“What Happened” by One Of the Gay Men Who Killed Themselves

Lacey’s British when she goes to Great Britain she automatically gets along with people in a way that Americans don’t.

Yeah, but the point of this blog post is: I killed myself because unlike a Latino friend of mine, who could tell that Joe Camel wasn’t actually gay I thought he was gay, and I thought that it suddenly made sense to kill myself. Why?

Well…it’s quite complicated, but basically there was a either conspiracy to kill gay men connected to the same group of people who killed JFK, who actually worked with Lem. If Lem helped kill JFK there were people who were sort of holding hands with the advertising agency that created Joe Camel and they worked with the agency to create Joe Camel to kill gay people because they hated Jack that much and they thought that gay people were just…the scum of the Earth. So if there was a conspiracy in that way the idea was to kill gay people in Lem’s honor using Lem’s image to sort of trip gay men up and get them to commit suicide.

And maybe I don’t entirely know Lacey doesn’t know either, but we both suspect there could’ve been a group of gay men like that.

Actually, I’m sorry not gay. …I don’t think they were homophobic. I’m sorry but I think they just hated gay men…and then this is where that wishful thinking needs to stop. I actually think that they genuinely just hated gay men. I don’t think they were just homophobic.

Oh, but then that’s the problem. We don’t really know entirely how many Millennials have died because of that image who are not gay. I don’t know. But apparently those men didn’t think of that? If they exist. Right? Because they thought that gay people would get the image and then straight people wouldn’t be affected by it or something or that heroin would never be referenced, but that’s where they were a little backward and they maybe didn’t realize that they’d be killing other people too, not just homosexuals.

Oh, so am I another theory is that that was happening either along side or not at all but that it was possibly happening along side or not at all with another theory that there are people who said this actually isn’t as much of a theory we have some evidence for this There were people who thought that loan was closeted and that he was actually gay who worked at an ad agency I don’t know if sell was actually one of them and then he died in the 90s of maybe a cigarette addiction or what happened I don’t know entirely, but there’s people who worked at an ad agency that created those images Like actual people we may have talk to some of them might be done. Some of them might be not dead, but we have talked to those people and there was at least one person who can vouch for the fact that idea was that he would be homosexual, and that it was a reference to lab him it’s complicated but yeah it’s the NASA thing it’s like were they working in tandem with people in the illuminati who were actually trying to kill gay people and they didn’t realize it and they were being hoodwinked or were those people just that stupid that they didn’t realize that it would kill some people?

Cell seems to be a real person. It seems like he existed, and that people who thought like him might have been too narcissistic to realize that line was straight so I don’t know what to say. I highly suspect that those people existed and that they really genuinely thought that somehow it would be seductive Because they thought Lem’s was just sort of a fun sexual image oh that was in the 80s and 90s he was sort of a big person and certain closeted and not so closeted gay communities like in New York and they were very arrogant intellectually and they made huge assumptions about his sexuality. He wasn’t gay at all, but because they were so arrogant and narcissistic unlike me and they were like Jack, they assumed like sell that he was madly in love with Jack and that he was gay because he is hot and straight and they’re very lacking in self-awareness and so they don’t understand that he was straight.

And so they created this image that killed me but I’m not that talk to God about whether or not homosexuality is narcissistic. I’m not that narcissistic necessarily and I am the reason why gay people are taken seriously because of gay men like me you have a right to get married if people who created that image were the only people who are gay, you don’t just be dead because you’re assholes.

Why does it affect me? That way? Let’s let Lacey drink some water first. OK fuck you.

So here’s a thought I they assumed lamb was gay. I know it seems weird now to say that doesn’t, but they assumed that line was gay. They just made that assumption that he was 100% gay for sure I don’t think it was supposed to be a bisexual camel I really don’t, I mean it worst case scenario it was some sort of survival of the fittest test concocted by a bunch of narcissistic jackasses in the illuminati.

Oh, but I say jackasses because I am fit I would’ve made an excellent spouse. I would’ve made an excellent employee the world needed me to be alive.

The problem is, I am a sensitive serious person and jackasses were narcissistic. Don’t have the cognitive ability to understand that.

Oh, so that’s a sort of different question though that that camel was not gay but I assumed he was why, because I think like the gay men in that way, who created the image people who sings like Lacey probably we’re gonna smoke anyway and my generation or they thought like Eminem or a black person or Hispanic and they thought this is dumb. This this is camel is bisexual or straight. And they were right.

But what happened to my brain was that I thought like the person who made the ad who is gay who wasn’t a self hating gay they were prideful and they assumed that Linn was gay and so they used an image of him that was really literal which is why I suspect that there is something or someone else involved.

Supposed to be a reference to them, but it was so literal that it became what it was was the idea, but it was so vivid that it that you had to know the situation to know what was going on or you had to be able to read what so Eminem thinks love might be bisexual. Probably a lot of rappers think that he was possibly just straight but like for real straight And he was straight, but bisexual is closer than gay.

And the fact of the matter is he was straight and so the problem is I didn’t. I didn’t Nola OK I’m not like Eminem. I’m not suspicious of people in that way I don’t have street smarts that’s why I might’ve smoked cigarettes.

So I didn’t know that you had to like read peoples energy that you could just look at their gay symbols and get to know them in that way and then figure it out as you in a long I I thought you I thought you could do that I thought you could talk to people and get to know them. I didn’t think that that you that you had to like read people before you even said anything to them. no really there’s people who are like that. Lotta people are like that you read people to some degree but not that much because you don’t have to if you’re a popular cool person who fits in with people and I did even though I was gay and serious, I had friends, and so I didn’t I didn’t have to go like out of my way to like psycho. Analyze everyone like Eminem apparently and so.

I’m sorry this is really pissing me off. Bobby should not be allowed to attack her as she’s explaining that her mouth is dry. She’s constantly having to clear her throat because he’s a fucking piece of shit.

