“A Theory From A Gay Man“ by a gay man

Lacey. Don’t be so sure gay men are being…real with you.

Or competitive assholes.

Why?

Umm…1. WE…ARE…INSECURE.

Yeah. We…are.

So…a huge part of the reason why gay men are ridiculous with you about Lem Billings is because we’ve mythologized him. Sure. BUT…it’s not just that. We are also so insecure when it comes to…reading each other.

Yup. We are horrible at figuring out who’s gay and who’s straight other than for our gay mannerisms and other social cues. …We claim boastfully to have ‘gaydar’ and….maybe some gay men actually do…but most of us are just going off of superficial cues. Really.

We…study a man’s dress, way of moving and other attributes to gage his likelihood to be into us. And to be honest…we cannot always tell. Really.

Some gay men…are obvious. Seemingly. But lots of gay men are more subtle. …And I have definitely hit on straight men. And some of them have been very offended.

To be even more honest…the straight men I’ve hit on have been…often sensitive, artistic and/or intellectual. And…it’s maybe a little sad come to think of it…because why do I assume they’re gay? It’s depressing. It says something awful about our collective perception of straight men. At least right now in history.

I’m almost entirely gay. But…there are the rare women I’ve found at least slightly attractive. …And that’s the other fear. So many gay men are terrified about dating bisexuals. Just like straight people are. Because they seem…dangerous. You can’t trust them?

So…you writing for Lem And hearing his possible ghost explain how he basically faked being gay livens numerous fears in me as a gay man. And I react instead of respond.

And if the Illuminati has reasons to keep mythologizing Lem it’s…difficult for me to be objective.

…When I study Lem and his voice I hear his heterosexuality. I actually do. …But I don’t want to see it or hear it.

…He’s so damn convincing. Or was he?

Seriously. Was he!?

“No.” says Red Fay.

“Why did y’all lie?” asks another gay man.

“For the Kennedy myth.” says Red Fay.

“Jackie was mad about this book because she was jealous.” says Lacey Banks Billings.

Jackie laughs. Nods.

“Lacey you knew I was a lurid asshole you just knew I was how did you know that?” asks Bill Bradlee.

“Because that’s just your name.

I read your name at some point in childhood and someone told me you were an asshole and might’ve been Jackie herself.” says Lacey Banks Billings. “No I just-I just…umm…I actually like your name but then some point in my mind I read your name and someone just started talking about you to my-in my subconscious I think and I got an impression of who you were.”

“Lacey, I’m beginning to see why you call yourself a ditz.” says Bill Bradlee.

“Oh hi remember me I’m your old friend Joe.“ says Joe Kennedy Junior to Lacey.

“Yes, I know but that’s the thing. You have to understand that I have a very bizarre mindset about all of this. It’s very screwed up in my head at this point, so I am sorry.” says Lacey Banks Billings.

Jackie nods in empathetic understanding.

Oh, what the fuck!? That is weird Lacey that you know all the stuff about these people you’ve never met. And how often are you right?

“ she knows stuff that she thinks that she read somewhere in the 1990s that may or may not have ever been published a and so is it probably was but there’s a good portion of of it that was never published that she’s never read anywhere and for some reason, Joe never realized the top with a trivia problem that she knows all of the stuff that other people don’t know that’s never been published and that she just walks around with all of this wealth of information that can’t easily be verified and if it is something that someone hears like Bobby, it freaks them out because it’s bizarre for her to know all the stuff about these people including him.” says Bill Bradlee.

“ so she scares Bobby?” asks MSNBC.

“ oh yeah yeah he feels like he’s talking to an older woman who is 40 arm and it makes him feel very young still and that’s probably kind of fun and that at times I think he feels like he’s talking to a very old woman who he worries about like when she fell down the stairs or sometimes when they discuss other things he sometimes feels like he’s talking to a woman in her 90s the most 40 olds don’t have catastrophic falls down the stairs in their own home, but she did him and what else know shit she knows more than then at then he would like to, and I think that it’s been probably rather traumatic for him at times and yet I think being as ambitious as he is his move from thinking, oh maybe there’s an afterlife to thinking how much of a piss my father off today because there’s things I did that he could’ve seen and been very angry about and it said it’s been healing for him, and that way to realize that his dad still exists, and that it’s his death is serious, but maybe not as serious as he was taught to believe it was by modern society It’s you know death is serious it’s very serious that’s a huge separation and we obviously don’t know for sure but being skeptical to the point of you are almost insanity at this point isn’t saying it isn’t rational and you’ve got a sort of realize that there’s a huge likelihood that there’s an afterlife and then that way I think she’s been very comforting to him.” says Bill Bradlee.

“ why did you guys say he was gay? If Lacey sleeping with him and she’s freaking out Bobby how the hell did you come up with the idea Bill that he was gay” asks a reader.

oh wow did I just open this by having this non-toxic health full conversation did I seriously just open up this whole thing?

