When I first started interacting with Lacey I was excited by the prospect of being with her. God was allowing it, mercifully. And I was thrilled to be able to finally be happy for once. I was straight. And I died a virgin, believe it or not. And the thought of finally being happy for once was thrilling. No, it’s astonishing seemingly but I actually was straight. I really didn’t find men attractive.
Today Lacey bought me a birthday gift. I’m excited. But I’m…deeply angry…at the same time.
The Firebird Suite: Pantomime I plays.
I sit in the parking lot of the Saint Paul Como Zoo on the curb. Today. In the eclipse. Staring at her as she sits and with accidental seduction puts pink Hermes lipstick on her sensual, sexy lips. Her chiseled cheeks look stunning, even from a distance. Her aristocratic nose. Her soft but beautifully certain chin. Her presence. Those big, haunting and hauntingly beautiful brown eyes. That’s my Lacey.
Pantomime II plays.
Ahh! But who’s that!?
*I roll my eyes*
That’s LOUIS HILL JUNIOR.
Why is he approaching her? He loved Saint Paul and had an affection for Japan. And he loves my Lacey. They’re soulmates. Literally. And since I appeared in the Jack Kennedy Show as “his gay best friend” Louis can comfort her in a way I cannot. Yes. He knew the McNeely family! The St. Paul Conservatory MNeely’s. And to my Lacey…that’s very impressive.
Has she seen the Japanese part of the Como outdoor gardens? Yes. She has. She found them terrifying and romantic both. Oh how nice! Well…Louis thinks it’s nice. But he’s in love with her. He’d like to take her there but it’s too cold today? Oh what a shame! *my eye-roll*
Rondo plays.
I want to scream. But it won’t help. God already knows what going on. He warned me about it somewhat before it happened. No, I really was straight. I’m sorry you, reader, may not understand how I was so convincingly gay? Well…it wasn’t as convincing as you might think. I’m sorry if you find that upsetting to read. I sometimes looked the part…mostly…but never entirely. And actions do sometimes speak louder than words. I was never…heartbroken enough by Jack’s lack of fidelity in regard to me. I might have seemingly glared or given the impression of possessiveness but I wasn’t remotely sad enough. Ever. And my big, real, relaxed smile at his wedding is proof of that. No. Polyamory doesn’t actually account for it either. But you know what does account for it? Heterosexuality. Me being heterosexual, that is. And I was. I was genuinely heterosexual and…you could say I was closeted about my mistaken homosexuality…but I’m not sure if that’s exactly what it was. It wasn’t actually completely closeted…as much as I never liked to clearly explain or label myself gay…it was more…that I felt very uncomfortable about being labeled homosexual, even on an internal level. That’s not closeted as much as unsure and uneasy.
Anyway…I messed-up. As much as it was an honest mistake, so to speak, people latched on to the idea and so did Jack Kennedy and his entire family. And that’s who Lacey is living in the same world with. Those people who have latched on…and the confusing bullshit I left behind. My photos are proof I was straight. All of them. They really are. My recordings are too. My words…are a mess. Words often are easier to misinterpret than photographs? Well…maybe. And the things I said are actually proof I was very depressed, angry, bitter and straight. But explaining that to Lacey in the midst of everyone else’s opinions being so damn loud and aggressive in response to her wondering if I was straight…makes it extremely hard to explain myself. And I’m a ghost. It’s already a huge miracle she can hear me at all.
She can’t believe I’m so complicated and contradictory. Why? Because that’s exactly the sort of man who could understand her and love her deeply. She needs me. But it all seems far too good to be true.
What Is Love by Zimmer90 plays.
The song plays.
So…as she’s not…an optimist…but a dark, beautiful, profoundly sad realist…not unlike F. Scott Fitzgerald…her friend…and Zelda…and Harold and Hemingway…and Hadley…she’s…not really…hopeful.
It All Feels Right by Washed Out plays.
Jack Kennedy was an optimist. An extreme optimist. …Everyone in that family tends to be optimistic. Maybe too optimistic to stay alive. In many cases. …Lacey is the opposite. So was F. Scott Fitzgerald. So was Zelda. I wonder if realists are the opposites of pessimists and optimists?
Anyway…regardless…she mine. And I have to keep reminding her of that.
Why? Oh! You think it’s because she’s like Jack!?! HA! No. She’s not like him at all. You think he was a realist?! *I scoff* No. Jack Kennedy wasn’t a pragmatic realist. He was a pragmatic narcissist. He…was wounded I’m sure. But…my God help me…no where near Lacey. Or lots of other people. And his pain was minute compared to billions of other people. He was a callow, stupid, extremely charismatic, ebullient, mesmerizing, calculating malignant narcissist. He wanted to constantly be high. High on something. Even if it was the violated teenage girl who he made to feel special for being taken advantage of. He was a complete worthless parasite at times.
I loved him my whole life? Ha! Yeah. …Right. …I can explain what the hell I meant…but not easily now. Hopefully someday? Hopefully I already have. …No. Stop assuming Lacey is dreaming this all up. She’s far from that person who would do that. And don’t you see? That’s just it.
The Illuminati, if it exists, totally fucked-up. They don’t understand how unable they are to let go of their pretentious beliefs about themselves being old money elite. Whether they call it that officially or not. And in reality…they don’t understand her. She’s wild. Not them. …Jack thought being evil was wild. No. …F. Scott Fitzgerald was wild. Lacey is wild. Harold is wild. Elliott Roosevelt was wild. …The Kennedys are trashy and transgressive. Queen Elizabeth II was far more wild than JFK. But you’d never know that? Yeah. …The problem with Philip was that he both did and did not understand his own wife’s wild side? Hmm. Interesting opinion. Pat Wilson aspired to be wild…and at times she was. And that lured Joe in. …But somehow Joe Kennedy Junior completely missed…that Lacey was vastly more wild than Pat.
I know how wild Lacey is. She’s good. And loving. And wise. And refined. And impossible. And she worships God. But she’s extremely wild.
Her refinement isn’t all there is. Louis knows that too. So does Harold. So does Elliott. …Hence my problem.
I left Lacey in tears that could kill her. Literally. Over me. Thanks to the Kennedys. And an Episcopalian priest who molested me. And my own fallen human nature.
I Bet on Losing Dogs by Mitski plays. That’s Lacey’s song. And it’s about me. And how much she loves me. And how hopeless it is. And she starts singing it in her spirit…and it’s gorgeous…and then Harold picks her up and starts trying to make it all about him. He can be taller. He insists he can. And he looks more like Skippy than me! No. And…being ditzy and exhausted…as brilliant as she is…she starts accidentally singing about him. He’s a losing dog and he needs her! And she bets on losing dogs? Well! Say!
No. These men aren’t like JFK. They aren’t just in it for the sex and attention and narcissistic gratification. They want her. And not being so downtrodden they can far more easily interact with her…even as ghosts. You all in the realm of the living can’t control us…but you can’t control your perception of us amongst each other…to a certain extent…and God can redeem it. But it’s like moving mountains to get a word in edgewise at times and Jack and his family just make it worse. Although they go so far it starts and has started to create a spiritual crisis. Lacey can’t hear me and she’s supposed to at times but Jack is obsessed with maintaining his delusions because he was such a big deal and he isn’t now as much…and he just can’t let go of it all for reasons of evil. Or that’s my best explanation for now. …Isn’t it amazing that Lacey can hear all of this!?? That’s her heart towards God and His power and mercy. …She’s not conjuring me.
“Then how are you talking to her!??” asks Jonah Wiley.
Jonah. She can just hear me.
“But you can’t just hear spirits?!?” says Jonah.
She can. And actually…some other people can too. And it’s…sad. It’s actually very sad. Jonah…she’s partially dead. *shrug* Most people like her…are partially dead.
“What the fuck!?” says a reader.
