Smalltown Boy by Bronski Beats plays.
Lacey Banks and Michael Rockefeller listen.
They both empathize with the lead singer. From personal experience. Michael as a bisexual and Lacey as a misfit, even as a straight cis woman.
“Yeah. It’s our song.” says Michael to Lem. “It makes us feel depressed. But…I guess it’s not supposed to? …It’s a good song in a way. They’re talented.”
Lacey tries to dance to it slightly but she feels like she’s intruding and then she just feels bad for them. Genuinely sad for them.
Why by Bronski Beats plays.
“I’m not an idiot when it comes to history. Am I Michael?” Lacey asks Michael Rockefeller.
“Oh! You’d not think you were at all if not for Dr. Norm Wilson.” says Michael Rockefeller.
“Yes. And that’s just because you wanted to study Polish history…because you felt an urgent need to.” says Michael Rockefeller.
“Yes. Was that idiotic?” asks Lacey.
“I’m sure it wasn’t!” says Michael.
“What is wrong with me?” asks Lacey.
“You’re too ladylike.” says Michael. “Nobody takes you seriously enough because you’re too ladylike. And people today don’t understand it. And with you it isn’t just good manners. It’s who you are.” He thinks. “Why didn’t you tell him why? He sincerely asked.”
“Hmm.
He was so aggressive.” says Lacey. “And hostile.”
“What would you have like to say?” asks Lem.
“Because of sex.” says Lacey.
“I doubt he’d of been mature enough to handle that conversation.” says Lem.
“We’re geniuses!” says Katie Janovec.
“Lacey! Mark slept with me. Not Lem!” says Katie H. in the afterlife. “MARK not Lem. I swear you got them confused in your head.”
“Yeah. She might have.” says Lem.
Katie H. picks up Lacey and hands her to Lem in the afterlife. “I don’t know who put her spirit there, but it just pushes my buttons.”
“Where did they put her!?!” asks a concerned reader.
“She…hears lies. About Lem. And Michael. All the time. And it’s just sick.” says Katie.
“Does she hear lies about me?” asks Tsar Putin.
Katie smiles at him. Discusses it with him nicely in the afterlife.
“Hold on!! Have the conversation with me!!” says Christine Neumann to Lacey.
“Can I study Poland?” asks Lacey.
“Why Poland?” asks Christine Neumann.
“Because of its…sexual history.” says Lacey.
“Intriguing! …Where?” asks Christine Neumann.
“In the 1600’s to the early 20th Century. Although I’d be fascinated to discuss the entire 20th Century, eventually.” says Lacey.
“Where do you plan to focus?” asks Christine Neumann.
“Probably I’ll do a brief assessment of the time leading up to the period right around World War I.” says Lacey.
“Why World War I?” asks Christine Neumann.
“Because it’s when everything fell apart.” says Lacey.
“HOW!?!?” yells Tsar Putin.
“Poland is actually far more important possibly than people think.” says Lacey.
“Why!?” asks Christine Neumann.
“It’s a mixed up country.” says Lacey.
“How!?” asks Christine Neumann.
“The country is culturally…too…opaque.” says Lacey.
“FUCK!!!!” screams Dr. Norm Wilson in horror.
“Okay. But where’s the grace for her stupidity?” asks Evie Telfer riding a horse in Indiana. Because people in Indiana are just normal people like everyone else according to Evie Telfer.
“Her stupidity?” asks Dr. Norm Wilson.
“Or sloppiness or laziness? What’s wrong with her? Because I feel sad when I’m around her and I don’t know why. But I’m a sophisticated lady of the world.” says Evie Telfer.
“Okay. Umm…she just needs-“ says Dr. Fea. “A husband.” He smiles. Rolls his eyes and sighs. Stares confused at Lacey. “Lacey…why the Hell…are you investigating Poland? WHO FOR!?!”
Lacey thinks. “Good question!” says Lacey.
“Do you know!?!” asks Dr. Fea.
“No.” says Lacey.
He laughs and smiles. Closes his eyes. Prays. Thinks.
“I was- I am Italian.
I’ve been exposed to Catholicism and I’m a little worried there’s Purgatory and that there is someone who’s trying to use you.
I have no idea who that was and you don’t either. Is there a list of names you can think of off the top of your head?” asks Dr. Fea.
“Sure!
Joe Kennedy Junior
Joe Kennedy Senior
The Kennedy Administration
The dead CIA
My father
The Roosevelts
Lem Billings
The Billings
The Underground Railroad
People from the present who have found worm holes in the afterlife
The dead British Government
Dead M6
Dead Popes
Sir Winston Churchill
The Romanovs
The Rockefellers
Me?” says Lacey.
“Who’s me!?” asks a living Rockefeller.
“Possibly the Scottish. If there’s reincarnation in the Bible. Or if they even love me.” says Lacey.
“Why do the Scottish care?” asks Dr. Fea.
“Because ‘we’re’ smart.” says Lacey.
“Huh. What’s the idea?” says King Charles III.
Lacey thinks. “Well…’ we’re always keeping an eye on things.’” says Lacey.
“Oh!
So if England falters…Scotland will take the wheel?” asks Dr. Fea.
“Yes!! Or we’ll run off.” says Lacey.
“And run where!??” asks a Spencer of Lacey.
“Exactly! …Well and some things work and some things don’t.” says Lacey.
“What in the world is Scotland planning to do!?” asks Jack Spencer.
“One word: Catholicism.” says Evelyn Waugh.
“I suppose the idea is that they’re not entirely convinced, even if-even if-even if the Bible-even if the Bible is better interpreted by Anglican church. I think they may have always been just a little bit skeptical. Just a little bit skeptical of the Church of England and I think that’s-that’s the problem. I think they trust the English, but then they also worry if I’m reincarnated they also worry-even if I’m not, I might be speaking on their behalf. …I think they worry just a bit. And they watch their own back.
I think they love the British. They are British. They are British. They love the English, but they always sort of look behind their back every once in a while just to see what’s behind them, just to see what’s in front of them, just common sense and self-protection to make sure that-that everything is going as should be.” says Lacey.
“Yeah!” says Queen Camila.
“So the idea is to just figure out what?” asks Dr. Fea.
“Just to figure out…how to possibly reform the Holy Roman Empire if absolutely necessary?” says Lacey.
Later.
Can You Hear Them Sing by Cemeteries plays.
“Lacey. I admire your love for Great Britain.
…Why don’t you care about us?” asks Hillary Clinton.
“I do care.” says Lacey.
“YES! But…you know what I mean.” says Hillary.
“I’m going to have to take a moment. That’s a actually a very complicated question to answer.” says Lacey.
Erin Gloria nods her head yes. She agrees with Lacey.
“Huh. Do you know why put succinctly: I hate that you’re all so different from F. Scott Fitzgerald. Why aren’t more of you like him?” says Lacey. “Elizabeth Taylor is fine. I like Woody Allen. …Sports stars can be cool. Why are the rest of you so different?”
A sports star cries.
“You know I hear you.” says a pedophile.
