“Time” by Hans Zimmer plays.
“I’ll tell you what’s happening in Palestine. …Qatar.
The white, European elite lie.
King Charles III isn’t a Muslim. He’s a monarchist…at least somewhat.
And I highly suspect that there’s a nationalist, white, secret…pact, within Europe.
They care. They really do. They care about Palestine. …I can almost guarantee you they care about the Palestinian children. But…world politics are brutal. …Not necessarily as pure evil-conspiratorial as you suspect, I think. Because if they were…the whole world wouldn’t exist as it does. Not with any sort of order. So…if there is a New World Order that’s pure evil today it hasn’t existed forever. …And by they care I mean the British elite. Possibly most of the European elite.
However…due to colonialism…and Muslim desires for world domination (Yes, they too wish to rule the world. DUH.) the influx of non-white Muslims in Europe has become a problem. Truly. I’m not necessarily racist, I hope. More just honest. …And there’s no way out. Okay? …There’s NO WAY OUT.
If you’re a fool or…someone who has no interest in European culture or history and hates it…for whatever reason…you might not care. …But if you love the very real beauty that does exist in the heart of Western civilization…it’s…time for swords to be drawn, so to speak. They’re after our throats. It’s time to resist. Yes. Resist them. …Don’t be an idiot. …It’s actually far more racist to believe they’re innocent like bunnies…or…cute frogs or squirrels or something…than to realize they’re NOT US. …Okay? They just aren’t.
…They aren’t European.
No. They’re NOT.
And yet they own billions and billions in European assets.
Some IDIOTS have no clue or no concern. But for anyone who cares…and feels…love and loyalty to their country as it was…at its best…or is…at its best…it’s…futile. It’s absolutely futile to ignore it and assume they’re just visiting. Or just…trying to be free. *eye-roll* NO. …I’m sure some people are. But…no. That’s really not it. …Look…Islam is…very powerful. And it’s been around for centuries. It’s nothing to mess around with! …They care. And they don’t give up. And they just keep going on…and on…and on. And…just sitting around while they slit our throats…is dumb. …Dumb as fuck.
I suspect the European elites know that. And…as much as they make deals with Islam…they secretly keep their alliances with Israel…and recently have been letting Palestine starve…because…that’s what Israel is doing…and…to save their own throats they have to side with Israel at the end of the day. Because…that’s their secret weapon. Israel is the…last resort.
The Jews are…dangerous people. They are the brothers of the Muslims. And they are. They are the descendants of Abraham. Don’t let…people tell you otherwise. Blood…runs. Blood…and water. And certain people aren’t easy to extinguish, if you even want to call it that. Muslims and Jews are similar in that way, actually. They’re…amazing people in that regard. Obstinately alive. Determined to exist. It’s gorgeous.
But…in order to save themselves from invading…yes invading foreigners…as their population leaves and has been leaving for centuries…and they are now quite weak all around…they’ve had to side with Israel. It’s their last resort.
Racism is…vile. Because it’s heartless and disgusting. And it masks a real threat. It makes something actually problematic something stupid. So stupid most intelligent people think there’s no reason to worry. Which is exactly what an invading force would want.
Muslims aren’t idiots. They’re people. And…often they’re compassionate, intelligent and quite nice. But they just are us. It’s as simple as that. It’s nonsense to say otherwise. …They’re just different people. …And there’s nothing wrong with that. Truly. It’s…what makes the world…livable. Fascinating. But…it’s also…why it’s nice to have your own home. Your own mind. We are all different. And you can make me think or try to be anything else. I’m me. You’re you. And that’s as it should be. …And…if you exist…and I exist…we may want space from each other. To simply be.
The fight over land is…ancient. It’s nothing new. Us humans…as a species…have been at it for probably almost as long as we have existed. But…this is the latest. And I’m not falling for it. And I suspect many other people secretly aren’t either. And again…I think that’s why Palestine has been left to suffer. Because as much as people care…they don’t have a way out.
And Israel…as dirty and evil as it is…is our filthy yet sharp…sword. Our demonic, rat infested life raft. And…that’s sad. It’s sad they’re that evil. But it’s also sad they’re the ones left holding the bag. That they’re made into our…scapegoats. That’s totally unfair to the Jews. Totally unfair.
Just because my legal husband has a steel spine in his soul as the son of a Jew…and can handle my own…iron core…as a human…doesn’t mean his people should be made to carry the entire burden of the existence Western Civilization. It’s sick!
And all while stupid anti-semites blame his people for everything.
Why? Why do the elite of Western Society use the Jews…as filthy swords…? Because they’re corrupt. And weak as fuck. Sorry to swear. They’re incredibly weak. And the Jews, aren’t…shit…they’re just far more wise and strong and experienced. They don’t bow to the gods of bullshit sucking Buddha’s cock while Allah fucks they in the ass like America taught us all to do after World War I.
America, land of the fool. The fool who is willing to die to be free because he’s brave…but is too unaware to realize…that…money…and power…are two different things. That wealth…isn’t Jesus. That freedom…really isn’t free. Not at all! And you can’t buy it. Well…certainly not forever. It isn’t free.
The Quality of Mercy by Max Richter plays.
Just because you worship Christ…doesn’t mean you’re instantly holy like God the Father. Beyond question. Perfect. Sinless. …Even if God sees you that way through Christ’s sacrifice. …And…even if America is a truly Christian nation…it’s far from good. And it always has been. …Are we bad? Mmm…we didn’t use to be, although I would say we weren’t good. You can’t be as heartless and evil as we were to certain groups people and be truly good. But…now…I fear we’re possibly close to being actual evil. I’m quite sure we have sold children into living hell…to boost our economy. And pay China. That’s evil. …I don’t care what you say. …There are certain things that are beyond excuses. Totally beyond. And selling children is one of them. It’s totally beyond excuse.
And it’s sad…that just as we tried to deal with racism in America…we began to crumble. And…maybe that’s why we’ve reverted back to what we were before we really started to crumble. It…feels…safer?
Honestly…I fear…the weird truth might be that Jack Kennedy created this. How? By being a huge bullshit artist. …By selling the “New Frontier” because it sounded optimistic. It sounded like…exactly what aging World War II vets desperately wanted to hear. At that time. And it appealed to Boomers too. Because…it was so…happy. And they were young and optimistic still. …But it was absolute bullshit.
Clubbed To Death by Escala plays.
There was no new frontier. Space isn’t a frontier. It’s…not. …There simply was nothing new. …Not in that way. Not as a frontier. That was the part. The glorious American past. What there really was was a horrifically haunted land. Like the hotel in The Shining. Wounds of the past…festering. Aging. Death. Decay. And a…ghastly…burden. A burden created by Great Britain. One he barely understood at all.
And due to bullshit and negligence and evil…he left the US in a permanent state of disrepair. Because we were always going to hope for his return. For the New Frontier to come. Because he was a filthy, evil, worthless liar possibly. A con artist fake prince. A selfish, deceitful joke as a leader. Who hides behind tears to seem like a cool, caring martyr. When really…he was useless. Provoking the Cuban Missile Crisis. And edging us towards Vietnam. While creating a false sense of safety and hope to get elected and be loved and feel good about himself. A narcissistic, drug-addicted, player. Not a wise hero.
There was no new frontier.
It didn’t exist!
India exists. Iran exists. Egypt exists. …Ethiopia exists. …China exists. Russia…exists. …And…that is what mattered. …Forget the newest thing. That’s easy. …As the leaders of the world…it was our responsibility to care. More than anyone else. …And not be stupid about it. …We couldn’t just waltz on stage and think that by sheer force of our intuition and ingenuity we could make the world better. Through some sort of combination of money and modernity and maybe Jesus Christ. Freedom!? Ha! What is freedom?!? …WHAT THE FUCK IS FREEDOM!?? What is freedom really to an American? …I’m not saying it’s not a thing. …But what is it!?!?!? …Seriously!!!! Did we ever safely explain that!? Collectively? And yet we were going to go around the whole fucking universe sharing that!? SHARING WHAT!?!? WHAT EVEN IS IT!?!” says Lacey.
“Joe Kennedy Junior…would have liked to say…that she’s right. …And had she been born…when God wanted her to be…and had he been able to…even…talk with her…she’d have influenced him. Had he lived. And been U.S. President instead of Jack. And he’d have felt the need to make the family con game…mean something. Not just be a family power grab. But mean something. Really. For real. …And…it would have pained him to think of it. Although he’d have ignored it, sadly.” says a demon, who is being forced by God to explain.
