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I just need to clear a few things up.

So…the evil Illuminati, if it exists, I’d threatening Lacey because they’re insecure pricks?

“Yup!” says Matthew Nesheim.

They’re insecure about your whole family?

“Yup!” says Matthew.

But they only started interacting with Lacey because she’s unusual and somehow found them accidentally?

“Yup.” says Matthew.

But unclear how long they’ve been studying your family?

“Yes!” says Matthew.

But you all are old money. And yet it’s never been more than millions. And the extreme wealth of the oil is why the Illuminati noticed you all?

“Yes!” says Mark Nesheim. “It rather it’s why they’re so insecure.”

So all Lacey has ever done is just explain reality. That she’s old money. And that her family owns billions of Dollars worth of oil.

“Yes!” says Mark.

But she’s never claimed to be worth more than $2 million net outside of the oil?

“Yes!” says the CIA.

But that doesn’t mean she’s not old money. It’s just…low level old money.

“Yes!” says the CIA.

Like…Norwegian silversmiths. And such.

“Yes.” says the CIA. “And the old south. The Seays were at least as wealthy as the Murdaughs.”

Yeah. And that makes sense.

Umm…

Is her family wealthier than the Murdaughs?

“Her family is. The family she legally belongs to and was raised is…and is not.” says Tom Banks.

So…people in the perfume community were just mad at Lacey for confronting them?

“Possibly?” says the CIA.

Yeah. They just didn’t want to be called out.

So she was just sadistically bullied?

“Yes!” says Tucker Carlson.

And they played dumb and acted like she was evil and crazy. And they still do. But…they were actually being really annoying. And they were either all just jealous of her or they’re all totally weird and delusional.

“Yup!” says the CIA.

And then they couldn’t handle that she was like Kathryn…not Annette.

“Yes!” says Lem.

So…Lem was straight?

“Yeah. Seems very likely.” says the CIA.

So…whatever happened was…actually really weird and creepy to him or he was depressing his natural orientation to do it?

“Yes!” says Russia.

So then…it’s all just bullshit? All the attacks of Lacey. Like I hear you all harassing her everyday about Lem. And interrupting them when they’re alone at night. Although that’s gotten slightly better.

“Yes.” says the FBI.

So Lem is Skippy?

“It seems theoretically possible that he was inspired by Lem Billings. And Alex was inspired by JFK.” says the CIA.

Yeah! I can see that.

Huh.

So…why are we being dumbed down? Because it makes so much fucking sense not to assume that gay mannerisms always equate a gay person. Like…that’s street smarts. And given the disagreement on Lem’s orientation and his family’s reservations…it seems creepy. Like…we’re being brainwashed. Totally brainwashed. We’re supposed to assume JFK’s straight mannerisms automatically mean he was heterosexual and that Lem’s homosexual mannerisms meant he was actually homosexual. That’s why Lem was such a psychologically good cover for Jack and his whole family? Yeah. And they might have planned that meeting at Choate between JFK and Lem…or they might have used him. But either way…it’s not what it seems.

“Potentially 100% correct.” says the CIA.

So Lem might have hoped to kill Bobby? With heroin? And he also might have killed JFK? Or worked with the CIA to kill JFK?

“Yes!” says Russia.

Because JFK was…a horrible person. He raped and molested people. And he almost started nuclear war at least once.

“Yes!” says Japan. “Those would likely be the reasons.”

Huh.

So…the evil Illuminati…seriously has caused so many problems in the last eight years because they’re too immature and ignorant and insecure to hold power. If there’s an Illuminati?

“Yes.” says M6.

*laugh* So they’re all like JFK. Which is why we don’t see the truth about Lem. They have the same delusions as JFK.

“Interesting insight.” says the CIA.

Did someone hire David Pitts or did he really just accidentally create a historical piece of shit?

“He may have been hired.

Otherwise…he wrote a badly written…inaccurate historical account.“ says the CIA. “It’s appalling. But there’s nothing we can do about it.”

So he made intellectually shoddy assumptions?

“Yes! Certainly!” says the CIA.

People who have since died…knew Lem was straight. But they the evil Illuminati has chosen to be immature and stupid about it?

Huh.

Because that’s what I’ve observed. You all got progressively more violent towards Lacey and Lem after Mohammed Al Fayed died. Queen Elizabeth II too. And probably countless other people. And they knew he was probably straight.

So we’re super gullible. When it comes to stuff like Lem Billings. And the old money aesthetic.

So Far by Cults plays.

And…Matthew Nesheim committed suicide. And…so…if there’s an Illuminati…you all are…shockingly foolish.

“Yeah.” says Russia.

What goes through your minds?

Like when you see the evidence that there’s fact backing up Lacey’s assertions about the oil and Lem?

“They’re…new money. And they’re…inexperienced. So they assumed that if they didn’t attack her…it would make them look weak. Also…they were very narcissistically offended. So they weren’t operating rationally.” says Tsar Putin.

But people are literally dying. And there’s like…serious, intense international issues…caused by their insistence on being…stronger. Like…they’re weak as shit. They aren’t old money and they aren’t oil. They might never be. So…why not just get over it? I don’t get the sense that the Nesheims give a shit.

“They don’t. They’re very chill.” says the CIA.

Yeah. No. She’s offensive for a reason. You can’t ignore that. That’s lying.

We’ve Got It by Cults plays.

Actually…people attacking her for standing up for herself is…so damn creepy. It feels…really creepy. I almost wonder if it’s supernaturally inspired.

But…that’s also part of the problem. The living have been brainwashed into thinking that there’s no supernatural. But there very likely is. So…we could all theoretically be affected somehow. Like…we’re all secretly living in The Shining. We just don’t all know it.

“Brilliantly put!” says the CIA.

Why is Jack obsessed with them?