He is obsessed with a psychotic assumption that he’s made. No, it’s assumption he’s obsessed with the psychotic delusion that he’s gay. he is obsessed with a psychotic delusion that Lem is gay and Lem’s not gay at all.

If there’s reincarnation, Lacey just had to break into a literal Scottish accent in her spirit, to be able to use her own fucking mouth.

Hey, do you wanna know more not?

Oh, you know you guys are the psychopaths in fatal attraction game and that inspired that add Anne and Bobby you guys are the crazy bunny boilers in fatal traction not Lacey and I people like her and I who are somewhat submissive get cast as that all of the time because you’re narcissistic. And really…I get over men pretty damn quick too or I did. Because I have something called self-esteem.

No, Lacey and I are capable of having committed normal healthy, sexual relationships, and if homosexuality is not allowed in heaven, a god sorts that out in my head if it is then, no, I’ve just had to learn to be monogamous because it’s not what I was taught to be him but to be honest, I would’ve ended up being that anyway because I’m not an idiot.

I so moving on from that load of shit that I didn’t just say but that was insinuated about me spiritually no Lacey and I are not in a sexual relationship. She could’ve sat on my lap and it would’ve just cracked me up because he knows that I have a dirty mind but but then I get to be weird to do that with her so you know part of me and be like who could I appeal to you with this check though seriously I’m not sexually backward just because I monogamous.

Oh, but no we would’ve just been friends him but I died, so why did I kill myself? Well see love was straight but I would’ve had to even know that I could’ve just thought he’s bisexual or something like that.

Oh wow yeah.

So the point is is they love wasn’t gay and they assumed otherwise and he he made a terrible camel. He looks like one slightly he did. He looks like a camel slightly but then that was part of the problem and their arrogance and that’s where Lacey and I are thought of like we like sucks, jumping right into my psychology Lacey and I have high libido‘s, but we’re very monogamous people.

Hey, so she’s very she was very fertile and I would’ve been too and were we like we like sex and so she knows that that’s not a kiss on a camel that’s a guy who’s probably pretty good in bed that’s a guy who’s good in bed not a camel and she knows that based on lambs neck area and the camels neck and the shape of his head. And I would look at that and I would think oh well it’s a camel or weird looking guy. He’s kind of ugly but I guess he’s good at music? Or or not it’s like yeah it’s like he’s good at music or he has like he’s really into suits?

Oh, which is a really weird subliminal message if you consider Megan and Harry and the fact that she was on the show, Suits if there’s reincarnation yeah, maybe he got into suits because he started taking everything in some psychotic way that the things aren’t meant to be taken because he was straight and he got very confused if if there’s reincarnation.

Are or maybe he was actually just really into soups but then I hit that that isn’t necessarily gay but so that I’m just like OK it’s not arousing to me because I’m a gay man and I don’t get why he supposed to be arousing because he doesn’t look like as a gay man to me I am that way, so he’s not arousing to me at all and I start internalizing it because he looks gay because Lem acted gay he wasn’t actually gay.

So I look at them and I’m like that guy is really into suits and he’s good at music and he looks like he identifies as gay cause he’s doing like the movements in the motions in a gay way slightly even though it’s not actually gay and see Lacey would know that But there’s sort of a gay vibe to it and she also picks up on that too but then being who she is she disregards it because she’s so turned on by him because she’s coming onto her but he’s not coming onto me and I’m gay he’s not actually coming onto men at all but but that that’s the thing he’s not coming onto met but gay men are so arrogant at times they don’t care if someone sexually reciprocating if they’re like me they just look at the gay men and then they don’t look for any other cues and they just think I don’t give a fuck if this person’s interested or not, I’ll make them interested or I actually prefer if they’re not interested because then I can torture them.

So so he he doesn’t arouse me because I’m gay and I actually like sex so I’m just like yeah you’re not arousing because he’s straight and he’s coming onto a woman so I’m just like yeah you’re not really arousing me and not being a woman I don’t know what he’s doing but it’s just like whatever you know he’s in the music and suits. I am so yeah it’s like his suit some music a so so then I’m trying to sort of you know get a read on him to see if he’d be interested because I feel like I’m supposed to as a man but the problem is, is like I’m not really aroused by him and then not being a prick I start thinking no I don’t think he’s into me and I don’t think this is gonna happen because I’m not even aroused so he’s coming onto my friend Lacey if she was my friend but he acted gay so he acted love smoked that’s that’s part of the reason they used him I’m smoked a lot, which is why they thought that it would be charming. I guess to reference Lem because he was so into smoking. and there’s also a reference to Joe Kennedy, Junior and Joe Senior Joe, the camel so it’s like Joe second son who smokes.

So it’s like you can fit in you can be gay and fit in a just like Joe second son Joe, the camel and why is he a camel because he’s camel toe right he’s just one giant cunt. He’s like Jackie if you took her camel toe that she often used in her clothing, which was disgusting but he’s like Jackie’s camel toe as a person and then that’s where I start thinking they didn’t heat lamp that much and there’s like a tip of the hat there from someone who could’ve worked with him to kill Jack because he wasn’t really a giant cat him but then who think he was one probably somebody who was mad that he didn’t put out enough. So if they were gay men who they talk to like Francis McAdoo, or some other asshole, if that man was an asshole, who is that who are like no I mean he never put out. Yeah love never put out and that’s because I was straight, but they could’ve talked again then you were too dumb and arrogant to realize that Linn was not putting out because he was straight And they just thought that line was a giant cut so they turned him into a camel named Joe and then that’s where it’s like. How did they hate one that fucking much Ed and that’s where it’s like maybe they hated him that much or they’re like you’re not even really his son so we’ll just name you Joe or the people who did it might’ve been too narcissistic to realize how dysfunctional it was to call him Joe. Or how bizarre it was in a way him given the history of the family I mean that’s why it’s dysfunctional like you’re supposed to know that but people are very bourgeois and they’re not well educated and they’re not upper class and so they don’t know the Kennedy history and that way they don’t know history Because they’re Americans even if they’re working on Madison Avenue who are possibly peasants even if they’re gay oh my word.

