“Oh. Well…when we say $550,000 a year to be successful…we aren’t including an inheritance???” says Gen. Z.
“I don’t think you get it. I’m not worried about my student loans.” says Lacey.
“FUCK YOU!!!” yells JFK’s demon.
“Why!?” asks Gen. Z.
“Because, I’m going to inherit hundreds of thousands of Dollars. Most likely. And we’re going to inherit enough to do quite well. …That’s the first thing.” says Lacey.
“Those numbers still don’t add up.” says Lacey.
Later.
“You think we overestimate how much we need?” asks Gen. Z.
“I think you’re being perverse liars. But I’m not sure it’s your fault.” says Lacey.
Later.
Jerome Kern All the Things You Are plays.
“We just needed more local power.” says a poor man in Wabasha.
“To protect yourselves?” says Lacey.
He looks gloomy.
“NO!!!” he screams.
“Then for what purpose?” asks Lacey.
“TO MAKE MONEY!!” he says.
Lacey thinks. “To charge people more?”
He thinks. “YEAH.” he says.
“Mm. And my father said no?” says Lacey.
“Yeah.” says a German housewife, gloomily.
“You can’t expect that!” says a living German man.
“WE NEEDED IT!!” yells one of their descendants.
“For what!?” asks Lacey.
The Kennedys vomit and cry and suddenly look VERY confused.
“If there’s reincarnation…I messed-up.” says Honey Fitz. “BADLY.”
“GEE!! YOU THINK!?!” yells Joe Biden.
“Yeah. You might know. It’s…just to make food.” the living descendant says. “For ourselves.”
A dead German woman weeps.
“What did my dad think was going on!?” says Lacey.
“SHIT!!” yells a man.
“What was he thinking?” says Lacey.
“He was…thinking we’d make more money in the future and have more safety overall. More protection from Al Capone.” says a man who ran the secret bar in the Anderson House.
“Okay. Did it have ANYTHING to do with race!?” asks a Black man.
“Yes.” admits George Floyd. “Yes, it did.”
“Was he racist!?” yells a Black woman about Tom Banks.
“No.” says Lem. “The Banks’s general store was a part of the Underground Railroad, possibly.” says Lem.
Long silence.
“I’m not AT ALL SURPRISED!” says Vladimir Putin.
“We were and were not racist?” says a dead man from the Anderson House.
“So the Black men who unloaded the shipping containers with liquor in them…stank?” says Lacey. “And you felt…imposed upon having to get the liquor from them?”
“Oh shit, oh shit! This is exactly- If this is true this is why they trust me not Lacey Banks. Because I understand why they’re so offensive to them. It’s so gross. Oh my gosh!” says JFK.
“So you didn’t want to have to go talk to them or what?” says Lacey.
“Well we just felt that they stank.” says a local woman.
“Because they were sweaty from living on those boats probably and working hard being on the river. Where did they come from?” says Lacey.
“You got it backwards they were on the ships but they weren’t sweaty from the south. They were sweaty remember from the north so they getting a ride on to the South where their actual home may have been in like Louisiana, or somewhere about there. There were probably number of them though from Louisiana.
And they ahh…got a ride on the cargo ships on the ships down to Louisiana so they were- They were obviously workers on the ships. But yes, by the time they reached Wabasha, they were very sweaty. They did actually stop in Wabasha occasionally back then there were a lot more ships and occasionally people would actually stop not just in Redwing, but in Wabasha. And there were occasionally people who would stop in Wabasha and stay at the hotel sometimes even but no, we didn’t accept Black people at the Anderson House. There were no Blacks allowed there and so some people there were a little racist and they didn’t feel comfortable talking to the Black people who gave them the containers.” she says.
“Did any of those people attack anybody?” says Lacey.
“Yes, they did.” she says.
“I mean really attack someone though, like a woman or an innocent person?” says Lacey.
“Yes they did. Yes they did.” she says.
“Was that part of the reason why they didn’t want to do it or not?” says Lacey.
“Wow you have a low opinion of us.” says one of their living descendants.
“No actually Lacey you’re not stupid.
No it didn’t!” she says. “There were attacks but those happened more in the 1800s and early 1900s and by the time people were being racist in the 1920s and 1910’s when your father was in charge of that particular part of the shipping process of the liquor they weren’t really as concerned about that as much as they were concerned about the way they looked. Their sweat, their hair, their overall appearance, and their smell.” says a dead woman in the Anderson House.
“Why weren’t you concerned about being raped?” says Lacey.
“Because they wanted it Lacey!! They smell more sexy and THEY WANTED IT!!” yells JFK, very seriously.
Dozens of people crack-up laughing.
“I kind of doubt that though Jack, I really do. Why- I mean I’m not saying those men weren’t attractive! …I just have a feeling that it wasn’t quite that simple. Why wasn’t anyone afraid when- Why wasn’t anyone afraid of being raped!?” says Lacey.
“They were all drunk!” jokes a Black man who worked on the ship.
“Because they didn’t- Because they didn’t think that that was likely because they wanted to think that they were really tough men.” says the white woman who worked at the Anderson House.
“Why the fuck are you people expecting her to solve all race relations on the blog in the psychic realm!?!” yells Dr. Lauermann. “I think even for a genius this is a bit much!” 
“Because I’ve been hateful possibly.” she says.
“Alright so they were delusional?” says Lacey.