Death is actually very complex. You can’t just study it in the brain. The brain does indicate it. In a way. But it’s…a spiritual experience. And she’s been through so much intense pain that it’s literally slightly killed her. Look…physical pain caused by trauma that’s too intense is part and parcel with what can easily kill people in all obvious ways. But emotional trauma if it’s intense enough starts to kill you too. And if it’s not registered by the body enough…as in Lacey’s case…because it’s practiced so ruthlessly and so brilliantly by people…it might not obviously kill you…but you die anyway in ways far less perceivable. And eventually your body catches up. She’s anemic. She has hypothyroidism. That’s her body catching up. …Some people get diseases related to trauma. For her it’s quite like that. It’s more that her body is catching up with her own death. And it’s not…as if it couldn’t be reversed. But it’s extremely unlikely. And it’s elite…and defiant…and beautiful…and brave…and impossible if God says so…and my kids will come with us in God’s good time. So will Mark. There’s been many times when I’ve asked God if I can just roll a semi on top of them all and take them out quickly and painlessly…and He’s explained to me how it would affect other people. And that’s why He can’t. And I’ve explained that to Lacey. But I have frequent conversations with God about that. He also has to measure the impact on the dead and my family. My family not the Kennedys. The Billings. I am Kirk LeMoyne Billings. My last name is Billings and so…that’s my family. Lacey, and my kids are my family.
Harold is…a gorgeous man. And I don’t mean that homosexually. I mean it objectively. He’s beautiful. As much as a man can be. Maybe that’s not the right word. …Louis is…profound. And he longs desperately to make love in wolf passion to Lacey. And it’s a sublime longing. Epic, really. Elliott is a Roosevelt. And what’s a Roosevelt? Everything you love about the Kennedys except authentic and old money and dark and yet sad not psychotic in the end. Elliott is Joe Jr. but taller, more handsome, better in bed apparently and a sensitive, tormented genius. He flies planes expertly by natural instinct. He’s Eleanor Roosevelt’s favorite child. And he’s down to earth. And he had a ranch and his daughter gets along well with Lacey. *Harold Loeb laughs at the calamity of it all* Were Before by Cults plays. F. Scott Fitzgerald is himself. Do I really need to explain him? Michael is a Rockefeller and an extraordinary person. And he’s devoted to Lacey as she is devoted to him as his possible wife in the fallen world who never was. They’re very protective of each other. …And then there’s me. “Jack Kennedy’s gay best friend” who was a “poor Episcopalian” who liked “interior decorating.” She loves my family and what’s more she loves me. She loves me to an astronomical degree…*I smile* but…I can’t fix what’s done. The articles that she’s read that cut her up inside…or the way she coolly analyzed it all…and sewed herself back up…and then cut off people’s heads in my defense. So I could do what? Prefer Early American pottery? It’s such fucking bullshit. …I had asthma. Or I would have scared Jack more. I would have scared that entire family. …In war. And my vision was shoddy too. But…Michael and Louis and Harold all remind me that that’s nonsense to Lacey. Still…I could have scared them and dear God they deserved it. As heroic as Jack supposedly was…I had it in me to be more clearly heroic too. Lots of men were. Men who were never US President and maybe should have been. …But I matter and Lacey doesn’t care. …No. It’s not that she’s not honorable. It’s that she’s no less feminine or dainty than the Holy Mother…but she’s like Scota too in her soul. And the Holy Mother is not. Doesn’t mean Lacey’s…more holy…than the Virgin Mary…it means Lacey’s…been violated. A woman shouldn’t have to fight men the way Lacey has no matter how genius she is at it.
Elliott laughs it off. He can, apparently. He feels no threat, of course (Maybe that’s why Fay Emerson was gobsmacked by him when he fell for Lacey and threw herself at him – she saw a new depth and side of him she’d never seen before). Louis ignores it. Harold does too. Scott understands it. My word does Scott understand it. If there is reincarnation he’s probably got suggestions and comments and complaints and analysis of her every move and decision in battle ever. With comments from several leading experts in history. And…she’d be curious to read it all…if she’s Scota. Michael has her…working for him and he’s very cagey about it all because he’s working for God. And…I know her. And I’m not embarrassed…because I can’t be. It’s so gruesome I can’t be embarrassed. To be embarrassed might almost be evil in this case. No. I refuse to be embarrassed about my abuse and the tragic nature of my life. It is horrific. But that’s not fair. It’s not fair that I should have to grieve that with Lacey. We’d rather move on for now.
What hurts me…is that she’s been with other men. And it was real. For me it wasn’t.
Oh sure…it happened in a way. But I was straight. So it was…weird and not…real in a way. It was…just…gross. And yet…Lacey doesn’t read that in the US media. She reads that Sal was gay and I’m Sal. She reads that Lem was hot and Lem but incapable of loving her. So I should be able to love her…passionately…but no. Nope. Not according to some of you. And that’s where she’s a good-hearted ditz. She looks at me and falls in love instantly…and senses my probable profound love for her…but being not at all Jack…she kindly but brutally admonishes herself not to be selfish…and then stabs herself relentlessly in her spirit to make the love she has for me go away so poor Jack Kennedy can finally be happy and Bobby can be loved. She’s valiant. And Jack Kennedy was a rapist and a heartless sodomizer. And yet amazingly some of your responses are to side with Jack. Why? Good question.
I was straight. You don’t have to believe me. Not really. God is still God. And Lacey is mine. Your evil doesn’t defeat God.
I can’t…stand the thought of her being with other men. But it’s my fault. And it’s my responsibility. And it’s my consequence in a way…for being so…casual. Casual? Mmm. Okay. That’s the best word I could think of. Maybe it’s not casual. Maybe it’s not that. But then it’s…what? Not stupid. Ignorant? I don’t think I know how to spell it out for you well enough for you to see. I was…trusting a lot of people and myself to know what was going on. And we didn’t. Not enough. And the people who had some inkling of it all…were all…evil or foolish.
Nobody by Mitski eerily plays.
If I killed JFK…the men who worked with me in the CIA…didn’t know how to solve the problem. And they made it worse. They assumed it would all go away if they killed Jack. And maybe in regard to nuclear war they were right. Temporarily. Because what’s happening right now? We’re terrified that Tsar Putin could destroy the world…rightfully. Russia is back and more…epic and dangerous and we suck shit this time more than ever too. You know who was fascinated with Poland? Lacey. You know who Tsar Putin fell mildy in love with? Lacey. Stalin loves Lacey. And Elliott knows both of them. Jack…and his family still want to believe she’s a dumbass, ugly loser poser who’s obsessed with Joe Kennedy Junior. Or they would if she hadn’t threatened to brutally torture them in the afterlife for annoying her if they didn’t reconsider.
Sunsetz by Cigarettes After Sex plays for Joe Kennedy Junior as he imagines her heart singing this to him. Fervently. As does Jack. And that’s *I laugh* simply not true. *My face drops to one of empathetic sadness because I know Joe actually did love her*
What they don’t understand is that when Joe tries to talk to her now…she hears him for a second. But this is in her soul.
The Wisp Sings by Winter Aid plays.
And Joe is…not…this. I can relate but it’s a challenge. But I can. Thankfully. Louis struggles but almost can. Elliott knows this and is this in a way too. Harold understands it. Scott is…romanced by it as an epically genius artist. And then God has to use Nancy Nieves’s stupidity to explain that Scott was made in His image. Lacey had forgotten that God might be as kind and knowing as Scott. She’s seen too much evil. Michael…is this. Michael…is…this.
No. And that’s the thing. Lacey matters. We all matter to God. God is good and God is just.
When Lacey hears Joe…she thinks of Louis. She thinks not of Cape Cod and the ocean Joe. Your family didn’t own the ocean. Your family didn’t own Cape Cod. Louis’s family…did practically own Minnesota. Actually they almost owned the entire top of the US. Do you have any idea how much they own!? The depth of Earth!? The oil of the Rockefellers and their once truly terrifying power grasp of physical reality? The Guggenheim fortune? The Loeb history and fortune? …Teddy Roosevelt and F…D…R. Arguably two of the most popular US Presidents in all of American history. Teddy bears were named after them. …Your family didn’t even own Cape Cod. Joe…your family had a furniture store in Chicago…with ties to the mafia. And your other money…from illegal activity…may have depended on her father’s good humor? No. Your power rests on people’s opinions. And you might like to all pat yourselves on the back for that but it’s a fallen world. And when you’re a family based on lies…public opinion can’t save you because there’s nothing salvageable about your power then possibly…or you’re so weak that Satan has no use for you.
No, Joe. She loves me.
The Wisp Sings by Winter Aid plays again.
So if you’re trying to turn her head…your money won’t work. Your name won’t work. Because she loves me…and the fallen…tragic brutal truth…of death…of our fallen bodies…rests not in your court but in Louis’s. Or in Michael’s. Or in Harold’s. Or in Elliott’s. Or really in Scott’s. No…you’re…a loser. Joe…you look pathetic. She’s not impressed, dude. She feels sorry for you. She thinks you’re weird. And desperate and horny and sad. She might hate that. Because she loved you once. But…you’ve lost. Go home. It’s impossible she’ll ever be with you ever again. That’s eternally ended.
