The English Like Perfume

I Appear Missing by Queens of the Stone Age is sung by Joe Kennedy Jr., Meatloaf, and Lem Billings. It’s possible Lem could really sing. And when Lem sings…he sounds straight…even in 1936. Well…when he sings I Appear Missing. It’s too sexually powerful a song for him to hide his true sexuality. Jack and several other Kennedy Administration hold-outs join in and…sound gay. As in, they sound gay…not Lem.

The song plays sung by its original human singer.

It’s possible Jacob Wetterling was killed…because his psychopathic attacker…didn’t want him to turn into Lem or worse.

“He kept saying he was cold.” said Jacob Wetterling’s killer.

“FUCK!” yells Bobby Kennedy Jr. in fear.

“He was…too nice.” says Jacob Wetterling’s killer. “And I’d seen so many gay men who were just confused. They were either straight and scared of their heterosexuality for some reason. Or they were bisexual and same. Scared of their heterosexual side. Or some might not have known that they were heterosexual.” He thinks. “I wonder though if today the opposite would happen. Anyway, he also seemed to acquiesce too much to the evil. Not just get kinda confused and think he was a lady…who’d been attacked…but…”. He looks off. “He seemed either to be planning on revenge and it scared me…or worse yet to begin to be as evil as me. Hurt other kids he played with. And not because he liked it. Because he realized the way it could hurt people and give him power over them. And I thought, ‘You don’t know what you’re doing! You’re not that bad of a kid!’ And I thought before he thinks this through and ruins himself even more I’ll kill him.” He thinks. “So the idea was to save him from Hell.” He thinks. “I did enjoy killing him. But…sometimes I wonder if I also was trying to clean-up my spiritual mess.”

People in the past were smarter? Even when they were deranged psychopaths…they didn’t always miss the forest for the trees. They knew there was a real limit to evil.

I Go Missing plays again. It’s not by or about Jacob Wetterling.

But now people who are perverted in the Illuminati want to talk about whether or not, it made sense for Jacob Wetterling to be killed partially to try to smite Lacey for pointing out to them things that they are scared to hear. But the problem is Jacob was a Millennial and if there’s evolution, he really was different than the kids of today. So his reaction may not have been entirely healthy and he may have actually become a very toxic and evil person. That’s possible. But he also might have contributed some good to the world. He was a kid, and he was innocent, or it wouldn’t have scared his perpetrator. There was something valuable about his real innocence that scared his perpetrator.

“Getting back on track Joe because that was a really stupid distraction. …What is it about that song that scares you so much?! Do you hear Lem’s sexuality and realize that that’s what you’re competing with and that scares you?” asks Bobby Kennedy.

Joe Kennedy Jr. cries.

“No! I never did a song but…you’d be scared of me too.” says Louis.

“Was a portal created…through witchcraft…in Carol Lombard and Clark Gable’s living room?!” asks an Osborne.

“An evil fate isn’t inevitable.” says Harold Loeb. “For the living…and the redeemed.”

“Lacey could have easily played in our living room with toys in an innocent way while we smoked and talked and then her nanny would’ve taken her somewhere safe while we had fun as adults amongst ourselves.” says Carole Lombard.

“And I knew that nannies were not always safe which is part of the reason why I never had children when I was younger.” says Tommy Banks. “If I did intentionally when I got older it was because I was in love with her mom and in some crazy moment thought, ‘I just want to have my own kids.’ Possibly, I would’ve had some moment of delusion and thought, ‘I’ve made it this far. Maybe I’ll make it to 100! I could be a father! It would be fun. I am in love with this woman.’”

“So if you had a moment of hubris because she really was in love with you-if Lacey is illegitimate, her mother really was actually in love with you. It wasn’t just in your head that Margy loved you. And you knew that. …But I wonder if you thought Margy was going to be a better mother than she was capable of being.” says a living CEO.

“Hilariously Lacey is probably brilliant at the viola, a genius at reading, grand in almost every way that challenges most people. But if she is Tommy Banks’s daughter, the one thing that she hasn’t pulled off particularly well was being born, too late into the wrong generation. “ says a woman.

“We weren’t stupid we weren’t stupid! We just may have been too different for people in 2016 to understand us.” says Lem.

“Why did you try to be gay? It is just astounding to me! Lacey you know is trying to explain herself we still don’t really understand her but maybe eventually we will because she keeps trying and she’s alive. Why did you try to pretend to be gay?“ says a living Gen. X man.

“I didn’t know that I was straight. I have said that so many times.” says Lem Billings. “But as much as the Boomers went to Woodstock, and did love-ins, I was not released from my abuse that I experienced and the chains mentally that it left me in. Because those would’ve been my children you can’t for your father. That way only your mother can or a counselor. Or God and I was committed to being honest about myself, and trying to be what I thought that I was. I truly thought that I was medically gay. And I was trying to be myself. I was trying to be a convincing version of myself and be charming. The only sex that I’d ever had was being gay, which was a defilement of my soul, because I wasn’t gay. It was possibly a defilement of my soul in every way that that can be. Because I met Jack Kennedy when I was young, he kept me captive, he kept me delusioned and then I got locked in. I got locked into being gay. And so then I was trying to be myself; I was trying to be a charming gay man. …And to be honest, I did play a very charming gay man. The eyes, the walking. However I always let down my guard just a little bit somewhere in the conversation or somewhere in the photo. Because I wasn’t gay and so there’s always a little split-second where at the very least, I couldn’t figure out how to control myself in that second psychologically and I seem straight. Or there’s a part of my body in the picture that I couldn’t remember to control that seemed straight, like my knees or my feet or my face or my hand because I was acting.”

“Why gay though? Why were you pretending to be gay? I can’t imagine someone would want to be gay?” says a Boomer actor.

“I didn’t want to be gay. I hated my life. I hated it. I over ate and I over drink. I did nothing with my life. I was miserable, but I really just was that honorable and honest of a person.” says Lem. “The thing is though there is an allowance in the gay community for men to be interested in art and even if I wasn’t actually as insightful about art, as people have said that I was, I actually really did enjoy art more than an American straight man is allowed to enjoy it.”

“And you didn’t have to feel like a wimp for having asthma when it came to sports.” says a professional football player.

“Or being clumsy and nerdy. And having horrible eyesight.” says Lem.

“I had bad eyesight too. I had bad eyesight too. Maybe not quite that bad, but I had bad eyesight.” says Michael Rockefeller.

“America’s Best! A Dollar saved is a penny earned!” says Benjamin Franklin.

“I ain’t no senator’s son, but I was James Jay Hill’s grandson, and I did have glasses that were real.” says Louis Hill Jr..

“And that really is real. You guys really have bad eyesight?!” asks Zelda. “And yet Lacey is right and to her it’s not unattractive.”

“So Jay Gatsby was named after your grandfather, and Tom was probably named after Tom Banks.” says a living intellectual.

“Well I had perfect eyesight. Actually, I didn’t put my son’s did for the most part.“ says J. P. Kennedy. “Let’s discuss the synchronicity in Lacey’s life, Mr. Blue, that scares you.”

The They in the Illuminati tries to suffocate Lacey.

“We heard what you were saying to her she woke up and now she can’t remember it anymore. You start talking to her as she wakes up to try to make her stupid and steal parts of her brain using witchcraft and science. But we overhear. And at the end of the day it really just makes you all far more vulnerable than maybe you even should be.” says Betty Grable. “Hi Mr. blue Lacey’s not looking for your love anymore. She hasn’t been since 2017 and honestly she’s not looking for love even as a friend from anyone in the Illuminati anymore. If she ever even was. And you can’t understand that as a psychopath because you’ve never met someone like Lacey, who genuinely is able to function and live a wealthy life without human love.”

