“I’m a double agent.” says Casi. “It’s complicated.”
Move In Silence by Phantogram plays.
“I’m either working with God…in the afterlife to…bring justice to an incredibly unjust situation or I’m actually Virginia. I’m quite literally Virginia.” says Casi. “And if there’s an Illuminati they’re…too vain to understand that. …They don’t know me. They know don’t know themselves.
And what I can’t figure out…is where they’re taking the whole damn world. Where the fuck…do they think JFK and their egos are brining us all?” says Casi.
The song plays.
“I was one of them. Before I died.” says Shannen Doherty.
Casi stares at her.
“Umm…I realized shortly before I died that she was trustworthy.” says Shannen.
“I trusted her the whole time.” says Queen Elizabeth II. “And I did so…because she’s ME.”
“I know that now.” says Shannen Doherty. “But before I thought she was fat…ugly…and annoying.”
“I know. …No. It’s real. …Or it isn’t.” says Queen Elizabeth II.
“She’s one of us. I knew her parents. And her.” says Paul Turton.
“I knew him. Well…my parents did.” says Al Gore’s mother about Paul Turton. “He’s…part of why she was able to fall in love Lem Billings. He’s also why she’s gotten along so well with Donald Trump, if there’s an Illuminati. …Their mannerisms are similar. As is their worldview.”
Donald Trump smiles.
“My parents were rich.” says Paul Turton.
“He married a Russian-American woman they knew named Patricia.” says Al Gore’s mother. “NO JOKE.”
“Jack overestimated me.” says Satan laughing at JFK, because he’s Satan.
“Jack would never have expected Satan to laugh at him. Not right now.” says Al Gore’s mother.
“I’m SATAN.” says Satan.
“He’s real?!” says the Pope.
“Maybe.” says Dr. Moritz.
“No. I am.” says Satan laughing at them.
“Don’t worry. I’ve got you covered.” God says to the Church. “It was never about your power in the first place. It was about Jesus. It was about me. It was about the Holy Spirit. WE ARE…THE HOLY TRINITY.”
“Nah. It’s Mary, byotch!” says JFK to God.
“She’s superior to me?” says God.
“YES!!!!” says Jack. “Come on! She’s so powerful!”
Satan laughs at Jack.
“No. I didn’t say that. Jesus did.” says JFK. He shakes his ass at Mary. Twerking in her general direction.
“I didn’t say that. She’s not a part of the Holy Trinity.” says Jesus.
“No! MARY IS BETTER THAN GOD!!!” yells JFK. “Where are my Black scholars!?”
“What do you want us to say?” says a Black man.
“THAT MARY IS GOD!!” yells JFK, laughing.
Machine Says Yes by FC Kahuna plays.
“It was Jack’s idea. Marianism.” says Ted Kennedy taking a bow. “You’d never believe that though, would you?”
“Yes. They would.” says Satan, laughing.
“Why would I be so proud of that?” says Ted Kennedy. “It makes no sense!”
“Because you’re part of a family of heinous idiots. Who ruined the whole world.” says Satan.
“Why would we give up Heaven?” asks Ted. “That sounds wholly unreasonable.”
“Because! I’m convincing.” says Satan.
Ted Kennedy laughs and then looks horrified.
“I look like Lem Billings. …I literally have a physical male form that strongly resembles Lem Billings.
If there’s reincarnation…that was part of my trick. To make him look like me. …So Lacey would get a glimpse of me. …She actually doesn’t believe me…but…I’ve had a crush on her for centuries. …And…this was…my way of revealing myself.
That’s Lacey. If there’s reincarnation. That’s actually her. She actually is that woman.
If Lacey is Scotia is far from a myth.
Look…it’s so simple. She’s…one of the most beautiful women to ever live. And…I’ve just had a crush on her.” says Satan.
Clocks by Coldplay plays.
“So you look like Lem Billings?” says God.
“Yes! In fallen form. …I was even better looking in Heaven. …And his fall from grace in her eyes…was supposed to mimic how you see me.” says Satan to God.
“You’re Sebastian in Cruel Intentions?” says God to Satan.
“Yes. I am. That’s my personality. To a t.
But…I’m Satan. So…” says Satan.
“So you’re male?” says God.
“Yes.” says Satan.
“We’ve been in love with him. This whole time.” says Ted Kennedy.
Lacey laughs.
Baby Did a Bad Bad Thing by Nick Rezo plays. That’s Lacey’s sense of humor.
“Did you all cheat on Satan?” Lacey asks the Kennedys.
Ted looks at her.
“You did. Didn’t you?” says Lacey.
They look at her.
“Because he’s not Lem Billings? Or what? Because that’s…your only thing? That’s your…thing?” says Lacey.
The song plays.
“Who did you all try to cheat with? Jesus? Mary?” says Lacey. “Mohammed?”
“Me.” says God.
“Yup.” says Lacey. “Who was the- Never-mind I bet they told both of you you were special.”
Baby Did A Bad Bad Thing by Queen Kwong plays.
Satan laughs with Lacey.
“This is AWFUL!” says Satan about her cover.
Lacey laughs.
“It suits them.” says Lacey.
“Except…the song…is too good to completely ruin.” says Satan.
“Who did the original!?!” says Lacey.
“Chris Isaak.” says Satan. “The Kennedys said he reminded them of Lem.”
“How STUPID!” says Lacey.
“I’m sorry I’m in love with you.” says Satan to Lacey.
“I don’t get it.” says Lacey.
“You can’t believe I’m in love with you?” Satan asks Lacey, sincerely.
“No. I have no idea why you would be. …My brain literally can’t understand it anymore. …I know I deserve love. Through Christ. But…I can’t place it.” says Lacey.
Satan thinks.
“To be honest…I doubt we work out. But…even if you were being serious…there are two problems. …You rebelled against Christ. I can’t…understand why. It’s HORRIFIC.
And…it does seem like…my humanity and your non-humanity are incompatible. And…I do seem to be with Lem.” says Lacey.
“You can’t…convince her to be with you.” says God to Satan.
“Well…why do you even want me?” says Lacey. “What’s in it for you?”
Satan stares at her.
Baby Did a Bad Bad Thing by Chris Isaak plays.
“What…is the point of this?” Lacey says to Satan. “Answer me.”
Satan swallows hard.
“See! I can’t take you remotely seriously. …I’m not lying. And if I am…where is it in my brain?” says Lacey. “I can’t find it.”
Satan blinks.
The song plays.
“What is this bad thing?” Lacey says to God.
“Sex!” says Satan.
“No! That’s too logical. What is it really? Human trafficking?” says Lacey.
“No. Listen to the lyrics. It’s sex.” says Satan.
Ancient Egypt laughs.
“Sex!?!??” says Lacey.
“They think that’s bad.” says Satan.
“No. They don’t!” says Lacey.
“He’s singing about his girlfriend.” says Satan.
“No. That’s too simple.” says Lacey.
The song replays.
“No. It’s that simple.” says Satan.
“Is it?” Lacey asks God, horrified and terrified.
“Yes.” says God.
“Then…how the Hell…does it work?!” says Lacey, outraged.
Satan thinks.
“You could love me.” says Satan to Lacey. “Almost…better than anything or anyone.”
Lacey exhales. Thinks. Talks to God about him.
The song replays.
“How does this work!?” Lacey says to God.
“In Eyes Wide Shut!?” says Satan.
“Yes!!” says Lacey.
“You didn’t create her.” God says to Satan.
“English women are ugly???” says Napoleon III. “When did that myth start!?! And why!?”
“The idea might be…that the Alice and Bill aren’t twin flames. …And so they’re cheating on themselves by being together.” says Stanley Kubrick.
“People are too stupid to realize that.” says Lacey. “Or too evil.” She thinks. “Or they’ve been too lied to.”
“Well that might have been my original intent.” says Stanley Kubrick.
“It’s been lost.” says Lacey.
Satan looks uneasy.
“OH SHIT!!!!” yells Satan.
“Yeah! …They barely understood it!” says Lacey. “Humanity. We barely understood! …And then you take it away to be CLEVER!??”
“Yes. They’re saying sex is bad.” says Satan.
“It’s not. …Oh how SILLY!” says Lacey.
“Abuse is!” says Satan.
“Yes. …But…sex isn’t.” says Lacey.
“He’s aroused by her. Even if she’s with someone else. …Because he’s imagining himself as someone else. Who she could love.” says Satan.
“Or something like that. In a way.
But…once the ribbon is broken…it’s over.” says Lacey. “Why linger?”
“There’s no reason. …Unless there’s some misunderstanding.” says Satan.
“Exactly! And then the ribbon may be fixed. So to speak. Because it was a horrible mistake.” says Lacey.
“Yes. Exactly.” says Satan.
“So…why!?” says Lacey.
Satan cries.
Lacey talks to God about him.
“Lacey. There are Satanists who don’t understand that I’m evil.” says Satan.
“Well…I’m going to end the world. Because I’m sick of it all.” says Lacey. “I’m sure it’s…worthless. Unless God says otherwise. I’m sure humanity, if we can exist beyond the grave, is quite done on Earth. It’s too far gone. And I see no point.”
“You are lovable!” says Satan.
“WHY!??” says Lacey.
“You can’t imagine it!??” says Satan.
“No! You’ve silenced me. You’ve silenced Lem. …I can’t hear anything. Nothing comes to mind. I literally have no…energy…in my mortal body…to cognitively process that anymore.” says Lacey.
