If I’ve actually done something mean to Nancy, I am truly sorry I don’t know that I have. I think she’s sort of misunderstanding me but if I’ve done some thing that I am, I am sorry I am what is with this whole competitive thing with skin care?
“ yeah it’s about the product quality. It’s about product quality it’s about trying to sort of be superior to other people in some way.” says a perfume collector.
“ do you know it’s actually may be a little disturbing that you guys are so competitive do you irritated you irritate each or do you not notice?” says Lacey.
“ we do and we don’t do you get the sense that you irritate us and so then we irritated you back or what?” asks Mr. Cologne 76.
“ I think I irritated you guys I’m not sure why I am still not sure why and yes you did irritate me back but I’m not sure if that was intentional or not why did I irritate you so much? because I’m not really competitive.” says Lacey.
“ I do you have some very prestigious people following you in the Perfume community. There are people who are may be more prestigious who are not following you, but I don’t get the sense that that really bothered you that much and I don’t think I don’t think so he could handle that that was one reason, also, it was clear that you hadn’t been collecting perfume your whole life even though you have been wearing it and loving it oh, and some people built up perfume collections over yours. It wasn’t just like they bought it all in two years, knowing it would seem like you weren’t really working for it that it was being given to through inheritance and that made a lot of people really pissed off. I have a feeling some people wanted to think you were a prostitute, even though it’s totally insane to think That, I mean maybe not totally insane but it was pretty insane to think that but I have a feeling there are some people that did because because they didn’t because they didn’t wanna deal with the reality of what was happening you were buying bottles and bottles of perfume, and it was just very easy and so much nonchalant, which is my next thing. I was very competitive with you and my idea was to to do Nish perfume to some degree the way that you did perfume in general and I’ve since realized I realize in the afterlife that that was stupid.
You were trying to study perfume in aggregate not just a niche perfume not just the best perfume you were trying to study all perfume good bad ugly you were curious to try it all. Just sort of strengthen your pallet but also just to get a sense of it all what I wasn’t quite that thorough. I was backward and immature and a arrogant with you. Him and I mean that’s clear as day to me now but it’s funny because people related to me. and because I was spending my money on the best perfume, and I think people thought that was somehow more sophisticated or adults were intellectual and it’s not, but I think they thought that because they could relate to it it’s like if I’m gonna spend $5000 on perfume, it better be the best perfume.
And that isn’t at all what you were even doing I realize that either now, or in the future you were taking the hard core tough as nails grin and Barrett. Let’s just analyze every fucking cent that’s ever existed brooch and I didn’t realize that which was so fucking stupid of me, but I didn’t realize that and to be honest I don’t think a lot of other people did either. I think it was clear I think you tried expired you know it might not have been really clear, but I think it was clear enough That you were really just analyzing perfume, and the sort of objective scholarly way. But you know if I respect that now I didn’t. I didn’t get it and I feel bad about that because you you gave the perfume community a genuinely egalitarian aspect where it was like maybe a cheap bottle of perfume from a drugstore actually has some validity and it’s really not as stupid as people think to just wear you know Jovan musk That she got it in estate sale for $.25,
And that was something that irritated me because I knew you were probably buying some of the perfume for like 100 or $200 and I know you could sell it for hundreds of dollars and probably make a profit of maybe thousands and I knew that, but it irritated me Because I assumed so I just wanted to assume that you were somehow made the money and that’s how you were paying for it or like that maybe you didn’t realize you could make that much money off of it which is so stupid I don’t know I just came up with a lot of shit and a lot of other people did too but a lot of it rests on this idea that that is just like you’re not really enjoying the perfume the way that we were.
But I think your idea was that you do that later, but out of respect for the perfume community and out of respect for perfume creators, you were going to take your time and really analyze it before you made these pronouncements except I think you did make them play pronouncements like what? Really floated your boat so to speak.
Hey, so no I am I feel bad but I think that’s part of what happened. I don’t think people understood how intellectual you were being because you’re so pretty and you have such an elite aesthetic because that’s just sort of who you are. They think they took you the wrong way if you if you weren’t sort of leaning into that part of who you are, what would your aesthetic look like?” says Mr. Cologne 76.
“ I’m not really leaning in that much. It is really just more what I like. I don’t know how many times I have to repeat myself and say that but if I were to ignore my tastes and what I actually like, what would I what would I prefer?
No 00 this is funny what would I actually prefer a combination of Grecian ancient Greece and 17th century no 18th century England.” says Lacey.
“ and so like if there’s reincarnational in the Bible sort of lamb, looks like it’s Constantine combined with a Jane Austen novel?” says a reader.
“ yes and a lot of those styles were actually inspired by that time. If I’m not mistaken him but yes, I like that look I’m not kidding that’s really what I like.” says Lacey.
“ that look was very popular in the 1970s.” says a reader.
“ yes there was a revival of that that’s true I don’t like that 70s revival but I actually know I do like that look I don’t like what the 70s did with it but I do like that look.” says Lacey.
“ am OK. That’s an honest answer so there’s nothing about contemporary society that you really enjoy all that much?” says Mr. Cologne 76.
“ oh well, do you know up until recently? I’ve enjoyed the abundance of food at grocery stores, modern medicine. Oh you know conveniences. The Internet is interesting other than that maybe not.” says Lacey.
“ oh, where do you find all your stuff?” he says
“ oh, my lots of places, antique stores, estate sales. I’ve been here at some of it. Um, that’s pretty much it. Estate sales, antique stores and inheriting it.” says Lacey.
