Keen to Cross the Pond

If there’s an Illuminati for the last three years…they’ve ludicrously assumed I’m not real. …Maybe there’s no Illuminati. Maybe it’s just demons attacking Lacey to make her more miserable. …But if there is an Illuminati…they’ve made some ludicrous assumptions.

Why ludicrous? 1. Because…this is obviously me. It’s my tone of voice. It’s my manner of speaking. She’s not writing her own thoughts. And if you’re able to read that sort of thing in writing…you should be able to tell. …This isn’t her.

2. I’m telling her things only I would know. …Like how I meant my words sarcastically when I talked about Jack so adoringly. Sarcastically to just me…because I was fawning as a trauma response to the Kennedy’s narcissism…but sarcastically nonetheless. …Most of my most adoring quotations could be taken as disingenuous bullshit, and they are. …I secretly hated Jack Kennedy. My family felt he’d ruined my life. And he did. And I secretly hated him. …But I felt roped into being his caregiver and “best friend” for reasons of honor…and out of fear and despair. And…I genuinely thought he was a better person than he was. He was a rat. …But I wanted to think…rats didn’t exist. And that…somehow…his narcissistic self-effacing behavior…was sincere. Not just…manipulation. …But that was before people knew that much about narcissism. I had no idea how evil and…close to incapable of much progress he was.

3. JACK KENNEDY WAS A NARCISSIST. …If you study his behavior with an authentic, mature, intelligent perspective you can tell he’s a clinical narcissist. An actually diagnosable narcissist. According to the DSM. He’s a full-fledged narcissist. …He’s not just an evil hearted jerk. There’s something wrong with him. …HE WAS NOT NORMAL. … …So…HOW…could ANYBODY…man, woman, non-binary people…how could ANYONE…be truly in love with him? It’s IMPOSSIBLE. …You could fall in love with his facade. You could fall in love with his…body? But…I say body cautiously because he actually was kind of ugly naked. …I’m sorry, it’s true. …So…you’d have had to find his personality attractive. And a good part of his “personality” was a lie. …I’M DEAD.

Are You Serious by Andrew Bird plays.

I’m DEAD. I…am…DEAD. …I’m DEAD. …You New Age gurus truly are insane if you think I as a ghost…haven’t figured out things about my own life in the over 40 years since I died that I didn’t know before. I…would NEVER still be with him! …WHY!? …He was a narcissistic fool! …Why…would anyone still choose to be with him? After death? …Don’t you see!? …I’m dead. …And when you die you still care about your kids and…your parents…but…on friendships and romantic relationships…where there’s a different dynamic…you can stop caring. Almost entirely. You can also call in love with other people. Why? Because you see so much more. …Right!? …You understand so much. And…you’re dead…so there’s nothing you can do about it. …And it’s HELL for those of us who made extremely serious mistakes while we were alive. I’m living in a sort of Hell. …But…it’s not actually Hell. And I have grace for it…because…of Lacey’s love for me, in part. …Because she’s…mine. No sharing. …Except…I never shared Jack, so don’t get the wrong idea. Because I never had him. There’s no way you can ever fully have a narcissist. …Or even have them at all. …He was an AWFUL friend. He was an AWFUL lover. …And a mediocre US President, at best.

Most historians agree that if he hadn’t of been shot…we’d regard him as mediocre. And he was. Very…mid, as you’d say today.

A lot of the fawning things I said were impossible. As in, they CANNOT be real. It’s IMPOSSIBLE. …A hateful, self-obsessed asshole doesn’t make the best friend anybody could ever have. I was FAWNING. I was LYING, in a sense. There’s no way…what I said could actually be how I genuinely experienced him. THINK ABOUT IT! …He was a jerk. He was an absolute loser. …HOW IN THE WORLD…COULD I BE LAYING OUT…REALITY!? …I WAS FAWNING!!!

Think about it. …Even if I was gay or bisexual or pansexual…I couldn’t have been truly in love with him or happy. …It’s IMPOSSIBLE.

Look…Jackie moved on. At first she was devastated but she loved other men. Possibly more. You know that! You’ve written books about her and Bobby. …You know Jack and her were a thing…but not necessarily the most supreme thing. …And part of that was Jack’s narcissism. He was genuinely unlovable. Narcissists actually are. And that’s a part of their problem nobody ever sees, it seems. …You can love the part of them they let you see…but in their psychological dysfunction…they obscure a part of their psyche in constant self-protection. So…you can’t fully love them. And they know that…and it’s actually part of why they are so touchy, in my opinion. They…know they’re not fully loved…because they’re liars. And…it’s their living Hell. They’re their absolute worst enemies. …And yet convincing them to sincerely try is often very difficult.

But you know…often…they do so much damage…people can’t care anymore. Because a part of them meant it, so to speak. Or they simply…ruin…things. …There are no perfect people…and when you keep abusing others…people see your real flaws and it’s hard to see why you could love someone after you lose your safety with them…when they have such serious flaws and inadequacies. …There are some people like Harold and Brett…who get confused because she was narcissistic…but…he found her so perfect he can still manage to fall back in love with her to some degree…but…then there’s the bad memories to deal with. The Earthly memories. …It’s exceedingly rare for an evil narcissist to be with their living lover in Heaven. Usually it’s too far gone. …And JFK was an evil narcissist. …And what we had…wasn’t that great. And he definitely went too far. THINK ABOUT IT! …HE WENT TOO FAR!!!

What did we have supposedly anyway!? …You are are SO damn quick to call us soulmates nowadays. …But we were such different men. And such different people. …What values did we even have in common?

See…you see photos of us as teenagers laughing, being…goofy…posing sexually as Jack organized it…(and it’s irrelevant in this context even if I did it)…and you make HUGE assumptions. …You draw erroneous conclusions based on my smile. …Based on my laugh. …Because it has to be something that stupid. …You consent to the Kennedy’s mythology based on some observation. …And I (and Lacey) can’t imagine what else it could be. …We think it’s my…fun. My smile and laughter. …And that’s a hilariously stupid analysis, to be brutally honest…but…I’m trying not to judge.

…Some things are impossible to smile through. It’s PHYSICALLY IMPOSSIBLE. …Like excruciating pain. Lacey’s last delivery was barely medicated, if at all, and…she screamed in pain. And I don’t think…it was physically possible for her to keep smiling. Actually, I know it was. …And…to be honest…if…I was at all attracted to men…Jack’s wedding would have been too painful for me. I couldn’t have smiled sincerely. …People think they’re being mysterious or clever sometimes hiding their pain? I’ve seen numerous posts on Facebook about suicide and tragic people who claim they have fooled people with their hidden pain behind their smiles…but that’s not real. …Maybe far too many people are stupid enough to fall for it…but Lacey’s not often one of them. And actually…in the past…people were more like that. More perceptive. …We read each other better. Maybe it’s lead poisoning. Maybe it’s evolution. Whatever it is…it’s not good. And…as repressed as we supposedly were…we could actually see those things better. …And…yet…I had no such sadness. …You know if you really look…you could do what we did quickly. You’d just have to try harder. …You’re not incapable. So look! Actually look at my face at Jack’s wedding. I’m not nearly sad enough. You can tell! It’s my eyes. It’s my minor facial muscles. It’s my stance. I’m HAPPY. …I’m…feeling joy. …And while I could feel that…if I’m too…self-denying…and too empathetically concerned with Jack…there’s no way anyone could feel that if they felt any love or attraction for him. It’s TOTALLY IMPOSSIBLE. It’d be too painful. …It’s PROOF.