“Try!!” says Satan.
Lacey tries. Out of kindness. And faith in Christ. “Nope!” she says.
“NO!!” says Satan.
Lacey fumes in exasperation. “THERE IS NOTHING THERE!!!” she says.
“Your face!” says Satan.
“Yes! Quite exquisite.” says Lacey.
“Isn’t that lovable?” says Satan.
“I’ve heard that doesn’t mean ANYTHING!” says Lacey.
“Oh! Because of Lem!!!” says Satan.
“Yes. …My brain can’t comprehend it anymore.” says Lacey.
“And homosexuality. You think…men want buttholes. And…find the…organic nature of vaginas…off-putting and overly complicated.” says Satan.
“They seem to think vaginas are useless, ugly, and…annoying.” says Lacey.
“And buttholes are for pleasure and pooping.” says Satan.
“Yes.” says Lacey.
“But what if women didn’t exist?” says Satan.
Lacey thinks. “Men would start attacking each other.” says Lacey.
Satan nods.
He laughs. “And what would happen to homosexuality!?”
Scheherazade by Rimsky-Korsakov plays.
Lacey thinks. “The kind men would be turned on first.”
Satan looks sad.
“They’d all die off. Miserably. …And then…the smart men would die off. …And then the greedy, stupid, vain men would all snarl at other. But refuse to get up to do anything. Almost literally. …They’d all just sit there. Snarking. Endlessly. …And war would end. But so would everything else. Christmas. Birthdays. Shopping. Everything. Skiing. Hiking.” says Lacey.
“Would eating end?” says Satan.
Lacey looks worried. “Ahh…yes. They’d starve to death. Within…a few years. Mostly from laziness.” says Lacey.
“You’re 100% correct.” says Satan. “I’d love to see you in lingerie.” he says, bluntly.
Lacey thinks. “Mm.” she says. She takes a deep breath. Exhales. “Yes, I get that concept.”
“It’s nice.” says Satan sadly.
“So I’ve heard. And…it is pretty. Yes.” says Lacey. “Appealing looking.”
“I find it arousing.” says Satan.
Lacey thinks. “I have no idea what that’s like. I’ve imagined it. …I suppose…it’s slightly like what I feel for men.” says Lacey.
“Am I gross!??” yells a Gen. Z woman used to saying older women are “Eww.”
“Yes. Your awareness is lacking. Your generation has HIDEOUS tastes. Bless your hearts. Unusually HIDEOUS.” says Lacey. “You’re all such idiotic narcissists when it comes to aesthetics. …Your tastes are derivative. Of Generation X. And the Younger Boomers. And the Millennials. And…everyone who’s come before you. You make things too big and too tiny and too flat and too puffy and gross. And call it style. It’s not about contrast. It’s about sensory overload to the point of causing societal unrest and anarchy worldwide by your sheer ugliness.”
“She’s right. I’m sorry older adults have humored you too much and you’re all vain idiots now.” says Satan to Gen. Z.
“Love. Love is good. Real love. But…I think they gave you all the idea you had…extremely good tastes. And you don’t.” says Lacey to clarify truth to Gen. Z.
“Is any of it good?” asks Gen. Z.
“Almost none of it. …It’s homeless with a drug addiction in Kensington, Pennsylvania. The whole Gen. Z aesthetic. It’s utter shit on a certain level. I’m sorry.” says Lacey.
“You were overly influenced by the internet.” explains Satan to Gen. Z. “You’re too divorced from the organic. Most beauty is organic. I think.”
“It’s…esoteric. Maybe.” says Lacey. “Like existential sadness…as an aesthetic.”
“In a gloomy, wired age.” says Satan.
“Anyway. Yes. I get the idea of…sex. …Visual…meaning.” says Lacey.
“Well…that’s part of the reason I could love you.” says Satan.
“Ahh.” says Lacey. “But how is that remarkably different from lots of other charming women?”
“Because you have a unique shape.” says Satan. “That’s entirely you.”
“And that’s where I get stuck.” says Lacey. “I…get it. Maybe. Because I love people. I get it. I experience that for other people. Their individual worth. I get it. …But…getting myself as a concept…is…baffling. I’ve never been loved in that way. Ever. You’ve silenced everyone dead who loves me.” says Lacey.
“Yes. …I went too far.” says Satan.
Lacey laughs. “And all the living people who…claim to love me. …My children do. But…that’s different of course. …No. It’s quite humorous. All the people who claim to love me!!! My GOD!!!” says Lacey. “How evil do they long to be!?”
“They don’t. You’re right.” says Satan.
“Why do they feel so safe demanding I believe them!? What hideous rubbish.” says Lacey.
“You’re right. Some people care…a meager amount. But not much.” says Satan.
They think.
“Ahh…they know you should be loved. You’re a good person. A deep person. And they feel…entitled to…some sense of innocence. Without the…effort.” says Satan. “No. They don’t.”
“I think…some people care a tiny amount. At most. But…what hurts is that they think I’m so lowly and worthless that that’s all I deserve. And actually…that that’s a huge compliment to my soul.” says Lacey.
“Yes! It’s GROSS. …As if you’re below all other humans. Or as if some humans genuinely don’t deserve love at all.” says Satan.
Brahms “Symphony No. 4 in E Minor” plays.
“She’s Jack right!? Reincarnated!?!” says a demon mocking most living humans who are suddenly realizing what scum of the Earth the Kennedys were.
“So! What is it!?” says Lacey to Satan.
“All the things you were told you were not…cruelly. Or all of the things…you are…but were told didn’t matter.” says Satan to Lacey.
“You can take evil. …It’s getting too evil. …I have no use for it.” says Satan to Kick Kennedy who has embraced pure evil to defy God, thinking it’s…Irish and cool.
“Well…God will likely make her cease to exist before anything too bad happens.” says Lacey.
“She’s very hateful. People don’t realize that.” says Satan.
“Well…God will hopefully make her cease to exist. Before she can…fall off the face of existence into a place worse than Hell.” says Lacey.
The song plays.
“I trust she’ll return when it’s possible and best!” says Lacey. “Sad that she did that to herself.”
“Yes.” says Satan.
“Well…someday when I’m dead I’ll have to take a look at myself and see what all the fuss is about. Because there’s surely something. …There is for everyone. And I’ll sort it out then.” says Lacey.
“Oh no. It’s all the things I said!” says Satan.
Lacey thinks. “Oh. Well…I suppose I’m like Queen Elizabeth II then. …Just…a bit different looking. But we’re…similar. At least what I know of her.” says Lacey.
“Yes. You’re very similar. …Different looking. And different people. But…there’s a strong similarity.” says Satan to Lacey.
Lacey takes a deep breath. “Why wasn’t she more loved?”
“Her kids loved her. So did her grandkids. Her country loved her. …Her family loved her. …But…Philip…tried. And…he’s improved. Or there’s someone better. …Margaret understands you it seems. …I think…you barely care.” says Satan to Lacey.
“I care. For God. For…my kids. …And for myself. In Christ.” says Lacey.
“Yes. You have no family.” says Satan.
“Not like Elizabeth!” says Lacey. “Or you’ve silenced them.”
“I have.” says Satan. “I have silenced them.”
He cries. “I WENT TOO FAR!!!” he screams to God, in horror.
“I see it…I think.” says Lacey, intrigued.
“Would you like me to kill you and your kids?” asks Satan.
“If God says you should.” says Lacey. “It’s entirely up to God.”
“NO!!!” screams a dead man in horror.
Danse Macabre by Saint-Saens plays.
“What’s the point of this shitshow?” says Lacey to God and Satan.
“Yeah. I wasn’t necessarily as evil as a lot of decent people think I was.” says Queen Elizabeth II.
“I know. …And it’s too complicated to explain to them it seems. They get so…fitful. Dammit! …I just want to leave when God says we can. I’m sick of this nonsense.” says Lacey.
“Africa!” says one of those decent people.
“YES! And do you want an explanation or are you braindead!??” Lacey says seriously.
“An excuse?” she says, scoffing.
“YES!!!” screams Lacey. “GOOD GOD!!! ARE YOU DUMB!?!”
“I did make mistakes. And I knew that. …But I actually was trying. Always.” says Queen Elizabeth II.
“In Christ?” says Lacey.
“Yes.” says Queen Elizabeth II.
“Then you tried.” says Lacey.
“I did.” says Queen Elizabeth II.
“Darn.” says Lacey. “DAMN!” says Lacey. “DAMMIT!!!”
“I know.” says God.
“THIS IS UNTENABLE!!!” says Lacey to God.
“Try. For ten more minutes. To open the safe.” says God.
“I’ll have to give it up.” says Lacey. “What a waste.”
“Yes. You can’t let the explosion happen. They’ll be a literal physical collapse.” says God.
“Yes. That’s what I’m avoiding isn’t it?” says Lacey.
God nods. “Mark doesn’t understand. The Illuminati is…backwards and insane. At large. Should they exist. They’re…peasant terrorists today, mostly. With billions.” says God.
“Did the Kennedys do it? Or America?” says Lacey.
“Both.” says God.
“It’s bad!” says Queen Elizabeth II. “We’re in rough shape.”
“America could have worked. It’s the Kennedys who destroyed it?” says Lacey.
“Yes.” says Queen Elizabeth II.
Later.