So no, there could’ve been a conspiracy to sort of smite the Kennedys and kill gay people but then they’re also might’ve been a conspiracy. They might’ve also been a conspiracy to him. There might’ve also been a conspiracy in their own brains with him selves I don’t mean not really it’s not a conspiracy necessarily they just didn’t get it. That was a really shitty reference to make sure that they actually hated Lem and they were lying to themselves about it.

So no Joe the camels live in Billings pretty much and it’s disturbing because what if you tell me as an actual gay man he’s not sexually arousing to me because I’m not narcissistic I’m not delusional and I don’t enjoy getting into one-sided sexual relationships with people like a narcissist. And so that’s the problem it doesn’t do anything for me in that way.

So so the thing is, I know it just doesn’t do anything for me or you could be some bisexuals who were or weren’t or I don’t know I don’t think I wanna was aroused by Joe Campbell. I think he thought Joe camel was his bisexual buddy him out, and I actually think that they could find him arousing him but in a very twisted psychological way I don’t think a bisexual could find him arousing in any normal way.

And it could be twisted possibly in an innocent way, but it would have to be pretty fucking twisted.

I am I am just I’m gobsmacked by the entire thing. It’s just so disturbing.

So no, I didn’t find them arousing. I might have thought I should hit on this person, but I didn’t find him arousing. they could’ve been narcissistic assholes who found him arousing who still don’t understand that he wasn’t interested in that and then that’s where it’s like those people started smoking because of this ad and probably in far worse health and actually there could be hundreds of thousands of people who died from Covid from that at Mr. potentially hundreds of thousands of gay men who were assholes who started smoking because of that ad and I’ll be dead did the world need them here or not it’s on clear but you wiped out hundreds of thousands of people who agreed that he was gay through Covid potentially. Who genuinely agreed didn’t psychotically agree genuinely agreed because that was their impression to their narcissistic. He was never really that interested in them. He actually wasn’t interested at all, but they were narcissistic and they like smoking and they were they were so much jovial and they’re dead now from Covid, yeah hundreds of thousands isn’t that many people considering millions of people died from Covid that’s a very small number of people and I’m including people who are still dying yes smoking actually would make you more vulnerable to dying of Covid so yeah there could easily be 100,000 or hundreds of thousands of gay men who are narcissistic and thought that Joe camel was in love with them and so they start smoking to try to fuck him or get in his crowd and fuck him or Something.

Oh, so that’s the thing they’re pissed off to because he’s not even gay at all and then there’s heroin addicts that are dead because of him potentially as well that I didn’t maybe entirely know about until today so this is actually a pretty significant topic and that’s three people need to be a heck of a lot wiser when you’re talking to Lacey she’s terrifying you’re talking to an actual Scottish aristocrats had an actual woman who ran Egypt if there’s reincarnation, that’s who she literally is.

You are silver involved in the British royal family because of Diana I mean what the fuck do you want me to say go prove that reincarnation doesn’t exist.

I know I welcome you to do that it’ll be a little less scary don’t know how to do the fact that Tommy banks you’re fighting with, and maybe God and reality itself.

But here’s the thing how does it affect me well, I was drawn to the image because of my libido possible because the colors are supposed to be arousing or there’s something about the image itself that says sucks and what is it that says sucks arm it’s possible that when Jack would screw women Lem’s would take a dirty magazine and go and masturbate and I love they have never understood the concept of sharing a vagina. He might have thought that it was them being men together and so he didn’t understand that they were the woman was like a conduit like a sex toy essentially like a human sex toy I don’t think he thought of it that way Because he was straight so Jack thought of it that way because he was bisexual and insane and so he fucked the woman and Scott not call him gets to fuck the woman and we get to totally depersonalize into humanize her together and get off at the same time, because Jack was in love with Lem And he was a sadistic freak.

Where is 11 thought no because if I have sex with his woman, I’m going to actually lose myself and pleasure and then I’m having sex with her not you and that’s for Jackson idiot at times he did too because he was bisexual so at times he would have sex with a woman and lose him self and pleasure, and then forget that he did because he thought that When he did some thing like that that it didn’t count it’s like anything that felt good to Jack was a OK with him that was his level of morality, so it was like of course I’m losing myself with this woman and I’m falling in love with her but you don’t know that so then who cares and also I’m not acknowledging that myself and I’m smarter than God or something, so yeah I am of course I’m like You know like losing you completely and cheating on you but I’m not like doing that really even though he actually was.

Oh, and so he and so he and so he and so he decided that so he decided that no it was. It was not that they were like having sex with other and I don’t think he even really wanted to do that with Jack anyway and so it was like no I don’t want to. I don’t wanna tell Jack that and hurt his feelings and make him mad at me in a way and so no I don’t want to sleep with a prostitute jack that you’re sleeping with, I like the thought of it in a way, but no I’m not going to actually do it so so Jack would sleep with the woman lose himself and Linn was like I don’t fucking care because I’m straight and we’re not really together anyway but that’s a part of lambs brain that never was processed through cells and so and so Jack would runoff and have his moments with women and lose himself in his little harem of women and then lame would take a dirty magazine and go in the other room. Literally I’m sorry if that’s shocking to you but that’s all he do.

So he would take the magazines, go into the room and masturbate. I am so he would think of Lacey genuinely in a separate room totally outside I mean he would leave Jackie Ploen with these people with his women. He leave him alone with the with the women and go in a separate room and masturbate, and think of women himself in the end, I think he somehow thought that it made sense but he was also horny and he didn’t have a wife and so he would take the magazines think of Lacey in a separate room and try to have sex with her as best as he could.