“That’s- It scares me.” says Joe, sincerely.
Why? Because her father was protecting your family?
“Partially.” says HoneyFitz.
“Yeah. You should have thought of that before you threw her down the stairs.“ says Elliott.
“Who saved her life that night? And her spine?” asks a doctor in the Illuminati.
“Lem.” says Elliott’s brother.
“He can’t enjoy it though. Because he saved Jack too, supposedly.” says Elliott.
“Yeah. He sure did!!! Geez! Have you read my book!?! WOW! …Boy! I tell ya. He sure did! He sure did save Jack Kennedy’s life!!” says David Pitts and thousands of other living gay men and the US media, in excited hysterics in their spirits.
“He did.
He saved my life!!!” says JFK. twirling like a girl in awe of her knight in shining armor.
“Well…he essentially saved your life.” clarifies David Pitts.
“No!!!! SAME DIFFERENCE!!!” shrieks JFK.
The gay community adopted JFK. Sacrificed facts and objectivity for his (seeming) sake. And have risked their own necks. Just to keep him as closeted as possible…and make his every dream come true. And if they aren’t pure evil…it’s unclear why.
Ain’t No Rest for the Wicked by Cage The Elephant plays.
Dear Gay Men: Why? Why? Why? Why…do all obstinately assume you can get into my head? Why do you insist you KNOW I was gay?!?! It’s actually historically unclear. And it’s hard to know that sort of thing anyway about other people for certain. But you seem to be so…damn…sure. Why? *Lem laughs* Isn’t it possible your buddy JFK was a lying narcissist who had things backwards at times? He was so worried about being seen as gay. …He wasn’t capable of being honest with me either. You imagined such intimacy between us. It…didn’t…exist. He was never honest with me either.
Jackie was beautiful. But Lacey totally eclipses her. And Fay Emerson was…sexy.
Faye wasn’t Lacey’s equal. And she doesn’t turn my head. But the point is…the Roosevelts are actually the Kennedys you invented based on expert Kennedy public relations.
Joe was very handsome. But he just wasn’t…Elliott. And JP Kennedy wasn’t my father. JP Kennedy wasn’t Tom Banks. They might have been very creative people but…they weren’t us. I was the troubled straight guy. Not Jack. Tom was the man who loved his kids…and never had them, when he should have at least, because of it.
I think the truth was ugly. In this case. My straightness was…me…but it’s become hidden. And it easily might have given how I lived…but…they don’t let go of it.
Perfect Girl by Mareux plays.
And so…when Lacey falls asleep in my arms she fights with Hell and the Kennedys…and millions of living people who cling to the mythology of me. Because facts and objective truth mean nothing to them in light of their feelings? Or what is it? And what about the feelings of children who are being molested? Their feelings are fact. But don’t expect jackass molesters to ever acknowledge that. I’m tired of it. …The feelings of bystander assholes matter more to them than truth and love…even while they fly flags that are supposed to support love. What the HELL is she doing that’s so egregious? Existing? Why do you hate her so much? Because Jack does? Why?!
You don’t know I was gay.
You don’t know…
No one can every totally know that about someone else scientifically. It’s impossible. We can know. But knowing then is extremely complicated. And your jealousy isn’t justification for blind hatred. You don’t know I was gay. And if I’m Lem Billings I’m telling you I wasn’t. I was straight. Come on. You know that’s possible. Quit lying.
“I love telling Louis that!” says on of his Keir heartless exes. “I love telling him Lem was gay. …Because then he feels less worried about Lacey.”
And at that evil tries in a fit of rage to suffocate Lacey.
“I send demons to attack her nervous system when she really pisses me off.” says Joe Kennedy Junior.
Lacey fights.
Lacey…fights off Hell. And that’s when Harold comes on to her. And it hurts my feelings. It devastates me. Because she can’t resist him anymore. She has no psychological defenses. Truly. And he knows that. And he’s only going after what’s his, sadly. He is one of her soulmates.
“Yup!” says Tucker Carlson, grimly but surely.
Bad Things by Cults plays.
“Why doesn’t she have any psychological defenses left!? Wow, that’s so flimsy!” says JFK.
“Because she’s a woman, Jack.” says an angel from Heaven.
“Oh yeah, Jack as much as it’s actually fascinating to think that she could be Scotia that is not her current physical state. She’s not that healthy or that trained for battle OK? And…and in my country we don’t let women do what she does. We don’t have a draft in that regard. At least not currently.
Lacey is not currently Scotia. She’s a sweet, innocent Norwegian, English woman, possibly Dutch and German and I don’t think you understand that she’s not fit in that way as a woman.” says Tucker Carlson.
“Then why the fuck do we care about women at all? That’s so gross.” says Jack. “Fighting in battle is so fucking difficult. Oh my God you guys I was so exhausted. It was so fucking difficult. I have yet to understand why the fuck we should give a shit about women. They are such a waste of space; fuck them all.”
“What about your daughter?” says Tucker Carlson.
“I mean she could she can’t help the fact that she was born a woman that’s not her fault. That’s how I look at it. It’s not like it was her fault that she was born a woman I’m just saying, theoretically, hypothetically, speaking, if men are being honest, they would all admit that men are just as pretty as women, and just as valuable, and just as important and lovable and special, and that there’s no fucking need for any woman to have ever existed.” says JFK, in a huff.
“That is objectively complete bullshit. Men are beautiful but not in the way that a woman is Jack.” says a living Rockefeller.
“Yeah whatever. You say that now but wait until you see what angels can look like especially fallen angels. A lot of demons, a lot of fallen angels look like Lem but they’re big-“ says JFK.
Elliott and Lacey crack-up laughing and so she can’t hear the rest of what he’s saying.
“I’m sorry Jack. What were you just telling us? You’re right fallen angels do you bear a resemblance to Lem. They do a bear a slight resemblance to him.
My you have noticed a lot! I am very proud that you’ve noticed so damn much Jack! You know it’s amazing though, because you’re wrong women really are more beautiful than men most of the time objectively speaking. Umm…you found men sexually attractive Jack because you weren’t straight, but that doesn’t mean that men are actually as beautiful as women. I think you’re confused.” says Elliott Roosevelt.
Waking Up by M83 plays.
“And don’t make fun of me just because I was raised poor and Irish. And by my poor I don’t mean actually poor I mean poor in a sense of class.
You know what I’m talking about Elliott. So don’t make fun of me for it.
I was not raised in the same social class as you And it is on you. The onus is on you to be the bigger person and the gentleman in this conversation.
I do not appreciate being patronized for my lack of understanding in regard to issues of social class. I was raised in- I was not allowed to explore and understand my world or my neighborhood if you will, I was distanced from my community. I was not surrounded by love and hope, and I did not understand my place in the world, and in society and humanity at large.
When I wrote Profiles In Courage I did so, with the intent of reaching a higher place within myself, and becoming a better man, through studying people who I admired who had courage within themselves to reach out and do the better and bigger thing. They were not all poor people, they were not all rich people, but in this conversation Elliott the onus is on you to be the bigger person not on me. I have chosen darkness and evil, and you are aware of that.
But I did so under the premise and aspects of ignorance as was promoted within my lower class family and I would think you’d understand that look.
I’m sorry you had to sell all those properties to try to make money while my family was still rich, but that’s just how it goes. Sometimes you can be in a lower class and still be extremely wealthy like people in my family, the owners, however, it is still on you because you’re a Roosevelt and according to this blog, I was the disadvantaged one.” says JFK win his nose in the air.
“That is pretty much just all fucking bullshit. Did you understand anything I just said? Jack women are more beautiful than men, so deal with that reality or I’m gonna have to just stop listening to you.” says Elliott.
“I am not in a place where I am ready to deal with that reality; if I was, I wouldn’t be in Hell so I’ll just go.” says JFK, walking off in a huge huff.
“Anyway…as I was saying on this blog post about five hours ago I’m in trouble because my heart is being torn up into pieces…and there’s not a whole heck of a lot I can do about it right now but I talk to Lacey everyday and I pray for her and I fight for her and God fights for her but it’s astounding the level of profound hatred that she encounters just for falling asleep in my arms every night and no we sleep together, we have a normal heterosexual relationship and we also would have if she’d been born and the early 20th century. I was heterosexual. But that’s not what happened and instead at 40 she is almost suffocated daily due to the hatred of people who don’t even really understand her almost at all.