“I don’t love Lacey. …Not really. …I care. I do. But…I never fell in love with almost anyone other than maybe my ex-girlfriend. One of them. But…I liked Lacey more. …I loved her…as a person. …She’s…my…buddy. …My true pal. …She helped me get sober. And stay sober forever. She’s…my…truest friend. …A faithful friend. …My partner.
Life suddenly made sense when I started listening to her. Really. …It was as a light was turned on. And I could see. I became a Christian. I…grew tremendously as a person.
But…as much as we’ll love each other forever. Because we’re like…war buddies now…and your war buddies are your buddies…I can’t say I was ever in love with her. Not really. …I said I was but…she was right. I wasn’t. …I wanted to be.
Let Down by Radiohead plays.
I wanted to be…in love with her. She’s…incredibly sexy! …HOT. …But she’s too modest to let most people see that.
But…sadly…I’m not in love with her. Not…enough. She’s my hot buddy. And…I adore her. But…when I die…I feel…awful. Because…she had nothing with me. She was totally alone. And no one took her remotely seriously enough. …And I don’t think anyone understands.
Look…she’s my best friend. In a way. But it’s an actual best friend. …Just a best friend who you know is super hot. And who you’d like to think you love. Because it’s a really nice thought.
Look…she’s like Scotia or she is Scotia. So…
So…she’s my buddy. Right? But…a real one. …AND she’s really feminine and hot. Smart. And well-mannered. Unusually intelligent. And her intensity was the only thing I could hear when I was a raging alcoholic who had an issue with authority. She yells over my ego and speaks directly to my soul. And…I’m suddenly sane. Or I feel my…brain. For lack of a better way to describe it here.
I was very mildly autistic. But…I found someone who understood me, with her. And…really…it was like hearing from…reality. Like…regaining consciousness after living in a nightmare. And feeling her leave me to be with Lem…was…painful. But…I realized she still cared. And…I felt…
Well…if there’s reincarnation…I was this man essentially:
And this man too:
The latter is…who I felt most when I dealt with Lacey. She told me exactly who I was. Or…this is my type. Alright? The sort of man I am, in a sense.
My family owned a wealthy farm…or group of farms in South West England, near Wales. From the 1200’s to the late 1800’s. There was a title in the family. I too, however, did not necessarily have the title. My uncle may have. On my father’s side. And…I was about 5 foot 9. And…blonde. And…very English. And…I loved hunting. And…I was…good-hearted but rough. A gentleman. But rough.
So…you see…if there’s reincarnation…our marriage is a bit like war. …We’re together for the duration. Or that’s what it feels like. …And it’s not an exaggeration to say that. I’m not being glib. I’m…in earnest. …Because we both know…it’s not at all forever…but…our loyalty to each other as British people and our loyalty to the crown and Christ is our mutual joy and comfort in our loneliness. It’s…our…duty. And…she’s damn sexy! And…we have some fun. …But I provide. And…do my part. As a man. And…I’ll keep her steady, I hope, until death. I think I have her steady and moored and afloat. …And…I’m not terribly worried.
We spent a month in England. And…that was…very nice. If there’s reincarnation…we both felt very happy there. Very…at peace. And she’ll have another ring from Bentley and Skinner. If there’s reincarnation I am St. Augustine. So…I got Ireland to believe me. Instead of Jack. And…her wedding band is from Weir & Sons. And that’s…safe. Now at least. So…we’re headed in the right direction. The Irish feel great shame about me. Attacking my legal Christian wife. And really…if there’s reincarnation the original Irish people are baffled. Some were quite decent. …And they knew her. Some were her descendants. Some were not. The Scottish may have been her actual descendants. If there’s reincarnation. Look it up.
She’s…an actual daughter of an Egyptian pharaoh. Tom.
Or is there no reincarnation?
Regardless…please stop harassing her over me. She didn’t deserve to have this life. …I really don’t love her. Not enough. …Just because we get along now and I still desire her doesn’t mean she did anything wrong. Quite the contrary. I did. And…well…you’re all very cruel. She’s…not been properly loved. …Not really. We’re…buddies. But…it’s like war. …I can’t say I’m actually that…warm and fuzzy with her, so to speak. I don’t hold her. Really. I mean I would. Sort of. …I give a hug, occasionally. …I find her desirable. So I want sex. But…I don’t…pursue that. It’s more…I see her and…on occasion it’s a nice idea. Just to have sex. As an adult. She’s so desirable. …But…I don’t cherish her as an individual at all. I’ve told her my honest opinion on things. …Like how hot she is naked…but how badly her clothes fit her. …And I suppose it’s for reasons of modesty. Very well.
But there’s no romance between us. And when she hoped there was…I always broke her heart. Every time. …Several times in her late 20’s she considered suicide after I totally crushed her. …After dates. She’d get her hopes up…after holding out her whole life for love…and then I’d crush her. And…she frequently freaked out and wondered if she should just kill herself. …But…she’s over that now. …And…we’re just…buddies.
Why doesn’t she leave me? Ha! You fucking trolls! Show me you give an actual damn and I’ll answer you.” says Mark from the grave in the future.
“Well don’t you have a buddy? Who you could set her up with?” says a hunter.
“No! I’m not going to share her!! …NO! …And that’s not the right way to go about things anyway. …Just send her off with some man!? Hardly! …If I had a trusted cousin…if there’s reincarnation…and we were in 1800’s Great Britain…I might consider it. Trusted, mind you. …She’s quite dear to me. …But I don’t have a trusted cousin. And it isn’t 1800’s Great Britain. …I’m not going to send her off…with some…man.” says Mark.
“That makes sense.” says Jill.
“She’s so beautiful though.” says Jill’s sister.
“So what!? …So is nature!” says Mark.
“Are you referring to pollution?” asks Donald Trump.
“Yes!!” says Mark, laughing.
Trump smiles and nods.
“I care. But…practically speaking…I can’t be sure there’s anything better. …I make a decent living. I’m unusually intelligent. …And I really have no interest in stealing Lem’s family. They’re mine. And someday, they’ll be his, you see? …No need to add some wretched asshole into it. …It’s bad enough as is!” says Mark.
“So she’s just alone.” says a reader.
Mark shrugs. “She has ghosts, it seems. …I wish they weren’t so silenced. Damn near impossible! …I can’t make myself love her. …And she knows that! …We’re good buddies. …I’m just waiting on God. I can’t think what else to do.” says Mark.
“Could you try to have more fun with her!?” says Mark’s father.
Mark thinks. “There’s work to do.
We hike. We…take drives. …Travel some.” says Mark.
“I mean…fun nights out?” says Mark’s father.
Mark thinks. “Doing what exactly?”
“Dinner!?” says his dad.
“Who would watch our kids!??” says Mark.
An Englishman laughs.
“Fair enough.” says his dad.
“I don’t trust most people…and that’s not crazy.” says Mark. “Really…it’s just that people want to blame her…for her misery. Instead of realizing that she’s innocent…and nobody truly cherished her or does. Not as a friend nor lover nor family member. Not in any way other than as a parent. …It’s that sad…and that simple. Get a clue! Right?! …But we are buddies. That’s quite sophisticated. …But…I don’t cherish her.
Someday in Heaven…we’ll see each other at Christmas. Easter. The Fourth of July. …And we’ll keep close and in touch. On always excellent terms. I’ll keep an eye on her. I do care. Really. …I’m quite deep. And loyal. …But I can’t think it’s all that different than my first cousins in Bath. …We drove by their old house…if there’s reincarnation. They set it up that way. …They care about her too. …I’m quite particular about my family. You see? …And she’s like one of them in my heart. Quite…dear. …But…I shan’t be her…lover. No! …I’ll be her watchful good friend. And I’m sure she’ll be the same.” he says with a fond smile.
“What a dour life!” says a dead English actor.
“AYE!” says Mark. “But…you know it’s not the end of the world. …If people could just stop bothering her as if she had a choice!”
“Mark what do you mean?” says his father.
Mark thinks. “I’m an actuary. …I calculate risk. …It’s math. …I can love her at all…because she understands MATH. …Not like me. I’m quite cozy with the actual numbers themselves. …No…she gets the whole concept. The…black and white nature of math. The elegant rigidity of science as expressed through calculations. Numbers. The sharpness of reality. She…understands. …And I…find that…glorious. …Sadly I don’t cherish her. But…I enjoy her. Some. …About as much as I enjoyed my cousins. …Should there be reincarnation.
And anyway…she knows as well as I do…that…there’s no one there. She’s looked. Done her research. Done it thoroughly.
…She’s…extremely talented. Scientific. …And sadly…she was suicidal for good reason. …But…I shan’t be fooled. And we’re fine. It’s not…the end of existence, regardless.” says Mark.
“You have a tremendous faith in Christ.” says the Pope, if there’s an Illuminati.
“SIR! …I am Christ. …He is in me! …Through my salvation. …That’s not to say I’m literally Jesus, but rather that…he’s my keeper. My safety. …And so…in His omnipotent authority…I declare righteousness in His name while I’m on Earth. …If I get it wrong…I trust Him to absolve me. As only He can. I trust Him to forgive me. As only He can. …And I do ask for His forgiveness. …I hope you do as well.” says Mark.
“There really isn’t anyone.” says a dead woman in Bath. “And I’m saying that regardless of whether or not he’s my cousin.”
A New Age reader laughs. “Why is us expecting her happiness…what’s making her so miserable?” he says. “Shh!! …IT’S CREEPY!”
