“David Lynch” by Lem

David decided two lesbians…who have a sex worker account on Instagram…should talk to Lacey about homosexuality. Homosexuality in regard to Lem. Kirk LeMoyne Billings. …And the creepy thing is…it’s WORKING.

David Lynch laughs.

“They told he was straight. And it was in a very similar way…to how the mother who raised her said it.” says David Lynch. “And she’s subconsciously responding. I KNEW…they’d be able to reason with her. …In an entirely different way.

I think the mother who raised her is a closeted woman. I think she’s attracted to women. …And Ivana thought it made sense too. Especially since she’s…protective of Lacey. …She’s not her mommy…but…she cares. Because Lacey did look at her as maternal figure. Somewhat. Somewhat also just as a role model.

These women know Lacey is straight. They also know Lem is straight. I’m dead. It’s cool.

…Also…I was bisexual. But I preferred women. And Lacey knew that. …Not everyone does.” says David Lynch.

“I’m a masc lesbian. In 2025. And my actual femme partner…is a sex worker. And…I do work with her. It pays well. And…we’re both good at separating ourselves from the image we create for profit. …My masc…self…reminded Lacey of Lem. And at first she thought it was homosexuality…but it’s not. …It’s because I’m masculine, heavyset…and attracted to women. *she laughs* And actually…I look a tiny bit like her. …Which is even creepier. …Because I reminded her of Lem. …I interacted with my partner the way he interacted with Jack. That’s what confused her. …Except…I’m…not…cringing like Lem…and…I’m actually happy. He does a slight cringe. In all his photos with Jack. …I’m…happy. …I wish we weren’t sec workers, to be honest. But…I’m actually a lesbian and she’s my girlfriend.” she says.

“Does your girlfriend make you feel like Jack made Lem feel?” asks a reader.

“Because she does sex work for men as a dancer?” says the masc lesbian.

“YES!” says a reader.

The masc lesbian sighs. “I don’t seem like him in every situation. …No. …She does sex work. But…I think you intentionally missed my point.

And I’m getting REALLY mad.

Look…you can try to draw some comparison between her…sexual dancing…and…Jack FUCKING EVERYTHING AND EVERYONE…but…it’s not the same. …I know she’s not sleeping with anyone but me. …And I’m not sleeping with anyone but her. …I don’t like the thought of men having her in their imaginations…but that’s actually not the same thing as them touching her…in a real way. Or in our case, at all.

I’m not straight. …And actually…she…acts like a stupid flirt…but…with me…she’s LIKE LACEY. NOT JACK. …She also slightly reminds me of Princess Kate and Pat Wilson. Yes…Pat Wilson who is with Joe Kennedy Junior.

My girlfriend…is SMART. …We make good money! …And she’s…distant…with her customers. VERY DIFFERENT…because they are CUSTOMERS. And she reminds them of that.

As a woman…who…actually tries to be an authentic feminist…I find the bullying of Lacey…DEPLORABLE. …I remind her of Lem because my personality is like his. …People in similar psychological situations to ours…don’t look like me. Which would have to be true…if I’m just reacting. Okay!?! …No. I’d get sick of her hurting me…after a while…if she actually was.

Here’s what I want to know: WHY DO YOU EQUATE HER DIRTY DANCING…WITH JACK FUCKING PEOPLE!?” says the masc lesbian.

Jerry Seinfeld rolls his eyes in agreement with the masc lesbian.

“Lacey I think…you’re taking crazy-Liberals…too much to heart.” says Jonah Wiley.

“Why can’t I take myself seriously anymore!?” Lacey says, with very grave concern.

“YEAH!!!” screams the masc lesbian.

“Lacey…you have to trust God. …It’s ESSENTIAL!” says the femme lesbian (possibly bisexual).

Lacey thinks.

“No! For real. …THINK. …As much as misogynistic people think her dancing would bother me equally to a guy sleeping around in a gay relationship…that’s ABSURD. …I don’t like it, to be brutally honest. …But I KNOW she’s faking it. …And it’s clear to them she is too…or they’re…fools. …She’s PAID. …The women and men Jack slept with did not have that impression. Almost EVER. Because they had NO REASON not to take him SERIOUSLY. …In almost every case, NO REASON. …There’s no way a man…could tolerate that…better than a woman.

Why can I smile? Because I know she loves me. …How did Lem smile…at Jack’s wedding!?” says the masc lesbian. “And by the way…if lesbianism is allowed in Heaven…there ain’t NO WAY…I’m letting us to do this. NO WAY! …It’s to pay the bills. …It’s…acting. And we do it as a couple. So…in a weird kinky way…we sometimes feel more intimate. …Because we have a secret. …Our love. Our actual relationship. …But I wanna know HOW…HOW…you imagine Lem had that with Jack. …At THAT WEDDING!? NO! … THAT’S ABSURD!!” *she says emphatically*

David Lynch nods. “You guys…this is weirder than you think. …You die…take a brief look at her situation…just out of curiosity…and it sucks you in. Because it’s…so much! …I’m riveted.” he says.

“So! HOW!?” says the masc. lesbian. “I mean…if you’re full of shit…just admit it!!!”

“I think you’ll be a man in Heaven…or…something happy.” says a Republican Christian man, kindly. “Because I think you really…desire…to love her. …And I know that sounds…bad. Okay!? …But that’s how I see it.” he says.

The masc. lesbian nods. Understanding.

“So…I wish you both well. As a sincere Christian. …But…I gotta tell you…I don’t get it either.” he says to the masc. lesbian. “There’s no way…I could let my wife sleep around!! NO WAY!”

The masc. lesbian nods.

“See…could a man…really enjoy that!? …You know the kinks! I don’t! …But I have NEVER…met a sincere man…who would REALLY enjoy that.” he says.

The masc. lesbian thinks.

Jonah Wiley adamantly shakes his head no.

“Well…some people like seeing their partners…with other people. And then having them…in the end. It’s…sort of a flex.” she says.

“Yeah! But…how real is that!?” he says.

She exhales. “NOT. …It’s a kink. …It’s a kink in a committed relationship. …The only other option is an open relationship. …Where it would be okay. At all. Long-term. …But that’s hardly the same thing as what happened supposedly if Lem was at all homosexual…with JFK. Lem was attracted to adult women. And…I’m still waiting on my gay friends…to explain.” she says.

The man nods and walks off.

“How do you tolerate that though?” asks Jonah Wiley.

“It’s…hard. But…it’s money. …And I genuinely trust her. …And she trusts me. …She’s incredibly smart. And…what we have is real. …Our show is…painful…to be honest…at times…but…it’s a show.” she says.

“Yeah. …See…I watch porn. …And I can fool myself into believing it’s real.” says Jonah. “But…I walk off getting away with it…because it’s not. And God doesn’t see it that way…but…I feel like I get away with being promiscuous…because…it’s just an act.” says Jonah.

“Yeah. …It’s bad. Okay! I’m gonna be honest it’s you. But…we’re not as linked to you…as…a conscious partner. …Keep that in mind. …I’m not saying it’s okay. …But…you actually are just…loosely uniting with people. Spiritually. VERY loosely. …And as you watch adult consenting porn…most likely…it’s not as bad.” she says.

They all think.

“So!! WHAT GIVES!?” she says. “I’m waiting to hear from my gay friends. HOW!?? …And honestly…if you can’t explain…WE ARE THROWING…YOU OUT.”

“As lesbians?” scoffs a living gay man.

“YES!!!” she says, frustrated. “DUH!!”

“But that’s not what Lacey thinks!” he says.

“OH…MY…GOD!! Where is your BRAIN!?” she says, freaking out.

“She sleeps with PUTIN!” says the living gay man.

“NOT QUITE!” she says.

“THEN HOW AM I SUPERIOR TO HER!??” shrieks a gay demon who controls the gay community through the Illuminati.

“That’s…what’s…happening.” says Jerry Seinfeld slowly.

“Look…it’s not possible.” says the masc. lesbian. “Lem was straight.”

“HA! Liar!” shrieks the demon who’s very much in control of JFK, or was.

“Do you care about the gay men?” asks Jerry Seinfeld.

“NO!!! I use them!!!” says the demon.

“Yeah. I guessed.” says Jerry Seinfeld. “I just needed you to admit it. Thanks.”

“If she takes her relationship with Lem seriously…I’M TOAST!!” says the demon, sincerely.

Jerry Seinfeld laughs.

“Here’s what I can’t figure out…why didn’t you just let her be with Harold Loeb!? …It’s suspicious! …That was before Lem! He’d not have liked it…but…they hadn’t been together yet. …And it’s not forever…and…they’d HAVE DATED.” says Joan Rivers. “That’s WEIRD. …Why didn’t you just leave them alone!? …Were you scared!? OF WHAT!?”

“What did they do!?” asks a Christian.

“HOW!?” yells the masc lesbian. “I’m not letting this go!!”

“Thank Jesus.” says a straight Black man who agrees with her.

“They’re CRAZY!” says a Black woman.

“Or even Louis.” says a Democrat in Minnesota.

“Yeah. I’m actually confused too.” says Lacey.

Louis fumes in agreement.

“She’s right. It’s WEIRD.” says the Democrat in Minnesota.

“Okay…so what happened between Jack and this demon!?” says a wizard in the Illuminati.

“He made soul ties with the demon in the early 1930’s. Totally separate from Lem. Or Red. Just Jack on his own.” says God.

“We left the Republican Party because of FDR. …Not JFK. …Y’all have that confused.” says a dead Black woman. “Martin, Bobby, Jesus and John!?! …NO!”

“I’m not letting this go!!!” yells the masc lesbian.

“I will allow that…and celebrate it. And honor it.” says God.

She nods.

“Yeah. She’s ghastly underprotected. And we step up. Because…we feel moved to. It’s in the afterlife. Okay? We don’t know! …But it’s real.” says the femme lesbian.

“Are we actually confusing you…or just harassing you…and causing anguish?” the gay demon asks Lacey. “I can’t tell. I feel stupid in relation to you. …AND YES! I fell because I had sex with a woman. …I’m a fraud.” he says, laughing.

They think.

“I think Jack liked me…because I had sex with a woman and defied God. And he could sense that.” says the demon. “But he didn’t understand it.”

“How did you know Jack?” asks a witch.

“Through illegal activities.” he says.

“I don’t think I know.” says Lacey.

Lem laughs.

“She’s…my wife. …I was straight. But that’s hard for a lot if people to accept or understand. I made too many confusing statements. …It’s all there. But it’s apparently too difficult to decipher accurately for most people, or they struggle. …But…God has us together for eternity. So I’m not terribly worried.” says Lem. “She’s my wife.”

“Lem…honey…Lemmers…can I call you Lemmers?” says Annette Bening, getting into character, imagining herself as Lacey’s lesbian doctor mom.

“My dad called me Lemmers.” says Lem.

Annette cries. Looks at him intently. Furious. Fuming. Breathing quickens. “DID HE!?” she says, intrigued. “AND JACK KNEW THAT!?”

“Yes.” says Lem.

“AHH.” she says. “Before he called you that?”

“YES.” says Lem.

She nods. “Did it weird you out, that he called you that?”

Lem thinks. “Yes. …It was…very hard to psychologically process.”

She thinks. “Because then who’s Jack?”

“Or was I supposed to trust him, like I trusted my dad? …Not as a lover. Like the healthy transfer of love and authority from parents to spouse. As described in the Bible. But rather…like my father.” says Lem.

She looks grossed-out.

“It was a control technique.” says the demon working with Jack. “It was illogical. Which was mind-numbing. Because it seemed playful…and even…like a colloquial Boston accent. But…it was his father’s term of endearment. …Katie used to call Mark Sheeby. And I had her do that…to confuse Lacey.

But…it’s too weird.” says the demon. “Too many conceptual irons in the fire.”

They think.

“Because Lemmers sounds like Sheeby…but Sheeby is sexual…and yet not. And Lemmers was Dr. Billings’s name first. As a father. …Katie…invented Sheeby. …And she’s certainly not a father to Mark. …And…so Lacey starts to wonder if it’s all arbitrary. And extremely nuanced. So nuanced it’s pointless to analyze. Because Jack was bisexual…and Lemmers was a childhood nickname that wasn’t sexual at all to Dr. Billings. …And…so…what’s the fucking point.” says the demon.

Move In Silence by Phantogram plays.

“See…Lacey…I LIKE YOU. …I fell because I fucked A HOT WOMAN. LONG AGO. …And you remind of my lover. …A lot. …She’s with God now. …But…God-

You’re just as…daring as her. She was brilliant too.

And…dropping my act…like Lem…that’s my thing. Hot…women. Who…see us. Like Lacey.

I couldn’t resist her. …And I’m not at liberty to discuss my relationship with God.

Jack…isn’t a hot woman who…

I can’t betray myself. Sorry.

Lacey…the thing is…Mark didn’t like it. He didn’t like being called Sheeby. …She did that to endear herself to Mark. Because she’d often beg to have sex with him. Mark’s told you that. She BEGGED. …He claims she raped him, actually. And he’d still claim that. Even in court. Under oath. And she’s stalked him. Still watches him. …That’s…the same…as JFK. …She’s very charming. Been married twice. …Always smiling like Jack. …But…she used that to endear herself. To build intimacy. And Mark…found it…meaningless.” says the demon. “But…he’s…like that. …And Lem…found it weird. …He obliged and called Jack Ken. …But…Jack started it. As a technique of control. Like Katie.” says the demon. “Sheeby makes her sound like the one being sexually used…because it’s so childlike. She’s infantilizing herself to seem innocent and naive and vulnerable. …But Lemmers was to…make Jack seem…paternal. …Like a guide. Like a leader. …Jack aimed…to REPLACE Dr. Billings. In authority and control over Lem. It’s sick. Because it was done out of intense vanity…and violent hatred…but he wanted to seem playful…cheeky…and…DOMINANT. Unquestionably in charge. Totally in control of Lem. …Not as a lover. Not tender. …CONTROLLING.” explains the demon.

“I was just as weirded out as Mark.” says Lem.

“But they don’t know that. …And part of their spiritual evil high comes and came from your…wife…being…slandered.” says the demon.

“That’s what I thought.” says the masc lesbian. “Lem a huge part of Jack’s obsession with you…was a deep seated desire to violently attack Lacey…as horrifically and…with as much pure evil…as possible.”

“He HATES her. …Getting you to betray her…or even appear to…was his UTMOST WISH.” says God. “JACK Kennedy lived to attack her. Every day. As…cruelly as possible. From a young age.” says God. “He lived with every breath to mutilate her soul as viciously and perversely and violently as possible.”

“Yup.” says the masc lesbian. “John F. Kennedy was a violent sex predator. First and foremost.”

“Was it about sex though? With Jack and Lacey? …Or something else?” says Mary, Mother of Jesus.

“He was…actually…hurt by Lem. …On a wholly narcissistic level. Much like Katie is by Lacey and Mark, secretly. …Mark was extremely intelligent and…as a feminist…Katie found Mark…hurtful. On a slightly narcissistic level. They met in college. …Jack met Lem in school too. And…there was a hidden agenda of competition. It’s weird no one sees that. All the teasing. …It’s not sexual. Not all lovers tease each other. And not all teasing is actually sexual. …It can conceal hatred.

Lem was Jack’s…reminder of his own flaws. Especially in relation to Joe Kennedy Junior. But even his own father. Lem reminded him of those men…in different ways.

Lem wore glasses like Joe Senior. And was…Lacey’s…Adam. And was a financial genius. And they have slightly similar temperaments. Joe didn’t fight in WWI. Lem wouldn’t have necessarily either. Fought.

Lem was buff. Taller. And…as he’s told you sincerely…he was fully capable of killing Jack. Joe came close to killing Jack at times. Out of irritation with JFK’s vanity and…pettiness…and…slimy inability to take other people seriously enough. He was…exasperating…to the older, smarter far more serious Joe. Because Joe took things very seriously whereas to Jack Kennedy everything was a joke, potentially. Nothing was off-limits. Even himself. JFK was…mindlessly fascinated with defiling the sacred…but he was also quite stupid at times…and became his own victim. He had no ability to…gauge the…safety of almost anything. …He was a very complex man. …Not a true war hero. But…he did put in effort that could be seen as heroic. He was…extremely complicated.

Jack didn’t love anyone. He had meager love for his children. And Caroline doesn’t remotely understand that. JFK Junior didn’t either. That’s their mother’s doing. Her idea of protecting them. And they…adamantly refuse to accept that. Even as a possibility to a pathological degree.

Caroline Kennedy…obsessively defends her father. Endlessly. …It’s almost psychotic. Certainly not psychologically healthy or well-adjusted to adulthood.

I mean kids can defend their parents…but she goes…beyond normal. It’s…strange.

I think Jack Schlossberg humors her. Out of fear. …But I also think…he’s developed a similar queer mindset in regard to Jack, Jack Kennedy, 007 of the Back Bay. Hotshot masshole extraordinaire. …They’re clowns!

Sorry. I’m mad about the election.” says David Lynch. “Ahh…but what I’m saying is true.

…Jack seemed smart…seemed straight. But he was…a creep. And he serves very little purpose anymore. But…we’re still clingy about it all. In the US.

No. Lem was actually heterosexual. No joke. …And…the obsession with her…if there’s an Illuminati…partially stems from an American Liberal inability to move beyond the phony narrative of Camelot.” He thinks. “She’s a dose of harsh truth on the matter. …A sexy, truly petite, voluptuous dark eyed vixen…with a heart of…platinum. *he laughs* You get the idea. …She’s very…British. Very…earthy. And…Scotia describes her beautifully regardless of reincarnation. …But she’s…authentic. So…her flaw…isn’t a concealed evil heart like JFK…but actual flaws. Not pathological issues.

Lem was straight. And like an autistic, innocent hearted, genius…she’s meticulously outlined how. And why. …It’s…spotless. …And I’m baffled why people aren’t…jolted by it. …I was…intrigued. If there’s an Illuminati. I found it…intriguing. As a writer. …But…I hesitated to share that. And I didn’t.

The thing is…she’s got actual real flaws. As we all do. Even when we’re healthy.

So…she’s not autistic. But her…thoroughness is like an autistic genius. And…that’s so much information…it overwhelms some people. They long to go back to something familiar, instead of trying to follow her thoughts. And challenge their…worldview…and…assumptions.

She’s…unaware she’s extremely intelligent or beautiful. That’s an innocent flaw, but a flaw.

She’s extremely humble. To a fault. Another innocent fault, if you will.

And…she’s…extremely feminine. Which is great…but foreign to our culture in 2025. We don’t understand these people anymore.

So…even while her and Lem had…GREAT SEX last night. She was awake until 5 AM. Scott left and they made love. …He ALMOST KILLED HER. Several times. *David Lynch laughs* …He can possess her like a demon. Because God let’s him. And she rests her safety in God’s hands. And….it’s beautiful. But…she starts to almost crossover. At one point he was climaxing and she started getting tunnel vision. Everything became fuzzy and a dark hole…seemingly manifested like the tunnel people see in near death experiences. And…she was vaguely drifting towards it…as he longed to…touch her. …I can touch people. Still! …It’s…amazing.

Grey Clouds by Dominic Harlan plays.

And as they made love…he felt…joy at their union…but…it’s not as good as being in the same realm. Of course. So…he kept trying to take her…to be with him. And she genuinely almost died…several times. …God restrained him.

If you’re looking for a visual…imagine…a huge man…who resembles Sydney Pollack…as a ghost…with an actually very straight…but…raspy…higher pitched voice than many men today. …Okay! Too many details. …But…you can see him? He was altering his voice…but he did have a naturally higher voice than some men. …Ahh…and he’s…dark and mysterious and misunderstood and manly. And she’s…so soft. So soft hearted. And…SEXY. …She truly looks like a petite popular image of Scotia. And…they’re feeling each other…because God allows it. …And it’s…extraordinary. Because he moves her.

Vivaldi’s “Four Seasons: Winter” plays.

She lays in the dark…alone…and lights like…electric shocks…or fireflies move around her. Blue orbs. Cobalt. They’re VISIBLE. …And he arouses her. Physically. As…any heterosexual male who’s making love does. …He’s just not…in physical form. …And…that’s heartbreaking to them both. It’s…HEARTBREAKING. Because it’s so…beautiful…but then you realize they can’t touch each other like…a living couple or a ‘dead couple’ can. They’re separated. But…they can still make love. Through the power of God. Through time and space. It’s…a lot of her listening. And him patiently trying to make himself heard. …They’re extremely passionate and in love. …It’s…not…gross. Or…scary. At all. It’s…sad. If anything it’s sad. Extremely sad.