So…yes…it’s possible I swore off men…and find Lacey…so perfect…Jack seems like an embarrassing mistake…if I was at all homosexual. But…I wasn’t attracted to men. I was molested by an Episcopalian priest when I was 13. And…combined with my father’s death…I had very little chance to understand what had happened. And then Jack took over my life and I didn’t have any means of escape. …I’ve told Lacey he violently demanded sex…and it was never consensual…in any real way…and that he essentially kept me hostage…as did his family (Ted)…but…she’s not sure fest ti think…and since I’m a ghost…I don’t at all find that hurtful. …How would she know!? …If that’s me it sounds unlikely. Jack didn’t live in that reality fully. He believed he was undeniably unfathomably loved…by choice. Not because he was forcing himself on others and psychologically manipulating them into believing they should or did love him. And he chose to live in that lie.

No. It’s impossible I could ever have been happy. At all. The way he lived. The way he was. Impossible. …And it’s obvious we had what to him what was sexual contact. …And there’s no way…if I was at all attracted to men…I could have not been hurt by him. Some pure friendships are sexually impossible, as in, they don’t work at all. So…no…we obviously weren’t just friends. If I was attracted to men at all. It’s impossible it was was friendship. …However…if I was straight…it’s possible, except…he’d very likely have been bisexual…and, again, he was too narcissistic to be even my true friend.

Later.

“So you weren’t gay at all?” says a reader.

“Not at all.” says Lem.

“You can’t turn straight! Nobody would ever do that.” says the reader. “So I guess you had to be straight? Or bisexual?”

“No. You could do that.” says Lem. “Very easily.”

“No. …I’m gay. …I know.” he says, disdainfully.

“NO! …It’s entirely possible.

…And act-“ says Lem.

“No! …You meant you didn’t care about anything but sex, drugs, and money.” says the gay reader. “She just doesn’t understand the life.”

“What’s the life?” says Lem.

“You know? Partying. Constant luxury.” he says, as if he really knows.

“No! I’d bet she knows more about it than you do!” says Lem.

He thinks.

“So you don’t care about monogamy? Or intimacy? Or building anything? …You just care about eating, pooping, and looking cool?” says Lem. “So you have no soul? You’re just a consumerist idiot?”

“I guess so.” he says. “But so were you!!”

“THAT…IS…LUDICROUS! …If you’re just a consumerist idiot…why does your take on me matter anyway? You’re just a blabbering nothing.” says Lem.

“Because I don’t think monogamy exists.” he says, as if he REALLY knows A LOT.

“So you’re incapable of forming human sexual intimacy?” says Lem. “Or enjoying it?”

“I can enjoy intimacy for a night.” he says, laughing and crossing his legs primly.

“That’s not real intimacy.” says Lem.

He sighs. Looks upset. “I just don’t think…there is anything else.”

“Are you a diagnosed narcissist? Or do you have Avoidant Personality Disorder?” says Lem

“I’m GAY!” he says. He’s white, upper-middle class, fashionable, gay and male.

“That’s not a mental-illness anymore.” says Lem. “So what’s your disorder?”

Later.

“I just can’t believe…you’d go straight.” he says.

“I’ve always been straight.” says Lem.

He smirks.

“No. I really was straight.

But…let’s say I wasn’t. Let’s say I was bisexual. …Why would you have a problem then?” says Lem. “Or pansexual.”

He sighs. Rolls his eyes. Shrugs. “Fine. Okay.” he says.

“You know…it is my choice. Not yours.” says Lem.

He looks uneasy. Thinks.

“You’re bizarrely authoritarian on this. All of you.

…I’m guessing you think this is some backhanded attempt to make an argument about homosexuality in the Bible. …But it’s not.” says Lem. “That’s a separate conversation.”

“How can you say that!??” he says, aghast.

“I…AM…DEAD.” says Lem, annoyed. “I…AM…DEAD.”

He looks stupid, confused and lost…to be brutally honest. Dumbfounded.

“You don’t believe in an afterlife…but this blog has your mind twisted into knots trying to be an atheist?” says Lem.

He nods.

“Well…that’s separate from homosexuality too, you know? …But either homosexuality isn’t allowed in Heaven and it’s for the best…and I’m happy to be rid of it, as it would be an actual affliction in that case…or…it’s moot because I was straight…or…I was pansexual or bisexual…OR…I chose to be heterosexual. …Why couldn’t someone do that? …Think of all of the straight women alive today who might choose to be bisexual in Heaven if homosexuality is allowed in Heaven. …You really don’t think that’s possible!?!?” says Lem. “What if…God told me that there were several wonderful women who would love me…and I thought, ‘WHY NOT!?’ …And so I tried it. And…Lacey is amazing.

Think about it! …She’s publicly writing about us. Risking her reputation. Just a bit. …Bravely daring to openly love me. …And…she’s extremely beautiful. Very intelligent. I get her. And she gets me. …And my family adores her. …And to be honest…she’s so perfect…and I’m so into her…that even if I was gay…I’d have been extremely tempted to be with her. …We’re that good together. She’s…exactly what I need. And I’m what she needs. …WHY WOULD I GO BACK? …Just to be with some man!? …What would the point of that be??? …Aren’t you really trying to say that a. Men are inherently superior to women, and b. That homosexuality is also inherently superior? …And neither of those are true. That’s misogynistic bullshit. …And…actually I think you’re insecure about the possible inferiority of homosexuality. …Because heterosexuality is definitely not inferior to homosexuality. …Or what!? What’s your grand, infallible argument?” says Lem.

He thinks. “But why would you do that!?”

“Because! I tried be gay my whole damn life! …And…I died of drugs. At 65. Alone. Miserable. Suffering. …And…my family wanted me to get married. …If I was completely gay…I was so in a time when it was shunned. …And most people were married. And…I was always longing…at least somewhat…for that kind of…depth. …I wasn’t just a lazy, shallow jerk. …I had depth. I was intelligent. …I had deep feelings and deep thoughts. …You all have never put me in any real context, just used me as a mascot or assumed I am your cheerleader from the past. …But actually…while I was alive…MANY people were very happily married. …There were a lot of good marriages and good people. …Not everyone was a lying fool! Not every man was a loser. A lot of people were really, REALLY happy. …And so if I was given the option to become fully straight…and experience that…truly experience that…WHY WOULDN’T I TRY IT!?? …I experimented with so many drugs…sadly…while I was alive. …Do you really think I wouldn’t try heterosexuality!?!” says Lem.

“But God would have made you gay!” he says.

“He would have in that case…but…why would He care!? …Why would it be so problematic to Him to alter your orientation!? If that’s even a thing. …If homosexuality is allowed in Heaven…why would He care that much? …You don’t think…he’d understand!? …I had an incredible amount of trauma related to be gay, if I was. …Why wouldn’t He empathize with that and make me straight? …Let’s say homosexuality is allowed in Heaven! …And a woman was sexually abused by her father…and then raped by her husband. …And then died. …And she died and while she was able to have good relationships with men…she still had a lot of traumatic memories…and so she decided to try homosexuality, because she could. And she found her perfect twin flame? …God would have made her straight…but…her trauma would matter to Him too. …Or you think…if homosexuality is allowed in Heaven…that God would force her…to be with men? Instead of allowing her to feel safe and have some distance from men? …No, maybe there’s no homosexuality allowed in Heaven…and maybe some people are who they are, so to speak…but…if it’s really allowed in Heaven…there could be people like me…who would be so traumatized they might consider being a different orientation.” says Lem.

