanna have to analyze things at times as much as I do now, and I think I might have been a little cold to people at times and just expected them to understand. I didn’t I would’ve never shunned a child. I would’ve never send a child. I might’ve shown to their family and then they might have felt shunned by me but I don’t. I think I was probably heartless I was probably just a little cold, and thinking of some of that service that we had. I might’ve been rather cold towards them at times Call people who are poor frankly, I might’ve been a little less concerned about their feelings and have been sort of unconcerned with seeming snobby. I might’ve just been openly snobby, but you know at the same time I really wasn’t a snob necessarily in the purest sense, I just I think I thought I think I just thought that was the order of society and that it was sort of what people expected and that it wasn’t my problem. I don’t think I was necessarily a terrible person, but I just wonder if I was a little cold at times to be able just kind of distant and cold.
  3. I think I probably drank too much Unroe Cajuns, and actually did experience getting drunk more than I do know I think I really got drunk on a few occasions
  4. I may have been too into riding horses and I did that once while I was pregnant and I think that might’ve been one of the reasons I lost my child did I know that that would make me lose my child no not necessarily, but I think intuitively I did I was sort of psychic gut level. I knew that I shouldn’t even riding that horse that day, but I was too far along. It was probably six months in six or seven months in and I think I thought. 00 ride one last time and I think that’s when I had my miscarriage shortly after that, I am pretty sure that they sort of knocked me out for that one. 00 did I just I feel like I gave that yeah, I started going into labor, and they had to help me deliver as a dead child, but that that was that was awful, but but that was that was it I think that was mostly an accident um, it’s possible that I didn’t listen to my gut enough to protect my child
  5. I am struggling at this point to find anything else

“ what’s a Fair There’s gluttony sloth, possible greed, and possibly some neglect.” says Prince William.

“ yes if there’s reincarnations of those yeah those are actual sins so there you go!” says Lacey.

“So you just blocked Patience wolf because psychics have told you that she occasionally reads your blog. What is it that you did that she was doing that seems so weird to you?” asks a Real Housewife.

“She lives in a trailer and she lost all of her fucking teeth. I don’t think she remembers that anymore.” says Lacey.

“What do you mean?” she says.

“ are you aware of a trailer park not being a real house sweetie or are you fucking retarded? What do you mean? What do I mean do you do you really want to have this conversation or are you just some dip shit narcissist looking for a real quick buck for your ego?” says Lacey.

“ oh no I’m not although I might have to start talking to myself what what is she doing? That’s so weird?” says the CIA.

“ oh I enjoy talking with those people this morning. They’re very charming people. I had a wonderful conversation with Katherine Heigl and some other actress and I realize that they’re just sexpots from the 1920s but in the 2000 tens and 20s I guess so there today is sexpots I’m not really like those people and they actually are very sophisticated and they come from probably pretty decent backgrounds but they’re not like my family they’re not you know landed aristocracy, but they are sort of posh upper class people. It was nice talking with them because they’re very charming.

I think what patience wolf was doing that freaked me out was that she started flashing her single Louis Vuitton handbag and her expensive refrigerator and her jeep in a way that was class signaling that she’s part of the upper middle class. She’s class signaling to people at the moment that she is a spoiled rich housewife and that’s not what she is. She lives in a trailer park and she doesn’t have her own teeth. I mean it I just thought no this is too insane I care about this woman, but it’s too fucking obnoxious. Because one minute she’s trying to get everyone sympathy because she can’t eat her fucking food because she’s too white trash to have her own damn teeth. It’s like I can’t afford implants so I’ve got to use dentures but shit I can’t eat nothing

And then, the next minute, she’s lady luxury. With her jeep which is a very old money car, I drive an old buddy jeep I have a Louis Vuitton, which is also old buddy I have an old money jeep I have an old money Louboutin and I have an expensive refrigerator. And it’s like sweetie you still live in a trailer park and you don’t have your own teeth if you had an upper middle class house and you had an upper middle class lifestyle to match your expensive extensions and a husband who didn’t look like he works on a construction site and barely eats anything Maybe I could take your upper middle class lifestyle seriously and I have to start evaluating you as an upper middle-class person. But Patience that’s not your background the best your family has been is upper middle class. you’re not old money patience you’re not even in the upper class you found your family has never been that wealthy or is that prestigious ever! You’re not that person I am you are not deal with it you stupid fucking bitch!