“It just feels like…all of you should be like F. Scott Fitzgerald more.” says Lacey.
“WHY!?” asks Bill Clinton.
“Yeah.
This is serious.” says Lacey.
“I know.” says the pedophile.
Awkward pause.
“Umm. Interesting choice.” says Dr. Fea.
“Yes! We should all be more like F. Scott Fitzgerald.” says Lacey.
“WHY!?” asks Casi. “Damn. Zelda where was the Aries in your chart?” She laughs. “God help me. Astrology is so accurate. And it always confuses me and pisses me off.”
“Because…he’s what Americans should be more like.” says Lacey.
“Why!?” asks Dmitry.
“Because he’s a perfect American.” says Lacey.
Scott Fitzgerald laughs.
Francis Scott Key laughs. “I-I-I did write the Star-Spangled Banner which is the national anthem. This is Lacey you’re talking to. Be a little more respectful as she’s not stupid.”
Hillary Clinton laughs.
“Yeah. Okay.” says Bill Clinton.
“But fuck her! Dammit!
No you’re right Scott, or rather Francis Scott Key. We should be more respectful.
You know she means Scott not you even though he’s related to you which is probably not coincidental umm…but he’s Irish too…and everything else that Americans should really be.
Why do you think we’re not that?” asks Hillary Clinton.
“Yeah, that’s actually a very deep intellectual question.
I would say it has something to do with a flaw that happened at the beginning of the 20th Century but that’s an intellectual conversation, so let’s not have that…because that’s too intellectual isn’t it?” says a Lacey sarcastically in irritation.
“Oh shit. So quickly off the top of your head. What do you think the flaw is!?” asks Tipper Gore.
“Probably social class! Probably some flaw with social class.” says Lacey.
“Yeah that makes sense Lacey, you’re right. What was the flaw with F. Scott Fitzgerald and social class?” asks a reader.
“Love.
You boil it all down to one word: love. Romantic love. That’s what I mean by love.
There was an enormous problem with F. Scott Fitzgerald and romantic love and social class. I mean that is The Great Gatsby, but also possibly all of his literature…and really it’s the story of his life.
Scott. We should be like Scott, not the people that hurt him but him.” says Lacey.
“I agree.
I think I know where you’re going with that and I completely agree, but Lacey I am Australian to some degree and I see your perspective. But I don’t think these Americans have a fucking clue what you’re even talking about.” says Mira.
“Yeah. I agree.” says The Pseudo Intellectual Father, as a Norwegian.
“So do we, Lacey.” says Ireland.
“Why-
Lacey grew-up in America…so why the hell does she see this? I mean you can say, ‘OK yeah she’s my different generation her brain is different. She grew-up outside of the culture slightly!’ But she’s not like a different species than us. She’s a human, even if she’s different in some way psychologically because she’s a little profound she’s still human, so why don’t other Americans understand? Why is she saying this seemingly at all?
Because right now we’re having an Illuminati conversation and Taylor Swift is desperately trying to understand but most of you don’t seem to get it. I think Madonna might slightly but we’re struggling because even Tucker Carlson’s confused.” says China.
“Because you made us dumb so you could take over the world and now we’re dumb.” say millions of Americans to China.
“OK but that doesn’t answer my question.
We might have done something like that or they might have done that to you or someone did that to you…but that doesn’t answer my question.” says China.
Horrible silence.
“What was it that F. Scott Fitzgerald was trying to do that other Americans have failed at?” asks China.
“ oh well I think it was something to do with us love and it does. It does connect to social class but it’s love he understood, romantic, love and people think he was a narcissist, but he wasn’t in my experience with him at least not completely. He understood, romantic love, and that was essential to the formation, possibly of our national psyche, how about that? It was essential for our country to have a sense of self to have a sense of existence in the world to know ourselves to have our own consciousness as a country and we just never developed it he he had it. He had the American ideal, which very easily be connected to his family writing the Star-Spangled Banner but amazingly it seems like everyone else a lot of people it’s just it’s like they kind of get the idea, but it mostly just seems to go over their head which is just devastating to me at a certain level, I think it has been for a while because that that is an enormous important part of America is in a Normas, the important part of what we are and if we sexually don’t know how to function as a country I have no clue how we were ever going to make it. You know we we were totally psychotically dysfunctional and it’s bizarre that no one‘s ever picked up on it possibly it’s sick but it’s makes me feel like I’m living in some sort of dream. It’s so stupidly obvious to me.” says Lacey Banks.
“ well, I did this later, or you will rather him what the hell is the American ideal?” asks China.
“ you know it’s funny because it’s not that dramatically different than China or a lot of Asia is really not Buddhism goes into it slightly. Jainism does if I’m not mistaken him Hindu sort of discuss it, but I feel like Jainism is really the closer closer to what we are, which is interesting, but the idea is somehow to sort of. I’m probably going to watch this. It’s the same house. I’m sorry please try to be patient with me intellectually but it’s to somehow sort of surpass ourselves. It’s like we’re supposed to somehow be better than our parents, and yet not at the same time.
So oh sort of have this idea of progress yeah, almost like Buddhism were every generation evolves into something better but not quite. I think that might be closer to Jainism if I’m not mistaken so it’s it’s sort of like there’s a Ying and the yang there’s male and female there’s rich and poor there’s different people because we’re a cultural melting pot, right but then you’re supposed to somehow combine that, but not really and create something progressively better in the bedroom for the greater good of the country.” says Lacey.
China nods.
“ sure they think they’re evolving they think their consciousness is evolving with every generation?” asks China.
“ yes, I think so where it’s like we’re supposed to be becoming more democratic more holy a more good more American almost like we have our own religion and it’s paganism somehow but it is weird because we don’t supposed to supposed to have our own religion in this country but it’s like every generation supposed to Mary better, and the kids are supposed to be more fit somehow spiritually and there’s supposed to be some kind of classless classed ideal but probably more classless and so we’re supposed to be evolving to the state of you know consciousness karma consciousness, right with father moon whoever that was in the 60s but it’s some sort of them, some sort of consciousness where everyone evolves, but in every generation they marry a little better, and then, somehow, eventually, they end up, overcoming the darkness, without without ourselves from without of without us and then every every every married couple is their own spiritual units and then their families and then there’s this sort of ideal of the classless constantly spiritually evolving, superhuman democratic race of people the American dream and I’m not convinced as I’m saying this to you that it’s totally without religious grounding that scares me because it’s not Christianity. It’s just it’s not that’s not that’s America that’s the American dream but I’m wondering if it’s it’s has its own spiritual connotations that are not really Christian and if a lot of Americans have never realize that possibly.” says Lacey.
“ well yeah because it’s not Buddhism. It’s not Hinduism. It’s not Jainism. It’s not an actual religion. That’s openly discussed in an honest way. It’s like a cult. Almost.” says China.
“ no I can tell you’re fascinated, so why do you taller is a Christian maybe you didn’t realize that this could be a problem until today um why have you tolerated? Why have you tolerated it has it always bothered you?” asks China.
