“You Don’t Know Lacey” by Lem Billings

After getting into a fight with her legal husband where Lacey had to use her Scottish accent…Lacey is over it.

(June 21st, 2024)

“She can’t hear me anymore. Satan and his worshippers have drowned out my voice.” says God.

“I woke up this morning, willing to question whether or not I’ve ever been talking to Lem at all. but I’ve asked Scott so many times if I’m speaking to Latin, and I always hear that I am, and I always hear that he was straight and I always hear that he was not in love with Jack, and that he’s in love with me, and on a few occasions, I may have heard, even, that we were reincarnated.

I can’t hear God’s voice clearly Jonah or whoever else might read this blog and be judgmental towards me. Previous to being attacked by whatever the hell it is that attacked me for the last 8 to 9 years I could literally hear God’s voice like it was in my room not like an audible voice, but I could hear Him very clearly. But I haven’t heard Him clearly in about 8 to 9 years and it’s been awful. That’s part of the reason why I wondered if I died and gone to Hell.

Not being loved by humans because they’re too persnickety and snobby and self-important in my experience God’s voice has always meant a lot to me so it’s been extremely miserable not hearing from Him.” says Lacey.

“So all your friends are just jealous of you?” says Jonah suspiciously.

“Oh my God Jonah I know. Like…that’s so like suspicious, isn’t it? Wow!” says Lacey. “Like why would anyone be jealous of me!? Eww. So gross?”

“OK fine we are jealous of you.” says Becca.

“Yeah you are. Why the hell does that make you so fucking mean?” says Lacey.

“We just don’t like you.” says Lacey’s former roommate Lauren.

“ I was blissfully, unaware of how much love didn’t give a shit about me, and was letting me think that he was in love with me to try to kill me. He never made any sexual moves towards me that was entirely in my head and it was stuff that was fed to me by people. He really never encouraged it in any real way to he may have patronize me at times and let me think that he had a crush on me, but it was done in a very patronizing way, that was really more or less designed to make an asshole of me that’s not something that I’ve ever dealt with if there’s no illuminati it’s been very unpleasant for the last two years to have to deal with that part of my life. It’s been very painful for me why am I dealing with that because I have to because if there is an illuminati, she really did find us And we really have been attacking her for 89 years. I don’t know why she’s not able to hear from God I don’t want to think that she is in hell. I don’t want to think that she’s in some terrible place in purgatory. I’d like to think that we’re silencing God‘s voice and that’s why she can’t hear him but there’s no guarantee I’m not God, I don’t think she would have been poking her nose around supernaturally talking to F Scott Fitzgerald probably to survive when she was 30 if one of her fucking friends had given a shit about her and I would like to know why the help my uncle Jack thought it made sense for her to have friends. I didn’t give a fuck about her. I am not you jack, and neither was my father. I cannot imagine us being this stupid and dysfunctional that we would seriously think that it makes sense to torture somebody after we’re dead and we know there’s heaven and hell how dumb are you jack how fucking stupid are you?” says Bobby Kennedy Junior.

“ because of what they did to me before I died I’m do not care about my my needs as a person. Lame didn’t care about my needs as a person Lamb, who is mean to me come to find out he not care, and I suffer physically more than I would have if he had not been with me, he didn’t take care of me very well when I had surgery he didn’t take care of me as well as I thought other times he save my life sure OK. But I couldn’t saved otherwise to people like me following me yeah, but they also like me I was very likable and wet lab does not seem to, except as that he is not a hero in my life not really.

So I torture them through Lacey, make her lonely and sad, have terrible life to sock it to him, and teach him teach him a hard lesson about meeting and existence.” says JFK.

“Jack, are you black?” asks Cameron Diaz.

“That’s funny!” says JFK.

“yeah OK so my uncle is a moron I know who’s being carnation he’s a racist backward uneducated Japanese hick. And I’m still angry because Lem’s really might have been straight. I mean three perfectly honest with you. It makes sense out of a lot of things that haven’t made sense to me most of my life he’s right you can you can’t confirm someone else’s orientation you just can’t you can confirm the impression that they gave people or that they told you that they were a specific orientation but you can’t actually confirm someone else’s orientation you can say oh They told me they were straight or I’m pretty sure he had a boyfriend or she had a girlfriend or she had a boyfriend you know you can verify that they had relationships. You don’t know what they were thinking or experiencing from their perspective if you were in the relationship with them, and you were honest, I would say you might come pretty close to being able to hundred percent confirm some people would say that they can. I think that would require a lot of trust and intimacy but I would say that it’s possible that you could at least come close if you were in the relationship with them and you knew them that well, I don’t think anyone was ever that close to him because if they had then I don’t think he would’ve died but I don’t think that’s likely I don’t think it’s I just don’t think it’s possible. I think it’s it’s possible that someone could be convinced even that they knew him that well if they were dating him in the 70s and then somehow if that isn’t my family and I the friends from the 70s on Wikipedia, if that isn’t us trying to find some cover, then whoever that was if they dated him let’s say, I don’t think it’s possible that person could’ve been close enough to him to know whether or not he was gay and the way that is represented on Wikipedia I don’t think that’s I think it’s actually quite dishonest and frankly, it’s the gay agenda. There really is but there really are groups of gay men who are very pushy and frankly, a bit dishonest, and the requirements of a suicide of society. I am not saying I’m not saying that I am not pro gay rights. What I am saying is that some people have taken it too far and required things of people that they shouldn’t have required, which is why the Supreme Court ruled by the dead recently, you can’t force people to except you.

Oh, and that’s what they’ve tried to do they’ve tried to force people to except their perspective on their life you can’t do that. That’s part of the fascist regime that Putin claims America is being run by that’s part of the reason he sees us as fascist because we do have that problem in United States, and most of the western world of not being able to express dissenting opinions from homosexual people when it comes to homosexuality.