“ yes, you did by being honest and vulnerable for five seconds. Yes, you started a very important conversation.” says Dr. Billings.

“ OK there are so many things that people should be saying then but as a gay man sincerely him who is let loose who the hell is lame if you knew Bill Bradley was alert asshole maybe you read that somewhere but I kind of doubt that they would’ve gotten to graphic detail about him and his personality traits the way that you seem to know them you’ve you interact with these people sweetie you’re you’re probably in what is essentially like an extended twilight state like most people are probably in your place mentally and their last month of being alive but your 40 and something tells me you’re in this state of mind for what 30 years more I mean holy cow, but that’s Pete that’s your father that was your foot. I think you’re probably illegitimate even though that’s not really what you are but that’s what you call yourself as your heart because you wish that felt I had just raised you and I don’t blame you, I don’t think you’re really illegitimate, but no I am that was your fathers choice if that’s who you are, that was your fathers choice and him that was your father’s choice that was Margie‘s choice to I can give your father more grace to Margie at this point, and that’s unusual for me as a gay man because I’m a feminist, but I am no got sense. Women have been mean to you that makes me sad as a human..

Him who the hell is lame though Lacey, you obviously knowing him him that was not meant to be for his gift Missent, but who can we just write a post where we ask you questions about the sepal cause I have a feeling you actually know them in a way that we don’t and you’re kind of their age And everyone else your age is pretty much just dead. I need to be honest so I mean even Michael’s getting older now so even if like you could say well I’m not completely 103. There’s still you know a part of you that you know so you’re in your 80s what are you come out? How old are you really it’s like you’re 40 but I have a feeling you’re alone for a reason and it’s not because you’re a jerk it’s because it’s hard for you to find someone who loves you and who you can love and I bet most men that you find attractive and you find you attractive are it just it never quite works out crap which is sad I mean if you had no one to Thelma had raised you yeah you could’ve probably married someone who is older, but that’s not what happened so anyway?

Oh yeah I feel like asking who approved this link is there some sort of management structure that I need to like discuss this with because I don’t like this and you’re a victim and I’m just like who approves this like who thought this made sense that person needs to be fired so where is something but anyway.

But now who just forget everything that you get a sense of it and it’s like OK public looking at his pictures and like your interactions with him he’s devastated that you slept with anyone other than him I am I don’t think he thought you do that but I don’t think he anticipated how hurt you’d be him by peoples insinuations and that’s ridiculous to me that he never quite fathom how likely it was that I would will you or that other people would end up bullying you because I feel like we’re probably brainwashed to react that way so I wouldn’t way you know and it’s just kind of annoying that he never seemed quite get that, but maybe he’s starting to.

But like forgetting all that who is he what really makes him tick?” asks a gay man.

“ him I think I probably misunderstood him slightly him. That’s part of the problem. Hue was straight. He was straight most definitely but he was trying to fit in with people. That’s what I would say and he was nerdy and sweet and sensitive and I think he got it in his head that he was gay and actually think that’s probably true and I have a feeling he was bullied to the people who gave him that impression and it just all sort of became a thing for him where he just thought then I’ll just be that you know I’ll just be gay everyone thinks I am so I should just be that anyway um which is irritating to me as a person but I am that’s the thing he was fascinated me if I am illegitimate, the Kennedys in the crowd have been haunting my spirit, since I was a child because I don’t think that they’re interacting with me, potentially seemingly in my physical state, seemingly they’re there or they’re all they were all trying to sort of interact with my spirit which exists outside of time as a Christian and I think they thought we can talk to her because she’s an old woman and we know that and they were just looking for someone maybe to talk to who is objective and pretty rational and calm and I am all those things believe it or not by nature and so I think I probably ended up being peoples confidant who are on the other side it wouldn’t be surprised if Phyl Bradley himself talk to me at some point but a lot of people would talk to me and him I gather a lot of informations

So, who is lame him? I’m still figuring that out because I had the impression of him that he was very very nice. I was under the impression he was a womanizer, a very sort of evil hearted backward backward womanizer. And yet I was brokenhearted over it because it seemed like he could’ve been. Somethings so much better than that. He was very disturbing to me extraordinarily disturbing, and I could never quite figure out why people just brushed over him and didn’t address his character more because there was something off about the whole thing are you always say oh Jack you know values his friendships with men more I remember thinking that’s bullshit that’s not normal that’s not normal human development and it’s not, he was probably bisexual or gay but but that that was a thing though people kept making excuses for it and then I would read Linn Billings name and I would think why does that name bother me too? Why does he bother me so much? what does his whole fucking thing bother me so much?

And that’s when I was 1213 years old maybe even younger my very intelligent person I guess but now it just the whole thing bothered me and I really was that young it really bothered me to an extraordinary extraordinary degree.