Joe tries to convince himself that if he killed Lacey he could make her love him again. He starts trying to kill her against God’s will.

Suspirium by Thom Yorke plays.

Would Lacey have gone to Mary Pickford’s estate? Yes. Possibly.

“As a guest.” says Mary Pickford.

“My father might have literally had an affair with Greer Garson, Betty Grable and Babe Paley. Of course Pickford isn’t an impossibility.” says Lacey.

“Mary did you have a prettier face in real life and everyone just said oh they can tell you’re beautiful you’re just so vain you’re stupid?” asks an interviewer in the Illuminati of Mary Pickford.

“Yes, and it was very irritating to me on an artistic and purely intellectual level.” says Mary Pickford.

More later.

“No I meant Pickfair. Pickfair mansion that’s where I could have gone as a child.” says Lacey. “Not to be sold into you know hostage, but as a daughter of Thomas Banks, visiting Mary Pickford as her guest in a formal upper class pleasant way.”

Mary Pickford nods.

“I doubt that I would’ve been quite so creeped out by it. I have a feeling I would’ve thought she had a very beautiful house and when I go there in my head, it doesn’t feel all that different than a lot of wealthy peoples houses today.“ says Lacey.

More later.

“Batgirl III is in the video done of the Pickfair Mansion and the screaming may have actually been Lacey screaming from being molested at the exact same time. The ghost of the woman was probably one of the ancestors of one of Lacey‘s perpetrators. …And why did they decide to explain all this you? Probably to warn you that there is awful Hell after death and I will leave it at that in a good way.” says Louis Hill Jr..

“Does the Illuminati not realize that Lacey could have visited Pickfair in it’s heyday? And if so, is that confusion because her father only owned $1 million house and a farm and a cabin and so they assume that he’s bluffing the rest? …And you know according to the history that we have he only had $15 million net or was it $8 million net or something I don’t know. But the point is he probably could’ve been worth $80 million and have been hiding it. He was involved in White Water. As himself. Not, not as a spectator watching eating candy and ice cream. He was actually involved in it.” says Tommy Banks. “He didn’t spend the money that he had to try to be impressive…and also to avoid people detecting the money that he had that he had probably acquired illegally. Being old money without going into illegal business he probably would’ve been worth $50 million he thinks and he’s probably right. At the time. …It baffles me that people don’t realize that you can’t keep snubbing her and thinking that it’s going to work. She could’ve been at Pickfair as an actual guest, somewhat honored by Mary Pickford, who is not old money. And her father may have actually been as wealthy as Mary Pickford. They may have been rivals and joked about it.” says Tommy Banks.

“Yeah you guys in the Illuminati were weird attacking Lacey. Like it was weird. And I think that’s what she was trying to explain to you guys last night and hopefully you guys catch on that she’s trying to be helpful to you. Because she really wasn’t trying to harm you. She really was trying to say, ‘Hey this is weird and what you’re doing socially is weird.’” says Lem.

“So she’s really not trying to have sex with with us?!” says a gay man about Lacey.

“What in the world gave you the impression I was trying to have sex with you?! That’s offensive to me and I exist. I’m sorry I’m not your narcissistic fuckwad mother, who probably hates that I exist and then you do too! I am not interested in screwing you. You can’t steal Lem from me for your little bourgeois Kennedy parade. …I have not wanted to have sex with any of you. I don’t know what gave you that impression but it’s a lie I don’t want to if you’re actually gay or if I don’t even know you!! Why would I want to do that? …You could be someone that I don’t know like Lem and be a soulmate but I don’t know you. So it’s creepy to me. It’s creepy to me that you think I want to do that because I don’t.” says Lacey empathetically and emphatically.

More later.

Yesterday after writing on this blog, Lacey‘s neighbor sat on her front stoop with seemingly her latest boyfriend, and violently stared for no reason at all at Lacey and her daughter and son and husband. When Lacey looked at them, they looked like they were ready to kill Lacey, burn down her house or call the police on Lacey for looking back at them in a way that questioned there authority as older adults.

Because in her neighbor’s mind, if this is what actually happened she still owns Lacey‘s house…even though that’s not legal and claiming something like that too far would destroy property rights for every legal entity in the entire US. …Communism wouldn’t even work because the government wouldn’t be able to run the country. Anarchy wouldn’t even work because people would be forfeiting their ownership of their very own lives eventually to this woman and her potential narcissistic bullshit.

What struck Lacey most that was how much what they did resembled a scene from the film The Shining. It was almost as if her neighbor either reads Lacey’s blog obsessively as the jealous, insecure, narcissistic twat that she probably might truly be…and was thinking that somehow impersonating an elite person in the Illuminati would scare Lacey into somehow cowering beneath her in her grander as she rents a house across the street and lives off of a $1 million life insurance policy from her dead husband?

Or was Lacey’s neighbor across the street who used to own Lacey’s house inspired by demonic entities to appear that way as the Illuminati thought that somehow that would intimidate Lacey? Or was it both?

“Regardless it didn’t intimidate Lacey but it was scary to Lacey because it was stupid…and weird and trashy. And Lacey couldn’t believe that her neighbor was that dumb that narcissistic, or that the Illuminati really thought that somehow impersonating some section of a film dramatically into her living life would intimidate her.” says Lem.

“Lacey loves The Shining and honestly that movie is like a death threat against her actual family. Tommy Banks was largely responsible for the 1920s. He went to parties like that and if Lacey had been there as a doted on child by celebrities like Mary Pickford and Gloria Swanson…she would’ve been loved in a normal healthy non-pedophilic way. Impersonating that film is a violent threat against the upper class made by a woman who’s renting a house across the street from a house she sold where she lived with her now dead husband for 25 years. She lately often looks like she’s ready to burn down a house that she wants to own and can possibly no longer afford.” says Michael Rockefeller.

“No, they both looked like absolute fucking idiots. It was like she was trying to impersonate my second wife! …I desperately hope that she’s not reading Lacey‘s blog because if she is: No I’m not in alliance with you you moron! You have no fucking clue who you’re talking to when you talk to Lacey, you little bitch.” says Louis to Lacey’s neighbor.

“So when I tried to get Lem hooked on heroin, that was actually a joke being played on me to try to get me to destroy my life because they knew that Lem was probably straight and that he might try to use it to kill me.” says Bobby Kennedy Jr.

“There will be blood, sir there will be blood!” says Michael Rockefeller bitingly.

“Here’s the scene that they were trying to impersonate. It’s the scene where the man performing oral sex in the costume and the other older man look at the woman like, ‘Hey, what’s up with you bitch?!’ …Which, by by the way, actually is, it is an argument against not for pedophilia. …In a sense the end of the film is very dark because he gives his mama kiss that’s innocent because he’s a child and then he escapes thinking that she’s his mom and she loves him and he’s going to be safe now, but in reality, she might’ve been a pervert too. She might not have been. She might’ve been innocent. It’s hard to know, but she wasn’t necessarily as good of a mom or as innocent as people commonly think. The actress who played the role played it brilliantly, but maybe has suffered because of that because that role was played so exceptionally well!” says Michael.

“I just keep thinking about what vaccines are doing to our brains.” says Bobby Kennedy Jr. seriously.

“You think vaccines have dumbed us down?“ asks the Vice President of the US.

“Yeah, I do and I think I can prove it.” says Bobby Kennedy Jr.. “If Lacey had been born as herself and Tommy Banks had been born in the earlier 1800’s would she be bad at math if she hadn’t have had vaccines? I rest my case.”