Oh I know I even if I would say I contributed to it let’s say I am part of the problem. I will admit that at this point, possibly that it was unwise because we can’t really confirm moms orientation that’s just true. I think Lacey agrees with that I also think it probably is his ghost saying that, and I don’t think that it’s likely that he appreciates that You can you can’t really know that part of someone you know I would know that I’d rather mysterious myself with my own orientation. You can’t really know someone’s orientation and that way you can survive as you can. Hope that they were honest with you you can hope they were able to be honest with you, but you can’t know for sure that’s why I would say probably something that I should be better at but I’m kind of a narcissist I’m obviously, but there are people who don’t understand that anymore. You can’t know that about somebody, so no I think it’s actually possible because nothing really did happen between us that he really was straight. I think he easily you know he could’ve even been if something did happen, but no, he was straight very possibly, and I sincerely think he probably could’ve been just trying to kill me, or not have cared if I lived or died, if there’s rain Carnation, I wouldn’t be surprised if he was a British aristocrat who had some lingering suspicions about the Irish that Lacey did not have and my family’s Irish OK I wouldn’t be surprised if he thought it made sense to just humor me and let me die because of my Irish background and frankly being Asian, potentially if there is reincarnation myself, I may have had a fascination with opium long before I ever knew, or heroin was in my life as we know it now.

I believe if there’s reincarnation that lemon Lacey were married and I think she did try heroin once when they were in China and I think it was a very traumatic experience for them and I think that’s why he became so fascinated with it. He tried a lot of trucks, and I think that he probably became fasted without winning particular because it reminded him of her I wouldn’t even be surprised if she was there and I know her because she was there. I don’t know her but it’s possible that I had psychic visions of her when I was high, I may have even seen them talking to each other because let’s be real all of my wives look like her slightly or have her personality and it’s kind of creepy. It’s creepy. It’s very genuinely creepy and I don’t think it’s possible that if there’s no luminosity that if there’s pink carnation that I didn’t see her in my spirit. no I did. I got a crush on her. OK she was there if there’s green carnation for all, I know she watched over a slightly him and was trying to help us and I have a feeling I develops kind of a crush on her arm I might’ve had a crush on both of them which is a way that I had a crush on them is more like my father than like Jack I am I am not Jackson I am Bobby son and no I could see my father, having a crush on both of them as well in the way that I probably may be due when did were dead MS rat Lacey gets angry and I don’t blame her. We’re not Jack Kennedy OK I’m Bobby my father was Bobby that’s a different family and I’m not saying that you have to trust us but we’re not. We’re not Jack we’re part of of the Kennedys, we are the Kennedys, but we’re a different ring of the Kennedys were a different branch of the Kennedys and then Jack Kennedy so keep that in mind you know you might not like me you might think I’m a criminal or something whatever fine but I am not Jack.

And frankly, when I die, I fully expect to get into a fight with him the Chinese and the Japanese don’t always get along, and I wouldn’t be surprised if there are some people who are angry right now from Dad, China at Dad Japan, which is really actually kind of concerning and hopefully people aren’t taking Jack too. Seriously But that’s that’s that’s that’s the mess that were it. That’s the mess that I meant I’m having to deal with the fact that lemon Lacey are a couple my family knew who I had a crush on and it’s awkward because I feel like I’m about 14 again and I’m having to come out with the reality that I had a car crash at the billings will say Because if she’s been born earlier, especially if there’s reincarnational I would’ve had a crush on Mr. and Mrs. Billings, both of them possibly and that’s very embarrassing because it makes me feel like I’m about 14 again and it’s just awkward you know admitting that you have a crush on someone who is that much older than you in a way and no it’s just awkward. It’s very awkward him, very awkward him. Yeah, my mother might not have drop me off at his house I might’ve chosen to go there ha or Corbin both but I don’t know I might’ve wanted to go to his house, but I had a little bit of a crush on him, and then they made it into something mutual, you have to be careful what you read about my family, but it really is true. I am very easily might not be able to dismiss everything but know it. I don’t think he transferred his emotions from Jack to me if he did, it may have been actually in reality to try to kill me, I’m serious I’m not convinced he didn’t kill my uncle. I really actually am not at all convinced that he didn’t have something to do with my uncle‘s assassination him and people saying oh he transferred his feelings from Jack to you. You know he said stuff he said stuff and him, he gave impressions that he was you know in love with me like I said he patronize the idea, but I don’t know that that was anything more than at a desperate attempt on his part to deal with the reality of his life. I don’t think that he necessarily felt like he could escape my family And he may not have been able to. I mean we did force ourselves on him at times we did before star company on him very aggressively him like when I was sent to stay with him and that was not a typical you know you don’t just sign your kid to stay with someone who don’t have a history of taking advantage of he was used in our family. He’s not making that up And I think he may have patronize me act like no you’re the next Jack because I think he felt like I had boundary problems with him probably and he may have been trying to sort of patronize me in essence to try to kill me. I’m serious by the way there’s times where I may have come close to dying and his house overdosing and I don’t think that that was necessarily innocent on his part anymore. I’m at the opinion that at times he may have actually been trying to let me die. That’s a horrible thing to have to say but I don’t think he thought I think he thought our family was possibly kind of terrible and people have misinterpreted everything through the lens of he loved us. He was Jack’s lover he was just on South real love with Jack Jack do anything to him and he didn’t care that’s not saying that’s not normal that’s not possible he had to have gotten hurt by Jack at some point and he never could’ve been making the excuses that Louis Bayard and other idiots have said that he was making. I’m sorry it makes me angry, because honestly that level I feel betrayed in which sounds crazy I’m a narcissist but it’s like you’re supposed to have my back somewhat. You know you get into the psycho fanfic bubble and people say things like oh yeah, that man you have a crush on he’s in love with you When he’s trying to kill you that is it that’s the kind of stuff that I grew up with where you can you can’t trust peoples opinions and these are people who are supposed to be so expert you know like built like Ben Bradlee you know it’s like they know so much And in reality they’re just telling you what you wanna hear because they wanna get on your good side and they want to get some sort of political endorsement from you and you know use that for their own purposes and so no I don’t think I don’t IIII for the record. I think it’s entirely possible That land buildings were straight. I think it’s possible he was straight I think it’s possible that he was gay by also think it’s very possible that he was actually straight and not at all interested in me or Jack and I want it on record at least on this blog that he may have killed my uncle I really think it’s possible that that that that’s our little missing link you know that’s that’s what no one ever seems to pick up on his biographers that aren’t really his biographers because they’re just making shit up. I mean I’m sorry but no David Pitts didn’t write a biography of love he wrote historical fiction masquerading as a biography it it’s not as accurate and hard hitting as he pretends that it is, it’s it’s more it’s more honest and some things like Wikipedia, potentially but no, he makes far too many assumptions, and he doesn’t really see things from an objective perspective. He has an a preconceived idea of everything that he interprets, and it can easily be interpreted to mean that he was straight at that that’s not something that people are intellectually savvy enough nowadays to comprehend apparently, but I still am to some degree so no Lacey is too but that’s that’s the problem OK so let’s get back to that.

