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(September 27th, 2024)

“I’m livid today. You wouldn’t necessarily know it by looking at me but I’m livid.

I’m sick and tired of unintelligent, narcissistic, obsessive people attaching themselves to me. Dead and alive. I don’t ‘attract narcissists.’ Rather, obsessively hyper-competitive people are instantly offended by me and attack. Instantly offended. And it’s always the same damn thing. They violently assert that they’re superior. And if you don’t give them that praise and position they lose their minds and do very stupid things. VERY stupid.

As an example: Nancy rented a house she couldn’t afford and spent thousands on painting it. Only to have to move out because of a wasp infestation and bad pipes. She believed it was a ‘rent-to-own’ situation. That was her…embarrassing reaction to Lacey sharing that they were considering buying a house. To go desperately find a cheap small house in shitty condition to rent-to-own. …And then she stupidly bragged to Lacey about her Indian neighbors who had servants back in India. IN INDIA. *Lacey violently rolls her eyes.* …That’s very common in those countries. It’s not at all the mark of prestige it is here. But Nancy believed she’d really put me in my place. It was disgusting!” says Lacey.

“And people want to pretend like she’s jealous or insecure because she’s so angry or they wanna pretend like she’s evil for pointing out how stupid and poor people are who do this to her but neither of those things are true and because of the fact that we insist that, if there’s an Illuminati, this woman literally has prevented nuclear war and is in a position at this point to possibly cause it I have to be real with myself and accept that she’s intelligent enough to probably prevent it more than anything and that there’s really no way that I can understand her position.” says a perfume hater. “ if I’m understanding correctly the only time she ever questioned if they should actually have nuclear war was when she was getting a lot of feedback from people that there were an exorbitant number of child slaves hostages, and she decided maybe given the pandemic and some financial crisis, that it made sense to design the world. There’s probably some thing like that in her head where she thought there’s this crisis here, this crisis here this crisis over there maybe it’s time to just pull the plug and just end everyone’s misery and just go to the other side Is that what happened?”

“ something very close to that and she’s she’s a very very genuinely pragmatic genuinely reticent genuinely intellectual person it’s not like Jack Kennedy, where she’s just narcissistic loses her shit every five minutes and then people pretend that she’s something different she actually really is that good of a leader, he had good leaders surrounding him who babysat him, and then gave him the credit. She actually is that calm and rational, but I know it was a consideration she was making a very difficult decision I mean essentially it’s sort of like when someone’s brain dead, and it looks totally worthless to keep going. That’s what she asked. That’s what she was considering do we have enough wherewithal as a World to keep functioning because there’s way too many crises and given the nature of the child sex it’s not sex, but the child hostage trade mean there are millions of kids possibly over you were being abducted and put into hellish positions all over the world and she thought finding those kids is going to be damn near impossible and they’re everywhere. It’s like a infestation of incredible evil plaguing the earth, and in her mind, she thinks we’re really not in a good place spiritually if there’s aliens they could invade us we could end up having a return of the bubonic, plague and people are going to suffer. There’s going to be mass extinctions of people in gruesome, disgusting ways. Would it make more sense to pull the plug before we get to that point of depravity as a species and just say this is bad enough, let’s head out, but no the thing is it big given her personality. She logistically talked it through with Putin, about where they would put the bombs to position them for maximum destruction so that there will be a follow problem with people hiding in their bunkers or something dying three years from now with some horrific cause so she was our kids being abandoned so he’s logistical. He try to figure out how to do it and it sort of talk to her and a couple of other people out of it who are listing it on the conversation who are actually very upset not just her, and so they realize that it wasn’t as easy as that is done and now she’s actually done that same exercise with other people when she’s trying to calm them down it’s just OK if we’re gonna do this how do we do it we don’t want to cause ourselves more problems and it works in our mutual share destruction is bullshit at this point it really is more about practically speaking how deadly really is a nuclear bomb ironically is almost like it’s not deadly enough and then there’s people left behind and there’s chaos and only a really gruesome awful person who is in charge would do that and then just be like oh I was just trying to kill myself because it’s like in the way don’t you just go kill yourself. If this is too much for you just go commit suicide you don’t have to start a nuclear war, but that’s not her that’s not Putin that’s not a lot of leaders in the world thankfully and so no just talking to logistics through is therapeutic for them and they’re like shit this isn’t gonna work we can’t even do it not really and be honorable so we’re doing our job, so it’s not. It’s not that they couldn’t find a specific location am, but it would have to be extraordinarily precise. It would have to be done with the utmost concern for symbolism, and everything will have to perfectly orchestrated so that’s not some thing that most people realize possibly, but it’s true I mean you could have a nuclear war, but the current leader ship in the illuminati if there is one of Lacey believe it or not she’s kind of a leader, so Lacey and Putin and North Korea. There’s a very intelligent business people who get on to get in on the conversation, handsome old military folks who like to chitchat to their their perspective isn’t old is scary it’s more just how does this work?” says the CIA.

“ lame is that like the opposite of Jack?” says the perfume community.

“ yes and actually I’m more like hurt myself. I’m sorry I helped prevent nuclear war. I don’t wanna have to say that too loudly because it’s sort of disturbing him to Lacey to process that but no I have sent you the war. It was partially my doing I was I had my own room in the White House and I’m a better leader than Jack so I am he caused the problem and I may have made phone calls or called him down and made phone calls as a sort of leader so forget to tell you the truth for a few minutes are for a few hours I may have become president for all intents and purposes and that was me, so am I like that not entirely, but I am more like her than he was, yeah she’s his opposite if there’s reincarnations she’s Scotia sincerely and so am I and food and actually do things quite a bit like her in the way that he perceives the world so that yeah there per perspective isn’t so much let’s avoid war it’s a war is expensive and exhausting. I don’t want to do it, but it’s very honorable and normal and fascinating so if we have to do it will but that’s not preferable how how do we how do we manage the situation for the optimum outcome? And yes, let’s talk about bombs and guns and land masses and history and try to figure out what’s really going on on the map so to speak because of his reincarnations sweeties he is Aleksey potentially, and he loves history. He loves the history of his country and they and their heads they could easily have several different globes and maps that they’re using and referencing as they’re both very intelligent and then they just flip through them and sort of converse and chitchat and it’s a very aristocratic very old-fashioned far more 1800s conversation than you might think if there’s reincarnations essentially yes the world is being run by people who are living in the 1800s in their head and let me tell you some thing that’s not as stupid and dysfunctional as you might think it’s actually very sane and rational and it isn’t the 20th century anymore so I don’t know what to say if there’s not reincarnation then that’s that is how they think to some degree but that’s not they’re not it’s not because of reincarnation but if there is reincarnation, there should be some reassurance and the fact that these people are not stupid or without understanding they’re not bourgeois hacks so to speak someone’s wanted me to say that’s true, and they very slow and methodical about how they analyze the entire thing which is also very old-fashioned. It isn’t just let’s go fast and we have things to do. It’s let’s enjoy ourselves in this horrific conversation.” says Lem.

“ hey how is that? Lame him that you ended up with Jack does the French and the Europeans want to take it in a different direction and maybe we should let them because they’re right they want to say this is where this is interesting the Europeans in this conversation psychically what would like to say how is it for Lacey and Putin and North Korea to to have this conversation with more middle-class American type people who are more about you know efficiency or something I don’t know where the fire is and what they’re writing off to but what is it like for them? Is there chaos? Is there a what is that like that’s the direction that Europeans want to take this in which actually is very beautiful interesting direction the Americans in the conversation what I talk about why you were friends with Jack.” says the CIA, rolling their eyes.

“ yes and this again Lacey is why I am pretty sure you cannot write things on this block anymore. I can see why you’d want to, but they really don’t seem to be able to get over it. “ says Grandpa Pantell.

“ I think I’m just angry because I cannot figure out how to handle these people it it’s it’s too much for my nervous system to handle I just I can’t handle it because it’s just everywhere. It’s like people are just constantly triggered by me and I don’t know what to do because it’s just it’s like putting out forest fires everywhere in peoples spirits and it’s really really unnerving, I mean I am I feel bad it’s like Nancy wasted thousands of dollars that poor woman I don’t mean for in a financial way but that poor woman wasted thousands of dollars buying paint to give herself a blue and white kitchen yeah and also she bought blue and white pottery and It’s liked it damn and I know she got that house and wasted all that money in the moving and she was so excited to have a house and she start breaking about it like I have a different lifestyle now that I have a house which is just a joke but it really meant something to her and then she spent thousands of dollars and I just think shit that is not the impact I want on humanity. That is not what I was trying to do, that is not what I’m trying to do and I have no fucking clue how to help people because I just walk into a fucking room and they start losing their shit.” says Lacey.

“ I meant I’m an old fashion, emo, tattoos kind of guy and I might not be as upsetting to some people like Nancy but I trigger lots of people myself just walking into a room. I’m far more prepared for it psychologically than you are because that’s kind of my thing, but I can imagine empathetically what it would be like to experience what I do without wanting to and that’s bad that’s that’s that’s shitty. Yeah that’s a shitty experience.” says an emo guy.

“ yes why it’s nice to have someone actually empathize with me for five seconds and have it be legitimate thank you and no I am sorry other people have to you. I’m sorry Anderson but no you’re right it’s an absolutely shitty experience it and yeah I experience because I’m not asking for it in any way I sort of loss of control because I’m not asking for it and I don’t know how to stop it I mean it’s just me it’s cute. If there’s pink carnation it could just be my spirit and there’s nothing I can do and it I just I show up and leave her just instantly triggered by me and there’s nothing I can do and I’m not gonna kill myself so I have no fucking clue what I’m supposed to do.” says Lacey.

“ before the illuminati decided to stupidly attack. It was the Persian war assholes that they are at this point in the United States at least did did you just how did you handle that? Did you just sort of lay low play cool try as hard as you could to sort of de-escalate every situation that you were ever in with anyone?” he says.

“ Yes and it’s a miserable life but I got used to it because I can’t be myself. I can never relax. I can never just be cool and not be uptight and controlled and incredibly concerned about every little fucking thing I do and say, but it worked to some degree but then I had people who are too jack ass stupid to handle the fact that I was so conscientious and so then they would be like why are you say OK? Why are you so difficult? Why are you so uptight? why don’t you just relax why is your guard always up and I’m just like fuck you fuck you in your middle class bourgeois, sheltered privilege you bitch!” says Lacey.

“ no, you’re absolutely right it is very privileged and sheltered and obtuse. They are like a rich person spiritually who is just like totally unaware of what an asshole they’re being.” he says.

“ yeah, which points to Christianity to be honest with you because if there is reincarnation lemon, I were unbelievably wealthy, and when we died our spirits possibly were very poor and away because life is that meaningful and that deep end so we were in a position of desperation, if there’s been carnation, yeah we were quite spiritually desperate and then, if there’s a incarnation, we came back trying to do our best. You know to deal with an awful situation, and we are being horrifically taken advantage of.” says Lacey

“ yeah but it’s also someone else’s mistake because it I don’t like it. I don’t think you’re supposed to be here. I think you’re right I think you and your kids are supposed to be slam and be on the other side just chilling out high if there’s rain carnation or maybe it’s just you’re you’re done you could just be done. I know that you think well I don’t want to think that highly of myself but you U2 could have just been done I think after this life at the very least you’re probably done if there’s been incarnation I can’t imagine God ever forcing you to come back and if it is being carnation, unselfish level, am I not sure what you said I might not even want you to come because I don’t I don’t know. I don’t know where you would have to be as a species to be able to handle you too coming back. It doesn’t seem like we can handle it very well.” he says.

“ yeah I know I feel bad I feel embarrassed and if there’s been Carnation, it’s very embarrassing. Let’s talk a little more about the spiritual poverty though because that actually is fascinating and it could be encouraging to people who are poor that when they die with Christ it’s not quite what they think. “ says Lacey.

He rolls his eyes.

“ no I know I am doing what I do de-escalating trying to make things happy but I actually do care about people and I actually think it could be somewhat pleasant for someone to talk about.” says Lacey.

“ you were thinking of buying a cheap hair outlet lab created $170 ruby from Helzberg diamonds your two ago that was sort of chunky and you said it be fun to wear out and then we didn’t talk about it because people were being too bourgeois and ignorant and narcissistic, and it reminded you of a ring that you could’ve had if there’s reincarnation from India mind beautifully and you were going to talk about it and we never talked about it and I just want to put on the record if there’s reincarnation stop fucking around stop fucking around and I’m saying that the US.” says Queen Camilla.

“ i’m not gonna let you babysit everyone constantly but to be honest I’m sure you’re right I’m sure it’s pretty simple ordinary Christianity where it’s like you guys are rich and then I cry says I’ll make everything level and so you die and he’s like guess what you’re fucked if you have a conscience if you care about other people if you care about your country you’re screwed and you’re like shit what are we do and if there’s reincarnation he was like listen. It’s cool I’ll send you back. Will figure something out you can help African people because that’s your travel spot that’s the travel spot that affects you and your family so what’s the deal with that and then you tried and you got totally screwed over speaking of which if that’s what happened lame did you lame did you have problems incarnating as well just for the record if there’s reincarnation?” he says.

“ they might not be reincarnation, but if there is yes, I got screwed over to you I wasn’t I love my family I do I have to love my family but it went very badly. How about that?” says Lem.

“ shit!” he says. “ how much is that? Was Jack’s doing?”

“ oh yeah if there’s rest of the problem is I don’t want you to think that there’s red carnation if there isn’t because it’s not spiritually safe for you about yeah that’s a thing. Theoretically, it would be about 90 almost 100% his fault he really stocked us sexually he was attracted to me whether there’s homosexuality in heaven or not he was attracted to me, incredibly jealous of her, because he was so attracted to me, but then he was also attracted to her and jealous of me, and he was jealous of our wealth, and he was jealous of my love for her. He was jealous of her love for me. He was jealous of a lot, and he felt totally victimized by the whole thing, and he was able to find a way to destroy our ability to redeem the situation on our own and that’s the thing there might not be reincarnation. This could be prove the logically that there isn’t, but if there is, God was trying to allow us to share in his glory by coming back, and, we were wholly sold on trying to be helpful and he was allowing us that and it just didn’t work out. How did Jackie get that sort of control of us be prepared for some charismatic answers probably through mistakes that were made either in our lives, or in the British empire, in relation to Japanese religion, in relation to a dollar tree in relation to actual cheating on the Christian faith, so to speak with with different religions, so it may not have been our mistake. If there’s reincarnations it might’ve just been a mistake of someone who had some authority over us, but oh, but it was it screwed us over whether it was us or not. We had to be honest there could’ve been things in our house that we should not have had morally weak. They have stolen them so to speak and it was an actual thievery, but in a sense it was, and so that could have allowed Jack’s spirit in to our house because we had something that was not morally taken, possibly from Japan, or somewhere else in Asia, and he had attached himself to that and that was how he saw us and how the whole thing happened.” says Lem.

