“Cal & Martha” by Lem

“After talking with several ghosts and my living husband…I’m starting to realize how fake my neighbors are. They’re…impersonating people who they are really not. And…I think I know why I’m so offended by them.

Okay. I went to Messiah University. In Grantham, Pennsylvania. …The epicenter of conservative, Christian, rich, American subculture in the early 2000’s. And I know the people they’re pretending to be.

They’re old money. From Rochester, Minnesota, we’ll say. …His parents went to…Berkeley in California. And protested Vietnam. They’re older. He’s the youngest of four. Or…second to the youngest. His older sister is a nurse practitioner in Portland. Very liberal. Very posh. …His grandparents however were Republican. …Born-again, conservative Christians. German. And his family was very rich. Had one of those rare farms with an actual mansion on it. …His parents were rebels. But they too…came around…probably in the 1980’s…and became born-again. Settled down. Raised his family. …They took frequent ski trips to Ely. Lutsen. …He’s…genuinely intellectual. A rebel. I have a number of second cousins in Seattle like him.

Except…my cousins are nice. Especially to strangers. …My neighbor…is not. And…that’s where these people could theoretically be liberal (my neighbors are) but rarely are. My cousins are liberal…mostly. …But these people…are…often…Calvinist. Reformed. Very…sure that…poor people…aren’t…as…qualified, we’ll say. …If you’re poor…you’re…suspect. …Very suspect. …So…the type of person he’s pretending to be…while rich…and old money and smart…is…very hateful. In my experience. Cold. Miserly. …Judgmental. VERY judgmental. And…they count every tiny…teeny tiny infringement against them with the utmost seriousness. Everything must be kept NEAT. Tidy. Meticulously righteous.

…Do my neighbors know that this is who they’re pretending to be or not? See they grew up in a part of Minnesota that’s very Republican for wealthy people. Poor people are mostly liberal or uneducated if they’re Republican and poor, but there are a number of very conservative Christian Baptist Calvinist people in that part of Minnesota who are Republican.  And I wonder if they got it in their head that rich people act like this so to speak, but they don’t really know those rich people and understand that’s just a subculture of rich people. It’s not all rich people.  And maybe they don’t know that if you’re from that background, you can tell who everyone is so to speak. You can pick it apart and figure out where people are really from and who they really are.  At least you could in my generation because we did get around and go to bars and spend time with each other in person enough to get a sense of stuff like that. 

I don’t think they know necessarily who they’re pretending to be and how difficult it is to have those people as neighbors. His wife is basically the same person Baptist or Calvinist rich old money very restrictive very very restrictive. And I think maybe they’re somewhat well bread in their background in a railway and so maybe they think that they’re being somewhat authentic but I really don’t think they are because I’ve caught them.

There’s one time when I watch them interacting when they were drunk with their friends when they didn’t think I could see them because I was in my basement and I was walking up the stairs looking through a window and they didn’t see me and they acted more like people who had parents with ranch houses. In Iowa will say. So not like poor but possibly lower middle class. The kind of people who would probably hang out in bars and ride motorcycles and sleep in cheap hotels in their 20s on a road trip and think it was fun. Not at all persnickety probably very laid-back and down to earth and opinionated and rough slightly around the edges just slightly. I don’t know if they’re hiding that from my husband and I who’s alive because they don’t want us to think that they’re poor or from a poor background, but I have a feeling that’s who they really are.

And I don’t mind those people as neighbors you know they don’t play loud music they don’t smoke. They’re fairly respectful. I don’t have a problem with them. But the people they’re pretending to be are extremely difficult people for me to get along with. 

I mean, if there’s reincarnation, it’s actually quite funny but that’s a very complicated topic.

Listen, I don’t know how someone that Presbyterian and Dutch German and judgmental creepy an adamant Democrat in Minnesota, but I think it’s possible. I think they’re I think that they’re impersonating people, though who’s a really don’t know.

The people who are impersonating, are people who I went to school with. Growing up, the wife’s family would have been obsessed with her clothing. She would’ve never been allowed to wear jeans with holes in them or stains or anything that wasn’t incredibly pristine because the mother would’ve been paranoid that people thought they were poor or could think they were poor if she didn’t look impeccable. And she would’ve rebelled against that slightly and be dressing. The way that she does, which is sort of Patagonia chic will call it. But that would be rebellion against her ultra conservative family that is somehow still liberal. But their greatest fear would be being perceived as poor because they wouldn’t want people to think that they were evil or falling behind somehow of lesser than someone else. And so they be paranoid about her everything. Probably not so much her Christianity, but probably still hurt. You know her mannerisms the style of her dress how polite the children are how clean the house is the length of her hair. Is it too long? Is it too short? Is she too styled? Does she wear too much makeup? Is she earthy enough? Is she down to earth enough? I mean, there are people with a lot of money who dress like her but they’re very difficult people to get along with. At least for me. They’re not aristocrats, but they’re definitely wealthy and they’re very difficult to get along with unless if you take them extremely seriously. They tend to be very fervent people and so if you take them seriously and treat them with a lot of respect, you can kind of work with them, but you can can’t relax around them. At least I can’t because if I do, they tend to think that I’m a heathen or is there something really wrong with me.

And that’s where they both are very, very very I wanna say happy judgmental, uptight, and yet laid back at the same time people. Often very well read very healthy. They’re kind of Amish really. And that’s to their credit they’re very hard-working people, but I have. I have been on the receiving end of the judgment of quite a few people like that in my time even recently people have gone out of their way to write me letters, long handwritten letters about how I don’t talk to my parents enough because that’s evil and not Christian People who are Calvinist and may even have something really loving in mind in someway, but in relation to me, they’ve been I would say judgmental I wouldn’t say extremely judgmental, but I would say judgmental. Wealthy people, old money who they’re impersonating but that’s the thing that’s who they’re impersonating.

And that’s that is not something you do when you’re in a nice neighborhood you don’t start pretend pretending to be somebody to such an extraordinary degree who you really are not. And you know I wouldn’t have a problem with those people, but I would never have expected them to have financial problems of the nature that my neighbors may be having. And so I’m starting to think that I really am talking to ghost possibly in a new way because of the last gentleman who I spoke on behalf of who may be a British aristocrat he’s ringing a bell in my head. I I really do think that this is interesting and makes sense. They’re impersonating people who are offensive to me.