I have studied Lacey. I think it’s very possible that she really actually is Tom Banks his biological daughter. And if she is no she’s not she’s not totally disconnected from me and so I have to take that seriously. I know if she is his daughter I think explains how she found the illuminati if there is one I think combine with the oil and her family. I think it is something super natural where it was like she’s sort of almost like when Outer space how things come close to each other you know and then it’s a gravity pulls it there Menotti has a huge gravitational pull spiritually, the oil does as well, especially within the confines of the US and I think it’s very possible that given her brain and how she is that she found us because her brain is different than most peoples brains. I think we may have even conjured her I think it’s possible she was actually looking for Michael. I don’t know what happened but I wouldn’t rule any of those things out if there is an illuminati and I’m telling you that through her because we do talk telepathically to each other in the illuminati I know that sounds crazy, but if there is one, it’s it’s a form of witchcraft it’s really not something that most people couldn’t do, but it requires knowledge and understanding that most people don’t have but it’s it’s not that different than channeling a ghost you just channel each other and I would be I would be surprised if that’s not part of her experience when your dad probably in a way that is far superior than what we are able to experience through the illuminati. You know you can talk to someone in your head when your dad I would even wonder if it was something that used to happen an ancient cultures and it’s a lost art art.

So all that to say, why did no one try with Lacey OK why did no one try with her? I can’t I can’t believe that there’s only one person who really had her interest in in there at heart at all her entire life OK because no, I think I think I might have been straight. I think they could be what some people would call twin flames. I think it’s very possible that he’s never going to look out for. I don’t think it’s surprising because my mother never remarried And Queen Elizabeth dead die rather shortly after Philip, I’ll think men in that generation were like that, and I wouldn’t be surprised if she never gets married to someone else in the next 40 years if she doesn’t die, I wouldn’t be surprised if she starts seeing them far more clearly as she ages I wouldn’t be surprised by a great many thanks but that’s a different conversation I would be surprised if I lived that much longer if Mary starts manifesting in my house because I don’t get the sense that she’s OK entirely and I wouldn’t be surprised if she haunts me someday and that’ll be an interesting experience

All that being said, that’s what I had to cope with in counseling as I’m running for president and I’m having financial problems and I have kids that I actually do give a damn about and my families angry at me that’s a hell of a lot you know just could someone have tried to purchase from a truly selfish perspective could one of you have tried to give a shit about her height even if there is no luminosity, cannot contact her OK I can’t I don’t want to, and frankly multiple in the illuminati should exist, are far too Self-serving and odd scared to try to contact her. I think one person dead in Eastern Europe in 2018 or 17 they sent her a message on Instagram they tried astral project themselves and then they manifested in a message on Instagram and I don’t know who that man was, I’m not sure but she did get a random message from a man once on Instagram and all he said was hi it’s me and he’s been talking to her telepathically before that that might be one instance of someone trying to contact her. He was in Eastern Europe. She’s never she didn’t talk to him because she just, she couldn’t believe that it was real and I I don’t know quite what happened but that’s interesting for her to sort through someday but but no, we have not contacted her directly and other than that we we have brought her to meetings, but it was always better this way, where she could have believed that she was experiencing ghosts or hallucinating arm so she’s gone on walks some times and we’ve manifested in various places but it’s been like remote parts of Canada remote parts of Minnesota and so will have outdoor meetings at times and that’s where she’s been so there’s been a few occasions where we have been able to clean out see her, but I think she has thought that she was either hallucinating or that if we do exist that it’s just totally screwed up it has been very hard on her psychologically to process at all. We haven’t done that recently we left her alone almost completely at in Canada. We tend to be far more humane with her in Canada the times when we’ve manifested in Canada we’ve been spent a good portion of time telling her that she’s not crazy that we’re real, but that we can’t talk to her and acknowledge her in a way that would confirm that to her psychologically because we just can’t we always say we just cat but um, but know at times with times we have at times we have tried when the queen was alive to say something and that I’m sure has been a scary interesting experience for her. I think the Crown the television series may have even try to be kind and bring ghost into the series, partially out of empathy for her teachers that that was very weird to her to see ghosts that were fully manifested that we manifested so that that would be where I can if there’s reincarnations that’s how I make sense of it. I think she’s Scottish Len was the English him and that’s why her people care about her still and I A having been through trauma understand how people can get stuck at certain ages or at certain certain points in there if there’s reincarnation in existence and I think she’s stuck in Scotland I don’t in England. I don’t think that this life took so to speak. I think it’s sort of talk. I think she has kids that she loves that are her kids for eternity and I think that she cares about her husband but I don’t think that they are not entirely in this life I think they are, but I am I think her son and her daughter are Lem’s’s kids and I wouldn’t be surprised if they love their dad very much, but are rather angry at him, and all that being said, no if there’s anyone that feels guilty and worries, it’s me. I worry if there’s an illuminati, there’s times I may have said things like I talk to ghosts because I am somewhat Catholic, and so like Lacey I understand the possibility that even if I don’t go to hell I’ll still be paying for everything that I did not like Jesus but sort of like justice and him not getting away with stuff so it worries me because I don’t wanna die and have this on my conscience oh woman being tortured by the illuminati and yes I have tried to kill her that’s how I think it you know it’s like I don’t want it on my conscience but the same time I might try to kill her but it does go both ways with me I have also worried him so I worry now to and I wish more people of my family want more worried you know it is true love Billings really might have been straight to Anna times. I think he might’ve actually cared about me and just thought I was a nutcase you know it’s like on if Betty draper wasn’t a pedophile and Glenn still had a crush on her and I’m glad you know maybe maybe I am kind of a creepy kid, but then if that he was a more normal person like Lacey and lame, I have a feeling she would’ve worried about me sometimes in a real way and probably that’s the part where if I’m not totally psycho pathic, I might fill some you know some sort of love from them and I am yeah worries me it just worries me but on a purely selfish level on a purely selfish level why didn’t anyone try to be nice to her? Why was it so fucking difficult and I understand that my uncle somewhat responsible possibly from the grave I really think that’s possible that he’s like a poltergeist who’s been attacking her in some uneducated stupid as heck way, where it’s like. Oh, you know Linn was mean I’m gonna make her life the same as mine was but she doesn’t realize that that’s not fair because he’s not alive she is and she doesn’t even know what’s going on and it’s just nuts to be attacking her when she’s alone like that and vulnerable it doesn’t really make any sense but that’s that’s you know that’s what people in my family can sometimes be some people may think that it’s not just me that has mental health problems, so just why why didn’t you guys try like you could have just try it at all?