You are shut off I mean you’re fucking horrible. It’s great that you’re so proud of yourself. You’ve obviously worked very hard.

There’s nothing wrong with enjoying your blessings and maybe showing off a little bit but you’re going way off the deep end and it’s starting to creep me the fuck out. Because you’re getting hurtful towards people you know it’s like you’re not really in the upper middle class there’s a lot of people who show off what you show off who are in the upper middle class and they’re not as hurtful because people think well that’s just who they are you know Sally McPherson has a $4 million house and modeling career with HomeGoods. It’s it’s like her whole house looks like you know Barbie mansion from town and country. It’s it’s obnoxious to me But does someone such as yourself maybe it’s inspirational maybe it’s some thing you aspire to be but patience it’s not what you are you live in a trailer you live in a fucking trailer and you don’t even have your own fucking teeth.

You’re doing very well and there’s nope I mean again there’s no problem with showing off to a certain extent but I think it’s just like who are you? Who are you hurting? Does people have probably that you don’t even know probably thousands of people have identified with you have emphasized with you who are really struggling at and maybe they don’t have their teeth maybe they’re starving tonight literally maybe you know your life looks like a dream to them and I don’t quite understand why you in good conscience wanna rub in their faces your blessings because you’re not really impressing people who have better things than you. They might think I’m nice she’s looking good she’s doing really well but they know you live in a trailer. That’s your whole thing trailer park And they know you don’t have your own teeth so it’s kind of like well you know it’s maybe a time just sort of scale back a little bit and not a no rent a bounce house and show everyone how much food you have in your refrigerator after that and then show your Louis Vuitton after that and then show us your deck after that and your new deck or Ornaments after that that stuff ads up and some people can’t afford it they really can’t patience people who also live in trailer parks and wear dentures. Can’t afford what you have and saying I was in an aspirational you could be like me, but if they’re in their 50s, what if they’re in their 50s and they can’t And their kids are fighting. Do not starve working three jobs living in an apartment somewhere you know those people exist and are struggling and you’re doing really well right now and that’s great but I just I found it scary for reasons that are personal related to this blog I found it scary so I thought I think I need to distance myself from this person but also I was also wish her well And so yeah I mean she’s getting hundreds of thousands of followers if there’s no illuminati I feel like they’re kind of trying to work through way into your mind and heart and soul.” says Lacey.

“Probably.” says Jonah.

“ so just be careful it’s like don’t forget where you came from sort of thing that’s not supposed to be offensive if that offends you for me to say, don’t forget where you came from then you have a problem.” says Lacey. “ because it supposed to be a good thing you’re supposed to be humble and proud and happy based on where you came from. If you’ve accomplished something did, you’ve made your life more luxurious or happier in some way. So people can’t really do much to help themselves as far as happiness, and their lives are just doomed kind of like child hostages, and then some people who have opportunities to choose to take them like dating that the man who is healthy, who falls in love with them you know I haven’t had those options not really a and so I am not that happy and it’s not my fault at all. But I am part of the upper class old money and maybe some people aren’t and they would love to be because they’re vain bitches and no I’m not talking to patients.

Patience comes from upper class family in this house. I’m almost positive and yes patience you’re very pretty. Thank you for showing us. Yes dear you’re gorgeous you’re not as good looking as me or women in my family. They’re a lot of women sweetie that are a lot better looking than you.

