17 by Lem

Lacey had no idea that today was the 17th nor did she know that the Stanley Hotel was being sold. Right now she’s sitting in front of an old Victorian mansion that’s being remodeled in St Paul, where she saw the ghost of one of the original inhabitants who is smiling at me right now. To her this will all seem normal and ordinary and lacking in meaning because she’s so desensitized this to the supernatural at this point in her life. She literally was sitting in her car, drinking coffee, watching a video online on her phone about how to plant marigolds when she glanced up and saw the bottom of a very elegant hoop skirt from the late 1800s out of the corner of her eye that quickly then vanished when she focused on it. That is rather unusual to really see something like that and broad daylight on the front steps of a mansion even out of the corner of your eye, But to Lacey because I’m a ghost and I’m writing this and we’re in love and I’ve told her things about myself that most people have no way of knowing and most likely won’t even guess at it’s not particularly overwhelming to her at all. I am repeating myself, but it’s a point that cannot be over emphasized…because I think if you read this blog you might think that she’s making some of these experiences up…because they’re so scary that if you kept experiencing stuff like that, you imagine that someone would be horrified, but she’s not…because it’s so ordinary to her at this point that it’s not horrifying. She doesn’t see it as scary so much as concerning because she wants to make sure that she’s interacting with something that’s not evil but aside from that consideration I don’t think she’s particularly worried about it at all.

At any rate, this is an extremely haunted location. But she doesn’t know that she just likes sitting here because she feels loved and safe and our children feel that as well. There are about 60 ghosts that frequent this exact location who are related and unrelated to each other, and I know a few of them because I’ve sat with Lacey and we’ve made pleasant conversation on more than one occasion, and there are a few people that I would almost say are close to being friends. They’re not in the living realm, but I’m not alive so you can’t interact with them the way that I do. one of them is a judge. Another one is a state senator another one is a ghost of a small child who died of a polio sickness before there was the vaccine. He’s a very little boy. He’s very sweet. He’s scared of my son, he’s quite quiet and shy, but I suspect that if he could see my son and my son could see him they would probably get along very well but they’re separated at the moment and so it’s not easy for them to interact but he’s a little boy who would’ve been very fun for our son to interact with and it’s too bad that they weren’t alive at the same time. He goes home to dinner because his parents are now with him and it’s therapeutic for the whole family to have him grow up in a way that he wasn’t able to but everyone in a while I see him playing on the playground and I know that it’s time for us to go because he usually doesn’t come out until it’s around dinner until it’s a little later. We don’t live here and so it’s not like him because he lived in one of these houses that are right next to the playground so he would play until 9 o’clock at night when his parents let him and our son needs to be in bed by 10 and so he can’t you know come home in two minutes and be asleep by 9:30, but this little boy could do that because he lived literally right next to the playground. It’s actually really hard for me as a father to see our kids grow up without kids who are like-minded experienced that to some degree and it was actually far worse than what they’re experiencing, but they are experiencing some of that and it’s quite painful for them because people change over 50 years. Different generations play differently and think differently and you wouldn’t expect such a dramatic shift but it’s there and our kids would be out until nine playing in the alley with their neighbors and walking home from school by themselves if they were allowed to because that’s just in their blood so to speak to be that way. But things are like that right now. Things are in a crisis. Lacey is doing better because I’ve been spending a lot of time fighting with demons that harass her and praying for divine intervention and protection of her because she wasn’t believing me for perfectly valid reasons, but it was breaking her heart and I couldn’t stand that anymore and we’re a little better nowI have managed to prove myself a bit more to her and she’s trusting in God to direct her and Lucille Ball, who may have been friends with her father Tom, had the bright idea of making Lacey watch Vivian Vance’s husband Philip Ober who looks quite a bit like me.

