“So!“ by the Man In The Car

And she’s right I am the man in the afterlife in the car.

From the side I looked like Lem.

The truth is from the side he seems straight and so do I. There’s nothing gay about the look that I’ve created for myself as I’ve aged at all it’s just a look that I think is handsome Men could read it is gay but in her generation and the greatest generation it wasn’t gay it’s it is the idea is to have your hair pushed back and have the curls in the back but the idea is to push your hair back a certain way there were a lot of men who had longer hair and would push it back the way that I did It’s a very attractive look on a man who has curls and much like the suits that Lemoore wore that weren’t terrible fitting much like some of the stuff that he would wear. Sometimes it was somewhat attractive. He was looking for a way to look attractive, he might have been trying to look gay with his hair, but I kind of doubt it in this case at times maybe his hair is sort of gay looking but you have to remember he was trying to look gay Him but my hair really would have been considered gay and her generation. There’s nothing that would’ve stood out maybe there’s a tiny bit of my hair that didn’t seem like lime literally just a few tiny hairs that seems slightly gay to her, which actually threw her see your obnoxious people she tries to tell you quickly. Oh wait wait wait wait and then you don’t wanna hear it, so yeah, there could’ve been a few hairs on my head that seemed somewhat gay That actually aren’t like lime she’s not miss reading him. She’s not an idiot. I’m sorry liberals have a very hard time hearing that, including the Kennedys all of them including Bobby. She’s not stupid. You all are desperate for her to be an idiot. She’s not an idiot.

I know she’s not an idiot I wouldn’t have necessarily looked convincing like, maybe there’s a slight bit of me that would’ve seemed gay, but mostly I would’ve seem straight because the way that Len pushed back his hair was not strictly homosexual. There were a lot of men who had curls who pushed their hair back like that I wish people would look at pictures more and really do research. I’m not making this up, there were there were plenty of men who had slightly longest hair in the early 70s and late 60s who push their hair back that in their generation if Louis had had long enough here he might’ve tried it himself because it was sexy. It was stylish to have long hair, but not too long And it was considered sexy no level sexy at times and it wouldn’t have necessarily had to be gay, I might not be entirely straight. She thought I was bisexual. I might be I might have fun, but no I I was balding slightly. I had curls on when I push my hair back in that way and here’s where things get interesting I was so much bisexual and this is where you people have to be a little more intelligent I’m sorry.

Lem’s had long as hair and pushed back his curls and looked hot and glamorous for a man I know he was still trying to look at OK. He was trying to look at it but he wasn’t gay. I’m not sure if it’s in his its final years, if yours was trying to look at, or if it what he did with that arm, but I think I think that at times he accidentally looked straight either way because he was straight but but in this moment his hair actually looks somewhat and he looks straight. I’m sorry he looks straight in a lot of his pictures as he ages but whatever the boy is, and some of them, he makes gay faces, but he still somehow look straight, but with the point is him That when he took those pictures when he had his hair long it was the early 1970s it was the late 60s it was literally the early 1970s it was a late 60s it was the 70s possibly the early 80s and he was trying to be in style that was in style and it looks straight because he was straight but he might’ve actually been trying to look gay somewhat but he actions of looking straight but the point is that also was just in style for every orientation that longer hair was in style I don’t know how you people don’t know that.

I am so him as men aged if they were like lamb or just let him know Lacey might’ve actually thought that’s kind of nice. Of course she would. If that’s their generation, don’t ask they thought it was hot, which brings me to my point.

Are you know no, Lacey‘s not with Grant tinker she’s with lamb but you know it’s not stupid to wonder that.

And this is the thing is you know what you’re funny this is me when I die if I wasn’t actually in some sort of conspiracy with illuminati, you have no idea how hilarious this is to me in a way, which is why I maybe actually go out of my way to make a point to her because I feel bad.

OK I want to call her sweetheart but that might not be appropriate. I might be in my 60s so I felt a little paternal when I died and found out what happened um and I can say this I think you don’t you look weird Lacey you look weird.

