Mercy and Justice

Mercy and Justice were at odds from the perspective of the father who raised me. He had a tendency to interpret everything from that perspective in art. Les Miserables was all about God’s justice versus God’s mercy he thought. And he’s not the only Boomer who sees justice and mercy in that way.

Of course…they’re all wrong. God doesn’t contradict Himself in that way. He’s…above such things. And His mercy never negates His justice. His justice…never undermines His mercy. There is no battle. He’s not internally conflicted. He’s not a mere human, like us. And His character is…beyond profound.

A Sparrow Alighted Upon Our Shoulders by Jóhannsson plays.

Lem seemingly is Lacey’s other half. But she isn’t sure she likes it. Why? Because she’s deeply hurt. By him.

“You shat in my face and then left me here with maggots.” says Lacey to explain. “And you have yet to explain to me why I’m worth it to you at all. I’m not Jack.” She thinks. “And I’m not Rose.” She thinks more. “You didn’t cheat…but it feels like you did. I didn’t lose interest in you. I just felt…left for dead.” Silence. “It feels like you completely abandoned my soul. I feel I’ve been made a fool for having any hope in life itself at all. You ruined life for me. Because of how much I loved you and how deeply I love you. I can’t stop loving you. It’s impossible. You’re you.”

The song plays on.

JD Rockefeller smiles in contempt.

“Lem…why don’t you ever really listen to her?” says the titan.

“She slept with us to test you.” says Michael. “Did you pass the test?”

A Sparrow Alighted Upon Our Shoulders by Jóhannsson plays.

There are many of heterosexual and bisexual men who have been sexually abused and are now being forced into sexual relationships with men. The hateful, gross, disgusting LGBTQ+ community hides them for reasons of power. Just like they safe harbor pedophiles and liberal misogyny. …I wish them well…but I will never trust them. They’re frauds.

They gained our trust in our youth. With beautiful colors and their infectious giddiness about love and beauty. But to me they now seem like vampiric bats out of Hell, feasting on us through our hearts, intellect. Using our souls mercilessly for no truly meaningful reason at all. They do not actually respect love. They use it to hurt people and gain power?

And they’re soo lordly about it. Placing their flag everywhere like evil feral cats demanding worship. Creating new flags to create more exclusivity under the guise of inclusivity.

Jack was gay. Not Lem?

And as I personally fight off Hell…to deal with that…they belittle me.

Why?

Because Jack…isn’t sexy without Lem. Lem fucks wet grown vaginas when he loses his mind. His cock gets hard when he sees hot tits. He’s tall, burly and brilliant. He imitated a gay man extremely well. But seemingly his actual sexuality is heterosexual. People can sense that. It’s…like the inherent pressure at the bottom of the ocean. It’s just how it is. He subconsciously seems straight to us if he was straight, even if we label him gay. You can’t recreate him. You aren’t God.

Jack…is sexy on first glance. But…then he seems…remote.

Remote? Yes.

When I was a teenager I had a crush on him. But I grew out of it. And…now I find his outward appearance attractive but not him. His mannerisms and personality repel me. Why? Because he’s…clearly toxic. I can sense an emotionally almost totally unavailable man…and a gay man? Neither interest me. If I was a gay man I’d think he was a shallow, painfully conceited asshole with possibly no intellectual depth either. …It astounds and terrifies me that Lem took him seriously at all for more than a few months in his sad quest to be an honorable gay man. Poor Jack…was a miserably pathetic man. …Poor soul.

So what is it? Are all gay men losers? Are they using the genuinely confused straight men hidden amongst them to justify their hideousness and deformity? Their shallow meaningless? Are they all merely a creepy extension of the patriarchy? Because why are they trying so desperately to castrate me and humiliate me and other cis women like me?

“You’d be nothing without us! So-called straight men would kill you if it wasn’t for us!” says an enraged gay man to all straight women.

“So men never genuinely prefer for pussy to cock?” asks Michael Rockefeller.

“No! Eww!” says another gay man.

“No I can attest to that being complete bullshit! It’s possible that I actually was bisexual and I really had both and I preferred pussy. But I mean, then what was I? Was I just straight? Mmm…I wasn’t necessarily straight. I think you guys are desperate to make everyone gay and it shows.” says Michael Rockefeller. “But you know there are actual men who really just prefer to be with women. They also exist. They’re called heterosexual and those are actual straight men. Lacey is a heterosexual woman. Lem shockingly to some and not so shockingly to Lacey and others, including myself, may have been a heterosexual man. …And then you have to ask yourself why do you need him? Why do you guys need me or actually why are you afraid of me because it seems like you guys are playing some sort of game that has nothing to do with reality when it comes to peoples actual orientations. …When Kinsey said there was a spectrum as insane as Kinsey may have been he probably was right about that.”

“The issue she is having with all of you is that if I am her soulmate for eternity even today when she was on Tic Tok you insisted that she doesn’t know what she’s talking about when it comes to me. And you keep digging up these gay men who look vaguely straight for a few seconds, but in reality look gay. …It’s funny because they’re never usually ever bisexual. They’re usually just gay men. …And then occasionally you find one who is somewhat like Jack maybe is somewhat bisexual but why are you doing that? And then you doubt that he’s bisexual. …Why are you constantly everyday making these little games for her where she has to sort through people’s orientations? And she doesn’t get wrong! She didn’t get it wrong today again either!

You obviously pick men that look slightly like me. You did that today. Today, we both had very slightly similar hair. His hair was curly. Mine is somewhat curly, except he was dark. I’m not dark, but I looked somewhat dark in some of my pictures. And me and today’s guy had similar mannerisms too. But when she looked at him and analyzed him, he seemed gay to her eyes. …You read me as being gay because you want me to be but that doesn’t mean that I am.” says Lem.

“She wasn’t the only person that noticed that so did Red Fay! So did Gore Vidal! So did a lot of people back then! We noticed that Lem didn’t seem genuinely gay.

That’s not what you have people saying nowadays though in your history books of 2023. No, my comment about him being neutral is interpreted as me saying that he was gay but that’s not what I was saying!

You have all of us knowing beyond a shadow of a doubt that he was gay and we didn’t! You have rewritten history in the last 20 to 30 years about him and then turned that magical thinking into fact about many things in history over the centuries. It’s common. …But when it comes to this we’ve been ignoring it because it has been permissible and we had grace for it but it is no longer permissible to us. You’ve destroyed that.” says Red Fay.

“So it’s possible that he actually had these hidden meanings of discontent about his life and that’s just been totally overshadowed?” asks a Gen. Z woman.

“Yeah people are complicated far more complicated than people today are either capable of being or understand about themselves. …The thing is people used to read more and that helps you in understanding your own and other people’s complication in the hidden nuances of everyone’s mind and personality. …Tic Tok isn’t actually that bad; it’s just that everyone sounds the same. They say the same things, they think the same things, and it actually ends up being very conformist. Reading allows you free space in your brain and in your spirit to process things and think for yourself.

We weren’t as sold on Lem being homosexual as people are today. People in the past thought Lem seemed peculiar and they may have ascribed that to him, ‘Just being homosexual no big deal!’ and then that evolved into him truly being homosexual over the decades. But in reality, it was never that absolute, it was never that black-and-white. We were never that certain. Some people thought he was asexual because they were irritated by him. We couldn’t figure him out and today it evolved to saying, ‘Oh he was just gay! We all knew he was gay.’ …But in reality we didn’t, we didn’t know for sure that he was gay. We couldn’t figure out what he was. He was a very odd man. He actually was very disconcerting.

…Jack clung to Lem like a barnacle, but Lem was not as likable to everyone else. We had the sense that without him Jack just would throw a fit and die or something. …And of course no one wanted to confront that because that that that meant Jack was, you know, not entirely straight!

See…we didn’t wanna label Jack Kennedy as gay! We desperately didn’t want to. Jack didn’t wanna label himself as gay! His family was terrified he was gay.

And people still don’t want to think that he was gay. …But the truth is, he was a manipulative, extraordinarily closeted, queer man. …Jack not Lem. And Lem was a dysfunctional controlled straight man. And Jack had us all thinking that Lem was content and happy and taken care of and that he needed Jack but that Lem was kind of a loser.

You know Lem had kind of a slow pattern of speech. Sometimes he would drink and smoke too much and and he was a big, burly, ursine man. He wasn’t agile and slim and graceful, like Jack. …Well…he actually was, but in a way that straight men are OK, big, tall, straight men. …Jack was secretly very flamboyant at times.

‘That’s my best friend and gosh darn it that laughable big dupe of dope of a man over there, that stupid ass he’s my best friend. Don’t don’t don’t take him away from me. He’s my best friend!’ Jack would say violently to us in private. …It was understood!

Jack used a mentally destroyed straight man who thought he was gay because it was 1952 as his fall guy. He used Lem and his heterosexuality to cover up for his own homosexuality. JFK used Lem and his vulnerability mentally because of his psychological destruction due to trauma, some of which was probably definitely sexual trauma to mask the stench of his own closeted actual real homosexuality. And given the lies that the Kennedy family still tells or believe and need to tell and believe for their own psychological reasons they fall apart if you make Lem straight. They completely are shattered by that possibility even though it’s actually it’s actually a real real possibility. They can’t handle that they can’t handle that the whole thing falls apart. He is their Achilles’ heel. And there are probably other Achilles in their tribe but he Lem is definitely one of them. His heterosexuality is one of them. He probably was straight. He does sleep with Lacey.

These people are very desperate and actually that’s an interesting conversation and it does involve the Federal Reserve. It does involve the Titanic. It does involve the Rockefellers so let’s get back to it. Lacey was saying?” says Red Fay.

“Why are you using Lem and men like him? Why can’t you just admit that you’re not arousing to straight women? You do not fit societal norms of sexiness. Gay men are not actually considered sexy. They have to somehow seem straight to fit in. Whether it’s as a straight cis female. Or whether it’s somehow channeling their bisexuality.

You need bisexual men who are closeted to make you seem intriguing and mysterious and powerful. If you were to take away all the confused heterosexual men and all the bisexual men, you guys don’t seem arousing. Maybe you do to each other but you don’t to other people. And I think what Lacey is saying in jest but also in seriousness, it’s just why can’t you handle that?

You know she likes men so she’s probably over the years developed a sort of innate sense of who is interested in women and who isn’t and I have a feeling she actually is repelled by pure homosexuality in men. Now lest you get tripped up on that that doesn’t mean that she’s aroused by pure homosexuality in women. She only finds men attractive, OK?

And and no precious she’s not aroused by you when you’re wholly gay. She’s not aroused by gay men babe she’s not aroused by gay men they’re not arousing to her and she knows who’s gay and she knows who’s bi and she probably knows who’s straight confused. She knew Lem was straight when she was a teenager. She would’ve known that I was probably wholly capable of being with her, and being completely satisfied and happy for my entire life if I was bisexual. She’s not the one that’s confused pumpkin patch. You are you you are confused and you get off on thinking that women are gullible idiots either because you’re screwed up and you’re actually bisexual and you’re a misogynist or because you’re cruel and you hate women. Or because you felt bullied by mean women who you chose to be friends with over the years. Not all tough, brave, smart straight women are assholes. OK not all strong women are losers who need to be put in their place in some way.

