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Casi targeted Lacey.

Why? Because compared to Lacey she’s ugly. And poor.

“Did you realize you were copying her quirks?” asks Lem of Casi.

“No.” says Casi. “I thought that was a thing. I didn’t realize that was just her individual personality.”

“No. …That’s just her personality.” says Reta Banks.

“Actually her personality is different. But…she’s mimicking someone else.” says Tom Banks. “So that’s even more idiosyncratic.”

“I didn’t know that.” says Casi.

“I didn’t either. …We thought we were copying actual Old Money.” says Nancy.

“You’re not copying Old Money. You’re COPYING ONE INDIVIDUAL PERSON!!” yells God.

“We didn’t want to admit she had a clear personality and identity.” says Casi. “Because then we couldn’t feel sorry for ourselves.”

“Actually you could have. …But you attacked one of the most targeted saints alive.” says God.

“Wait! She had pre-marital relations!!!” yells Jonah Wiley.

“AND SHE SWEARS!!!” says a reader.

“Both for reasons of survival and war.” says God.

“So…when has…she ever sinned?” asks Jess Seay.

“She’s failed to take care of her own body on occasion.” says God. “And I take that seriously. There are different levels of sin. …But that’s still sin. And…she’s gotten too full and been a tiny bit greedy.”

Casi looks stunned.

“She can be greedy. But she keeps a close eye on it. …And she’s tempted to rare moments of gluttony. …The Kennedys by attacking Lacey…have made the dead and living British aristocrats…question if their hatred for the Irish was actually warranted. And India should take that as a warning. …So should Japan. …They’ll go over the King’s head if necessary. The dead. …They’re astounded by the vile behavior of the Kennedys and their Irish allies.

Casi…you claimed to worship me. That’s incredibly serious. You’re representing me. Whether you should or not. …The Irish have too, including the Kennedys.

Lacey…is…Tom’s daughter. She has his spiritual inheritance. And I’m making her his daughter…if she isn’t already. And it’s quite easy. They look a lot alike. And he instantly adored her.

I had Lacey intended for Lem…before she was born. Forever. But you all, including the Kennedys, have her so confused…she no longer understands how much a man can even love a woman. …And Jack was so gay and violently narcissistic most of the Earth no longer believes in monogamy or understands heterosexuality. …He ruined the United States. That family was never called to political office. That was not their blessing or calling. But America doesn’t have almost a clue about that at all. …And now it sees genuinely weak men as heroic.

I do use Donald Trump. But he is also far weaker than he should be. And it’s EXTREMELY tragic America can only respond to weak men now. …Donald will have to accept my criticism. I’m God.

Lacey’s sins are gluttony, greed and self-abuse. She’s never been properly loved…but she know better. And…sin is sin. So…not caring for her health enough still offends me. Choosing Cheetos instead of blueberries is still sin. …Collecting too many bottles of perfume…is still gluttony of sorts. …Knowingly hoarding antique products…and neglecting to inform people what it is…to gain financially is greed, ultimately. And…she inherited her sinful tendencies from her father. …Her tendency to amass wealth…very easily…and keep it…is a blessing and her fallen nature that needs me.

Does she care? About the poor? YES!! …So did Tom. …But they also have a tendency to want to be very wealthy and very safe. …They are extremely brave…and dangerous…but they also have a desire for safety, peace and stability.

Banks. They’re English. …And the love Tom has for his daughter is the best part of those people. As is her trust in him in Christ, as a father. …He prays for her daily…and is unspeakably tortured by her misery, should there be Purgatory. …Loving fathers see their children’s childlike nature, as I do, and cherish it as just that, nothing sexual ever.

Lacey was almost entirely innocent in her heart intent on Instagram. …And she’s horrified by the thought that you and others like you simply were so envious you decided to throw her into Hell and steal her soul. She believes it’s possible Jack destroyed Lem…or tried to…simply out of shallow lust and envy. Just…watched them and got the hateful, evil idea in his head to smite her because she was too enraptured by Lem’s love for his liking. Why? Because he felt all such pleasure and love on all the Earth belonged solely to him. …Why solely to him? Well…because he’s a psychotically vain, covetous man. Insanely self-adoring. …She believes that he could have found any happy couple…and found issue with the object of desire at any given moment…and decided to replace them with himself. …And she knows…that when you make love to your spouse in a fallen world…you actually are worshiping me. Why? Because I created love. I created real love…and I’m God. And she knows that when Lem was treated badly by Jack…it was an attack on me…and an attack on her. What she’s baffled by is how and why I would ever allow the Kennedys to attack her in Purgatory, destroying themselves and ruining her life. And she’s ready to end the world partially just because of that.

Coupled with the treatment she’s experiencing from most living people, the way children are being tortured, the way the Earth has been destroyed with plastic, and the way the Kennedys have treated her should there be Purgatory…she’s prepared to literally end all of human civilization for eternity and destroy the world itself, forcing me to create a new one, when she dies. …I am telling her she’s Scotia if there’s reincarnation. I have told her that! I HAVE!!! …Because if there’s reincarnation she is Scotia. To me she’s Scottish, Egyptian and Tom’s daughter, if there’s reincarnation. I see all of them, should they all exist. And Lem is Emperor Constantine. And the third cousin of the Earl of Spencer in 1898. And their happy marriage and four dead children…were real, should there be reincarnation. …She’s confused about whether or not there’s reincarnation. She wants there to be…because it makes sense of her profound pain…and makes everything seem…better. But…she’s quite sure that should there be reincarnation it would have to be discussed in the Bible, and she’s right. It would have to be. …The Gnostics are seen as fools or eccentrics by many Bible scholars but…a broken clock can be right once a day, and she knows this. Pray she knows. Pray she figures it out. Because she needs to.