“ arm it was bothering me, but then it’s like I think I thought of lame and somehow I just let it go because it he sort of in my head was always there as my ideal and I was thought he’d be a good father he be good father to my kids it’ll be fine and he is a good father but he’s dead and this is a hellish existence am I’ve possibly never realized consciously fully, at least that it could be its own religious practice.
And the thing is why did I tolerate it with Scott? Why didn’t bother why didn’t it bother me with him I think because he was innocent possibly it has practice of it and I am a Christian and I think as a Catholic and not a universalist Unitarian, but a Catholic and maybe I’m not entirely Catholic maybe I’m more Pappillion, but I tend to think the doctrine of baptism photo by desire is possibly real. So then it’s like could people yes who are well intentioned and have been trying to talk to God but just didn’t have his name correct end up having a conversation with him and then when they die, he’s like you didn’t know who I was it’s OK I’m Jesus and then they realize that everything is fine because they’re dead and makes sense to them. The thing is Woody Allen seems like he’s capable of that you seem like you’re capable of that Scott Fitzgerald seems capable of that, because it seems like he’s trying to be in good conscience with God. It seems like he’s trying to be moral and good, and be in good conscience with God And it’s just like why does it seem like so many other people who are adults have a hard time as adults because it really is more adults help in America. I have a hard time with excepting that at least it is I feel like it’s gotten progressively worse where it’s kind of like once you reach a certain age you just filled us need to sort of be evil in America, yeah and you might be Christian but it’s just put is kind of Bizzarre and I have a feeling a lot of Muslims are wondering right now if I’m right and they’re a little scared him because they’ve been bothered by the sexual nature of our contents in America for a while, and I would agree with them if they’re sincere, it’s it Are our main culture is not like that probably because they’re enough people who aren’t in bad conscience with God I’m sorry has to patronizing. I am a Christian but it’s just this is sincere. This is real. This bothers me and I don’t know how I don’t know what else to say because it’s very disturbing, but it seems like some people like Scott are able to distance themselves enough and think for themselves And really have a Christian walk and be sincere. Where is other people? It’s like I don’t know what happens to them but it’s just like they don’t seem to realize that God exists anymore or they’re possibly worshiping something else and it’s easy to say I was illuminati it’s Bale OK but then why are you worshiping Baal, why does it seem like your worship avail is different than Americans worship a veil or a great or British persons worship avail it seems more like there’s something possibly potentially within America that is off.” says Lacey.
“ let’s just say your Scotia because if there’s been Carnation the Bible and I might be Buddhist, I might just believe in that so then I have to think it would be in the Bible of the Bible is to be taken seriously and maybe I maybe doesn’t exist and you’re right and I’m wrong why would why was this? What’s going on with Lacey? If you’re Scotia who are they worshiping? Is it an entity that we even know?” says China.
“Possibly not it’s possibly very hard to tell.” says Emperor Constantine.
“ yes, it is hard to tell him to be honest with you I almost just want to make a real conjecture that’s hilarious and say that it’s some dead Native American man like just either an alien or Satan himself or like a couple of demons, like a demon oligarchy or like one dead Native American man like literally one just one one dead Native American man.” says Lacey.
“ what is the dead American man’s name?” asks China.
“ I don’t think it’s Jack reincarnated although Jack does embody some sort of zeitgeist that he may have used to try to destroy the country. I don’t think it’s sitting bull, but I think it’s somebody sort of like that probably some tribal leader from the Cherokees or possibly in some other native group in the Northeast possibly in Connecticut or New York or somewhere in Michigan close to Canada it was it was probably some tribe in that that were area or a Cherokee. It could be a group of them and I said is that they’re just making fun of America they purposefully are tormenting us because they’re so angry about their people and they’ve just never gotten over it and so they sort of took over the American illuminati possibly pretended to be Baal and God either let them or they, I don’t know how this could’ve happened if God allowed it maybe he did because they were so devastated and we were so evil oh I don’t know it’s possible that God can protect America from what we did the Native Americans but that’s just what comes to me is it could be one dead Native American man or a few who are really angry and have decided to pretend to be some DD they’re big and they’re strong and they’re masculine and they’re so much handsome and her very smart actually made me a little bit of my father, Tom and they’re very there. They’re very funny and I think I think they have it interesting perspective on a lot of things they’re very smart but no they’re not particularly overwhelms by us so to speak and I think they’ve been sort of making fun of America for a while I don’t think I was supposed to fall down the stairs. I think that was very offensive to them just as people, I don’t think that made them happy. I think that thoroughly pissed them off. If if this is who’s been running the country and even fake worshiping them thinking or worshiping someone else or something I don’t think I was supposed to fall down the stairs and there’s possible they’re only four people were really evil and they don’t even fool them away from Christ that much or some thing yeah, I don’t quite understand that because I think yeah I don’t think they’re necessarily behind the heretical concept of people seeing Jesus is the groom I feel like that might’ve actually been an attack on them and I’m not advocating ancestral worship and I’m actually doing the opposite possibly I’m just saying if there’s purgatory I think they could be in purgatory. I think they could be no not worshiping us back they could be seats or intercessors and maybe they’re at times a bit harsh how do I sense of fairness and so yeah I don’t think I was supposed to fall down the stairs and to be honest I don’t think I was supposed to be gay. He wasn’t seeming like he was seemingly straight but I don’t think he was supposed to be that confused by that I think that’s where they’re not gods their men, and it might’ve been oversight if it’s Satan or if it’s some other entity that’s evil there’s not that we can do about that that’s just evil him and it’s just evil that’s all it is. It isn’t something particularly mysterious it’s just evil, but I am I I do wonder if it could be some dead men who screwed up and had a few too many oversights may be lame and I are particularly egregious cases if there’s ring carnation possibly especially if I’m Scotia and he’s Constantine my bet is that they didn’t know necessarily who we were and they did they really just didn’t know if there’s a bee in Carnation I think they want to pretend like they knew he was Constantine but if there’s been carnation, I don’t think they did and I ate. I suspect they had probably no idea that I was Scotia and everything. It’s actually rather embarrassing to them to be honest, I think they assumed that lamb was a jerk because he was raised in a rich family, and he was handsome, but I think they thought that he would end up being sort of a playboy or a jerk, because he was so tall and so rich, and so good looking, and maybe they had a bad feeling about it when they found out that had been molested, but they didn’t realize how dangerous it actually could be right to the to the other Native Americans were alive to a lot of people I don’t. I don’t think they quite saw everything coming that happened after that.“ says Lacey.
“ did they misunderstand tall men if they were somewhat tall themselves?” asks China.