See the people who they’re impersonating would never have financial problems where they couldn’t afford anything, and if they had financial problems, you would never know. Because they would be incredibly ashamed of it, and they would be very quiet about it extremely obsessed with keeping it private extremely obsessed with preventing anyone from finding out very very careful about how they presented themselves to everybody especially their neighbors they would be paranoid that we would figure that out And so instead of refusing to let my kids play with their kids, they would probably start being more friendly and possibly have offered us lemonade. Sincerely, they may have gone out of their way to bring me lemonade if I was gardening and then say oh yeah I don’t know what to do this year with my flowers. I might just have to leave things because I just don’t know what to think about you know what’s going on or they have some excuse potentially a lie, but they would probably be very careful to make sure that nobody would figure out that they were having a problem at all and I’ve already said that, but I mean it would be extreme and you wouldn’t figure it out because they would be so unless if you thought like them and you really thought like them, but I wouldn’t because I don’t think like them enough And so I would notice, but I have noticed lately that they might be it was pointed out to me, but I still think that it’s possible and it was in my idea but still I think it’s possible and it’s shocking to me because that’s not who they’re that’s not who they pretend to be and I’ve had to process this tonight that they’re really that extraordinarily different than who they pretend to be.” says Lacey.

“The people who they actually are what would you be thinking if they acted like themselves and you knew they were struggling?” says Jesse Ventura.

“ honestly, it would scare me. Because I would feel more in touch with what the world is experiencing on a more personal level and I would start to worry about the US economy and an entirely different way than I feel now I would start to think that that we were in real serious, financial trouble Because if they acted like themselves, I would realize that they’re shrewd people who are good at their job most likely and I was thinking you know they didn’t just grow up with that money it’s not native to them. They had to figure things out somehow, and I would think if those people are really struggling that much Economy must be really bad and it would start to scare me. I mean, it would really start to scare me.” says Lacey.

“ yeah because he’s in sales.” says Tim Walz.

“ yeah and that’s for him to be struggling is a huge indicator that the economy is really really doing poorly.” says Lacey.

“ what if they weren’t doing poorly Lacey and they were doing about like you and your husband are doing and he was a doctor?” says Casi.

“ then I don’t think they’d probably be as Caddy towards me and I have a feeling that we would be close to them, but that we would probably be less awkward when we saw them and they would be less awkward when they saw us. I have a feeling their kids would’ve probably told my kids that my kids are annoying. They probably would’ve just said that. But the same time they probably would to be honest to have more fun with my kids when they played, and it would be a more natural friendship, but they probably would have at some point told my children that they’re frustrating because my son has a slight amount of autism and he’s not annoying kid, but he can seem annoying if you don’t know And so I think another child might say that just accidentally and then they’d have to work through it but it could happen, especially with kids that were frankly from more privileged background and felt more confident being honest about something like that and it’s not meant to be hurtful necessarily it’s just blunt Because I’ve played with lots of different people so I have a feeling that they would probably be closer, but it would be more awkward at times and then yeah we probably wouldn’t be super close to them, but we probably would get along with them better and it would be a lot less weird.” says Lacey.

“ would you be worried or not?” says a woman.

“ yes I would be but not the way that I would be if I knew who they really were.” says Lacey.

“ so if there is an illuminati, how does this affect stuff?” she says.

“ her lack of awareness is helpful and not helpful. That was a very astute question.” says Lana.

“ I don’t think they know how they’re coming across.” says Tim Walz.

“ when do they start acting like this?” says Lacey.

“ I would say probably when they were teenagers you’re right they probably saw somebody who was impressive somewhere who was the person you’re describing a Republican who was George Bush Republican you know you remember probably rich. Probably their parents bought them out. You know Lexus SUV for fun or something I mean, you knew those people to some degree in a way and so I would say someone like that is who they saw not like anyone well you know actually you might’ve dated somebody like that but but no, not quite like that but no but sort of like what you’re thinking so Rich conservative Republican and not really you know charismatic probably more of a John Piper fan and yeah somebody who who probably has been to his church once or twice just because they were a fan of his or something you know and I have a feeling that that’s probably that’s probably that’s probably who that’s probably who their impersonating does that bother you?” says Tim Walz.

“ yes because I know those people like you said sunlight and I think it’s sad if they’re impersonating them I think it’s sad that they’re not just being themselves and being a little more down to earth all the time I mean, you know they’ve done well so I can see why they wanna see more sophisticated or something, but I think they could seem like that without acting like the people that I’m thinking of.” says Lacey.

“ those people hate me and I know what you mean.” says Tim Walz.

“ yeah yeah and I don’t. It’s just sad because if that’s what they’re doing, you know I really am not people think I am and it actually really bothers me that they can’t just be themselves for the sake of America for the sake of a lot of different things it just bothers me that they can’t just be who they really are.” says Lacey.

“ could they be condescending to you? Let’s just say they have a desire to be condescending. Could they be condescending to you and be those people?” says Tim.

“ yes. It wouldn’t mean the same thing though. The way they’re doing it now it’s very very serious. It’s very grave. If they were to do the condescension as themselves, I would just think we’re confusing to them were annoying to them. I think we’ve scare them somehow or made them feel awkward and I probably should find some way to sort of. Give them more space because I think they’re getting uncomfortable like there’s something about us. That’s just scary to them for some reason.” says Lacey.

“ why would you be scary?” he says.

“ I don’t know. I know that I’ve gone to churches, sometimes with people who frankly are poor with my mother who raised me, and as long as I kept my mouth shut and smiled, they were nice to me, and I never had to worry about them thinking that I was weird or anything, but when I started talking and being myself, I used to get looks from people sometimes where they would seem scared or offended or freaked out by something and I would think it’s weird because around friends from college who are well off or from a different background I don’t seem weird. I seem normal to them especially people who are genuinely old money. I know that I just seem normal to those people but to these people, I guess I seem really scary and offensive for some reason I don’t know why I don’t know what it is, but that was the sense I was got and then they’d start thinking things like I was a lesbian or I was I’m trying to think one time I think they thought I could be a lesbian or one time I thought I was straight but like a partier another time I think they might’ve thought that I was wild and some other way I don’t know, but they tend to think that I was wild. They tend to think that I was rebellious and wild and dangerous or something and so I don’t know I think I think maybe it is interesting isn’t it with my father but I’m not really like that and my mother is supposed to I legitimate, but I’m not really like that so and if I if I am, it’s like what difference does it but it’s scared of them. They were really in a worried. Actually, I kind of think if people have read my blog from that background at times they’ve taken what I’ve said the wrong way and thought that I was a prostitute in the illuminati and not a sort of captive who accidentally found the illuminati for far more complicated reasons I think they’ve assumed that I was secretly a prostitute or something and I’m not but they’d always make an assumption that I’m wild in someway or you know really on the edge and I’m not that kind of person but I can do wild but not like that so no I mean it’s not like I’m trying to be judgmental of prostitutes, but I’m just not really like that.” says Lacey.

