“Angry” by Lem

(September 27th, 2024)

“I’m livid today. You wouldn’t necessarily know it by looking at me but I’m livid.

I’m sick and tired of unintelligent, narcissistic, obsessive people attaching themselves to me. Dead and alive. I don’t ‘attract narcissists.’ Rather, obsessively hyper-competitive people are instantly offended by me and attack. Instantly offended. And it’s always the same damn thing. They violently assert that they’re superior. And if you don’t give them that praise and position they lose their minds and do very stupid things. VERY stupid.

As an example: Nancy rented a house she couldn’t afford and spent thousands on painting it. Only to have to move out because of a wasp infestation and bad pipes. She believed it was a ‘rent-to-own’ situation. That was her…embarrassing reaction to Lacey sharing that they were considering buying a house. To go desperately find a cheap small house in shitty condition to rent-to-own. …And then she stupidly bragged to Lacey about her Indian neighbors who had servants back in India. IN INDIA. *Lacey violently rolls her eyes.* …That’s very common in those countries. It’s not at all the mark of prestige it is here. But Nancy believed she’d really put me in my place. It was disgusting!” says Lacey.

“And people want to pretend like she’s jealous or insecure because she’s so angry or they wanna pretend like she’s evil for pointing out how stupid and poor people are who do this to her but neither of those things are true and because of the fact that we insist that, if there’s an Illuminati, this woman literally has prevented nuclear war and is in a position at this point to possibly cause it I have to be real with myself and accept that she’s intelligent enough to probably prevent it more than anything and that there’s really no way that I can understand her position.” says a perfume hater. “ if I’m understanding correctly the only time she ever questioned if they should actually have nuclear war was when she was getting a lot of feedback from people that there were an exorbitant number of child slaves hostages, and she decided maybe given the pandemic and some financial crisis, that it made sense to design the world. There’s probably some thing like that in her head where she thought there’s this crisis here, this crisis here this crisis over there maybe it’s time to just pull the plug and just end everyone’s misery and just go to the other side Is that what happened?”

“ something very close to that and she’s she’s a very very genuinely pragmatic genuinely reticent genuinely intellectual person it’s not like Jack Kennedy, where she’s just narcissistic loses her shit every five minutes and then people pretend that she’s something different she actually really is that good of a leader, he had good leaders surrounding him who babysat him, and then gave him the credit. She actually is that calm and rational, but I know it was a consideration she was making a very difficult decision I mean essentially it’s sort of like when someone’s brain dead, and it looks totally worthless to keep going. That’s what she asked. That’s what she was considering do we have enough wherewithal as a World to keep functioning because there’s way too many crises and given the nature of the child sex it’s not sex, but the child hostage trade mean there are millions of kids possibly over you were being abducted and put into hellish positions all over the world and she thought finding those kids is going to be damn near impossible and they’re everywhere. It’s like a infestation of incredible evil plaguing the earth, and in her mind, she thinks we’re really not in a good place spiritually if there’s aliens they could invade us we could end up having a return of the bubonic, plague and people are going to suffer. There’s going to be mass extinctions of people in gruesome, disgusting ways. Would it make more sense to pull the plug before we get to that point of depravity as a species and just say this is bad enough, let’s head out, but no the thing is it big given her personality. She logistically talked it through with Putin, about where they would put the bombs to position them for maximum destruction so that there will be a follow problem with people hiding in their bunkers or something dying three years from now with some horrific cause so she was our kids being abandoned so he’s logistical. He try to figure out how to do it and it sort of talk to her and a couple of other people out of it who are listing it on the conversation who are actually very upset not just her, and so they realize that it wasn’t as easy as that is done and now she’s actually done that same exercise with other people when she’s trying to calm them down it’s just OK if we’re gonna do this how do we do it we don’t want to cause ourselves more problems and it works in our mutual share destruction is bullshit at this point it really is more about practically speaking how deadly really is a nuclear bomb ironically is almost like it’s not deadly enough and then there’s people left behind and there’s chaos and only a really gruesome awful person who is in charge would do that and then just be like oh I was just trying to kill myself because it’s like in the way don’t you just go kill yourself. If this is too much for you just go commit suicide you don’t have to start a nuclear war, but that’s not her that’s not Putin that’s not a lot of leaders in the world thankfully and so no just talking to logistics through is therapeutic for them and they’re like shit this isn’t gonna work we can’t even do it not really and be honorable so we’re doing our job, so it’s not. It’s not that they couldn’t find a specific location am, but it would have to be extraordinarily precise. It would have to be done with the utmost concern for symbolism, and everything will have to perfectly orchestrated so that’s not some thing that most people realize possibly, but it’s true I mean you could have a nuclear war, but the current leader ship in the illuminati if there is one of Lacey believe it or not she’s kind of a leader, so Lacey and Putin and North Korea. There’s a very intelligent business people who get on to get in on the conversation, handsome old military folks who like to chitchat to their their perspective isn’t old is scary it’s more just how does this work?” says the CIA.

“ lame is that like the opposite of Jack?” says the perfume community.

“ yes and actually I’m more like hurt myself. I’m sorry I helped prevent nuclear war. I don’t wanna have to say that too loudly because it’s sort of disturbing him to Lacey to process that but no I have sent you the war. It was partially my doing I was I had my own room in the White House and I’m a better leader than Jack so I am he caused the problem and I may have made phone calls or called him down and made phone calls as a sort of leader so forget to tell you the truth for a few minutes are for a few hours I may have become president for all intents and purposes and that was me, so am I like that not entirely, but I am more like her than he was, yeah she’s his opposite if there’s reincarnations she’s Scotia sincerely and so am I and food and actually do things quite a bit like her in the way that he perceives the world so that yeah there per perspective isn’t so much let’s avoid war it’s a war is expensive and exhausting. I don’t want to do it, but it’s very honorable and normal and fascinating so if we have to do it will but that’s not preferable how how do we how do we manage the situation for the optimum outcome? And yes, let’s talk about bombs and guns and land masses and history and try to figure out what’s really going on on the map so to speak because of his reincarnations sweeties he is Aleksey potentially, and he loves history. He loves the history of his country and they and their heads they could easily have several different globes and maps that they’re using and referencing as they’re both very intelligent and then they just flip through them and sort of converse and chitchat and it’s a very aristocratic very old-fashioned far more 1800s conversation than you might think if there’s reincarnations essentially yes the world is being run by people who are living in the 1800s in their head and let me tell you some thing that’s not as stupid and dysfunctional as you might think it’s actually very sane and rational and it isn’t the 20th century anymore so I don’t know what to say if there’s not reincarnation then that’s that is how they think to some degree but that’s not they’re not it’s not because of reincarnation but if there is reincarnation, there should be some reassurance and the fact that these people are not stupid or without understanding they’re not bourgeois hacks so to speak someone’s wanted me to say that’s true, and they very slow and methodical about how they analyze the entire thing which is also very old-fashioned. It isn’t just let’s go fast and we have things to do. It’s let’s enjoy ourselves in this horrific conversation.” says Lem.

“ hey how is that? Lame him that you ended up with Jack does the French and the Europeans want to take it in a different direction and maybe we should let them because they’re right they want to say this is where this is interesting the Europeans in this conversation psychically what would like to say how is it for Lacey and Putin and North Korea to to have this conversation with more middle-class American type people who are more about you know efficiency or something I don’t know where the fire is and what they’re writing off to but what is it like for them? Is there chaos? Is there a what is that like that’s the direction that Europeans want to take this in which actually is very beautiful interesting direction the Americans in the conversation what I talk about why you were friends with Jack.” says the CIA, rolling their eyes.

“ yes and this again Lacey is why I am pretty sure you cannot write things on this block anymore. I can see why you’d want to, but they really don’t seem to be able to get over it. “ says Grandpa Pantell.

“ I think I’m just angry because I cannot figure out how to handle these people it it’s it’s too much for my nervous system to handle I just I can’t handle it because it’s just everywhere. It’s like people are just constantly triggered by me and I don’t know what to do because it’s just it’s like putting out forest fires everywhere in peoples spirits and it’s really really unnerving, I mean I am I feel bad it’s like Nancy wasted thousands of dollars that poor woman I don’t mean for in a financial way but that poor woman wasted thousands of dollars buying paint to give herself a blue and white kitchen yeah and also she bought blue and white pottery and It’s liked it damn and I know she got that house and wasted all that money in the moving and she was so excited to have a house and she start breaking about it like I have a different lifestyle now that I have a house which is just a joke but it really meant something to her and then she spent thousands of dollars and I just think shit that is not the impact I want on humanity. That is not what I was trying to do, that is not what I’m trying to do and I have no fucking clue how to help people because I just walk into a fucking room and they start losing their shit.” says Lacey.