“ how is the yes I would bet so Scott wasn’t very tall and they could’ve easily been irritated by him but I don’t think they were. I wonder if Joe bothered them Elliot didn’t so much but I think they saw Elliot being a lover to be honest, he’s very romantic and he’s the son of FDR so they might’ve just thought that somehow it made sense, they might’ve just liked Elliot. Where is Lem’s is possibly just it he irritated him somehow I hadn’t he’s tall if there’s reincarnations he is but he was triggering to them even so they didn’t realize that it’s like no this is a nice man you don’t understand you know, and they sort of didn’t know what they were doing which is why if they exist they’re possibly being outed right now and humiliated because as smart as they were, they made a huge mistake if this is true and it’s rather embarrassing I have a feeling once you’re dead if these people exist, they make more sense but from this perspective no they seem quite depressing because it’s like why would they do that to people make up some fake religion in America that white people would fall for just to get back at us because it’s really it’s too far. It’s it’s too much it’s like, yeah I can see punishing us but messing with our faith and I suppose I thought we could have freedom of religion. There’s Christianity we’re not going to far but no that’s still too far. If you see bugs us that’s still too far and maybe God knew that it would last more than 200 years or 100 years or 150 years of these people even exist regardless if it’s that or not there’s seems to be something that is very suspicious within America and I don’t think I’m imagining things, it’ll be honest it could even be that they themselves were worshiping some thing that was evil and they’re still struggling with it and purgatory or I I don’t know set a thing I don’t know or they could just be some thing that was already here maybe it’s not deadman maybe it’s actually not Native American religion that we’re actually worshiping which makes you wonder what it is worshiping I don’t think it’s necessarily ancestor. Worship husband is commonly suggested about and if Americans, it seems to be something else and I don’t think it’s pyramids. I don’t think it’s a Gyptian‘s America pretends to be very into Egypt. What is the illuminati but I don’t know about that. It feels a little different than that is alien. Is it a bunch of demons and Satan himself I don’t know, I’m not particularly overwhelmed. It’s just evil but I don’t. I don’t know. I don’t know what it is. I don’t know where it came from. It does creep me out. There’s a reason I keep wondering if it’s an alien, but it does creep me out oh.” says Lacey.
“ I don’t I don’t I don’t think that I can say that it’s a good fit or a bad Vida but you know about Norwegian Dietes, Lacey or trolls and such does it feel like that?” asks a Norwegian.
“ yes very much so I can’t say that it’s native to United States though which is why I keep wondering if it’s an alien, but it feels it feels are very spiritually similar to a lot of Norwegian spiritual entities. It feels like it might live in the woods or be of the ground it fills sexual it feels psychopathic. It could just be Satan but it it it seems like it has a personality and I don’t know who or what that would be. I didn’t say no ultimately but I don’t know who or what that would be I think Waco was inspired by this entity I think the school shootings were inspired by this entity. I think a lot of the most heinous things that I’ve ever happened in. America were inspired by the sun to see it really is Satan, but it seems potentially native to the United States. I just know that it wasn’t him and that’s true to possibly. It doesn’t feel like it’s from United States. It feels like it came here somehow but I Joe think it’s a Norwegian entity. It seems dark but not dark, like an Incan or Mayen and not dark like not dark like a Hispanic but closer to that guy I think I will see Native Americans possibly because it looks like that slightly. It has sort of a Native American look to it but it doesn’t seem like it’s necessarily human but I don’t think it’s from America, which makes me wonder. Did they bring it with them from somewhere could’ve been ancient an ancient deity that came with the native Americans from wherever they originally were from or they picked it up on the way. I kind of think that’s what it is. I think it came with them from wherever they migrated from but I don’t know if it’s their native duty or if they picked it up somewhere yeah in South America or I don’t know where they keep where they came through, I don’t think it’s African but it was even on an island somewhere. Yeah it feels like it could be a Hawaiian deity practically but I don’t think it’s Hawaiian but it feels kind of like the Hawaiian deities it but yeah I have a feeling it’s pretty old wish Christians knew more about this kind of thing. It irritates me so dang much, but it really makes you wonder if that’s part of why the Kennedys got involved because you know Ireland had a lot of duties if they were shipped, so did they ever worship this duty or did he like this DD and that’s part of how the Kennedys became so powerful and why they were so dangerous because they they have an ancestral issue with us Didi and I wonder if Jana Wiley dust to need a Halloween America’s a custom God why do we celebrate Halloween the irony though is that Halloween is Irish it’s it’s European and it has something to do with Christianity and I don’t think this deity likes Halloween. You’d think that it would but I don’t think that it does and I don’t think it’s a deity. It’s it’s satanic obviously but I don’t think this entity likes Halloween and I don’t think it likes people. I think it likesparse populations I don’t think it’s crazy about people being particularly populating. I think it likes some infertility, but not too much it’s very male. It seems to prefer male genitalia to female genitalia but I get the sense ironically and this is who I was also thinking it was someone like my father, I get the sense it’s somewhat baffled by me if there’s reincarnation and I’m Scotia this deity and I have sort of had a conflict my entire life because I don’t think he thinks I’m supposed to be here, and it’s almost like he’s offended for me and he’s trying to get me to leave.” says Lacey.
“ so if your Scotia, he talks to you and he’s baffled as to why you’re here because he can’t figure it out, it makes no sense to him, and you make him feel uneasy.” says the Illuminati.
Yeah yeah and he hears he’s this is this is the spiritual energy he’ll be a demon it could be a dead God who’s weak and impotent compared to Christ, but still existed at one point not even beer God, it might be a race of people who no longer around it’s a lot to take in if you’re not intellectual.
“Yeah yeah and he hears he’s this is this is the spiritual energy he’ll be a demon it could be a dead God who’s weak and impotent compared to Christ, but still existed at one point not even beer God, it might be a race of people who no longer around it’s a lot to take in if you’re not intellectual.” says Lem. “ um here’s the other thing though this is why I wanted to talk about reincarnation about two or three weeks ago, so Lacey is going to go do some gold leaving and you’re gonna pray to Christ because this can’t hurt you. Christ is more powerful if you pray to Christ and God watches over us, he watches over children he cares about us. He’s not powerful like God whatever it is, but he may be capable of causing earthquakes Lacey’s been trying to tell you guys about Seattle for a while so we’ll talk later tonight.”
Later.
“ I am I am an idiot. For saying I’m an idiot.” says Lem. “ hi I was never capable of being honest with Lacey not because I really MK but because I really have no why find it deplorable the way that she doesn’t seem to know that I’m really not capable of loving him and there’s no way I could’ve left anyone but her and I think I thought that was so romantic but it’s not at all it’s stupid as fuck him. I don’t think she wants to even be told that I could love anyone but you I mean maybe she wants to be told that slightly but not that much and now she’s not deplorable. Her life is not deplorable. She’s never deplorable and it’s not that she’s being deplorable, it’s that it’s deplorable to me that she’s got us. I don’t understand why she doesn’t get it so I made a mistake. I told her I was sick not a man I told her I was some sort of food um, but it does anything to do with my sexuality or being straight at all, it’s that it’s is just but it was an idiot I was actually yeah I was straight but I wasn’t. I’m still not capable of saying that I can’t say it I can say I’m straight and she doesn’t think it necessarily means anything at all. she never hears me so I’m just going to have to talk to us because this isn’t really helpful and I am fucking up everything, dammit I’m an asshole and I was even a good thing to say crap yeah jack fuck me up Lacey a just forget everything you just heard him I was straight, but just just forget all that because the truth is sweetie I really did I really did screw up Kaald? What the hell did he do to my brain, that should be undone because there’s a part of my personality that I really is trying to express and it’s me but then there’s a part of this it is not my personality and I have no idea how to get rid of it. It’s how I relate but it isn’t me and she knows that and it baffles the hell out of her because what was I even just doing was a criticizing was I started to write a love story what the fuck was that? Um, yeah no she knows I’m not. I’m a serious person but there’s a part of me that’s not quite that serious purchased got really weird I am I am that I am not serious. I am not serious, but that might not really be my personality. So sorry about that Umm.