“So…personally…I’m torn. …Because I can’t support Israel. What they’re doing to the Palestinians is wrong. Except…I can’t…go too far with that…because…Israel is just defending itself. So…I’m outside. I’m…watching. Like a ghost. And so is my whole family.
I’m not neutral. But…I’m not sure how else to describe it. Although that’s not quite right.
Look…Europe should be European. …Unless we’re okay with Europe ceasing to exist. Truly. Truly ceasing to exist.
And maybe it’s nonsense anyway. …Sadly the Climate Crisis is a political war. And for our survival as a species it can’t be. But idiots or lemmings or…whatever you want to or should call them…who are influenced very possibly by JFK, don’t have the wisdom to know better. He was such a shitty, evil leader people still believe evil is good because of him. Yes! Him. First he lied. Then he was shot. Then people felt he was a hero and started worshipping him. And then we found out he was actually very evil… And then…evil…became cool. Probably when people really started to believe he was a cheater. Which could have been in the 1980’s. The tabloids definitely started talking about Marilyn Monroe in the 80’s…and in private people knew about Lem.
At any rate…he became a false light. And many Christians have fallen for it. I used to be one of them. Years ago. Because he seemed so beautiful. The whole family did. …It’s only in recent years I’ve realized they’re completely full of shit. And they’re not even that good-looking or smart. And their wealth was a one hit wonder. Bobby Kennedy Junior is probably bankrupt and funded by his wife. The Kennedy mansion on Cape Cod is probably in decay. Real royalty lasts far far longer than 50 years. And the fact that Bobby can’t get elected (and none of them can really as much anymore) is proof their reign is beyond over.
But America was never supposed to have a royal family anyway! Why did we feel the need to? Especially in the 20th Century?
…It’s sad. Russia has to rely on fossil fuels to stand for Christ. …Against the tide of pedophilic monsters who have dominated the West in recent decades. …Desperate for money, unable to stabilize the west without using children…and…sadly morally bankrupt and driven by stupidity and lack of good leadership. …Russia has become…the last front.
Time by Hans Zimmer plays.
The western front. Russia. Mother Russia. The bear. Fighting for Christ. Holding up the cross. Valiantly. Remembering why we care. Why we care…despite our enormous frailties. As a people. White people. …Because of love. The love of a savior. Our only hope. The reason the British ever loved themselves at all. The reason they still had the soul to cry for themselves innocently. …And it’s disgusting. …Because climate change is real.
So as the world floods…and burns…and summer kills us…and winter somehow doesn’t come anymore…Russia…and America…relies on oil…because they have to. …And yet Israel…murders…because it has to.
3:20
Because that’s where we are.
The song ends.
Waterways by Einaudi plays.
Stuck between a fossil fuel prince. A handsome, brave man. A real hero. And yet also a dark, calculating, brutal tsar. All at once. …And…a nation of murderers…who love their own people passionately and are willing to slaughter millions of children for the survival of the West.
Stuck between a complex country of Buddhists who look forward with real hope and a nation of hardworking people who…eat their way to early graves but give their hearts to the future anyway, because their granddaddy loved them and gave them the idea they should dream big dreams.
Stuck between suffocating the Earth to death…slowly…cutting off her breath…with no new frontier…after all…just death…and…
A Sparrow Alighted Upon Our Shoulder by Johann Jóhannsson plays.
Torturing humanity…at its very core…in the most extreme and horrific way imaginable.
The song plays.
Stuck between ending the inhabitable Earth…and going to living Hell.
Those are our options. Living Hell. Or certain death.
For a lover like Vladimir Putin…who…sees ghosts…and talks telepathically with Chinese billionaires…and the brilliant mind of a great tsar…death…and God…and honor…are obviously the only choice. …And…maybe…just maybe…we can save ourselves. …Chernobyl has dogs. …Right? Why…can’t we figure out something? Some way to salvage the Earth? Save the Earth somehow. Because…space? Mm. Not likely. …But hey! You never know! Maybe there’s a way!!! …The world just can’t be led solely by pedophilic, debt-ridden…lemmings… The Earth matters. But people matter too! Human love…for other humans…matters.
And what’s death? Nothing. Just a joke! A sad…brutal lie…until you’re completely dead.
*Putin laughs*
Cathedral by Thomas Newman plays.
In Heaven…in God’s presence…it’s…wonderful. There’s nothing to fear… Nothing but being dishonorable before death.
The song ends.
A Blessing by Max Richter plays.
*A Muslim man cries. Because he sees Allah’s love in Putin.*
The song plays.” says Lacey.
“But I bow only to Jesus Christ.” says Putin.
“I know.” says the Muslim man, respectfully.
“The song plays.
Stuck between Putin. And…a nation…I fail to understand. Even though I try.
The song plays.
Look…if I’m hearing from ghosts…my father Tom is the descendant of Dutch folks who started New Amsterdam. We…trade. We…make money. Love art. Worship Jesus. …He was a criminal. A rich, old money, brilliant, possibly kind-hearted gentleman criminal…but he lived outside the country in a way regardless. In his mind…he was American…but also…still a Dutchman on his own farm…possibly…in a way. Not America. …I don’t understand America necessarily as well as I would like to.
Why…sell children? Why…refuse to accept that Kennedy was a fool? …Why…use slavery…and then lie about it. Yes, lie about it. Because…our happiness is a lie in the US. How can it not be!? Okay it’s real. In a way. Sure! But…it’s always been a lie too. …It was never a pure country. The way we treated the Native Americans is far worse than anything Israel has ever done to the Palestinians. …And far worse than anything the British ever did to the Irish. …And the Nazis…may be the only people to eclipse us…in the sum of their total evil when they conducted the Holocaust.
Yet really…we’re a very stable, amiable country…most of the time. At least in a way. Relatively speaking. Because you can’t compare us to an imaginary country that never makes grave mistakes. That doesn’t exist! …Relatively speaking we’re quite nice. …It’s just that we aren’t only nice. We’re capable of incredible evil.
…And…I understand why the British colonized Africa. I do. I get that evil. I understand it. …I might even understand slavery for economic development purposes to some degree. …What I don’t understand…is selling children. And completely lying about our country.
Look…the British knew. To some degree they knew they were hurting people. Killing them. Enslaving them. And they justified it. But…I kinda think that might better…because if you talk to someone who’s logically, rationally justified their actions…sanely…and without narcissism…you may be able to change their mind. …How do you fix a situation where people refuse to fully comprehend anything…but instead just narcissistically react? …And that’s the frustration Putin has had with America for years. Who’s in charge really? …What in the world does America even want!?!
Does it want…China…to look the other way? It has! …But…Ukraine…was too much. …Epstein was…too much.
You see…Jeffrey was fun.
Sweet Dreams by Escala plays.
Nicole Kidman is nice. And Jeffrey Epstein and her were friends. They both liked being evil. But they also liked…actual fun. And in order to enjoy having real fun with other humans…you have not be almost pure evil.
So as Nicole is forced to make another ugly public appearance in her evil…as she’s on the cutting block for not being pure evil…she is on the same path as her friend Jeff.
Out them. Sacrifice them. …Because…they refuse to go along with everything. They occasionally choose to be brave and say no. Care about a child by letting them just go to bed. Just watch a movie. …Or in Jeffrey’s case…choosing to use teenagers…instead of sadistically abusing young children. Choosing teenagers with homes. Not abandoned street children desperate for existence.
Epilogue by Johann Jóhannsson plays.
Nicole is too human. And so was Jeffrey. They had a smidgeon of an ability to care. Like a human.
And that’s why Bobby and Bill Gates and Bill Clinton were friends with Jeffrey Epstein. Because as evil as he was…he was tolerable compared to some people.
How did America decide…Jeffrey Epstein…should be killed? …A man who likely was preventing Putin from invading Ukraine. Talking him out of it over whisky and pool. Yes…pool. ‘Come on!!! Let’s work this out!’
Why did America use Epstein…as a scapegoat…the big dirty Jew…while letting Jack Kennedy rape their souls? I don’t get it.
I sincerely don’t understand.
Night by Ludovico Einaudi plays.
In Great Britain…Jeffrey Epstein…would be allowed to be the ultimate evil. The old Great Britain. The ultimate evil. Anything worse than him…would be destroyed. And he would be the worst there is. …Anything worse than him would be…imprisoned or killed. Truly. Beaten to death. …But he’d be allowed to exist…and to thrive…somewhat…just to keep an eye on things. He’d be controlled. By better, equally rich men. And he’d be the ultimate evil.
Tick-Tock by Hans Zimmer plays.