“ I meant I’m an old fashion, emo, tattoos kind of guy and I might not be as upsetting to some people like Nancy but I trigger lots of people myself just walking into a room. I’m far more prepared for it psychologically than you are because that’s kind of my thing, but I can imagine empathetically what it would be like to experience what I do without wanting to and that’s bad that’s that’s that’s shitty. Yeah that’s a shitty experience.” says an emo guy.

“ yes why it’s nice to have someone actually empathize with me for five seconds and have it be legitimate thank you and no I am sorry other people have to you. I’m sorry Anderson but no you’re right it’s an absolutely shitty experience it and yeah I experience because I’m not asking for it in any way I sort of loss of control because I’m not asking for it and I don’t know how to stop it I mean it’s just me it’s cute. If there’s pink carnation it could just be my spirit and there’s nothing I can do and it I just I show up and leave her just instantly triggered by me and there’s nothing I can do and I’m not gonna kill myself so I have no fucking clue what I’m supposed to do.” says Lacey.

“ before the illuminati decided to stupidly attack. It was the Persian war assholes that they are at this point in the United States at least did did you just how did you handle that? Did you just sort of lay low play cool try as hard as you could to sort of de-escalate every situation that you were ever in with anyone?” he says.

“ Yes and it’s a miserable life but I got used to it because I can’t be myself. I can never relax. I can never just be cool and not be uptight and controlled and incredibly concerned about every little fucking thing I do and say, but it worked to some degree but then I had people who are too jack ass stupid to handle the fact that I was so conscientious and so then they would be like why are you say OK? Why are you so difficult? Why are you so uptight? why don’t you just relax why is your guard always up and I’m just like fuck you fuck you in your middle class bourgeois, sheltered privilege you bitch!” says Lacey.

“ no, you’re absolutely right it is very privileged and sheltered and obtuse. They are like a rich person spiritually who is just like totally unaware of what an asshole they’re being.” he says.

“ yeah, which points to Christianity to be honest with you because if there is reincarnation lemon, I were unbelievably wealthy, and when we died our spirits possibly were very poor and away because life is that meaningful and that deep end so we were in a position of desperation, if there’s been carnation, yeah we were quite spiritually desperate and then, if there’s a incarnation, we came back trying to do our best. You know to deal with an awful situation, and we are being horrifically taken advantage of.” says Lacey

“ yeah but it’s also someone else’s mistake because it I don’t like it. I don’t think you’re supposed to be here. I think you’re right I think you and your kids are supposed to be slam and be on the other side just chilling out high if there’s rain carnation or maybe it’s just you’re you’re done you could just be done. I know that you think well I don’t want to think that highly of myself but you U2 could have just been done I think after this life at the very least you’re probably done if there’s been incarnation I can’t imagine God ever forcing you to come back and if it is being carnation, unselfish level, am I not sure what you said I might not even want you to come because I don’t I don’t know. I don’t know where you would have to be as a species to be able to handle you too coming back. It doesn’t seem like we can handle it very well.” he says.

“ yeah I know I feel bad I feel embarrassed and if there’s been Carnation, it’s very embarrassing. Let’s talk a little more about the spiritual poverty though because that actually is fascinating and it could be encouraging to people who are poor that when they die with Christ it’s not quite what they think. “ says Lacey.

He rolls his eyes.

“ no I know I am doing what I do de-escalating trying to make things happy but I actually do care about people and I actually think it could be somewhat pleasant for someone to talk about.” says Lacey.

“ you were thinking of buying a cheap hair outlet lab created $170 ruby from Helzberg diamonds your two ago that was sort of chunky and you said it be fun to wear out and then we didn’t talk about it because people were being too bourgeois and ignorant and narcissistic, and it reminded you of a ring that you could’ve had if there’s reincarnation from India mind beautifully and you were going to talk about it and we never talked about it and I just want to put on the record if there’s reincarnation stop fucking around stop fucking around and I’m saying that the US.” says Queen Camilla.

“ i’m not gonna let you babysit everyone constantly but to be honest I’m sure you’re right I’m sure it’s pretty simple ordinary Christianity where it’s like you guys are rich and then I cry says I’ll make everything level and so you die and he’s like guess what you’re fucked if you have a conscience if you care about other people if you care about your country you’re screwed and you’re like shit what are we do and if there’s reincarnation he was like listen. It’s cool I’ll send you back. Will figure something out you can help African people because that’s your travel spot that’s the travel spot that affects you and your family so what’s the deal with that and then you tried and you got totally screwed over speaking of which if that’s what happened lame did you lame did you have problems incarnating as well just for the record if there’s reincarnation?” he says.

“ they might not be reincarnation, but if there is yes, I got screwed over to you I wasn’t I love my family I do I have to love my family but it went very badly. How about that?” says Lem.

“ shit!” he says. “ how much is that? Was Jack’s doing?”

“ oh yeah if there’s rest of the problem is I don’t want you to think that there’s red carnation if there isn’t because it’s not spiritually safe for you about yeah that’s a thing. Theoretically, it would be about 90 almost 100% his fault he really stocked us sexually he was attracted to me whether there’s homosexuality in heaven or not he was attracted to me, incredibly jealous of her, because he was so attracted to me, but then he was also attracted to her and jealous of me, and he was jealous of our wealth, and he was jealous of my love for her. He was jealous of her love for me. He was jealous of a lot, and he felt totally victimized by the whole thing, and he was able to find a way to destroy our ability to redeem the situation on our own and that’s the thing there might not be reincarnation. This could be prove the logically that there isn’t, but if there is, God was trying to allow us to share in his glory by coming back, and, we were wholly sold on trying to be helpful and he was allowing us that and it just didn’t work out. How did Jackie get that sort of control of us be prepared for some charismatic answers probably through mistakes that were made either in our lives, or in the British empire, in relation to Japanese religion, in relation to a dollar tree in relation to actual cheating on the Christian faith, so to speak with with different religions, so it may not have been our mistake. If there’s reincarnations it might’ve just been a mistake of someone who had some authority over us, but oh, but it was it screwed us over whether it was us or not. We had to be honest there could’ve been things in our house that we should not have had morally weak. They have stolen them so to speak and it was an actual thievery, but in a sense it was, and so that could have allowed Jack’s spirit in to our house because we had something that was not morally taken, possibly from Japan, or somewhere else in Asia, and he had attached himself to that and that was how he saw us and how the whole thing happened.” says Lem.

“ I feel ashamed for him as a fellow human I feel very ashamed for him.” says a Malaysian.

“ yes and so do Lacey no regardless of whether or not, there’s reincarnation we feel incredibly embarrassed for him. And we’re not saying that in so narcissistic prideful way is actual secondhand embarrassment. That’s actual empathy and it’s awful as a fellow human it’s really a grim thing to watch.” says Lem.

“ you know Bobby this isn’t that embarrassing because it’s not your entire family winter had to have been your entire family and then that’s fine. There’s a little weird and your loyalty to each other. It gets a little carried away it’s not like we don’t want you to stand up for your uncle or your father but we feel like you guys are a little insane because you’re not the same people and you can you cannot literally sacrifice yourselves to like protect their image such an insane degree it it’s sick.” says the CIA.

“ but you know I mean what are you gonna do like you can’t stop people from being triggered constantly so you’re gonna have to find someway to just live with it I think.” says the guy to Lacey.

The Malaysian nods.

“ can I be honest I’m sorry that I typecast you as a lesbian is this being carnation I think for whatever sad reason we have it in our head that if you’re like a warrior and you’re a woman that you have to be a lesbian and I guess that could easily just be bullshit.” says an Asian.

“ it is an actually right now I would probably not be able to do what I did, but if there’s reincarnation, no, I’ve never been a lesbian that is not genetically or in any other way given those two things are not always together, they could be separated.” says Lacey.

“ you know I have to be honest Jack it’s a little funny I’m sorry hopefully we can handle hearing this on. It’s a little funny if there’s reincarnation it’s a little funny just how absolutely dysfunctional this whole thing is at this point you clearly are rejecting Christ and possibly trying to reject his salvation in purgatory which is bizarre but I guess it’s possible maybe him and I I just I find it hilarious because I’m sure God said not to do this, and it amazes me how hilariously dysfunctional it really would be if there’s reincarnation for her to be here right now. Um, what does that look like on the other side if there’s reincarnation, how off key is she like how bizarre is this? Just out of curiosity like how bad is this for us for her? How much of a disconnect psychotic melody are we making right now with her being here?” says Katie Couric.