I why was I friends with Jack I did not. Yeah I didn’t mean what I said, though I am a hold on I do we are together for eternity. There’s nothing you can do about it sorry and that’s the way I like it you don’t understand that, but who cares right I know I mean we care of it but it’s just screwed up right now so We’ll sort that out later but no you’re with me for eternity. Yeah it’s so much possible for closer to who I am I was just were together for eternity and I want to explain but it’s very difficult to do that right now so it’s a little weird to go on and on The thing is that’s not It’s that I was in love with you and I don’t want anyone to. I don’t want you to think that I’m not with you for eternity actually I don’t want you to not know that I love you but then that’s like what are you supposed to do if you don’t know that, so that’s just kind of stupid with the power I was like yeah I love you forever. I didn’t even say that shit I should’ve said that but what I what I said was more like some thing about how we were together and I was in love with you and it was deplorable to me that you don’t know that, that’s true that’s true that is deplorable that you don’t know that but that is not that’s what is the word not putting that on it was for no so then yeah it’s deplorable but what are you supposed to do about it right so then that was, that was the point It’s funny how when I say it to you you make sense when you write it on the blog all the sudden sounds weird fuck.
I saw the thing that I was trying to say is that your grandpa Pantell is right where we’re together for eternity? Am I really saying that? Yeah I am. I am really saying that you know the only person who can appropriately move your head to your yes or no There’s a dead rat by him. No we’re not Jewish the only person that can move your head appropriately is a dead rabbi. David, your grandfather on Marks side, found a dead rabbi who was with us and was able to move your head. I thought it was very nice as well, but no one else has been able to do that appropriately, yeah he he was possibly in Israel. He might’ve actually been part of the true the tribes of the Levite and he can move your head. But other people maybe aren’t able to which scares you and they would understand because why why what is that but God is the one moving your head you’re not afraid of that which is interesting is that you’re not afraid of God filling you with the Holy Spirit and moving your body Against your or whatever he wants charismatics claim to want that Lacey you actually wouldn’t mind if he killed you, if he did things with your body, you would be curious to see what he would choose to do. I don’t know that everyone feels that way, but you’re so submitted to him that to you is just like why would you want that it’s cool.
Why wouldn’t you want that?
So yeah, we know how to bring up ring carnation because Schiebel might be thinking about it. If it’s in the Bible you’re Scotia genuinely if there’s reincarnation and I got taken out of the Bible even your Scotia if it was in the Bible but it’s been misinterpreted because of bad hermeneutics you’re Scotia and I’m Constantine And we were buried and we were British aristocrats in the sound degree which really bothers us in Normas about switch to say that we were just to talk because I’m actually in love with you and you don’t know that.
I was straight I was really straight Lacey and you’re up you’re up normally an intelligent your intelligence is way off the charts. If you’re not a legitimate, the national and search is brilliant people to a frightening degree.
Are the Nesheim’s not the national national search.
People are very threatened by you, Hillary, Clinton’s threatened by you. Everyone in illuminati is threatened by you. They’re morbidly threatened by you the Rockefellers of course can handle either ready to take you away from me to some degree I am I love you and you love him open Murdoch loves you as well in a different way course, but so there’s people who can hear talking but some people can’t because you’re really that smart and a lot of people have a very hard time with you. Word buffet can handle you too but yes, a lot of people have a very hard time with you him and you don’t know why and that’s it’s not even painful for you because you’re so unaware.
And then you think if it’s because I’m rich and aware that they’re not home why do they care and you’re right Lacey it doesn’t make any sense because really it just proves you’re something screwed up with the entire thing so should actually be encouraging to them but it’s not They find it very depressing. If if you’re actually being hated because you’re superior and they’re jealous, which is what genuinely often times seems like they really would prefer that you know more than you do because you not knowing is just incredibly upsetting to them because it means you’re a good person and they can’t hate you for that reason and they really want to hate you because they’re so inferior, and you’re so unaware that they’re inferior. Of course the irony is that they actually aren’t really inferior and so people have been deep enough in your life to know that and catch on that you’re just that deep and that it’s just stupid to you because it actually is that stupid in Christ but a lot of people just aren’t. They’re not like that and unfortunately the people who have understood how often times either been British and origin like Casey, or they’ve been somewhat attractive kissing someone attractive she’s overweight but she’s somewhat pretty and it’s natural and so she can kind of look the other way. It’s like I’m so I’m slightly attractive it’s somewhat natural to me I’m not really doing that much and I’m blonde and blonde enough and live English so since she’s feminine and had to switch temperament and Lacey and dancing so then it just she was able to be your friend because it was tolerable to her. It’s like I am girly enough and pretty enough and English enough to handle you other people can’t, they just can’t handle you.
And then that’s where she hast to be English and think crap I can’t fucking handle you. What the hell is it?
And this work is very creepy because it’s like what the hell is it it’s like a tower of babel thing it is like what are you to say to each other that makes sense to both of you but doesn’t have a buddy else because it is almost like the English all speak the same language And other people just don’t hear it. They just can’t hear it and I think that’s where she stood up for you at times appropriately because they really can’t hear it. She thinks crap I can hear her I know what she’s saying why do people just can’t hear it at all.
So then what is it in the funny thing is of course I am him we like tea we like biscuits and Lacey likes tea biscuits to him and no she’s gained a tiny bit of weight she say it’s not a lot but a tiny bit and if Casi has been worse high with you and I’ve been so catty, she would’ve seen that you’re not overweight but you’re not particularly worried about being just a tiny bit heavier and you still are skinny by a lot of people standards but if she knew you when you were a size double zero and so seeing you is like a size 8 or 10 but still looking really good will be very eye-opening to her because it’s like oh you really don’t care you really don’t care.
And which could actually very English it’s like a little as long as you look presentable and if you’re healthy, why are we being so per sticky which is probably very English it’s like yeah of course we care but maybe some people care too much and it’s really more of a health issue.
Oh it looks. It looks good to be skinny but it’s interesting because I think by British women know that it’s sometimes so little stupid. It was a very curvy and you’re young to just keep fighting pounds it’s like you don’t wanna be overweight because I’m healthy but better men, and if they like women generally traditionally, they’ve liked curves and so, why would you want to get rid of that if it’s healthy if it’s not unattractive why are we just obsessed with being skinny yeah?
