A man walks up to Lacey. A snarl on his face.
“Why don’t get it!? …You’re PRETTY!!” he says, very grumpy.
Lacey waits with Jesus. Unclear where in HELL he’s going with this.
“I’m…just saying…you’re pretty.” he says.
She waits…with Jesus. …Unclear where he’s going with this.
“It’s…just that…-
Okay, I was young in the 1970’s. …So this is how I see it. …Beautiful young women aren’t…treated like the rest of us. …They’re given special treatment.
And…I’m…confused about why you don’t know that.” he says.
Lacey waits…with Jesus…unclear where he’s going with this.
“You don’t feel like you’ve been given special treatment!?” he says.
“Not necessarily.” says Lacey.
“She hasn’t been!!!” emphatically says Nolan Teel, laughing.
“People don’t do that with me.
Right now…you’re PROVING MY POINT.” says Lacey.
He thinks. Blinks.
“Do you want me to punch you in the face!? You’re a big man! …I mean what delusional world are you living in!? I’m not LEM. …I have a vagina you dumbass white toast chip.
…But listen…if that’s not all you are…sincerely forgive me. …I may have just mislabeled you. …I’m not Adam.” says Lacey.
“White…toast…chip!!?” says Mr. Cologne 76.
“Yes!
White…because that’s how people choose to identify and I want to respect that. …Toast…because…he seems…dry. And…flaky? …And chip…because…I don’t think…he’s anything more than a chip.” says Lacey.
“No!!” he says. “I’m mad.”
“Ahh…more bullshit.” says Lacey to God.
“What’s for dinner!?” yells Mr. Cologne 76.
“Roast beef, potatoes, carrots, and French bread with butter.” says Lacey.
“On what!?” he says.
“My English ironstone.” says Lacey.
“What’s the flatware?” he says.
“Just stainless steel. But it’s…okay.” says Lacey.
He smiles. “Whatchu drinking?”
“Sparkling water with cranberry juice. Unsweetened.” says Lacey. “Over ice. In glass. I think things taste better to drink in actual glass.”
“They do!” he says.
They think.
“I use glass too.” he says, smiling.
“I think it makes a difference!” says Lacey.
“No! It does!” he says.
“Why do people lie about that!?” says Lacey.
He laughs.
“I’m so sick of that!” says Lacey.
“I hear you!” he says.
“We should be careful. …We don’t want to seem…rude.” says Lacey.
He thinks.
He takes a deep breath.
“TOO LATE!” he says, cracking-up.
“They know!?” says Lacey. “Oh no! I suppose they do-“ she says.
“THEY DO!!” says another Black man.
“WHAT DO WE DO!?” says Lacey.
“They get mad.” he says.
Lacey shakes her head. Rolls her eyes. Leaves her eyes staring up at the ceiling.
“It’s okay!” he says.
“Do we kill them?” says Lacey.
“Mmm…some have??” he says.
“No. I suppose we can’t…kill all of them.
Sad. …Well…you manage to fend them off without too much trouble? At least…these days?” says Lacey.
“Mm…yes??” he says.
“What a damn mess.” says Lacey. “And of course to clarify…I don’t mean to hurt their kids.”
“No!” he says.
“Quite the opposite. At least…in my case. Not all are the same. …If I’m Ancient Egyptian…I mean to say…I’m not a full representation of all Egyptians.” says Lacey.
“Indeed!” he says.
“Well…damn. …I congratulate you on being…noble. …I shall…return to my dinner. Give my best to whomever you should. As you should. Of course.” says Lacey.
“Will do!” he says.
“Have a pleasant evening!?” she says.
He thinks…”Mostly!” he says.
“I’ll pray.” says Lacey.
And at that…they all wait together. With Jesus.
“Where are you taking these people!?” asks an Irish woman.
“ excellent question I’ll tell you one thing if there’s rain Carnation I’m calling it quit and I am pulling the plug and I’m taking everyone with me back to Scotland and we’re going to have Prosecco and dark chocolate covered strawberries with proper champagne glasses however Mr. cologne 7060s fit with his wife maybe will have some apples dip them in honey or caramel depending on the mood maybe sprinkled some powdered sugar oh that sounds good so this might have some good versus divine or others might choose to drink tequila, but I think we’re quite sick of people shit regardless dear.” says Lacey.
“ Gewurztraminer, and apples, apple, strudel and Gewurztraminer, No, that’s wrong. Some thing with powdered sugar, had a flaky crust with baked apples and Gewürztraminer and champagne!” says Otto Von Bismarck.
“ yes I think that sounds absolutely delicious. I welcome you to it or rather you welcome me. Thank you ever so much!” says Lacey.
“ if there’s been Carnation in an afterlife, I just want to tell you guys I really don’t think Lacey meant any harm. If she did, I think she would instantly regret it.” says Mr. Cologne 76.
“ that’s about right I’m not sure if I meant any harm or not. I just feel distant from myself too much to know that but I think it’s possible that I didn’t mean anything other than just to correct people who were being ridiculous.” says Lacey.