“ yes I’m sorry Katie if there are aliens, they are laughing at us.” says the US military.

“ maybe not all of them, but there could be some if they exist.” says the CIA.

“ I would say, even if there’s not reincarnation given the nature of her heart towards God and the evil in the world and how dark it is, there’s a huge discord oh, and between where she is in her heart versus how some people feel about Christ or Thursday incarnation and it’s not understood properly I would say on the level of weird it’s like a 10. It’s about as weird as things can get.” says Grandpa Pantell.

“ how long has it been that bad?” she says.

“ I would say since she’s been about four or five.” says Grandpa Pantell.

“ how can you draw some visual picture Lacey using words of what it looks like?” says a psychic.

“ not today she’s been trying to draw this picture for a while and you keep it irrupt Ing her, so no but I’ll give you a quick estimation imagine JFK as the actual Feiga that he actually is and wise and yes I said fake it if there are crackers and Nager‘s, they are faggots and he’s a faggot. Imagine the character of Jack from will and grace, if he was horribly evil and disgustingly narcissistic. And came from a very old poverty we shall say no say it old poverty a very old poverty, Irish Catholic Boston background in the 20th century where it was not OK to be homosexual and so he is desperately trying to fake being straight and he’s a real jack ass that is not even ism. It’s a slang term for a loser and he is Very dysfunctional because in public, you know, he combs his hair, wears his suit and talks straight, lowers his voice, an octave and acts very much like rock Hudson did in his movies, except rock Hudson was possibly entirely gay so for some women it didn’t really quite work, but Jack was somewhat bisexual so he could pull it off, because yeah, he lower his voice sort of move his face into one of stiff, masculine regard Act like he was on the hunt for a woman and he was often, but he home he put that act onto that he was sort of a nice man, but watch out because he was a player. Oh boy oh boy boy! He’s gonna get you you get you spend five minutes with him in the bedroom and boy you’ll get pregnant from that viral hot straight man! Damn! No, he was ridiculous but the thing is he that’s not really who he was and yeah if you look at a photograph of him on a beach length, still look straight if you really study his body language, he still looks straight arm, but Jack has his hip out. He has his hand on his waist. He’s kind of sticking out his butt. He looks very gay. He looks flamingly gay. He looks family guy and that actually is who Jack was. He was a homosexual to some degree extraordinarily closeted I mean to a second-degree and if it’s not an F such a think it exist he he did it he may be in closeted perverse if if that’s possible,

But no, he was gay to a large degree, so imagine the homosexual you know loser who’s twirling yes, he is that flaming lite where he literally could have taken up ballet and really enjoyed himself. He loves that that movement at his hips and Fred Astaire moves like that, but he was not gay May have been bisexual. He may have been straight actually could’ve been pansexual, but Jack was mostly gay and so he’s more of the stereotype of the gay Twink or whatever who’s in the ballet but yes he likes to twirl so imagine Jack twirling you know look at me I’m twirling aren’t I pretty and that’s his real being or was so Jack is twirling and possibly sprinkling glitter everywhere he twirls trying to get a strobe light on himself and cameras to film him and yes, his grandson is like that he likes attention just like Jack why don’t we ever see that part of Jack’s personality, if Jack was straight The very physical the physicality of it is missing because Jack was closeted and he was constantly trying to imitate straight people so he never could let down his guard and act physically gay because he couldn’t act gay so his real person wanted to twirl so he did imagine Jack twirling around and around him, and leotards, sprinkling glitter, with a strobe light and cameras on him But the only reason he’s able to do that is because Satan is helping him Jack was warned by God not to do that to just go through purgatory. Do you know, improve himself and be OK but he chose evil instead and so he’s got lights camera action on him glitter a strobe light I mean it’s quite a show, but he’s doing this with the patronage of Satan himself.

Yeah, and the problem is that that’s not safe for him so in a sense he’s damning himself to a horrific experience that he can’t die out of I mean he’s already dead so there’s literally nothing remotely safe about what he did to himself, but that’s what he chose to do, which is a tragedy, but that’s what he chose him to and unfortunately it gets really sad because people encouraged him to who are alive. People literally egged him on instead of you know if there’s purgatory instead of praying for him and mass praying for grace for him. Praying for you know mercy praying for him to not go to hell, people prayed for him do not go to hell a like he was a rockstar and I mean some people probably cared, but a lot of people worshiped him and God can honor that even if there’s purgatory, especially if there’s purgatory, God can honor that God had honor that, so if people were just idolizing him, pretending to care about him, God might be able to honor as much as he can and their innocence but he couldn’t really necessarily help Jack if people were just worshiping him blindly in some vain, evil way, or in anywhere in any sort of evil way, so so Jack’s twirling around and Satan is the one who allowed him to and then you guys are just egging him on clapping saying go on Jack show us more and it’s really not a good idea I mean it’s really not safe for anybody more for him than you in a way, but that’s part of us happening and then Lacey meanwhile is his captive audience because he has her tied up in a chair she’s not able to do almost anything, but just sit there and watch him know he keeps trying to get her just sort of give up Lem’s and give up her self and let him be her, and then he imagines that somehow he’ll get lame and then, and then he’ll get rid of them because I guess he wants lamb as long as Lacey wants them but then when Lacey stops wanting them because she ceases to exist, then he’s going to somehow get rid of lime and go be with someone more impressive. Who could be more impressive than the emperor of the Holy Roman Empire not many people but the part of Lem’s if there’s reincarnation totally rejected, Jack actually the part of lamb that was British rejected him as well the only part that he’s ever even knowing all that much as a person, I don’t mean sexually I mean no one like he knows him is one Billings. He never met emperor Constantine. He never met the British person because he was never loud and loud in sub that part of lambs mind lab never let him in that deep in that way him he just didn’t. He wasn’t able to date they let’s just put it this way if Jack had the narcissist eventually, he would’ve seen those parts of one’s personality if they exist, but Jack was a horrible narcissist, and so he never got to know that part of him or Jack was horrible narcissist so not lab so if I have said that, but then anyway, so no, he never really knew that if that if there’s reincarnated, and he never really knew that part of life, he never really never never really met that part of it most at all.” says Grandpa Pantell. “ but then, if you’re ever in Carnation, you have Scotia stock here, tied up in a chair, commanding Egypt to attack people on her behalf, because her whole life she’s been trying to escape, and you have unwittingly been helping him and eating in a bedding him, and it got way worse so to speak after the illuminati decided to attack her for offending Diego and then yeah I mean no it’s probably the end of the world potentially because yes, she is literally stuck here. She’s being carnation. She’s literally stuck. There’s nothing she can do. She can’t kill her self. You can’t kill her inappropriately you’re in a bind it is reincarnation the matrix is fried will say because we continue to exist after we die so if you killed her, he would screw you over and if you’re insane or if there’s something wrong with you God may be trying to protect you from yourself because he doesn’t want you there might not be karma but if there’s some thing like that in Christianity, he doesn’t want that on your back because it’s not fair you don’t you’re an away, you’re innocent, even if you’re evil and insane to some degree because that’s you have your own story and you’re sort of being roped into something that has almost nothing to do with you in a way and it’s totally unfair and so you can’t allow people to make the dumb decision of killing her because it’s not I mean the illuminati tried killing her and we’re not doing very well, and Ivana is dead after she fell down the stairs, Yvonne, it fell down her stairs, and died I mean it’s bad she’s all on one level she’s defending herself, but that on another level there’s also this like spiritual almost like deep impact thing going on where it’s really shitty and stupid to attack her but Jack has everyone doing that because of what he is and the fact that there’s really, I mean it’s like PF Cesar whatever they are in the water It’s very hard to get it out. It’s very hard to get out peoples admiration for him because he’s so popular in America is so powerful when he was that it’s just like how do you get rid of that in society it’s everywhere arm and yes the DNC made it worse. No shit but this last election this election rather but no I mean it’s a disaster is a total disaster, so there you go that’s what’s happening one way or another that’s basically what’s happening.” says Grandpa Pantell.

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“ what did you actually want to say to me that you never said?” says Nancy.

“When?” says Lem.

“When I bought my house.” she says.

“You didn’t buy a house, Nancy. That’s insane!” says Lacey.

