“Their Aesthetic.” by Lem

(September 17th, 2024)

“I’ve asked Michael to explain their aesthetic.” says Katie.

This is a Nesheim Millennial house.

So is this:

And so is this:

…And so is this:

…Lacey…would love to own this house.

But…nobody in her family….lives in this sort of house. Truly.

They own $1.5 million houses. No debt. But… Or $2.3 million houses. No debt. In that area. But they don’t like this? Or it’s just not…their thing.

It’s Lacey’s personal aesthetic. But she’s very different in a way from most of them.

Nobody has ever seemed to realize that. This entire time. She’s having a very sincere…intellectual conversation. Objective. Rational. …And you miss this stuff.” says Michael.

“You’re not even in flames her twin flame I think it’s noticeable how you seem to understand her better. Michael probably stopped life experience. Is that a problem with him or does he just kind of deal with it?” says a living gay man.

“ it’s heartbreaking to him. It’s worst case scenario because it really looks like it’s very hard for Lacey to get it out of her head that she’s dull and boring and that Jack was just so exciting and so thrilling and so fun and got people laughing so much I love even say that lame even sad Jack has a way of making people laugh and know he really wasn’t the one organizing. Those pictures Jack was and he actually was straight and it looks like something that it wasn’t possibly because Jack wanted it to be and was very magical in his thinking, and thought if I create a sort of gay romance, photo shoot, it’ll make the relationship more romantic and it didn’t lead was still straight and confused and he was still in denial about his own desires. It didn’t alter anything but I think he thought that it would and women think like that men can apparently think like like that like that too, and they’re homosexual the sort of magical thinking if I take the right pictures if I wear the right clothes if I make it seem like what I want it to be it’ll become that and that’s not reality but that was possibly his thinking but no lemon assists and it’s true that he actually really was not in love with Jack or her you know having an actual couples photo shoot, that was sincere at all, or really that he was even trying to make sincere. He was somewhat unaware of what was happening, on a certain level he knew that it was sexual but he didn’t realize what it was supposed to be happening because he was straight but also he just was a dude you could say and he didn’t quite get it not Jack was very aware you know wearing make up on television I have to be honest there is something so much homosexual not necessarily but there is something potentially a little homosexual about that on awareness like what am I go to look like in the photo how did my clothes fit me Jack was very aware of all of that and the times he made it seem like he had no idea what was going on you know but he actually did no and he was very him and Jackie were a little like him that way they both were very hyper fixated on their physical parents and she would spend hours getting ready and he may not have actually been as irritated by that as some people would be because his family was but he may not happen because he empathize with her possibly and that no if she’s doing what she hast to do I do with myself sometimes arm but baby she was insane. She would spend hours getting ready hours and hours and hours and he was bothered by it, possibly at times, but you have to realize if it really bothered him. She wouldn’t have kept doing it most likely, and he really may have tolerated it more than you think, and know it was possibly because he actually understood based on his own experience that that was necessary and he competed with her, but to be honest, I think he also respected her for looking so good and again that was sort of homosexual. It’s like oh no she is she’s really fashionable and he took some pride in that possibly. I know he was attracted to her too but that is not some thing people have ever realized how much she actually valued that aspect of her personality so to speak but no, it’s hard for them. It’s very hard for them. He’s heartbroken by his lack of understanding. Because he know we have a very different life than her and that way and Michael can relate to her more. He was lonely and there was something similar about their their lives. It’s not worth talking about right now because it’s too sad and personal, but no, it is hard for them, because he would love to relate to her and desires to passionately, and he will be able to someday but for the time being he has a hard time understanding without gods help and his own intelligence, so to speak it away because he’s so he’s not aware that he has a sense because they’re twin flames. He has a sense of who she is but now his experience was very different and it’s it is quite painful to him actually yes.” says a Rockefeller.

