“Why We Hate Lacey” by Bobby Kennedy

Will edit this later as what I just had someone say I have been wiretaps by Michael Rockefeller in the last week so man told me and have a reader stupid fucking blog

The truth is, we can’t have we can’t stand Lacey it’s because she’s Tom, Becca‘s daughter and we would be Trailor trash without him and we hate that if it wasn’t for him we would be fucking poor OK we will be poor as fuck I wouldn’t even know who we are. We would’ve gotten much money, so we wouldn’t have that much money and you wouldn’t really have a fucking clue we are we were we would’ve been wealthy but like we would’ve lost our money in the great depression in the stock market crash of 1929 we would’ve just lost her money and no we wouldn’t have been that rich and we would’ve probably done fairly well eventually but yeah, I would probably just be a middle-class family somewhere and no one would have a clue who we are. We were just be average middle-class family probably with a lot of people with severe alcohol issues and drug dependency. There won’t be as many of us and I don’t know what I don’t know what else would’ve happened but now we we would we would’ve been rich but that’s why we hate her father because her father made us what we are if that makes us hate him because we’re probably a profoundly vain arrogant conceited family. We’re very evil and that way at least probably another way is as well but that’s one of our worst areas is that were incredibly in capable of being below anyone we hate that and that’s a large part of the reason why we can’t stand her it’s just that it’s like that’s where we got our money from and so then it’s like how do we How do we handle this because we don’t want to be under her authority we don’t want to respect her we don’t want her to we don’t wanna think nice thoughts about her we just want to destroy her and it’s not fair it’s just a it’s just simply unfair because why should she love us it makes me feel like she’s my mom or my grandma and that makes it in that case and I just wanna rip her hair out and then it makes her laugh, which is all my mom would filter when she was loving but that pisses me off a lot and I think why the hell does this woman laugh when I try to rip her hair house, why is she just laughing at us why is she just laughing at us and then I just think what the hell is wrong with my grandfather because obviously she was his soulmate and it’s embarrassing because it’s like what the fuck what the fuck was them doing with us you’re right it’s insane it’s totally Batchik. He had no business being with us if he was straight it’s it’s it’s weird and then they makes me think my uncle was nuts not a way that I even up like completely insane.

Oh, because you’re right it’s like him. It’s very bizarre that he had this like psychosis that love was in love with him and everyone else believed it probably because he made people believe it and it probably if this is just as wide is true and my uncle really was that narcissistic and one was straight who’s after said he died when I was a kid, so if if he really was that crazy and then was straight, I don’t think Jack was saying I think Jack was possibly psychotic and I actually think there are people who have historical knowledge Lacey that he he had psychotic episodes like actual psychotic episodes the one where he ran through the hotel with his clothes off no he has psychotic episodes and it makes me wonder if that was part of it he did you know, sort of diagnosed himself as gay when he was a kid and then decided that he was going to be a terrible terrible person And I am if I’m not straight up little bit like that myself why do we cling to them because I think it scares us to be vulnerable with anyone I have a feeling my grandfather is the same way it’s terrifying to be vulnerable and then was very comforting because he was so perfect I was like well I’m crazy I’m gay but at least I’ll end up with a nice man else he’ll take care of me, but then the problem is is it’s nuts because of his blog is to be believed he could’ve been my grandfather to and away and it’s it’s funny because he would’ve been my grandfather right but if you’re my grandfathers soulmate and then you’re with them for eternity in a weird way, it’s almost like he could’ve been my grandfather slightly and then it’s like love just was my grandfather and Jack was his son which makes sense of the relationship at the wedding. It’s creepy as hell because he looks so proud of Jack. He doesn’t look sad. He looks proud of him from Eric Jackie, what the hell is that about? It’s like what the fuck what are you been? Proud of Jack for getting married if he was his lover and that’s the thing he he he really might not have been a pedophile and it might’ve been a very weird relationship that he had with Jack, where is Kisner? He was a pedophile but I actually think it’s possible that he wasn’t and that I just had that clouded in my mind because it people have made me believe I ate. I really do wonder if if Jack was just crazy and if you know love was straight and my family literally kept them hostage. We are very difficult people and it’s possible that they did to keep everyone quiet about Jack as I was so crazy that they could use it to protect Jack because he write people out they could tell that he was straight and then they just use that as a weird sort of psychological maneuvering to cover up for Jack, which actually is very intelligent, but it’s also very evil but then why why didn’t love and realize yeah I want you know I’m gonna ask him that right now because it actually ticks me off. Why didn’t you realize that you were in a weird parental relationship with my uncle?