“Because he’s in shock.” says Lem. “He really is evil. But he also wasn’t expecting to die and find out the truth. He expected to die and be even happier, even though he sinned. Because he didn’t think sin was a problem and he truly lived in a cushioned, narcissistic bubble world. So when he died he went into shock realizing that Lacey was Lacey and I was me. And he was guilty. And he had to actually stop sinning.”

So he barely understood the concept of right versus wrong?

“He had a delusional view of the world. And he didn’t feel accountable for anything. You couldn’t make him be accountable.

I…just have to point out how stupid it all is again.

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So…he had me…servicing him. Right? But he acted like that was a favor he was doing for me! It’s recorded history. He truly believed he was doing me an enormous favor…by LETTING me service him. And that delusion of his was the premise of most of our relationship. He felt he was being…charitable. Truly. He believed he was bestowing a huge favor on me. …And I don’t think he ever once considered that I wasn’t getting serviced almost at all ever in return. He assumed subconsciously that all my own personal physical sexual needs were being met by servicing him. *Lem laughs* And for some damn reason many gay men have joined him in his absurd delusion. Because they read that I was never given sexual pleasure in return by JFK and it never occurs to them that that’s weird. They never seem to realize that that’s a huge red flag.

Why would anyone be okay with that? It…makes…no…sense.

But I was straight. And that’s the explanation. I didn’t mind that I was only giving oral sex. Frankly I was awful at it. Because I hated it. I was awful at it. …But he didn’t know the difference at first. And when he did…he didn’t want to admit he was gay at all…so he lied and acted like it was better than it was when he really just wanted me to give it to him because he found me attractive. No. He was incredibly patronizing.

His whole family was patronizing to me. Extremely patronizing. They still are.

They tend to act like…you’re never doing them a favor. Even when you are. They’re always the ones bestowing the kindness. The wisdom. The generosity. They have no clue how to be genuinely honest about themselves, apparently.

So…Jack…got years of bad oral sex from me. And I’d vomit and gag and…never ask for anything in return. That was our agreement. But…I…hated being given sexual pleasure by men anyway. I tried to like it. With boyfriends. But it was…not nice. And so…I just decided that wasn’t for me. I was too messed-up. And…I basically never fought Jack on it. At first I’d slightly worried that it was too one-sided. But…being straight it was…not a problem. I didn’t feel a need for it. And obviously that might have helped solidify his delusion.

*Lem and Lacey laugh*

No. I really was like Skippy. …But imagine that Skippy believes he’s gay. And Alex is secretly somewhat gay. And Alex…starts developing feelings for Skippy. But Alex doesn’t want to admit that. So he has a discussion with Skippy and convinces him that he can receive oral sex from Skippy and so long as he never reciprocates…it’s not really gay. He wants oral sex. And since Skippy believes he’s gay…even though he’s not…he thinks it’s okay. He wants friends and Alex seems like a good friend and he believes he and Alex are probably secretly a couple. But he also doesn’t want to upset Alex by bringing up the possible secret relationship so he doesn’t. They just hang-out together and…when Alex gets aroused or is bored or sad or feeling lonely he has Skippy service him. And yes, Skippy is absolutely shit at it. But sometimes, surprisingly or not, Alex doesn’t notice that kind of thing.

It’s a dark version of Family Ties. But…maybe that’s what actually happened.

You know it makes sense. With those characters. Isn’t that something?

How long could those two theoretically go on like that? …If Skippy never realizes that he’s not gay…and no woman comes into his life? And if Alex had less of a conscience? Possibly their whole lives?” says Lem. “It would take some outside force to alter it.”

“Yeah. Because they have kind of a symbiotic bond almost. Skippy has a low sense of self worth and Alex has an exceptionally high sense of self worth.” says Marsie.

“Yeah. And Skippy loves people. And Alex wants to believe he’s that loving too.” says Lem.

“Why didn’t Skippy ever realize he wasn’t gay?” asks Michael J. Fox.

“Yeah.

Well…first you have to remember that at the time it was common to believe that bisexuality didn’t exist. And…that homosexuality was sort of joke anyway. I believed I had a medical condition. I sincerely did. I sincerely believed I had a medical condition called homosexuality.

So…I found women attractive. I knew I found women attractive. But I just couldn’t partake, so to speak. Because I was deformed. I believed it would be inappropriate to do that to a woman. And I had a sense of honor. So I didn’t want to harm a woman…by being with her. And…at times I wished I could be with a woman…but…I always thought it was just wrong, given my medical condition…to really pursue it at all or force it. I was very honorable in that way. And I felt I had a gig being Jack’s husband anyway. So… I could date men. But…I couldn’t do that to a woman. Or at least I certainly couldn’t make her…bothered by it at all.

So…I found women attractive. But…I didn’t think…it was odd that I didn’t find men attractive in the same way. Because I assumed that men naturally found women attractive. That was only normal. Everything else was a disease or a deformity. So…naturally I would see women and find them attractive and arousing… But men? No. And that never seemed weird to me. Because women…were women. …To me…homosexuality was just…a deformity. And again, the only reason I thought I was homosexual was because I was molested. So I would…never long for men. I never wanted men. Any men. Ever. I just…thought that if you were physically capable of being physically aroused by a man touching you…that you were gay. I felt I had been perverted by a man or born that way…and become deformed. So…I was never actually aroused by men. I was only confused by being molested. And so I…didn’t worry about my lack of arousal.

Why didn’t I ever realize it was meaningless? The physical effects? *Lem laughs* Because…I was innocent. And I was very scientific. I strongly believed in science. And truth. And those are all good things. But…my father died when I was young and Jack met me shortly after. I barely had time to figure it out safely. And for some reason…it just never occurred to me. The abuse was traumatic. So I didn’t think about it. I just quickly thought about it…as best as I could…and then….lived. As best as I could.

See…that’s the thing. In the late 1970’s with the increase in sexual media in public I was exposed to a lot of sexual content. Especially living in Manhattan. And so I…realized I was straight.

Richter: Constellation 2 (Pt. 5) plays.