And maybe that’s why…people today…believed he was the ultimate evil at first. Because that used to be true, actually. …But I really doubt he is.
And it can’t be Putin. I’m almost 100% sure of that. If not 100% sure. So…what else? Something quiet and pervasive. …Something hiding. Something close to absolute pure evil.
The song plays.
0:45
The song plays.
I don’t understand.
America needs oil. …And I will never surrender. …And when I do…I’ll be dead. …And you know what that means.
The song plays.
Oil is stuck in Michael’s possession. And Michael wasn’t a bad man. …Yes, he was human even though he was a Rockefeller.
The song plays.
Why…doesn’t America just stop using oil? Oh! Right! Because the people who want to…are selling children to eat!!! …And those of us who don’t want to sell children…have oil. And keeping the world dependent on oil…is how we can break their necks…before they send us all to living Hell. …Real, living Hell. Because they can never seem to cognitively figure out how to make us work as a world…without using oil. …And it amazes me that people who themselves so damn seriously…can’t seem to escape from a box with an open lid. …Why don’t they just actually use green energy? Why…don’t they just fix so many things that they claim bother them? …If Christians are so stupid…then why can’t they defend themselves against us anymore using mere logic? What THE FUCK!?
I mean…do they even really care that climate change is real? Or is that narcissism? A facade? Simply to appear intelligent. …I don’t get it. …Just actually fix climate change. Now. Not ten years from now. NOW. …Ten years from now will very likely be too late. I’m baffled.
…
But assuming America isn’t just nonsense…what is it?
Why did America choose selling children? Why not…death? …Palestine chooses death. Russia chooses death. …And maybe they’ll survive anyway. …I don’t get it.” says Lacey.
“Because this is all we have!” says Bill Gates, to explain. Not necessarily because he actually thinks that.
“Then what are ghosts!? You see them too.” says Lacey.
“Well…but what are they really?” says Bill Gates to explain.
“They’re obviously ghosts.” says Lacey. Iran nods to agree with her.
The song ends, almost.
“They are!!!” yells Alain Delon. “I still exist!!!”
Bill Gates laughs.
“NO. I really do!” says Alain Delon.
The song ends…with the tick tock.” says Lacey.
Honor Him by Zimmer and Gerrard plays.
A little boy dies. In Palestine. From starvation. His mother weeps. But he smiles. Because yes…there is hope. Real hope.
0:49
He’s gone. But he’s happy. It’s his family that’s sad now. And…I pray they feel that. His peace. His joy. Because I know he’s going to fine.
I greet him. He doesn’t know me. Of course. But he’s happy. I was a ghost watching him die. And cheering him on.
And regardless Emperor Constantine…asks he be honored as the noble little boy he is. And was. Fighting to stay calm. Fighting to stay optimistic right until the end. Trying to be positive…to keep his family from dying inside right along with him. For the sake of his siblings. …He reminds me of my son.
Violin Concerto No. 1: II. Quarter Note = 108 by Philip Glass plays.
You can’t take away my son. Nor my wife. Nor my daughter. Nor my soul.
Later.
Song 2 by Blur plays.
The men who died by being crashed into in Pennsylvania decide to talk to Lacey.
“Why did you manifest us?” asks the father of someone else.
“She either manifested you or you’re talking to the Illuminati.” says a woman.
“Let’s just say that I’m talking to the illuminati. Do you want proof that there’s a supernatural or what?” he says.
“Actually…what happens when we die?” asks Bill Gates.
“Well there is the initial stage of death where your body processes that you’re dying and that you’re dead. Your body actually has to process that you’re dead, which takes a few minutes to a few hours. It keeps trying to send brain waves, and it takes hours sometimes for the body to fully recognize that it’s dead.
When the body finally recognizes that it can no longer function and transmit what are essentially I want to say like lightning strikes within ourselves it’s it’s it starts to release your energy. This is not something you’ve probably heard before, but this is the different situation than normal.
So essentially, the body stops receiving the signals after a few hours, and then it goes into a sort of state of decay. And that’s when your body is beginning to show signs of you know death essentially. For some people that happens really fast because they explode or they light on fire or their body processes. It really quickly for whatever other reason, but for some people can take hours for their body to fully recognize that it no longer is functioning like a normal living human body.
After that, however, long it takes, you go into a state of shock. And you don’t realize that you’re dead fully in many cases because it’s really shocking to still exist and not have a body. It’s like how am I still here? I don’t have anything that I’m connected to.
When you’re in that state, your body is no good anymore. You can’t move anything you can’t communicate anything to anybody and you become fully detached. There’s no way to reverse things almost ever once you’re in this place there are some people who have had near death experiences, but their body had not really stopped working completely and that’s not what I’m talking about. I’m talking about people who have a body that is completely dead.
So once your body is completely dead, and there’s no going back you go into shock. I don’t think there’s probably anybody who’s told you that necessarily and that is not something that you would find and almost any near death experience.
It’s very hard to accept because you suddenly think of everything you wish you would said or done that you’ll never be able to do ever again. It’s very hard to deal with that part because there’s nothing you can do. It’s all in the past. There’s no going back and it just has to be over. You know you just have to let go. There’s no going back.
For some people that’s very painful and takes them a long time. Yes, some people are in purgatory or sometimes they can be stuck in different places that are in different levels of evil and good children that die don’t ever really go to hell hardly ever if ever, let’s just say they never do And when they die, they don’t go somewhere really terrible so sometimes if they can’t move on, it’s not like they’re in distress, but they just can’t figure out how to sort of accept the fact that they’re dead for whatever reason.
when surpass that initial shock stage initial stage, you start recognizing that you still are yourself and God is calling to you the whole time and he sees you. Yes there is a God and he’s very loving and so when you die if you’re not ready to process the fact that you’re dead he lets you remain in that for as long as you need you know, there are some people who choose to listen, and in some cases, go to see God with their parents so when parents die at the same time as their kids, they’re not separated God would never do that. Like in plane, crashes or other accidents or wars, they experience that shock stage in such a way where the parent often times sometimes I mean, I wanna say almost always comes with God‘s voice to collect the children and come for them so it’s not like if you’re in a car and your parent dies with the kids that the kid is crying and there’s no parent there no They they usually are always there when the kid is suffering so it’s but sometimes there are some kids who choose to just stay in shock that’s not often, but there are some children that just don’t want to accept that their dad just yet and that’s really between them and God.
I was ready to die when I died in the sense of death I wasn’t ready to die timing wise. My wife needed me. My kids needed me. Let’s just say my wife needed me. People needed me and it wasn’t my time to go, but God is used it for the good But it will. It’ll work out. I’m trusting Christ that it’ll work out, but it’s it’s extremely painful.
I am, I would say then after that, you are put into a state where you are sort of forced to deal with Christ and you don’t wanna hear that, but that is the thing God is God and when you die, you will have to deal with that. So you go when you meet him and some people do experience that yes more towards the beginning, which is where some near death experiences are real, but for the most part, we don’t experience it all the same because you all have a different way of processing things so for some people It’s not the same thing as for other people for me I am I was hit by a train and I went unconscious quickly for about I would say most of a few minutes I was unconscious and then I started the dying process, and I would say within about a half an hour I was fully aware that I was dead. I stood there watching myself and I was in shock and that lasted for me about six hours. I walked up and down the railroad track just looking at everything just staring at everyone trying to process what it just happened realizing that I was a ghost essentially and that I no longer was in connect. I was no longer connected to my body. I just walked around, staring at people And I didn’t say anything to anybody or do anything because it took me that long to realize that I was dead, some people it might not take that long, but it took me about six hours to fully process that I was dead. So yes, if I if it took me long to be pronounced dead and it might not have, but if it did know, I was out of my body within about a half an hour, and it might’ve been faster than that depending on how quickly I died, but yeah, I was stood there looking around, watching people And then I am and then I just started to realize that this we know it was the end and that there was a friend in the world that could save me I was totally reliant on you know God, and just hopeful that this was gonna be OK.
I I was yeah I was just kind of hanging out I guess watching and then within yeah I said about about a half an hour. I knew I was there and six hours. I am I messed up just there a little bit because I’m a little overwhelmed, I was in about six hours I started Realizing that that people were people were we gonna probably miss me you know cause I was dead and like a lot of people do when they first die, I went I went home and I visited people that I loved. 
First, I visited my immediate family whatever is left of it and then I visited my in-laws whatever is left of that and then I just started working out from there. It took me weeks probably to see everyone.