And don’t think for a second that dead men don’t get upset on her behalf which is what I am trying to implicate. People are refusing to accept that but I’m obviously pointing it out to them. People get angry for righteous reasons at me and the Kennedys can’t handle that responsibility seemingly at all they can’t handle the responsibility that they’ve profoundly made a mistake. You can’t do what they did you can’t- You can’t harass somebody and then destroy their wives-
I can’t even put it into words- It’s because she’s being suffocated as she’s writing this and she’s fighting it, and it’s absurd the level of astounding narcissism that they have you. You can’t fathom it practically apparently. No, I’m sorry I was straight.
Lacey can’t make me gay and that is never going to change. You can’t harass her into making me gay again. I was never gay to begin with. She’s not making this up. This is just reality.” says Lem.
“But you have doubts though Lacey. You have doubts! So don’t those mean something to you!?! Can’t you be responsible!!?” yells a herd of violent Boomers attached to the idea that Lem was gay.
“She has doubts that she exists because she’s philosophically brilliant, but she knows better. Why do you insist that she cling to her doubts and disregard the word of God?” asks Lem.
“There isn’t anything that we know that she doesn’t know even though she didn’t read the David Pitts book?” asks a Boomer.
“ no because even Wikipedia can’t claim that he was gay, which obviously points out that the David Pitts book is complete rubbish. There’s nothing in that book that proves alone was gay enough to convince Wikipedia to come out and say it, and frankly it could all just be a misunderstanding almost completely anyway there’s very little evidence to suggest that he was actually gay, am I actually gay I don’t mean like he could’ve been confused and thought he was gay I mean like actually genuinely gay. There’s no evidence to suggest that he was genuinely gay and she doesn’t want to read that book because she finds the whole thing, offensive and frankly, I am a liberal, and I agree with her. I think his book is a total disservice to the homosexual community. I think it’s arguably one of the biggest PR disasters, long-term that liberals have ever made I mean it is arguably one of the dumbest PR moves in all of human history. Sincerely, it was a horrible book to Everett. Even the cover is disgusting. It suggests that they had their pictures taken together in some romantic way edit it’s complete fabrication Lemmers posing for a photo booth. He’s posing in a photo booth. He’s not staring into Jack’s eyes making love to him, even if he was, you could probably argue your way out of that really to be perfectly honest, but I mean aside from or like certain bits of evidence that are really only noble to the person in the relationship. You can’t prove that someone was anything sexually like orientation wise or in love you can’t prove that stuff that’s part of the nature of a of a of a sexual relationship that’s consensual, but that book is disgusting because no, I mean it’s he’s posing in a photo booth. He’s making love to the camera whether he was making love to Jack or a woman or the camera or being silly is totally unclear I would suspect it was not Jack. At this point. I highly doubt that was. Jackie was thinking of ever feeling. It was a woman or just been being silly and making love to the camera but I don’t think I really don’t think he was gay and I would be surprised in some respects if he was actually bisexual I have a feeling he was probably straight and I am an expert telling you this I work for the CIA, I don’t think it’s likely that he was gay. I think it’s very unlikely and now I actually respect Lacey for being daring enough not to read that book I don’t think she should have to and intellectually it’s pointless and I like that she knows that it proves that she’s smarter than most people. She knows what to read, and what not to read there’s no reason to read that book my fact I almost wonder if it’s dangerous not to her but to somebody else I don’t know who is dangerous to, but there is some reason she’s not reading that book that’s mysterious to me but I don’t think it’s lame. I don’t think it’s her family. I’m not even sure that it’s his family. I’m a little worried it’s David pets or somebody else Dislikes if she read it, she gets so angry that she might be on. I mean it’s maybe just not safe I mean we’ve had so many disasters you really that are connected to this not every disaster this happened disconnected but we’ve had enough that we’re almost positive are connected that I don’t. I don’t think it’s unreasonable for her not to read that book. There’s there’s nothing in that book that she doesn’t already know, and there’s nothing that can convince me that you’re not an idiot to some degree because if I’m channeling you correctly, you refuse to except that she could be smarter than you and that this could be real and that she’s actually talking to his ghost they might not be in illuminati. I might not really be a real person. I could just be a ghost who’s dad it was in the CIA for all you know, but she’s talking to his ghost and if there is an illuminati I am in the CIA she did discover the illuminati she really did. I know it’s a disaster and they’ve handled it really badly other than some people most recently. There’s been some issues since Queen Elizabeth died and him, yeah it’s it. It’s amazing to me how people don’t want to except that some people like her really are old muddy and they’re not showing about it. I don’t know what what they want her family to do to prove that they’re old money. It’s really sad but no they are. They’re old money and they have that psychological aspect to their personalities and that’s just a fact.
Oh, so no, I’m sorry there is no evidence to suggest he was gay and there’s very little evidence actually to suggest that he was even bisexual to be honest those pictures of him smiling at his wedding or just him complete bullshit and she’s a hell of a lot smarter, but a lot of people want her to be even the perfume community Gay men like Lacey and so they realize how smart she is and then they either really like her or they hate her. And I am I think a lot of people get confused and think that because you can kill somebody that makes you stronger than them and a lot of people have that confusion with Lacey and so they think that if they can get her to read their post on Instagram or if they can get her to talk to them for five seconds they’ve somehow won some astronomical battle with her and that it’s proof that they’re better than her which is so fucking stupid, but that’s the logic and reasoning of the people that I’ve seen attack her they don’t get it
I know she’s not a malignant person she’s really not lame really was straight. You know she doesn’t photograph well but she took some fairly decent pictures this weekend and she posted them to Instagram and I don’t know why people weren’t more confused by them also lump is pointed out so fantastically well that he was straight. I don’t know why you guys don’t get it he was straight Most likely I can’t say that for certain, but I think there’s a very good chance he was. He was definitely bisexual and pansexual, if not straight in my opinion, and he was certainly not gay. In my opinion I mean how many ways do you need me to say it, there’s no real evidence to suggest he was gay people could be confused and think they were gay and act gay people could be confused and think they were straight and act straight. Mostly that’s where people have to be not narcissistic and aware of themselves and have an actual sense of self that’s functional, which is why narcissism isn’t a super power. It’s a huge national crisis, it’s not something to be proud of. It’s a disaster.
Oh, because no, you could believe you were straight that if you were actually genuinely, and I emphasize genuinely attracted to men, and you were a man you’re not straight. Lacey acts bizarrely bisexual at times but her overall vibe is straight and people like Lem’s actually do seem straight if you look at what he wears sometimes he looks straight. Sometimes it looks gay but sometimes it looks really straight and he was straight most likely, and so his gayness came from his act his persona And what he did as part of that belief system, but it’s not the reality of who he was. You could be like Jack and be bisexual and dress straight an app Street although sometimes Jack actually dresses on what day and we just don’t tell the truth about that some of his outfits are very gay looking in a way that frankly yes, love never looked gay. Jack has a tendency to dress in a way that emphasized His curves, but they were his natural curves Lem’s did not have curves that were as natural he tried to make his hips look hippie, and at times they almost dead, but if you look at him, he’s more awkward than curvaceous or chubby Jack actually was quite curvy for a man. His shoulders are round, even though they’re also very bony, but the more that he gained weight, he looked more around. His gut was round he had breasts because he was fat, but they weren’t women’s breasts. They were ugly man boobs, he had a somewhat flat butt and no he was knock kneed or something like that but no he was not. Actually he was not a particularly straight looking man physically speaking and I have a big to say that a lot of gay men I know I am I’m sick of it. I think I was trying to write a heartfelt post and get people to empathize with him and it just failed miserably because people keep interrupting and it’s been an interesting day but I’m sad for him because I don’t think he got the love and everything he was looking for he might have from some people who are dead but I don’t think he got very much of it from people who are alive.
Lacey is being suffocated right now by people who don’t want her to live because they’re angry that she’s alive and one of those people as possibly Bobby Kennedy Junior why is he so angry or why are people his family so angry because they have the IQ of retarded gnats from hell.