And if you had curled your hair and weren’t real lipstick, yeah it would’ve looked sexy. It would’ve been a look, but that’s not entirely what you’ve done. But I am so that’s the thing, but if she had curled her hair when she was young, if she wore red lipstick and did certain vintage luxe, it would be sort of fashionable and trendy but that’s not what she’s done.

She because she’s actually may be native to the greatest greatest generation and subway whether it’s genetic or otherwise will probably have to so much genetic. She internalized their luck, so she when she where is there for a few when she wears their clothes, it’s not to be chic, it’s not to be ironic. It’s because that’s what feels comfortable to her and that’s what actually it’s like. It’s a human experience for her that’s her trying to be human, so it’s like she blends in ironically but she’s genuinely into vintage in a different way than most people. It’s very heartfelt. It’s very much who she is. It’s not an aesthetic for her. It’s what she actually likes. It makes her happy.

It’s like this is so much more me I like this, this clothing item I like this perfume this music speaks to my soul. I just feel comfortable with us him, and frankly it could even be that the women in that generation aren’t mean to her they understand her. They relate to her, so they except her in it, even in a spiritual sense it’s like you can wear our clothes you can wear make up you’re one of us you can be our friend you know will hold your hand in school because we’re not lesbians and we’re just scared or will jump rope with you and be quiet and awkward because who knows what the proper thing is to say that moment like this because that’s how they all thought. Oh that’s the way she has to. They’re very different than you guys and so they’re not mean to her even the main people because this is at least as much because, she’s one of them and there’s nothing to laugh about. It’s like laughing at yourself so it’s like why would you make fun of Lacey? She’s just like everybody else and it’s kind of weird.

Oh so she’s native to to that we know it’s like it it’s who she is from which is why she gravitates in this very authentic organic way to the vintage perfume and the vintage clothes and dad man because that’s if you’re allowed to be with her because that’s who she is.

I am so the price of the problem is I feel bad for her because I think she’s been misunderstood.

She has an attitude of superiority if there’s not an illuminati conspiracy that’s why I was staring at her because she was in her car. She drives an expensive car. She had a beautiful red lipstick, gorgeous Kate Spade, sunglasses that are perfect for her face, the cashmere beanie, and then her hair is just natural, but the way that she sits in her posture in her beautiful face, it looks like she was the Lord of the matter write the late the lady of the matter and I had to keep telling myself. No this woman is just being herself, but then people were provoking me pop probably demons are provoking me, the Lebanon he was provoking me, and I realized that she was just being herself, but it was hard for me to handle for some reason and it’s not that she was being mean she was really just sitting there. She wasn’t thinking some thing necessarily or if she was, it probably wasn’t inappropriate. She was just being herself and people have been brainwashing us with her if there’s illuminati because they don’t want her to be herself they’re terminated by her they don’t want her to really be better than them and so they’re trying to make it seem like it’s some sort of conspiracy and it’s not, she actually is better than some people and she’s not putting on airs Casi she just is being herself and so it’s not meant to be offensive to you. She’s not fucking doing something OK she’s not doing something.

She’s literally just being herself and sitting there and you’re offended by it. No she’s not doing something there’s times or maybe there’s an attitude to her pictures on Instagram or some thing would be fucking careful because a lot of the time it’s not meant to be there it’s just her being herself potentially, and you’re just reading stuff into it.

I mean come come on she’s an elite person. Her father was very important. They’re wealthy as heck. He ran the state to some degree and that’s her father. She’s not poor and the national times are there it’s not as of the sounding about a boil. That’s her oil potentially legally with her parents die that’s who she is you fuck you idiot. I’m sorry to call you that I think that Jesus name, God help me what the hell do people need to here to get it?