Just trying to be around them trying to say things to their spirit you know words of encouragement like it’s fine. I’m still here. You’ll see me when you die. Calm down. Everything’s OK you’ll see me someday. Just chill out kind of a thing. And some people I know heard me and other people I think didn’t hear me as clearly.
I would say that basically when you die, you still exist there is actually a sense of touch. It is no it’s no different than when you’re alive really you don’t feel dead in that way but of course you can’t interact with people who are alive. Don’t get me wrong I mean you can and Lacey‘s case it happens, but you can’t really interact with them the way you did when you were alive you know moving things the way that you like to move them or talking to them the way that you like to it’s not that easy. The only time a human is ever allowed to talk to another human when they’re separated like that Because it is a separation, you can fill things. It’s really not that different than being alive in a sense in Christ that’s something people misunderstood, but you know there’s no way to interact with the living world in a way where you can affect it easily actually, you can at all to be exact you can’t at all. There’s no way to do it and I’m hold on. There’s no way to do it there’s no way to actually move things and really interact with people the only times that you can are when God allows you to if he creates some sort of way for it to happen if he creates a portal essentially And there are times he chooses to do that so sometimes he sometimes he allows the dead to interact with the living it’s very rare, but he does occasionally allow that Catholics used to know that and usually they would assume that the person was in need of prayer and honestly most in most cases they are in need of prayer I will say, which is hard for you to hear if you’re protestant, but if you’re Catholic, it wouldn’t be And maybe that’s not me saying that maybe that’s a demon but that’s what she’s hearing and maybe it’s true purgatory used to exist though for Episcopalians too but basically you’re in some sort of distress or the person who’s alive is nine times out of 10 something bad is happening sometimes it can be something good but that’s pretty unusual actually most of the time when God allows someone who’s dead to interact with someone who’s alive it’s because there’s something really awful happening And he’s trying to prevent it or it’s awful, but not in a way that would seem incredibly awful to some people like it a spouse who’s grieving their spouse was awful is that if that person dies before their time it could it could be it could alter gods ability to do certain things that he wants to do so that doesn’t seem really dramatic but when you add it up, it is so sometimes he allow spouses to interact if he needs the spouse to live longer because he’s using them in someway so but that I would count that as a serious thing so nine times out of 10 if God is allowing someone to interact it’s if something really bad is happening we’ll say
The only other way you can interact with the living is if you use something evil whether that’s a demon or another ghost who’s using a demon or if you go through something of that nature environment like God‘s will so there are two ways you can interact with the living through demons and through the Holy Spirit we say through evil and through God, and there are some people who choose to use evil if you do that it’s a very unpleasant experience unless if you’re a very evil yourself and it’s usually very detrimental to you and almost always to somebody alive.
When the witch of Endor conjured the spirit, she actually used a demon, but God conjured him anyway in a sense and anyway you that there is there two ways that you can talk to the living. The thing is sometimes witches try to contact us and they think they have us and they don’t. There are a lot of witches who get fooled a lot. I would it happens often with celebrities, especially that the demons guide them towards another demon pretending to be that person or in some cases even a dead person who just likes to impersonate them that is actually possible, so there are some dead people who like to impersonate famous people, and they fool people. There are a few times that Marilyn Monroe has talked to witches, but there are many times when she hasn’t and there’s been a dead person or a demon impersonating her and to be honest it’s kind of funny at times because she’s very famous and very popular and at any given moment, there are probably four or five people at least around the world We’re trying to talk to her, believe it or not sometimes less, but there’s usually almost always more than one person or well OK for a while there was and there’s no way she could’ve talked to everybody at the same time. I mean, God could’ve done that but there’s no way for her to be in seven different places at the same time around the whole world and so that’s an example of what I’m talking about. People thought they were conjuring her and they were not, but there are sometimes when people have talked to the dead I think there are some people who have been desperate who have talked to the living through demons against God’s will, and God has been merciful, even though they weren’t supposed to, but it wasn’t something they were supposed to do, and it has cause problems.
Lacey actually is slightly dead. And she’s not a witch and I’ve said that before possibly I know I’ve thought that before other people have said that and it really is actually true. She really can hear us in a way and be a mouthpiece mouthpiece for us in a way that’s extremely unusual. Part of how this whole thing started if there is an illuminati was that she started talking to the actual ghost of scot Fitzgerald.
And doing that was a last ditch effort on her part to survive without losing her mind and God knows that. The thing is when she talks to us. She doesn’t really know what she’s doing, but essentially she’s following herself out and creating an echo. It’s kind of like she’s talking in a cave with her own body. So what she does is, she carves out a part of her flesh, using her brain in a way that most people are not capable of frankly because they haven’t gone through enough trauma to be that dead. You know psychologist today Call and this is something that I was fascinated by when I was alive possibly psychologist today. Know that mental illness is a form of illness. At least they should know that, but for some reason, we still haven’t quite connected that actually could kill you we’ve separated it still But it’s not separate. It’s the same person in the same body so how would it possibly be separate?
So when you go through an incredible amount of trauma, especially over decades, a lot of people have physical problems because their body actually is sort of starting the dying process. Essentially it’s like homemade euthanasia, but we would never call it that. So for someone there who’s been through a lot of mental trauma your body starts. I almost wanna say uprooting your spirit from your body so it’s kind of like the root structure starts being pulled out and there could be enough to sustain life like in Lacey‘s case and other people’s cases too And you know the hope is always that those other roots can eventually reconnect and you can flourish and in some people‘s cases, their body even recovers, and they live as long as they would have otherwise, but if your body never gets a chance to reroute itself so to speak You start dying and she’s very mentally tough and yet part of the way that she’s mentally tough is that she lets go of things as a Christian she just completely let’s go and just gives full authority over to God in a way that’s kind of unusual but it’s absolute submission to Christ Entirely. It’s maybe somewhat unusual. Most people don’t submit to him so entirely, but she has totally submitted to God to Christ and so her way of dealing with stress is to really genuinely just kind of let go. And so she let go and does let go when she experiencing experiences incredible trauma, and when she does that her body is spared she doesn’t punish her nervous system the way some people do or anything like that what she does do is mentally sort of distance herself in a way that is Common enough, but not as calm as you might think Scott Fitzgerald was pretty good at it himself and he died of a heart attack when he was 41. He knows that she’ll probably die of a heart attack and cancer not have a litany of different diseases. Even Alzheimer’s is very unlikely for her. Her body will probably just sort of turn itself off. Yeah I just did something to her heart right now and she wasn’t expecting that her heart is Happy to be her heart and God will honor that but it is it is prepared to take the final the final discussion so to speak so she’s very much a candidate for a heart attack probably not a stroke. It’ll probably be a heart attack and her heart is ready to go whenever God calls it to come. I just did something to it right now, and she felt it And her heart is right in alignment with Christ as much as it can be but that’s the thing so she’s hoping for a heart attack and she might get one I would not be remotely surprised if her a body chooses to let her have a heart attack
It’s very sad because if Lacey’s legitimate, she never knew the love of a parent really but she did kind of know the love of a father and that’s part of where she got her body from was her dad and
*he cries*
Her body-
*he cries*
Her body is very, possibly loving to her the same way that Tom was as a dad. And that’s hard for me to accept because I cared about people and it’s hard for me to watch her suffer as a father and as a person who gave a damn about other people.
I don’t like the fact that she is staying alive almost entirely for her children. They deserve it. Those are great kids and I’m very happy that they’re with us so to speak group I’m not alive anymore, but that they were alive when I was alive. They’re great kids and the world is very fortunate to have them. You know they’re human but they’re very nice kids and they need their mom 100%.
And her living husband actually needs her too. He is closer to her than probably almost anyone.
But you know a part of me just wishes that they could be with with us because I talk to love. Sometimes I’m from Pennsylvania. He was from Pennsylvania. I know him we’ve talked he he he’s here with me right now. He’s actually helping me talk to her and a part of me wishes as disturbing as it is for you to hear this a part of me wishes that he could just be with them and his his parents and his siblings and I just I’m sick of it. For me the question of Muslim gay is just a silly question because it’s like was he gay of course but that’s painful to even think about that because that’s just once you meet him when your dad even if he was alive, you’d probably figure out that he was straight and you might not like him. You might not like what he says to you, but you figure out that he’s a straight man and that he’s definitely not someone to be someone someone to be questioning in that way. And then you just start thinking well what do we do with him because he’s suffering so much
You know you’re gonna ask him possibly whoever you are or wherever you are if he’s real yes of course he’s real. He really is the ghost of Kirk Lemoyne Billings. I don’t wanna get graphic, but yes, they have sexual relations with each other. They do like a husband and wife. God allows that they’ve been doing that now for almost 5 years. If there is an illuminati, there are some people who are still in denial about that who can’t quite believe that it’s even happening and it’s not funny and yet it almost is, but it’s also very disturbing because it’s like what is taking those people so long if there is an illuminati to except that they’re actually Witnessing something?