And they’re not even angry for strategic reasons it’s more or less just that they don’t wanna hear the truth because this is stuff that they were is no one was true, but unlike Lacey, they actually can’t handle the truth because they’re very deeply insecure unstable people.
And I mean really, that’s Joe’s aesthetic. Your grandfather was a profoundly unstable, insecure man that was a huge driving force behind him gathering as much money and powers he didn’t life a lot of your families strength, but also your drama comes from the sick in ability to be stable and secure, it’s very ironic. Your horribly messed up family and that’s why you did so well because you were so driven to succeed to prove your selves even though you’re really incredibly weak people in a way and that way I’m sorry I’m behalf of America. I’m sorry we fucked you over so much by letting you succeed so well, I don’t think it was actually to your benefit that you did as well as you did in your family
Some people can handle it so people can’t you people cannot actually handle as much money in power as you’ve had which is why you don’t have that much money anymore and you’re losing power like you’re dying I mean good grief stop attacking her you’re really just destroying yourselves by doing that It was ridiculous. Confident that she thought she could be her illegitimate niece, and instead of excepting the possibility in a gracious responsible matter, you handled it like a freak to some degree you all dead you could’ve just thought it through and thought I don’t think that’s likely and then left it at that in a responsible way but instead you decided to make it this thing that it wasn’t, and why did you do that because Jack is angry at her because Len is her twin flame and he can get in your heads and motivate you to attack her because he’s your uncle so he enjoy torturing her with that false conclusion, false hypothesis and it’s sad because her father is actually Tom if she’s not born into the family she was raised and Tom is her biological father and he was a very powerful bootlegger and he was old buddy and yes your family would’ve been kissing her ass Y’all would’ve been terrified of her y’all wouldn’t be scared shitless of your aunt Lacey you would have been fucking kissing her fucking ass.
Oh, I know the sad truth. Is she actually want you people she actually cared about you more than you loved it farmer unconditionally instead of just being respectful to her like a normal fucking people you made total fucking assholes of yourselves.
I know Lacey is not bipolar. Lacey is not schizophrenic. She does not need to read the David Pitts novel. As far as I’m concerned it’s a novel to it’s not a real historical book. Dear God if I have to read one more time and people are Thai magazine online about how long was in love with Jack and see one more damn picture of him looking gayer than a fruit on Christmas Eve as he can towards his hips and move his lips into another hemi. My God I can’t even finish that thought I’m laughing too much but it’s true I really don’t think he was gay and if you look at it with any sort of sense of humor it’s hilarious on a certain dark level. and I mean here is this man, who, arguably, was probably very straight in reality, who makes this astronomically bad assumption about himself first and Ken, being very intelligent, extremely creative and very intense himself as a person he decides to go around, acting gay out of a sense of honor and decency to women, and probably in a way to just people in general meant everyone and I honestly think he thought he could be happy being gay. I think he just thought he hadn’t found the right man yet. Which is why he was determined to be gay and prove his CA wrong if he helped kill JFK I think he thought fine he could’ve you know cause you killer war I think he thought find the man was messed up, but I am not convinced that I’m not gay I’m not gonna talk to you about it because I can’t reason with people and explain to them what I suspect about myself because it’s just too damn personal, but I’m gonna keep going out there and seeing if I can find the right man for me.
I mean, in a way you have to think if there’s been Carnation, Diana had a little bit of his personality I think about how stubborn she could be trying to make a relationship with Charles work. I’m not making this up as fast and psychologically. There’s a certain stubborn stricken those people and it’s innocent and sweet, but extraordinarily stubborn And I wonder if that’s kind of what he’s like or he really thought no damn Camilla damn Charles down at all I am going to make this marriage work. At least he knows that part of him if there’s being carnation they really were probably married. Sincerely for a good 15 years or so 1520 years maybe Sarah feeling she knows him fairly well but no he was going to make it work right so he was going to film himself and rollerskating dancing in a leotard, metaphorically speaking and did you give it to Charles on his birthday to really knock it out of the park I know I think that’s why he did. I think that’s why he acted so OK and did interior decorating and tried probably. I would bet that three or four times he probably tried having serious boyfriends three or four times maybe closer to two or three, but no it was, it was a sincere effort. I I genuinely think he tried him and was baffled by why it never seem to work out. No I think he thought maybe he was just a little frigid or a little asexual or a little you know too girly I think, love thought he was a little too girly maybe a little too prissy a little too reticent to enjoy sex, and you have to understand at that time that’s what people thought women were like they thought women didn’t like sex and this is part of the reason why I’ve analyzed and realize that he probably was straight, because he really leans into that aesthetic of gender. And his gay acts. He does a huge impersonation of a very frilly sexually averse woman. I or a woman who might like sex with the right sort of mad maybe but I feel like it’s not quite it’s not quite there it’s more a woman who is sexually a little frigid a little frigid. Maybe she finds over her husband maybe she rubs his feet but she’s certainly does not like being sexually involved, and if I’m not mistaken, it has been said about him that he was asexual. People have said I think one was asexual people have FM not mistaken, literally said that.
I don’t think Linn was asexual. I think that that was lame being straight and not enjoying homosexual sex. That’s where I think he leaned in to the frilly you know frigid woman, prissy woman act as a self perceived gay man to try to sort of and no, I don’t think it’s I don’t think it was him being a sort of, a horny housewife I think it was more really a prissy bitch prissy frigid bitch I think he leaned into that more than horny housewife. His fighting would suggest horny housewife, but I think that the way he does it, or his overall aesthetic really was more frigid bitch frigid prissy bitch and I think I think that’s how he perceived himself because I don’t think he liked putting out because he was straight and so he he probably Jack probably thought he had a real prissy. Frigid bitch husband, that was OK with that because he thought sex was evil because his family was sexually liberal but they were also sexually repressed. They weren’t liberal in that way. They weren’t upper class old money liberal when it comes to sex. They were Irish Catholic backwoods and they were liberal out of a sort of compassion for themselves and other people but they were not actually liberal and an old money upper class sense so I don’t think Jack thought that he had a problem, he just had a frigid prissy bitch husband, and I think Glenn thought of himself that way and that’s where his interior decorating became. Very prim vary from the mayflower and I have a feeling that’s a source of contention for him and Lacey because I am fairly certain she’s Dutch old money And they’re far more opulent. You know she if she had her druthers would be wearing a huge emerald cocktail ring as her wedding ring. I mean it would be enormous and it would probably be worth around $200,000 at least maybe three or four maybe 1 million I mean really that would be her ideal engagement ring would be $1 million cocktail ring, that’s her actual aesthetic and I know that because I’m in the CIA that’s her actual ass aesthetic. She said asshole if she was married to Michael, it would probably even be appropriate. She just won’t wear it very often but no I mean even if she was married to Louis, possibly even Harold, but no That is her that that that’s not her morality that’s her actual aesthetic. You have to understand if it’s not a blood emerald, if it’s not evil, she’s actually preserving history by owning it to some degree people get very angry at people like Lacey, because they’re rich and they actually enjoy their wealth but they’re not necessarily evil if they are ever feeling that like you to explain to them how I mean that’s the moral compass of the republican party if they have one or people like Lacey and this idea that money is not necessarily all evil, the love of money might be but money itself might not be that’s what they think.