He thinks.

“Or maybe it’s just not allowed in Heaven.

Either way…it’s LUDICROUS how stubbornly you all hold on to idea…that I’m gay…and madly in love with Jack.” says Lem.

Later.

“Then where are you!?” says the gay man to Lem.

“We’re both spirit and body. …And let me clarify something: I never pretended to be straight. …I was careful with my self-diagnosed homosexuality. At times I felt I was hiding it. But for me hiding it was simply not acting gay intentionally anymore. …So…really just being myself.” says Lem. “I was straight.”

He thinks. “How did you outsmart Elliott Roosevelt?”

“I was always meant to be with Lacey. …The world is just that fallen. Things are just that bad. …Well…I’m just meant to be with her so…I guess I just carefully and slowly chipped away at it. …Like a very long depressing game of chess.” says Lem.

“When did you decide to kill yourself…if you did?” he says.

“I had always been suicidal. …After we lost our money, I was molested, and my dad died. I was suicidal. …But I decided to actually go for it…Valentine’s Day 1981. …If I did it. …I had decided to give myself until 65 to live…after Bobby died. See if anything got better. And if it didn’t…my plan was to kill myself. Part of md hoped it would. …But I had that in the back of my head. To just die. At 65.

But I killed myself on his birthday…or was aiming to…when I had a heart attack…because I felt he’d ruined my life. I felt he was…a monster. …And so determined to die…on the day he was born…on Valentine’s Day 1981. …I went to a restaurant. (Lacey’s going out on a limb writing this part.) …A French restaurant. In New York City. …And I bought a glass of wine. Red wine. And I sat there…and watched beautiful people…who were SO in love. …And I felt…like DYING. I just couldn’t wait. Not for my birthday, not for any significant day. …I planned to die that night. A simple overdose. …But…(again, Lacey can’t tell if she’s hearing me right right now or not so I’d admonish you to keep that in mind)…I went home…mildy drunk…and sat down…and looked at all of things…and thought about it. Really thought. You know? …And…I looked at my Playboy magazine…and…decided that…I wanted to live just a little longer. …Just to give God a tiny bit more time. You know? One last chance. For something miraculous to happen. Christmas had been difficult too, but…then things got a little better for a short bit…and…I had hoped they’d get better again. Maybe I’d find some reason to keep living. …But instead they just got worse. And by April I was only excited to die. I planned to die on his birthday but then questioned that. …I wanted to get the timing just right. So…she either misheard me and I meant to die the day before…or I actually was trying to die the day of and accidentally died the day before.” says Lem.

Later.

“Lem…if you didn’t get any sexual pleasure out of Bobby and Jack sleeping with wonton why did you encourage it?” asks NBC (if there’s an Illuminati).

“I didn’t get sexual pleasure out of it. …Like I derived no pleasure. However…I did like the thought of sleeping with women. …And since I wasn’t doing it…it thrilled me and made me vicariously happy to see other men doing it. …I loved the idea of it. …I never encouraged Jack to hurt Jackie. …I never encouraged Bobby to hurt anyone either…and if I did…it was to make him look evil and ruin his reputation. …And etc.. …What sexual pleasure would I derive…from them sleeping with women? …As a gay man. …Even if I picked them. …Someone could have a weird fetish like that…but…they’d still want a relationship. And…I’m not convinced such a fetish could really exist. …So what fetish- Or rather…what are you exactly imagining?” says Lem.

“So…you let them sleep with these women…to get them…to sexually act out…around you.” says a reader.

“And I don’t want anyone? Or anything? …I just want them to act out around me? And it doesn’t bother me that they’re never faithful to me?” says Lem.

They think.

“Eww.” says a feminist reader. “We’re gross. He’s right.”

“I can see a gay guy luring someone that way…but…eventually he wants something. Or he tries to get something. And…he’d eventually become very, very jealous. Especially if he didn’t give up. And got somewhere. …I seemingly was jealous according to some people…but not nearly enough. …You know…sometimes I think you all know I’m straight. …And you enjoy thinking of me as naughty straight man.

Let’s think about that for a moment. …Who am I? …A rich…sophisticated…sexy…devilish man. …A knowing man. …And what am I all about? Sex. Drugs. …Being elite. …Who do I sleep with? Well…officially men. Right? …But who do I really sleep with? …Well…you’ve never thought about it. …So who is it!?!?! …Some…model. Some hot, impossibly sexy…impossibly perfect…model. A woman. …And it’s wild. And…she’s madly in love with me. …And I’m probably madly in love with her. But…we don’t talk about it! Right!? …Because that’s WAY too personal. …AND…she’s dead. Or on another planet. Or…missing somehow. …And you hate her because she’s IMPOSSIBLE to match. …But mostly because you all identify with Jack. …He’s scrawny. And middle class. And has facial features that can be handsome or downright awful. He’s worse looking in person. …That’s what I think you all think, possibly. In your subconscious. …That you stole me from my wife who’s better then you…through JFK.

But did you really steal me!? No!!! …AND…also…you don’t find me that sexy anyway. …Not personally. …You actually think I am. …But…what?! …I’m gay? No. You think I belong to Jack? …No. …I’m dead.

If there’s reincarnation…I actually am not…nearly as evil as you think…but…I am a dead British aristocrat…and Constantine. …And it’s like Vladimir Putin. …It feels weird to have a crush on him. Or come on to him. Right? …And…I’m not supposed to have lived the life I did. …So when I was molested…a part of me died. And…you can sense that. So while you celebrate Jack. Because that feels like a victory for America and the middle class…you also feel weird about me. You know I’m not to be touched. And I’m not. Lacey is mine for eternity. If there’s reincarnation she’s Scotia. Yes, the actual Scotia. And…for over a decade…she was my BELOVED wife.

If there’s not reincarnation…and there really might not be…I think I’m attractive but…just not quite in the right way for most people. …For Lacey…it’s…impossible to replace me. She’s completely incapable of getting over me. And she will be for eternity. And I for her. …But I wonder if there’s not reincarnation…if I’m good-looking but not…your absolute idea of profound perfection.

…What’s perfect to you? …Joe Kennedy Junior with a better torso? …Or Rock Hudson if you’re not straight? …What, of men from my generation, is perfect to you?” says Lem.

They think.

“Anyway…goodnight.” says Lem.

The Kennedys never were the Kennedys. And I never told anyone that. Because why bother? I did tell people that Joe Kennedy Junior would have been a better US President than Jack. And that’s not at all what you’d expect me to say. I’m Kirk LeMoyne Billings. You would likely expect me to say that I’m still in awe of Jack and his amazing, epic US Presidency. Jack Kennedy my hero. Right? …But that’s not what I said.

Jack had a bitter rivalry with Joe. Joe almost always won. But I sided with Joe.

Jack acted, after Joe’s death, like he was the inferior brother and that it was a great sad honor to walk in his footsteps. Bobby did the same. But for Jack it was a lie. Performative nonsense. …He was a narcissist. And while I don’t think he celebrated Joe’s death…he definitely didn’t think he was genuinely inferior to him.

