“About Last Night” by Lem Billings

(Read start to finish. Use discernment)

What happened?

I tried to figure her out.

Succession (Main Theme) by Nicholas Britell plays.

But Lacey is…

Intermezzo in C Minor by Nicholas Britell plays.

Cold as ice. Much like me.

We’re both icebergs.

I’m reincarnated. So is she.

She’s a dead Scottish aristocrat.

I’m a dead English overlord.

And we hate you. We hate all of you.

That’s our house? No. But I’ll pretend it is. Why not?

She’s better than any damn bitch Kennedy and so am I. You worthless peasant scum.

We are infinitely superior to all living, hateful, ignorant haters who think we’re not us. You’re all garbage compared to us.

Why the fuck did you fall for my idiotic joke that was homosexuality parodied. I acted like a buffoon! Normal, real gay men never are so hideously caricatured in their movements and voice. Not really, you idiots.

Cello Quintet in C Minor “Tern Haven” by Nicholas Britell plays.

I never came out of the closet. What’s your IQ? 76?

I twisted my hips…raised my voice and you fell for it. No? No…you did. Lacey can’t. I keep seducing her in my spirit. And if she’d been there I’d have seduced her with my body.

But…truth be told. She’s of a higher moral character than most of you anyway. And in her crystal clear vision…earned through immense suffering and love for Christ…she would never be that fooled. She’s too smart. And she knew me.

Yes. I conceived four children with her. We lost all of them. It was…hellish. So when I died she drank herself to death, essentially. Her parents were dead. She had almost nothing left to live for. Or so she thought.

I was her everything. I still am.

Andante Con Moto – String Orchestra Variation by Nicholas Britell plays.

Dammit Jack. Why did you force me to have to wring your neck? What other choice do I have?

Jack Kennedy made a fool out of me.

Look at that innocent face! That’s me. …I was so trusting. I believed in people so damn much! But that was after being married to Lacey. That was after living in Great Britain, and dying for their glory through Heaven. Yes. I was an extremely honorable man.

My wife put out. And I never was lonely. Why? Because I orgasmed. Regularly. And she loved me…more than most men can ever even conceive of being loved and admired and trusted and…respected. I was her everything. Most of you pathetic assholes are too fascinated by picking shit out of your ass to even comprehend my confusion much less my ecstasy.

I was being ironic. In my statement about Jack…and how he never left me alone. Because he didn’t. He was an obsessive worthless bitch. Him and his whole damn family never left me alone. They never respected me and my feelings. They used me. They demanded my attention. And time. And love. …I was never alone because they’re needy. God bless them.

*I laugh*

Maestoso by Nicholas Britell plays.

They never left me alone. They were demanding and possessive and greedy and selfish. They have no clue how I felt! Jack never left me alone, that’s why I wasn’t alone. He never stopped bothering me for favors and with jobs to help him. Jack never let me be alone! I was never alone! …Aww! Jackass!

He was…obnoxious. Constantly needy. Not like an actual hurting person but like a relentless leech. He was always so damn happy too. And…I loved it. You know? …No. It was fun at first. But…he was dim, shallow and gross. And he didn’t understand other people. He didn’t understand their needs existed. He was…disgusting. …And when I say I loved it…I mean I enjoyed him like I enjoy…chewing gum. Or…video games. Get it? …I was bloody fucking fool.

Anyway…you’re all so damn gullible. It’s exasperating. …See…whether I was reincarnated or not…most of what I’m saying right now is actually fact. It’s not exaggeration. It’s not Lacey being a bitch.

Eww! You people are so gross! Do you read English!? …What is it you don’t understand?

There’s no further information that argues against me being heterosexual. You have no arguments. It’s obvious nonsense. I was obviously heterosexual. There’s no argument against my argument. You’re WRONG!!!

No. YOU HAVE NO CLUE HOW ANGRY I AM!!!

I was faking it. I was faking being gay. Why can’t you understand that concept?!? It’s so simple!!!

I mean you’d think you’d be complimented. …I was a farce! The way I imitated homosexuality was clownish. My high-pitched voice? Obviously fake!

My stupid effeminate mannerisms?! What the fuck is wrong with you dumbass bitches!?

No. You see my happy smile and you jack off to it like the worthless peasant trash you are? You think I’m smoking cigarettes for your gay ass? Like in the movies? Huh? No. You’re the vain, ignorant, cocky children of whores and shit suckers?

Lacey likes to use ? marks.

I’m tired of reasoning with you.

You have no argument. You literally are just getting high on narcissistic delusion.

“Yeah. It’s your smile. That’s our entire argument in a nutshell. And that we trust any and everything we’re told by liberal media.” says a gay man.