“Even if there’s some validity to that that doesn’t mean Bill Gates is necessarily pure evil.” says Michael Rockefeller. “And who’s plot would it have been to exterminate humans after the 1940s?? Was it a living person that inspired it or was it dead Nazis who decided that all humans should be killed?”

“Are you actually the father that I had in my past life and Lacey was my mom? Are you actually the father that I had in my past life and Lacey was my mom?” Bobby Kennedy Jr. asks Michael Rockefeller.

“If that’s the case, then when you die, you will no longer exist. He will just be that son…there will be no Bobby Kennedy Junior for the rest of eternity. Not that you won’t exist, Bobby if you don’t reject Christ. But the Bobby Kennedy Junior of the 20th Century born to Ethel and Bobby will no longer exist.“ says Michael Rockefeller.

“Will I be allowed to haunt the earth or no?” asks Bobby.

“Not if I have anything to say about it absolutely not never again, unless if God decides otherwise never again if there’s any reincarnation the Bible, you are done, sir, you will have to do your growing in purgatory.” says Lacey.

“You know I don’t think I am! I really don’t think I am her son or Michael’s son or Lem’s son reincarnated. I don’t think that’s likely! I think that’s rubbish.” says Bobby Kennedy Jr. seriously.

“So you think that Chastain was a perfect person to play that role?” asks someone of Lacey.

“Yes because she is beautiful! She is more beautiful than Colin Firth‘s wife. Most definitely. But it’s only marginally more beautiful by nature. And the rest is really just good breeding.” says Lacey. “And so then you have to wonder what was wrong with Colin Firth’s character or Colin Farrell, excuse me. Did he not realize that Miss Julie wasn’t Romy Schneider? Did he almost hallucinate her actual identity? And why would he do that? because the upper class was respected as the upper class at the time that the period film is set in.” says Lacey. “So in a sense that could’ve been a film of a maid, or a butler of a movie star today marrying that person and then being shocked to find out that they had dirt underneath their nails, literally or symbolically speaking.”

“Or a TikTok star?!” says Jonah Wiley.

“Are you implying that I didn’t know that you were short or liked Halloween so much…or what exactly is your argument?” asks Lacey, kindly.

“In our minds movie stars have been the elite since we don’t recall when because we don’t keep track of history, but for a really long time.” says George Clooney seriously.

“But just that I like I fart and I might not be as good of a person as you thought yeah just stuff like that so I thought you wouldn’t know because you’re not a famous tick-tock star.” says Jonah Wiley.

“OK but Jonah she still is capable of atomic war so your delusion that being in the elite much like Mr. Blue’s delusion is a delusion. You’re not Tommy Banks‘s son even though I think you’ve probably thought that literally if you read her blog. I think you may have had the delusion of thinking, ‘I could be this man’s son! I am a hotshot Tic-Tock star not Lacey she couldn’t be his daughter that’s bullshit. A guy like me has made it in the world and could explain her father to her, if she’s really dumb and ugly enough to be his daughter.’” says Lem. “The Kennedys gave you a wrong formula, the wrong social mathematical formula for understanding reality, and now your narcissism, and a lot of other people’s narcissism is showing.”

“Because Casi and Nancy and a lot of other people in the perfume community truly couldn’t handle who Lacey was. And is. And so she started retreating away from Joe Junior, completely into the arms of F. Scott Fitzgerald and then didn’t know it, but zoomed past that into my arms, but she had no idea who I really was.” says Louis Hill Jr..

“Louis you said that you used your name in her writing which writing?!” asks a person.

Joe Kennedy Jr. cracks up laughing.

“She wrote a story that she thought was about me in college for NaNoWriMo month. And then it actually ended up being about Louis because he used his name and then Lem because Lem took over the entire story…and Kathleen because she wanted to give her perspective on what happened with Pat and me in England.” says Joe Kennedy Jr..

“I showed-up in other stuff that she’s written too. And really her novel that she actually wrote is about us far more intentionally and openly.” says Louis.

“Just out of curiosity, this novel that she thought she was writing herself by herself for fun what was the novel about?“ asks a perfume hater.

“It was a doozy.” says Joe Kennedy Jr.. “She goes to Europe before the start of World War II with a group of female friends, including Kathleen Kennedy in her group of friends. And so then her and Kick go to England for a while, and are in Europe, and one of her friends ends-up getting married to a Nazi German officer in the middle of the night after getting drunk and sleeping together. And then they get scared and quickly flew back to America except Lacey‘s character decides to stay and try to investigate what’s happening as you’re goes to war.” says Joe Kennedy Jr.. “ I was madly in love with Lacey. My father claims that he was but I was in love with Lacey.” Joe knocks over his table at a bar with his drink.

“But then you started cheating. Then you started cheating and so a shorter, older, wealthier far more possessive and faithful or far more nice and loving man is who she ran to.“ says Louis Hill Jr..

“If I hadn’t been there, if I had been there, she would’ve just ran to me, but if I hadn’t been there, no she probably would’ve married Louis.” says Lem.

“When Lacey dies a lot of our delusions if there’s purgatory will dissolve into thin air and we’ll be left with emotional consequences so to speak.” says JFK. “ so as you plot to murder her keep that in mind blowing up her entire family in a car OK we can maybe deal with things then killing her individually without her family? Oh no, there wouldn’t be a lot of grace extended towards us then, OK kiddos? We would be left dealing with every bit of shit that we’ve caused, and possibly then some with possibly very little grace and no way to die. So if you kill her, you will regret it and if you blow her up and don’t try to suffocate her slowly or bleed her dry, literally, then like I said, we might be given a little grace. It is not in your best interest to keep trying to suffocate Lacey. If we die, we will be able to torture you, including the CIA and the president…whoever we want maybe even if they’re dead and we will for reasons that we’re not going to tell you.”

“Is it your father’s mob ties or no that’s not likely is it?!” asks a Boomer actress.

“No, no it’s far worse than that for you. Sorry.“ says Joe Kennedy Sr.. “What if you’ve kept Lacey from men that God had her to be with God himself. And then you have Brett and Jack in love and they can’t be together for eternity and they’re tortured by it and it really makes Jack angry?”

And at that the self-labeled old/money that buys Mark Cross bags now and lives in the Hamptons, tries to suffocate Lacey. 

“I don’t care that she’s rich. I don’t care that she’s old money. I’m just hurt that she’s not so in love with me. And I don’t want to discuss the concept of her being herself, and being rightfully attracted to older men.” says Mr. Blue. “Because it makes complete sense to me, and it always did if she was being sincere for her to actually be attracted to someone older. And I’ve thought that since the beginning.”

“Yeah like Michael like Michael, who is dead at the time but yeah, I kind of like Michael, huh?“ says David Rockefeller. “Did we possibly have an in person telepathic conversation about how if Micheal was alive that you would’ve not held a candle to him and that was really who she probably would go for because I think we might have.”

“But then that hurts me.” says Mr. Blue.

“And at that the real Chris Hayes wonders, if he’s not Mr. Blue, if he’s being used as a puppet or was used as a puppet…if he dies and reads this blog and realizes that he may have actually have been used by an actual Illuminati that he wasn’t a part of, but that did exist.” says Mr. Blue.

“Or what if that’s not what happened at all? That’s the problem. We’re not dead so we can’t walk through walls yet Illuminati should you exist.” Lacey says to the living illuminati and the fallen world we call earth.

Later.

Realizing that he’s ugly compared to Michael, Bobby Kennedy Jr tries to suffocate Lacey. Then feeling the entire Earth laughing at them the narcissists in the Illuminati consider nuclear annihilation.

Michael laughs.

Later.

“When did Lacey die and then God decided to keep her alive?” asks a woman.

“When she was 30 after she gave birth?” says F. Scott Fitzgerald.

Later.