“Yes they were!” she says.
“I mean those men were tough as nails, possibly stronger in other ways too. …We’re being honest. But I don’t blame those white men for being brave and manly! That’s exactly what they should be doing, but that just irritates me as a person that they just made those huge assumptions and then got stuck on something stupid!” says Lacey.
“Well I mean they would’ve never let me go get them.
That’s funny cause now it feels like we’re in the same realm. It really does! Which is kind of almost scary?
But no they would’ve never let me go get them. Don’t worry! They would’ve never let a woman do it, possibly even a small man.” she says.
“What about a child?” says Lacey.
“Yes, they might have like a child to it?” she says, with shame.
“WHY!?” says Lacey.
“Because they would’ve thought that somehow the child deserve that sort of life or they thought that they wouldn’t molest a kid!” she says.
“Were there any children who were killed or molested or beaten to a pulp?” says Lacey.
“Yes, there were actually!” she says.
“Are you putting me on or is this actually what happened?!?” says Lacey.
“This is not what happened- But it is what happened. No it is what happened. It is what happened.” says the woman.
“So you put yourself in harms way because you didn’t like how they smelled-
No that’s not right. …So you sent children down to them because you thought the children could handle the stench and then the kids got beat into a bloody pulp and that bothered you because you had a conscience and some common sense and then that’s why you decided to charge more or what!?” says Lacey.
“Ok!” says JFK with concern.
“Yes basically so the kids parents got very angry at us because they knew that he was young and being taken advantage of. He died in the 1980s by the way an old man. But no they knew he was being taken advantage of and they got very mad at us and they thought, ‘How dare you do this to our family! And how dare you do this to our community!? When we’re not really getting a cut that big almost at all. …I mean we’re getting a cut somewhat right but we’d like to make more money so that we can do more for the community if these kids are going to be risking their lives! …We need to at least make more money! How else do we control the system? We just need to start asking for more money.’” she says.
“Yeah, no that makes sense. Except it doesn’t. If I was his parents I would’ve wanted to shoot you all…or I would’ve just moved.” says Lacey. “But I suppose they were trying to work with you.
I don’t know why my father was working with you people at all. Anybody who would send a child down to do that kind of work it’s a little stupid and you can’t get out of this conversation because God possibly won’t let you.
How dumb were you people!?” says Lacey.
“Well mean we were gullible I guess and naïve and possibly average IQ although people probably would test as slightly above average but I guess we weren’t very bright in some ways or we were evil.” she says.
“ I mean yeah look I’m not going to get into the whole race thing because those people were angry it’s not worth it they probably had something wrong with them or I don’t even know all right black violence is complicated and I’m not going to get an entire race discussion right now, but I would bet that a lot of poor people who would have that position it might not be safe people unfortunately because the people who would take those jobs probably were hard-working people but they’re homeless now they’re homeless drug addicts who you shouldn’t give money to I am not saying all homeless people are like that but back then those people might’ve been the emotional mental equivalent of a homeless drug addict who can’t get into treatment facilities and just ends up dead because they’re not capable of holding a job and so in your time they were still working you know they were still working they were doing men’s of a man’s job right men’s labor they’re all rough. They probably had their boundaries with which other and I wouldn’t even be surprised if someone punched the guy punch the kid in the face I would be surprised if someone beat him to a bloody pulp or if he was attacking that kid because someone had beaten him it’s complicated because yeah as much as I’m saying that maybe I’m wrong maybe the people were homeless today or worse than those people maybe less you will have more functional capacity than people do today who are homeless even if they had to have some ability to reason through things to keep a job, so maybe they were more normal than people are today or homeless but so it in the defense of Black people I will say I don’t I’m not convinced that it’s just a simple racial equation they could be more one of those human poverty of all sorts, mental, poverty, genetic poverty, possibly same thing to some degree or not, but it’s awfully complicated so boy that’s a tough discussion to have and I’m not going to have it right now but I will say that I’m not impressed with the fact that you people sent children down that’s not smart I’m sorry.” says Lacey.
“Okay.” says JFK, thinking he’s “doing better”.
“ why did you work with these people?” says Lacey to her father.
“ I didn’t have to but I chose to partially because it allowed for me to get more money. There were a lot of people in that area who like to drink who were German there were a lot of German drinkers in that area and so it was relatively lucrative not the most lucrative area but I was getting a pretty decent pay back so to speak and it seemed worth it.” says Tom.
“ but not everybody would’ve sent a child down to the docks?” says Lacey.
“ no!” says Tom.
“ why is it my fault that you people don’t understand that children don’t deserve to be beaten to death?” says Lacey to them.
JFK waits for their swift comeback.
“ it’s we don’t like you because you’re better than us because you know not to hit children and we hold that against you!” they say.
“ that’s a stupid response if you’re in purgatory!” says Lacey.
The Pope wails.
“ you know you shouldn’t have said hell doesn’t exist you bastard!” yells Lacey at the Pope.
“Oh dear!” says JFK.
“ it doesn’t exist!” says a witch.
“No, you’re wrong! You’re very wrong. I’m sorry!!” yells JFK.
“ I know you’re right, you’re right it it actually does exist!” she says.
“ right so what’s your problem?” says Lacey.
“ so you just went I’ve dealt with us at all. You would’ve said listen if you’re going to ask for more money I’m not for that reason I’m not even gonna deal with your people?” she says.