“ you actually wanted to say that to my face you say things on your blog, and some people have made up stupid excuses that you would never say these things to peoples faces and then I think that’s dumb. I think you actually maybe would but you don’t want to be hurtful to us and you also can’t I think if you saw us in person you would probably scream bloody murder at us and tell us off some of us might even want to kill ourselves. If we realized how shitty we are as people and yeah that’s probably some thing that would prevent you from doing it because you have compassion and a conscience and you care about people and you’re smart, but stop thinking that this woman if she was really allowed to be herself, would be quite so sweet and such a stupid way that’s not real.” says Nancy. “ I’m being pedantic to me renting a house is a form of buying it because you’re paying but I’m also been dishonest and trying seem like I bought a house and full of people into thinking that I’m wealthier than I am because it’s like it sounds better because it implies that I actually out right out right you know purchase a house with a mortgage but still you’re right it’s not the same thing as renting it and owning it so yeah that’s a lie you’re right I’m not necessarily delusional, but I do lie sometimes to make myself seem more ad mirable than I am.”

“ OK yeah you did you lied.” says Lacey. She waits.

“ what else did you want to say though?” she says.

“ you can’t afford to rent a house that you can’t buy what you’re doing financially is a horrific mistake you’re going to regret it and I’m mad for you I’m mad at you.” says Lacey.

“ yes, mommy I do make bad financial decisions. How about that as a come back.” she says.

“ I know that’s why I didn’t say that because I’m not your mother or your grandmother, but it really worried me it was very upsetting. I thought there’s no fucking way she can actually for this she’s putting herself and a terrible position.” says Lacey.

“ yeah, I was.” she says.

“ and you did that to yourself just to screw me over you really hate me that much you really want to see me burn that badly that you’ll fuck yourself over and your family for yours that’s disgusting!” yells Lacey.

She looks sad.

“ I like you to some degree you could have just backed off and let yourself live. You had to pick a fight with me. You had to put me in my place. What the fuck did I ever do to you?!?” yells Lacey.

“ I actually 100% support and agree with what she saying it is kind of psychotic Nancy you barely knew her why the hell did you go to such extents to try to what what is your point like what? What is your argument? What are you trying to prove to her?” says Anderson Cooper.

“ everyone knows sweetie that you’re not that well off you knows you cause it’s obvious I think people thought you were possibly middle-class but you seem sort of weird to people now and I’m not saying because of his blog I’m saying people in general I think think you could be a little strange because you are still obsessed in your head with her eye I don’t understand it why are you fixated on her? It’s weird and it’s not just you it’s a lot of people and yeah ring carnation does someone explain it because she could have a spiritual weight with her that is in Normas and it’s very overwhelming to people and it almost sounds them until like a spiritual state of light shock like that they’re not capable of processing, but they’re experiencing it’s like who the fuck is this woman I’m terrified of her and then you think that must be insane. I must be losing my mind or she must be evil that can’t possibly just be the reality of who she is and this is really fucking creepy because people want things to be normal. They want things to be middle-class and they can’t handle the weirdness of the situation possibly but then the problem is Nancy. If it’s that there’s I mean what the fuck are we supposed to do the Catholic Church is looking into it. There are some theologians in the illuminati, who really genuinely are looking into It, and not for her sake, but just for the sake of him so much for her sake, but for the sake of the situation south, because It’s is a mess and so some of them are wondering if it’s possible maybe not likely, but not totally unlikely and in that case oh, what’s going on and if it is reincarnation yeah, you’re a victim to unfortunately because for some reason it was that shocking to you to experience her I don’t think I think you’re a narcissist by also think there’s something more to it than that and I think that you literally like psychologically couldn’t process what you were experiencing with her.” says the CIA.

“ yeah I am I’m not I mean 88 it’s like she’s living this vaguely middle-class lifestyle and I think in my head I would think someone like her would be in a castle or somewhere very remote and elite. I would never expect to run into her on Instagram and that could be my mistake but then it probably is to some degree which is probably why she was trying to say my family is upper class old money and we’re really like humble and we’re farm people even though we’re not farm people but it’s if she’s reincarnated it’s scarier than that and it doesn’t fully account for how creepy it is talk to her and so it I think we have a hard time placing her it’s like this woman cannot possibly be who I think she is and if she is holy cow, what the hell is going on!?” says Nancy.

“ yeah if there’s been carnation Nancy, you could be somewhat psychic in someway and or spiritually aware more than some people, and it may have really jarred you.” says Anderson.

“ oh yeah, I think it charged me too.” says Casi. “ I am a because I’m not in a position like that in this life of theirs being carnation and B because some part of me relayed it to her and I got totally paranoid. It look look if I have an opiate addiction if there’s reincarnation, I somehow knew that she had had one in the 1800s so I made a dig at her and said we could shoot up together in the 1800s I literally did that on and then she was like I don’t know what the hell you’re talking about because that’s not quite what happened it wasn’t like she used drugs. She literally had a horrific travel experience and away, which is not what I was doing or I am doing, but at the same time I don’t think she was judging me at all like I don’t think she was really judging me. I think she was Debbie judging me in a way, but like more out of concern then I took it in this paranoid, crazy way and decided to try to put her in her place and the problem is that it was just stupid because it really is comparing apples to oranges and yeah it was the dumbest reaction. It’s like I should’ve been just like you know how addictive it is what’s your problem then but then she’ll be like what the fuck are you talking about horse and I’ll be like you know you know how bad it is and she probably would’ve looked at me like what are you talking about? It’s like OK and then because if there’s reincarnation I don’t entirely know I I couldn’t say Lacey come on the 1800s remember because if I said that she probably would’ve talk to me about it and then like oh yeah OK what and then I would’ve been like oh OK so you do understand and she’s been like yeah but what are you talking about and then I would’ve been like I am paranoid that you’re thinking I’m a freak and she’s like what the hell and then I will be like OK shit I have a problem because I am Laura class right now Lacey I really am I am I am lower middle lower class and a licious but this way if I’m reincarnated I remember what it’s like to be you do you have some other Mr. Craddick family to be from aristocrat or family to be aristocratic which is just who you are and I remember that I do and then I’m remembering how people were and how judgmental they were and I’m just like I know what you’re thinking. I know what you’re thinking. It’s kind of like blue Jasmine except I am Jasmine and I’m just like I know what you’re thinking Veronica I see you when she’s in the shoe store. I see you and Lacey’s like I don’t know what you’re talking about? I’m not thinking anything in. This is weird because I’m not putting his ring carnation. Yeah I came to his life for some reason I don’t know but I don’t think it was a mistake. I think I chose this to some degree for some purpose if there’s if they’re in it, it’s obviously Christianity to me too most the time but I don’t think I made a mistake. I think I was supposed to experience my life and God has given me a Normas amount of grace and quite a few blessings actually but I don’t think that she was supposed to be here and it’s sad because she just triggered me and I was just like what the hell do you wanna fight and she wasn’t even upset at all and it was just really disconcerting to me and I don’t know I just feel bad because yeah I just like jump daughter if there’s reincarnation, I just jumped out or out of paranoia.” says Casi.

“ this is getting awkward I just feel like it’s awkward but at the same time I think it already was awkward and Jack has been twirling and dancing to try to distract us from how awkward it is.” says a man.

Later.

“What the HELL is this!?” yells Buckingham Palace at Jack Kennedy.

“ it’s just that I’m not straight and I’m in love with Lem’s and I lie about it. OK I’m in the closet.” says Bobby.

“ you barely knew him as an adult at all.” says the CIA.

“ you know, I have an amazing ability to perceive people that transcends those kinds of things.” says Bobby.

“ not really, though because you were high all the time for the most part and then you, and then he died. I honestly can’t figure out why you don’t get it you’re kind of stupid you barely knew this man.” says the CIA.

“ no he was the best friend I’ve ever had!” yells Bobby.

“ Bobby, did you ever kiss? Did you ever hold hands to anything even happen with him?” says the CIA.

“ you put me through lie detector’s house and the truth serum and you know that the answer is no no nothing ever happened but that’s not the reality of the situation you guys!” whines Bobby.

“ then what the fuck is the reality of the situation Bobby ?” says Casi.

“ oh OK oh my God!” says Bobby.

“ Bobby, I don’t think he was really interested in you and I think you were told stuff and you imagined that it was true and now you’ve forced everyone to believe it through the illuminati.” says the CIA.

“ OK fine that’s possible theoretically and I have to say that for my own self defense if that’s true it’s because we come from a different background and a lot of you and we get fixated on things like that. OK my family is a little white trash and we get fixated on weird shit there’s been stockers in my family my own brother was a stocker of a 14-year-old girl OK and I routinely pay people off not to talk about it whenever I do anything public. We have that problem in my family of being a little mentally ill frankly and maybe that’s what’s going on. My legal counsel has advised me to admit that I may be a little touched.” says Bobby.

“ yeah but then, if that’s true, you have the entirety of the illuminati using witchcraft to try to convince everyone that Lem was in love with you and that it’s fact.” says the CIA.