And over the last two years, you have created a fear in her that is very complex about Lem and that’s the reason that I emerged. I may have been in the shadows, and I suppose not a threat to Lem at all. But now Lem has to deal with me because of all of you.” says Michael Rockefeller.

“I can’t let it go OK she’s a peasant she’s an idiot and Lem was gay. That sounds dumb but it’s not. It’s right!” says Mr. Blue, Bobby and dozens of wealthy (mouth breathing) liberals in the US.

“Why do you have to hide behind Michael’s apron strings? Why can’t you just stand up and fight like a man?“ asks a snotty, effeminate but genuinely gay man of Lacey. He’s not at all trying to be funny, unfortunately.

“Because I am a woman and I need to be defended at times. Why is that so offensive to you?!?” asks Lacey.

“Women don’t need to be defended. That’s a myth they’re equal to men.“ says the Millennial snotty gay man. He’s being sincere.

“Speaking from experience of transitioning to a woman, and being on estrogen, I can say that that’s that’s not my experience. We’re not stupid, but yeah, estrogen is a very different. It’s a very different vibe we’ll say than testosterone. …And like don’t men generally have more testosterone or was I just imagining that?” asks a Bid z light model. “Maybe we are a little weaker. The whole separate, but equal thing doesn’t work with black people but is it does it to some degree with women? Lacey and I if I can be so bold is to put myself in her camp aren’t butch. OK we’re not butch. And if I was born cis, I would I’m sure I would even notice more how much weaker I feel now, but that doesn’t make any sense, but it really is different. You are weaker; you feel weaker. Your muscles aren’t as strong. You’re not as strong. And that’s something that a lot of liberal feminists especially lesbians have a hard time handling. Because it it’s like then how do we take men down then? Like toxic men like you. See…you’re not as pretty as me OK?! I’m sorry you can wear all of the you know proper hair care, and do all the stuff to your face but as a man, you’re not as pretty as me, I’m far prettier.

And some would say did this to be pretty. I don’t know…but God knows if I’m an actual woman, no women are just prettier, and I was born into the wrong body. You don’t understand and you’re not one of us. I’m sorry you’re not as pretty as me. And buddy you never will be. So get over it.”

And at that the very pretty gay man comes onto the trans woman because he can’t handle being told that he’s not as pretty as her. He’s serious.

“I’m not a man anymore are you interested in me as a woman or are you pansexual or are you trying to insult me?“ asks the model.

“I’m probably just trying to insult you?” says the quietly seething gay man.

“Yeah! Yeah that’s really really catty. That’s really sad and the truth is it just makes me seem more feminine and viable as a woman.” says the model.

“Well, maybe that was my goal? Yeah, maybe that’s what I was trying to do?” jokes and bullies the cruel, bitter gay man.

“You know I doubt that! I have a feeling it’s more likely that the Illuminati controls you to some degree because you’re involved in witchcraft in some way and so you’re vulnerable. And if you’ve noticed that you’re being bullied more, that’s why because you got yourself in the middle of a hate crime against innocent woman by a man who can’t handle the fact that she wasn’t in love with him for reasons of social class. …You, yes you you open big strong gay man who is pretty, may be capable of hate yourself. …Are you the kind of gay man that would try to kill me because you hate that I’m a woman, I wonder? Why don’t we ever talk about gay men who attack trans women? Because maybe that’s the thing you know why we don’t talk about it for the same reasons that we can’t admit that Lem might’ve been straight because it’s confusing to our feeble little peasant minds.

I am a peasant, and I’m not at the same time and it gives me an interesting perspective.

Peasants nowadays have to have things simplified or they get lost. That’s my take on it that you have to simplify things for the poor or they get lost because I’m both peasant and not peasant. I have an interesting perspective. …I think in the past when people had stable jobs and they read more they could probably handle processing something like, ‘Lem was actually straight. Wow what a complex character.’ Or oh, if I’m a woman, this uber feminine woman who was born in a man’s body, it makes sense to Lacey. I make sense if the whole thing is possible, I make complete sense to her. If I’m real, I am not confusing to her. Because she’s like our peasant ancestors who read books and worked in Flint, Michigan and had a nice house. …They were peasants but not anymore because they become middle-class Americans. And then they grew-up and became famous movie creators like Michael Moore, but Michael Moore didn’t come from old money. He came from the peasant class in Flint, Michigan who read books.” the model says.

“What happened if in the past they would’ve been suspicious of Lem? Why are gay men today terrified of thinking that he might’ve been straight?” asks Michael.

“And the problem is if I was straight I was straight and you can’t change that I was just that messed up.” says Lem.

“Yeah, we can’t handle hearing that Jack wasn’t straight and that Lem was straight because then Lem was just a hot, sensitive old money jock and it makes sense that he would’ve married someone like Lacey with his Harvard degree and settled down…although that never happened. But then what’s Jack? Pete B.? Secretary Booty Juice? Or he was Secretary Booty Juice with a little touch of heterosexuality just to make it more interesting to the pallet so to speak.” says a gay Gen. Z man.

“So Jack was like Michael, except he preferred men. He was bisexual, but he had a preference for men.“ says a dead psychologist. “And he used a psychologically vulnerable and disturbed straight man who had been brutally molested when he was vulnerable after the Great Depression by a priest. Lem lost a lot of money, and became very vulnerable after the Great Depression after the fall of 1929. And seemingly that’s when that priest struck after Lem’s family became destitute. And Jack, as the predator and narcissist that he was so especially when it came to sexuality, he was a predator, you could even describe him possibly as even somewhat of a of a pedophile. Probably also incestuous. He was a predator, so he say Lem not just as an ideal worshiper follower. He saw Lem as a victim who he could use to cover up his own homosexuality. Because people got so distracted with Lem’s gay act, and yet subconsciously, they knew he was straight. That when they then looked at Jack, they thought well then who is this guy and it played with their head and they couldn’t process it it was too much to process. Even back then. And so then they thought is Jack like this guy this guy is straight he’s just confused and then he must be Jack must be straight too and just confused?

His own family liked that narrative that he was just like Lem. He was straight and confused, and they could be straight and confused together Frick and Frack the best of friends. Two straight men, one of whom decided to be gay, one of whom did the right thing, the right, good Irish Catholic thing and married a woman. Lem was the effeminate upper class, defeated by 1929 old money man who stupidly decided to be gay. If Lem was straight, you can’t tell me that that family didn’t laugh at him secretly in their heads, and feel victorious for him being stupid-gay. And then secretly they also thought if he was like us, he would be sleeping with one of the girls because he’s clearly not gay.” says a dead psychologist.

“And I’m sure it’s been devastating to them to realize that they were too hideous for him to fuck.” says a dead actress who resembles Betty White but isn’t Betty White. In fact I think she’s Celeste Holm.

“Especially Kathleen? But I’m sure it’s been hard on at least Eunice as well. If not, also, Rosemary, they all have you got that problem. It’s a very egotistical family!” says her friend.

“The thing is they used Lem to cover up Jack’s homosexuality, because Lem seems like this crazy straight guy who talked in a woman’s voice like the men in Some Like It Hot. And I wonder what that movie was about? Was that a warning to Jack and the Kennedys that Lem was actually straight? Maybe. Because Joe Senior made it very clear that he wanted one of his sons one day to be president. They had plenty of time to analyze that family in the Illuminati and elsewhere. …The thing is if Lem was straight, Jack was not necessarily straight at all. And I think that’s a scary question too. Did he even really find women attractive? I think he did but I think he was likely the opposite of Michael on the Kinsey Scale. I think he probably could get aroused by women, but not the way that he could by men.” says a dead psychologist.

More later.

“Celeste Holm thinks Lem was straight and hates my family!?!” seethes Bobby Kennedy Jr..

“Yup!” says Celeste Holm.

“He seemed slightly straight to you?” asks Lacey.

“His raging gay act was a plea to be left alone by women. And we respected it. Why wouldn’t you? You know? But…men like him did and do still exist. Maybe more in the past than now. But they’re out there.” says Celeste Holm.

“So you’re insinuating that there are fake gay men just like there are fake straight men?” asks a gay man. He smirks.

“Why are homosexuals so angry about the other gender?” asks Celeste Holm.

He thinks.

“Like why do gay men hate women low-key and lesbian women low-key hate men?” she asks. “Because I’ve noticed that. It’s like a cult of gender?”

“Do you have to fake that to yourselves to avoid longing for something?” asks Lacey.

“SHIT!!!” yells a liberal.

“You’re making homosexuals look mentally-ill.” explains a Republican. “And deranged.”

“Are they? Why can’t they bother to be human towards me?” asks Lem. “The priest who molested me was a member of the LGBTQ+ community. So was my deadly barnacle Jack. …Or was I just a deformed little turtle like them?” He thinks. “I wasn’t a real member of your community even as you use and have used me to get off.”

“Gee. Mr. Blue. Why isn’t her home wrecking, blond bimbo, money grabbing stupidity working? What if she’s more complex than you thought? What if…she never really liked you?” asks a Phil. “Maybe she’s more fascinated in reality by the Federal Reserve than she ever was by you?”

“She is!” says Michael.

“Are you sort of bummed by that?! Does it ruin your sense of self?” asks Phil of Mr. Blue.

“ I warned you I’m not gonna say who I am, but I warned you this could happen. She reminded me I don’t know why maybe it was actually like a psychic vision. She reminded me of a goldfish like you keep them in a tiny bowl they stay tiny you put them in a big body of water they get bigger. She feels like an invasive species and yet she’s not, but my thinking that she was invasive species who would grow in size if you put her in and you know the illuminati passed you and your friends on Twitter-“ a journalist hesitates.

“ go on!” says Celeste Holm.

“ I wasn’t off she’s mated and it’s kind of funny because you thought you were having spiritual intercourse with Lacey. That’s how you inculcated her into the illuminati Mr. blue.”

“ made it you’re saying made it not mated. Wait you’re saying mated?!?!” scoffs a Bobby Kennedy Jr..

Secretary Booty Juice starts laughing, and he doesn’t want to explain.

“ you guys play with stuff like that don’t you on peoples phones to mess with their heads?”

Yeah, they do. says Booty Juice.