“ I would’ve said I’m not in the business of beating children you are unfortunate assholes. If you wanna actually figure out a way to functionally, get the shit off the boat without getting beating without getting beaten to death let me know what’s going to happen next you’re going to have some child overdosing on alcohol when he’s dancing with his girlfriend in a parlor. What the fuck do you people not watch your children at all or what!?”
“ OK fine!” says a German man.
“ i’ll give you a little more money. If you take better care of your kids, and if you hold my kindness like a noose around my neck, you’ll regret it forever!” says Lacey.
“ OK mom!” says a dead German man.
“ why are you letting him go down there like that that poor scared kid? Are you a bitch?!?” yells Lacey.
“ you’re right, it might not have been her though.” says the dead German man.
“ it wasn’t me. It was him a very evil hearted person who worked at the Anderson house, who is possibly in a lower level of purgatory.” she says.
“ would you have told me about that person or did you need them?” says Lacey.
“ I think we would’ve told you about that person.” says a man.
“Did you need them?” says Lacey.
“ yes, we did. Actually, they did a lot of have a little heavy, lifting so to speak of people we get drunk, and they were vicious, but they had a very strong sense of propriety, and they kept people in line, but they could be very cruel at times and evil.” says another dead man.
“ OK then I’d have to have a personal conversation with that person. It’s a matter of honor.” says Lacey.
“OH NO!!” says JFK.
“ all right let’s have this conversation I am holding a gun to your head. Do I have to shoot you or can you do your fucking job?” says Lacey to the man.
He smiles.
“ listen there are ghosts and there are demons and if you screw me over, I will hunt you along with lots of other people on my little list for the next thousand years you got that buster!?” says Lacey.
He smiles and nods.
“ I like you I think you have a spine and I appreciate that.” says Lacey.
He nods.
“ but you’ve got a little bit of a problem Smith these kids are getting beat up.” says Lacey.
He listens.
“ you’re gonna have to find someone to go down there who can handle it not a child not a woman someone who doesn’t mind punching back and then I’m gonna have to deal with whatever happens, but it needs to be somebody who’s actually capable of killing the person if they have to do you understand what I’m saying!?” says Lacey.
“ yes!” he says.
“ all right good listen you have anger problems you have tensions you’re frustrated person. I understand that I emphasize don’t take that out on kids. Don’t take that out on animals. Don’t take that out on women find a way to use that for something that would be glorifying as a Christian.” says Lacey.
“ you’re right.” he says.
“ I want to keep making money with you I’ll give you guys more obviously but you’ve got to come through. I’m not a bad person this is a harsh world let’s just try to make the best of it.” says Lacey.
“ so you’re going to keep checking up on me to make sure the kids are being taken care of and that everyone’s getting fed?” he says.
“ yeah and if you start getting any smart ideas about working with somebody from five states away, at least tell me first I don’t know how the hell that would ever make any sense but at least give me some warning or else.” says Lacey.
“ who are you talking about?” he says.
“ how is the Irish because they care more about the poor than my family does don’t they they’re smart too. They beat their kids they don’t expect you to be a gentleman but just sad because that’s all you fucking want. Isn’t it just to be a gentleman.” says Lacey.
He cries.
“ yeah don’t be a sad bastard. I actually care about you. I apologize if that’s offensive to you listen don’t screw me over if you do if you change your mind if you wipe your tears away and you go home tonight and you think oh no, I really just want to fuck that woman over. Seems like fun to me at least do a decent deed and let me know.” says Lacey.
She leaves.
“ I would’ve thought she was the wildest person I’ve ever met in my life, but I would’ve thought that she was very lady like an actually quite nice. And I would’ve thought that’s probably not while then and there’s something wrong with something somewhere and it would’ve been quite frightening. She’s scary because she’s a dose of reality. That is so strong that it’s very hard for most people to handle it. I am not in hell I’m in purgatory, and I’m working through things with God. It’s possible I choose to stay in a lower level of purgatory to help people who are scared who first get there but that’s between God and I am and then I try to help them potentially but that’s that’s between God and I am he might not even need me to, but anyway um , what I’m trying to say is simply that I don’t think people can handle the reality of the situation. I did send those kids down there to be beaten because I just couldn’t stand them being so damn happy. I just thought they were too happy especially for such spoiled children. They may have been a little spoiled and I wasn’t growing up and I might’ve thought no those kids are getting too damn spoiled are too damn happy so much to send those kids down there and teach them a lesson. But it was cruel. It wasn’t just love. It was on my heart was cruel and I would’ve thought OK fine she’s right those kids aren’t. Those. Kids aren’t actually benefiting all that much for being beaten up by some black I would’ve said Nager by some Nager on a boat that’s kind of silly. You know what am I teaching them to do kill Black people because it’s a black person doing it so it’s not like they’re going to go around thinking oh I should be more respectful to white people they’re just going to think Black people are a problem. So no unfortunately or fortunately if she’d actually had that conversation with me, I would have stayed with her father and I would have tried to work with him and he would’ve ended up giving us more money and people would’ve been very grateful if you were, would’ve been very grateful to have just a little bit more. And to be honest with our community the way that it was it would’ve been good for us we wouldn’t have gotten spoiled we would’ve just thought hey we’re all right so you know she’s German on her grandmother side so we would’ve just thought well Germans are OK when it’s a German you can trust them you know they’ve got your back they don’t let you foul things up. No and I don’t want handouts from the Irish government, Boston I just I just want more money and umm…no, we would’ve been fine actually. 
no not the fact that she’s so much British to. I would’ve thought well, of course the British are very respectable people. But that’s the way that the new Amsterdam became what it was because they could actually be Dutch old money and so they understood the art of business and that sort of thing. So a so then we would’ve had trouble but not really actually we wouldn’t of had hardly any trouble. She would’ve probably come and visited and she actually did with the Anderson house was still running as its old self mostly in the 1990s she visited at least twice she stayed once and had a wonderful time we took good care of her and how we didn’t know why we should, but we felt that we should, and we followed Christ and our things went quite well.” he says.