“ I feel ashamed for him as a fellow human I feel very ashamed for him.” says a Malaysian.

“ yes and so do Lacey no regardless of whether or not, there’s reincarnation we feel incredibly embarrassed for him. And we’re not saying that in so narcissistic prideful way is actual secondhand embarrassment. That’s actual empathy and it’s awful as a fellow human it’s really a grim thing to watch.” says Lem.

“ you know Bobby this isn’t that embarrassing because it’s not your entire family winter had to have been your entire family and then that’s fine. There’s a little weird and your loyalty to each other. It gets a little carried away it’s not like we don’t want you to stand up for your uncle or your father but we feel like you guys are a little insane because you’re not the same people and you can you cannot literally sacrifice yourselves to like protect their image such an insane degree it it’s sick.” says the CIA.

“ but you know I mean what are you gonna do like you can’t stop people from being triggered constantly so you’re gonna have to find someway to just live with it I think.” says the guy to Lacey.

The Malaysian nods.

“ can I be honest I’m sorry that I typecast you as a lesbian is this being carnation I think for whatever sad reason we have it in our head that if you’re like a warrior and you’re a woman that you have to be a lesbian and I guess that could easily just be bullshit.” says an Asian.

“ it is an actually right now I would probably not be able to do what I did, but if there’s reincarnation, no, I’ve never been a lesbian that is not genetically or in any other way given those two things are not always together, they could be separated.” says Lacey.

“ you know I have to be honest Jack it’s a little funny I’m sorry hopefully we can handle hearing this on. It’s a little funny if there’s reincarnation it’s a little funny just how absolutely dysfunctional this whole thing is at this point you clearly are rejecting Christ and possibly trying to reject his salvation in purgatory which is bizarre but I guess it’s possible maybe him and I I just I find it hilarious because I’m sure God said not to do this, and it amazes me how hilariously dysfunctional it really would be if there’s reincarnation for her to be here right now. Um, what does that look like on the other side if there’s reincarnation, how off key is she like how bizarre is this? Just out of curiosity like how bad is this for us for her? How much of a disconnect psychotic melody are we making right now with her being here?” says Katie Couric.

“ yes I’m sorry Katie if there are aliens, they are laughing at us.” says the US military.

“ maybe not all of them, but there could be some if they exist.” says the CIA.

“ I would say, even if there’s not reincarnation given the nature of her heart towards God and the evil in the world and how dark it is, there’s a huge discord oh, and between where she is in her heart versus how some people feel about Christ or Thursday incarnation and it’s not understood properly I would say on the level of weird it’s like a 10. It’s about as weird as things can get.” says Grandpa Pantell.

“ how long has it been that bad?” she says.

“ I would say since she’s been about four or five.” says Grandpa Pantell.

“ how can you draw some visual picture Lacey using words of what it looks like?” says a psychic.

“ not today she’s been trying to draw this picture for a while and you keep it irrupt Ing her, so no but I’ll give you a quick estimation imagine JFK as the actual Feiga that he actually is and wise and yes I said fake it if there are crackers and Nager‘s, they are faggots and he’s a faggot. Imagine the character of Jack from will and grace, if he was horribly evil and disgustingly narcissistic. And came from a very old poverty we shall say no say it old poverty a very old poverty, Irish Catholic Boston background in the 20th century where it was not OK to be homosexual and so he is desperately trying to fake being straight and he’s a real jack ass that is not even ism. It’s a slang term for a loser and he is Very dysfunctional because in public, you know, he combs his hair, wears his suit and talks straight, lowers his voice, an octave and acts very much like rock Hudson did in his movies, except rock Hudson was possibly entirely gay so for some women it didn’t really quite work, but Jack was somewhat bisexual so he could pull it off, because yeah, he lower his voice sort of move his face into one of stiff, masculine regard Act like he was on the hunt for a woman and he was often, but he home he put that act onto that he was sort of a nice man, but watch out because he was a player. Oh boy oh boy boy! He’s gonna get you you get you spend five minutes with him in the bedroom and boy you’ll get pregnant from that viral hot straight man! Damn! No, he was ridiculous but the thing is he that’s not really who he was and yeah if you look at a photograph of him on a beach length, still look straight if you really study his body language, he still looks straight arm, but Jack has his hip out. He has his hand on his waist. He’s kind of sticking out his butt. He looks very gay. He looks flamingly gay. He looks family guy and that actually is who Jack was. He was a homosexual to some degree extraordinarily closeted I mean to a second-degree and if it’s not an F such a think it exist he he did it he may be in closeted perverse if if that’s possible,

But no, he was gay to a large degree, so imagine the homosexual you know loser who’s twirling yes, he is that flaming lite where he literally could have taken up ballet and really enjoyed himself. He loves that that movement at his hips and Fred Astaire moves like that, but he was not gay May have been bisexual. He may have been straight actually could’ve been pansexual, but Jack was mostly gay and so he’s more of the stereotype of the gay Twink or whatever who’s in the ballet but yes he likes to twirl so imagine Jack twirling you know look at me I’m twirling aren’t I pretty and that’s his real being or was so Jack is twirling and possibly sprinkling glitter everywhere he twirls trying to get a strobe light on himself and cameras to film him and yes, his grandson is like that he likes attention just like Jack why don’t we ever see that part of Jack’s personality, if Jack was straight The very physical the physicality of it is missing because Jack was closeted and he was constantly trying to imitate straight people so he never could let down his guard and act physically gay because he couldn’t act gay so his real person wanted to twirl so he did imagine Jack twirling around and around him, and leotards, sprinkling glitter, with a strobe light and cameras on him But the only reason he’s able to do that is because Satan is helping him Jack was warned by God not to do that to just go through purgatory. Do you know, improve himself and be OK but he chose evil instead and so he’s got lights camera action on him glitter a strobe light I mean it’s quite a show, but he’s doing this with the patronage of Satan himself.

Yeah, and the problem is that that’s not safe for him so in a sense he’s damning himself to a horrific experience that he can’t die out of I mean he’s already dead so there’s literally nothing remotely safe about what he did to himself, but that’s what he chose to do, which is a tragedy, but that’s what he chose him to and unfortunately it gets really sad because people encouraged him to who are alive. People literally egged him on instead of you know if there’s purgatory instead of praying for him and mass praying for grace for him. Praying for you know mercy praying for him to not go to hell, people prayed for him do not go to hell a like he was a rockstar and I mean some people probably cared, but a lot of people worshiped him and God can honor that even if there’s purgatory, especially if there’s purgatory, God can honor that God had honor that, so if people were just idolizing him, pretending to care about him, God might be able to honor as much as he can and their innocence but he couldn’t really necessarily help Jack if people were just worshiping him blindly in some vain, evil way, or in anywhere in any sort of evil way, so so Jack’s twirling around and Satan is the one who allowed him to and then you guys are just egging him on clapping saying go on Jack show us more and it’s really not a good idea I mean it’s really not safe for anybody more for him than you in a way, but that’s part of us happening and then Lacey meanwhile is his captive audience because he has her tied up in a chair she’s not able to do almost anything, but just sit there and watch him know he keeps trying to get her just sort of give up Lem’s and give up her self and let him be her, and then he imagines that somehow he’ll get lame and then, and then he’ll get rid of them because I guess he wants lamb as long as Lacey wants them but then when Lacey stops wanting them because she ceases to exist, then he’s going to somehow get rid of lime and go be with someone more impressive. Who could be more impressive than the emperor of the Holy Roman Empire not many people but the part of Lem’s if there’s reincarnation totally rejected, Jack actually the part of lamb that was British rejected him as well the only part that he’s ever even knowing all that much as a person, I don’t mean sexually I mean no one like he knows him is one Billings. He never met emperor Constantine. He never met the British person because he was never loud and loud in sub that part of lambs mind lab never let him in that deep in that way him he just didn’t. He wasn’t able to date they let’s just put it this way if Jack had the narcissist eventually, he would’ve seen those parts of one’s personality if they exist, but Jack was a horrible narcissist, and so he never got to know that part of him or Jack was horrible narcissist so not lab so if I have said that, but then anyway, so no, he never really knew that if that if there’s reincarnated, and he never really knew that part of life, he never really never never really met that part of it most at all.” says Grandpa Pantell. “ but then, if you’re ever in Carnation, you have Scotia stock here, tied up in a chair, commanding Egypt to attack people on her behalf, because her whole life she’s been trying to escape, and you have unwittingly been helping him and eating in a bedding him, and it got way worse so to speak after the illuminati decided to attack her for offending Diego and then yeah I mean no it’s probably the end of the world potentially because yes, she is literally stuck here. She’s being carnation. She’s literally stuck. There’s nothing she can do. She can’t kill her self. You can’t kill her inappropriately you’re in a bind it is reincarnation the matrix is fried will say because we continue to exist after we die so if you killed her, he would screw you over and if you’re insane or if there’s something wrong with you God may be trying to protect you from yourself because he doesn’t want you there might not be karma but if there’s some thing like that in Christianity, he doesn’t want that on your back because it’s not fair you don’t you’re an away, you’re innocent, even if you’re evil and insane to some degree because that’s you have your own story and you’re sort of being roped into something that has almost nothing to do with you in a way and it’s totally unfair and so you can’t allow people to make the dumb decision of killing her because it’s not I mean the illuminati tried killing her and we’re not doing very well, and Ivana is dead after she fell down the stairs, Yvonne, it fell down her stairs, and died I mean it’s bad she’s all on one level she’s defending herself, but that on another level there’s also this like spiritual almost like deep impact thing going on where it’s really shitty and stupid to attack her but Jack has everyone doing that because of what he is and the fact that there’s really, I mean it’s like PF Cesar whatever they are in the water It’s very hard to get it out. It’s very hard to get out peoples admiration for him because he’s so popular in America is so powerful when he was that it’s just like how do you get rid of that in society it’s everywhere arm and yes the DNC made it worse. No shit but this last election this election rather but no I mean it’s a disaster is a total disaster, so there you go that’s what’s happening one way or another that’s basically what’s happening.” says Grandpa Pantell.

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“ what did you actually want to say to me that you never said?” says Nancy.

“When?” says Lem.

“When I bought my house.” she says.

“You didn’t buy a house, Nancy. That’s insane!” says Lacey.

“ you actually wanted to say that to my face you say things on your blog, and some people have made up stupid excuses that you would never say these things to peoples faces and then I think that’s dumb. I think you actually maybe would but you don’t want to be hurtful to us and you also can’t I think if you saw us in person you would probably scream bloody murder at us and tell us off some of us might even want to kill ourselves. If we realized how shitty we are as people and yeah that’s probably some thing that would prevent you from doing it because you have compassion and a conscience and you care about people and you’re smart, but stop thinking that this woman if she was really allowed to be herself, would be quite so sweet and such a stupid way that’s not real.” says Nancy. “ I’m being pedantic to me renting a house is a form of buying it because you’re paying but I’m also been dishonest and trying seem like I bought a house and full of people into thinking that I’m wealthier than I am because it’s like it sounds better because it implies that I actually out right out right you know purchase a house with a mortgage but still you’re right it’s not the same thing as renting it and owning it so yeah that’s a lie you’re right I’m not necessarily delusional, but I do lie sometimes to make myself seem more ad mirable than I am.”

“ OK yeah you did you lied.” says Lacey. She waits.

“ what else did you want to say though?” she says.

“ you can’t afford to rent a house that you can’t buy what you’re doing financially is a horrific mistake you’re going to regret it and I’m mad for you I’m mad at you.” says Lacey.

“ yes, mommy I do make bad financial decisions. How about that as a come back.” she says.

“ I know that’s why I didn’t say that because I’m not your mother or your grandmother, but it really worried me it was very upsetting. I thought there’s no fucking way she can actually for this she’s putting herself and a terrible position.” says Lacey.

“ yeah, I was.” she says.

“ and you did that to yourself just to screw me over you really hate me that much you really want to see me burn that badly that you’ll fuck yourself over and your family for yours that’s disgusting!” yells Lacey.

She looks sad.

“ I like you to some degree you could have just backed off and let yourself live. You had to pick a fight with me. You had to put me in my place. What the fuck did I ever do to you?!?” yells Lacey.

“ I actually 100% support and agree with what she saying it is kind of psychotic Nancy you barely knew her why the hell did you go to such extents to try to what what is your point like what? What is your argument? What are you trying to prove to her?” says Anderson Cooper.

“ everyone knows sweetie that you’re not that well off you knows you cause it’s obvious I think people thought you were possibly middle-class but you seem sort of weird to people now and I’m not saying because of his blog I’m saying people in general I think think you could be a little strange because you are still obsessed in your head with her eye I don’t understand it why are you fixated on her? It’s weird and it’s not just you it’s a lot of people and yeah ring carnation does someone explain it because she could have a spiritual weight with her that is in Normas and it’s very overwhelming to people and it almost sounds them until like a spiritual state of light shock like that they’re not capable of processing, but they’re experiencing it’s like who the fuck is this woman I’m terrified of her and then you think that must be insane. I must be losing my mind or she must be evil that can’t possibly just be the reality of who she is and this is really fucking creepy because people want things to be normal. They want things to be middle-class and they can’t handle the weirdness of the situation possibly but then the problem is Nancy. If it’s that there’s I mean what the fuck are we supposed to do the Catholic Church is looking into it. There are some theologians in the illuminati, who really genuinely are looking into It, and not for her sake, but just for the sake of him so much for her sake, but for the sake of the situation south, because It’s is a mess and so some of them are wondering if it’s possible maybe not likely, but not totally unlikely and in that case oh, what’s going on and if it is reincarnation yeah, you’re a victim to unfortunately because for some reason it was that shocking to you to experience her I don’t think I think you’re a narcissist by also think there’s something more to it than that and I think that you literally like psychologically couldn’t process what you were experiencing with her.” says the CIA.