“how much did you pay for that stuff in the picture?” he asks.
“ I don’t recall how much I paid for that for the yeah think Jordan yeah whatever the royal Daulton Platten holder will say I don’t recall it’s probably worth around $200 or $300 but I don’t know where I got it amazingly enough and I don’t know how much I paid for it I think actually no I think it might’ve been an estate sale of an antique store that was going out of business and I might’ve paid $50 or $60 for it. And the blue flow I got that whole thing for a really good price what I have is probably worth him about without well about $1000. Yeah I have about $1000 worth of blue flow. And I paid maybe $20 for it. The the vintage silver plated English candleholders were also $20 and I have a feeling those are worth about $600. Oh, the picture was worth about 10 or 15 and then the plating was well about 20 because it’s not real gold but it’s it’s metal but I like how it looks and no the the vintage royal crown derby no royal Copenhagen. Excuse me those were alcohol how much for those like 20 or $40 at an antique store I’m not mistaken, yeah I find really good deals and the clock was a little more. The clock was about $100. I think an antique store and it’s worth more than that I think but no I am capable of finding good deals. Sometimes I do pay more than I think people realize it and I’m obviously not selling it and I could be but no it’s find good deals.” says Lacey.
“ what is your contention with the American dream? I think you think it’s a joke or do you?” he says.
“ I don’t think it’s a joke, but you have to understand oh my ancestors if you’re counting white people coming here, what are the first people here to some degree if if if I’m illegitimate and even if I’m not very likely my ancestors, the Dutch were the first people to ever be in America we were here first. And I have a feeling that that changes my perspective.
So I just like how your ancestors were so much brought here. My ancestors were here before all of that started to some degree and so maybe we have a somewhat similar perspective. We are like why am I here except I am, and I’m enjoying myself to some degree at this point and I’m just like yeah I don’t know why you’re here either but that’s nice that you’re enjoying yourself of elections who will be brutal. This whole thing is um I don’t know that I have a problem with American dream so much as it just doesn’t really make sense because you can pull yourself up but I’m not sure how effectively.
Call me that’s possible but it takes generations and it takes a lot of effort and hard work and thoughts and it’s like OK it’s worth it or it was but it’s like well. It’s it’s not everything it’s cracked up to be it. It really is amazing but I think a lot of people think it happened really quickly and I don’t think that’s almost every possible, I don’t think there’s ever a family that can pull themselves up in the upper class old money and one generation I mean I don’t think that’s possible as I think it’s possible so I think at the end of the day it’s kind of a con I think America is a little bit of a con game You know if you put in the effort and you really are OK with like spending generations you know sort of making it work maybe it’s worth it if you’re willing to put in that much investment but I think it’s sort of a rip off if you’re not prepared to be new money And then I mean that’s even paying you money. It’s like how many people ever get to be that rich like that money and so innocence and if you’re looking for grander and prestige, it’s a rip off for a lot of people.
Yes, but I think if you’re OK with being new money and letting your grandkids grandkids are great grandkids be more excepted you’re fine you just have to be willing to sort of let that be what it’s like the Kennedys screwed that one up they wanted to do it overnight and then they got really impatient and I don’t I don’t think they’ve made it people think they have but I don’t think they really have that with people who really are old money. Um, not really am or people lie about it but no it’s if they’re really not him but I think they could’ve, but I think they could’ve been. They just got too antsy and pushy and evil.” says Lacey.
“But you’re not patient!” says a reader.
“ what are you talking about?” says Lacey.
“ you’re so fake or I thought you were.” says a reader.
“That was a very stupid, narcissistic assumption you’re the fake peasant one aren’t you?” says Lacey.
“ yes, no I assumed that about you because I wanted to even though there’s no evidence to suggest that it was true.” says a reader.
“ yeah so it’s what does I don’t get where patience. What the fuck are you even talking about?” says Lacey.
“ well, it’s like oh crap you don’t you you you did narcissistically burst couple of my bubbles I thought I was a really big deal until I met you or at least that I was unusual and then I realize that compared to you I’m like a fucking peasant, and it was really upsetting, and the only way I could make sense out of it was by telling myself that you weren’t patient which is so fucking stupid but that’s what I told myself and then I decided to obviously give somehow you what the hell is wrong with me they could be an illuminati OK you know what yeah I am a peasant. I am talking to you like I have authority over you that I don’t even have oh crap, yeah I am I was someone who thought you liked patience I bet to be honest with yourself. I bet there are a lot of readers who are confused by you until they read your blog and figure out the whole premise of everything or realize that it could be real it’s like there it could be real or it’s actually just part of some sort of, extremely unusual like art installation so you’re either an artist which is really interesting because it’s very innovative or or it’s just it’s like it’s real no I was I like to be I thought you liked patience because I thought it was like you didn’t understand that cultivating an old money aesthetic takes old money and that takes generations of time and patience and then I and then I read your blog and then I looked into the Wikipedia, like background of you’re Great Grand uncle, who really is real and I realize that your family actually is a real family that’s kind of a big deal and I started realizing that your promise is genius. Even if there’s not an illuminati it’s a very good critique it’s her it’s like SNL you’re like SNL but you’re not entirely comedy show your not even a show so I have since realize that you’re just like artistic and shit or that it’s real and if it is real no it’s sad they’re just torturing you know I have some stupid ideas about like virtues of like patience and humility and shit because it made me feel superior to you.” says a reader.