“ as I was saying she’s mated.” says the journalist. “ and you slowed down so much and caused so much havoc by making her voice say things that she’s not trying to say in these posts. The point is, she wasn’t an invasive species. That was me being a bourgeois classist snob. I was snubbing her from my certain place in the middle. I didn’t like the vibe though and I wasn’t wrong she’s not invasive species. She’s a species that existed and was terrifying. Or if she is an invasive species, somehow, a goldfish has managed to mate with a shark. And I have a feeling it’s much more likely that she’s just a shark not a goldfish.” he says. “But she’s human right so then it sort of falls apart but ursine is an interesting word to describe Lem and it’s been used many times. Bears are cuddly. They’re cute, but they actually are very dangerous. Her ex-husband called her Teddy like a teddy bear. Think of Teddy Roosevelt. Think of how mother bears are when you attack their cubs. Whether you think they’re bears or sharks or whatever you wanna make them out to be bringing a pet bear home and calling him lame Lem and putting a little gold chain around his neck leading him around was a very dumb thing for Jack to do. I missed Amidst all of his little cute surprises that Rose tolerated in her grandeur.” he says. “And altering words is getting annoying. It’s a childish prank. It doesn’t affect Lacey the way that you want it to and it wouldn’t affect me either. I’m a little more intellectually mature than that Bobby, I’m sorry. …Do you hate Pete Buttigieg? Something tells me that was a bad choice. Making fun of him by calling him secretary booty juice isn’t endearing.”

“Yeah OK whatever!” says someone.

“No it really isn’t endearing. It really makes you seem like a loser, like an actual loser.“ says the journalist.

“You call him that too!” says an alive someone (not Celeste Holm, Lacey, Michael or Lem).

“Maybe not in this context because I know I’m gonna sound like a freak.” says a journalist.

“You got some lesbian to do this didn’t you to figure out some way to make fun of me some lesbian mean girl.” says a Bobby.

“You think this is all just about making fun of you you think that’s all this is about is just all about you and making fun of you?” asks a Phil.

“I think it’s probably about a lot of things. And one of them is probably the Federal Reserve.“ says Lacey.

Bobby rolls his eyes at Lacey. “ Yeah OK she’s an idiot. I mean I I delve into conspiracy theories in there you know there’s some merit and wait to them there and also I have me getting attention. But I can almost guarantee you she’s thinking about I don’t know eating candy or I don’t know hurting her kids or some stupid crap like that I can’t stand that bitch I can’t stand them. I can’t stand that I can’t stand her and little dip, shit demon bake lamb, that she fucks. You don’t know why I stop paying attention because I realize that the asshole that she screws who claims to be lame is just a fucking asshole and I’ll I can’t stand them. They’re fucking idiots. Don’t even know what the federal reserve is. she’s an uneducated the food OK and I call Pete booty juicy booty juice because I am sexy. It’s an inside joke. It’s just a way of guys. You know kind of rubbing each other. It’s not that big of a deal. …And as I say that I am slightly scared by myself. … the thing is she’s no idea what it is. Ask her ask her if the federal reserve as I’m sure I’ll get some stupid response.umm… the thing is she’s no idea what it is. Ask her ask her if the federal reserve as I’m sure I’ll get some stupid response.” says a Bobby.

“ are you rejecting her help or accepting are you rejecting her help or accepting

“ that’s a dumb question. What are you even asking?

“ that’s sad. I really hope that you’re being complicated. I hope that you’re not being serious.

“I have a feeling he’s being serious

“ here’s the thing let’s ask Lacey what the federal reserve is!” says Lem.

“ what is the federal reserve?“ asks the journalist.

“ really it’s sort of Leica miss labeled regulatory agency. I mean to me it’s essentially no different than the FDA. I mean, it’s sort of like the illuminati should illuminati exist, and then it has a sort of covert nature. And yet it is like the FTA and so it’s sort of his bizarre highbred of the CIA, the FDA and the illuminati focused on banking the US dollar and probably other things as well that have anything to do with money. How dare Cardi B? So I mean, it’s not that mysterious really the illuminati is that not that mysterious if it exists you make it mysterious, but really, it’s just sort of like a witchcraft supervisory organization of the world. And the federal reserve is just like a bizarre hybrid of the illuminati and the FTA for money. Maybe that I have NTSB for money I mean it’s it’s just it’s like a regulatory organization for money for the economy. And of course it’s federal. It’s central you know it’s top to top run organization.” says Lacey yawning.

“ do you think they could control our food supply?

“ the FDA could control our food supply. I mean really the CIA could use the federal reserve to control the population you if there’s an illuminati could use the CIA to control the federal reserve to control the population. the FDA could control our food supply. I mean really the CIA could use the federal reserve to control the population you if there’s an illuminati could use the CIA to control the federal reserve to control the population.

Teddy Roosevelt laughs.

“what is the thought behind your paranoia what is the thought behind your paranoia are you doing person secret group with any illuminati is going to take over and arrest your power in the illuminati? If you worry about that, I don’t think you worry about it in any real way. I think you just come up with these crazy conspiracies to get attention and power from people and then behind closed doors you think oh they’re just my friends and I fuck them last Thursday at the meeting.If you worry about that, I don’t think you worry about it in any real way. I think you just come up with these crazy conspiracies to get attention and power from people and then behind closed doors you think oh they’re just my friends and I fuck them last Thursday at the meeting. Bob and Sally mix Struthers are nice family. We had a threesome on Thursday. Then we had hotdogs and then I drink blood and we sacrifice to goats. It was fun! There is no way they’re going to take over the world and make people you know robots or some stupid shit like that or do you do you have like this weird cognitive dissonance like I don’t understand it.”

“ we believe that I am conservatives are right. I am all liberals are trying to ruin things for conservatives. And we think that we’re above everything because you’re right if there is no illuminati, yeah we think we’re above everything at the same time. We also think that there are people who are elements within the country who are inferior and possibly evil. And I think there’s probably some class issue involved because Bobby and myself both don’t come from old money. And so you know his uncle got shot because your father didn’t like them will say and that’s scary to realize that there are these billionaires who control airplanes and sellers are liquor who came from new Amsterdam who don’t think our jokes are funny.” says a man.

“ well, at least my fathers at won’t be accused of killing JFK now so that’s fun.” says Ted C.

“ you know maybe I killed JFK maybe I literally was the one that arranged the entire thing I’m not kidding I really might’ve been you don’t know why we killed him if we did that is classified information that may never be released.” says Louis Hill Jr..

“ yeah, that’s possibly true.” laughs Bobby.

“ why are you laughing? What’s so funny about that?” asks T.

“ I am laughing because she’s going to get scared if we let her know that this is real.” says Bobby.

“ Barbie I don’t think she’s scared. I think you’re trying to cause anxiety and suffocate her because you’re scared. I think she’s thinking about Popsicles and dessert literally.

“ what about strawberry soda from Trader Joe’s?“ says Vanessa.

“ you seduce, Joe Kennedy, Junior, using Trader Joe’s, strawberry soda, and glitter and sheet masks. Truly, you used Sephora and pot and lingerie to seduce Joe Kennedy Junior.” says Celeste Holm.

“ yeah, she did possibly.” says Lacey.

“ I don’t know if it was real or not I don’t even know entirely what I experienced but if there was some thing then yeah I probably sat there that morning and where is she mask? And yeah, I probably drink strawberry soda and the rest is history.“ says Vanessa.

“ he thought you were cool that was what you did you seemed in the know up to the minute and he liked that about you. Lacey is very stoic and old-fashioned and that’s not him. Those aren’t his tastes. And I think he actually does like tall, slightly less feminine, looking blondes, kind of like Edith Biel. And that’s what Vanessa looks like, and honestly That, Lem’s I have to say that, as part of it messed with her head was that she was told that she was deficient in someway. says Celeste.

“ yeah we were being silenced right now by Bobby but she’s right that is what happened.” says Lem. Lacey goes blank.

“ why did you guys think you were superior to her that is absolute insanity.” says Celeste.

“ for the same reason that people think like superior is just a Lake. But it’s not an inland sea. But it’s not that deep that big they think it’s just like

“ if this happened, he liked the fact that she shopped at Trader Joe’s. He thought that was very down to earth..” says Kick.

Lacey sips the strawberry soda. “ I mean it’s good it’s not really my taste. I don’t really like he Royals either. it’s just I don’t like sweet pink drinks. I’m sorry if that sounds mean but that’s just not my taste. I know a lot of women in my generation and other generations near mine love pink drinks I just I don’t like them.I know a lot of women in my generation and other generations near mine love pink drinks I just I don’t like them. With the exception of cherry lemonade, I like cherry lemonade. I think I’d rather have chocolate covered strawberries, though. Why do you take all of your rage out on me instead of taking it out on your ex-husband?

“ right because you play golf and stuff

“ yes actually

“ and you hunting you shoot and your daddy’s girl

“ yeah, that probably is true although I’m a daddy’s girl in the way the Queen Elizabeth was a daddy’s girl

“I am not as good at thinking things through maybe as you are and I think Joe related to that

“ no that’s fine I mean in honesty I have moved beyond it it’s just the problem is I was very lied to you know I was under a huge misunderstanding

“ if you know in love wasn’t gay would you have even been interested at all in my ex-husband I’m completely serious would you?

“ probably not

“ he would’ve cared about my kids and I think he would’ve been worried about my ex-husband but I think he would’ve slept with him is that true?

“ I don’t know that I did actually sleep with him. I’m not convinced that I did if I did the no absolutely not I would have stuff with him I would have needed to open that sounds psychotic maybe but no I don’t think I would’ve needed to.

“because it changes the framework of everything that you see because it changes the framework of everything that you see

“ yes that’s the way my brain works. It would’ve changed my perspective on everything.

“ hello I suppose if Michael was involved that you would have you would’ve had a different perspective on Lem even.” says someone.

“ I would’ve held him accountable because I wouldn’t have thought that he has much of an excuse but maybe that’s not right.” says Lacey.

“ I feel bad because I feel like you guys have been trying to murder Lacey for like seven years in the perfume community was like helping you and I don’t really like the fact that we did that.” says a perfume hater.

“ yeah I know him sometimes I’ve been on the wrong side of the tracks with Lacey and sometimes I’ve been on the right side of the tracks. I think if she knowing that lame wasn’t gay, she would’ve probably trusted God more to take care of her without having to rely on men. Making them gay when he wasn’t or such a lie if he wasn’t that it literally shattered her faith in God‘s ability to protect her from profound evil.” says Fonskd Trump.

More later.

Starting in 2016 Mr. Blue made an argument for the destruction of the United States and the destruction of the upper middle classes in particular. He vehemently insisted that all liberals are worthless, hypocritical, profoundly stupid and evil…bags of festering shit. He begged that journalists no longer be seen as intellectually competent or even entirely human entities. His wife suggested that Jews were to blame for all the world’s problems and that women like her in general were shrews with no common sense or empathy for others. And Wobbly…decided his family was a joke. He decided that his family has thoroughly ruined the US and that Lem should be not only exonerated for his own mistakes but be violently prosecuted for carrying about any of the Kennedys at all. In any way. Ever.

Boomers…collectively decided Gen. Z were as evil, dumb and fraught with hypocrisy as themselves. They also suggested the LGBTQ+ community was bankrupt of all validity and morality and should be viciously destroyed. They sought to destroy the Democratic Party and possibly the two party system.

And then…Mr. Blue decided that what was really wrong with him was his lack of an English genetic code. He decided that his Irish genes were likely the culprit for the birth of all of his evil.

And this weekend…America is begging Putin to either kill us all…or stop intimidating them.