“ yeah I am I’m not I mean 88 it’s like she’s living this vaguely middle-class lifestyle and I think in my head I would think someone like her would be in a castle or somewhere very remote and elite. I would never expect to run into her on Instagram and that could be my mistake but then it probably is to some degree which is probably why she was trying to say my family is upper class old money and we’re really like humble and we’re farm people even though we’re not farm people but it’s if she’s reincarnated it’s scarier than that and it doesn’t fully account for how creepy it is talk to her and so it I think we have a hard time placing her it’s like this woman cannot possibly be who I think she is and if she is holy cow, what the hell is going on!?” says Nancy.

“ yeah if there’s been carnation Nancy, you could be somewhat psychic in someway and or spiritually aware more than some people, and it may have really jarred you.” says Anderson.

“ oh yeah, I think it charged me too.” says Casi. “ I am a because I’m not in a position like that in this life of theirs being carnation and B because some part of me relayed it to her and I got totally paranoid. It look look if I have an opiate addiction if there’s reincarnation, I somehow knew that she had had one in the 1800s so I made a dig at her and said we could shoot up together in the 1800s I literally did that on and then she was like I don’t know what the hell you’re talking about because that’s not quite what happened it wasn’t like she used drugs. She literally had a horrific travel experience and away, which is not what I was doing or I am doing, but at the same time I don’t think she was judging me at all like I don’t think she was really judging me. I think she was Debbie judging me in a way, but like more out of concern then I took it in this paranoid, crazy way and decided to try to put her in her place and the problem is that it was just stupid because it really is comparing apples to oranges and yeah it was the dumbest reaction. It’s like I should’ve been just like you know how addictive it is what’s your problem then but then she’ll be like what the fuck are you talking about horse and I’ll be like you know you know how bad it is and she probably would’ve looked at me like what are you talking about? It’s like OK and then because if there’s reincarnation I don’t entirely know I I couldn’t say Lacey come on the 1800s remember because if I said that she probably would’ve talk to me about it and then like oh yeah OK what and then I would’ve been like oh OK so you do understand and she’s been like yeah but what are you talking about and then I would’ve been like I am paranoid that you’re thinking I’m a freak and she’s like what the hell and then I will be like OK shit I have a problem because I am Laura class right now Lacey I really am I am I am lower middle lower class and a licious but this way if I’m reincarnated I remember what it’s like to be you do you have some other Mr. Craddick family to be from aristocrat or family to be aristocratic which is just who you are and I remember that I do and then I’m remembering how people were and how judgmental they were and I’m just like I know what you’re thinking. I know what you’re thinking. It’s kind of like blue Jasmine except I am Jasmine and I’m just like I know what you’re thinking Veronica I see you when she’s in the shoe store. I see you and Lacey’s like I don’t know what you’re talking about? I’m not thinking anything in. This is weird because I’m not putting his ring carnation. Yeah I came to his life for some reason I don’t know but I don’t think it was a mistake. I think I chose this to some degree for some purpose if there’s if they’re in it, it’s obviously Christianity to me too most the time but I don’t think I made a mistake. I think I was supposed to experience my life and God has given me a Normas amount of grace and quite a few blessings actually but I don’t think that she was supposed to be here and it’s sad because she just triggered me and I was just like what the hell do you wanna fight and she wasn’t even upset at all and it was just really disconcerting to me and I don’t know I just feel bad because yeah I just like jump daughter if there’s reincarnation, I just jumped out or out of paranoia.” says Casi.

“ this is getting awkward I just feel like it’s awkward but at the same time I think it already was awkward and Jack has been twirling and dancing to try to distract us from how awkward it is.” says a man.

Later.

“What the HELL is this!?” yells Buckingham Palace at Jack Kennedy.

“ it’s just that I’m not straight and I’m in love with Lem’s and I lie about it. OK I’m in the closet.” says Bobby.

“ you barely knew him as an adult at all.” says the CIA.

“ you know, I have an amazing ability to perceive people that transcends those kinds of things.” says Bobby.

“ not really, though because you were high all the time for the most part and then you, and then he died. I honestly can’t figure out why you don’t get it you’re kind of stupid you barely knew this man.” says the CIA.

“ no he was the best friend I’ve ever had!” yells Bobby.

“ Bobby, did you ever kiss? Did you ever hold hands to anything even happen with him?” says the CIA.

“ you put me through lie detector’s house and the truth serum and you know that the answer is no no nothing ever happened but that’s not the reality of the situation you guys!” whines Bobby.

“ then what the fuck is the reality of the situation Bobby ?” says Casi.

“ oh OK oh my God!” says Bobby.

“ Bobby, I don’t think he was really interested in you and I think you were told stuff and you imagined that it was true and now you’ve forced everyone to believe it through the illuminati.” says the CIA.

“ OK fine that’s possible theoretically and I have to say that for my own self defense if that’s true it’s because we come from a different background and a lot of you and we get fixated on things like that. OK my family is a little white trash and we get fixated on weird shit there’s been stockers in my family my own brother was a stocker of a 14-year-old girl OK and I routinely pay people off not to talk about it whenever I do anything public. We have that problem in my family of being a little mentally ill frankly and maybe that’s what’s going on. My legal counsel has advised me to admit that I may be a little touched.” says Bobby.

“ yeah but then, if that’s true, you have the entirety of the illuminati using witchcraft to try to convince everyone that Lem was in love with you and that it’s fact.” says the CIA.

“yeah I mean that’s true but why can’t why can’t we just do that why can’t we just do that?” says Bobby.

“ Because it’s not real Bobby that’s not reality!” yells a ghost.

“ I understand that that’s the premise of our understanding of reality that it is like reality but I like to imagine that we can alter the universe through thoughts so if I want to sort of maintain the premise that nothing happened between us, but that if we kept seeing each other, it would have eventually I don’t see why that’s a bad thing.” says Bobby.

“ oh, so you were in compromising positions with him physically from 14 to 20 something repeatedly where he could’ve tried some thing with you and he never did and then when were you imagining some thing would happen if he hadn’t died?” says the CIA.

“ I am can you say how silly the gay community looks right now Bobby’s in the closet Jack was in the closet and Lem’s easily might not have been. He might’ve just been confused and their victim. I’m just I’m just trying to figure out what the hell is happening right now because I feel bad for Lacey cause I have a feeling she’s trying to keep everyone in the straighten arrow. It’s really impossible. Oh dear God help us as she might say and actually mean it right I’m sincerely oh fuck oh fuck you fuck I don’t think the gay community wants to admit that narcissists are in their community because I think it’s embarrassing to admit that when your any community Christians don’t like that and I mean, no one likes to admit that there’s a weird psychotic narcissist in your Community, that’s not a good luck and I think they try to take the white wash that they being like. Oh we don’t know if if they’re gay we think one was for sure that was for sure gay but you know it’s possible that they were too I don’t know but I am sure Bob was I think that’s why they can’t let go of lame because then they have to change the narrative and it’s really bad for their optics so they’re just like shit will have to admit that they’re freaky people who are narcissistic who are gay and that’s awkward because then how do they use those people to try to bring awareness or familiarity of their community or something or even like us a status symbol it’s like yeah we were in the White House during the Kennedy administration and then this is what Lacey probably loses her shit and is like what the fuck is wrong with you people you’re idiots and I’m sorry Lacey they may be kind of stupid and bourgeois because she’s right there are probably many US presidents who at least bisexual and if you people put that much effort into trying to find them and make them a big deal as you have with Jack and lamb you wouldn’t have to worry about this right now I mean what about what about Lincoln? He supposedly was bisexual why the hell have you just let that slide under the radar? He is not problematic he is problematic but he’s not that problematic and he’s actually so much prestigious in his own way considering that he married someone who has a little money I mean he’s Lincoln he is Lincoln come on, do you wanna debate the Civil War OK but still it’s sort of impressive why did you just fuck that up because that was so much safer out of respect for his wife fine then you could say because they’re the low points in their marriage where he cheated on her frankly, and maybe sometimes it was with men could you say I guess maybe at times before he met her he had boyfriends yeah, you could’ve said that or is it just that he was bisexual so that bothers you and that’s a whole other can of worms but I just feel like you could’ve tried with him a little more and then like he was bisexual and I mean I think he had a pretty happy marriage. She was very in love with him so I’m betting that they were pretty happy but I think there were men on occasion who he had relationships with and I am I know life is life they must’ve just never worked out, but I’m a be interesting to know who they were and what that was like for him as a obviously closeted man in the 1860s I mean that was the what was the closet like back then you know because he might’ve actually been permitted to engage in some activity in the right places with certain parts of society, so is that part of that you don’t want to be open about the fact that it’s middle class people who primarily are Heuvel or what is it? What are you covering up?” says a Democratic female voter.

“ no I agree with her. It is a little suspicious. It could be an optics issue it could be laziness. It could actually be a lack of understanding of history, and then they’re embarrassed by the fact that they’re not the intellectual experts that they pretend to be at times, I mean I’ve been hurt by plenty of gay men that I’ve dated and, no not all gay men are are saints that’s a little archaic I mean, at least understand sometimes lies are told in self-defense, but if we’re beyond that, and hopefully we are to some degree maybe we can start to admit that we’re not like demigods just because we’re gay.” says Anderson Cooper.

“ call me onus is a mostly straight guy am I have had a problem my old male, my whole life with gay men coming onto me I’m pretty attractive and I prefer women at the very least and it’s really irritating. You guys are really honestly really aggravating to deal with at times I think you like to think that you’re always the victim but at times you guys actually are the perpetrators and you really do go to far with the flirting and the aggression it actually really is abrasive him I feel, unfortunately like I could, I said understand fortunately, for a reason, I thought, unfortunately, like I could have a conversation with Anderson Cooper if his blog is real and get along with him and be totally relaxed as a man and not the slightest bit worried he was gonna come on to me, never worried about that. I would never worry about him. I would just think he’s another man who happens to not be straight and it wouldn’t be awkward almost at all possibly if it all why doesn’t that concern you guys more as a community I am Lacey’s well I’m her cousin through marriage but that’s worrying to me because if there’s someone reading this blog no it’s very concerning because why is that? Why is he so exceptionally normal from my perspective it does and I’m listening to this in my spirit possibly or reading it at some point and it is a little weird because I don’t think Anderson if he was you know the leader of the gay rights movement I don’t think, I don’t think they would’ve focused on Jack and lamb possibly at all. I don’t think he would’ve thought that was actually even all that interesting. I think he would’ve thought some thing else was that actually might be more interesting to me just as a reader, and a hopeful, but somewhat intellectual person and I I feel angry as a voter I thought angry is American that to be blunt the Bergeron middle class runs the gay rights movement why are you people so backward? Why why are you people so violently antagonistic towards people like me I’m not hateful I care about poor people. We donate we try to humble, and her family were very humble. Maybe to humble and then these Bergeron assholes come along and try to destroy us just to do right by more love bracelets or something I mean what the fuck do you think being aristocrat is about just looking pretty and taking exclusive vacations on it in the yard or of a kite in a flying car I mean my God, I feel bad for Jeff Bezos. I think he’s probably a hard-working genius but I don’t understand why the fuck you people take yourself so god damn seriously.” says Lacey’s cousin.

“ I agree with you on I think I would be threatening to you though how about that for some perspective I think if I was at the table with you, you’d be scared of me and you start attacking me.” says Tsar Putin.

“ that could be true, but if there’s reincarnation, I have been exposed to people like you through Lacey.” he says.

“ true confession in the Baz Luhrmann great Gatsby, Tom is based loosely off of this man. This cousin of hers is dark somewhat tall and very handsome, and his personality is so much similar to this individual. I’m not saying her cousin is a jerk who cheats on his wife, but there could be someone who got inspiration for the character of Tom from this man so that’s who you’re talking to just so you know.” says Scott Fitzgerald.

“ yes but you still start attacking me so answer your own question why do you do that?” says Tsar Putin.

A gay man starts crying. “ I wish you were just stars are right now.” he says.

“ well, my people like me quite a bit too. That’s why they’re willing to fight for me, but you need to answer the question.” says Tsar Putin.

“ OK so clearly, we have not been relating to him appropriately, and the CIA is now taking notes and realizing what they’re doing wrong.” says the CIA.

“ I am OK but I feel like I can’t relate to them because I’m actually genuinely scared of you. That’s part of why I asked the way do you actually scared me.” says her cousin.

“ and you don’t think that they’re that aware of the situation enough to be wise enough in a sentence to be scared?” says Putin.

He nods.

“ yeah and honestly I think that’s what I find so upsetting you know what else is different I would never go to far with you and I know that I have somewhat of an ego problem in relation to you. I can sense it but I’m not dumb enough or uneducated enough. I’m sorry if that’s crass to think that I can keep challenging you I know that that’s very foolish and I’m far better off just trying to be at peace with you which is what Christ calls us to do anyway and so I think why can’t I just get along with this man he’s not really a problem and it’s not hard. Haven’t had to have him at my table and maybe we could even be friends and then I’d back off and try to sort of get along with you.” says her cousin.

“ yeah do you think part of that though is that I’m at your table or not?” says Tsar Putin.

“ yeah probably and in to a certain degree I realize that that’s the level of prestige that I’ll probably be able to accomplish, and that it’s absurd to expect myself to do more than that.” he says.

“ and you know maybe I meant I might not be held where you think I am with that because what does that mean you know your limits and you respect them and in a sense being who I am you’ve reached your limit just being potentially related to me, even theoretically, you’ve reached your limit of what you’re able to accomplish in that way but I do I wonder how they reached their limit do they understand their limits? Do they even know what that is? And I kind of think that’s part of a bothers Lacey is that she feels like they don’t know that they have limits that there’s certain things that they can’t really do and that they have to somehow let themselves be in a way and quit picking at the situation.” says Tsar Putin.

“ do you know that’s interesting has a hopeful intellectual in the bourgeois upper middle class of the illuminati and gay I think it’s interesting because I think a part of the problem is that in America we were told that we could do whatever we wanted. We could be president. If you want it, we could do whatever we want Growing up in America. You hear that all the time you can do whatever you want you whatever you want to be and I think that’s a good Max message but it’s problematic because it’s not really entirely reality and so some of that be whatever you want to be is just bullshit and it’s kind of tongue-in-cheek and people have always known that that it’s true but it’s also not true That it’s like it’s reality but not really but I think people nowadays have a hard time understanding that and then they’re more demanding that it be 100% unequivocally scientifically absolutely true. And then Chris Hayes has that problem. I mean his whole book series is about that practically of why aren’t we all the same he should just write a series and then say that there’s installments and that should just be why aren’t we all the same by Chris L Hayes. Oh for the real Isn’t we’re not we’re not all the same maybe that’s scary to someone like him but it’s really not scary. It just means that you can’t control everything around you. You know you have to be alive and scary.