“ I think Christmas understood you that way too. I think Aaron did as well and I think that’s part of what’s gone wrong for the last 10 years.” says Germany.

“ they really don’t understand upper class culture do they?” says Jan.

“ no they don’t and I wasn’t offended. I was I came close to being hurt, but then I realized in all these occasions that these people are just off the wall in a sentence. They really don’t understand me actually the movie June bug is slightly like that because that woman is so prim and pristine, even if she’s somewhat, you know loose by their standards and she’s actually a very proper person. She’s just not from that same background as them and they don’t understand that and so they make horrible misunderstood. Huge they have huge misunderstandings about her, and I actually relate to that character and that woman who plays or even as an actress and all her roles because I feel like I feel like she could almost play me almost I feel like that actress comes close to being able to portray me if anyone could I almost think she could Embeth Davidtz pronounce it? I think she could almost portray me on film almost but there’s something about her where she comes close to being able to capture me my personality but then that’s that’s the thing that’s when I’m in my own home I’m the kind of person who wants to have space of my own and I’m not really judgmental I don’t think so. It’s like I understand. I would understand if they were themselves. They’re just for some reason uncomfortable.” says Lacey.

“ did I make an impression on you at all?” says Casi.

“ you did but not in the way that I think you wanted.” says Lacey.

“ so I don’t think they have a clue that they’re impersonating those people.” says a woman.

“ do they realize that they’re being fake?” says Lacey.

“ yes.” she says.

“ well.” says Lacey.

“Le Sigh” by Lem

“Lacey I hated you because…I was jealous of your whole life. You had a desirable husband. And I knew you thought you were prettier than me. And that that’s why you were able to marry him.” says Casi. “You’ve never understood that. …But I thought you had the entire time.”

“Well fuck you. You stupid bitch!” says Lacey.

Silence.

Lem laughs.

“You’re so damn wrong! You arrogant idiot!” says Lacey.

Casi laughs.

“Oh! Somethings funny now? What bullshit have you cooked up this time?” asks Lacey.

“Are we really having this conversation via the Illuminati? In our spirits?” asks Casi.

“SO WHAT IF WE ARE!?!” says Lacey.

Silence.

“Look. …You invented a ton of shit about me in your head. …And then had the audacity and stupidity to believe it. …I’d be shocked. But I’ve seen humans be stupider by now than I ever imagined they’ve stoop to being. So I’m no longer surprised.” says Lacey.

“I just couldn’t figure out why you’d be unhappy unless you were the problem.” says Casi.

“Wow.

Are you BLIND!?!” yells Lacey. “OR BRAINDEAD!?”

“Why didn’t you ever get this angry ten years ago?” says Casi.

“Because I had no idea. I had no fucking clue what was going through your head. …You and the perfume bitch posse…had your own opinions…separated from actual reality…and you assumed they were automatically correct and based on fact. And they were not. …I had no way of reading your minds. I’ve spent a decade trying to understand. Just because it bothered me.” says Lacey. “You all just started copying me and spouting off insults. And I knew it went deep. It meant something. I could feel it. But I never knew why.” says Lacey.

“I just took it personally.” says Casi.

“Are you a paranoid schizophrenic?” asks Lacey.

“Umm.” says Casi. “I do imagine I’m being persecuted. …And yes. I imagined you were in love with me and…that you also hated me. But…I’m not actually a schizophrenic.”

“You’re a narcissist though.” says Lacey.

“Yes.” says Casi. “I can be.”

“How are we involved?” asks Lana Del Rey on behalf of the Illuminati.

Lacey laughs.

“Because my family had and has billions in oil. On our land. And we descended from prestigious silversmiths. And…Lacey’s father is Tom Banks.” says Mark Nesheim (who’s dead).

“But what did Casi do?” asks Lana.

“She assumed Lacey was…Jack Kennedy. Essentially. As a type of person.” says Mark Nesheim.

Lana nods. Smirks.

“That’s really what happened. She read his energy and assumed that was Lacey.” says Ron Craft. “He kept trying to posses her like a demon. And she helplessly manifested him and he was photographed and Casi read that as Lacey being homosexual and…a narcissist. A happy narcissist! Ungrateful and…insecure…and vain. But that’s her projecting and Jack. Not at all Lacey.”

“Does this seem true to you Lacey?” asks Lana.

“That’s the first time anyone has ever truly asked that in this way. In all the years you’ve channeled me.” says Lacey.

“So?” says the CIA.

“I’m baffled.” says Lacey.

“She really is. I wish I was alive to get drunk with her and sit and talk for HOURS.” says Harold Loeb. “She REALLY needs to talk. With someone like me. And she can’t. Not easily.”

Later.

“You really don’t think they’re demons?” asks a man.

“I don’t know. But I highly doubt it.” says Lacey.

“They’re not.” says God. “She’s not a witch nor a medium. I’ve explained. And some witches do contact dead people. It’s in the Bible. It’s not allowed, as in you shouldn’t do it, but it does happen. People get theologically confused on that point and it’s becoming a serious issue.”

“Assuming they’re ghosts…and you’re hearing them correctly…why are you baffled?” asks a man.

“Because that’s just it. …Are they? Am I? Really!?” says Lacey. “The proposition is…almost unthinkable in my world. The idea that it’s real. …I somehow trust in God that is Lem is. …But…I separate him from the rest of it.” says Lacey.

“And Joe was just the guy next door?” asks a priest.

“Yes.” says Lacey.

“Is that real?” he asks.

“Are you being stupid and sadistic or serious?” asks Lacey.

“I’m being sadistic.” he says.

“SHIT!” yells someone in the CIA.

“Okay…Lacey…so what!?” says a man. He rolls his eyes.

“It’s unresolved.” explains Lem.

“Why does it bother you so much that I’m talking about this?” asks Lacey.

He gets violently angry and scowls. Storms off in a rage.

“So…what if he actually did read JFK. Or she. Excuse me.” says Lana.

“Why is he or was he haunting me again?” says Lacey.

“Because…your dad is Tom Banks. And…you dated Jack’s older brother. Joe?” says Lana.

“But why would that make Jack so angry?” asks Lacey.

“Because! Because you ran off with LEM!” says Lana.