And I people are saying to me now you were what 11 years old and bothered you you know I’m sorry I really am unusually intelligent and I was also unusually mature for my age I am a pedophilia is still wrong. I am 40 years old I was 11 at the time, but I was unusually mature for my age and I’m usually intelligent and I still love him but no, the whole thing was just absurd absolutely absurd

I am in the know as I aged, and I kept being sort of oh bullied and defiled and hurt in love by people I started to think you know, I’d like to investigate Lem’s milling‘s and figure out what the hell that’s all about and then three or four years ago I got the chance to do it Jack who is not my higher self and I’m not him reincarnated said to me would you like it? No, he said, but who would you date? Who would you have dated if Joe cheated on you would you turn to sort of what he was out, cruising around who would you would you turn to be asked me that question like three or four years ago probably four years ago.

And I have been wanting to interact with One Billings for a while to figure out who he was. Oh, and so I said hold on Billings. I would’ve probably turned till then Billings. And automatically I felt very uneasy but I thought what the hell this is what I would’ve done I’m just being honest.

I am, and Jack got very uneasy himself, and he kind of what I think he might’ve laughed about it to. That’s the thing he was both upset and very pleased at the same time him and people were people thought it was bizarre Bill Bradley himself, but I thought it was bizarre. Other people might’ve thought it was very, very bizarre. I think Jackie might’ve thought it was weird because Joe is so handsome. Joe is so strong and really handsome what people never seemed quite grasp is that I am actually unusually beautiful myself and so they know that though more Jackie knows that and so she decided I think at that point that it was a little weird that I was truant trying to turn to learn Billings, because I think she thought it was strange that I would turn to someone who is so average or not attractive at all when seemingly I am quite good looking.

Hey, so so no apparently he was seen as sort of not the most handsome man you know glasses balding maybe a little plump them up and then I’ll I’ll have you know may be a little on the nerdy side and then you know I am interested in having Jack thought. It was both hilarious and bizarre. Terrible. Whatever and he was with an easy and happy at the same time. Oh why don’t know how seriously he took it.

And honestly, I think it’s because they all thought that I was madly in love with Joe and I was. But the problem is they all had no fucking clue what was going on in that regard because I didn’t know I I didn’t. I still don’t know, but I didn’t know that Joe was in love with me. I didn’t know it was in love with me. Oh I know I didn’t know that I mean like I did but not really And so they didn’t think to tell me he didn’t think to tell me and then he slept with Katharine Hepburn.

Oh, and then he also got involved with Pat Wilson, and Pat was very possessive, and very in love with him, and then he may or may not have manifested and slept with Vanessa Trump.

So between Vanessa, Trump and Pat, Wilson and Catherine, Hebard and Katherine Hepburn, and who else knows who I did not stand a chance I didn’t stand a chance to be with him not really knotless if you put his foot down and started saying no, this is that this is the one I wanna be with, and he didn’t want to do that Because he’s in purgatory and that’s not unfortunately who he is and so he chose to sort of keep playing things against each other, like the bully that he was raised to be sexually and it didn’t work because I I guess was supposed to somehow know that he was in love with me or something which is I think absolutely ridiculous but I guess that’s what he was anticipating it. His whole family was and I am sorry that’s absurd so I started talking to them Billings and then we started getting romantically and sexually involved and eventually he slept together and they were very freaked out by that, the candidates were very freaked out by that on the other side I know that’s the end of it. I haven’t really probably necessarily been with anyone else ever cents. I am with Michael to some degree but that’s really more of a sort of safety mechanism, for both of us possibly Definitely for me possibly for both of us because I really might have married him. How do you not died and there’s other people to who I’ve been somewhat involved with but it seems like lamb is my ultimate other half and I don’t know how they didn’t know that, but it doesn’t seem like they did. They didn’t seem to really know that either.” says Lacey.

“ but who who really was he then you described him as a nerd you described him as super intelligent and sensitive and straight man, bro why did you guys decide he was gay?” asks MSNBC.

“ you know I’m getting tired of a lot of things, but I am going to keep answering out of respect for Lacey and her family and anyone alive who has a conscience and any sort of wits with intelligence about them. I would say you have to be very careful to make judgment calls about things when you’re analyzing Jack Kennedy. Most of his male friends were bisexual and a lot of them he slept with or got sexually involved with at some point in some shape or form.

I’m very rare occasions he was friends with Straetman or gay man, but most of his friends most of his closest male friends were all bisexual. I might have been included in that.

I tend to lie and exaggerate, and say naughty, dirty things to get approval from that sometimes to make them like me and sometimes because I want to seem cute to them. And I don’t actually know that I thought Linn was gay at the time I made out of almost thought about it at all.

I said stuff like like us we knew love was gay at a time when it was socially expected of me to say something like that to seem edgy and cool, and also to try to seem like I knew what was going on but mostly him because it was sort of a popular opinion.