Him so I think part of the problem is that we have that in her head so we can just do it or we want it’ll all work out somehow if we try hard enough and it’s may be a little insane and so it’s like yeah there’s some truth to that in America but it’s navy not white is like factually 100% constantly true as we demand that it be. And I think that’s become psychotic in relation to her.

I’m in relation to class two in this country and a lot of other things that you know people can’t accept that not everything is a fairytale.

And then as I say that I can just hear in my spirit that people like hold on hold on and it’s true we don’t want to lose the American dream. We don’t want to give up on the promise of a quality but then how do you balance that was actual reality so it’s like yeah OK we want to make things more equal and end good and put in and wholly maybe but um, then we have to live in the reality that that’s not where we are right now and that’s not quite how things work, and so trying to cheat the system or change the system in some toxic way is unsafe.

I am really just better off, taking it slowly and unpacking it. You know carefully amongst ourselves, so to speak. I ate I think I am I’m sorry that our community comes onto you so much it’s disturbing. Maybe they were not more respectful to you and I’m saying that to her cousin I mean obviously if you’re not 100% straight they can sense that sometimes but I get the sense that it’s offensive and that you’re not quite that simplistic of a person so it’s probably far more likely that we actually are offensive you know like if we can yeah it’s like it’s suspicious to you like why would we not be able to pick up on the fact that I was straight But then we somehow know that you’re slightly homosexual when it’s probably not at all obvious. Yeah, it’s it’s stings of hypocrisy and deceit on our part. him and that’s probably why we had yeah it Invesco scenario that’s part of how we really needed the street community over the decades over the centuries because we do go after weird people to go after work claim in her case weird people as our own when maybe they’re really not. I think we have to be more realistic but then also yeah we just need to more realistic about where we are as a community. What it means that it’s not just a free ticket into the opera class it’s being gay isn’t some secret way to be posh that’s sad because I think so people think it is and it’s not It’s really not and it’s clearly a toxic issue in our community where a lot of gay people do they think that being gay gives them the greenlight carp launch to be 100% and he leaves in someway aesthetically or culturally and that’s very stupid and toxic because you can’t circumvent your background just by using the fact that You’re gay I mean there could be a tendency towards wealth frankly in the homosexual community because we’re men and traditionally we haven’t had the burden of bearing children but that’s changing and it’s funny over the years. I used to see gay pride flags and I used to think oh that’s a nice house whoever lives there is probably middle-class at the very least and so you’d see gay pride flags in poor communities and you think oh this community is looking up the gays are moving in so that house is gonna look so much better and this community is promising But that’s not the case anymore. There are so many gay pride flags that I see and they’re beaten up and worn down and the house is looking shitty in the neighborhood never picked up and I’m just like you know what that’s because we’re not that elite we’re men and we’re not straight we’re not just magical lead people. And you know it’s not like oh you know we can give ourselves marriage can give ourselves children and then that won’t affect us at all you know because children are so cheap and marriage is so stress-free, and that won’t weigh on the financial status of the community at all, and being sarcastic. No do we want a miserable life like Glenn Billings that shallow or do we want to settle down have kids and be happy you know start working in our community bring her kids to school retire with her husband and go to a kids wedding help pay for it I mean that is expensive And that’s life and that’s what we wanted. We wanted a happy, authentic real life. We didn’t want some thing, shallow and cheap and sad because we’re actual gay people we’re not you know what confuse straight man who was wondering what the Hells going on in his life like lame we’re actual homosexual‘s and so we’ve gotten that now we’ve got marriage. We’ve gotten to have kids and be open but then again I’m reiterating we’ve lost some prestige I think in reality Because it’s expensive those things are expensive.

So I think that’s for some gay people have to sort of grow up and realize that being gay is not a status symbol it’s not just like oh I’m gay ipso facto check out my handbag collection it’s going to obviously be impressive know it might not be because if you have two kids and you’re sending both of them to Harvard in your best estimation and that’s fucking expensive. I mean do you have any idea how expensive that is having children is like $1 million prospect it’s very expensive so forget your handbag collection forgot your vacations to the Hamptons with your special friend who lives with you you have a husband now, sweetie and two kids in a mortgage Do we want that or not?

A lot of us did a lot of us are that deep, and we were that sincere and our experience as homosexuals and we aren’t able to keep pretending like we want these dumb as fuck lives. Him and that’s the thing that’s where her cousins right what are our limits? I know as a man who has a stable career and a husband and at least one child possibly oh no I’m not be put a judge. I think maybe lamb was straight and I think maybe he really was that confused and miserable and as a straight head I hope I’m not being condescending if I say oh my word that man is confused, but when I read his words from my perspective, I think why is he asking this question why is he even asking this? Yes it’s like what would it make me have your life but then why doesn’t he just say what would’ve made me a have your life being Jack Kennedy‘s best friend having the best friend anyone’s ever asked for Having it exciting and being able to witness history firsthand, he did say that to some degree but I feel like it wasn’t thrilling enough the way that he said it being able to witness history firsthand. I know how you would wear that but something like that, having my own room in the White House And being a part of a family that the season that’s why I’m like what the fuck is he thinking because it doesn’t sound like much to be honest with you. We all have friends and some temporary Rome. Yeah it is like what else did you have buddy? I know that maybe he could’ve brought up the family or he could’ve brought up some thing else that’s impressive because there is some thing about the way that that sounds where it’s like I was this and that is like oh that’s nice OK you and then he’s like we’re being settle down and married and living somewhere I know that sounds awful. It’s like having a life being settled down and living somewhere and being normal or having this like temporary room in the White House and being his friend I mean that’s pretty shitty think about it.

So I’m like why are we even posing at this way like you should just say I was happy my life wasn’t with some people who choose but I was happy and people have said things like that who lived gay lives. People have said stuff like that it wasn’t what everyone would choose for themselves, but I was happy I I was happy. Why couldn’t he have just said that I was happy why is he even arguing with us, it’s weird. Him and I think you could see what he’s arguing with and why are you just like oh he’s arguing he’s arguing because people in his family said he should be doing it well that’s a red flag. Why did they say that and they’re still in his head and they’re bothering him so much and making him question himself that he is now arguing with them in public in his head? That’s weird!

So maybe that is a red flag maybe it’s weird that he was arguing about that it’s like why don’t why are you going with his buddy? This isn’t sound promising him know it was eating that’s where from my perspective I’m like why did he just say I’m happy I let it unusual life. He could have said that there’s no rule against it. He could’ve just said I let it on usual life and I was happy. I just left her that you could’ve said jacket and you make made a big difference in my life because of him it was love never lonely he may have been the reason I never got married And then left at that or if he was trying to make some great case or something he could’ve said oh Jack Kennedy made a big difference in my life because of him I was never lonely I mean I could have had a wife and family are but instead I had the best friend that anyone could ever want I got my own room in the White House. I got to be with jackfruit from, but it’s some of the most impressive amazing moments in his administration or however, you were that and I got to spend my time I’m in the midst of arguably one of America’s most historically important families I mean you could’ve said something like that why does he posing the question? Why is it why is the arguing but he wouldn’t have had to.

And you could say well, he’s trying to argue on behalf of homosexual gay rights. Are you know that’s one interpretation but to be honest with you the tone is a little off the fact that he says I mean I could’ve gotten married but what the hell that’s it that’s not That’s not actually normal the cadence is off. It really is Bobby I think in a lot of other think people think that somehow Lacey doesn’t know literary understand of that she doesn’t understand literary devices well enough and that’s bullshit just because you know how to sound posh in the 20th century doesn’t mean that you actually are all that aware on a literary level And there could be some people who are a little stupid and conceited and think that there’s something they can read there that they’re not actually all that aware of no I’m serious. I’m not an idiot I’m in the illuminati for a reason and I think there’s authors and people like Bobby, who think that they know so fucking much about what I meant and they really don’t.

And then there’s people over the world you’re bored, intelligent than you I don’t like Dr. Moritz who probably know that what she saying is possible that it’s not quite as simplistic as you want it to be. You can’t force your perspective and your narrative that you like and what you read, you have to let the things speak to you in enough itself. Yeah, you know if you’re taking yourself seriously as an intellectual or as a person you can’t just force your own narrative on the script, so to speak.

So based on that and based on my perspective, no I don’t think that lamb was necessarily homosexual. He might’ve been bisexual, but I kind of doubt it. I have a feeling he was probably straight and confused, and I just don’t understand why he kept meandering in that speech of his I mean it was it was rambling. It’s like you’re going on and on and on buddy and you’re starting to make me wonder if you really have a fucking clue what you’re talking about.

Like why are we arguing with someone in our head? Why are you arguing with me because you never even came out of the closet, so what are we doing were used? Was he trying to come out of the closet? Why are we doing it in this way because it’s like why are you asking me which is better and why are you frame it it framing it in this way where it’s like is it this or would it be being settle down and married and living somewhere as a gay man my red flags go up and I’m like is this person an ally or not Because settle down is not a negative thing necessarily married is not and neither is living somewhere. I mean, it actually really almost sounds antagonistic to homosexuals, and I don’t know why Princeton University didn’t realize that.

It’s embarrassing to the 21st 20th late 20th century it really is because here’s the thing little Lacey part of the reason I take this so seriously is because she actually is certifiably almost a genius if not a literal genius when it comes to what reading comprehension that’s a fact She has an IQ that at the time and still is considered basically a genius like a literal scientific genius when it comes to literary understanding.

And I am maybe not quite that smart, but I’m in the illuminati because of hard work and determination, so speak how many people who’ve interpreted that in the media, and at Princeton are not nearly as genuinely physically intelligent as her quite a few probably I would, but most people who’ve interpreted over the years even Sally Vidal Smith are not genuinely as genius as she is her IQ is unusual, and I don’t think most of you are frankly that intelligent.

Him so I think that’s part of the disconnect and that’s another topic in her writing. She’s a literary genius literally so people should probably be a little more humble when they’re talking to her because she’s not normal in that way and I don’t think you guys got it you’re not her equal a lot of you are really literally not as intelligent as her and so when you read what she writes, you may very well have no fucking clue what she means and you need to just accept that and stop blustering and being narcissistic. Him and you know on her part. I’m sorry she’s dirty. I’m sorry she wasn’t loved. I’m sorry I didn’t raise her. I’m sorry she has no idea that she’s unusual and that she can’t just assume that when she says something people just automatically know what she means it away is sort of like being stupid like you kind of have to learn that people really don’t just know what you mean if it’s either too stupid or too smart most people won’t follow what you’re saying if it’s to one or the other. And I think a lot of you do feel very narcissistically triggered by her because she’s beautiful. She’s a nice family and she’s a sweetheart so it’s like I’m not getting with this woman saying to me right now so I think I’m just gonna assume that she’s stupid and not smart because that’s a lot more comforting.

But I’m sorry I hate to break Isaiah. It’s not that she’s unusually intelligent, so I’ll probably just have to sort of chill and try to figure out what the hell she saying. I know she said she’s basically a genius. Actually, I think she probably has one, but and geniuses are not as common as you think and she actually is one most likely.

Putin probably has to him ha ha and then yeah I guess what so if there’s reincarnation that’s possibly another reason why she shouldn’t be here and it was a Woopsie but she’s here now you know but maybe her level of intelligence combine with the absurdity of what she knows about everything it’s just really weird because we’re not expecting that she’s not expecting us. This is a really Bizarre experience.

Oh no quickly getting back to them for real I I genuinely think he could be straight because it actually is creepy how he goes on and on and on and then leaves us with what would it well I mean think about it how would you how would you interpret? If I said that would it be better for me to have settle down? Yeah I’m making a little crazy not my husband. Rick and I were married for 30 years and was it best I mean I could’ve you know gone and decided to be a professional dancer on Broadway what the hell everything yeah I’m gonna be. I’m gonna reiterate that because you need to hear it you’re not hearing it.

I know Rick made a big difference in my life. Thanks to him. I have a house to kids and a really damn good retirement and being a little silly. No that doesn’t work I’ll have to start over.

And Rick and I were married for 30 years you know he made a very big difference in my life because of wreck I can know retire as one of the wealthiest man in New York City. And I mean I could’ve been a professional dancer on Broadway but what the hell. What would’ve made me a happier life to be settle down and married and stable with two kids, and a home in the Hamptons, or to be free and poor and an artist?” he says.

“ oh yeah, you’re right it is weird how he words it.” admits a gay actor.

“ yeah because why is he arguing? It’s just part of it is just in there’s a lot of other evidence frankly to suggest that he was not gay. It really is him and it’s weird to me that historians have ignored that but just just on it like on my you know in my little world from my perspective it’s weird because I would never worded that wait why is he arguing with us? It is weird.

I mean, there’s other other ways to say it to that I’ll try again. I’ll say it because you’re gonna say oh he was fighting for the gay rights. OK then I’ll make it I’m saying super controversial about that.

Do you know I was incredibly lucky to be born in American because of my country I was given a free education I worked my way up the middle class to being one of the wealthiest man in New York City. And there’s incredible amount of dignity and merit in the concept of America. I mean at the same time I did have a chance when I was in my 20s to go live as a photographer in India, but what thr Hell? What would’ve made me a better life being a philanthropist, a leader in my community, contributing to the world, and making myself no one, leaving behind a legacy for people to follow and be inspired by, or being on a lifelong adventure, eating exotic food, and capturing India on film?” he says.

“ OK we have a problem in the gay community. Because you’re right and it’s a little weird that we’ve never picked up on the possible cadence of what he saying and that it’s like it sounds such as sounds like such an affirmation but there is something a little off about it and you can’t just ignore that when you really can’t, it’s like yeah it sounds like he could use me on a totally superficial take it as it comes he saying it’s a good thing, but then a part a few Lee is left with a sinking feeling that he’s being sarcastic or derisive or ironic and we ignore that you’ve chosen not to. I chose to ignore it and I think most people do and I wonder in the gay community and I wonder if I wonder if that is a First blessing I wonder if the people who have made those decisions think you know I don’t quite know how to interpret what he saying but who cares I went to Princeton I don’t need to worry about how complicated Lem’s Billings is because I know enough I know enough about what happened. I don’t need to worry about the fact that there’s some thing a little off about what he said and there’s some thing that’s just a little too off for comfort, but I’m just gonna ignore that because I went to Princeton and I know I have a degree from Princeton and I take myself way too. Goddamn seriously and maybe I need to realize that it actually is kind of creepy and you know it’s such as he will go to Princeton there’s a lot of people who really don’t understand in the gay community and levels and at-large that nuance is important. Chris rock called us out on that years ago and it’s true. We don’t get new aughts at times. It’s almost like we’re all autistic or worse than autistic legs. Stupid as fuck.