She’s like she’s like Betty Davis OK could you handle Betty Davis or would you just say the b-day was had some thing out after you even though she has no fucking clue who you were yeah if you saw be Davison in person and she walked past you would you psychotically assume that she was after you even though she didn’t see you because that’s who you people are She’s not up to some thing she’s just being herself that’s just her personality. She’s like a combination maybe of Marilyn Monroe and Betty Davis OK there’s not an intent to do some thing she’s just being herself that’s just her personality to some degree so if you think about her as like a combination of Betty Davis and Marilyn Monroe, yeah she’s kind of cool and unique but the no there’s not she’s not trying to hurt you necessarily it might not be that if she is a Stephanie not a personal, if it is then I’m sure she’d be worried that she’s hurting you. She’s a very empathetic person don’t take advantage of that.

Getting back to what I was saying him I think she’s giving lesbians the wrong idea.

*laugh*

Why because a lot of people don’t realize that lamb is not a millennial when they talk to Lacey and they see his smiles or they see his style and they think that’s gay it is in 2024 and 2010 and 20100 in 1998 Lem’s style is gay Because a lot of gay men took on the retro look because it was stylish and a lot of gay men try to be stylish and so they took on a very, and I don’t know the whole retro thing didn’t appealed a straight man. It appealed to women and gay men and bisexual men maybe two or quirky straight men, but mostly to people who were eccentric or people who were not straight, who were met plenty of straight women lotta straight women got very into vintage, but it really looks gay possibly too because you don’t understand the cultural reference that he’s making to the time that he came from or you don’t think she’s smart enough to know what’s. Appropriate and she does she smarter than you possibly I’m sorry that offends you she knows what’s. Appropriate in a way that you don’t, she’s a brilliant person and that way she knows was stylish at the time versus now she could be an antique dealer she’s a genius when it comes to detail and that way she can date bottles of perfume better than probably almost anyone alive in the perfume community always had a hard time with that because that means that she’s better than them and they’re narcissistic She’s a genius and that way she’s very good at identifying what’s real and what’s fake she was going to be a diamond grader for a while she’s very very attentive to detail, and that way, Anna Wintour and her maybe you get along slightly she understands the importance of the detail. She knows that lame is not gay because she studied it. She knows with a tractive in that generation, she knows what that generation looks like and she knows that based on the time period that he’s from he doesn’t look gay.

You think oh she would know that she’s just attracted to gay men and she’s a fucking freak or you’re an idiot and you think that’s a gay luck with no it’s not a gay look at 1950. It’s a gay look at 1998. It’s a gay look in 2015 it’s OK look in 2024 but at the time that it was new and popular it wasn’t a gay look. Gay men imitate shit get over it, and frankly, his smile does not ever look gay not really at all I mean it could be, but not really, and that’s the other thing man smiled more back that it was more innocent gay men imitate that now I don’t care who patronize you and tells you otherwise, this is the truth Men were more innocent in the past they did smile in a different way. Lame does not smile in a gay way. Gay men imitate that doubt or did 20 years ago because they thought it looked cute. I don’t know where they sought. I don’t know if they were imitating people from the past, or if it was something else, but I have a feeling they were just imitating people from the past even subconsciously people are far more affected by history than they wanna admit so it’s like oh, what would be an innocent luck I’ll probably open your mouth of wine, smiling where did that idea come to you from, you didn’t necessarily even see a picture of vintage but somehow it came to you that that would be charming. Where did it come from the past and somethings are gay, but love design and maybe maybe it’s to a complicated and you’re the expert right because you’re the gay one I’m actually gay to but I’m just dead, no his smile does not look gay ever and if it does, it’s suspicious, looking eye word, but no, I would beg to differ with you I would beg to say that if there’s a man you’ve seen who smile like him who is gay like a backstreet boy or something um It’s likely that that man was imitating someone from the past Jimmy Stewart smiled like that a lot of Straetman smiled like that. It was a very common thing to smile like that he could just be trying to look innocent, and then in the past actually were innocent.

