Eyes Open And Confused

What are you reading?

Well…imagine the woman who writes this blog accidentally discovered the Illuminati. Yes. The real Illuminati. Or she’s so haunted by ghosts both good and evil and attacked by demons that evil dead people and demons invented an Illuminati to explain away their obsession with her. Either way, and Illuminati has been viciously attacking her for over eight years.

Because eight years ago, in the summer of 2016, she may have accidentally discovered the Illuminati. How? Well…essentially they contacted her, seemingly mostly just to mess with her head. Why? Because she’s somewhat “psychic” and they could sense that when she started following one of them on Instagram and then Twitter. Who was it? Chris Hayes, of MSNBC. Except, it wasn’t him. It was his body double and assistant, Diego Blue. Diego Blue was trained be a psychic by the Illuminati and so when Lacey, with her pretty face, started following him he quickly analyzed her and sensed she was a “psychic” and then decided to mess with her. Why? Because he was bitter and angry and bored and vengeful and sad…and lonely…and the Illuminati trains its members to be bullies.

Why does the Illuminati train its members to be bullies? Because they think it’s effective. …It’s actually not their traditional method, but starting in the 20th Century they increasingly resorted to bullying as new money Americans didn’t understand how to be intimidating to outsiders without bullying them.

Eyes Wide Shut is a romanticized account of the Illuminati. It’s also based on a book from the 1920’s. The reality of the Illuminati is far more sad and grim.

Since accidentally psychically engaging with the Illuminati and even possibly accidentally participating in a few meetings (no she’s never been in an orgy or seen any of the children they abuse in person) with ghosts present…two of her cousins her age or younger have committed suicide. And other people on her family have died prematurely or are currently fighting for their lives. The most evil people in her family seem to be being given better health than they should have otherwise, however.

Why is the real Illuminati attacking her family? Hatred. Jealousy. Fear. Resentment. Paranoia. The family Lacey was raised in owns the majority of the Baaken in North Dakota. Yes, the majority. Well, the Nesheims are the largest oil producers in the area and there are so many members of her family through blood and marriage in the area who own land that they, as a whole, own the majority of the Baaken.

But the oil boom is over? Well…they’re still drilling. And actually they’ve been drilling since the early 1970’s. The oil market is complicated. And the Baaken is light crude. …The thing is…there’s an enormous amount of oil there. It’s a lot of oil. So…even if they don’t need it all right now…it’s still there.

Could it pass out of the Nesheim hands? Possibly. But that would be possibly meaningless on a spiritual level since the Illuminati has so viciously attacked them and altered history and affected the fabric of reality. They may now be in rightful possession of that land for the rest of the history of the Earth.

At any rate, it never made sense to attack Lacey. But Diego was taken by her beauty and then made angry when he realized his own lot in life in relation to hers. He wanted to end the world all along and he knew about the Nesheim oil. He knew they spiritually had great weight. So he was trying to leverage their strength to end the world by attacking Lacey, and their legitimacy. How? Partially through the spiritual and relational use of members of the perfume community who were jealous and angry and petty as well. People who would help him question reality to a psychotic degree and thus put so much pressure on reality as to force it to display itself in violent form.

Is what you’re about to read real? You decide? …Some things are. And actually Lem Billings very likely was straight and it’s both misunderstood and lied about. Tom Banks may be Lacey’s biological father. And the supernatural does seem to interact with us, possibly. Bobby Kennedy has publicly admitted to contacting the supernatural. No…Lacey and Bobby are not friends nor in any sort of relationship, unless she’s his former aunt. Yes…she could be haunted by the same ghosts who haunt him, in his blood family. Lem doesn’t haunt any Kennedy or interact with them unless God necessitates it. He’s not on good terms with them anymore at all.

Actually Lacey wouldn’t talk to them either at this point except she’s alive in the fallen world and is forced to by evil.

At some point Lacey would like to edit every blog post. But for now she’s going to leave this blog as the mess it is. If she dies it’s proof.

“Spot The Differences!” by Lem Billings

May 20th, 2024

Lots of people in the Illuminati or who we suspect exist…somewhere…tend to think Lacey is Jack Kennedy reincarnated because of me. Because of how much I love her. But she’s definitely not Jack Kennedy.

Let’s analyze the reasons why she seems like she could be and why she actually isn’t.