Like Laura it seems like there was some woman name Laura, who is a little bit miffed that Lacey didn’t date Joel and I think I think I think I think it’s weird that more people weren’t like that with her and I don’t know why I don’t know why Lawrie didn’t try harder to, but it seems like this Laura Laura was the only person who tried to actually relate to Lacey and from what I know of her she seems like she was abused by her father and she had mental health problems. Her mother was a counselor, but why didn’t no one else try?” says Bobby.

Later.

“She makes you feel insecure.” says a friend from elementary school.

Lacey thinks.

“You people are so retarded.” says Louis. “And it’s one of the reasons we’re so disrespectful to Lem. …What exactly do you think is going on?”

“We assumed that Lacey was lacking self-awareness.” says Casi.

“Because she knows she’s better than you, but she’s quiet about it instead of being open about it?” says Louis.

“Yes.” says Monika.

“ Monica, she actually is better than you, and she was raised by psychopaths. What do you think they told her about everything you people aren’t thinking things through in an empathetic way with her at all she actually is superior to most people in some objective way, and given how she was raised, she can’t help but have some things subconsciously in her head that always tells her what’s wrong with everybody that she meets. She’s very good at picking up on things. She’s very good at paying attention to detail. She knows what’s wrong with everybody instantly she as she needs them pretty much sizes them up, but she’s also like that with furniture, antiques perfume and she would’ve been an excellent diamond grader. She even thought about doing that because she has a brilliant eye for detail and quality and she could literally be could have been one of the better diamond graders in many regards that’s not fabricated that’s really who she is. It is been an issue for her with her rings, and her jewelry the imperfections, the color differences she’s very aware of that in a way that’s not pretentious or overly fastidious. It’s actually quite brilliant and that’s just who she is so you’re expecting some thing from her that she can’t give to you she can’t not see what’s wrong with you? And frankly, no being unusually intelligent she’s more intelligent than most people alive. That’s just fact. Being better looking than most people live, which she is is also just fact. I’m coming from a better background than most people alive. Also just fact. Being kinder than most people alive also just fact being wiser than most people alive also just fact. Frankly, being more insightful at aware than most people live also just fact this woman literally discover the illuminati by accident psychically that’s just who she is if she had been raised by parents who are more loving and less narcissistic, I don’t think she would be quite so cutthroat, in how she perceives people, but that’s how she was raised.

And the scary truth is, that’s not her being an accurate or pretentious or insecure that’s actually her just being a logical, rational objective person. She’s actually a very loving person, and she sort of invented her own math, so to speak of how to evaluate people, but most people never get a chance to perceive that about her or experience it, because they shout her down the minute that they feel put down by her, which is really before she even usually gets a word in edgewise or barely even moves. They can just sense in their spirit that she knows all of their flaws and people don’t like that, but there’s nothing she can do about it because that’s literally how she was raised

I mean, it’s kind of like a computer like you can’t expect the computer not understand some thing that it just knows and she’s like that if you can’t expect her not to see that she’s superior to you most likely there are people who she’s not superior to who she readily knowledge is that with it’s very clear to her she’s never been confused Phone and thinks a lot of those people probably get tired of people being so hung up on it like Queen Elizabeth Lacey knew that Lacey knew that Elizabeth was superior to her but it wasn’t the end of the world if anything it was a wonderful thing to Lacey and she was so excited to profit, which was pleasant to the queen because it was nice to have somebody who wasn’t Shameful about it and just thought it was subject fact that it was quite wonderful and still instill. You know that’ll be nice to be Elizabeth’s friend, but didn’t expect it necessarily, but expect Elizabeth to be proper and appropriate at Elizabeth was him so Lacey was able to be her friend because there wasn’t a problem she deferred to Elizabeth Very sincerely and Elizabeth knew that at some point hopefully that it was that it was sincere him that Lacey was never going to not evaluate her just like she evaluates everybody and I think people can handle Lacey‘s objectiveness it’s that she has an attitude coupled with that from being bullied by people, she was molested by kids in preschool And she wasn’t and she wasn’t she wasn’t the instigator she was molested by her parents and then she was molested by kids at school and a lot of those kids made it seem like there was some thing wrong with her and so Lacey developed a very tough razor sharp edge because a lot of those kids gave her the impression that they were doing that to her because they’re doing that and bullying her at the same time and they were a little girls were doing this to her not little boys so these little girls that were molesting her and then also pulling her at the same time, gave her the impression that they wouldn’t be doing that the molestation or the polling if she was a better person, socioeconomically speaking her, Priya, her preschool, and her childhood was dominated by that by kids who were very adamant that you had to have the right clothes, the right shoes, the right house, the right everything to get their respect and if you didn’t have that they had every right to kill you practically that was basically genuinely out that’s not an exaggeration necessarily what she was raised with OK so she had parents at home gave her a sense of love and she’s a very naturally loving person Very naturally empathetic absolute little sweetheart, who gave her the impression that a but love was real, but the, but that’s not the point of it, making people gave her the impression that you were supposed to be some kind of fighting with people before you even met them so it’s like if someone seems like they might be insecure around you you automatically attack them first before you even say hello And that’s not necessarily inappropriate because that’s how people have been to her but no people also have expected her along with that to then somehow be their friend so it’s an absolute mess because they’ve expected her to somehow be their friend and not evaluate them, but then also when they value when they get a valuated to be totally destroyed, or they have a right to somehow dominate her, and Jack obviously played into that.