Will Putin use a nuclear bomb? Mmmm. Prolly not. Meh. …He’s…a super chill dude, in reality.

…No. In all honesty…it’s far more likely he’s going to either start losing power…or he’ll become far more powerful.

Or he might kill us all.

Lacey is prepared. Her kids are. Are you? Children in hostage all over the world are super chill about the idea of dying.

“We might annihilate the world. We’ll see.” says Michael Rockefeller.

“I am going to start seeing it as euthanasia because I think some of these leaders like Putin really are that desperate and I truly don’t think they trust people in the Illuminati who really are maybe more evil than them.” says a witch.

“No, I mean there is global warming. And I agree with the previous witch, I’m a witch myself. I don’t think that he trusts you guys because something tells me that he’s maybe not a pervert, and he thinks you guys are total freaks, and he might be right. And honestly I talk to so many people who are invisible that I’m not really as I’m not really I am afraid of death after reading this blog, I’ve become more afraid of God, which may actually be a good thing, but I’m not really afraid of death. And like I don’t think it’s like an ideal thing to happen to humanity right now, but as long is like, it’s assured that no one can survive I almost feel like we’re kind of doing the world a favor if I’m being honest with you. I I hate us right now. I hate who we are. You guys really are awful.” says the second witch.

“I umm I I don’t understand how you people can be so stupid.” says the first witch.

“Honestly, I don’t know I mean being blown up no it really wouldn’t be the worst way to go. Michael I just want you know I get it. You know? And…and the sad truth is there are a lot of Christians if there is a nuclear war who are going to say that it’s the rapture and they’re going to be like why am I not dead? And I’m sure Putin knows that and he’s probably a genius. And if you’re dead, Michael, and you are sad because I have a feeling you and Lacey really do care about the kids that are being held hostage…I just want you to know I hear you and I respect it I do you’re on the other side you know how good it is and if you’re thinking about starting nuclear war, just consider the kids that could be left behind without parents, suffering the effects of radiation. That’s my request just consider nature consider the kids inspire Putin to do it responsibly. I don’t know. I mean I get why you decided to not dismantle the banking system, although that was very clever of you but yeah, I think I think you’re probably the only voice of reason that these people respect because of your last name and your grandfather and that’s sad.” says the second witch.

“So you know, is there a way you guys can just like accept that you basically are lying and that you have us in World War III in this like stupid passive aggressive way?” asks an actress.

“If Putin isn’t involved in the child hostage trade, he just won the war in Ukraine. The entire country belongs to him, all of it.“ says Lacey. “As of the last second Ukraine belongs to Putin.” She thinks. “Even if he’s less involved no I’m just declaring it I’m deciding it. I just took over the Illuminati again and I decided that he won the war in Ukraine. The coup is over. There is no coup it’s dissolved and the war in Ukraine is over. Ukraine belongs to him and guess what? Nothing bad is going to come from this towards me or anyone that God loves and sides with because He does take sides. There is evil this world.

And then after it’s settled, and things are calm, it will not be America that made the truce. Oh no, no no it’ll be seen as a victory for Russia and China and Brazil and India and Europe and Great Britain. And why am I doing this because I don’t like you anymore I just don’t like you guys I think you’re freaks and I think someone should put duct tape over your mouths and force you to shut up.”

“You know she really never was that in love with Mr. Blue. It really was an illusion. For real. Really. And the Boomers have had a really hard time accepting that and so has he. His wife has especially his wife was madly in love with the idiotic idea that Lacey was a bunny boiler. Lem’s has had to convince her to be upset. She is the opposite of a bunny boiler believe me she is the opposite in a good way for the bunny boilers because in a sense she is the bunny boiler’s dream wife.” says F. Scott Fitzgerald. “She already has Michael or Lem on the side and she’s been looking for a way to escape, take her kids disown her husband, and just get out of the country get out of their hair, and basically just seemingly ceased to exist in the husband’s world all together.”

A Putin laughs. He’s tired but still himself.

Scott laughs too.

“The thing is though it really is sad because Lem is perfect too. I mean everyone thought he was gay. She could have easily gotten involved with Lem taking her kids and literally escaping to France and the Kennedys would’ve never seen her, her kids or Lem ever again. Ever again.

So women who actually are somewhat like bunny boilers, Mrs. Blue, and it might surprise you to find out who those women actually are in relation to Lacey. Because a bunny boiler is an actually obsessed with the wife. A bunny boiler really is obsessed with a husband. Like for real obsessed not it makes you feel cool to think that she’s obsessed. No like she’s actually obsessed.

Katharine Hepburn is a bunny boiler. Faye Emerson is a bunny boiler. Louis’s second wife was a bit of a bunny boiler no offense to her kids. Actually Mrs. Blue you’re kind of a bunny boiler, so is Batgirl III, actually, so are all of you in the Bat Crew. You’re all bunny boilers. Lacey really isn’t one though. She doesn’t love the husband after he cheats in the movie she leaves him. She loses all interest in him completely forever for eternity. He’s toast. Because there’s no reason for him to cheat. He seemingly is happy and he doesn’t indicate that he’s unhappy and she has no patience for that. She has no patience for a man who can’t be trusted. If he told her ‘Ah…no, I am madly in love!’ she probably would be like, ‘OK fine that’s cool!’ and they might still be friends but him insisting that it was nothing doesn’t fly with Lacey at all. It’s bullshit and she knows it and you can’t convince her otherwise.

You guys are such ‘preference people’ on TikTok people are like, ‘Just grab some popcorn and enjoy yourself.’ But if you were to take away their Internet, you would destroy the country and actually you would destroy yourselves. You guys couldn’t handle it anymore either.” says Scott.

“What is it that you’re clinging to Mr. Blue? What delusion do you need in your head? You can’t vilify her. Are you scared? Were you scared that she figured out that you were talking in code and you’ve never been able to admit that?” asks a dead actress.

“So if we’re going to die, it’s because the Illuminati genuinely controls everything and they literally can’t handle a bourgeois, snotty cool kid clique of American liberal assholes.” observes a woman.

“Yeah that really is why because to them I have to be gay, Lacey can’t be special in any way shape or form, and she has to be in love with Mr. Blue. They can’t fathom a world where I am straight Jack is not Lacey could’ve been born to a very wealthy, powerful man and they’re just middle-class assholes.” says Lem.

Casi‘s mom cracks up laughing. “You know what if this is time for Jesus to take all of us home I’m fine with it. I really am. Just give us a little warning because I’d like to be sitting doing something I enjoy or taking a nap. I don’t know. I don’t know that I want to be awake. So just give us a little warning if possible please.”

“You know there are a lot of heroin addicts that are on the street right now dying that would be just like, ‘Nuclear war?! OK cool!’ And seriously there are a lot of homeless people of Mr. Blue who would agree. Really…you’re not as powerful as you think you are! All you guys are doing is threatening people with what?! Happiness?!? Because it’s so obvious from her blog that death isn’t the end that really what is your threat?! It’s a joke! It’s like you’re just threatening people with the end of their problems and I don’t how that is a threat?

And see then we ask ourselves, ‘OK, so then what are these people really planning a holocaust? Yeah probably why don’t we just kill you? Why don’t we?!’ You’ve created an impossible situation because you’re full of shit you are totally full of shit and you’ve never been able to admit that because you’re silly you’re insane and full of shit.” says a CIA operative.

“No, I have no doubt in my mind that she’s intelligent enough to have discovered the Illuminati if it exists. And what grieves me is that you don’t get it, but so many people are like that nowadays they really don’t understand how dumb they are.

You went to a good school. Whoever you are you have an important job. The Illuminati needed you and the sense I get is that they can’t back down from supporting you without destroying the entire thing.

And I can guarantee there are people reading this blog who are stalking Chris Hayes the actual man who works for MSNBC and his wife and Aaron and Bobby Kennedy, and other people wondering if you really are the actual people on this blog, wondering if you really are the actual people responsible? And whoever you are if you’re using those people as you’re human shield God knows that too.

I think you fell love with the idea that she was in love with you. I think it made you feel very important. She makes people feel that way when she falls for you she has that gift. And when she gets over you and you realize that maybe it was never real to begin with and then she realizes that too and moves on it’s very painful because she’s not a narcissist. And you realize that there was a part of you, that she really cherished that most women today don’t cherish. But she is almost 40. She’s not 103. And I think it was nice. It was a nice thought to think that this woman could be in our generation and we could love her and it’s depressing as Hell to think that we can’t because why can’t we?

Why can’t we land her why can’t we? Why can’t we? She’s too deep the pressure gets to us what is it? I might actually make you feel bad but I’m in a higher class than you. I’m better educated than you are, probably more intelligent than you in most people’s estimations. I’m actually more genuinely prestigious. Because I have a feeling, whoever you are that you probably did grow-up poor and you don’t have your doctorate degree from Cambridge…and I basically do.

That hurt? That reality check hurt didn’t it? Did you ever get close to going on a date with her? I did but did you? No you didn’t you hid behind the Illuminati and your supposed power and prestige. And you have been on a nice psychotic ego trip for seven years thinking that you are her dream prince who’s out of reach. But what if you’re not? What if she would’ve seen me and even though I’m a little short thought I was much more attractive than you. I’m a lot closer to her ideal than you are. Aren’t I, Aren’t I?

Why did F. Scott Fitzgerald find you so terrifying? His ghost? I think he knew who you were and wasn’t clear enough in warning Lacey. Is it because you are like him but you’re also like Daisy? Mr. Blue are you the worst of every character in that novel? I kind of think you are.

I think it’s sad that a beautiful, intelligent woman has no idea that that’s how we see her not just who she is.” says a man who almost dated Lacey.

“So you talked to that man for like hours probably late at night for like hours, and it was understood that you guys were attracted to each other? And let me guess he lived in your area? And something just didn’t work out but you guys exchanged phone numbers, you texted, you called each other and like talked on the phone for hours? And it’s sad that it didn’t work out but I also kind of think that it really bothered Lem and maybe Michael too..even Louis a lot more than they told you which is so unhealthy on their parts. But what cracks me up is that like he’s right and it’s sad that like being classist and snobby is somehow a positive thing in the situation for you because that’s not something that you want to be. I don’t think, at least hopefully. And actually, I really don’t. I think you don’t trust adult people who are in a lower class. I think you think they’re all child molesters. And I think that’s what the war in Ukraine is about-the currently fascist LGBT community, and the way that they use children to make money. I think these people are aging and they don’t think they’re gonna die or if they do I think they have a delusional idea of what justice and mercy is, you’re right.” says a wizard.

“Yes, that’s all correct! And we are now going to have dinner and we will then discuss the Federal Reserve because it actually really is a fascinating to her. For all, you know, I really am Michael Rockefeller, and God actually is considering destroying the Earth because he’s so repulsed by us at this point, so keep that in mind, if if Putin isn’t able to maintain power and he’s overtaken by someone whose sides with these people, it might be the end of the world. They really don’t know how to take care of things for their own good it. They are truly that incompetent and Queen Elizabeth really was keeping the entire thing from falling apart so was Philip. People like to demonize them, but the nation of England is still a Christian nation and you can’t intimidate Christ.” says Michael Rockefeller.