“ oh, so all right that’s good there’s something still weird going on though.” says Lacey.
He nods.
“ I would not have sold you out, but the woman you were talking to before possibly did as did a few other people I would’ve known better, and other people might have as well, but there were a decent number of people who couldn’t understand you and didn’t understand children, and chose to think the worst of you instead of having common sense.” he says.
“ oh, if you, if you’re referring to the fact that my father molested me and enjoyed himself, we could talk about that and you’re right it’s absolute retardation on their parts. Rapists enjoy themselves sexually as well. Do they know that?” says Lacey.
“NOO!!!” shrieks the woman from before.
“ I know that because I had a horrible childhood and I just have more common sense than them. I don’t know that they do.” he says.
“how would that not be obvious that when you’re attacking a child or or a vulnerable person that’s your sexual fetish that’s your thing and it doesn’t matter what the other person is doing or not doing it’s the rapist it’s a child molester it’s their perception that matters it doesn’t matter if it’s on how do I say this based on reality or not? In the sense it’s delusion regardless.” says Lacey.
“ yes, it’s their mental health issue. It’s their psychosis it’s their hysteria not the victim’s.” he says.
“ yes exactly that is long as they can keep that straightener head I think, sometimes or less violent or more violent depending. But I am yes is that is it unfortunately for them it’s a sort of psychosis in a way.” says Lacey.
“ you’re right it is that’s just common sense I don’t know why they don’t understand that.” he says.
“ did you start trying to fiddle with my brain to sort of make me a meme agree to things that I’m not really wanting to agree to because there are times when I start fighting with my legal husband what I’m trying to defend myself and I literally can’t physically get my mouth to open or the times that I try to breeze and I can’t breathe.” says Lacey to the who’re woman from before.
“ the Kennedys told me to do it the Kennedys swore up and down that you were a liar and that you were in love with Joe Kennedy Junior hundred percent guarantee it so I did it. Yeah I did it!” says the woman.
“ do you understand the concept of consent at all or are you a fucking idiot?!” yells Tom Hanks at her.
“ his house burnt down sweetie because of what you did” says Lacey to the woman.
“ OK oh my gosh!” says JFK.
“ no are you just a jealous ugly bitch!?” says Lacey to the woman.
“ no!” she says.
“ then what’s your fucking problem you whore!?” says Lacey.
“ oh night grandchildren are pedophiles by great grandchildren they’re poor and they’ve gotten into pedophilia. They’re trying to sell their kids on Instagram. They have a lifestyle account and yeah it will be hard to find them if not possible but they have a lifestyle account and they’re basically selling their kits like reviews of them just like fans only to try to you know get more money, and then they themselves are to pedophilia, I’ve convinced them not to molest their own children but there’s times when I watched you being molested by your dad who raised you and I got the impression that you were enjoying it.
And I I’m a pedophile myself, but I didn’t know that about myself and so I thought oh well G maybe this is normal if she can do that and enjoy it that maybe it’s not so bad and then I hated you and God told me that I was wicked and I had a demon working within me that he wanted to get rid of but I chose to ignore that because I’m stubborn and evil when it comes to greed. I have a very greedy family but we’re also incredibly stupid so we don’t know how to stay rich and so unfortunately, my great great grandchildren and great grandchildren are filthy and the air watch pornography that you were claim isn’t really even real pornography, it’s just violence against people, and then they harm their children by putting them online but I’ve convinced them that they shouldn’t hurt them and that they should let people see them in person except I don’t know if that’s even true anymore because there are people who see them who want to have access to them and they figure it out where they go to school and they’re stocking them potentially.” she says.
“ OK so you’re insane and you’ve not process that and you made it my fault?” says Lacey.
“ yes because I want to be better than you I want to be better than you!” she screams.
“ well, I know you’re not. Here’s appears a problem, sweetie. Um child molesters Convery degrees of insanity and other sorts of mental acuity. My father who is me is that actually on usually intelligent person he has an IQ of about 126. Which is not a genius, but it’s pretty smart. And he was a pedophile and he was violent and so because I was a little tiny girl I was three years old 2 1/2 three he confuse me well 2 1/2 345. He confused me sweetheart it’s a thinking that we were in love.” says Lacey.
Lem laughs.