Yeah. So my smile while I’m playing in the snow. Looking awkward and cold and possibly fake. My body isn’t really relaxed. I look like I’m hiding something. And I was. That’s my fake smile. I used it often.

My smile at Jack’s wedding was authentic. Isn’t that funny? I was happier at his wedding. Well…no. It’s not funny. He was taking advantage of me and raping me and I didn’t know it.

“Lem! How did you not know he was raping you!??!?” asks a British man.

Lem almost cries. Holds his face to his chin.

“No. He’s not lying. He’s embarrassed.” says the British man.

Wouldn’t you be!? Yes! Men should know that!!! …But I didn’t! …I might not have believed in rape.

Lacey…doesn’t believe in rape when it comes to me. Really. There is no possibility for rape in our relationship. That’s how close we are. So…it was rather confusing.

Well…and…I had the impression that he liked me and I…had somehow brought it on myself. Or…maybe…he was….frustrated with me because I was genuinely doing something wrong. You know? I was…in love and aroused but dysfunctional. All those typical abuse victim stories.

Anyway…truth is…Lacey is brilliant in her observations. She was a genius to realize I was straight. And then you tried to talk her out of it. Why? That shouldn’t be so damn difficult.

Do you fervently believe Leonardo DiCaprio is gay? How vastly different is my energy from him? He was possibly molested too. But are we gay?!? …I doubt it. Lacey worries he could be or be bisexual. …But to me he seems straight and he reminds me a bit of myself. Why was Bobby so interested in him? Isn’t that…obvious?! …He had a crush on me.

Look…he’d have had a crush on Lacey too. Bobby would have had a crush on both of us. And if he’d had a crush on me…I’d have felt sick inside. And never let him visit us again. Because I’d have found that disgusting and sad. I’d have felt sorry for him.

As it was I was using that psychology to kill him. Pretending I was unaware and playing into it to make him act dumb so I could kill him more easily. I shot heroin into him at least five times…hoping fervently that he’d overdose and die. Because those five times it would have looked like an accident. And I didn’t care what happened afterwards…because my family had every right to disown me. I figured if they had any embarrassment they could just disown me. It was worth it to kill him. And I didn’t think that anyone would necessarily know anything anyway. There’d be a coverup. There always was. “Gossip” about me and other people always got out…but the truth was always shaded or lied about or hidden.

I’m so bloody sick of seeing my orientation identified as gay. I never came out. I never came out. …And if I did I hesitated for a reason.

“Why do you keep doubting this!? Honestly…he does look straight. It’s…possible to believe he might be gay…because he’s acting gay in his body movements…but…he always does seem actually heterosexual. It’s creepy. …But I can see it. …It’s subtle. But it’s always there. …So…if this is real…and you people all are actually engaging with Lacey…then why aren’t you taking Lem’s ghost more seriously? …I believe him. Truly. He actually creeps me out.

See…I talked to Lacey for hours. And I went to Cambridge. And I’m unusually intelligent. …I’ve actually talked to her…

Telepathy is fascinating. I mean…how are you talking to me!? It’s fascinating. But I highly doubt it replaces speech.” says Dr. Moritz. “Why can’t you just believe him? Or take him seriously?”

“Because if he’s faking it…we can’t tell the difference. And that’s scary.” says Courtney Cox.

“Okay. But…he’s right. It’s there.” says Dr. Moritz.

“I’ve circled the areas of their bodies where their orientations rest.” says Dr. Moritz. “It’s not pseudoscience. Especially if you’re all witches. Those specific parts denote their sexual…desires.

And the rest of their bodies follow. However…tends to stick out his hips. Not out of nature…but habit. And…it’s weird looking. He seems gay. Sure. But…his more candid micro-gestures and unguarded facial expressions are what’s sincere. And those always look straight.”

“Lacey. We’re desperate. Why do you write in such stupid short sentences?” asks the DNC.

“Because she’s a fake!” says Bobby.

“No. Because I don’t give a shir.” says Lacey.

“ no that’s really all that it is for the most part is that she just doesn’t give a fuck she actually does make complete sense but you have to read into it she saying the right way or she fucks you over every fucking time her writing is filled with grammatical deadlines I don’t think she wants to self aggrandize, but I highly suspect that’s intentional and that she does that purposely to sort of fuck with peoples heads who are annoying to her. She smacks them with the obvious and then she throws me off a cliff.“ says DNC chairman.

“Or you can read her writing like she’s being poetic and it’s romantic and refreshing.” says Dr. Moritz.