“ have you ever had someone contact you who gave a crap?” asks a reader.
“ no not really you’d be surprised by the lack of concern people have for her as human beings.” says Lem.
“ you’ve never had anyone contact you once, and say I like your blog?” says a reader.
“ not sincerely no I’ll be surprised. She said people who used to stock her in the past like me contact her and try to have conversations, but she’s probably never had someone complement her you know, part of the baby decency and trying to pursue respect her privacy of who she is and people just don’t care about her.” says Marsie.
“ why don’t people care about her?” asks Nancy.
“ because she’s better than you, Nancy and the American dream is a little bit of a con shop that we last 200 years people have been sacrificing their lives and allowing slavery and racism to exist because they believed that it was possible to become Dutch old money in one fucking Generation, which is what you thought to Nancy you thought that one generation by snapping your fingers and buying a $400 piece of shit you could compete with Lacey Banks. But if there’s reincarnation, she’s not supposed to be here Kennedys literally tricked her into coming back. And it’s bad because I know she’s very honest. She’s very sincere and loving knowing today’s a new tree will just start ready for that kind of honesty, which is actually not a good thing. It’s actually a little scary, but I think I think people just weren’t ready for it. People just aren’t ready to deal with the reality of what she means or who she is or what it says about society and how diluted and someways a lot of people have been for hundreds of years, so now people choose to be suspicious and hateful towards her because she’s not a demanding person and sometimes the squeaky wheel gets the grease and she’s not squeaky at all. She’s very stoic and so it’s like she’s just very stoic extraordinarily elite, quiet person who is rich, but not so rich that people are in love with her, but she’s so astronomically superior that they hate her so she’s not she’s safe but she’s not so rich that it garners you know I admiration but then she’s so superior that people hate her without thinking about it.
And its superior genetically to you never such a superior class wise who speaks she’s a wonderful person, so she’s not sinful in a way that’s enduring to people who like that sort of thing and then she’s extraordinarily beautiful and cut it. It’s just it’s she’s so perfect that it’s hard for some people to tolerate.
So I think people have a hard time tolerating her and then they just they can’t handle the fact that JFK is a total fuck up. I have a feeling he hunts Lacey looking for lamb, thinking that somehow she’s hiding him from her. She’s hiding him from him and she’s not. He’s not was never interested in Jack and that was that Jack’s delusion but I think Jack is so fucked up that he somehow has the psychotic idea that she’s hiding him or some bizarre fucking thing like that and no it’s just it’s shit like that she’s not cursed but but it’s it’s just bad it’s just it’s a tough life. It’s just a tough life and know if there’s reincarnations I have a feeling her and Mark and lamb and their kids are in her and loves kids are supposed to be in heaven right now, but you know there’s people that are but I’m sure benefiting from them being here and that’s great but I don’t think that if there’s been Carnation, I don’t think this was a life that anyone was supposed to necessarily have to live in and if there’s not reincarnation, then it’s a pretty rough life so and frankly Jack could still be trying to hide her to look for them yeah people just don’t have they don’t have patience for her. They just don’t have patience for her because they don’t we don’t wanna have to like think about stuff. I know she’s not schizophrenic she’s a genius and now I just wanna think about stuff.” says a reader.
“ and if there is an illuminati, Lacey, did they really talk to your cousin to commit suicide?” says Casi.
“ yes, if there is one, they most likely did.” says a ghost.
“ hey it’s Casi I have to tell you something and there are either some very evil demons. They’re trying to trick us and don’t rule that out or there really is reincarnation because I had someone tell me that they somehow had intuited or they thought or something but I was going to become the mistress of a French king French prince in a direct message in 2014.” says Lacey.
“ they just randomly told you that?” says Casi.
“
Yes, it was very bizarre were trying to sleep with me. They were trying to arrange for me to sleep with them. It was this man from South America and he’s like just wait. You’ll become the mistress of a French king I don’t know. I don’t know what I don’t know I think he might’ve followed you, so I don’t know what his deal was. I don’t know if he was obsessed with you and somehow figure it out that’s who you are or if he was trying to read both of us and he misunderstood and thought that was me and not you or if the whole things backward, and he thought that I was genuinely going to become that when you had already been that.” says Lacey.
“ he was trying to sleep with you?” says Casi.
“ yes he said now all we have left to do is arrange when will meet.” says Lacey.
“ yeah if there’s reincarnation, I have a feeling he was reading me and I thought that was you.” says Casi.
“ I’m sorry with us so screwed up is just so screwed up. I mean here I am like Scotia and my husband died in World War I and he thinks I’m a French miss another French mistress to French King. I mean, I’m not trying to be evil towards you, but it’s just if that’s what you were that is a very different existence than what I ask. You know I mean I was dirty and fighting and riding horses and killing people and I was a Gyptian and I was glamorous, but I really was I was, I was very skilled and I was straight and probably quite dignified but no I was I was not the mistress tricking him. I’d probably try to avoid sleeping with people. I have a feeling that was a rather sad life and know him the other life I had was my husband dying in World War I and him being my everything and then there’s this life. I’ve never been the mistress to French king. I can’t say that I’m not impressive surgery in Carnation, but now I’ve never been a mistress to a French king.” says Lacey.
