It’s Nuts

Yesterday Lacey had a flashback to when she was a child. And she realized that she was abused by her mother who raised her but she’s just managed to repress it for all these years.

Lacey’s mother who raised her often felt sorry for herself. She’d go on and on about what was wrong with her. And then she expected Lacey to always empathize. Always be the true adult between them, even as a very small child.

So…somehow the abuse Lacey experienced from her mother was covered-up by mother’s unrelenting supposed low self-esteem. And it was just a day or two ago Lacey realized it…in a conversation with Lem.

Actually he realized it first…and then…since he’s dead…she had horrific memories flood back into her mind in public where she had to simply close her eyes and calm herself. Sort through what it was she was recalling and when it was.

And it left Lacey stunned.

Paint The Town Red by Doja Cat plays.

Lacey’s almost positive that if her father is Thomas Banks biologically…that Karrie committed suicide in the womb. …For real. …Or her mother who raised her boiled her. Literally.

Lacey’s mother who raised her…worked as a chef for her entire pregnancy. Standing-up for hours by a hot oven and stove. Truly. Lacey’s mother who raised her told Lacey stories about it. …That’s not normal. That’s not safe. Karrie Linn…was killed?

The eyewitness family friend there claimed the baby was whisked away…all dark as night…because the baby supposedly had breathed in meconium and was covered in it. But…what if the baby was already dead?

It’s only certain that the baby was taken away from Lacey’s mother who raised her instantly. And she saw Lacey, bright, totally healthy, cheerful and extremely big and alert for a newborn a few hours later.

Of course not all dead babies want to be dead. But…Karrie might have?

If that’s true…Lacey loves the Nesheims as much as she can. And the Crafts. But she’s not really one of them. And it’s becoming painfully obvious…if it’s true.

Lacey’s mother who raised her is basically on her deathbed. But she’s in denial about it. Lacey worries it’s because she’s afraid of death.

Demons by Doja Cat plays.

“You’re dating demons.” says Jonah Wiley.

“Then why did Lem call her mother a whorish bitch?” asks Matthew Perry.

Jonah look confused.

“No. Really. He possessed her to yell at her mother.” says Matthew Perry.

“How are you talking to me?” asks Jonah.

“It’s complicated. But she’s not a witch. Lacey’s not a witch.” says Matthew. “Look. Being dead isn’t a cakewalk. …Don’t kill yourself. But…I see why the mothers on their last nerve…literally…in the Holocaust…wanted to die and their kids to die faster. …You’re very lucky.”

Silence.

Vegas by Doja Cat plays.

“Her father…was horrified. And she was incredibly alone. …Look…be careful.” says Matthew. “Tom has always known. One way or another.”

Silence.

“Matt…do you regret dying?” asks a living recording artist.

“That’s impossible to answer at this time.” says Matt.

bitches broken hearts by Billie Eilish plays as a joke from Matt.

“But you’re with God?” asks the recording artist.

“Yes!” says Matt.

“Are people killing people and killing themselves?” asks a Native American woman.

“What if we are? Out of absolute despair.” says a Sackler.

“So your idea what to be rich killing people…in a dystopian world?” asks the Native American woman.

“Yup! Possibly.” says the Sackler. They shrug.

“Okay Karrie! You’re obviously smart for killing yourself.” says Jenna Fischer. She rolls her eyes.

“If she exists…she might be proud of herself.” says Matt. “That was a brilliant intuition.”

“Matt do you still go to the Illuminati meetings?” asks the Native American woman.

“No!!!” says Matt. “Absolutely not!” He thinks. “This is a rare occurrence. I just wanted to say something in her father’s defense.” He thinks. “And her’s.”

“You’re dead man. Just enjoy it…I guess.” says the recording artist.

“You’ll die too…you know?” says Matthew.

More later.

Myth by Beach House plays.

“How…did you possess Lacey?” asks Jonah Wiley.

“It’s a very sad…very long story.” says Lem. “Look…she was looking forward to getting married and having a life. But…her life has been close to Hell instead. And yet…she’s been a real Christian since she was a toddler.” says Lem. “No exaggeration.” He thinks. “It’s unthinkable to her to give up her Christianity.” says Lem. “And…when she contemplated suicide very seriously at age 28…and reasoned against it…it was based on extremely rational thinking. She was ready to die. And yet she felt it was wrong. …She was newly married and she had a strong sense that…nothing was going to change for the better for her in any meaningful way for the rest of her life.