Honestly, it’s sad. Isn’t it? But in my last couple of years before death I sat and watched heterosexuals having sex…and I suddenly realized…that there was no way I was gay. With all of the discussion about sex too. …I realized I was straight. And I realized how vulnerable I had been as a teenager even though I was a mature, tall teenager. I realized how…meaningless the physical touch was. But first I had to see real heterosexuality.

Jack…wasn’t…good in bed. He was very selfish with women. Very self-focused. So he…was quick, one-sided and…dull. Dull for the women. The perk was that he was rich. And JFK. And women found him attractive…partially because he fervently believed he was. But…that meant watching him was…while already gross for me to begin with…even less insightful. And I had no other examples. And I didn’t think it was odd that I found women arousing. And I was actually a virgin in reality.

So…it took me…seeing heterosexual sex…right in front of me…to comprehend that that…was what I wanted. *Lem laughs* Sounds very difficult to believe, but that’s what happened. I truly was that…unaware.” says Lem.

What went through your head when you saw straight people having consensual sex?

“I thought they were homosexual at first.” says Lem. *He laughs*

Why?

“Because they were so emotional. Jack had me believing that real heterosexuals didn’t get that emotional during sex. They were…different.

Women were emotional. But men were not. Not really. So…men could have feelings about women but not that much without being homosexual. Super emotional men were often just homosexual, he believed. Or so he said he believed. He believed romance stories were rubbish, or so he said. Men weren’t ever that interested in feelings or that emotional without being ‘light in their loafers.’” says Lem.

“Oh my gosh, isn’t Jack loathsome! Isn’t her portrayal of him here loathsome! Oh my God! I’m riveted by how disgusting he seems, in the way that she depicts him.” says a living Lucy.

“Yeah?” says a reader.

“Except this is all historically backed. There’s nothing ‘she’ is saying that can’t be backed by solid historical evidence…and what pisses me off is that people think she makes stuff like this up. But this isn’t something she made up. This isn’t ‘her depiction’ and I just wanted to point that out.

How absolutely pathetic our analysis of her writing has been for years.” says a living Lucy.

So then what happened?

“I asked another man watching. I said, ‘Is this for normal folks?’ And he said, ‘Yeah!??’ And I felt very stupid but I believed him.

So I watched them and I had a lot of thinking to do. I was shocked.” says Lem.

You thought normal heterosexuality was weird?

“Yes! And I felt…skeptical. But I realized I had been wrong. And…it was both…hopeful and soul crushing. I realized I was…normal. And had just been molested. But then I also realized I had really destroyed my whole life. And I became very suicidal.” says Lem.

So you were Jack Kennedy’s victim and we’ve stupidly romanticized it.

End of Beginning by Djo plays.

Lacey isn’t Annette. Lacey is Kathryn.

Actually Lacey is possibly literally Dutch Old Money. On Tom’s side. Her father. And you can’t more Kathryn than that.

Lacey’s father was raised rich. And was a gentleman. But he was a criminal. He was a wealthy bootlegger. He spent time in prison, briefly. But if he’s Lacey’s birth father…he held his sleeping infant daughter like she was worth a million times her weight in pure gold. He may have had a very…unusually good heart. And he didn’t want to bring miserable children into this awful world.

Kathryn is Lacey. And if you were to introduce Kathryn to Lacey…she’d have loved her. She’d have respected her. Instantly. Sebastian would have been as saintly as he could muster around Lacey. Why? Lacey is the only reason why they don’t kill people or kill themselves. Her meek human love. She is their conscience…suffering under their evil.

Here’s the thing: Lacey isn’t a mean girl. She’s just not. She’s capable of being…ferocious. But so are tsars. So were Prussian aristocrats.

And here’s the problem: Lacey isn’t capable of laughing the way Annette is. Counselors have stupidly assumed it was something wrong with her. It’s not. It’s just her way.

Lacey isn’t…like women of today. She’s extremely maternal by today’s standards. So…your pain and suffering really, really bother her. And yes…she’s extremely beautiful and sensitive and intense…but she’s also sincerely sad. Not just for herself but for all the motherless animals of the world. Literally. She’s wept over dead baby spiders when no one is watching. She can’t be happy the way Annette was…because she’s acutely aware that children are suffering somewhere. Always. And it makes her profoundly angry. She’s not capable of being so joyful before Heaven. And she’d like to kill us all methodically to abandon the fallen world once and for all. She pleads daily for a rapture with God.

Yes. Tsar Putin understands her anguish. Enough. So did Queen Elizabeth II. Annette. does not. Annette tells Lacey to go to Hell. Why? Because she’s a vain, selfish, ignorant fool when it comes to Lacey. And most living Americans are Annette.

Why did Kathryn hate Annette? Because she’s a jackass. A worthless jackass…in relation to a Lacey Banks.

Jack Kennedy is Annette. Even though he was a narcissist and a slut. But at heart he likes making stupid faces and making spoiled, sheltered kids like me…laugh. Yes. I was rich and sheltered to some degree until my adolescence. So…I found idiotic bullshit hilarious still. Lacey…even if she’d been raised by her father…isn’t capable of finding anything that…dumb…funny. She just doesn’t understand anymore why anyone would care.

And Kathryn…knows that. It’s why they shot JFK. It’s why Kathryn is letting Bobby make a complete ass of himself and his whole family…outing their shoddy, peasant inability to keep their wealth. Their stupidity and arrogance and selfishness.

Kathryn is Jewish. Kathryn is Black. Kathryn is Dutch Old Money. Kathryn is Irish. But Kathryn isn’t…nice. Not entirely. No. She’s mad. Because…Lacey actually cares. And she’s seen it. She saw Lacey crying helplessly over Bambi. And then she saw her wipe away her tears and give a great speech in English about horse breeds like she’s a cold, heartless bitch who only cares about owning decent horses.

Were Before by Cults plays.