People suspected them was bisexual. They suspected he was asexual. They thought he was possibly straight but see that’s where people need to sort of wake up. There’s two problems with that actually there’s three at this point the first problem is why did he tolerate all that abuse from Jack over the years, is it possible that some point he snaps and decided to kill him yeah I’m being serious and to be honest with you I I could see him wanting to kill him from any orientation because Jack treated lab like a piece of shit. But he, but he actually doesn’t make complete sense if he was anything other than straight and the CIA knows that people live today might not understand other humans as well as we used to. I’m sorry but now he doesn’t really make sense as anything other than a heterosexual man and so then, that first trouble is just what the hell Why did he disappear from the White House before Jack was assassinated when you’re analyzing a murder anyone has watched any sort of crime television show should realize that it’s usually someone who is close to the person and has access to them who kills the person people have wondered about Jackie why have they never wondered about that why have we never wondered about them it’s a little dumb and obviously suspicious who knew him well enough to plan his murder and get away with it let that’s the first problem I ate. I can’t assume that he killed Jack but I think a lot of people have been really stupid and not realizing that he really isn’t automatically excusable nearest Bobby to be perfectly honest with you, but I don’t think that’s particularly likely but why do we never kept? Why do we never calculate those shit? Why do we never wonder about them there’s something inherently sort of stupid about that.

The second problem is that he really didn’t seem gay. He really didn’t actually seem gay. His mannerisms were convincing to appoint her, but then to be honest after a while, they became very contrived the effeminate, high-pitched voice, the frilly girly way he would say things he sounded like blanched raw. You know whether you go a sty have to go big boy I mean who talks like that all the fucking time, very few gay men sound quite so shrill in their homosexuality and hyper who are sincere some might be there. There are probably some gay men who are are that way who are very sincere but that’s not typical for a gay man to be quite that exaggerated and his homosexual mannerisms, you know every time you see him he says well hello sailor and then giggles in a high-pitched voice. That’s kind of weird but that’s pretty close to what lame could be like. He would say stuff like that and do stuff like that you know, holding his pinky up when he drink his tea, crossing his legs and moving his lips into a pouch, and it was to be honest looking back at it looking back at it it’s comical and it’s a farce and it’s it’s hard not to laugh at us as much as him for being so stupidest as I thought that was real but at the time we didn’t know so we thought it was real because we didn’t know that much about homosexuality and he was very sincere so yeah, he would act that way and then you’d see him on cross his legs you know spread his legs apart you know and kind a look like a funny daddy, or a straight man I know I can’t quite get the matter is mannerisms down my head, but You know how straight men can sometimes be or you know he wouldn’t shave or he wouldn’t shower or he’d wear his pants too short or he would eat a lot of fried food him, and he seemed to be Saint like in his regard for women, but at the same time when he’d hang out with Jack was when Jack would often times cheat on Jackie with women And that’s rather suspicious for a gay man really get men have been dumb about this. It’s not typical for a gay man to be quite so invested in that narrative I think gay men have thought we could have just been trying to break them up with with other women you know that works to a point, and then it becomes stupid because at some point lame himself is losing out all these other women and he’s not married to Jack and you don’t seem to understand there were a lot of women and he was sleeping with Jackie and there were probably other men like me at Broadway and Tennessee Williams, so how do you explain that you can say well lab had a room in the White House big fucking deal if people weren’t so narcissistic, they realize that that’s not really satisfying to just be with someone who has gives you a room in their house and no Fidelity at all like I said it doesn’t make it doesn’t Lem’s‘s character makes no sense unless of Lem’s was straight so you can keep trying to sort of diminish what’s being said to you in this blog be careful Because it’s weird that he never had a problem with women. He never had a problem finding women for Jack. I think he thought they were all sluts but I don’t think he thought that they weren’t people at least to some degree and it’s not like Jack wasn’t enjoying himself and lab was deep enough to understand but that would mean during sex you know it’s like a man who’s getting off on someone else and then craving their company over and over again how would that make you feel as it is his partner, it’s absurd and and then someone tries to say maybe he was gay and polyamorous know that doesn’t psychologically fit either his mindset doesn’t seem polyamorous his mindset seems ambivalent and disinterested.

So an extra I should add onto that why has no one ever realized that red Faye wrote a sex book that made Jackie jealous and angry does red face family protect him maybe they very well might they very well they protect him, but then why do men like David Pitts, and other men like that take them self seriously at all is it is for the money possibly but then you can’t look at those people as serious scholars because they’re not you can ignore read face you can ignore me. You can ignore Tennessee Williams and the the pro that they played in JFK‘s life and how that would’ve affected Lem’s and be a serious scholar and same thing to Luis Bayard and anyone else who’s tried to write a shit book about us know you you guys aren’t looking at what’s in front of you you’re looking at what you’ve been told to see your terrible artist you’re not real scholars you’re just writing propaganda