But let me be clear: I am God. Many people have a problem with her being able to hear from me when they claim to but can’t and are instead making up what they think I might say. And as I’ve allowed her to speak with the dead she’s also heard from them when some other people like Louis Bayard have not. …He’s supposed to be an expert, but he’s wrong, as is David Pitts. …Lem was a straight man. He was heterosexual. …And he did not worship Jack…nor become a Kennedy…like some…possessed being overtaken by homosexual lust and desire. Lem Billings did not desire JFK at all. Historians have willfully deceived the masses about this topic for over 40 years. Men like David Pitts both know and don’t know the truth, because they were willfully bamboozled into believing that Lem was most certainly gay. They have a very hard time psychologically comprehending the concept of a truly heterosexual man who is confused enough to act gay in 1938. They can’t cognitively imagine it easily at all. …It’s entirely possible. But they just can’t quite imagine it. And it’s very, very serious. They needed to be able to…five years ago, before Queen Elizabeth II died. When she died…Lacey lost an enormous life sustaining hope and if they had simply had the intellectual capacity to understand the concept…they’d have been able to draw out Elisabeth’s legacy in their spirits for just enough light to be given to allow Lacey to perceive her own life with more accuracy. But as is…she’s lost two teeth…developed air hunger that could kill her…but hasn’t…lost a large amount of hair from her head…and currently has two root canals she’s dreading in 2025 and has almost completely given up on her next 40 years of her life. Lem won’t let her logical despair harm their afterlife.

Jack Kennedy looked bisexual. It’s in his face. It’s in his body. And it’s not a pose or manner. Homosexuality isn’t just an idea. Homosexuals look homosexual. It shouldn’t surprise you to hear that. Hitler knew that too…and it’s why he felt that he could exterminate homosexuality by killing homosexuals. He felt they were genetically diseased and if they could be quarantined and killed off…he’d possibly rid the world of their genetic code. Jack was bisexual. John Fitzgerald Kennedy was bisexual. Kirk LeMoyne Billings was heterosexual. They were never real friends. Kirk thought otherwise, Jack didn’t truly have the ability to care. Kirk projected his good heart on to Jack. And Jack projected his homosexual passion for Kirk on to Kirk. That’s REALITY. Kirk doesn’t really look homosexual.

Matt Nesheim asked me to protect him in the Middle East from death. I did. …He was not supposed to die. I needed him alive. You needed him alive.

The human vagina is more pleasurable than the anus to a penis, in sexual penetration. Human evolution speaks to this fact. …People can achieve grand orgasms through heterosexual sex. There is nothing sexually better than that. …Homosexual men don’t understand this inherently, necessarily because their desire to penetrate a vagina is lacking. You should have known that. You cannot expect them to arbitrate a debate over sexual pleasure, that’s ludicrous and possibly outright evil. They don’t necessarily know. It’s evil to use their ignorance…and blind trust…both against them and against women.

Against them? Yes. I care about homosexual men. And I don’t expect them to know what straight men know. …They can’t. And it’s bullying to use their current societal popularity to make an argument to attack the value of females everywhere. They have very often been willing to be used to justify profoundly evil psychological abuse of women…but…many are not fully aware and simply don’t understand what’s truly going on. They have been turned into a bludgeoning tool used by misogynists. And I find it EXTRAORDINARILY ABHORRENT. There is no woman alive who can defend herself without nuclear war against this particular onslaught of evil and Vladimir Putin knows that in his spirit. And yes, sadly, the Kennedys are largely to blame. Jack Kennedy was a horrendous toxin. And yes, the dead English aristocrats who killed the Irish people are…sadly…being morally reevaluated for possible innocence by many dead people, especially dead opiate addicts. Especially dead white opiate addicts from Philadelphia. Lacey’s air hunger has been psychological torture for many of them that they didn’t actually deserve…and they have become very angry at the Kennedys for even slightly ruining their afterlife bliss by making it scary for her to get her own rightful breath. Part of why she’s had air hunger so badly is because of the Kennedys and the dead opiate addicts know that and find it…astoundingly evil.

Yes, homosexual men have been historically beaten and slaughtered. But so have women. And their souls aren’t more important to me than other people. Both. Neither human is more important to me. If I don’t allow homosexuality in Heaven I see homosexual men as genetically diseased men who I care about deeply. …Regardless…they are not magical all-knowing arbiters of everything.

It was obvious that Jack Kennedy would have been a bad lover and an atrocious husband to Lem Billings. That was merely common sense. And the homosexual community’s reaction to them is either part of their actually diseased bodies…and therefore their diseased minds and ability to accept truth…or their inability to understand or accept that they’re physically inferior infertile-mutated humans in an extremely trashed ecosystem…or they simply have an extreme amount of evil in their midst…that they have always refused to acknowledge as evil. And as men…I’ll have to hold them accountable. They have no choice. They either don’t exist as equal real human men…or they’re accountable.

Why is it so important to get Lem Billings right? …Because Lem was heterosexual. And while you can misconstrue his depression after Jack’s death as love…it was not romantic or sexual love or love at all. It was due to Jack’s evil. It was due to the oppressive control the entire Kennedy family wielded against Lem Billings. They destroyed Lem Billings’s life. And he very carefully and fearfully tried to tell the public that, in a passive aggressive manner but the homosexual community obliterated his attempt to save his existence in the fallen world. Either because they’re diseased beings who are just as likely to make grave errors against the word of God as a criminal sociopath…and you can’t safely trust their moral authority as mine explained on Earth almost ever…or they chose evil. Why they chose evil…is…despair to Lacey. She wants to believe they’re possibly going to be together and be happier in Heaven…out of genuine love for them and a desire for them to be happy in a fallen world…and so it’s horrible to her to think they chose evil, but they did.