Lacey’s disgust about Jack comes from me. And my disgust isn’t that of a former lover. If I was gay at all I’d have moved on by now. Because I’m that sort of person. …No. My hatred of the Kennedys is righteous anger.

Joe would have been the better man. He wouldn’t have been assassinated. Why? Because HE LOVED LACEY.

Don’t Panic by Coldplay plays.

Jackie isn’t Lacey. And Jack loved Jackie and let Marilyn die. …Joe wouldn’t have let Marilyn die. Why? Because he would have known…HE COULD DIE HIMSELF. …Joe died because he was desperate for his father’s approval and he fell in love with Pat Wilson and couldn’t handle it. Not because he was as stupid as Jack. And yes, I’m sorry, but Jack was actually quite stupid. …He had no sense of that though, and I only fully realized that as I aged and after death. He faked humility and I fell for it.

Just by Radiohead plays.

Why did I lie? Omission. …Because if there’s reincarnation I…am Emperor Constantine. And a dead Spencer cousin. …And I secretly still found America to be a “cute little experiment.” …Someday if there’s reincarnation Princess Diana will give Lacey a hug when she dies. Because she understands Lacey’s pain as a woman. And very few other women do the way she does. She understands her psychology. And while Lacey tends to be closer to Queen Elizabeth than Diana, if there’s reincarnation, Diana is Lacey’s actual relative. And she’s strong enough to handle Lacey’s rage. She gets it. And Lacey- She knows Lacey actually cares about her a great deal. …She doesn’t care that Lacey is Scotia in the same way Lacey doesn’t care that she’s Princess Diana. They care. And offer appropriate respect. But…in what would be my family…we get…intense. It’s not a temper. But I’m like that and hid that from people to get along with everyone and be good…as Lem…but I’m an incredibly intense person. And Jack Spencer and I are actual cousins, if there’s reincarnation and…it’s a family trait it seems. So…if there’s reincarnation…my Billings family…is only…part of my soul. And that’s a hideous topic, if there’s reincarnation. My British mother and father refuse to let my Billings parents off the hook. They feel they ruined me.

But is there reincarnation? What if there isn’t!?

You know…I’m incredibly intense anyway. Secretly. Very secretly.

Come Together by The Beatles plays.

Why didn’t I tell America I didn’t take it seriously? Because Jack loved Jackie.

The song ends.

3 x 0 by Pinback plays.

Lacey is A GENUUS. A real one. Not a pretentious one. She’s a sexy ditz. My sexy ditz. Feminine. But…she’s also a real…courageous…wild…genius. Free. By nature. Impossible to conquer. Regardless of reincarnation or not. Sweet. …And that good-natured, Godly rebelliousness…makes a brilliant queen. And Joe Kennedy Junior knew that. His father did not. Jack…barely understood it…but wasn’t as dumb as his father. And…yet…Joe died.

Sweet Disposition by The Temper Trap plays.

Lacey has a sweet disposition.

Joe’s death to please his father…lost me. I lost interest in America when that happened. If there’s reincarnation. …It was so…stupid. …You can’t let him die. You can’t. …If he dies…it’s all over. Because he was the only way America made sense. …Joe was far better looking than Jack. And even with his clothes off he still managed to be attractive. Jack just had an ugly body. And I didn’t care because I was actually straight…but he was awful. Small penis, scrawny. …Joe had a subpar build to many men…but he was taller…and bigger…and had a better face. And he was more masculine and smarter. Joe Kennedy Senior favored Joe Junior for a reason. And everyone feels sorry for Jack…but you can’t. Not when you’re trying to RUN THE WORLD. …Not in that way.

Evil is UGLY. Ugly people aren’t necessarily evil. But…America needed more. Jack wasn’t good enough, to be blunt.

…If Jack had been humble and married someone who he loved like Lacey…I’d have taken America more seriously. But…he preferred Jackie. …And Jackie was…very much the younger sister. …She was…shallow and…so confused. …She has almost no sense of a great many important things that to Lacey are painfully rudimentary. …Yes, to Lacey they are…boring. But to Jackie they’re…elusive, mysterious and…COMPLEX. …Jack was supposed to be the US President according to his father…who was what today would be a billionaire. Lower-billionaire. But a billionaire, nonetheless.

Smells Like Teen Spirit by Nirvana plays, but don’t look at the cover art. This song is genius. Don’t let the art on the cover ruin this…brilliant piece of art.

And he didn’t have a right to marry whoever he wanted. Except…he could have. But…if he wanted to play along with his father and keep getting money however and whenever he wanted…he had to marry someone acceptable and good enough. …I obviously wouldn’t work as a man. And…no. I didn’t care. …I truly stuck around because I had to (Jack made me) and because…I was…of the opinion that life just happened to you. And Jack just was there. By chance. …Lacey is like her father Tom. Tom is like Gatsby. …You design EVERYTHING. But if there’s reincarnation he’s AN EGYPTIAN PHARAOH. And he was considered a sort of deity by some. …I felt…life…just…happened. And…if I hadn’t been cut off my own soul because of sexual abuse…I’d have possibly been less resigned. But…I felt resigned to plod along with the crowd and do whatever. You know? Just…whatever. So…I did. …And if Lacey had been there that would have instantly changed. But “Smells Like Teen Spirit” was written after I died…and…Lacey knows that song. It’s her spirit. Not mine. To her it’s an echo of some of her deepest thoughts. Kurt Cobain loves that. He gets her in that way. …But I was dead when that song was written.

Yes. Lacey wore Teen Spirit. Yes…the dead Kennedys are in denial. Not THE NILE. You can’t conquer Ancient Egypt. And certainly not as trifling Jack Kennedy aided by Joe and Bobby. Why can’t you conquer Ancient Egypt? Because…it’s An Ancient EGYPT. …God Himself had to rescue the Jews. Using tremendous displays of power. …They’re very hard to conquer. …And if I’m Constantine I’m the one saying that. Napoleon would agree with me, regardless.

…They really did intuit CHRISTIANITY. Before Judaism. And God is God…and He was merciful…and…there’s a very good reason attacking Lacey is SO serious. And if there’s reincarnation it’s no coincidence the Illuminati did that while trying to profit off of selling children to be molested. It’s like walking around poking yourself in the eye with a stick…while trying to run the world. WHY!? …Why…are humans today in charge poking out their own eyes…metaphorically…with sticks…for fun!? …Yes. I can see why some people wonder if it’s the End Times. You all are incredibly perverse. At its worst this current generation gets pleasure from poking its own eyes out…slowly…with sticks.

“But they’re just kids!” says an Illuminati woman.

WHO ARE THEY?

“Poor.” says an American woman in the Illuminati.

AMERICANS ARE ALL POOR. …You destroyed social class. The British didn’t. REMEMBER!? …So…that might be why you all can’t handle Lacey. Because she’s explaining back to you why you’re in pain and it’s REAL from poking out your own eyes. Yes…as poor bastards from birth genetically you managed to find a way to get pleasure from metaphorically poking out your own eyes. …It’s…not technically stupid. According to the current IQ test. But sissies like me…from way back…would never have thought it made sense. But that’s the combination of poverty, intelligence, invention, and actual evil we have today. …It makes sense to you all. …And sadly it’s PROFOUNDLY perverse.