“ kids can never be in love, really. it’s not possible! they’re not it’s not it’s just not, it’s not possible. Their brains can’t do it. OK that’s not a real thing. it’s it’s physically impossible. It’s psychically impossible. It’s totally impossible, sweetheart. There’s no way for a child to ever fall in love. The first time you can experience genuine, actual sexual love is when you’re about how probably 10 maybe nine and then that would be for another child and then you could experience it maybe even younger than that but it’s really him I would say it’s not real love until messy kids could be slightly more developed than they were when I was a kid, but not much more because the human brain just doesn’t accommodate for that developmentally on a physical level so I would say that in any sort of real interactive sense it’s probably about nine or 10 and then it’s just with other kids in a consensual normal organic way that’s healthy or it’s not healthy that’s not happening. Around 11 or 12 or 13 those feelings become more adult and more intense. and then at around oh 14 to 16 restart really becoming adults. But not quite depending on the person. Around 16 to 18, 2021. Kind of in that range it varies widely between person-to-person culture to culture and you find lots of different people with lots of different levels of adulthood. Oh and I would say by about 21 you’ve got pretty good adult so to speak. At 2627 I suppose it’s him and subways where it starts to be total adult in their brain but I think probably a 15 or 16 year-old could probably have sexual relations with another person that age I’ll say for now because there could be 716-year-olds that might marry a 30 year old like I did, if there’s reincarnations And it would be consensual but that’s not common anymore and that’s a 16-year-old who’s like an adult and a 16 year old no three year old. So at 16 and 18 something I was ready to get married. That’s a very different person than a three-year-old hopefully you understand that cognitively?
So basically no before I’ll say seven or eight maybe six the kids couldn’t really even imagine the concept all that easily and I’m not you know it’s like it’s hard for them to do that but they kind of get it on but it’s sort of like they’re sleepwalking they’re their children they’re not adults. They’re cognitively not capable of comprehending the concept. OK their brains don’t function that way.
It’s physically impossible for them to have sex sweetie. That’s not sex for them. It’s not real sex not for them.
What is it for them? Oh dear God him chaos absolute fucking confusion and madness absolute hell it’s one of the worst experiences that a human could go through.” says Lacey.
“We’re taking a break.” says Putin.
Lacey comes back with ramen and iced tea.
“Thank you for that!” says Lacey to Putin.
“Okay!?” says the CIA.
“ i’m an adult and so I can consent. I’m not a permanent retard just because I was molested you fucking idiots.” says Lacey to the CIA.
“ OK so basically you’re just saying that little kids are like they’re really not aware of what’s going on?” says the woman.
“ they are and they aren’t. If there’s reincarnation in a sense, you’re sort of talking to the dead, South sort of translated through there a little childlike mind. So it’s worse than raping, an old person and a retirement home if there’s been Carnation, but it’s slightly like that like the only way they can really communicate with you in that way at all with their childhood genitalia and sexual instincts is through their former self. If there’s reincarnation will take that one first so you’re not really even molesting a child you mean you are but you’re also how do I say this you’re also contacting the dead. If there’s reincarnations, you’re talking to an old dead person or if there’s not reincarnation for that particular individual you’re talking to their ancestors but you’re not talking to somebody who is alive if there’s red carnation so when I was molested lamb was contacted. All of all of Great Britain was contacted. All of ancient Egypt was contacted And I got confused if there’s reincarnation and thought I was in love with my dad.” says Lacey.
That lady’s great granddaughter laughs.
“ I mean I wasn’t all I really wasn’t him, but I thought it was.” says Lacey.
She looks freaked out.
“ so because it was translated through my childlike mind, and my childlike soul and spirit, because ring carnation doesn’t mean that you’re an adult it means that your child again in your spirit and soul, if there’s reincarnation, so you have yourself in the eyes of God, but in the mind of God and that you don’t or somewhere like that but you don’t have you don’t have access to that so you’re really 100% just a kid even if there’s been carnation in the Bible.
Some you’re thinking through the mind of a child and see you think all my gosh like I would’ve thought. Oh my gosh lives here and we’re making love. This is one or this is is this Joe Kennedy Junior and we’re almost married and I’m putting out who the fuck is this bad but I’m somehow it seems like this makes sense???? Except it doesn’t make sense. It makes absolutely no sense at all because your spirit and your soul and your mind are a child. You’re a child. So you have a tiny little bit of access to yourself baby and we have genitalia as children and some vague sexual Vernace but it’s not real awareness and so it’s just a confusing mess when you’re processing it through your brain because if you’re a molester knows how to arouse you you think oh, this is the real thing I’m in bed with Lem’s, and I don’t know why he suddenly is so cold and frigid and uninterested? I’m really really brutally honest with you because that’s how it is apparently have to be no I have a bizarrely good memory which could be used by God, so I remember it if I was molested by the father, who raised me in the way that I suspect, I remember it And know it was pretty awful because I thought shit this feels like I think I thought for a second this feels like rape but I didn’t have the words to express it or experience it as a fully flushed out concept and then I thought wait a minute there’s green carnation I did I thought of that and I thought this doesn’t seem like him though because this person is so cold and psycho pathic and what they’re doing and that’s not like him.
But then I couldn’t process it at all because I didn’t have words to express it. Brain couldn’t figure out what was happening, and so the physical sensations that I was experiencing were translated through my childlike mind, and I couldn’t figure out what the hell was going on they really don’t know even if you explain it to them even if you try to help them understand it, they can’t really no there’s no way for them to really know they just don’t have that capacity it’s not physically possible.
So the best they can do is try to estimate. And sometimes I just go along with stuff out of self-preservation. Sometimes it’s to fool the person. Sometimes it’s to figure out what’s going on. Sometimes they start thinking that it makes sense and it isn’t that the parent is just dominating them is that they literally have no fucking clue what’s going on. You’re not interacting with a child sexually your interacting with a zombie OK!?” says Lacey like they’re all dumb.