I kind of think maybe that this is a Trouble spot for us in our community at large so to speak is just over simplifying things like this because no, it actually is a little weird and it is very finally nuance but then it’s like you can’t ignore that if you’re gonna play historian and write long books about him, you can’t ignore the fact that he leaves you with a creepy, sinking feeling when you read his words or look at his pictures. Because what is that maybe he wasn’t gay? No I don’t let Sabin bully you into saying that he was he really might not a fan at all and you know it’s possible people like Lacey who are a little more liberated than we are to be perfectly honest, possibly through social class, but still whatever that even is, maybe they’re not buying it And they’re humoring us and it’s dangerous.

Because maybe we really aren’t quite on top of things the way that we think we are, and they’re not telling us that for a reason.

Yeah, and then you get people get so defensive and they’re just like in summer narcissistic but I’m wondering if it’s more than just narcissism because it’s like you know I know I’m an expert I’m at I know I’m an expert and it’s like no you sure as fuck maybe you don’t Louis the yard And David pets and Sally Bedell Smith maybe you people are fucking retarded in someways and bourgeois and you really don’t know.

Maybe the Kennedys are not our magic golden ticket to the upper class old money. Maybe it’s a little harder to get in and that.

Hey, so yeah, I’m sorry I think it’s possible that he was straight. I think there is something a little off about what he says, and in conjunction with the fact that he doesn’t seem gay to be honest, it does seem like an act and it is weird that he never seems bothered by Jack enough at the very least if he was at all And he certainly wasn’t at his wedding. It’s like you know this is getting creepy and if that is his ghost and he had a Playboy collection which seems possible because that was weird that he just were just like pick out something and he’s like oh, she can’t even remember what she yeah I just tested her. She doesn’t even remember what that she doesn’t even remember. I just asked her which one it was and she doesn’t remember because it wasn’t her idea she’s hearing this from some Thing, why do we assume it’s not him she knows it’s November but it wasn’t necessarily even November 2 at 1956 of November. Yeah it might be but it might not be Lacey would have to look back in your block but that’s the thing she doesn’t know he told her that I think he could try to be trying to tell her know which one it was but it was it November 1957 she’s hearing or 58 Betsy. He is a ghost and so now she’s trying to hear him and she has a hard time hearing him anyway at times when he needs to prove himself. oh, and it isn’t so far that she doesn’t know that he’s real most likely God is protecting her, but I don’t know his his famous I think Jack was great. Speech is a little off and that’s enough, and it doesn’t entirely make sense that he wasn’t more disturbed of Jack’s wedding, and there probably is other proof to that he’s tried to explain to us that it’s just got over our heads unfortunately and I kind of think maybe you people are stupid OK come and control by the Kennedysz

Yeah, you guys are! Sally Bedell Smith was probably paid off by the Kennedy family. Spelled off a lot of fucking nonsense.

I was wonder if that was Bobby’s idea because he was trying to hurt his mother. It seems like something he might do to try to get her to say Lem’s was the most upset devastated housewife because it wasn’t my mom. She doesn’t get that award of being the most devastated Kennedy wife it was lame. I think he could’ve been. I think he could’ve. I think he could’ve easily done that just to spite her. 

I know I’m sorry it is weird. It is a weird way to put it. The argument think it’s me it’s like why is he doing that? That is kind of weird that yeah the settle down and married thing you that and living somewhere that does seem like a reference to from here to eternity I I can have a wonder if it actually was coded slightly in his own way and he really was pissed off and then no I mean I’m not gonna keep repeating myself. I’ve made my argument, and it’s a very good one who is in Lacey right now against her will manifesting against me using her father’s love for a stewardess, and her unusual brain am I arguing with right now?” says a gay Canadian actor.

“ jack Kennedy.” says JFK.

The actor nods. “ yeah I’m not surprised to hear that. Why are you able to manifest from within her? I know you’re not her you’re not fooling me. I’ve never really thought that and actually I know that you turn against her times and try to get her to choke on her food and that Bobby malevolently gets you to do that because he hates her because he’s a childish fucker. How are you able to do that though you little fucking piece of shit?” says the gay actor.

“ her father let me in.” says JFK.

“ that makes sense, but how did you get into her body because she’s not condoning or excepting this.” says Jonah Wiley.

“ oh, I don’t know I just am?” says JFK.

“ I said interesting answer, so you really don’t scientifically know how you’re doing it entirely Jack?” asks a psychic.

“ hi yeah I do but I don’t in that way.” he says.

“ do you understand the science behind it and you’re being pedantic but you do you understand how it’s happening but you just don’t you don’t know how it’s like actually happening?” says the actor.

“ yes she almost died a few times in childhood him because of her mothers evil, and I was allowed in when she did that because she was so desperate and she was a little girl and I took advantage of that with Satan to try to control and destroy her entire life yes Lem was straight. Yes I was straight I was not straight. I don’t like to talk about this. I hate you I hate all of you.

I’m not like you how dare you think I’m like you!!” yells JFK.

“ so when she almost died as a little girl, how are you allowed in?” he asks.

“ she almost electrocuted herself once because she was a little tiny child and her mother let her play in your light socket, and she stuck her finger in the light socket, and she actually was basically electrocuted, but it was so minor that she didn’t die and God kept her alive, and actually might not have just been God. I could’ve also been Satan, that was part of how I got in if she’s illegitimate, her sister killed herself in the room and then Lacey stuck her finger in a light socket so you could imagine what it was like having her mother as a mother. She’s very charming and very loving in her own sort of way but then at the end of the day you can tell that she maybe doesn’t really love you as much as she pretends to and you’re just kind of like I just went out I just think I’ll die and so Lacey and her spirit may have been trying to die in her own innocent way and so she stuck her finger in a light socket and it didn’t kill her but then that was how how I got it was through the energy and electricity in the light socket.

Oh I am I’m not her butt keep her alive. I put my energy inside of her to balance, her energy out and away and sort of ground her to keep her alive and maybe she wasn’t even supposed to live but I didn’t give a fuck OK I didn’t give a fuck I don’t give a fuck.

I’m basically like a demon but I’m still human and God has to deal with that.

So I kept her alive possibly against his will when she was a very small child probably like three or four by putting my body in her body when she stuck her finger in a light socket and then she stayed alive that was part of how I did it how did you know that?” says JFK. “

Never mind you either figured it out. Someone told you who just died and Israel things to me or you’re reincarnated and now I’m scared scared of you.

You’re one of my old teachers from a previous life if there’s being carnation!

SHIT!!!

Is this being carnation that actor was an excellent teacher in Japan I had some formal education and he was one of my teachers and I know I did. I had some formal education and he was a teacher if there’s reincarnation maybe there’s not reincarnation but you know if there is yeah well anyway, so no I mean I got into her body when she stuck her finger in a light socket and she’s not me. I’m not her, but I got access to her body because she was almost going to cross over and die and then I prevented it.

There was also another time when she ate a leaf or a plant that was poisonous, and that might not have killed her, but it might’ve made her very sick and her father prevented her or saved her life in that case from getting sick and then other times she tried swallowing a quarter And unfortunately it just went down and she didn’t choke on it and I had something to do with that lemon actually told her to swallow the quarter to get her to die. He said swallow the quarter sweetie just swallow it and Rita might’ve been telling her that too just swallow the quarter swallow the quarter and so she did that cycle. Thank God she swallowed a quarter she’s gonna die but then eyes that not so fast And I need a quarter go down her throat I was able to get in her body and force the quarter into her stomach and then her mother side and her poop and told everybody repeatedly over and over how her daughter had pooped a quarter

00 I loved her mother though I loved using her mother to harass her. That was good fun. It was real good fun.

Oh yeah, love a straight he really wasn’t. He was trying to tell you that actually it’s more convoluted than you think.” says JFK.

“ yep so anyway moving on that’s all very interesting information. I think you’re right if Putin is still listening I think that’s true. I don’t think they know that there’s limits and I think they think that they can do whatever they want and they can do some degree right and that man sounds like he’s done incredibly well, but then that doesn’t mean that he’s old money necessarily and love was old buddy. I think they’re gonna have to let go the fact that they don’t have an end in the White House with old money through them. They may have it with someone else I don’t even know, but it’s not probably threw out in Billings. He’s handsome his intelligence. He suave in his own way, but he’s probably not there moment of Lawrie in the White House, I think maybe they’ll have to sort of grow up though and realize that Jack was a jerk but he was also gay and him in someway and you know maybe they’ll have to find someone else because I don’t think writing about him would be a good idea if homosexuality is allowed in heaven, I think it’s just going to make them seem potentially crazy and so they probably don’t want to write about JFK like oh you know he was gay do you want him to be a spokesperson for your organization so to speak historically because I wouldn’t I wouldn’t want to claim him so again they probably should focus on someone else like Lincoln over I think Lincoln was probably bisexual. I wonder Woodrow Wilson was too though and I wouldn’t be surprised if there’s at least one gay man in the 1800s was Andrew Jackson gay or bisexual and I’m not kidding who is he? Who is he gay or bisexual Andrew Jackson see that’s the problem. He’s another jerk, how do you know maybe that’s actually something they should consider with the whole White House equation in order to get to that position of how are you probably either have to be bisexual or kind of an asshole if there’s something different about you that would make you unpopular so they probably are people who are homosexual in the White House but maybe that’s not a smart thing to go into because why would they be there and who are they? Maybe they’re not safe people to you know advertise because how did they get there, they’re either like Lincoln and they’re bisexual and they just happened to marry a woman and nobody cared that they were bisexual because they were so good at politics and such a good leader or some thing sister probably either an exceptional person like Lincoln or if they’re gay or they’re mostly gay even like jack there’s probably something really wrong with them because they did have that have to be because they have to fight through society and lie basically so you’re finding someone who’s a liar who is a really good liar and cheat because it was never acceptable to be gay so then they have to be a liar on some level and that’s a huge red flag like what the fuck are you doing? “ Says her cousin.

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September 26th, 2024

The following post is a disaster. Lacey wrote it to make a joke. And to warn the world. And Vladimir Putin either in the current world through the Illuminati or in the afterlife tried to help her.

But Jack Kennedy shouldn’t have been born.

“Lem. Can I talk to you?” asks a gay man in the Illuminati.

Yeah! Sure.

“I see a gay man there.” he says.

Putin rolls his eyes. “I DON’T!” yells Vladimir Putin.

Eleven Thousand Six Hundred And Sixty-Nine Died by Johann Jóhannsson plays.

“He looks straight.” says Lacey, finally. She’s lost her patience.

Satan laughs maniacally at all gay men.

“I would like to finish.” says Chris Dodds.

“Maybe later!” yells Lem.

“Just because you’re gay doesn’t mean you’re not heartless. Your flag? It’s toast.” says Satan. “Get ready for it to be burned.”

“Who?” says Anderson Cooper.

“You.” says Satan. “Gay men.”

“Makes sense!” says a psychologist.

“I don’t think Lem was gay anymore. I’ve just looked at that photo and I don’t actually see the homosexuality.” says a straight living man. He’s a Boomer. “How does he look any more gay than Lane Pryce!? You’re full of shit!” he yells. “You’re too arrogant to just admit she’s right. …Or he’s right. I’m not sure how to say it. But it’s so fucking obvious. …He’s…kinda straight looking. And it does kinda seem to be an act.”

The Leftovers, “The Quality of Mercy” by Max Richter plays.

“God is merciful. But He’s also just.” says Michael Rockefeller. “I’ve warned you.”

“The homosexuality looks like an act to you?” asks the stupidly serious gay man.

“For the record I am not part of that crowd. I honestly am not that emotionally attached to him being gay and it’s kind of fucked-up to me too.” says Anderson Cooper.

“Dude he looks straight. I just said that! The act obviously is homosexuality.” says the straight Boomer.

“ you know this is getting creepy because Anderson I am seeing myself at a dinner party in your house and I feel like I’m on the part of the table where it’s further to the right with a white linen tablecloth and I’m sitting with Lem’s and I am relaxed and it’s delightful and it’s a wonderful dinner and I feel very at home and very welcome and I think why don’t they like the fact that lame is nuts with me too regardless of why why can’t they just handle the fact that he’s with me?

And then I look around and I see love him and how relaxed he is and how happy we are to be out at your dinner and the people who are there what is home but I don’t know it could be my father or Lauren Bacall, or somebody and it strikes me as a part of the reason why I am excepted by certain people is because there’s some thing about me that feels familiar to you or someone else and that weirdly is like it’s been in my head but I don’t think I’ve processed it into entirely until tonight. They really don’t feel that comfortable around you do that or whoever is making me feel welcome?” says Lacey.

“ no we don’t we don’t we don’t feels comfortable I mean I’m not as bad as some people possibly but I I think you are a bit of a ditz and yeah no there’s not that comfortability with a lot of people Anderson Cooper. I don’t know why you’re so comfortable but you seem extremely comfortable and that’s not creepy to me it’s more it’s interesting and I’m sure that must be kind of weird to you what does that feel like that I’m not comfortable?” says a gay man.

“ are you talking about my birth mother potentially because if you are, that is creepy to me.” says Lacey.

“ you know maybe subconsciously we are sweetie if you’re a legitimate, do we feel like your birth mother to you?” says another gay man.

“ if I am illegitimate possibly it is actually so much traumatic because it’s like what am I gonna do oh no what am I gonna do and if I’m illegitimate I wonder if that’s what it is because it’s like there’s Lauren Call there’s people who I feel comfortable with possibly even my father and it’s daddy and it’s safe and it’s warm and it’s perfectly fine. It’s where I belong but then I think they don’t like my mommy or mommy is weird remind me it’s not like me and why isn’t mommy here if I’m illegitimate I think I am thinking that and yeah it is traumatic because I don’t want mommy excluded why is mommy excluded? Do I not have a mommy anymore with the Hells going on yeah it’s very if I’m illegitimate it’s very jarring to my subconscious.” says Lacey.

