The End Times

“Is that really what she looked like?!?” asks a man in the Illuminati.

“She was far prettier. But it’s better than most.” says Lem.

“You can see it in these photos. She really has had a massacred face.” says Lem.

“And she was prettier than the other photo?!” asks a perfume hater.

“Oh yes, far prettier. Although that’s far closer to her likeness than anything that she’s ever taken almost completely no, she’s she was far prettier.” says Lem.

“Part of the problem is if she contorts her face and changes her eyes that no one can see her soul.” interrupts JFK.

“Jack why do you think she does that??” asks Lem’s father.

“I I don’t want to think about it.” says JFK.

“Why do you do that?“ asks Lem’s sister.

“Because I was brutally bullied by my peers and I molested, and I don’t want anyone to see my actual soul and sexuality.” says Lacey.

“So the idea is to keep yourself hidden but people see you don’t they?” asks an actress.

“No, she really does contort her face around other people more than you might think.” says Lem.

“So you literally are hiding yourself from people because we’ve been such assholes to you your whole life like everyone?” asks a Boomer

“Yes, I did some of that too. I have may have been better looking in person as well.“ says Lem.

“The problem is people already are bothered by how beautiful she is so no one wants to help her look better. You’ve lost a lot of hair and doctors really do just blow it off don’t they?” asks an actress.

“They often act like my problems are an inconvenience not always, but frequently I feel like I’m bothering doctors, or I feel like I’m in trouble, and I somehow should have fixed myself.” says Lacey.

“It is disturbing! I was at the battered women shelter that her mother took her to in her early 20’s. And she was always very beautiful but one day they were taken to an expensive salon and Lacey had her hair done professionally. And the difference was shocking. It’s not just like she cleans up well. It’s frightening how much prettier she’s supposed to look than what she does to herself, and frankly what other people probably have allowed her to do to some degree. She truly doesn’t want anyone to know what she looks like. If she had found a man who loved her the way that Lem does or the way that Louis or Harold or Michael do who was alive she may have tried harder but that never happened.” says a volunteer in the future.

“Do you know why did you decided to start making fun of her looks?! Your wife is butt ugly compared to Lacey literally and Batgirl III is desperately trying to look like some approximation of Lacey but she doesn’t and that’s Lacey at her worst apparently. Well, I mean you could say there were worse pictures of Lacey, but apparently she never really has photographed well. I read shadows that and I can’t believe it. …This is Illuminati and because you made the entire argument about class and her beauty I am now in a fight with Vladimir Putin over how beautiful Lacey is in truth. And he’s probably more right than I am. If he thinks that she is far more beautiful in person and he’s right and China’s helped him because they know that he’s probably right…why did you do that? Why the hell did you decide to attack her beauty when it’s obvious that she’s extraordinarily beautiful?!?” asks a George.

“Because I have always read that women are insecure about how they look.” says Mr. Blue.

“So you decided to attack her beauty because you could tell she was a sensitive loving person and you thought she was vulnerable? The problem is, that’s not what you’ve explained the way you’ve explained it. No, you really thought these things you said and some degree you still claim to when you get angry narcissistically at her.

I think we’re going to make the rest of this post about how men have treated Lacey who are a life because I am flabbergasted at your stupidity. At my age, maybe it’s just a generational thing which is sad, but I would never attack her beauty because I would know that it’s dangerous somehow.” says a George.

More later.

“So your friendship with openly queer Margaret…wasn’t sexual on your part?” asks a woman of Lacey.

“No. It wasn’t.” says Lacey.

Mr. Blue throws a tantrum.

“Why do you need Lacey to be queer?!?” asks his gay friend.

Mr. Blue laughs. “Because…”

“Because your narrative falls apart if she was and is straight.” says a man in the Illuminati.

“You can’t psychologically handle that she isn’t happy.” says a woman in the Illuminati.

“It means I’m not in control.” says Mr. Blue.

“Of what?!” asks a liberal.

“Everything.” says Mr. Blue.

“Why?” asks Amelia Earhart.

“Because she’s supposed to be happy. And when she’s not…why? Am I…a fool?” he asks.

More later.

“So Casi once said that you lacked self-awareness. And it was because she probably thought that you were insecure and competitive. But the truth is you’re not insecure and you’re really not competitive and she’s just a narcissist, who has a very jaded view of the world and didn’t realize that you’re operating on an entirely different emotional trajectory that’s far more healthy, unfortunately for her.