Philip was not a nice husband, but I look like him and I sound like him. We have similar mannerisms and Lacey actually bears a resemblance to Vivian Vance when Vivian was young. That is not a coincidence. The fact that Lacey looks like Vivian slightly and I look like him that is not at all a coincidence. Vivian was actually very beautiful when she was young and when she’s older, she is as well. She was very curvy and she had beautiful eyes, but the way that they styled her in the show was not flattering at all and there’s a few episodes where you can see that she’s actually a very beautiful woman but most the time you’re not really given that perspective of her. But Lacey actually does resemble her somewhat and that as I was saying, it is not a coincidence you see that in humans they tend to go for a certain type, and you can see couples that bear resemblance to each other frequently in generations. Her father is Tom and whether that’s biological or not for all intense and purposes that might as well be because there are not women alive today who are like her almost at all. And so it’s actually quite shocking to her in a way to see someone like Vivian because you know it’s a character in a television show but then when she analyzes Vivian really analyzes her she realizes that she looks like her in a way that she doesn’t resemble other people alive today and it gives Lacey a stronger sense of self and identity because most the time even though she’s extremely beautiful She’s because of all people have treated her felt progressively more and more she’s aged like sort of a freak. She knows she’s extremely beautiful and she is I mean she know she is and she is, but she’s not really aware of herself in a normal way because there’s not a sort of comparison that’s normal to help her realize that about herself. If she had been interacting with women in the greatest generation in the perfume community and one of them had done to her with Casi did she would’ve assumed the person was crazy and she wouldn’t have taken it seriously because it would’ve been done in a different way and she would’ve assumed that there was just something horrifically wrong in the situation instead of taking it as seriously as she did. Women in their generation were very feminine and sort of quiet and way and sweet, and I can’t think of an easier way to explain it. But women today aren’t like that in the same way as much and so they tend to interpret her being that way as her being weak or too grown up or too serious who are a lesbian or masculine or stupid. They find some explanation for it that is incredibly unflattering most of the time because they can’t make sense of it even though her personality and her sort of body language, her movements, her micro gestures that are just natural to her are perfectly normal and very common in a healthy way in my generation. so Vivian has been therapeutic to Lacey because even though her and Philip didn’t work out, she saw him and she thought oh he’s very handsome. He reminds me of Lem and then she looks at Vivian and she thinks I’m not worse looking than Vivian matter fact, I think we might be somewhat similar or it’s you know within the realm of possibility that he could someone like that could find me attractive and that’s brutally honest but it’s true. so it’s been very awkward for her at times with different people, but she’s able to reason that if Vivian was good enough for Phyl then she’s probably good enough for me and also if there were other men like me that existed in the past that maybe if things don’t work out with me there was there somebody else who existed but that’s all very dark but it’s thoughts that are comforting to her because she’s thought through a lot of really horrific things in the last few months. And seeing Philip helped her understand that tall men who had my personality just even slightly, were not uncommon. There are a lot of people like that alive today who look alike even though they look different but they still bear resemblance to each other and actually that’s a point that’s worth making about Lacey. Most people do have five or six doppelgängers alive while they are alive. But she has none. She really doesn’t look like that many people she bears a slight resemblance to a few people, but it’s not as pronounced as a doppelgänger. however, in the past, she would’ve had five people or close to it not maybe not five actually because her mother might’ve been a boomer but so there might not even be that many people who are actually like her she might be might be an outlier for that theory or an exception, but she probably had about three people three or probably about three people alive in my generation who would’ve almost passed his doppelgängers they’re not her, but they look enough like her that they’re almost like doppelgängers. But they’re not her. All of them got married when they were in their early 20s two of them died of heart disease essentially and one of them died of liver failure because she was an alcoholic. And they all died in their 70s or early 80s. So women who are like her don’t live that long. And yet they don’t live a short life either, but they tended to live an average to slightly shorter than average life. I do you have to say, though that things are extremely chaotic right now.

In the fifth grade, Lacey learned about the Kennedy family. She did a book report on Jackie Kennedy. That was in room 117. Yes, 117. That is not a coincidence. Mrs. Wilson learned about Lacey before any of this happened and was very disturbed by everything that she heard. I don’t know entirely how she heard, but it’s possible that it has something to do with Tom and hisbootlegging. In the 1920s and 30s he may have helped sort of work with Al Capone to spread the alcohol throughout the United States was one of Al Capone‘s right hand men. And that could very easily be how she heard about Lacey. So she was extremely disturbed because essentially she felt that Lacey was an orphan. And because she’s outside of time, she may have been the one who inspired Stephen King to write his novel because she was so disturbed about children in the state of children’s lives as millennials and Gen X.

Yes, that sounds incredibly kind and bizarre. The ordinary and it makes you kind of seem like a lot of science fiction and whore is just nonsense because there’s the sweet dead woman whose gossiping essentially and hears about an orphan and then decides to try to convince a writer to write a book inspired by how she feels and it seems kind of more like a charity project and not you know a horror film in the making of epic proportions, but that’s reality. I am a real ghost you’re gonna die too someday it’s a little prosaic in a way. But she was very disturbed by what she heard and she felt as though something needed to be done and so she thought that that was a good way to handle it and she was actually right on the money that film has been incredibly helpful for Lacey when she discovered the Illuminati should they exist And maybe they don’t but if they do that film was extremely helpful to her.