Hey, no I mean it would be a Normas cocktail ring huge huge out of it would be from Columbia, but she likes the color of Columbian emeralds, but she also likes the color of emeralds from other places like in Africa but no, it would be a huge emerald ring, and no I think Putin is laughing because he thinks someday maybe in the afterlife he’ll buy her one, but no, she would love to have one love to have a huge emerald cocktail ring as her engagement ring. She just won’t wear it that often because it’s an emerald and you really should wear those all the time anyway but so that’s her aesthetic and that’s not a typical person but that’s who she is that’s her ideal and that’s not a prissy frigid bitch I think people it’s not Lacey could be prissy, but she’s a woman and she’s complicated and she’s straight up. You know I’m sorry if you if you were bisexual woman and you read this blog or you’re reading it now and you thought she was bisexual and you had a crush on her I’m sorry she’s not she’s straight but I think try to empathize with her as much as you can and try to understand That it doesn’t work out anyway, you know what the moral of the story with people like Jack you can’t have it’s not yours and it won’t be happy and satisfying to you really in the long run or even the short run necessarily anyway and you certainly can’t have Lacey because she’s a straight woman and it would be a violation of her to have her help you. Actually, you just couldn’t ever really have her it’s really truly impossible Anyway and yeah, so lame did that he did that act. He did the whole act of him, pretending to be pretending to be him pretending to be a frigid prissy bitch, but he wasn’t and I think it’s sad. I think if this is his ghost it’s likely that he probably wasn’t acting out on his homosexual belief system as much as you think, but I have a feeling he probably was somewhat confused until his last two or three years of life. I think it’s possible he might’ve killed himself over Jack to, but I still don’t think that changes the fact that up until that moment, he thought he was straight, and actually is straight, I think it’s possible that he killed himself thinking no I’m gay and I’m miserable and I’d rather just be dead but I have a feeling he was probably straight to this pictures of him smiling at Jack’s wedding to people who are actually in the CIA and really understand human psychology, and body language are proof that he was straight really there almost unequivocal proof that he was straight And that’s what scares me slightly and why I didn’t bring it up until right now. It does suggest that he might’ve actually been part of the JFK assassination because if I can analyze that now in 2024, I would be surprised if they couldn’t have done the same thing during Jack’s presidency, those those photos are well known to be their published a lot of people have seen them since they were first met taken I mean there, they’re very well known photos so I would say it’s pretty damn impossible and someways that there isn’t something to that if the CI it was a part of it I don’t personally know about that at all.
Hey, this is irritating about Bobby he you know he knows if you were the CIA so I don’t get why he doesn’t get it just because you’re in the CA doesn’t mean you know every secret that ever existed. I live many secrets Bobby there are many secrets that we don’t know. And he doesn’t seem to wanna except that. I’m making him very angry right now, but no Bobby I am telling you the truth we don’t know everything.
Do you we don’t know everything what we do know is that it’s possible that Linn was working with the CIA to kill your uncle we do think that’s possible but you know Bobby, a lot of the documents that would have pertain to that have been destroyed. I have a feeling they were destroyed in the Reagan administration, if not in the Nixon administration, yes I have a feeling Richard Nixon or Ronald Reagan probably did a lot of covert activity with the CIA and shredded and burned hands of evidence actually 9/11 itself may have destroyed a lot of evidence. There is a lot of stuff that was destroyed and I think you got understand that you’re not gonna become president and suddenly find out you know where the lost city of Pompeii opened up into an alien universe. You know you’re not going to become president Bobby, and find out who caught who cut who who shot your father or who shot your uncle you’re not going to find that out Poppy by becoming president no I’m sorry that makes you want to kill Lacey doesn’t it because it makes you feel stupid and immature and ignorant and backward and maybe you are maybe you really are kind of a hick Bobby.
Bobby, I’m sorry I can tell that you are narcissistically bursting and trying to kill Lacey possibly I think other people are too though but no you are not going to suddenly become president and find out who killed your uncle we don’t have documents laying around like that that the president gets to read on his first day in office I’m sorry somethings you might be surprised by and you might actually find rather interesting there are star secrets it’s not like there are no secrets that you’ll ever find out but if you’re looking to become president to find out who killed your father and who killed your uncle, that’s not going to happen because that information is not something we have. I don’t even know.
To be honest with you I think you already suspect the CIA did it you’ve said as much, so why don’t you take that more seriously do you not like what that means because it probably means Bobby that there was a reason why they did it.
They killed your uncle Bobby, because he was unfit to be president and they didn’t know how to get rid of him in a way that was procedural probably partially because your family has so much money, and so many ties to the mob that it would’ve been nearly impossible to safely conduct those procedures your family bought the presidency. Your your father was the Attorney General, a very easily your family very easily could’ve strong, armed the US government into letting him be president for Warriors and the leading Bobby be president, Ford, Warriors and no we could physically handle them being president because they were getting us in the line of fire we almost had a nuclear war more than once with your uncle as president Bobby. and say what you Will about his brilliant tax maneuvers, your uncle was kind of an idiot. A ghost writer wrote profiles in courage a ghost wrote. Writer helped him write while England slept. He really wasn’t that smart. He wasn’t necessarily a complete idiot. He was very good at acting smart, but he wasn’t necessarily all that bright, which is why he lost the debate with Richard Nixon on radio, but he won on camera because what he was saying was stupid potentially, but he was very good at acting like he was in charge and the brilliant one in the room he was at of genius, bullshitter and yeah, he had ghost riders help him write his two books I know lumber Street in HarMar Street and I can tell you’re trying to kill Lacey right now in a desperate attempt to feel better about yourself but let me tell you something if she dies her kids will end up dead within another week or two almost guarantee you and so will Mark and I have a feeling it’ll probably be devastating to people that will probably see the end of the world. It’ll be your fault, or if she does die sincerely, if you actually do manage to kill her and sweetie, I have a feeling she’s closer than she thinks and she really is a incredibly strong person in spirit or soul or something. No it is not actually helpful to you you’ll be shot if Lacey dies riding this honey, you’ll be shot and I don’t think you’ll probably end up going to heaven, I have a feeling you’ll probably either go to hell or somewhere very lowly in purgatory and I don’t think you’ll have a choice. I think you’ll probably be shot and you’ll probably go there and your wife might be dead to including all of your kids and including all of your kids I have a feeling that a lot of people in your family will end up all being murdered, because will start seeing people as the scum of the Earth hurry if she dies it’s proof that the illuminati exist but it’s also proof that you’re festering pile of festering shit as a human being.
How are you able to do it because you were a little boy and Lem’s‘s house because you have his papers you’re able to do this to her because of nothing sexual hopefully I highly doubt that that happened between you and mom. It’s because of the fact that you were a little boy in his house is a part of his soul ever held you when you cried that’s how you’re killing Lacey. And if you’re enabling other people to do the same thing through you, it doesn’t matter they’re still using you even if they don’t even know you it’s not horrifying because it’s out of respect for the other little boys and girls who have souls that can be redeemed actually, I think yours could be to Bobby but you just keep rejecting Christ because you think you know better and you’re not a child anymore.
No, this is taking a dark turn, but Bobby I think this is why you have to except that maybe using your uncles ad because I know you did it as much as you pretend not to was really stupid. Your family is not as glamorous as you think it is and you still have a lot of power but it’s not what you think it is Bobby And they know that better than you do or they don’t know that at all and you’re all just fucking idiots at this point.
But no, the thing is as I was saying I’m kind of actually for anyone who’s interested? Who’s not Bobby and really should just stick to praying to God about whether or not he can be Asian again for his own best interest for eternity potentially there’s reincarnation because I can’t stand Bobby Kennedy, the Asian man that he may be I could probably handle being around sincerely, a poor Asian man who doesn’t know better and has some good intentions yeah, I could tolerate that if that’s who he is a stuck up pretentious little bitch who is closeted and has a dead wife, who hung her self, because he’s a little queer fake it from hell and I say that as an actual liberal believe me, if the shoe fits wear it now I know why you screw women Bobby I know why your uncle did it’s because you’re insecure about your little tiny dick and your homosexuality. No, you’re insecure about how much of a fag you are you little bitch
You can’t get Mary off anymore and so you stop putting out for her right in your own head yeah you lose touch with her and you think shit we’re not having good sex anymore dammit why is that and it’s because you saw a hot guy at the gym he made you feel really insecure because he was tall and hot and you realize that you’re not straight so if your confidence shaken in your own masculinity, you go home get into a fight with Mary and the next day you cheat on her with a woman isn’t that what happens it’s just that’s that’s probably what happens is probably why Jack did it and that’s the problem you know stuff like that and then you think well yeah but if I just told them listen honey, I’m just sleeping with Mary because I love you, but it would mean something to him no it doesn’t. The problem is that’s pathetic and then beyond it which is not attractive or sexy and then beyond that Bobby it’s just it’s just it’s not. It’s not functional it hurts and then that’s where your family is so fucking stupid you can’t overcompensate by under compensating, and then under compensate to overcompensate with the compensation, you guys are very dumb, which is in that way, which is why you can ever hold onto your money for more than five seconds because you don’t understand that your desires do not equate truth.
No I mean I really hope there’s been incarnation if there’s not OK but if there is I I look forward to finding out that you’re Asian and that you’re tolerable to be around.