She was extremely beautiful, extremely intelligent…a strong Christian…a very sweet, loving, sensitive…healthy…but terribly depressed person. …And…not unsurprisingly…she was right.

She…was born into old money. And Scott wasn’t lying. They-We…are different.

Her kids…are…AMAZING…worth all of it…and countless more pain…but…if she could have had them in Heaven…she was…right. …There’s possibly no way…out.

Did you ever hear the story about the rich mother who locked her daughter in a closet to keep her from marrying beneath them? Lacey’s life isn’t all that different, Jonah…in some ways. And Lacey calls out to God daily.

Her life is…Hellish.

She currently is laying in bed…because she still has to recuperate for days after too much activity or she feels like she could literally die. Her neck muscles and arm muscles and brain feels…weak and pained…and she’s anemic. She really did fall down her stairs.

…F. Scott Fitzgerald died at 41. Lacey is 40. They’re a lot alike in some ways.

But…where Scott drank himself to death…Lacey…hung on to her faith with her nails and teeth. …Lacey and Harold really are…soulmates. He was always stunned that Brett wasn’t Lacey.

But Michael is the one weeping.

And Louis is the one smiling.

And I’m the one holding the pieces.

…I was…ready to bring her home…when she took nine Advil. But I knew it wasn’t enough. And…I’ve tried to kill her and take my kids and Mark too repeatedly over the last few months…while she’s sleeping…but it’s not been successful. God knows.

Jonah…some people die. And the Holocaust was real. Earth…as good as we make it…isn’t Heaven. And while Dr. Moritz likes to pretend otherwise possibly…dead Jews and dead sun-torched Mexican immigrants would beg to differ. It’s incredibly naive, sheltered, backward and ignorant to believe that the Earth is Heaven as an educated adult.

Some justice is in God’s hands.

She just wanted to be loved. And…that’s why Diego took advantage of her. Way back in 2016. She was…in shock…but…she was open to the mystery. She truly thought it was Chris Hayes in a dead marriage. She had no idea that the Illuminati existed…if it does. And…so…when Diego impersonated Chris…writing in code…a code she reasoned was made-up by bored journalists…she…fell in love.

But not with Diego. Not with Chris. With Michael Rockefeller. Because Chris and Diego both channeled him against his will…given their ability to do so…in the Illuminati…should it exist… It was Michael who she really fell in love with. And she was devastated when she realized ‘he wasn’t real.’ He seemed so real. But…they both channel him…and he is real…he’s just Michael Rockefeller not them.

Diego only realized that in 2018 or so. And the plans to create Covid-19 had started by then. Chris, should the Illuminati be real, can’t fathom it. He believes she was just…foolish. He doesn’t think his persona is that different than his real identity.

At any rate…Diego created a spiritual hole. And anything can just walk right through. It’s very dangerous and difficult to see. God is protecting her…but…it’s astounding. And I am able to talk to her. And…it’s like I’m not dead…almost. I’m just there.

How did I possess her? Ask the English. Right? No…I’m mostly kidding.

What did I do? I took her pieces that could have been collected by a living man…as she became one flesh with him…and made her mine. And since I’m dead…and can’t chew her mother who raised her out…God may have let me control her flesh…with her will in alignment and in submission to me.” says Lem Billings.

“Huh. So…she could have had a husband?” asks Jonah.

“Not easily.” says Lem.

“So…what did you do?! If I’m believing this.” says Jonah.

“I kicked her mother out. I started the fight. I made Lacey yell at her. …I’ve confronted her twice on the phone.” says Lem.

“So Lacey has sworn at her mother?” asks Jonah.

“She warned her of possible Hell if she doesn’t repent. And the Illuminati is who conjures me. All day. All night.” says Lem.

“Well that’s jolly funny.” says an Englishman.

“It’s God. It’s Jesus. It’s His love and mercy. And yes…He created the British humor. …I am English…regardless if there’s reincarnation in the Bible or not.” says Lem.

“Is she okay!?” asks the Englishman.

“If I’m real…and she knows my love…even a tiny bit…and God’s lovingly condoning it as a mercy…she’s far better than she realizes. It’s that she doesn’t realize it. That’s the trouble.” says Lem. “And yes…God is God. And He’s good. …And yes…your country exists beyond the grave.”

More later.