“ so anyway yeah people never think to ask to find out who she actually is her husband is basically making an upper class salary at this point for Minnesota but they live in a smallish a 1910s house in St Paul and it’s beautiful. Her decorating ability is unusual, and they have a very nice life but they’re not able to afford at this point one of those houses in Seattle were there but able to place sitter oh I don’t know they might’ve been able to have purchased about a $2 million house 1 to 2,000,000 he is making upper class salary almost I mean that’s basically what he’s making and that would transfer to Seattle. They have a range is where he works based on where you live they alter how much they pay you based on where you live so if he was living in Seattle, he would be making more that’s a company policy so based on where he is, he’s making what in Minnesota is basically an upper class salary I mean there’s a distichs to prove this this is what demographers have decided I can pull up that information if you need me too but this at this isn’t nonsense. This is statistical fact so he’s making what in Minnesota is upper class salary him but if he lived in Seattle, he’d be making considerably more but they just don’t want to live there, it was too difficult emotionally. It was just too painful but but that being said, I don’t know if he’ll be able to afford one of those houses or not they might be able to and they might not be able to and she knows that she knows that, and I think she somehow assumes that you know that too, even though you don’t, so so she’s no there. This is a thing you can’t make them but they’re not. They are all the money upper class because of her family he he is making basically an upper class salary, so yeah that is what they are. That is what they are and when you talk to her that is who you’re talking to you know that’s who she has. She’s old money upper class, but she brought that up because people seemed to be talking to her. She thought like she was someone different than she is and she was really just trying to give people the benefit of the doubt and thinking they don’t know who they’re talking to if I were to just explain myself as offensive as it is, they might be able to figure out how weird this conversation is, and sort of modify how they’re talking to me because people used to do stuff like that for each other and just sort of approach the whole conversation differently it’s like yeah so if you have a $700,000 house in the suburbs. You’re probably not gonna be as impressive to her as you think you are even if even if you have like a $7 million house you might not be that impressive to her because she seriously has cousins that have like eight or $9 million states that they own That they inherited so it’s like yeah you have a $5 million estate. Congratulations that’s not impressive to her because you had to work for it and she’s impressed by your hard work but she’s not gonna be like wow you’re so far above me. oh my gosh I feel weird talking to you because that’s just that’s not who she is so I think that’s what she was. Trying to communicate was just that it’s like Him I’m not trying to be rude to people but I am seriously not gonna just like bow before you like you expect me to because I can’t it’s dumb like that. I can’t do that that’s just not the right that’s not the interaction that we’re having right now. I’m not impressed by you.” says Katie.

“ so she just wanted us to understand why she wasn’t being basically more fanning and kiss ass?” says Alisha.

“ essentially yeah basically because I think some of you including you and Alicia expected that back then maybe still would I would get offended and angry and call her a liar if she’s like I’m not that impressed by you because I think a lot of you felt really impressed by yourself and you thought oh my gosh I have $1 million house I’m better than everyone that’s insane that’s so backward because someone like her could easily have existed in the perfume community and did, and does and maybe there’s not a lot of people who actually can’t compete with her people make jokes about that it’s not funny she’s really actually that hard to compete with. Sincerely she’s not beautiful she’s not smart and that’s real, she’s that well bred that it’s actually impossible to deal. It’s impossible mode. Do you have to be a rare person to actually went with her in a fight you really do so I don’t think she was trying to say that out of spite or hatred or being a jerk the way that you people thought it’s really more that she, for some reason thought that she could just explain herself even if it was in a bitchy way, and that you people would just be like oh crap I guess we can’t keep expecting her to be a kiss ass.” says Katie.

“ if you can’t afford a house that she really wants?” says Susanne.