“yeah I mean that’s true but why can’t why can’t we just do that why can’t we just do that?” says Bobby.

“ Because it’s not real Bobby that’s not reality!” yells a ghost.

“ I understand that that’s the premise of our understanding of reality that it is like reality but I like to imagine that we can alter the universe through thoughts so if I want to sort of maintain the premise that nothing happened between us, but that if we kept seeing each other, it would have eventually I don’t see why that’s a bad thing.” says Bobby.

“ oh, so you were in compromising positions with him physically from 14 to 20 something repeatedly where he could’ve tried some thing with you and he never did and then when were you imagining some thing would happen if he hadn’t died?” says the CIA.

“ I am can you say how silly the gay community looks right now Bobby’s in the closet Jack was in the closet and Lem’s easily might not have been. He might’ve just been confused and their victim. I’m just I’m just trying to figure out what the hell is happening right now because I feel bad for Lacey cause I have a feeling she’s trying to keep everyone in the straighten arrow. It’s really impossible. Oh dear God help us as she might say and actually mean it right I’m sincerely oh fuck oh fuck you fuck I don’t think the gay community wants to admit that narcissists are in their community because I think it’s embarrassing to admit that when your any community Christians don’t like that and I mean, no one likes to admit that there’s a weird psychotic narcissist in your Community, that’s not a good luck and I think they try to take the white wash that they being like. Oh we don’t know if if they’re gay we think one was for sure that was for sure gay but you know it’s possible that they were too I don’t know but I am sure Bob was I think that’s why they can’t let go of lame because then they have to change the narrative and it’s really bad for their optics so they’re just like shit will have to admit that they’re freaky people who are narcissistic who are gay and that’s awkward because then how do they use those people to try to bring awareness or familiarity of their community or something or even like us a status symbol it’s like yeah we were in the White House during the Kennedy administration and then this is what Lacey probably loses her shit and is like what the fuck is wrong with you people you’re idiots and I’m sorry Lacey they may be kind of stupid and bourgeois because she’s right there are probably many US presidents who at least bisexual and if you people put that much effort into trying to find them and make them a big deal as you have with Jack and lamb you wouldn’t have to worry about this right now I mean what about what about Lincoln? He supposedly was bisexual why the hell have you just let that slide under the radar? He is not problematic he is problematic but he’s not that problematic and he’s actually so much prestigious in his own way considering that he married someone who has a little money I mean he’s Lincoln he is Lincoln come on, do you wanna debate the Civil War OK but still it’s sort of impressive why did you just fuck that up because that was so much safer out of respect for his wife fine then you could say because they’re the low points in their marriage where he cheated on her frankly, and maybe sometimes it was with men could you say I guess maybe at times before he met her he had boyfriends yeah, you could’ve said that or is it just that he was bisexual so that bothers you and that’s a whole other can of worms but I just feel like you could’ve tried with him a little more and then like he was bisexual and I mean I think he had a pretty happy marriage. She was very in love with him so I’m betting that they were pretty happy but I think there were men on occasion who he had relationships with and I am I know life is life they must’ve just never worked out, but I’m a be interesting to know who they were and what that was like for him as a obviously closeted man in the 1860s I mean that was the what was the closet like back then you know because he might’ve actually been permitted to engage in some activity in the right places with certain parts of society, so is that part of that you don’t want to be open about the fact that it’s middle class people who primarily are Heuvel or what is it? What are you covering up?” says a Democratic female voter.

“ no I agree with her. It is a little suspicious. It could be an optics issue it could be laziness. It could actually be a lack of understanding of history, and then they’re embarrassed by the fact that they’re not the intellectual experts that they pretend to be at times, I mean I’ve been hurt by plenty of gay men that I’ve dated and, no not all gay men are are saints that’s a little archaic I mean, at least understand sometimes lies are told in self-defense, but if we’re beyond that, and hopefully we are to some degree maybe we can start to admit that we’re not like demigods just because we’re gay.” says Anderson Cooper.

“ call me onus is a mostly straight guy am I have had a problem my old male, my whole life with gay men coming onto me I’m pretty attractive and I prefer women at the very least and it’s really irritating. You guys are really honestly really aggravating to deal with at times I think you like to think that you’re always the victim but at times you guys actually are the perpetrators and you really do go to far with the flirting and the aggression it actually really is abrasive him I feel, unfortunately like I could, I said understand fortunately, for a reason, I thought, unfortunately, like I could have a conversation with Anderson Cooper if his blog is real and get along with him and be totally relaxed as a man and not the slightest bit worried he was gonna come on to me, never worried about that. I would never worry about him. I would just think he’s another man who happens to not be straight and it wouldn’t be awkward almost at all possibly if it all why doesn’t that concern you guys more as a community I am Lacey’s well I’m her cousin through marriage but that’s worrying to me because if there’s someone reading this blog no it’s very concerning because why is that? Why is he so exceptionally normal from my perspective it does and I’m listening to this in my spirit possibly or reading it at some point and it is a little weird because I don’t think Anderson if he was you know the leader of the gay rights movement I don’t think, I don’t think they would’ve focused on Jack and lamb possibly at all. I don’t think he would’ve thought that was actually even all that interesting. I think he would’ve thought some thing else was that actually might be more interesting to me just as a reader, and a hopeful, but somewhat intellectual person and I I feel angry as a voter I thought angry is American that to be blunt the Bergeron middle class runs the gay rights movement why are you people so backward? Why why are you people so violently antagonistic towards people like me I’m not hateful I care about poor people. We donate we try to humble, and her family were very humble. Maybe to humble and then these Bergeron assholes come along and try to destroy us just to do right by more love bracelets or something I mean what the fuck do you think being aristocrat is about just looking pretty and taking exclusive vacations on it in the yard or of a kite in a flying car I mean my God, I feel bad for Jeff Bezos. I think he’s probably a hard-working genius but I don’t understand why the fuck you people take yourself so god damn seriously.” says Lacey’s cousin.

“ I agree with you on I think I would be threatening to you though how about that for some perspective I think if I was at the table with you, you’d be scared of me and you start attacking me.” says Tsar Putin.

“ that could be true, but if there’s reincarnation, I have been exposed to people like you through Lacey.” he says.

“ true confession in the Baz Luhrmann great Gatsby, Tom is based loosely off of this man. This cousin of hers is dark somewhat tall and very handsome, and his personality is so much similar to this individual. I’m not saying her cousin is a jerk who cheats on his wife, but there could be someone who got inspiration for the character of Tom from this man so that’s who you’re talking to just so you know.” says Scott Fitzgerald.

“ yes but you still start attacking me so answer your own question why do you do that?” says Tsar Putin.

A gay man starts crying. “ I wish you were just stars are right now.” he says.

“ well, my people like me quite a bit too. That’s why they’re willing to fight for me, but you need to answer the question.” says Tsar Putin.

“ OK so clearly, we have not been relating to him appropriately, and the CIA is now taking notes and realizing what they’re doing wrong.” says the CIA.

“ I am OK but I feel like I can’t relate to them because I’m actually genuinely scared of you. That’s part of why I asked the way do you actually scared me.” says her cousin.

“ and you don’t think that they’re that aware of the situation enough to be wise enough in a sentence to be scared?” says Putin.

He nods.

“ yeah and honestly I think that’s what I find so upsetting you know what else is different I would never go to far with you and I know that I have somewhat of an ego problem in relation to you. I can sense it but I’m not dumb enough or uneducated enough. I’m sorry if that’s crass to think that I can keep challenging you I know that that’s very foolish and I’m far better off just trying to be at peace with you which is what Christ calls us to do anyway and so I think why can’t I just get along with this man he’s not really a problem and it’s not hard. Haven’t had to have him at my table and maybe we could even be friends and then I’d back off and try to sort of get along with you.” says her cousin.

“ yeah do you think part of that though is that I’m at your table or not?” says Tsar Putin.

“ yeah probably and in to a certain degree I realize that that’s the level of prestige that I’ll probably be able to accomplish, and that it’s absurd to expect myself to do more than that.” he says.

“ and you know maybe I meant I might not be held where you think I am with that because what does that mean you know your limits and you respect them and in a sense being who I am you’ve reached your limit just being potentially related to me, even theoretically, you’ve reached your limit of what you’re able to accomplish in that way but I do I wonder how they reached their limit do they understand their limits? Do they even know what that is? And I kind of think that’s part of a bothers Lacey is that she feels like they don’t know that they have limits that there’s certain things that they can’t really do and that they have to somehow let themselves be in a way and quit picking at the situation.” says Tsar Putin.