Move In Silence by Phantogram plays.
“We’re not being caring. It’s an attack!” he says, laughing. “I’m listening.” he says.
“To what?” asks Elliott Roosevelt.
“The conversation.” he says. “I hear…two men.”
“That’s Jack and Joe.” says Bobby.
He stares into a corner.
“We’re ceasing to exist.” says Bobby. As a ghost.
“WHY DID YOU DO THAT TO US ALL!?” he says, hurt.
“Power.” says Satan. “And…ignorance.
Jack can’t get Lacey to understand him. And he refuses to accept…reality.”
“He didn’t realize she was better than him.” explains Eunice.
“Jack was in denial that Lacey was an is a superior human to him.” explains Shannen Doherty. “And she’s baffled as to why he was even wondering at all. …Because he doesn’t love Lem as much as her…and she’s not a narcissist like him. So to her…it’s moot anyway. …But to him…it’s EVERYTHING. …And he’s rebelling against God.”
“How did she calculate it!?” asks Mark’s current uncle.
“Demographics. …Her father was a gifted student of anthropology and sociology. …And he talked at her. Often. So…she did sampling. Based on solid demographics. …And tested various factors. …I was a control group…in a way. …And I proved the darker hypothesis over time. …She’s brilliant in that way, in particular.” says Mark. “GENIUS.”
“She’s Scotia. Tom’s daughter. …And if there’s reincarnation…she learned demographics first in Ancient Egypt.” says God. “She had a preternatural understanding of all of humanity in aggregate and their needs and other related factors…on file in her head. It’s…rare.” He thinks. “She’s like that regardless. But…I’m giving you insight. Because you fail to grasp what it means to be Tom’s daughter. So it’s a translation technique. Because I’m trying to help you all understand. …If you think of her as humbly having that much information just…instantly at her disposal as Scotia would you listen and I can clarify as I am right now.”
“So…she can read us. Like a rocket scientist. But she can’t actually read our minds.” says a Jew.
“Exactly.” says God. “Almost exactly.”
“And she wants to just end…the whole damn thing?” says a Black male Millennial, laughing.
“Yes.” says God.
He cracks-up laughing.
“Then at most there’s 50 years left. Before we all die?” says another Black man.
“Yes.” says God. “Unless something dramatically improves.”
He nods. “I get it.”
“Slavery. It was…bad.” says a dead Black American woman. “The Holocaust. The destruction of the world’s forests. Child slavery. Over hunting in Africa. …Over fishing. ‘Bambi.’ …You sold her on the end. …And there’s no going back.”
“C02 emissions.” says Greta.
“Ha! Girl…” She says.
“She’s using that?” says Jimmy Carter.
“Yes! If it’s on the table. She’s definitely using it. It’s tremendously effective.” she says.
“To kill EVERYONE!!??” says the CIA.
“YES!!! DUH!!!” yells Ancient Egypt. “Lem and heroin, with Bobby. …They’re the same person.” They think. “But…she’s far deadlier. …Lem gets…hesitant. In that case. She…plunges in. And never loses.
If there’s reincarnation Christ loved us. But we weren’t easy to use. …But saved…in God’s mercy…we…make fierce protectors of the Holy Trinity.”
“Do you worry about being made a fool of?” asks Elon Musk.
“No! Hardly. We’re like the British.” says Ancient Egypt.
“Why is everyone so upset about me ending it?” says Lacey.
“Please! She’s CRAZY!” says JFK like a vain peasant Asian gay man.
“Jack…is she…actually Scotia?” asks a reader.
“YES!!!!!” yells Virginia. “IF THERE’S reincarnation.”
“Good luck.” says Lacey. “They’re too brainwashed. I’m going to be surprised if they don’t give me a clear path to destruction.”
“Quick. Painless. Straight to Heaven.” says Greta.
“Yea!” says Lacey. “We’ve worn out our welcome. …If the afterlife is good…like…good…I’m…grabbing us all…and pulling us out the door. In Christ.”
“So…mom is making us go home.” says Kurt Cobain. “She says it’s gotten too weird.” He says. “And she’s getting worried about us.”
“When did she ever just enjoy life?” says a reader.
“Never. Never fully.” says Lem. “Regardless.”
“Did Jack enjoy life?” says Kenneth Copland.
“ALWAYS!!!” says Lem.
“She’s a parent. And always has been.” says Queen Elizabeth II. “You genuinely have to sell her on life. On Earth. Because…it’s never been convincing to her.”
“Even if she’s Scotia?!??” says an adult reader.
“Oh my. …Yes.” says Margaret Thatcher.
“Jack Kennedy was a fool.” says Lem. “But she’s been unusually unfortunate.”
“I’ve been lusting after her. The whole time.” says Satan.
Paper Planes by M. I. A.
“The idea is to distance her. From everyone. But her kids. …And God is fine. Good. …But…don’t you get it?” says Satan.
“Why not Jack?” says JP to Satan. “He’s such a cool kid!?”
“I can do splits!” says Jack, flashing his butt and spreading his legs.
“So he’s obsessed with being better than them?” says Saint Paul.
“Yes.” says God. “It’s behind his obsession with making Lem love him. Or making everyone think Lem loves and loved him.”
“Is that all that motivates him?” says a reader.
“Yes.” says God.
“No. I’m…sad. You’re better than me.” says JFK to Lacey.
“Why does that make you sad?” asks Lacey.
“It matters!” says JFK.
“Does it!?” says Lacey.
Jack thinks.
“How does it matter?” says Lacey.
“Lacey…aside from like…honor and privilege and taste possibly…it so doesn’t.” says a Gen. Z guy.
“I’m at a loss to figure out his obsession.” says Lacey.
“Yeah.” he says.
“Have you noticed that we all talk down to her? Constantly.” says a reader.
“Yes. Except for us. Unless we…refuse to accept reality.” says a British woman.
“What is this obsession with being superior?” says the Gen. Z man.
“It’s small!!” yells Marsie. “But if there’s reincarnation, Lacey…Jack was poor and uneducated.”
“Go on?” says Ancient Egypt.
“So…That’s all. …He’s just…excited to be…temporarily admired?” says Lacey.
“No. Because it never ends.” says Jenna Bush.
“Really!? That’s not my experience with any sort of superiority I may have or have had.” says Lacey.
“Because you’re not really superior.” says JFK.
“Oh! She’s VASTLY superior to you.” says God, enraged.
“Does she actually resemble Pamela Anderson? And Lem faked being gay? And she’s reading men’s orientation like…100% accurately?” asks Nancy, rolling her eyes.
“Yes.” says God.
“Without the surgery. But still.” says Nancy. She rolls her eyes again.
“Jack…if she’s just missing the huge boobs…and long hair…which can both be bought, to be honest…and she thinks like…a warrior Princess…with old manners…as a chaste Christian…and she’s your generation…and she ADORES…Lem!??” says a male Boomer. “How THE FUCK do you compare!? …If he can enjoy women just as easily if not completely…what the Hell do you offer!? …You got shot. …Your whole family is like that. …You’re not the Roosevelts. …You’re cheap Irish shit. Not good Irish. Like…cheap to mediocre Irish shit.”
“I know that as of today.” says JFK. And then he disappears.
“WHY DO YOU CARE!??” yells Lacey at most people.
“Because we’re not appealing.” someone says.
“SO!? Wear good makeup. Get a good haircut. Be fit. …Try to…look…pleasant. …And then…let it go.” says Lacey. “You’ll probably be happier than I’ve ever been.”
“I thought you knew Lem was in love with you!!!” yells JFK at Lacey.
Zelda Fitzgerald laughs at Jack Kennedy, rocking herself back and forth scoffing him, almost losing her mind in rage against him. And it’s quite sincere.
“If there’s reincarnation I did not. …I hoped he was. …I loved him! …There was certainly proof-“ says Lacey.
“SHUT-UP!!” yells JFK. “YOU ARE WASTING TIME BABBLING! ENOUGH WITH THE NONSENSE! …DID YOU KNOW OR NOT!?”
“It’s not that simple.” says Lacey.
“You don’t understand that. You’re a woman!!! Stop imitating me! BE STUPID WOMAN!! NOW!!!” screams JFK, rocking back and forth crying.
“No. I actually might understand far better than you.
It’s exceedingly nuanced.” says Lacey.
“SHUT-UP!!!” yells JFK. “YOU ARE STUPID WOMAN!!”
“Jack…I’ll just have to ignore you.” says Lacey. “So…I knew…but I didn’t. There was ample evidence. There was plenty of evidence. Certainly enough evidence to suggest he was in love with me. …So yes. He was. Fair and square! …But…at the same time…I didn’t know.”
“No!! YOU KNEW!!!” yells JFK.
“Is there even reincarnation?” says Satan.
“No. I’ve answered the question.” says Lacey.
“SHE KNEW!!!!” he says to his father in a desperate, whiny voice.
“No. She did not.” says his mother, if there’s reincarnation.
“So…Lem’s a man!” says JFK a moment later, to Lacey.
“So!?!” says Lacey.
“You like men!” says JFK.
“Where the fuck is he going with this!?” Lacey yells at his mother, if there’s reincarnation.
“Umm…perfectly valid question! …We’re not sure. …We’re…just going to trust God made him cease to exist for a reason. Temporarily. We hope. …His mother is…hard to reach. Possibly in hiding. …I don’t think she knows how to help him now.” says a Millennial woman from 2024 in the future.