“Was something or someone trying to kill me last night?” asks Lacey.

“Why?” asks the Illuminati.

“It was weird. I was mostly awake for some reason but I had my eyes closed but it was as if I had them open. And everything in the room was all lit up like it was daytime. And I heard this weird noise like someone was playing with a an old remote control for a VHS. And then I opened my eyes and it was dark again. And it all happened in a matter of seconds. And then I felt pain in my chest. But then that went away and I just went back to sleep.” says Lacey.

“I was there. I know what happened. It’s not easy to discuss it with her.” says Lem. “Not because she can’t handle it, but because it’s difficult to be heard.”

I am too often silenced by demons and people (not Lacey) about certain topics.

Lacey…do you have a difficult time giving public speeches?

“No!” says Lacey.

See! And here’s where you’d assume she’s JFK reincarnated or just like him. She’s not.

Lacey, why do you find it so easy?

Tinker Tailor Soldier Sailor Rich Man Poor Man Beggar Man Thief by Radiohead plays.

“I just think of it like a chore. I had chores growing-up. And…I also think of it like…commanding an army. When you’re commanding an army you have to yell and boss them around. It’s what they need from you. So…I think of it like that. Like I’m a momma duck. With ducklings.” says Lacey.

Jack didn’t feel that way about it at all. Except you’re going to think he did, possibly, because he had a supposedly heroic career in the Navy during World War II.

Lacey…would you…let your father boss you around?

“I’d submit to him as a good daughter. But…I’d not abide by being bullied.” says Lacey.

Lacey…would never have edged us close to nuclear war, like JFK did. And it’s not just because she’s a consensus building woman now. She’s far more shrewd about such things than most people.

Lacey, would you ever sleep with lots of people?

“Unfortunately it feels like I have. But it’s under 15. *She rolls her eyes* My life has been hellish for years.” says Lacey.

You mean you hate that number?

“Yes!” says Lacey.

It’s far too high?

“Yes!” says Lacey.

How did it get so high?

“I think it’s part of the torment I’ve experienced in the last eight years. If there’s an Illuminati.” says Lacey. “They’ve been trying to stir-up trouble. And it’s affected me very badly.”

Hopefully you see where that could look like JFK to some people, but is clearly not. And no, it’s not just because she’s a woman.

Would you prefer to have just slept with me? For eternity? …Provided we’re as close as you’d hope…in your best hopes… Just me?

“Yes! Absolutely. It’s torment to have been with anyone else. It makes me angry.” says Lacey.

Ahh! You think she learned from being JFK not to do that? Ha! No.

Lacey why does it bother you?

“Because it’s…evil.” says Lacey.

Why?”

“I hate defiling beauty. And what we could have would be perfect. I would never want to ruin that. It’s disgusting to ruin that. It actually makes me extremely angry.” says Lacey.

Angry with whom?

“God.” says Lacey. “I would like to pull out all of his hair piece by piece, I’m so angry with Him. But…I love Him and He’s God.”

I would never want to ruin what we have either. And I haven’t. But you’re furious with me because you think I might have, even if there’s not reincarnation. …I haven’t. I wasn’t fascinated by Jack because he’s darkness and you’re light. No. …It was all just a miserable life other than for my family and anyone I helped and anything I learned, which I can’t give Jack Kennedy credit for.

Lacey…do you hate the Kennedy Center?

“Yes.” says Lacey.

Is that because of me?

“In part.” says Lacey.

Why else?

She thinks. “There are so many errors. In it’s design. It’s completely…gross.” says Lacey.

They’re all still proud of that building. Including Jack. …What’s wrong with it?

“It’s shape is off. It’s like a box. A giant, ugly box. …Does it have a flat roof? That’s a hideous thing! Are there mold problems?

…And those arches? It reminds me of McDonald’s or Ancient Rome…or…a bus stop. The old downtown Minneapolis bus depot.

The thing is…it could be a sexual reference to you…but…it makes no sense. The water? It’s just sitting on the roof? Accumulating and growing mold? Eww! How dumb!

And then the inside is so pretentious. And the acoustics are supposedly atrocious too.” says Lacey.

Imagine having to sell that! I did. …Yeah. It’s bad. But…it wasn’t supposed to be. …It was embarrassing. I was so much better bred and so much better educated and so much more intelligent than it would seem. …I refuse to call that my legacy because I’m not a joke.