“ to be honest Lacey I have a feeling part of the problem is that you’re not but you’re not butch at all and so he was too ignorant to realize that a woman who is not, but she could still be like an Egyptian warrior princess and like 980 and so he just thought how could Lacey being straight and so feminine have kill people that must be Casi but he probably went to a psychic, so yeah there’s either demons willing lots of people because we look so much like those people even though we’re not them or that’s really just who we are and he couldn’t figure that out that I could be a little bitch and bisexual, and still have been a mistress to the king and if I am that person, even if I’m not you and I both know that’s embarrassing that he would understand how things could work but no I’m sorry because that probably was insulting to you because you’re practically a saint.
And to be honest with you, it’s a little insulting to me, too, but he didn’t get that I could be that feminine.” says Casi.
“ when you die, you’re just going to go back aren’t you?” says Lacey.
“ listen I’m taking Chris with me but no if there’s reincarnations and we have an option I’m definitely just going back and I have a feeling you are loved or taking your kids and doing the same thing possibly although I don’t know it seems like you could be close to your dad and his family but no if there’s reincarnations sweetie, I am I have an early already in my head.” says Casi.
“Why?” asks Marsie.
“Because it’s not that great.
I’m happy. Or happy enough. But I’m taking my loved ones and going back to Italy.” says Casi.
“Lacey your eyes look like Scotia.” says a perfume collector.
“Yeah! And my eyes look like Virginia.” says Casi.
“Is there reincarnation or not!?” asks Dmitry.
“Casi. Do you prefer Italian things?” asks a reader.
“I might.” says Casi.
“Did you think Chanel No. 22 was rubbish for Lacey?” asks a reader.
Casi laughs.
“Okay. What’s better than, Countess?” asks Jan.
“Floris Violets. She’d never have let me sample that one.” says Casi.
“What’s your signature scent?” asks Mira.
“I choose not to discuss it!” says Casi.
“Casi…will Chris be able to compete with a French King if there’s reincarnation?” asks a reader.
Nancy laughs.
Casi looks serious. “Well. I was his mistress. So…”
Later.
“Was I insulting your family?” asks Casi.
“ I think you could’ve been, but the truth is, sweetheart you were a piece of shit socially compared to me. If there’s reincarnation, there’s no way to insult my Scottish rest, Craddick family, or one of the most honorable, aristocratic families to ever exist, and I was not a countess, but I also didn’t spread my legs and fuck snakes, like you might have my grandfather maybe you didn’t maybe you were a better person back then my grandfather and father we’re sort of a big deal. I’m pretty sure they had a title and Lem did not have a title I don’t think but his family was definitely prestigious and I’m sorry great Britain’s aristocratic families of the 1800s were vastly superior to anyone in France or Italy. That’s a fact, we ran the world and I wasn’t you know avoiding getting pregnant I was a married woman no as to what was happening in this life. You’re still you’re a piece of shit compared to me socially am comparing my family in this life to your family in your last life, I’m not sure that’s fair but let me if we do that. I don’t think he would find my family quite as slowly as you want them to be. They are not Italian aristocracy, but they’re not exactly as low as you want them to be either, they might actually be more superior than you think, and you know I care about you but you’re also servant of noxious person because you don’t really have a reason to be so operate if you’re reincarnated you have a reason to be a party to some degree but not with me I’m your superior and it’s disgusting.” says Lacey.
“ I hate it if there’s a incarnation, I really truly think that I have known that my whole life I think you’d be surprised by how many people are impressed by us if there’s reincarnation, I think you’d be surprised you maybe you don’t experience it, because in some freakish way, you’re too elite, and it scares people especially to be honest if you’re Scotia because I wonder if they can sense that like you’re a dangerous person in a way not like evil but like dangerous and so they tend to patronize you out of fear and actually my theory is that that they did that to love you too. No, really that’s that’s that’s one of my theories because if there’s reincarnations he was attacked by that priest him I wouldn’t be surprised if his family lost their money, just so that someone could keep him from being scary to be perfectly honest with you if we’re going to go a step further, I think that’s why Jack was obsessed with him beyond you or beside you or something I mean you could’ve been ultimately what he was obsessed by but I’m a little worried that he was actually trying to somehow threaten him because he was so threatened by 11 I mean really I know but I think that’s what it is. I think he was trying to take Lum down a peg because he was so threatened by him narcissistically, I think a lot of people go to bed but I have a feeling Jack was up there because of the family that he was in and just sensing something different about them and thinking I don’t know about this guy. I kind of want to get him under my thumb and torture him because he scares me and pisses me off but if there’s reincarnation you be surprised how many people have been intimidated by me.
You weren’t intimidated and you think where the hell are you intimidated by Casi what the fuck is so intimidating about her but that but that is not I was bullied but that was not the experience that I’ve had with a lot of people but I think also caught you off guard because people were mean to me over you and they still are but not to the degree that I deserve or that you deserve I wasn’t I was a horrific person to you Absolute bitch and obsessive freakish psychotic thinking you were attracted to me or something but people don’t give a fuck the way they should and no I mean I got I’ve gotten away with saying a lot of crap and being really mean to people over the years and I really think it’s because people are intimidated by me in a way that I truly don’t think you understand it so that you don’t cause I said I was feeling are far more intimidating than me and you intimidate me But I don’t think I am you know I wonder if that’s also part of it you’re so intimidating that nobody’s not intimidated by you and see you don’t even know the difference there are some people who are not intimidated by me, but there is enough people who are that it’s it’s always giving me a sort of an ego boost.” says Casi.
“ no what exactly what exactly is that that they’re sensing?” asks Lacey.