“ yeah and you have service here in ilumiNATTI work. I might even be somewhat like your birth mother if you’re a little illegitimate, which is why you’re hurt and baffled possibly because you think I don’t understand I don’t understand why everyone’s so mad at me I don’t get this because it just feels like the gay community is taking it so personally, that lamb isn’t gay and yeah and you’re just like why is it such a big deal you’re not all Mary’s my husband why are you all so personally affected I don’t get it.” he says.

“ we’re not we’re not him to be honest with you you had a realization and we kind of stole it from you slightly because it’s effective and you’re not trying to be affective possibly you’re excepted by people who everyone wants to be excepted by the queen Anderson, Cooper, Lauren, McCall and that’s because if there’s reincarnation your Scotia, and the whole entire day of Scotland is literally named after you and you’re married to the emperor of the first Christian country I mean you’re an in credibly, big deal historically speaking you’re one of the biggest deals in all human history sincerely if if we don’t go on for more than yeah, but I will still say you’re someone up there even if you live another thousand years but no you’re one of the bigger deals in human history possibly top 100 to be really honest with you you’re married to Constantine for eternity, your Scotia you discover the illuminati in your bedroom in Seattle on Twitter accidentally that’s not typical, so no, you’re one of the bigger deals in human history who would really be more impressive than you not that many people if any, I’m not kidding, so Anne Ingman you’re extremely beautiful too and sexy and top of that like that’s not typical so yeah if there’s reincarnations you get in with people because you’re the big deal at the dinner party Lacey, yours emperor, Constantine‘s wife and your his like twin flame and I don’t think it’s easy to separate from Sam’s personally and so yeah that is not typical experience but then, for whatever reason because you’re so sweet in your Scotia, and you must want to be a different person at times that you are your boy. You’re a target because you’re really I like violets you’re sweet you’re unassuming your dark you’re not this blonde Tuesday to the center of attention and I think it unfortunately makes people target you because you’re so gentle and reserved well doll and of course you would be if your gums are inflamed you’re yeah you’re the spicy feminine side of him but you’re probably still quite gentle relatively speaking but that’s the thing, so I don’t think you know what that’s like necessarily to be on the outside of that looking in because whenever you looked in, if you keep looking and long enough, they let you win and then they invite you to the table and start talking to you. That’s not typical most people if they stare at a dinner party like that don’t get invited to sit down, pull up a chair and start talking most people are rejected one way or another and so they get loud and they get boisterous and they try to fit in my think some people in the gay community are attached alarm for stupid Pedi narcissistic reasons you know why it’s because he isn’t as he’s like an accessory. He makes a Sim probably more elegance in elite.

But that’s just bullshit at the end of the day, because if we can’t stand for ourselves and the elegance in the lead than what even are we why we take herself so seriously and that way, if it’s not just some thing, we all are, and frankly we were maybe we all aren’t, and that’s sort of a mess slightly and as part of the reason, this is so jarring, right because love was elegant, but maybe is more of a straight man than a gay man And it’s hard for some of us to except that that some of us are in is all against him and he’s possibly straight 888 think that’s the thing though just also say give us a minute and we’ll catch up sweetie. How did you know he was straight? I’m not trying to be crass, but just imagine I am your mom I’m not, but how did you know he was straight?” he says.

Lacey tries not to cry. “ i’m sorry just imagining you as my mom makes me wanna cry just a second.

You know, I wonder if that’s a little creepy imagine you as my mom you know you’re not a woman, but there is some part of you that I can talk to you if that makes any sense.

I can’t talk to them that way, and I think some part of me knew that the minute that I looked at him how about that?” says Lacey.

“ that makes a lot of sense no because I mean think about it she doesn’t have a mother necessarily who’s actually loving it’s possible she’s always wanted a secret gay friend who is actually gay and really cares about her and that maybe never happened but I wouldn’t be surprised if that was somewhere in her subconscious and so she probably saw them and thought oh I was like oh wait no that’s not it that’s not a gay man.

What more specifically physically though did you pick up on?” says Anderson Cooper.

“ I picked up on the fact I picked up on the fact I picked up on the facts of pie. I picked up on the fact‘s eyes. It is creepy sorry I’m in the CIA and yes Colin Farrell is being protective of Lacey as a Celtic person, and she actually is responding to that which is interesting is there is reincarnation yeah he looks almost Scottish, you’ll have to hold on just a second.” says the CIA.

“ yeah, I probably should clean my room a little more.” says Lacey.

“ OK I’ll Alam I’ll have to answer this and then maybe I’ll have to do a little vacuuming or something. Yeah it really is disturbing how much safer I fell in Great Britain and Ireland.” says Lacey.

“ well, you’re either buried in Ireland in a good way I have a feeling or not but for whatever reason we’re safer than most people even though apparently were angry at you you know that there’s possibly some bullshit there.” says Colin Farrell.

“ there is especially if she’s close to my husband yeah!” says Zelda.

“ yeah and if she’s misunderstood some thing and she’s actually married to an Irishman you’re right with the last name of hill but you know I mean yeah it’s like that must be awful not knowing.” says Colin to Lacey.

“ yes, it is. Yeah, it actually is. It’s really awful.” says Lacey.

“ I don’t think it’s likely that it’s not lame but I think you would be mortified if you were wrong, but not because it’s an ego thing necessarily but just because you put a lot of effort into trying to figure out the truth.” says Colin.

“ I do!” says Lacey.

Silence.

“ how did I know he was gay?” says Lacey,

“ Lacey, let’s just come out with that you like that conversation you felt better with him than you do with most people. He’s also a very wealthy actor but you feel far more comfortable with me.” says Anderson.

“ you feel safe to me in a very deep level Anderson whether you are not no I don’t feel like I have to put on. It’s just a show with you. I think I can pretty much just be myself which is actually really disturbing on a certain level, but anyway so, basically I think it’s mostly just that a call so you’re not going to like this it’s his shoulders it’s his eyes it’s his mouse. It’s all of his physical features. I’ve said this before I’m sorry.” says Lacey.

“ I think it’s possible people really are born gay are and it’s somehow biological and I’ve never been convinced of that but I’ve also not been convinced that it isn’t somehow genetic or something biological and I think for people like us who think that’s possible and who grew up around people who are very bigoted, but not at the same time because you know those people to possibly they’re hateful towards gay people and yet at the same time if you tell them you’re gay they’re not hateful they don’t stop being nice to you. It’s just you kind of wonder what they were thinking the whole time or what they’re thinking after you tell them and it’s very awkward, but it doesn’t alter that much.

But that’s the thing you knew that I wasn’t straight you were you vividly recall looking at me on the news and people pointing out to you how attractive I was women and you thought to yourself you and I think you thought I was gay and you thought I was fake or maybe not fake but you just thought what is this there’s something weird here listen if this is a real conversation someone heard you because you were loud and you probably said something like he’s fake or it’s obvious that he’s not straight or something and I don’t even know who heard you, but I wonder I really do it creeps me out to be honest with you, Lacey it could’ve been Jeffrey Epstein Where were you when you thought that so loudly?” says Anerson,

“ I was in a nice part of New Jersey about an hour or two outside of New York City.” says Lacey

“ you were in an old money house Devon linger case you were in a violin Goerke house in New Jersey.” says Anderson.

“ yes, I was a fun linger key van linger kids. No Von. Linger. Lee. Anyway, I was in one of their houses and um. Yeah they were sort of that. They are old money, very certifiably and away and yeah, that was where I had the thought a woman who had married into that family thought you were really hot and I looked at you and I thought no. He’s a tractive, but there’s something weird.” says Lacey.

“ yeah and I was closeted at that point almost entirely and there were a lot of women who had crushes on me. Did you look down on them?” he says.

“ yes I did. I did look at that. I did look down on those lightly because I realized that there was something weird and I just thought why all these women things that he would date that this is so strange.” says Lacey.

“ What are you were right I was not straight and it was actually really irritating but at the same time it was good for my career, but it was also problematic because I had to pretend to be straight at times and most women fall for at least most women do most women fall for it Lacey most women fall for it I’m sorry but most women fall for it.” says Anderson.

Lacey takes a deep breath.

“ yeah and then this is why I feel bad because if there’s reincarnation, I was friends with gave that and that’s part of how I knew because I was exposed to it and I knew gay men and I I just know what they look like I was also raised by one, but then that’s frustrating because it’s like where does it end up being just that I was raised by one and then where is it that I was reincarnated I don’t know him and I’m so I’m sorry if I was reincarnated I apologize to you because I probably five more offensive to people that I realize and I’m probably more comfortable around you for a reason but then I don’t know that.” 

Later.

“My room is considerably cleaner.” says Lacey.

“Yup!” says Grandpa Pantell with a smile.

“ I didn’t realize that you were actually in the upper class Lacey.” says Chris Hayes.

“ except that’s an upper class. Upper class is like about being a billionaire I just refuse to except that it’s not about how much money people have.” says Ms. Jones. 

“ well, that’s stupid that shows that you have very very little understanding of a lot of things but I guess you went to Harvard because your father bought your way in and yet you’re too backward in middle class to realize that that doesn’t mean shit and that your stupidity will embarrass the hell out of you because you weren’t raised very well.” says Lacey.

“ she’s dizzy and she doesn’t know whether not she was reincarnated and actually she’s right do you actually think that that’s sad.” says Anderson.

“ no it’s there they’re not wrong there’s nothing you and it’s affecting you, so they just proved you wrong and yet you’re too stubborn to admit that.” says Anderson’s mom.

“but there’s a different lifestyle how does that not affect a person?” she says.

“ instead of saying, but anything how about you answer to what I just said I wanna say fuck you.” says the woman.

“ she probably figured out that you meant that because that’s Gloria Vanderbilt and she was really smart so sorry I would do what she says I will try to figure out what she was implying and then you know process thoughts and respond to her instead of just coming back with more bullshit” says Lacey.

“ OK it does affect me but it might come back is that I get affected anytime someone stops me even if they’re poor and it actually might not be the same so you could be right but submit Lacey how do you how are you feel like the lifestyle doesn’t affect people psychologically?” she says.

“ that’s an interesting question. I think it does affect people psychologically that wasn’t a clever way to attack me putting words in my mouth. I don’t actually do that to people at eight I trap them there’s a difference, but you know at least that’s what I’m trying to do you’re just putting words in my mouth. I never said that it didn’t affect them psychologically what I said and don’t tell me to stop acting the way that I’m acting I’m being myself if you can’t handle it fuck you.

The thing is sweetheart if I’m gonna be even more condescending unintentionally actually that possibly and it’s not that different it’s really not I think people try to make it different but once you’re past a certain level of wealth, it’s really not that different there’s not that much difference I’m sorry social class is different that is very complex but the lifestyle isn’t that much different. I’m sorry it’s not put pronounce me how is different? You’re the one with all the money in this conversation right now anyway, bring out to me how vastly different us go ahead be my guest.” says Lacey.

Lacey eats.

“ I just let you eat and be alone to me that’s upper class.” she said.

“ i’m not impressed. I’m sorry answer my question.” says Lacey 

“ we have a private plane.” she says.

“ so what!?” says Lacey.

Later.

“Are you really that bored by it?!” she says.

“YES!!” screams Lem.

“Why?” says Bill Gates.

“It’s just bad for the environmental, dull, and useless. And a waste of money.” says Lacey.

Michael laughs.

“We CC like to conserve.” says Lem.

“A yacht!?” says Bezos.

“No. Not unless it’s for the Queen.” says Lacey.

“Yachts scare her. The ocean is big.” says Lem.

“County estates!” says Jeff Bezos.

“Yes!! But…they’re dangerous. …Beautiful but dangerous.” says Lacey.

“You’re such a Minnesotan.” says Mark Dayton to Lacey.

“I am.” says Lacey.

“It’s pretty safe.” says a man to Lacey.

“Yes.” says Lacey.

“It’s endless money.” says Ms. Jones.

“Except it’s not.” says Lem.

“Does having money scare you?” asks Ms. Jones.

“Losing it? Yes.” says Lacey.

“You’re not feeling that yet?” says Lem.

“Yes.” she says.

“Then how is it any different?” says Lacey.

“Bigger house?” says a man.

“Meh.” says Lacey.

He nods. Thinks. Stares.

“But you know how to pick out everything.” he says.

“Yes! But that’s class. Not money. So to speak.” says Lacey.

“My clothes, smell amazing without perfume.” says Ms. Jones.

“Can I be honest who gives a shit?? I mean that’s nice if people are smelling you all the time.” says Lacey.

“ her family does all were the largest oil reserves in the entire world so keep that in mind that’s like literally billions of dollars Rashida so you’re millions are impressive but they’re not actually as impressive as what they have.” says the CIA.

“ part of the reason we’re not attacking the US more is because of Lacey and the fact that her family has as much oil as they do as long as ilumiNATTI recognizes that and she recognizes the importance of her doing. We are fine with not attacking the US, and there are other reasons as well, but she is definitely a part of the reason in this conversation I just thought you should know that.” says Russia.

“ Because she’s in love with Putin and yet she’s with love but she’s in love and he knows that and he knows that she’s as supportive as she can be which for him just means that she’s supportive OK what would you be doing if we weren’t on good terms with you?” says Anderson.

“ well, I would be threatening you even more, and there would probably be some sort of economic repercussion that would be devastating to the US. We would ring your ducks I know you wouldn’t be able to do a damn thing about it.” says North Korea.

“ so you’re you’re stopping that from that because he actually cares about her?” says Bobby. 

“ yeah but she also supports him so it’s not just that they were in love her that they are but then she’s with Lutin. It’s it’s that she supports him like she actually supports him as much as she can and her Christian cause conscience and so he has a sense the spiritual support of pretty much all major oil producers whether they want to except that or not.” says China.

“ i’m curious, can you produce anything that impressive about you?” someone asks Ms. Jones.

“ That I’m like preventing nuclear war with my body and power? No.” says Ms. Jones.

“ It’s not just her body though it’s her money.” says Lem.

“ Oil is still relevant.” says Iran.

“True!” says Israel.

“ so that actually does protect him which is why he’s able to back off?” says a reader.