Kathryn loves Lacey’s heart because it helps her understand her own humanity.

No one in the entire perfume community is seemingly a Kathryn. Other than Lacey. Kathryn doesn’t wear sexy “panty dropping” fragrances. Or Good Girl Gone Bad. Kathryn is “bad.” Kathryn would wear vintage Chanel No. 22 if she was drunk and depressed. To a bar near The Village in 2016. Just for fun. And that’s Lacey. Although Lacey isn’t exactly Kathryn. Lacey isn’t a mean hearted person at all. Kathryn knows you don’t understand that or give a shit, Annette, you lying, vain, pretentious hypocrite. Or are you just bourgeois and ignorant? Which is it?

Sebastian is scary because he is tired of insipid rich kids. But that’s not him…or Kathryn. They’re scary.

You haters tend to say you’re, “Just jealous of Lacey.” No. You’re not. It’s not just jealousy. It’s violence and hatred.

Why? See…I used drugs. For years. I tried to be married to a man… I was…a lot more like Sebastian at the start of the film…than the one who dies. The one who dies dies in Annette’s arms. I died alone in a posh Manhattan apartment. Why? Well…if you’re incapable of loving Lacey in her sad state don’t expect me to open up to you. Ha!

Let me ask you this: Why do you assume being settled down and married and living somewhere is worthless compared to a temporary room in the White House and being “best friends” with Jack Kennedy? Why do you assume I meant that as a Gay Rights Movement statement? …And why do you assume Kathryn didn’t and doesn’t matter to Christ as much as Sebastian or Annette? She’s not a lizard. She’s not an alien. And I’m not convinced she’s even a sociopath.

No. Jack certainly was not Kathryn. Not at all! He was very evil. But as Annette.

Lacey married a…known philanderer. And they’re now as close as they’ll ever be to anyone before death. They’re very loyal to each other. But she stands up to him at least once a week. And he respects her for it. They also have held each other at their lowest. They’re real comrades. They’re very close. But he tore Annette to pieces. Many times. There are many Annettes who still hate him. If they met him now they’d be SHOCKED. They’d feel…totally creeped out actually.

See the problem is Annette is almost always loved. By someone. Whereas that isn’t always the case for Kathryn. And regardless she’s raised like Lacey. She sees and knows a whole Hell of a lot.

People often project their unawareness onto Lacey. Because she’s quiet. Not like Jack. Jack was shy. Lacey is scared of people because she’s been brutally bullied and abused…she’s not shy. And if she’d been raised by her father…she’d have been quiet because her father killed people…and talked to US Presidents…and she couldn’t be friends with the local kids because they were too confused by her. Lacey slept with Elliott Roosevelt because he understood her. But she loves me. More than anyone. And…yes, Scott I was straight. And that is…trouble.

Why?

Because hearing I was straight hurts Annette. She wonders how I was seduced by Kathryn. For real.

Isn’t that why the perfume community hates Lacey? And sided with Casi? Because…Casi is Annette with a sassy southern attitude and a bisexual orientation. So was Alisha. So was Marsie. They all were. Even well-off Eastern European copywriters with dark, brooding pretensions. They’re all Annette. With her silly faces and cute ideas.

It isn’t that Annette isn’t lovable. No! …But she’s not mine. And I don’t want her. Cruel Intentions is very middle class America. It’s…made to encourage Annette to find me or something like me and change me. Like Jack might have changed me? Or what? Like I was the idealistic version of him you thought existed? You just needed to rescue me? From my family? But what if my Episcopalian WASP ancestors weren’t all evil?

Because here’s the sad truth: Lacey didn’t know I wanted her. She’s so confused by you people that she forgot what it even meant to my generation for a man to want a woman. She still recalled that men…desired women…but she forgot that we wanted and want them. She literally forgot that concept. I had to remind her today. I don’t think she’d remembered that…since…she was…26? 24? Maybe before. Literally. She just forgot. Hollywood stopped explaining that one…and men never told her that. Not really. She was used. She’s extremely pretty. But she had no idea what that even was anymore. Of course she recalled it when I reminded her. But she’d sincerely forgotten.

“So for almost the last 20 years, she’s always been the most beautiful woman in the room. She has had men wanting to devour her. They’ve lusted after her everywhere she goes, but to her that was just what!?!?” asks Marsie.

“A temporary stupidity.” says Lem.

“ OK so she really doesn’t find women remotely attractive at all and so to her she thinks well I know they’re attracted to them um, in the exact same way according to what I’ve heard was a bit different, but not that different to how I feel about men or how other women feel about men so no, they lost after them and they find them attractive but they don’t want them because she’s submissive and a woman and other women have probably lied to her and pretended to be just as feminine and submissive if she is an straight too!?! Out of hatred, jealousy and insecurity.” says Marsie.

“ yes so it’s like no they want them to maybe not as much as I want men even so I think she didn’t realize that meant even white women the way that women white men because they never they never expressed it in the same way because they don’t want them in the same way so they just think oh she just thought well I don’t think men white women as much as women want men but I guess they fall in love with them at times or something and him and then she just thought they were temporary idiomatic with her?” says Marsie.

“ yes Yep there’s been absolutely no glory for her or joy or pride, or any of them anything like that at all no, she’s been extremely well off I mean she comes from upper class old money privilege, but in a very meek sort of way, but yes she has that but there’s not really been a ton of glory with that either necessarily or has there, but that’s a different conversation but as far as beauty goes no she is not felt superior to other women possibly at all I mean she knows that she is technically superior but to her it’s just a technicality before heaven and that’s really all.” says Lem.

“ because she forgot that men white women because men of been to narcissistic with her and they’ve never told her that her entire fucking life?!?” says Dr. Moritz.