No, she’s had a horrific life she’s been terribly bullied, but then you have to say would she have even been your friend? Would she have even been your friend if she had taken what you’re saying to heart?” says a ghost.

“ no, I wouldn’t have been.” says Lacey.

“ why?” says a ghost.

“ because people are bitches and they don’t give a fuck about me I mean I don’t know what to say but no I mean there could be some people who are capable of being friends with people who are out of their league and I might be one of them but I don’t think most people are capable of that. Most people are so fucking awful my way in my experience they’re worthless shit and so no most people are too crappy. I’m sorry to be able to handle that kind of a relationship and so no I probably wouldn’t be friends with most of those people, because I would’ve anticipated that they would just be totally obnoxious.” says Lacey.

“ who would you have been friends with?” says a girl from high school.

Lacey thinks.

“ and probably Carol Kaiser. I might’ve been friends with Patty Gordon until she started becoming a jerk. She became very difficult to be friends with at our last year or so of high school she just became incredibly cold. And I don’t know if that’s because she was a lesbian slightly and so things were getting weird because I wasn’t one and it just was weird if she was bisexual slightly but no that friendship might’ve ended towards the end of high school but Carol was at least bisexual. I think she was possibly straight and I could have been her friend. I think I think we she was openly clear about how she was jealous of me but Carol was deep she’d been I would’ve tried to at least be her friend I don’t know if we were friends, but I would’ve tried she was Deep she’s been a missionary kid in Singapore and Canada and her father was a professor but I mean it was at a mission school but still she was an intelligent person I mean she graduated. I think the top 10 of our class and she worked very hard for that, and I think she was someone who I could’ve been friends with. I was vaguely friends with my Stan partner in the viola section. Laura Tonkin and Laura is now a professor at Purdue. She was very intelligent, and I think I could’ve been slightly friends with her, and I was slightly friends with her And they were other people in the orchestra who I might’ve been vaguely close to. I don’t think I probably would’ve tried to be friends with a lot of other people, though I probably would’ve just thought it was sort of stupid and I would’ve given up I wouldn’t have had that many friends I would’ve had very few friends and I would’ve been aware of that. We would’ve been a conscious decision.” says Lacey.

“ could you been friends with me?” says Harold.

“ maybe maybe not I have of my my way of seeing things is brutally objective and so I have a very harsh grading system in my head and it’s not based on things that are silly. It’s based on things that are very objective so I think maybe maybe not.” says Lacey.

“ but I have been your friend?” says Lem.

“ oh, yes, you would’ve been. I would’ve been in love with you from a very young age I would’ve been absolutely gobsmacked in love with you.” says Lacey.

A man thinks. “ what is your what is your criteria? It’s obviously not just about money.”

“ oh no it’s not it’s about maturity it’s about depth it’s about things that I don’t think there are words for an English language. It’s about a persons, quality of character in a sense.” says Lacey.

“ no I would’ve had to prove myself to her and I will I would have him Lacey adores me, but she is a lot like Scott and frankly her and Scott would’ve gotten into some very interesting conversations about everything had they been raised together they would’ve had a fuck with interesting opinions that actually would’ve probably been frighteningly accurate, razor, sharp and devastating to listen to if they had such a chance to really talk to each other and figure everything out and they’re very objective people but they’re also very loving and Lacey is very kind and Scott can be too and if he wasn’t, she would do her best to devastate him and prick his conscience and I think he would probably have responded well to that, there’s a reason why he fell in love with her, and she fell in love with him they may not be people were meant to be together, but no, they could love each other, but that but that they’re not him they’re not at at ease around most people. They actually are coyotes around a child her but it’s hard for them because they’re both frighteningly accurate people.” says Louis.

“ so you can’t get her to turn that off?” says her neighbor.

“ oh, she’s not catty you and your husband seem very catty and presumptuous and foolish at times even if you’re not a she’s not like that at all she is she’s actually just accurate and no she can’t turn that off. That’s just her brain.” says Louis.

“ so she’s not a bitch?” says the perfume community.

“ not in the slightest my wife was and I still loved her. Some bitches can be very charming but no, she’s not a bitch at all.” says Louis.

“ And this is why it was so cruel what I did with Jack because everyone loves Jack. He’s an asshole he actually raped me I was straight, but he made me smile. No more than dog would make me smile I am and that’s just the damn truth I’m sorry and by damn truth I mean it’s just the truth, how is the damn truth because it’s offensive to you I really wasn’t in love with him, but you have to understand even if there’s not re-Carnation, there are people who have seen fit to allow me to entertain that possibility just for the purposes of explanation, Diana, Spencer and I would be related if there’s reincarnation by blood I have her personality slightly so all those smiles and the gentleness and love that I thought Diana had someone in my soul that was partially who I am William is like that slightly too so it’s hairy him. What does it make? You probably loving person and she wasn’t either, but I have a softness to me and she did to people love him, am I the wisest person at times yes and no both but that’s the thing Lacey was a Scottish aristocrat from a very fierce, loving, but very intense family, I think of all those stereotypes of people who have the strong Scottish accents who are tough as nails who could I mean it’s like wow you know that’s Lacey if there’s reincarnations, that’s her.