Irony

There are many ironies, and there’s much humor in human existence.

One irony is that as Lacey is talking to Michael because of the supposed relationship between Lem and JFK a relationship between Lacey and Michael is developing that resembles the supposed relationship between Lem and JFK. If Lacey is talking to Lem’s’s ghost, he wasn’t gay, he wasn’t in love with JFK at all and the supposed bond that many people have fawned over and in the last 20 years and have written about in fictional but vivid detail wasn’t real at all. But the bond between Lacey and Michael is real potentially if Michael is an actual ghost as well. Last night he found a very clever way to tell Lacey that he loves her. He literally wrote, “I love you.” in an actual message from his doppelgänger by getting him to misspell your. (It was clever the way he pointed it out to her too) …And she needed to hear that last night. It was very comforting to her. …If reincarnation exists, Lacey may have even died when Michael died in World War I. Or it was Lem but, regardless, for all Lacey knows it seems possible it was one of them and her who were married if reincarnation is in the Bible. And it should be concerning to Lem because the love between Michael and Lacey seems very real.

Another irony is how Joe Kennedy Junior slept with Vanessa, or of course claimed to have slept with Vanessa to Lacey, and then Ivana fell down the stairs after Lacey fell down the stairs and hit her head on a radiator. And of course, when Lacey fell down the stairs, seemingly it was because of Joe’s jealousy. Potentially he may have literally tripped her. And then Don Trump’s first wife fell down the stairs and actually died. And of course Joe wanted to be a US President and Donald Trump was a US President and that’s where it becomes very ironic because these are supernatural beings. Because Lacey may have been Joe Kennedy Junior‘s first wife, while he was US President if he had lived, and if she had been born earlier. And why did Joe Kennedy Junior sleep with Vanessa? What was he trying to do spiritually or what evil were the they in the Illuminati up to when they arranged for Joe to sleep with Vanessa to get at Lacey, possibly even to try to find a way to kill her. And then they ended up just killing Ivana instead.

…Another irony is how JFK may really have been queer and Lem of course may not have been queer at all. And yet in some white internalized homophobia, the homosexual community has focused entirely on Lem and somehow made JFK magically straight. 

…Another irony is how Lacey has brilliant gaydar for gay men and can tell who’s gay and who’s not like an expert basically. But gay men find this really offensive because it’s better than their gaydar and so they keep trying to find ways to test Lacey in the Illuminati to try to prove to her that her gaydar is bad when in reality it’s actually just extremely good. There have been countless times (over years now) that gay men in the Illuminati have brought up in her TikTok feed or on Instagram or in news stories on her iPhone, gay men talking and then someone says to her telepathically “See, so would you have know and he was gay?!?” And she says, “Yes, I would have known. I can tell I can hear it in his voice!” every single time. Every single time. And they can’t stand this because it ruins their narrative that all straight women have this blindspot when it comes to gay men who are really good at faking straight-men-voice. …”Which begs so many questions about their sexual psychology that they are terrified of contemplating!” Lacey says.

Also, remember that book about John D Rockefeller that came out in the 2000’s? Do you remember what the title of that book was? It was, Titan: The Life of John D. Rockefeller, Sr.. And isn’t it ironic that by pretending that you know for sure that Lem was gay, and that if he was bisexual that he is still madly in love with JFK that you are torturing the Titan, according to Lem. Should homosexuality even be allowed in Heaven, but let’s just say hypothetically that it is between two people who are truly in love and are consenting adults. Insisting that Lem is still with JFK and that even when he was alive that he would’ve chosen JFK over Lacey requires a lot of proof on your part, considering that Lacey may actually be sleeping with Lem. But the Illuminati has made that argument emphatically for years and supposedly it bothers people. Could you even be antagonizing John D Rockefeller in his progress in purgatory to the point where he has gotten a bit stuck with Lacey and has been tempted to develop a hatred of people? Did he have a tendency towards animosity towards anyone who wasn’t in his family or who didn’t think like him? And what does antagonizing John D Rockefeller do if he’s innocent and he’s actually a victim in this case of vicious bullying? …Maybe it’s not so great? Maybe it’s not just five people stuck at the bottom of the ocean and maybe the people heartlessly mocking those people should be more careful.

“I don’t think John D Rockefeller had that much animosity towards people who weren’t in his family! I mean, a lot of that stuff is just made up for dramatic purposes.” says Mr. Blue with confidence. 

“That that that’s probably true. I mean you could make that argument. But I am not convinced in this case that I would be 100% certain of that.” says a Ken Burns.

“Why is it that the Illuminati gets off on being sexually deviant-I mean that’s what Stanley Kubrick‘s film is all about in Eyes Wide Shut is their shocking sexuality. But they can’t fathom in the US because I have a feeling the Europeans are not confused by it and I have a feeling that other cultures aren’t maybe as confused as well but it seems like the Americans don’t comprehend even the concept that Lacey is actually sleeping with a ghost.” says a male Millennial. “Like they’re having penetration, like they’re actually having intercourse, you guys! It’s like they’re having full on sex. She’s having sex with a ghost.” he says to the they in the Illuminati. “And I would think in all of your pride month you know valor that you guys would understand at least the concept. Sometimes reading her blog I truly think that they don’t they don’t get the concept and they think it’s just in her head and it’s imaginary. I think some of them wonder and maybe even worry if they have some sort of stake in the game, so to speak. But when you consider that these were like living men at some point, and that they would’ve found her attractive, had she been born and then she seemingly like can feel their touch…dude she’s having sex.”

The They pause in genuine disbelief.

“I have a feeling the English aren’t confused and the French probably aren’t either and that there are other cultures as this last commenter noted who actually really do believe that it’s impossible. I just wanted to point that out.” says an embarrassed American male.

“Here’s what I can’t figure out: How do you guys prompt Vanessa to seduce Joe Junior because I know that’s what happened. I watched. And then like make her go through this whole process of like sleeping with him and assume it even worked and then think that nothing about it is real? Especially after Ivana falls down the stairs after Lacey and actually dies?!?” asks an anonymous woman in the Illuminati.

“Well there’s no guarantee. We can’t guarantee stuff!” says Mr. Blue. “Lacey wants a guarantee because she’s inferior and stupid but we know that you have to operate under things when there’s not a guarantee.”

“Actually that’s what she often says to you when she almost can’t guarantee something. I have a feeling that you just refuse to believe the truth.” says a woman. “And I have a feeling that it’s because you don’t want to know what actually happened way back in 2016. Or what are you doing? Are you trying to channel Stockton Rush right now? Like what the hell are you even talking about?”

“He can’t channel me. He can channel some people if she allows him to in relation to her or demons, but Satan really is much more impotent than you understand in the Illuminati.” says Mr. Rush.

“OK so what is it that you guys don’t wanna understand about the fact that she’s sleeping with Lem because you were all excited about it for a while because I think you thought you could channel him. And it’s pathetic because you keep trying to channel these people who are protecting her, thinking that you can control them through witchcraft. Like the Roosevelts or the Irish Bible. And the problem is you are contacting entities OK simile Elliot did possibly sleep with Faye Emerson. But then that’s what happened he slept with Faye Emerson and it wasn’t the end of the world for Lacey. She moved on. She doesn’t hate Faye. She doesn’t hate Elliott and they just moved on. And actually now you’ve pissed off Elliot and lost his trust. Possibly lost the trust of the entire Roosevelt family in the Illuminati. Probably partially because it’s a little insulting that you guys think you can control them just because they’re dead. There could be some cases where that’s true, but it’s probably not true in every single situation with every dead person, and some of them might actually be more powerful than the living person contacting them. …But you guys did that with every single relationship that she had even though they’re even though “they’re imaginary and they’re not real” just like how “she’s poor but then she’s also a rich asshole.” Those aren’t contradictions, she’s not a paradox, that’s not irony, that’s just cognitive dissonance and stupidity. And what’s sad is it a lot of these people who are angry about the billionaires are trusting you guys to not be dumber than someone who would trust a game controller with their life.

But let’s just rehash for a second. Lacey first slept with Louis and then you got her hurt by his second wife when he slept with his second wife and tried to defend her, seemingly. He may have also slept with Grace Kelly. Literally the actual Grace Kelly. At least she hasn’t forgiven him for it. She’s forgiven him for it but they’re not together because of that and honestly I think he regrets it. I think he’s in probably in an enormous amount of pain because I don’t think he really necessarily meant to make that mistake. When you think about it, he was the first person she slept with. OK they had an instant profound connection. She’s in St Paul. They have so much in common. She may have married him if she’s illegitimate, she may have actually married him if she’d been born earlier. It’s extremely possible that they may have actually been married at some point. And he probably knew that he’s probably known that for years about her. And he’s dead and he was being respectful and he wasn’t saying anything. I have a feeling he’s popped up in her life numerous times, but then we ruined it for him. And he had a choice. He didn’t have to stay with Grace Kelly and his second wife, but what did we do to him that made it hard for him to resist those two? We probably conjured up, I don’t know powerful demons of lust and possibly demons of deception, and he probably feels profound grief over what happened. And that tortures Lacey because she knows how sad he is but she doesn’t know what to do about it. What is she supposed to do cute. He seemingly cheated on her. The trust was broken even if he wasn’t someone who would’ve normally fallen for that. She understands that he’s not like the Kennedys and that he’s genuinely different somehow. She somehow understands that he’s just is a very artistic and passionate man. She understands that he’s not like the Kennedys that he’s genuinely different. But she doesn’t wanna commit to him because she doesn’t feel safe with him.

And then what happened with Elliot? Well we know. We already talked about Elliott.

What happened with Joe? Vanessa, Pat Wilson. We were attacking that way back in 2016.

What happened with almost every guy that she’s dated potentially we’ve ruined it Mr. Blue. You are obsessed with trying to keep her even though you claim that you don’t want her. Of course the irony is that she’s not even yours and I don’t think she was ever yours. I mean she wondered if you were like F. Scott Fitzgerald but then you doubled down and were like, ‘Bitch no! I think I’m more like Joe Kennedy Sr. or Jr. reincarnated!’ because you already were losing your grip on reality trying to find someway to control the situation.”

“She was never after your money! And she’s always just been looking for love and you can’t handle hearing that.” says a French woman.

“But we weren’t done yet. Let’s talk more about what happened! So, so we ruined Elliott, we ruined Louis and then we ruined Harold Loeb. Because I have a feeling that we did. I have a feeling that we conjured Lady Doth-Protest-Too-Much in some way to seduce Harold. And seemingly he mostly fell for it. And I was devastating to Lacey to because she really was falling in love with him. And then we used the perfume community to attack Lacey‘s bond with F. Scott Fitzgerald that you viciously mocked right from the beginning, Mr. Blue.” says the anonymous woman in the Illuminati.