“ no and you didn’t either you asshole I know what happened in that last conversation you had with her you jack ass but but no Dr. Moritz Lawrie Snotgrass no no they have not told her that they want her and you certainly didn’t either the only man who ever has come close to telling her that told her that he felt guilty for being involved with her sexually because she was too good looking he literally told her he said you’re such a hottie. He said you’re such a hottie. This feels wrong because she really is that attractive. He said you’re so hot. This feels wrong and he meant it they never slept together and that was the last time he ever saw her because she was actually very grossed out and annoyed by that statement because it is disturbing. Why the fuck would you want to be told you’re such a hottie this feels wrong by a man as he’s starting to make out with you, that’s not a very loving thing to say because I mean here she was trying to look attractive for him and then he was telling her that there was something wrong with that I mean it was it was like a complement, but it was a weird complement it’s like you’re so attractive. This feels weird, and to be honest with you Michael heard stuff like that to you. Sometimes it’s like you’re so rich you’re Rockefeller this feels weird I don’t think the Kennedys have almost ever heard stuff like that if they have they don’t take it that way but I don’t think they’ve exact they may have literally heard those words but it’s different, there’s a difference between sleeping with a Rockafeller and sleeping with a cavity you might say oh my God your Kennedy this is such a big deal. This feels weird but you never say oh my gosh your Rockefeller this is such a big deal. This feels weird because they’re too scary and rich and imposing and old money and so you would say oh my gosh you’re Rockefeller you’re so fucking rich this feels kind of weird to be with you. At least you heard the same thing oh they are so hot feels weird to be with you and he meant it, he got accused of being a slut just like Michael I’m sure was accused of being evil for being a Rockefeller that’s the problem though of why do people assume that of them Michael is actually a very sweet person, so is Lacey him and then that way it is just a technicality before heaven they really are just unusually blessed in a way and it’s temporary because in the span of eternity 80 years is nothing to sell for 80 years yeah they were superior but they’re deep enough people where they don’t get it that it’s it’s possibly to them it really is just a technicality and it’s not some thing that doesn’t matter. It’s a technicality technicalities can matter a specially war, but it’s just a technicality if we’re all headed to have it, and if you were not, I’ll head to Dave And but if we were, it’s just temporary and they know that.

And I think the problem is that there’s a lot of people like Lacey and Michael but not enough so it the perfume community assumed that she couldn’t exist that a good hearted, sweet innocent tragic Catherine couldn’t exist much like people wouldn’t have necessarily assumes that a sweet, innocent Rockefeller, who where were Zito spectacles and was killed by His heroic efforts or ask didn’t seem possible either until you saw you know some 1980s television show about you know aliens or something or saw play and watched him cry on stage maybe because he couldn’t get anyone to fall in love with him but that’s the thing Lacey has not been explored as a character Catherine does exist and that’s the thing that irritates me. Why can’t the perfume communities let her be Catherine is it because you know she’s not that evil and she’s not that’s true she’s not that evil but why can’t you just let her be Catherine who’s not as evil as Catherine I don’t understand it, and you know really it points to not being evil and I know Jack was evil and that’s the problem. I’m going to end this post here for a bit but I’d love to know why it is that you people assume Catherine is always evil and that Annette isn’t in America, because that’s simply not true. Catherine is capable of being very innocent and good and quite tragic as in Lacey‘s case and mine, and she’s capable of being incredibly evil but I would wonder if Annette is actually capable of being more evil or not because Annette seems so damn good doesn’t she, you know there’s pictures of me laughing in the snow with Jack and it looks like I’m so happy I wasn’t. I was actually almost suicidal I was forcing myself to laugh partially because Jack was making me and I thought he was a very sick sad child, and I was trying to help him because I was naïve and sheltered and unaware And a that’s the problem that was very evil. I really was straight. Jack really was the sexual instigator. He made it seem like I was but actually he was believe it or not and it’s all reality even if he wasn’t him, Lacey is capable of stuff that Jack is not capable of, and if I am more like Catherine, I would prefer to be with her then Annette any day of the week I I am if I was bisexual or gay I can’t stand Jackie anymore I might let’s just say I was gay I can’t stand him anymore I died and realized what a fucked up life I had lied, and that Jack present even worth it at all he really wasn’t here most caused entire world to explode and more than one occasion And that’s the thing I actually was straight but that’s the thing I really wasn’t that happy I smiled and it was fake. I smiled at his wedding in a way that was sincere, and when I was smiling and it was fake, it wasn’t that I was as upset as I should have been at his wedding. If I was in love with him I was having fun sometimes you know it was fun I like to having money I liked being drunk I liked, I liked having fun and not every day was a bad day to but now there’s no way if I was in love with my could’ve smiled at his wedding the way that I did but I could fake a smile enough with a small amount of happiness that I had mostly from my childhood And from being reasonably well-off healthy enough white male American at and that’s the thing free I am I had some fun. I got drunk a lot and I smiled but underneath all that I was quite sad it was a very sad person, but I was capable of being happy because I wasn’t you know experiencing anything too distressing that I was aware of, there are things that we can repress and then there are things that we can’t. The wedding of a lover is not some thing where you could be happy at those that occasion or a person can be happy the wedding of a person who don’t give a shit about who makes you suck their cock and high who’s your drinking buddy even if you feel a little hurt that You’re being slighted, you’re not gonna feel that depressed OK because you’re not in love with that person and you can still keep sucking their cock and you don’t even really want to do that in the first place and you’re you still have a drinking buddy it wasn’t tragic to me, I could still smile and it was actually a happy occasion. I was actually happy for them in a way that only a friend could be or someone who is trying to be a friend and wasn’t a lover really in any real way at all and that’s the thing no, and that’s capable of evil in a way that’s so much profound because Jack made me laugh. Jack made me smile and it seemed so innocuous but it wasn’t. It’s the reason why Lacey slept with Elliot. It’s the reason Lacey slept with Joe. It’s the reason Lacey slept with Louis. It’s the reason she slept with Michael And Harold Lowe because she was sad. She is sad and it’s about other people it’s about herself and she saw me laughing with Jack. Innoway she’s not capable of laughing because she’s too upset by the world and she seriously is that’s not pretense that’s not liberal, do you good you know bleeding heart pretense she’s actually that deep of a person. Her father was two and away and no she just couldn’t she couldn’t she could she can’t laugh like that I don’t think she’s ever been able to laugh like that. Um, that’s just not who she is maybe I could’ve made her laugh like that but that’s not an easy thing for her to experience with her personality this is not and so her seeing me laugh like that, even if it was actually very asexual and more familial Was too hurtful to her because that’s not some thing that she easily experiences and she assume the worst which is understandable, and she felt very rejected and on wanted by me because that laughter that joy is something that people have held over her whole life she’s had family members make fun of her and despise her for being so intense people have heated her for her intensity and depth as a person she’s not been loved because of it nearly enough for not to be very painful for her to see me laugh like that. And so that’s where that can be an absolute horrible hellish bitch because Jack made me laugh like that and I didn’t realize at the time how serious it was because he was a predator and he could get people to do things like that take off their clothes when they were 15 or 16 or 13 and swim for him in a pool because he was a predator And that’s the problem that’s why he was shot because he was getting 13 year olds to swim naked for him in the swimming pool at the White House and he was molesting them and then trying to encourage Ted and Bobby to molest them to and it incestuous disgusting manner among other things that he would do Including almost blowing up the world on more than one occasion, but that’s the problem him. He made me laugh because he knew instinctually that it would somehow hurt someone and it would look good on film and make it seem like he was a big shot with a hot boyfriend, who is madly in love with him I mean that’s what he thought. Everyone thought that he was in love with me fighting over him, and that I meant some thing it didn’t mean jack shit I was patronizing Him, but just like how men don’t realize that women do that to them when they fake orgasms, they didn’t see through me either and so lots of gay men thought I was sincere and madly in love with him, and that my whole fucking world revolves around him it did it if you listen to the recording of me with Jack, I sound like a patronizing asshole, but he doesn’t see through that and most other people don’t either apparently I didn’t love him. He was not in love with a real love that I had for him he was in love with an allusion that he had of me being in love with him in a way that’s Barely possible, if at all, if someone could love him that much that person would probably have ended up killing themselves or dead or because Maryland might not have been the only person that killed themselves over jack or they would’ve ended up probably dying of alcoholism before he was ever killed I mean no it’s total fucking lunacy I would’ve never been usher in his wedding. I would’ve been drunk at home suicidal and they would’ve probably had me over later but I wouldn’t be in his wedding pictures smiling I would’ve been at his wedding if I was gay at all smiling oh hell no if I was in love with him and I was actually who you think I am, but not who I really am. I would’ve been drunk at his wedding alone and or you would’ve seen a very serious, intoxicated expression and every photo of me I look casual and relaxed because I was I might’ve been drunk, but I was happy I wouldn’t have been able to smile like that if I was actually in love with him, and I probably wouldn’t have even been at the wedding It’s absurd your narrative me the narrative of me is absurd and a lot of gay men fell for it. Oh Jackie, no you so love with you. Jack is in love with loves love that isn’t real cough cough but come on no that’s the thing I also gave heroin to his nephew, and it was died of it. That’s not love And try to make some sort of cultural argument about what was cool at the time what’s fucking bullshit sing for a second it’s still was irresponsible and can you really imagine me doing that with my own son as sensitive and loving of a person as I was no it’s not as likely as you think it’s weird that I didn’t give a shit about giving drugs to those kids I don’t care what Robert Downey Jr.‘s father was like I’m not his father I don’t have his psychology and honestly I don’t think there’s almost any time when it’s normal for a parent to do that there’s something incredibly egregious and frankly psycho pathic about a parent that would do that there could be rare exceptions, but they have to be extraordinarily rare if they’re possible at all.