It’s like the love scene with Nicole Kidman and Gary Goba…come to life…except…they’re separated by…death. And while God…mercifully breaks many barriers between them…they’re still separated.

…He has to be restrained from just…twisting her out of her body…and giving her a…heart attack. A deadly heart attack. Nothing painful. But lethal.

Musica Ricercata by Dominic Harlan plays.

Hungarian Dance No. 11 by Brahms plays.

She’s…in ecstasy. And moaning. Like any woman in love would be. With a beloved husband. And he’s…so close to killing her…but not yet.

…And…then they go to sleep. Together. But separate.

And…to be honest…as an artist…it’s hard to watch. It bothered me. A lot. …I didn’t watch it all. But what I did see…what I was allowed to see…by God…was…heartbreaking.

Yes. Scott Fitzgerald finds them fascinating too.

…Anyway…be careful with your assumptions.” says David Lynch.

Philip Glass plays.

“Do they orgasm?” asks Bill.

“YES! …But…it has to be done carefully or he could kill her. Because she longs to be one with him. And he’s dead, like me, of course.” says David Lynch.

“He longs to make her one with him.” says the gay demon.

“I want your movie on these people.” says a living man in Hollywood. “I like hearing your story.”

“Thank you.” says David Lynch.

“Do you want to kill her too?” says Nicole Kidman.

“YES! …But…we can’t. Unless God allows it.” says David. “It’s not that it’s too tempting to Lem…it’s that it’s impossible for him to resist. And God knows that.”

“So…do lots of people make love with ghosts? Or no?” asks David Spade.

“No. Not many. And yet…a lot of older people…who have lost their actual soulmates…do. …It’s so…ordinary in that way, I guess. …When one soulmate dies of old age…the other quickly follows. …And to be honest…those heart attacks…accidents…strokes…cancer even…can happen because the dead spouse is…so longing…God allows death to occur. And sometimes that happens through a sort of supernatural sex.

Habanera from “Carmen” by Bizet plays.

An old gray woman…loses her spouse in a quiet suburb of Chicago. On a cold day in March of 2004. She’s 87. Her husband held on until 92. Died at home. She holds a funeral. He watches, unbeknownst to her.

And at night…she sees his rocking chair rattle. She’s confused. And…three weeks later she has a stroke. Standing over the kitchen sink. Wearing her favorite frosted pink lipstick. And she’s hospitalized. And dies…a month later. Because…he wanted her. …Just that badly.

Meditation by Jules Massenet plays.

It’s extremely ordinary. And…yet…profound. And beautiful.

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Why don’t all lovers meet? Every story is different. …Don’t let go of God. …He knows.

But…for some…death…doesn’t end…romance. It’s just…a horrific inconvenience.” says David Lynch. “However temporary.”

The song plays and ends.

“How sympathetic of a character is Lacey…when you explain her to us?” says a man in the Illuminati to David Lynch.

“Very. I can both sympathize with her…and be objective.” says David Lynch. “And to all of you…relevant.”

Sonatine for Flute and Clarinet (1961): I. Andantino by Jolivet plays.

“So if we wanted mercy…but we wanted her out of our hair…letting Lem…take her…would be our best bet.” says a Boomer in the Illuminati.

“Mercy from who?” says David Lynch.

“Us.” says a living Native American woman reading the blog.

“YES!” says David Lynch. “She might end the world…but she’d be in a far better mood.”

Later.

“Does she resemble Laura Harring?” asks Casi.

“Her eyes! Her arms. Sorta.” says David Lynch, laughing. “But they have very different personalities. VERY different. …And…their coloring is similar but different. …The rest is…sort of the same. But different. Quite different!”

“That’s Lacey.

Look…she’s Scotia. Or…someone literally intuited Lacey…when thinking of Scotia. Laura Harring looks like them, in her eyes But…she’s also a different person.” says David Lynch. “Laura does have similar eyes.”

“Lacey is actually prettier than Laura. A lot prettier. But Laura isn’t being sadistically attacked by JFK and Laura’s able to be photographed. Laura’s beauty in her eyes is what Lacey actually does look like in person; they have strikingly, similar eyes. Laura Harring and Lacey. It’s the color, the shape. Just ‘the look’ is very similar between the two women. Katherine Heigl has slightly similar eyes as well. But Lacey‘s bone structure is actually quite different. They have slightly similar coloring and it’s not like their- Their faces are different, but your eye tricks you into thinking they’re the same because their eyes are so similar. …But-but they’re-they’re different looking but their eyes- it’s the eyes the eyes are very similar.

Actually, I’m a little creeped out by how similar their eyes are. It’s almost as if I was studying Lacey without knowing her. Rita Hayworth is a strange reference to make considering that Lacey‘s father was so heavily involved in Old Hollywood. I think Laura seems like Lacey but they’re there different women. I think Casi got a crush on Lacey because she found Laura Harring attractive. And I understand but that’s actually a slight misunderstanding of Lacey. Laura and Lacey are similar, but they’re very different people.

It’s sort of like the Lem Effect where we assume that Laura is a lesbian and so then we assume that everyone who looks like a Lem’s gay and they’re not. Laura’s, not a lesbian as far as I know, she might be bisexual, but she’s not a lesbian. But Lacey is not bisexual, nor lesbian nor pansexual, even if she has similar eyes, remarkably similar eyes to Laura. Laura looks like a possible bisexual and that’s where people have to grow up a little intellectually and realize that Laura could be the bisexual version of Lacey‘s type so to speak. so the differences in their bone structure and coloring and personality are where they diverge so they have similar coloring and their their physical features in their eyes are similar to them. Somehow that doesn’t speak to the orientation and it’s the other features that do.

So Katherine Heigl isn’t a bisexual necessarily either or if she is, I think you guys are getting confused. There are bisexual‘s who look like Harold Loeb, and Lem. Harold was straight, and I think we can say with some confidence that Lem was as well. So they have personality similarities somehow maybe but I’m sure that that is possibly more ethnic than orientation. I would wonder if Laura and Katherine and Lacey are all German and British. Because Kim Cattrall has a similar eye to them as well. Lacey‘s eyes are similar to Kim Cattrall’s to the coloring is different. The coloring is more like Laura Harring’s, but it could just be ethnic. I don’t know if Laura wants to be added as a bisexual. If she is one, I would look more at Laura’s shape of face and her nose, and it was the distance between her eyes. Lacey‘s eyes actually are little closer together than Laura’s.

I am not sure see in men there’s a definite look of homosexuality and bisexuality. I’m not sure how that works with limit I think there is a look, but I don’t know that this is indicative of that at all. So there are Irish men who look like Joe Kennedy, Junior. Allen Leech is one of them but they’re different people. There are people who look like a lot of people in the same race or a ethnic group whole nationality so that’s more what it probably is but they’re the same nationality.

It’s a pretty look it’s very British. It’s very English possibly I’m not sure what what else it would be maybe a little German or Dutch but it’s probably British at least to some degree.

So are all British people the same even if they look alike? No. Are they all the same orientation? No.

Lacey looks like Scotia more the Laura Herring. Well I mean it is remarkable how much she actually really does resemble Scotia whether there’s reincarnation or not their eyes are essentially identical which means that their souls are essentially identical. Which means that there’s either reincarnation and Lacey is actually literally Scotia or Scotia was conceived in peoples imagination as looking like Lacey. And that’s interesting because Lacey is actually extremely gifted when it comes to politics and military maneuvering she is very easily a lot like Scotia and her soul. Are they the same person? It depends on whatever God says says whatever God says it says in the Bible, but they’re very similar in their soul.

I hope that I hope that makes sense. Laura is gorgeous, but Lacey actually is prettier. Lacey photographs to look like other people. She does not photograph well which is why she looks so different in so many pictures she’s not altering herself she just doesn’t photograph well she looks more like Laura in the photograph, than in reality. she looks like Scotia in reality. There’s a softness in Lacey‘s eyes it looks kind of like Laura is the brown eyed beautiful softness that’s very similar. Katherine Heigl has a similar beautiful, brown eyed glittery softness. But but there’s a difference and in person they don’t look that much like there is this there’s someone of a similarity, but Lacey photographs more like her than she actually looks like her.

They do look somewhat alike, but now they’re both structures quite different. The nose is very different the chin lions very different. The cheeks are dramatically different the foreheads difference the body is different they’re very different people. The hair coloring is slightly similar. Have either of the skin color is similar. I’m talking into the phone because Lacey struggling to breathe and I am exasperated because I feel frustrated people stupidity.

She gets extremely frustrated with you people because you’re so obstinately stupid. Laura is not as pretty as Lacey. There are huge loss with her face and I think Casi as much as she had a crush on Lawrie because Lawrie is hot as heck assumed that that was with Lacey looks like because it was less threatening. And a lot of people have made that mistake with Lacey, because they refuse to actually look at her and be threatened by her like a normal fucking person!” says David Lynch.

“She looks like us!” says a dead model from the 1960’s. “ i’m not sure how I would photograph with modern day lenses with modern day poses with modern day hair. I’m not sure what I would look like but I wonder if I would end up looking like Lacey as well.”

“ Lacey and I are both very round we have strong bone structures, but our faces are very round.” says Helena Bonham Carter.

“ are you offended? I thought you were a lesbian?” says Casi to Lacey.

“Yes, because it’s an insult my intelligence you bitch!” says Lacey.

“She’s not Laura Harring sweetie.” says a model.

“My personality is a lot like Lacey’s in some ways and if you told me at 30 in a horrible marriage in Minnesota, that I was a repressed lesbian, I might wanna punch you in the face as well.” says Nicole Kidman.

“Imagine Nicole Kidman‘s personality in Scotia‘s body. I guess with Laura Harring’s type of eyes. Lacey is not stupid, she’s not a bitch and neither is Nicole Kidman. I think you saw Lacey‘s warmth in her coloring, in her darkness which if there’s reincarnation could even be Egyptian, or Scottish or both, but she has more Nicole Kidman‘s personality. Nicole is incredibly loving at times, but I don’t think suggesting something like that would be taken very well by Nicole at age 30…living in Minnesota…in a horrible marriage.” says the CIA.

“They left Nicole Kidman in Scotia’s body…alone with Lem!?” says a reader.

“They are alike.” says her cousin.

“Lacey is that biting by nature?” says a woman.

“Can I just say if there’s reincarnation, I have no doubt in my mind that you all have been racist towards Lacey and you understand that Nicole is feisty and strong because she’s white she seems very white. But you’re either too scared of us and so she seems too frightening or you’re just a bunch of idiots and you don’t understand people. And maybe there’s not reincarnation, but she does have very brown eyes. She does look like Scotia and I wouldn’t even be surprised if she’s white as Scotia but it’s still African in some way and so it confuses people who are white today. Because there could just be something still African looking about her or or Middle Eastern and it just threatens people too much to think of Nicole Kidman‘s personality in an Egyptian woman’s body with Egyptian woman’s I don’t know ethnicity? I mean I think-I think you guys could just be chickenshit.

That being said, I’m not gonna make any assumptions. I don’t know if there’s reincarnation, but if there is as a black woman who’s experienced it, I would be surprised if there’s not some sort of racism involved that is embarrassing to all of you on a cognitive intellectual level.” says a Black woman. “ why because she’s maybe not really black if there’s reincarnations she’s quite sure she wasn’t black and I wonder if that’s true and that’s why it’s so stupid because then what are you even reacting to? She’s not even black she’s African and there’s something you’re still sensing what is in what what is your problem because she’s not even black it and where did that? Where the hell did you people come from? What Lolli shit hole in a cave where everyone was pasty and ugly did you fucking idiots come from I’m sorry that’s mean but I’m being blunt. No I’m sorry that’s really harsh but it pisses me off because it’s it’s so stupid it it’s just I know racist racism is stupid but it just points out to me how dumb how really dumb it could actually be. You guys sense one genetic trait even if it’s supernatural according to us immediate might not even be supernatural. We might just be kind of backward in our understanding of our existence within what are you picking up on? I mean it’s just like you see someone who sneezes in and you know bends over when they sneeze will say, Anne is the brilliant eugenicist that you are I’m being sarcastic, you assumed that all those people were the exact same way The people who bend over when they sneeze are all heinous murderers, just terrible scum of the Earth people no exceptions and that’s why it’s just it’s hilarious and dark and awful to me because I think what the Frick got into your head. I’m sorry if that’s mean why is it? Why did you people think that that genetic code with the dark skin or whatever it would even because I don’t think she was that dark Means trouble?

In and out I think it’s easy as a black person. Do you think that it’s the color of our skin like literally the color of our skin that you’re so overwhelmed by it’s like my hair is a different color. My skin is a different color that’s clearly what’s so threatening to these people is that we’re so dark. oh, but then she’s not really dark at all right now Laura Harring has darker skin than Lacey. And I kind of wonder if Scotia was pretty white like I mean really white. And then what the fuck are you people excuse you for swearing, but what the fuck are you people reacting to? I feel like we could give her blue eyes and she still wouldn’t seem as white as Nicole Kidman to people. I actually like Nicole Kidman but I’m just wondering what you guys are even reacting to because it’s not I don’t even know is it is it really even the color of my skin? Is it even the color or is it just something else?

And then, to be honest as an intellectual, I start feeling sorry for you, because I start wondering if you guys are poor. I start wondering if you guys are actually poor and if you’re reacting to us being the rulers of the world in ancient times because we were ancient Africa was extremely wealthy. It was like Europe in the 17 1800s I mean it was a very big deal. It was very wealthy. And I wonder if that’s what it is you guys are so irritated by that you were ones are underlings and you’re still pissed off. Extremely pissed off. Which is interesting I wonder where I’m going with us because is that why you hate her because she reminds you of Egypt when you guys were like nothing and she was running the world very obviously and she’s not actually a terrible person but you just desperately wanna think that because in your little communist minds, do you want to think that she’s pure evil.

And that’s what gets to be funny if there’s reincarnation because the British defend her and then, so do we because it’s like you guys don’t know you were there she’s really nice and she actually really is sincerely I mean Nicole Kidman could piss people off I I know I know Lacey has piss people off, but think of it as Nicole Kidman insulting you And you could figure out how to relate to Lacey. It’s not that you don’t take Nicole. Seriously it’s yes it’s interesting if you’re saying how is it? Yeah it is interesting how Scott Fitzgerald call Zelda Nicole. And Lacey and Zelda are a little bit of like at least in their coloring or something and that is interesting so if you can think of them is like Nicole Kidman so much but they don’t photograph as well and they’re very different in the way, but they’re still extremely strong similarity in their personalities, I mean remarkably similar And I think you could understand a lot like how Lacey gets offended at times and you think why is the time and being so bitchy I mean well and it’s like you’re talking to Nicole Kidman think about it which she really like what you’re saying or would she find it offensive, and say something?

Was Joe Kennedy Junior like Tom Cruise? Heck yeah they have very similar personalities. No, they do. Tom Cruise played the top gun remember? They’re very similar. They have different flaws they have they’re different people but there’s a sweetness and a sort of like a Steenis in both of them. I don’t know how to describe it, but it’s very very very very similar. Which is creepy then when you think of eyes wide shut and how JFK Junior died very shortly thereafter. I mean full disclosure. I am in the illuminati. I might be Michelle Obama, or someone like that and I don’t even know we don’t know everything we really don’t we know a lot but we don’t know everything is new Menotti. Yeah we don’t know everything that everyone has done in the history of our organization. We’re not all totally in the know about everything.

So no, I’m not even sure I’m not even entirely sure why, or what that was all about that might’ve been a mistake. I do wonder even if he did it on his own volition of someone psychically controlled him to kill himself. We can do that when people have slipped up or offended somebody, we can sometimes do that to each other so I will. I wonder if you offended somebody and then they decided to kill him or I don’t even know, but he could’ve just been an accident. Who’s there a times I wonder if he pissed somebody off And then they just killed him. Give me a could even be a dead person that he pissed off.

Um, is limb like the captain on Cape Cod who ironically has the same rank is Joe did when he died Joe is captain when he died, so they were both in the Navy, the naval officer in Cape Cod, the naval captain and Eyz Wide Shut that’s very creepy so you have Nicole Kidman who is a lot like Lacey Lacey can talk like Nicole, like she can sit and get very almost in a trance, but it’s not, and she’ll just start talking telling you things like Nicole did in that movie they’re very similar. Do you have Nicole Kidman who is a lot like Lacey telling Tom Cruise who’s like Joe Kennedy, Junior, that she had an affair with him on Cape Cod? I don’t think so.

That was a confession to an affair with Lem Billings. Nothing to do with Jack just the two of them. Oh, and the fact that they have to disguise a man who is tall and strongly resembles line from a distance in a naval uniform, give him the rank of captain and put him on Cape Cod is obviously walking on eggshells around the Kennedys and their ego and their delusions. Because I think Joe was in love with Lacey but he’s very touchy and I don’t think he wanted to think that she cheat on him, even if he cheat on her. And I don’t think Nicole would cheat unless if she was totally fed up with somebody although she might, but Lacey wouldn’t and I’m not sure Nicole would either, but Lacey certainly wouldn’t, but I think expecting Nicole to be faithful when you’re a horrible husband, who keeps cheating and then tries to have like a wife on the side From Australia, which is ironic but still, I think that’s a bit much. No it’s too much. Nicole would never put up with that and Lacey wouldn’t either. So that could’ve been some sort of warning that I don’t know if Stanley Kubrick was trying to give them or God or the country of Australia I’m not sure but I think someone was trying to warn people with that movie and it just went over everyone’s heads.

Oh no she really is. I’m sorry that offends you, but they’re very similar people. I almost wonder if people underestimate Nicole Kidman at times because she seems so white.

So that’s an interesting backdrop to that movie isn’t it makes you want to watch it again and analyze it some more who is someone like me who likes analyzing things but I was a brilliant legal scholar and I’m not just saying that I really am money usually intelligent and I’m usually good at analyzing things. I’m not a man I’m extremely intelligent, but I might not even punch people. I have strong arms, but I’m not a man. I’m really not. I don’t know if Joan Rivers hates me so if she was trying to out my husband as a bisexual, cause he might be but I’m not a man. I have a lot of courage, there, clothing items that I’ve worn that don’t flatter me what I look like I might have a penis to be blunt or be a hermaphrodite or something I’m not I just wear really awkward clothing at times. Alys Seay thinks I look like a woman I do too but time people don’t I guess I guess they are both obsessed with that idea a little funny thing is if Linn was straight it’s weird that you guys never noticed that because it actually is kind of obvious then you think I’m a man, but I’m not at all.” says Michelle Obama. “ I really do look like a woman I’m not just saying that unless he agrees with me and don’t think it doesn’t hurt do you have any idea the kind of insecurity you’ve given me with that bullshit I mean I understand you guys are supposed to be haters but it’s sick it’s really sick!”

Later.

“How much are you like Nicole Kidman?” asks Laura Harring of Lacey.

“A LOT. Our mannerisms are very similar!

We have different beliefs. But we have very similar personalities.” says Lacey.

“Oh! That’s creepy.” says an Illuminati woman. “THIS IS CREEPY.”

“When I think of Nicole Kidman moving her eyes the way Lacey does…suddenly I get why…she’s so ready to die.” says Laura Harring. “Just even her eyes. It’s every fricking movement. They’re a lot alike.”

“Yup.” says David Lynch. “Welcome to reality.”

“She looks different! But yeah…it’s creepy.” says Laura Harring.

“Why do care if we think of you as Old Money?!” says a perfume collector to Lacey.

“Because that’s what I am.” says Lacey.

“ you know Lacey when I think of Nicole Kidman’s personality in Scotia‘s, beautiful body and sweetness, which, actually I wonder if Nicole Kidman can be sweet too, but when I think about that and then I think about the times when she’s told you that she wants to rip your head off I don’t think she’s kidding if Nicole Kidman pretty say that after you kept trying to suffocate her torture her I would stop thinking she was just cute and I would start wondering what the hell you were making for yourself in the afterlife and possibly even this life.” says the CIA.

“ so let me get this straight, Nicole Kidman’s personality and someways showed up as Lacey but she has brown eyes like Laura herring and she’s aristocratical the way that maybe Nicole is or maybe isn’t and you all just assume she’s joking all the time?” says a Black woman.