Yeah, some *NSYNC asshole. I never gave me when I see one lol look gay he smiled like me.. oh no he’s not. He’s not he’s not straight and I can tell you from experience it’s terrible being closet and Lacey want to put my lease. He was me back in the closet. Is that what you said you little fuck you probably could be and that’s the problem she’s not a hick she’s not backward you might be so is Britney you’re not a fucking expert in that way on human behavior. Lacey is probably far more intelligent and educated than a lot of you were in the illuminati who think oh my God I have all this money in power because I’m famous I must be a genius like a Rockefeller. No, you’re not.

You know what it is nice that he was trying to stand up for gay men in a good way if he was, but really, no, you looked innocent lame does not look gay. You were possibly actually stupidly enough out of yourself as an asshole because you were probably trying to appeal to women and seem straight from money, why would lamb have been trying to appeal to women that doesn’t make any sense because he was closeted no why would he want to turn women hot to stay in the closet so he went around grabbing women’s watches to try to stay in the closet psychologically no that doesn’t make sense it’s also possible that you smiled that way because you were trying to see him attractive in general and you were gay or maybe you’re not completely gay and you’re lying about it cause it’s fine more cool to be gay than to be bisexual because he blow really really are you know I mean maybe you’re bisexual maybe you just don’t want people to know that, but no he he was trying to look happy and looked. I guess all men from that generation looked that way so all her all men from the greatest generation, when they were young man, and smiling looks gay. No, they were just smiling. His smile never looks gay. It looks very of his generation there’s nothing gay about it. I’m sorry get over it and it’s handsome to Lacey which means it’s probably not gay if anything he smiles very straight and they will probably be a lot of other men who maybe looks like that but we just don’t have their pictures plastered everywhere on the fucking everything because the Kennedys aren’t as obsessed with their ass the way they are with lamps so yeah, if you want to look through peoples photo albums, you probably find pictures of men smiling like that who were Straight, but we don’t have those pictures. I can tell you that Jimmy Stewart did smile like that. Oh really there’s plenty of me that have you never seen our gang those kids are constantly smiling like like Bob, if you’ve ever watched an old movie with it for their children for around 1314 years old or younger they smile like that yeah tall also Roselyn was traumatized. He may have been stuck in about 13 at that point even though he was 16 or 15 years old, but that that that is an innocent look that is an innocent common look for a straight little boy in his generation or a straight teenager. In some cases probably I would say there’s plenty of kids in the 50s to even still smiled like that it’s a very common smile for straight men and she knows that you don’t go fuck yourself.

And by the way, Aaron, she knows that your make up looks like shit because it’s way over done you look like a cloud not a reference to the past and the Devante statue you’re ugly as fuck the way you wear your make up it’s not vintage it’s rockabilly 1980s regurgitated bullshit.

And here’s the thing it wasn’t a look to that it was they actually wore but then that’s the problem with Lacey. Oh, she actually looks like that and I just insulted you have aunties and Aaron and you know what I’m gonna let that go but that being said you’re your social acceptable data, which is part of the reason why I got so angry at you just there and Aaron is as well because your look is considered socially acceptable. It’s a vintage look it’s retro it’s rockabilly. Maybe it’s a reference it isn’t literal it’s not like you’re actually trying to be those people who would actually try to be those people someone who is super into like historical reproductions someone who is really into like super authentic nerdy stuff and Lacey does it so sincerely That it doesn’t look normal.

So when did of aunties does it and Aaron does it? It looks appropriate it looks like you’re going for some thing when Lacey does it it doesn’t look like she’s going for some thing. It looks like she’s trying to be meticulous and her re-creation of it which she is, she is that smart, but it’s more than that for her it’s like a soul thing

Oh, so the problem is that she looks like a lesbian.

No, really she looks like a lesbian she’s not, but in hurt attempt to be a part of purity culture is a Millennial in her tent to find herself and be a greatest generation member in her own way. She has translated her self into a lesbian look. This is real.