Would you ever fight for the White House?

“I would have. Yes.” says Lacey.

Yes. You wanted to be US President. That’s right. …Would you have made cheerful commercials?

“Yes. …But they would have been more thoughtful. I’m not as good as being cute and cool as Jack.” says Lacey. “I’m far too serious and intense as a person.”

Are you on good terms with Richard Nixon?

“Yes!” says Lacey.

You two would have made the 1960 Presidential Election…very grim. But considering how bad the years were that followed…maybe that would have been best. …Margaret, would Lacey have made a good President?

Margaret Thatcher thinks. “No. She’s too much of a woman. …And Great Britain can handle that. But America is too backward and misogynistic. …She’s too sexy.

It’s not that she couldn’t do the job. It’s that men would have hated her. And if you think they’re bad…the women would have been far worse.

She’d be an excellent leader. And England would accommodate her with tea and protocols. Strictly adhered to protocols. But America…resents such things. It’s automatically suspicious. …She’s not made for the White House as anything other than the end of America if it can’t repent for its gross arrogance and hatred of Christ.” says Margaret Thatcher.

“Hatred of Christ?” asks a dead American man.

“Yes! You hate that He gives a shit about anyone but you.” says Margaret Thatcher. “America…is just as imperialistic as Great Britain but you lack the decency and courage to be honest about it.” She thinks. “Do you know why? …Because you’re all the poor teeming masses. …And you think that permanently excuses you from Hell. Right? Because God loves poor people more than anyone else? …Poor white people?”

So Mrs. Thatcher you think…Lacey would have made an excellent President if people could have handled her?

“She’s fascinated by it all. Absolutely riveted.

*she smiles*

Yes. But…no, America couldn’t handle her.

Honestly…if she was raised in Great Britain…she’d maybe not even have felt a need to run for office. And if she did she’d have been better off. …But…America is so free. So that’s nice.” says Margaret Thatcher.

“Have we read Margaret Thatcher!??” asks the Illuminati.

“Yes!!!” yells Margaret Thatcher.

“Right. Because we read Lacey as having a great grandmother who was Irish. On Tom’s side.” says an Illuminati psychic.

That’s me!” says Margaret Thatcher.

“Huh.

So…do you all sometimes read JFK himself? Like…you think she’s JFK reincarnated. But what if you’re actually just reading JFK?” asks a reader.

Suspirium by Thom Yorke plays.

“Possibly.” says a Black female music artist.

“Huh.

So…who is she?” asks the reader.

The Black female artist laughs.

“No. Like…I’m not sure…but I was staring at a photo of Lem last night and…you know…there is something not gay about him. For real.

And I’m positiveabsolutely positive…if there’s reincarnation…he is…Constantine. FOR REAL.” says the reader.

He’s making his face look gay. But his eyes look…thirsty. And it ain’t for- Well. I think his overall vibe is straight.

That’s him. Not acting gay. And it’s an act.

His gay personality is fake. It changes far too much. It’s a FAKE.

Those all look like different people!

But…there’s a cutthroat, brutal quality in his eyes. In the last photo. As sweet and gentle as he was.” says the reader.

“Is she channeling you?” asks the Illuminati.

“Yes! Duh!

Anyway…as I was sayi-“ he says.

“Who are you?” asks the Illuminati.

“I’m a….white…Gen. X dude. In…New Jersey.” he says.

“What social class are you in?” asks the Illuminati.

“Ahh. I mean my family is wealthy. I guess. …But I don’t watch Fox News and vote Republican, necessarily.” he says.

“Why are we talking to your spirit?” asks the Illuminati.

“Because? I have no idea?” he says.

Awkward silence.

“Do you consciously know we’re talking to you?” asks the Illuminati.

“Mm. Not…really.” he says. “But it’s cool.”

“Are you fascinated by the Roman Empire?” asks the Illuminati.

“Yup.” he says, annoyed.

“So you know…Lem was Emperor Constantine?” says the Illuminati.

“YES!!!

If there’s reincarnation.

LOOK!

Look at the photos.