Apparently, Mr. Blue and Bobby Kennedy, Junior thought that Lacey had made some sort of sexual contract with them. They thought that they had intuited her saying something in her spirit or mind that she never said. As in she truly never said anything of the sort, and it would be hilarious to analyze, except for the fact that these men seemingly really do believe this and bank on it, so to speak.

And yes, of course Lacey‘s neighbor who used to own her house has made an appearance today. The minute Lacey got out of her car with her lunch and announce to her husband that she was going to eat on her porch. Her neighbor took that as a cue to come outside walk around, look very authoritarian and then go back inside when Lacey went inside to blow her nose. …Lacey wonders why her neighbor always goes back inside when Lacey goes back inside.

“How are you not in a sexual contract with me?!?” asks Mr. Blue. “You never indicated to Bobby that you were even attracted to him. But you and I slept together.”

“Telepathically, telepathically we did but two or three times.” says Lacey to Mr. Blue. “But you’re right I have always indicated to Bobby that I am actually not interested in him at all in that way much less attracted to him in any meaningful way. He’s raped me, but I’ve never consented to or wanted anything from him. I would like to kill him if he ever tried to kill me.”

They try to give her a heart attack.

“So if I’m being sincere, then I have to admit to myself that you were just kind of going along and acquiescing to my bullshit and if that’s really all it was…what if you did make a contract though and you didn’t know it was with the Illuminati. What would have been the terms with that contract?” asks Mr. Blue.

“Oh, it would have been extraordinarily complex.” says Lacey. She thinks. “Umm…I suppose the idea would have been something along the lines of if you were Michael, then I would let you lead me around for the rest of my life. And by Michael I don’t just mean Michael I mean Michael as a concept that could really only be perfectly defined in and through the eyes of God, shall we say. That not being the case then we go into the realm of this-is-not-what-I’m-signing-up-for. So that stipulation not being met everything after that is null and void. …And so since you aren’t Michael the contract is meaningless. Then it goes back to the contracts and decisions that have been made in 2016 previous to that agreement that I was in accordance with willingly as a Christian. …You are not Michael, Mr. Blue. But let’s just say that you had been Michael the idea would’ve been that you would’ve been leading me around and I would’ve been madly in love with you, and you would’ve been madly in love with me, and we would have been so above all other agreements, contracts, entities to ever exist, other than God Himself that potentially for eternity we would be together. The only exception being a soulmate, like Lem potentially, an absolute perfect soulmate for either you or me that we were not aware of at the time of our agreement. …And obviously since you were not Michael, and are not Michael and never will be Michael none of the following applies to you: I get to be completely devastated if you cheat, and you have to understand the toll that it takes on me. I also get to be angry when I’m angry and you get to be angry when you’re angry and we get to be sad when you’re sad and we are able to be ourselves.” says Lacey. “But the rest of the Illuminati thing is just absolute nonsense when it comes to you and I and our love if you’d been Michael.”

“And there was never any other sexual agreement made?” asks Bobby Kennedy Jr..

“Between you and me or me and Lem in the Illuminati? No there wasn’t.” says Lacey.

They go silent but try to suffocate her.

“This is generally the kind of shit that happens before a train derailment or a pandemic. Are these assholes deciding that they’re extremely smart and that they have a fucking clue what’s going on…when really they’re just narcissistic buffoons that probably should maybe be dead.” says an angel.

“What is it that gives you the impression your people the impression that I ever agreed to anything that you’ve done that’s evil? Because as far as I can tell 99% of it, rests on social class. But I don’t think you guys realize maybe cognitively that that’s really the superiority that you feel over me. I don’t think you understand what social class means Bobby I think you’re too stupid and I think you too you you are as well Mr. Blue.“ says Lacey.

“You know you’re stupid you have no idea how powerful I am yeah you don’t understand the right through you down the stairs and then saved your life the next day because it was me that did it and you also don’t understand that I’m going to win the presidency through my sheer genius and sexiness. …My wife Cheryl might look like a horse in her face and have a horrible body but when she wears a zip up tight sweatshirt, she looks fuckable even when I’m not drunk even when I’m not high all the time and it’s thrilling to me, or it used to be. I, I really am superior socially to you and that’s why I’m so confident about it. I am incredibly confident and violent and dangerous.” says Bobby Kennedy Jr..

“You know I like love better even if you are smart, I really don’t have any interest in you. I’m sorry.“ says Lacey to Bobby.

“I really don’t have any interest in you I really don’t.” Bobby says more convincingly than she does. Then he briefly tries to suffocate her.

“That being said, when I think back to episodes of Curb Your Enthusiasm where she wore those sweatshirts in like the early 2000’s wasn’t it? I am not attracted to women, but I know what you mean. She really did look good; she did. I mean you could’ve just watched Curb Your Enthusiasm you didn’t need to you know, marry her, or even have an affair. It just seems like a bit of a stretch, bit of an extreme in a real way to marry a woman that you saw in a TV show who you found arousing in a sweatshirt. But that was that was your choice. That’s what you did. It seems childish and naïve, but that was your choice. I don’t think that you know you quite understand my position though here Bobby I’m not interested in you sexually or romantically at all. I’m sorry I am, but that’s wonderful for you and Cheryl. If you love her great good for you?” says Lacey.

“What do you mean? How can you notice that she looks good in a sweatshirt and then not be aroused by her?!” says Bobby.

“Honestly, I don’t know. I’m not aroused by her. I think people today may or may not realize or remember that people can sometimes look at people and notice things about them like how attractive they are without being aroused. I am creeped out by her sexuality so it’s possible that there’s some subliminal thing there that’s supposed to affect me that doesn’t it just repulses me. It makes me almost automatically dislike her. But she doesn’t arouse me. She doesn’t arouse me or Lem or Michael Oher, Harold, or Louis. Or your grandfather. Nor Rose. Or really any of your aunts as far as I can tell. She may arouse your dad and your uncles and some of your male cousins.” says Lacey.

Bobby is hurt.

“Did you track her down after watching her on TV while you were still married to Mary to have an affair because she really got to you my goodness!” says Lacey.

“What is it about her that you find so overwhelming?!” asks Michael.

“I don’t know her hair and her eyes I guess.” says Bobby Kennedy Jr..

“They are dramatically different than Mary’s too, aren’t they. Were you just ready for a change or did you do you really prefer a lighter look?“. asks Lacey.

“No, you know honestly, I like them, I prefer a lighter look.” says Bobby.

“That’s what I thought you would prefer when I first saw you. That’s what I thought you’d prefer.“ says Lacey.

“How did you know that if it’s true?” asks Bobby.

“Oh…well, because people with your skin type and coloring and etc. tend to prefer blondes from my observation.” says Lacey. “You know like platinum blondes.”

Lacey tries to hear a snub against her.

“No gentleman do not prefer blondes necessarily Bobby, that was a movie title that may not have had any weight or validity in reality. …We’re done talking to you like you’re our son. As far as I’m concerned and now this blog is about to get really raunchy…so listen if you want to actually claim Lacey as your mom for eternity, I’d suggest that you prepare to stop playing child around her. You’re both adults you come onto her and you try to rape her maybe she’s not your fake-mommy or your auntie anymore you little ass.” says Louis Hill Jr.. “Do you want to claim her as your mom and your aunt or can we just start speaking like we’re adults in a way that’s going to scare the shit out of you?!”

More later.

“Why do you get dressed up for men at all? If you’re not after money?” asks Bobby Kennedy Jr. of Lacey Banks.