“But…he was mistreating Lem anyway.” says Lacey.

“Narcissistic people like Jack don’t care.” says Lana.

Lacey thinks. Rolls her eyes.

“Man!

Why do people really think I could possibly be him? We’re so different!” says Lacey.

“Yeah.

So…I think he made you seem ugly. And people are sick. And they liked that lie. Because…they can’t handle the truth. That you’re unloved. And lonely. And…bullied. And extremely rare. …It’s scary to them. Because it’s too challenging. Or was. To the narrative they took a lot of comfort from.” says Lana.

“You’re nothing like him. But they enjoy the idea that you are.” says Matthew Nesheim.

“That’s sad.” says Lacey.

“Do you think I’m ugly?” asks Casi.

“No.” says Lacey.

“So all that was just nonsense?” asks Casi.

“No. And yes. …Look…it’s a lot harder for better looking women to not get married. Or was. They have to avoid more opportunities, albeit ones they don’t want. …You likely didn’t have as many. …That’s just fact.

And…that’s it. That’s about it. Other than the fact that…money tends to marry money.” says Lacey.

“There’s nothing hateful in that. That’s just observation.” says a perfume expert.

“YUP!!!” says Lacey, exasperated.

“So…why did she point out her social class in comparison to other perfume collectors?” asks the perfume collector.

“ASK HER!!!” yells Lem.

“Why?” he asks Lacey.

“Because I was tired of people competing with me to a toxic degree.” says Lacey.

“And you knew they couldn’t compete. With what you shared? Or you thought they didn’t know?” he says.

“Both. Mostly the second.” says Lacey.

“What difference would that make?” asks Chris Hayes.

“If you respected reality, you wouldn’t be talking in that tone of voice to her!” yells Lem.

“OK so she thought we would still compete with her possibly, but that it would be more logical? asks Nancy.

“Yes…yes. Look I was raised by people who didn’t care about me, but I knew that on a very deep level and so everything that they did made sense. It’s like there was an agreement between us. They were psychopaths or something close to it, and I was stuck and so I was in survival mode and that was just a rational sort of agreement. You guys were defying reality and it was insane. I don’t know how to respond to you and it leaves me flabbergasted and speechless.” says Lacey.

“I think that’s why you can’t get over our narcissism because you keep thinking I can’t coexist with you if you’re obsessed with being better than me and you can’t be.” says Nancy.

“Yes…it’s totally untenable if you’re so violently insistent on being better than me.” says Lacey.

“Yeah…and I was that way towards you we all were.” says Nancy.

“And you aren’t so in any way, so I’m not sure what I’m supposed to do.” says Lacey.

Silence.

“Why is everyone today so obsessed with being superior!? You know it’s psychotic.” says Lacey. “I mean, it really is like a mass mental decay. I think that’s why child abuse and bestiality is on the rise because people are obsessed with superiority and ego. I mean, the idea is someone who can’t love you back and then you instead of dealing with that reality and harsh truth of life that we’re all vulnerable and need love people go into a psychotic state where it’s almost like a few state where they just decide to start fucking trees and dogs and harming children and fucking it you know cars because those are things that will probably not be able to fight back. And will let them live in their delusional, psychotic bubble.

And it’s because you’re too shallow and stupid and uneducated and narcissistic to appreciate genuine adult empathetic rows they can’t appreciate sex from what it really is because to them it’s just like getting high they don’t understand what their experiencing they’re just bubble brains full of bullshit.” says Lacey.

“Did Jack Kennedy have something to do with creating that culture?” asks China.

“ yes he did and yes, Lacey is totally overwhelmed.

Can you imagine being her thinking that you’re a privileged Norwegian American sort of low level aristocrat at best? Maybe unusually beautiful and highly intelligent and kind but not extraordinary in any sort of Hollywood way. And then slowly, realizing over time that you’re really not who you thought you were necessarily. She knew she was different than the people who were raising her and made her contemplate possibly being David’s Robert Kennedy seniors third son illegitimate child. she had some sense in her gut that there was some weird connection that she had to those people and she was reading a book about them in college just for fun and she saw a picture of David and their eyes looked very similar and she thought I’ve never seen somebody with that facial expression other than me those eyes look like my eyes that they looked like they were like he looks like he was experiencing a very similar emotional reaction to the world to the ones that she has. If there’s reincarnation it’s because of them, he adored them and had been very affected by him and so that’s part of it. And the Kennedys are delusional La La Land about that issue because they don’t wanna deal with the fact that she felt comfortable around them because of actual things that are happening not because of some crazy thing in her head. They don’t know what’s going on or if they do it’s something that they’ve heard in therapy that they didn’t want to hear. That’s something that was bad that happened to them was partially their fault.

They blame other people. Habitually.

If there’s not reincarnation, it’s because she has a similar personality to David. He was struggling with post traumatic stress disorder and she has that as well, and they both like history and are very sensitive artistic people. They both love Great Britain. And his grandfather was someone who I intended to be a soulmate for her. And had she been born into time earlier she would have come very close to being his aunt. That’s all fact. There’s also the possibility that she’s Tom’s biological daughter and Tom is Dutch and German, and English and Ethel is genetically similar to him in her ethnic heritage. And so because he took after his mother side it’s very possible that she’s just seeing her Dutch German ancestry in someone who is somewhat similar to her psychologically, and she hadn’t seen that ancestry in that way very often. There are not that many Dutch people in Minnesota. Especially people with her coloring, who think like her. If she traveled to different parts of the United States and met people who were older, she might have found people who looks like her, and it might’ve been very unsettling to her, but that was not something that she experienced, even in Pennsylvania. The Dutch Germans in Pennsylvania are different than the ones that are in her family. They’re actually was more of a genetic similarity between Ethel’s family, and Tom’s.

So she just was seeing a genetic similarity or there’s something supernatural, but there was a similarity, and it was something she hadn’t seen before, and it stood out to her and frankly, if there is reincarnation, he may have even been channeling her when that picture was taken. Yes I’m God saying this because I’m not stupid and I know people wonder about stuff like that and I’m discussing it. I am allowing her to interact with ghosts because I love her and she’s profoundly isolated and being tortured and so for her own sanity to keep her from losing her mind so she can parent her children. I’m allowing her to talk to the dead if you have a problem with that as a Christian, take it up with me!

Don’t assume that I’m not God saying this on her blog be very careful of religious spirits that work with the charismatic church. Be very careful of religious spirits that work within Baptist churches. Be very careful because often times those people have insight, but they’re not God, and they are not without frailty.

