“Oops” by Lem

“So you weren’t being that sincere? When you said, ‘Thanks to Jack I was never lonely.’?” says Heather Dubrow.

“I meant it in a very shallow way. …Like…he kept me busy. He kept me company. As in, we had a gay relationship. And…we spent a lot of time together. …In a very deep sense…I was extremely lonely. All the time. In a real sense I was lonely. But…I meant it the way people used that term back then. It basically just meant…being with someone, or even a cat. …It wasn’t necessarily supposed to be that deep back then. That was before therapy culture. …But I did mean it in a homosexual way. I was hinting at something homosexual. But not…actual real emotional loneliness. More slang lonely as my generation would have meant it.” says Lacey. “Like…’Want me to come see you? I’ll keep you company?’ as said by a very flirtatious woman in the 1940’s to…her boyfriend.” says Lem. “I wasn’t ever under the impression that I didn’t feel any loneliness. Actual loneliness. …I just didn’t mean loneliness in such a deep…emotional way. I…contradict myself if I do. My statement makes no sense. …Loneliness isn’t supposed to be taken as a…deep state of being.”

“So…you’re actually being very passive aggressive?” says gay man.

Yes.

See…it makes no sense otherwise. But very few people see it anymore. …Settled down, married and living somewhere is innately not lonely…in the time I made that statement. …Gay men hadn’t…explained how happy they were married. …You forget that. I’m not making that statement today. …I made that statement when it was assumed gay men were…innately unhappy, distressed, weird freaks. I wasn’t…saying: “I have had a GREAT LIFE! Jack Kennedy was the best damn lover to ever exist! …I wasn’t lonely ever thanks to that God-send! Wow! He was AMAZING! …I mean…I could have had stupid icky wife and dumb kids I never wanted. But…eh! Whatever! That’s stuff for losers! …I had an amazing life! I had my own room in the Whitehouse!!!! WOW!!! AND a front row seat to history! AND I got to be Jack Kennedy’s very best friend ever (and lover). And I tell ya! NOBODY TO EVER LIVE IS AS PERFECT AND FABULOUS AS HIM! He was…AMAZING! Hands down the best friend EVER!! I can’t tell you enough! I had an AMAZING life!!! WOW! So…don’t get married to women if you’re gay at all…because…that’s just settling. What’s settling? Well…it’s not a commonly used term in dating yet…but use a time machine and go find out. …Basically women are just…awful. When you’re a gay man and you marry a woman…you constantly suffer more than most people to ever suffer!! AND…geez! Married!? Who wants to be married!? I mean…PATHETIC! …And live where!? In PITTSBURGH near my childhood memories of my dad? Or where!? Ohio!? Indiana!? What utter shit! Nah!! Get into a non-committed relationship with a star. Have no family of your own. And don’t EVER get married and settle down!!”

…See…I overestimated people’s…intelligence. And sophistication. Because I overestimated life. And science. And modernization. …Lacey…just thought you’d all care about everything more. And that you’d all be less…worthless by nature. …Some people care, but not that many. I knew that. I just thought you’d be smarter.

…I’m OBVIOUSLY not being…literal in the wa you’ve taken it. Settling down? But I’m discussing loneliness? How was being Jack Kennedy’s best friend…the way you interpret it…not settling down? As much as I could? …It’s an odd choice of words if I’m not being passive aggressive. I could have just said…”…or married, living in the suburbs, with a new car in the garage?” Or…”…married, living somewhere and just watching television?” …I was struggling with something deeper. And you keep avoiding that. …Why settled down? …It’s not as simple as you insist.

“He’s right. It does sound…conflicted.” says the CIA. “I’m sorry. It’s true. It’s far from an open and shut case.”

“To be honest, there are conservative elements in the world who have been secretly using Bobby’s stupidity and the widespread hatred of Lacey in the Illuminati to make gay men act stupid.” says Russia.

“It’s really not clear what he’s saying there really is something about his tone that doesn’t sound genuinely convinced that he’s happy. you don’t seem to wanna hear this, but it’s true the fact that he says both settling down and married, and the fact that he adds living somewhere on the way that he does doesn’t sound as definitively antagonistic as you want it to sound.” says China.