“ probably power they can probably sense that you and I are connected to something very powerful and I would like to think it’s just God and Christianity but if there’s being carnation it might not just be that we might be connected to some thing that is in this world that’s powerful that’s dead, but that still somewhat exists and so they can sense that and it’s just it’s scary we’re just for scary people to talk to there’s something scary about us not like scary like we’re creepy necessarily but just like scary.” says Casi.
“ oh I don’t trust you but I’m not scared of you in that way. What is it? What is it? It’s just is just fear?” says Lacey.
“ I caught yeah, I think it’s mostly just fear of a kind of a feeling of like impending doom where it’s like if they don’t respect us or talk to us politely they’ll be destroyed you know I wondered out to people take that away from you?” says Casi.
“ I can’t tell. I can’t tell. I don’t know.” says Lacey.
“ I think I have something to do with Lem. I think people got really fucked up over Lem What’s his actual personality like??” asks Casi.
“ oh hey scary what is not like him a really scary person but no he he’s not gay if I wasn’t so hurt I would probably think his gay voice is actually slightly comedic because it’s if he’s not gay it’s actually quite funny because it’s so over the top and vastly removed from his real personality and health sounds. He’s laid-back him and actually if you listen to him and Jack he’s the one in charge of the conversation but it’s in a way where it’s like the recording that’s public but it’s in a way where it’s like. He doesn’t really give a shit about Jack and he’s just patronizing him the whole time and he’s annoyed and he’s just sort of him, he’s just sort of dealing with him. I don’t get the sense that he cares about Jack almost at all.
But I don’t get the sense that Jack knows that and you have no idea how I mean maybe you do it at six that I can buy. I have a hard time even talking about it if there’s reincarnations because it’s extraordinarily repulsive.” says Lacey.
“ what do you mean?” asks Casi.
“ I am here I think he really might actually hate Jack. I really think he might’ve hated Jack like actually hated him, but then Jack doesn’t know that and it seems like the entire conversation Jack thinks he’s in charge and that love is obsessed with him and and that really love him just stop bothering him and I stop asking such stupid questions about what’s going on and he’s just very uppity and conceited and I think we got Smith isn’t that so it’s so perverse because Jeremy Lamb is basically in some subtle way slapping Jack in the face the entire fucking time and spitting at them but Jack is living in this delusional bubble, absolutely delusional where he thinks that lamb is just so in love with him and we gets me is that he was able to live in that delusion and that other people encourage them to and the other peoples thought is that it was real and then on top of all of that that they still think that it’s real they don’t see through it and they’ve written love stories fabricated out of possible bullshit or half half truths instead of actually dealing with the reality of the whole thing there’s no evidence that Linn was gay and there’s no evidence that he was actually in love with Jack. That’s totally a smoking God I mean there’s some, but a lot of it is just fucking idiotic bullshit and a lot of the evidence that’s real. They barely even seem to notice probably because it mostly points to Jack being the sexual instigator and possibly never really having the love from Lem that they like to think that he had.
And that’s just it. I don’t like I can’t stand it anymore because if there’s reincarnation, I was never that happy I never thought loved love me that much he he might be my twin flame, but I was never that happy I was never as happy as Jack I never was that confident in his life for me. I’m not now either, I never had such a profoundly sublime existence where I was just so fucking sure, but he was madly in love with me, and no one would write a love story about us where they would claim that he was obsessed with me and died and went to heaven on my birthday just to planet and you know, suck my cock I don’t have one, but you know I mean what the hell is that there’s nothing particularly pleasurable and that if there is something positive about it but it’s not like being you know fucked yourself I mean I’m sorry if that’s crass but It’s psychotic it’s absolutely disgusting and and that’s the thing if I am if I’m reincarnated no I was never that content I was never that confident and they’ve written these fabricated bullshit love stories and I’m just like what the hell is wrong with you people there’s so much evidence they suggest that you’re full of shit and then you’re living in this delusional bubble dear God help us! That’s sick!” says Lacey.
“ what is an all honesty, Lacey if there’s reincarnations no fucking shit, you were never that confident I mean I would say that’s normal for someone even if they’re in love to be slightly scared we may be in heaven or maybe if you have an unusually good marriage that’s like astronomically profound we’re both partners are faithful and really in love. You might have that sort of certainty but I don’t. I don’t disagree with you it’s psychotic Jack was a malignant, raging disgusting, rapist narcissist, and the gay community has fabricated complete bullshit and making them so incredibly in love with him it’s disgusting. It really is it’s perverse.” says a living Black man.