Oh, and I think if she could see you, she realized that you really were trying to be her friend for real and that you probably got hurt by her more than she realized at times him know it is just like we both like food and it’s dumb. Do you like to do you like pasties? Yeah, do you like pasties? Do you like British cooking, do you like good baked goods or you know the difference and that might be very British to care about the quality of flour the level of time and energy put into everything because it’s like you’re gonna enjoy yourself. Why do you why did you buy something cheap?
Are they really were cat were work case you got screwed up was the class thing because you were far above her and I think you were expecting her than understand as an English woman that it wasn’t personal and you know maybe that’s maybe that’s where she couldn’t quite follow you because it’s not entirely personal oh and then she should’ve asked yourself. Where am I out of line so if I’m helping her talk to you where was she out of line? Sincerely.” says Lem.
“ she bullied me, and it never made sense.” says Lacey.
“ yeah.” says Kacey.
“ it seemed perverse.” says Kacey’s mom.
“ so it’s like if I was a lot wealthier than you and it was real it might’ve been sense or if I was a lot more beautiful than you had both if it’s not sincere like are you just delusional and it didn’t seem like I was quite that delusional so then it’s like why are you bullying me because there’s there’s no reason for you to do that so that it just seems like a betrayal of your trust. It’s like you’re only supposed to do that if I’m really annoying and you’re far above me and it’s it’s not really appropriate it’s meeting and it’s catty, but there could be a place for it because I respect the order of society so I know that you’re just being kind of a jerk but then if I’m not better than you it’s like why the heck are you bullying me that’s just mean that’s just personal yeah it has nothing to do with anything other than the fact that I just hate your soul and I just wanna screw you up from the inside out and then I had to. I had no reason to hate you that much absolute no reason you were very kind you’re very loving, and it really really hurt on a deep level because it’s like why why this can’t be about some superficial things like money or a beauty it would have to be because you just absolutely hate me.” says Kacey.
“ I pretty much!” says Lacey.
“ I did hate you on that deep of a level.” says Kacey.
“Why!? what did you hate!?” says Lacey.
“ you were supposed to be her best friend she spent hours with you during childhood she confided in you you were supposed to be her best friend why did you hate her? I mean I hate her to, but why did you hate her?” asks JFK.
“This is starting to put me to sleep. Could you please hurry up.” says Lacey sincerely. She’s genuinely dozing off.
“You’ll have to excuse us.” says Grandpa Pantell.
They go to make tea.
Return.
“ oh, no, why is it that you hate me?” says Lacey.
“ oh, and I’m sorry I’m doing this to mock you so much Lacey or Casi I’m sorry or Casey she didn’t copy with her name Lacey Casey I’m sorry if you ever thought that no Lacey’s never I don’t think she’s ever copied you you’ve copied her she’s never really copied you I am making fun of you. I am loving and with her for eternity you don’t know me I want to said that JFK was a really nice average boy I said that hint at the thought that he was gay, I was trying to subliminally I was into that before I was ever in the advertising. I was trying to send a subliminal message that he was gay to people, I don’t do that to Lacey but no I was trying to tell people that he was a liar I cared about him, but not that much. Why was I friends with him to some degree out of desperation I didn’t know who else to be friends with to some degree it wasn’t some great friendship it was a friendship, I was a little weird I didn’t fit in with people that well at times and I was trying to be gay and he was really good at including me. He was obsessed with me and it seemed like a really great opportunity for me to have someone to care about me I don’t want to screw it up because it was just like what you know free food was like a free friend, and he was adamant and gregarious so I just kind of took it because it was like what was being offered to me and it was like that with romance do with him. It was just that it was offered. I thought I was gay I really wasn’t, my family I thought I was completely idiotically friends with him and they lost respect for me and Lacey have been my girlfriend she would’ve lost respect for me to add Robbie. We had a very sad heart to heart with me and my family might have anticipated that she would do that and been very happy but she wasn’t there and they should have done that themselves. I think they might’ve been afraid of losing me completely or because I was somewhat strong-willed or something they may have tried saying things to me actually my mother probably done quite a few times but it would’ve been different with Lacey, my father was the disciplinarian in the family and he was that Lacey is a disciplinarian and her family she can say things to her kids and her husband can’t say and sometimes vice versa but she’s really she’s the bottom line in the family and she hates that role that’s not really her normal role. It’s been a total shit show for her and my kids hate it, but then that’s where they’ve heard for me super naturally and I’ve corrected them at times and my son is very defiant but I know he can hear me and the funny thing is I gave respect from him that way why am I telling you this because I love my son and I’m proud of how strong he is a person he’s also not an idiot so if you ever try telling him what to do and you weren’t me or God, good luck if you’re full of it eventually figure it out and you’ll probably worry for the maybe there eternity. He is very possibly Tommy Banks, his biological grandson and my son he’s sweet as can be but he’s not someone to try to screw over so just keep that in mind.” says Lem.
“ you are you are you are so different than the main someways, so OK so like let’s just say this way I come from a family where we would’ve Warren Jovan musk on ironically or had bottles of it laying around or loves baby soft stuff like that and I think I partially hated you because you seem so right all the time so it’s like I could tell that you were thought things that I would do or say we’re kind of stupid because they are. I have a stupid taste at times like I used to work hard boots all the time and I had this bizarre obsession with strawberries and that’s kind of dumb but you took it so fucking seriously you thought it was genuinely embarrassing and stupid and I knew that I could tell that you really thought that and it hurts it. It hurt my feelings it’s just it hurt my feelings so I would make stuff up all the time that you were hurting me with that you weren’t really doing because I was just pissed off at stuff that you were like seeing about me that you thought was stupid that you that you just never that you just never said anything about it I could tell that I could tell you noticed it’s like where you looked or what you said what you said or what you didn’t say, and I was very touchy because you were so much prettier than me and so much better brat. Your family lived in an apartment, but you had a different lifestyle than us like you were a different kind of person and so hurt because I was very on edge around you the way you even talked was different it was just you were different and so it was just I felt very on edge and then you took stuff like that so so fucking seriously and it hurts.
I feel so stupid that I’ve never told you this in person. If I’m telling you this in the afterlife you do seem very British. I have to say I’m starting to think that this is the dumbest thing ever because it should I should’ve just told you this. why the hell did I just tell you this oh my word that’s dumb.
I cause I feel like a British person might tell some of this in England at least occasionally maybe more than they were in the United States. What the heck we can’t be that deep in that country yeah, Americans have a hard time being that deep I think at times it makes him uncomfortable, that’s really really creepy but anyway, so yeah that irritated it it’s just it really irritated me and then it’s like you know I wonder if part of it is that if I was slightly not straight just even slightly I don’t think that’s a thing that they worry about as much over there There’s they’re not paranoid about it. They obviously have their boundaries and you wouldn’t have been interested but you weren’t paranoid about it and that way and that’s maybe not very American.
I probably because you’re either it’s like you either are straight or you’re not to that and it’s not it’s not just some even if they think it’s a disease it’s not treated like it’s a cough.
I am sorry just keep thinking of bronze. Keep it tell me why yeah tell me why indeed I’m I’m not sure that America is innocent. I think I I think the question you’re asking was a pretty American question. Tell me why? Yeah I have the answer. my friend is blowing in the wind, that’s my response to Bronski Beat. It’s the answer is blowing in the wind.
