Bobby & Al

“No, the food cooked in a tangine is really yummy!” says Lacey Pantell Banks Billings.

“You know I’m a little baffled. Allyson do you know what a tangine is? You’re an expert at everything right?” asks Grandpa Pantell.

“ why do is copy her you you you know people like you love to make fun of Lacey and harass her in your own passive aggressive, sadistic little asinine peasant ways but then at the end of the day sweetheart, you just copy her and stab her in the back, or copy her and love her behind her back or stab her in the back why aren’t you ever forthright and decent to her? You really hurt our granddaughter and your mother did as well. We don’t understand you’re autistic Allyson Laceyz not you’re the jealous one. You’re the autistic one Lacey is not you’re dating a man name L she used to call you L but not because she was bisexual or lesbian or pansexual because she thought it was sort of playful and fun. Why did you have a problem with that you you didn’t but at the same time because you understood what she was doing at the same time it seems like like you lack some self-awareness there it’s not just being autistic that is your name. Did you not want her being that familiar with you at it and if that’s true what in the hell gave you the idea that she was inferior to you to that degree socially and would fuck gave your father. The idea that he could just ask her out in front of people was that snobby on his part it might’ve been or was it that he was a jack ass you’re beneath us and when you’re old, you’ll be poor as fuck compared to her and her family, the wrong wing, her keys were explorers and they were wealthy, but they weren’t quite that elite your mother. Your grandmother might’ve somewhat lied to you that they did have some aristocratic ancestry but no more than Lacey does. In fact, it might be far less and you’re not just Yvonne linger Chi sweetie you’re also Leonard and whatever the hell it is your mother is, so your mother is a peasant riffraff your grandparents. The letters were lower, middle class and longer keys are somewhat impressive, but not to the degree that we are or that the Nesheim’s are you’re beneath Lacey, but you act like you’re far superior to her and so do the bushes and it’s it’s really obnoxious, could you could you just could you try to explain what it is in your grander and brilliance that Lacey doesn’t understand about every fucking thing she didn’t make mistakes with her language else you corrected all the time when she didn’t need to be corrected anyways acted like the voice of God when you did it it was obnoxious. Could you try to explain what it is that made you think she was so far beneath you that she could possibly be jealous of you see Lacey would never say something like that what you do you know why because she’s very intelligent and you know what I tend to think. I tend to think you’re a little Sadistic and that you cover up for it by being mostly normal but it’s times you’re a little psycho pathic and you enjoyed hurting her and that’s the problem. If that’s the case, if you were just petty and your psychopathy was meaningless, your autism got in the way and you made an ass of yourself because you went to far, maybe you maybe your family’s father was all like that a little bit dumb because the first time she met your grandmother your grandmother wins shut up about poop. She was on the toilet and she kept saying, ‘I’m taking a shit! I’ve got shit all over me.’ Yes that that that was your grandma van linger. Katie is a great grandma. Von linger K I will Lacey first met her. She was in the nursing home on the toilet and she wouldn’t shut up about poop that she couldn’t get off of her body and she kept yelling that at you and your friend. A lot of people who are supposed old money, elite in America think that that’s normal for an elite family to be that crappy literally it’s not it’s not normal to be that socially and psychologically crass and backward and dysfunctional. Lacey was mortified for you and got a hell of a lot less of you and your whole fucking family because you just told her oh my grandmother was really rich and they have aristocracy in the blood somewhere in Europe and you couldn’t remember where she had said it was it sounded like a Lotta crap. They were very impressive but I don’t know that your grandmother was really as godly as you thought she was And Lacey thought a hell of a lot less if you darling she did she had a Normas less if you knew that you knew that and you were embarrassed by it for just a split second actually, it’s probably a little longer than that, but not long enough for you to realize that you shouldn’t have been bragging to her about your impossible exploits. Lacey is a political genius and she could’ve been president very easily, but she’s not Jack reincarnated you could not, so when she was a politics major and you copied her and decided to be a legal secretary, you said things to her like I’m going to go to Washington DC with you and we’re going to kick ass together which was so fucking stupid because she’s a genius and you’re not she would never kick ass with you in Washington DC. You couldn’t keep up with her you’re too fucking stupid in general.