You know I guess really when it comes down to it he was straight and so there’s an explanation for everything and you know I don’t know why people can’t handle hearing that if there’s an illuminati because it makes sense. You know, even if he wrote Jack a love letter and I don’t think he ever actually did even if he wrote him a sex letter and I don’t think that ever happened either really I think there was more in exchange sexually between them, but I don’t think it was like Sexting. I think it was More that they discussed things sexually but I don’t think that it was ever sex OK but even if it was, there would be an explanation for that he was straight. I’m sorry you’ve gotta try to think this through. Someone could be straight and be confused and be genuinely confused to the point where they say things and do things that they don’t really want to do, but you have to understand what we want is different than what we think we want sometimes sometimes we can have emotions that tell us that we want to do something that are not real in the sense that that’s not really what we want if we’re confused. I worked with the homeless a lot and there were some people I worked with that were confused in that specific way and it’s actually a very common experience. I don’t know why anyone would doubt that unless if they were a pedophile and they had something to lose by accepting that
And that’s where people like Bobby need to shut the fuck up because you pretend to be so holy but if you’re not, and you’re just a fucking con artist from hell you’re never gonna get out of it. It’s gonna bite you in the ass someday and you’re gonna regret it.. if you can’t accept that love might’ve been straight because you’re a pedophilic monster Bobby someday that’s gonna bite you in the ass and it’s gonna hurt like hell I guarantee it.
Even if he molested you, that’s not an excuse to be a child to yourself and to be honest Bobby I happen to think that that never happened. I might even know that that never happened and if if she’s not hearing from me and it did then then then he he’s a molester and you should really tell her that you’re not doing that you’re not telling her hey I’m worried about you. Love was a child molester You’re saying was in love with me in a way that he could never love you. You’re saying love was in love with Jack in the way that he could never love you and that is simply not true. You have him in love with you, Bobby in a way that’s impossible and in love with your uncle as well you have everyone saying that repeating it over and over again and every news article and that’s absolute bullshit. Nobody loves that way Bobby that isn’t a thing. And if you never touched you or even made a move on you in anyway, do you realize how sick it is to pretend otherwise? If you know there’s a possible explanation for why he visited you so often and there really was nothing going on. Do you have any idea how perverted you are to play into that mythology? What is the explanation if he did visit you too often and he was straight and he never was interested in you mostly that he was trying to be a loving father to you, and it went totally awry. He may also been getting nervous because he may have realized that there was something wrong with you and he may have thought that if he got really involved and tried to fix you that you’d be OK. But he may have worried that he couldn’t and that he may be better off just letting you die. Regardless, I am here to say that there is an explanation. There is an explanation. She is going out on a limb, and so she can’t guarantee that she’s hearing for me, but this might be me. I happen to know that he did not molest you that he did not molest you and that nothing happened. Nothing ever happened at all nothing ever happened at all Even even they’re supposed psychological thing is complete bullshit. They really is a perfectly rational explanation that I can’t easily express for absolutely everything.
And you can use the daily mail to try to concoct evidence all you want. I saw through at Lacey sees through it. They even see through it and saw through it. People commenting even wondered why it was still being discussed this last year because it’s bizarre. It’s like why is the daily mail covering something in February 2025 that was almost 10 years ago actually it was I know what it was over 10 years ago. That book was written about 20 years ago Bobby the book that they’re referencing and not much has been said since because there’s not a hell of a lot to say Because nothing happened the way that they said it did in reality and there’s almost so much there’s only so much you can come up with based on what’s left behind and it was what was written you can’t stretch it that much further because it starts becoming totally absurd or someone gets offended Was just kind of stupid, but you can talk to that recently in the daily mail because you want Lacey to think that stuff happened that didn’t really happen Bobby.
And so did Caroline if there’s illuminati you all are a huge problem.” he says.
“ so it’s really hard for you to explain why?” says a gay man.
“ yes God can almost get her here but it’s like talking into a windstorm. It’s spiritually it’s very hard. I almost wanna say it’s physically hard for me but essentially that is the case. It’s physically hard for me if she heard it would dramatically alter her life and her life has improved, but it’s been an uphill battle for five years basically and if she could hear the explanation and in her spirit, she slightly does hear it if you’re helping me thank you God can use that actually if you’re praying or trying to even honor him, but it’s very hard for her to hear it and hear the explanation, even if her spirit can hear it and actually it just did as I said that so you’re either not really alive or God is trying to demonstrate something for her, but no, or rather you are alive and you’re trying to be helpful or God is trying to explain something to her but no, it’s very hard-
And see just 30 cut off because she was suddenly struggling to breathe which is not a coincidence. It’s very it’s very hard for her to hear, but there is an explanation. It involves him being privileged and foolish, and there is an explanation. Where it isn’t that he was gay, bisexual pansexual, or pedophilic. Or anything of that sort It’s something else and it’s very hard for her to hear.
She can almost hear it right now, but it’s it’s like a thought that’s foreign into her and it’s just not something that she can hear.” he says.
“ so what is it that you want us to do with his grave?” says a witch.
“ I know you’re not serious and if you are, you should be I mean, I want you to take down the most recent gravestone next to my grave because I don’t want that there and I never did. I mean, that’s not really appropriate for it to be there. It should not have been put there.
Look if my sister thought it was OK she was wrong with my nephew. Thought it was OK. He was wrong. They may have had the wrong impression about what was really going through my head before I died and that’s my fault but they are also responsible for not being more careful. I would not have wanted my sister to do to allow that if she did and if she does a lot if she did allow it at all or anyone in my family allowed it I think someone talked them into believing that I was gay enough that they allowed it and that’s very disturbing to me. I think they have assumed that I was gay probably based on the book that was written by David Pitts and what makes Lacey and I incredibly angry is that people are so gullible even in my own family. There’s not real incontrovertible proof in that book that I was gay. There certainly is proof that I was gay. There isn’t really even proof that I was certainly bisexual, but there is definitely not proof that I was homosexual and for my family to assume that I was potentially enough to allow that to be done to my grave It is very hard because if they did, it makes me wanna distance myself from them completely
I can’t stand that they allowed that and if if they did, there’s a part of me that doesn’t really wanna talk to them anymore because it makes me that angry.
Messing with someone’s grave is an incredibly serious thing to do F Scott Fitzgerald‘s daughter did it and Scott is a brilliant man and believe it or not in the back of his mind he allowed Nancy to in a sense to file his grave as a favor for Harold Bob And because Hemingway told him to, and because he himself cares about Lacey it may have been Harold‘s idea first because Harold is like a super genius believe it or not that man was extremely brilliant but it also was Hemingway‘s idea. Yes Ernest Hemingway yes the Ernest Hemingway see the thing you have to understand about Lacey is that she really is Lacey Banks OK and that’s not a big deal to you, but in reality it is and because of that she would’ve been exposed. I mean if Scott Fitzgerald‘s novel may have been partially inspired by her father I kids you not I mean the fact that his name is used is interesting and possibly not a coincidence. At any rate, he they would’ve met at a party by the way, but at any race, she would’ve been exposed to people through her father and her mother who are very big deals kind of like Humphrey Bogart. He was actually friends with Clark Gable and Humphrey Bogart for real they were actually friends This wasn’t just something they did every once in a while they were actually friends and if she had been born to him. The thing is she would’ve been exposed to a lot of different people safely, but she would’ve been. She would’ve met a lot of people and one of the people who she really genuinely could have met Was Harold Loeb. He actually is one of her soulmates. And it was his idea to let Nancy hug Scott’s grave is disturbing as that was to Lacey at the time because he knew that that was gonna be necessary in this exact moment and he wasn’t sure exactly how it was gonna work but that’s Harold Harold is a genius and so he looked forward enough and just the right way just the right time with God‘s allowing him to to know that she needs to understand something. And I like to remind her that there was a train whistle just as that individual who was killed by a train was making a point a train whistle went off just to see ended making his point Lacey that was not a coincidence. And Scott’s grave became essential because we’re trying to communicate to you and help me. We knew that you’d get it. We’re trying to communicate to you that people do things to graves, and that it actually matters
Scott was moved by his daughter, and he did not like that to be honest, but he did at the same time. He had very mixed fillings about it. He liked it in the sense that he liked the fact that him and Zelda were together, but after he died, a part of him, didn’t really want them to be together Because he understood finally how much she couldn’t stand him. He had a very hard time comprehending that while he was alive, people think he was abusive and you know at times he could be, but he actually wasn’t at the same time and let’s just say it’s complicated he could be abusive technically will say, but in his heart, he wasn’t a narcissistic abuse of person. He just wasn’t and so he had some narcissism, but he was definitely not a narcissist that is a misunderstanding of Scott and a misunderstanding of the situation, but he was in denial about how much she had rejected him because she loved him just enough for him to never really be able to let go of her And yet she didn’t love him enough and that’s what people have not been able to handle since you first started talking to him he didn’t experience enough of her love to be able to assume that she would really want to be with him forever and so after he died, he actually was trying to let go of her and so he wasn’t 100% sold on them being together in the same graveyard because he thought you know do I really is that really what’s best like do we need distance now because it is until death do us part and maybe she just needs to be away for me for a while.