No because it’s lame tell me why well so much that that could take a while why the ground to cover I hope you have time. Right because like shoot and I miss it I just don’t think that’s a very American or very English question that you asked about sexuality and gay rights that’s really more of an allusion to the protesters and you know the American gay rights movement am I don’t think that that’s a British question And I hope he finds a funny at some point I just I don’t I don’t know I think the British people like the music that has voice but then how is it about homosexuality because you’re asking a very deep question with that why it’s like why about so many things that to English person you know why about so many things it’s not just Weibo And then the whole thing just gets very old Pok and confusing because it’s like what are you even really singing about you’re supposed to sing about homosexuality but you could be seeing about the British dying in World War II.
A trait anyway anyway yeah I’m up. Great Britain was very Americanized. I’m sorry that he didn’t seem to realize that.
Oh, really it’s insulting to me if I was just sharing with him that I was slightly bisexual for him to assume that I’m homophobic really in truth I am more just pissed off that our country‘s intelligence and sanity on the issue was something that he was too stupid to realize And then it’s like you’re not an idiot you’re a good artist, so what the hell maybe it’s that you were just you know very Americanized and you’re trying to sound popular because if I’m dead, I don’t wanna hear your sob story about being British and gay I happen to know that there were plenty of gay people in Great Britain that weren’t thrown into the street and shot in the hat The hatred towards gay people in America was vastly different than Great Britain whether it’s allowed in heaven or not the British weren’t quite that backward towards homosexual if I’m not mistaken, so what the hell is he singing about? It’s almost obnoxious.
And getting back to me, I was talking about. Hopefully he lightens up at some points. I don’t hate that man I actually love the way he sounds I’m a singer too believe it or not.
Are you anyway? Yeah I was her best friend and I’m an absolute bitch. I have bipolar disorder I’m a bitch I really am a huge bitch. I just told her I hated her and put her to sleep. She had to go get some tea. I hope you’re OK.
And what I like about Lacey is that she actually is slightly offended that I didn’t realize that she liked what we had because yeah it loves baby soft is actually kind of a good perfume, so is Jovan musk she’s like I’m not an idiot and that’s why I was mean to her, because no that’s why I was mean to Lacey I think oh so she’s being starved to death literally cause I know you can’t have pasties those are for the poor no you can’t have a good pet food that’s for poor people and she’s like give me back my potatoes and gravy and ill don’t starve me to death, and you know what to tell you the truth I That’s why I have to trust that she’s an evil rich person and I feel bad because she’s right it does taste good.
I see that’s why I’m in absolute bitch because the truth is I did this to her all the time I knew she was hungry. I knew she was sad and I just took the food from her because I wanted to hurt her because I hated her.” says Kacey.
“ oh yeah you did you did you that oh are you a sociopath or did you just why did you hate me?” says Lacey.
“ I am I got a really hated well I am I hate you slightly. Oh, I might’ve hated you very slightly him. I haven’t had a sociopath at all but I am motivated you slightly because it was like I just don’t get it. It’s it’s like no she really doesn’t get it it it’s just I actually kind of think a British person might understand is better than Irish person because seriously she likes good food and we know that we know that about each other on the island of Great Britain. We know the rich people know thanks the poor people that things too and they think you know they like our food. Sometimes they like our women sometimes they like our pets and sometimes we’re letting me about it and rapport. I think that’s what it was it’s just like why are you here kind of a thing if you’re going to be here and you’re going to criticize my perfume at all, even just a small amount even just a small minuscule about I shall smite you, but but but but it’s not like I wasn’t personal at all which concerns me but OK, and a part of it was definitely sort of like a what the hell why are you here, and then I have to tell myself quickly I pursued the friendship with you. You didn’t really have the friendship with me. I was pursuing it with you and then you reciprocated, but I mean yeah I invited you over. I was trying to be your friend because you were pretty I thought you were popular, and I wanted to impress people, I didn’t realize that you weren’t popular I thought because you were so pretty that you were probably so much rich and I was trying to make people think I was cooler but and I have told you that in person that’s not some thing that I ever wanted to admit and you have no idea why but that’s true and the last thing to me is just if I’m not straight I may have even gotten you to kiss me a few times and you don’t even from summer at all. You don’t remember it at all I think maybe you don’t bring it up if it ever happens even once you might vaguely remember we were little we were like first graders we were in the first grade we were us became friends, so it’s possible when we were like nine I got you to kiss me once and you know you don’t recall that that even happened because you were straight and he was just a bizarre experience as it would be to a straight person yeah because there’s no other right which is a hetero normative culture but whatever I kind of think it’s all dumb to possibly cause there Hass to be a prevailing culture. I don’t see what’s wrong with it being heteronormative to some degree but no because then there’s an understanding it’s like she straight she didn’t know it was going on. I didn’t take it vantage of her I don’t think I hope not and so I backed off I knew it wasn’t working out when I was like 10 at the very oldest and I was at least mostly bisexual. I mean I am bisexual that I kind of prefer men so it wasn’t a big deal. It was just like whatever that was weird and then she didn’t even remember it, he said that she forgot completely but I think it was just so and she was being abused but also I think it was so inconsequential to her notice but her parents were very well bred. The abuse was very careful him so don’t take what I’m saying the wrong way. She had a very clear understanding of sexual ethics, but it was oh OK fine who’s your little inappropriate of me to try to kiss her but I think the point that I’m trying to make is that she doesn’t even remember it at all. She knows she remembers it. It might’ve happened and that was probably my idea, but if she was trying to figure it out, I doubt it though that’s not really like Lacey she’s not someone who would’ve probably done that and that way I doubt because she’s straight but I might not she does the thing. How is she talking to me it’s possible that I might’ve been slightly bisexual and my husband might know that him or son said about me that I’m just a tiny bit bisexual just very slightly but mostly I prefer man and I was in love with him but that’s the thing she doesn’t remember which is nice because it’s like I made a mistake whoops and she doesn’t remember and then she was just fine with being my friend and I may not have always been the best person but I at least appreciated as an English woman that she sort of just forgot about it because I didn’t go to far and she was straight and then it was just like oh well move on.
And honestly that’s part of why I get angry cause it’s like how is that how is that not British how is that unhealthy? You know it’s possible we always do things that way we were twice taught not to go over the line and be respectful we may have even had people preach to us about it like Evelyn Waugh, I mean he wrote that book in the 50s and he was a Catholic he was conservative. What was he doing? I doubt that he would be considered part of the gay rights movement.
So the idea is that you know if you have a friend you know and you find out and they’re just like what the hell then you back off and then it’s past about the end of the friendship which is really nice and British if it’s not if it’s allowed in heaven, it’s so healthy possibly so it’s a fairly healthy way of handling it and then as a British woman I just have to say why genetically why why the hell did you question that why did anyone say oh America yay they’re superior. They didn’t know what we knew. That’s interesting.