But she couldn’t say things to you, like you’re not that bright because she cared and she was trying to be nice to you. Why did you choose to be so profoundly evil to her when her mother was having a heart problem 10 years ago and almost died you posted some thing that was very possibly in relation to her and your response was not only to gaslight her, but your bullshit, her and act like you cared. Oh, I’m so sorry Lacey that’s not me do you think you could be jealous of me but I don’t think you are darling but I hope you’re not but but don’t you think maybe that that you need to just be happy and you’re so pleasant about it to her face. But then, behind her back, you had all of your brand new friends you were very proud of thinking she was a narcissistic, jealous buffoon. And she’s not, and what she wrote you was irate, but she was trying to be honest with you and vulnerable as a friend. Are you a lesbian and you were attracted to our daughter if that’s true so is your mother and it’s a little old you can’t pretend to be straight and neither can your mom with women like Lacey anymore or with people in general it’s starting to come out That you wanted to fuck our granddaughter and you covered up for it by being absolute bitch and you are super worried you were worried and hurt that she actually was never attracted to you or your mother. Or or what she was being vulnerable with you, and instead of being loving, you found a real clever moment to punch her in the gut because you’re a psychopath very slightly and you thought oh, she’s going to be hurt by this because she’s going to think that we’re friends and that we’re close And she’s suffering and I could be kind and pick her up and be loving to her but I would really rather enjoy punching her in the face when she’s down and suffering because because why because you’re you’re a worthless person and that way an absolutely worthless person is yours you’re the friend that has the family that owns the lake and they all go to Cornell Your families not as impressive as hers they’re just not sweetie but they do have a lake and that is impressive and a part of you is rather lovely him but no you you don’t seem to understand how you really are like a psychopath she needed you to be kind and loving her mother was dying potentially She was confused by you because you seem to be into meeting that she was a terrible person and you could’ve just said oh my goodness no I wasn’t talking about you at all but instead you gaslight her and made it seem like she was crazy, which was actually very psychologically damaging to her Because Messiah College told her that you were the same one and you weren’t.

I have news for you sweetie men use you to have sex because you’re easy as fuck.

I will be shocked if your current boyfriend marries you your last one was never going to. He didn’t want to degrade himself by being married to someone as ugly as you.

Oh, you’re deformed, you have autism and you’re physically hideous even if it’s of a linger key trait which is embarrassing to them because it shows that there’s something genetically shitty about them even if they’re wealthy and superior and some other way does the fucked up ones of the upper class.

Ugliness does matter people today. Don’t realize that.

Why don’t they realize that because they realized other things at some point and see that’s why you can’t base everything you do on reason you have to based on God and the Holy Spirit.

Oh, sorry I’m just curious when you decided to be a worthless bitch to my granddaughter when her mother was having a heart problem and you said the following almost verbatim.

‘I’m so happy to finally have found friends who can help me out too and be able to do things that are actually fun with me!’ And then Lacey wrote you and said almost verbatim, ‘I think you’re talking about me and it hurts. Are we just not friends anymore Allyson or what?!’ And you responded to her and accused her of being weird and psychotic and evil by possibly thinking that you could’ve been referencing her did you think she was: a. stupid in your profoundly psychotic narcissism or did you think that b. you didn’t seem autistic when you do and you were hurt by her by her insinuation that you were tragically autistic, or c. you are very autistic and narcissistic both.

Did you think that by accusing her of being jealous that it was a good cover for the fact that you actually really were talking about her? It’s very unclear. You know you can feel sorry for yourself. If you know you’re ugly wherever the hell it is that you know about yourself it’s so profound all the time Allyson, but the end of the day sweetie you don’t know jack shit about a lot of people around you. And she really was trying to be a sincere friend to you she is she was fabulously beautiful compared to you. You were ugly piece of crap compared to her, but that didn’t matter to her because her heart is so good and sincerely pure if it irritated you that she couldn’t drive, you really should’ve made that clear to her, because unfortunately that can happen sometimes in the upper class. People don’t always have an awareness of things like that and you kind of have to clue them in if it’s offensive. And it’s not that they mind, they just don’t know and she’s one of those people.