“To attract them. I’ve never really thought that I was beautiful in the way that your wife does or really any of your wives do or anyone that you would probably be used to associating with. I know that I am beautiful and a sort of scientific, factual, authentic hard-core evidence it’s just true sort of way. Cheryl looks like dog shit compared to me Bobby just factually speaking most women if not all women that have ever lived do. And women are honest about it at times but not in a loving way not really, I mean it might be loving in a scientifically loving way, but it’s not like they care about me if that makes any sense as a person care about me I’m not talking about lesbianism I’m saying they don’t give two shits about me as a person. The thing is, though I dress up because in my mind, I’m still trying to look good enough to get them to notice me at all because even though I know that they do and I don’t know that they do, it’s complex frankly playing the piano, isn’t a bad analogy. It’s like being able to play some thing expertly well which I actually can do to some degree but then not understanding some fundamental part of rhythm or which key you’re playing in and yet compensating for it, but also not understanding it. So yet my brain just compensates so to speak but then it also doesn’t in the sense that I miss social cues that I should understand but people been so vicious and violent disgusting tours in my whole life that I don’t I really don’t understand certain social cues. And yet people are pretending to be loving to the point where I’ve been till my early 30s I I believed them and then I started getting a little wise to the whole thing but until my 30s, I thought people maybe really did love me because I loved them and I just assumed that it was mutual. And I mean that as a friend, as a niece, as a granddaughter as a daughter, as a student. The lady that I met on the bus once you know who talked to me was an ass and I didn’t realize that until my 30s. And that’s the thing I have to assume that I’m not delusional. I know my kids love me as as their mom. I love them and I actually do love other people, so I have to assume that st some point someone has to love someone other than just me and God. That’s why talking to ghosts has been very intriguing very intriguing very interesting and frankly talking to Queen Elizabeth too because she could be very loving at times potentially, I don’t know and I don’t know about ghosts either, but if if anyone’s been loving the Queen was very loving, as are ghosts.” says Lacey.

“I didn’t realize how little people would give a fuck about her when I first started talking to her. In life not not people who are dead.” says J. P. Kennedy. “You’re all deranged you do this thing were 50% you think you’re infinitely superior to her and then 50% you think that she is just God and you wonder how she even talks to you. It’s deranged.”

“I just haven’t figured out whether or not I like her yet I mean, maybe she can be like my torture doll?!” asks her living aunt. “That being said, if you do anything that’s illegal or immoral to hurt her I will smite you and you do not want to be smited by me. I guarantee it.”

“So then you love her?!” asks a Hispanic woman.

“Who are you you fuckwad peasant should I behead you you dumb useless bitch from Hell?!” Lacey’s aunt laughs. “Oh, I’m just kidding I’m just kidding. We’re best friends forever. Last Thursday when I saw you and I waved at Starbucks and I was like, ‘Oh my gosh I can’t we were here at the same time.’ Remember that! Of course you do. God bless you.” She grins like Jennifer Aniston in Friends. “No I mean, you’re under an incredible amount of stress. I can only imagine what it’s like having to deal with Lacey and just having to deal with everything you’ve had to deal with in your whole life and not knowing Christ as your personal savior. Have you prayed about what’s going on in your life right now and really, you know, taking a moment to reflect, and just think about what the sacrifice on the cross means in relation to your every day life that must be overwhelmingly complex. …I’m trying to figure out how to relate to you. You know I think when you’re in a family you just know that people love you and that you love them; you don’t need to ask.” says Lacey’s aunt as she controls the Hispanic woman by nodding her head.

“I am far superior to you socioeconomically you have no idea how superior to you I am.” says the Hispanic woman in the Illuminati seriously. She’s in a panic.

“Oh, we’re not even talking about that! I don’t even know what we’re talking about?” says Lacey’s aunt. She laughs pleadingly.

“You’re you know you’re a joke you’re a real joke.” says the Hispanic woman in the Illuminati after staring for too long to be taken seriously.

“Like a ha ha funny joke or like a that’s not funny at all joke?!” asks Lacey’s aunt sweetly and serenely.

“Like a ha ha funny joke.” says the Hispanic woman in the Illuminati before crying.

Lacey sighs in a mixture of exasperation and catharsis.

“Actually, you’re the joke because you pretended like you gave a fuck about me and then you don’t have enough intelligence or status or genuine love for me as a human without God – because it takes a miracle to love me right?! – to keep going. And you just made all Hispanic people look like absolute shit scientifically compared to all white people in the world. So good for you Princess Pookie Pie. Way to knock it out of the park…you dumb bitch!” says Lacey Banks.

“All right. I’ll try again!” says the Hispanic woman in the Illuminati.

Silence.

“You don’t love your niece at all other than in a way that I don’t understand possibly because I’ve beneath you socially.” says the Hispanic woman.

Jonah Wiley laughs. Smiles. Shakes his head in victory.

“Well she’s not my daughter.” says Lacey’s aunt.

“You’re a sick pervert, aren’t you?” asks the Hispanic woman.

Lacey’s aunt laughs. “I don’t know what you meant by that but because you’re in the Illuminati, right, I’m gonna take that to mean something really terrible because that’s probably what you’re used to.” She sighs in indignation. “I don’t think of her as my daughter. I married into the family, but I also don’t think of her as my daughter because we’re not really related by blood at least. So, where I am nicer to her than I am to you, or a lot of other people, I don’t feel…I guess you could say I don’t feel the closeness that I would feel towards her if she was my own flesh and blood.”

“Seriously?!?” says Lacey’s cool first cousin to Lacey in defense of this aunt.

“She’s gotta be a psychopath. I mean there’s no way that she could possibly be that unloved and still see more elite and be that genuinely good!” says Bobby Kennedy Jr. about Lacey.

“So are you her son or not. You never really you never really answered that question Bobby are you her son or not?“ asks Louis Hill Jr..

“Why are you smiting people for being a moral and illegal if you don’t love her?!” asks the Hispanic woman of Lacey’s aunt.

“That’s a very stupid question you’re very stupid. I’m sorry Lacey has to talk to you nimrods if she does every day because it must be very aggravating for her. I’ve changed my mind.“ says Lacey’s aunt. “ I I protect her as my niece because she is my niece. You’re not my niece! You’re not in my family and I don’t even know you.

I’m sorry that God made you so stupid! I don’t like to think that’s because you’re not white. …I’m not racist…but I know you people want me to be racist because it makes you feel better about yourselves…doesn’t it?! It makes you feel better about how dysfunctional and stupid you all are?

And I mean you as a woman or you as a Hispanic or you as a Latino or you as a Chicana or you as a mama? Are you a mama bear? What are you? Are you even human or are you an alien?

You know that’s going around on TikTok. Do you watch TikTok? It that fun for you is that what you do while you eat your cereal at night? I bet you’re fat aren’t you? You know I’m fat too, but I’m not that stupid. I know the difference between right and wrong because I have what’s called a human conscience. Do you have one of those or did yours get left somewhere?” says Lacey’s aunt.

“Lacey has got to be a psychopath. There’s no way these kind of people could exist right?! I mean that’s not possible!” says Bobby Kennedy Jr. seriously.

“So you don’t love your niece, then really at all?” the Hispanic woman asks Lacey’s aunt.

“Well what’s love? What does love for a niece mean to you? Does it mean calling someone on their birthday? Sending them a card telling them, ‘Happy birthday love you!’ or does it mean something else?“ asks Lacey’s aunt.

“I don’t think you love your niece. Have you ever tried to really be helpful to her in any way that was actually meaningful to her life or do you just send cards that literally say, ‘I love you and that’s all you do?’” says the Hispanic woman.