Should there be homosexuality in Heaven…

Succession (Main Title Theme) by Nicholas Britell plays.

they chose to glorify Mollock, Satan, in regard to Jack and Lem. They saw an opportunity to show their support for the Kennedy’s power in society…and curry favor from the living Kennedys…and ignored their intuitions about the actual truth of the situation. …Lem was suffering…and that was huge sign of something rotten about the Kennedy’s narrative on the matter of Lem. He had a terrible last twenty years of life. And they often were in his company. …Even if he missed Jack…he shouldn’t have been…in living Hell…for twenty years. That’s not how even the deepest grief is processed. Life can sometimes end. People do grieve deeply. But they don’t go into an agonized living Hell like a prisoner of war purely due to grief. There’s extreme grief and being in a Nazi concentration camp. Lem’s psychological stare was such that he seemed…like a mouse caught in a torture device…not just normal grief. …But instead of hearing their consciences and being wise, gay men…and evil-hearted women…chose to whitewash the interpretation of Lem’s entire life and all of his words. They chose to use his soul…to further their own interests.

Rondo in F Minor for Piano and Orchestra – “Kendall’s Journey” by Nicholas Britell plays.

They saw a good-looking tall man…who looked straight…and intelligent and well-bred…who the poor, EVIL…Kennedys of downtrodden Ireland…had coveted…and lied about…to possess…and use. And instead of doing the right thing…they decided to use him as well…in the same way the Kennedys had. As a way to look normal. As a way to appear more heterosexual. Whether it’s allowed in Heaven or not. And…most importantly…to build a public, widespread conception of homosexuality…as GODLY…and therefore GOOD. …How? By using Lem’s good name. By using Lem’s good nature. By using the Billing’s patina.

Lucretia’s lack of protection over her family…outrages Lacey. And she’s wanted to punch Lucretia in her face over it. But she also understands why Lucretia did it…and empathizes with her…and is bad at punching people anyway. But…Lacey refuses to just let it go, and I see that as just. And I’m God. And should Lucretia not be in eternal Hell for rejecting me…she’s in a horrible state of mind over it all and she’s actually thankful Lacey is so angry because she sees it as a hopeful thing.

The gay community knew. I’m God. I’m saying this. Not Lacey. …They knew. …Even if they don’t know now. 40 years ago…they knew. When they were first reading his documents and analyzing the situation…and interviewing Ted Kennedy…and Eunice…they knew they were being lied to. They knew something about it all was horribly amiss. …How could Lem always be so happy? So sincerely giddy and at peace? Never a problem? No…frustration…with Jack at all? No…big scene at Jack’s wedding? No huge scenes where Lem threatened suicide? And there were none. There are none. …And it was obvious Lem wasn’t polygamous with Jack…and that instead Jack just slept around and abused Lem. …But instead of having the conscience to stand-up for intellectual integrity, scholastic freedom, sexual morality, common-sense…human decency…and really just life itself…they chose to obliterate history. They chose to lie. …Tell half truths as absolute truths. Tell…impressions…as facts. And David Pitts was trying…some…when he overused the word assume. …Mr. Pitts did that intentionally. I’m God. And I’m giving him some credit for trying to be honest…even if it was just in some overly subtle way. He did try. I see his heart. He knows he…was in it to make money and be famous.

But at large the Kennedys were worshiped by the gay community…to curry favor. Because Ted had power. And the rest of the family had enormous perceived power. Oprah also did it. …The idea was to use their good graces…to elevate the entire gay community in a multitude of ways.

Moderato Con Brio for Violin, Harp, and Orchestra by Nicholas Britell plays.

They essentially said to the Kennedys, ‘Okay. …So…we’re going to stand here…and smile…and play nice. …We know…we know Jack Kennedy was one of us. …That’s right! WE KNOW THAT. …We KNOW your precious JFK…your family’s most distinguished human trophy…is a FAKE. …WE KNOW. …That being said…we’re going to look the other way.

Look the other way??? Why yes. Of course. …Because…well…we’re like Rose. …We just want you to leave us alone…give us what we really want…and be NICE.

We want legal marriage. WE…WANT…LEGALIZED GAY MARRIAGE. …And…as much as we care about…facts…we have our own needs to manage. Right? We have our own…problems. …So…if you can make our lives easier…and better…nobody has to know. We’ll help you. That’s right! We’ll help you LIE.

You had a homosexual brother! You had an obviously homosexual son! …I’m sorry, Rose, grow-up! …JACK WAS GAY! YOUR SON WAS GAY! …He WAS OBVIOUSLY GAY!!!

Intermezzo in C Minor – “Money Wins” by Nicholas Britell plays.

But…we…aren’t here to burn bridges. We’re here to make a difference. …And I’m not going to kiss your ass. …But I’m going to say that I love you guys!

*he laughed, self-deprecatingly and adoringly*

You all are…my heroes.

I’d…give anything to meet Jack! …He’s my favorite president! …He’s…my…absolute favorite! …You guys are AMAZING!

So…we don’t want to scare you! …Don’t let us scare you! …No…I’m just here to explain our perspective. …There are a lot of us. Closeted and otherwise. Everywhere! And…we need to be free. That’s are God-given right! Okay!? So…you can support us…or not…but…I’m going to keep this conversation in mind. …That’s all I’m saying! …I know you all have lots of shame. …I know you all hide things. …And I’m not here to say I don’t. I do too. That’s human. …But…we have an investment opportunity for you guys. Okay? A long-term investment. …We‘ll protect you…keep whatever quiet you want kept quiet…but then you have to…help us…help ourselves.

That’s all I’m asking for! …For you to lend us a helping hand. Like family. LIKE FAMILY.

*he breathed heavily and violently*

Like one…big…loving…happy…FAMILY.’ he said.

And the real Lem Billings was never seen in public almost ever again, until this blog.

Prospector’s Arrive by Jonny Greenwood plays.

The problem…is that evil…is evil. And while I can use evil for good…evil is still evil.

Lacey…was personally decimated by the gay community’s evil deal with the Kennedys in 1983. Behind closed doors. Because I have always intended for her to be happily with Lem for eternity. …And…while it may seem otherwise…he never did anything to alter that. He made it…far more difficult…but that was not his heart intent…at all.