I am asked if there’s reincarnation she’s also she’s also an ancient Egyptian and I am Constantine people think she’s a fictional character and she’s not if there’s reincarnation she’s real. hello oh believe it or not F Scott, Fitzgerald and Zelda might have been black. They may have been in Africa somewhere in central Africa. If there if there is reincarnation, they were married in a previous life somewhere in Africa I am and if there’s reincarnations, Zelda knew that in her spirit Scott wondered too, but he wasn’t as clear at it as she was if there’s reincarnation there might not be but if there is no, they knew they knew they been in love the new she knew she may have even been angry at him about something and that was why they could never quite get over each other because it was like they were in this fight about something that pre-existed before they even met each other but that’s only if there’s reincarnation OK but then that’s where I have to go back to Lacey even though people are very weird about her.

Oh, Violet is like a parity of her end and down Abby Lacey is not Violet, but that same harshness is how Lacey Watts OK that’s Lacey‘s generation to some degree although Violet is a lot older than Lacey but not she’s the more the parents age in the show she’s we’re older Arm we’re from the 1800s we came of age in the 1800s we conceived our kids in the 1890s. If there’s reincarnation, so that’s the thing if there’s not then OK, but if there is um, you like me more it is a necessarily fair because she’s actually a very likable person I am, and the irony is that she might even love people more than I do in reality, she might care about people more than I do. But I’m very likable. I’m very likable and very popular. She’s not as popular. But it’s not the same way. The Jack was the farms I was friends with him is cool it’s very cool because she would’ve needed me in the same way that everyone thinks Jack needed me and Jack didn’t need me and that way Jack was an asshole he got made fun of my people for a reason she gets made fun of my people for reasons that aren’t really fair. I just want degrees Scott was too. They’re really not people who are easy to be with in that way, but Scott is one of arguably the best authors of all time JFK really wasn’t an author he didn’t write his books he had a ghost writer, a lot of the ideas in his books are his ideas but they’re also influenced by other people Scott and Lacey are far more insightful and original and she needed someone like me but I wasn’t there. Jack did not need someone like me. He needed someone who’s not like me someone who forced people to be honest with themselves about him, and forced himself to be honest, he, he was enabled by me, which is parlors and he liked me so much but I wasn’t really his good friend oh I was on I was I was not his best friend I was him I was sad to be that I was that in a way, but I wasn’t really his friend I mean it was an adult for life but But I am you couldn’t do that to Lacey and part of the reason you couldn’t do that to her is because she’s so loving in a way that I’m not you know people like getting away with things she attacks she rebukes him a part of that is actually love for other people not just left herself um, but I think she sees those two things as being in a related And so she probably would’ve tried to kill him or herself or something instead of being used by him and his family. I was far more ambivalent. I liked their wealth and it was him. It was easy for me to just think it didn’t make sense to go that far, whereas I am Lacey being so loving I love her more than she loves me. I don’t like love her I don’t like love I have in capable of how love that she’s just generally more loving than me and that’s the thing for fallen creatures so I am capable of very profound love, and she is too, but It’s harder for her to get to that with people but the love she does have with people is agape love by nature and that’s not something that comes easily to me possibly so we work well together and that way I am but our weakness is exactly what was exploited what is reincarnation or not I do not consciously know or subconsciously know what I was doing to her if there’s a bee in Carnation I was blind I had no idea what I was doing. I was like a child I was innocent I didn’t know if there’s reincarnation what I was really doing so Far that’s the thing she’s not someone who you will feel happy with like me and she doesn’t smile constantly I know I could have smiled at his wedding if I was in love with him Diana couldn’t have done that either. I have my limits but just like Diana dressed up for you know balls when she was starving herself looking look beautiful and smiled. I was capable of making people think I was quite happy, even though I was depressed my entire life I was in alcoholic I was over eater my entire life a call OK but I like to say things in this dramatic way maybe not my entire life but for most of my life I was I was I was a lot of my life I was an over eater and I was very depressed of course because I was abused and I was also rather serious person to begin with, but But no I am I am I was charming in that way OK I was very charming people easily loved me. You know I was so smiley and friendly, and I had a good laugh even though it was facetious and gay sounding because it wasn’t real gay it was facetious. I mean nobody has such an over exaggerated high-pitched laugh in a normal way, but I was, I had a high-pitched voice to begin with slightly a lot of very large men too and then I exaggerated that and made it sound gay. I was ridiculous out and people thought it was very charming. At least he’s not like that she’s elegant she’s brilliant, but she’s not she’s not him she’s not someone who’s going to lie to you about things she’s not going to lie to you, so yeah you’re not going to get her to lie easily. At least I am and I think you have to ask yourself. What is it that you want from her?

And here’s your daily reminder I was straight and I still am and buy straight. I do not mean fake straight. I mean real straight as an I was an actual heterosexual.” says Lem Billings.

“ did you have sex?” asks a man.

“ yes, we do every day unless if someone gets on our way.” says Lem.

“ and I don’t think we should talk about birth control in the 1800s unless if we can verify that there’s reincarnation first.” says Lacey.

“hi what am I expecting from her? Um, do you know I’m gonna approach it that way what’s wrong with my husband and I why are we inferior to you?” asks her neighbor.

“ oh my God don’t do that don’t do that sweetie don’t do that!” says a perfume collector.

“ I know I really wanna know.” says a man.

“ alright where do you want me to start?“ says Lacey.

“ start with her finances.” says Treb.

“ I think their house is a little bit of a stretch for them financially, and they were rather cavalier about it.” says Lacey.

“ we are rather cavalier about it.” says her husband.

“ what OK but we save like a $140,000 as a down payment.” she says,

“ that’s good it’s still a $570,000 house though and you have one income and I could sense that stuff so I’m sorry this is just the truth. I expected you to be a little more serious about it it isn’t that I don’t think you should have the house, and there are people who might think that to be honest. I don’t necessarily agree with that but I just thought you should be a little more serious about it.” says Lacey.

“ are serious how mom!?” says another neighbor.

“ I yeah we’re just serious just just more serious literally just a more serious perspective.” says Lacey.

“ Lacey people aren’t like that today. They don’t take houses that seriously anymore.” says a woman.

“ what do you mean by serious?” says a perfume collector.