There are some people who are Catholic, who would also misunderstand at this point because they’re not grounded in their theology as they should be.

A new age people will take advantage of all of that because they know that these people who she’s talking to are very likely real actual people. The not as deluded about that sort of thing. And I do mean deluded. How can you ignore observational reality completely as a born again charismatic Christian? There are some things that don’t make sense, but you can’t just assume that you know what’s going on and try to fit it into a box safely. So obviously harming children is always wrong. But stealing when you’re incredibly poor and you’re starving to death is a little more complicated, isn’t it? Or if you’re lying to hide somebody in your house and you’re in the Holocaust or you’re freeing someone who’s running away who is a black slave in the south and you’re part of the underground railroad those are examples where possibly unless if you’re a white supremacist, it would work on your conscience to lie. There are times where things are complicated and then there are times when they’re not. This is one of those times when it’s very complicated. She’s half dead first of all second of all she’s extremely isolated and that’s really all you need to know making it something more than that or different than that might be perverted.

She has grace to receive the fact that she’s half dead because she physically experiences that reality at times, especially when she’s in pain or when she’s falling asleep. She used to feel pain a lot more than she does now. She had her wisdom teeth taken out and she was awake for the entire thing and they just used a small amount of Novacaine.  She had surgery on her eye and she was awake and they just used a small amount of Novacaine and she was completely fine.  She gave birth to her second child essentially without any pain medication and she was in excruciating pain, but she made it.  She has the ability to spiritually and mentally sort of deconstruct reality and zone out in a way that’s not really normal, but that is part of her being slightly dead. If there’s no illuminati when they attacked her, that was something that they didn’t realize and that they’re still not able to fully grasp. 

She avoids pain by distancing herself from her body. She feels very cold as she does it. She genuinely feels cold kind of like someone who’s transitioning into the other side as the occult would put it. But she doesn’t die because she’s not really dying fully, but there is an element of actual physical death involved. Her body keeps trying to manifest that I’m not allowing her to have cancer, but she’s had anemia. She’s had a hypothyroidism and there are times where her body has come close to trying to get so sick that it died of an infection but I just haven’t allowed her diet But that that that is manifesting in her body because her body knows that it’s half dead and so it’s trying to find a way to complete the cycle so to speak and it’s not working, but that’s what’s happening with her diseases that are deadly that keep manifesting. So some people get you know diseases that are because of trauma and they don’t. They’re not really full. They’re not really that dead if they are at all, but she actually is somewhat dead and so her body is trying really I’m God I’m telling you this to find some way to complete what’s happening to it so it’s not working because it’s not the right time yet, but her body is already going through a lot of trauma that it just sweetly sort of endurance because she’s actually a very loving gentle hearted person, and so her body keeps trying to sort of take the cue to sort of die, but I’m not allowing it yet.

She’s not Nephilim. She’s not a heretic. She’s not descended from aliens if there’s reincarnation in her case it’s because she’s human and all humans are occasionally reincarnated. I went the situation that some people think is happening and then they use my name to legitimize their conspiracy theories and it’s really disgusting. She’s not Nephilim. She’s not a fallen angel if she Scotia and if Lem was Constantine and they’re famous and you’re not that’s all that it is. They’re better than you in the world’s eyes get over it and grow up!  And don’t molester your child just because you feel sorry for yourself that you’re not God. 

There might not be reincarnation at all. People might just look like people from the past and it’s really truly just a coincidence. Except it’s also not because it involves genetics. So it’s possible that it’s sort of eugenics. And I know either way, but I’m not really going to say that right now. I’m saying it’s possible. So some people might have similar personalities and similar facial structures because that’s just the kind of person that they are. They have similar genetic coding. And it’s nothing, particularly out of the ordinary. So Constantine and Lem might actually be similar men, even though they could be very different people and entirely different people.

You need to figure out whether or not there’s reincarnation in the Bible that I wrote using the Holy Spirit. You need to stop avoiding that.

Grow up intellectually. Get your head out of the gutter. The illuminati, if there is reincarnation could be people who really are reincarnated, but then they’re not fallen angels. They’re just people who are exceptional because they’ve been here before. And not everyone is reincarnated if it’s in the Bible, it’s not something everyone does. That’s Buddhism that’s Hinduism. That’s not Christianity. It has nothing to do with salvation in that sense. It’s something that if it was something I loud I would be allowing because it’s redemptive. There could be some people who frankly need to come back because they’re responsible for something and that would be why I would have Lacey and Lem here because they’re responsible. so there could be someone like Constantine, who has to come back in good conscience because it’s purifying for his soul. He’s really being purified through God through me, but it’s sort of like a learning lesson for him as as a person if there’s reincarnation, it’s like he’s coming back to grow, which sounds new age, but that would be what’s going on that people would be coming back to try to figure something out about life about their responsibility for something about what they did wrong frankly and to try to possibly fix it. But that’s only if it’s in the Bible and you need to figure that out. So if this isn’t in the Bible, then it’s just a misunderstanding. But if it is, you need to be a little, you need to be a lot more careful because if there is reincarnation, I’ve said it before, but I’ll say it again and again Lacey really is Scotia. That’s not herself aggrandizing that’s me God saying that if there’s reincarnation, she is Scotia. And part of the reason why the world is falling apart is in that case because they’re attacking an ancient Egyptian princess. And by they, I mean, the illuminati should they exist. Look ancient Egypt was a very glorious place by human standards. I was not worshiped there intentionally because they didn’t know me. They wanted to and away, but I wasn’t able to explain myself to them without using the juice and that’s between me and them what I chose to do with them when they died. If there’s reincarnation one of the things that I did do was allow them to be reincarnated and hear the gospel like in Lacey‘s case growing up in Scotland and hearing the gospel message as a young little girl receiving Christ and being a Christian in Great Britain, which proved to me that had I been able to explain myself to her in ancient Egypt She would’ve received me if there’s reincarnation, and I already knew that, but that was something that I allowed for redemptive purposes, if there’s reincarnation. And One was the same way. I chose to bring him back if there’s reincarnation because he had a miserable life as Constantine, he never found love he died very unhappy. He was straight and yet he tried to be a Christian if there’s reincarnation, he tried he really fervently did And yet he made a very serious mistakes, but I was trying to help him see things more from my perspective, and so I took away some of his privileges, but then I gave him a far more enjoyable life because they are meant to be together for eternity, and they were married And so it was helpful to him if there’s reincarnation.