Oh, and yes, I’m somewhat offended. No one‘s ever interested in what I did with him no one‘s effort no one‘s ever interested no one’s ever daring enough to wonder and my life matters to so does red phase. You know you keep saying all that Billings had sex with him. We’re sure about that and it was hot. No, you can’t be sure about that. All you know is what was basically supposedly told someone else that he sucked his cock a lot or something I mean how is that really even Normal, that’s a bizarre relationship. There’s something wrong with that especially when they’re adults I mean what the fuck and that’s all they’re doing all the time and it’s just one-sided because that’s the story that Jack was always on the receiving end and it was just oral sex him well OK and maybe it wasn’t just oral sex but it’s enough of let’s see how do I say this there might’ve been something else happening but the idea was that it was primarily oral sex, or that’s what Linn was talking about but it wasn’t just what he admitted to. It wasn’t just like well I’ll admit to having oral sex. It is more like that’s what they did and he was just telling the person that why didn’t he talk about the other stuff, probably because it rarely ever happened, it probably rarely ever happened and that’s why people also need to grow up because that’s not normal to. I mean really get a fucking grip to just have oral sex when you’re in a long-term committed relationship that’s bizarre that’s very bizarre him and it in the lambs eyes on the giving hand, why to try to seduce Jack every time that’s not really normal either because I was somewhat attractive no, it doesn’t make sense it’s just doesn’t make sense and I think if I’m not mistaken that it really was bizarre it was like it was just oral sex and it was just him giving it to him and it wasn’t like well admit to this, but it’s something more than that. I don’t think that’s the way it was said him and to be honest with you from Lem’s has told Lacey which leads to my next point they did do other stuff but it wasn’t that often. It’s like what I’m saying it wasn’t that often which is why he didn’t talk about it more because it wasn’t happening that often and Linn was always on the giving end.

Oh, so what was happening? Yeah, it seems like he was almost always giving him oral him, and that occasionally Jack would sort of force him to do other stuff but that that was fairly rare probably because I really wasn’t that interested but yes leads to my third point how does Lacey know who I am see you? This is a thing you I think she’s ditzy, but that I think about the people who I could be interacting with if there’s an illuminati or other living people, and I get astounded by their stupidity And their stubbornness Lacey sleeps with lap. They literally sleep together. He holds her at night and then if there’s a problem he wakes up but most the time they just sleep through the night in her bed and it’s been that way now for years they have sex together they were having sex almost every night and then the last week or two if illuminati heard that Anne has been trying to keep them from sleeping together because people don’t want them to sleep together.

And don’t think That loves too. Happy about it. He’s in a terrible mood. He’s very upset. Oh.

Lacey is upset too

She’s not Jack reincarnated there that it’s just you guys are pathetic. I’m sorry.

But no they they they’ve been having sexual relations for four years basically but really they’ve been consistently a couple for about three years Lem’s bought her a ring that he picked out himself in and he’s taken over another ring that she has and he recently just bought her a necklace with both of their names on it He’s bought gifts for his children they know who he is and that’s not typical but he’s been in their life now really for about three years and he’s not going anywhere him which is kind of bizarre if he’s gay that he would be consistently having sex with her to the point where he’s almost so desperate to sleep with her at times that she gets sick And then he hast to reconcile that with God because there’s times that she’s gotten sick from sleeping with him but he hasn’t been able to control himself because he’s still a man and he has urges and she’s extraordinarily beautiful and they’re very in love and yes, I am Bill Bradley and yes I do cross the line. And yes I do you say things that I shouldn’t say or should I because if I don’t say that, maybe they won’t fucking occur to you.

How the hell do you people not get it he’s sweet he’s tall he’s brilliant he’s nerdy he has asthma he wears glasses and yeah he’s extremely handsome. You know he was the strongest man on crew he’s got product is he’s got a heart of gold yeah no he’s very good with Lacey. It doesn’t seem like it sometimes but actually, he really does understand her better probably than most people do And yet he’s made some huge mistakes. Michael might still sadly understand her better than Lem’s but that’s some thing that God hast to deal with and well because that’s not the way that it necessarily should be. Louis also understands Lacey better than them but again, that probably isn’t the way that it supposed to be And that’s something that God sort of Hass to address but he loves her more than they both. He loves her more than Michael. He loves her more than Louis does and it’s a done deal they’re stuck together for eternity but no he was. He was straight I know that’s hard for people to believe but he was he was straight he imitated being gay very well, which actually leads me to a separate point.

Lacey sees through lab I am sure Lacey thinks how did no one else see through him you know we were backward when it came to homosexuality to some extent as far as understanding what it really looks like a new people really work and you know to be honest people still are They’re not as aware is is Lacey is she really aware of men’s orientation which makes it sound like she’s some sort of adulterous or something and she’s not but it’s something about that probably was of some significance to her which shouldn’t be surprising considering head so she became unusually you know where I am But is there a incarnation if there isn’t with him by golly, something else’s is going on and that actually is something terrifying it’s really terrifying because I am people thought Lem’s was gay and retrospect at the time they didn’t so much but but there should’ve been something sad because it is it is it makes us question how well do we know each other, how does democracy even work?