“ I literally just mean serious I mean more serious there’s a reason I chose that word, more serious, more grave, more stoic, more worried, more serious.” says Lacey.

“ no, I hear you actually that’s interesting.” says her male neighbor.

“ oh yes because I don’t wanna lose your house it’s a it’s not a huge house but it’s it’s a nice house. You have a nice house it’s not huge it’s not big but it’s nice and it’s old and I would just be terrified if I was you of of storm issues or problems with you know any number of things.” says Lacey.

“ oh, so you just thought our attitude was off?” he says.

“ yes yeah it was. It was just your attitude and frankly it seemed a little inexperienced to me with owning property that was a higher priced property so speak which isn’t I mean it is what it is but then that’s that’s what that is what it is.” says Lacey.

“ OK which made you automatically suspicious of us I wonder if we were pricks.” says her female neighbor.

“ yes because a lot of people who are that cavalier tend to also be very full of themselves, and have sort of an attitude of supremacy.” says Lacey.

“ I don’t think we’re ever going to meet your standards.” says her male neighbor.

“ probably not but I hope that the new you asked I’m just telling you the truth what you want to do? I mean you’re withholding friendliness from me and my kids you’re very difficult to deal with. I was at a disadvantage. I wasn’t raised by people who loved me. I was bullied I am not really in a place to be kind to you the way that you felt you were entitled to, I am sorry that I’m not Elmos sunshine. I do care about both of you and your kids more than I think you probably realize I’ve prayed for you. At least I’ve prayed for your kids. I’m sorry if I haven’t prayed enough for the two of you but I don’t I don’t not see things for what they are.” says Lacey.

“ so you meet people with a Normas amount of suspicion.” says her male neighbor.

“ yes I do.” says Lacey. “ but it isn’t hatred. It’s suspicion.”

“ why are you so suspicious though?” asks a woman.

“ and I think a part of it is self protective for very normal, rational reasons, and then part of it is possibly the way I was raised. My parents probably really are old money and they really were not living in that reality and that’s the that’s something about their family that out I’ve already discussed, but that’s how they raised me to think so what were they up to possibly be in secret stops to some degree to be honest but I’m not really a snob and they didn’t raise me to be one openly, so what am I up to just like I said, self protection and then the rest is just it was just how I was raised. It’s just how I automatically think.” says Lacey.

“ oh, you are unusually intelligent I am not as smart as you and you got them extremely well off in a way that people probably will think I’m smarter than you, but I’m not and I am ugly compared to you. A lot of people in our class are ugly compared to you, but they were really good at looking good, but you actually were one of the more genuinely beautiful people at our class if not the most because you are you are and usually pretty am like naturally extraordinarily beautiful, so what does that mean to you to be better than us?” asks a woman who went to school with her.

“ absolutely nothing it’s just a thing it’s just how people see things, but it doesn’t really mean anything I mean it doesn’t on a certain aesthetic level and there are some Hindus who might disagree with me but other than that other than religious considerations and aesthetics, I’m not sure it means absolutely anything.” says Lacey.

“ did your parents ever tell you what it meant to them?“ says another woman,

“ not really I knew that it made them approve of me more but it was no way that I didn’t really give a shit so I don’t really know.” says Lacey.

“ so the parents that raised you didn’t give a shit about you and the way that you wanted them to and you knew that on a deep level are you suspected that other than they confused you and made you think that they loved you but on a certain level, you didn’t care about the fact that they approved of you because to hear like I don’t care that you think I’m better looking than other people and smarter and that makes you like me more that’s stupid mom and dad that’s not that’s a part of who I am but that’s not really who I am?” says that woman’s sister.

“ yes.” says Lacey.

“ I think most people, Lacey think like your parents to some degree or at least a lot of people do her alive today anyway and I don’t think you have any idea what we’re thinking.” says a man.

“ oh, how can you really think it makes you a more valuable person? that’s so stupid.” says Lacey.

“ aside from a Hindu consideration, I would agree with you.” says an Indian.

“ I make no fucking sense to you at all.” says Casi to Lacey.

“ you are a mystery Casi. Yes. And no, I’m not in love with you.” says Lacey.

“ how do you evaluate people?” asks a Boomer.

“ I don’t evaluate them in a very clinical way in a very scientific way, but I don’t actually evaluate people outside of a sort of objective analysis. What do I do without information? I just categorize them in a sort of files system in my head. I am and then with that information and I’ll with that information. III just enjoy them.

People are like the weather or art they’re not meant to be graded necessarily so much is just understood appreciated. You can evaluate them to some degree but then you have to realize you’re not God so you don’t have the final say I am or if you do have the final say perhaps you should be more empathetic or I am try to understand the heart of the matter, but no it’s me. It’s more about enjoying people.” says Lacey.

“ I so you don’t have some friendly side where you become actually clingy or actually needy or actually all that umm invasive.” says a man.

“ no, no I do not.” says Lacey.

“ so it’s actually quite hard to get to be your friend.” says a British man.

“ yes, I guess it might be but that’s not some thing that I know about myself because people here in America just presumed that I was everyone’s fucking best friend the minute I saw them.” says Lacey.

“Well and you do love people.” says a British woman.

“ I do I do love people yeah I do that’s true.” says Lacey.

“ see you’re incredibly intense, but also very light hearted person?” says a reader.

“And mellow.” says Lacey. “ and passionate. I have great depths, great heights, but I’m extremely mellow at the same time.” says Lacey.

“ Lacey people like friendliness.” says her male neighbor.

“ oh, but I’m not your friend.” says Lem.

“ who is your friend?” he asks.

“ not you apparently.” says a Scottish man. “ do you know we really do have our own culture and if there’s reincarnation, I would advise you to back the fuck off you can’t expect her to be so friendly to you. Some people just aren’t like that and it’s not that they have something against you necessarily other than what’s actually wrong with you, it’s that they don’t know you they just don’t know you.”