That being said oh you are pretty you are doing very well. My only suggestion is just try not to hurt people you know and maybe it doesn’t even work anyway because it’s kind of what I try to do and maybe it just doesn’t even work because you sort of like the distance those things from each other where it’s kind of like oh yeah, look at my new refrigerator and then it’s a post about something personal, just sitting in your car not flashing your Louis Vuitton and yeah you’re gonna look pretty but you’re not flashing your Louis Vuitton and then maybe the next post is about some thing more that simple like cleaning some thing or just a thought about some thing or some thing humble in your crockpot you your food is very lower class patients and you eat off plastic plates or paper plates at the ferry lower class that being said if you did that it would be relatable so it’s like oh this is my crockpot with my Lipton soup, chicken recipe and a paper plate the post before that was in my car talking about something personal the post before that was the bounce was the bounce house that was somewhat expensive and then the post after this one of the Lipton soup chicken might be a little bit of a ton or your jeep because that’s less I would think that was less maybe it’s not but I would think that would be less hurtful you might offend people who actually are narcissists who really are annoying, but who do you care more about it? Maybe I don’t see it baby I just understand what she’s doing, but who do you care more about offending, the narcissist“ sort of cowering I mean I don’t know wonder if she’s afraid for her safety but it’s like Seattle no she could be but it’s like are you are you trying to deal with the narcissist or are you really just not caring about poor people who are seriously lower middle class but poor you know so that’s why I blocked her and if I misunderstood something I’m sorry if you read this blog I’m sorry that I blocked you if I shouldn’t have but it just seemed disturbing.” says Lacey.

“ what are the neighbors in the south?” says Patience.

“ no, unfortunately sweetie we’re a little bit better than that but you wouldn’t have thought we were bitches for a living in our own damn house and yeah you would’ve obviously had your own house too.” says a Seay.

“ are we just this way? I feel like we’re really feisty and people think that’s part of being poor but I’m beginning to wonder if the southern people just have an attitude.” says Patience.

“ yes, we do have an attitude patience. I had one too. I don’t know where Lacey picked it up from if she’s illegitimate but it’s not impoverished. It’s not poor it’s not trashy it’s just the way we are.” says Zelda Fitzgerald.

“ do the Northerners realize that or did they think that that’s part of being poor and white and southern?” says Patience.

“They think that’s part of being poor and white and southern, because they have yet to deal with the fact that they destroyed the south in the Civil War. They’re in cognitive dissonance denial mode to this day.” says a Seay.

“Lacey Explains” by Lem

All right, let me try to explain why I was laughing.

There are two things that happen when a child is molested. Every time. No exceptions ever. The first thing that happens is that the child dissociates but association is not necessarily as bad as people think it is basically they leave the situation in someway. It becomes unreal to them, and the reason why it’s not bad in this case is because it isn’t real for them. It’s not real sex. I don’t care what anyone’s told you about anything it’s not real, I’m serious it’s not real sex. It’s not ever real sex with a child that is completely impossible. They may experience some thing that similar to real sex, but it is not real sex. I can try to explain it more to you but frankly, I’m irritated by most peoples stupidity on this issue and I don’t have the patience right now but it really isn’t real. It’s it it’s not that it’s fake. It’s that it isn’t possible, it’s almost medically impossible. It’s basically scientifically and medically impossible. Regardless of what they experience physically or emotionally That makes it seem real to them or anyone else. It is not possible for it to be real. It’s 100% impossible.

The second thing that happens is that the adult hallucinates for the adult it is real because they’re an adult so the adult may experience feelings of love that for them are actually real. Those feelings are based on insane delusions and hallucinations potentially even of some sort, but there they’re experiencing real feelings of sexual desire and love, so for the adult it’s real and they get frustrated by that they become violent because of that for you they become suicidal because of that it’s absolute hell for that. I don’t know why people are so unhinged and inhumane thinking that the best thing to do for a pedophile is to liberate them to make assholes of themselves in front of all of eternity And live in a delusional world where they harm somebody and try to steal their soul potentially I mean that is the dumbest response you could possibly have

To be honest, the best thing to do might be to castrate them or find someway to totally destroy their sexual desire, but I’m not sure if that’s possible so to be honest a lot of those people might be better off dead just like a lot of the children being held hostage might be better off dead, and I’m an adult, and I’m an actual intellectual, not a pseudo-intellectual freak from the middle class who thinks too highly of themselves I’m not some pampered spoiled little bitch from some suburb and white America, who has no fucking clue how dumb they look most of human civilization.