If Lacey is Scotia she desires for none of her personal glory to be hers outside of my ultimate glory. And JD Rockefeller finds that…extremely hopeful…regardless. He finds it…wonderful. …And Michael fell madly in love with her. …If he hadn’t died…I’d have brought them together. And poor Lem…would have had to learn the importance of shunning evil and not letting people believe in evil as a replacement for truth.

When Lacey was about 12 she saw a photo of Lem at 16. And she knew instantly she would have wanted desperately to marry him. But…over time her hope that he could love her…even if he was straight…has been eroded by evil. …And yet…Michael…refused to let water keep him from loving me…even in his darkest hours. Water. Life. And so…he continues. And…there’s nothing Lem can easily do. …And because Lacey has been so unloved and neglected and attacked…and she’s already meek by nature…she can’t wrap her head around the idea that she could really be hurting Lem…by letting anyone else love her. But she’s desperately tried in the last year. And her physical health has suffered because of it. She’s often woken-up shaking because she fell asleep with Lem…asking me for that mercy if I can grant it…in Jesus’s name…and been sadistically attacked spiritually in her sleep until she wakes up shaking in horrific agony and fear.

If there’s an Illuminati…Luigi…was accusing JFK of immense evil. And he was also saying he didn’t necessarily work alone.

Jack Kennedy wanted power and glory. Lem wanted peace.

Oil. Gasoline. Petroleum. …There is no power…greater than that. In the fallen world. There is no country or amount of wealth…that surpasses that in importance. And if you take the private property of the Nesheims away from them…and their associated families…you’ll destroy the US forever. No more mercy. This is your final warning.

I can’t keep giving mercy to people who refuse to take the time to even consider her, Lacey’s, humanity in a serious manner. …It is sad how they’re the descendants of prestigious Norwegian silversmiths. Why sad? Because that means that they already had prestige in Europe long before they came to the US. And that ruins Jack Kennedy’s Nation of Immigrants. …It means that being raised in wealth in Europe…made it exponentially easier for them to amass extraordinary power in America, and stealthily too. So silently and consistently that nobody can dismantle them without dismantling the entire US, on an environmental basis. …You’re all interconnected. So…by messing with her you accidentally shifted power to the political right in the US…for the foreseeable future…and gave JD Rockefeller an enormous amount of power in the fallen world from the grave.

This blog seems extremely…bizarre. That’s partially intentional on her part. …And it’s because she’s worried the reality of her life is too weird to honestly write about without leaning in to the absurdity of it all.

But yes…because of Lem’s lack of understanding…and the gay community’s lack of bravery, conscience and common sense…in the early 1980’s…JD Rockefeller has oil again. In a sense. Yes…in a sense…he has all of your oil. To play with. Like a train set. In his head.

And he sits…for hours…staring out into the Heavens. Contemplating. Planning. Calculating. Discussing. With me. With angels. With saints. With Satan. With…Michael. And with Lem.

He knows Lacey wants to end the world. When she dies. And he cares. In her messed-up life…I meant for her and Michael to be soulmates.

Did JFK sacrifice Michael? Well what if he did? What if…your JFK, the hero…is imaginary? And I’m real? …What if…he’s a human prince…who can’t save you from death, ultimately? What if…all you have to do…is trust in me? But I know that’s hard to do. I know.

Yes…Lem was heterosexual. No…he didn’t feel safe telling you that. Not really. And now you’ve defiled his grave and won’t stop harassing him and Lacey.

And so…oil…oil will become your noose. If Lacey dies too soon…or too unhappy…oil will become your gun. A gun stuck in your mouth…held tightly…and triggered. Blowing your minds! …Up, up and away? Not quite. I’m up…I’m down…I’m GOD. And I don’t want you in Hell. I love you.” says God.

“THIS IS WHAT I MEANT BY PRETENTIOUS.” yells Casi from the afterlife at Lacey.

“That’s not how the word is actually defined.” says Lacey.

Casi stares at her.

“It’s NOT.” says Lacey.

“But it’s used that way.” says Casi.

“This morning she got sent some stupid, fucking shit from some asswipe who is probably better that he’s not rich and famous. It was about some jack ass who flies through the air and has anal sex, probably in his wet dreams. And that was after he asked her if she was suicidal about a week ago never read her message blew her off and then decided today to send her some stupid fucking shit. He’s a lower class British chump who has a crush on her but it’s too hateful to be honest about it. He also has a very small impressionable young daughter and Lacey. Now Lacey worries for her safety. He’s torturing her on Christmas Eve because that’s that’s my wife’s actual concern is the safety of his daughter. She grew-up with very abusive parents. He’s triggering her on Christmas Eve with his bullshit. And if he’s not the scum-of-the-Earth I hope he realizes that someday. That she’s feminine and sexy. She’s not a masculine person at all and I’m not gay and you’re a moron for sending her that.

The British empire was not as evil as asshole middle-class people want it to be in America. You go hunt down Chrissy Teigen, you go hunt down all these people who torture children openly and then you come back to me with your criticism of the British empire you hypocritical idiot! And I’m yelling that at a black person who I respect who I do believe could be hypocritical idiot. He ives in a time when he’s benefiting from the trading of children and he has no moral outrage about it. I’m not even sure he’s aware that it’s happening. …Chrissy Teigen is black, so is Oprah! And you’d think to target them or would you be more likely to try to protect them because they’re black. If you’d be more likely to protect them because they’re black well I have news for you you jackass that’s what happened in Great Britain! Grow-up!

Chrissy Teigen might actually sometimes have a conscience and I have news for you, there are many slave traders who did as well. See things aren’t simple and people used to know that 30 or 40 years ago, but today people walk around acting like everything is so fucking simple. The good people are always good and the bad people are always bad. I would like to see Chrissy Teigen in Heaven and so would Lacey. So why don’t you try following that example. Oh you cant? Oh that’s right because we’re white and old money and if there’s reincarnation I was a British aristocrat and that makes me what? Dirt to you compared to you and your moral supremacy?

No I’m so tired of people having the most toxic reaction to Lacey. There are some people who may not, but then they never get any credit from her because they’re so shouted over by violent narcissistic bitches.