So it did, he didn’t wanna share her with Jack. I mean that would be atrocious and he didn’t use her to honor Jack. He really just wanted to go off and be with his wife in his head. He does have a libido too. That’s quite high so he would sneak off with his wife and his magazines, and let Jack be with the women and, and then they would. They would all be happy right not really but I am but I think lemon thought that I don’t know. I’m not lame. It’s possible that lame didn’t realize the idea itself I don’t know. Oh crap I’m sorry to think that lame thought it was some sort of fellowship hour for them Where they both were able to sort of be happy and kind of do their own thing so it’s like side-by-side play for like toddlers sell. Jack had his toys I love pet his toys and I love was not going to share his toys. That’s ridiculous and Jack wasn’t going to share his toys either and love being straight Thought that’s fine. I don’t wanna share my toys either and Jackson. This is a mad after my own heart he doesn’t want to share his toys he likes to go in a separate room. He doesn’t even use even bother me. He brings me the women he brings me my toys he takes his toys I don’t even know what the fuck they are then absolutely threatened me just a stupid magazine his imagination And it goes off in another room you know I mean what can you say he’s a dumbass she’s he’s a dumbass he’s he’s he’s a is this Mac jack but I said that was a total fucking schmuck. Jack might’ve said, but he takes his toys goes in a separate room closes the door and I have a real great time he doesn’t even care he’s not like Jackie he’s a guy he gets it And I have a feeling Linn might have thought yeah that’s love you don’t necessarily love your spouse you you love the love of your life and your spouse might just be for the hearing now and that’s marriage. That’s love and ideals stuff is saved for heaven you don’t do stuff like that you know in a situation like this You just sort of have to settle for whatever happens and you deal with it like when his parents lost all their money.

I have a feeling love has a reason where this is not mean towards Lacey. It might be very disgusting on another level. It might be hurtful towards Jack but it’s not. It’s not hateful towards Lacey or his family or his kids or England or God that’s a surly either Intentionally at least necessarily

He loves loves, loves his kids. He loves his wife. He’s only human as smart as he was. He’s not Lacey. This is never a mistake that she would have made in this way, but I think this is where he’s maybe not as smart as her and he didn’t realize how Jack perceived him or what was going on. It’s it seems stupid, right the pictures that he posed for with Jack or woman was in the middle but then you think about where loves eyes are, I don’t think he was looking at Jack and the women were not really his type but I don’t think you not really anyway, I mean maybe one of them was slightly his type but not not like Lacey not really his type and Jack would have cared about that anyway no real way because he was a narcissist so I have a feeling that Landon entirely get the concept, and Jack didn’t bother explaining it to him because he either was too lazy or two stupid or he didn’t really entirely understand it himself.

Oh, and gay men just assumed that line was sophisticated the new as they probably said something dumb to him like I mean, you share the woman that you’re sharing the woman and the love would’ve been like OK and that’s why I’m not married to you because I don’t wanna share a woman with a man and so he didn’t wanna share a woman with a man how disgusting and so he thought to these gay men know I’m not gonna share a woman Jack doesn’t ever want to share these women with me how nice he understands I’m not like that I’d rather just have my own woman.

It in a way you could look at love you. I’m not saying homosexuality is allowed in heaven I’m not saying, I’m not saying that, but in a way you could look at Lem’s as a very naïve good hearted, lesbian, married to an absolute asshole narcissist.

So getting back to Joe Camel. So basically Joe Camel was inspired by Lem who was actually straight.

So the thing is, I saw that I wasn’t interested, and I started thinking of him because I’m not a jerk as being like me because it’s like this isn’t a guy and you know if I’m a narcissist, from a narcissist of a narcissist, but if I did, that’s the thing, if homosexuality isn’t allowed in heaven and what goes on in my brain?

But I somehow started thinking of Joe Campbell as being like me, instead of being someone that I would mack on. And so it’s like no I can’t hit on this man and he’s not doing anything for me and him he’s into suits and music so I’ll just try to relate to him like a friend if I’m not twisted that way in my head, I’ll just try to relate to him as a friend, and so then I started thinking of him and I’m like yeah we’re in the suits and music well that’s cool we’re sophisticated. And so it’s like yeah he’s an interesting guy. Cute. He does suits he does music. He has friends. He’s the tallest guy in his friend group but yeah it’s OK. I have awkward moments too.

And I started really internalizing him as I was supposed to do and it went totally off the deep end. And yeah, it was like it was designed to super integrate into my brain because that was the age of Epstein right? So big deal they were sick and they enjoyed the idea of affecting a child in a way that the kid wasn’t aware of and so that was also part of it could’ve been happening they thought oh this will really affect kids sexually in other ways too and they’re not gonna even know about it so then they joke about that with people like like Epstein because it was so funny to them to make jokes that they expensive kids basically but also that was part of you know they were pedophiles and so I was like ha ha these kids don’t know.

So yeah, it really got into my brain just like the cigarettes we get into my brain right I mean it’s sadistic. They are a sadistic people at times.

I so take it it got really into my head and I started thinking I am going to. I’m going to have to be best friends with this thing and this thing is like me, but not at the same time and I I’m starting to think it just is me. And then it’s like wow we’re in to suits and music.

Oh, we’re in the suits and music oh nice or sophisticated.

And I was like well I am really gifted musically. I guess so I could be huh!?

Hey, what is this designed to kill gay men? Who are you imagine love would love possibly was that action or he actually psychologically could have loved possibly if he was actually gay but I’m not like Jack I’m really not I’m like Lacey.

So then, so then that’s where it’s insane like you were trying to kill all the gay men who were to fall in love with love in Billings or you had no fucking clue what you were doing. Oh my word.