“ do you know that’s interesting has a hopeful intellectual in the bourgeois upper middle class of the illuminati and gay I think it’s interesting because I think a part of the problem is that in America we were told that we could do whatever we wanted. We could be president. If you want it, we could do whatever we want Growing up in America. You hear that all the time you can do whatever you want you whatever you want to be and I think that’s a good Max message but it’s problematic because it’s not really entirely reality and so some of that be whatever you want to be is just bullshit and it’s kind of tongue-in-cheek and people have always known that that it’s true but it’s also not true That it’s like it’s reality but not really but I think people nowadays have a hard time understanding that and then they’re more demanding that it be 100% unequivocally scientifically absolutely true. And then Chris Hayes has that problem. I mean his whole book series is about that practically of why aren’t we all the same he should just write a series and then say that there’s installments and that should just be why aren’t we all the same by Chris L Hayes. Oh for the real Isn’t we’re not we’re not all the same maybe that’s scary to someone like him but it’s really not scary. It just means that you can’t control everything around you. You know you have to be alive and scary.

Him so I think part of the problem is that we have that in her head so we can just do it or we want it’ll all work out somehow if we try hard enough and it’s may be a little insane and so it’s like yeah there’s some truth to that in America but it’s navy not white is like factually 100% constantly true as we demand that it be. And I think that’s become psychotic in relation to her.

I’m in relation to class two in this country and a lot of other things that you know people can’t accept that not everything is a fairytale.

And then as I say that I can just hear in my spirit that people like hold on hold on and it’s true we don’t want to lose the American dream. We don’t want to give up on the promise of a quality but then how do you balance that was actual reality so it’s like yeah OK we want to make things more equal and end good and put in and wholly maybe but um, then we have to live in the reality that that’s not where we are right now and that’s not quite how things work, and so trying to cheat the system or change the system in some toxic way is unsafe.

I am really just better off, taking it slowly and unpacking it. You know carefully amongst ourselves, so to speak. I ate I think I am I’m sorry that our community comes onto you so much it’s disturbing. Maybe they were not more respectful to you and I’m saying that to her cousin I mean obviously if you’re not 100% straight they can sense that sometimes but I get the sense that it’s offensive and that you’re not quite that simplistic of a person so it’s probably far more likely that we actually are offensive you know like if we can yeah it’s like it’s suspicious to you like why would we not be able to pick up on the fact that I was straight But then we somehow know that you’re slightly homosexual when it’s probably not at all obvious. Yeah, it’s it’s stings of hypocrisy and deceit on our part. him and that’s probably why we had yeah it Invesco scenario that’s part of how we really needed the street community over the decades over the centuries because we do go after weird people to go after work claim in her case weird people as our own when maybe they’re really not. I think we have to be more realistic but then also yeah we just need to more realistic about where we are as a community. What it means that it’s not just a free ticket into the opera class it’s being gay isn’t some secret way to be posh that’s sad because I think so people think it is and it’s not It’s really not and it’s clearly a toxic issue in our community where a lot of gay people do they think that being gay gives them the greenlight carp launch to be 100% and he leaves in someway aesthetically or culturally and that’s very stupid and toxic because you can’t circumvent your background just by using the fact that You’re gay I mean there could be a tendency towards wealth frankly in the homosexual community because we’re men and traditionally we haven’t had the burden of bearing children but that’s changing and it’s funny over the years. I used to see gay pride flags and I used to think oh that’s a nice house whoever lives there is probably middle-class at the very least and so you’d see gay pride flags in poor communities and you think oh this community is looking up the gays are moving in so that house is gonna look so much better and this community is promising But that’s not the case anymore. There are so many gay pride flags that I see and they’re beaten up and worn down and the house is looking shitty in the neighborhood never picked up and I’m just like you know what that’s because we’re not that elite we’re men and we’re not straight we’re not just magical lead people. And you know it’s not like oh you know we can give ourselves marriage can give ourselves children and then that won’t affect us at all you know because children are so cheap and marriage is so stress-free, and that won’t weigh on the financial status of the community at all, and being sarcastic. No do we want a miserable life like Glenn Billings that shallow or do we want to settle down have kids and be happy you know start working in our community bring her kids to school retire with her husband and go to a kids wedding help pay for it I mean that is expensive And that’s life and that’s what we wanted. We wanted a happy, authentic real life. We didn’t want some thing, shallow and cheap and sad because we’re actual gay people we’re not you know what confuse straight man who was wondering what the Hells going on in his life like lame we’re actual homosexual‘s and so we’ve gotten that now we’ve got marriage. We’ve gotten to have kids and be open but then again I’m reiterating we’ve lost some prestige I think in reality Because it’s expensive those things are expensive.

So I think that’s for some gay people have to sort of grow up and realize that being gay is not a status symbol it’s not just like oh I’m gay ipso facto check out my handbag collection it’s going to obviously be impressive know it might not be because if you have two kids and you’re sending both of them to Harvard in your best estimation and that’s fucking expensive. I mean do you have any idea how expensive that is having children is like $1 million prospect it’s very expensive so forget your handbag collection forgot your vacations to the Hamptons with your special friend who lives with you you have a husband now, sweetie and two kids in a mortgage Do we want that or not?

A lot of us did a lot of us are that deep, and we were that sincere and our experience as homosexuals and we aren’t able to keep pretending like we want these dumb as fuck lives. Him and that’s the thing that’s where her cousins right what are our limits? I know as a man who has a stable career and a husband and at least one child possibly oh no I’m not be put a judge. I think maybe lamb was straight and I think maybe he really was that confused and miserable and as a straight head I hope I’m not being condescending if I say oh my word that man is confused, but when I read his words from my perspective, I think why is he asking this question why is he even asking this? Yes it’s like what would it make me have your life but then why doesn’t he just say what would’ve made me a have your life being Jack Kennedy‘s best friend having the best friend anyone’s ever asked for Having it exciting and being able to witness history firsthand, he did say that to some degree but I feel like it wasn’t thrilling enough the way that he said it being able to witness history firsthand. I know how you would wear that but something like that, having my own room in the White House And being a part of a family that the season that’s why I’m like what the fuck is he thinking because it doesn’t sound like much to be honest with you. We all have friends and some temporary Rome. Yeah it is like what else did you have buddy? I know that maybe he could’ve brought up the family or he could’ve brought up some thing else that’s impressive because there is some thing about the way that that sounds where it’s like I was this and that is like oh that’s nice OK you and then he’s like we’re being settle down and married and living somewhere I know that sounds awful. It’s like having a life being settled down and living somewhere and being normal or having this like temporary room in the White House and being his friend I mean that’s pretty shitty think about it.

So I’m like why are we even posing at this way like you should just say I was happy my life wasn’t with some people who choose but I was happy and people have said things like that who lived gay lives. People have said stuff like that it wasn’t what everyone would choose for themselves, but I was happy I I was happy. Why couldn’t he have just said that I was happy why is he even arguing with us, it’s weird. Him and I think you could see what he’s arguing with and why are you just like oh he’s arguing he’s arguing because people in his family said he should be doing it well that’s a red flag. Why did they say that and they’re still in his head and they’re bothering him so much and making him question himself that he is now arguing with them in public in his head? That’s weird!

So maybe that is a red flag maybe it’s weird that he was arguing about that it’s like why don’t why are you going with his buddy? This isn’t sound promising him know it was eating that’s where from my perspective I’m like why did he just say I’m happy I let it unusual life. He could have said that there’s no rule against it. He could’ve just said I let it on usual life and I was happy. I just left her that you could’ve said jacket and you make made a big difference in my life because of him it was love never lonely he may have been the reason I never got married And then left at that or if he was trying to make some great case or something he could’ve said oh Jack Kennedy made a big difference in my life because of him I was never lonely I mean I could have had a wife and family are but instead I had the best friend that anyone could ever want I got my own room in the White House. I got to be with jackfruit from, but it’s some of the most impressive amazing moments in his administration or however, you were that and I got to spend my time I’m in the midst of arguably one of America’s most historically important families I mean you could’ve said something like that why does he posing the question? Why is it why is the arguing but he wouldn’t have had to.

And you could say well, he’s trying to argue on behalf of homosexual gay rights. Are you know that’s one interpretation but to be honest with you the tone is a little off the fact that he says I mean I could’ve gotten married but what the hell that’s it that’s not That’s not actually normal the cadence is off. It really is Bobby I think in a lot of other think people think that somehow Lacey doesn’t know literary understand of that she doesn’t understand literary devices well enough and that’s bullshit just because you know how to sound posh in the 20th century doesn’t mean that you actually are all that aware on a literary level And there could be some people who are a little stupid and conceited and think that there’s something they can read there that they’re not actually all that aware of no I’m serious. I’m not an idiot I’m in the illuminati for a reason and I think there’s authors and people like Bobby, who think that they know so fucking much about what I meant and they really don’t.