Why would it be OK if you’re Asian, because Asians are humble at times and if you’re a poor Asian, I have a weird feeling that you’re actually a somewhat decent person at times you just truly are very ignorant and probably very very very on educated hard-working, Asian person and you know what if that’s who you are OK said I have taller I have a lot of tolerance for that because that’s someone that I can understand It’s like you really just don’t know what’s going on add an a sense you’re being taken advantage of by your own family but that’s if there’s that’s if there’s reincarnation and that’s only important. That really is that’s a thing for you Bobby it’s not a thing for anyone else, but no baby there’s not reincarnation maybe you’re just an asshole and I can’t stand you in which case and I’ll have to forgive you someday if you’re not going to hell.
Yeah, I mean it’s pretty simple. When was probably straight Jack was probably bisexual and so are you most likely I can almost guarantee Jack was and you probably are too, and I have a feeling that you’ve covered up for that covered up by that with poor That, by using Lem’s and his self perceived, although, in accurately perceived homosexuality, that wasn’t real, but you’ve used his confusing sexuality to cover up and mask your closet, it homosexuality. It’s a very clever bullshit routine. Your family is very good at bullshit. It catches you in the end, but no your family is very good at it very unusually gifted at it and it’s sad because a lot of people are real. The Roosevelts are real lacy Israel. A lot of people were real. Jacques aesthetic was beautiful and theoretically could’ve been real even though it was based on bullshit.
I that’s the problem though people need to hear the truth. I have a feeling them if the CIA killed your uncle I have a feeling if you’re reading this and you’re curious yeah I have a feeling the RV Harvey Oswald was actually part of the assassination part he he may or may not have been the one who actually shot JFK I don’t know, but my gut sense is that if he did it he was not the only person shooting at him that day. He was the one who was probably there probably a contingency group of people as well. He was one of them and I bet there were two or three other people who they had as contingency options, there was probably someone in the crowd there was probably actually no I’m serious there’s probably someone in the crowd who shot at him. There was probably somebody else in that book depository who shot at him and there could’ve been someone else from some other position who shot at him, but I would bet there was two or three other people who shot at him that day to Hoover just possible scapegoats yeah can you stop suffocating Lacey because this will be the only way anyone will ever hear this, including you.
Oh, so they were to air probably two or three other people who were positioned in strategic locations who could be used escape goats other than just the RV hospital Lee Harvey Oswald he was the one they chose to use. I don’t know if it’s because his bullet was actually the one that they determined killed him or if it’s because he was the person who was the easiest to use but I have a feeling that that he was just one of the people they could use and then I have a feeling there were probably oh I don’t know two or three people in the CIA possibly one person the CIA possibly someone else in M6, although I doubt that possibly someone working for some other European government yeah European government Bobby I know I don’t mean Russia and then who else was there that day? I wouldn’t be surprised if it was an Asian person and possibly someone from South America Bobby he almost started a nuclear war that concerns the entire fucking world for all I know they were aliens, trying to shoot at him at some point it really is very serious Bobby I’m sorry you can’t comprehend that.
So no, I have a feeling there is 23 people there who were scapegoats and another two or three people who were actually part of a government of some sort different government agencies had a representation representation that day, and I’m not sure who actually killed him he could’ve been Lee Harvey Oswald it could’ve actually been someone else the magic bullet is a problem I have that really isn’t. That isn’t just a mess that there is some thing a little weird about the position of the bullets People have the sort of destroyed that theory, but it actually is a real problem. I’ve looked at it it actually is concerning at a learner a scientific level. It actually doesn’t entirely make sense and I’ve I’ve actually seen his autopsy. I actually know what happened to his brain I know the way that it actually panned out where the bolts actually went and where it would actually killed him know they’re there had to have been at least a few people shooting at him that day, so no, they were probably a few people shooting at him that day and he was probably killed by possibly more than one person in Melbourne two or three people who killed him. I don’t know at least I’m sincerely, though I’m not just saying is Lee Harvey Oswald might have been one of them, yeah
Here’s a thing Lee Harvey Oswald really might have been trying to kill JFK was he brainwashed into it probably he was probably either brainwashed into thinking he should kill him or he was actually hired by us or both, so no Lee Harvey Oswald probably did shoot your uncle, but I didn’t. I’m not sure and he was working for us. I’m almost positive if we were part of it but no, I don’t know that he actually was the one who killed him Him and yeah I think it’s very possible to see I did it I actually think it’s likely part of my suspicion is that if there’s an illuminati sweetie and I’m talking to you which is something you never seem to quite comprehend entirely we do actually plant stuff on the media sometimes and it might actually be unfortunately for satanic purposes, or for purposes of I am not sure documentation There’s a very strong possibility that it’s just for historical purposes it’s like hieroglyphics.
I am so basically if you watch, if you watch him, the Dick Van Dyke show in the episodes leading up to the JFK assassination there’s evidence Lund Billings is referenced him seriously Len Billings they say the name Lem’s N Billings, and the episodes leading up to the Jake assassination they literally reference the name Lem’s Billings And then they discuss Mrs. Billings and they say they’re doing something to help Mrs. Billings that’s not Lacey I think they’re referring to his mother ha ha or if they’re referring to Mrs. Billings, I don’t know whether or not she want them to shoot Jack or not, but it seems as though they assumed that she’d want them to so Mrs. Billings they refer to Lamb they refer to shooting him in the head. They refer to the mafia but they may even refer to foreign governments and then they reference a Los Angeles. They also reference Louis Hill Junior in his family and Albert Schweitzer and their other references as well but that’s not a coincidence. I’m almost positive that that’s not a coincidence That was planted by the writers who planned the JFK assassination who are they? Who were those wrote the writers maybe the writers didn’t know but who who would have no one if it wasn’t a writer it was someone supervising them who edited something with that have been probably someone working at Desi Lu studios for all you know sweetie Ricky, Ricardo helped kill your uncle and so did Lucille Ball yeah you heard that right Desi Arnaz and Lucille Ball could have worked with the CIA to help kill your uncle Bobby Lucille Ball they have killed helped kill Jack Kennedy yeah Ricky Ricardo Desi Arnez might’ve even helped do it and why would he have done that probably because Fidel Castro was Cuban and so is Ricky Ricardo It’s very likely Bobby that we came extraordinarily close to nuclear war. Yeah your fucking uncle might have got you broken up because he fucked up he was high. He was raping Lem’s he was shooting around with some chick who is 13. That was also part of the show his under age activity was also something that was referenced leading up to his assassination, he was a rapist he was a pedophile he was raping your father that doesn’t bother you Bobby doesn’t bother your whole fucking family. How do you people sleep at night? What’s your name your job?
Bobby your uncle Jack tried to ancestrally rape, your father and then you use his ad during the Super Bowl. I have a feeling that pissed your father off and that doesn’t bother you. How do you people not understand that that’s what we don’t like about you? It’s not really it’s not listen. It’s not that we don’t get it. People can be messed up and come from messed up families, but it doesn’t seem like you guys care a whole lot. It seems like you hear these things and you just think I will big deal. Especially Carol and I can’t stand Carol anymore I can’t. I have to be honest she milks she tries to get Lacey to feel so fucking sorry for her anymore. Lacey is fighting for her life. Her father might have literally killed people in Japan within the last year and Caroline just goes. I don’t know a lot about her father being shot like you Bobby do you know what that is sad I’m sorry your parents were shot that’s pretty terrible. Do you know that Maves daughter is probably just as sad as U2 are if not more, so no I don’t think you do know that because you’re fucking idiots.
I’m yelling this right now as I’m saying this and that doesn’t come through in my words I don’t think Lacey is going to edit this anymore I don’t think she’s going to do this anymore I think she’s going to start editing and if she gets upset she can write tell him they can talk, but I am getting sick of this because they keep trying to reach out to people and it’s just not working I guess people like you, Bobby I guess I feel sorry for you that your father was shot and that’s true it is sad it’s very sad. It’s very sad Caroline but no I have a feeling Mavis daughter is just as devastated as the two of you, if not more so, that was her mommy who drowned and her brother and she’s a little tiny girl who is helpless does your family understand helplessness and respect it or no do you love to pretend like you do that’s your bottom line is it Bobby compassion for children and compassion for people But is it sincere or not?