See…Mollock…loved rich people. Remember? Because we don’t do stuff like that. We might put children into an early grave. …But we don’t…brutally torture children from the depths of Hell…and then use our real poor heritage as a sort of metaphorical tax write-off. But that’s how evil and stupid people are today in power. …We were evil too…and in that way…incredibly stupid. Because evil leads to even wise men becoming imbeciles. It’s our humanity. But…being poor doesn’t exclude you from being stupid when you’re evil…and actually since Mollock hates poor people…it might make it more likely you’ll do something far worse. Remember? Satan isn’t the compassionate one. Christ is. So…your poverty will be used against you. Your redemption comes through Christ…not Mollock. Not Satan. Not evil. In a way…it’s very simple.

“He’s right and to be honest I think I have been yelled at by both my mother and Gunhild in the last two weeks.” says Lacey’s Aunt Maria. 

“Yeah!” says her husband.

“In our family that Lacey believes is old money and I kind of think it is I am not in charge. Nobody in my family is really. But the people who are the leaders in the family are HB Nesheim’s daughters if anyone is. And-and they are not perfect people…but I don’t think that they have children who would be as angry at them as Lacey is at us…and she’s not making stuff up and yet our family doesn’t have at large the sort of dysfunction that the country does.

We are cold…and we’re not a particularly loving family in that way, but we aren’t as unsafe and dysfunctional as the US. …I’ve read some of the comments from people who have questionable concern for her and I don’t love Lacey and protect her the way that I should but I am not stupid. …I was raised well and I can tell that you people don’t necessarily care as much as you pretend to or insist that you do.

She asked a very simple question. She asked a young woman who commented on her post-her post how her family was. The young woman never responded to her. And I don’t wanna hear some stupid excuse that isn’t true; if she really cared about Lacey and was prepared for an actual conversation with her in the state that she’s in right now if she took Lacey seriously as a person she should’ve responded and told her how her family was doing. It was a simple question. But she didn’t respond at all. She had nothing to say.

And I’m not saying that I care about her as much as I should. However…we were raised with a sort of framework that is sort of an understanding of social protocol and what’s appropriate and not appropriate and I found that deplorable! It’s incredibly insulting to her intelligence and there’s one thing you should never do whether you’re playing poker or riding a country or having a discussion with someone like her…you don’t insult your opponent’s intelligence! Not in that way. And I-I think that’s part of what people did in the perfume community that was so offensive to her on such a deep level. It was a very particular sort of insult.

I am not a good person, but I am not an idiot and neither is Lacey. She took down that post because of Katie’s response and lack of response. That post and the one after it about her name were very much an indictment of our family and we might’ve deserved it but they were taken down and there’s very little chance that they’re going to go back up because Katie felt the need to seem like a good person. As far as I can tell I don’t think she gave a fuck about Lacey. I think she just wanted to seem like a nice person to everybody watching. …And it’s sad you don’t think I see things like that. You don’t think people in my class see things like that and then use that as an excuse to treat people like shit because we do; your stupidity is grosser than ours. Grow-up!” says Lacey’s Aunt Maria. “I’m not saying your feelings don’t matter. …I’m saying that poverty is real. And poverty is ugly.”

“I’m putting that post back up. Just to point this out. Or to hope there’s some way out.” says Lacey.

With some doing Lacey puts the post back up.

“We do watch.” says Maria.

Lacey shakes her head in disgust. “There has to be some way to make this concept work.”

“Yes! …But the middle class hegemony wasn’t necessarily good. Because it ruined the middle class. …And yet it was just the middle class. …And it didn’t last long enough.” says Maria.

“Does Katie hate me?” says Lacey.

“She could have been hurt.” says an Illuminati psychic.

“Is she bisexual!? Was she coming on to me?” says Lacey.

“I hear you.” says Jeff Bezos.

“Oh my gosh! That’s annoying!!!” says Lacey, rolling her eyes. “I’m REALLY NOT AT ALL ATTRACTED TO WOMEN!!”

“I know.” says Bill Gates.

“I’ve made that SO CLEAR.” says Lacey.

“No. I just gave up.” says Katie.

“WHY??” says Matt Nesheim.

“Because…I was reaching out. And she didn’t appreciate it!” says Katie.

“She’s the one suffering though.” says Maria. “Why the hell does that have anything to do with you?!”

“Did you actually care? Or just violently insist on it?” says Lacey.

“No. I don’t think you care about me.” says Katie.

“BUT THE POINT WAS TO CARE ABOUT LACEY.” yells Maria.

“It should still be to care about me somewhat.” says Katie.

“NO IT SHOULD NOT!!!!” yells Maria.

“Well! I was hurt.” says Katie.

“THEN YOU SHOULD NOT…HAVE TRIED TO CARE!!” yells Maria. “What THE HELL did you want!?! A pat on the back?!”

“She wasn’t mean to you.” says child watching.

“But I told her how much she meant to me.” says Katie. “Why wasn’t that reciprocated?”

“Because she’s not a lesbian.” says Becca Fuester. “You don’t mean that much to her in that way. She cares about you. A lot. Why isn’t that good enough!?”

“Because I cared more!” yells Katie.

Becca stares at her. “So she means more to you somehow then you mean to her. SO WHAT!?”

“How DARE SHE!?!” says Katie.

“How dare she not care about you as much you care about her?” asks a perfume collector.

“I tried!!!” yells Katie. “But she just wasn’t receptive!”

“NO, YOU WERE LOOKING TO FEEL SPECIAL!” yells Maria.

Later.

“Katie…I just confronted you. So if you’re not a huge convoluted bitch…you’re getting a chance to say something.” says Lacey.

“I followed you on Instagram.” says Katie.

“Okay!?” says Lucretia.

“Katie…are you bisexual?” asks Jeff Bezos.

“She might be.” says Bill Gates.

“If you were trying to hit on me that was offensive. I’m actually straight and you’re being mean. Because you should probably know that by now. I’ve been very clear about it on Instagram and Facebook and people don’t usually have to be that clear but I do because people read way too much into everything that I do instead of taking what I’m saying like I actually mean it.” says Lacey.

“Lacey you have a Scottish accent that’s really creepy because it’s just the way you talk and it’s not even an accent.” says a Scottish psychic to Lacey.

“You know I’ve never noticed that before, but I do. That started when I was probably a teenager. I decided to do my own interpretation of a valley girl accent that I thought was better and if I am reincarnated, it’s probably just Scottish or I made something Scottish that isn’t even Scottish.” says Lacey.

“Oh my gosh, that is Scottish. You’re just you’re just doing a weird like Scottish thing with your words without the accent.” says her cousin Grant.

“I should’ve been more aggressive and I’m sorry that I wasn’t.” says Matt Nesheim to Lacey.

“And then had an affair, Matt!?” says Kate.

“What was better, suicide, or trying to have an affair with my fake second cousin in a bad marriage?” says Matt.

“Katie were you hitting on her?” asks the Illuminati.

“Don’t ask her that! I think that would be embarrassing to her either way.” says Lacey’s neighbor.

“If I was, I’m not saying it was but if I was, I was hurt and it’s just hard to except that she’s straight.” says Katie.

“But she’s literally said very clearly that she is and that people are harassing her by asking her out at this point.” says a feminist.