“ oh no no oh I think that’s an excellent question it’s actually very disturbing I was not a pedophile I was very naïve. Sorry that’s not the showstopping answer you’re looking for but I was I was very naïve Bobby it was you know the 1950s and I was parental towards him by instinct, believe it or not, I I felt sorry for him. I saved his life. I felt sorry for him. He was shorter than me. I was a lot taller than him and at sound stupid but I I think it affected me my perception of him.” says Lem, laughing at himself.

“ you had a parental tendency towards Jack and you didn’t realize it was weird because of how short he was and the fact that you weren’t gay?” asks the CIA.

“ yes, possibly with women it’s different with me but with men when they’re shorter than me, I used to somehow I think in my head become a bit parental I was also are you I was older than him.” says Lem.

“ do you know if you did molest me and I actually think this is possible that you were straight and that my grandfather was her soulmate possibly and that she’s Tom’s daughter even possibly biologically I mean if she’s biologically Tom’s daughter and I had proof of that I don’t know that I feel that different than I do right now, to be honest but why am I so why why why why why yeah why does Lacey just like go of things with you? Why does she just get over it let’s just let’s just say I believe you and that this actually all makes sense to me that you were that innocent of a person back then and then you probably still are mostly, but I am, yeah I feel like your generation was maybe better than we were I was away which scares me, but I am let’s just say you were innocent and you had no idea how weird that was that you didn’t wanna sleep with him, and that you felt fatherly towards him first part of it was because he was shorter than you why are you just to see when you’re doing stuff with him who is with the family is sick inside or what did you do?” asks Bobby.

“ well, I wasn’t his father and him he’d make me do it really I’m sorry he’d make me do it and that’s sad so first of all he was making me do it. I have to keep that in mind and second of all him that’s actually that’s probably the sort of that’s a large part of it. At least I wasn’t perverted, if I didn’t molest you, you know I wasn’t perverted I wasn’t I was I’m not a nice person, but I was not perverted. I am so no eight somehow just there were two separate things that I wasn’t actually his father so I could sort of compartmentalize it I guess in my college to separate the two things, but I am one of the ways that that happened that separation in my head was that I thought him as a friend does he was my age even if I was older than him but you’re you know him, but when he’d attack me to it’s sort of got my head, thinking of him as an equal because he wasn’t really my son so it’s like he’s attacking me and it’s after defend myself and I think now this this jerk really isn’t he know my brother or my friend that way or my son or my nephew or my little buddy or something He’s you know he’s he’s he know he is he’s attacking me I’m so and I made an agreement to do this so I’ll do it.” says Lem.

“ in agreement with him here or before you were born?” asks Bobby.

“after I made it was after I met him it was right when I said it was when I thought I was marrying him him and I know it’s coming next you’re going to say how did you end up married? How do you get Lacey to be with you all right maybe you know I don’t know if people are even there yet in their heads because I don’t think all of you realize how beautiful she is but she is she’s a she’s she’s extraordinarily beautiful and she’s actually really wonderful and I think some people might think it’s bizarre that she just ends up with me again, and the other people might find a comforting, why is it? Why does it work out that way because I don’t know she just likes me that much. She just loves me that much and be honest with you. I’ve kind of made her.” says Lem.

“ you’ve made her fall in love with you?” asks Bobby.

“ yeah yeah I have it to be honest with you. I actually think that’s what she wanted and a husband.” says Lem.

“ how does that make you happy to think that she’s with you because you made her be with you?” asks Bobby.

“ I said, I think someone like that idea of making a woman be with them. I actually think it’s sort of a traditional idea that the men sort of lose the woman and makes her be with him in no actually I really like it. I love it that she is mine. It doesn’t entirely make sense, if he had it does, and I have to be careful with that because I wasn’t nearly as good looking as she is, but she doesn’t know that anymore she thinks I’m arguing one of the best looking man to ever live.” says Lem.