“Did we hate you?” asks an Irish woman of Lacey. “If there’s reincarnation.”
“No. Not really.” says Lacey.
“He assumed we did.” she says, cupping her hands over her mouth in horror.
“That’s not my problem!” says Lacey.
“You weren’t this tough before?” she says.
Lacey smiles. “If there’s reincarnation I was. I just had it hidden.”
“It’s being a pharaoh’s daughter.” says God. “If there’s reincarnation.”
“Was that part of what Lem didn’t understand?” she says.
Lacey fights not to cry. Looks away. Blinks. Focuses on breathing. Keeps herself from crying.
“Yes.” says Lacey. “I hid it very deeply.”
“So…Jack had us believing he’s the only Celtic person to ever exist.” she says.
“Yes.” says Lacey.
“Yeah. If there’s reincarnation you’re Scottish. We hate each other. …But not really. …We’re close. …But not the same.” she says. “But not different.”
Lacey blinks, thinking.
“We both seem like his reincarnation!” she says.
“Are you a straight woman?” asks a Millennial.
“You bet!” she says. “Damn they’re dumb.”
“I think we were trying to kill you.” says an Irish man to Lacey.
She fights back tears again.
“What did we tell you to do?” he says.
“To jump off a cliff.” says Lacey. “Or a hill or something. To go die…near the sea? On a hill?” asks Lacey.
“What a thing.” she says.
“I genuinely considered it.” says Lacey.
“We got you a little drunk?” she says.
“Yes.” says Lacey.
“But then how do you do it?” she says.
“Yeah.” says Lacey.
“Yeah. Drowning? Nah! …And where do you jump from?” she says.
“I gave up.” says Lacey. “And it seemed evil anyway.”
“It was!” yells another Irish woman.
“Well…it made sense to some dead Irish people.” says Lacey.
“Yeah! I know!” says the first Irish woman. “Jack why the fuck are you attacking her?!?”
“Because she is loyalist!” says a dead Japanese woman, if there’s reincarnation.
“Ahh…to the crown, yeah?” says another Irish woman.
“We are not stupid. Yes!” says the dead Japanese woman, if there’s reincarnation.
“You don’t understand the history of the British Isles and neither did Jack when he chose Lem and Lacey. Is that correct? 
She stands there blinking. Silent.
“IS THAT CORRECT!?!” yells Scotland.
And at that she’s cut up. Temporarily. For not answering fast enough for Scotland.
“See. She’s a- Dim! Dim woman!” says the third Irish woman about the Japanese woman.
Jack cries. “Oh no!!” he says. “Oh no!!!”
“He’s not my son. I lied.” says Red Fay.
Japan laughs.
Later.
“Jack…you’re just…not superior to these people.” says God. “The woman will be fine! She needed to learn a hard lesson. She was an evil person. Or nothing happened. It’s entirely up to me.”
Jack walks off in a huff.
Later.
“That DIDN’T WORK!!” bellows Casi.
“What are you looking for!??” asks a demon, exhausted.
“She’s figured out NOTHING!!” says Casi in a panic.
“You’ll have to actually explain.” says Lem. “Casi…they silenced me. …If they hadn’t…she’d not be remotely as confused.”
“Surely there has to be a better life for you…than marrying a ghost!” says a woman.
“I highly doubt it.” says Lacey.
“ Can I be honest with you? I’m at Cambridge university graduate. I have $1 million house that I built myself I was a prestigious professor at Bethel. I’m trying to start my own school and I offered to take her on vacations to tropical islands. I am married, but I have a house in Germany. That was my childhood home where my wife and children live or adults with my mother so she wouldn’t of had to leave her marriage. I wouldn’t have pressed her for a divorce and I don’t have one either so we would’ve been essentially perfect for each other and I am fairly good looking. I am exceptionally intelligent I’m German I’m her type I highly doubt that it would be easy to find somebody as perfect as me almost anywhere.” says Dr. Moritz.
“That’s true!” says George Soros.
“ But it didn’t work out partially because we had differences and they were to insurmountable and partially because I truly think there are real ghosts who are the perfect match and I don’t think if there’s an illuminati that they are cognitively prepared to, except that I am as a theologian, because as much as I correct myself and I try to be 100% certain I am not rigid and I know that I could be making mistakes somewhere and I’m prepared for that believe it or not if there is purgatory, and there are real ghosts who we can interact with I will be proven both correct and incorrect about my understanding of what heaven is, and does not Honor, hermeneutics, level and else what other and an N everywhere and that’ll be fascinating for me when I die Lord willing I don’t is fine and then suffering if I’m in a place of suffering that I have Grace for Lord, willing, I will be able to process it, and I suspect I will find it intriguing to realize that that there’s a lot more than we realized, just even on a scientific level to the whole life and death experience.
I don’t however think that it’s fair to assume that she doesn’t know what she’s talking about. I am I really I do have a lot in my favor. I am I’m in my 60s but in her case so what I am wealthy by some people standards I mean, I have a Cambridge educated, professor, what What exactly are you people hoping she’s going to find?” he says.
“ they think that there’s someone alive will be able to love her not just be a good match for her in someway, but he’ll actually love her. There isn’t one of the girls in Ireland who were trying to get her to kill herself.” says a dead Irishman.
“ well, obviously if there’s reincarnation Saint Augustine knows that and was trying to explain it to us earlier and we just weren’t interested. I get the coldness between those two and then it’s really just more of like a distant kinship between them which is better than nothing but I get it. I get why it’s like not at all appropriate for her because I am sorry she’s a Libra and she can be alone but it’s actually like it’s good to be alone but you shouldn’t go too far and it’s way too far. It’s like insane she should’ve had like somebody or there should be a chance of having somebody especially considering how beautiful she is and good hearted it’s bizarre that there’s like nobody I believe it. I think there could be other people who are exceptionally like outliers like that, but I don’t think it’s common and I think most people get confused by it the same way that they have a hard time believing long was straight, I’ve looked at him I’m starting to see what she’s talking about and it’s not popular to say that if there’s an illuminati because there’s a lot of people who don’t wanna hear it there they just don’t there’s a lot of very to be honest sort of lower class people in the illuminati, whoever authoritarian sort of view of things, and it’s very dogmatic. It’s very unquestioning and it’s sort of like you memorize the rules and then you don’t question them self and then ask gay know if he drinks out milk if he misses his words that makes all the right facial movements and holds his eyes the right way there’s no way he’s not gay that’s why so people think and we don’t believe it’s possible that anyone could pretend to be gay for any convoluted reason that you even reasons that makes sense and that’s incredibly backward and narrowminded and silly but I’m just being honest a lot of people in the illuminati came from the lower class at the current moment and so we really aren’t as open minded or broad minded as we should be, considering our leader ship sessions on a note that is an admission that is supposed to be both risky and helpful because I think some people reading this blog are getting insight into who we are and I am an open minded person and thinking that someone reading this blog might actually be getting insight into what we’re really like as people, so yes, I’m a psychic in illuminati and she’s channeling me right now I think she’s I think she’s a Libra and I just thought I think it’s bizarre for a Libra to be in her position. I think it happens but I’ve noticed that they don’t do well with this situation and Carol lobe is a Libra Scott Fitzgerald was a libra. Eli Roosevelt was a Libra and I just it’s what I’ve noticed about them. They have a very hard time when they aren’t able to find love I mean it really irks them. I think it is not healthy either. That’s so toxic to say that I think I think that they have a hard time with that sometimes but I don’t think that’s the case with all of them. They’re not all that backward and she’s not obviously she can be alone very well, but I think no I mean really I’m impressed with how well she’s able to be alone I think it’s up to snot to realize that she’s done that her whole life and excelled at it but that’s the thing she excels at it to the point where it’s not necessary and I think that’s what sad is that people don’t realize that about her it’s like it’s not necessary for her to be alone there’s nothing left for her to learn. I think Jack if there’s reincarnation thought that she was gonna learn some thing but it’s insulting and stupid as fuck and it’s really more about him and his family from Japan than anything else I mean, it’s just psychotic narcissistic bullshit that he thought and it’s sad because he had no fucking clue what he was looking at that man is gayer than a fruitcake, and always has been seemingly if there’s reincarnation, and he had no idea what he was seeing I was having a feeling he was a virgin in his last life and just had no working conception of what Zacks really is almost at all and or he was very virginal probably not by choice bless his heart and I don’t think he knew I really don’t think he understood the dynamics of a sexual consensual adult relationship and and I think it’s embarrassing to the Japanese, but they’ll just have to handle it I mean about a lot of cultures have embarrassing things so I may be there’s not reincarnations but if there is I mean it’s sad that you know it is what it is I guess as they say and I I think I think that it’s just it’s just him it’s not it’s not gonna make sense to people because it’s dark and I don’t think they’ll super prepared for some thing like that so no I I kind of think Ploen was straight. I think if she keeps reading it as that I just want to affirm to her, that’s not possible and then she knows that slightly but I think she’s been so sadistically attacked by like a horde