“But people do that! People do that!” says Katie.

“I really hope I’m not talking to you because that’s sad.” says Lacey.

“People do what, Katie?” says Lem.

“People hide that inner part of themselves that means something to them.” says Katie.

“ oh, like JFK had the inner part of himself that only love was ever allowed to see and that’s why we allow him to be a narcissistic asshole and then I’m still smiling at his wedding and hiding all of his massive pain that we assume had to have been there or we think that polyamorous people don’t have emotions or some thing when their partners fuck other people and that doesn’t bother them at all. When you know whoever they’re with is like in capable of being with just them we really don’t Katie understand people as well as you think we do and honestly I think we’ve made some pretty dramatic assumptions in the last hundred years that are false, this paragraph will be totally cleaned up but it’s not going to be right now because I’m getting pissed off. My wife is a woman she’s never had a penis. I was born in America. My father was not, and some people might not even think I’m black they might think I’m African and think that there’s a difference but I am an American. My wife is a woman she’s not Michael even if I am bisexual and a lot of this bullshit that people believe it’s just bullshit. It’s just convoluted bullshit and the sad truth is if there is an illuminati people don’t really know that they know that kind of but they don’t really know that, if 9/11 was an inside job at all kind of like Pearl Harbor people don’t really know that either they kind of know that but they don’t really know that. Do you wanna know why because it’s a hell of a lot more fun to think that my wife is a woman who used to be a man, and to think that I was born in Africa because it’s crazy and sometimes crazy things can be true, but not always and often times the things that are scary but our conspiracy theories like 9/11 being like Pearl Harbor, or there being an illuminati that uses telepathy that’s essentially just like talking to the dead those are for scarier things to grapple with because in this could be a real block, Lacey’s family and her oil and her beauty and her intelligence and her blood line from her father, might actually mean something.

Why don’t you like that because then you’re you’re scared you’d be scared to talk to her the truth is you were an outcast and she wasn’t in the same way. She tried to be your friend because she didn’t think people were just there appearances you had sick glasses and lazy eye And to Lacey that wasn’t important at all because she’s deeper than that and that’s not stupid. That’s very deep but her being so loving towards you and human wasn’t her being a lesbian so if you’re bisexual, try not to get that confused she actually just cared about you as a person and realize that people are more than just a lazy eye or thick glasses.

It’s actually kind of creepy because Michael had the glasses and Lem might’ve had a slightly lazy eye. Oh, and I don’t think those two things excluded either of them from her affections but they’re men and you’re not a man. I would love to know what it is that you think she’s hiding how do you think she’s hiding it.” says Barack Obama.

Michelle laughs.

“ does that really hurt Michelle when we accuse her of that?” asks a reader.

Barack Obama sighs. “ yes, it hurts me too because to me she’s extremely beautiful and she is beautiful and she’s very intelligent. No she went to Harvard. She worked very hard. Michelle really had an incredible vantage and having good parents and being unusually intelligent and frankly good looking, but she’s never really had advantages that a lot of people have who go to Harvard law school, and she did really pull herself up by her own bootstraps, and she’s never been given credit for that because frankly, I think people are too jealous of her. I really do I think it’s jealousy and maybe it’s not but that’s my gut sense is that you actually understand that Michelle is smarter than most women and prettier than most women and stronger than a lot of women as well and that’s hard for a lot of people to handle. I have made the steaks I’m not saying we’re great people, but I think it’s sad that you choose to go after her gender, and a my birth, instead of actually D dealing with what really bothers you about us as people and letting that be what it is.

Why can’t you take me down by finding me morally reprehensible or thinking of a liar in some other way? Why do you have to say that? I am a cheat about where I was born or that I’m Muslim or is that my wife is up as a man I I do have some Muslim sympathies I do my I know my father was African I do have some, but I am not but I’m not I’m not him I’m not lying about my birth and my wife is a woman we conceived children together.” says Barack Obama.

“ OK so yes I was hitting on you if I was hitting on you slightly. I’ve thought that it was sort of like, ‘Maybe that you just saved me something like oh! I hate certain things from people because I don’t want people to know that part of me?’” says Katie.

“ I think there might be an Asian psychic who is trying to interpret what you’re saying, Katie.” says Lacey. “ but if I’m understanding you correctly or it, there’s some Asian spirit that’s trying to interpret what you’re saying for me or something. Am can you really imagine me saying that those things, though? Does that really seem like my personality?”

“ did you say arm or arm with a Scottish accent? Interpret the person intentionally.” says a reader.

“No, if there’s reincarnation she was Scottish, and if not, then someone was being very silly.” says Eric Little.

“ no I can’t actually see you going out with me if I’m not straight if I was even hitting on you I might not have fun but if I am I was hitting on you I guess I I’d I’ve made up some story in my head that isn’t even you.” says Katie.

“You know what’s sad is that she’s been very clear and that you don’t believe her. What is she supposed to say?” says Matt.

Joe Kennedy Junior weeps. Because he keeps hoping that her rejection of him isn’t real.

“You know it would’ve been really nice if just one of you assholes had bothered to tell her that she’s hot because it hurts like hell to be rejected by her and she has no fucking clue!” Joe yells at most living men.

“ no there was some kid named Justin who was balding in his 20s who was awkward and not really what most people would consider a catch and he told her that she was hot but I don’t think that she took that as any sort of meaningful thing beyond just some objective observation about her like when she looked in the mirror or when older men in their 70s and 80s when she was in her 20s used to tell her that she was hot. It’s like that’s just who she is but she’s a very intelligent incredibly scrupulous person so she would never assume something like that about herself in a sense out of some sort of like humility that’s actually real.” says Lucretia.

“ what if I told her she was hot?” says Katie.

“ you’re not dating her and she’s not attracted to women sweetie, so it wouldn’t work.” says an Illuminati psychic.

“ she just she didn’t dress provocatively, and she actually hid her body from us out of some religious fervor that wasn’t crazy. It was sincere. And we just thought she was weird.” says a guy she went to high school with.

“yeah, it’s just hard for me to accept that somebody as attractive as she is, could really have that hard of a time finding somebody. If I hit on her.” says Katie.

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“well, she has and I was miserable and I masturbated. I did. I was incredibly sexually repressed. I had a massive porn collection. I subscribed to playboy. I went to dirty pictures at 2 o’clock in the morning sometimes when I was high in New York City, and I didn’t care if I was mugged or shot I would’ve been out in the middle of the night looking for heroin anyway, it wasn’t scary- Or drugs in general. I wasn’t too worried if I died. I really didn’t care if I died.

After I was molested, I became suicidal and hid that from people by acting happy all the damn time. because I thought my life was ruined. I really was sort of a romantic person, and I was looking forward to being with a woman when I grew up and being married. my whole life was stolen from me in that moment when that priest molested me when I was about 12 or 13 years old.