They were not supposed to come back as Lem and Lacey that was not supposed to happen. Lemon was straight and he got very confused and because of his intense intelligence, that was very quiet not everyone picked up on it. He was extraordinary in his attempt to be homosexual he was very convincing to a lot of people. Lacey wouldn’t have been convinced and frankly a lot of other people who were like her like Louis Hill Junior, George Bush, Bush Senior and other people in the CIA at that time knew that he was straight. Lacey hesitated to say that because every time she says something like that people get totally freaked out by her because they don’t wanna hear it. But no George Bush Senior knew that Lem Billings was heterosexual. He knew that.

Bobby, there was a conspiracy to kill your father and to kill your uncle. The CIA killed both of them. George Bush Senior did kill your uncle Jack, and he worked with Lem Billings to do so. Lem was straight and very bitter and he hid that from you and everyone else in your family because you scared him. Allowing you to use drugs was intentional because he wanted you to die. He thought there was something psychologically wrong with you.

If he was a father and a man and a gentleman in the 1800s in Great Britain Bobby, you should understand that those men thought that way. They saw someone who was criminally, insane or criminally narcissistic like you should probably be locked up somewhere or possibly killed. They did not have an approach of therapy and freedom. They thought people who were problematic should just die. It was very harsh, but they lived at a time when that made sense. There might not be reincarnation, but if there is that is something for you to try to comprehend and an adult mature way instead of lying about it and acting foolish and obnoxious. If there’s not reincarnation, Lem was very influenced by those people because his father was a doctor who was born in the 1800s, Bobby. 

The thing is there might not be reincarnation. There are fallen angels, but a lot of Christians have gotten carried away and analyzing things like that without really understanding demonology or how in a sense unimportance that is. Why are you focused on that? Why do you need to pay so much attention to the details that you might easily get wrong? If something is bothering you and it’s evil rebuke it in Jesus‘s name. If it scares you and you’re trying to get an idea of what it is focus on what it is that is scaring you. If you’re scared, you might be dealing with a spirit of fear. If you’re feeling attacked, it’s probably something sadistic. But assuming that you know that it’s an alien or a fallen angel, but not a demon is very dangerous as a Christian because you don’t really know. I’ve explained that there are demons in the Bible, but I have not explained everything. And so if it seems like it’s not of me, just assume that it’s evil and that it’s probably a demon and review it in Jesus name you don’t have to know the full detailed explanation for it all because it’s not as powerful as me.

Demons are like a sheet of paper OK and I am the flames of Hell by comparison. And that goes for aliens and Nephilim and anything else that you can come up with. They are nowhere near as powerful as I am. That’s a joke! actually describing them as a piece of paper in the flames of hell is probably a compliment to them that I should not be paying them. They have you fooled because it’s a fallen world, but I know everything. And I can fix everything.

Whether that means I will fix it here in this fall world or when you die it up to me. There are theologians like Dr. Moritz, who are very dangerous nowadays because they don’t like to understand that there’s Heaven. And it’s sadistic and narcissistic and toxic, and some people‘s cases. They don’t want people thinking that there’s something better to look forward to because they want to be able to hurt them as much as possible while they’re stuck alive. They don’t want you thinking that there’s something that you can do if you’re in the Holocaust or if your child who’s being molested to escape because they want that power over people. If you can scare people into thinking that there’s no afterlife and that I don’t exist and that there’s nothing better for them when they die you can scare them into doing a lot while they’re alive. I’m not suggesting that you should lose your mind and just go shoot yourself, but I am trying to say that there are people who have destroyed the truth in that way and it’s very dangerous. There are no black slaves who were waiting to die as Christians, who were disappointed when they died. Swing low sweet chariot was written by people who were stuck in a living Hell. Cleaning that you can redeem the world and that we shouldn’t focus on Heaven because that’s silly is sick. There are some situations that are actually hopeless and irredeemable because the world is that bad.  I could possibly save that person out of the situation, but the situation itself just has to end. There’s nothing good that can come other than it just ending.  So there are some people who are dying right now for prisoners of war who will be very happy when they finally die. And as much as I hate to see their life being lost I’m excited to welcome them home. 

Matthew Lacey‘s cousin knew that as a Christian to some degree and he wanted to just die. But he had children and he should not have killed himself. He had other choices. Her family is very messed up in that way. And all honesty, Lacey would be very sane and rational to kill herself. There are times when Bobby and other people in the illuminati should they exist have tortured her with demons to the point where she has started to pass out from not being able to breathe. They have not been in the same room with her, but they have been doing demonic activity, even if they pretend that they’re Christians to attack her because they’re so narcissistically offended. The spiritual authority that I gave her because she could handle it has not been respected. And if there’s no illuminati and homosexual marriage is about to be ended within the next five years, it’s because of them attacking her over Lem. It is sort of like a cause-and-effect in a physics sort of sense. She really does have that much authority and so attacking her over a man who killed himself because he was straight and has been defiled in the afterlife, even if it’s well-intentioned, it’s still a defilement of him is it too much for the flawed architecture of the homosexual marriage amendment to handle. It is not supported enough by the constitution, and by popular opinion to sustain the blows that have unintentionally been manufactured against it through attacking her.

The homosexual community can blame Bobby and his family if they want to because that is the truth of it they have been unable to understand and accept the fact that lamb was straight. It’s not that he’s rejecting them. It’s that he can’t possibly be to them what they demand he be. He was heterosexual and he can’t pretend otherwise will be defilement of me because that’s not reality. So if you can’t handle the fact that you’re losing your right to in your opinion, you’re right to marry someone who’s an adult who’s consenting of the same gender yes you can hold them responsible if you read this block and you find out that and you feel that that’s something that you in good conscience can do. I would encourage you to do that. Because even if there’s not illuminati the spiritual forces that are attacking her are coming from that family.

A lot of bisexual closeted, boomer men and Jen X-Men who are conservative and Christian have a secret crush on Bobby Kennedy Junior. And they don’t wanna talk about that even with themselves because they would have to admit that they find him attractive, but that it seems safe because he supposedly straight just like them. And they have treated him sort of like a pretty ditzy blonde with big boobs, who says something stupid almost all the time, but then every once in a while will say something very smart that they like. They’re allowing him to be a complete idiot 80% of the time because 20% of the time he’s exactly correct and 100% of the time they find him absolutely charming. And it’s problematic because everyone’s in denial about it and they’re pretending to be straight loving godly Christian men. There are some straight men who like him as well, but I would say a lot of them are probably closeted bisexuals who are republican.