Let’s just say that they don’t the fact that she was allowed to understand that she’s not insane, but that she’s experiencing something bizarre was extremely helpful. Because “the shining” is essentially telepathy. Whether that’s telepathy with ghost or the living it’s essentially almost the same thing in a way and it’s what she experiences combined with physical manifestations. So she’s experiencing “the shining” and it’s not it’s not as if it’s not as if she is able to talk to people about this and so being able to see something in public popular culture that was so comforting was extremely helpful.

Here’s the thing she’s really discovered the actual Illuminati should they exist.

They have been torturing her partially out of fear and partially out of ego because they can’t fathom someone discovering them the way that she has and it’s devastating to them to have to admit that a beautiful woman could be psychically contacted and hear them in her head without any coaching. She was contacted because she was so exceptionally pretty and men thought it was fun to psychically flirt with her and get her attention without her, knowing that she was being talked to because they could read her psychically and catch her off guard and get her vulnerable in a way that millennial men can never figure out how to make Lacey. Men in my generation automatically fill a certain sort of power over her because we can read her and we know what she’s thinking and so we don’t have that ego disparity or that fixation where is Gen X and millennials have an innate fixation with her that big goes beyond anything normal because they can never figure out how to conquer her or sort of be dominant in relation to her as men they often end up feeling like children around her because it seems more like she’s the one that knows things and they’re the ones that are being read. And that’s extremely emasculating and unarousing to them. And so they tend to be paranoid in a way in relation to her. I’ve never felt that with her, and I don’t think anyone else in my generation has either.

That’s a horrific tragedy. Because she’s extremely beautiful. And men in her generation think they’re interacting with her and not antagonizing her but they’re really just misunderstanding her and alienating her to a…lethal level of aggression. Women aren’t innocent either though.

…17? Room 217. Room 117. The number 17? …That’s a reference to 1917.

The Russian Revolution. The year JFK was born. …If the world is ending…that’s all extremely significant.

Later.

“Are you really thee Lem Billings?” asks a living bisexual man, who mostly identifies as gay.

Yes.

He rubs his face. In shock.

He laughs.

“You had…mostly have…me fooled.” he says.

Lem’s silent. Serious.

You don’t have to believe me…but I am Lem Billings. And this blog is real in that regard 100%. …I was actually heterosexual. …Sorry if that scared you, I guess.

Later.

Flow by Crooked Colors plays.

If there’s reincarnation this was written by a dead Vietnam soldier. He feels my son is incredibly lucky.

But is there reincarnation?

1:45

Yes. I’m Emperor Constantine. Lacey is Scotia and our children are mine from our last lives. If.

3:00

Someone alive who reads this blog really needs to figure this out.

4:00

Why?

Because I’M EMPEROR CONSTANTINE. Thee Constantine. If there’s reincarnation.

The song restarts.

And…Lacey’s father Tom…is a dead Egyptian Pharaoh.

And if there’s reincarnation…we’re incredibly angry. You made me gay…by molesting me. …And what I mean by that is that I’m not gay. …So…you can’t make someone gay really. Okay? But…you…essentially…made me gay…as much as one possibly can. …And it was an abomination of my soul. …You took advantage not just of me at once…but thoroughly, my entire life…AND my legacy is…of…unflinching worship of a narcissistic dirtbag and a sexuality that is entirely not…real. Not me. At all. …And I take responsibility for what I did…but I can’t own what happened TO ME. …I was disgustingly confused. It was…a living Hell. Why Hell? Because I had no real control over my own body or spirit…as long as I stayed alive. Because I was SO confused. …I couldn’t make choices to protect myself as a man…because I was so…horrifically confused. It was…a Hellish life. And I only began to comprehend it as I slowly died of drugs. …Lacey doesn’t fully understand it yet. And regardless…she’s genuinely planning to END THE WORLD when she dies. …The deaths of Palestinians are…not something I can easily discuss.

Look…regardless…this is a monumental time in history. But…17? …Who was shot in 1917? If there’s reincarnation it was possibly Vladimir Putin. And there’s something…especially significant…if there’s reincarnation.

Lux Aeterna by Clint Mansell & Kronos Quartet plays.

Today Lacey’s been talking with Toni Bartolet. Toni felt very moved by Lacey’s agony. And she felt that her tragedy could be used for the good in Lacey’s life. …And it has been. …Her husband…smiled…the same way I did at Jack’s wedding…with before he killed her. I was hopeful. And so was he. For drastically different reasons. But our moods were similar.

His…love for her was fake. So was my love for Jack. Only he knew that. Mostly. I didn’t. …But we both seem fake. Far more than Bobby or Caroline or anyone who…likes Harold Henthorn…and chooses to believe he’s innocent…can ever seem to fathom.