“ what if I have a crush on the old adult?” she says.
“ well yeah but then that’s not what they are now that person is dead and that’s who they are if there’s reincarnations, but they’re in a child’s body. They’re in a child’s body there’s no way around that that’s just what it is.” says Lacey.
“ what was it like being in love with Jim?” says Curt.
Lacey laughs. “ hey what course it wasn’t real love but I didn’t fully realize that until I was six or seven I didn’t fully realize how crazy the whole thing was but while I was still in a fog sort of developmentally before I realized that it really didn’t make any sense it wasn’t even real, oh I think I thought he was very it’s hard to explain because it’s not like a normal love. I thought he was cold and I thought that he was on mean but then I thought that was OK but not really and then I just wanted to eat hot dish, and I couldn’t figure out where Sesame Street was and I was very mad about that. I was very mad about Sesame Street, and then I just wanted to go to sleep probably even die at some point I did almost die I almost electrocuted myself. I stuck my finger in a light socket once, and I didn’t die. I think I had some instinct to just kill myself, which was not stupid, but I was up I just wanted to die mostly him, but then before that sensation of wanting to kill myself, I was pretty sure that I should just sit and watch Sesame Street.” says Lacey.
“ why are you watching Sesame Street?” says Curt.
“ because I watch Sesame Street when I was high and she thought she was having sex with me. Or something vaguely like that.” says Lem. “ and some part of me that would’ve never molested her even if she was a three year old in my presence and I was 100 what I just said, just go watch Sesame Street and I would’ve never even thought a thing remotely sexual at all um and then, of course, when she grew up, I might’ve change my mind about her, but that’s not what happened I was dead, but she felt safe watching Sesame Street because I used to watch Sesame Street when I was high.”
“ I am it was absolute hell though, because you don’t really know what’s going on and it’s like a form of torture if you understand at all that’s happening and then later when you’re older, trying to process that is usually for most people who don’t have as good memory as mine who aren’t as brilliant as I am, but actually it’s absolute hell I am unusually intelligent, so I have not usually good coverage and so I was able to process it in real time to some degree.” says Lacey.
“ but isn’t it fun to be totally overtaken?” says a man.
“ you can do that as an adult and it means something.” says Lacey.
“ so they never actually start to enjoy it?” says a woman.
“you’re thinking that they’re an adult and they’re not. They’re not an adult they just cognitively can’t process it. It’s hard to explain but it’s like expecting a child to compete in a marathon that adult would compete in as an adult. Maybe that’s a bad analogy because I don’t even know if that’s possible but probably not though it’s it’s like expecting a child to come see it there’s so many brilliant kids. It’s good it’s hard to find analogy but Yeah they can’t ever really be an adult OK the brain has not developed enough yet. Do you understand the human brain has to develop we are not born with an adult brain and adult brain Hass to be growing and created over time.” says Lacey. “ so they are a child that’s why we called them children people used to understand that it’s a very simple concept they’re children:”
“ so they do enjoy it though?” says a woman.
“ not like an adult I mean it’s not like that. Do you need me to explain sex to you all!? Are you guys really that stupid!?” says Lacey.
“she’s right part of having sex is it a physical mental thing? It’s spiritual too which is why I is an adult and she is an adult are able to interact sexually even though I’m dead but that’s the thing I’m a ghost but I’m also an adult and so there’s not really there’s not really a problem if God permits it, so I think that’s why people are confused it’s mental it’s not it’s not just like a physical sensation it in and all physical sensations are mental actually but it’s not just a mental physical sensation in the sense that it’s hard to explain what I’m trying to say so it’s like somethings are involuntary like pooping so kids can poop and enjoy it but that’s different. There’s a level of cognition level of understanding that comes with adulthood that allows you to enjoy sex that is not present in a child. So kids might not actually even enjoy pooping the way than adult does. And women who pretend to be feminine like that white woman from the Anderson house needs to be careful because they could be but that’s really forgot to decide, but they are protecting a child isn’t a privilege it isn’t lady like it’s common sense, and if you have to lean on your womanhood to do that, what does that say about the man in your life? Are they even human?