“ and people are like that here in North Oaks and in the nicer areas of St Paul don’t take that the wrong way Edina isn’t like that as much Dinas more forest friendly so it’s Hopkins but in North Oaks in the really nice areas of St Paul Still people are reticent at least they are north oaks to be quite so friendly and that kind of all the money suspicion is something that’s native to her apparently it it’s just how we are we don’t assume things or people come and I don’t think that’s a bad thing but you you don’t make friends is quickly. It takes a while Minnesota and generals like that but I don’t think that’s a bad thing I think people who don’t like it are very fortunate people, but I think a lot of people like her and a lot of other people like her in other cultures just don’t get close to people right away, and if it seems like they do, it’s probably not real. It’s probably innocent but I wouldn’t make assumptions. I would like that they could do that that her Lemkin seem close in there not I would also bet that they can be close in a way, that’s rather fantastic. I truly think they could’ve met each other. Fall in love I got married within a week, but that’s the thing it’s complicated. It’s like they can be close. They can seem close and they not really be close. They can not be seen close at all possibly but I bet that one’s a little harder because I’m going to ask her another question Lacey do you understand why were so friendly in America?” says a man.

“ I think it’s because you’re trying to somehow make things work faster and more efficiently without the fanfare of a caste system.” says Lacey.

“That’s probably why.” he says.

“ well, then there you go where were you going with that?” says Lem,

“Shit!” says MSNBC.

“ I don’t think this conversation is going anywhere productive right now I don’t like the lack of empathy people have for her and frankly, I’m getting a little sick of the fact that people have to keep asking if lab had sex with her I think it’s very likely that they do I am privy to information that not everyone’s privy to and some people can’t except it I can I happened to know that there’s proof that she slept with him and I think there’s proof that she does sleep with him and then it’s him but that’s the thing he’s not gay anymore was he K? I don’t think it’s likely based on what read face says they didn’t ever seem outright, gay based on the fact that Lacey reads his straight based on the fact that his voice actually does sound heterosexual and pretentious the gay I’ve listened. I’m not stupid, I don’t think it’s likely that he wasn’t straight. I don’t think people can handle the fact that it’s an exception and that it’s not typical because they can’t handle how elite that is it’s intellectual backwardness some people really are that complicated and going to Princeton doesn’t allow you to understand him being facetious. The old money doesn’t allow you to understand him I would say, even being old money might still leave you confused it takes someone who’s actually capable of understanding the situation to understand not everyone is that objective I am I’m sorry from what I can see he was straight and he was just a very unusual baffling person psychologically speaking there’s a lot of evidence to suggest you were straight. It seems silly to some people because they’re childish and backward, and they can’t except that they’re not hearing from some uneducated woman who lives in a shoe the fact that he couldn’t smile, now rather the fact that he did smile so well at Jack’s wedding is proof that he was straight it’s proof it is the psychological proof that he was probably straight. There’s very little chance that a bisexual pansexual or gay man would’ve been that happy at Jack’s wedding. It’s far more likely that he was straight if not almost impossible that he wasn’t I understand these things, people can’t understand the idea that someone could fake some thing that well we see in movies all the time and then we’re too dumb to realize that someone could actually do that if they were confused enough and living in a different time when was that person? He was a rare person who really might’ve been that confused if I’m actually talking to you and I’m really Vladimir Putin how normal do you think Lacey is either, have you ever read a blog where the leader of Russia talks to you this way? What if there really is no room in here I’m actually talking to you have you heard me speak this much anywhere else in any news channel in any interview have I ever spoken to you this casually no Anne yet because Lacey is this magical fantastic sort of person we look the other way, but it’s really not typical and that’s her. She invented the situation so to speak and that’s the thing right yes I am a very nice person. I have a terrible job and I try to do my best being the leader of a country is not easy if you’re going to take it seriously and do a good job. So isn’t it likely that someone like her with her psychology could be with someone else eccentric as him who legitimately thought he was getting was it yes it’s likely it’s possible if they’re not typical people, right?

But what does that mean I am there’s other people who I’m sure have thought they were getting worse. Anne Heche might’ve been one of them to be honest so there’s probably a decent number of people like that in the hero either bisexual pansexual or straight he seemingly was straight him, but I imagine there’s people who are sometimes just bisexual and get confused and then there’s people who might actually think they’re straight when they’re gay to right so people can get confused and people can think that there you know I am gay when they’re straight people can get confused. I’m sure he’s not the only person to make that mistake.

There are other people who might have found the illuminati throughout history and I’m not sure what they’ve done with that information. I suspect that it might’ve been more common in the 1700s especially in New England I’m not sure what those people did with that information though I think Lacey might be rather unusual that way if there’s reincarnation, though she is Scotia, so what would Scotia do if she accidentally found the illuminati I am probably what Lacey’s doing. Write something up real quick you know you’re a hero Griffiths so to speak that for the New Age not New Age is a New Age but you know like a computer I mean, if there’s been carnation, yes this blog is certification Egyptian hair glyph fix it could tell people that there might have been an illuminati Him if there’s aliens, did her people know the aliens probably us if there’s if there’s not aliens, I don’t know, but is there even reincarnations if there is I I mean know that I mean I could be Alexis Romanoff right arm and then if I’m not an awful person, there you go, I am Probably an unusual person myself. I worry, but Casi actually is that Italian aristocrat if there is reincarnation and that’s how this whole thing started I know I was higher than that woman and the food chain, so is Lacey to some degree actually, Lacey just was and I obviously was And so I think that might’ve made her feel rather insecure but then that’s the thing. Are we talking nonsense or is this actual reality? If it’s actual reality lamb really was Constantine and I really think he was straight so as as Lacey affectionately calls me the czar of Russia Him that is definitely a term of affection for her, and not necessarily in a romantic sense purely if at all, it’s that she really thinks of it is at an affectionate thing to say I am I think she thinks that may be being Azhar is more honorable than being president am I maybe I am or honorable than most presidents but then that’s the thing may I advise you to be far more careful because there is God I believe that at least and I don’t think it’s safe for you to make so many assumptions about them being what you are gay best friend I’m sure there are plenty of people that he has empathy for, but may not relate to as well as they think, or may not be as endearing towards as they suspect.” says Tsar Putin.