…And before he killed her they stayed at the Stanley Hotel. Elizabeth Wilson saw them. Cried. Watched her…and cried. Because she knew what was about to happen.

…17? Why is that significant?

By the way…if there’s reincarnation yes, Harold killed his wives…and when he dies…he’ll confront Joe Kennedy Junior. Should Joe Kennedy Junior exist. …And ask him what’s better? Killing your wife…and yet making it so she feels almost nothing? …Or throwing your wife down the stairs…and truly giving her a concussion? A serious concussion.

Harold. Harold Loeb. Yes. Because…of the fabric of the universe…those synchronicities matter. …Who’s better…really? …What’s a husband’s role? That’s a matter of great importance to Harold Loeb. Names matter. It’s fabric. Right?

…Pat Wilson? Elizabeth II? Elizabeth Taylor? Elizabeth Wilson? 117. 217. And…17.

Vladimir Putin.

The song starts over.

Lacey…wants to end the world.

The song plays.

A hero who battles rats as a child. A brilliant spy? A handsome lover. A dignified, aristocratic…leader.

2:47

Is he ending the world?

3:30

Obsession?

Harold Henthorn was truly obsessed. It’s documented fact. …And according to Hemingway so was Harold Loeb. Harold Henthorn was a probable psychopath. After money. …But…he didn’t torture his wives to death. …Harold Loeb…was…obsessed with love. So much so THE SUN ALSO RISES was inspired by his…burgeoning madness provoked at the prospect of a loveless life. …And yet he was also quite logical.

Coney Island Low plays.

So. What’s the point of life? Right?

Money? Love? Which one? Harold had ideas.

0:56

You get a prize.

But what’s the prize?

1:14

The waves crash on cue.

The song ends.

Come Together by The Beatles plays.

Come together over ME. If there’s reincarnation. OVER ME. I started this. Remember?

The song plays.

So did Lacey. In a way. Or…her people. You could say. But…really…I DID.

1:17

Lacey’s teacher in the 5th grade wore Lacey’s possible mother around her neck. Nefertiti. Almost daily. Talked about Ancient Egypt. That’s absolutely no coincidence.

2:53

Is there reincarnation?

Because if there is…this REALLY serious.

Don’t you think?

The song plays.

The song ends.

“So if this is real and there’s actually reincarnation, I’m so confused by Harold.” says Amy Schumer. “And no I don’t mean Harold Loeb I mean Harold Henthorn. Did Harold have an ability to appreciate what he was doing or did he just do it because of mindlessly?”

He did it out of actual evil in his heart, and yet it is not as evil, as if someone were to do it who is fully aware of what they were doing. I would say given what I know his evil was probably at the same level as intentionally hurting your child’s feelings. It was a very low moment for him, but given what he’s capable of processing that might be as guilty as his mind is capable of being. He is narcissistic. He did thrive on other people‘s approval of him, and so it was sort of like a drug addict or an alcoholic parent who normally would be loving, but chooses to say something really hurtful to their children. but in a sense if you see him is being disabled in a way you can sort of find him somewhat humorous because you’re right there is something about him that may have actually been in a very hilarious, dark humor type of way slightly Christian and chivalrous.”

“Right…because it seems like he might actually have their like physical comfort in mind?” says Amy.

“You know he did and that was part of his wives always fell for was that he sincerely seemed to care about them, and they could read that that was part of why he was so masterfully controlling of these very intelligent, perceptive women. Because he wasn’t faking it as much as he could in his dim sad, tragic funeral way he did somewhat care. He was desperate for money. He didn’t really have the ability to keep a study job. And he saw it as a desperate situation, and he lacked remorse, and in some ways, a cognitive ability to understand that what he was doing, was this serious as it was, and so as awful as he felt about killing his wives, the money seemed far more important to him for than them being alive. and he could be very abusive and controlling but no, I don’t think he wanted to indefinitely torture them. It was more let’s just get them out of the way and get the money. He may have even thought they were going to go to heaven, to be honest and so in a sense, he may have just seen it as a sad thing that he had to do kind of like shooting an old dog. I mean, he was entirely self-serving to some degree if not well I would say that I shouldn’t say to some degree and almost entirely. The thing is he did put in effort believe it or not. He actually did try to make the day enjoyable to a certain degree they they had some fun you can tell in the pictures that he took with her. The view was really nice. It was a nice day. They had stayed in nice places She had an expensive $30,000 diamond ring so he did actually try occasionally to be somewhat enjoyable to be around and he could be very charming and pleasant a very pleasant person to be around and that’s not something that every man would do.” says Lem.