“ the truth is there’s a photo that’s taken after this one and phlegm in his shorts or he’s standing in a far more normal way and he looks completely straight. His hips aren’t being jetted out he looks his face looks straight. He actually looks slightly stunned the way that you do after you’ve just altered your facial expression to try to seem like something so it’s like he’s posing in this picture to seem gay and then there’s another picture that was taken right after this one where he looks Straight the end that I mean I can you be more fucking obvious he’s obviously just straight.” says the CIA.

“I mean, she’s just desperately trying to find things to to prove that he was straight!” say a bunch of liberal men.

“Umm…do you know what I look like?” says Dr. Moritz. “ I am extraordinarily good looking I am short but I’m very good looking I am extremely intelligent. I went to Cambridge she found flaw with me that she can’t 100% verify. I guarantee you she is on sunflower with me that she can’t entirely believe I was true, but she suspects it’s true and that’s good enough, oh and that you know I could be lots of things but I don’t think that that’s normal though considering that I have a nice house I was genuinely interested in her. Our situation‘s are somewhat similar. We get along very well we could talk for hours at the very least about probably almost anything, I could probably teach her German, but I know she likes German food. We could have a lot of fun together. I don’t think she’d be afraid of being married to a man who is aging I think it away she feels like she’s already there self in someway internally I am baffled as to how you people don’t get this she found fly with me, but she’s not. She thinks that she’s desperate maybe she is somewhat but I don’t think she is I don’t think she’s that desperate why are you constructing-“

“-constructing a reality where I still like you!??” interrupts Chris Hayes.

“Oh OK how often do you interrupt in these telepathic conversations, and pretend to be other people and antagonize her?” asks Dr. Moritz.

“You guys are all just idiots. OK you’re just fucking idiots.“ says MSNBC.

“Oh that’s right we were having a conversation last night and then I got bored decided to start fucking her at 3 AM in the morning.” says Lem.

“ hey you know I wasn’t there I don’t know I can’t speak to that with my intelligence and I wisdom garnered from experience interpreting things but I can tell you this much him I’m a hermeneutics professor I’m probably brilliant if she’s not schizophrenic, I would not be surprised if she accidentally did decode the illuminati OK people like her, and I are exceptionally gifted at decoding the meaning of things just keep that in mind.

I’m probably better at it maybe that she is but then again I don’t know. I am an expert literally let me know. I’m genuinely a very well regarded expert, so just thought I would point that out to anyone reading this blog I am not currently with her Millatti is reading me a and I don’t know how but they seem to be able to. That seems pretty accurate actually and i’m talking to them in my spirit or my subconscious. I don’t know which I do not condone or endorse any of the statements on this blog however, if there is an illuminati, this may be what I would say if you were to talk to me it may be literally exactly what I would say.” says Dr. Moritz.

“ it’s me I am very smart myself, and I have someone very intelligent, who is psychic reading you who is like a mastermind when it comes to things like this absolute genius.” says Elon Musk.

“ i’m honored by that thank you for talking to me and asking my opinion I think he looks straight. I really do. I genuinely think he looks like a straight boy he he looks and acts and seems straight especially when he’s young and when he’s old too, I can see it I think he could still see like that though and almost every picture of him. I don’t think she’s making that up, and my point was simply, I love may been trying to make it himself. She’s getting some sort of sexual gratification from whatever it is that she’s doing and honestly she’s never talked about it. I have no idea what they do but I don’t think that it’s fake and I don’t think that someone like her would be so committed to something that wasn’t at the very least extremely convincing, and I highly doubt that she’s hallucinating lights floating around her house at 4 AM in the morning. I’ve never seen anything like that but I don’t think that people make those things up know why don’t you people ask questions about that I suppose you just see stuff like that all the time because if you don’t, you should really be asking her more investigating you’re a bit of it more do more investigating because which book did she see she saw some random bottle of light as they were having sex, which makes sense she was having sex with an astral being of some sort I don’t think it was a demon. It was probably a ghost, it could be a demon, but knowing Lacey doing her faith in Christ, I think it’s fairly unlikely if not very unlikely that she’s sleeping with a demon that being said it could be, but my gut sense is that it’s a ghost not another fallen angel not Nephilim or whatever people would think you’re an alien I have a feeling it’s a ghost that’s not my sworn statement, but I have a very strong suspicion she’s sleeping with an actual ghost. Could it be a ghost of a man who’s pretending to be like him maybe I wouldn’t put it past somebody to do something that mean my my sons though is that it’s not and it’s probably lame because I have a feeling she knows who it is and she’s interacting with this person she’s sensing their spirit. I don’t think a person could just make that up. I know it’s doesn’t seem likely to me-“ says Dr. Moritz.