It is entirely possible that Bobby can’t handle the fact that Liam was trying to kill him because then he has to deal with the fact that he was never in love with him and that that is not really something he can rely on. He likes to use people like Mary and Lamb and his first wife and his current one to feel loved. He’s not faithful and he’s very sadistic and abusive, but he likes the security that these people have offered him because it seems unfailing and parental in a way and yet it’s not. In Lem’s case he was more of a cold doctor than a loving parrot, even if he cared about him. In Mary’s case it was as a lover, not a mother or a father and she has moved on. Lacey has shared that with him as well and he can’t handle that either. He wants the privilege of moving on, but he can’t handle that people who he feels he’s rejected are rejecting him.

But enough about that and yet not at the same time because that’s what they think Lacey is doing with social class. Lacey is not like Bobby. She’s not narcissistic and unable to accept that people who he wants, trusted to never ever get over him or hurt him are rejecting him. Because he gets a very sick twisted pleasure out of being in a power position with people who care about him. But in a sick sort of way. That’s not what Lacey’s doing.

Lacey Nancy is a peasant and so is Casi. You are an aristocrat.” says God.

Lacey nods.

“Does that bother you?” says God.

“Yes.” says Lacey.

“Would you rather be poor?” says God.

“No…I don’t want them to be poor, but I’m very grateful that I’m not.” says Lacey.

“So what was I supposed to do Lacey?” says Nancy.

“Be less friendly because I would imagine that you don’t really like me for who I am and that you find me annoying because you wish you had more money where you did and so in a different background and so what I would’ve imagined you doing would just basically being somewhat cold towards me.” says Lacey.

“That would be the normal thing to do given the reality of the situation.” says Jan.

“So you’re you’re very confused if there’s not reincarnation, I do exist.” says a dead British aristocrat. “I may be someone who wishes she had been born as a Roslyn, even though she wasn’t and you don’t understand her.  Really she’s just a very caring person.  And what you keep reading on her is not her hating poor people it’s something else. 

It’s loneliness. It’s isolation. And it is something very creepy. You have to come to terms with the reality of the oil in her family and who she is and who I am and history because if you keep trying to make something about you and your egotistical shallow uneducated needs, you’re going to misunderstand reality and make horrible mistakes,

Yes, if you could find my picture and it was the name that I gave her that would be very helpful to a lot of us.

I I don’t think you get it though you keep thinking that there’s something that’s antagonistic towards you but that it’s her and you read it into her words that’s not quite what’s being said there It’s it’s it’s not that it’s that she’s trying to explain something that’s not being understood And frankly she’s so isolated that it’s very hard for her to figure out how to explain herself without being hurtful.

So how does she explain that she finds people annoying without hurting their feelings basically?

Casi, you drove her crazy. You are very uneducated in the way that you speak and the fact that you use the Oxford, does not make up for that fact. You’re not as intelligent as her you’re not as well red as her and so stop faking it. It’s a joke. That’s what she really wants to say and it’s true. You’re obnoxious to deal with. You’re really painfully obnoxious to talk to because you’re so pushy and loud and you don’t have boundaries. And you’re not a child rather you’re very arrogant adult. but how do you tell somebody that without being offensive you can’t and that’s what the perfume community has never accepted for the last decade. She had no recourse other than to be offensive to people who are very persnickety about their image. And I’m not sure what they expected of her. It’s absurd!

Everybody and their husband were jealous of her, and she was not necessarily sure of how to respond to that. Because she’s not really want to provoke jealousy in that way. The idea was never to get into such a petty contest as that.

Her idea was to enjoy beauty, and if you ended up feeling slighted by her, I don’t think she thought that there was anything she could do about it because there isn’t. You can’t hold a responsible for every flaw in the social economic systems of the world. So what was she supposed to do? Possibly give you money? Never enjoy herself and sit in a closed room and claw her face off? That has made her a nice lovable person Franny? No, I’m sorry you really chose to misunderstand her. 

Her neighbors are very problematic. They grew up poor but then they’ve done quite well for themselves and so they own a $700,000 house and they are living a fairly upper middle class lifestyle. But they’re very heavily in debt and they’re dependent on a salary that is not doing very well at the moment because of the economy. But they’ve chosen to snub Lacey and her children because they get a kick out of feeling better than other people. That sounds so serious and terrible and impossible, doesn’t it but it’s the reality of the situation. They are struggling financially and they’re hiding that from Lacey and her family because they’re very insecure people and they want to maintain a superiority in their minds over them or at least some sort of quality because they’re desperately desperately bent on being perceived as very impressive people. And are not compared to quite a few people actually in her neighborhood and she wouldn’t be included in that actually, but there are other people who are far more impressive than them, but they don’t live in as nice of a house. And they don’t know that about themselves that they’re allowed and very ostentatious with their presentation because to them it just seems logical.

Last night they had friends over who they use as a tool to snub her and her family. Because when those friends are over, Lacey and her family are not allowed to interact with them at all. They tell them to go away, literally very coldly and very rudely like their family of decrepit retards from Hell. At last night, their youngest son wanted a roasted marshmallow from Lacey‘s backyard and Lacey was about to give him one when the father intervened picked him up and carried him away because he didn’t want his son to accept anything from them. Why not because if he did, he would have to admit that he was being a bit weird, and it was just creepy the way that they were treating her and her family. the thing is they wanted to be with Lacey‘s children, but they weren’t supposed to be because if they were then he would have to admit that he’s manipulative and phony and conniving and deeply insecure. I know he’s also a bisexual and despite the fact that he pretends to be proud of it he’s not he’s very, very insecure about his masculinity, especially around her husband because her husband is straight and athletic in a way that he’s not. His wife is also rather Butch compared to Lacey, but that’s not something that she would ever admit to herself.

Casi was Butch matter fact, most of the women who hate Lacey the most are bisexual women who are butch. The maid, who started this whole domino effect of bullshit was a butch bisexual who is very overconfident. They have a problem with Lacey because Lacey is a very competent woman who can fly a fish and hike and ski and garden and do lots of things that lesbians pride themselves and being superior in like hunting. But she’s straight and feminine. And they feel very uncomfortable with that because it makes them question what it is about them that superior after all. If a straight woman can be so feminine, and yet be able to do things that are considered masculine in a feminine way, but still competently but femininely they question why there’s better than straight people. And they feel very insecure about their sexuality as sexual because they’re not lesbians they didn’t have to deal with it in such a black-and-white way and so they were able to avoid it and it became a sort of long drawn out thing for them that they’ve never really gotten over the fact that they can fit in with straight culture But they’re not completely straight. And then I need somebody like Lacey who challenges them and makes them feel incompetent as bisexual and they began to wonder if they’re just freaks if there’s nothing about them that special after all if they’re really just weird mutant freaks. And that is something that she can’t do anything about just like she can’t fix the fact that her neighbors might have some financial problems that they caused for themselves to sound great there’s nothing she can do. She can’t make them feel less secure she’s tried. She can’t make them feel less Awkward around her husband or her or their kids or anybody else and yet they expect her to. they’re very angry at her that she doesn’t just fix everything.