“But I just don’t think that that’s possible! I mean, have it your way but I’m 100% sure that I’m right!” says an adamant gay man.

“Are you listening to what they’re saying or are you just absolutely sure that you know what you’re talking about and that there’s like no way that she could possibly have a point?” says the CIA.

“ I mean, I just think she’s reading stuff into things because she wants to think things that she wants to think and I don’t think she has a brain that functions as well as mine. I think that are smarter than women and that’s why I think God every day that I’m gay because men are superior to women! I just being honest because I’m being forced to. I hate women they’re icky poo poo.

If I could cut off her head and mutilate her vagina and dance on her grave, I would I hate women. I hate when they’re prettier than me. I hate when they’re smarter than me. I hate them you oh my God oh my God! I mean, oh my God 00 my God! The way that they look with their boobs and their faces and their hair it’s so pretty I can never look like that because I’m a man and I don’t know why I got created women because they’re all prettier than men and I’ll never be equal to that and I have no way to appreciate it because I’m gay and I’m just so scared because of all the homosexual men that I know Who look at pretty women and get aroused. You know why I don’t like the thought that lamb could’ve been straight because he was so nice and I’ve never met a nice man who would just kiss my ass and never ask for anything in return.

And that’s my dream. My dream is to have a husband who does whatever I ask him to do who’s hot and buff and straight looking because he is who’s ruining women’s lives by not being with them because if I could take every straight man off the market and make him fall madly in love with me and never be able to be with the woman ever again I would. That’s a secret fantasy of Barbies and mine. We hate women. He marries them so that they kill themselves and if I could do that, convincing me I would because I’m so fucking jealous of them.

Truthfully, most gay men who like that story are jealous, fucking worthless dogs from hell who likes the thought of a narcissistic asshole like Jack, who was misogynistic dirtbag.

Because we would like to brutalize women and mutilate them, cut off their faces and burn them.

Because we’re so fucking insecure because of bisexual men.

And the fact that they’re prettier than us and I can never be that pretty oh my God!

And I can’t figure out what strain is gay is partially because I don’t wanna bother. I just wanna think everyone’s in love with me.

And I wanted to be better than straight people that’s why I like to start that being gay means you don’t have to be monogamous because monogamy is for middle class people and you become upper class and cool when you’re gay. I mean when you’re gay you’re prettier you’re smarter and you can do more. Being white and heterosexual is for white trash people and I’m better than that.

So I don’t wanna listen to anything that stupid bitch just because everything she says is just about her trying to feel better about the fact that she’s a worthless piece of fucking shit!” says a gay man in the Illuminati.

Heather Dubrow laughs.

“ come to me, daddy suck my cock!” says a closeted Muslim man.

“ and that’s why I’m thinking of ending the world.

Because he’s bat shit fucking crazy and yeah, I know not all gay men are that insane but a lot of them are. And I don’t know how to argue with all of them and I get confused because I’m a very different sort of person and I’m sorry to have to say that because it’s not a compliment to them. I consider other people‘s opinions because I’m trying to be honest in a way that I don’t think that they do almost at all.

I don’t think he’s really understanding what I’m saying. I am trying to channel them and I have a feeling that I am, but I don’t think he’s hearing what Lem is saying.” says Lacey.

“ I just I can’t handle the fact that a person who’s not an illuminati and who doesn’t consider themselves a psychic and it’s just some stupid charismatic Christian idiot bitch could possibly think that she could possibly be talking to the debt that’s not possible!” he says.

Bobby cries.

“ and now you’ve made Bobby cry oh my God, don’t you people have a heart!??” he shrieks.

Heather Dubrow laughs.

“OK, but it is true though that settling down and married and living somewhere the way that he says it doesn’t really sound convincingly, gay, or necessarily even bisexual or pansexual. He sounds more like he’s trying to say something in a passive aggressive way. That’s not really a positive for the Kennedys and I think you have to understand. They’re really is no way that he could’ve been smiling the way that he was at Jack’s wedding or that he could look as fake as he does when he’s smiling in other situations with Jack And look very similar to the man who pushed his wife off a cliff that was just said on this blog less than a week ago, and you’re acting like you’ve never heard of that before.” says Chris Farley.