of like demons and angry narcissistic people angry narcissist that I don’t think she’s been able to process it for a while, so no Lacey I don’t think clubs gay I don’t think he ever was if you sincerely have been able to look at every single picture you’ve seen of him and read him as heterosexual and you have bad because you are sincere. I don’t think it’s possible that he’s anything other than that because what are we doing? When you read people I do the same thing I was psychic I am psychic I’m just a psychic person so I can read people to I mean, I was hired by the illuminati you’re able to channel me I’m extremely psychically gifted possible are not able to get someone else to read them the way that I’m getting her, it takes a lot of practice to be able to do what I’m doing. She’s literally like I’m talking to her voice right now there’s a little modicum of like possession involved but it in her case it’s not demonic I know it’s really not ha Helen I was experimented with it other people have to it’s the Holy Spirit. We don’t really fully understand it but it’s not demonic it could be a ghost who is able to possess her somehow I don’t think it’s lame, I wouldn’t be surprised if he serves Scott Fitzgerald or Rita or if she has a dead sibling or something I would be surprised if it’s someone who’s like trustworthy like really try out cutting me Jesus himself but it’s somebody who’s talking it’s because I’m not dead so it’s like somebody is possessing her and then I’m in communication with that person and so that’s like sort of like a like a telephone him telepathy works that way slightly but usually there’s a demonic element involved when it’s something like this in this is not demonic so she’s just talking I’m just talking through her voice she basically like a psychic medium that they can do that they start losing their ability to control their own voice at times, and I’ve noticed that with her if there’s reincarnation, there’s absolute proof that she was Scottish because I it is a Scottish accent, and it’s uncontrollable especially when she gets really angry or really scared. She starts talking in a Scottish accent accent, and I think it’s even happened occasionally in public and she’s hard to control herself because it’s incredibly scary to her to not be able to, not fully understand what’s going on so if there’s ring carnation, we’ve pushed her so far off the edge that she is she’s almost regressed in time or something I don’t know but it’s not typical age. I suspect that it has something to do with Satan himself and his intelligence, and what he’s capable of, and then that’s where Christians need to be trusting in Christ and I advise them because I’m not antagonistic towards Christian necessarily I was just advised him to read up to try to figure out if it’s in this if it’s in the Bible if it is, then, it’s not know what important part of their face but that’s probably some thing that is in there. It’s just not their salvation it’s probably some you know fall in world, life and death type thing and other cultures obviously believe it is part of a certain sort of salvation That’s the interpretation of it. That’s what I would say that that’s not your salvation,
for some people is too close to home. Prince William is very protective of both of them. I was just sort of a just in case I think that’s wise I mean we don’t know for sure, but just in case if it’s in the Bible, his father used to think it might be and so I think they’re just trying to cover their bases just in case, and if it is, she is his distant relative and for some reason they’re close enough where I think scares him just a bit. I’m just saying that because if there is an illuminati anymore, reading this blog, be careful this isn’t a joke if it’s not fiction, it’s not really funny. It’s actually incredibly serious.” says an Illuminati psychic. “ but I just don’t think it’s likely she should out of this block at some point I just don’t think it’s likely that there is anybody out there for her. The sour truth is is when I look at her body and I’m honest about it, and I see psychic flashes of what she looks like because I am that gifted. 
She isn’t of our time. Maybe…it’s…harder than you think. …Because she’s hot. But she doesn’t get the attention of women who are shaped like us. Thinner hips. Wider waist. Broader shoulders. And bigger, rounder boobs. …With a CLIPPED chin. …Cheekbones but not…like…Grace Kelly or Gene Tierney. Bigger lips. …Thicker hair. …Bigger. Overall bigger. … She’s…like them. …And so…naked…a 40 year old man gets her. She’s 41. …But…it’s…not…us.” she says.
“ hey Jack, please stop attacking Lacey to avoid feeling angry at lime I just I feel like we’re being really slow because I think it’s obvious that you were probably angry at law for being better than you. What did you ever do for him as a friend, that wasn’t some sort of favor? Like why didn’t you take him to Europe and just pay for things yourself or if you were worried about him feeling like you were controlling him why didn’t you just give him money? I mean there are ways to like work with people in like a loving way as a generous person, I should know I’m a movie star I’ve had boyfriends And girlfriends who have used me for money and I’m not ashamed to say that some of those relationships have actually been kind of nice because I know that there after my money but the same time sometimes I actually fall for you slightly and you end up feeling like well Maybe it’s not just about the money and to be honest with you it’s not asthma those cases no it’s like are they after the money maybe but at the end of the day it becomes more than just that and I guess I’m trying to say is if you’re going to use him And then get mad that he’s not in love with you. I don’t understand like you used to like he was a prostitute and it really in a weird way. His orientation is almost just his business like you’re paying for services. He gave you those services if you have a complaint about what happened, you could say that you could say I didn’t you know get good head or something in Germany, but then that’s a complete like your client who’s not satisfied, which is totally different Jack, then being angry at him for not being more deep with you, I mean you were paying him like he was a prostitute than you expected him to be deep an open about all of his feelings forever that’s stupid as fuck. I don’t understand. How are you as the son of a prostitute if there’s reincarnation and maybe there isn’t, but if there is, I don’t understand how you could be so stupid as to not realize that he’s never going to love you did you I know what it’s coming to me. I think you’re narcissistic enough to think that a prostitute will automatically form up with you Even if you’re paying them and they’re not you know if I’m being real with you at all, I think you’re dumb and narcissistic enough to think that they actually are being real with you and that somehow when they’re saying oh Jack, you’re so hot and sexy to get a good tip that it’s like real because you’re the exception, you know you’re not that sexy, but somehow I don’t know I am not I’m not narcissistic enough but it’s like oh yeah when I when I pay and you know I get the fun times it means something more than just you know services rendered it’s it’s you know special with me because I am special and you’re not that special sweetie. I don’t think anyone is in someone’s hiring a prostitute that’s a prostitute and I’m not saying love is a prostitute, but it’s essentially the kind of relationship that you functionally had with him then I don’t know how like that’s how you kept him from totally losing it or I don’t know if that was your way of trying to keep him happy but I get the sense that you did sometimes pay for things with him and I just I don’t understand why that allows you then to be in his life like you’re close to him in a way that you’re not. And I think I think just a sort of dovetail off of that. I don’t know I was going somewhere with all of us I I I don’t know I guess I just don’t get it I don’t. I don’t understand Jack but I would there’s something to say some thing and then they weren’t really again they’re just being mean to her, but I’m gonna ask the question because I think it’s a perfectly legitimate question And I think that we’re headed up a creek with no paddle and some. You guys have to stop thinking you’re channeling Jack because I think he actually basically almost doesn’t exist. Yeah, I think you guys are really slow and I’m talking to them an Audi what is it just me at this point umm… so basically I’m lazy house street is lame like is he like he’s 100% straight?” says Cameron Diaz.
“Lem is entirely straight from what he’s told me.” says Lacey.
“ OK but like I don’t mean it like that I mean like biologically and I think I’m a pedophile actually in the illuminati I’m both gay and pedophile like I work for the sex trafficking people ilumiNATTI has had to sort of psychically clue me, and I’m not necessarily famous I might be, but I might not be if I am I work for Disney. Are you see me? I was friends with a lot of the Disney people, if that’s not who I am, I’m not famous then I am just a man who looks like that who is in the illuminati Lacey knows that I have had a daughter that isn’t my daughter that I’ve told people as my daughter I have taken a church with me I live in taxes and I am a lot like her parents that raised her in the sense that I feel like there’s a proper way to harm children if you’re seeing it like that in an improper way I think that sometimes they can consent and then sometimes they don’t and you just kind of have to work with that. I think that there is a proper way to do it and then there’s a way that’s just too far and it’s just not. It’s just it’s just rape essentially you’re just raping a vulnerable person so that’s how I approach it. There are some humanitarians in illuminati will try to work with me because they feel like I am somehow the lesser of two evils, and Lacey kind of knew that I’ve talked with her some over the years, and I may have helped orchestrate the death of some children, who I thought would possibly actually genuinely be better off dead.
I am possibly a charismatic Christian, but I am both gay and pedophilic. I’m a man.