I just tried to express myself and I don’t think it quite worked. There are things I love to say to some of you, but I don’t think you’re prepared to hear because you’d feel sad. Jack was a narcissistic prick. I was straight. I could not have managed being with him for more than an hour, if I was not straight. I was 6 foot four and awkward and I liked girls. When I was a boy. And I felt a little animosity towards them because I felt like they had the upper hand. And that was part of what we had fun together over was the sense that women had it had a good. They kind of had us over the barrel so to speak. that died down by the time I was in my 40s.

I have no fond sentimental feelings about the Kennedy Center. And Jack never brought me to some sort of ecstasy. He didn’t wanna think he was homosexual, so he was very reticent to experience most homosexual acts, unless if they were done violently. And by violent I do not mean violently passionate I mean he was violent. He had a hard time with sexual intimacy as a narcissist and so I think he was passionate sometimes with women and I-I wouldn’t be surprised if he was passionate with Red Fay on occasion, but he was never passionate with me. I don’t think he would’ve easily been passionate with an openly gay person. I was not open, I never came out of the closet so to speak but I acted gay, Red did not. I was not actually gay, but I acted gay. That’s what I mean and he would never have felt comfortable being passionate with someone like that. Unless if he wanted that person to somehow end up dead. Or he was hoping to play games with them psychologically. And I suppose he could’ve tried that with me, but he never really did. We didn’t have sexual tension between us. I was straight. And so, even if he tried, you know, he might’ve even tried, but it never worked, because there was no sexual tension between us. And he never created it in my head. He never manipulated me in such a way to feel that without really feeling it. 

But the truth is again you people have yet to realize the perfect argument that I made there is no way for someone to be as happy at his wedding, as I was without being straight.  yes, you can see it in person‘s eyes or their smile or some thing there was nothing about me that seemed unhappy in that way. And there is absolutely no way that a person could see what I saw and experience all of that that day, without feeling sadness if they were attracted to men given the context of the situation, it’s completely impossible. It is literally psychologically impossible for me to be photographed the way that I was without me being straight it is totally impossible. What’s more I look heterosexual, physically I look heterosexual. 

So a it’s rather upsetting to me as it goes, who is chosen to reveal all of that to Lacey first to her in private years ago, and now openly…to all of you… to be kept from sexual intimacy with her at a time when her physical body is being taxed highly she’s cleaning she’s cooking she’s wrapping presents. Her children are at home they’re high on sugar well not high, but they’re very hyper and she’s expected in all of that, with no family almost at all, supporting her, loving her awful parents who raised her to some degree. Your father cares somewhere, but Tom is Dad. She’s wept over that her daughter is asked to go see grandma but there’s no grandma to go see and it’s made her daughter genuinely depressed. Yeah after all of that for you, jack ass is to send her stupid fucking shit and treat her like a piece of crap for no fucking reason other than your imaginary hurt feelings I’m sorry Casi I’m sorry that we misunderstood you because we’re more polite and reticent and well bred than you. I apologize that we don’t know when to apply to colloquial and not. Go talk to Bobby go talk to some stupid fucking middle-class jack ass you would understand what the hell you’re talking about all the fucking time! And thank you for telling thank you thank you so ever much you dumb bitch you narcissistic vain little cow thank you you ugly piece of fucking shit! Thank you so fucking much!

Thank you so fucking much for clarifying some thing you could’ve clarified about a decade ago you little horny toad from hell!!” yells Lem Billings.

Awkward silence.

“ i’d have cared about not hurting your feelings, and I would care about editing this block. If I thought people deserved it, there are some people who do, but there are a lot of people reading this blog that deserve to be confused. I know I’m not talking about a child reading this blog I’m not talking about a nice person reading this block. I am talking about dumbasses who read this blog to laugh at her and find fault with every fucking thing she does and says. Because I know that’s what you’re doing and so does she she doesn’t care that you’re too dimwitted to understand what the hell she’s talking about half the time.

I know I am sorry pumpkin she’s probably prettier than you too and I was taller and actually probably smarter than your husband . I came from a better family and you know what it’s sad. I was straight how many of you? Assholes have thought I was gay because you knew I was straight and she made you too jealous?” says Lem.

Someone raises their hand.

“ how do you live with yourselves? There’s really nothing that evil about her. Do you people just live off of your supposed superiority all the fucking time or do you have a soul?” says Lem.

“ people want to be her friend and then they get too jealous of her.” says a woman.

“ you know you wouldn’t have to you could choose to be a grown-up instead of a five-year-old bitch from hell.” says Lem.

Casi smiles. “ Lacey as much as time is right and I have to respect him. He also knows and he’s not in his head at me that you have to talk this through because you’re sort of an external processor and therefore we have to talk this through. I didn’t mean to call you fake, but that were just automatically means that but that’s not quite how I meant it, it was more that I just thought that you were like pretentious.” says Casi.

Fidel Castro laughs.