“ OK you know I hear that kind of stuff and it scares me and then I just think how can that not be true? I don’t have a great explanation for that, but I just feel like I have an incredible amount of irrefutable evidence on my side.” he says.

“ what evidence is that though?” says the CIA.

“ I mean, there’s really not much that probably couldn’t be explained in someway and honestly we’re we’re hyping up what probably is a bunch of nonsense. The fact that Wikipedia is so vague is evidence that there’s not much evidence. I mean, I think it’s a matter of interpretation and I’m not ready to hear that.” he says.

“ so let me get this straight. You’re relying on Wikipedia David Pitts, Bobby, the daily mail and people’s impressions of what they’ve read instead of analyzing what she’s telling you?” says the CIA.

“ yes because if I analyze what she’s telling me, I’m gonna start thinking that she’s right and I don’t wanna do that.” he says.

“ that’s stupid as fuck!!” says Donald Trump.

“ who do you represent?” says the CIA.

“ most gay men.

Legally within the United States .” says the man.

“ yeah and it’s becoming a problem because there are some people who I am indebted to like Peter Teal, who are worried that there is a problem because they’ve had to realize that she’s not stupid and that she might actually be smarter than most people and that some of the stuff that she says could actually be brilliant. Yes she’s ditzy. Yes, she’s a woman, but she’s not dumb. She might be smarter than you even though she’s very feminine and ditzy and annoying to you apparently.

The singers women are different, but they’re not quite as shitty as you wanna think that they are that’s you being a pervert and that’s where Peter and I might disagree and he’s had to accept that when he dies he might not be gay anymore because there could just be something wrong with him. He had to accept that to be my friend to be my donor to work with people within our party. He’s had to accept the fact that he might just have something wrong with him in a real way. But that’s not what you’re being asked to accept you’re being asked to entertain the possibility, but a man who is easily talking to us through her if you take what we’re doing at all seriously and you should a man who’s easily talking to her because that actually is biblical the witch of Endor does contact a dead man not a demon impersonating him like charismatic Christians insist. I don’t think that God would’ve put that in the Bible if it was something that could never happen. Clearly witches are capable of contacting the dead. I’m not sure how but it’s not impossible.

my wife got thrown down the stairs because Lacey fell down the stairs and my wife died my ex-wife. I know that and I’m not sure how you live with yourself thinking that this whole thing is just a joke and that you have to be a part of this group because someone’s forcing you to, but you don’t have to take it seriously.

You do have to take this seriously I’m sorry you’re not necessarily as smart as me and you’re not necessarily as smart as her.

I’m not asking you to decide for a fact that there’s just something wrong with you and that your relationship with your husband is stupid and insane. I’m not asking you to do that.

All I’m asking you to do is to just entertain the possibility that a man who was easily unhappy who was easily miserable actually, but somehow wasn’t that he could have possibly had reasons for that that are a little disturbing. I think it’s sad that you assume my wife hates me and that’s just facts when it’s not that obvious and she doesn’t at all. I am a philander. I will say that on this blog but you know I’m not Jack Kennedy OK I’m capable of love. I love my kids. I love my grandkids. I love this country. I love my wife and she knows that. I am a cheater, and there are many times that she thought about leaving me, but I care about her and she knows that. I am not the best man to be married to, but she loves me and our marriage is real.

Jack, I’m sorry to say because I like to think Bobby, as a friend was not capable necessarily of a healthy bond with anybody. That might just be a part of his psychology that historians have never really been honest about. And that’s not Bobby’s father from what I know of his father his father was capable of that. I don’t know that Jack was.

I think Jack might’ve had something really wrong with him.

And that’s not something that people would wanna hear because they wanted admire him. And I don’t think Lacey understands that and I haven’t had a chance to say that to her, but I don’t think people can handle what she’s saying or what lemon is saying because I don’t think that they can handle hearing bad things about Jack Kennedy.

That’s something she needed to be told.