It’s not something that One does you don’t molest a child. So people can enjoy things in different ways they grow up arm and that’s just brain development. Kids do enjoy Mozart, but not the way to adult does OK and adult experiences the music and interacts with it with a certain part of their soul that is totally unreachable until they’re an adult. a child interacts with the music in a way that’s five more simple and away more complex because it’s chaos that they’re not processing through all the information because their brains literally can’t come so the music is just on. Enjoyed as best as a cabbie Pazzaluna, very simplistic, wholesome way, if the music is wholesome, or could be very threatening to them if it’s not him but if it’s awesome, it’s helpful to their brain development. It helps them understand reality like Mozart potentially or Beethoven but they’re not going to experience has the same way as it is that an adult would. They’re not going to experience the same perspective that an adult would have. so they’re not going to be able to understand him, and all you can do is just all you can do is just let them experience what they can experience of Mozart. him and so when they become an adult, they listen to Mozart and think oh this is not quite what I remember because they have a different perspective. People who think that they were loved in some special way as a child if they were molested or people who think that they enjoyed it, are people who have some hub and stunt it in their emotional growth, or their maturity, and some other ways who are narcissistic or psycho pathic him, or possibly people who are pedophiles themselves, although not necessarily at all, because that isn’t quite how it would work necessarily, but at the same time, if I get what she why I’m saying that But essentially yeah, I suppose they could just be pedophiles and be justified in their own evil that basically people who think that it’s secretly who sings that it was really great but they just don’t want to say it I thought shit there’s some thing that they’re too dumb to comprehend they’ve never processed it appropriately. Lacey and I were both molested and I can guarantee you that there’s no way a child actually enjoys it if you’re an adult who thinks that you’re dumb as fuck and subway whether that means you’re a narcissist or you’re just lost in someway intellectually that’s not what you actually experienced. Guarantee it. I’ll have to edit this because it was been corrupting my words and we’re not saying anything other than exactly what she had. It’s up to if it’s if it’s held up and God knows what we mean and he speaks to her and if you don’t like what she saying, blow up my whole family, get us out a goddamn plane for once. Sorry for swearing And blow blow us up put us on a plane and blow us up. I’ll be with her will be fine. My kids will think it’s bizarre. Very few people will suffer and you won’t have to listen to any more of this.
I went through you blow us up on a plane possibly possibly back home from great Britain. How about that or how about this put them on a plane over Great Britain get get my family get my kids get my my wife Lacey get get Mark her legal husband on a plane with 5 to 10 other people, a small commuter plane from let’s say London just add bro if you can convince Mark to to fly the plane from London London to Edinburgh that might be hard to do but if you can do it or you can put them in a trade and blow up blow up the car if you want to I’ll be harder to explain but yeah, you could get them on a train and blow them up somewhere in English countryside. As long as everyone was blown up thoroughly that would be fine if God says so. It really is no way to avoid what she say. Big true the child never enjoys it really not really they may be too dumb to realize that if it is an adult and some peoples case is another narcissistic and they don’t understand that they don’t know everything they could end up not realizing how evil it is and how stupid it is but if you’re fully functioning adult, it was not narcissistic often times you realize that it’s not normal and then it’s just sort of stupid and weird if you’re molested him and you realize that it’s really a living hell. Because you’re trapped, you’re trapped in your own body you can’t get out the adult is molest a user controlling your body and you can’t figure out what the Hells going on even if you know what it is technically the way you can you don’t seem to understand you cannot actually functionally understand the concept from within your body to your brain it’s not possible the nerve endings don’t connect in the right way the blood doesn’t connect in the right way The body parts that have to exist and the right way for the whole thing to sort of wired and function to communicate to the brain don’t yet exist.
So the vagina is not bleeding yet in a menstruation cycle OK? The balls have not dropped yet. So the human body is not able to physically process the information through the right neural pathways in a sense because without the balls dropping without the vagina having the blood going through it it’s hard to explain in more complicated way because it’s extremely complicated any people are possibly dumb as fuck, no offense , so without, I’m sorry if I’m being insulting, but this is getting exasperating so without without the vagina menstruating through the registration process without the balls dropping I know you can’t make a child’s balls drop. You can’t make it a girl magistrate that’s not how the body fucking works! There are some things that are not fucking physically fucking possible! So you can’t have a child’s balls drop before their brain allows that to happen over a period of time. You can’t have a child’s female vagina menstruating until they’re old enough physically overtime in a normal way to menstruate. You can’t make the physical body do certain things it’s not possible. There’s no way to do it. It’s totally impossible. So no and they’re a little babies that are born bleeding yeah but that’s not menstruating. I’m using menstruate for a reason. So there’s no way to do it there’s no fucking way for a child to actually experience real sexual pleasure. Oprah doesn’t know that. Or she didn’t. Because they don’t understand that even though they think they’re experiencing some thing they’re really not. I am OK so there are different levels of cognitive awareness of Lacey and I are usually intelligent and know you kind of experienced the physical pleasure but your body is an able to process it. Your mind isn’t able to process the physical aspect of what you’re experiencing because there’s nothing about it that is normal. So it’s like you’re experiencing this grand sexual event that is totally out of context with a body that isn’t wired properly. So yeah, could it kill a child? Yeah actually it could.
You’d be surprised how could it kill them if you got a child orgasm so much that they couldn’t breathe if they were an infant or a very small child or even an older child and they couldn’t figure out how to keep breathing while they were orgasmic they could accidentally stop breathing and die. so they could actually end up dying. If they stopped, breathing him, there are other ways to though you could make them bleed internally or you could give them venereal diseases and are they might not be able to communicate to you that they’re feeling sick. A they make an ear infection and stop telling you about that because they’re too scared to tell you. There are lots of possibilities, but you can’t assume that it’s safe obviously because it’s it’s not it’s white let’s mile with unsafe it’s the most unsafe thing that you could do. There’s really nothing about it that’s normal it’s the most abnormal thing that the human being can experience before death. It is the most bizarre thing that you can experience, the side of all of death. And so there’s nothing you can do. Oh, and yeah, if you if you molested a child, don’t keep doing it, and I would consider suicide to be blunt. I would consider it. Um, it depends on what’s going on.
Oh, so yeah, she was thinking she was in love I guess but that’s completely impossible. And no it’s sad that she has to explain all that that should just be obvious what she means when she says that. A child is not able to consent they’re not able to express themselves they’re not able to experience the sex really at all.” says Lem.