“ no I just wanna agree with that because it’s true I think being like oh my gosh she was the center of the universe and I would rather be died and then you know your kids are dead and accidentally overdosing on alcohol is so much more than normal than being Jack Kennedy you know oh my gosh dad Kennedy wow and being president for three fucking years before your shot. No I mean it’s insane Lacey the level of narcissism and arrogance in America in the 1960s and 50s, actually I would say probably in the 20th century in general because there is no way that they make sense as a couple and it’s insane to think that they were that love the more I think about it that I read your blog and the more I think about it now it’s Batshit fucking crazy to think that Linn wouldn’t have been bothered by him sleeping with all those people and I think they’re one of them man. No I mean it’s just it’s insane, and then it’s like he was going to be at this wedding and not be the slightest bit affected by it and he looks so happy no I mean yeah and he is just the happiness looks too sincere it’s too it’s just too fucked up and now I’m starting to wonder if he actually killed jack to be perfectly honest with you I’ve watched those episodes of the Dick Van Dyke show and I don’t think that’s a coincidence. If there’s an illuminati, I think he had some part in it or he was really miserable and Jack was partially killed because of him and to be perfectly honest with you what pisses me off is the gay community I’ve been was David Pitts hired by the CIA was someone getting close to figuring it out or was he getting close to figuring it out and he got paid off he was he worked on that book for 20 years so there’s a little part of me that worries that he figured out that one was straight and then he killed Jack but he’s lied about it for his own personal steak. His book is so badly edited. I genuinely wonder if he was trying to write a slightly shitty book because he was slightly hoping that someone would catch him on but I know that’s where the gay community irritates me because how do they not see through it? I mean it’s so fucking obvious how is no one realized that lamb is the perfect culprit. He could’ve easily hit a jack I mean they suspected Jackie why haven’t they never why are they never suspected Jack’s friends like ride Fais or lunch or Ben Bradlee or a lot of other people and I have a feeling Lem’s is probably more likely than some people but regardless, I mean I’ve even wondered if Bobby could’ve been behind it, but no, regardless I highly doubt that lamb was gay. I have a very strong suspicion that he was straight, and I have a very strong suspicion that you’ve uncovered an astronomical amount of evil that’s hidden in plain sight.” says a reader.
“ no it’s true because how how can you be that sure that someone’s madly in love with you that that’s insane it’s like even if a guy is like obsessed and I’ve had guys that were totally obsessed with me and just wanted to like you know kiss me and buy me things and they were just like it’s OK. We don’t have to sleep together I just want to be with you um, but here’s a thing I always had this like feeling that if the wrong person came along or in like 10 or 20 years or five, if they lose interest and I’ve had friends that I’ve had the same thing happened to them gay friends even to and it’s like that’s not normal to string somebody along for like decades that’s not a thing because Jack never commits to him Jack is never really all that great to him and then Jack Hudson down during World War II. I don’t think that’s Normal, that’s not psychologically normal and a lot of people I think read it and think maybe long was just weird but I don’t think lime was I don’t think anyone could be that weird I think I think there’s something totally fucked up about it and I don’t think it’s a real story and it it it does. It pisses me off because it’s just such fucking bullshit and then I am sure some people read it and think I only I’ve only someone could love me the way that lame love Jack or vice versa it’s like that’s not real. There’s no way that a person could love somebody to that like psychotic level of unconditional love like it’s psychotic so I just want to ask Jack where are you insane did you actually think I was in love with you or did you just lie to yourself really fucking well?” asks a reader.
Jack thinks.
“ are both eight I will I did both. I knew that that I was full of it on a certain level I knew it was totally full of it from the beginning I knew I was full of it, but I did lie to myself extremely well, and then a part of me thought it was possible, and it was the combination of thinking it was possible, and then also lying to myself.” says JFK.
“ how did you think it was possible at all Jack?” asks a reader.
“ because of my mother because of my mother, I was raised in a lower class Irish Catholic family when it comes to class we were very wealthy, but we were somewhat backward. I am so basically am I I knew my father was cheating on my mom. I knew my father was cheating on my mom, but then my father would lie to my mother at times, and sent her to Paris and buy her new clothes and she’s believe him. She believe his lies and she actually she’d actually think they were true. Oh, I didn’t really sleep with these people I didn’t really do this and she’s kind of think well OK maybe maybe he really didn’t you know maybe he’s really innocent and him then she would just believe him And I know she knew that he was cheating, but a part of her was so vain and conceited and arrogant that she actually she actually thought that he was really that faithful to her, and in love with her because she was that overconfident about herself at times.
She was actually better looking than a lot of his mistresses in some ways not all of them but if there’s enough and she was better looking than Janet, she was better looking and someways and Gloria Swanson and she knew that about herself and so I think she thought how could he really be cheating on me with these people that aren’t as attractive as me When I am his wife him and so I think she thought I don’t think it’s likely that he would really be cheating at least not all that much and she really believe that even though we knew that was complete bullshit on a certain level and so it’s like I would see my father leave and not come back for two weeks and go out to Hollywood and I would hear the rumors that he was sleeping with Gloria Swanson and I would think he’s sleeping with Gloria Swanson. There’s no way he’s not sleeping with Gloria Swanson, but then my mother would insist that was just rubbish and that he was just out there working and that they were business partners, and that there was no reason to think that there’s anything was really happening. It was just a rumor.