When you consider that he gave her seven whole years without him that that is significant cause he could’ve killed her, but he chose not to because he didn’t want her to miss out on experiencing time alone without him.
Because it was his daughter, he understood he might’ve actually still been angry at her because he was like that he did. He loves his children and he loved his grandchildren. He still does obviously they’re his grandchildren and children and his great grandchildren, but he has opinions on things and He’s not afraid to share them because he knows that his kids need to hear them at times and it’s more important to him that they hear what he says for their own good then that he spare their feelings and let them not understand something and so even though it’s his daughter, he might’ve still allowed himself to be angry But at the same time it was his daughter and he did understand so it was kind of complicated, but he did. He was upset by it to some degree for real he really was. She was somewhat upset by it and they’re still talking about it to this day. It’s still affects them. It’s still something that they discuss him and Zelda There’s times where they’re somewhat near their grave you know cause the people sometimes do you like to be near their grave, believe it or not it’s a thing it’s your body, but they don’t almost ever hang out at their cemetery because now that their daughter is dead they don’t feel much of a need to They like being together and that’s fine but they’re not completely happy about their grave and so they don’t spend a lot of time there sometimes they drop by and just kinda hang out for a quick second cause it’s their grave but most the time they actually preferred not to be there. Scott likes to be in St Paul and other people in St Paul. Know that there are people who are almost positive that he’s haunted them And he has he haunted you. He’s very present in St Paul when he chooses to make himself no one through God and there’s times he’s made mistakes and manifested through demons too, but God has allowed him at times to help people because it just means so much to him and they’re almost always people in St Paul and they’re usually people who like St Paul or who he can relate to who likes St Paul and don’t at the same time but he loves he loves being in St Paul. He’s in Minnesota boy he’s very much from Minnesota and so he tends to like to talk to him. Zelda is all over the place. She’s in Paris at times sometimes she is in Paris. Sometimes she’s on the coast in Paris. She’s never manifested as a ghost but if she did, that would be somewhere where she almost could is in on the coast in Paris that tends to be where she is most of the time and if she manifested, that would probably be where she’d show up on the beach and in France. Mrs. diver and her sometimes both hot beaches in France there’s times that Mrs. diver has actually appeared to people that they may or may not have realized what they were seeing but but but Zelda is there her daughter is all over the place and she doesn’t wanna scare people so she rarely ever manifest in anyway With having a mother who is seeing things having a son who saw things she’s very scared of scaring people and making them things that they’re saying and so she tends to try to avoid harming people as much as possible, and so she’s very quiet most of the time.
What could you do to help me? You could take down the silly gravestone that I don’t want. I wasn’t actually gay. I was heterosexual actually and I was molested as a teenage boy and I became very confused. I don’t know if I’ve ever said this before, but I might’ve been molested in Maryland not Pennsylvania. I might not have been too, but if I was that might be helpful to somebody reading this at some point why would it be in Maryland and not Pennsylvania? Well that’s something that Lacey can’t quite hear if she’s hearing from me right now and not getting confused. It’s because I wasn’t necessarily at home. I was I was possibly visiting relatives or staying somewhere, but I was not at a place that I had never been before, but it would’ve been someone that I was frequently in contact with. It was actually a priest. I was not in necessarily my home church, but it was a church that I was molested in After hours when I was helping him arrange hymnals in the pews. I was helping him straighten out the hymnals when he molested me in the sanctuary it was in the winter and it was absolutely horrifically terrifying
I didn’t understand consent for myself until I was a lot older and I never molested Bobby. I never wanted to, and the thought did not ever cross my mind even once I was never interested in him. I’m sorry if that’s hard for someone to hear but no, I was never in love with him. I was never attracted to him at all and if if if if you know something otherwise then come out and say it because if you don’t, you’re a liar potentially and it’s getting to be totally unsustainable because as far as she can hear, I’m saying nothing ever happened at all, even in the recesses of my mind! And what’s frustrating to me is that we’re stuck because there is an explanation for everything and you can make it seem like it’s impossible for there to be one, but that is never gonna be the case and it isn’t. There is literally nothing other than what would’ve been real genuine mutual love that would ever have Any value or merit and the truth is that was not possible between him and I and even if I was homosexual at all and let me tell you something I wasn’t and so they’re genuinely is an explanation for everything.
Meaning, I can explain everything everything that I ever said that I ever did and there isn’t much that I ever said or did in all reality that really suggests as much as you say it does sexually romantically. He was the one that said stuff I did not and I just said stuff that was sexual, but he was the one that said stuff that was more initiating assertive. He was the one that was actually gay and he was the one that was actually interested. You can say oh it feels good. You know that’s bullshit it can but and people can get confused, but the way that he experienced it. It’s kind of like how I just said if there was mutual love between us it might mean something and you know, even if there was mutual love between us we might not be together there are people who have happy marriages who are not soulmates. Their soulmates are not twin flames as we call them, but in this case that’s absurd because there’s nothing like that between us. You’ve imagined that you’ve bullshitted that. And a lot of people have fallen for it very seriously fallen for it and you know it’s interesting is that if you really look at it there’s ample evidence to suggest that Jack was gay. Maybe not gay but but definitely bisexual. OK am evidence because somebody couldn’t enjoy what was happening to them like he did Unless if they were actually somewhat homosexual, someone could be doing that talking about it maybe even bragging about it, although I would be careful with using that phrase because of that term because that’s not quite what I did I didn’t really I didn’t really break. OK it wasn’t breaking the way That you’re imagining it. It was more like I was telling people because I was actually sick of keeping it a secret. I never came out of the closet, but I was never really closeted at the same time because I was not gay and I wasn’t living that experience and so I was more or less just telling people because I was sick of being quiet about it. I wanted people to know what happened and a lot of what I’ve said as in misunderstood. I was angry. I was actually trying to be passive aggressive when I said what would’ve made me a happier life I was trying to make a very subtle dig against the Kennedy family without them, noticing almost at all. I was afraid of them.
I was very afraid of that family. I was scared for my life almost all of the time. Because it was said to me on that if I ever told people certain things or if I did this wrong thing that Joe Senior would have my family and me killed, Jack told me that Joe Senior himself told me that at one point I I’m sorry this is fact I was threatened by them and I was terrified of them.
So I couldn’t just go around saying they made a shit of my life and they turned my life to shit. They’re controlling manipulative assholes their son was a monster and I helped assassinate them. I mean him what was I supposed to say you guys are really done sometimes what was I supposed to tell people if there was an assassination plot I was involved I mean, what is the likelihood that the Dick Van Dyke show would’ve referenced my name right before killing JFK. That’s very unlikely. OK there was obviously something weird going on and if I’m talking to the illuminati, I’m trying to tell you there was a conspiracy and I was involved in it’s
And I spent the rest of my life, trying to be quiet, saying things that would seem like nothing had happened. I had to pretend that I was in love with him at times for the safety of my own family. So when I told people what would’ve made me a happier life, I was saying it in a passive aggressive way because I was scared for my own life and the life of my family when I didn’t let them say anything bad about him. It was because I was scared for my life and the life of my own family. I couldn’t be honest with them. I couldn’t let them know anything because I knew that if they had even an inkling of what was actually going on, but they would probably accidentally screw up at some point and everything would blow up so I had to avoid the topic and seem like I was in love with him even if I wasn’t and there there are many other explanations for why I could’ve seemed like that that don’t involve me being afraid for my life, but I’m telling you that that actually is what happened.
And she’s not 100% sure about this right now, but you know it has to be said there was a conspiracy to kill him the CIA planned it. Fidel Castro ordered the shots. A lot of people were involved and I was one of them.