Parents that give drugs to their kids on a certain level don’t give a shit about their children. I would say a lot of parents that drink with their kids to the point of access don’t care is not as much as they pretend you either there’s something very narcissistic and selfish about it get over it And I wasn’t that evil of a person I’m sorry I actually did care about people I cared about those kids too enough for them to know that I was a caring person, but I also didn’t care if they died because I thought everyone in that family was a fucking sociopath. I was a sweet, loving person, but I was pretty sure that that family was trouble. You know we honest how is a wrong. How was I complete? How was I totally wrong about that right now there are plenty of liberals supposedly who would probably say that I was right there are doctors who might even say it was right, I was trying to save Bobby from writing bullshit that keeps kids from getting life-saving vaccines. I mean come the hell on I cared about those kids but I knew they could fuck people over.

But getting back to my point though no I was, I was I was I am I was laughing in a way that hurts Lacey, but she could make me laugh that way believe it or not, and I could make her laugh that way, which is actually more what I’m interested in and she forgot that men want women so I had to remind her of that today because she finally explain to me after all these years of me, asking her and her racking her brain trying to figure it out why she slept with other people and turns out it’s because Jack made me laugh anyway, that she can’t make me laugh easily And he left with me in a way that she doesn’t know how to laugh easily if at all and I said, but I want you and shoe thought. Oh fuck up because she had forgotten that men want women in that way and she had forgotten for over 20 years practically, I know that sounds far-fetched but that’s actually what happened. It’s a fact and I decided to write this post because of it because I’m so pissed off now to him. I am pretty sure Michael saw this coming today you people don’t understand Lacey you don’t understand Catherine you don’t understand Sebastian and I am making her edit this because I’m sick of it, she writes these post to try to reach out to people and maybe it’s reaching out to someone or some child somewhere who reads the parts that are only applicable to them at times and graphic because I know they hear about sex and I want them to know that people can get raped Him I was raped to people get molested. I was molested him. It’s terrible. It’s not a small thing but it’s one of the worst things. If not the worst thing that could ever happened to you in life but that’s the thing hi hi hi I died. I’m just sad and I would love to know before I end this Because I’m just gonna make her added this grandpa Pantell is right we need to just focus on communicating with other and not just writing on this blog for hours every day um and she probably will post a picture of herself again tonight because or maybe she want that picture of her from the 40s is pretty accurate and yes she does slightly resemble Shirley Temple. She did as a child to him she is she’s very beautiful more than Shirley Temple but I’m sorry Shirley if you can hear us maybe she’s not listening but no Lacey is extraordinarily beautiful and that’s not a terrible picture of her, she looks sexually experienced and she would’ve been for our generation, but she’s also innocent and that’s maybe something that women of her generation were capable of being, but Lacey is that it may be experience isn’t the right word but I am but but no that’s the thing that’s the thing- but that’s the thing I would love to know how it is exactly that the Perfume community, which is comprised of a net and a lot of people are like her today I would like to know how do you people perceive the character of Catherine?” asks Lem.