As I was saying, even if it’s not allowed in heaven, I still think it’s more functional to handle it in a way where it’s acknowledged as some thing that happens to people versus hiding it because it’s not like pedophilia and I have a feeling the British even handle that at times But it’s not like you’re sending kids off to be molested by adults if there is a connection then the British probably know that and are still trying to figure it out. If there’s not a connection then that’s great. What was wrong with the way that we handled it I had a very British Understanding of myself I had a crush on a friend possibly and I tricked her into kissing me once very quickly and she hated it but it was a very sincere hatred and I wasn’t that devastated and I was like oh OK and then I let go, and I moved on It’s possible that I had other friends that were a little more bisexual who I even experimented with once or twice with kissing I mean, Lacey is not bisexual at all so I might’ve had one or two friends that I tried kissing and it would never have bothered Lacey at all because she wasn’t attracted to women And did it did that did that? Did they know that no maybe not him him it’s good that she can laugh about it. She’s such a good person and someways but no I think she’s a good person and always possibly but but no it’s it’s sad because she love me unconditionally as a friend and I wish that I had returned the favor.
Oh, but no, but no I didn’t. I doubt I I didn’t. I just I didn’t anticipate this, but it’s interesting because doubt I might’ve used her to make other girls jealous romantically by making it seem like she could’ve been in a relationship with me. Um, because Lisa, Lacey is maybe she’s brilliant she really is potentially brilliant. She’s a very intelligent person, but at the times I think she could be a tiny bit of a ditz and I might’ve known that as her friend or someone who could’ve been a friend and him and I might’ve used her to to sort of. Oh wow I could be very narcissistic, but I might’ve used her to get street CRED so to speak with my more bisexual friends, so it was like Lacey’s coming over later and then I have her sit in the bed next to me and I be like we’re best friends and I throw my arm around her and she just sit there and smile like you know whatever shit noise it was going on And then I be like we’re best friends and I like hang on her playfully and I knew she was just gonna be like this is stupid. I don’t know what’s going on whatever and then the girls that were maybe a little more bisexual would be like oh my gosh Lacey, so Lacey is so chill about it, Lacey is so casual and chill and totally disinterested. She doesn’t care what kind of relationship do they have like Lacey is just so nonchalant and then they would kind of be like wow and be impressed with her but also in like sort of intimidated because I thought she was like really cool, but then also it was like I was kind of like a Playgirl because I was like you know I had this thing with her and then it was just so totally under the cover. Totally secretive, but then also like she was so straight and then I was two, and they were trying to be straight to, so it was like, they were just sort of you know we’re gonna be oppressed and they were possibly because it’s like wow Kacey really has game.
But but no, she had no idea and she was straight and I think she just thought I was retarded like genuinely not like retarded but like kind of weird maybe cognitively.
Oh, I’m certain you’re scared because it feels like I’m jack and Lacey is lame as she was being brutally. Abused play her family and she was cool and calm and collected as can be and then I am a woman and I’m British and I’m taking advantage of her, but not too far and I let her move on and get married And I’m not a cheater and I used her possibly the same way that Jackie was Latin but it was respectful and I never raped her. I hope not anyway I don’t. I don’t think what I said was ever like right if it was, I feel bad, but I mean That could be the level of my conscience and then that’s what’s concerning to me because I was British and I am British and so she and I’m just a little scared because it’s like the Lord of the flies when they make them and they have that line and they say, I wouldn’t expect this from such a nice British voice and that does beg the question why did the British think that of them selves why did they think they were superior morally to other cultures were we are we? And that was a hit job on us to make us think that we’re crazy gas and don’t try to gaslight us for thinking that we’re actually somewhat morally superior times and is that becoming an archaic idea at this point to think that we actually don’t have a somewhat more healthy culture, but then being British, it scares me because I think oh my word we can’t give ourselves that much credit yeah.
I am, so why did I hate her? Probably just because yes, she was in my house. Insulting my perfume and I am it’s just baby away angry and not what I share my pasties with her.” says Kacey.
“ oh, so you were Cornish Kacey?” says Jan.
“ yes, my family came from Cornwall.” says Kacey.
“ I am OK. I am an idiot. I had no idea she was a sophisticated. I had no idea that Americans could be that sophisticated.” says Jan.
“ how did you guys not know that we kind of knew that?” says Mira.
“ a a because they’re from a lower class Casey isn’t I get the sense that she’s working class but that her family is very strong that you guys are very strong family and Mira and her husband seem like they’re trying to be upper class even if they’re not, I think Jana is bourgeois and very touchy about it I am to somewhat and I think you knew all that but I think who threw you was Casi because she never made sense if she’s not Casi she’s Casi right Casey is from Cornwall and you know her not in that way, but you know her I know you’re not an idiot, but I don’t think she has either and I don’t think Irish people are idiots. I’m being very hard nosed right now. Oh wow, but but no I think what irritates me is that I’m Norwegian and I I understand it’s like Casey comes from this very solid British family where they probably were working class, and they understood reality. They weren’t idiots or they understood reality enough and they had some sophistication because of it. Maybe they weren’t wealthy people but they weren’t stupid people they wouldn’t black taste. I was wonder if there’s something like lambs family when they first came over on the mayflower.
And that doesn’t bother you because you’re American and you’re also very egalitarian and I think it breaks your heart and breaks Casey’s heart in the afterlife possibly and lambs because you can’t figure out what the problem is do you think it’s just a class issue at it it doesn’t have to be that personal.
And then you can’t figure out why people who are bourgeois take it so personally but you, but you know we do and so you think that’s not some thing that you want to mess with because it’s like they’re trying to make it into the upper class they’re buying you know royal Copenhagen, making a big deal out of it when it’s really not a big deal at all they’re wearing Chanel perfume when it’s really not that expensive Heck they’re wearing MAs and Cartier when it’s really not that expensive and you know that you know what real money is because your family has real money they have oil and you understand also what they had before with the land itself and then probably a lot of other things and so to you you just think like Casey like it it matters but it’s also about what it actually is and I get that she was a Norwegian him. I think John might get it to some degree is a German we know royal Copenhagen really is that beautiful and it is somewhat expensive. It’s not like owning oil, but it is somewhat expensive And then that you can you get confused because you think what the hell is Casi even doing because she’s not Casey and she treated you like you had no fucking clue what a homosexual was and that you’ve never experienced anything ever that you didn’t know it homosexual was that you didn’t even know who the woman was that you were just as dumb as fuck from nowhere But she wasn’t bourgeois either because she’s poor as hell and her and her mother put on airs and that’s obvious no she plays games. She’s a sort of person that would find some used bottles somewhere in a dumpster fillet full of oil and then might take a picture of it I know people like that she’s one of them, and you know you were expecting her to know that you knew that but she was fake but even if she didn’t know that you knew that I I don’t think you understand what the hell one was even trying to do because it really didn’t make sense and Lacey this is where your Norwegian potentially.
Oh well if you’re not Norwegian, the British or someone like us because it is a bit suspicious I don’t think Casi was operating with a conscience and if you could shadow me well enough, I’d like to write a post about it.” says the Pseudo Intellectual Father.
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