So no I had a massive porn collection I’d go to dirty pictures and I would watch stuff I collected playboy and I masturbate it and that’s pathetic but that’s really what up my life was like. I never questioned it because I was suicidal to begin with. I really sincerely thought that I was homosexual. I didn’t wanna ruin someone else’s life by marrying them, and then having to tell them that I had been you know, homosexual or that I’d have a homosexual experience with a priest I didn’t want to scare somebody I didn’t wanna ruin someone’s life and I just couldn’t make myself do it. There were a lot of very mediocre people so to speak to me who I knew could end up with somebody else they were decent people but I thought they were just mediocre. They didn’t arouse me. I mean some but not that much and I went on lots of dates with girls like that And I thought no this isn’t that great you know these women who am who I’m dating don’t really do much for me and I assumed partially that that was you know because I was gay you know and it’s like a really attractive woman of course I would be attracted to them every mad as you know because that was the 1940s and 30s and 50s and I didn’t think that that meant anything I just assumed attractive women attract men Gay straight or otherwise woman is a woman in a man is a man. If Lacey had been there, I would’ve realized that it was ludicrous, but she’s also my twin flame as you call it we’re together for eternity. I can’t tell if you’re reading this blog or not from Lacey‘s perspective. But if you are, I really am a real ghost. She’s a good writer, but that’s not what’s happening in that way on this block she’s actually talking to real dead people and they’re really telling her things to say and it’s true. We really are sleeping together. She’s been sleeping with me consistently for over three years. I’m her fella and my kids even who I am her kids and there’s nothing that will ever change that Katie and I don’t think you seem to understand her interest in me, as a ghost is not her way of hiding homosexuality.

I think sometimes people think that she’s hiding some thing like being graphic or being blunt but I am not sure what it is that you want her to say because she’s not the person you imagine her to be and you’ll just have to deal with that reality. She’s a sweetheart she is the good things that you remember to I think but she’s not somebody who would be making this up and I don’t think she knows what it is that you guys are looking for for her to say.” says Lem.

“ what’s going on with that woman on Instagram who claims that Lenny to Paula stocking her?” says a reader.

“ i’ve been told that she actually is being targeted by the actual government.” says Lacey. “ people have a very violent reaction to her but some of those people aren’t even real some of the people following her and writing stuff are actually people who’ve been hired to decimator like to defame her character in a passive aggressive way. A lot of the people who comments aren’t real people or they’re being influenced supernaturally to attack her by.

He’s a celebrity. He’s actually in the illuminati if there is one and part of how he’s getting away with what he’s doing is because of his actual connections to very real power him they illuminati started inculcating random ass celebrities like Chris Hayes, and Diego and Aaron and him and other low level celebrities years ago because people were asking so many questions And they felt the need to get even minor celebrities in the illuminati to try to control the message.

It’s a power and control thing for them and so there are a lot of people like him who are in the illuminati who aren’t that famous like people barely know who they are but they’re in the illuminati because they’re just famous enough where it’s like a threat if they can’t control them.

My sense is that they’re trying to experiment on her to try to see what she’s going to do and to try to sort of control her and basically just experiment to see how she reacts to everything. She’s unusually intelligent. She is wealthy she’s blonde she’s articulate she’s very gregarious, and I wouldn’t trust her because I don’t think she’s entirely a safe person herself And some people were commenting on her. Her post might actually be real when they’re being antagonistic towards her but a decent number of people are targeting her for very creepy reasons again, I wouldn’t trust her. I would never trust that woman that being said she could actually be somewhat authentic.

I think that she is possibly being stocked. I don’t think that there are people who are working openly though for the for the US government there could be some people who have done some thing, but I think a decent number of them have been hired by somebody with some evil intent And I I mean I I think people need to start being more imaginative and less silly when they analyze stuff like that, she is a lot like me and someways and her personality and she’s obviously well-off and people have a hard time with that. For some reason I don’t know what it is But I think you guys have a very hard time with people like her and like me I think she’s bisexual I’m straight. I am more old money. I don’t know if she is or not but she did go to Pepperdine that’s not easy school to get into. She went there twice if I’m not mistaken and no, she lives in a nice house And I’m pretty sure she has extensive expensive extensions in her hair I just I don’t think she’s an. I think she’s a rather well off person so I don’t know if that’s what’s making people angry about or when they do a shout out or what it is if it’s her personality But I I personally think someone’s using her to experiment why because there’s actual fascists in the illuminati who are billionaires, they are actual fascist you guys keep talking a big game and all of your TikTok conspiracies acting like you’ve got guns in your closet and you’re going out. You know blast everybody away, but then you don’t ever realize that the people who are against you aren’t stupid.

So my personal theory is that they’re using her to do psychological experiments on they’re trying to test to see how much people care how they care how they show that they care how far they could go and targeting one particular person or a group of people what they could get away with if those people start telling people on Instagram or Facebook how mobilizer people really respond empathetically to something like what she’s going through. If they made it on believable enough would anyone actually do anything these people are some of them are psychopaths, smooth, emerges, fascist they are incredibly curious people and they have a lot of resources.

I mean think about it you are musk has 500000,000,000 supposedly OK so it’s a little stupid to think that they couldn’t pay people $40 an hour to just drive around and harass her in a car I mean look and see a radically be like five people just five people that have been hired by some billionaire who knows Lenny from the illuminati who are just targeting her by driving around her house or talking to people in a weird way in public in front of her that makes her feel Kind of paranoid. I think she could be slightly paranoid. Her her post about the woman at the gym were a little bit ridiculous I doubt anyone has talk to anybody about her quite that openly. I don’t think she’s being targeted quite as much as she think she is but that’s what these people do OK they make you look crazy. They do things like that I’ve been I found her Instagram account numerous times in the last few weeks and it’s very creepy.

So they’re trying to make her look and feel schizophrenic so they’re making her think things like oh they’re talking to people at my gym or they talk to my girlfriend or they talk to my my mother and you know maybe this is actually talk to one or two of those people I wouldn’t be surprised but it’s possible they’ve talked to nobody or that it’s just been one or two people and now she has some idea that everyone’s been talk to you Because they’re making her think that they’re doing clever evil little tricky things they’re making her think that she’s in this like the sick prison like life and it makes her look and sound completely bat shit crazy but that’s the thing she does keep providing photographic evidence of people driving around with tinted windows and to be honest I don’t think there is that many cars with tinted windows There are some but there aren’t as many as she shows and they’re always riding her in her business. It’s like right next to her or right near her house and I don’t think that makes sense. There’s a people drive me bat shit crazy with her stupidity, because that should be a red flag to people who are looking at her account. I mean how dumb are people because there aren’t that many cars with tinted windows that’s not a thing! *yells Lacey*

And if there is an illuminati and I did find them and there is some billionaire psychopath doing experiments on this woman do they realize that or not is a part of the experiment or not is it part of the experiment to try to figure how dumb people are with stuff like that because if if if it is oh my gosh, they’re stupid no, you guys are slow as molasses when it comes to that sort of thing it just pisses me the fuck off because I’m having to deal with it so much that I’m losing my patience with your idiocy and I’m talking to lots of people and I’m saying this.

There are not that many cars even in Arizona with tinted windows every fucking everywhere. I mean it’s popular there anyway that it probably isn’t here but I cannot believe that they constantly be parked outside of her house or following her up. I know a mini head on a deserted street following you around is weird. I don’t care if it’s a minivan I don’t care if you’re in a suburban neighborhood if it’s going around in circles around you while you’re taking a run at 12 o’clock at night that’s pretty fucking weird!

What gets me is that you crimestoppers of the century from TikTok note my sarcasm see shit like that and you don’t go to take it apart at all and never occurs to you that it’s weird and that what she saying is actually very fucking creepy! How did you go over these movies looking at footage analyzing it and then it never occurred to that something like that is weird!??