“But she loves that though! She loves how possessive he is because she secretly is in love with him and she’s just a screwed-up nutcase who is just kind of an idiot and he’s madly in love with her. There they’re just immature assholes.” says a Bobby Kennedy sincerely. This is what they believe.

“Then why are you so terrified that Lem might not be gay?” asks a reader.

“Then why are you so terrified that Lem might not be gay?” Bobby says in mock imitation.

“Yeah I’m not in love with him at all anymore. I’ve made that very clear.“ says Lacey about Mr. Blue.

“Are you guys trying to be snobby by claiming that? Because that’s the sense that I got, that you guys think that that sounds like really posh and elite to keep insisting that she’s in love with someone she’s not in love with when she’s a grown adult? You guys seem like psychopathic nitwits not aristocrats.” says a pleb reading Lacey’s blog.

“I didn’t even realize there was a class insult with that. I thought you guys were just fucking obnoxious lecherous leeches from Hell.” says Lacey. “See part of the problem is that you are too stupid to realize that you can’t keep making fetch happen when it’s not happening. …What is the logic behind insisting that I am in love with someone that I am not in love with being a class insult? How is that a class insult? Because I’m confused?!? …I get confused with math so by your logic math is snubbing me? Like actual numbers are snubbing me? Isn’t that kind of creepy? And yet my husband is an actuary my legal husband. He was a math major. So then what I’m in some sort of sadistic funhouse? I’m in Hell?! My life, you’re turning my life into literal Hell and then it’s still some sort of class insult?!? Who is making the insult?! Satan himself?! I am lost! Your narrative doesn’t make sense.” says Lacey.

“It doesn’t have to make any sense. That’s the joke! We don’t have to make sense because we’re billionaires and we don’t we don’t need to have any logic or reasoning to anything we say because we’re so superior to you. That’s the joke.” says a billionaire in the Illuminati.

“That doesn’t make sense OK??! And if you want to live in reality, you dumb bitch, and breathe…maybe you need to back your little fuck truck up. You’re probably just some street trash bitch aren’t you…who wears expensive clothes and has a low IQ? Yeah you’re probably from some peasant asshole who is vain and ugly somewhere in your lineage, right? Am I right? Isn’t it sad that you’re probably just genetically inferior to me? See this is where World War II started you dumbass. This is how the Nazis got so much traction with their eugenics, because there is some pattern to it as tragic as that is.” says Lacey.

“That would probably be true.” says a Putin.

“So continuing on, we are now trying to ruin Michael and Lem but the sad truth is Michael, sad truth for evil anyway, Michael is totally ‘uncorrectable’…and if Lem was straight, he probably is as well. They don’t cheat. They love Lacey a profound amount, and they probably really are, essentially one of them is her twin flame. They could be vying for that position as we speak. And I wouldn’t count Louis out.” says a woman in the Illuminati.

“OK, but just extending a token of human like kindness to this woman who’s kind of a dumb ass in the Illuminati who’s probably worth billions: congratulations on worth being worth billions! Good for you! …How do you guys not realize that these people are real?! Is it just too scary to contemplate?” asks a male Millennial.

“Actually, I want to know what would happen with Vanessa! See like I have a feeling she knows exactly what happened and I want to know what happened! I’m sorry but I would love to know.” says a cis male comedian. “We will all be dead someday and I just wanna know for-I want it in my tool kit.”

More later.

(Adult content below)

Running Up That Hill by Kate Bush plays.

Hillary Clinton runs up the side of a building. Endlessly for eternity. If she’s going to Hell. Endlessly. Running Up That Hill plays in the background on repeat to mock her pain as she tries to finally make it to the top. It’s…worse than being stuck on the bottom of the ocean.

“Stop saying that! Lacey, that’s mean! I happen to know that’s not what’s going to happen to me and you know what else it’s not that’s not even that bad! I mean there’s no like fire and shit! …Oh my god, you’re an idiot! Get more creative!!” scoffs a Hillary.

Love Song For A Savior by Jars of Clay plays as they shake their asses in foolish anticipation of Satan in Hell. Satan, their sex-god. Their…lover…they hope.

And in 2000 Lacey was highly encouraged to worship Jesus with this Satanic music. Around the time she was bullied by a charismatic prophet for riding sidesaddle in his mind. Did they sing this literal song at his conference in Kansas City? They might have.

“He’s not more than the laughter of the stars in the Heavens in some obnoxious way, He created that beauty, it speaks of how awe inspiring He is.” says Lacey to Hell.

Right Thurr by Chingy plays.

And Vanessa liked…Trader Joe’s strawberry soda. Over pot, strawberry soda, and an organic dildo she used a witch…to conjure Joe Kennedy Jr.. …As she laid on her bed…wearing lingerie…an Illuminati witch…talked with her with Vanessa’s full knowledge. Because if there’s an Illuminati Vanessa likely knows all about it. …She claimed to have slept with demons. Sleeping with Joe didn’t scare her. It intrigued her.

They talked for a while. Then she got high and so did he. And…she masturbated. And…he joined her by possessing the dildo and making it his erect penis.

Drop It Like It’s Hot plays.

He struggled to get her off. Literally, she struggled to get off.

“What do you want?! What do you need to get off?!” he asked Vanessa.

“I need you to punch her in the gut! Like…kill her.” says Vanessa.

“Joe interrupted Lacey’s coffee with Louis to punch her in the gut.” says Louis.

“hold on women are actually experiencing these dead men’s dicks. Because I have a feeling that Joe Hass to try extra hard to get women off. Sorry. And I have a feeling there are billionaires at listening through the illuminati. It’s like a party line is the sense that I guess it’s like a spiritual party line. , let’s see what happens is what they must be thinking like I really think they were billionaires in the illuminati who are realizing that there’s an afterlife for the first time like for real and they’re experimenting on their friends. And they probably think other other billionaires and their older ones gonna care. But those who don’t know that you’re experimenting on them even if they’re billionaires and you have some sympathy for the poor it’s still inhumane. And honestly if there is an afterlife, what are you doing? Why do you need to experiment on people who maybe in your mind would be better off dead because you think they’re miserable and you know that because you’re their friend but still!” says a pleb.

Back to the Vanessa and Joe moment. 

In Da Club plays.

Vanessa and Joe…spent a while. It’s unclear if she ever came. Maybe?

A legal prostitute nods her head in understanding. She rolls her eyes.

“It wasn’t that bad!!” says Banessa.

For a while Vanessa and Joe Jr. even claimed to be in love.

Golden Light by STRFKR plays.

That fall Lacey made a scathing joke to Rose about her watching her son fuck Vanessa. She was criticizing a great many people’s evil.

The they-Illuminati felt insulted.

The night before she’d talked to Mary, Bobby’s wife. And their friends. About Lem. And possibly Joe Jr. and Sr..

And…minutes later as she turned around a corner to check on her kids to see if they needed dinner…she lost her grip, and her footing and…fell. Screaming as she tumbled.

Lem raced down the stairs, possibly holding her head in her final tumble. And the Rockefellers got involved. Lem’s father helped…and with other British doctors possibly saved her life. With supernatural surgery.

…In her head before she fell she oddly thought the railing was on the other side of the wall.

“And she’s had problems with her lungs to some degree and her neck ever since and with incredible anxiety probably from the concussion she literally ripped her scalp open and bled.” says Louis.

Al Capone and her father visited her and quickly assessed who is responsible. The problem is people don’t want to be wrong about stuff that may or may not even matter. Because they just can’t handle being wrong. Is that it?

“I can’t fathom that she’s over Joe! That’s not possible.” says a dead Bobby Kennedy incredulously.

F. Scott Fitzgerald laughs. “Like how I never lost patience with Zelda?!” He thinks. “You can get over people even if you’re like Lacey and me. It’s difficult to completely get over someone but…we can.”

“How?!?” asks Bobby.

“How do you get over someone?” asks Scott.

“I just lose interest.” says Bobby.

“You get bored?!?” asks Lacey.

“Yeah.” he says feebly.

“So you’re too stupid to love some people or they’re too dull?!” asks Lacey.

He smiles, embarrassed. “Probably.”

She nods her head in understanding. “I don’t ever experience either.”

“Neither do I.” says Scott.

“When they lose love…it’s because you tortured it out of them. Or they almost never lose it.” says Zelda. “Or they forced themselves to out of genuine honor and duty to God. And they actually can do it. Believe me! It’s brutal!”

“She barely loved you at all. Her love is…rare. So was Scott’s.” says Harold Lloyd to Mr. Blue. “But she’s certainly over you.”

“For a split second in 2015 Casi channeled F. Scott Fitzgerald. Or is she channeled a demon who is or was impersonating F. Scott Fitzgerald. And Lacey thought to herself, ‘Hmm…could I be with a woman? Because that’s a really good impersonation or she actually is like that and that’s the kind of person I like.’ But then a split second after that thought entered her head she thought, ‘You know that’s so gross!’ because she looked at Casi and her boobs and her face and was like, ‘Gross, yuck, I could never be with a woman!’ and then she thought in disappointment, ‘Who is ever going to understand that thought process, though? I have never met a living man who frankly is aware of that part of reality and it’s just depressing!’ And then she thought, ‘Oh well, Scott did and there’s probably some in the past who did as well. I don’t know there could be some man alive who’s married who does, but certainly no one that I’ve ever met.’ And so she thought, ‘Well I know I’m not a lesbian and it’s not a feminine personality trait necessarily; it’s actually somewhat masculine, but men aren’t supposed to be like that anymore.’ And that was extremely depressing to Lacey except for the fact that at that point, she was of the mind that it was OK for her to just be single knowing that when she died, she probably would be with someone in Heaven.” says a dead Astor.

“And that would’ve been fine for her, except for the fact that her maid, her literal maid bless her heart, had told her that that wasn’t good enough for her and that she should find someone who is alive.” says Zelda. “And Lacey being genuinely humble though, ‘Yeah, you know that’s probably true. It probably isn’t healthy or right. It probably isn’t a solution. I probably need to find someone who’s alive.’”

“And seemingly Scott warned Lacey not to date anyone who looked like him who was alive because that person would possibly bring about a nuclear war. He warned her of that in 2013.” says the Astor.

“OK so she’s a lesbian and it’s not real and it probably is crappy sex right?” says the DNC.

“No she is a Libra-Virgo cusp. Or at least she resembles one in some way. And this is where I have to come to peace with God because it irritates me how accurate those descriptions are of people. Anyway, she has a thing for Aries I was an Aries I am an Aries so is lime and other libras and Virgos and Taurus and that’s pretty much it. I feel like when she gets involved with other signs it tends to fall apart like Leo. Joe is a Leo. Apparently that can happen for her but it’s not a long-term relationship.