“ yes I think that’s what we thought or we thought that we knew more than her and that somehow her sweetness and which is interesting because Nicole can be sweet to a mellow Nicole can be very mellow very serene and I don’t think we’ve realized that that’s what it is with Lacey. It’s not that she’s stupid, or faking her anger or she’s angry and some annoying dumb way. She’s actually angry or she’s very feisty in a similar way to Nicole. Yeah they’re very similar they’re not the same person but there’s a similarity is interesting as they kind of like each other it’s not weird they just like each other and that they get to keep their distance but they like each other it might be it might be misogyny it might be ignorance it could be racism if there’s reincarnation I don’t know, but I think most people have misunderstood her her whole life which is really creepy actually.” says the CIA.

“ but why do you care?!?” says the man in Belgium.

“ because that’s what I am!” says Lacey.

“ I don’t think you understand what I mean.

I find it offensive.

So why would you want to bring that up?” he says.

“ because your offense isn’t my priority.” says Lacey.

“ no, this is her personality.” says Tom Banks.

“ but why would you want to pick a fight with us?” says the perfume community.

“ well, I mean I don’t want necessarily to pick a fight with you. But if it came down to that well, I guess that’s just what it is.” says Lacey.

“ but that’s not a good thing!” says Mr. Cologne 76.

Lacey yawns. Sighs. Thinks, while clutching a pendant around her neck. Let’s crossed. Biting her bottom lip.

“ oh, no, of course not but I was exasperated!” says Lacey.

“ you are almost a carbon copy of Nicole Kidman!” says Mr. Cologne 76.

Lacey yawns. Thinks. Hand on hip. Legs still crossed. She thinks. “ you know I am in some ways. we’re different people, but there’s probably some genetic similarity…where there’s- I don’t know what it is…but there’s some similarity.”

“ do you try to sound like a man at times?” says Mr. Cologne 76. “ I think that’s what you’re doing but I think of her talking like you just did she be trying to imitate an older man.”

“ yes, I am actually I don’t know why. I’m not a man I’ve never been a man I’m not a man, but for some reason, I think my thoughts are expressed in a way that people take more seriously if I talk like that.” says Lacey.

“ but then people misunderstand you Lacey.” says Casi.

“ yes they do but in a way that I could handle up until recently, I preferred to be taken seriously over being considered beautiful attractive. My thoughts mattered more to me than people’s perception of my appearance, or something like that.” says Lacey.

“ Lacey that’s kind of ditzy!” says Chelsea Clinton.

“ you know it might be, but I am ditzy. Do I not get credit for being taken seriously there be you know trying to be taken seriously that’s quite humble and an end an intellectual isn’t that ad mirable or is that just meaningless because I’m the one doing it!?” says Lacey.

“Umm…but that Lacey that doesn’t work because people will misunderstand you.” says Laura Harring.

Lacey sighs. “Shit.” says Lacey softly. Primly. Almost with a British accent.

“ how much does she look or did she look like this picture before she aged recently?” asks Laura Harring.

“ a lot her lips aren’t as thick and her eyes look like Scotia‘s, which looks so much like yours but other than that, and her nose is a little little bigger, but other than that, it’s there’s something very similar about it.” says Lem. “ very similar to reality.”

“ that actually looks like Nicole Kidman‘s personality, big that is Nicole Kidman‘s personality. She’s not the person we thought she was and I think she is in the sense that we’ve been fighting with her the way that we would fight with Nicole Kidman because the people take her so much seriously I think they would take Nicole Kidman seriously too but maybe not quite as seriously as they’ve taken Lacey which is interesting so I do you have to point out that Lacey is extremely beautiful and does look like Scotia. The eyes in this picture are being clouded intentionally by Lacey for privacy reasons she is able to to hide her own spirit within her body so that doesn’t come through in her eyes because she doesn’t want anyone to see her and hurt her she’s not hurt and traumatized and some people have been very cruel about it including Chris Hayes because they don’t think that she’s has a Soulle or that she’s a psychopath or something that’s not at all what it is it’s not even association it’s that she literally doesn’t trust people for a legitimate reason. I am in the CIA if this blog is real defending her from the CIA through telepathy because she’s been so obscenely targeted she’s not paranoid she’s not delusional she’s not schizophrenic people really do hate her to a psychotic degree and honestly people not wanting to except that itself is hurtful because why would you assume someone’s crazy just for thinking people hate them that doesn’t even make any sense. The truth is when I think of Nicole Kidman and a brunettes body with beautiful brown eyes that are similar to Laura Herring but honestly Lacey is better looking. I’m sorry Lawrie is going to have to deal with it and I think she can. I think people can’t handle it because they want to think she’s warm and spicy like cinnamon. You would never do that to Nicole Kidman Nicole Ken buchu she can be warm. She really can be. She’s warm to Lacey but she’s not someone that you were just stereotype as a spicy warm person like pumpkin pie. But people have done that to Lacey especially lesbians because I think they see her brown eyes and her soft feminine features and they sense that she’s nice and loving and well mannered and then I think she’s warm like pumpkin pie. And that’s really offensive. It’s also really scary because it’s throwing. I mean if she’s Scotia if she’s really like psychically tormented to the pointing at me, I know she is but if she cyclically just psychically tormented and we’re having fires because of it, I mean, trust me she’s not just warm like pumpkin pie and no she’s not crazy and faking it is Nicole no could Nicole be intense and scary yeah, it was so was Lacey but that’s just their personality they’re not trying to be offensive that’s just their personality.” 

“So…she’s…not uptight.” says her aunt.

“No!!” says Nolan Teel. “Are you a pervert?”

A reader laughs.

“No.” she says.

“Then what’s your problem?” says Nolan.

“She’s not…like us.” says her aunt.

“Yeah. It’s like…where did you come from?” says Terese.

“If she’s my daughter…” says Margy. “I love her-“

“SAVE IT!” says Jackie Ploen.

Later.

“So…you’re…Old Money.” says a man in Belgium.

“YES.” says Lacey.

“ Then let me ask you something. Let me ask you, because, I actually think this is fascinating… why don’t you just buy better stuff?” he says.

Lacey thinks. “Like what!?” 

He smirks.

“Oh, you’re just full of shiff to? You don’t have a fucking clue what you’re talking about do you, you dip shit?” says Lacey.

“No.” he admits.

“But you love me and adore me if you think of me at all!? …I don’t still irritate you in the recesses of your mind!?” says Lacey.

“No that’s not true!” he says. 

“I know, so why don’t you just put a thought together that’s coherent and then share it with me!” says Lacey.

“Have we realize that this is her personality until tonight?” says the Illuminati.

“No.” says Martha Stewart.

“You’re not a lesbian at all you just look like a woman who played a bisexual woman in a famous movie.” he says to Lacey.

“You know I do look like her, but not enough if she’s even authentic to her character, where I would be in the same category as her. People are really presumptuous, and I have yet to find anyone be accurate in their perceptions, possibly almost ever…in this country, at least. …Are you American or are you an American wanna be?” says Lacey.

“ how are you? You know it’s creepy when I alter my thinking to think of you with a personality like Nicole Kidman I certainly don’t feel angry at you anymore because I realize you’re not really who I thought you were and you’re just angry at me for a good reason because I was a total jerk to you.” he says. “ but I don’t understand why you care so much about the class system. Why would you be offended that we would think you were lower class hold on I know that sounds bad, but why would you be offended that we would think you were a lower class if you don’t care?!”

“ because what class do you think of yourself in!? Your attitude was one were you were always superior to me, all of you! And that’s why I care! Because it was an insult. It was a condescending…stupid-as-fuck, insult!” says Lacey.

“ I mean that-that obviously would be aggravating!” says a psychologist.

“ were they all like that?” says a reader.

“Pretty much?

Maybe not at first? At…first there were a few people who were kind of indifferent and polite but then as time went on everyone just became so creepy…and it just got worse and worse…to the point where I couldn’t stand it anymore because there were a few people who were just obnoxious about it, I mean really, really obnoxious and I just felt the need to say something.” says Lacey.

“What did we do?” says Nancy.

“What did you?! You copied my mannerisms to a psychotic degree. You copying me really that’s what drove me. Crazy is that you copied me and the way you did it it was like you could somehow be me but better than me and to be honest I am so brutal that I could’ve probably handled that reality if it was possible, I’m not exaggerating, but you’re so fucking obviously not better than me and we’re so obviously different that it’s disgustingly stupid and I was aggravated beyond belief!” says Lacey.

“ have you seen our latest pictures?” says Casi.

“ you look insane, and Nancy looks like an expensive prostitute. But I hadn’t checked them out for a while.” says Lacey.

“ was Jack in denial that Lacey and Nicole Kidman are so much alike?” asks a Rockefeller.

“Yes, he very well may have been in extreme denial about that.” says God.

“ why did you guys copy her? I think about someone copying Nicole Kidman and it doesn’t actually make any sense. I think she would just think the person was a freak.” says a perfume collector.

“ because we didn’t know that’s who she was and we thought we were copying Laura herring or someone like that or someone like like someone like Katherine Heigl where it’s like it would irritate them but in this way were it was kind of cute. I like annoying, but like in a way where it’s like we were really going to get at her, like I feel like if we copy Laura Herring the way that we copy Lacey she would be irritated but we’d probably get some thing out of her like information. We were trying to aggravate Lacey to get her to be honest with us.” says Casi.

Laura Harring sighs, exasperated and freaked-out.

“ yeah but that’s not Lacey. Alys Seay looks like that a little bit but she looks just as much like Scotia is anybody and she has a personality like almost exactly like Nicole Kidman.” says another actress.

“ can I just ask the Kennedys? Why did you leave Lem’s alone with her I don’t I just I feel like lame is actually straight now that she explains it to us but I don’t even know what I don’t think it’s probably her. I think she does channel people I think someone like her could possibly accidentally especially if she’s ditzy on top of everything being a massive psychic, medium, I just think that personality with like I don’t know it’s just something else about her. It just seems like it’s someone who could actually be a psychic like a real psychic especially if this is real. She probably is a medium, but she doesn’t mean to be, and it’s not quite like that because she’s not into the occult. I don’t know if Nicole Kidman is, but I wouldn’t be surprised there’s just something witchy about that personality, even if they’re not a witch.

And then I think about Nicole Kidman she can be very seductive, and there’s an intensity to her, that if I understood him correctly, before I even read this blog, I would not have put it past that man to have tried experimenting with heterosexuality with someone like Nicole Kidman. No I’m not saying Nicole Kidman but I’m saying someone like that because it just somehow makes sense to me those two people, especially if he was depressed or drunk and they got into a fight. Nicole Kidman could be very feminine but there’s some in it that’s the thing there’s something about her where it’s like she gets so wound up, even though she’s intelligent where I think someone like him especially would find that fascinating try to calm her down, and in the process they could easily end up being an item Being together if you know what I mean, I just I can see it from like a clean out for my imaginary whatever my imagination actually it really like jumps out at me that he might not be gay I have a feeling he’s straight but I mean, I wouldn’t even leave Nicole Kidman alone with Peter Thiel I don’t know what it is about her but no there’s something about her all right I would never do that if I was in a relationship if I was gay, I would never never leave my boyfriend alone with Nicole Kidman. Don’t know what it is but if I wasn’t sure that he was 100% gay and he had no interest experimenting I would never leave my boyfriend alone with Nicole Kidman. I don’t know what it is but I would never do it. And then know there’s some thing about there is something about him specifically where I just feel like it would be a lost cause if something happened between those two they would just end up building off of each other, which is what’s happened and then it would be the end that I’m not saying that Nicole Kidman and Lem’s are together I actually think Lacey and Lamar but I wonder what that is it it’s almost like science but I don’t think you could pull those two apart. I really doubt if they ever gotten tangled which may be exactly what God had in mind but with humanity but that’s that’s the thing if they actually even are twin flames, and he was straight and then she makes the Lacey makes even more sense so I think live alone was bisexual or gay I Identifying and somewhat bisexual. I still think that him being with Nicole would be dangerous. If you’re trying to you know be in a relationship with him and you were cheating on him or giving him bad you know memories I feel like leaving him with her it’s just not smart there’s just something about her she’s a woman she’s straight but there’s just something about her. It’s not an insult you or if anything, it’s a compliment, and it’s just mysterious to me, but I would never leave supposed to alone. I don’t know why they never realized that, but that was very stupid. Except that I think what if line was straight and he wasn’t that they were stupid it’s that he outsmarted them because they’re actually twin flames. Lacey and Lem’s is she Dutch somehow she makes more sense if he’s straight as a twin flame so if he was straight and he outsmarted them boy did they get outsmarted I’m not saying he hasn’t been hell for Lacey and Lem’s but they really got outsmarted by him which is good more power to him I guess if he was straight but Yikes it amazes me that people have not realize this about him that he was like a ticking time bomb.” says a reader.

“ so we were trying to aggravate you.” says Casi to Lacey.

“ Because you thought you were better than me?” says Lacey.

“No.” says Casi.

“Oh no you do! You’re a little fucking conceited idiotic bitch aren’t you?” says Lacey.

“ I am somewhat narcissistic and conceded, but if anything, I think you are!” says Casi.

“Are you a retard? I’m extremely beautiful and extremely intelligent!

What’s your IQ? 12! You little worm? I’m not conceited, you worthless bitch!” says Lacey.

“ i’m not that stupid OK fine you really are probably extremely superior and how you look your intelligence is better than is higher than mine and you probably have an almost genius level of intelligence there you go!” says Casi.

“ that’s just reality! that’s just reality! Thanks for just finally catching up 10 years later. That’s fucking obvious!

There’s a reason I’m asking if you’re retarded. I’m not being completely facetious!” says Lacey.

“ yeah, I mean you are. I think Casi would agree but why the fuck do we have to care?” says another perfume collector.

“ because you guys care about shit like that! Because people generally care about shit like that! That’s just reality! What fucking world do you people live in!?” says Lacey.

“ I mean she’s right people do you judge people people do make assumptions people do come to conclusions I think she’s just baffled, Casi and Nancy as to how the fuck you just like begin to realize that she’s better than you five minutes ago it was really obvious Casi that she was extremely beautiful and that you weren’t and that Nancy was like street trash compared to Lacey. I don’t think Lacey hates people. I think she gets aggravated by peoples stupidity and she’s too embarrassed to be honest about it because it seems trifling to be that angry over just stupidity. Or she’s worried it’s too hurtful and so then she’s she yells and says are you retarded because in a sense she’s trying to be I think I’m sort of melodramatic about it to make it seem less serious or some thing I don’t know but I think it really is I think that’s part of it so aggravating and I’m working in the CIA so I’m probably not the best person to talk to you. It probably is more like the British have said where it’s just like gaslighting and it’s like a psychological, weird creepy maze, that you put her in.” says the CIA.

“What’s she doing right now?” asks Mr. Cologne 76.

“Eating homemade caramel. And an apple.” says the CIA.

“Where?” he says.

“Curled up on a vintage velvet sofa near her fireplace.” says the CIA.

Lacey licks caramel off her dainty fingers.

“She’s not like that.” says a woman.

“No. She’s literally doing that.” says the CIA.

“Then she’s LITERALLY Nicole Kidman.” says a reader. “Not literally. Close.”

“She’s…darker.” says an Italian. “So…every once and while she gets good Italian food. …Near her father’s old house. But…yeah. They’re very similar.” he says.

She sighs. Rubs her forehead. “Why not remarry!?” she says to Lacey in a sincere voice.

Lacey’s head edges back…her eyes widen-

The woman laughs.

Lacey still glares at her. Blinking. Looking intent and pretty, much like Nicole Kidman.

“Ha!” says Lacey. “Funny.”

“I’m not a lesbian.” says Casi.

Lacey’s breathing quickens. Nostrils flare. She takes a deep, sharp breath. Bites down hard. Clears her throat. Fights back searing rage.

A second passes in silence.

“I think…you’re bisexual.” says Lacey in a forced friendly and casual and cheerful voice.

“That’s what I’d say too!” says Governor Tim Walz.

“I mean…what is it? If it’s not bisexuality?” says Joel.

Casi shrinks away.

“You’re biting.” says Mr. Cologne 76 to Lacey.

Lacey blinks. Sweetly. With sincere sweetness. Confused.

“Are you trying to elicit sympathy?” he says.

Offended, and hurt, “NO!” she says.

“She’s not. Unless you’re a horrendous ugly beast.” says Lem. “And your wife is a cheap ugly dog.”

“It feels biting.” says Mr. Cologne 76.

Lem nods. “You’re a hick.”

“Maybe.” says Mr. Cologne 76, shrugging.

“No, I’m saying you have no idea what you’re talking about.” says Lem.

“I lived in New York!” he says.

“Then why would you honestly misunderstand her?” says Lem.

“I’m just as biting.” says a woman in London. “They seem less…sharp…in Europe. Both Nicole and Lacey react that way to American culture. …Don’t…be so…insulting.”

“What is it?” says a Black man.

“It’s so LOUD.” says Lacey. “It’s so anxiety producing.”

“You’re not corny. You’re…Nicole Kidman.” says Casi to Lacey.

Awkward silence.

“Umm…so…yeah. I mean I don’t identify that way…because…I- I’m straight??? …But…yeah. I guess I’m bisexual. By a…true…account.” says Casi.

“Did you have a crush on Laura Harring?” asks Lacey.

“I did.” says Casi.

Lacey thinks. “Why did you think she’d go for you?”

Casi laughs. “Because…she’s…my type. I dunno.”

“Is she!? …I can’t see you with Laura Harring.” says Lacey.

“Who do you see me with?” asks Casi.

Lacey thinks. “Someone…blonder. And bigger. …Actually your husband? Your husband is the male version of what I mean.”

Casi looks dumbfounded.

“You look like you belong with a blond. I think.” says Lacey.

Casi stares at her.

“You’re blond.” says Casi.

“Yeah. I was. But…not like that. Bigger.” says Lacey.

“Kay.” says Casi.

“Well I’m right.” says Lacey, indignantly.

“Casi…she kinda is.” says Harold Loeb.

“Damn that woman can never be decent to me.” says Lacey.

“Okay! You’re probably right about everything!” says Casi.

Awkward silence.

“If there’s reincarnation, you’re possibly nice and I’m sorry.” says Lacey.

“What perfumes do you think I should wear?” asks Casi.

Ivana Trump rolls her eyes.

“What you wore!” says Lacey.

Casi laughs. Rubs her forehead.

“So…I do think I’m possibly better than you…but I think that about everyone.” says Nancy to Lacey. “I’m…a narcissist. In a way. But…not really. …Why was I so aggravating?”

“I couldn’t figure out what you were about.” says Lacey. “You seemed…potentially very mean. …But…then you seemed…embarrassed. And then you seemed…competitive and very insecure.”

“I’m from the hood.” says Nancy.

“Yeah.” says Lacey.

“I’m embarrassed by that!” she says.

Lacey blinks quickly. “Are there a lot of drugs? In your old neighborhood?”

“Yes.” says Nancy, half smiling.

Lacey thinks. “Was it like that when you lived there?”

Nancy thinks. “No.” she says.

Lacey thinks.

“It went downhill.” says Nancy. “It was already bad. But it got way worse!”

“What do you think happened?” says Lacey.

“I don’t know!” says Nancy.

“I mean…it seems like Philadelphia…is a mecca. For drugs. And I don’t understand why.” says Lacey.

“Yeah. It is fascinating.” says Nancy.

“It’s extremely disturbing!” says Lacey.

Lacey eats Korean ramen with green onions now.

“Where?” asks Mr. Cologne 76.

“In my kitchen.” says Lacey.

“I’m sorry I offended you.” says Nancy to Lacey.

“What are you actually angry about?” says Lacey to Nancy.

“Not being able to date me.” says Matt Nesheim. “I’d have snubbed you.”

“Really?” says Nancy.

He nods. “Yeah. Your childhood poverty…would have creeped me out. …I’d have been nice to you. …Never been mean! Even behind your back. But…I couldn’t have handled your poverty growing-up. And you didn’t know that. But you guessed it. …And I think you’ve taken that out on Lacey. …But she’s not thinking like that.”

“I used to eat ramen like soup. …To you it’s naughty snack.” says Nancy.

“Yes.” says Lacey. “Unless you add eggs.”