No, it’s just a sec because he’s not even gay at all, but if affected me because you hyper sexualized him just saw the image and also for other sick reasons and so you hyper sexualized an image of Len Billings and then I wasn’t aroused but I started thinking that we were just absolute best friends for eternity or some thing, and not in a sexual way, but to the point where it’s like I just wanna just spend time with this person and get to know myself better not sexually we’re just like wow tell me more about ourselves Lem.

What else do we do you know I’m not interested in you I’m just wondering if you can tell me more about everything because it just seems like we’re gonna be best friends forever. I mean I’m kind of starting to think we’re like twins cause we’re like we were basically the same person but we’re not the same person and that’s OK baby you’re my son or are you my son or are we friends or are we just best friend, twins of eternity?

So it’s like geez let me talk to Jose Cruz know what it’s not sexual at all and it really isn’t. He’s just like my guide to everything. I mean, I’d say I trusted like a father, but it’s different than that. I trust him almost the way I trust myself, so hey lame tell me more about myself I’m in the suits and music, huh?

And so then that’s the thing there’s some people now who are telling me that I should tell you if homosexuality is not allowed in heaven because it’s just nuts they think they might’ve done me a favor but that’s dicey territory morally, if it’s true.

Oh, so um, we it really is dicey territory though because it becomes an issue of like the dozens of lake is killing me actually a good way to handle what’s wrong with my brain do you have that right? God would really be the one that would have that right you know and that’s very dicey territory morally. Yeah so even if like it’s not allowed in heaven and I would’ve lived a horrible life and so I disagree with me but to me it might still seem morally dicey, but I did die like 15 to 20 years ago so maybe I don’t realize how bad things are for people alive about 20 years ago, so maybe I don’t realize alive right now.

So basically, I started thinking Joe camel is me to except he has some problems so I don’t know but I think he’s me and then I started at this is all my subconscious in a matter of oh I mean they design those at those ads to work very quickly so maybe in a matter of 30 seconds to a minute I’ll probably internalize all of this potentially because our brains are astounding so about 30 seconds than I thought to myself why is he sucking a saxophone cock?“ says a dead gay man who killed himself.

Ivanka Trump laughs.

“ yeah maybe you do understand it’s like why is he sucking a saxophone cock and that’s not a cock that’s a saxophone you blow you blow on a saxophone you don’t suck the saxophone and you don’t suck the saxophone. You don’t close your eyes when you play the piano, and because he’s wearing sunglasses to play the piano and then other ones he has eyes he looks like that lab looks gay at times he wasn’t really gay.

So he’s he’s sucking a saxophone cock and his fondling a piano with sunglasses on so he doesn’t see what’s going on?!?

And it’s like I would never suck a saxophone or wear sunglasses while I’m while masturbating a boyfriend you are out I mean it’s just like I’m gonna blow a saxophone. I don’t blow my boyfriend you fucking idiot is that what you literally think we do??

Do you think I literally blow on my boyfriends penis like a saxophone? No, I’d I don’t blow on a saxophone like a dick.

And that’s my saxophone right I am the I am the one that’s playing is so you’re telling me that I’m gonna blow a saxophone like a cock no I don’t blow on a cock like a saxophone. well in or on, I don’t blow in or on a cock like a like a saxophone. I mean what the hell you don’t blow a cock I think the idea is like you’re gonna blow someone’s mind or you’re like it looks like you’re blowing or some thing or you like blowing maybe even is a reference to a saxophone but you don’t literally blow on it, and that matters when you’re analyzing something you don’t literally blow on it no you don’t you don’t literally blow a cock I don’t care. What the fuck you tell me about the origins origins of the name where that doesn’t fucking almost matter the origins of the name are so esoteric in our heads. They’re so annoying that it doesn’t fucking even matter potentially, you don’t blow a cock we call it a blow job but you do not literally blow a cock.

Oh, and if you do blow a cock maybe you blow on the penis itself or maybe the idea is that you blow on it while you’re sucking it because of your your nose but then that’s the thing is though it doesn’t work with the saxophone you don’t blow on the saxophone You blow into the saxophone you don’t blow on the saxophone with your nose to make the saxophone make noise and you don’t blow into the saxophone in that way either because the blow job isn’t with your mouth but whoever made that it’s like you’re blowing into the saxophone, make a blow job And my brain what yeah OK I get it but that can’t possibly be what it is because I had heard about. I didn’t know I’d heard about the cigarette companies having subliminal messages. I knew about subliminal messages, so it’s like my brain was analyzing it from that perspective too so it’s like what the fuck does this even mean in my subconscious ha and the thing is it doesn’t work because I think someone thought that he was blowing into a cock around his neck I was like he play the Saks. He blew into the saxophone. He did a blow job right no you don’t blow on the saxophone with your nose. You don’t blow on the saxophone with your mouth you blow into it and you never blow into a cock.

So congratulations if you are brainless asshole who gives good blow jobs if you’re someone like Lacey and I actually analyze what they’re doing sexually and are far superior sexually because of it, you don’t blow into a Saks you in that way how do you blow into your cock him very very minuscule about I mean if you’re asking me to believe that I would blow into a saxophone standing behind it trying to make a noise by just blowing like fuck I’m blowing bubbles into a Saks about what the fuck you people are you’re sexual your fucking sexual morons on Madison Avenue.

And now, Shannon watts is starting to tell me that she thinks you people are just like her husband who killed her.

You don’t, you don’t blow into a saxophone that way and you barely blow into a cock. If you do at all, you may blow on the cock but you don’t blow on the saxophone.