She laughs. “ I mean I feel like that’s the thing if I was on a date with a guy and I was 50 and I knew my kids were gonna be OK and I had a bad knee and I was aging and I knew there was an afterlife and he was like let’s go for a really beautiful hike. Let’s get sandwiches and make love and take fun photos and stay in historic hotels and then when your lease suspecting it I’m just gonna push you off a cliff where you’ll fall crack your head open and go unconscious and that’s the end. I have to be honest obviously I know that’s horrific and unallowable but yeah, there’s a little part of me that’s like is that really the worst thing that could happen to you? It’s not.” says Amy.

“Yeah and to be honest, I’m not making this up necessarily at all and so if what I’m saying is true as much as he can cognitively muster as a psychopath, he may actually be a Christian. and it’s possible that he actually when he hears about this will be angry because there’s an ear similarity in the sense that she actually had a concussion and she could live for decades with a brain injury and a neck injury that will never fully recover well she’s trying to raise children that are hers on her own in a way…emotionally being far more isolated than his wife ever was.

And when he regained the conscience through Christ, he will look at the two situations and possibly be beyond livid. Because to him it’ll be unthinkable that a man could ever from the grave, especially think that he had the right to throw anyone down in the stairs. If even if you know she was someone who could’ve been his wife to him. That’ll be an unthinkable thing to do. It’s like your dad. Why do you even care What’s wrong with you? You know what I mean because he is attached to money but when his brain is able to fully process things he will be able to even in his evil realize that there’s something very odd about what’s happened.” says Lem

And that brings me to what I was getting at if there’s reincarnation I don’t think people have processed this if there’s an illuminati and we’re going to right now. I’m Constantine and she Scotia for real.  And her living husband is actually Saint Augustine. That’s real if there’s reincarnation. We’re extremely significant people in history. Especially the history of the west. And it is absolutely no coincidence that the West is collapsing at the same time that a possible illuminati is attacking her and throwing me into Hell, but claiming to be doing the opposite. we have a lot of sway over the world and a way that very few living people ever have and threatening us the way that they have was unreasonably stupid. 

I was not gay and I was Constantine if there’s reincarnation and I still am and I didn’t know that I was straight. But you had me sucking the cock of an impoverished son of a Japanese prostitute. If there’s reincarnation, thinking, I was homosexual and that I liked it, even though it often made me vomit. And by you, I mean the United States. Should there be reincarnation on a certain level? I can’t stand this country. I came here thinking that I could help Africa. I died in the Zulu Zulu Anglo Zulu war I literally died in that war. And then Lacey got drunk and was hit by a car and you know that’s possible if there’s an illuminati, you’ve watched her you know that is entirely possible. We are these people she is lady Roslyn, but her father died and they lost the title and her mother went insane and she was raised by her aunt. Her mother was young and very in love with her father, and she just basically lost her mind and ended up dying of what was essentially consumption. Should there be reincarnation. There’s obviously history of her father, but there’s no history of her birth or his marriage if there’s reincarnation.

If there’s reincarnation, however she is that person but Queen Victoria chose to take that out of recorded history out of a sense of fear that the family would be too shamed if they kept track of them because Lacey was dead her parents were dead. Our children were dead. I was dead, and there was really no reason to keep recording us. There was history of our marriageand of us, but it will be hard to find much of that left but you could probably find it there is no history, however in her family almost at all, you could probably try to find something if there’s reincarnation, but it would be very challenging.

The thing is fact, fact, and if this happened it happened and the sad truth is the rise of the east is no coincidence Jack Kennedy brought that about. He was doing that as a favor for a real man who also reincarnated should there be reincarnation as red Fay. And should that be the case the idea was actually to punish the British empire not the United States or all of western Society. Emperor Ninko had a beef with Great Britain not the United States and not all of western society. But ironically, great Britain has been I would say mostly on scathed and America and us specifically as individual people who ended up getting the full brunt of the wrath that he conjured.