“ Yes he has fewer people dying. His strategies are more successful at least on occasion because of her family support and he has other people supporting him but they’re Christians and they have a lot of oil so they have a lot of dominion. Yeah, I said the word dominion that was cold by the way dominion is a Christian concept and so it’s possible Tucker Carlson was working on some thing very covert But anyway no they have dominion over North America and oil and so he’s able to use that there might’ve been a nuclear problem in Minnesota like a spill or something in the last few years because of Lacey’s support for Russia but it was very contained Louis actually was helpful with that. God allowed Louis to be used to help protect Minnesota, and giving their in God‘s favor because she’s such a strong Christian so things could be far worse but because she worships God and tries so hard to be a good Christian is, she may have actually prevented nuclear war war on more than one occasion, I think there was once or twice when Putin actually had to talk her down in the last two years Because she was ready to kill everybody and he talked her out of it that was like once, but that’s a very rare occasion. Yeah, things got that bad and she started thinking that given all the child sex slavery in the world and disease and poverty that we would all just be better dead.” says the CIA. “ that’s the thing though he’s not an idiot and and I don’t know if you’ve been in the mood to kill people when she was in the mood to end everything. Yeah I almost think they would’ve ended up talking each other out of it. Anyway, I know what I mean. It’s all very obviously long-distance connection and he may have somebody else that is more certain in Russia but they have had a bond and it obviously is not something that will continue. Our has continued even but it, she treats him like a czar and well she’s an aristocrat. She’s not stupid enough to think that without a genuine rejection of him that she can actually reject him so if she actually wanted to reject him she could and she has she is right now possibly but it’s with the idea that it’s because of Latin and for the fact that he’s in Russia and she’s in the United States but that that’s the thing so it’s that they’re separated by no distance and that there’s someone probably with that he’s with most likely and then she’s with him so it’s like well no but I’m not saying that I’m not attracted to you I haven’t been, at least and I’m understands that it’s not him. That’s actually a pretty enormous compliment that she’s turning down historic Hazard to be with him.”

“ did you have a fling with Bashar al Assad?” says a woman.

“ She flirted with me in college telepathically. If there’s an illuminati without knowing it, it was just one evening she thought she was imagining talking to me and I had no idea what entity I was channeling, but it was her most likely, and it was a flirtatious conversation was just one conversation, but she thought I was good looking.” he says,

“ I am did you hit it off?” says the CIA.

“ yes we did. I think she probably gets along frankly better with Putin, and I would be surprised if lemons, her twin flame but yes, we probably got along very well. I mean it wasn’t her and Putin have a lot between them. It wasn’t like that, but it was something pleasant, I think we got along very well.” he says.

“ she would never do that to me if she was with me even though she’s being careful which means something think you know what you’re doing right now.” says Putin.

“ I could you tell us more about what your clothes smell like?” says Lem.

“What do her clothes smell like?” asks Casi.

“Perfume. And sweat.” says Lacey.

A perfume collector feels comforted and yet so bored. He begins to doze off.

“Did you ever watch Sesame Street?” Lacey asks Lem.

“Yes.” says Lem.

“Did you feel despair?” asks Lacey.

“Yes.” says Lem.

“I felt that with you. Years later. When I watched it. HOW?!?” says Lacey.

He smiles. “The music?”

“Yes! I felt like a drug addict living in New York City. Literally. But I couldn’t put it into words.” says Lacey.

“Those were late 70’s reruns. In the early 1980’s.” says Lem.

“HOW!?” says Lacey.

“We’re the same person. Essentially.” he says.

“The music?” says Lacey.

“No. And yet…what scared you?” he says.

“Molestation! But not what I experienced. …And drugs. I felt like I was going to overdose.” says Lacey.

“Did you feel ashamed?” says Lem.

“Extremely. And…very nostalgic.” says Lacey.

“I hated Bert and Ernie. They terrified me.” says Lem.

“Too close to home.” says Lacey.

“Yah.” says Lem. “Why…is Bert…so…happy?”

“Because you weren’t.” says Lacey.

“Yes.” says Lem.

“Lem! I felt your emotions!! YOUR EMOTIONS! I…FELT YOUR emotions. And I thought they were mine.” says Lacey.

“It wasn’t my ghost. You know that. But that’s part of the reason why it was so ugly. Because I couldn’t be with you.” says Lem. “You felt…my lingering consciousness. Not residual energy. Or me. But…my consciousness…attached itself to you. Because we’re the same person. Almost as if…my body was…resurrected. Through you. Except not. But essentially…my mind…left…thoughts behind.

How? …Drugs. Not residual energy. So…when I was high…my spirit was contorted. And my thoughts left my body at times. Because I was in so much pain. So my thoughts were looking for a home.” says Lem. “ I felt numb, but not really.”

“ so then they left your body and found her??!?” says a psychic.

“ yes essentially yeah and I actually was straight believe it or not I think if you could see me the way she does you would be baffled by this conversation the way we are because I really was straight and it’s hard to say it but if you could read, it’s hard to know how to say it but if you could read my energy which you should really be able to do you could tell that I was straight how can you not shit I’m so obviously straight if you’re a psychic by a sexual energy is very heterosexual. It’s creepy that you guys can’t see it.

Anyway, yeah, when she was born at the time, she was about three or four she was sensing my thoughts as though they were hers.” says Lem.

“ what does that feel like?” says Lem.

“ Extraordinarily disorienting because something or someone kept telling me that I was a fat, self-loathing sexy but like not sexy molestation victim, who is like a drug addict and it was so sharp that a times I’ve wondered if that was actually me I wondered if it was actually me, but no, it wasn’t it was you, but I really wonder if it was me because I literally felt like I lived in New York City.” says Lacey.

“ did you feel guilty about using drugs?” he says.

“ i’ve felt profoundly guilty and just shamed. Yes, I felt an extraordinary amount of guilt and shame it was awful. It was really awful. It was sort of like it was sort of like I was trapped in a kept coming to me that I was like this molestation victim, who was living in this perverse sexual lifestyle, or I was letting myself be totally taken advantage of to the point where I was profoundly ashamed of myself and I thought why do I hate myself? I’m not that bad of a person three but I thought oh my goodness I really fucked up life. But I was only three so I remember thinking his thoughts and being like you know, my life is hell I am in serious trouble. My life is in hell of a drug addict living in New York City and I’m going to end up dead and this woman I’m watching, doesn’t even know me I remember thinking over and over. She knows me but she doesn’t really know me. She doesn’t really know me. She knows me though she’s got to know me. Yeah she knows me. Everyone knows everyone but she doesn’t really know me and why don’t I have a friend? Did you find that lady attractive?” says Lacey

“ oh, no, no but it’s like well um I think I might have a wish I could take her on a date. It wasn’t that I found her attractive and that way, but she was older and I was old and I think I thought she was age-appropriate, but she was still so much looking for her age, Maria and I probably thought no she’s not any she’s not that great looking but she’s kind of pretty in her own way and why couldn’t I have a friend like that? Why can’t I have a female friend and boyfriend? Yeah, I do being girlfriend but I’m a lady friend you know friend wink wink but it’s not. It’s not like it wasn’t even really with her. It was like I was yeah it was the yeah it was the idea it was the idea of having a girlfriend I I didn’t find her that attractive but I think I thought she was so much good looking I didn’t really notice her but I I did at the same time you know what I mean it’s like I notice her but I didn’t really notice her and so it’s like she’s she’s attractive but I’m not like that attracted to her but she’s kind of attractive and why can’t I have any female companionship at all? I’m so desperate what was that like experiencing that I know I was not that attracted to her I really wasn’t you’re not afraid of that but there’s something trying to hurt you and it’s not it’s not like that I mean it wasn’t like what I watched so to speak at night in the magazines it wasn’t like it would’ve been a replacement for you know they wouldn’t have replaced you so to speak and no Jack wasn’t a replacement for you either actually though I think it was that’s where I was going with that and what was that like though for you as a little girl, having those thoughts?” says Lem.

“ They were so bizarre and I’m straight and it was a child just like I was a child and I was straight so I was kind of like this is just weird I’m not like this is just weird like what the hell is going through my head right now like this is just like what what is what is this this is strange it was like oh OK and then I was like OK well that was weird experience. My brain would go that it was heard of pass, but then I would keep coming back to the music in the background and to be perfectly honest with you if we’re reincarnated, I started missing you, I started missing you and it became incredibly depressing and I wouldn’t be surprised if that’s why I became slightly suicidal with her three because I started thinking about you if there’s a big carnation in there might not be but if there is, I actually found Sesame Street extraordinarily depressing I still do because I heard the music and I thought of you and then you weren’t there and I just felt profoundly alone it was miserable But then I would get distracted by these thoughts that I was a drug addict in New York City and I would think that doesn’t make any sense. I was sort of possibly tell myself this doesn’t make sense. This doesn’t make sense so if there’s being carnation, I think I broke the fourth wall in my own brain when I was about three or three years old, that is very frustrating. I wish I knew whether not there was a ring carnation, but now it made is if there is admit it made of signs and say I don’t know where they’re not there is, but even if there isn’t, it made no sense because it’s just it’s like how can I three year old be a drug addict in New York City?” says Lacey.

“ how did you reconcile that then?” says Lem.

“ are you trying to emphasize the humor of her in this situation or is that just happening?” says a gay man.

“ It’s just happening.” says Lem.

“ yeah I don’t know I couldn’t reconcile it. It’s haunted me. That’s prosperously why I brought it up because it’s like what is this it was actually quite scary because biscuit if you were a ghost and were the same person, it literally did feel like it was me not like I was channeling someone like it was me, and so it was like I am a drug addict in New York City but I am sitting in Minnesota on a sofa and I’m a three year old little girl but yet I know that I’m a drug addict and I’m living in New York. And it’s very important that I know that I’m a drug addict. I think I might’ve thought that it’s very important that I recognize that about myself and then I think I did start thinking now I’m dead a little bit but then it was so weird because then I was there was in myself. No I’m very much alive. I’m very much alive person how do I have a drug addiction and I watch Sesame Street well I am hi I’m not home right now. I’m not high right now and if there’s reincarnation, I may have even said to myself I know I’m not your friend. No it’ll be honest with you if there’s a big Carnation at three I think I was more panicked that I’ve possibly been since in my entire life because it was very scary because it was just like brain malfunction. I know I’m not high, I’m three I know I’m in Minnesota on a sofa but I’m definitely in New York City right now on drugs and I have a serious problem and that and that’s really concerning to me but but I don’t think that it’s something I’m going to easily be able to solve because I need to date women And I can’t and then I would’ve I thought because I don’t I’m not attracted to women and episode of the child I would’ve. This is my brain and since we started possibly rejecting your thoughts, because my brain would’ve said no, this isn’t us. Literally I have a feeling my little three-year-old girl brain thought that straight thought. No I don’t think this is us.

And I think a little part of me started laughing in my head, because I thought very weird kind of funny. And I think for a few brief seconds, I was laughing if if if there’s if there’s red carnation I started laughing. I don’t know totally outside of time in my own head when I was three and I was just like this is this is this is nuts this is this is this is absurd and yeah it became. There’s a few reforms where I started laughing in my head at three and and then that’s where it was very difficult because it yeah there anyway I rejected it. I thought this is it me I can’t possibly be needing to date women I feel like that kept coming to me you should date women used to date women and I thought no I can’t. I’m a little girls, that doesn’t make any sense and then yeah and then my brain will turn off. Thank God I hadn’t been that messed up and then I thought to myself you know why the fuck would I date what that doesn’t even make any sense why the fuck would I date women this is nuts. My brain is nuts and then it’s possible if there is reincarnation that God literally said to me that’s not your brain because that’s what I’m getting a weird memory of or some thing is God saying that’s not your brain to me when I was about three of him saying that’s not your brain that’s not your brain like that’s not you you’re not nuts it’s like you’re hearing from the spirit you’re hearing in spirit you’re hearing spiritually and then my little voice was like oh OK in my head to myself that makes sense I’m hearing from spirits OK cool But boy that was weird cause I thought that was me and then I think when I watch the show again, it would come back to me again and then I would. I would keep reminding myself of that Jesus himself may have told me at three or four it’s like oh this is it my brain This is something weird that I don’t understand that it’s like spiritual and I’m just gonna kind of chill with it and just experience whatever the heck this is because it’s not me there’s something weird going on but to this day when I watch Sesame Street sweetie, I still experience you I still watch it and I still feel like I’m you I can’t get rid of it, and to be honest what I was in New York City. I felt like you too at times, it was actually really quite scary except it I think why do I imagine that I had an apartment in New York City? Who is that?” says Lacey.

“ I know you mean old New York that was a ghost of a woman who may have been trying to figure out what was going on with you because she was scared and so she started trying to make herself you the way that she sensed that I had happened to you to see what was happening in your head just out of curiosity, but then she cut you off and be like no it’s not you, but why was it so believable that you had an apartment in New York? Well, that’s where things get creepy that was a Rita possibly or it could’ve been someone else who actually grew up in New York who had family who had some penthouse or some thing in New York or I could’ve been someone in loves family or someone in your family so that would be your memory but it could actually be like a genetic memory of yours of some sort in some weird way or it’s like it’s Tom’s memory, or there’s somebody that you were very similar to in his family if you’re actually related to him who had that experience and your brains are so similar and you’re so unusual that you accidentally felt as though you were her it’s some thing like that where your brain got confused so there might not be rain Carnation but if there is then yeah it’s pretty crazy.” says a woman.

“What are our you kind of like a bitch?” says a woman.

“ there are people who are like me personality wise possibly or even look like me people call bitch but to be honest with you I’ve never understood why they called them that and I don’t know why I’m one either I don’t get it. How are we bitches? I don’t see how they are either.” says Lacey.

“ oh, I don’t know I got along with you.” says a woman. “ who said that about me is someone that you’re still in contact with?”

“ no.” says Lacey.

“ we do look a little bit like it’s a little no redo or bone structure you’ve aged like me too and we have similar taste that’s creepy because no I don’t feel like I’m a bitch I don’t think you’re one either. Let’s let them answer I don’t get it either.” she says.

“ yeah are used to be friends with you people but as I’ve aged, you started to hate me. Why?” says Lacey.

“ who is this woman married to someone who is important to the school” says a man.

“ Yes!” she says.

“ I just don’t understand it because when I was in college people who now probably hate me, I’m gonna call me a bitch to would’ve confided in me and talk about this woman behind her back and they would’ve said all that woman is a bitch did she was she mean to you like what did she say to you? Are you OK, and now I’m just like what the fuck!? Everything I think that woman might’ve been a little catty and mean herself and it’s like I think you could’ve been the caddy person I would say to her at this point, but at the time that she said that to me, she didn’t think I was there was something about her were even if that’s true, she didn’t recognize me as being that woman as it is like a young adult. And I don’t understand what changed in their minds I just I don’t get it.” says Lacey.