And so the thing is yeah it’s just I cannot get over it and so I sat there or I stood there and I saw this fuck shit and I thought that’s not. That is not that is not that it’s not that it’s not sexual at all. That’s not sexual at all. I thought there’s no way that sexual because he’s not playing the saxophone for sexual reasons obviously, if he’s not playing it for sexual reasons. He’s not playing it for sexual reasons no because it’s not sexual. Why is this man playing a saxophone I am aroused I want sucks but I really rather play a saxophone no and that’s the thing if I will if I saw the deer advertisements, if ice if I heard about subliminal messages And I knew something about that just like Lacey I was looking for the sexual meaning of the whole thing oh and then that’s where it becomes battery acid. Those images are still in line, possibly killing gay men if they’ve heard of subliminal messages.

Killing good gay men, by the way, so no, you’re still killing possibly thousands of good gay man I just having those things online or having killing hundreds of gay men possibly oh boy those those messages being at all in existence and you can’t get rid of them now, so as a jack ass, gay people that you are thinking that Lem was gay for sure you’re now murderers of your own people.” says a dead gay man who killed himself.

“Oh, you’re not murderers of your own people that’s not what he saying. I can sense it spiritually.” says Bobby Kennedy Junior.

“ oh no we are not going to kill you Bobby no we’re not going to kill you Bobby no we’re not going to kill you Bobby!” says a reader in her head trying to save his life.

“ that’s not necessary no one would ever want to kill me.” says Bobby Kennedy Junior.

“ Bobby, we don’t want to give you the privilege of dying right now.” the woman tries.

“ do you know? We’ll see.” says Bobby.

“ I OK getting back to this though I thought to myself I’ll play the saxophone. I’ll play the saxophone and this is a thing it became toxic because the saxophone became symbolic to me of the chemicals that are in cigarettes so I thought you you you drink the saxophone, you drink the saxophone, you drink the saxophone and you drink the saxophone you don’t blow on it because this is a Lem’s and he was straight and he didn’t really want to have sex so he didn’t really want to do some thing like that. Oh he wanted to to do something different he wanted to play the saxophone, or he wanted to actually drink the saxophone because it’s you don’t actually blow a cock and I don’t care what you say you do with your mouth with the fucking read or some stupid fucking bullshit like that you’ve never played the saxophone you don’t you don’t do that to a saxophone you don’t roll the saxophone saxophone around in your mouth you blow into it I’m a millennial, not a fucked up boomer. So no, you don’t roll it around in your mouth. You blow into it very carefully you think I know something about saxophones Bill Clinton his saxophone all the time you’re trying to help him as gay and then my whole generation learned about playing the saxophone because of it.

So the no, you don’t blow into a penis and you do you blow into a saxophone you don’t roll the saxophone around in your mouth, but I knew that the saxophone was supposed to be sexual. And so I thought you drink the saxophone because I read I started getting desperate possibly and I start reading lambs energy. I was so confused oh, and it’s like the matter. The image could’ve also been telling me figure me out forgive me out, figure me out, figure me out. So it’s like OK I’ll figure you out. Don’t worry I’m coming for you friend. It is possible I was desperate for someone to figure him out so it’s like figure me out OK I figure you out sure buddy.

So long yeah I don’t know why sell made lucky strike gay no no lucky strike does not have a love for gay people. You fucking idiot if there’s a conspiracy.

Oh yeah I don’t know what Joe told you about how much lucky strike loved gay people but it’s pretty fucked up.

Honestly, I think he might’ve been trying to explain something about this image, and still maintain the delusion that Linn was gay and that he wasn’t get himself for some stupid fucking shit like that.

I so I just couldn’t stand it. I just couldn’t stand it and I just thought no he’s blowing his drinking, toxic saxophone.. he’s drinking his toxic saxophone. And I thought we should drink toxic saxophones. We should drink a toxic saxophone. Yeah we should drink a toxic saxophone is what I thought. Yep no and we should probably not touch stuff. We should probably just probably just you know stay away from it but then it’s like I want sex, so maybe I should really drink the toxic Santa saxophone so I was a gay man I thought yeah well tell you what lame you can play the saxophone I’m gonna drink the saxophone and get off tonight.

That’s right I’m gonna fucking drink that fucking saxophone. So I’m gonna take my fucking saxophone and I’m gonna fucking drink it and then there’s other things I may have been thinking or could’ve been thinking too but I thought shit I need to drink I need to drink a fucking saxophone.

So it’s like yeah I know they could’ve been Gatorade commercials to that were confusing me at the same time or alcohol commercials or milk commercials so I thought I am gonna drink a saxophone. It’s good for me and him I’ve just gotta do it because I’m gay and yeah, I think people should probably just die Instead of being alive but really just better off dead drinking a fucking saxophone so I’m gonna go drink a fucking saxophone tonight is what I thought.

I love you tell your folks I did I jumped off a bridge and nobody knew why why did I jump off a bridge because I thought to myself I know that’s better than drinking, something dangerous and dying that way cause I thought of drinking battery I said, I thought of drinking like isopropyl alcohol. I thought of drinking a lot of caustic stuff that could really screw up but then I thought no I wouldn’t necessarily die and what a horrific way to die, that’s not right it would be more moral and honorable to just jump off a bridge so I went up on a bridge overlooking or at a train really high in my local town. I took a walk by myself my mom let me do that and I just jumped off the bridge, Yep I jumped off the bridge broke my neck and died and I prayed possibly to God before us. I might’ve been a Christian but the thing is I was I commit suicide because of that ad yeah I could be a real gay person who committed suicide because of that at because you decided to turn left Billings into Joe camel because you’re obsessed, you’re psychotically obsessed with the idea that he was gay.

Lacey and I are millennials we don’t understand why you’re so fucking obsessed with Lem. And honestly I can say that sick it’s perverted and I think there’s something wrong with all of you but being homosexual being a millennial at least while I was alive I don’t get it at all. I don’t get it he wasn’t a gay pioneer you fucking idiot I don’t see him that way at all I died before the book came out though, so maybe if I lived in 2008 and read the David Pitts novel because it’s a novel you fuck wad I might’ve been brainwashed but then again, maybe I wouldn’t have been because I’m a little too smart for that.