“ no not yet it’s possible that in her 50s or 60s she will or would be able to but not in her 30s or 40s yet that’s just how things have gone it doesn’t change her social class and honestly I think she really thought someone could actually be better than her socioeconomically. I don’t think she assumed that Alicia wasn’t, but I think she guessed that she probably wasn’t and a lot of most people aren’t in southern most people have the dumbest reaction to her of trying to pretend like they were which was insulting to her intelligence to a heartbreaking degree and it was just absolute bullshit and then some people probably did that and felt justified because I thought, how can she possibly think that anyone could be better than her and that’s moronic she’s met a lot of people who actually could be better than her oh, and maybe there some of them aren’t any be things that they are but then there’s people who actually have been through at least been in her orbit so to speak maybe knowing that she’s been that close to you, but there’s people that it was at least debatable about I mean she used to be friends with his girl name Allyson or at least she was sort of friends with her and that was that was a close race, but there are other people to let me Devon linger keys, have like a Wikipedia page. Her family has Simon Yonce in the author, but they don’t I don’t think there’s anything about the silver smith in Norway on Wikipedia there could be, but I kind of doubt it, but but that’s the thing I mean it he’s very historically significant but but that’s an prestigious and no when it comes down to it, I’m not sure that Allyson really does. When Lacey actually might it’s debatable to some people actually will compare to her fathers family, her actual father, her father ones, but that’s the point is because she was in Allyson‘s house at least twice and visited the lake that Allyson‘s family owned. Probably still owns an almost everyone in Allyson‘s family. Went to Cornell like Andy and the office except it’s real, because they actually did pretty much all go to Cornell and that’s a real thing so and that was in the end. She just ran into Allyson at school and they sort of came friends. I mean her neighbors brother was on stage at the DNC. Yeah her brothers hurt her neighbors brother was on stage at the DNC, her cousin voted in the electoral college her cousin, who owns like a three or $4 million house and got the house from investments and family money in Seattle and and that’s the thing it’s like these people are people that she just knows and it’s very common to her and so she didn’t think it was impossible that there could be somebody in the Perfume community who was from that background and was just a little better than her. Somehow I did she wasn’t sure how, but she assumes that there could be somebody and she thought there’s no skin off my nose that’s great good for them but but but that’s the thing it it’s just it’s not in there crazy people following her right now who are actually rather impressive but I think she somehow thought they already had been following her that those sort of evil and it’s just it was like oh they could be somebody following me or who I’m following who’s outs debatable if I am better than them or not in the hierarchy of things, but that yeah it’s it wasn’t she wasn’t stating her claim so to speak to try to be mean necessarily it was really more just that she felt really weirded out by her interactions with people and she just thought I’m gonna just say it I’m sorry this is who I am maybe you’re better than me maybe you’re not but you sure as heck need to stop pretending like you’re me if you’re not me.” says Katie.

“ do you find that offensive?” asks one of her followers.

“ actually I don’t it might seem like I would but I actually don’t I asked Anderson why she was so confused maybe I actually am a love bug and I just was sort of a jerk and I seemed like a worse person that I am I have a difficult face she has other problems and it gives me some empathy for her because there’s nothing I can do about my face. There’s nothing she can do about some of the things that she has to deal with and it’s like OK she still has good things in her life. I’m still somewhat pretty, but no, I love to look different than I do. I would love to have a slightly different face that I have, and still look like myself just like she love to have a happier life and people who love her more than she has and I am the size I got it I almost think she might’ve been crying for help because it’s like if I could make that mistake is she making that mistake? You know I’ve overgeneralizing people and it would’ve been on her subconscious that she thought of that maybe she is making too many generalizations like maybe she’s not but that’s where I feel empathy for her and I’m like OK let’s just work this through for a second I could cut it what if I what if I came across like I was conceited about my luxe and I was just like I am really skinny or I am really fair I do you know I have I have alabaster skin I don’t have any acne like what if I joined a skin care community because I have decent skin and I have an iron on about my amazing skin and some hateful person just like oh my gosh, you’re conceited you’re so conceited about your face oh I know maybe I’m not maybe I just have really good skin and then as I was like her I might get into an argument about my skin with somebody who is just like I have really good skin too. It’s really good it’s just like yours and what if it’s not and I’m just like this is ridiculous I use Neutrogena. I use Neutrogena soap. I use Neutrogena conditioner of arc moisturizer on my face. I use a toner that’s somewhat expensive that I get at Sephora and other places online my toner is expensive by cleanser in my moisturizer or not and occasionally I do indulge in a mask but mostly I just exercise and eat well. I take care of myself. I am responsible and I have good genetics and so if I were to write like a blog post if I was in the skin care community going off about my skin, people could misinterpret that just like they misinterpreted her and it’s like I’m not saying that I’m happy with every freaking inch of my face and think I’m superior to all of you and every objective way, but I’m just sick of getting into arguments with people who are like what are you do to take care of your skin, you must be spending thousands to have clear skin no I’m not I’m really not and I think after hearing that for like two years almost every day I would probably get sick of it too which is what happened to her so I think she just lost it and was just like I’m not spending thousands of dollars on skin care I have naturally good skin What is everyone’s problem oh my word!