…See…all those gay personas are different. Because they’re not him. He’s acting in all of them. And they all contradict each other. He has no consistent gay persona. …And it’s OBVIOUS he’s not being real. …There’s something very fake about him. …He’s good at acting. He looks authentically gay in the photo in the White House in his face. But the body is…almost teetering on comedic. It’s overdone. …You can tell that’s not his normal body pose.

And his eyes give him away, ultimately. He’s just not a real homosexual. I’m sorry. I can’t unsee it.

But now look at the photo of Emperor Constantine!

That’s the real Lem Billings. Behind closed doors. Even if there’s no reincarnation. That’s his real personality. And if you look at his photos with that in mind…they all make sense.

Especially these two:

He looks conniving. Not necessarily evil. And if he drops his face in both those photos he’s CLEARLY heterosexual. I’m sure there were countless moments when he seemed totally straight. We’d NEVER fooled by him today. …At least it’s highly unlikely.

Seriously!

That’s a role!!!

And here’s the actor:

The first person is hyper feminine and adoring. The real man, who is still looking slight gay…but barely…which is interesting considering he’s likely on drugs in the second and not the first…and homosexuality doesn’t go away on drugs…so it shouldn’t be fading away into his real heterosexuality…is not that nice. He’s kind. But he’s a killer. Not necessarily literally but he’s not…nice.

Look…he did lethal drugs with teenagers. He encouraged them to kill themselves. That’s not actually…consistent with the popular narrative.

I can see a prissy, pretentious ninny doing some drugs with teenagers if they were really despondent and sad…in some…pathetic state. But that’s not what happened! No! He encouraged and aggravated their drug use. And his bitter, angry ‘straight side’ came out. …I think…he was really good at acting gay. But…I wonder if the Kennedys realize it was just an act even now. …A stupidly effeminate gay act. Because…like all actors you can’t really make your actual self disappear…so you’d think they’d have realized something by now. Because I would have!

Maybe it’s too painful. Maybe Bobby can’t handle it because he can’t think that badly of himself. You know? Have to realize he’s a malignant narcissist who has hurt people.

But no…Lem was a secret angry straight dude. And those are his real eyes! Or close to it.

He looks…permanently pissed-off.

Why are you all messing with him? After he led a fake gay life.” says a guy.

“He was gay!” says an Illuminati man.

“Why…do you not find what I’m saying disturbing?

Man! You guys are stubborn!” says the guy from New Jersey.

“THEY ARE!” says a dead man who was gay.

“You look gay…in your spirit.

This photo is convincing. Except…the longer I look at it the more he looks straight. And that’s not the case with you. You don’t stop seeming gay. Or at least bisexual.” says Lacey. “It doesn’t just disappear.”

“It’s his eyes. They don’t really look gay.” says the once gay man. “He’s a good fake.”

“You were both mostly gay. Somewhat bisexual.” says Lacey.

The Last Resort by Trentemøller plays.

“YES!” says one of the men.

“You what I don’t understand? Why don’t they get that you’re not stuck on Lem being straight for personal reasons, so to speak. I mean it’s personal. Because that’s what he’s telling you. But it’s not really like that. You know? …It’s creepy. …It’s honestly more like…they don’t want you to be happy…at all.” says the guy to the right in the photo above.

They think.

“Have they found something wrong with every fella you’ve liked?” he asks.

“Yes.” says Lacey.

He thinks. “So really they’re just trying to ruin your life.”

“Maybe. And I can’t figure out why.” says Lacey.

“See…they’re lying to you. They’re lying about why!” he says. “I think they were sacrificing Nesheims…before any of this started. And then…you got all mixed up with them. But I think they were after y’all before.”

Lacey thinks.

Ghosts by Thomas Newman plays.

“You’re both almost entirely gay.” says Lacey.

“I liked very few women. Rare!” says the man on the left. “And yes. He did find women attractive…but…we felt very in love.”

“The man on the right is basically entirely gay. …And the man on the left is almost completely gay too…with rare exceptions.” says Lacey.

“Yup!” says the man on the left.

“You look straight…possibly bisexual…but I can’t get it out of my head that you’d…come on to me.” says Lacey. “I’m not at all convinced you’re gay. …You seem really straight.”

“He’s not! HE’S GAY!” yells JFK in 1989.

“Dammit. I was straight.” says Lem. “I posed gay for photos. And most recordings. Although…you can hear and see me drop my act. But…you have to watch for it.”