You know, lotta millennials have died at this point with high IQs, because you guys are too narcissistic to handle how intelligent we are to begin with. And I’m talking to the Boomers I’m talking to Jen ask you guys can handle our intelligence we weren’t on usually intelligent generation. And those of you who are left behind are dumb as fuck, which is how this whole shit show happened and yes, I’m looking at Chris Hayes. And yes I’m looking at Aaron and yes I’m looking at Joe. You guys are all morons.

I know I might not have been bullshitted by your bullshit book David and let me tell you there are some people who are alive who still think you’re a fucking idiot.

Why because the stupid promise it’s a stupid fuck it’s stupid David you’re obviously someone with a crush on him and you’re to narcissistic to get it. And I mean Lem, grow the fuck up.

No, I mean you got a crush on Lem’s and then you turned it into a novel basically so did Louis Bayard you guys are just fan Girling a straight man be embarrassed it’s embarrassing.

It’s not helpful to me and Millennial that’s why we didn’t vote for Hillary Clinton you’re probably someone who is floored by the fact that we didn’t elect Hillary to aren’t you Louis and aren’t you David Pitts you’re both Hillary Clinton supporters and you’re just like what the hell why do millennials not wanna go for Hillary Clinton I didn’t see that one coming. And then you’re jack ass and Allyson says oh it’s not because she sucks shit and we can’t stand her as millennials. Even if we have some respect for her it’s because Barack Obama was black.

No, we did not vote for Barack Obama because he was black rob of that we voted for him because he was the least shitty person running.

Don’t come on to me. Yeah, David pisses coming onto me down his subconscious I don’t want to fuck you. This isn’t about the bedroom. Oh my God.

Oh, I didn’t need to have lemon pillings is my role model thank you very fucking much. No I’m gay I’m not some little tweety Twatt, who likes tea cups. Listen, Lacey likes tea cups but she’s lazy come out her name is Lacey and she could have born in 1918 that is clearly a woman who would like tea cups.

So yeah, I’m not a little Tweety tweety who likes tea cups and lace doilies combine with sterling, silver and Wedgewood but I have a feeling that Lem did. I also could see him liking a morning part of Earl Grey, before he does painting to try to improve his watercolor ability and his understanding of the whole color spectrum from a rather British perspective. and I I am I actually know I mean she’s a girl and she’s straight and he’s straight to but why the fuck was he impersonating her? I genuinely think he thought he was Lacey and he he can’t be he’s a straight man but I think he was straight so I think he thought oh I must like to a tea cups and doilies and run walk this point golly if I take a walk, I should probably pose for the picture of very strategically so that I should take a good one because I have a feeling that my whole entire shape and form will be totally decimated by the camera. No I have a fuck, but I want to ask you if that bad I’m not a little tea party princess my God help me.

And frankly, I think you might have a crush on Lacey if you ever met her David Pitts if you’re even slightly bisexual.

And that’s the problem you think oh damn, how exotic no he’s not he’s straight impersonating his soulmates impersonating his twin flame, so no, I feel like stick ups do I have is in trying to find ways to take a pictures and cameras I mean take good pictures given the audacity of a camera to try to capture the human form.

He’s not a role model for me I didn’t need to worship him. I mean my gosh and that’s why is millennial I’m just like no if anything my role model would’ve probably been Sean Hayes on will and grace or will himself those were my role models and they’re not letting Billings know they’re just not neither one of them are really lame And so it’s like I don’t need lunch. I have willing grace and a lot of other people to to be frank but no I don’t. I didn’t eat lunch and that’s why I get confused. It’s like you guys didn’t need love either, so what how how to give it even know about him I think you guys are talking about him because you gossip or something and then he just sort of people to start hearing about him or David his pretended like it’s a big thing and it’s not. I think people might have someone knowing about him David, but not as much as you pretended.

Who did know about him people who were in the know people who were really obsessed with the Kennedys people who are super obsessed with the caddies who are super obsessed with an aesthetic that was liberal America, so people who worked on Madison Avenue who knew about the Kennedys and maybe write a biography about Jack in the 90s people like that or people who were in the know and some other way who knew friends of his is there’s really not a way you would have fixated on them otherwise I mean maybe you might’ve seen the stuff about Bobby and loving them in the media or you may have read the biography of the Kennedys in the early 80s but like when was Joe camel created that wasn’t yeah it was OK it was before but then See Lacey‘s note everything so then it evolved into love billings but was it originally maybe not the origins of Joe camel are very suspicious but I know almost for a fact that by the 90s or 80s he was Len Billings if he was left Billings before then. JP Kennedy was trying to kill lead Billings, potentially why because he hated him, why probably for being so snotty and straight an English and it’s possible that Joe thought it be funny for them to kill himself over his son Jack, which is not something Louis there I would’ve ever thought of right so the Kennedys better been trying to torture and kill and rape love Billings or gay men might have thought they were liberating Lem’s by turning him into a cartoon in the 80s or 90s or 70s. I mean no it’s total fucking bullshit he was straight and you can’t make someone gay that doesn’t exist.

No, it’s not possible you can’t affect other people. That way you can’t change someone that way that’s impossible we don’t have that kind of effect on each other. That’s not a thing and people who do things that are usually narcissistic sometimes or just peasants, but not always sometimes or narcissistic right why do I have to say it like that? I’m probably offending someone who’s narcissistic and thought that she could white change her husband you can’t do that that’s not how it works, if you were affected him it’s true sucks and then how are you affecting him is that he’s literally becoming one with you, but you’re not like changing his brain and how do you becoming one with him by having genuine, consensual sex and so he’s consenting to having sex with you and so are you with him, and so you’re affecting each other you’re becoming one but you’re not affecting him in a way where you’re actually altering who he is that’s not possible.