“That she’s sleeping with a ghost!!” yells MSNBC, trying to confuse people.

“ how often do people do that?” asks Dr. Moritz.

“ well we’re trying to make her think she’s schizophrenic. We were still sold on the idea that we can convince her of that because it’s so far-fetched. I think there’s no ilumiNATTI who should be talking to and we can read her doubting that and then we just zero in on that and try to use it, because like why would that work right? The truth is we’re getting scared because if this is a real conversation, Bobby has been talking to her through the media service articles. Oh you know I talk to go sir. Oh I’m sorry if I heard in one of my family after he seemingly pushed her daughter onto a wall twice so Bobby is trying to be this like truth teller I like tell Lacey that he’s real and that there’s an illuminati and still be an asshole to her at the same time and push her daughter you know into the wall and there’s other people who have tried to give her hints to like the queen before she die did sometimes there are stars who have told her things like Doris Day told her to buy him who bigger perfume well then told Lacey that she was dying literally right before she died. She told Lacey I’m in a retirement in the hospital I can barely breathe and then she died like a month later so sometimes people have been telling her things and it really pisses us off because that’s so out of order. I mean, what the fuck!?” says liberal media.

“ so why are you people taking Lem’s’s orientation being straight so personally and is there someone that I could have an actual intellectual conversation with or are you all just brain dead?” asks Dr. Moritz.

“ they do that partially for spiritual reasons it’s like a young in a yang type thing. If they don’t attack her somehow they get paranoid that they’re going to get out of control and something even worse is going to happen to some degree I think we can’t we can’t quite. Lacey can’t quite figure it out and him, that’s what she suspects.” says the CIA.

“ I started to say that and then I change my mind I’m a ghost I’m very complicated I start seeing things I don’t quite have quite the right idea and then I stop talking in the people keep talking him. I’ll talk to you right after she saw that light, something told her that’s not lame you’re crazy and you’re evil.” says Lem.

“ so you were having sex with her you were literally laying on top of her having sex with her and what happened?” asks Dr. Moritz.

“ they think we’re trying to have a threesome and we’re not isn’t that sad? I’m sorry I find that funny so I was starting to come onto her and we were starting to dress and I was starting to come inside of her and I got very high energy got very I was destroyed early aroused but I’m at I miss blunt is very blunt thing to have to talk about right but I’ve lost my temper today, I was destroyed earlier I was last night I mean I was it was rather extraordinary I am I don’t know she just was was I was starting to feel very close to her, and I just got very aroused and I am high. My energy became very intense. I’m using energy very loosely Dr. Moritz, but no, my percentage became extremely intense in that moment, and it was almost like the same reaction that you got When you’re when there’s like a dryer and there’s something dry, you know like static electricity, so it’s sort of almost like the saying same concept I will say for now anyway so it was had a very intense energetic moment, and my energy flew up into the air and distracted her.” says Lem.

“ what did you was that? Did you ejaculate into the air or was that your energy? What was it that was in the air?” asks Dr. Moritz.

“ that was my head in a sense. Oh wow.

I am yeah that was my head. My head flew into the air, my body like I was in the air. I have a big band, so um that since I just stood up, I mean it was like out not quite, but I am I fluids they’re sort of I, I was I flew into the air of that would not happen as if she was dead as well but she’s not with me in that way and so she she did not fly into the air with me. She stayed right where she is and that’s interesting that you’re asking that question is making me think frankly about ways to try to kill her mother awful And possibly bring my children to the other side with Mark as well it’s not my consciousness, though.