I she has she’s made herself seem either bisexual, or lesbian or something like that. That’s not her vibe. It’s frankly it’s more obvious than Lem’s. It’s hard for her to say this, but he was straight she doesn’t wanna lie she doesn’t wanna make me lie but that’s what she’s going to say is that he is straight because that’s what I have to say. Why do I have to say that, because he was he was straight and so you should’ve really been able to tell but you couldn’t because he mastered very intentionally because he wanted to seem gay and be gay because he thought he was gay even though he really wasn’t and it was not in his best interest And that’s some thing that people have to be careful with because you can’t go around telling people is in their best interest and that way at least not easily and you probably shouldn’t so he got it you know it’s like could you maybe if you had good heart intense if you didn’t, you really shouldn’t you should always be very careful, but when your heart intent is because it be very easy to screw that one up and tell the wrong person the wrong thing Did people back then no that is is totally different but let me do. It was a totally different conversation back then, but they might have slightly. They might have slightly they might, but they might have slightly had some concerns about telling him anything and if they did, and they probably did he asked if I’ve gotten angry because he felt like it wasn’t right to lie to people And he didn’t want to have an intense conversation about what you experience when he was molested so he didn’t want to go into graphic detail about what he’s experienced as a 13-year-old and he just thought you know suffice to say I know myself just let it go, even though he was totally full of it, but he didn’t know that he was full of it Even though he was confused, he didn’t know it was confused entirely meet you had some inclinations, but he was confused I know he wasn’t gay he was actually confused people could actually be confused so the idea is that Lacey is confused, OK or ignorant or both he also might’ve been ignorant, and I might’ve been also ignorant so the thing is loved it act gay, but it was an act. It was a good act, his mannerisms his attitude, but it was very shallow and it would come and go but really it’s in the recording of him on the phone with Jack. it’s the pictures it was an act.

Him Bobby may disagree but the evidence suggests otherwise and so then his opinion becomes a bit suspect because the recordings evidence and the fact that I know cause I’m dead and I’m telling you this through Lacey and that’s really annoying that you never seem to except that reality Bobby as a possibility even is absurd you know what are you basing your opinions off of Bobby your stellar memory while you were high all the time that’s insane you don’t have a memory as good as your wife’s you’ve married people with excellent memory. I don’t know if you actually have one or not And you were you were in trauma you were high how the hell do you expect yourself to have had this perfect reading that’s all better than most people even hi I don’t think Bobby is this gifted at reading people as he thinks he is maybe he is, but I kind of doubt it And if he is, I don’t know how he didn’t notice that it was fake. How does he have? No idea what we’re talking about because other people see it too. Yeah stop gaslighting her Bobby you’re out of yourself as a weirdo you’re gaslighting her.

Oh you’re not gaslighting her and you say that in the name of Christ be careful with that if that’s at all in your heart because you’re taking gods name in vain if you’re lying if you’re that confused OK but even if you’re confused, you should be careful using that authority that you’re using to try to argue with her right now because you have no accountability to hurt out at all as a person and it’s kind of weird.

Oh no I don’t seems like you’re treating her like she’s lame and you’re expecting to have some sort of Normas leeway with her. Where are you? She just you just she was let you get away with anything why Bobby why are you expecting her to just allow you to do whatever you want do you think of her like your mom or do you think of her like lamb who is shitty you were you just assume you can do whatever the hell you want around her that’s never seem strange. See with this conversation for the last eight years that you treat her like she’s some indulgent adults in your child and she’s spoiling You?