“ I mean she’s not eating it everyday. Because we were raised better than that. But that’s what I couldn’t handle about you the fact that to you that soup to her she has no idea what to say to you right now I find your gross.” honestly admits Matt Nesheim. “ if you were more self-aware, and you were more ashamed of your background in a way it’s not like a real shame but if you were more aware of how shitty your background is and you were more honest about it, I could handle you as a girlfriend, but I could never date somebody like you because people like you don’t seem to be aware of how crappy your perception of things or your reading level or your writing ability or your tastes or your style of dress or your style of music or your eating habits are your like slummy we’re not we’re country and we’re not worth billions liquid but we are old money and I will fight over that because it’s just true. And I am not a mean person, but she grew up with people like me. I would have wanted an affair with her. If I hadn’t killed myself, I would’ve tried to have an affair with her, because she might not even be my cousin, and I found her extremely attractive But the thing is what I’m trying to say is that that’s what I go for is somebody like her because I understand her I know she’s not a stupid person who lacks self-awareness that’s your perception because you do and I think it seems like that to you because you lack self-awareness or you know other people who do and you like humility so if you had more humility and more self-awareness, I would’ve probably dated you or people like you, but from my experience, most of you are self-righteous, indignant assholes all the fucking time You can never seem to understand how you seem to other people and then you get angry at people like me who have more money have a better background and you want to blame me for everything and it’s so fucking stupid because I did everything I could to the point where I drove myself literally insane, and then killed myself. Literally, Lacey is dying or close to dying and she right stuff like that on this blog and people don’t even seem to give a shit who I like you. Because you’re still expecting handouts like Jack like Jack Kennedy you’re all expecting people to feel infinitely existentially eternally sorry for you because you weren’t born to the matter like we are and you were born skinny and you had to work and I’m sorry I’m sorry you had a rough childhood. I feel bad for you, but if you had more humility And you could take a criticism without dying I could probably have dated you. It’s not that you’re not attractive it’s just that I can’t stand how creepy you are to deal with and people like you.” says Matt Nesheim.

“ I hear you I actually hear you. Because I would be questioning you I would be expecting us to have a lifestyle that you wouldn’t think was reasonable and then I would powered about it and then you’d have to explain that to me and I probably try to manipulate you with sex and that would drive you crazy Some Ben would think that was kind of cute but I think you’d think it was trashy and annoying. And then, eventually, if I was in love with you, I’d probably just give up and that’s what I’m not like you’re wife for you married I didn’t do that you did that.

No, I mean you married a woman who does not respect you. I may have eventually respected you and been OK with the fact that you wanted to live in a budget and drive an old BMW that we owned and I am sorry that you never got a chance to meet somebody like me and try to put me in my place.” says Nancy.

He cries.

“ no, I swear I could’ve made myself be humble I really could’ve. I could’ve forced myself to be humble and eat differently, dressed differently, and bend more down to earth I could have I really could have.” says Nancy.

“ you think you genuinely could’ve submitted to a husband in Christ?” says Matt.

Nancy thinks. “ honestly as a Hispanic woman yes, with my Hispanic background, I could’ve made myself do it other parts of my personality or my background I don’t know but the part of me that grew up with a Hispanic mom I could have I could’ve I could’ve made myself do it.”

“ you know that’s sad then because I assumed that you weren’t capable of that because that’s how you came across to my cousin like an opera you permanently stubborn bitch.” says Matt.

Nancy thinks.

“ but if if I am I never did meet anyone like you to be honest if that’s really what you’re capable of no I never met anyone like you there were guys I knew in the military who were Hispanic, which you may not find surprising but they never introduce me to their sisters. I never met their cousins, I never got to know any of those people I got to hear about their girlfriends see pictures of them and that made me jealous and lonely but I never met anyone like that.” says Matt.

“ so I was in a fight possibly with you in my subconscious and then I just took it out on Lacey.” says Nancy.

“

Well, me and other guys in my family and other women in my family who think like me she doesn’t think like us entirely but we’re really that snobby we really are. We really are old money and we really are snobby but we’re not jerks and so if you had met us, you would’ve found out that we could probably get along. But you met her and then you just totally misunderstood her because she knows how I think she knows from growing up with us our value system, and what we think but she never really internalized it so she learned our social ways of relating to people that probably give people the wrong impression the times about her But she doesn’t really necessarily have our value system and you actually to be honest, you may have actually ended up criticizing her rand married a woman who’s somewhat Hispanic, my cousin brand and she has definitely criticized Lacey. She’s also complemented her but she’s definitely criticized her.” says Matt.

“ what is the Hispanic criticism of Lacey?” says Nancy.

“ I think women in your culture find her baffling because they’re very weird way you think like us you think like Norwegians. She is, she’s not a party she’s just correct we are old money you are beneath us. You should have talked down to her like she was beneath you that was really aggravating because it’s so insulting and stupid. That being said it would’ve irritated me, but not that that actually went to been my irritation and so eventually you would’ve learned to be a little bit different about how you spent money if you’re not as understanding of how to spend money as I am, you would’ve learned how to eat better if you weren’t raised as well that way either but then eventually you would’ve thought what the hell Lacey still doesn’t seem relatable to me and I’m doing everything that this family does And it’s not my like nature so to speak I didn’t grow up like this but I don’t know why she still feels so untouchable or or something and then you start thinking is she just not down to earth like us or is she just gay or is she just stupid or is she just evil or like what is her problem because it would feel like she still is so uptight and uppity.

The prop the problem is, I know she’s not. If there is reincarnation, I know that because I was a British aristocrat in my last life before this one and I know exactly what’s going through her head, and I actually find her very attractive because I do read her extremely well if I found this blog, it messed with my head, because I understood her in a way that most people do not. That being said if there’s not reincarnation, it’s like that but it’s just not reincarnation so um, it’s interesting that that that the captain in the navy is wearing a uniform I’ll say cause I definitely want a uniform. And I can tell you from our perspective I’ll say because you would’ve someone is simulated is that she’s not really a party she’s just a very rare person. It’s not fake. You’re in the presence of a very unusual person.” says Matt.

“ would you have cheated on me yes or no if I if I had submitted to you do you know what I look like? Would you have cheated on me?” she says.

“ that’s an awful question. It’s it’s like this if she wasn’t my cousin and I’d married you and you could actually save it and I’ll ask you the same question would you have cheated on me?” says Matt.

“ no, no I wouldn’t have cheated on you.” she says.

“ then I wouldn’t have cheated on you. I would’ve had a hard time being around her specifically though, but I think if we were happy enough, I would’ve just found some way to make sense of it and probably just been fine. I am sorry I feel like saying, don’t tell Kate this, but yeah if I’d married you, if you were really capable of submitting and not being a jerk, I’ll say I probably would still be alive. I loved Kate, but it was hard it was difficult. It was very difficult being married to her for me. she’s not a terrible person, but I just couldn’t do it and then I felt like a terrible person for wanting to end our marriage.” says Matt.

“ why is Lacey so special to you? I actually don’t think he would’ve cheated on Nancy why is Lacey so special to you that where it’s like when you’re down you read her blog and you think this woman would understand me or she’s so much like me or I just like her or something what is it? That’s so different about her that speaks to you so much, Matt?” says a Hispanic psychic.

“ to be perfectly honest with you you’re not going to like my answer but since you’ve asked nicely, I’ll tell you don’t tell Kate, Nancy, you’re not uptight.

Sex it’s about sex but sex isn’t just sex and I know that.” says Matt.

“ what do you mean exactly?” says Nancy.

“ what it’s like to see this is why I get so frustrated because if there’s reincarnation, I could explain this so easily, but without that as an explanation, I have no idea where to begin to explain myself.” says Matt.

“ you know Matt I think I got it you want someone who is just easy to be around who relates to you and gets you wanted to have level and you couldn’t find somebody like that and you don’t know how to explain that but I think I’m trying to help you.” says Marjolijn.

“ yes in a nutshell that is what it is if there’s reincarnation and there might not be I was a British aristocrat and we did have a different sex life and that sounds so silly but it was different and she lives there too and she’s with Lum, but I couldn’t find somebody who understood me in that way and it was really irritating even if there’s not reincarnation that’s sort of what I’m like and I I couldn’t find somebody who understood me. I couldn’t find somebody I just I couldn’t find somebody to really relate to.” says Matt.

“ You just got tired!” says Nancy’s husband.

“ yes that’s very well put I got extremely tired I just got exhausted with trying to live. It just got extraordinarily exhausting to me.” says Matt.

“ oh I know what you mean I do and you know what’s really sad is how separated people are because I mean it’s it’s like ridiculous because Lacey talk to Nancy they had conversations but they never met and if it was normal if things were like how they used to be Lacey and Nancy would’ve saw each other in person they might’ve gone to mass together and I like to think that when you’re trying to invite her to a barbecue that you and I would’ve met and had a conversation and you would’ve confided in me that you were in a bad marriage, I would’ve gotten it out of you maybe over a card game drinking late at night you would’ve finally told me the truth that you were miserable.

And being who I am, and not being uptight, I would’ve known you needed a girlfriend or wife, a different wife and I would’ve thought shit. This guy is going to kill himself if I don’t do something. And I I would like to think that I would’ve found someone for you as sleazy as that sounds I would like to think that I would’ve found someone who just knew it was casual that you were extremely lonely that it was bad that you just needed a friend someone to talk to someone to confide in And honestly coming from the hood it sounds weird but I think I would’ve been able to find a really nice good looking available young woman, I kid you not I think I could’ve found someone for you who is looking for something casual themselves and I wouldn’t be surprised if you guys would still be together I don’t know if you would be married or you just be going on lots of vacations waiting until the kids got older I don’t think you two would probably be with anyone but other but I wouldn’t be surprised if she was willing to wait just a few years for the kids to get older if you guys are really serious about it and then maybe and then maybe I don’t know 10 years from now maybe you would’ve left Kate I would probably married her because I do you understand I understand growing up in that poverty does give you perspective, and I think Lacey knows that and I think you know that too, you didn’t have any friends who are willing to put themselves out there for you like that?” says Nancy’s husband.

“ no, no I didn’t have anyone like that. I had friends, but I didn’t have any friends, who were quite that worldly or understanding of human misery or sophisticated enough to understand that I really needed help.” says Matt.

He thinks. “ because I mean you could date Lacey I guess but she’s your cousin and I think I could find someone who is like that who wasn’t related to you at all and I think that would’ve been easier for a lot of people including you and I’m sorry that I wasn’t that I wasn’t there for you, I mean I get it she might not even be your cousin and it’s like wow but there there are other people that I think I could’ve found who wouldn’t have been your cousin at all-“ he says.

“ I know, but we never met.” says Matt.

“ and now Matt’s dead.” says a Hispanic woman.

“arm, Lacey I think you’re like Nicole Kidman I don’t know if you’re like the character in eyes wide shut and I think that’s where the Kennedys got confused. You’re an you’re not like the character you’re like Nicole Kidman.” says the woman.

“ that’s correct.” says Lem.

“ how close is she to dying like right now?” she says.

“ hey it’s on a scale of 1 to 10 one being I am staying here because I think she’s dying even though I’m already here anyway a by choice and 10 being I am here my transportation could be around for another 70 years for 50 years she is at about three.” says Lem. “ she’s anemic. She has a congenital heart disorder that she’s not aware of. She’s weak she’s tired. She has air hunger that is potentially deadly. Least he doesn’t have an off switch because she’s a warrior at heart so when she wakes up in the morning she’s alert. If you wake her up, she’s alert she has no off switch and it’s not it’s not it’s not actually necessarily hypervigilance. It’s her personality. There is some hypervigilance but that’s not actually necessarily what it is. It’s her personality so she’s at about a three but honestly she seems like she’s at about 10. Her level of alertness, her level of lake determination and fierceness is about a 10 and it will be until she’s dead or she’ll be in a coma, and then she’ll die probably rather quickly because that’s just how she is. But no, she is not physically doing the best. She’s OK she’ll survive, but no her body is quite weak. I literally came close to killing her last night.

That being said she couldn’t she can make a full recovery almost 11, another 30 or 40 years. But she’s pissed off a lot of people and they’re dumb enough to not realize that if she dies, they could end up and close to eternal hell or excruciating suffering or they might just cease to exist. If they’re if they’re innocent, they’ll still have to deal with the reality of what they did to her accidentally.” says Lem.

Lacey thinks.

“ I don’t understand that woman.” she says to Lem about a woman.

“ she is thinks that you’re a lesbian like Laura Harring.” says Lem.

“ that’s why she keeps looking at me like that?” says Lacey.

“ yeah probably she probably subconsciously remembers that star in that iconic movie you’ve never even seen the movie it’s OK it’s very good he’s a genius, but I was irritated partially because that woman does have a slightly like yours but she’s not you and I knew that the whole thing was a set up to harass both of us so I could barely stand it and I’m not necessarily mad at David Lynch I’m mad at the Kennedys.” says Lem.

“ are they dumb? Do they not understand the differences and subtle nuances between different people in different situations and mannerisms and facial features? Do they not understand that stuff because to me it seems dumb like a really dumb are they dumb or or what?” says Lacey.

“ do you think that if we can’t tell the difference between a homosexual and a straight person based on their facial features in their body like a eugenicist expert working for the Nazis that probably never even existed that we’re just stupid not that we’re not like not that we’re average, but that we’re stupid!?” says a woman.

“ yes that is what it seems like to me even if that’s a little off that that is, but it seems like.” says Lacey.

“so you could be a literal, super genius because you had a math phobia and ADHD and you were being tormented. We don’t know that.” she says.

Lacey shrugs.

“ OK.” says the CIA.

“She’s…thinking…you’re a lesbian.” says Lem to Lacey.

“No!” says Lacey.

“No. She does.” says Lem.

“I HAVE NEVER EVEN TOUCHED A WOMAN!!” says Lacey.

“Yeah. …But that’s what she thinks.” he says.

“I AM STRAIGHT!!” says Lacey.

Lem takes a deep breath.

He shrugs.

“She…watches…movies.” he says.

“MY GOD!!” says Lacey.

“Yeah.” says Lem.

“Do men find it arousing or off-putting?” says Lacey.

“Both.” says Lem.

“I’m NOT HER.” says Lacey.

“I think…you’re stuck with me.” says Lem.

“That’s not the point!” says Lacey.

He nods.

“Forget female friends! BITCHES!” says Lacey.

“Yeah.” says Lem.

“I’m NOT HER!!!!!!!!!” says Lacey.

“Laura I’m sorry Lacey is a hell of a lot better looking than you. It’s not a compliment to her. It’s a compliment to Hell because you shouldn’t be put in that position and you’re not a compliment to her.” says David Lynch.

“So she’s better looking than a Miss America pageant winner, and a superstar?” says Laura Harring.

David Lynch nods. “She actually really objectively is yes.” 

“ no fucking shit. Movie stars are often very beautiful, but not always. That actress is very beautiful but I could name 20 actresses living and dead who are better looking than her. What is everyone’s fucking problem? Lacey is just objectively better looking than that woman. There’s a slight resemblance, and that’s it.

Why the hell do you miserable narcissistic assholes make such a fucking thing out of shit like this?” says Elliott Roosevelt.

“ so Lacey is not a lesbian at all?” says a woman.

“ no not at all that’s the character in the movie, whose she looks slightly similar to Lem’s was actually straight, and that is next level logic, but I would think that you would have enough intelligence and maturity and sophistication to realize that a woman who is better looking than a movie star, who seems heterosexual probably just is.” says Elliott Roosevelt.

“ who made that movie star famous there have to be other women that look like her and that generation probably or other generations that are older now and we don’t know about those women because I bet they’re too much like her. They’re not her, but I bet they’re like her a little bit, but they’re not famous, it’s women like her who are famous who are lesbians because of Lem’s what I’m saying is they’re famous because Linn was supposed to be Jack’s lover and Jack’s pissed off about it is that is that really all of this is is it just JFK’s obsession why is he obsessed? What is it is he obsessed with Lem’s? Is he actually the narcissist is everything I’m not saying loves a narcissist so I’m saying is he actually because he’s a narcissist the one who is obsessed I know that’s been said but I’m trying to get clarification is that actually what happened? The Jack was obsessed with lamb and still could be if he was around to do that and make more of a mess so it was, is Jack, the one who was obsessed or what’s going on what what’s going on?” says Mr. Cologne 76.

“ Jack was the one who was obsessed with people say that Linn was in love with him they say that Linn was devastated without him. They say that Lamb kissed Jack’s grave you know every day that’s all bullshit. A lot of that stuff is believed, apparently by the Kennedys themselves but it’s bullshit.  David Lynch was in sexual romantic relationships with numerous women and he used to make facial expressions like a lot. If you were to look at David Lynch, you would realize that Linn was probably straight because he was no more straight looking than that I mean, he looks more gay than Lem’s does, and he was with women And he actually was more gay than that but he was still with women lens facial expressions are just nonsense. Unfortunately, if you hoped he was gay, he was straight he made a lot of really convincing facial expressions that looks gay or his student gay Waze, or he made his eyes look gay, are you combed his hair gay or he gave off a gay vibe but that wasn’t really his real personality and if you look at enough pictures of him, you can see that you can see that he was faking it .

Jack was the real thing Jack was bisexual. He was mostly gay, but he was bisexual at the very least. He was bisexual. He was mostly gay, but he was bisexual, and lame seemed like the one who was obsessed by Jack’s design love was supposed to see him that way, but with Jack was pulling the strings, creating that perception in other peoples minds because he wanted people to think that Linn was obsessed with him because I think it be Jack happy to think Ploen was obsessed with him even though he wasn’t and a lot of Jack’s don’t you know don’t don’t date me don’t come near me you know I’m not like that I’m not that kind of boy don’t ever talk about this again or I’ll never be your friend ever that’s bullshit. That was Jack playing mind games with lame And trying to seem straight. It was bullshit. Because at the same time, Jack was making jokes about sex all the fucking time with that gay sex. He was making notes with euphemisms to lamb like hit. You want to eat dinner tonight in the bedroom wink wink I mean it was stupid shit like that like I support you With an underline sup for sup as in supper as in I support you as an I give you my dick to eat. I am your supper I support you. He made stupid crass, dumb ass jokes like that that wouldn’t be detected and then he’d say things openly like don’t ever talk about homosexuality again lame I don’t want you to ever touch me ever again I’m not that kind of boy How dare you because women used to do stuff like that too they used to slap men when men would try to kiss them that was a thing and those women were not always sincere. Sometimes they were say no but some women actually did that for real because they were playing games with men’s minds and that’s part of how so many were innocent got confused because women would play games like that in the past they don’t really almost ever do that anymore but they used to And that’s what Jackie was doing and I don’t know why no one is understood that but that’s what he was doing. That’s why London disappear that’s why it was just a farce. Jack was never gonna get rid of one, but but he was obsessed with him.

But at the same time, mom was actually straight, and even though Jack was obsessed with Latin, he wasn’t really capable of being in love with people or faithful. He was a total dog, so he cheat on them all the time he was obsessed with them, but then he also felt as though he was entitled to sleep with anybody else that he wanted so men women he just felt entitled, and it was vicious. He was a very vicious person, and that way there are some historians have had the guts to say that he was a predator And recent decades but I don’t think people of ever really outright label to him that which is a shame, so yeah Jack was a sex predator and one was straight and confused and vulnerable and he just kept him in that state and lamb. Got less confused after Jack died, but at the same time he wasn’t because a lot of that was just like him being suicidal and drug addled And lonely and then giving up and committing suicide.

But no, Jack may have actually psychically talk to people in Hollywood in their heads like a demon or used in demons and said to them, you should hire her. You should make this woman, famous and honestly she’s she’s a very good actress and she was beautiful but he did do stuff that was that convoluted and desperate why because he couldn’t let go he knew Le might be straight but he lived in a delusional bubble and so when he died, he was shocked to find out the truth and it made him extraordinarily angry. Just livid and he lived in delusion in purgatory for a while, I’ll say.

Oh, and then, when love died, let refuse see if you talk to him and Jack lost his shit and if there’s reincarnation, that was part of the reason that they made Lacey come back because he realize that Linn was never gonna talk to him again that lamb was never in love with him that their friendship wasn’t really even real because it was based on a misunderstanding of Jack’s character That lamb actually hated Jack, and to be honest if his CIA killed, Jack Lemmon knew about it I’m never worn the Jack Lemmon let Jack die, and that was some thing Jack was in severe delusion about until them died, and then when love died and he wouldn’t talk to him he realize that if if there’s is if the CIA killed him, he realize that Lem knew and that lame just didn’t care. 

He realize that Lamb knew and lamb didn’t care. Do you realize that lamb was giving heroin to Bobby to kill him not because of a misunderstanding he realize stuff like that with them, didn’t die and just run into his arms and start chatting he realized that he was really genuinely Never in love with him straight the whole time and not his victim.