Oh, and then I would think well maybe that’s true because she was my mother so then I start to think of all indications all indications point dad being a lying cheating asshole that’s what reality tells me that my father is just a lying dirtbag, but mom doesn’t think that Mom thinks the dad is just peaches and cream basil as can be and that there’s not a problem at all or at least not one to really worry about and sometimes she get high on a medication that was prescribed her to avoid thinking about stuff and that was what I was taught to do if something bothers you just get high It’s no big deal it isn’t real anyway just go get high and they don’t have to think about it anymore and so when lame didn’t want to have a whole sex, and I had to chase him around the room in Germany and threaten to leave him there, I told myself after raping him that it was just a fluke And that he was really madly in love with me and that he was just in a bad mood and that I was in a bad mood and we just gotten drunk and it was no big deal. Um, yeah it was just I was trying to think that way it’s like don’t don’t think about it too much And even though common sense and normalcy would tell you that you just rape somebody and then they really didn’t want sexual activity with you. You know he would tell me that he was gay. He really thought he was just like my father thought that you know he was faithful, right oh I told my mother that so it’s like dad says he’s faithful Lem’s says he’s gay just go get high you know it so don’t worry about dad being unfaithful moms and I’m out my muscles, relaxer him and eating ice cream with her feet up and Janets giving him a massage in the same room nothings happening there’s not a fair between dad and Janet. Um, mom is too happy And she insists everything is fine and if you ask dad, he’ll pretty much tell you the same thing him yeah and then high on meth I was and then lamb was screaming and upset but he also thought he was gay and I thought you know I’m reasonably attractive I’m in love with him or I have feelings for him or some thing you know I’m not really being honest about Him so if I just get high and we just keep going on and he did try to be kind to me because I think he was trying to be a good husband and so I noted that too and I thought again it was like my dad it was like well no he takes good care of me just like dad takes good care of mom And even though dad‘s on faithful and loves screaming whenever I try to touch him to stop touching him at times him no times you were literally to you would bark at me to just stay away from him so even though I was telling me to stay away from him and I’m chasing him around the room Him he says he’s gay and he tries to help me so I’m just gonna assume that we’re fine he never really said he was in love with me and I of course never admitted that I was gay but again that was that was how I grew up it’s like you don’t you don’t have to worry about what reality is you just listen what people say about themselves, and then the minute that that falls apart You just get high and then be evil and to be honest that was personally my mother and father both just have to get my mom to cause it’s like obviously I was raping them I was like I didn’t really care about how he was experiencing things, but she could my mother could be extraordinarily selfish very very selfish And my father could do so good that’s how I was raised. You don’t give a fuck about other peoples feelings that doesn’t matter and if you don’t like what they’re saying to you just ignore it doesn’t matter anyway or if you don’t like what they’re communicating to you or ignore it, especially if they tell you something different that fits with what you want to think so you don’t have to actually pay attention to reality. You just believe their lies and then bully them into making those lies true I know I am extraordinarily toxic and clear to the point of evil, but that that was that was why I did it that’s what happened.” says JFK.
“ that has to really hard for Lacey to see though because she probably died over Lem’s and people are very pushy with her but they’re also very pushy in general and believing the David Pitts novel which I just want to address one more time David were you paid off or were you just toxic?” asks a reader.
“ I might’ve been paid off, and if I was, I’m saying this from the afterlife who paid me off to be honest with you, it might not have been the CIA. It might have actually been some sort of criminal organization, and I am maybe not prepared to disclose him.” says David Pitts
“ what does the CIA know this?” asks Maria.
“ if I was paid off no I don’t know if the I don’t know that the CIA knows him to be honest with you the people who paid me off may have been the people who had interest in destroying America.” says David.
“ why did you go along with it?” asks the CIA.
“ I am well I mean they were someone threatening my life but not really they offered me a lot of money, and and they knew the truth somehow listen if if Lem was who killed Jack or one of the people that killed him or if they killed Jack over lamb, because people were really sure that line was being sadistically abused, and there’s been nuclear wars when Marilyn Monroe had died, and then lamb got totally beaten up one night or some thing, and they just lost it with Jack I think they didn’t want people to know that they didn’t want anyone ever to ever figure out that lame was part of what happened because if they figured out that line was what happened and then suddenly Marilyn Monroe becomes likely and then the whole entire lake Kennedy family goes down the drain because if they kill Jack because Marilyn Monroe was killed by the Kennedys and Linn was losing his mind and they were worried about and he already had some degree possibly him whether we’re worried about nuclear war, I think yeah the Kennedys go totally down the toilet but also it just puts this whole atmosphere of like fear on the front burner. It’s like who could actually be elected how dangerous because that person be what’s really happening and that was at a time of huge polarization and I think they were terrified and I think they thought that somehow it was temporary possibly better for the US for me to stay quiet and not say anything but then I think they thought long-term that it would destroy America because I don’t think they anticipated you emerging in writing this blog or being discovered by the illuminati, but I think they did anticipate was that someone would piece it together at some point subconsciously at the very least and start realizing that something fishy was going on and Innoway, I think they thought that would destroy the fabric of the US and make people trust people a lot less so essentially, my book was supposed to be like a insidious sort of TikTok or people would subconsciously think that smells fishy, and then start doubting the popular narrative on Wikipedia and elsewhere, so I was sort of a very subliminal propaganda piece designed to make people question the validity of the American narrative so again, Wikipedia, the liberal media, and to be really honest with you I I mean I wrote the book in 2008 and Barack Obama was still president but then you know eight years later Donald Trump became president and we had an insurrection I wouldn’t be shocked if my book was part of that and some small part people reading it and realizing that it really didn’t make sense that’s what I’m telling you from the afterlife don’t quote me on this because what if it’s not true, why would I go along with that, maybe a little better how about that? What is astronaut? That’s where I’ll leave it I’m better I’m gay or bisexual. I don’t know who’s had the best experiences with gay men and in to be honest and I was interviewing people I ran into some gay men that were really annoying and that’s obviously not something that I talk about when I’m being interviewed, but or when I was being interviewed him, but they were so people who are really annoyed, because I was starting to realize that he could be straight or that it was even likely that he was based on things that his family had said to me based on some evidence that I found things that he written himself that I possibly never shared in my book. I realize that he was probably just straight, he might’ve even written somewhere that he was straight like in a diary or in a letter to his mother I mean there could be some evidence that I really chose to totally dismiss couldn’t “because I just I was I was I sold out slightly but then I also was bitter and I just thought you know I’m gonna let these Gabe gay man think that he was in love with Jack. I’m just gonna let everyone think that to 7° because if they’re gullible and perverse, I know perverse and toxic enough to fall for this then let them if they’re dumb enough to think that you could really love somebody who is a total fucking narcissist the way, Jack Kennedy was with such undying, passionate love let them think that I happen to know that that’s in the human and absurd but if they if they’re really dead set on thinking that that’s possible. Let them think that.