It’s so simple. If she’s not attracted to women, but she liked my personality in some way it’s probably something more like that like that I’m an Aries or that I am deep in someway that it’s not lesbianism certain things are feminine and like my boobs are five minute vaginas on it in my face is feminine, but there could be certain aspects of my personality that aren’t. So Louis is a Taurus. Michael is a Taurus Elliot was a libra Virgo cusp. Scott is a libra and Virgo cusp. Joe Senior was a Virgo. And I’m not gonna come in and Mr. blue zone because I have a feeling I know what it is and I don’t like that sign either. And I’m not gonna come in and Mr. blue zone because I have a feeling I know what it is and I don’t like that sign either. And then she could be a Scorpio. Athen she could be a Scorpio. And that’s why you have to trust God and realize that astrology isn’t safe. You can’t be something on it even if there’s an ounce of truth in it. That being said the ounce of truth could be there because I am an Aries and maybe Scott has some Aries in his profile somewhere and lamb is definitely an Aries. I think that’s what she liked about me. We tend to be perceptive, and we don’t give up and when we know we’re right, we usually don’t let it go and I think she needs someone who is strong like that. and for her maybe that feels like a sense of accomplishment because she seems to be someone who hates when things are wrong or messed up in some way that’s evil.”

Is It True by Tame Impala plays and a dead Pakistani businessman scoffs at evil.

“ so when I’ve read Lacey being in love with Casi it was really just that Casi was an Aries?!??” says Mr. Blue. “ or some thing like that that’s so stupid because then she was never even attracted to her but the entities I’m talking to keep telling me that something happened with her and then that’s nothing happening, right?!?”

“ so then, yes nothing happened. Chris those entities are lying to you Mr. blue nothing happened. She may have accidentally given Casi the wrong impression in her spirit but in actuality know nothing happened. She was never attracted to Casi. She just isn’t. She’s not attracted to women, regardless of their star, sign or sunshine, know she’s just not attracted to women.” says Elizabeth Taylor.

“ so so she’s not attracted to women and she was probably never in love with Mr. blue she probably was in love with her. She thought he was end over period of time. She’s come to realize that the person she thought she was in love with just doesn’t exist and is more a figment of some writer or PR managers creation. or it’s possible Mr. blue that you were channeling one of her dead soulmates I don’t know if it was Louis. I don’t know if it was Michael but that’s also possible I don’t know why you can’t admit that that does frustrate me because that does make sense to me that you somehow channel that more channels, a demon impersonating them.or it’s possible Mr. blue that you were channeling one of her dead soulmates I don’t know if it was Louis. I don’t know if it was Michael but that’s also possible I don’t know why you can’t admit that that does frustrate me because that does make sense to me that you somehow channel that more channels, a demon impersonating them.” says a Bobby. “ I do struggle with thinking that he let lemon Street probably because I don’t like to think that he was trying to let me die that sounds absurd considering how I treated people but yeah, it’s hard for me to fathom that he was just OK with letting me die. I do struggle with thinking that he let lemon Street probably because I don’t like to think that he was trying to let me die that sounds absurd considering how I treated people but yeah, it’s hard for me to fathom that he was just OK with letting me die.”

I’m so why are we like OK with us all the sudden is it because Vanessa obviously may be slapped with Joe Junior, and she really can’t deny it because they did actually sleep together and there was some thing there in which case this is totally a thing and you guys are really dishonest. Because if the Catholic Church knows that it’s possible for an actual ghost to somehow have sex with a living person they obviously lied about it. And you know what else is interesting how is it any different than when they were alive if they’re in purgatory. Because I have a feeling that yeah she was like why is this woman sounding like Scott? I don’t like women cause I like women should I like women people do that now days and then she realized that she wasn’t into it and that’s all that happened. But the thing is she was pushing herself to try to be honest. Why don’t you guys have any respect for that you’re so liberal why don’t you have respect for the fact that she was trying to be sincere are you just totally full of it? But the thing is she was pushing herself to try to be honest. Why don’t you guys have any respect for that you’re so liberal why don’t you have respect for the fact that she was trying to be sincere are you just totally full of it? And the poor made if she reads the spot probably feels bad because I doubt she was trying to be a bitch. But the thing is though are you guys like humor in this idea because Vanessa and Joe slept together and Vanessa like genuinely says oh no what happened it’s real and so you’re like well shit we can’t mess with that.

“ see I just wonder because if they did actually sleep together actually slept together so you’ve been somebody’s involve the Kennedys and the Trump‘s like this is real like these are real people and you’re encouraging them to sleep together because it’s like a game in your head like you think you’re playing a video game

“So you actually feel like you’re sleeping with a man?” asks Jonah.

“ yes, yes no she can actually feel less like she can actually fill our our penis and the way that we were sleeping with her things that we say him it’s like sleeping with a man but he doesn’t have a mortal body but essentially it’s just like sucks with a living person, but there’s no living body in a sense of living in a fallen world body.” says Elliott.

“ she can actually fill your a penis like you literally can get her off so you literally she can literally feel like it like when you orgasm she can you connect she can actually fill fill youshe can actually fill your a penis like you literally can get her off so you literally she can literally feel like it like when you orgasm she can you connect she can actually fill fill you!!?” says a shocked living man.

“ a tragedy or a joke, depending on how you see it through your relationship with God as how the next 30 to 40 years is of her existence in this fallen world. “ says Lem.

“ so it’s just all crap, right?” asks Mr. Blue.

“ are you saying that because you think you’re going to hell?” asks Lacey.

“ yes, I know I don’t know.” says Mr. Blue.

“ so I’m stuck on thinking she’s in love with Mr. blue drive a tendency to get stuck on stuff. Yeah I do great.“ says Bobby.

“ so so Vanessa and Joe slept together using a dildo do you have to use a dildo?” asks a gay man.

“ oh no, you don’t have to but they are able to manifest better. If you do, you can still feel it if you don’t but when you use one, they can modify the physical structure of it to resemble themselves and then it’s basically just like them.” says Lacey.

“ you’re not embarrassed about that?” scoffs a liberal gay man.

“ I’m coming sr this from the perspective of someone who is offended by the Boomers, because I grew up being told that the greatest generation we’re all prudes by violently self-righteous Boomers. You know we were unsophisticated a sexual saps. And I don’t want my kids reading this and they hopefully won’t be they know better, but if some bitch narcissist to thaw her parents were a little assholes because they didn’t wanna talk about sex with her wants to read my fucking blog and be embarrassed? She can help herself! Terese says they’re supposed to raise me, but they failed to because they’re so fucking dysfunctional. You know I’m not even 40 yet these people are in their 70s and 60s they should know better. So yes, yes when uses a dildo and then they transform the structure of it to resemble themselves and actually, that could be how Joe manage to trick my brain into thinking that the railing was on the opposite side of the wall.

“ does the LGBT community plus community get embarrassed by USC and if they do I find that hilarious because you’re right they’re total hypocrites“

“ see I vote Democrat but I’m tempted because of this blog to vote for a third-party just as an issue of conscience I just have to put that out there.”

“ OK so now we’re destroying the two party system?” says a dead Astor. They laugh.

“ so they literally transform it that’s actually actually that’s interesting that really is actually interesting and that was why you talk about their penises because it is humorous you the whole life and death and fallen world in the tragedy of everyone’s pain in a fallen world thinge

“ yes that’s probably a pretty good summary.” says Lacey.

“ and Vanessa used to believe there’s an ilumiNATTI experience at yourself and apparently you can vouch for the fact that he’s very good and better very bad and bed?”

“ he’s average, I would say no with me. He was very tender if something happened or will happen when I’m dead he was very he was very tender, very attentive to me.

“ that’s not what I experienced. I experienced him putting on a show. It was lovely until I thought about it, and then realize that it was just a show.” says Lacey.

“ they took advantage of you because you probably had some inkling that it could be real. I were taking it as seriously as you thought you should take it as a Christian. And maybe it’s just may be a guy, but I had some sense that it was real and not fake. And if I have a crush on you or had a crush on you and read your blog, I felt like you were being deceptive and selfish or double sort of double crossing me but as I think about it, it makes sense that you’re just this very intellectually astute, distant person. And I don’t think you mean any harm towards anyone and that’s sad that people don’t respect that. Because I think you know, God loves you and so you feel accountable to him but I don’t think you think that you mattered a lot of other people and you might not who are alive. I don’t even know other than your family that you’re raising. But I think that’s the sad thing is that I think he’s better real and I think you’re actually sleeping with them and I think you’re probably in the 1% in a way that said it’s a statisticians don’t calculate. And I think you’re probably old money and I don’t think that Mr. blue and people who are on the East Coast or in Hollywood can handle that reality. I think they’ve been very vain and I also think that they think oh the Astor fortune it’s only 14 million or the Vanderbilts lost their money. I don’t think they realize that that doesn’t necessarily mean anything. So pray about it I know you have the privilege again and try to be try to trust that God won’t let you down. I can see where you don’t want to get your hopes up and think oh I’m really loved by someone because you’re worried that they’re just a demon. And I think that the people who are conjuring us because we do resemble these people in someway need to be far more careful. I need to be a heck of a lot more careful because I think if you’re actually sleeping with real men will know shit people are going to start dying and submarines and being thrown down the stairs that’s just the tip of of the iceberg. Trust meAnd I think that the people who are conjuring us because we do resemble these people in someway need to be far more careful. I need to be a heck of a lot more careful because I think if you’re actually sleeping with real men will know shit people are going to start dying and submarines and being thrown down the stairs that’s just the tip of the iceberg. Trust me

More later.

After finding out that they included Lacey, no worries that she was being told they were all dead on Monday. Much like she worries that she was being told Lem was and is straight. And if that’s the case, things really are in a tailspin. And if that’s the case, things really are potentially in a tailspin. Because seemingly Michael is involved because there’s this sliver of dysfunction that Lem hasn’t been able to sort of work his way out of somehow. But also it verifies, but James himself said when he said that he had a death that was possibly not as easy as how Joe died, but that was far easier than how Michael died.But also it verifies, but James himself said when he said that he had a death that was possibly not as easy as how Joe died, but that was far easier than how Michael died. So seemingly exploding is less scary than imploding deep in the ocean.So simile exploding is less scary than imploding deep in the ocean.

“ did you guys have a fun time at my fathers club last night or no?” asks Lacey.

“ yes it was. It was a blast. No it was really great. We had a lot of fun.“ says Hamish cheerfully.

More later.

A Sparrow Alighted Upon Our Shoulders plays.

“Lacey, you’re in love with Michael and Michael’s in love with you.” says Lem.

“But if it’s not what’s best I don’t think it’ll be a problem will it?!” asks Lacey.

“No, no it won’t.” says Lem.

“Then why do I feel like there’s a problem?” asks Lacey.