I would love to know why you took all of your rage out on Lacey. Is it just because she’s privileged and she cares because that’s a very stupid reason in a way. Finding the one privileged person in a group of 100 who actually cares about you and then bludgeoning them over the head with a blow torch is probably not a proactive way of self advocating. You’d be better off, whining to her and bothering her with what’s bothering you you know telling her when you garden Lacey as well as you do with so much comfortability. It makes me feel insecure because then I am reminded that I grew up without a garden or I don’t know what it is exactly that her neighbor is thinking in that regard, but they’re very harassed by her gardening abilities . They’re very competitive about that so I’m not sure exactly what it is that they’re reading, but I’m trying to figure that out because really people used to say stuff like that and I don’t know why they don’t think of that. Maybe it’s not in their personality to say stuff like that, but they could maintain dignity And detachment but make their point if they just were more directed with her like why do you have to spend so long in your garden? Ours looks terrible. Still it makes me feel insecure or why do your kids care so much about music? Our kids are not that sophisticated it kind of makes me feel insecure. Those are things that are truly poor person from Casi‘s neck of the woods actually might have said or say indignantly but they don’t say stuff like that as much anymore because I think they think that no one will listen to them and there’s no dignity in it. And so instead, you have people like patients wolf who tried to glamorize living in a trailer because they don’t know how to be fortunate, and yet still honest about the fact that they’re poor to some degree.

That is not Lacey‘s problem. If people have misunderstood that intentionally and created chaos, should there be illuminati you have regretted it and you will regret it whether you know why or not. I misunderstanding her intentionally Bobby, and all of you. You manifested a lot of chaos. She’s not fake!

And the next post I’m going to make her talk about her family and explain who they are one last time before she takes this block down makes it private and edits it. How could I make her do that because with lamb agreeing to go along with it I can. He’s allowing me to tell her what to do with this moment because I’m comforting to her and he needs her to be comforted. In the following post, I will tell you that she will explain to you things that you’ve heard, but I would ask you to be honest with yourself about what you’re reading.

The Kennedys have no knighted authors in their family. They have no knighted actors in their family. They have nobody in their family who has ever received that level of recognition and if they have, it is certainly not because they’ve done anything of any value or note artistically at all. Jack Kennedy had a ghost rider. His books are not literary classics to any community. When was he ever the co-editor and chief of a very important newspaper? He was a US senator because his father bought him that position he clocked in and did work, but being an editor of a newspaper is more like being a US president you have an incredible amount of authority. Or that’s the way it was. You have to make the big decisions there’s nobody watching you and her great grand. Uncle was incredibly successful at it for decades. Jack failed at being president when he was given that much authority he got shot. And at first, the CIA covered that up because they didn’t want to be held responsible by the American people. They also didn’t wanna scare the American people or cause chaos. But I think they have later come to regret it because nobody knows why they did it. There are a few people who are brave enough to admit that he was a horrible president that he helped cause Vietnam that he caused the pigs did not prevent it, but caused it and then prevented it after he caused it and that really none of his legislation was all that profound that he Trump. He was actually a pretty shitty leader in all reality. Excuse my language, but I’m losing my temper.

He was not a good president. It is sad that his grandson thinks he was a hero.

They shot him for a reason pull your head out of the sand you fools!

And so you see there’s nobody in that family and they’re really are very few people and many other families that would like to disparage with Lacey would share with you who have any sort of credential or claim to being relevant intellectually other than piecemeal nonsense. an actor here 100 years later there’s somebody else no her family has been consistently privileged for hundreds of years consistently. In Europe, and in the United States. That’s not common. And that’s not something that you should try to disparage without admitting to yourself first that it’s real. She’s not a narcissist. She’s never going to bludgeon you with it the way that you want her to so you can feel sorry for yourself instead, you have to take ownership of what you know and the reality of what she’s telling you which is really very simple. The family that she was raised in is an aristocratic old money family in America. They’re not like my family was my family was titled in Great Britain. We were extravagantly wealthy and you would know who I was but they’re wealthy and they are a aristocratic. It’s almost exactly like she’s described it.

I am not able to share my name at this moment because it’s not possible but maybe someday I’ll be able to.

I am not Linn billings. I may be talking to her partially because of Mel, a woman who is in love with the father who raised her who is father was a wealthy merchant. He was actually the owner of a shipping company and we have connections to him and his family and so I am able to talk to her Because of a sort of enrolled from Mel’s father. And it’s protective.

I am not a demon. The demons who use charismatics who would want you to think that. There are demons that use Catholics who would want you to think that. I am talking to you, but she is not channeling me. This is not typical. It’s incredibly complicated but it’s a very incredibly complicated situation. I will say that I spent a great deal time in London, but my family had a house outside of London that was considerable. We had a home in London in a very prestigious neighborhood and we had and we had a nice house outside of London that was an estate. I will warn you you should look into reincarnation because you are dealing with the Romanoffs and as possible that one of them is running Russia if there’s reincarnation. He’s not Nephilim. He’s not an alien he’s human and he could just be a simple Russian brilliant man of unusual epic proportions but if if he’s not, and he’s reincarnated, he is Alexa isn’t that something? I knew that family very very very slightly. I met them a few times my family was that privilege that we were in their presence a few times and if there is reincarnation, he’s brilliant and if there’s not, he still is anyway, but I wish people would figure that out.

So no, I can’t tell you who I am but I I I did tell you something there. We had a house in London and we had a house outside of London. Where did I go to school? I went to Oxford. I actually have what would be today the equivalent of a masters degree from Oxford I was a fairly well educated person. I was basically working on my doctorate when I died. I have a fascination with plants trees and that’s a lot of information. I may have even had a sizable collection in my house. So that being said, do you keep in mind that I am a ghost? I’m not a demon and do you keep in mind that death is conquered by Christ it’s not death the way that you think of it. The afterlife is not nearly as Dower and sad as you might imagine it would be without a body with no food no it’s far far better than that.” says the man.