But of course there still are hierarchies. They’re just not real in the sense that people’s value and worth actually do matter more than the hierarchical structures because they’re human. And the patriarchy is part of the hierarchy, classes are part of the hierarchy. I guess you can say that the hierarchy exists it’s just far more a mathematical equation than competition and I think narcissists in counseling would like to think that there is no hierarchy at all. Or there are no classes but that’s ludicrous.

Of course there are classes. Of course there’s a hierarchy but it doesn’t mean that some people are actually better than other people in the eyes of God. The thing is, what hurts Lacey, is that she really is someone deep enough to be looking for a connection with people and to be doing things in this sensual way, or in an altruistic way, or in a loving way and she’s baffled by people who don’t understand that.” says Lem.

“So I never won in any way?” asks Casi.

Lacey thinks. Lem thinks.

“No there are ways that you won they may or may not be meaningful to you, but there are ways that you’ve won.” says Michael.

“Your hair didn’t fall out. Lacey’s hair is unfortunately falling out as she’s incredibly stressed, in bad health and her hair is seriously thinning. It’s sad actually. Umm… You’re probably a better swimmer than Lacey. I have a feeling you’ve been more loved by people who are alive. Of course that’s not because you’re a better person than her. It just proves that hierarchical structures doesn’t exist in a bigger picture sense of the meaning of our humanity. Even though it exists. …Umm… You have far more support for your stupidity and lacking in self-awareness bullshit than Lacey ever has had for any brilliant insight she’s ever provided the entire world, at least in the US.” says Lem.

“How the hell did you think she was competing with you? That is so fascinating to me, still.” says Michael.

“I thought that she thought that our lives were similar.” says Casi.

“That’s what you told her repeatedly so are you confused narcissistically and that’s what you think you thought or is that actually what you thought?” asks Lem.

“That’s what I thought.” says Casi.

“She did think that your lives were similar, but not in the way that you probably thought she did?” says Lem.

“I didn’t have a lot of money I still don’t and I thought that she thought we were alike.” says Casi.

“And you misunderstood because you’re a narcissist and didn’t see that some people who aren’t narcissistic could get confused, which is what happened. And not because they’re stupid, not because they have some evil agenda but because they’re legitimately confused for reasons that a narcissist struggles to cognitively understand.” says Lem.

“Do they not want to see our suffering though or is it that they really believed our lies or is it just ignorance?” says Casi.

“It’s ignorance, Casi, but it’s not an ignorance that anyone can do anything about because that’s just how life works, unfortunately. There’s no way that you can give her your perspective without being vulnerable and explaining it to her and vice versa. She is trapped in her experience you’re trapped in yours. And I think where you keep looking for a way to win she’s totally disinterested in that. So it’s kind of like how I know that you enjoy imbibing different substances…and the sad truth is when you’re not a narcissist and you are able to connect with people that joy that they feel when they connect with other people is real it’s chemical, but it’s it’s also very real spiritually and when people who are narcissistic use substances they’re trying to substitute for that. But that that was what you were interrupting was her process of enjoying perfume the way that you might enjoy a glass of champagne. So if you like if someone grabbed a glass of champagne from you that you were enjoying and said, ‘Hey let’s get into a competition playing scrabble.’ that’s where she gets lost she thinks, ‘You can’t make me compete with you over scrabble if I don’t want to.’ But you know you really wanted to compete, you’re a narcissist and that’s your psychology. Why did-what was it then?” says Lem.

“I think I thought if she thought our lives were similar that they must be similar. But…now…it’s baffling to me because it’s like OK there probably is an old money order to society that people don’t want to be honest about. And like I get that and yeah, I guess that wins but I would be competing with the things that are more within my like things that like would matter to me. And like these huge social, like intellectual understandings of things that are accurate and profound, and probably insightful to humanity are not things that I am impressed by even though I respect them.” says Casi.

“What are you impressed by Casi?“ asks a perfume hater.

“Well, obviously she’s probably prettier than most people, so I guess that’s impressive, but I think things that she probably takes for granted are far more impressive than she realizes.” says Casi.

“So she would post things at times that you thought were competition and really were just her living her life?” says Michael.