Or were you in love with her granddaughter and you were dumb enough to think that she’d never be with a man that’s sad if that’s true because you knew that she would never settle and be with a man just for the money or just for the social prestige and you thought no if she’s with a man it’s sincere so she was with a man and she was married you knew it was you knew it would be sincere and so you started saying things about her that were mean because you were trying to hurt her for getting married I think it might’ve occurred to you that she was straight and it did irritate you that she didn’t drive but you also irritated because you thought something could be happening that wasn’t happening when she got married that’s just a theory that you should really be able to figure out for yourself there’s something wrong with you that you can’t that’s not her granddaughter’s problem, so is it as you stalker and possibly read this blog keep that in mind we’re watching you and you’re inferior to us and if you’re going to hell or purgatory, don’t say he didn’t warn you. Oh my word.

And sweetie that’s the other thing if there’s an excuse for your behavior that we don’t understand God knows that but it’s between you and God we’re supposed to be able to figure out what the heck it is that’s going through your mind to some degree.

But that you can’t you can’t you can’t just assume things with people like that you can’t, and it was very unkind to gaslight her like that your statement is totally logically implying that Lacey was a crap friend to you. You clearly implied that she was a worthless friend, and possibly worthless person. And what is it with you and Dr. Lauermann and always saying, ‘I’m so glad we’re friends. I’m so glad we’re friends. It’s so good being friends with you. I’m so glad we’re friends.’ What the fuck are you guys talking about?

Oh yeah, women could be very catty with the use of the word friends.

And Lacey unfriended you and Dr. Laura man because you’re such a bullshit artists both of you.

And don’t commit suicide, but if you do, your dad is dead anyway, and you were in love with him right or no?

Oh, you do imply things at times it’s unclear what you mean by that, so are you autistic and narcissistic and painfully unaware, and you accidentally made a very logical implication that Lacey was a worthless friend or what?” says Mrs. Pantell.

“I was implying that she was a worthless friend.” says Allyson Elise Leonard.

“Yeah, you were and she knew that. Remember? And she called you out on it. So…why did you choose to bullshit her? What was the point of that?” asks Mrs. Pantell.

“ I am I I was embarrassed, because I was full of it. She was a good friend, but I was too jealous to enjoy our friendship. I was too jealous to enjoy our friendship. I would get very jealous of her, and it was hard to be friends with her and so I made up the idea, I made up the idea that she was jealous of me and that I the idea was that it’s like I I I’m actually the one that’s jealous of her. No I exaggerated the fact that she had problems and I might have someone accidentally ripped her in with people to in my head when I wrote that. He and I I just was trying I was trying to sort of imply that all my friends are beneath me because I was struggling with the fact that I wasn’t getting married and I was also struggling with the fact that I was jealous of Lacey at the time because my boyfriend wasn’t getting married to me And I was jealous for other reasons of social class because they were a lot more well-off and that surprised me slightly but I wasn’t that surprised by it. And and beyond that I get high off of that sometimes I like making fun of people behind their back I like being catty and mean and I like playing the role of stuff I see on television where it’s like you you know you have the old friends and then you dump them in tears you have new friends and the new friends really like when you say things like my old friends were shit, because in the new Friendsville like you love them more except that’s not really socially what’s happening but that’s the way I interpreted it so I thought if I can dump Lacey as a friend and make her seem like a worthless piece of shit then my new friends will like me more and I also felt happy from that like life is getting better not worse And also that like my friends were him that my friends were better than her and I knew that probably wasn’t true, but I wanted to think that because it just made me feel superior to her I like feelings. Of people and that’s I mean I just I got high off of it, and yeah I didn’t care how much it hurt her and when she called me out, it may be angry at her because I didn’t want to have to be accountable for how mean I was or how jealous I was and also I realize that she was smarter than me, or as smart as me And that she’s been someone patronizing me but also maybe it wasn’t patronizing. It was just love and kindness on her part so I realize that she has been loving and kind to me the entire time and not like my equal and that just pissed me off because I realized that she was never going to be my equal. I was always gonna be inferior to her and I just couldn’t handle it I just I couldn’t I could not psychologically handle being inferior because I’m a narcissist to some degree, so yeah I blew it and then when she’s like I’m gonna write a book I’d like I mean you probably could but I don’t wanna encourage you Because that just reminds me that you’re superior to me so I’m like you’re not that much better than me you’re white trash like they’ll raise white trash I used to trash Belleville right all the time too and now he’s a professor built and a lot of people did that to him and no no no he’s a professor. He was a genius and he knew that, but he was also an asshole Laceyz not a no I I used to play games with her and Ruth and Bill. I used to make fun of Lacey and stab her behind her back in regard to Bill Ray and Ruth. I may have given Ruth impression that Lacey was either a lesbian or in love with Bill or something I don’t know I might’ve given Ruth the wrong idea half intentionally at times because I do I enjoy, and I enjoy being two-faced part of that statement that I make about they made about out my friends before were worth a shit really was primarily attack on Lacey. Ruth was violently jealous of Lacey to the point where I think she wanted to kill Lacey for being so much better than her, and it was insane so rude his reading this blog Ruth Beaver: you’re a piece of fucking shit compared to Lacey in every possible way and your violent insistence otherwise was not missed by her the CIA or the FBI.