“ but she’s very sane and rational with almost everything I mean I think if your daughter had any flaws from you, she would probably just dismiss them as a meeting less which they are and they might not even be in heaven is that how it works so she just sees you for who you are how do you think so good enough for It’s he’s so perfect and wonderful I can’t talk or what is it Lem?” asks England.

“ to be honest I can’t explain it any other way that quickly other than just say that she’s mine she’s just mine she’s my rib. I want to know that my one and only Rob and no I don’t wanna be with anyone else and I am as long as I can keep her as mine, I don’t think she would wanna be with anyone else either. It’s interesting relationship some people today because those are the dynamics I want her I’ve decided it and it’s just my dad wanting and then if I can keep her there’s no way that she’s ever with anyone else for eternity she just doesn’t really necessarily want to be the one to decide she’s sort of the antithesis of Zelda and that way it’s she hates it because it’s just us it’s just it’s not. I don’t know it’s just not her nature I think it for her it’s a math equation. It’s like which man is makes makes the most sense, and it’s an impossible question I’ve called her a few times trying to calculate literally it was like math or face in the sort of mathematical way and context of what other other mathematical equations she has in her head of reality and then she just likes me that much so it’s like what’s the what’s the bother there’s no bother if I can keep her then then that’s not a problem. I don’t think it doesn’t make sense to her to be with anyone else if I love her that Much, and honestly that might be an older form of love because men who you might not have thought where is good looking in the past might of been seen as I know the cats meow their wife and I are the people of thought I was good looking too. I am not looking. I’m very good looking, but she actually is better looking for his husband and she still is but no it’s it’s a very old very old style of life very old traditional I’m very old style of love, and I was wonder if that was the backdrop that Scott was writing his book on him because I think he might’ve gotten the idea that Zelda was his and that you never was his based on me and Lacey people like me and Lacey I should’ve said specifically me and Lacey but specifically on people like us because that is who we are and so you know if I met Lacey in the way that he met Zelda then it would’ve been the end. Lacey and I would’ve started having babies right off the bat and she would’ve kept the child and that would’ve been, the middle of the kind of the end of our time with other people whatever meager thing that would’ve even been at sounds very old isn’t it? That’s the idea it’s like you know she’s mine and that’s just it sounds of preposterous cause I gotta see if we’ll be in love, but we will we will we would be in we are, and then that’s just that that’s just that that’s the end of it all I don’t think we have a problem with that because I don’t think either one of us would want to be with anyone other than a child or every marriage other the principle of the thing matters to both of us to but it’s more than just for Lacey. A large part of it is a beauty in the principle of love itself and for me it’s gonna be a bit different than that I am possible so for me it’s beyond that in a way that’s hard for me to explain, but um, but no it’s she’s impossible to get anyone else unless if God says otherwise it’s impossible so no it’s just that’s the end of it and that’s the thing that was with Scott actually might’ve even been used to seeing people who Matt fell in love very quickly because I knew which other somehow you know with her got and then that was the end and they were very happy happily ever after and people might still be capable of that but maybe around maybe a little more barely then they were back then or maybe that wasn’t a river yeah it’s debatable, but we are that sort of that love it first sight, and then it last forever type of thing literally forever which is definitely problematic with the story with Jack yeah that’s not what happen with with Jack though that’s not what happen with Jack Jack I will I said I was I loved my whole life and that wasn’t quite what I meant wasn’t like that I was happy at the wedding in a weird way, and I did see him as a son because I wasn’t attracted to him I know it’s hard for me to explain how dumb the whole thing isn’t that way because everyone says we were soulmates and that we were in love. I never even came out of the closet and the problem is you can’t assume so much I don’t think someone wants to hear this right now but knows she really wasn’t wrong and thinking that I was in love with her.” says Lem.

“You were in love with her?” asks a reader.

“ yeah I was looking for her and Jack was not her but I was in love with her and I said some very stupid stuff and I’m sorry that I left everyone with the impression that I was gay.” says Lem.