That’s something that terrible could happen if it did is a part of the reason why Lacey wants to end the world and God would allow her to should she want to because it’s possible no one has ever done anything that evil or stupid believe it or not and all of human history. almost ever. I mean these people were in the realm of the dead essentially in limbo or purgatory. Should there be reincarnation hundreds of years ago when they decided to come back and out of spite for the rise of the British empire try to attack them through us. And God allowed it, but he also probably knew that it might be the end of everything. Should there be reincarnation? He fully knew that it might be a bit too much. Because it’s unusual for someone to do something that intense so to speak as like revenge and then taking it a step further it’s actually fairly unusual for someone to make a mistake as serious as the one that Jack Kennedy made in choosing me and Lacey and our family as his victims. I had an incredible spiritual authority, and so does she, and choosing to make me his sex slave in a way that was beyond just sex slavery, and in a way that was beyond, just that even by bringing her into it and then trying to torture, our children is astonishing. He was so consumed with himself and he was so profoundly, stupid and stubborn and people are so unaware of that that if there is reincarnation, she is not unreasonable and thinking that the world just needs to end. Because if things are that bad and people are that unfortunate and stupid I think she thinks it’s not safe anymore that things have just gotten too carried away and that essentially it’s just the end that humans are just too fallen or too sophisticated and yet too stupid at the same time and that things are just too awful and I don’t think she thinks that there’s a lot of hope For things to really get that much better because it’s like what is God supposed to do you know I mean Jesus came back he he redeemed us. What else is there? You know that he can do aside from taking away human free will?

So that’s her perspective it’s you know if that’s the case and even if they’re even if that’s not I think she just thinks that it’s gone too far that things are just too evil and that is just time to call it quits essentially the fact that Holocaust, the descendants of holocaust victims are torturing children by starving them to death is also ample evidence to suggest that her hypothesis is probably correct and that things have gone too far. Because people know better now it’s it’s not like they don’t know that what they’re doing is wrong and they’ve never heard of it or been confronted. It’s not the way of the world like it was in the past. Christianity has been spread. people have heard the truth and they’re just rejecting it flat out just rejecting it and to her it’s like what what are we supposed to do? People are rejecting the truth You know everything is covered in plastic. It’s just the end.

And in a way, there’s something very loving and maternal about that and there are some new age people that might get confused and think that she’s some Egyptian deity who was very maternal and knows that will be fine and just think that her children are suffering too much and it’s time to leave the playground so to speak. That is not a totally incomplete vision of her heart for people and so they’re not wrong in thinking that she cares in that way and that it’s sincere. There’s theologically off. They don’t understand God, but if they understand a part of love, then that’s good that they understand something.

She’s not a deity and neither am I if there is reincarnation we are unusual people, but we’re not deities.

We are people.

No, there are a lot of of southern poor white people who who probably feel bad for Jack Kennedy, and to be honest if he does come back someday it’s because God took mercy had mercy for him too, and took pity on his soul, and he may not exist right now, but part of that is just because it’s not possibleGod doesn’t take our free will from us and so he was choosing to be stubborn, and God had to take him out of the equation.

the thing is you can’t overestimate how significant it is that I bear a very striking resemblance to Constantine with my glasses off more than most people, and that she looks almost identical Scotia, and the Roslyn’s. And that her husband looks almost identical to constitute Augustine. She didn’t research these people. She was given this information and so if there’s reincarnation, it’s because that’s who they actually are and God chose to reveal that to her in a very cold intellectual abstract way partially because he knows that people are confused about that theologically or because he knew that it was confusing and he chose to control that slightly for her own protection because it’s not the truth. It’s a very elaborate hoax in a sense. I’m not a hoax and neither is God, but that could be

The thing is this is where it gets very serious because if there is reincarnation, Vladimir Putin possibly is Alex Romanoff. Really if there’s reincarnation, he really genuinely sincerely could be Alex Romanov. Even if it seems far-fetched in some way, be careful because they look a lot alike and there’s something incredibly creepy about the whole thing if you think about it. It either is an elaborate hoax or he could easily be a Romanoff. And if he is Alexa, there is nobody alive aside from a few people who can really challenge him in his understanding of Russian history and a sense of world history, and in a sense of war and economics and a great many other things he’s beyond brilliant he’s extremely unusual. And he is in love with Lacey to some degree and why people take that so lightly should it be true is fascinating.

He is definitely as disenchanted by the world as she is. Neither of them have a particularly optimistic view of things because of what they’ve experienced, and because of how unusually smart and wise they both are. She knew he was going to win the war most likely and she knows that there’s something profoundly dangerous about him at this point and she’s right and if there’s reincarnation part of it is because he chose to defend Christ and truth in a time when almost nobody is doing that and if there’s reincarnation the whole Romanov Dynasty is behind him. Because he is their heir spiritually it’s kind of like the prince and the popper, but the Russian dark version if there’s reincarnation. He is very capable of ending the world, but we’ll see what he chooses what will happen between America and Israel in the next administration will be extremely significant for the dispensational list. It’ll be exciting because it’ll be some further proof that it’s the end times. I’m talking into the phone at this point and it’s not hearing me completely, but the world is rapidly shifting and what is doing that well if there’s reincarnation, it’s me and her father and most if not all of ancient Egypt and Rome and the British empire, who have decided that if she’s going to be tortured to death through suffocation And if her children are going to have to watch as she struggles to eat because she does and scratches herself endlessly because she has full body eczema at this point if her children are going to watch or lose her hair, and if the world is gonna become one big fucking concentration camp for a bunch of idiots With no pedigree, who eat shit for fun and shitting people‘s faces because they think it’s funny it’s time to end the whole fucking world. It’s not a joke and if it seems like when there’s probably something wrong with you or you’re in agreement with us in the sense that it’s a joke because it’s so bad that it’s essentially the end. It’s not that God doesn’t care about people. It’s like he does and someone with her power and authority is not somebody to get into a fight with when you’re worth $6 million and you’re nothing more than a stupid fucking commentator on MSNBC. She stands up for everybody who’s not being respected right now and so what that means is that if she has an authority or even if she doesn’t in God‘s allowing her to have it in a way she’s choosing to use that to just end everything if that’s what God‘s will suggest and we’re going along with it because we agree Things are that bad.