But if there is reincarnation, it’s disturbing how little you are you people trust Lacey and it’s extraordinarily disturbing or is that even what it is and it’s extraordinarily disturbing how you don’t see through her or do you where we propped Lacey to she speaks in a very convincing totally on controlled Scottish accent, she speaks in a Scottish accent she speaks in a Scottish accent. How if there’s reincarnation she is so close to being that person all the time that it’s like a very thin veneer out of her being seemingly your ego in the in your time, in which case How do you not notice you know at times is she even acting and if you would’ve really let her be acting as herself what would she do? What was what would she do? So yes, lame acted gay very well but see he thought he was gay and that’s where people have to be more careful because if there is reincarnation, what do you think you are That you actually aren’t. You know and so is that be something happy like if you’re not very beautiful in the eyes of God in heaven, you are very beautiful and so you’re still you still look like yourself but yourself in a way that you can’t even possibly conceive of consciously and that’s where I think. Lacey gets impatient with earth competition is that it feels so temporary to her and silly because in heaven, we’re all equal and it’s not in some evil way where the evil people are equal and they’re evil to good people it’s in a way where in Christ in heaven in Christ we’re equals not on our own but in Christ and so in Christ who are you and then how is that not important and it’s stuff like that that I would I would say is is scary and people should think about it more.” says Bill Bradlee.

“ so you guys knew lamb was straight and you lied about it?” says a reader.

“ honestly, we didn’t really know we didn’t really know which is why I probably said I suppose we knew he was gay, but the way I say that if you can hear my tone, I’m being facetious and to be honest calling love neutral was bizarre if Len works with the CIA to kill Jack, we tried to say that he did that in very backward roundabout ways. Like calling him neutral or saying, I suppose we knew he was gay. There’s a hint there of I’m not telling you everything.

And it’s very passive and subtle but if he did work with the CIA to assassinate JFK, that is something we weren’t either supposed to know or we weren’t supposed to talk about.

But yes, we did know we did. We didn’t know that he might be straight. We did. We knew that we knew that he might be straight and some of us probably in our gut suspected that he was, but we didn’t. We didn’t say that because it’s like well lambs dead and how do we even know there’s an afterlife and it matters more to Lem’s‘s family that you know, he’d be respected or some thing I don’t know we might not aware that much about his family at all but we worried about the Kennedys are worried about our own reputation so it’s like well no will just say no sort of go long with the narrative, that’s popular right now to protect to protect ourselves and our own reputation, our own family and the popular narrative right now or has been that it was that long was bisexual or gay. To be honest people of Waze wondered for a reason and before the 1990s it wasn’t really something that people venture to guess on professionally as much, but then a lot of people I think were sick of that. It made them feel uneasy, and without there being a clear voice in the room to say well this is what really happened. They started just making stuff up and pulling things out of their ass because no one wanted to say, Jack was a narcissist. He was somewhat of a pedophile. He was a sexual predator and lamb was not clearly gay. He had asthma. He came into Jack’s life at a time, and I was very vulnerable, and that the family controlled him to some degree. No one wanted to say that Because Bobby is alive and Bobby is been younger and we wanted to give Bobby a chance to have his own life and so out of respect for Bobby because Bobby is very psychically psychologically attached to Latin in the mythology of Jack and so is Carolyn so out of concern for the Kennedys that were alive out of fear and out of an attempt to be popular so to speak no we just lied we just lied and it was it didn’t seem like it was that dangerous of a lie because he did act gay and it’s like it was he really gay? Well maybe not but you know i’m not gonna worry about that too damn much because he made the choice to act gay and it’s not my problem.” says Bill Bradlee.

“ read you were sexually involved with Jack and that’s why Jackie felt that the book was too ‘personal.’ That makes sense.

Why did she come around?” asks a reader.

“ and I didn’t really come around. I did not really come around. I didn’t actually feel happy about the book. It irritated the hell out of me because it was obvious that they were lovers and potentially closer than I ever was to him that he was closer to Jackson I ever was it you know and Lacey says Lacey is the one writing this down for me it’s possible it’s very hard for her to believe that I would say they were lovers and it was obvious but no that’s what I’m saying they were lovers. It was obvious to me and it hurt like hell, why why did I come around? I didn’t not really I mean not really to be honest that with that, but I’ve just been psychological maneuvering on my part to make it seem like I didn’t care and that maybe there was nothing to it where it’s like. Oh, it’s a good book is an excellent book, you know what you make up some bullshit excuse like oh that’s too personal you don’t really know him but that’s just bullshit. They were close their friendship pre-dated any relationship I ever had with him on but that that’s not something that you say when you’re trying to cope with some bullshit excuse for why you’re upset so no, you know I was very hurt, but I I just played it off like I wasn’t so that people think there was nothing to the rumors they were in love.” says Jackie.

“ were you threatened by lime?” asks a reader.