Do you really think that if I helped assassinate him that I would want something written by my grave about our dying, eternal love? oh no, I would not. And it’s not that I don’t care about my family is it? That’s the last bit of personal space that I have left
I don’t want that there. The chances of anyone taking that down are very slim, but I would appreciate it look if some hillbilly that reads this blog wants to go and take an ax to that thing be my guest if you feel convicted by the Holy Spirit to do so after reading this blog and you pray about it and you feel like he’s telling you to go do that get away with it don’t you ever let anybody catch you? I don’t want anyone getting in any trouble anywhere but if you can get away with it have your way paint over it you know knock it down graffiti do whatever you want to it. It would be welcomed by me. Let me tell you.
What else are well if you did that that would be great start what else could you do you could you could get rid of that or to file it to the point where it becomes a joke actually to be honest with you it already is a joke because the symbol of that seashell is feminine And that actually does matter that’s a feminine seashell, and that seashells are often a reference to the feminine that actually is very appropriate, and so to be honest that it seems like a reference to Cape Cod and it might be to somebody who has some idea in their head that I would like that which is unfortunate if they do because I don’t, I don’t want that And no, don’t get me wrong. You could read something like oh lamb collected seashells from Jack. You know you know really you could read something like that and get it in your head that I was gay and I wanted to be with him forever but now they’re really there is an explanation for everything there would even be an explanation for that sincerely and I don’t even think that that happened, but if it didno, I’m not I was not gay really at all and I sincerely was just very confused and I helped kill him.
And at some point, if you could file that book, that would be great if there was some way to start making that book a joke, I would love it the one written by David Pitts, and actually anything written about us. I would love it if people started doing something to all the articles and the books if you started defying them if you started grading that I would appreciate it.
So if you could find a way to file those books, I would appreciate it. Also, if you could file the Wikipedia page that supposedly describes me, I would love that too. I would love if someone would go around the Internet just taking a shit all over everything that’s been written about me as much as possible.
I can’t stand people looking at my picture thinking I’m gay and I deal with it every single fucking day. I could handle it for a while, but in the last 10 years has become unbearable
I wish people I wish someone had blown Lacey up before any of this ever happened.
So you could take down the gravestone that doesn’t belong there next to my grave, you could defile all the bullshit that’s been written about me and by defiled I mean, defacing it. She’s struggling right now to breathe slightly so do facing it would be amazing thing for you to do if people drew pictures on Jack on the cover of the book putting little horns on his head that would be hilarious. I know that sounds silly, but little things count sometimes if people gave him a tail like Satan and a pitchfork that would also be funny. I mean, It’s Rather rudimentary and silly, but I find it hilarious. Really and truly hilarious.
I tried to kill Bobby many times and I did help assassinate JFK.” says Lem.
“ did you anticipate that you were going to have to tell Bobby that you were trying to kill him or not?” says a witch.
“ no I did an away and I planned for it to some degree but I didn’t think it was as likely as it was. People have been relentless for years at this point I mean she has been discussing this on her blog for years and to be honest she’s proven that what she says has a lot of credibility because she’s anticipated my reaction to speak rather the things that happened that she had no knowledge of Bobby how do you explain that the fact that she has heard my explanation for things more than once for various situations and that you may even forgotten yourself what actually happened? She didn’t even know I told her and then you had to look it up or try to remember, and yet you still stupidly think that you know more than she does Based off of some dumb understanding that you had of reality as a young man you’re old you’re an old man Bobby is your memory really so stellar that you genuinely vividly recall your early life when you were a heroin addict?
I doubt it!
I doubt you remember that much.
And yet you think that what you thought is absolute truth, you were relatively young when I died there was a lot that you didn’t understand about a lot and yet you think your perception was on airing and 100% accurate across-the-board in regard to everyone else’s perception of things not just your own? Yes yes, you do think that. Yes, you do you think that you made no mistakes.
and by mistakes, I mean things that would alter your perception of reality. You think that you never made a mistake in judgment? You made many mistakes and one of them was assuming that I was actually your friend? I was not your friend. When I was trying to break you and your girlfriend up Bobby, it was because I didn’t think that anyone should probably be dating you and I genuinely thought that if you married the wrong person that she would be devastated by you. I made your girlfriend my confident because I wanted to protect her from you. I wanted to break you up to protect her, but I didn’t want you to know that that was why. I talked in a high-pitched voice. I was very gay in my way of relating to people, but I actually really was straight. And I was trying to find some way to protect her from you. It was very conniving, but that’s what I was doing. And I knew that no one would suspect that I was doing that if I if I hit it under the guys of something weird like trying to break you two up because I liked you.
I was straight Bobby and there really is an explanation for everything. Absolutely everything. Bobby, you don’t understand anymore when you’re being rejected you’ve raped people because you don’t understand when you’re not wanted anymore. You think Lacey is attracted to you when she’s not really and you’ve confused your family on that issue if there is an illuminati. She’s not. … you confused President Trump 
bobby you have a problem now as you’re aging with not accepting that you’re not as attractive to people anymore as you used to be. The truth is there were always things wrong with you, but people overlooked them and that’s not something that they can do anymore. The thing that you never seemed to grasp is that I would’ve seen those things in you in a way that would’ve made you entirely unattractive. First you were younger than me and I saw you when you were in diapers when you had no control over your ball movements. Do you understand how unattractive that actually is if you’re a pedophile, I don’t know maybe you wouldn’t care but for an adult male who is normal it really actually is weird to see that and then see that person grow up if I was attracted to men, Bobby, I would never have been able to really get over that And it actually might be somewhat different with a woman but with a gay relationship though there’s something about that that is it doesn’t get out of your head and I saw you poop your pants, sweetie. I saw you poop your pants I saw you vomit and I took care of you And for you to think that if I wasn’t a pervert, I could’ve fallen in love with you is a little ridiculous. It’s possible, but it’s very rare and you are not quite as astoundingly, sexy as you were led to believe 
You had a fan base and you still do, but it’s not everybody, Bobby.
I just did not find you that attractive. I really didn’t.” says Lem.
“ did you find me attractive at all?” he says.
“ I did find you very similar to Jack and I thought that I was attracted to him and so I could’ve thought I was attracted to you, but I did not because I was never attracted to him either and to be honest with you, Bobby I tried to tell you this a few minutes ago I helped assassinate your uncle. When I compared you to him that was not a compliment necessarily in reality. Because I tried, I was part of a plot to kill him a CIA plot because they thought he was crazy essentially so when I compared you to him, it was not what you thought it was in reality. I was labeling you as nuts. Which is why I was allowing you to use drugs I could’ve easily killed you. I was really not your friend I cared about you, but I was not your friend. We were not in love. I was not in love with you at the very least, I would say that Nothing at all happened between us at all because nothing did and people made that up and what irritates me is that there’s nothing I can do and to be honest with you what I say there’s nothing I can do. I don’t necessarily mean that 100% but there’s not a lot that I can do Even though I would like to in some ways and some ways I would love to have you killed even now so I need you to try to understand that don’t lash out at me don’t lash out at Lacey or my children or anybody else if you do, you will regret it, but I need you to try to understand that that’s the reality of the situation I’m not your friend Bobby and I never was. I cared about you but in the same way that an English aristocrat, whether there’s reincarnation or not, might have cared about a Native American student who they thought was mentally ill. I wanted you to die because I thought you were a menace to society.” says Lem.
“ so you you wanted me to die?” says Bobby.
“ bobby I gave you heroin I shot heroin into your body. I should not have done that but at the same time I understand again I think back why I did I I wanted you to get so addicted to heroin for as long as you lived ideally that you could die. No and that was me Bobby. I wanted you dead. 
Not because I didn’t care about you, but because I thought you were mentally ill.
Mental illness ran in your mother‘s family, and I believed that you were likely mentally ill, and so I was trying to essentially euthanize you using heroin Bobby.” says Lem.
“ lamb you killed my uncle!?” yells Joe.
“ yes in a sense I did.” says Lem.
“ how could you have done that to his children?” says Bobby.
“ I thought that I was doing the world a favor, and I thought it was necessary.” says Lem.
“ so you knew ahead of time that they were going to kill him?” says a woman.
“ I helped them plan it.” says Lem.
“ when did you decide that you wanted to help them?” says a man.