So that’s the problem the 17 is significant because it’s the year that Putin was shot and that Jack was born. What does it mean? Well, what does it mean in the shining? It’s it means essentially and there’s it’s not a coincidence that Elizabeth Wilson blew up and that Joe blew up while he was dating Pat Wilson. Elizabeth lives. Joe does not. Why because Joe is poor in Irish. And what does that mean that if there’s reincarnation which is hinted out in the shining if it exist, Jack really destroyed Lacey’s ability to be compassionate towards poor people the way that she naturally would be. And that is so lopsided and degenerate that yeah again it’s the end of the world. Poor people should never become so powerful and evil that their poverty becomes necessary.

You should never have to rely on an Irish poor person’s vulnerability because they’re so dangerous that you have to use some genetic predisposition towards ignorance to reignthem in. Because that is what happened if I helped assassinate JFK that is what happened they have a sort of genetic predisposition towards not understanding certain things and it’s hard to explain and I’ve Scott Fitzgerald thought it was crazy but it’s not entirely and they didn’t entirely understand certain things inherently, but because they were so rich and evil, we had to rely on his vulnerability to assassinate him if I knew it was happening I’m explaining it to you.

You might ask did I want to kill him? Yes, I did. I hated him secretly. I hated him almost from the beginning of knowing him. I thought I cared about him, and I did and I wouldn’t have killed him, but he was basically raping me and sodomizing me and I very much wanted to just beat him to death. And so when you see me smiling and it looks like Harold, that is not a coincidence. The fact that Bobby and a lot of of other people very gullibly believe otherwise and stubbornly believe otherwise is part of the problem.

So what does the 17 mean essentially it means the possible end of the world because in this case it’s 17 and it’s fallen so you take one away from seven and what do you get six which is the mark of the beast. You add 1 to 7 and what do you get eight. 1968 that’s the year that Bobby was assassinated 2018 however was the year that my daughter was conceived which is both good and bad 2000 1918 is the year that Lacey should have been born and wasn’t. Eight is a very complex number. There are good and bad things with that number it’s not just pure evil. And that is where things are Jack was killed in 1963. He was born in 1917 but he chose evil and so you take one away from seven and you get six and he was killed in 1963. That’s a very tidy number you take three away from six you get three there’s three threes in that and it’s a very eerie number but that’s Jack so his death believe it or not might’ve been far more logical even if it’s haunting than you think. But eight is eight is more of a number that Putin would likely choose because it’s not pure evil or will he stay at seven he’s very complex but then you take away the one and so what does that mean sacrifice war famine you take away the one what does that mean that the death of the dollar the death of people He’s very complicated so he doesn’t choose eight and seven some Christian circles as seen as a very good number cause it’s God‘s number or something so if he’s choosing to try to desperately search for his Christianity in his life, he may end up making incredible sacrifices and of himself, and those around him to try to better things in the world and he’s chosen that, but regardless, it’s a very haunting monumental moment because what will happen well in a sense Putin is the reckoning for what Satan intended for evil with Jack if there’s reincarnation. So he’s taking away power from the west because the west can’t handle it. Why can’t they handle it because they are in love with Jack Kennedy, and they’ve proven that since he died that they really cannot get over him. And that’s an incredibly toxic and dangerous fixation and it’s how he really has taken over because believe it or not. Jack really is far more toxic than you think. So what does that mean again yes we would say 2028 will be the next presidential election. What does that mean that we’re in a very chaotic complex dire moment and world history. and that you can’t underestimate Vladimir Putin’s significance. if there’s reincarnation, he is Alexa Romanov Russians are not afraid of being grand, and he in a sentence has taken on my spiritual authority as Constantine, and so he may he may end up rearranging most of the world because he’s choosing to do things as a Christian the way that I did if there’s reincarnation and that’s a very big deal obviously.