I know she is with him, sweetie you know a lot of men have curly hair your grandfather did lime dead Joe did not Joe did not have curly hair, nor did he have the aesthetic that I have says grant ticker grant tinker, or that I have, which brings me back to my point um I act like lame potentially literally intentionally if I’m bisexual or gay possibly because I know about him I saw Lacey at a craft store I might be somewhat into history. Those things kind of go together at times I might actually know who I met and then someone athletically inspired by him I was just sort of ridiculous then that you conjured me Because I’m really just copying him which means finding nudes absolutely nothing I’m just copying him because I thought he was gay and I liked his luck so that’s like you found someone impersonating him who’s actually gay that means nothing about his anything I’m just impersonating him because I thought he was gay he was Beyond that though I do tend to impersonate people from the past it’s kind of seen as a gay thing to look sort of vintage just ever so slightly I drive a beetle I am kind of into vintage I like that aesthetic of the 60s I just like that look do you know who else had that look at times Kelsey Grammer And I’m pretty sure that means at least bisexual and it’s an aesthetic. I liked it I did something with it. Um yeah so anyway am I guess the point that I’m trying to make is that I can do it because I might not be entirely straight and in 2024 that would be appropriate for me to channel someone from the past just objectively she knows that it’s like lame pretended to be gay. Maybe I was wrong about him, but I didn’t know that possibly someone innocently, I might’ve just bought the company like you know I might’ve just bought the story that I read I might not have thought about it deep enough and I just had a very shallow analysis assumed that it was safe and a person needed him. That being said, I’m still trying to impersonate someone from the past so For me though that’s appropriate it’s not appropriate for her. I get why she’s doing it but it’s not really gonna tell people what she wants to tell them which is the point of this post is to try to tell her that because she doesn’t get it she can’t do that she can’t wear the vintage stuff. She can’t do what she does and not look like she’s different. I don’t think she cared because she’s a very open minded loving person and she just thought who cares if people think I’m just being myself I’m gonna let go with that. There’s nothing evil about me being myself, well yeah but then I don’t think she realizes that people are in interpreted a certain way, but she’s so dog in her attempt to be sincere and honest and herself that I don’t think she realizes that it’s confusing to people in a way that’s possibly serious and might actually be a problem to her Which is part of what happened in the perfume community I don’t think that they understood who they were talking to in that way, and then combined with the unusual wealth of the Norwegian American family that she was raised in regardless, it was very confusing they had all this money their upper class they’re old money but it’s Norwegian American. It’s a farm family and then she’s this old person who is like 40 and it’s very confusing and she’s extraordinarily beautiful and then it’s like she’s got brown Eyes, and yeah OK but it’s not just I mean it is that lemons get into the heart of things maybe that is really at the heart of all of it because if she had blonde eye in a blonde hair and blue eyes, maybe people will try to analyze her differently. Maybe they try to figure out more where she’s coming from in a different way. There is a possibility of that, but I think we didn’t do that so we’re just like taking a surface value you know and it’s like oh she can’t be that rich she doesn’t you know buy the rich people stuff she’s in where the rich people clothes she wears Hermès scarves but what does that mean Crap she has a Cartier watch but it’s vintage what does that mean because she was not. She wasn’t necessarily trying to be impressive in that way so people misunderstood her and then she has this look. That’s very vintage which is actually extraordinarily pretty in person she’s very she’s very much a sapphire girl. OK we’re not into astrology but if there’s any type that is her it’s a libra Virgo cusp there’s some Sagittarius maybe but I doubt it. No that’s not true. She’s a Libra Virgo cusp with Scorpio, if you were to put her, let’s not worry about let’s not worry about whether or not they’re real it might not be allowed and haven’t really said it’s not necessarily godly to do astrology but if you were to make her personality type, she’s a Libra Virgo cusp she keyboard on like the 20th or 23rd or 24th or 21st or or some thing of September because she’s kind of a Libra but she’s also a Virgo so she has the beauty of a libra and then the ground and it’s a Virgo and it’s just it’s like Scott Fitzgerald it’s very end and actually a little bit like Eli Roosevelt it’s very sensitive very grounded but it’s also very tragic because they they struggle. Those people struggle that’s difficult for them with love at times but they’re very sensitive beautiful people, so that’s who she is so that she has this grounded sort of aesthetic but she’s straight and it’s beautiful but it could be very confusing