I know it wasn’t about Bobby necessarily it was possibly just some dark revenge because now I spent years interviewing people as possible that I just got sick of the whole thing and I thought you know I’m gonna make my money but I’m also going to start I’m letting go of this idea That people really are as good as is I I used to think that they were it’s like no I’m gonna make a quick buck I know again if these people want to be so convinced that he was gay weapon it’s not really rational it’s so much delusional and scary because they seem to like a conscience with it it’s like how could you really think That that’s possible do you really think homosexuality is like a super power and that you’re capable of loving an asshole because you’re gay know and I couldn’t stand it so I thought you know that’s the delusion they have let them think it I’m going to make my money, and I got away with it for the most part up until your life fell apart, and she started communicating with them Yeah you you mean you’re communicating with him you really should’ve been your whole life but it’s gotten so bad that somehow you’re able to and it doesn’t work anymore for me to to keep being better um yeah if you were to interview me I would say what are you talking about? I never read the blog and I might not have actually read your blog, I might’ve run across it you do mention his late name quite a bit him so this might not be accurate right or but if it is, I would never probably ever admit to this one but that being said it could be true I really might’ve sold out I really might’ve known that he was straight and sold out if I had known that it would affect things the way that it has. I would’ve written a different book. I might have said it looks like this and I might’ve even played up that angle but then I would’ve left a lot more room for doubt and I would’ve said what if he really wasn’t straight or really wasn’t gay at all what if we misinterpreted red face quotation what if he was just a very confused decrepit man Who didn’t understand himself or his own sexuality I might have said something like that, and said there’s evidence to suggest that’s possible, and then I might not have included all the evidence, but just a little scattering of it here in there, but I chose not to do that to make the book more sellable and profitable and fascinating to gay men And I think they still would’ve read it anyway but probably not as much. No, I wrote a fairytale I I did not write reality. Actually it’s not even a fairytale it’s just a crock potentially I mean really Lacey in the afterlife. No I might readily admit to you that it’s just bullshit that I knew he was straight, mostly, if not entirely, but no it’s like him. I was an entrepreneur I guess.” says David.
“ OK be honest David, how many people who are writing these biographies at least nowadays how many of you are honest when did and where they ever or people ever honest and if they’re not now as much how widespread is that how many biographies nowadays really are just con artists?” asks a living gay man.
“ oh wow I would say 80% of biographers notice probably fabricate at least a few things to make the book more polished and profitable. Where did that happen probably probably in the 70s or 80s. I mean there were a lot of Mommie dearest books back then I would say in the 70s or 80s as one that started really taking off with people writing really made up biographies it could actually be it could free date that but I feel like it became sort of a cottage industry it away in the 70s and 80s a secret cottage industry.” says a David.
“ did Jack have a lot of affairs?” asks the man.
“ oh, yes, he did him. Yeah no he did. He had a lot of affairs that’s not made up and I’m trying to think of example of someone lying, though in a biography him I know I think example would be Sarah Bradford‘s biography of Jackie. It’s pretty accurate, but she leaves out a lot of Jackie’s personality, problems, and a lot of issues that she had growing up. I mean she kind of discusses them but she makes Jackie seem far more healthy than I suspect. Jackie really was psychologically. It’s a very glamorized biography it’s it’s supposed to see my Sentić but it’s actually a pretty it’s pretty flattering it’s FaceTuned. But there’s a lot of other biographies to. I mean a lot of memoirs are like that. Yeah you can you can you have to take everything that’s written probably in the last I would say 20 to 30 years as being a 50% chance that it’s accurate the way that you would expect even if it’s accurate there’s probably something a little fishy about it, in the last 50 to 60 years maybe gets better and it’s closer to like 60% to 70% accurate him and that I would say as much as they knew at the time to some degree or felt safe acknowledging him there’s it this is very strains are wrong. There’s a decent number of of historical pieces written more than 40 years ago that are really not that bad there’s probably things that they leave out, but a lot of old history books really aren’t that bad how do I say this once you act once you had met and acknowledge racism is something that Hass to be factored in a lot of old history books are not that an accurate because they usually other than being racist, such as serious, but other than being racist they’re usually pretty careful to be accurate no really there’s some some OK some it’s complicated I better just shut up but no you know what I’ll just shut up this is this is too complicated talk about the simply.” says David.
“Do you regret it?” asks Dmitry.
“Yes and no. No because at some point…if this is me…I find it hilarious to think that she uncovered my lies. By talking to his ghost! I definitely did not see that happening!! …But for yes because it’s…not good.” says David.
“What drew you to them?” asks a man.
“I was looking for gay history. And I was curious when I found them. They caught my attention because…it was JFK. He was JFK. US President. Kennedy. Umm…and they’re both good-looking. And…elite. Or maybe that’s debatable but…I thought they were. At least somewhat.
I guess I was impressed. And I wanted to be happy and find gay history.” says David.
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