“ I am I think we see her as being evil hearted, dark hearted, cruel, but manipulative, spoiled man, hungry, power-hungry, stupid, insipid, shallow, desperate, and probably someone who would be pretentious and pretend like they had more than they did, or make up crap about themselves in some psychotic way, but secretly be ugly and stupid.” says Jose.

“ yeah OK but I bet you probably imitated her style didn’t you?” says Lem.

“ yes because we tell her selves that were more Catherine, then Catherine, it’s like Catherine is just a con artist who found a really good sense of style and we can imitate it, which is why I think the Kennedy’s thing to that her style can just be imitated. It doesn’t actually belong to her because there’s no way she could really beat that grand of a person.” says Jose.

“ and the problem is Catherine actually had that good of a sense of style and if that doesn’t I don’t either and neither do most of you.” yells Hillary Clinton.

“ are you more of an Annette or a Catherine?” asks Tipper Gore.

“ I’m both I’m a rarity I’m kind of a combination of both.” says Hillary Clinton.

“ oh my gosh this is so true so we just can’t be like Catherine do you know the question you should really be asking is why were so fucking obsessed with you lame because you’re just a dude with creepy hair and glasses and you are a tractive, so is Sebastian but I’m not sure you actually look that good with a nut I actually think you look better with Catherine to be honest I mean I think about the actor says it as much as him to the actress who played and not looked good with her husband there’s something very Jewish about that character and Sarah Michelle Gellar is Jewish and I actually think they look better together so if Catherine could be a good person I don’t know why the hell we’re messing around in Catherine’s business like if they weren’t siblings and they were in love with each other and my siblings I mean they obviously were never blood siblings, but if they were in love with each other, I think I actually think those to make more sense as a couple then him and Annette so as someone who Lacey tried to open up to you and talk to style about whether I’m saying this now in my subconscious or in the afterlife first of all shit I fucked up she was actually trying to be vulnerable with me, and I totally screwed it over and screwed up and didn’t realize that that wasn’t her personality that she’s not actually like that so when she confided in you she’s testing you to see if you are capable of being vulnerable with her and if you’re not, she doesn’t take a lot of what you say to Hart, which is interesting I’ve had to realize that overtime him know I gave her crap advice and I pretend to be a stylist basically right dead um but that’s the thing I have come to realize that yeah her sense of style is vastly superior to Casi‘s and pretty much almost anyone in the Perfume community because that’s just her she has an exquisite sense of style. That’s very unique and sort of British possibly Dutch old money. Her father seems to have a very similar sense of style himself, and so it Hass to be so much genetic or something it’s amazing if she’s illegitimate what people learn the first three months of life but anyway um I don’t and honestly I’m grateful that she had three months of normalcy even if that’s all she gets her entire fucking life and thank God it was in the first three months of the accounts for more than just three months and if not then shit but if it does, yea maybe she was able to get like three or four years out of that or something but anyway or some thing sorry I like to think that I’m so whatever humanitarian is a person, but anyway no I just I am pissed off because I can see why this is something. He thought he should bring up I I’m from New York. I get hurt in that way people who grew up in Texas and live in New York. No you don’t think like Lacey. Lacey is like a native New Yorker or some people make compare her to a native Jew from Israel. They’re not people to mess around with really she’s not and that’s where people need to be last night. Yeah Lacey is scary Casi I think Casi looked on her guard too much was Lacey and thought she was talking to another version of herself or some thing but Lacey is not like that Lacey is scary. Lacey probably did punch Casi in the gut because Casi deserved it and I got punched in the gut by Lacey to. I also might’ve deserved it. People in the perfume community are dumbasses. A lot of them are narcissistic Casi was included. I know not all of them, but a lot of them are, and they’re very competitive and they can’t handle the fact that she’s, not someone you can take it vantage of it that way, but she saw through Marshall and yeah she was prettier than Margielyn, but it was different and I don’t know what else to say. I’m sorry she’s an extraordinary person. She’s a rare beauty, her body her face is unusual, but I think what I just I wanna know why the hell we can’t just get our own sense of style. Annette could have her own sense of style and she always does at times in the movie, is Catherine sense of style superior? Yeah because I have a feeling Catherine comes from a wealthy your family than Annette Catherine is supposed to be Dutch old money or is she supposed to be an allusion to Dutch old buddy so where a net comes from potential Puritan ancestors Catherine is supposed to come from wealthy Dutch for traders or people who came over with you know Vermeer and their ship and farms Manhattan, she’s a different person and maybe she’s oppression aristocrat on her mother side and that’s the thing. Why can’t we just let them be superior to us Lacey has more money her family has an exorbitant amount of wealth you’ll never have that oil Casi you’ll never be that rich neither will i that’s impossible and that’s reality.