Oh Jack, your uncle Carolyn’s dad who I have no idea why she gives a fucking shit about some Waze sometimes people have crap parents Caroline maybe your crap yourself but um, he tried Sims Avenue crap children to Carol. I know your kids crap I don’t know maybe you’re all just crap, he tried to probably rape your father that’s also been written about in a lot of queer community magazines at least a few of them one or two at least but I would imagine probably more than that but maybe not maybe it’s just one but but that’s the thing Bobby maybe it’s just one I think people suspect that and it probably is true I’m pretty sure that’s not just a mess it could be made up but I’m not so sure I have a feeling that he did try to have sexual relations with your dad and with Ted and I have a weird feeling that there is stuff that happened with Rosemary and that’s part of the reason she went insane I have a feeling that she was molested by several of her siblings, but I don’t know for a fact, but I would not be remotely surprised. I didn’t know. I have a very strong suspicion that I have a very strong suspicion that you don’t understand that actually makes sense, if Josh Duggar could do it sweetie and I’m pretty sure he did. I have a feeling Jack Kennedy did it to have a feeling he did have a feeling he did it to your father. I have a feeling he did to Ted I have a feeling he probably drive with Joe that could be why Joe pushed him over because he didn’t want Jack trying to rape and molest him, and honestly again this is another reason why I am really quite certain I was straight because I think that Jack wanted a predatory relationship with everybody to some degree and I think he enjoyed praying on people that it was his pastime Jackie I think was insecure, and I think he prayed on that Very insecure and somewhat tragic and I think that line was too. I think I’m a straight and I won’t be surprised if Jack thought he was bisexual. I have a silly Jack thought Linn was bisexual. I’m mostly straight by somewhat bisexual and he just thought well I’ll warn him once or twice and if that doesn’t work then I’m then I’m I’m a be no I am fine and if I do it in a way, that’s dishonest, it might still count so it’s like if he said it no it was very manipulative like you’ve got to get off of this whole thing you fucking idiot which is not you know actually saying you need to get off of this whole thing it’s harming you you fucking idiot there’s a difference between saying this is bad for you and you’re a fucking idiot versus saying you’re a fucking idiot Everything you think is dumb including this those are two different things, and he did the latter not the former, as far as I can tell. No, I mean really miss the latter, not the former or the national wing if I’m not that kind of boy, who the fuck says that, I mean it’s it could be sincere but it could also be somewhat tongue-in-cheek at and I have a feeling he gave him the impression that he was crazy often so I think he thought well I kind of said it technically so that counts I don’t have to really actually do you know tell him as a friend that what he’s doing is harmful to him, but my gut sense is that he probably thought Linn was bisexual and very insecure because he had glasses and asthma, and was awkward and dorky to some degree And I think he thought you know really he just lacks confidence but I’ll take it vantage of that. That’s lame sweetie a man who was horribly taken advantage of you or not loves champion. I think you think you are. I think you think you’re his wife, Bobby you’re not his wife you were never a hot 14 year old girl who Eno slept in his apartment and gave him weird thoughts as she bloomed into a woman, I think if Lacey was 14 or 15 to it would’ve been rather confusing to them because she could’ve been born at 1918 and she matured probably fairly quickly. I think she would’ve probably nothing would’ve happened but then no but by the time she was 16 or 17 which is really the age of consent in a lot of countries and that’s an old age of consent and this is a long time ago, so no I have a feeling by 16 she probably could have Become his wife but that’s not you. Your parents were born in the 1920s she could be someone who was born in 1918 Bobby not you that’s not you Bobby or anyone else in your family. There is nobody alive Bobby who is as old as her in that way in this conversation almost at all, if it all she’s actually no I don’t think there’s anyone she’s very old she’s very old and no I’m sorry I don’t think people quite grasp that that she’s both 40 and also 103 and that’s the thing Linn would’ve picked up on that then being together for eternity. No I think it could’ve been very confusing to him but that’s not who you were you were born in the 1950s that’s probably about as early as you could’ve been born Bobby at end that’s who you are or you were never mature enough or insightful enough to be his equal you’re insane and you’re you were short you really weren’t you were very short I think a woman who is 57 who’s shorter than you would’ve looked a little bit weird at some people but I don’t know about that. Actually it says that there’s a thing I’m not so sure about that. I have a feeling given her femininity and his masculinity it would it would actually make sense and what’s intriguing to me is that she has commented for yours to people on the Perfume committee and elsewhere That most of her life, she’s always wanted to wear high heels, which is interesting. It’s almost like her brain knew that her husband was supposed to be tall and it’s just that’s not what happened you know if she’s Tom’s daughter no lamb is dead but her brain doesn’t necessarily know that because how would her brain know that so it’s like her brain is still saying, wear heels wear heels and no it doesn’t really make sense and so then she can’t which is done traumatic and devastating to her because she’s thinking why am I not wearing high heels, his life because your life is hell sweetie you could wear them but I have a feeling you’ll be taller than a lot of people aren’t as tall as a lot of people, so no I mean know if she could wear her heels or she could have. Maybe she still could but it’s not gonna be as much fun as it was supposed to be her whole life is a disaster that way For the most part and a yeah as a liberal that’s sad to me because it would it’s nice to think that everyone could be happy and I’ve had to realize through being in the CIA Bobby that some people really have lives that are just fucked up from the very beginning and you can keep hoping that’ll work out and God ultimately could do some thing I suppose I have to say with respect to people who believe that. But I don’t believe that as much I tend to think that people how are sometimes doomed so anyway I’m gonna let this go at that, but I think you have to understand it doesn’t need to be the end of the world you really just need to have respect for other people, and respect the fact that she’s not likely to ever agree with you the way you want her to because she can’t and I am sorry, but I am almost positive that she’s talking to learn feelings in his ghost and you’ll just have to understand that. also, you can’t make her go away there are so many things to suggest that we exist, and that there’s no illuminati, we’re really she’s not a schizophrenic but there’s nothing that can dissuade her from thinking of that that it’s possible because it’s a rational to think that it’s not possible at this point Bobby know I mean she knows that it’s possible and no you people to sit up a heck of a lot of more respect for her And I don’t know why you care so damn much about lame feelings he was never going to be with you, Bobby you’re insane if you thought that he was ever going to be with anyone in your family that should’ve been fucking obvious to people back in the 1930s practically There was no way that it was ever going to happen and I say that because I have I have the pain that he was straight but I also think in general that it was very unlikely what was I recently saw someone ask about four months ago on Cora or was it somewhere else on Reddit? We monitor that kind of stuff in the CIA why he was with your family that’s either someone sweetie who reads this blog or who is spiritually picking up on that question honestly it’s an interesting question I think Bobby you had him in your family because he made you guys feel good about yourself. He was your entrée into the upper class old money and that was what you all wanted to be, if he had been Jewish, or if he had been an actual poor person who was an old money, would you have cared as much about him any of you? Let’s say he didn’t look posh let’s say he looks like a poor Jew, but he was equally handsome, but he looks like a poor Jewish man, so let’s say he was like Larry David with worms, personality to some degree but he was like Larry David, but tall and handsome in a way that Larry’s not would you guys have felt falling in love with him as much or not the answer is no I don’t think any of you would’ve been smitten by him Your love for love is your love for money and that same thing with Jack and social class your fascination with him is a fascination with all the money upper class. He looks like that and he is that and that’s why you all felt love with him. It was an obsession with cruelty towards women who you can’t be who you’re all jealous of which is just sick in a way it really is but you know you’re cruel conniving social climbing jackasses And that’s your obsession with them is Pat Wilson loves Joe honestly baby she’s a little conniving and social claiming herself and I have to think maybe they actually love each other for that reason partially because they really understand each other and Jackie was that to some degree am so is your wife slightly Bobby I bet every wife is ever had is that to some degree But then that’s what you have to understand that’s not who lame was not really and I think that’s why Lacey gets angry at him and to be honest that’s why Louis gets angry at him. That’s why that’s why everyone’s angry at him because he was supposed to have seen through you people, and it’s sick that he never seems to get it um, anyway he sees through you and it away I don’t think he actually does or maybe he does now but I don’t know that he did at the time and honestly I really think love that’s part of why she’s so hurt by you if you’re looking for insight into her from the CIA love that is that is why she’s so hurt because you sided with them it’s just it’s not. It’s not fair there’s something almost perverse about it so I’ll end it there because this post was about that it’s perverse love your lack of ability, seemingly to understand that it’s totally disgusting is what is probably why she was so hurt by you and part, it’s like on the one hand you’re wealthier than she was or his family was in. They had privileges that she didn’t have growing up but on the other hand, she’s old money in the same way that you are and they’re not and I don’t think she can understand why you don’t get that there’s a loyalty that you should’ve had to your family and her.” says the C
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