You could be in a way you could be altering who who he is but it’s to become one with you, but then you’re also becoming one with him and becoming like him but you can’t alter someone’s brain in the way that you think you can you can become one with them but you can’t alter their brain which is more evidence that line was straight and they never made love, because Jack never was like like he never was like them. He was never like them love might’ve influenced him, but he never became one with love, and that way and let him never became like Jack at all. The Kennedys influenced him, but he never actually became a Kennedy and he never became one with him. He really didn’t. If you objectively analyze him you can tell that he didn’t and if you think that he did your a fucking idiot and I don’t have enough patience for you right now. I’m sorry.

Anyway, I don’t get it. I don’t get why you guys fixated on them. I really don’t but it pisses me off because I am and I’m dead now because of it I genuinely you know and maybe it’s a mess how you’re better off dead you know God and me are the judge of that my parents are the judge of that I can see why you say that, but my family has really grieved me. It’s been horrific for them and I mean, Lacey would’ve enjoyed having me as a friend like be careful with what you’re saying because God did create me for a reason.” says a dead gay man who killed himself.

“ I’m just curious the people who hate Lacey MSNBC are you all Hillary Clinton supporters?” asks Norway.

“ I mean we’ve we’ve controlled and brainwashed Obama’s to attack her so does make much difference in a way because they went along with it and bullied her quite a few times but yes we are all Hillary Clinton supporters.” says MSNBC. “ I think to be honest, we might we might lie about it. But at the end of the day we would vote for Hillary.”

“ yeah I’m running because of Hillary. That’s the reason I ran.” says Bobby Kennedy Junior.

“ how is that Bobby?” asks Hillary.

“ Hillary you know I don’t know why you’re asking me this right now I had a weird conversation with Joe last night to.” says Bobby.

“ yeah yeah we did talk last night about Jennifer Summers. She’s hot.” says Joe.

“ oh, no, Joe I don’t know what you’re talking about but I don’t think we talked about Jennifer Summers wink wink.” says Bobby.

“ I know we talked we talked about we talked about we talked about her hot tits!” says Joe

“ and not really but that’s cool I don’t know maybe you were drunk last night no but Hillary I mean I’m writing because of you know what we’re arguing about that right now I don’t have the patience by self. I mean God Lacey‘s like I don’t have patience I don’t have patience all the fucking time. I don’t have patience right now to argue with you, Hillary I’m running because of you.” says Bobby Kennedy Junior.

“ bobby did you sell your soul to Satan in the 90s?” asks Hillary.

“ yeah and I I started having very little trouble with almost anything. Oh.” says Bobby.

“ I might have something similar Bobby why did you just tell everyone on this blog that that I made you run?” says Hillary.

“ I didn’t say that I said I ran because of you.” says Bobby.

“ oh, I know but I know it really happened.” says Hillary.

“ Hillary we’re not talking about Benghazi right now baby we’re talking about a lot of other stuff like how we really don’t know and I think that’s the thing that’s funny is that you and I are such fucking good friends and I don’t think people know that about us and that’s fine, so how about if we just let it go because I know you are the wind beneath my wings Hilary, you make me soar you are my Aphrodite you are my hero and I ran because you’re the bomb.” says Bobby fighting to control his spirit.

“ Bobby, I am struggling to right now just a bit. I don’t know what you’re talking about. I have no idea what you’re talking about Bobby I do not recall any conversation puppy. I don’t recall it.” says Hillary.

“ you’re so fucking funny I am just sitting through laughing because I don’t know what you’re even talking about except for the fact that you’re my inspiration.” says Bobby

“ bobby that’s not a nice thing to say I’m not your fucking inspiration.” says Hillary.

“That’s not what you said last night, Jennifer.” says Bobby

“ oh Bobby, Bobby Bobby Bobby why are we fighting week we should fight Bobby we shouldn’t be fighting.” says Hillary.

“ oh I know why were fighting Hillary it’s because you think that I am going to do it. I’m not gonna do that I’m not conceding that I’m not saying that.” says Bobby.

“we talked about this on You are going to have to except that there are limitations to certain things and we have to stop at some point when things start to change directions and courses and then that’s when you have to let go of the reality of the situation as you’d like it to be, and expect that there are tangential operations that have to be considered.” says Hillary.

“ oh, fuck you Iran, because she wanted me to potentially the Clinton machine had me run while I run to keep Joe Biden in the race.” says Bobby.

“ are you ran because you have an ego the size of Texas Bobby you ran because you’re an asshole you were supposed to run but at this point I can’t get you to stop running because you just keep building momentum if you win we’re in deep shit.” says Hillary.

“No, we’re not in deep shit I could run the country just fine!” says Bobby.

“ do you think you can run the country you can’t I was first lady for eight years I was a senator from New York and I was also in the state department and I know from experience Bobby that you don’t have what it takes you have no idea how to do it.” says Hillary.

“ you’re full of it you suck shit at all of those jobs and I know that because I’m not a dumbass like you.” says Bobby.

“ I am not a dumbass and let me tell you something if you run and you win your fuck up the entire country and now everyone will know if they read this blog that you’re a fucking imbecile. I do a shitty job writing things but I’m nowhere near as fucked up as shitty as you.“ says Hillary.

“ i’ll become president and I’ll show you your wish you voted for me 1 billion times you just watch.” says Bobby, on truth serums.

Later.

“You’ve turned me into a poltergeist.” says Lem.

“Oh! Because you’re in love with Bobby?” asks Hillary.

And at that Lem laughs maniacally. And then laughs maniacally again.

“So…you’re in love with money. You know. Lacey…is money too. …The Kennedys…are not. I’m not either. But…no. I’m not in love with Bobby. Or Jack. …I’m just not money the way Lacey is.” says Lem. “Louis is. I’m not.” says Lem.