Allyson, you’ve been very helpful but you’re going to have to realize that we know who you are. She did like you as a person she was trying to be your friend. Why couldn’t you have just had less of a close friendship with her if she irritated you that much you could’ve been two-faced, but maybe not to face to her because she really did not deserve it and I think you kind of knew that, and if you, if you could’ve just been mildly friends with her still hung out with her sometimes maybe not as much but still sometimes if you just liked being her friend you were it was ever gonna be something romantic but you could’ve just hung out every once in a while no there was no reason to stop being her friend but if you didn’t think you could be her friend, you should’ve stopped being her friend. I think you had an imaginary attachment to her where you thought I hate this person and I’ve been stabbing them in the back since I first met them, but I have to be her friend, you don’t have to be her front and if you did why is it an illuminati conspiracy because you’re both part of old money elite and you felt psychically beholden to her that’s not impossible you couldn’t you know defile the member of your club that would be against club rules, so is it some sort of social contract agreement that your family made at some point and in relation in relation to the US and being an upper class possibly And then that’s psychic nonsense. You don’t have to be her friend if you really don’t want to be you don’t have to be. And then in relation to the exit in relation to that you could have just do you really could Allyson you really could have just admitted that you had some romantic feelings for her if you do it that’s why and if that’s the case it’s never gonna happen and it’s in your best interest to probably not be her friend anymore, because you seem to get very confused about it. And then she did you a favor by unfriending you because you couldn’t figure out how to be her friend you couldn’t figure out how to be her friend because you couldn’t process the fact that you’d had a crush on her if you’re if you’re not straight if you had a crush on her, you couldn’t process that for some reason and so you decided to just be a jerk but then it never made sense to her sweetie because she straight up in which case you know you need it to just cut your losses and I think that’s what she was trying to help you do it’s just I’ll unfriend you You might still have you guys still care about me as a person even somewhat because part of having a crush on someone is caring about them in a platonic way embodied in that if there’s any real concern for them and if that’s the case, no I think she was trying to help you cut your losses by unfriending you so it’s like no it’s OK I’ll just unfriend you like this is getting weird. You don’t seem to get it what we’ll just be friends or nothing and then you know but at the end of the day you were a jerk to her you were mean and you did cause trouble, you were very mean you’re very mean and people if you’re not straight Allyson, you do make more sense if you’re not if you know total psychopath if you are one slightly though sweetie, you could still have had a crush on her and been a psychopath a little tiny bit too Much but the Nessa thing you’ve got to understand we’re not she’s not a mean person she meant well and it’s sad to her that you could just be her front even if you had feelings for her it’s like you could just be her friend a little bit and maybe that’s where you’re a little autistic and it was just hard for you to process that that all and yeah I’m sorry I don’t think your mother is entirely straight either. I think your mother might’ve made a little bit of a backhanded pass at her that was before she knew you were your stepfather, but still.