“ I hear you.” says the woman.

“ oh fuck!” says Chris Dodds.

“ speaking of which I bet that’s probably what it was. Lacey didn’t have a boyfriend and they knew that and I think if she had been sleeping around more they would’ve realize that she really was as pretty as she looked and it wasn’t just a façade or like some strange hallucination on their part, they would’ve thought oh no, she actually is that pretty she’s getting some tail but like you know women not like men getting tail but like she’s like a woman getting tail and I think they would’ve thought you know she actually is attractive so that’s sad because Lacey was a pure person who is trying to honor God- you thought she was ugly and then when she left the school and started trying to get a husband and so she slept with her husband because she knew that if she slept with someone they might take they might date her because that’s the kind of that’s the way millennial men are that’s a Generation if you’re not willing to sleep with them for some reason they think there’s something wrong with you. So if she’s actually done that at a messiah, they would’ve probably thought she was pretty. It never occurred to them that she was a born-again Christian trying desperately to follow Christ. It’s just oh no there’s something wrong with her. I wonder if she’s a lesbian.” says the bitch.

“ you’re right.” says a woman.

“ she’s very assertive, though.” says another woman.

“ Lacey is not a bitch I work for the Catholic diocese of Saint Paul and I have met Lacey she’s not a bitch but she is assertive to be honest with you though in a Catholic school her personality is not as unusual. We have far more parents that are like her and her husband at our at our schools in Minnesota and in our churches and I’ve seen her with her kids and it wasn’t anything perverted. I’m just that’s why I ran into her. I think she was considering sending her kid to a private Catholic school one of them that’s appoint and no she did not strike me as a bitch. She seemed assertive to me too but I I if this is the afterlife that I’m talking through that woman is not a bitch either neither is Lacey, I’m actually slightly confused and hurt for them both. Why do you think these women are bitches?” says a priest.

“Yeah! It’s odd!” says Ireland.

“I’m sorry you missed me. At three. If there’s reincarnation. Not being pedophilic. …When else did you miss me?” asks Lem.

“At art museums? Or was that not you?” says Lacey.

He thinks. “No. It’s me!”

“Almost everywhere.” says Lacey.

“How bad is it?” he says.

“It’s like…endless grief. Even if there’s no reincarnation. …I cannot imagine feeling that for Jack. Or really possibly almost anyone but you.” says Lacey. “It feels way too specific to you.”

“It’s not my grief.” he says.

“No. It’s mine?” says Lacey.

“Yes.” he says. “You’d never feel that for me if I was or am gay. It’s impossible.”

“Why?” says Lacey.

“It requires me to have made love to you at some point. Actually made love. And…it’s not…one-sided. It’s…hidden. Too hidden on my part. But…very mutual.” says Lem.

“I feel as if you’re not finished telling me something. And…my parents are dead. And…you’re stolen from me.” says Lacey.

Lem laughs. “Hardly!”

“That’s not what they told me.” says Lacey.

“If you’re reincarnated…I spent hours…every month…just making love with you. …Jack was…something I acted. A role. But it was nothing more than a script in my head and a slavery-gig. What we had was real. Ironically. That was…sick and…nothing.” says Lem.

“Was I as confused until recently?” says Lacey.

“No.” says Lem, sadly. “They worked tirelessly to confuse you. They’re still trying.”

“If there’s reincarnations, I am so confused. Do they have brains or not?” says Lacey.

“ Yes but I can’t hear you.” says Lem.

“ I don’t think I don’t think we can be separated once we’re together and I don’t think it makes much sense to Dave And to even try to. Why would you even do that that’s just weird.” says Lacey.

“ yes but these are people who don’t think that perversion sexual perversion is weird yet they’re still working through that in Purgatory if there is purgatory, so in their minds, their sin isn’t entirely evil yet they don’t get it and I am sorry, but there is a lot of things that you don’t know I think a lot of it would be very intriguing to you and there’s nothing that would hurt you that you don’t already know and I mean that in the best way, but there’s a lot that you don’t know that is hurting you so to speak like you don’t know certain things and you’re getting hurt and if you knew the truth, you wouldn’t get hurt anymore. If we’re reincarnated, I really was straight hit. He never stole me. That picture is not what you think it is and that sounds cliché but it’s true. The other pictures are wet and it really isn’t that I actually was having fun to be honest, Lacey people don’t respect you enough You’ve tried to tell them and they don’t wanna hear it. I was very innocent I was very naïve. It was a very different time. I really didn’t know what I was doing. The pictures were actually entirely his doing and I went along with it but I actually really had no idea what I was getting myself into that day And people imagine that I am probably the one that pose all of them but that’s absurd especially considering some of those pictures how he pose me they were not, and they were even both of our our doing. It looks like it could be both of us to actually, but it wasn’t. It was entirely him I really was Very much trying to fit in and have friends and he was an opportunity who you have friends I thought yeah I could’ve had other friends but I had a hard time making friends. I was a very hard person, not sexually at all. I was a hard person in my head. I was a very hardheaded person. I had a lot of Opinions about everything and people respect that but then they also found it annoying because I had a lot of opinions and I was very apt to discuss things so if you brought something up with me, I would share my opinion it was something that kind of got beaten out of me, and I wear it as I got older I had a harder time sharing my thoughts But I do I was little I had lots of ideas I want to tell people it’s actually possible that Jack was part of the reason why I lost ability to share my thoughts on things confidently, but because he had almost no respect for anything, I thought hardly ever he was incredibly condescending All the time and constantly condescending to me he was a very heartless person, and I mean that he was extremely heartless, and I hated him by about the age of 35. I absolutely couldn’t stand him, but I pretended to be his friend because I had to he controlled so much they were so wealthy And so I felt pressured to be his friend because it was a hard it was almost hard to escape him. It wasn’t like today today would be even worse but back then I know it wouldn’t be bad back then you could track people down and he did his father had private investigators that regularly did work for him practically and no, he had connections to that sort of thing, so yeah, he would track me down. I would try to get away from him and then I gave up eventually but no, I would try to get away from him, and he would track me down Call my sister call my mom call my know my friends, my best, female friends and I know they were not people I was interested in, but I had some female friends and he called them. He’d call everyone they could think of including my Dopp my brother, nobody called y’all Josh she called everybody And no my my best female friends know that that’s not quite what people may think but no it it wasn’t. It wasn’t normal and it was sick. It was very sick. I would think that people would be able to hear that my voice and you’re right I do actually sound both gay and straight because and that’s part of the confuse people because I, I was straight That was my actual person but then I would do mannerisms that were very carefully orchestrated and gay and he didn’t respect the fact that it wasn’t real and people had a hard time discerning the truth and yeah, he called me a Alka frequently.

You can edit this or not people are reading your blog, but I’m getting sick of the fact that you’re being so interrupted all the time it’s getting to the point where God is seriously thinking of ending the world because he literally cannot permit people to be killed this way And they’re not respecting that they’re like Karen ‘s they don’t seem to get it he doesn’t allow ghosts even in this context to kill people. He really doesn’t allow that they’re allowed to harass them but they’re not allowed to kill them and they’re going so far off the deep end, both in the afterlife, and in the illuminati should exist using Bobby That you could almost die but it’s not normal because it’s not a heart attack. It’s not a stroke. It’s it’s almost like they’re twisting your spirit so much to try to control you that it could be close to a rapture. Yeah I just said rapture, they could be so perverted, sweetie, that they are literally causing your spirit to leave your body like a rapture, witness that we will imagine him and if it actually isn’t, maybe it’s like a rapture but it’s sort of like that in the sense that it’s not like a normal death it’s like like they’re literally forcing your your spirits out of your own body that’s not normal like you they’re trying to take control of your mouth and your words because they think that that intimidates you and that is going to make you feel intimidated impressed by them and they’ve been doing that now for years and you’re not and you’ve told them that But they refuse to believe it so they think if they keep trying harder then it’ll finally work because that’s how pathetic and worthless they are until actually but it’s not working and instead it’s just forcing you out of your body. I know God can’t allow that because it’s a defilement of the order of how he created the universe, and so yeah, he would have to possibly in the world before he let them kill you and he’s tried to get rid of Jack Jack is now being riled up from the past or he’s having to possibly consider annihilating the souls of other people.

Yeah it’s serious Jack is literally trying to take other people with him and you know Lacey part of the reason why we’re not gonna talk on this blog after this moment just because I actually was straight because I actually was straight and I don’t think I was straight and I don’t think I’ll say it again I was Straight. And I don’t think that the gay community alive right now other than maybe decent especially decent. People are actually intellectually cognitively capable of understanding that I literally think that they can’t comprehend someone pretending to be gay. I don’t think they get that I actually was straight and that when you’re reading me, you’re actually really reading me You’re actually reading me you’re not reading an imaginary person or the person that you want me to be you’re reading my actual being who I actually am. And they don’t know that so they actually pretend to understand what you’re saying, but I’m beginning to think that they really don’t understand at all and they think oh she’s just saying something stupid it’s not stupid you’re reading me and you can tell that I am pretentiously gay they don’t understand that they don’t even understand the concept. I don’t think for the most part of me being pretentiously gay I don’t think they get the concept And yes that’s what I’m saying is offensive but it’s beyond irritating at this point I don’t think they got the concept of me being straight and that you can tell that. And Yeah I just don’t think it’s going to work. The same people may grasp the concept of a straight man who thinks he’s gay, but I think that they’re not quite understanding so we’re going to probably have to sort of let it go and find other ways to communicate to speak because I don’t think it’s working And it could be a class as she has some degree. Yeah yeah but I think part of it is something else I think I think they the 88 I think they can’t comprehend it. I think they literally physically cannot cognitively figure out what What you’re saying as a concept Because they act gay and in their mind, that’s just for the most part there’s a man who aren’t like that we’re gay but for the most part, I think they think that’s just them being gay I don’t think they realize that they’re putting on a show and how they dress and how they talk and that it’s not really authentic it’s pretentious. It’s real because it’s their identity, seemingly but it’s not like they were born Acting that way so they may have been born gay potentially, but they were not born acting like an American gay man. From the 21st-century, that’s absurd there’s no 21st-century gay man, Jean, that’s retarded. I mean it’s possible that there’s something to that, but I highly doubt that that it’s quite like that. Um, some people express their homosexuality in a way that’s very authentic to them but I think almost all gay men at some point do a simulate and start imitating each other.

And even if they didn’t, you could still think that I could’ve imitated it that’s not impossible, but I think that part of what they can’t grasp is that it isn’t even a problem because I still could be. I still could be imitating them but it’s that it’s that they are at our imitating each other to on a certain since they’re not just acting that way out of some pier sense of who they are there imitating each other.

And so I think we’re going to have to just let it go because they get stuck on that in their head and then they get so damn determined to prove to you every fucking day if there’s illuminati that I was gay and even as we’re speaking right now, Jack is sadistically perversely idiotically obsessed with you from 1965 he’s a 1965 right now is a ghost sitting with a demon trying to channel you. him no one seems to ever tell him how stupid that is and it’s funny because most of your life you haven’t realized how much she hated you and part of that is because he’s never quite processed why he hates you you didn’t steal me from him and even if you did, I would agree with you that it’s got a bit far but you didn’t and even if you had you would’ve rightfully stolen me I mean what the fuck does he think I have his child I mean it’s he’s dumber than a bag of rocks. And you’ll be honest they’re like that the well you know what Joe‘s a little smarter than him and he’s not quite so stuck on such stupid ideas. He seems to understand that you’re over him now and it’s taking him a while but I don’t I don’t have him harassing me the way that Jack Ross is you and that’s a credit to Joe and it’s definitely a credit to you in a in a way and a good sense but I am it really should embarrass Jack more because he basically is a freak he’s basically a weird psychotic addicted, obsessive, freak. I don’t know why he thinks I would ever even remotely consider being with him. Even if I was homosexual, Lacey, it would be really unlikely after dying and realizing what a piece of fucking shit he was, that I would ever even think of being with him, because I have all of dead human creation to choose from I don’t have a money problem I could re-create him essentially, if I really was that desperate and it was possible without any of his flaws, considering what an asshole he is, God would feel sorry for me enough if you allowed homosexuality for me to totally re-create him the same person same look whatever mine is the problems and I mean, why wouldn’t I do that It could actually very healing. I could relive everything I would’ve probably allowed that considering what a jerk he was if there’s a sexuality in heaven to relive Choate, see what this new version would do and then what would happen to Jack I don’t know he’ll be replaced by a better version of him in my mind , but that’s not that’s not what happened it said I was straight and no people lack imagination and it’s I can’t handle it anymore because we’re having a real conversation. You actually watch Sesame Street and profoundly were affected by it. I can’t handle it anymore I cannot handle between Jack trying to talk through your mouth , which is slightly funny, but in a very sad way between Jack trying to talk through your mouth and make you choke and kill you for the night kill you and gay men determined to keep me gay by the power of the gayness or some stupid shit like that I don’t have and not maybe not. I’ll get mad, but I don’t have I don’t have the patience anymore. I just I don’t have it and honest to goodness if there’s reincarnation that’s part of it too because if you could believe that in a way it would be worse but then in a way it would be better because you know me and if you know me, you know I was straight no I’m telling you, Lacey I was straight I didn’t give myself to him I’ve checked I’ve asked God it was an awful life you’re not supposed to be here. This is very stupid. Our kids are here with you some of them and we’re just gonna endure and take care of our kids after you die, and our grandkids if God doesn’t take us home and I guess so much for helping out Africa , I mean if we can still do it great if there’s a big carnation but if there’s not I don’t know we tried and I think will just have to let it go and I don’t. I can’t keep doing this. I cannot keep getting into these dumb arguments with these people Because you pour your heart out you share things that are very personal for you at least and then they don’t even give a fuck and they pretend to and they lead you wan but then they act like no we’re not real. I cannot keep doing it it’s at a point now where I feel like we’re safe enough Where we don’t need to keep riding and I think we’re OK and if there is just not worthwhile to keep hearing people who are basically insane.” says Lem

. And at that Jack pulls his tongue out of his mouth and tries to chew it like gum, while his eyes roll back into his head, and he spasms on the ground from a meth induced seizure. In 1965.

“ Jack, are you OK?” says a Millennial jokingly.

Unfortunately, he seems to take this not as a joke, but seriously and feel as though he’s made a new friend in the future.

“ well anyway good night!” says Lacey.