So I think that’s kind of what happened she just lost it if you’ve been trying so hard to be nice and she was it was sincere, keeping her patience and then I said she’s just like I can’t handle this anymore. I can’t handle this anymore I’m sick of telling people repeatedly over and over again that that no I just use Neutrogena I just use Neutrogena it’s genetics. I guess I’m lucky. I’m sorry that’s hard for you to hear. I’m sorry that breaks your heart because of your skin care issues but I can’t keep telling you the same freaking thing because you’re not hearing me and it’s getting old.

So I just thought would it be helpful to these people to hear more about the aesthetic of her family and understand that she was just saying yeah I use Neutrogena are used each Neutrogena cleanser and moisturizer and a mask and I exercise and eat well I’m not saying that I have magic skin they don’t have to do anything to I have to use moisturizer. It does cost me more than five cents right I mean Neutrogena Neutrogena is an expensive but it’s not like super cheap, so yes I do use a somewhat like I do it’s not like I’m OK magical being a simile maybe use water and like olive oil and their skin looks amazing. I’m not like one of those people I have to use a mask I have to exercise. I have to sleep well and drink water, and I have to take care of myself, so no I’m not saying I’m like a rockstar when it comes to skin care genetics but I guess you could say I’m kind of an exception, and that I don’t have to try that hard. I can buy drugstore stuff and take care of myself, and I don’t have to like worry about acne almost ever and my wrinkles are pretty minuscule and I don’t have a problem with anything. It’s just break up. Use my Neutrogena end of cheap mask here in there and it’s good to book. I’m good to go but I think that’s the thing that’s what she was trying to say I am unusual I am fortunate and then you guys are just like oh my gosh that’s not that fortunately, Neutrogena is a really good products and I’m just like it’s not that that great and you’re just like oh no Neutrogena is expensive and you’re a liar and you’re using masks and I’m like that’s true but their masks from like Walgreens that are mostly generic but you guys are just like no you’re using masks you’re spending how much are you spending and I’m just like I’m spending $50 every three months on skin care which is true I’m spending about $50 every three months on skin care yeah every three months I spent 50 bucks to get almost flawless skin and then you guys get angry and hurt or you’re just like that can’t be true she’s not buying generic masks from Walgreens and Neutrogena every three months she must be spending hundreds of thousands of dollars on her skin care and it’s just insane because no I’m not a typical person. I am unusually fortunate when it comes to my skin. I really think that’s all she was ever saying and you can pick it apart and be like oh my gosh but you’re still wearing masks from wall wall greens I would give an arm and a leg to buy $10 worth of masks every three months!

Oh that is repulsive and this is why she’s losing her shit because it’s just like what the hell like my family were silversmiths in Norway in the 1700s and that was a nice house that they built and that familiar with equivalent of reading my product list or my ingredient list to speak on one of my skin care masks and it’s like like oil alcohol butyryl some thing protein and it’s like that’s not a straight mask I mean it’s debatable if it’s even helping my skin or harming It it smells good it’s loaded with perfume. It’s a peel off mask him and I’m just like no I have a good skin. This is probably just crap and you people are just like you’re using a mask.