But no, we can’t. We can’t sort this out for you. We can’t figure out what is going on in your heart like God, Ken we are concerned though because this is a terrible place to leave it on and away if if you had feelings for her you’re like a lot of young men that we’ve seen who do that they stab her in the back throw her under the bus and it’s like is it in an attempt to get over her or they trying to garner respect from someone else it’s hard to or from themselves what is it an insult you know we we we hope that you learn somewhere in your spirit and soul and can be happy because if you’re not here evil, she was trying to be your friend and just objectively as a person we would like you to be able to be happy if you can be Out in the sun truth is if Lacey is someone who you had feelings for she is unusual of so it’s going to be difficult to find someone like that and hopefully you find someone like that but don’t don’t get don’t get sudden despair if you don’t find, presumably a man or a woman who I like her an NN here’s a thing it might not be allowed in heaven, but I have to say that because that’s where we are as a society and so it’s really for therapeutic reasons for reasons of understanding and hopefully God’s love it might be best to just say listen, man, or woman Because if you’re not straight, that’s the reality of what you’re living it that being said, if you’re an evil hearted person we see through you we just don’t know it’s terrifying or are you evil? Are you good? God knows that, but that’s an aristocratical perspective.

Which is where the illuminati is both fascinating and useful, but also incredibly dangerous because you can’t really read peoples heart the way God does at a lot of people live today. Do not seem to realize that they don’t know that you can’t really read someone’s heart or they don’t know that that’s even a problem, they don’t realize that that’s even an issue that you really have to know peoples hearts because sometimes people can be genuinely incredibly complicated and it’s baffling love is one of those people you’re very complicated to Allyson don’t assume that you’re not straight if you are straight you’re straight if you’re not Just don’t don’t go into despair. If you don’t find someone who is perfect for you before you die eternity is very long and you’ve had a pretty good life in many ways.” says Mrs. Pantell.

“ if my mother ever did hit on you at all, Lacey and I am not entirely straight myself for now at least it’s a little scary but it’s also a little offensive because it’s like why did she think that I would be an interested or why did she think she had a right to do that, why would why would she have been a better person for you than me and no people in my family could be very mean at times or if she just thought something didn’t work I wonder if that’s what it is she thought she was more your age than I was, even though you were so young well that’s interesting. I was too immature for you. If I’m not straight it’s possible that’s a part of my psychology that the illuminati knows and I don’t entirely well. I know a little bit of it but not as much as they do that’s really fascinating. Oh dear, did I have a crush on Becca?“ asks Allyson.

“ I don’t know if you’re not straight you might have had some sort of attachment to her. I don’t know I don’t know that you really were quite as attached to her as you have been to some people I might be included in that other people could be too, but but I wonder if there was a slight bit of an attachment that I could observe.” says Lacey.

“ why didn’t I just date her? We could’ve just date it if it’s allowed to have it I don’t know why I didn’t just date Becca.” says Allyson.

“ I yeah if it’s a loaded have any, probably could’ve dated her I have a feeling she wasn’t entirely straight. I would say she’s probably bisexual so you probably could’ve had some sort of a quick lived romance with her or some thing and actually if it’s allowed, have a new two might’ve been a nice couple a little bit, I wonder if Becca was sort of a jerk to you about that I wonder if you tried in your own subtle way and she was sort of sort of mean.” says Lacey.

“ did you used to talk like this to her all the fucking time??” asks one of her current friends.

“ not all the time, but sometimes I’d give her observational ideas as a friend that’s somewhat normal in friendship.” says Lacey.