No, it’s just it’s really annoying. It’s really fucking annoying!

I mean, my God help me this whole democracy business I love it, but it’s pissing me off! In Russia, if she had had an affair with the KGB officer and his wife, got pissed off at her and decided to destroy her life nobody would fucking think she’s lying! I mean, oh, my God, how pristine and woke and brilliant do you fucking nitwits think women really are!? We are wonderful creatures. We are special. We are wonderful but we’re human too. Ok?!

So when you have an affair with somebody and his wife gets pissed off to she could kill you. She could do lots of damaging things to you and I don’t think that’s weird. I think that’s pretty common place. That’s not a good thing. It’s a sign of weakness on her part to be honest in my opinion but that’s that’s our humanity.

I I find women that are that pathetic who choose to be so violent and sad because they’re just like men you can’t let go or who are insoles. It’s just sad. I’m not saying I’m not saying that people who can’t look or all evil or stupid I’m just saying taking it to that degree is pathetic. It’s weak!

So these people are embarrassing themselves and I think that’s also part of the reason why people are experimenting on her or why people could be taking their side and some sad, sick wagons this woman or just not processing what she’s saying because she seems too confident no she really does and they seem embarrassing and they’re the famous people.

And so people who are narcissistic nowadays, which is a lot of people had to empathize with the polls, I think, subconsciously, and so they automatically criminalize her because it’s hard for them to except that somebody who is privileged Christian radically sort of out somebody who is maybe not as privileged, but who’s famous in some sort of embarrassing way for being embarrassing did this. Their obsession with her is embarrassing.

So no I am not. I mean I think it’s possible I think she’s probably imagined 30 to 40% of what she’s told people though but I would bet there is some thing happening that’s not normal and I would bet that it is his wife and him or somebody who they are in debt to who is choosing to experiment on her so there’s somebody who’s who’s letting them take the blame And look weak and crazy because they’re experimenting on her. Or they really are just that petty and I don’t know where they’re getting all their money to pay these people I don’t know if they’re people who just owe them favors or if they’re people who somehow they’ve got working for them for free, or if somebody’s paying them, but I don’t think that they’re on duty. Every time they harass her I wouldn’t be surprised if there was some on official official inquiry into her And I wouldn’t be surprised there a lot of dirty cops there a lot of dirty people in the Fed. That’s an old old part of the US and it’s pretty common that there’s people who look the other way. There are CIA operatives who actually have helped drug Lords and you today oh no, there are there are plenty of CIA operatives who help fentanyl distributors get the heroin and get the fat Noll rather across the border within the CIA within the fad within different border, operate our operations. There are plenty of people who are Craft who looks the other way, routinely or people who just think that they should serve to control the situation or something, so it’s not really surprising to me peoples view that the Fed would never do that is stupid as fuck. 

No, there are plenty of fat people who would either do it off duty or as a favor or I don’t know, but I don’t think she’s making everything up. My gut sense is that it’s possible that there is actually somebody following her I would it wouldn’t have to be she could be having a schizophrenic problem, it’s possible that she’s slightly nuts in that way and then it’s just schizophrenia but I’m not convinced that I think it’s possible there really is somebody in there it’s just really really creepy and I’m speaking from experience. My whole life has been like that for almost 10 years and I’ve been incredibly careful by how I’ve told people because I knew that people would think I was nuts. She doesn’t seem to fully understand that. Review of people is far brighter than mine. I knew that I was in hell within about a month of going through what I’ve gone through with the illuminati if they exist. I actually I wondered if I died and gone to hell. Sincerely I really wondered if I died and gone to hell and then I looked into my sons eyes and I realize that it was still him and his spirit and I realized it didn’t make any sense for a child to be in hell with me who is innocent and underage and I thought no government would send an innocent child to hell I must still be alive, and it’s just slowly over time. I begin piecing it together, intellectually and kind physically to realize that I had died and gone to hell but now my life has been absolutely awful and so I can speak to her experience lately. Um, people really are that petty.

Diego knew that he knew how petty people were and he knew that pushing my buttons and attacking me would probably end the world. Do you go to Mexico? He knows about all the people who are dying trying to cross the border, and I think you sincerely thinks the world should just end.

Yes, girl Catholic so he may have had some sense that I was sincere in my face because I am more Catholic or Pisco Palean than anything else and I think a lot of people in America are pretty protestant and they don’t really understand the way I think. But you know the thing is I’ve seen things move I’ve seen a lot of supernatural activity and that’s been very comforting to me because that I know that I am not imagining everything like a hallucination OK so I’m definitely talking to something super natural at least and she can’t do that. That’s what this woman on Instagram can’t do that, they also don’t think she’s been attacks way that I have I have I was attack psychically by the entire fucking illuminati by a bunch of jackass new money peasants who had no fucking crew have narcissistic they really were or how dangerous they were to themselves and they thought it was really cool to get pissed off as hell at a woman who piss them off narcissistically and then go gangbusters on her ass and try to throw her into a hellish life and then I don’t know what they were going to do but I don’t think they thought it through. I don’t think they realize the death is real because they’re dumb as fuck and that way possibly. And I also think they like an incredible amount of self-awareness and insight into their own weaknesses and stupidities.

Bobby ran for president told people that he talks to the dead and ruined his family name. There’s a war with Russia we’ve had three Phyl presidencies or two rather excuse me a two and no, I close quite a ruckus when I die, I do it fully intend on the world. If there’s being Carnation, I am an ancient Egyptian And I am rather important. Historically I am the actual Scotia. Which tells me that I’m not mythical creature, but there’s also possibly not reincarnation. No sense there’s death and there is God and so I will die someday and they won’t be able to keep tormenting my body with some remnant of Jack’s energy because they can’t fucking handle that he was a narcissistic gay prick and that line was straight I will end the world.

These people are very petty and weak!! *yells Lacey* and I’m not saying that about all of them that should be obvious that’s part of my tone that’s part of what I’m saying! *yells Lacey* right now, as I’m seeing this jacket, shaking with fear and if I could, I would rip off his head with my fucking bare hands using my feet smashed into his skull if I had my druthers. Or if that’s just his meager energy left behind at some dumb, which decided to throw against me then I shall have to find a way to wax their brains into each other until she gets some sense and his nasty little remnant of energy disappears. I’m not a character. I’m a real person. I’m sorry I make you so fucking uncomfortable with your peasantry. *she says to those mocking her*

Can you cut Paul somebody spirit out of them while you’re suffocating them using demons to control them so you don’t feel hurt by their superiority over you and then in and then expect them not to be superior that’s illogical rubbish.” says Lacey.

“ but if you’re the superior you’re supposed to feel sorry for us.” says Ivanka sarcastically.

“ I do feel sorry for you, but you’re attacking me you dumbasses!” says Lacey.

“ well, bless your heart there’s no way I would attack you. I’m better than you!” the haters say.

“ oh my Hod! that’s so true. Oh that’s a cold one.” says a demon impersonating JFK for the Illuminati psychics who refuse to believe he’s in trouble in the afterlife.

Bill Gates rolls his eyes.

“ so yes, I’m not sure that one is completely crazy. I think it’s possible that there is someone who’s attacking her who has a lot of time and is very petty and that she’s not completely crazy.” says Lacey.