“You know, we’re incredibly loyal to each other. It’s impossible to break up our clan because you can’t. But umm..yeah, I know that’s pretty much all that I’ve ever done for Lacey if I’ve ever even done even that. II mean I bragged to her about growing-up in a wealthy neighborhood of California. And you know I’ve told her how all my friends had horses and that we were two poor to own horses and that that was really painful for me. And I was both trying to shame her for growing-up in West Bloomington instead of where I grew up and shame her for not having more friends, but then also tried to explain to her that I understood what it was like to not be as wealthy as the kids I went to school with.” says Lacey’s aunt.

“Disable cannot be real. She sounds so elite!! This makes Lacey elite in my mind and I can’t handle that. Disable cannot be real.” says Bobby seriously. “I called Lacey disable because the people of in the Illuminati like it and it makes me feel really good about myself!”

“Bobby you’re right I mean I’m not buying it!” says another Illuminati member seriously.

“So you really don’t love your niece you really don’t actually love her as a niece at all. You’re just loyal, because your family is old money and incredibly intelligent, Christian and moral.” says the Hispanic woman to Lacey’s aunt.

“I can’t believe Lacey actually loves people because that’s not fair! You’re not supposed to be able to be that rich and then raise your kids to be that genuinely innocent and loving and still be that rich and evil! I’ve always wanted to be rich and evil, my entire life, and I’ve never been able to figure out how to do it, and be a Christian at the same time.” says Jonah Wiley.

“God is the only one that knows my heart, and I will never acquiesce to your standards, because I happen to know that He exists, and I am genuinely terrified of Him and you should be too.” says Lacey’s aunt.

“I think we should get all the Satanists together and start a worship team and try to pray to Satan to destroy the Earth. We can do it through witchcraft if we just keep pushing ourselves.“ sincerely says a Satanist in the Illuminati.

“To smite the Nesheims?! They’re not that elite!! …I’m going to find out! I know they’re not! I know! Okay, they’re not fooling me. I know they’re not. I can sense it! Lacey’s doubt that they’re elite is unequivocal proof based on what I know from experience of being an expert lawyer almost my entire life.“ says Bobby Kennedy Jr..

“Where in California did your aunt grow up? I am curious but I’m also trying to make it seem like I’m doubting you maybe I am maybe I’m not…but..I am I’m curious.“ says Casi.

“I really don’t feel comfortable telling you, but let’s just say it was an island and that her father was a scientist and her mother was a housewife and they weren’t rich but they were comfortable. That was literally the way my mother described them. They were very comfortable, apparently not comfortable enough to have a horse, but they were comfortable.” says Lacey.

And at that Bobby and Casi try to smother Lacey and suffocate her because their egos are hurt and that’s how demonically they’re being allowed to do it in a fallen world.

“Hey Bobby, how would you feel if I had Lacey on an island naked all the time off the coast of California and you couldn’t see her? What if I was naked too and we were fucking for hours every day…because I paid people enough to look the other way, and give us privacy?” asks Louis.

“People today know that California is objectively just a shit-hole so see you’re not old money because because there’s nothing about California that’s really all that impressive. It’s just a shit hole a sad, dried up shit hole. I love his mind Lem was gay. Lacey is mine. She’s just a piece of shit and I’m tolerating her because I’m doing a new noblesse oblige act. OK I’m a really nice man I was a really big deal. My family is a really big deal they’re not the Hills of some state in the Midwest.” says Bobby Kennedy Jr..

Silence.

“So your aunt grew up on like Sanabel Island or something and yeah, I bet she’s probably in the lower caste in your family that you were raised in.” says Casi.

“That is all correct yes, she grew up upper middle class, and she was considered weak, lazy, stupid, and trashy by people who were honest behind her back.” says Lacey.

“Then where does that put you and your immediate family that raised you in their family?!” asks Casi.

“It’s very complicated. That’s not an easy question to answer as much as I think you were hoping that it would be. Umm… they perceive my mom and dad as both miserable fuck-ups, absolute pieces of worthless shit and and yet also something to be scared of and respect. My parents are both very smart and people don’t generally acknowledge that in an open way, but it’s secretly, always subtextual there.” says Lacey.

“What do you mean in an open way?“ asks Casi.

“I mean in an open way similarly to how the gay community likes to use it. I guess they claim the copyright of the term open the term ‘in an open way.’ That’s an older term than just the gay community. OK Casi? But it’s the same principle. I’m not saying I’m gay, I’m saying it’s in the same way they don’t openly acknowledge it.” says Lacey.

“I’m going to go kill myself.” says Casi.

“And so we’re just mad because we know that being gay is a choice that Lacey hasn’t chosen to be queer and that’s why we don’t give a fuck about her as a human. And yet it’s a choice. We can say that amongst ourselves, but we can’t say that outside of the community and that’s why we talk to each other. We say the straights because you guys aren’t real. There are no straight people there’s just people like us who are struggling with a choice that we’re having to make…but you can’t like say that to us because that’s mean; you guys are always so mean to us. Really!!!!” the queer woman yells. “Really, you so mean to us and we’ve never been to you there’s no Jack could have been mean! OK that’s the rub!!”

“No. Yeah, Casi why are you killing yourself? I’m confused! What is your what is your logic?“ asks Lacey.

“I am a victim. I was a victim what I was born. I am a victim, and I shall die. I am the victim of a woman name Lacey, who would not find me beautiful.“ says Casi.

“Since I just tried to possibly have sex with her no I don’t think she’s my mom Louis. I guess I’ve decided she’s not.” says Bobby.

“Casi if this is real and someone’s actually intuiting that you should die or that you want to kill yourself, don’t do it because of any sort of love for me! That would be the dumbest thing to do if you’re doing it out of love for me personally, I will get absolutely no satisfaction out of your death and whoever told you that should possibly be killed themselves. Unless if it’s a small child, and they might not have known any better. Killing yourself would be in my opinion a self glorifying, asinine narcissistic-bullshit thing to do…and if that’s really what it is God knows that and you’ll regret killing yourself. So I’d suggest that you be very careful instead of killing yourself if it’s about me personally.” says Lacey.

“So you wouldn’t care if we killed ourselves so you’re heartless monster, or you just really wouldn’t care?! I don’t I don’t get it?!” asks Jonah Wiley crying.

“No I do care I do care of course I care. I don’t want anyone to perish. I don’t really want to go to hell because of course I care of course I care.” says Lacey. “I think you people would kill yourselves to try to seem like you were in the right and that you somehow had some moral high ground over me. I don’t think that makes any sense and I honestly don’t see any reason why you would kill yourself over me if you give two shits about my humanity at all. You would only be doing it to try to double down on whatever narcissistic competition you’re in, purely and solely in your own mind.”

“Would it hurt you?“ asks Jonah.

“If you were a small child being hurt or if you were an adult who is actually sad, it would hurt me. If you did it to spite me, I would be hurt on behalf of Christ.” says Lacey.

“I’ve thought about killing myself over this whole thing.” says Jonah.

“What is ‘this whole thing?’ What do you mean by that?“ asks Lacey.

“I just mean: why don’t you care?!” asks Jonah.

“Why, why don’t I care about what?! About about what Jonah?! What, what what what what? What?!” asks Lacey.

“I am in love with you I was in love with you.” says Jonah.

“Alright if that’s true, that’s interesting. You never expressed that openly and the Bible says not to do that. All this ‘love wins’ bullshit as such anti-Christian narcissistic deranged intellect. Because of course I care if you’re in love with me, but it doesn’t seem likely to me even if there’s an illuminati and they’re trying to help you say that to me right now. It doesn’t necessarily seem likely. It seems possible, but not necessarily likely. …Umm…you didn’t communicate that to me in any sort of cogent, rational mature, adult way.