“That makes sense no, that makes a lot of sense. The sad truth is though she’s oblivious to all those things and probably will be until she’s dead because who’s gonna point them out to her? I wouldn’t have necessarily even been able to.” says Lem.

“Well like your parents being married. I have a feeling she probably thought that was just average never even thought about it. And to me that was a big deal. People whose parents were married.” says Casi.

“That’s a horrible example because there are a lot of very wealthy people whose parents are very much not married, so what other examples do you have? If you want me to feel sorry for you you’re gonna have to try a little harder.” says JD Rockefeller.

“Ahh… probably what she eats.” says Casi.

“How did you know what I was eating? I only wrote about making spaghetti?” says Lacey.

“But you also wrote about making shoofly pie and that’s not something that most people would make.” says Casi. “And actually that ring is so much more impressive than you think. People are really intimidated by that ring.”

“So like if I bought a smoothie for $4 and didn’t post it to Instagram people would or wouldn’t assume that I was consuming it?” asks Lacey.

“With a recyclable straw probably four times a week or something? Umm…no they both wouldn’t want to see umm…that. And people like me who try to be honest about some things for possibly both good and bad reasons to some degree might. But people who are more dishonest, probably wouldn’t because they don’t want to think about that kind of stuff. Which is why I couldn’t stand your friendship with Stephanie. I knew on a certain level I knew that you weren’t probably attracted to women at all. But I could tell that she was too faced in a way that I am not. I try to be honest to some degree about my narcissism as insane as that sounds… But people like Stephanie pretend to be a good person and then stab you in the back and you never see it coming.” says Casi.

“What is your lifestyle like?” asks a Swede of Lacey.

“That is not something she would ever describe. She doesn’t trust any of you enough to do that and neither do I.” says Michael.

“Michael, did you disappear the same way that the billionaires did on the sub just conspiratorially speaking?” asks a woman.

“Conspiratorially speaking maybe I did. But then that’s an interesting question. Was I killed as an Illuminati sacrifice? Or what?

What are the end times? What is the antichrist? Is there a rapture? Is there not a rapture but there are end times? Those are very big serious questions that you’re probably unfortunately not going to get a definitive answer for before you meet God after your mortal body dies.” says Michael.

“So we’re literally trying to ruin Lacey‘s life because were narcissistic?” asks a perfume hater.

“That’s pretty much what you guys have been doing for the last seven years. Actually, you’ve been doing it to her her whole life but it’s become incredibly intense the last seven years.” says Lem.

More later.

“Is that woman trying to compete with me start some sort of psychological argument by making me wonder if she’s tried to compete with me or does she think she’s prettier than me and she’s trying to prove herself like a stupid narcissist?” asks Lacey.

“We can’t see into people’s hearts either. It’s very hard to tell.” says Lem. “You’re infinitely better looking than her, but she does have some beauty and I think women who are pretty who are narcissistic do have a hard time with you because they don’t like to think that someone’s prettier than them. But it’s also possible that she’s another sort of narcissist who gets off on thinking she’s intellectually and morally superior so she’s trying to trigger you into attacking her because she wants to feel better than you in some dumb ass bourgeois way.”

“She’s not better looking than me. …How do you how do people who read my blog not understand that I am not the narcissist. Just because I’m not poor and I’m not ugly and I’m not stupid and I stand up for myself doesn’t mean I’m a bitch;doesn’t mean I’m a narcissist.” says Lacey.

“Yeah the last episode of Sex In The City where the black man hits the taxi was a shout out to you or should’ve been because you’re right it’s total shit.” says a black actor.

“Well yeah because they are too stupid to understand that you’re not the one with the problem.” says Lacey.

“Does it bother you Mr. Blue that Lacey really isn’t a narcissist or a pedophile or queer or ugly or poor or even racist? Because honestly, she tries to be racist at times because she feel sorry for us that we think she’s a racist.” says a black actress.

“No that’s somewhat true.” says Lacey.

“So you just don’t feel threatened by a woman because she’s just not as pretty as you and you can look at that and see it and it’s obvious? Fine and you think the whole line of well why do you assume the worst is just a set up to make you look like a narcissist. And you’re right it is all set up. We are just trying to harass you, because were threatened by how beautiful you are.” says Mr. Blue.

“Why did you guys set me up to do that? I look like I could be a total idiot.” says a woman in the future.

More later.

More tomorrow.

(June 28th, 2023)