I am by not his victim I mean he was his victim, but that it wasn’t like he really made this man gay or that or even bisexual or pansexual were that they were going to be together forever he realized that he was a cheat, and that he cheated himself, and he couldn’t handle it. And why couldn’t he handle it because he was spoiled those kids were incredibly spoiled very little pain tolerance so speak and so do not know if people live today probably could say that to be honest life is so miserable now for most people that that’s not as common, but they were they were a trouble generation, but if you were extremely rich like the Kennedys and your father demanded you be allowed in any hospital at any moment whenever you wanted you got confused.

There are there was a kid who died because Jack forced his way ahead of the kid in line at a hospital in Boston.

Jack feels incredibly sorry for himself or dead, just deeply sorry for himself even though he might’ve slightly knowing that love was straight even though he was an asshole to them who used him he expected all of his delusions to be true so he genuinely thought Linn was madly in love with him Was never exaggerating, was just totally sincere, and that he was sucking his cock with the utmost you know of love and arousal, and that he didn’t really have sexual needs of his own other than to suck his cock. Which is absolutely disgusting, but Jack actually thought that Jack actually thought that lame didn’t need socks other than to give him head he was dumb enough and misogynistic enough to think that all I needed to do is just give him oral sex to be totally satisfied sexually as a person 100%.

Jack thought so highly of his own penis. Jack thought, so highly of himself, that, even though he gave Lem’s deadly sexually transmitted diseases without warning him, even though he was never faithful to them, he thought that just by virtue of letting them suck his cock that lamb was probably spoiled and happier than a clam. That was how profoundly conceited and psychotic Jack actually was. Lem was a great actor, and he was and he was straight he was sincerely heterosexual, and a very good actor. And Jack and Anna love was very sweet, very loyal, very resigned to a miserable, sexless life, thinking that he was a mutant. And Jack really long was the one was sort of a dirty old mad, but he also thought that he was a mutant and he could’ve been faithful. I am not dramatically different than Lem’s but I never thought it was gay. Lem is just a very good actor.

And jack jack jack was a horribly arrogant conceited, narcissistic weirdo, who genuinely cannot fathom reality at times. Lacey‘s appraisal of his art is actually accurate and I would not say this, but I think I should there were people in the CIA possibly who saw his art very similarly to Lacey. Some of them were involved with Nazis or people who had been who would actually kept tabs on those boys so to speak when they were in Germany and seen jack come onto lot, may have even spied on them and their hotel hotel rooms, and they knew that Jack was gay Not straight at all according to some people, although I actually think he was bisexual because he did have real sexual experiences with women, and he fell in love with them as much as he could but there were some people who just thought he was gay who were Nazis? And then there were some who thought that he was bisexual And that he was a real conniving character and so when George Bush who was not a Nazi, but had Nazi friends was not running the CIA but was very involved in the CIA was tasked with dealing with his situation. He did sort of rely on some Nazi evidence from their vacation in Germany to cooperate the whole thing And yeah he was the one who had to deal with Patel Castro because Fidel Castro was genuinely one the one who put the hit on JFK’s life.

The mafia was involved the illuminati was involved. The CIA was involved, but it was Fidel Castro, who really told everyone to take him and you know shoot him in the face.

A lot of the stuff that you read should be taken not with a grain of salt, but intelligently the Warren commission is bullshit. It’s not complete bullshit but it’s bullshit. Lacey‘s father was involved in white water. Taxi was involved in Watergate and I was too, but it was we were not the first people to be spying on anybody we were just caught at a time when people were looking for a reason to fight the government, and part of that was because of JFK some people knew instinctively that the CIA had shot him a lot of boomers knew that the US government head shot JFK they figured it out intuitively.

And they did I’ll just come out and say it because Lacey wants to in the world. I’m mad because I was in love with her and it didn’t work out so I’ll just say it we shot him I didn’t but I knew about it and a lot of other people did too Including my mother and my father. God bless him in the grave, but a lot of people knew, and we just felt like he was total scum, but it really was Fidel Castro who put the head on his life. He was willing to go to great lengths if we didn’t kill him so we quietly had to do that or deal with Fidel Castro and we knew that if we killed Jack he would be a piece. It wasn’t just like it was gonna keep escalating. We knew that he was really personally angry at JFK, he felt like Jack had it sort of a psychotic hatred for some people and he was one of those people and he might’ve been right. He thought that Jack has his bizarre obsession with him an operation mongoose was very weird exploding cigars, flesh eating you know scuba suits it was strange stuff.

And I think Fidel Castro thought why don’t you just try to shoot me Jack why don’t you give me a lethal overdose of some thing why don’t you do something normal? Why are you trying to kill me with my cigars or or you know make me choke on my lasagna. It was sadistic and weird. And it was just it wasn’t just one time it was over and over and over again and he was just sick of it after the Bay of Pigs after everything that happened with other stuff that you guys don’t even necessarily know about in different areas of the world, he was sick of Jack. He was totally sick of Jack. He did not respect how Jack dealt with Russia Because we have been getting closer and closer to peace and Jack fucked it up really we were getting closer to having sort of a detente in the Cold War and jack totally fucked the whole thing up by being a dumb ass in conversations with Krushev. And so no it’s just like one thing after another in Fidel‘s opinion and I actually did get along with Bill Castro but no he was. He was a really annoying person to deal with unfortunately and so Fidel Castro just thought no it’s self-defense. I’m sick of you know watching my back every time I leave the house And in my own kitchen I’m going to just have to kill this stupid little bastard and so he did he put a hit on Jack’s life and the mafia got a lot of slack for it and I wouldn’t be surprised if that’s part of why Lacey‘s father and Luigi if his family was involved in the mafia are so angry because they took the hit they did they took the credit they took the blame and then Lacey is living a shit life and I think it’s just a bit much considering that he would have even been president if they hadn’t gotten him the election if they hadn’t bought the election if the sense they bought the election if they hadn’t been the middleman between the Kennedys and the US government, the Kennedys would’ve never had the White House. It was a close election. They were very good at politics, but not like people think they are Lacey’s brilliant at politics. I’m not bad either, but my father was FDR and her father ran Minneapolis. Joe did not understand politics any intelligence those kids had was from their mother when it came to politics, and she wasn’t all that gifted but I mean, Ted wasn’t a terrible politician, but if they were these epic brilliant geniuses that you think they were that really in a creepy sense is more Lacey’s thing and lemons thing in my thing and other peoples gifting who you don’t really know about. So yeah I mean it’s just sad but no he was. He was popular people like to think of him as JFK but that’s a myth he was. He was bisexual mostly gay and he was obsessed with lime and then he went to far when he was president and he got shot because he was obsessed with using meth And then he accidentally kept trying to kill Fidel Castro and Salvador Castro killed him.

He a he was good at giving speeches. He was good at seeming smart, but you know, so is Bobby so we’re a lot of journalist it’s a way of talking and Jan from the office the character Jan is sort of a parity on that concept. There are a lot of people who live in the last hundred years in America seemed so smart, so soft so together, but they kind of have trajectories and that is the case with every person like that but a lot of those people have trajectories like Jack And Jan where they get shots or they get fired.

I mean, let’s be real Jan and Jack are free police similar although that actress is a heck of a lot prettier than Jack could be as a woman, so I’m not sure that I like that she’s a very beautiful woman. Jack would never be that beautiful. I’m sorry, but but but there’s a similarity in the characters in the sense that she starts her candle business And then obsessively tries to make her way back into the into the office so to speak and that is kind of Jack he yeah he he became obsessed with Lacey and I think he felt like somehow that was the right thing to do to take all of his anger at Lem’s out on her Even though that’s sort of just strange and psychotic that’s what made sense to him was to take all of his rage that he felt it. Lame out on Lacey.

The thing is F Scott Fitzgerald, things that because Linn was straight and placated jack in an attempt to be gay and honorable and a good husband, which is really actually possibly pretty innocent like his intentions whether whether it’s allowed in heaven, his intentions were innocent, so he was innocent and his intentions, but because he was straight and horribly confused, and Jack was just taking horrible advantage of him And him trying at all. I don’t know that he tries that hard to please Jack I don’t think he could as a straight man, but I think he kind of tried as much as a straight man could in that situation without being without violating himself too much at least maybe it was not at all but I think he was Him and so he gave him head and Jack got very confused. Because Jack thoughts, I think Jack thought that somehow everything was OK because he did manage to make this buff. Masculine porn watching tough guy with an out with albeit with asthma and bad vision, suck his cock, a man who is very good and bad with women but it’s only wants to be with Lacey and just deep sensitive straight man suck his cock. And so he had Lum sucking his cock with one was a very straight man and not in the way were lemon was scared because Lem’s thought he was gay. I mean love was scared because he was straight and he was going against his own nature and it made him very uncomfortable, but he thought he knew what was going on so Jack being not the brightest bulb on the tree thought that somehow lamb was really OK with it to some degree. And I think thinking that he was fulfilling loves needs, thinking that he was somehow a really great lover, letting them suck his cock teasing him about it and helping him out, giving him money giving him a job even though I almost think I might’ve rather just been left alone I think Jack thought that he was still a really great lover, unusually good, and probably mysterious to because he was so straight. So then, so then basically, Jack got the wrong impression about life he got the wrong impression about death. He got the wrong impression about a lot of things. God knows that Jack does not exist right now, but Lacey hopes is temporary and got by to because Jackie did it to himself, but he may have legitimately gotten very confused in his life.

So he yeah, it’s like you know it it is it’s like hitting someone saying it’s like having a snake and it is what happened is because of a sadistic him out of control that he deserted over lame and because of his father‘s money and because of a lot of other factors, it essentially was as if Jack had a pet snake Who he trained to suck his cock literally it was almost exactly like that psychologically where he literally had like a deadly snake, who had somehow trained to give him oral sex.

If there’s reincarnation, there are some Japanese people who might find that comical, but there might not be reincarnation, but but that’s that that is what happened in a nutshell Jack found a deadly snake, and because of the nature of the situation managed to train the steak, which sounds psychotic May actually be impossible but no fact it is impossible, but I don’t know psychologically if it’s any different so he trained a snake essentially on a psychological level to give him oral sex with Len Billings, and then that snake was his pet so he carry the snake around Pettit. Tell everyone this is my pet snake, we like to sleep together as a euphemism an a lot of gay men thought it was just glorious because the snake was so beautiful and it made Jack seems so exotic an impressive. I don’t know that they all knew Linn was straight been Bradley saying I guess we all knew Linn was gay is bullshit. No, they didn’t read faith thought he was bisexual and no they didn’t all know that was gay if they knew that there would be more evidence probably and it would be verifiable not just by mysterious friends from the 70s, but by Ben Bradlee himself or Frances Macado by name, so no they did not all know that lamb was gay rather if I said straight, I meant gay they did not all know that lame was gay. That’s bullshit that’s Kennedy spent that’s been Bradley kissing the Kennedys ass.

So no, they did not know that they wondered because he acted gay but I think they thought there was something strange going on and they didn’t think about it because it was too disturbing and some people might’ve thought he was gay. Some people definitely thought he was straight, and I thought he was probably straight and believe it or not. I intuitive that he’s been molested or something like that and that he was probably just really screwed up psychologically I’m pretty tall and I was in the army and I was not intimidated by him but then because of that I actually felt so much sorry for him and I I saw through him and I thought I don’t think he’s gay I think he’s straight, and just not taking care of himself But there were other people who thought that to you and yeah, we killed him we killed Jack and then when Ronald Reagan took office, he found out and he was very cruel towards them and that was hard on them psychologically and I think Lammers told you that I think I was more upset about his life, but I also think part of his resignation and his decision to just kill himself was possibly because Reagan was a jerk Tilla, and I almost wonder if something was supposed to have happened were lame would’ve felt like he could maybe marry a woman or date a woman even though I’m not sure he would have, but I’m just saying I think somehow something did happen with Reagan, because Reagan was bisexual and closeted I’m not saying he wasn’t in love with his wife. He was very much in love with Nancy, but I think he was insecure about that about the fact that he was bisexual. He slept with a few men to get a head and Hollywood and he was very very deeply insecure about that, Nancy didn’t probably think anything of it and they were very much in love, but he was possibly very insecure about that, and so in his insecurity he probably lashed out at one because I think he empathize more with Jack even though Jack was in a different party I think he just empathize with Jack and I think Lem’s seems like a snobby old bunny, spoiled straight little twat to Reagan, I think Reagan might’ve knowing that lame was straight.

No, I’m serious I think Reagan new Lem’s was straight, and I think that was part of the reason he was so cruel to him because I think he thought that somehow one was just obnoxious and actually yes, that was part of my gravel couldn’t stand him because he was straight so, but it was a horrible situation, but no Jaquin around advertising that his snake loved him and a lot of gay men fell for it and they couldn’t they couldn’t quite they couldn’t quite handle the fact that one was straight probably because they were afraid of being rejected by other men and so it was like no I’m gay Lame is gay, even though he wasn’t the captain trying to convince themselves of that because if they could convince themselves alone was gay, then they would feel probably more confident with approaching men who barely not be gay, or trusting that their boyfriends were really in love with them, but no Jaquin around advertising, his relationship with lamb that was nonexistent And everyone fell for it and it was nonsense. Actually no one I would say not everyone fell for it, but they’re all over a lot of gay men who did a lot of bisexual men who did a lot of women who did and no Lacey would not have been one of them, my mother wasn’t I think Most of my wives would not have fallen for it, or did not say Emerson was probably somebody who wouldn’t have known either way, but she knew too because people told her that love was straight. There was a contingency of people in the CIA, who genuinely psychologically felt that one was straight they interviewed him they talk to him, and they believed he was heterosexual and that something tragic could happened and that he just needed to date women and move on and the live happily ever after they didn’t know how messed up he was in his head they did not anticipate him getting survivors guilt, or feeling guilty about Jack’s death They thought that if they could kill Jack that long would be liberated, and then live happily ever after they didn’t realize that lame as masculine as he was as straight as he was, as much as he wanted sex with women they figure that out they do not understand how genuinely confused And complicated Lem’s actually is and was. And he’s not actually that complicated if you sit down and talk with him in a respectful way, he’s not that complicated, but a lot of people you know kind of in America especially came out him with these presuppositions about everything or these preconceived ideas and some people could figure out that he was straight, but they yeah they couldn’t quite help him out of his confusion. It wasn’t delusion out of his confusion And Lacey could have instantly, but she wasn’t there and so we shot Jack and alum tried dating a few people, but he had sexually transmitted diseases. Matt possibly just herpes, but he definitely had herpes, and he just couldn’t bring himself to ruin some woman’s life with his diseases, and his self perceived, homosexuality And so then he just started using drugs because he was so damn depressed by the whole fucking thing.

People think I made stuff up I did, and I didn’t dislike is interesting in that way. This actually is historically what happened but there’s not a great way to cooperate that and I am a dead person so-

 So anyway oh yeah the CIA shot Jack Fidel Castro was the one who put the head on Jack’s life but it was it was actually a lot of different countries apparently and also the mafia who were involved and any illuminati skull and bones, but it had something to do with it, but it was certainly not just Call and Bob’s arm oh I’ll let’s see what else so then yeah I guess basically yeah Jack just became obsessed with taking out all of his rage on Lacey. I know she didn’t deserve it but he doesn’t understand how dumb that is to torment. Lamb destroy his life and then, when he finds out that he tormented them and destroyed his life to turn around and take his frustration and rage as a repressed closeted bisexual who was hurt because Linn was straight and wasn’t in love with him out on Lem’s wife, who is totally innocent. 

So, for some reason, it seem like a good idea to Jack and his spoiled dumb ass or he to beat up Lacey because he died and found out that Lem was irritated by him for being a total fucking narcissistic sociopath, and that Lem was straight, and that Jack had raped him. Why well because Jack felt hurt. Jack felt hurt.

Jack was hurt because somehow, unfortunately in Jack’s sorry state, he never realized that he could be rejected people always think that people who are insecure and some innocent Sweetway do it Jack did and that’s ridiculous. Sometimes that’s true but in Jack’s case he really was just that dumb. He really did not fully grasp the concept that he could be rejected. Why well they didn’t have a self actually Warren’s novel but no and that actually was part of it. Lacey was trying to write about in her novel that is disappeared. She wrote it well. Queen Elizabeth was still alive, and then she fell down the stairs, and it just disappeared And it’s sort of sad and funny because this blog is infinitely more damaging to the Kennedys in that book would’ve ever been. I’m not even sure who would’ve read the book you know if it had been published as possible. Matthew would’ve probably tried talking with her more but I think I’m could’ve figured out what to do I could too But that that is sad, because throwing her down the stairs and keeping the book from being published, all that That did was create this blog, and possibly a lot of other problems for that family, and anyone else that was behind it. And that’s not just that was not her trying to be you know cruel that actually is just sort of how things worked out because she’s a writer and she needed to write. And so then it’s absurd but then that’s Jack does not exist that their reputation is permanently destroyed because he just couldn’t leave Lem’s’s wife alone.

Oh, what happened? Oh yeah I mean so he was really rich and that was in the early 20th century before Kennedy‘s assassination right before work before World War II before a lot of shit went down and there were a lot of diseases back then but the earth was a lot healthier. People were happier things were just better and it wasn’t perfect but they were a lot better in a lot of ways and they are now yeah, there was a race schism, but I have to be honest with you, there were still black communities. This is where liberals lie. Yes, there was racism, but they had it ripped apart all those black communities to put in the highway system yet. There were old black barbershops and churches there were really substantial black neighborhoods and it’s sad that they existed December degree because of red lining but they did exist and they were strong communities and that was very uplifting to the Black people I mean yeah, there was very schism. There were lynchings, and that way things have gotten better for them but They do it they they had I I think they knew each other better. I think they knew themselves better as people I think they had a stronger self-esteem they knew they were just losers. I feel like in the last 40 years they very often felt like losers, and they’re not and back then they still knew that Martin Luther King Jr. was a strong man, but he was not that exceptional. There were a lot of very intelligent, strong articulate brilliant men in the black community of many of whom would’ve made great presidents and I don’t think that people understand that, so yeah it was bad yeah and racism has made things what racism has gotten better But I think it would be dangerous to oversimplify that and I bet there’s a lot of conservative black politicians who might agree with me that the racism obviously was bad that we’ve obviously made progress, but that there were some human tragedies along the way and that somethings really aren’t better there far worse.

So so, so um, Jack got spoiled he did he was naïve. People were naïve back then, and he really bought his fathers hype about him and everyone else. So he thought that somehow he could have sex with anyone he wanted cheat on whoever he wanted and that was perfectly acceptable. He thought that women would fall in love with you and stay in love with you even if you slept with hundreds of other people, threw it in their face and didn’t give a shit how they felt about it, if you were him or his dad or his brother hit, he didn’t realize that there was like no exception for them because he truly believes as wealthy as they were as straight as they were and they weren’t that straight, but a straight as they were, and yes, there is some anti-English backward, Irish Catholic sentiment to that that, somehow, by virtue of being Irish and Catholic, they were more heterosexual than those fake it Englishman

So they thought, as heterosexual as they were as handsome as they were, but most of all, as rich and glamorous and sophisticated as they were with all of their boats, and they’re pretty close that somehow, and they’re studying matters in public, not in private, because they had terrible table matters that somehow they could get away with it, and Joe was quite good looking Joe Junior Joe Senior wasn’t a bad looking at either. He was handsome, but they weren’t. I mean I was better looking possibly than all of them and they were other men in my generation who are really very handsome to and so they just had these grand grand delusions that are really quite fascinating because if you think about the beauty of nature at that time, combined with the speed of travel, and the progress it was a golden age because people could drive they could take trains they could fly, they had medicine there was a radio there’s dancing and they could wear lipstick and high heels but the earth was still somewhat healthy and so the air smelled better and they were spring and there was fall in the summers were too hot and there weren’t deadly mosquitoes it was really extraordinarily beautiful and so someone like Jack saw that and thought yeah I can get away with anything I want And he really tried to do that. He really believes he was Jack Len was trying to paint a picture for you the other day of what happened but it I mean it is what happened Jack Woodleigh they’re just waiting to get his oral sacks for the day or the week from lame and then you know he’d get it and it probably wasn’t even very good, but Jack didn’t know that Because Jack wasn’t good at sex and all honesty that’s a myth and there are men who are that good but he wasn’t one of them him and no I’m not trying to be ironic. There’s other people who I’ve apparently I am, but there are other men who are as well in my generation at the very least and people thought he was one of them, but he wasn’t so no he lay there, but I would do his thing whatever the hell that even really was which is sad and sick and disgusting and then Jackwood you know think he got his giggles off in being a really good mood thinking he’s gotten his daily dose of love so to speak.