“ I started helping them before they suggested it. He treated me like a husband there was times when he wanted to cuddle in bed and I was not interested. OK I did not like cuddling with him and… he liked it he craved it. He always was asking for it. He always wanted to be close and I would sit there. I would sit up in bed and he would try to cuddle with me and I would always resist because I didn’t want to, but I’d sort of try to play along you know a little bit but it was really upsetting to me and it didn’t often happen or he just didn’t even care anymore and he would just sort of start cuddling with me in a way that was unwanted because I would resist and he stopped caring that I resisted or I really don’t think he even noticed. I think he thought I was in love with him and for some reason, he never noticed that I wasn’t really receptive like physically, or in any other way so we’d sit there and I’d kind of pretend to put my arms around him and hold him and he just kind of you know cuddle up and try to rest in my arms cause I was a lot bigger than him and then I would just sort of begrudgingly do it and I don’t think he noticed that it was begrudging and he also used to like to talk to me about things that were very serious like like I was his husband, and he could trust me, and it would be sad, except for the fact that he was a horrible person .
But he trusted me implicitly, and so I found out a lot, and I was privy to an incredible amount of information, but because he was narcissistic and lacking and self-awareness, and he presumed that I was in love with him, he never realized that I wasn’t really giving him the reception that he should’ve had from my husband at all. And let me tell you something if there’s proof that I didn’t respond to him sexually and that it was very one-sided in our letters lying and pretending otherwise was a very bad idea. Because if that is true, this is a moment where I could’ve talked with you and had a very honest conversation about what actually happened because there would be evidence to suggest that what I just told you through her was me and that it was fact.
He pose the pictures. There’s evidence to suggest that, but I don’t have evidence to suggest that I didn’t really respond to him the way that I should have. In the letters because the daily mail says that the letters made Jackie cry and then they don’t provide evidence of that. No, I don’t believe that they ever did make her cry and I don’t think letters like that were necessarily ever written. I don’t believe I ever necessarily even did that. So what did happen? Will this just say that? I never really responded to him all that receptively and that you could make it seem like I did, but I didn’t really. Even if I joked with him, I’m not sure that that’s really genuinely being receptive and if I never expressed love for him that was open and any written form that’s been saved at all. I’m not so sure that you could really ever assume that it was mutual.
But that’s not the conversation we’re having right now so oh well, but I am telling you that that did happen in person where he would confide in me. I did not confide in him. He would want to cuddle with me. I did not really wanna cuddle with him obviously at all, and he would treat me like I was his husband. I did not treat him like he was my husband OK I acted like his wife, but I didn’t treat him like he was my husband. I never relied on him emotionally to be there for me like a husband. Or to be there for me any other way, like a husband. I was really more more just his secret friend.
In a very gallows humor way Lacey finds it hilarious. Because there’s Jack the absolute jerk that he was choosing for whatever sad reason to trust me opening up to me at times and bearing his soul slightly and I say that I don’t mean like really in a way that was foundational to a relationship, but more like he unwittingly thought or rather that he unwisely thought that I was safe and so he would open up to me like I was safe and trustworthy and reveal lots of information and because of that because he had it in his head that I was in love with him when I wasn’t. I found out a lot of information that I well I’m glad that I knew it but in a way, let’s just say for his if I was his lawyer, I would be devastated. OK because there was no way he should’ve been telling me what he told me. We’re breaking down in front of me, trusting that I was in love with him and that I would find no fault with him ever there’s conversations he’d have with Khrushchev that were absolutely horrifying to me. He really did provoke the bad pics and they were there were conversations that he had while he was drunk at times or high that were nuts. He could barely speak. and I was supposed to be his husband and I was supposed to not care and just be his best friend and shelter him from his own problems and just sort of you know pick up the pieces and take care of him and just always side with him and you know if I was his husband in a real way, I wouldn’t have been able to do that first of all he was hot and cold. I mean it was like one minute you were his lover in the next minute you weren’t but the times when he counted on me to be that I would sit there silently watching him, and I was analyzing him as a actual straight person who was a friend and I was definitely not his ally so to speak in his arguments and there were times when I I didn’t ever say anything, I rarely ever said anything to him because I was scared of him, but I would sort of sit there and think to myself this man could get everybody killed.
And I was not thinking like a lover I wasn’t thinking like a husband if Lacey was the president and she was making mistakes like that I probably would’ve had her sedated and I would’ve found someway to make a very graceful exit but that’s not. I was not his lover OK and I’d never it never crossed my mind to do that because I wasn’t thinking like a real lover so let’s just say Joe Biden actually doesn’t have dementia and he was just a horrible president Jill being his wife covered for him possibly and made him seem like he was doing worse than he was Even if he was only slightly senile because she wanted him to have an exit for his own safety potentially OK I was not Jack’s lover. I had no no regard for him. You know letting people think your spouse is aging or that they have a health problem or that You know something that I could’ve come up with is one thing, but that never even crossed my mind, it never even crossed my mind because I never thought of him that way.
I thought that I thought of him that way, but I didn’t really experience that because I was straight and so there wasn’t that natural emotional ebon flow so to speak and it just never occurred to me to help him in that way I was more concerned about everything because he was a loose cannon. I mean, he would make phone calls sometimes when he was high and he would talk to cruise ship while he was high on amphetamines. And he would tell he would tell them things that he should not have told them, and that may or may not be recorded, but he would tell them things that he should not have told them about secrets that we had that he should’ve never told him, and that was actually way before the Cuban missile crisis there were a few conversations that he had with Khrushchev Where he would tell Chris of things about where things were located. This is before the Cuban missile crisis where things were located where certain bombs were located where certain submarines or war vessels were located at the ocean. He would tell him because he wasn’t cognitively aware of who he was talking to And he was sort of out of his mind and so he would call Chris chef I could you not and start a conversation with him a friendly conversation and he’d start revealing the location of worships saying yeah you know we have a worship located at such in such a location we have this there. This is happening in this location and this is happening here like he was reading off of a laundry list and why was he doing that he had a very easy time talking to people he wasn’t confident necessarily so much as lacking and awareness, and he thought people were in love with him at times who were not like me and so he didn’t always realize when he was being rejected, which is part of how he got made fun of when he was younger because sometimes he’d miss social cues of being rejected because he was so narcissistic.
And so he would talk to cruise ship like he was just talking to some person and then he lose track of who he was talking to or he never really was completely aware and so he just start rattling off military information because he forgot what he was talking to he was talking to her or what he was talking about, and it was on his mind Like it was just it was what was bothering him at the time he was probably nervous about it and so he just start rattling it off like he was talking to a stenographer or a psychiatrist or someone in the military in the US and cruise ship would never know quite what to make of it Because he didn’t realize that he was being told certain things because who would do that, but there was a few times when I think he did start to figure out that he was hearing military secrets, and he started to catch on that there was something psychologically wrong with Jack and that he was probably using drugs.
Yes, cruise ship figured out that Jack was a drug addict. Kruschev.
So so that was very concerning to me because there were times when I genuinely worried that he could lead us into a nuclear war and I couldn’t keep track of them all the time I mean, I got tired and I didn’t wanna die. I thought I had a lot to live for still Niece and nephews and I guess that seemed relevant before he died and so I thought no I can’t die. You know babysitting this man and so there are times when I and I just also didn’t feel comfortable using drugs so before he died so I would refuse to use the amphetamines and so I would need to go to sleep because I was exhausted And he’d be wide awake. He’d be wide awake and I wouldn’t be able to keep up with him and I worried that if he was awake and there was nobody awake keeping an eye on him that we would all end up dead.
And so, at some point, I did start telling people that we should kill him. Because I didn’t see any other way out I couldn’t control him. I couldn’t figure out how to control him. I couldn’t get anyone else to and I didn’t want people to know that he was decrepit to be honest. Jackie didn’t entirely understand, but she also couldn’t handle it. She fell apart The crown hint at that, but that’s not really been discussed. She couldn’t really handle him and that did irritate me about her not because I was in love with him, but because I expected her to do a better job managing him than she did. I got sick of it. If I had actually been his husband, I could’ve maybe figured out something psychologically someway to sort of maneuver things, but he was basically impossible after a certain point and yeah, I mean I I gave up because I started getting scared. I couldn’t figure out how to handle him. I wasn’t his lover. I wasn’t really his friend, even though I wanted to be, and we were really coming close on numerous occasions to nuclear war.
Oh really we came very close to nuclear war.” says Lem. “ he called people at times like I said, but it wasn’t just that he we get paranoid at times and think that things were happening that weren’t happening that people were attacking him that weren’t attacking him and that made him think at times that we were at war potentially when we weren’t. I mean, he could’ve fired off your color missiles because he misunderstood.” says Lem.

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