And then there’s people over the world you’re bored, intelligent than you I don’t like Dr. Moritz who probably know that what she saying is possible that it’s not quite as simplistic as you want it to be. You can’t force your perspective and your narrative that you like and what you read, you have to let the things speak to you in enough itself. Yeah, you know if you’re taking yourself seriously as an intellectual or as a person you can’t just force your own narrative on the script, so to speak.

So based on that and based on my perspective, no I don’t think that lamb was necessarily homosexual. He might’ve been bisexual, but I kind of doubt it. I have a feeling he was probably straight and confused, and I just don’t understand why he kept meandering in that speech of his I mean it was it was rambling. It’s like you’re going on and on and on buddy and you’re starting to make me wonder if you really have a fucking clue what you’re talking about.

Like why are we arguing with someone in our head? Why are you arguing with me because you never even came out of the closet, so what are we doing were used? Was he trying to come out of the closet? Why are we doing it in this way because it’s like why are you asking me which is better and why are you frame it it framing it in this way where it’s like is it this or would it be being settle down and married and living somewhere as a gay man my red flags go up and I’m like is this person an ally or not Because settle down is not a negative thing necessarily married is not and neither is living somewhere. I mean, it actually really almost sounds antagonistic to homosexuals, and I don’t know why Princeton University didn’t realize that.

It’s embarrassing to the 21st 20th late 20th century it really is because here’s the thing little Lacey part of the reason I take this so seriously is because she actually is certifiably almost a genius if not a literal genius when it comes to what reading comprehension that’s a fact She has an IQ that at the time and still is considered basically a genius like a literal scientific genius when it comes to literary understanding.

And I am maybe not quite that smart, but I’m in the illuminati because of hard work and determination, so speak how many people who’ve interpreted that in the media, and at Princeton are not nearly as genuinely physically intelligent as her quite a few probably I would, but most people who’ve interpreted over the years even Sally Vidal Smith are not genuinely as genius as she is her IQ is unusual, and I don’t think most of you are frankly that intelligent.

Him so I think that’s part of the disconnect and that’s another topic in her writing. She’s a literary genius literally so people should probably be a little more humble when they’re talking to her because she’s not normal in that way and I don’t think you guys got it you’re not her equal a lot of you are really literally not as intelligent as her and so when you read what she writes, you may very well have no fucking clue what she means and you need to just accept that and stop blustering and being narcissistic. Him and you know on her part. I’m sorry she’s dirty. I’m sorry she wasn’t loved. I’m sorry I didn’t raise her. I’m sorry she has no idea that she’s unusual and that she can’t just assume that when she says something people just automatically know what she means it away is sort of like being stupid like you kind of have to learn that people really don’t just know what you mean if it’s either too stupid or too smart most people won’t follow what you’re saying if it’s to one or the other. And I think a lot of you do feel very narcissistically triggered by her because she’s beautiful. She’s a nice family and she’s a sweetheart so it’s like I’m not getting with this woman saying to me right now so I think I’m just gonna assume that she’s stupid and not smart because that’s a lot more comforting.

But I’m sorry I hate to break Isaiah. It’s not that she’s unusually intelligent, so I’ll probably just have to sort of chill and try to figure out what the hell she saying. I know she said she’s basically a genius. Actually, I think she probably has one, but and geniuses are not as common as you think and she actually is one most likely.

Putin probably has to him ha ha and then yeah I guess what so if there’s reincarnation that’s possibly another reason why she shouldn’t be here and it was a Woopsie but she’s here now you know but maybe her level of intelligence combine with the absurdity of what she knows about everything it’s just really weird because we’re not expecting that she’s not expecting us. This is a really Bizarre experience.

Oh no quickly getting back to them for real I I genuinely think he could be straight because it actually is creepy how he goes on and on and on and then leaves us with what would it well I mean think about it how would you how would you interpret? If I said that would it be better for me to have settle down? Yeah I’m making a little crazy not my husband. Rick and I were married for 30 years and was it best I mean I could’ve you know gone and decided to be a professional dancer on Broadway what the hell everything yeah I’m gonna be. I’m gonna reiterate that because you need to hear it you’re not hearing it.

I know Rick made a big difference in my life. Thanks to him. I have a house to kids and a really damn good retirement and being a little silly. No that doesn’t work I’ll have to start over.

And Rick and I were married for 30 years you know he made a very big difference in my life because of wreck I can know retire as one of the wealthiest man in New York City. And I mean I could’ve been a professional dancer on Broadway but what the hell. What would’ve made me a happier life to be settle down and married and stable with two kids, and a home in the Hamptons, or to be free and poor and an artist?” he says.

“ oh yeah, you’re right it is weird how he words it.” admits a gay actor.

“ yeah because why is he arguing? It’s just part of it is just in there’s a lot of other evidence frankly to suggest that he was not gay. It really is him and it’s weird to me that historians have ignored that but just just on it like on my you know in my little world from my perspective it’s weird because I would never worded that wait why is he arguing with us? It is weird.

I mean, there’s other other ways to say it to that I’ll try again. I’ll say it because you’re gonna say oh he was fighting for the gay rights. OK then I’ll make it I’m saying super controversial about that.

Do you know I was incredibly lucky to be born in American because of my country I was given a free education I worked my way up the middle class to being one of the wealthiest man in New York City. And there’s incredible amount of dignity and merit in the concept of America. I mean at the same time I did have a chance when I was in my 20s to go live as a photographer in India, but what thr Hell? What would’ve made me a better life being a philanthropist, a leader in my community, contributing to the world, and making myself no one, leaving behind a legacy for people to follow and be inspired by, or being on a lifelong adventure, eating exotic food, and capturing India on film?” he says.

“ OK we have a problem in the gay community. Because you’re right and it’s a little weird that we’ve never picked up on the possible cadence of what he saying and that it’s like it sounds such as sounds like such an affirmation but there is something a little off about it and you can’t just ignore that when you really can’t, it’s like yeah it sounds like he could use me on a totally superficial take it as it comes he saying it’s a good thing, but then a part a few Lee is left with a sinking feeling that he’s being sarcastic or derisive or ironic and we ignore that you’ve chosen not to. I chose to ignore it and I think most people do and I wonder in the gay community and I wonder if I wonder if that is a First blessing I wonder if the people who have made those decisions think you know I don’t quite know how to interpret what he saying but who cares I went to Princeton I don’t need to worry about how complicated Lem’s Billings is because I know enough I know enough about what happened. I don’t need to worry about the fact that there’s some thing a little off about what he said and there’s some thing that’s just a little too off for comfort, but I’m just gonna ignore that because I went to Princeton and I know I have a degree from Princeton and I take myself way too. Goddamn seriously and maybe I need to realize that it actually is kind of creepy and you know it’s such as he will go to Princeton there’s a lot of people who really don’t understand in the gay community and levels and at-large that nuance is important. Chris rock called us out on that years ago and it’s true. We don’t get new aughts at times. It’s almost like we’re all autistic or worse than autistic legs. Stupid as fuck.

I kind of think maybe that this is a Trouble spot for us in our community at large so to speak is just over simplifying things like this because no, it actually is a little weird and it is very finally nuance but then it’s like you can’t ignore that if you’re gonna play historian and write long books about him, you can’t ignore the fact that he leaves you with a creepy, sinking feeling when you read his words or look at his pictures. Because what is that maybe he wasn’t gay? No I don’t let Sabin bully you into saying that he was he really might not a fan at all and you know it’s possible people like Lacey who are a little more liberated than we are to be perfectly honest, possibly through social class, but still whatever that even is, maybe they’re not buying it And they’re humoring us and it’s dangerous.

Because maybe we really aren’t quite on top of things the way that we think we are, and they’re not telling us that for a reason.

Yeah, and then you get people get so defensive and they’re just like in summer narcissistic but I’m wondering if it’s more than just narcissism because it’s like you know I know I’m an expert I’m at I know I’m an expert and it’s like no you sure as fuck maybe you don’t Louis the yard And David pets and Sally Bedell Smith maybe you people are fucking retarded in someways and bourgeois and you really don’t know.

Maybe the Kennedys are not our magic golden ticket to the upper class old money. Maybe it’s a little harder to get in and that.