No, being a pedophile is a living hell it would be absolute fucking living hell. I don’t know if it would be better or worse than having severe schizophrenia. I don’t know, but it would be absolute hell, and I sincerely pray for them because what they’re living through is hell and I think maybe some of them try to avoid that bye-bye thinking that they’re fine I’m not sure where they may lose their conscience I don’t know him maybe some of them already have a pre-existing condition of of antisocial personality disorder or something of that sort and it’s possible that they actually might really am that they might actually really be, you know, totally deranged outside of just being a pedophile but I think they’re probably a number of them who are really just miserable people who would rather probably in many cases, be dead themselves.

Could theoretically cause some of them live and just avoid it yeah maybe but I think a good number of them probably really would be better off dead. I mean there’s an afterlife I sleep with ghosts I’m not sure if you remember who you were talking to when I said all that just now, but from my perspective, they really are better off that in many cases I don’t see why that’s heartbreaking to say that there could be millions of people right now who would actually be better off that the world is so dark and evil There a lot of idiots whining right now and bitching and moaning at me for saying the truth I don’t know what the hell it is you want me to say to you?

You know, and it’s like there are people who are yeah we’re in comas right now who might be better off dead there are people who are of suffering from cancer and are never going to get better who might be better off just dying. My aunt Shelly died from breast cancer, and I think about all of the treatment that she went through, throwing up losing her hair And I think could she have just died without getting sick and then it saved all that money and it’s like she still exists and I actually think she’d agree with me there that there is an afterlife and so when you’re living in Christ there’s not really there’s not really a reason Why you would probably need to be alive if your life is that miserable like if you’re being held hostage if you’re living in a shit body or your head is totally fucked up or if you’re homeless and you’re 10 nobody loves you if the Holy Spirit comes to you and tells you to jump off a cliff, you might be better do better off doing that and I’m speaking from personal experience I don’t like the fact that I’m talking to Peter Thiel right now in the illuminati and that he seems like he’s about 30 years old with an IQ about 112 at most and a degree from the University of Minnesota Mankato and that he works at a call center for a credit card company that’s what you seem like right now it’s me. I feel like I’m talking to an idiot on educated heck-“ says Lacey.

Later.

Curb Your Enthusiasm plays.

Peter Thiel almost came on to Lacey. He ended up calming her down. They had a very pleasant conversation and then he said, is this the kind of conversations that you used to have with your husband or are these kind of conversations that you used to have that wasn’t quite what you said, but I am he’s not 100% gay necessarily. And nothing really happened almost at all but him yes Jack was on a little offended by that because I think Jack does find Peter attractive and actually Lacey does too.

Laceyz Lacey is not Lacey is not doing anything with him but but I think it still did kind of irritate Jack just a tiny bit.

Someone laughs.

“ I could see Peter Teal with a woman or a man I like him as a gay person or bisexual to be honest with you Jack I prefer you with a man I’m a living billionaire if it’s allowed in heaven, there’s just something about you when you’re allowing that part of your self out if that’s the way, God created you makes you nicer and more self-aware and less lacking in social Grace. Everyone said you were so witty but I find you arrogant. There’s something about you as a homosexual that just seems more sensitive and it is in an endearing. You just seem like a deeper person.” says a living billionaire.

He breaks down and cries. “I wanted to be liked. I really wanted to be liked.” says JFK.

Later.

“What is the mystery of Kate and Matt all about?” asks Lacey of Lem.