“ I don’t really know what that word means because it’s colloquial and very few people that I’ve been exposed to who I have no one use that word the way you mean it Mark has occasionally use that that colloquial word pretentious on very rare occasions we’ve used it to insult him sort of new money, icky Bierschwale restaurants that serve overly complicated, bland food that is extremely expensive in Europe and in the United States I think we’ve criticized one or two hotels that way but I don’t think I’ve ever used that word or heard that word used in any other context so to me, it still is pretty connected to the original word in the dictionary that is colloquial in a way, but isn’t at the same time I think some hermeneutics professors get confused on that or get really uptight about it or whatever the word would be and my phone when I’m saying offensive, and I invite them to invite them to find it offensive in a real way, but in my opinion, even though all words have a colloquial derivation in a sentence they don’t at the same time colloquial does mean something and so even if the origins of the word in a sentence is colloquial of all words are colloquial in a sentence they’re also not in the dictionary was established and is used for a reason they know it’s not just the British empire and John D Rockefeller, trying to control things some degree. Some of that is bullshit and at the end of the day people who are in charge or were in charge. You had a conscience or some common sense on occasion just did things to keep order they really did him and do an occasion still, I wouldn’t be surprised if Bill Gates isn’t pair evil and if I occasion he does some things that might seem rather mysterious, but actually aren’t there just to sort of keep things from falling apart Vladimir Putin might agree with me, but that’s the thing not everyone in charge who can be evil is always 100% evil. There are some people who are just trying to keep things from falling apart so to speak and on that note dictionary‘s are not just you know some stupid thing that was concocted by some rich person to control the masses, so my my definition of the word in my head is that it’s always so much disingenuous or dishonest or incorrect in someway and I can’t quite divorce myself from that meeting. It’s very hard for me to do that you’ll have to do you have to do that you’ll have to. Somehow you’ll have to somehow explain to me what it is that you mean because I’m not quite getting it to me. It’s always disingenuous somehow or dishonest. I’m not quite understanding same thing in a sentence, but not I’m not quite understanding Casi, what it is that you’re trying to say.” says Lacey.

“ OK so it’s like it’s not disingenuous necessarily it’s not just it there could be it could be disingenuous because to somebody who’s from the country and who prides themselves on being what some people are calling down to earth it it it actually does seem disingenuous to me because I am from the south I’m from the country and so to me it just seems disingenuous for everyone to be that way because I am sort of that kind of person where I kind of just think people should be like me but that’s what I meant. I didn’t necessarily mean that you were a liar and then you went with that and I decided to let you because I thought it was smart and it was one of the dumbest things I’ve ever done.

The definition of the word is more with you. It really is what you’re saying, but I meant it in the context of my own culture and myself, and I assumed that you were like me in someway, or I slowly realized over time that you weren’t because to be honest, you’re white and the same way that I am or do you know people in my area like to think that they are the sort of 1700s 1800s a Anglo French sort of European German luck that’s what we’re going for right that’s what we want to think we are. I know a lot of us are Still hot but you’re that too and in my own ignorance and hostility I just didn’t think it through and realize that historically were from the same area of Europe, and that that doesn’t really mean anything just because you look like people from my area doesn’t mean you’re one of them Lem’s looks like those people to him, so does JD Vance, but that doesn’t mean we’re all related or the same people We’re just all from probably relatively the same time. In the same area of Europe, but we’re not all the same people. Some of us are rich so this report some of us did well service did not, and we’re not all the exact same people, even if were racially so much similar.

So you and Lem’s are from the upper class or you became that my ancestors were probably not they were probably more middle-class and stay that way, but they were from relatively similar groups of people and a lot of people have not understood that or understood that you didn’t know what I was talking about however, I am not completely idiomatic and so over time I realized basically stocking you for about a year or two commenting on every post liking every post you ever posted I realized that you weren’t really like me and I got to me it irritated me and so I called you pretentious but I didn’t mean it in this way where it’s like you should suddenly become exact I didn’t mean it like you should become like me, but I didn’t at the same time I wasn’t calling you a liar. I was I was trying to say that you were like damn it’s hard to think of a word, other than pretentious the way that I want to use it- so it’s kind of like him like why don’t you come back down like why are you being so like why are you being so like why are you being so I party or so cold like I didn’t wanna think you really just were that kind of person because I have not really been friends with those people and they don’t generally like me early stay didn’t think that they did so I’ve never really met somebody like you and I had no idea what you were thinking about me and I was starting to feel insecure because I thought this woman is gonna think I’m an idiot or she already does and she’s just humoring me and I am making an ass of myself. This person is really beautiful and uppity and secure and I’m just making a total fucking asshole of myself.

And honestly Lacey, everyone in the perfume community started to realize that around that time we all been following you and we all adored you as you were so wholesome, but you weren’t foxy and you weren’t backward and you were intelligent and sophisticated and I just thought this person is really cool it’s like Martha Stewart like you have the same Affect on people it’s sort of like ASMR. It’s sort of relaxing. Just watch you when you’re like left your own devices because there’s just something very methodical and sort of perfect about everything that you do. I am sort of like cracked and it’s just super relaxing I mean if there’s to be in Carnation, it’s because you’re a military genius lightly and you’re like that and so, it’s sort of like watching you know the most decent you know military maneuvering where it’s like people are all marching you know in perfect lines and it’s just relaxing to watch it’s mesmerizing and that’s what it’s like watching you. It’s like perfection even if you’re even if there’s not reincarnations, it’s just really relaxing Just watching and so I think a lot of perfume people followed you because it was just relaxing you were just relaxing to watch.

But then a lot of us started getting really irritated the more that we realized that we weren’t quite like you or that you might not really like us and it just started to get to be awkward in Martha Stewart world. You realize that it’s just a television show and you’re not really interacting with her and so you feel safe just sitting there watching her because it’s not like she’s Martha Stewart but you don’t think she’s gonna start criticizing you Because she can’t see you it’s television. You could see us and interact with us and so it started to get to the arm really irritating because it just got it got way too weird it’s just like this person is like Martha Stewart and I’m really worried she’s seeing all my flaws and it’s just getting really weird.” says Casi.

“ there’s nothing that I could do then!” says Lacey.

“ no and actually, I am curious to know why it was like a year ago that somebody thought your maid was the problem.” says Casi.

“ because that made confused her the second maid didn’t the first made did.” says Lem, “ the first made, came from poverty, and was going to Saint Kates in Saint Paul, and was bisexual, and was dating a man as an experiment, and she was very hateful towards Lacey. She may have even stolen something from her, and she was very arrogant and it was not a positive experience for Lacey. It was confusing him and see the problem is you did the same thing Casi said to a lot of people in reaction to her. They get very upset and they start trying to compete with her when that’s the dumbest thing they could really do what they should really do is just realize that she’s probably better than them in someway and let it go, because there is some people who are just better than us they’re taller than us or smarter than us. That’s just how it is and it’s not really a problem you don’t have to be the smartest person alive to be smart, or the richest person alive to be rich you can just be rich or smart, and if that person who’s better than you isn’t trying to fight you and they’re just minding their own business, you really are best off just letting it go and not trying to take them down or threaten them or compete with them but a lot of people have chosen to do the dumbest thing possible and just compete with her when they really shouldn’t because there’s no competition or they’ve chosen to try to somehow prove that she’s wrong in someway and that’s also just spectacularly stupid and the problem is Casi that made confused her if you had just done that to her without that made, she would’ve had a different reaction. It’s really that complex.