I think I think it’s possible that you underestimated how dysfunctional he was and that you’ve sensationalized it and made it some sort of red pill chauvinist manifesto instead of understanding that it wasn’t normal behavior. And if he was worse than me and I think he was, and you think I’m bad if he was worse than me, but it was very hidden. How do you think someone could’ve been happy with him? I mean you assume that Melania hates me why would you think that anyone would be happy with him?

We’re wealthier than they were and it’s my money. It’s not my father‘s money. And Melania is better looking and more glamorous and I think I think to be honest there’s very little that I haven’t given her that he gave Jackie I don’t I don’t know what I’m trying to say is what did he give her that I haven’t given Melania? She’s not popular with liberals, but she’s very popular with conservatives. And there were a lot of people who hated Jack Kennedy, and she was nowhere near as beautiful as my wife. I also have never treated Melania with the same amount of disrespect and lack of concerned that he gave to Jackie. When Melania had a health problem once I was there for her, I don’t go off on a yacht with prostitutes and leave her as she’s giving birth or having a miscarriage or having a cancer scare. I don’t do stuff like that to her. And I don’t understand why you are so sure that she hates me when you are positive for reasons that don’t make sense to me that lamb love Jack? I don’t think that makes any sense that doesn’t make any sense.

I mean, you think Melania is a doormat why in the world with Lem be more of a doormat than Melania? How much of a doormat can someone be? I think you’re over estimating what a human can do as far as bending backwards go goes. I think you’re over estimating how much someone can give before they fall apart. And I’m actually not that abusive to her but my point is simply if you think she would hate me for what I’ve done. How do you imagine that lamb would’ve ever been happy with Jack at all?

There’s something fishy about it right from the beginning. The fact that he’s not bothered more by Jackson difference to him the fact that Jack keeps asking them to contact him. The fact that Jack seems desperate for them to be around him. The fact that Jack doesn’t seem to care that lemon is gay. That’s weird! And that points to something that you don’t wanna hear.

Jack may have been a clingy, needy bitch.

And I don’t think that a man could tolerate someone like that who’s narcissistic and defensive and yet clingy and needy and controlling at the same time because he would have been clingy, needy, controlling, and yet completely in denial and totally unfaithful there’s no way you could tolerate that if you were really capable of wanting something from him if you were having an interaction with him That was homosexual there’s no way that you could tolerate him without losing your mind at some point. Not from him dying from him being who he was before he died. That doesn’t make sense!

And when I think about the fact that he was as happy at his wedding as he was, it’s possible I have an analyze it as much as Lacey has, but it’s possible that it really is impossible. You keep pointing to things that he said that may have an explanation for them. He could’ve been confused or he could’ve been mistaken, or he may not have meant it the way that you think he did. You have no argument that’s really substantiated by fact. If you were right, he probably would’ve been sad at that wedding and unable to smile as much as he did people can hide their emotions but let me tell you they can’t hide them as well as you insist that they can. They really can’t! There are some people who can’t handle hearing that because they may lack of emotion like a normal healthy person and I don’t wanna say who that is because I don’t want to say something about someone who supposed to be a friend that was suggest that they’re a psychopath. Normal human people who aren’t psychopaths or sociopaths or malignant narcissist Bobby we’re capable of murder, potentially like you can’t smile when they’re hurt that badly. Sometimes someone is in so much pain that they can stop themselves from crying. They can keep us straight face, but they probably can’t laugh. They can’t smile and the best that they can do is just look grim and serious, and maybe force a fake smile, but his smiles are not fake And frankly, I’m not sure he could’ve even smiled at all. Had he been gay at all. Yes, at all!

Some people Bobby would kill themselves if they were lamb probably in the 40s or 50s. If not within months of meeting Jack. Men and women both. The fact that lemon dirt all that and then smiled at his wedding and no people don’t get numb over time. You don’t understand people all that. Well you do well enough to push their buttons, but you don’t well enough to really relate to them in this way.

If this is a real conversation and I’m talking to him no you have no idea what you’re talking about. OK there really is no way he could’ve been that happy at Jack’s wedding. And I being assured by Russia, potentially that it is actually a clear indication that he was straight.

That may be the former KGB that’s telling me that that they’ve gotten a psychological reading on him so to speak and in their expert opinion, it actually is impossible, which is some proof that she’s talking to his ghost and that you’re not. Bobby, he had you using heroin when you were a teenager and I know you think you were in charge and that you were making him do that but it was something he let you do and encouraged.