Jack was think he had all that he had conquered lemon, all of humanity with just the bigger amount of pleasure that he’s experience and I think he probably did orgasm, but probably no more than I mean. It was a pretty shitty orgasm OK pretty ordinary, pretty blasé, if an orgasm can be blasé, maybe not quite as good as masturbation cause you can have freezing orgasms masturbating, but it was not quite that good because Linn wasn’t interested in it at all and Jackson know that but you know physiological physiological touch and all that so love so Jack got off and had a little fun got a little roused Thought it was the best sex ever because he was an idiot possibly in that way I’m smiling, fucking idiot and oh his vanity and believing he was just experience in the most supreme pleasure is just absolutely disgusting because it really wasn’t good at all. I mean, it was OK, but it wasn’t good at all and he was convinced that it was just the cats meow.

So he would be done you know, and then he lay there feeling like a probably a seductress of the century, like a vixen in a man’s body, and the love would probably do exactly what he said he’d walk off and slap himself and have a cigarette and possibly contemplate killing himself every time he really did know Jack was going to be assassinated and he really did not care. And so lame would walk off and cry like a man slap himself and then get drunk in the bathroom usually and I’m sure you know us was buzzing around, like a bee is happy she could be totally unaware herself how shitty everything was they were obtuse that whole family was completely obtuse, I think David was less obtuse which is why he ended up dead so young I don’t know about Saoirse but they were obtuse. They did not know that we killed him. I really don’t think any of them figured it out. I still think they kind of wonder, but not really know that’s not true as I think Bobby might really wonder, but I don’t know I wonder if he really wanders

So so, so love would slap himself think about killing himself and then you know go get a drink, and then Jack with lay there thinking he was the hottest piece of shit to ever exist smiling yes, a bit like Barney fife and you know he might’ve gotten up, stretched a little bit, taking a few more drugs, drank a little more smokes maybe cross his legs and read the newspaper like a gentleman Thinking he was a posh American British aristocrat, even though he was definitely not.

Probably wearing a very smart set of clothes, perfectly tailored pants a polo shirt that was also tailored with his tan body that he let get fat because he began to realize possibly I think that he was scrawny and so I think he gained weight in the White House, because he realized how scrawny he was when he kept being photographed. I am lame. Did not realize that that was why lame was not gay at all and possibly really bad husbands to a man because that was definitely not something that was in his wheelhouse so to speak I’m sure he might’ve tried as much as he could but no, he did not know that Jack was gaining weight, because he felt ugly I know that because I was married to enough women to figure it out because women used to do that back that they used to gain weight to look prettier but I think Jack might’ve been doing that. I think Jack legitimately might’ve thought that he looked better with a little more weight

Him so I think he was gaining weight to look sexier on camera him, but he felt very self-confident no insecurities, that he expressed outside of his narcissism. So he yeah I mean he would’ve sat there, smoking and drinking and feeling fabulous after getting his head from Lem’s has Lemmers. And then someone would’ve come in and greeted him. Then he would’ve greeted them with a very big smile because he was a very charming narcissist, and the Secret Service would’ve been happy that he was gonna be less bitchy for the rest of the day because he was a huge bitch to that he get very temperamental, very very temperamental.

You couldn’t reason with him everything was a travesty nothing was going right everyone was in his face even though nobody was everything was just not the way that it should be and Jack Kennedy was not going to stand for it. Dammit Jack Kennedy was definitely not going to stand for it And so he was a huge freaking bitch a total pain in the ass to the Secret Service he would choose them out tell them off I have them running around doing favors for him. They shouldn’t have even been doing getting him drugs getting him women getting him food probably scratching his back rubbing his back Being his travel companions carrying his golf clubs he is he treated them like his little chew toy slaves the entire time I know no one said that before but he did he was a total fucking asshole to the Secret Service.

So that could also be part of the reason he got shot they may have turned on him because he was legitimately obnoxious. He did beat lame with the back of a gun and it’s possible that one of the Secret Service agents defected and told somebody and I’m sharing that right now in case, if there’s any lingering energy from Jack that wants to get into a fight with somebody other than Lacey.

So no, he was a total nightmare to deal with, but with the one lung will give him head, poor lamb, who is in misery he would be a little bit better kind of like after Dr. Feelgood came. The downside with Dr. Feelgood was that he was hyper as could be, because he was high after Dr. Phil, good with lamb he would become sort of mellow and grand and cheerful, and just the most charming man you’d ever met. Temporary light in large part because Linn was straight and whether Jack knew it or not he felt like he was doing something very evil possibly by making them do that with him but then the sad thing is that it wasn’t just that he was enjoying the evil, but he also was I think sincerely thought Linn was in love with him so a little part of him sadly who is probably feeling loved by love, and that was delusional and dangerous, but he didn’t think that through because he was a vein idiotic narcissist and so he thought oh Inola loves love with me he’s just tragically obsessed with me. He really believes that to some degree oh and then he would feel a little bit better because he thought Linn was in love with me. We just had sex even though it wasn’t really sucks. It was just love servicing him, but I guess no way it was but her intent does matter and he never really looked into that. He never really investigated what Linn was feeling. Well he did it because he was a narcissist, so he just assumed that loan was over the moon Lamb never moaned lamb never sides actually lamb never made any noises of desire or pleasure as many gay men do today. He just gave him head in a very clinical cold. This is gross. I hate this, but I’m doing it because I think I should or have to type of way I know Jack didn’t think anything of it. No moaning no no real interest just you know touch him However you have to to get him to come and leave you the fuck alone that was that was all that that loved it. There literally was no moaning. There was nothing there was even lame couldn’t even fix that, but he didn’t and I think Lem’s would’ve had a hard time faking that because he was so straight. He really was straight I think some straight men today. Amazing to fix that, but I’m not sure that Linn knew about such things even completely, and especially with men being with men and so no, he never even faked that it seems like he would have because of the way he talks with it being so sexy and lady like, but that was it That was a total farce that was not real. I think Jack believed it and maybe that’s why lamb could get away with not making any noises, because Jack thought that act was sincere when they were just talking and maybe he assumed that even alone was so clinical that was just because he was a prim and proper woman man, a gay man in the gay assault ever live even though that’s not true That was, Jack’s wishful thinking that was his idealized image of of of lamb and the situation that was also roses idealized idea of them that he was sincerely happy all the fucking time never sad. Never hurt always happy that Jack could do whatever he wanted

So no, you might be thinking how could love her been so happy at Jack’s wedding and nobody noticed because people didn’t understand homosexuality but also or they weren’t even thinking that way but also because they may have seriously thought that somehow and maybe not everyone thought this, but within the group of people that were in the Kennedys, who had any say so They had the delusion that that that jacks, wealth sort of protected him from having to worry about hurting people

I know there are some very dumb ass, lesbian bitches who have yet to realize that Lacey straight, and that they’re ugly compared to her. She is not Jack reincarnated. They’re nothing like Lacey‘s attitude is like Nicole Kidman‘s cause Nicole Kidman can be like that too but they’re doing sweethearts is putting you back in your fucking place. She knows she could make you angry. I don’t think she’s always expecting it because I think she thinks you have a fucking brain And that you’re not just a narcissistic shell of shit, but Jack didn’t understand that.

So Jack was delusional Lacey is not and Rose was delusional. Lacey is not there, Hicks, there, peasant, idiot, Irish people. And they’re evil, and they lack humility. And so they sincerely thought that when they had their billions that their shit didn’t stink anymore, Lacey does not think that then neither did I there’s a difference between standing up for yourself and being gutsy, which is what she is under some degree with Joe is at types and being an idiot, and sometimes Joe is an idiot. Jack was definitely an idiot. Rose was definitely an idiot Bobby is an idiot at times they don’t understand how offensive they are to people because they think their fame and their wealth gives them complete immunity and they’re legitimately offensive. I’m sure if you wanna finally fucking articulate while you’re mad at Lacey after she sincerely asked you for the hundred fucking billionth time she would care if you’re not capable of being humble yourself and you’re delusional piece of fucking shit that’s your problem

You can tell Lacey what’s bothering you. You could tell me right now, but then you’ll have to admit that you’re a peasant because you are one. And you’ll have to admit Laura Harring that Lacey is a hell of a lot sexier and straighter, and better looking than you and has more refined facial features, and that you look like a dog compared to her.

No you do. I am willing to talk about this. Do you want to talk about it you have a fucked up nose you have shallow cheeks. You have a masculine but weak chin line at the same fucking time. Do you want me to keep going on your eyes are too fucking far apart Laura, Lacey has none of those problems. Her face is genuinely completely exquisite it really is and it never photographs. Well you photograph well partially because your features are less refined than hers. She doesn’t have small puny features. She has refined features that are feminine and sexy in a way that you aren’t. You’re a bigger boobs than her, but they’re not as pretty or sexy as hers.

And honestly you dumb bitch you’re coming at her you can’t stand the fact that she’s better looking than you and that she’s not intimidated by you because you’re Miss America and you were in a movie. And right now, David Lynch is scared of me because he’s just a movie guy and I am Elliot Roosevelt. And so he is not realizing that I am the one that’s angry, not her you people have been so fucking delusional with her it’s laughable.

Laura, listen I would fuck you I would enjoy it. You’re a very good looking woman but compared to her you’re a dog do you understand you’re not a dog, but compared to her you really are. And she has no obligation to lie to you matter fact I can see why she wouldn’t because you’re trying to. You’re trying to start some thing because you want her to feel sorry for you and then you want to take away the fact that she’s better looking than you in some sick psychic way or you’re trying to somehow cope with the fact that you aren’t straight that you’re not necessarily open about it and that you’ve ruined her life unintentionally. Do you know you if you didn’t mean to you didn’t mean to, but don’t transfer that guilt into hatred of her instead of just feeling guilty.

It’s not an insurmountable amount of guilt if you weren’t trying to do something.

Him and David needs to remember that as well.

So um, no, but but but Aloma Street and Jack was not, and Jack would make an ass of himself was roses. His mommy and Rose was an idiot, bless her heart, and so she thought I think that people would never do a thing to them because she felt so extraordinarily privileged with Joe’s wealth he was he actually did love her he was protective of her and so I think she got a little spoiled at times, and sincerely believes that nothing could befall them because they were so wealthy shoot one so that they could both good looks. They couldn’t the only person who was really good looking in that family was Joe Junior, but that was part of roses delusion. I was thinking that they were all good looking and she was a nut case and that way bless her heart a lot of her musings are just bullshit. Tell me that might be true but a lot of that is just absolutely fucking bullshit and her autobiography bless her heart.

I think Rose thought that Linn was gay, but that he was also in love with her.

Him, and they all saw him was in love with them. Everybody in that family, legitimately thought that lame if he had the guts would make love to them.

Oh, and so Jack got his daily dose of love from him and then he sit there read the paper and then the Secret Service would come in and they conduct business they would do foreign policy stuff, domestic policy stuff, and and lamb was not really ever sure what the hell he was supposed to be doing but he tried to be a good friend or a good husband or whatever the hell it was that he was doing and he started losing his shit the recording that you hear of him he’s losing his shit. He’s actually very angry at Jack but he’s trying to hide it and it goes right over Jack’s head but no Jackson understand. He just assumed he did. He assumed that the beauty of that age was infinite and that all you had to do to get whatever you wanted was have enough money by people stuff pay for stuff and you could get anything you wanted anything under the moon so long as you have enough money to buy it.” says Elliott Roosevelt.

“ that part is hard for me to except because it’s so true that is what he thought, but then I have to deal with the reality of the fact that I’m dead that God exists that there’s hell, and that Jack was kind of an idiot” says David Lynch.

“ why why do you guys have this problem with Lacey telling you that you’re not really in the upper class but that you’re rich and that’s all she saying and then it’s just totally cool that Jack was a belligerent dumb ass, narcissist, who raped people and lives in a delusional bubble how how are you guys OK with that?” says Elliott Roosevelt.

“ because they think like me I’m saying this from the afterlife Matt, Lacey really was trying to have an affair with you but I really think you’re like Nicole Kidman and you’re also ditzy and sweet and dark like Scotia Lacey Matt was trying to have an affair with you.” says Kate. “ sweetheart this is real. He was trying to have an affair with you! Because you’re distant cousins, and you might not even be his biological cousin, and I think he figured that out by reading your blog potentially, and I think he thought you were really hot, and that he was sick of a lot of shit.

I loved him, and it’s really hard for me to except that he was trying to have an affair with his second cousin who wasn’t really his cousin that’s very hard for me to except because that is just not the idea of reality that I want to be true he was a very good man. He was a wonderful father and I didn’t want to think that our marriage was that bad I didn’t wanna think he was that depressed, and it’s very hard for me to except that things were that bad because it’s just so difficult that is not what I lived in and I wanna just be like it’s mysterious it’s a disease he killed himself for mysterious reasons because it’s easier to think that it was just some fluke thing then to actually analyze the situation and realize that he was miserable and that he cared about me, but that he was hopeless. I think he did have an a rationality to him because we could’ve just separated and he could’ve tried dating somebody, but I don’t think he was that rational and it just was like he was rational and very intelligent but I don’t think he processed it completely so that way he was mentally ill but that does not explain everything because he wasn’t that mentally ill and it’s just easier to think that he was mentally ill and that’s the beginning and end of it not there was nothing more to it than that. It’s just so much less icky and sad and scary in reality. And it’s shocking you’re shocked. You are totally shocked by the fact that he was sincerely thinking of cheating with you and then I think you can handle it but I think it’s shocking to you so much at first I feel that good in spades like it’s mine blowing to me not just shocking And a lot of other people I think feel that with Jack it’s just it’s mine blowing to them. It’s just totally mind blowing. So we just can’t quite process it Lacey it’s just so overwhelming and I’m sorry because that’s exasperating fruit for you because we’re really aggressive about our delusion and it’s your life and you’re innocent for the most part of not entirely and it’s just it’s like what the heck are you supposed to even do so I understand that it’s hell practically for you and then you want us to be happy to. I’m sure I think in your ideal world, Matt and I would’ve been madly in love and we would’ve been really happy And you would’ve been happy with someone and that’s just not what happened.

He was good looking he might not be your cousin you found him attractive and things just got weird and and I don’t think that there’s anything you could do about it and I don’t know what else to say, but I do understand where they’re coming from that it’s just Really hard to except and part of it is that I know I’m not a terrible person. I don’t know if they’re thinking that to him they could be but then I think are they really that innocent for me it’s not completely delusional for them I think it could be in some peoples cases that they’re not quite as good a person as they think they are. I’m not I’m not talking about children I’m not talking about actual good people I’m talking about people who are cruel And have the delusion that they’re not.” says Kate.

Silence.

“ if you’re expecting a response from Lacey right now you’re not going to get one she’s like me what are you guys waiting for her to say right now?” says Nicole Kidman, 

“ so she’s straight she looks somewhat like me, but she has a personality like you?” says Laura Harring.

“ yeah we’re very similar we’re not exactly alike but there’s a strong similarity I don’t it’s just what it is and people can be similar to other people but we’re similar.” says Nicole Kidman.

“ so she’s not offended by us calling her a lesbian or is she?” says Casi.

“ you it really does suck to be called homosexual when you’re not. I am so fucking sick of your shit you want us to feel sorry for you because you claim that you’re victims but then you expect a heterosexual and her situation to not be affected by homophobia and bothered by the whole shit thing. That’s insane.” says Harold Loeb.

“ it’s it’s you know I don’t think I’m homophobic even if it’s not allowed and have an I don’t think I’m homophobic. I think it’s just there’s an insult in it you’re saying that I’m not as feminine as other women and I actually am you’re saying that I am not as stylish as other women, or not as pretty as other women and I am, you’re not just saying I’m homosexual you’re trying to insult me and I hear it.” says Lacey to Casi and Laura.

“ she’s right you are doing that quit living in denial.” says Lem.

“ i’m not like them, but I think part of the reason people get so confuse is because she’s like Scotia so there’s not she’s ditzy but sometimes to be honest Lacey and some straight women’s eyes there’s a sort of vapid lack of self-awareness where it’s like they feel very privileged and they actually are a little homophobic. You don’t have that and I think it’s because you’re so sophisticated and self-aware and liberated but that’s not something people want to think they want to think it’s that you’re gay, not that you’re a super intellectual him sword, toting, liberated, feminine hot chick who’s ditzy and yet really does not have a problem with cutting off someone’s head if need be him that is not something people want to think I am younger. I’m Genzie. Oh, I’m bisexual I could see it and I think it’s who you are and I don’t understand entirely myself either white people are so weird about it but I think that’s what it is. It’s just it you’re not straight in that vapid way, and so they just can’t handle it.” says a bisexual.

“ it’s also a class thing a lot of upper class old money women don’t have that look in their eye not all of them, but a good number of them doubt part of it is just a class thing and actually it was very lady like to do fencing back in the day I’m not even convinced if there’s reincarnation that being able to kill people went up and consider lady like in ancient Egypt.” says Lem.

“ that does not surprise me,” Says a man.

“ so nope she’s not OK. I think she is offended and hurt by the insinuation that she’s ugly or unfeminine. If you take that out of it I think the fact that you’ve made her something she’s not for some reason it’s it’s very hurtful to her.

It would irritate her if she was a lesbian if everyone thought she was straight it wouldn’t hurt her as much but it would really drive her crazy.” says Lem.

“ Lacey, I think it’s because our eyes look similar and it’s just it made sense to us. We thought you looked like a lesbian or bisexual because because her eyes look similar.” says Laura.

Lacey sighs. “ but why wouldn’t you try harder to get some thing that important right is it really that difficult to just look closely and try to get it right?”

“ because if we don’t how old anyone ever know you at all?” says Laura.

“ Yes

If you’re trying to obliterate me, I mean who is going to know me I was straight I am straight but nobody even fucking knew that because of the movie Addams it’s probably a decent movie I don’t know but it’s irritating that I’ve been typecast and this is my fucking life And there’s nothing I can do about it I didn’t even know I didn’t even know that your character existed. I had no idea that there were horny guys in college who look at me and think I was a lesbian and come up with dirty ideas and make fun of me because they wanted me to sleep with someone because it turned them on, which was actually kind of stupid and backward, but um, but that’s I didn’t know it would’ve been nice. I’ve had a heads up that people thought it was a lesbian because of your character. It would’ve been nice if someone who just fucking told me when I was in my teens her 20s and serve just thinking oh she’s a lesbian she’s a dumb lesbian.“ says Lacey.

“ and because you’re straight, there is absolutely no cancellation that woman finds you attractive. It’s probably extraordinarily annoying.” says Laura.

“ oh no, Lawrie, you could blow up her family but you’d have to blow them up and it’s expensive.” says Maggie Smith.

“ it is just irritating, that nobody told me nobody had the guts or the compassion or the respect for my humanity to try to tell me what they were thinking. I remember Casi bringing you up once I think to her Credit, but nobody else all of these yours has ever told me I’ve had many people say you look like somebody and I always tell Katherine Heigl and then they say oh yeah that’s who it is that’s right like I’m nuts and there was like no you look like somebody you look like somebody like they’re trying to insinuate something insulting and then I’m like I have no fucking clue what you’re talking about Heather like it’s someone famous and then I’m like I don’t know what you’re talking about because I don’t and it’s just like what the fuck are these peoples fucking problem I’m not fucking gay there’s nothing homosexual about me. I’m better looking than them. I’m better bred than them. I’m smarter than them and I’d like to fucking kill them but I’m not a lesbian.” says Lacey.

“ interesting that Bobby became conservative, so damn quick in the last few years. I sincerely think he’s panicked about the fact that his family has gone down the shitter. I think he cares about some conservative things but I also think he thinks that there’s some thing that’s not working anymore in the Democratic Party and he senses that they’re publicans are the leaders in someway and so he’s trying to get in on this sweet deal and get back, their power.” says a Republican.

“ well, Laura, you’re not ugly you’re pretty and she knows that so it’s not like a horrible insult but I think it’s irritating because you she actually is prettier than you and people are really stubborn and would never admit that because you’re pretty as I think they think that they have their bases covered because you’re pretty and they don’t need to think that she’s prettier than that it’s like oh no I’m letting her be pretty in my head but she’s actually prettier than that and then it’s like I was she’s just a lesbian anyway and no she’s not sick. It’s really toxic and sick sick.” says the CIA.

“ seay where are all the guys who are supposed to be in love with her that’s the thing that I don’t understand because I am sure Laura that even if you’re bisexual that you’ve met lots of young men who have wanted to make you straight or have thought you were straighten off, and that you were sort of fascinating and daring. Where are all those young men with Lacey, I actually wonder if that’s some evidence that she’s straight she is straight but I wonder if there’s that that’s actually I wonder do you have any insight into that Elliott?” says Harold.