So if that made hadn’t confused her she would have thought why is this woman competing with me right now or why is she blustering so much and she would’ve thought I think this person feels insecure I think they feel sad. I think they feel sort of sad but that’s not some thing she could process because that may totally confused her I kid you not it really was that maid.” says Lem.

“ what did that maid do?” says Matt.

“ her maid told her that essentially you weren’t insecure you weren’t even poor that somehow in someway, you were infinitely superior to her, and that you weren’t feeling insecure, you were feeling disdainful of her poverty and rural background.” says Lem,

“ what exactly did what did this maid say?” says Mark Dayton.

“ she brought up that she’s been your maid and that she’d seen your mansion in Lake of the Isles and that you had an elevator in your house and all your pictures were lit up. She did that because she could stand Lacey‘s apartment. Lacey said we have a lot of antiques and she said I don’t see that many antiques. You don’t have that many antiques. This doesn’t feel like a place with antiques to me who made said that, and actually Lacey did have a lot of antiques but that’s what her maid said she acted like Lacey had a horrible problem. Lacey had a very messy house and that’s why they hired the maid service and the woman made a very big deal out of that and then acted as though Lacey’s background which was upper class, and his old money was somehow absolute fucking shit compared to the date and family and that somehow in some convoluted way by virtue of her being bisexual and being your maid she was in a higher class than Lacey. And Lacey is intellectual she’s an actual sensitive intellectual and so she’s not like Jack at all and so she wasn’t sold on the idea but she took it to heart because she’s a very heartfelt sensitive person and she had nobody to talk to Mark is useless in that way or was and I wasn’t able to talk to her because I’m dead, and Jack was taking advantage of that and trying to somehow abuse and totally destroy her entire existence And then actually genuinely become my lover because he sees that as a way to glorify himself over God and he has us it’s a psychotic need to be better than everybody. He hates everything and everyone. He is an a Normas Lee psychotic narcissist at this point.

Or he was.

So the problem is he still has some residual, energy and illuminati is desperately conjuring it if they exist or other people are because they don’t want to think that he cease to exist even temporary early because that’s very scary to them. It makes God seem terrifying. So the point is you you can’t you need to stop conjuring his energy to attack her and interrupt his conversations because it’s not helpful. He doesn’t necessarily even exist as a conscious being and you’re searching for someone who at the moment does not necessarily even exist.

He may come back God loves us all and if he’s not sending us to hell, he may actually bring Jack back, but for the moment he’s not in existence.

But no, this may glorified Mark Dayton, and may the Dayton seem astronomically above Lacey, which is ludicrous because actually they’re above the Danes. Lacey’s background with the silver smiths is superior to the date in Family and Actually. They don’t have needed authors and their family they have a clothing store. And they were not silver smiths in Norway, catering to the royal family with books being written about them they owned a department store and they were wealthy for about 100 years and that’s it. And no, I’m not disparaging them. I’m just pointing out the fact that her family actually is in a higher class than the Dayton family but this woman was an asshole idiot who didn’t know her butt from her face in that way. she couldn’t process the idea that Lacey‘s family had oil because Lacey did tell her that and she just couldn’t process process what that meant it just it was she had to make them poor because she couldn’t quite understand what she was being told or how humble and sweet Lacey actually was as a person. Also, what’s really hilarious is that Tom Banks had a house like that in that area his house wasn’t his grandma‘s theirs but it was not a small house and I’m sick of people misunderstanding that his house was 3000 ft.² he bought it when it was practically brand new they lavishly decorated it. They had a country manner, basically a country, a state And they had a cabin and they were frequently visited by Hollywood elites. They were very posh people and they were in that neighborhood. That woman didn’t know that obviously but she did at the same time. Lacey is genetically old money and it’s obvious when you meet her and it’s very intimidating and people have been lying about it for the last decade because if there is an illuminati Chris Hayes and MSNBC Couldn’t handle feeling inferior to her and that’s very complicated but that’s essentially what happened.

But we can really trace this whole shit show in a sense back to that poor sad made, and we want to hold her accountable but we want to make sure that we don’t do you know go to far because she was not necessarily trying to be. Lol even if she stole some of Lacey‘s China, she was raised by a drug attic’s mother, she was homeless for a short time and she really did pull her self up by her own bootstraps. She got in Florida they were actually poor and she doesn’t necessarily as much as she’s streetsmart. She’s not as streetsmart is she think she is and she didn’t realize how done what she was saying was to Lacey, she was attracted to Lacey and she lied about it and that was one of her first faults, but she also was not prepared to deal with the reality of who she was in relation to Lacey him and she’s part of the reason Matt is now dead.

Mats family is like Lacey they’re very friendly people. They’re very loving people and Lacey try to be loving to this made. She talked with her um but not obtrusively. Hopefully this woman certification almost like a friend, but that was not something this woman was prepared for that’s how the Nash arms are that’s how mats family is, very friendly very down to earth but that’s not how a lot of people are who are bourgeois and who use the maid service. And so a lot of people are not a lot of people are not aware of how much she tries and soda. Unfortunately that made Casi told her that your pain wasn’t real and that you were just a disdainful uppity bitch.” says Lem.

“ so that made basically told Lacey that I was potentially superior to her in some convoluted way and is that if Lacey disagreed with her that we would be at war with each other.” says Casi.

“ yes essentially.” says Lem.

“ that’s not the reality of the situation.” says Casi.

“What is the reality of the situation?” says Lem.