I either have a choice to believe you out of compassion and Christian love and humiliate myself -worrying that this is some sort of stupid prank to make fun of me for being a good person – or I can doubt it, which seems incredibly rational and sane. …And the truth is I have to choose the latter because I am 40 years old. I have two kids and if the Illuminati is down my ass trying to blow up the entire fucking world I don’t have time to babysit a narcissistic bullshit artist 26 year old.

So if this is real and you’re reading my blog and you’re thinking, wow it’s a breakthrough. No it’s not no it might be for you if you feel like you’re finally getting your message across but it’s not for me I’m not impressed and you’re obnoxious. It is all about you??? You have not once considered how I could be reacting??? I could’ve killed myself very easily over you, and you would’ve never even realized any part of my soul.

There could be dozens of women killing themselves over you right now. Does that bother you because that’s possible?

You need to stop being so high and mighty and be a hell of a lot more compassionate to people in a real humble way. I don’t wanna see any more lives from you if this is real where you are talking about what you’re cooking or what music you listen to. Who gives a fucking shit…if you’re trying to preach the gospel. …And if that’s how you think you preach the gospel fine! Maybe you’re more relatable! Maybe I don’t understand how to be so cool and chill, right? And then fine! Go on your merry way and do your thing because you know more about how to get into people’s heads and make them like you in the 21st-century than I do so good for you.

If you read this blog Jonah, the thing is if it seems like I’m in love with you because I’m so aware of who you are no I’m just good at reading people because I’m very smart and well bred and apparently good at reading people. I’m not a nasty cunt. …You just really piss me off because if you’re reading this blog you never followed me. I did have feelings for you. I really did I did and I may still slightly, but they don’t mean anything to me. They mean absolutely nothing to me now, not because you don’t mean something, but because the feelings themselves mean nothing to me.

And I think you’ve got to realize if you’re reading my blog, you announced that you had a girlfriend in a really vicious way. It was vey petty. You flirt with people in front of me and you never really openly expressed any sort of feelings for me. You hinted at it in various ways, but you never follow me and you’re never really clear about it. I’ve written that on this blog before and I don’t just say things to say them.

So don’t kill yourself over me. Don’t kill yourself over me very bad idea. Just learn that when God says not to hide your love for people he means romantic love too. Sex isn’t a dirty thing Jonah; it’s not evil. You know like if you had been more clear I wouldn’t have been interested in ghosts? Should I be allowed to be with them possibly at all? If you really were if you really were in love with me, you needed to be so much more clear.” says Lacey.

“Does that make sense to you Jonah? Can we stop talking to you now about your feelings that may or may not exist because I’m I’m I’m tired of I’m tired of writing about it. I really am I’m sick of it.“ says Lem.

“The idea of pleasure island is to bring a woman to orgasm, and then make her lose her mind in pleasure, but make sure she doesn’t die in the process of ecstasy.” says Louis.

“Oh, do you want an honest response or not?“ asks Lacey.

“Yes!” says Louis.

“You’re very handsome and I have a feeling you’d be a lot of fun but it also sounds stupid.” says Lacey. “Not because it doesn’t sound nice. It just seems like such a waste. That’s the first reason. It just seems like such a waste, considering all of the people in the world that are suffering. And then beyond that I just I don’t get the point. What does my pleasure accomplish?

You would have to, you’d have to convince me that my pleasure meant something meaningful to you, but it might mean something to God I suppose so I could look at it as worshiping God. …I was never loved so that isn’t making sense to me. You’d have to make an actual literal convincing argument. Because it’s just what does that mean to you is it just like a water fountain? Is it-are you just a trying to turn women into water fountains on pleasure island?” asks Lacey.

“No! It’s not…like that.” says Louis.

“What’s it like?” asks Lacey.

And at that Louis suddenly realizes why he’s not with Lacey. It’s because he’s never fully grasped what she means by never being loved. She really hasn’t been loved and so trying to give her some idea that to her sounds entirely convoluted doesn’t do anything other than fascinate her on mostly a purely intellectual level.

“But obviously you’re not rejecting the idea or are you?“ asks Louis.

“I don’t think I’m capable I don’t think I’m capable of it. Truly, I don’t think I’m capable of it. I maybe I should be, but I don’t know that I’m actually psychologically capable of it.” says Lacey.

“You just can’t imagine why we would want that from you other than what you’ve heard men want. And you know why it’s a thing in a way but then you just think, ‘You’re gonna get so tired of me!’ so you don’t think I am psychologically capable of it either.” says Louis.

“Was there a point to this conversation?” asks Lacey.

“Let’s discuss this when you’re alone.” says Louis.

Later.

“I’m not going to let Louis describe pleasure Island to you.” says Lem.

“Were you planning on just letting me rot or were you going explain it to me yourself because I have a feeling that if Jack brought you to pleasure island you’d probably think it was the hottest coolest thing ever and you couldn’t shut up about it right?!” asks Lacey.

“No no no that’s not true. I want to describe it to you.” says Lem.

“You want to describe it to me, but can you?!” asks Lacey.

“You’ve never done that before Lem. You were too busy pretending to be gay even if you were straight, so maybe I should be the one to explain it and you can sit and listen and be tortured by it like you’re probably supposed to be.“ says Louis.

“My general impression of it is that essentially it’s just like a place where you go and you’re naked all the time and you have sex.” says Lem.

“Lem if you’re really the one that just said that right now and you’re not being cut off and I do know that’s vile.” says Louis. “Pleasure island is a place where I would take Lacey and give her the impression that we’re just there to enjoy ourselves. Just relax there as a married couple. And then I would find a way to slowly and methodically, and perfectly seduce her so as to be able to control her every move so that she essentially becomes mine and me in a way that I don’t think Lacey has ever thought a man was capable of contemplating after you decided to suck Jack’s dick. You were never supposed to have fallen for something that stupid if you could be with Lacey for eternity and so you didn’t just defile yourself you defiled her entire existence and you have yet to redeem it with God’s help.”

Lem looks highly disturbed.

“I want to explain to her what I’m talking about or do you want to actually explain it to her because I’m sick of you taking her to bed every night never fucking her never making her happy because you’re bitter that you fucked up?!” says Louis.

“I’m just killing you aren’t I when I get all sad about stuff I’m really just killing you?!” Lem asks Lacey.

“What is wrong with you? I feel like you’re never satisfied with anything. Of course you’re killing me of course you are you should know that. You shouldn’t be doing it of course you defiled my soul because of how much I love you how many effing times do I have to say that to you before you finally get the concept much less understand that it’s actual reality?” Lacey says to Lem.

“You hear Jack’s tears and things that are mine. I need to realize that just because I can seduce you doesn’t mean that you’re mine you’re right. Because Louis could seduce you and do could Michael and Harold. What you really want is my actual love and heart and for me to be able to take you somewhere like pleasure island. But you didn’t even go to your senior prom. You went to your grandmother’s funeral.

The generations, alive other than your children have no clue how far off the deep end they’ve gone with you. They don’t realize how loud and violent and demonic they are in relation to you. And what I’ve gotta learn to realize is how violent the Kennedy demons are whenever I start to tell you how much I actually really do love you.”

“That was shit that there was absolute shit compared to what I’m capable of with Lacey. I was married to two women who you would’ve had a real fun time with trust me. …You are taking her for granted in a dangerous way.“ says Louis.

“Are you really truly capable of loving me in God‘s eyes or not?“ Lacey asks Lem.

“I want you to hear for the sake of justice what I would like to do to Lacey and if you can still love her after hearing that then I’ll take you seriously.” says Louis. “But just keep in mind none of this would be being discussed if you’d had a far more serious relationship with Christ. And if you realized that if He created you for a woman, you would devastate her if she ever thought that you could love someone else more in a real, authentic, meaningful way.”