“ well, men like me, can tell that hurt her being a lesbian would be total bullshit it’s completely impossible. I would know that Laura was bisexual, but I am very sexually experienced. I always was I mean I wasn’t always, but I’m just saying I had was sort of spoiled upper class upbringing as FDR son not really spoiled necessarily but somewhat and I was able to ascertain things in my teenagers because I was good looking anyway I would’ve known Laura was not straight. I would instantly know Lacey was so then why fix Lacey I know she’s straight there are other than that no that too who’ve been interested in her they just know she’s straight. I think the guys that would be like that, don’t like her as a person they might not even be bad people, but they’re often they find her offputting.” says Elliott .

“ honestly, Lacey, I am we think of you we analyze your body. We analyze your licking of your lips, the way that you stare off the way that you walk and we think hot damn that we would be good in bed the way she eats the way she thinks the way she smells, oh my word she is a rockstar in the sack and I bet she feels good. I bet the whole things top-of-the-line and we’re not that good of us might be but I bet a lot of us might not be quite that good and bad we might be sensitive and actually eventually be good in bed, but sadly we look at you and we think she’s better than we are and then we think he wait a minute. If she’s better than we are however, trying to make her straight. How is that going to convince her to be straight if she’s better than we are, how alluring with that beautiful woman, Laura might be good in bed. I have a feeling she’s more average to be honest and we are too and so then it’s like this woman’s good this woman’s good in bed I don’t think I can be with her and convince her to be heterosexual.

*he laughs*

I actually have a feeling Nicole Kidman’s really good in bed to him. I would be surprised if she’s not I’m not sure that she’s seen entirely. I worry she’s a pedophile because of her Balenciaga campaign but I have a feeling with men she’s very good, so I am, I know I don’t think Nicole cheats necessarily. I don’t think you do either am I am curious, though Elliot Jack has often been described as a combination of good and evil but like since you’re good and evil does that exist or is that a delusion?” says a living man.

“ Lacey please edit this I think we’d like to know what it is that you say.” says Drew Barrymore.

“ women were nicer to her before I made that movie just so you know they really got the idea in their head that she was in love with them from that movie and that’s not the case she’s straight.” says David Lynch.

“ Jack was a narcissistic idiot. I was not what actually is that good and evil thing I’ve wrists a lot of suffering for Lacey. I’ve literally done actual warfare for her when she first started experiencing air hunger. It was terrifying to her, and I almost wonder if she came close to dying, she was very scared and so she took out the rosary and started praying it over and over again terrified and she clung to me. She called me in her spirit. She took out a rosary and clung to me and prayed, and I held onto her, and she had to distance herself and her spirit from Joe Junior because he was trying to kill her and that was back in 2001 or not 2021, 2020 might’ve actually been 2020 it was a while ago and I had to hold her in her spirit and she had to somehow through divine intervention distance herself from Joe and cling to me and and she did. I saved her life possibly potentially that night, and that was some thing I was fully invested in absolutely invested in. I cared about her I really did. Sincerely, I was willing to go to bat for her to so this week I still am and we slept together numerous times and we were in love we were legitimately in love Lacey and I am and that’s how she was able to cling to me to save her life because Joe is starting to panic and he thought that he should just kill her possibly. So I did that for her and I did other stuff for her to at times and I’ve been very protective of her and I will be until she’s dead. I will be watching her often on, if not almost always to some degree until she’s dead. I’ve sort of decided that because I just I did care about her and I still do and I just feel like that’s the right thing to do And that’s where I am legitimate when we made love we actually were making love December degree we were and I meant it and so did she and so that part was sincere. It was beautiful. I am very good in bed and that was real so that’s where I’m good I’m legitimate. I’m good it’s not insincere. I’m not narcissistic.

The problem is that I know I was better at communicating with her from the from the grave lamb does it but it’s harder for him because of what he did with his life and if there’s no illuminati, it’s some thing God had to take for me and I’ve had to deal with, but I was very involved in freemasonry and so I know a lot about how to talk to people from the grave because I talked to people from the world of the living.

Yeah, she heard my voice so the thing is though this is where I’m not good I’m bad it’s possible that even though I was in love with her, I may have been seduced by Faye Emerson. She woke up from her sleep one morning and we hadn’t slept together, and I wanted sex and face seduced me and no, not all men would do that many men would be able to resist and wouldn’t even think twice of it. Like lame, but I had a hard time With that and I may have give it into temptation and sleep with me Emerson, so then Lacey woke up and I was very cold and distant out of nowhere and she was baffled as to why I was so distant we were we were, but she was trying to be my wife at that point. Sincerely, that was bad that was bad. That part of me was bad. It wasn’t necessarily narcissistic It’s the way that I am it’s who I am and in all honesty it’s possible that it actually did work out for the best. I’ve heard Lamar twin flames and she’s happier with him and then see that’s where it’s not evil dumb narcissistic nonsense it is evil it is bad But I think I was trying to follow my gut and my instinct as a man and sleep with Famers and if I did and so then it works out because I might’ve had some good intention but it’s also kind of messed up because I had a lot of wives David’s laughing, and he did too, and I’ve had a hard time in the afterlife and purgatory which is it is purgatory I’ve had a hard time figuring out who I liked most what I liked about them who I am with who I am not with what mattered what would mean some thing because Patricia thinks that we’re supposed to be together. I think they wonder sometimes if we should be together a middle of things that at times I have several wives who sings that they should be with me and to be honest with you part of my horrific Purgatory experience is cycling through them. I cycle through them all and it’s miserable because there’s not an end, and I just keep cycling through them, and it drives me crazy about myself And so I’m working with God and I’m getting better, but that that would be me working with my fall and nature in purgatory having to think it through and realizing that I have to humble myself with Christ and not be prideful and stuff like that because there could be some pride involved in that with me with good God because I might have an issue of pride at times and so I think I know more than most people and maybe I do often times but I don’t know more than God, and so if I have an issue of pride That might be part of my problem that I think I know more then so he might say you’re with will say Laura Ashley just because there’s no Laura Ashley it’s the name bread but what’s the woman’s name will say so God might say you’re with Laura Ashley and then I think OK I’ll be with Laura Ashley, but the middle one comes and wings that means like I don’t know about Laura Ashley Elliot I don’t think it works. I think she’s all wrong for you And that I think well God smart but I wonder.” says Elliott. “ there are a lot of Christians who have an idea of purgatory is being absolute misery. You know it is miserable if you don’t submit to God, but the idea of purgatory is letting him purify you, so if you’re really in a close relationship with Christ as a born-again Christian, you might not find purgatory all that awful you might go there and think I had no idea I had that problem. Thank you for telling me God, but not everyone can say that honestly but all but some people experience that they die and their if there is purgatory, they’re actually slightly relieved because they think oh I don’t lose my mind I don’t lose free will I get to actually have a relationship with him still and figure out what’s wrong with me so to speak, but not necessarily in that way more just how am I actually disobeying disobeying him and yeah it’s like it’s like a toxic cleanse and there could be some people who yeah even find it refreshing so if there is purgatory and it seems scary don’t be scared. It’s really not like that. It’s really more like a detox.” says Elliott.

“ so we wouldn’t necessarily think of you as good and bad we think of you as complicated and troubled I think and it is good and bad, but I think we wanted it to be something different where people could magically be evil and heartless and then secretly also really be good.” says Tucker Carlson.

“ oh, so that doesn’t exist necessarily at all they’re up there might not be a thing where people could really be that crazy and psycho pathic and then also be really great at the same time I think that’s almost a child like coping mechanism, gone awry.” says someond

Later.

“So…if Lacey’s not a lesbian…at all…then clearly she doesn’t give a shit.” says a straight woman.

Lacey silently raises her eyebrows. No smile. As she eats Cheetos. Not too much, though.

“You’re pretty!” says a woman to her.

Lacey takes a deep breath…eats a Cheeto…eats another Cheeto…thinks. Takes another deep breath.

“That’s kind. Thank you.” she says.

“Sure.” she says, freaked-out.

Lacey eats more Cheetos.

“So…” says another woman awkwardly.

“So fucking what!? …What do you want from me?” says Lacey.

“To be your friend???” says one of them.

“At this point, you fucking bitches I would never be your friend! You’re a bunch of moronic, conceited, hellish nothings!” says Lacey.

“Not all of us though just American women.” says Princess Kate.

“Well shit, you’re right. Sorry, I’m a ditz, but yes, you’re absolutely right.“ says Lacey.

“I don’t think we’re that much more evil than them!” says an American woman to Lacey.

“You know it’s not quite that simple. It’s that they seem sane and rational and normal and you people seem like you eat glue every single fucking day and breathe the glue you-you don’t seem like humans in relation to me. And if you aren’t that worthless I wish you well, and I don’t mean you any harm but sincerely I would never be friends with most of you the way things are right now. I can’t stand most American women. It’s vile talking to you. You are the most disgusting pigs I think I’ve ever met.” says Lacey. “Not all of you, but most of the women that I’ve met in my life in this country. Well who are alive. No you think everyone is fucking in love with you all the fucking time. You are mean, you are catty, you are shallow, you’re boring. No I have no fucking clue how to talk to you people. It’s like slapping myself in the face every time.” 

“There’s literally nobody in this country who you’ve met under the age of 60 who hasn’t been a bitch to you?” says a man.

“Not really no, my daughter is a wonderful person. I care about all women! I care about all the women in this country but no unfortunately most women that I’ve met. If not all of them in America are just really cold and calculating and it’s very very hard to have a conversation with them without them looking at you like they’re going to eat you alive and chew you up and spit you out and enjoy every fucking minute of it like a witch from Hell. They all think I’m madly in love with them and that I’m a lesbian and I’m not. And nine times out of 10, I’ve been incredibly pure hearted and loving and sweet and tried to be kind to them and they don’t respect it. They throw it in my face like I’m an idiot or that I’m not doing it the right way because they do it the right way, but I don’t. They’re the most condescending, priggish bunch of bitches I’ve ever encountered…and honestly if that’s not what they are then great…but that’s my perception of them. They’re idiotic, vain, dim, bitches!” says Lacey.

“You know to be honest with you she’s right the heart of American womanhood is shit. This country makes a lot of money off of child trafficking. How do you think they do that without the help of women who would probably be better off dead?” says a demon.

“ I am I think her first mistake with you Lacey is that you’re not attracted to us at all and that that totally creeps you out till like an extreme degree because you’re so straight and I think some of us get hurt by that because it’s like I’m not that ugly and so then we think you’re a lesbian because it’s less hurtful and thinking that you’re really that grossed out by the thought of having sex with us even even if some of us know what you mean so it’s actually aren’t that straight but some of us know what you mean it is gross, but I think a decent number of us probably have been hurt that you didn’t want to have sex with us and instead of realizing that that’s what it is that you’re panicking because you’re just like oh my gosh do you think I wanna have sex with you? Oh my gosh it is totally freaking you out we think oh my gosh no she’s a lesbian because I’m not that ugly.” says an American woman.

“ oh, OK fuck you I didn’t mean that kindly I would never be that heartless towards somebody just because they didn’t want to fuck me do you people constantly feel entitled to every fucking good thing that’s ever existed for no damn good reason at all all the wealth in the world all the beauty everything no work you just wake up and it’s supposed to happen to you or what?” says Lacey.

“ yes, I think we do actually feel that way.” America admits.

“ well that’s bullshit that’s absolute fucking bullshit because that’s just not how it works. You have a right to some genuine happiness in Christ or just how he created you as a human but this sort of superiority or you just get anything and everything you want. It’s just sick.” says Lacey.

“ it’s not that you can’t get everything you want in a healthy way. It’s getting other peoples houses getting other peoples clothes getting other peoples lives that’s not normal.” says Lem.

“ you know it’s funny this is one of the last conversations I’m going to have and I do break any curses I’ve spoken over anybody in Jesus name oh my God forgive me if I’ve been evil at all and Jesus his name but honestly I am I’m tired of these conversations I feel so deeply unloved by all of you people right now and disappointed. I wish you well. I hope I’m wrong about you. I hope that I’m not entirely right about American women. I I think there could be some of you who are really good people. I hope I’m living in this country and raising children this country I honestly do you pray often that we all die and I do put on any of the world when I die, if you’re not a bad person or if you’re a child don’t take what I’m saying to seriously how about that don’t take it too seriously it’s might not be about you at all. Don’t let someone tell you that you’re a terrible person if you’re not, and you’re just being abused, you know if you’re being abused and you’re reading this don’t think I mean you please but I have had a horrible time with a lot of women in this country and an overseas but it seems like the women here are just vicious because why would you assume that I’m a lesbian just based on a stupid movie, I don’t think people have been nice to me or more. You know interested in my life because of that movie I don’t think anyone’s been kinder to me because of that film I have a possibly experience nothing more than homophobic hatred from lots of people and I’m not even homosexual and I don’t even know what it was, do you have any idea how disgustingly unfair that is no it’s incredibly perverse and if JFK did that it’s not funny if you find it funny there might be something wrong with you. It’s not funny to destroy someone’s existence who meant well listen if there’s reincarnation, I came here to try to help Africa, and I was an innocent person, possibly almost entirely, if you’re more innocent than me or more godly or more grand, then prove it if not, then boy you’re going to have a real wake up call when you die and I hope God gives grace to find out how stupid you are and not be able to hide from it. To find out how sheltered and dumb you are! You know this is a very wealthy country and away and I am very privileged to be here but so are you does that mean absolutely anything to you people or do you seriously just think it all works out but you don’t know how, and yet you think that you’re equal to men or maybe you are because may be mended I don’t think that deeply either maybe they’re irresponsible idiots too.

So no I’m sorry I care about you all but no I’m not a lesbian I am not a fucking lesbian. How dare you think I’m in love with you! my God!” says Lacey.

“ i’m sorry you have to do better than us.” says an American woman.

Princess Kate laughs at her.

“ Are we talking like girls?

Reaching out to me!! How nice! I’m sorry too. I’m sorry I have to be better than you all.

We’re best friends now.” says Lacey sarcastically.

“ OK but you like, but OK so you actually are.” she says.

“ yeah I’ve definitely said that for the last 10 years. Haven’t I? Do you read my blog or did you just figure it out?” says Lacey.

“ she’s in the illuminati against her will and this is being used right now to possibly demoralize the whole country to conquer us. If we’re talking to you and you have a brain please try to be humble around her. it’s for national security.” says a woman.

“ I made her Dr. Häyhä because because love Billings was supposed to be my love so I make her Dr. hater. See a doctors. My sexiness I am a shot of Lucy that’s why I love doesn’t love you because you’re not obsessive enough.” says JFK before disappearing.

“ well, I mean I know he’s not really that evil.” says a man.

“ actually, he’s worse than that.” says God.

“ we’re just simple people pretending to be sophisticated in this country and that’s pretty much all we are.” says a woman.

“ is that true?” says Lacey to Lem.

“ no no it’s not. I’m not like that and if I am then maybe I’m not American either.” says Lem.

“ I just think they’re insane. I just think Lacey and them are just insane.” says an American man.

“ because you think they’re both homosexuals, even though they have sex together and he’s a man and she’s a woman?” says Laura Harring.

“ well, I mean, technically he’s a man and she’s a woman technically, but I think you got a look at it from different angles.” says an American man, sincerely.

“ that doesn’t really make any sense.” says an Iranian.

“ are we in a fascist. Lacey or am I a prick?” says a gay man.

“ you’re a prick you’re a very stupid fucking prick. The US is not fascist neither is Donald Trump and you’re just kind of a dumb ass but not really at the same time but in a sense I think maybe you are and if you’re not a break that in Jesus name, but no, I don’t think we’re living in fascism not really him, and if we are, you’re a fascist, your mind control and saying that it’s fascism to disagree with homosexuality is fascism.” says Lacey.

“ is it damp?” he says.

“ what the hell are you talking about?” says Lacey.

“ actually I wasn’t sure where I was going with that but I knew you take it as an insult because that’s how people are to you all the time. Sincerely I believe you and I was just testing it to see if that’s really how people are to you all the time, so nobody asked you nice questions ever!?” he says.

“ I haven’t had someone be really nice to me

Do you know that’s the thing that’s mad no not in the last 10 years not since I accidentally found the illuminati. I don’t think anyone has been normal since I found the illuminati everybody that I talk to you seems demon possessed. I don’t know what happened but ever since I found the illuminati most people who I’ve talk to you seem bat shit, crazy or evil I have not had a conversation with someone where they’ve seemed normal and kind since this started.” says Lacey.

“ maybe I’m that person then I believe you do you have any idea why?” he says.

“ I have theories. I mean they’re terrifying, but I have theories do you want to hear them?” says Lacey.

“ yes!” he says.

“ if there’s reincarnation and I’m Scotia, everything makes sense so that’s the word I’ll go with first.

There could be a real illuminati I think it’s possible I think the shining and Eyz Wide Shut, and being there all popular movies hint at it I think it’s very possible that some of those like triangle symbols and the hand, and in the coat, the top hat thing, I think those are very possibly real ilumiNATTI symbols The telepathy talked about in the shining is what I have experienced. It’s very creepy. It’s not schizophrenia though so I think it’s possible or an or seemingly auditory who hallucinations so I think that they might exist to and basically if I am Scotia, I’m a Gyptian my father was a pharaoh of Egypt and Egypt And seemingly it’s Tom Banks possibly my actual birth father in this life if there’s reincarnation was in Egyptian pharaoh and my godson‘s with that is that it’s in this is why like this theory even if there’s not reincarnation, then OK but if there is, I think this is what happened they’re very into Egypt. In the illuminati they’re like extremely into it Right because I just talked about like the symbols like with the triangles and stuff. I’m pretty sure that they might worship my father or worship me. That is some thing I brought up to them and I don’t think they’ve processed it that they’ve literally worshiped me very sincerely worshiped me not like we’re all gods like I am God or I am a really big deal spiritually or they’ve worshiped my father that way.