“ what are they experiencing!?” says a woman.
“ it’s what we’ve said they’re experiencing what don’t you understand!?” says Lem.
“ how can they experience it without experiencing it?!?” says Alisha’s husband.
“ how can you have a conversation with me without understanding exactly what I’m talking about!? I’m actually being perfectly clear. I’m just a ghost talking through an unusually intelligent person who is half dead.” says Lem.
“oh, I’m still lost.” he says.
“ OK so I’m being completely clear but I’m dead and I am unusually intelligent and so is Lacey and so our brains think that you understand what we’re saying but you’re not quite getting the meaning of our word or words the way that we intend them and so you’re not able to read us without words and so we’re communicating them to you, but you’re not fully grasping what we’re saying it’s not that we’re not communicating them is that you can’t grasp them yet when you die or if you had a different IQ that was more like ours you would get what we’re saying but without those prerequisites it it’s it’s a hard to comprehend it, even though we’re being perfectly clear.” says Lem.
“ The kids aren’t stupid!” says a woman.
“ oh, that’s true but it’s the same process in the upper level higher level way, so to speak. So um love you think of another analogy cause that confuse the people so if I throw you a ball it’s a perfectly good throw but you miss it you’re missing the ball and in your case it’s because you’re bad at catching but in the child’s case, it’s because they’re a child not because they’re stupid or bad at catching.” says Lem.
“ but you can’t communicate with your child though psychically?” says a man.
“to appoint to appoint sweetheart, and then they’re not able to process through what you’re saying. You can keep trying to talk the reality of the situation, but that just makes you seem more pathetic or do you really not understand it?” says Lem.
“ no I think I’m getting it it’s just like they just don’t get it and there’s no way to explain it to them because their body isn’t physically capable of understanding it. Their body has no way of processing what you’re telling them. I think it’s just hard for me to believe that a kids balls dropping as you sow crassly put it of means that their brain works differently I mean fuck that’s dumb!” he says.
“ oh no actually it’s not. What about that do you not understand?” says Lem.
“ he’s right I am thankfully not that stupid and if I can use any of this in Christ to help my great granddaughter and her husband, I will do that.” says the white woman at the Anderson House.
“ what the fuck don’t you understand about the body developing and how that would affect your brain!?” says Laura Castro.
“ because I think he thinks those are two separate parts of the body that are not actually interconnected at all.” says Lem.
“ I mean they’re connected, but then why do people say I’m thinking with my dick if they’re connected?” he says.
“ that means something different than the way you’re making it mean right now OK when people say I’m thinking with my dick they’re talking about letting their sexual desires Trump, their better judgment and their consciences. And they don’t literally mean that their brains, the president and their penis are disconnected, and that their penis leads them around and various different directions than what they intended.” says Lem.
ZALOR TREVA (Sped-Up) by Phonkha plays.
A man walks down the street and his penis suddenly decides to have sex back home. Suddenly he’s running mindlessly in the direction of home…running into trees and stumbling over things. He gets hit by a car.
The song ends.
“ that was a very good demonstration of exactly what we’re talking about. That doesn’t happen!” says Lem.
“ how does Lacey prevent herself from falling or hitting her kids or molesting them or something her and throat are all the things they’re always trying to get her to do?” he says.
“ because she’s actually stronger than them and she’s also say no there could be some people who may not understand who could be stupider or weaker in someway who could be confused and that’s actually not many people most adults, and even most children have the ability to say no to what they’re doing it’s not the same thing as an adult molesting a child on a functional level. So so she just cut them off at the past like they’ll say something like oh why her daughter look sexy tonight and she’ll say, ‘What the fuck are you talking about?’ him or they’ll say things like oh why don’t you go jump off that building over there and then she’ll say no not interested he’s almost tempted her to kill herself but she’s already been suicidal so she barely even notices it. They’ve occasionally tempted her to try to spend more money than she should but that’s not like her either. she’s not tempted to molest her children because she’s not a pedophile and she’s not a narcissist, so that’s not temptation for her that’s torture.
She’s superior to you and so am I where exactly is the point of your conversation with us right now?” says Lem.
“ I just can’t believe that that you’re superior that’s very hard for me to believe!” he says.
“ I went to Princeton. I went to Choate I went to Harvard. I have a first be superior IQ to yours. I’m taller than you. I’m better looking I’m straighter than you. How am I not have a bigger dick than you do I’m better in bed. how the fuck would I be inferior to you, other than in eyesight and lung capacity?” says Lem.
“ how do you know I’m better in bed?” he says.
“ because God just told me he chose to tell me that.” says Lem.
“ you’re probably better at everything than me you just had asthma and poor vision.” he says
“ yeah and your wife is vastly inferior to Lacey so go fuck yourself!” he says.
“ how do you know that I’m so desperate to be better than you that I’m practically losing my mind!?” he says.
“ I’ve been studying you for years because of your wife.” says Lem.
“ OK so we have a really good very good blog session! It went very well today! OK I’m proud of us! I think we do well OK congratulations. Congratulations to everyone!
I’m proud! Okay! We do well! I think we do really well OK congratulations!?” says JFK.
“ a child can get confused sweethearts and enjoy an aspect of it. That is hard to explain. If you don’t choose to use your brain it’s basically impossible for them to enjoy it and that way as well in some cases, but they never actually enjoy it at all really.” says Lacey.
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