“Jack was an awful man, Lacey he was hideous. And I am asking you to give up what you have and and Michael to give up what you have to be with the man who sucked his cock because he was an idiot. It’s a lot to ask of you and Michael to give up what you have. You know I had a men’s dick in my mouth and I wasn’t even attracted to men at all and I used to get them off and it was grossed me, but I looked at it like cleaning a dirty floor. You know you have sex with men and I dissociated and I was trying. I was trying to have some sex life. I’ve never worked so people even wondered if I was asexual because it worked so badly I didn’t work. But I did it and hated it to be honest. I absolutely hated it. And of course that’s why I tolerated being with a man who didn’t expect any commitment from me and didn’t expect me to really be with him because I couldn’t be with a man. I didn’t care, and I thought I was in love with him. I thought I loved him I didn’t. And for all, you know, I was a pedophile I shot heroin into a 14-year-old. I wasn’t a pedophile I may have given Bobby heroin let him give me heroin what a terrible thing to give up being with Michael to be with a man who gave heroin to a 14-year-old even if the 14-year-old was a complete asshole and he suspected he was a sociopath it doesn’t matter. We’re still 14 year old and they were likely other ways to handle it I could’ve just killed him. The pointers and yes, his children have me to think for the fact that they were born December Expat. The thing is, I’m expecting you to give up Michael and all of that to be with me and that’s what I’m asking you to do but they say that’s a horrific thing to ask of you especially while I’m dead and you’re alive and you’re being sadistically harassed.” says Lem.

“ well, then I suppose it was Harold and Louis to some extent to and Elliot and Joe and I thought that that was serious. It is a lot to ask of me to have that much faith in you. It’s a lot to ask of me you’re right. and it happens. I can have it but then I feel foolish and I get scared. I get so scared that I decide that it isn’t reasonable, possibly without even realizing that I’m deciding that.” says Lacey.

Lem cries. “ so it’s possible that I did it entirely to myself having to watch you be with other men.“

“ do you even care does it even bother you really or are you just pretending? Are you just a really emotional person or does it actually bother you that much?” asks Lacey.

“ right because seemingly your ex-husband doesn’t care and you’ve never really experienced a man being openly jealous with you your entire life. So to you men don’t get jealous of you or over you rather they just throw you down the stairs for some mysterious eagle testicle reason look the other way, how to absolute lack of interest.” says Lem.

“ the thing is, you’ve made me feel backward an old fashion, and I wanted for being a woman Lem. It’s not just that no one‘s ever really loved me or if they have, they certainly haven’t shared that with me. It’s that I don’t believe that you’re capable of caring about me. I think you’re part of some super gender group of men who have evolved in some cocky way to be both male and female and then apparently what used do you have from a woman I’m just weak and dependent. I can’t roughhouse with you put you on my shoulders and carry you around. I don’t take shits when you fuck me I don’t make fart jokes. I don’t think pasta, sexy. I’m not shocking when I paint. Well, it’s expected of me. I’m not the strongest man on the rowing team. I’ll never be strong enough to even possibly go for a long hike for the rest of my life. I’m not even 40 yet I could be president I could take anyone else do you think I even could be? I can barely breathe most days then I’m a weak, beautiful, sweet, loving woman. And I need a man to protect me and love me and you don’t seem interested because it’s far, far beneath you.” says Lacey.

Lem laughs. “So you you don’t think I want to touch you be inside of you you don’t think I want you.”

“ i’m not convinced of it I’m not convinced that you think women are worth while. I was wonder if you’d rather we just didn’t exist bother you all.“ says Lacey. “ is it being president and having a room in the White House far superior to children and press are we just a burden but you rather fly to the moon and fuck Jack’s butt hole have him suck your cock finally and get you off. Why bother with some woman?”

“ and I suppose Michael doesn’t make you feel that way at all, even though he actually may have been bisexual and I was straight?” says Lem.

“ no Michael does not make me feel that way because he never went around advertising to everyone that women were pieces of crap under his shoe.” says Lacey.

“ that’s that’s true I didn’t mean it in that way, but that’s what I made you out to be.” says Lem. “ I feel like an idiot I’m not one with it or not but I feel like one because I know that you and I are meant to be together for eternity and there’s no way to prove that to you using what I said. Nothing I did after I met Jack or really after I was molested would suggest to you that you and I are meant to be together necessarily maybe but maybe not I left it incredibly open ended. Does it matter that I can’t imagine being with anyone but you and I can’t imagine you being with anyone but me and I can’t imagine having anyone but you?”

“yes, it does matter. Because that’s how I figure everything out. What’s fair what’s just what’s best what’s most pleasing to God and that’s the problem I I can’t figure that out. Because it I’ve gotten stuck with Michael I’ve gotten stuck with Elliot in the past and slept with him. I have a very hard time believing that I just stuck with people because I was tempted. That was part of that I suppose but I doubt that’s really what happened. What’s much more likely is that I slept with people thinking that it made sense that that there was a logic to it a sort of ultimate wisdom.” says Lacey. “ and the whole thing terrifies me because it isn’t what’s best but I can’t figure out what to do and all I’m left with is just my reasoning ability the God’s given me.”

“ the lies that you’re heartless, and I’ve never believed it, but that’s what the illuminati possibly keeps telling me.” says Lem. “ mr. blue may love to tell people that you’re heartless because he’s heartless and a lot of them are, and I think they like to think that you are because it makes them feel less scared and trouble by themselves. They especially liked to tell that lie when they’re being proven wrong about something that matters to them like my sexuality.” says Lem.

“ I always thought it was weird though I always thought you seemed like an anomaly even opened in the 90s when I read about you there was something very bizarre about you and your orientation.” says Lacey.

“ I know other people probably sense that too back then a lot of them, though we’re older and a lot of them are dead. Speaking of the silent generation, your love for Michael do you need to explore that to let go with it and realize that what we have is better. That’s what Hamish thinks and he could be right. He’s also allowing me to suggest this they’re very active. They had a rough transition and we could should probably talk about that but they’re very active if they’re not in Hell. And God is protecting them.” says Lem.

“ so let’s talk about that then what happened?” asks a witch of Hamish.

“ we saw it was going to happen. We knew it was happening as it happened, but we couldn’t do anything to prevent it.“ says Mr. Rush. “ hi tech too many risks, right big joke. The good news is that give me the rest that I took. It was a quick death but no I took strange risks.”

“ why did you take those risks?

Money, but it was money that the experimental process that the process was very expensive, and I arranged it badly, and I wanna be terrible with money, but I I was greedy to some extent, and I was also trying to find ways to cut costs to promote my business

So it was just quick then it was just a quick death

I am trying not to be a bad person how much things the entire thing is a joke this point they probably all don’t really want to speak to me I am trying not to be a bad person how much things the entire thing is a joke this point they probably all don’t really want to speak to me.. but no it was a quick death week we knew that it was coming but it wasn’t like an overdose. Where are you struggle at? It was more like a plane crash where you know you’re about to hit the ground everyone paddocks and then that’s the end. , you believe in God, you trust that he exists or you have faith for it but there’s this part of you that can’t believe something that good could really be true, even if you have faith that it is, it’s hard to believe and happy endings. Which sounds crazy coming from me because I took too many risks but I took them with the thought that I could handle it or that I knew what was going on in mind and it’s possible there’s some part of all of us on that Craft that was just a tinge suicidal” says Mr. Rush.

“ so best case scenario you just had a was like a plane crash basically under the water?

Emily been slightly less scary than a plane crash because we were moving that quickly

I think people should be a lot more scared of where they stand with God than they currently are. Mr. Rush did you know that it wouldn’t be that devastating if something happened like subconsciously was that in your mind and that’s part of the reason you were so cavalier? Like to clarify, it’s not like you were like gonna make them somebody and tell her like oh no, I took off your legs or something you knew that if it was the end that it would be quick and painless, and you must’ve had some confidence that it would all.

I am not prepared to answer that question. I’m sorry.

“ your name, cracks me up rush take your character in a book people are just with you for an adrenaline rush.” she laughs.

“ I don’t wanna live in a world where, so I would create a craft where someone would suffer a fate that was worse than what they experienced.” says a Gen. Z woman. “ in it even as I say that I think about people drowning and I think what people suffering to try to make it and I realize that we do live in a world where people suffer more but I just mean I don’t want to live in a world where some other create a craft like ocean gate dead that would cause that kind of suffering you to pay 250,000 I need to have your legs cut off.”

“ no and you know it’s funny because the Kennedys left a young woman paralyzed and she was friends with the boys that lame gave drugs to. They were the ones that left her crippled the ones that lame shut up with heroin they could’ve killed them. no and you know it’s funny because the Kennedys left a young woman paralyzed and she was friends with the boys that lame gave drugs to. They were the ones that left her crippled the ones that lame shut up with heroin they could’ve killed them. When you’re trying to do some thing, sometimes you make alliances to win and you regret those alliances. When you’re trying to do some thing, sometimes you make alliances to win and you regret those alliances. I regret having to work with people who are so dumb that Yvonne is dead. Lacey is still heartbroken. Even though she’s moved on Lem sexuality is left up in question, and if he was straight, he’s probably being tortured and a young woman ended up, paralyzed. Others ended up dead in the ocean from drowning. I don’t hate them, but they’re not really that much wealthier than we are if they are if they even are and I was president, you could say that they’re better looking for that they were more likable, but I’d love to know how they’re actually hire class and we are there better people.” says Donald Trump. “is that why I ended up being indicted is that why my ex-wife is dead because Vanessa slept with Joe if that’s what happened, it scares me. is that why I ended up being indicted is that why my ex-wife is dead because Vanessa slept with Joe if that’s what happened, it scares me.

“ why did Lacey have to sleep with Don Junior telepathically to save her life and why don’t why didn’t Vanessa have any sympathy for that? What is a Mrs. blue have any sympathy for the fact that it seem like you guys had a bad marriage why are you always so stupid about the simple concepts?

“ she slept with a ghost. Why are they so stupid because they are says Jalisg

“ are Vanessa and Joe still together to some degree

How much looks disturbed he has several women that he still is working things out with

“ so 30 or 40 years from now 50 years to know Vanessa Trump could end up on Martha’s Vineyard with Jackie or on Cape Cod with me sitting across from me acting like my aunt

That’s correct yes, that’s the way that you’ve decided to play the cards that you were given

“So Michael, so Michael is Michael’s incredible.” says an Illuminati woman.

More later.

Dreams by Fleetwood Mac plays.

Lacey is done.

“Lem…Michael…Louis…Harold…I’m not trying.” says Lacey. “I’m done helping you be men.”

Hamish nods in approval. Mr. Dawood laughs in agreement.

The song plays on.

F. Scott Fitzgerald sits and analyses it all.

“What is going on Scott? Because I am sick and tired of trying to figure out what’s going on.” says Lacey.

“You’re not wrong. Sweetie, you’re not wrong.” says Lem.

“I just about made love with Michael in a car at a party in the 1960’s. …I don’t want you to lose me.” says Lacey. “Does it bother you when I sleep with other people?”

“That’s not damaged. You have a reason for asking that. Write your novel tonight and it’ll make sense.” says Lem. “Yes! It bothers me.”

“Then who do I belong to?!?” asks Lacey.

“Me.” says Lem.

“Is that what’s best for Michael?!?” asks Lacey.

“If we’re better off together then yes.” says Lem.

“Enough!!! Let them sort it out!” yells JD Rockefeller.

More later.

“It’s over! It’s me. I’ve won.” says Lem.

“Really though?!” says Lacey.

(Editing will be completed tomorrow)