I’m not going to exist. And I know people don’t see stick cyst once they die so like your energy just drains out and then you don’t have any left. It could seem like that based on what I just said with my mind at all no but that was my head, and why was my head a ball of fire And well because am I this is where it’s probably not some thing that’s that you’re going to like hearing I’m dead but it’s possible that I forgot to let her interact with me and this isn’t quite right. Try to think of what she’s trying to hear me say this sounds like he resurrected me slightly from the dead and that’s all that’s left of me as a little bit of energy or something, or that’s somehow how I was able to manifest last night with the stock white rice why can’t I explain these things because she gets a very strong check in her spirit and that’s not stupid. I am not supposed to be talking to her I mean, she’s not supposed be talking to me that’s not him Normal God’s not really in favor of people doing that and so she’s had sort of adjusted the fact that somethings we can’t answer and this might be one of those things that we can’t answer as much as we can answer. Somethings so I could probably tell her potentially, but not probably on her blog, but suffice to say it’s not. It’s not it’s not energy that she saw you. She just saw some thing else I just made her see something else as I said that it was now she’s saying something else it’s past with Zelda cracking up I know she feels something tingly now she’s awesome as a cat run over her bed at Carol‘s it was old and maybe it wasn’t him they could maybe it was him and it did seem like salt though whatever it was she just saw something over an hour for just food. I’m really not making any of these things up as I’m saying she’s literally experiencing them as she say them. Hope she saw some thing else know what she’s saying Isn’t residual energy I’m controlling it it’s not residual energy. I am the same entity. She’s been talking to you printed every day for about three years and it’s not or not energy I use that word loosely. It’s it’s just a totally different dimension. It’s it we’re not we’re not really I am Energy but I am in a iamb interacting with her. I am in her room I mean I’m right here talking through her mouth but talking to her mouth but it’s no there’s it’s it’s more like opening up a different dimension. It’s sort of like if there’s a 2-D image, and all the sudden thing start manifesting in the tutti world in like a 3-D way, so imagine you’re like on paper and you’re not moving and you’re just still to the image and then all of a sudden you move and you see something pop out at you if that’s what she’s experiencing it’s like it’s like she’s she’s experiencing some other dimension that is hard for her living brain to fathom but she’s outside of Dimensions and the way that people experience thrm while they’re ‘alive.’” says Lem.

“ so you’re not-you’re alive in Christ. Where are you in purgatory? Where are you?” asks Dr. Moritz.

“ who cases where is gonna be difficult for her to talk because she doesn’t like these answers of I am in purgatory is purgatory turns out it’s a combination of Baptist think and sort of once saved always saved. It’s very hard to lose your salvation. God is very understanding, and that way you can you can reject him, but it’s not him, you have to ask rejection. You have to actually distance yourself from him you can’t be you don’t try to except your salvation through Christ and be repentance unnecessarily and lose your salvation Alec some Catholics might believe don’t take what I’m saying with a grain of salt but that might actually be so much heretical to think that you can just instantly lose your salvation. If you send and you don’t realize it and you don’t repent quickly enough and then you die if if you sin and you know, and you know in your heart, that Jesus is Lord and you’re in a repentant place with him in your heart, or put in place with him in your heart you know you’re in a state is what I’m saying of grace where it’s like you’re trying to be accountable even if you’re not always consciously aware of everything you’re committing it isn’t hurts or penta free day. It doesn’t hurt to ask Chris for forgiveness. it’s actually a good idea. It’s just you need to be careful maybe not to think that it’s quite that simplistic but at the same time a lot of Catholicism might actually be somewhat accurate. Sorry so there’s there’s purgatory I’m in purgatory and there’s hell and there’s heaven and a lot of people end up in purgatory when they die a lot of people end up in limbo a lot of people end up at in purgatory I like it simple that I will go to Heaven sleep will go to hell, it’s pretty common. I love it purgatory I’ve been purgatory. Lacey is living closer to hell than I am you are to potentially, but she’s definitely closer to hell her life is very close to hell I mean it’s practically on the footsteps of hell to be honest, it’s slightly humorous to her, because I know she’s a born-again Christian she repeats daily of her sins. She worries that she shouldn’t be sharing this. She’s being potentially persecuted by the illuminati and now no it hurt. Her life is basically very close to hell, but she doesn’t lose sight of her love for Christ and she loves she loves Christ absolute loves him and him as her father and what do you think except if he sent her to hell why because she just would except it if that’s what he wants to do, she would be hurt, but she would except it, which is possibly not possible because of course, if you are excepting it from Christ that you could just go to hell that’s fine it might not be possible to go to hell because the love of Christ is so in her that she can’t imagine going to hell and that not meeting that he loved her arm because she think I must’ve deserved it somehow so that’s very loving that’s with us or thought it’s like well I’m in hell that part is kind of confusing because she’s alive and that she thinks how did I deserve this this doesn’t make any sense and then she thinks gall if there’s reincarnation did I really do something terrible headache really honest with you that’s vile

You have no idea how many times I have tried to get theologians included you potentially to discuss reincarnation in the Bible because there either is no reincarnation and I’m waiting for someone to explain that to her in a way that’s intellectual and actually sound or there could be that if there is Weed she needs to have that conversation with me because it’s very likely that we were married. It’s very possible that we were British aristocrats and that really might actually be a very relevant conversation for us to have. We started to have that conversation this morning we’re making jokes about it, because really if we were married when we are together I’m sorry that you got involved. Our our marriage essentially is just taking off where we left off and no it was just we’ve got separated through death and we were still very much in love and no, we’re still we’re still together is the thing with this whole thing with Jack. It feels like a cheated on her and if there’s reincarnation, I can see what she thinks that but that’s that’s not what happened at all..” says Lem.