I would never have done that with my children. I might’ve tolerated it, but I would’ve never encouraged it and if I did in private, I went in public, which would’ve actually left them wondering what I really thought and I might not have done it at all all I’m saying is that that’s not normal. Father behavior, Bobby to encourage your children to use drugs. It’s also not loving behavior from a boyfriend. That’s not something a person in that position would do if they really care about you. I think you were excited about the idea that he could’ve been abusive because then he could still have been in love with you and just happen abusive no Bobby he didn’t care about you the way that you want things that he did.

I’m sorry, but you need to hear that.

You can’t keep a problem for us.” says Donald Trump to Bobby Kennedy Junior.

Harold Henthorn laughs in the future. “ i’m sorry God is allowing me to visit this moment because it’s hilarious and I’m I’m a psychopath and when I die as I’ve explained, I actually am normal. I’m allowed to have a more normal brain. I really don’t understand Bobby how you and your family as clever as you claim to be missed all of these pose signs that he didn’t care about you. When I’m first analyzing this, I think you know my wives were women who grew up in conservative homes. They were trusting people. They were good people, and they weren’t exposed to a lot of people who were really awful so the thought that somebody could be that conniving and fake is something that they were aware of, but they weren’t trained through experience to see. You and your family group and politics with journalist and con artist surrounding you. It amazes me that you assumed that he was sincere.

But then I think about it and I think you know I might be less aware than I realize because I am a psychopath and I’m not a narcissist. OK, I am somewhat, but not like the Kennedy’s and so I don’t I don’t lie well at times and at times I do, but I think narcissist might lie better than I do and I don’t know that all narcissist would have the ability to have gotten away with the first murder that I did of my first wife or to have calculated things as well as I did because that is more the mind of a psychopath, but a narcissist a narcissist could get fooled.

And I think that’s what it is. I think the Kennedy‘s got fooled. I think you wanted to think that he was sincere even though really in all of his pictures he looks kind of fake and there’s something off about all of them. And every single photo he is smiling in a way that I recall even at the wedding. He looks like I did. It’s true before I killed my wife. He doesn’t ever seem sincere. He seems like he’s forcing himself to smile the same way that I did.

The emotions aren’t really there entirely like they would be in a normal person for him because he was straight and the emotions weren’t there for me because I wasn’t normal so we’re both forcing ourselves to smile around our spouse in a way that isn’t normal because our our emotions aren’t that deep, we’re not that connected to our spouse we could kill them and we wouldn’t care. Except he would care because he wasn’t a psychopath like me, but I was one and that’s where we’re similar. I was straight, but I was. I was a psychopath and so I didn’t have the depth that he had as a person the other thing, though is that I was excited to push my wife off that cliff I was smiling the whole time because I was looking forward to getting the money. I found her very attractive and I was enjoying that too. I couldn’t have married a woman that I didn’t think was beautiful, but I was smiling that day. Yes, I was fooling her and I was enjoying that, but I was also smiling that day, the way that I was Because I was over the moon that I was going to be getting the money. And I think mom was relieved that he was getting married. There’s really no way though that he could’ve been that happy even if he thought he was getting away with something unless if he was straight. There’s genuinely no way that it’s possible. There’s no way there really is no way that he would’ve been that happy. You wouldn’t have been either Bobby. You would’ve never been in that situation, but you wouldn’t have been either even as a narcissist.” says Harold.

“ I was a heterosexual. What she said is actually 100% accurate. I didn’t mean it in the way that you’ve understood it. It got misinterpreted overtime and they’re telling of it and there’s nothing I can do about it anymore other than what I’m doing right now. There’s no way to really confirm someone’s orientation like Wikipedia says, and nobody would really know for sure. People might’ve thought that I was gay. I might’ve even indicated that because I thought that I was until right before I died I’ve explained myself and it’s becoming a serious issue.

There are some people who think that that’s a good thing and that I’m suffering and that so is Lacey, but that we’re being used by God to end something very evil and then there are some people who think the opposite but this is the end so good night.” says Lem.