“She’s not real.” says Lem.

“Then why did he marry her?” asks Lacey.

“Lacey where are you?” he says.

Tree Strings by Jonny Greenwood plays.

“I have no idea.” says Lacey.

And at that 30 child hostages die. All happy to be with God.

Alethia by Jonny Greenwood plays.

“You’re with me.” says Lem. “When did that happen?”

“In high school.” says Lacey.

“When I was in high school. I made myself a teenager with Christ. …Yes.” says Lem. “We’ve been together ever since.

You’re not real either to lots of people. You know you exist. But they can’t tell.

She’s…dark. Whether that’s reincarnation or darkness it is darkness. …He chose to marry her. Not you. Not me.” says Lem.

1:14

“Lacey I’m not as stupid as you think.

I know there’s no darkness. After death. Or it’s just…death. But when I said that…I was milking people’s sympathy for my pain.” says Erin.

3:11

“You feel pain?” says Lacey, reaching for her soul.

“I feel…numb.” she says.

“Do you feel happiness?” says Lacey.

“Yes.” she says,

“How?” asks Lacey.

“I’m high. I’m…drunk. …And people love me. And I’m very successful. And I rarely feel guilty.” says Erin.

3:56

The song ends.

“You’re not impressed by that?” asks Satan.

“No not at all. It makes me sad for her.” says Lacey.

Overtones by Jonny Greenwood.

“Why?” asks Lem.

“There’s an enormous amount of beauty and truth in Godly sadness.” says Lacey. “If any of her happiness is real then great. But it seems…very possibly insane.”

“Dear god…Diego came on to you…you reacted…and that’s all there is to it.” says Chris.

2:05

“Yup.” says Lacey.

The song ends.

It starts over.

“When Kate was little she developed a sense of importance from her father. Possibly because of how much he loved her.” says Matt.

Lacey thinks.

“But she’s not that important. That’s absolute bullshit. Nobody is.” says Lacey. “We’re all important. And it’s great to feel loved. I love my children. Very much.” says Lacey. “But…being loved by your parents doesn’t make you entitled to anything and everything you could ever want. Because sometimes people don’t belong to us…and sometimes situations aren’t ours to have…

Peace, safety and love are everyone’s right. But you aren’t all entitled to sleep with me. Only Lem is. For example.

…I understand her confidence and joy and love from her father is good mostly. But…to me she seemed…almost certain of her infallibility. Maybe I just didn’t understand her, Matt.” says Lacey.

“Did we seem like that?” asks one of Lacey’s second cousins.

Lacey thinks. “Slightly. Not as much.”

“I met her. I know what you mean.” says another cousin.

“Does she hold herself accountable at all?” asks Lacey.

“No.” she says.

“Does she hold us responsible?” asks Lacey.

“Yes.” she says. “She thinks it’s the way he was raised.”

“How so?” says Lacey.

“Repression of our emotions.” she says.

A dead actor from The Master stares at Lacey.

Lacey cries.

“He spoke.” he says cryptically.

0:40 from Overtones plays.

“It reminds me of that film with Robin Williams.” says Lacey.

“He abandoned his sons. By accident.” says Lem. “But otherwise…he did speak.”

“I agree!” says Johnny Anderson.

“Lacey what happened?” asks a reader. “YOU KNOW.”

The Split Saber by Jonny Greenwood plays.

“I think he was looking for a wife. And it was very hard to find one. And he became very depressed and hopeless. And I don’t think he was capable for some reason of withstanding a bad marriage. I think he felt too devastated. I’m not sure why entirely but I think it just really affected him. And I think at first they could probably work through their differences and it was fine but then his time went by and he got older and into his 40s. I think he started to question a lot of things about his life and a lot of things about life in general. And I think it just seemed-

See that’s where I get lost because I have it figured out he’s depressed. He’s sad. And I know the illuminati could’ve easily tricked him into killing himself if they exist, and I fully think that they could easily exist. That being said, I don’t entirely think that’s what happened.