I think if that’s the case that I’m not supposed to be here, I’m not supposed to be here. If there’s reincarnation, I should be dead with my kids with Lem’s happy as a clam resting at peace and his life would’ve just been a total tragedy but I’d be with him. I know he loved me. I know that whatever happened it was OK we were together And he very well might’ve been straight and we would know that there would be no distance between us there be no confusion and I would just be so over it. I’d be worried about all of you. I’d be praying for you, but if there’s reincarnation, I just I would care, but I don’t think I don’t think things would be this messed up necessarily, maybe they would be I don’t know but I I would think I would at least I wouldn’t be here so basically I think what happened is that Jack very possibly was obsessed with him I think he might’ve been gay or bisexual actually and I think he was the one that was Pasa possibly actually obsessed with lamb but he was narcissistic and now everyone thinks it’s the other way around, but it really does make sense that he could’ve actually been gay and then I was straight And I think Jack probably became obsessed with me and thought it was a really good way to just kick loves ass and show me that I can’t take him away from him not that I was I mean I he belongs to God but I belong to him really so it’s loose it’s ludicrous. The whole thing is just totally ludicrous, but Jack was psychotic. We closeted possibly obsessive about people thinking you were straight, possibly and if there is homosexuality in heaven, and there might not be, but if there is, that’s actually possibly quite evil, I mean, it’s one thing to be afraid of how people would perceive you, but to be that closeted actually, I think it’s evil either way, but obviously if there’s homosexuality in heaven, it would be evil it would be very sadistic very very very evil. I mean it’s just like a self, hating Jew, who betrays other Jews, it’s disgusting absolute disgusting and it and if it’s not allowed in heaven, it’s still disgusting in a certain respect in my opinion to do what he did but then it’s like I don’t think I don’t believe in karma but I think there could be something like that so I think he’s getting what came to him but it’s just like love is not love with you he’s straight You were insane Jack at I think being so spoiled and being so popular with a whole cult of like celebrity in America. I think people may be channeled him too much I wouldn’t be so yeah I wouldn’t even be surprised if some people try to resurrect him from the grave at various points in the last 60 years or however, long it’s been Done so I think he possibly has been able to manifest a little too much or has been encouraged to and I wonder if there’s purgatory if he just hasn’t moved on because people have just been so obsessed with him and it’s just like a cycle like a toxic cycle of interaction between him and other people And so he got really stag a really stagnant in his trouble and his toxicity and then if there’s reincarnation, he tricked me into coming tortured me and controlled a lot of you possibly brainwashed a lot of you into hating me through movies through music I mean it’s sick. it’s totally insane but it is JFK and maybe because you shot him and it’s such a big deal, he just took the whole thing seriously and was like oh my gosh I have to punish this woman I’m gonna make her live a life that was as bad as the one that I lived apparently because he felt so sorry for himself and that’s bullshit. I mean my life has been awful and his was not that bad he was just a total Nutcase, but I think he might’ve been trying to bring justice for himself by torturing me and making you all hate me because I don’t think he valued lamb that much I think I really think that’s absurd because he was a narcissist. I don’t think he was capable of it. He certainly didn’t treat them that way, but I think he wants to think that he did. I think he wants to think that he was so in love with lime in line was obviously supposed to be in love with him or was this is just heartbreaking so I think it’s possible that he tried to turn everyone against me to try to get me to understand what it was like for him to lose Lem. I think he could think that it’s just so terrible and it’s not really he treated them like shit and there’s a lot of people who’ve been through so much more pain than that but I think he felt may be entitled to special treatment by the whole world, and by me, I wonder if he didn’t realize entirely even if they knew he was vain I wonder if they realize how psychotically vain he actually was And just didn’t fully understand that he was like nuts and truly believed he was like divine and special I mean I wondered if I could be at times but frankly it’s not something that I am taking is my identity and that way it would be my identity if it’s true, but I wouldn’t be offended by you being that it’s not like I’m that you’re not and it’s him. I’m trying to think of how it’s like my hair color. It’s not like that it’s not like It’s not quite like that him but I think maybe if he’s that insane he just feels like he’s always supposed to be high. Never sad nothing bad ever supposed to happen to him he’s just like a God or something which is insane but I think it’s funny. I think it’s funny in a sense that it’s like if this is true wow I mean he put in like an incredible amount of effort. I mean I’m not trying to be insulting to them because I I love him, but I think Homer Simpson could’ve been sexy to Marge, and I kind of feel like Jack is obsessed with Homer Simpson. Like I’m not saying Jack’s not I’m not saying that love is not sexy to me. He’s absolutely everything but he’s straight and he really is very attractive so maybe it doesn’t quite work but I think I’m trying to get out something and maybe there’s a slight similarity, and how they look at times I mean, I find them extremely attractive I really do but I just I’m trying to say that it doesn’t really make sense. I know I think Lem’s is better looking than homer Simpson he’s taller. He’s certainly better dressed and smarter him but they’re both balding. They both have a got at different times him if homer was taller, and when he was young, he was buff and he was far smarter man. Would they be that different Because I think homer might be a loving father at times and I wouldn’t be surprised if he’s in love with Marge, so let’s say Homer was faithful to Marge, and really in love with her will they be that different ? If you let Homer be as grand as he could be, and as godly, as he could be, he might still be homer Simpson I am, and I feel like that’s kind of who Jack is obsessed with is homer Simpson, if if if we could, if I’m can be that humble, and I have a feeling he can be, it is sort of like Jack is obsessed with Homer Simpson. Oh, and I think maybe you have to make homer seem a lovable sub how to get the message across but I kind of think it’s that dumb.

So it’s like March like Simpson homer Simpson but why the fuck is Jack Kennedy so fucking obsessed with Homer Simpson? And I mean I get it because I’m March 80 I do get it put it in like but does he even love him that way and I don’t think he does so then it’s like how the hell did he get so obsessed with Homer Simpson? And I think it’s you know it’s it’s Choate they went to Choate together and I think Jack got it in his head that homer went to Choate and Jack is the lower class person from Ireland and his background so I kind of think I kind of think maybe that he turned in extraordinary man, but really just a man and enter into some sort of dream. I just like no Hummers. How much is my everything? He really is well he’s not homer he’s lame but he is. He’s my absolute everything and I wonder if Marge would say the same thing but but am I don’t think it makes sense somehow for Jack’s to be that obsessed, and I think he could be I I wouldn’t be surprised if he sees to exist, partially for his own sake, because he just kept digging himself and deeper

So I think that it’s nuts but I think it makes sense but also sort of nuts because I don’t think he really loves him like that. So then that’s the reality of it. It’s like it makes sense for him to be in love with my mom was handsome. One was amazing person. He really was in his butt in this sort of I’m trying to think of how to explain it in a sort of comparative. Epic sense I’m not sure it makes sense I mean OK could homer be a reincarnated king if there’s reincarnation I actually think that’s possible. Homer could be homer from homer it from like I think it’s Greek literature. He could be homer and just decided to be dumb in this life or some thing so if there’s reincarnation, could Hopper Simpson actually be a big deal in history yes but he’s also a man he’s just a man and so there’s grandeur with him if he’s homer from the Iliad But I think that’s what it is but but he is he’s also just homer Simpson he’s not God and I just don’t somehow I just don’t think it makes sense and I have a feeling if there is reincarnation that someone else agreed with me and that’s where the Simpsons may have even come from. It’s supposedly so psychic that show maybe there’s a reason why Maybe whoever’s inspiring. It is very supernatural somehow and if there’s reincarnation, maybe they agree with me that it it’s like yeah homer special all humans are and homer in and of himself would not be impressive so it’s just kind of weird.

A butt but then, so that’s sort of them. Trying to give you a quick run on the backstory so I think that’s what happened. If there’s reincarnation I mean for all we know it’s king Tutankhamen, who is inspiring the Simpsons if there’s reincarnation. The Gyptian‘s were very into satire. If there’s reincarnation we had a very good sense of humor, and maybe there’s not reincarnation, but if there is that could be Egyptian humor, the whole thing could be a Gyptian humor, even the fact that it’s psychic could be Egyptian humor. I mean, if there is reincarnation Marge, I have mother to myself, and my mothers name might be Margie. I wonder where Simpson came from if it’s a reference to Nicole Brown, Simpson, I wouldn’t be surprised I think Egyptian humor could be very silly at times if there’s reincarnation. And the joke there would just be why didn’t you just kill jack it’s like O.J. Simpson was this huge black man she couldn’t get away from him but then it’s like what the heck do you think your Nicole Brown Simpson love like just beat the shit out of of Jack, and leave him for dead, but I think he didn’t for philosophical reasons and maybe that’s where they came up with the name homer. I think it he genuinely thought it was wrong and if there’s reincarnation whoever inspired him, I might actually think that’s not stupid but that he was wrong and he should’ve just killed him. He may have allowed for him to be shot but maybe this person thinks it wasn’t enough maybe this person thinks that he really should’ve just punched him in the face and killed him or let him die instead of you know, shooting him And then dying when he was 65 I think maybe if there’s reincarnation this person is just making a criticism.

But so than the idea would be that Jack had he would be nuts, and he has the whole world attacking Marge Simpson over homer and ask is comedic as that seems it’s not that funny in the sense that if there’s an illuminati, I discovered the illuminati and they didn’t understand at all who I was The English sort of dead but mostly they just thought it was bizarre. Possibly pedophile like possibly lesbian. I was crazy psycho bitch they were very mean and no I’m not a lesbian I’m not a pedophile I don’t think I’m quite that bizarre in that way, but if they started cursing everybody or something, there’s something they did, and some sort of witchcraft maneuver Thinking probably that I was insignificant and it wouldn’t matter and then it just affected everybody because if I’m Scotia, they worship me and they may have committed everyone’s soul who’s alive to me and my father or they may have put some sort of curse on all of you decades ago, to follow me wherever I go and experience whatever I experience or some thing where it’s like your feet is tied in with mine in some intractable way I’m sure God could fix it. Jesus could break it if there’s reincarnation Jesus could fix all of us. I know that in faith I can say, but I highly suspect that’s it that everyone is like locked in to me spiritually if I’m Scotia, so it’s almost like a plane that is in like some sort of mode like a climb mode or descend, or some thing And it’s like trying to tell the computer to stop is very hard if there’s a malfunction so if I bring if I if there’s reincarnation is possible were in climb mode or descent mode and they just can’t get us out of it because I can’t figure out why the plane is stuck that way partially because they can’t except that I could be an impressive person compared to some of them. And then couple that with the fact that they all hate me Henri still not all of them necessarily but a lot of people hate me possible because of Jack it’s like a suicide thing because if I’m Scotia, everyone’s locked in to following me it’s like free programs, but then Jack has everyone hating me at the same time And so we’re in self-destruct mode. Essentially we’re on auto pilot self destruct mode everywhere in the world because you’re supposed to be worshiping me and following me, but then destroying me at the same time. So it’s like yeah it’s totally dysfunctional because you’re supposed to be worshiping me according to them I would agree with that but but they’re the they’re the illuminati and they were they’re really into ancient Egypt potentially and happen for centuries possibly Susan they’ve been trying to get people to worship me and all that but then at the same time like I said, JFK went bat shit crazy and his obsession with homer Simpson And so it is almost like a Simpsons episode so then it’s just psychotic because you’re supposed to be my best friend and worship me but not really cause we’re not friends I’m a daddy but then you’re supposed to think I’m a lowly nothing evil awful person and so how do you worship and follow a deity who is just a really dumb ass bitch and you both at the same time?

That’s one theory if there’s reincarnation that’s one theory that it’s just psychotic like just hilarious, but totally psychotic. But I am I’ve tried to sort of walk them out of it. I’ve tried to serve coax them out of it, and some people are more responsive than others, but they have a hard time letting go because I’m not a celebrity. I didn’t join them the proper way and so they have this idea that I am an interloper even though I’m not and they’re holding me hostage to some degree so it’s just like no she’s not you know what like one of us but if I am Scotia, I don’t know I don’t know what’s gonna happen. I wouldn’t be surprised if I die and then yeah there’s a meteor shower or something or a nuclear war, and I literally kill off all of humanity out of mercy because of the state of the environment right now because everyone just seems so miserable It’s possible that I’ll just decide we all just need to go to heaven not to worship me to worship Christ to worship Jesus Christ. I’ll just say we all need to go to heaven to worship Jesus Christ but him you know I can’t control that right now I can’t really control that in general But you should worship Jesus and I’m not saying that because I am possibly Konstantin‘s twin flame. I really believe he is the son of God. The only God is it the irony is it if people did that they may be able to break the curse and get out of the auto pilot mode as crazy as that might sound and some people but it’s it’s it’s hard because you’d have to fight you’d have to fight to do that because it sounds crazy and it’s not but it necessarily at all if there’s reincarnation it’s not but it sounds crazy because they are very controlling and they have brainwash people. I think it worked Until they found me because somehow it just kept working to brainwash people people weren’t being that disturbed things weren’t that serious and then somehow getting me involved it’s just it’s very psychically Kostic for lack of a better way to explain it if there’s reincarnation, because of who I am, and who my father is and who llamas it’s just super psychically Kostic super toxic, super caustic like abrasive And it’s wearing it people people are getting worn down and I don’t think they can handle it because it’s just too freaking much. I am not someone who is supposed to do this to you and I’ve said that the whole time if there’s reincarnation it was nuts to attack me Absolutely fucking crazy although if there’s there might not be someone named Diego, that could be a way of me protecting myself legally, but if there is someone named Diego, it’s possible, he was trying to end the world and if he did exist I like I actually think he has a pretty valid argument People sneaking across the water to a fallen country baking themselves live with her children, miserable baking them selves alive just to try to have a better life. I actually don’t think immigration is necessarily a good thing anymore. That being said those people want to get it and they don’t know any better it’s just an absolute hellish situation And so I understand where he would be coming from and thinking that we should just end the world because how do you solve that problem? How do you convince people Mexico to stay there considering how epic and amazing America has traditionally been how do you teleport person? It’s not gonna be better than United States and you could have a horrible ride. Just stay there Because it still seems better here to a lot of people even if it’s not maybe the fires in LA will dissuade some people but yeah so then what are you do it’s like how do you convince people that it really isn’t a perfect country it’s not what it used to be, and that honestly is bad as Mexico can be with a drug cartels in the water if you can get out of a bad area of Mexico, maybe it wouldn’t be so bad I don’t know maybe it may be that maybe they’re better off leaving but yeah it’s just such a freaking mess and me being my self in the way that I think yeah I’m ready to end the world because I mean how do you solve this problem? People are so dogmatic things are such they’re so polarized everyone so anxious how do you unravel all that And bring people back to a sort of age of sanity and purity and reason how do you do that that’s very hard to do. I think an anti-Christ could try to do it and may even do it well if it’s actually Satan here right now he might be able to figure out how to do it. I don’t think he’s an idiot. I’m not with him, but I don’t think he’s stupid necessarily, so or is he so that’s between him and God but it’s very hard to do as far as I can see so in the whole world is like that, so yeah I’m just ready to end it. I am I rude and the whole thing if I’m not reincarnated I don’t know, but I think there’s some sort of curse that they put on everybody to control everyone there’s some sort of curse. It may have it might have something to do with me And that sounds narcissistic but I’m just being honest with you it might have something to do with me. I don’t know why they’re doing that to me. I’m not narcissistic I was I was a chosen at random. Is it some spiritual thing because my father was sort of a big deal and the thing with Jack and llamas real I am with lamb so I don’t know if it has something to do with the Kennedys and my father that’s not impossible, but it still seems somewhat random without reincarnation to attack me that much, but regardless, I think there is some sort of curse that the illuminati put on everybody to control them.

i’m not trying to say that everyone in the illuminati is an idiot, but they really are incredibly stupid thinking that you can sell children to keep the United States afloat and I’m pretty sure they think that that somehow we can keep our country from falling apart by selling kits, so I worry that those are the people that put the curse on people because they were drunk and high and just stupid as heck and they had some idea in their head that if they put a curse on people as silly as this sounds to attack me that I was so insignificant that no one would even notice but it might make me feel like I was living through hell but that it would just be funny because it’s like they can do whatever they want and if they want to put a curse on the whole world just to bully one person for the fun of it that somehow they can get away with it because they’re that special in their own imagination so I worry that they’re that stupid that they actually did something like that as another theory and then but the thing is in why did they do that? It’s creepy. It seems like it’s an insecurity thing, and then that’s a class thing I would like to know whether or not there’s reincarnation if there is, it’s very simple it’s complicated but not if there’s not reincarnation I get lost I see it but I still get lost so much and I won’t discuss all the ways I get lost. I think you might be able to figure them out because it’s just not quite so clear-cut it’s like this and this and this it’s like a random curse and then yeah but that’s my that’s my explanation for what’s going on in the world right now if this blog is real I do think the oil that I have in my family might’ve made it easier for me to talk to them psychically so that could be part of how it happened but it doesn’t fully explain necessarily why they would cross everybody despite me because they’re not necessarily that good hearted it seems right like retribution for the oil it seems like they just singled me out for petty reasons, and didn’t realize that there was like an oil thing happening, or that it would even mean anything it’s It’s. I don’t think they’re like Greta turn burg I don’t think I’m being punished because of my family soil and I don’t think she even pick me to punish shit. I think they would probably punish my mother and my father because they’re evil people at times where evil than anyone else in the family possibly and so if you’re going to go after someone because their oil is polluting the whole world, why not go after the worst people or go after all of them on some thoughtful way, but that’s not what’s happening there just singling me out and I’m kind of an environmentalist and the people who are attacking me, or supposed to be environmentalist too. I think if you’re being conspiratorial, you might wonder if they’re insane and they made a deal with the devil so to speak with the oil companies not the oil companies that their publicans deal with or maybe the oil companies or double crossing them but I wonder if they made a deal with them Just I’m not quite sure how that would work I had it in but then I lost it but it’s sort of like I wasn’t invited. Yeah I wasn’t environmentalist. I was politically active in my generation I could’ve easily convinced everybody like 10 years ago to stop drilling and I wonder if they sensed that because I had 6000 followers in my account I was very thoughtful And I wonder if that’s what it is and I am a lot like Nicole Kidman so I wonder if that’s what it is that’s very conspiratorial, but I wonder if there were some very evil establishment liberals who thought that they could make a deal with the oil companies for some psychotic reason like demobilize me demolish me somehow so that I wouldn’t be able to convince a Nesheim family so.

If me alone, and I kept getting popular on Instagram and my husband and I were doing so well I wonder if they thought that people would start taking me really seriously in the family and I had just moved out to Seattle, which is where sort of the power in the Nesheim family was and still is to some degree so I wonder if that’s what it was I wonder if they thought that somehow this is creepy I wonder if they thought that I would kick them off and it’s not so much that we control all of the barking literally but the family that I’m a part of does control probably oh I would bet 50 to 6 will probably 60% of the bacon and that’s a lot of oil and that’s That’s what they need to keep trading and being confident is or more oil reserves because they were kind of running out so it’s possible they think well if they stop letting us drill it’s going to offset everything as I think there could be that much oil on our land And they would make sense of why they killed Matthew to if they thought that something would happen between us and then I would get that power back to dismantle everything within the next 10 years joke is on them. I do think that way I am an environmentalist, but I’m also quite conservative. So I highly doubt the old companies are all that worried about me anymore and I think they probably are trying to protect me at this point maybe from themselves because it’s a Lake ridiculous so if they made some sort of deal with the liberals to dismantle me they might have realized over the last 10 years if that was kind of silly And you’re not because I actually am very concerned but I wonder I wonder I wonder if that’s what it is I wonder if they I wonder if they’re just letting it go because it’s like we care about the environment but there are people like Greta, who actually might be sincere I’m not convinced that she’s not so there are people like her who might actually be sincere And then there’s people like Bill Gates who also might be sincere and there’s concern and then there’s people who are maybe not all that concerned because I don’t even think there’s a problem still, but I wonder if they just sacrificed if they ended up to sacrifice in the democratic party Because they were expecting me to be a different person than I am I’m not a lesbian oh turns out I looked up to Ivana Trump oh and then that’s where the old company is maybe just threw their hands up and I wouldn’t be shocked if they worked with Queen Elizabeth to protect me before she died and let me you know I have some normalcy in my life and some peace. It’s just disturbing because I am if that’s what happened. I’m totally demolished that they were really that conniving and backstabbing because nope yeah they’re selling children. If they sold me out today I didn’t like what were they gonna get out of it? I don’t even know some. This is why I was yelling at you before some sort of fascists Nazi communist country, the world government or something yeah where it’s like everyone’s bisexual or gay sincerely, children have basically no rights to protect themselves as children money is everything but nothing at the same time which really just means that there’s like some evil oligarchy running everything and then everyone else is just kept drugged stupid and probably clinically depressed, but they wouldn’t expect that so if that’s the case and they’re dumb as dirt, that’s why they can’t keep a president and power because I looked up to Ivana Trump.

So now they can’t keep it president in power if this is what happened because they thought they were making possibly some sophisticated power-play then I’m not in a Laura Haring on Mulholland Drive. I’m lazy Banks and I’m straight, so there goes the democratic party. I guess I don’t know possibly the whole country.” says Lacey.

“ do you know the thing is if there’s a green carnation it’s scary if there’s not reincarnation it’s scary to him because then Jack easily could still be the problem but it’s not quite so simple. Let’s put it this way. I am a ghost and I am her husband that’s a really rare thing and the way people do end up with her dead spouses at times, I know this is gonna sound creepy but I’m just gonna say it because I’m not sure you’ll figure it out. Otherwise no offense there are some old people who masturbate. There are some old people who masturbate who are married, happily married, and then their spouse dies and they masturbate, and they start thinking about their dead spouse and then that’s where they end up having sex with their spouse accidentally, especially if they were very in love, so you know some 95 year old man Who is not doing very well what is really but an excellent health loses his wife and he’s been in impeccable health but then the new year he’s dead it’s possibly because when he’s in the shower showering still by himself, he starts thinking about her and she’s a ghost and so she actually met us and they have sex in the shower like they’ve probably done hundreds of times before but she’s a ghost And so then what happens she doesn’t want him to fall in the shower but she might possess him so they might have sex some morning and she’s thinking he just needs to join me. He’s 95. Our kids are going to be OK. He’s in good health but I think it’s time and so then he walks out the front door and he falls down the stairs breaks his neck or breaks his ribs gets a horrible lung infection and his dad like I said within about a year that’s how it works most of the time when this kind of thing happens we’ve not been alive at the same time but it’s still happening and she’s aware of it. The fact that that’s happening should tell you that there’s something really wrong going on like really screwed up. Also, no one teal looks like me let’s be honest and so did Joel and those she’s prayed those are two men who she could’ve married That she could’ve been happy with and they both look like me. I am real I’m a ghost and this is a mess. I hope her explanation is comforting to you because I hope it helps. You understand that there is an explanation even if it seems crazy, there’s probably an explanation just keep trusting God and if this is what happened if this is the explanation, then OK that’s a no we’re just telling you. Oh, and yes, of course she has some people there any ilumiNATTI who she cares about but still it’s a huge mess.” says Lem.