I mean help I don’t think the Kennedys were ever that rich and reality they had that much money, but they didn’t have it in oil. I don’t know if they’ve ever voted in the electoral college I know I kind of doubt that they have although I don’t know, I would be surprised if they have, but I wouldn’t be surprised if they have it, but that’s the thing you can’t fib about stuff like that I know will never be that rich Casi, so I don’t know why you did this to us. We’re never going to be as wealthy as her, and Annette will never be as scary as Catherine was capable of being or will she I don’t know, but I think the pointers, there are some things that just can’t be tampered with Catherine isn’t Annette Annette isn’t Catherine why the hell can’t we just have our own aesthetic why the hell did you have to steal Chanel 22 maybe that did not perfectly Sue Lacey but I don’t know why we had to make a national event out of it I think Jack is jealous of Lacey. I think he’s spiteful. He stole them, even if it was just an illusion to get at her and her family because he was mad at Dutch old buddy because he was slighted by the fact that he could never be that grand, and he decided that he wanted to be the greatest thing to ever exist. He felt he had a right to it, that’s narcissism. I think he hated his family to because he also couldn’t be Puritanical old money and that’s the thing I just wanna know Casi why could we just be glamorous I is a gay man can wear a Gotti sparkly brooches and look sexy combined with Frederick mall in a way that Lacey will never be capable of doing and perfectly honest with you. I don’t think she gives two fucking flying shits. I think she thought it was cool And Casi, you can wear lipgloss and glittery cat died sunglasses with your big oversized peasant, tits and your hair up on your head and look sexy in a way that Lacey can’t. I think Lacey can look equally sexy but she doesn’t have that aesthetic you did before you decided to compete with her and alter your nose to look like Michael Jackson’s, whether you did that in reality or just in your photographs, it’s absurd. I don’t know why the entire fucking perfume community is copying her and why they hate her and why they insist on competing with her you’ll never be her you will never be that beautiful you will never be that rich, possibly until your debt, it’s not that big of a deal you’re probably someone attractive you’re probably loved you’re probably very fortunate. I have absolutely no idea why you decided to be obsessed with competition to the point of insanity.” says Mr. Chanel.

“ I am Lacey‘s neighbor our house is bigger than theirs. I’m writing this in the afterlife and I’m a little proud of the fact that our house is bigger than theirs and Lacey knows that and it irritates her because she thinks it’s silly and I actually respect that about her, but maybe I will never get a chance to express that until I’m dead.

Oh, I’m in Annette and my husband is sort of a nut to you in a way maybe he’s a little bit of a Sebastian but he’s mostly like me and we’re very fortunate we’re not as fortunate some people, but we’re very fortunate people I, I think like the Perfume community more, though, although I would never wear as much perfume as they do, I am more into things that are holistic than that That’s just not something that I would spend my money on.

I am more likely to buy organic produce and spend hundreds on that every month then to buy a bottle of perfume to me. I would rather enjoy fresh you know I am hot house growing tomatoes from Minnesota in December then by Frederick mall.

Oh, but that’s the thing I think like them though I am I am rather than that I I think being her neighbor I’ve come to realize that it’s at least I’m coming to realize that it’s stupid to compete with her. She’s just it’s it’s just dumb it’s like comparing apples to oranges. It’s just really really stupid.

I mean really her and her husband are just different people. They just are different people than us and you know I am I don’t understand why you guys don’t get that concept maybe because they’re unusual they are they are they’re very unusual people. They both extraordinarily intelligent my husband says it’s a point either now or in the afterlife that Mark is probably one of the smartest people he’s ever talked to and he is Mark is extraordinarily intelligent and Lacey Hass to be equally intelligent and she is, but they’re very eccentric people in the way they’re not people to mess around with you don’t want to get on your bad side you will regret it at some point but but they’re not mean-spirited people at least Lacey isn’t and they’re not people to compete with It’s that’s just 100% toxic It’s just a terrible idea so if they have a cute house that’s smaller than yours but it’s cuter let it go or if their house is bigger than yours and cuter let it go basically just let it go if you’re not let it go if you’re like them and you can relate to them. Maybe you can have a conversation with them but I would never assume that I’m like them, and if you have any inkling that you’re not maybe if you know take Lacey’s love that’s a reflection of God and his love for you as is a thing, but be careful because you you should never assume that you can get in their head, they’re not necessarily capable of being evil, the same way that we are, and maybe maybe we’re capable of being more evil but I would bet that they can be very dangerous And that you probably don’t want to mess with them, Katherine would never kill your boyfriend, but I wouldn’t be surprised if when she’s dead, she will at the world or come close to it or try to, and that’s the thing the minute that the illuminati should they exist, found out that she was Tom’s daughter they really should’ve backed off but I guess they didn’t realize that JFK was shot because he almost at a nuclear war people thought Jackie was shot because he was a hero, right?” says Lacey’s neighbor.

“ do you post on Instagram?” a perfume hater asks Lacey’s neighbor.

“ my husband used to know we’re not not competitive people but no I don’t. I think Lacey does because she’s artistic and it’s just a web for expressing herself.” says her neighbor,

“ did my son die because of the illuminati?” asks Marsie.

“ hey, yes, he did because of the evil illuminati to some degree. Yes, those six people who died in Maryland died because of the illuminati to Marsie.” says the FBI.

“ oh, so if there’s an illuminati mercy, then yes, they killed him. Otherwise, I think she’s mocking you for being evil.” says Monika

“ Lacey just answer this if you’ve talked to my son at all on this blog, did you block me because you were pissed off for him at all?” says Marsie.

“ yes, I did.” says Lacey.

“ because you feel like I’m making his death about myself too much?” says Marsie.

“ yes, I did feel like that slightly. I’m sorry.” says Lacey.

Marsie cries. “ so you’ve talked to him?”

“ yeah I’m pretty sure I have if I’m able to talk to goes if that’s an ability that I have for some sad reason. Yeah he both defended you and didn’t defend you at the same time. We had a very short discussion about you very much seemed like your son.“ says Lacey.

“ oh, is he OK?” asks Marsie.

“ I just asked got him allowed to tell you yes I am allowed to tell you he is OK him but I don’t think he was supposed to necessarily have died.” says Lacey.