“ how do you spell say Lacey cannot resist being your friend Allyson if you don’t hate Lacey and you’re not a total asshole Lacey has a really hard time resisting being her friend and you have a very hard time resisting being her friend. Why are we talking about you on this blog right now I’m in the whole world has stopped practically for you to see you to have a conversation and a heart to heart, that is slightly and that’s a little suspicious to a lot of other people observing who are not in the upper class especially not old money.

I am and that’s it whether it’s all good or evil it’s unclear but it’s fascinating regardless him know it’s sad that if if if the heart of homosexuality is allowed in heaven, it would be sad that Becca was such a jerk to you.” says the CIA.

“ I yeah I I I I got very hurt by by Becca if I’m not straight.” says Allyson.

“ I think you might’ve gotten hurt by Lacey if you’re not straight and Becca.” says Hemingway.

“ well, it’s either a silly thing that we play out until we die and go to heaven and God, sorts of Saud and I say we because I’m not homosexual at all but little part of me loves the idea of two of my friends we’re both women being married I mean, I like that idea of the thought of you and have you and Becca be a couple that would make me feel very happy inside and away because it’s like 00 they could be happy and that makes me happy and it just makes so much sense to be the thought of you two together aesthetically as people and your backgrounds and your financial status. I mean you’re making well maybe 80,000 a year which is very good but maybe 80,000 a year at your job I mean it’s not great but it’s good and she’s probably making around 80,000 hear herself or more and U2 could be reasonably well off living in that house and she’s got great taste with a Mercedes a new Mercedes boy mother lives there but she would be very concerned about your mom and your dad about their nutritional needs you might have kids with her you might’ve had one or two kids and she would be a nutritionist and kind of like how your mom is a nurse and that you would’ve been the legal secretary who is the beautiful house and you’d be very protective of her and you would see through her and she would have to submit to you because she’s terrified of you I mean it would’ve been a glorious wedding. You would’ve had it in your backyard. A lot of the more prestigious people from Messiah. College probably would’ve been there. I know if it’s allowed in heaven it’s like dammit. Dammit that Becca was a jerk to you. It pisses me off because if it is allowed in heaven, why was she able to get away with that with you? She should not have been able to get away with that with you. You should’ve had the ability to say something to her like this is not right you and I both know it’s happening right now and it’s really awkward, but we need to be able to be strong for each other or something. I don’t know that’s just a line that comes to me as a writer it irritates me it irritates me because it seems like it could’ve been a functional relationship.

This thing is maybe I have no idea what’s going on and what do I know and maybe you are straight maybe she’s straight I don’t even know what I don’t know, but it seems remotely possible that you might not be and it seems remotely possible that she might not be and then it’s just very disconcerting and then it’s like is it even allowed in heaven? Is it even allowed?

Nope just because it’s such a happy thought. Does it mean that it is that’s the thing that irritates me just because somethings happy doesn’t mean that it always works out or is best or isn’t evil. And so the trouble is the trouble is oh I cared about both of you and it was very disconcerting to me so I had a subconscious level and no I’m not. I’m not. I’m not gay I’m not gay I wanna double say no I’m not straight, but that’s because I’m a little out of time, no I am straight. I’m not gay at all. I was just a little worried that about myself. I was a little worried about both of you.” says Lacey.

“ Lacey I think I think that they might’ve both been interested in you.” says Allyson’s mother.

“ but I am straight so that’s not allowed so then we all need to just MoveOn and find a way to be happy and I have it all worked out if you’ll just let me pictures out I’m half joking and laughing at myself because you’re right I should just back off but it’s just make sure that you figure out whether not so loud in heaven because it might not be the big careful because it’s a very complex thing if you’re experiencing homosexuality.” says Lacey Banks Billings.

“ can I say that’s not bad advice that’s actually great advice but I don’t I don’t. I think people have a hard time hearing your advice because it’s so mature that it’s scary coming even from a 40 year old.” says Anderson Cooper.

“ Scotia if you’re Scotia I think it’s very difficult to have in a Gyptian princess I am giving you advice that’s probably profoundly effective-“ says MSNBC.

The Fayeds eye Lacey and she goes away.