Am so at least I’ve been charismatic at times, so yeah, I’m a lot like her parents I guess but I bet Lacey could identify me as a possible pedophile if she ever met me which is may be part of what I’m so checking about with this conversation because it scares me I don’t want people to be profiled like we’re Nazi Germany where it’s like you can figure out what people look like but I just looking at them because then what do I do if she can tell that I look like a pedophile I’m in trouble because it probably is something genetic or something that you’re born with and then what am I supposed to do if people can start figuring out what we all look like. So I’m a little worried that she’s going to start figuring out what I mean. I think she already knows but she’s going to start gluing everyone in to what we all look like and then worst case scenario you’re gonna pick up their gonna pick up on the wrong thing And find someone that has it and harm them thinking that you figure it out with what it looks like when you don’t know I trust her because I’ve interacted with her somewhat telepathically, and I understand her upbringing I understand the way her parents thought and so I I know who I’m talking to. I have a feeling she actually knows What she’s talking about when it comes to figuring out peoples identities in that way, so I have a feeling she knows and I don’t think that it’s been wise to keep questioning her but there’s not a whole heck of a lot I can do about it I’ve antagonize her, but I’ve also tried to try to be supportive at times Because I empathize, I am a pedophile and there’s nothing I can do about it I’ve tried counseling I am unreasonably intelligent according to some people, and I was exposed to certain things growing up and so I I almost I was accidentally but I did find my way into the illuminati And they regularly communicate with me if they have meetings I go to them and I’m extremely smart, so no I trust that she is a pretty smart cookie herself and I ate I think love is real I think he’s a real ghost and that’s also part of the reason why I have allowed some of the children to be killed That I have because well frankly, I’ve been told by some people who are rich that they say think it’s actually helps the economy. Sincerely, there are some people who think that the dollar is been protected by Malik because we have sacrificed children. There are some people who think that or they think that Mike convinced Michael to not do a banking crisis to years ago because he said I’ll start sacrificing children if you just give me a chance they will start saving them because it was around that time that we started. Just killing kids and we didn’t have a banking crisis, so I don’t believe in that, but at the same time I am an intellectual person and I don’t know what to say so it’s like I get I get I get where people are frustrated with her but I don’t. I think sometimes Christians want to be helpful but they’re not intelligent enough or educated enough to be helpful. I can’t fix myself. I am stuck this way. I try to be kind about it. I’m not a psychopath like her parents might be I couldn’t fix being gay either and I hate it’s just it’s so complicated and some people are OK with those conversations and some people can’t handle it. I can handle it but not everyone can she can and I get why is she saying just leave me alone even though I don’t think she’s even the one saying that today but because it’s worse having people say oh go find somebody go find somebody when you really can’t do that is really frustrating in her case it’s not about orientation for me. It was for me it was my orientation for her it’s circumstantial. I think she could actually be Tom’s illegitimate daughter. Her jeans are from like 100 years ago and that’s not a joke. OK she really does look like that. That really is her personality Her teeth really are that old she said dentist give her compliments cause I think her teeth are good but I don’t think they’re quite as great as dentists think they are. I think they’re old-fashioned teeth hand so they’re pretty, but I think dentist thought they were a lot stronger than they are which is why she’s had so many cavities lately because I think they’ve underestimated the damage that she could be doing to them just a little FYI because I I find that fascinating but there’s a lot of prove to suggest she’s Tom’s daughter.
So I guess I’m trying to say it’s just I don’t know what people expect her to do. That’s not a theoretical she really is old and old. Things are very beautiful at times I mean I love Bentley and Skinner not as much as she does but I actually do appreciate it And I mean she’s like what 1940s art deco that’s a really gorgeous. Of jewelry and I love that and that’s what she is I mean there’s nothing wrong with her she’s gorgeous but that’s not for everybody so if you’re really into that or if you appreciate that aesthetic it’s like I love this this is amazing and she is that she is sort of that aesthetic and so if you’re from that time you know it’s like she’s your thing, the man of that era adore her and I really believe that they do exist and that they’re a real ghost Lacey I think they’re real and so they adore her and that’s wonderful but I don’t think men of today appreciate her the way that those men do and dead it’s not the same it’s like you even if you look at her and you think wow that’s cool I wish I look like that. It’s not the same thing as looking at it like what’s cool now who are a lot of men prefer something that’s more in style so to speak a lot of people do. So I think someone someone like Donald Trump Junior could probably Appreciate her, but I don’t think that most people can you appreciate who she is and I think that’s very hard for some people to hear because it sounds like she’s both better than some people and men and also not but that’s the reality that I’m trying to describe somebody who is Art Deco at its best so filagree, gorgeous sapphires diamonds I need platinum we’re talking gorgeous but that’s not everyone’s cup of tea and so even if you could look at that objectively and be like that is one amazing ring you can’t necessarily sell that ring to everybody. I mean everyone’s gonna look at the ring and be like I love that ring that ring is gorgeous because nobody in their right mind is going to look like look at the best art deco has to offer and say oh that’s stupid and ugly. Unless if they’re totally idiotic when it comes to jewelry because that’s one of the better looking. When it comes to jewelry and she’s one of the more exquisite pieces but that that’s the problem it’s like if she’s Art Deco or if she’s even 40s where everyone would put her it’s not a period of time that is contemporary so try to stick with me you might adore her style you might think I was gorgeous but would you by her if she was a ring in a store would you pay you know $40,000 or or 50 or 60 or 25 because that’s how much she cost she’s one of the marks was it pieces, so would you pay $30,000 for an art deco ring a Bentley and skinner that was exquisite no there are some there are some antique stores that would probably try to sell her for $700,000 or more but that means Skinner is very reputable and she is exquisite but they’re not you know driving hard for to get money from people so I don’t think that they would charge more than 40 or 50,000 for her. I doubt it and maybe she’s not worth more than 50 I see I just I think there’s something weird there cause I’ve seen seven places over I was in some places seriously priced Rubys that I wouldn’t think would be worth more than $100,000 for like 800,000 I don’t quite understand that that there’s something weird about that um at least that’s Lacey and my impression maybe they’re actually better than maybe they’re bigger than we realize but I I just there’s something weird I cannot believe the Falion scooter doesn’t have jewelry that’s worth you know half $1 million or more I suppose it’s possible that or maybe they they keep that a little more private or something but know that there’s anything wrong with that but I just can’t I don’t know there’s is just the IIII I don’t think even Meghan Markle has a ring that’s worth more than 100,000 although I could be wrong but sometimes I think some antique stores do overcharge people who are a little less season, and Lacey and myself anyway that was the site we got so it totally sidetracked there, but um, but the point is you are basically I think I would look like a homosexual at predator will say to her homosexual pedophile are and I am saying this from a safe distance, but what Lacey you like you really can tell and I think I would be asking how straight physically does he look and I’m saying that because I think there are some gay men who really look at it’s like you look at them and you’re just like there’s no way that man straight like physically there’s no freaking way that man can possibly be straight I mean biologically if we’re being honest, I don’t know if God made him that way or if that’s just how he is, but there is not a straight bone in that man’s whole freaking body. There’s some people who look like that then there are some people where it’s like they think they look straight and I don’t know that they really do. Lacey would probably be able to pull them out in a lineup in about five seconds, but they think they look straight and a lot of other people do too, and so maybe they don’t look as gay, even if they actually are entirely gay, and just as much as the other person and Kinsey scale at least will say so on the Kinsey scale they’re both complete the game, but biologically are they is the one is the one that I first mentioned actually more gay than the other one and if so that’s kind of what I was asking how gay is Latin rather house straight Islam is he really straight or is he just kind of straight?” says a man.
“ he’s more towards the extreme straight end. I’m not sure that he is like the ultimate, but he could be more towards that end.” says Lacey.
“ I think that’s where you have to cut yourself off with people then because I think there are some gay people who try to be helpful to you or who really disagree with you but then I think there are some people like Leslie you know I’m talking about who died who actually was antagonizing you shortly before his death him I’m not saying you killed him but I wonder what happened with that I’m serious I I mean he was driving around I think he was in California and your father definitely had connections to Hollywood. He was on will and grace and there’s some thing about the character of Jack on will and grace end and also the character of a Karen that scares me and makes me wonder if that was not a person who should’ve been just diving off the deep end with you so to speak because I don’t think he had the best of intentions. I think he was being mean to you and I have a feeling he regrets it. No I think he was bullying you but part of the reason he was bullying you is because he looked gay. He sounded gay in a way that was authentic. He wasn’t just pretending, and it was similar to Lem’s but he couldn’t get rid of it like your dad who raised you so to speak he couldn’t get rid of it and you know how much that irritated your father, who raised you and irritated him to I can I can tell you That irritated him, but he could never seem straight even when he was growing up it was very painful for him. He made jokes about it he made it you know seem endearing, but I don’t think he could handle hearing what you were telling him because he took it entirely personally, when he really didn’t have a right to because there’s nothing to do with him it really didn’t. I mean it homosexual people are insane thinking that it does it’s like listen if it affects you that I have a right to be offended by her as another white person or as a human I mean, there are a lot of groups, and you can get royalties to any of them And if you’re like antagonizing her and she’s well-intentioned, I could get angry on her behalf just as a white person and then that’s where you have to stop just being loyal and thinking that every argument that has something to do with something that you care about involves you that’s so fucked up!
I mean, it’s not that it doesn’t involve me or or him because in a way it does but not in a sense or we have to suddenly start fighting on his behalf to keep him gay that’s just stupid. What if he wasn’t gay at all and it’s not up to us to decide that it’s more up to her and him if they’re if they’re together forever if they’re sleeping together, we’re bat shit fucking crazy to think that we ever had anything to do with that, potentially at all other than maybe to gain some insight about ourselves, who is the community at large but to think that we should’ve gotten so involved years ago in this first started was absolutely fucking insane and I don’t think it’s just that I think some people took it too personally for really narcissistic reasons I think Bobby’s honestly one of them so it’s Caroline so is Joe I think a lot of those people in that family have a really hard time handling, but he wasn’t in love with them or that he doesn’t like them anymore or something stupid like that. Um, Bobby is insanely possessive of them because he took everything way too personally and missed a lot of red flags. Like the fact that line was giving him deadly doses of heroin, literally shooting him up and not giving a fuck if he died I mean that just goes right over Bobby’s head But he focuses instead on the fact that lame listen to him mad actually told him not to cheat on women. He focuses on that and then ignores the fact that this man was let leg, literally giving him doses that could cause him to kill himself, and I’ve tried possibly telling him that other people have tried telling him to that it’s a little fishy you know even if I was a pedophile it was not a loving thing for a pet, a pet authority clover to do it. Linn was gay it wasn’t loving like that’s not really loving people settle but he meant to be oh you know not really not really because Bobby was still young and I just I don’t think Bobby wants to accept that reality that he was still young enough that’s not really in a Prius, not like appropriate and I just don’t know really it’s not and I think a lot of people who are frankly a little white trash have a hard time hearing that.