Hey, so yeah, I’m sorry I think it’s possible that he was straight. I think there is something a little off about what he says, and in conjunction with the fact that he doesn’t seem gay to be honest, it does seem like an act and it is weird that he never seems bothered by Jack enough at the very least if he was at all And he certainly wasn’t at his wedding. It’s like you know this is getting creepy and if that is his ghost and he had a Playboy collection which seems possible because that was weird that he just were just like pick out something and he’s like oh, she can’t even remember what she yeah I just tested her. She doesn’t even remember what that she doesn’t even remember. I just asked her which one it was and she doesn’t remember because it wasn’t her idea she’s hearing this from some Thing, why do we assume it’s not him she knows it’s November but it wasn’t necessarily even November 2 at 1956 of November. Yeah it might be but it might not be Lacey would have to look back in your block but that’s the thing she doesn’t know he told her that I think he could try to be trying to tell her know which one it was but it was it November 1957 she’s hearing or 58 Betsy. He is a ghost and so now she’s trying to hear him and she has a hard time hearing him anyway at times when he needs to prove himself. oh, and it isn’t so far that she doesn’t know that he’s real most likely God is protecting her, but I don’t know his his famous I think Jack was great. Speech is a little off and that’s enough, and it doesn’t entirely make sense that he wasn’t more disturbed of Jack’s wedding, and there probably is other proof to that he’s tried to explain to us that it’s just got over our heads unfortunately and I kind of think maybe you people are stupid OK come and control by the Kennedysz

Yeah, you guys are! Sally Bedell Smith was probably paid off by the Kennedy family. Spelled off a lot of fucking nonsense.

I was wonder if that was Bobby’s idea because he was trying to hurt his mother. It seems like something he might do to try to get her to say Lem’s was the most upset devastated housewife because it wasn’t my mom. She doesn’t get that award of being the most devastated Kennedy wife it was lame. I think he could’ve been. I think he could’ve. I think he could’ve easily done that just to spite her. 

I know I’m sorry it is weird. It is a weird way to put it. The argument think it’s me it’s like why is he doing that? That is kind of weird that yeah the settle down and married thing you that and living somewhere that does seem like a reference to from here to eternity I I can have a wonder if it actually was coded slightly in his own way and he really was pissed off and then no I mean I’m not gonna keep repeating myself. I’ve made my argument, and it’s a very good one who is in Lacey right now against her will manifesting against me using her father’s love for a stewardess, and her unusual brain am I arguing with right now?” says a gay Canadian actor.

“ jack Kennedy.” says JFK.

The actor nods. “ yeah I’m not surprised to hear that. Why are you able to manifest from within her? I know you’re not her you’re not fooling me. I’ve never really thought that and actually I know that you turn against her times and try to get her to choke on her food and that Bobby malevolently gets you to do that because he hates her because he’s a childish fucker. How are you able to do that though you little fucking piece of shit?” says the gay actor.

“ her father let me in.” says JFK.

“ that makes sense, but how did you get into her body because she’s not condoning or excepting this.” says Jonah Wiley.

“ oh, I don’t know I just am?” says JFK.

“ I said interesting answer, so you really don’t scientifically know how you’re doing it entirely Jack?” asks a psychic.

“ hi yeah I do but I don’t in that way.” he says.

“ do you understand the science behind it and you’re being pedantic but you do you understand how it’s happening but you just don’t you don’t know how it’s like actually happening?” says the actor.

“ yes she almost died a few times in childhood him because of her mothers evil, and I was allowed in when she did that because she was so desperate and she was a little girl and I took advantage of that with Satan to try to control and destroy her entire life yes Lem was straight. Yes I was straight I was not straight. I don’t like to talk about this. I hate you I hate all of you.

I’m not like you how dare you think I’m like you!!” yells JFK.

“ so when she almost died as a little girl, how are you allowed in?” he asks.

“ she almost electrocuted herself once because she was a little tiny child and her mother let her play in your light socket, and she stuck her finger in the light socket, and she actually was basically electrocuted, but it was so minor that she didn’t die and God kept her alive, and actually might not have just been God. I could’ve also been Satan, that was part of how I got in if she’s illegitimate, her sister killed herself in the room and then Lacey stuck her finger in a light socket so you could imagine what it was like having her mother as a mother. She’s very charming and very loving in her own sort of way but then at the end of the day you can tell that she maybe doesn’t really love you as much as she pretends to and you’re just kind of like I just went out I just think I’ll die and so Lacey and her spirit may have been trying to die in her own innocent way and so she stuck her finger in a light socket and it didn’t kill her but then that was how how I got it was through the energy and electricity in the light socket.

Oh I am I’m not her butt keep her alive. I put my energy inside of her to balance, her energy out and away and sort of ground her to keep her alive and maybe she wasn’t even supposed to live but I didn’t give a fuck OK I didn’t give a fuck I don’t give a fuck.

I’m basically like a demon but I’m still human and God has to deal with that.

So I kept her alive possibly against his will when she was a very small child probably like three or four by putting my body in her body when she stuck her finger in a light socket and then she stayed alive that was part of how I did it how did you know that?” says JFK. “

Never mind you either figured it out. Someone told you who just died and Israel things to me or you’re reincarnated and now I’m scared scared of you.

You’re one of my old teachers from a previous life if there’s being carnation!

SHIT!!!

Is this being carnation that actor was an excellent teacher in Japan I had some formal education and he was one of my teachers and I know I did. I had some formal education and he was a teacher if there’s reincarnation maybe there’s not reincarnation but you know if there is yeah well anyway, so no I mean I got into her body when she stuck her finger in a light socket and she’s not me. I’m not her, but I got access to her body because she was almost going to cross over and die and then I prevented it.

There was also another time when she ate a leaf or a plant that was poisonous, and that might not have killed her, but it might’ve made her very sick and her father prevented her or saved her life in that case from getting sick and then other times she tried swallowing a quarter And unfortunately it just went down and she didn’t choke on it and I had something to do with that lemon actually told her to swallow the quarter to get her to die. He said swallow the quarter sweetie just swallow it and Rita might’ve been telling her that too just swallow the quarter swallow the quarter and so she did that cycle. Thank God she swallowed a quarter she’s gonna die but then eyes that not so fast And I need a quarter go down her throat I was able to get in her body and force the quarter into her stomach and then her mother side and her poop and told everybody repeatedly over and over how her daughter had pooped a quarter

00 I loved her mother though I loved using her mother to harass her. That was good fun. It was real good fun.

Oh yeah, love a straight he really wasn’t. He was trying to tell you that actually it’s more convoluted than you think.” says JFK.

“ yep so anyway moving on that’s all very interesting information. I think you’re right if Putin is still listening I think that’s true. I don’t think they know that there’s limits and I think they think that they can do whatever they want and they can do some degree right and that man sounds like he’s done incredibly well, but then that doesn’t mean that he’s old money necessarily and love was old buddy. I think they’re gonna have to let go the fact that they don’t have an end in the White House with old money through them. They may have it with someone else I don’t even know, but it’s not probably threw out in Billings. He’s handsome his intelligence. He suave in his own way, but he’s probably not there moment of Lawrie in the White House, I think maybe they’ll have to sort of grow up though and realize that Jack was a jerk but he was also gay and him in someway and you know maybe they’ll have to find someone else because I don’t think writing about him would be a good idea if homosexuality is allowed in heaven, I think it’s just going to make them seem potentially crazy and so they probably don’t want to write about JFK like oh you know he was gay do you want him to be a spokesperson for your organization so to speak historically because I wouldn’t I wouldn’t want to claim him so again they probably should focus on someone else like Lincoln over I think Lincoln was probably bisexual. I wonder Woodrow Wilson was too though and I wouldn’t be surprised if there’s at least one gay man in the 1800s was Andrew Jackson gay or bisexual and I’m not kidding who is he? Who is he gay or bisexual Andrew Jackson see that’s the problem. He’s another jerk, how do you know maybe that’s actually something they should consider with the whole White House equation in order to get to that position of how are you probably either have to be bisexual or kind of an asshole if there’s something different about you that would make you unpopular so they probably are people who are homosexual in the White House but maybe that’s not a smart thing to go into because why would they be there and who are they? Maybe they’re not safe people to you know advertise because how did they get there, they’re either like Lincoln and they’re bisexual and they just happened to marry a woman and nobody cared that they were bisexual because they were so good at politics and such a good leader or some thing sister probably either an exceptional person like Lincoln or if they’re gay or they’re mostly gay even like jack there’s probably something really wrong with them because they did have that have to be because they have to fight through society and lie basically so you’re finding someone who’s a liar who is a really good liar and cheat because it was never acceptable to be gay so then they have to be a liar on some level and that’s a huge red flag like what the fuck are you doing? “ Says her cousin.

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