“ unsweetened, cranberry juice and sparkling water over ice?” says Casi.
“ yes but you drink you eat lemons right?” says Lacey.
“ yes!” says Casi.
“ but maybe you’re a sociopath I’m not but there’s something about that the bitterness of the cranberry juice is refreshing to me. I actually wonder if my parents being so much psycho pathic and yet making me think that they loved me at least I suspect they both are I wonder if that’s why I like that taste, because it feels comforting to me. It reminds me of home at home that doesn’t exist but because it’s so bitter but it it’s like they acted like they loved me so I’ve associated to things in my head with yeah it doesn’t actually taste good but the way it does because it’s cranberry and there’s just something about it. It’s just enjoyable.” says Lacey.
“ you know I’m a psychopath weather in reading this blog or not we would have a nice time together. I might even marry her, but then in my psychopathy, but with my humanity, and possibly some sort of conscience that people just don’t know about I wonder if I would actually shoot her in the face on a hunting trip and get away with it because I’m a psychopath. Why would I marry her because I’m a psychopath if I wasn’t one I wouldn’t but as a psychopath I would see an opportunity to murder someone and get away with it and then I would think I actually kind of love this woman slightly like I actually slightly love her but she’s so miserable and I’m not giving her what she needs and I’m a psychopath so I think I’m just gonna shooter and put us both out of our misery and then I get away with it had to be honest with you the rest of my life. I feel like a really bad ass, loving husband, because I would read who journals and I would think about who she was and I think shit I one of the best men to ever live am I a rockstar? Did I find the reason I was created and I would never tell anyone because I’m a psychopath, but I would use her. I would tell other women no my wife disappeared. She was the love of my life and I don’t think I can ever get married to anyone ever again and to be honest with you I probably would slightly mean that because I wouldn’t think that it made much sense because I wouldn’t think anything but quite one double that experience and I wouldn’t want to ruin it for myself. There are so few things I can connect with that way as a psychopath that I would never want to ruin that for myself so I wouldn’t and that I would just live the rest of my life, savoring that little bit of humanity that I have in that part of my brain with my conscience in my sense of wrong and right and I honestly think I would probably die a pretty happy person as much as I could be and then I would go to heaven and find out that she was happy and be healed and be normal and think wow I was a very lucky man
There are psychopaths I am one of them I’m saying this from the afterlife who have a conscience like a Christian we’re not normal. Our brains are weird. You can’t trust us to be normal, but we might have some functioning conscience. That is not the same thing as people who are evil who are narcissists I’m not safe to be around, but I’m not necessarily as evil as an actual evil hearted person who is even normal my psychopathy protects me from that to some degree but then I think you guys need to ask yourselves if you’re intelligent, what are we evolving to is autism not some thing from the water or medicine or shots is autism, caused by micro evolution over population, and evil the aggrandizement of evil? Because what is it take to defend yourself nowadays even as a man what do you have to actually be like to protect yourself? What was the point of no country for old men? What was the argument that was being made?
What is it a warning that this is what we’re evolving to the world full of psycho Paz with a conscience who are psychopaths? Oh, what is that? What we almost evolved into and then mother nature things that doesn’t work the seeds to live the species will die off and so she invented autism or she encourage some thing that already existed Which is autism because what is autism it’s it’s sort of isolating but I think part of it is an attempt to make people smarter and more resilient in someway and it’s not really functional but that’s evolution. OK there’s creative design which is God and then there’s actual evolution which can cause chaos in a species, and usually does actually, and that’s something most people don’t know, but usually evolution does cause mutations that are weird. It isn’t usually quite so efficient and elegant as people seem to think it would be.
So all I’m saying is just hold humanity in your prayers because I think I’m a kinder person as a psychopath. Then a lot of people who’ve talk to her and I would shoot her in the face. I would just hold it up to her when she wasn’t suspecting it and shoot her in the face And then she probably talk to me in the afterlife and say what do you hate me? What the heck was that and I would say no that was a mistake but I needed to shoot you and she know I meant it and then yeah believe it or not, we would be friends I would never have had kids with her, I would’ve just shot her and left her for dad. Well she would’ve died and people would never have known. They never met her and I am a psychopath so it doesn’t work but in a way it would work if it got allowed it to and he didn’t do you understand what I’m saying or is that too complicated?” says a white male psychopath.
“ Jack what am I just I’m curious I thought it actually makes sense to me I’m a nurse and what exactly is it that the rest of you are thinking? I actually do have a hard time with her to Lacey. Let’s let’s talk about privilege let’s just say you haven’t experienced any privilege for being a woman in any way-“ says a female white Boomer nurse.
“ call wonder if I should’ve made a salad? I should’ve made a salad! shoot!” says Lacey.
“ she really hasn’t experienced any of the privilege you think she has at all she’s straight you guys thought she was a lesbian. Actually, I think you guys thought she was a man who is in love with you and could have some fun tonight.” says Sean Collins from the afterlife.
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