“I’m not particularly impressed by your love either Lem. I’m sorry. But she’s with me for eternity, not Louis, because of how shoddy things have gone.” says Michael.

“That being said, I’m still gonna talk about what I’d like to have done or do to Lacey.” says Louis.

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“I would’ve taken my time and worked my way into her mind like I have tonight. Then, when she very least suspected it, I would’ve taken my hands, grabbed her breasts and started massaging them very methodically. And then once she was ready, I would’ve kissed her and I would’ve had her so desperately longing for me that we would’ve had sex sitting up at first. And of course I would’ve made her come. It would’ve shocked her but not me.” says Louis Hill Jr..

Silence.

“It would’ve ended things with me saying ‘I love you.’ and her saying, ‘I don’t know what to say to that.’” says Louis. “And I would’ve said, ‘What, you don’t believe that I am the man for you? You don’t think that it’s real what we’re experiencing or that it matters more than anyone else in the entirety of all human history to just us?’ And then she would’ve said, ‘I do doubt it.’ and then I would’ve fucked her again. Silently, tenderly, and then we would’ve lost ourselves in longing and moaning for possibly months if not years.”

Lem smiles. “But that’s not what happened. As unfathomably sexy and luxurious as that life sounds that’s not what happened.”

“Oh no, that isn’t what happened you’re right do you have a point other than that though because it sounds to me like you’re just jealous.” says Louis. “You know we could both kill her right now and yet we’re not and you know what the really sad thing is? She might actually be with Michael and neither of us so I think we should ask Michael what pleasure island means to him and then Harold, and then we should let her decide which one of us is best like we’re dresses in a seers catalog, 1953.”

“Just being with her, and being alone, becomes putting out for the two of us. I’d like to spend the rest of eternity, just being with her.” says Lem.

“I still think we should hear what Harold and Michael have to say for themselves.” says Louis.

“And I don’t but alright.” says Lem.

“I wouldn’t take her to pleasure island…I would just take her back to 1956 in a parked car on a moonlit road in the country next to water somewhere. Then I’d roll the windows down and just let myself and her go insane with desire for a each other…and I think that might be about equivalent to pleasure island.” says Michael.

“So you have no regard if you ever sucked Jack’s dick in a shower neither of you had any regard for Lacey at all.” says Louis.

“I would just gotten her really drunk and then we’d spend 20 or 30 or 40 years being totally faithful to each other. I think we’d worry we were too faithful to each other and honestly I think that would probably win.” says Harold.

“I think we should hear what Michael would do in that car because I don’t know that it actually does win Harold unless if you’re really meant to be with her and I don’t really want to tell the whole world what I would like to do to her body, other than whatever it is already shared.” says Louis.

“Lacey and I we’re extraordinarily attracted to each other. And unlike you, I decided not to hide it. …I didn’t see the virtue in being so modest as a man. I don’t think that I would be cognizant of what was happening and she wouldn’t either with her body as we’d be too lost in pleasure and extreme passion for each other. …As a concept, it wouldn’t be something that would be easy to capture on film. It would be too embarrassing for a lot of people to watch or to shocking or something but watching us would probably be thrilling for people because we both do look really good naked.

We were wouldn’t be entirely aware of what was going on, and yet we would also be aware on a certain level, even amidst all of our pushing and shoving and pulling. Because somehow we do trust each other and we’re so in love, and in a way we would somehow have the secret that we were fully giving ourselves to each other in a way that no one else has ever given themselves to either of us at least romantically. And it wouldn’t look stupid. It wouldn’t look like it does in the movies it would look like the beginning of humanity. If there hadn’t been a fall, maybe.

And she’s giving that up for eternity just to be with you just to be with you no strings attached no guarantees that you’re even straight or even love her…just to be with you. That’s ridiculous. Unless if you really love her that much…then I can’t let her do that to herself. Because how do you know that I don’t enjoy loving her more than you do? And you didn’t think of that when you were smiling and showing her asshole with Jack, did you? Taking pictures of his fucking cock in Germany at a beach the stupid fucking prick that he was. …He didn’t even graduate as high as I did at Harvard. He wasn’t a Rockefeller! So why the hell did you give that to him? There’s no-what do you have left to give Lacey just you just your fucking magic presence?

No she’s giving up a heckuva lot to be with you and what are you giving up? Jack?!?!? And yet you claim you weren’t even-you weren’t even ga??? Lem you made a total fucking ass literally of yourself to me and my whole family and the Rothschilds and the Hills really pretty much any family in American history who anyone who’s ever cared about old money would give a shit about. The Astors.

Because I don’t think she’s ever thought that she made you happy enough. And isn’t your happiness what matters?! Isn’t you being happy and butt hole with matters more than her vagina? That’s what you decided with that picture that your bottle matters more than her vagina.” says Michael.

“They don’t want you to be loved by any of us much less me, because Mr. Blue is madly in love with you and has been since the very beginning and now Bobby’s in love with you too. But they’re too dumb to know how to handle it appropriately. And they need to move on but they don’t know how to move on because they’ve never actually been that hurt by anyone much less a woman.” says Lem.

“If I die from suffocation tonight or a heart attack, Bobby Kennedy Junior killed me because he’s a deranged freak, and his family is the most disgusting, disgraceful family to ever exist.” says Lacey.

“I didn’t think she’d say that I just didn’t think she’d say it.” he says.

“Well I said it if I die tonight I highly suspect that you Bobby Kennedy Junior would be the one who would have killed me because you can’t stand that love doesn’t wanna suck your cock. You can’t stand the thought that that was delusion on your mother’s part, and that she’s an ugly bitch who should be strangled to death if I die. Of course, I can’t guarantee that someone else couldn’t get a really slick idea in their head that they should try to kill me thinking that he’ll get blamed for it. But if I die, I am largely pointing the finger at that family the entire fucking family because I wouldn’t have fallen down the stairs. I probably wouldn’t be suffering right now if it wasn’t for you assholes as far as I can tell.” says Lacey. “Bobby, you are a short fucking retard, and your mother is an ugly whorish bitch at best. Indeed she is one of the ugliest, famous women to ever live. And see now I’m starting to get suffocated again because some asshole in China or somewhere else thinks it’s really clever to kill me and claim that it was you?

I don’t know what’s going on I don’t know why you fucking idiots exist but if I die, I will be trying to kill my kids because I don’t want them to live in a world where people like you all could possibly breathe. If we go to nuclear war and we have annihilation, I am blaming Ethel and you, Bobby Junior, and your stupid fucking family for thinking that they were the American Royal Family. Because, as far as I can tell, this country would be so much better off if none of you had ever been who you were, we didn’t need you you contributed nothing you destroyed an enormous amount, and Jack probably should’ve died if not for his kids before he ever talked to almost anyone that piece of shit.” Lacey thinks. “If not for his kids and God forgive me for calling a human that God created please in Jesus’s name. Jack your life was pointless. Other than for your children. Calling it a mistake would be a compliment to your life, and you created it all yourself because your brain was so worthless to humanity.

That being said, I still care about you and love you, because I’m not worthless, and I’m capable of loving worthless human beings as long as God created them and they’re human.” She thinks. “And I’m sorry if I misunderstood who you are I’m sorry if I’ve hurt you but it’s funny because you’ve never apologized once to me have you? I don’t recall you apologizing for ruining my possible eternity! I’m sorry Jack but I am sorry I am sorry if I’ve hurt your feelings, forgive me if I’ve hurt your feelings.”

“That went really well Lem, didn’t it?!! Do you deserve her do you do you have a right to be with her according to God or not according to God, should you be with her?“ asks Louis.

“Yeah, the answer is yes I should.” says Lem.

Later.

“Let’s go to bed!” says Lem to Lacey.