You know Vertigo is mysterious, because Vertigo is all about the supernatural and the natural, but everything gets neatly reasoned away when we find out that she really is just a floozy from Kansas City. A floozy, who was having affair with a man who married money, who was trying to kill his wife for her inheritance. Everything gets totally explained. But there’s something about the supernatural in that film before they explain it away that is what happened here. I don’t think it’s that Kate was after his money necessarily at all. I suppose that’s possible as a reason why she married him to some degree but I don’t think that she would’ve killed him just to get his money.

What was in that film before they explained it away? What were they talking about and I’m not even talking about ghost necessarily it’s something to do with San Francisco and that Catholic monastery. What is that? What is that? That’s what I was possibly trying to grapple with by going to that ancient sunken island, but it didn’t work. What is that?” says Lacey.

“I think that’s just the daemonic?” says Jonah.

Later.

“You’re destroying innocence and guilt. With child hostages. But you’re not destroying people. You can’t. Or the truth. You’re just obscuring reality.” says Lacey to the Illuminati.

She thinks.

“I think that’s it in Vertigo.” she says. “The gays killed Matthew. But I don’t think they meant to. How did they do it? The same way Midge killed Madeline.” says Lacey.

“How?” asks Barbara.

“The late 1800’s were real. Even in San Francisco. Right? …And Midge is an intellectual. She’s also intuitive. …She knows something horrific is happening with Johnny and Madeline but she can’t figure out what.

She cares about Johnny. Quite sincerely. And she cares about herself quite sincerely too. She doesn’t necessarily mean any harm to Madeline…but she is very jealous of her. And while she has innocence she’s not perfectly innocent.

Johnny needs to be left alone. And given freedom. But she’s…determined.

I’m not Madeline. Lem’s not Johnny. But there’s a similarity.

Now here’s where it gets weird.

Midge stood in a spiritual gap. Charismatic, charismatic Christians would know what I’m talking about. She’s stood in a sort of spiritual gap. Not in an innocent way, and not entirely in an evil way, but she did not belong there. I think she conjured things. I think she harnessed things. I think she interfered with things that were trying to manifest that were both good and evil but she definitely interfered. It was sort of I think, spiritually as sort of centerpoint in the film in the darkness, and in the shadows.

I think the gay community has done that with a lot. I’m pretty sure he was straight, but I don’t think that they’ve entirely destroyed that possibility and yet they have at the same time the thing is it’s about that but it’s some thing else there’s some thing that they’re harnessing, or standing in the way of or that they’re in that reminds me of that film and I don’t know what they’re doing but it feels like they just keep messing around and I don’t know if it’s that obsession with lamb or if it’s an obsession with gay love, and an in history I don’t know what it is, but there’s some thing that they’re like invested in kind of like midge And it’s really hard to sort of shake them off kind of like it was hard to shake her off and it’s just weird.

What are the end? Reminds me of the shining it reminds me of a haunted hotels. In the wild west. It reminds me of vertigo. Are they in some sort of time wormhole where are they? What are they blocking accidentally? What it what is it that they’re like involving themselves in that they shouldn’t be involved in with him, there’s something weird about it and I am not saying that they’re hundred percent innocent or 100% guilty even I don’t know what they’re doing but it reminds me of Mitch kind of and we’re not perfectly similar to those characters but there’s just something about it reminds me of that film.

End I am Madeline maybe the real Madeline who Johnny actually could’ve been in love with the one who she was pretending to be how about that I am the real Madeline and the film she’s completely dead, but nobody knows that I’m alive, but what if I’m slightly dead in someway that no one knows.

He was in love with Madeline. I think he was in love with me with Kim Novak‘s character, but I also think that in a way he was in love with Madeline. What even would have to wonder if she was actually possessing Kim Novak‘s character unbeknownst to Kim Novak, and he actually was in love with the real Madeline who was dead could’ve happened like was that were the vertigo was coming from it’s like cause she was outside of time or something and so maybe he actually was in love with a ghost Who was possessed in the woman who had killed her to get back at that woman

So that would be me.