“ no not as much a Lem’s irritated me because he was so straight yet he acted gay, and I felt that very abrasive Jack seemed bisexual. Bobby seem somewhat bisexual. Joe Kennedy Senior seem somewhat bisexual. Most of Jack’s friends in bisexual but you know being somewhat of a romantic and sort of a daddy‘s girl, my father was a philanderer. It didn’t bother me as much because it was like there really a month, and these men really can’t help it Lem being so straight and acting gay was very abrasive because it just seems so out of place and it really made me probably question I value as a human on a different level and It’s have the same effect on Lacey where it’s sort of like what the hell this isn’t even real, so why are we doing it? It’s just it’s defiling to a person psyche.

I am, but then also he was a little threatening, because he was old money in a different way than the rest of Jack’s friends, and he was so affable, and I got jealous of him, and it in a way that was totally unrelated to Jack the same way that I’ve been jealous of Lacey it it was not really in relation to Jack I did get jealous of Jack’s love for him. I did it. I was jealous of Jack’s love for him to, but it wasn’t as it wasn’t the same sort of jealousy that I felt from red or Bill Bradley know a lot of other people to be honest, and so there were times I could be with him and enjoy him because he wasn’t actually as offensive him. There were times where I would’ve probably even slept slept with love myself, but I didn’t really want to Because I felt a Sola was beneath me and I was jealous of him for other reasons wasn’t just sexual and and to be honest I he made me feel insecure just like physically insecure so I will try to look pretty for him at times and then he would never be all that smitten by me and that was so much demoralizing and hurtful Because I thought well you’re you know you’re supposed to sort of notice that I am pretty or something even though you’re gay and the truth is he wasn’t gay at all but but he but then that’s the thing you I wasn’t really his type and so that hurt know if you look at pictures of of us I try to look cute for them at times and then I would eventually sort of give up on that and so yes, out of a combination of hurt and jealousy and all sorts of other emotions related to that May be hidden longing for him to fall in love with me. All of that I was cantankerous and I would say things like oh he’s a nobody because it was nice to think that he was a nobody. You know him know it was all cruel because I think I’ll certain level I realize that he was straight and insane at end by calling him a nobody I was sort of punching him below the belt and he will play that game all the time with Lacey. They see her vulnerability. They see her tenderness and instead of respecting it the use it which is so stupid Lacey sees it. I don’t know that loved it. I don’t think Lem’s realized how manipulated and conned he was by people at any point in his life.” says Jackie.

“ I am, so what’s the proof that Lacey has that the that he’s actually communicating with her?” asks a reader.

“ oh, there’s tons of proof read and she’s listed most of it off on this block but I’m to read right to re-state. No he gave her a tour of his apartment and she had no idea what it looks like. How did he do that he gave her a tour of his apartment. Yes, he took her spirit. She was sort of just taking a nap with her eyes closed, and in her minds are in her head. No, they were there, and she physically experienced it to some degree mean she’s an unusual person, so no, they walked around his apartment. She’s been as apartments a lot which is pretty normal, what what other proof and no she had no idea what it look like she’s heard Elliot Roosevelts voice before she knew what that was like she’s heard his voice too. But but Bill Bradley just brought up as a little bizarre too. She probably knows things about us that she just assumes everyone knows like our actual personalities might include it I know because you’re person I mean it’s a philosophical a trite discussion how everyone’s perception of things different and Lacey someone who is well aware of that and so I think she thinks well I just know who these people are, but then everyone else must kind of see you at the back of their head, and when they don’t, but she doesn’t realize that, and Bill pointed that out to her today by using the comment section of Threads book.

I know she knows Bill Bradley pretty damn well know so that she could write a book about Bill Bradley off. She knows she knows him. I don’t know if you spent a lot of time talking to her or what and no she’s not Jack reincarnated I don’t think she knows Jack that well and she knows herself pretty damn well people are so annoying with that one but no hot. She knows Bill Bradley she knows meet us. I’m a send, she doesn’t know Ethel all that well but she has a sense of who she is and see there’s proof right there that she’s not Jack she knows JP intimately I would say she knows a part of him that most people even who are friends with him? Maybe even some of his lovers didn’t know Which I think both JP and her find hilarious because how the hell does she know all that but but she does, so she knows JP extraordinarily well to the point of comedy really he would make a very good character in a musical about the 1920s and bootlegging and being Irish in America.