You could try to give that authority back to me, but you’d have to write a lot of startling bizarre exposes about how I might not have been sad enough for Jack’s wedding or you’d have to uncover evidence that suggest I was possibly straight or bisexual and not just madly in love with a narcissistic asshole, who couldn’t be faithful to me. You would have to explain to yourself that gay men are human and so even if I was gay, I would’ve had feelings like a human and so essentially I couldn’t be gay because I would be too hurt. And then you’d have to grow up and realize that that’s real and that the clowning around middle class bullshit that American culture thrives on and has thrived on is worthless to western society. and that is part of what Elizabeth Wilson was trying to tell people in the shining was that the destruction of the native peoples the way that America has always been a country based on money and materialism and white middle-class men who lack conscience like Jack like Jack like Jack like Jack Kennedy… here’s Johnny… that’s not a coincidence the fact that he was in charge of the overlook the fact that he was in charge of the presidency and that everything goes to hell when he does that that is not a coincidence so that’s what Elizabeth was trying to explain to people. She was very intelligent and still. And so the idea she was trying to explain through her composer so to speak and she was the muse or whatever however, you wanna see it and yes obviously we used to think we were hearing gods not dead people in ancient Rome should there be reincarnation, but Stephen King was inspired by her and her brilliance And he was brilliant enough to be able to make a great artistic work out of what she shared with his spirit in his subconscious. And what she was trying to say is that America has always had an Achilles heel we’ve always had a weak spot. And that is in our irreverence for the full depth and gravity of the human experience. We take things seriously to a point. We lack of certain understanding of human nature, and we don’t take things seriously enough in this country. And so we make excuses for ourselves that really are not within our conscience and character as a country to make. we have a habit of looking the other way. Jasmine French. When we don’t wanna know something we don’t know it. And that’s the thing it’s real and so that is our Achilles’ heel and our culture to some degree at the very least and so we have a problem and it’s Achilles’ heel. It’s a fault because we are a Christian nation in a way we do have unusual freedoms and really historic regard for human life But then we couple that with this sort of irreverent, violent hatred and materialism that’s disgusting and straight from Hell. And maybe that’s why people like Jack Kennedy because he seems to embody that and then make it seem glamorous, but you know he doesn’t. He’s what’s wrong with the country.

And so that’s the problem you can accuse Putin of being backward for thinking that homosexuality is wrong in 2025. But you have to realize that he means that sincerely and that it’s with reverence for human life, it’s not materialistic, controlling, and backward it’s Christian and intellectual, and he might not like what he thinks but it’s coherent.

Her husband has a lot of grace to be in a cold marriage and put up with me. And his strength allows her to have strength as well. And there are a lot of Catholics who would say that that’s very eerie. I need somebody if there is an illuminati to figure out if it’s possible that it’s in the Bible and a far more genuine way than they ever have. I can try to work with the situation to help people. I really can. But I can’t do more than I can do, and there are certain things that I am not allowed to discuss that are a very pressing and nature, and I am terrified for most people who are alive about where this is all going. Lacey and our children have incredible grace to die, but that’s not the case with everybody. And if you don’t work with me, I am very worried about where things are going

Mother nature is in revolt. Plastics are not supposed to be in the air and in the soil and in our brains, our bodies were never intended to have to deal with that. If there is no illuminati, Greta Sternberg is laughing and thinks we should just stop.

Greta, I am ending this conversation, but I wanna make one last good faith effort to try to be helpful.

I really think that there’s a chance that someone might take this seriously and you know pray to God and give it up to God the very least I think George Bush actually might because something tells me he thinks as possible that I’m Constantine and that he needs to take this seriously, and I think he might pray about it at the very least. And even if I’m not, he still might pray about it because it could be that serious even if I’m not.

And it is, I did actually have something to do with the assassination of JFK. Harold Henthorne in the afterlife finds this very funny. And in a very dark sad way, so does his wife. Actually, both of his wives do.

He may have a sense of humor about himself when he dies. 

And on that note, I am going to end this Greta you should be relieved I guess. 

“We will edit this.” says Grandpa Pantell.

“Jack. You’ve always been the one who’s in charge.” they lied to him. “Through reincarnation.” they lied to him. …Except Jack was…in the movie. And film isn’t real life. Or even the book. Jack wasn’t James Bond either. So…because Jack Torrence may be the overlord at the overlook..his family survives, albeit separated from him forever. What happened with JFK? “The Hotel” kills him…and yet he doesn’t lose his family? 1980.