And it’s some point we’ll have to edit this but I guess I would just say if he was that straight and I honestly think he was because I’m gonna go with that psychic and I don’t think you’re making stuff up I think you’re accurate then I don’t know what to say because I don’t think there’s anyway that he’s probably gay he might’ve been confused Don’t think I don’t understand that concepts with my orientation and whatever else is going on with me he could’ve been confused, but I don’t know him who wrote daughter that too. He might’ve just been faking at the whole time and not really ever getting confused and thinking he was enjoying himself.
So I guess basically just I think where I was going with that is that there are a lot of gay that who can’t handle being gay they just can’t handle it Lacey I know I know that’s not something that you believe because you’re from a very different class in Llosa very different perspective or if you’re gay You’re kind of yeah you’re more like people are just words just like you think it through you pray about it if it’s something that God seems to say is OK in your opinion, it’s less evil to do that then to fake being straight you find a partner who’s also like that and you fall in love, and then you get married And honestly I’m not yeah and you’re not sure if that’s even a thing but the thing is you’re someone who try to figure that out and you’re so not jack but you’re so funny will try to figure that out you’re really not lame either though I think you understand him I don’t think you’re capable of making the same mistake that he got. You can make your own mistakes but they’re not the same not completely anyway no anything I ate I think I am I think there are lotta gay men sweetie who know they look gay they can kind of tell that lame looks straight and instead of being kind to you or you been anticipating this one by then saying oh no, no no there’s no way people would ever be that cruel May be drawn to the truth of that and fascinated by it not necessarily not necessarily, so I’m defecting and I’m just telling you that ain’t true there are a lot of gay men who hate you, but it isn’t because of what you think it isn’t like they hate you because they’re a psychotically in love with lamb, and he think he’s going to be their boyfriend forever Because they read a book about them and then they got a crush on him and thought they could rescue him from Jack. I don’t know if Nancy was like that or not but she pretended to be and she shouldn’t have unless if she really was because you couldn’t figure out if that was real and they just said it was safer to assume that it was Home but you know I don’t. I don’t think I I don’t think Nancy’s nice person but maybe she is but I kind of doubt it but no I think J might have lied to you. That’s my theory right now I think they know that he is I think they know he’s straight. I think they can tell that lemon straight, but then they don’t but then but then they put the night with anything oh no, I don’t want her to know that I can kind of tell that she’s right, I could kind of see it and then I compare and contrast myself and I’m like yeah I look gay it’s different There are some features on my face that could be straight, but they are not in combination with everything else in my overall body and I just don’t seem straight because I’m not in this woman can tell there are a lot of gay men who lied to you I was saying 50% of the game and that you’ve ever argued with aren’t I just full of shit including Leslie I think I think they’re mad that they don’t that they’re not gay or rather that they’re not straight I think they’re mad that they’re gay I think they’re hateful towards themselves Hateful towards the whole experience. They resent the fact that they are that they’re different and so they’re attacking you because they’re just trying to get under your skin and irritate you it’s like oh everything comes so easy to this woman she’s so smart and then it’s hard for them to process the idea that Linn was a victim in a sense of our community and still has one and that lies victimizing you. We’re just making it worse. We’re not thinking like that. A lot of us are just shallow. Assholes unfortunately who are just thinking This person is just annoying because she’s so into her own privilege and you’re really not but that’s the impression people gotten from you standing up for yourself and so I was like oh this woman so into her own privilege and now she’s being like I am straight and so is lime and she’s throwing it in our faces and you’re not doing that at all That’s not your tone that’s not your aesthetic but they can’t handle that and so they’re just like you were go again with more privilege and that’s not at all what’s happening and him? I feel bad because I should’ve said something sooner or I haven’t figured it out. Hope you’re hopeful that I just hadn’t thought of it, and there could be some truth to that. I wasn’t hiding this from you too because you’re right you needed to hear that but no I truly don’t think that they’ve been honest. I think there’s some men who have I think there are some gay men who have been honest who have told you? Oh yeah, I know I really think he’s gay because they’re stubbornly something or they just don’t get it but I think there are quite a few men who are gay, who lied to themselves and to you simply because they don’t want to admit how obvious they actually are I mean the whole like Instagram profiles of gay men who are friends with other gay man I’ve seen those accounts and their sickening because there was upper middle-class white men to with us preppy aesthetic, and they’re just like richest just. We’re just friends right tee hee hee and they’re just like making fun of people who would trust them or be confused and it’s just mean it’s just mean spirited and no that’s exactly what I’m talking about like those people are assholes and I know you’ve been trained by a societal coaching to think all gay men are sweet no, they’re not, a lot of them are just dicks and they pretend to be sensitive but they’re not. They’re just a bunch of fucking assholes just like a lot of other men who are straight and I think it’s sad that they have been brainwashed and to thinkinf that they look straight.” he says laughing.
“ you know it really is true because those men I would never date I would never date that I would never find them attractive but because to me they always look gay and there’s always presented that often mimic Lem’s and Jack because they think they think they have that aesthetic or something and it’s not because usually they’re either mostly gay or they’re kind of like Jack but it’s just a little more obvious if they’re homosexual then Jackie Ploen was in someway and then and then one was straight. Most likely I’ll say you’re right I should just say that and so they’re obviously not going to look like lame, it’s just nuts it’s it irritates me an incredible amount because I just think how dumb are these people who made them so fucking stupid do you know who made them so stupid as to think that they really look straight!??” says Lacey.
He smiles. “ they don’t they don’t Lacey they don’t look straight they don’t. I don’t know how to tell them that you can’t tell them that anymore. There’s two of sat by the whole thing and I’ll just attack you, but no, you’re right they don’t look straight they don’t sound straight they don’t act straight they might seem bisexual, but they’re not really fooling people like us who really can tell and I think for some people that could be scary if they’re bisexual or if they’re straight and they think that they’re bisexual and they’re not in so then that’s where I have to pray to God that people like that will get confused but a lot of people really do look like what they are and that’s another thing you look straight I I think you should dress whoever you want to dress. I think that Genzie has made things too simplistic saying you give those you give that that’s not a proper way to understand somebody the weather the day to file the word, Dembo and personality and literally and actually no those are real words and we need them in English and they need to stop attacking things that irritate them for narcissistic reasons. And no, they have a conscience those are those are adults were talking about are young adults or teenagers. They have a conscience and that’s the thing. I’m sorry because I came from a time when Jeffrey Epstein was sort of the ringleader and he had a lot of respect, and he was a little leery of harming young children, and that the dark side of things was part of the reason why they went after him, because he was more interested in teenagers. He thought that it was sort of a consolation prize, because they’re still under age But he felt they had better a better sense of things and they would be less damaged if there was anything wrong with it, and they ended up throwing him under the bus because he was bad for business. He was expecting people to not use as many young children, and to rely more on teenagers, and that was more expensive at the end that was it he just he kind of just gave up and let them kill him if he was at innocent because he felt that he’d be better off dead. He believed in the supernatural himself and I think he truly will talk to you if he’s dead from the other side right after he died, you heard from him sweetie he told you you’ve got to stop trusting narcissists expecting them to apologize to you. You weren’t really expecting that, but he said that you right after he would’ve died, so he either said that to you right before he died, which is very weird if we don’t exist or he was a ghost and he told you that and that’s weird. You can’t explain that one Lacey you had no idea that he was going to die. You know idea you overthink things sometimes you over analyze things and I see why you do it, but you do him I just it’s just please stop if you can stop that but just also realize that you’re in one of the darkest periods of these people I don’t think I’ve ever seen a less understanding and illuminated illuminati. I think some of the people who are running things right now are some of the darkest people spiritually that I’ve ever seen.” he says.
Later.
“Lacey is beautiful. …Why do I love her?
- She has beautiful boobs. Not big. …Beautiful. They’re beautifully shaped. And their size is beautiful too.
- She has a curvy figure. Gorgeous body.
- Her eyes are…brown…sexy and yet…that’s because they’re so soulful. So…deep. …I know she understands what I do. Or…I can explain it to her…and she’ll get it. But she’s sexy too. They’re captivating eyes. Yes, naturally sultry.
- She’s sweet. She could be mean. Vicious. But she wants to be kind. …She’s been very misunderstood in the last few years. She’s…an extremely kind person.
- She’s…*I laugh* mine. …I don’t know how to describe it. But…she gives herself to a man…so…tenderly…when she’s in love…and it’s sincere. And…I’ve…become able to…be in control of the relationship. And it’s satisfying with her. Because it’s not being controlling. It’s…being the man. In the best sense. …No. She’s not just submissive. She’s…mine.
- I love her. Her. Her spirit. Her. …There’s her. …I love her.
- She’s mine. …I’m not sure how else to safely word it. She’s…mine. And…I’m with God. And…I’m looking forward to…when she dies, to be blunt. …But…not until God’s time.
- Jack could make me laugh. …But it never bothered me when he made other people laugh too. …And it’s nice. …But…even if I’d been homosexual or he’d been a woman…I’m not…that shallow. Nor do I always want to laugh for any other reason. …Lacey…loves my own sort of intensity…but she’s very mellow. With me. And…trusting. …And not everyone experiences that with her. But I do. Because she’s mine. …She could try to make me laugh…but…she’s too…real. With me. …I’m in charge.
- She’s…mine.
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