That’s very much my personality to some degree.

But who then is Kim Novak‘s character? Is it Karen I think her name might be Karen if that’s what her name is it’s very creepy. I wonder if that’s Matt. Stay with me. It seems dumb now, but I don’t know. I don’t think Matt and there’s nothing between lemon Matt romantically, but I wonder if Matt’s or people like Matt have deceived both of us in someway so and they might not even I don’t know Karen I think if that was her name obviously meant harm But it almost seems like there was some weird sort of innocence to her where she knew what she was doing was evil, but she also felt like there was something innocent about her in some weird way. I just I wonder if that’s what happened to Matt Susan see that’s for the gays may have accidentally killed him if there’s reincarnation, I wonder if he is responsible for something evil the same way that that Karen was.

Or if he had some evil in his heart, kind of like Karen , some sort of callousness or something. And he didn’t deserve to die necessarily and I’m not sure if Karen did either she actually could’ve been somehow in abusive relationship and got stuck helping him but that wasn’t in the movie but I wonder if in reality that character would’ve been somehow stuck in some thing and so I wonder if by hanging on to Johnny so to speak Which is kind of an eerie thing to say, but I wonder if by hanging onto Johnny in the gay community just like Midge did if they accidentally surges insisted on truth coming out and it’s coming out very brutally.

Is that good? Is that bad it’s complicated don’t kill them on Matthews behalf. I’m not saying that I’m not at all if God told me to say otherwise I would but I am I’m saying don’t do that. I’m not trying to hang them. I’m simply saying, I wonder if some thing accidentally has happened And that’s where if they are jealous and evil in anyway or covetous or some thing they’re gonna have to be accountable Scott not not that I hate them, but Mitch might’ve been covetous as well and jealous and possessive and God convert the situation but I wonder the movie vertigo is in the dark. Everything is in the dark and I wonder if we’re in a very dark time And so like I said it’s sort of like everything is just so on edge and just one little kindling of a fire one little shake you know no it’s just everything is bad so I missed that. I just wonder if they went at eight I do think they’ve gone too far Insisting one was gay over the last few years but but I’m not saying they’re 100% evil. I just think they’ve gone too far but he’s dead now and who is Kate that’s the thing who is Kate is she’s a husband I know now we’re getting really dicey because I feel like the Kim community would admit to maybe being not 100% innocent in regard to me I don’t know how I feel and again please don’t kill them. I’m not saying that because Peter Teal was nice to me I’m just saying, please don’t kill them and let God deal with whatever they’ve done in their heart that was inappropriate or if you want to confront someone in conversation and convict them appropriately, that would be different, but It’s very complicated.

You know like if you were to say to a homosexual oh, did you ever read the David Pitts book lemon jack? Yeah, you know I respect your community in a lot of ways for trying so hard I mean I don’t know if people say this, but I respect your community for trying so hard to stand up for themselves, but I think sometimes you let yourselves off the hook and you get involved with the wrong people like JFK and pedophiles.

Maybe Mitch got involved with the wrong people at times to somehow I’m not sure how but I can see that character doing that.

But no and I’m saying those keys I don’t want to think that she’s the husband that’s really awful but then it’s like what what who are you Kate do you know him what is that? I don’t think she’s ever killed somebody I don’t think she’s even necessarily jealous of anyone, but I can’t figure her out and I hope there’s reincarnations that she’ll be happy with whoever she’s with, but I said I would like to let go of her at this point spiritually and just let her and Matt figure things out but I can’t because she keeps coming back to me whether she reads this blog or not.” says Lacey.

“ so she’s literally spiritually like somehow connected to you now in someway that you can’t get rid of?” says a gay man.

“ yes, no I can’t. I can’t shake her. She just keeps coming back to me over and over and over again.” says Lacey.