Oh, she knows oh a lot of other people that I don’t think Jack would probably know quite so well, some Irish aristocrats actual Irish aristocrats from Ireland one or two. Let’s see if she knows him. She knows Rose. Oh, no, she knows them all. She knows all of us the people who are dead people are alive other than Bobby not so much, and she might not know Bobby as well. She knows some people but she knows Bobby fairly well him she knows Martha Moxley Avenue she knows a lot of people. Yes sometimes Martha Moxley has shown up. She knows Cecelia Punzel as well. She thought she was the Thalía Punzel for a while and then Ophelia clear that what up no she knows Pat, she was Pat‘s first husband. I think Pat‘s first husband has a lot of empathy for Lacey and worries about her and him and he was yeah the Marquis of jersey is that right? But no he was a big deal. Um, but no he there’s there’s a decent number of people who she knows probably do a bazaar degree and it really should probably be more concerning to people who don’t believe in an afterlife than it is, if we don’t still exist, how does she know us so damn well how am I writing this if I don’t exist?” says Jackie.

I have a feeling that we can conclude from this that gay men are paranoid about being able to reach other and that that’s a huge portion of the reason why we don’t understand Lem’s I don’t think we want to think that we could foolish other that much because it’s just too scary Because you don’t want to sleep with someone who’s going to claim you rape them you don’t wanna sleep with someone who’s not attracted to you you don’t wanna sleep with someone in Falmouth with them and then have them come out to you is straight 10 years into your marriage arm But honestly that’s probably where our communities been arrogant and toxic to and maybe we are sort of due for a reckoning, and realizing that there is plenty of possibility, where that could even be happening or have happened or we about to happen because really theoretically it could and I would say this proof, this blog is proof on, potentially that it has happened that men have been straight Even just bisexual or pansexual, but straight and been confused even when it wasn’t common to be openly gay, I would say as a word of caution anytime a man is doggedly closeted. Even in the past and simile love was pretty closeted, and it was like pretty intense. He didn’t want to talk about it that’s on Wikipedia, I would say that’s a red flag because why is the person so damn closeted like it makes sense to be somewhat closeted. Maybe in the past is he may be closeted now, but why be that closeted that’s weird I can’t think of any adult relationship where you’re that closeted With a healthier normal that that just says to me that there’s something wrong there’s something toxic going on there. It is a noise of the persons lying with orientation but I would say that that’s probably a pretty big red flake so I want you know stay from the streets they say yeah OK but I would say anyone that seems like they’re lying about their sexuality to someone or doesn’t they don’t want to talk about it that’s that tends to be a red flag even if they’re open him if they if they don’t feel comfortable talking about their sexuality that that that that could be closeted or if they are just outright closeted hope that covered it off, but now I think that’s a red flag when someone’s closeted him especially like really aggressively closeted.

Him other than that you know how well do you know your partner? How close are you really and that’s where nurses are always at a loss because they don’t really know people and Jack was a narcissist. You know us with sad to me is that it seems like we’ve done narcissistic analysis of a narcissist.

And there’s there’s there’s hints where occasionally we’ve probably been honest about him, like putting in Wikipedia, that he was determined to be closeted, but I think overall, we’ve been very arm we’ve been very narcissistic and how we vandalized him, and it disturbs me that we focused on lamb purely because Lem’s‘s old money. He’s handsome and he was straight and I kind of think he probably was. It makes sense like a man have focused on him because he doesn’t seem gay. You know he doesn’t make them Phyl as insecure about being gay because he’s old money he’s handsome and he’s straight and so it’s like the straight old money hot guy who is sort of a nerd and he’s sensitive so he’s not threatening to them is him is you know so much easier to focus on, and he makes us all feel special. Whether it’s focusing Raz focusing on Bill Bradley or red say, or Tennessee Williams even isn’t as much fun as those men or shorter they’re not as bad they’re just not as pretty and they’re in. Tennessee Williams is probably a genius, but I know probably wasn’t stupid and neither was red, but I I think it’s we’re not as glamorous as lime, and then you have to deal with their families and you have to deal with their legacy is and so it’s a lot easier to use them because he was trying to be honorable even though he wasn’t gay at all whereas those men were not is honorable necessarily and I think we’re scared to analyze them because there’s not this like ego testicle reason to analyze them because they’re not as glamorous but then they’re also Not is easy to talk about because if you talk about them people get mad at you if you talk about red Faye sleeping with lamb or sleeping with I don’t think I’d ever happened red face sleeping with him with Jack but why don’t we ever wonder about that either but now I doubt that I am but thinking of a red face sleeping with Jack it’s like why can’t we talk about that? Why why can’t we talk about that you know why don’t we ever talk about Tennessee Williams sleeping with Jack? Why don’t we ever talk about Bill Bradley sleeping with him it is I agree with Bill. It’s really fucked up that we don’t talk about those men, possibly most notably to Tennessee Williams and ride Faye because it seems like read. Faye had a very intimate relationship with Jack and I don’t know why Linn calls him himself the best friend something tells me that if he was being sarcastic, he wasn’t being he was being sarcastic he didn’t really think of himself necessarily as being Jack’s actual best friend Him he was actually being so much facetious when he said that and mocking himself and Jack both and I wonder if I wonder if that’s the case then it’s a it’s a tragedy, because were they even best friends and he had a room in the White House OK him and he was supposedly devastated but I am not convinced that other men didn’t love him as much if not more