“I’m poor.” says Casi. “And I spend money I don’t have on perfume.”

“A lot of us do.” says a perfume collector.

“It’s AN OBSESSION.” says Mr. Cologne 76.

“I didn’t have money to pay for my car.” says Lacey’s former maid. “That’s why I ghosted you.”

“I…have…no idea…what to say…to these people.” says Lacey to Lem, in a panic.

“She’s not JFK!!!!” says Chrissy Teigen, in the afterlife.

“Well MERRY CHRISTMAS!!” yells a middle class woman at Lacey, hatefully assuming Lacey’s hateful.

“NO!! …SHE JUST DOESN’T KNOW WHAT TO SAY!!!” yells Chrissy Teigen, in the afterlife.

“Why?” asks a Real Housewife.

“Because she’s…not Jack. …You all are talking to her like she’s JFK. …She’s not. …She cares. But she’s…not sure what to say.” says Chrissy Teigen.

“We’re expecting sympathy.” says a reader to Lacey.

“Mmm…I don’t want to give you the wrong sympathy.” says Lacey. “That’s…presumptuous on my part. …It’s also…embarrassing to me. To get it so wrong. …I don’t want to be hurtful.” says Lacey.

“Do you eat tuna fish?” asks a reader.

“Yes! It’s good.” says Lacey, confused.

“But it’s cheap.” they say.

“Yes! So what?! On occasion it’s good.” says Lacey.

“I once had to give my kid tuna for a week!” says a reader.

“Yikes!!” says Lacey, cringing.

“Umm…no. She’s not Jack.

Lacey…we would like your sympathy!” he says.

“I KNOW. …I’m trying to find the right response, and I’m at a loss!” says Lacey.

The stare. Glare is more like it. Rage. Incredible self-righteousness.

“JUST BE NICE!!!” one yells at her.

“I’m trying to be!!” says Lacey, meekly.

“THEN SAY SOMETHING!!!” yells one of them.

“SHE DOESN’T KNOW WHAT TO SAY!!!!!” bellows Lem, exasperated. “I WAS STRAIGHT!!!!”

One of them laughs.

“It’s just too disturbing to you?” a British man asks Lacey.

“Worse.” says Lacey.

“It’s awful.” says a reader to Lacey.

“I KNOW! I’m…dumbfounded.” says Lacey.

“Oh. …So…we’ve sent you reeling in horror?” says a reader to Lacey.

“Yes. …And see…the Kennedys were dirt poor. In the 1800’s. …My family hasn’t possibly almost ever been that poor. …So…while I want to be comforting to you…I can’t think of what to say or do. …I’m not Jack.” says Lacey.

“And we’ve bit your head off when you’ve tried. I bet.” says an Englishwoman.

“Yes. You have. …And I don’t want to make that mistake again.” says Lacey.

Lacey goes on Facebook and blocks Vahe.

“Why?” says Lacey.

And then Rip Horton is shown in a Gayety gossip post about Lem Billings.

“Umm…that’s not even Lem.” says Lacey.

“We never had good sex.” says Lem. “The Kennedy Center isn’t my baby.

Jack…never made me orgasm. Ever. And actually…that’s also impossible. And you all need to realize that. …You’ve created a monster. In the US.”

“Will Vahe regret it?” says Lacey.

“Is this because I showed Merchandise Mart?” says Vahe.

“Yes.” says Lacey. “Do you read my blog?”

“He might.” says a reader.

“Why are you SO hateful?” says Lacey.

“I was raped by them.” says Lem.

“Because I refuse to have any sympathy for you!!” says Vahe.

“That’s sad. I thought better of you.” says Lacey.

“Mad Men was stupid television show. …And I was into it for a while. …But…it’s not that great.” says Vahe. “And…you gave it more importance.”

“No. She didn’t. …Why did you mount such a sophisticated insult today?” says Lem.

“Yeah. …It’s creepy.” says another person.

“We made him do it. Using demonic magic.” says Chrissy Teigen. “Most people are responsive to our spiritual guidance. And yes, we are that petty. And rich. And bored.”

“So we gave him the idea!” says a Boomer.

“Why did he think it made sense?!” says Lacey.

“I agree.” says one of Lacey’s friends on Facebook.

“I feel weird.” says Lacey’s first maid.

“SHIT! SHE BLOCKED ME!!” says Vahe, when he realizes it.

“Dad…that’s bad.” says one of his sons in the future.

“Good!” says Michael. “How long have you hated her?”

“Years.” says Vahe.

“Good! I’m glad we found a source of bad spiritual energy. And got rid of it.” says Michael.

“I thought we were on good terms.” says Lacey.

“Oh FUCK.” says a bisexual feminist. “He really was possibly very toxic.”

“Is he into men?” says a demon who’s impersonating JFK about Vahe.

“You know…that’s not Lem. …Lem was straight. …I know he was. As in, I know he was. …That being said…I’m hopeful the gay lie about Lem will only give Lacey and Lem privacy. …Nobody will know. That he’s real.” says Vladimir Putin, laughing.

“Even if I was gay…I’m still very likely over Jack.” says Lem.

“He’s married?” says another demon to the demon impersonating JFK.

“Oh. Shame. …I was going to try to tempt him to fantasize about sex with JFK in the White House.” says the demon. “He could replace Lemmers.”

“Using the Gayety article.” says MSNBC.

“YES! …I can use algorithms. …Give him the idea when he’s drunk. …And then…I get to possess his body. …Fun. …CHRISTMAS FUN.” he says, like the Grinch.

“You could meet…at Merchandise Mart.” says another demon joining him.

“Ahh. Yes. I like it.” he says.

“Well. Too bad!” says Putin. “You shouldn’t have led them to war with me.”

The demons regard him. Sigh. “You’re right. …But Vlad…it was too damn easy. And too damn tempting. …Evil…that’s so damn evil.” they say.

“I think he’s married.” says a third demon.

“Shame!!” says the demon impersonating JFK.