“Trying to Get By!” by Lem Billings

Warning by The Notorious B. I. G. plays.

“You’re bothering her.” says Biggie. “You know when the Witch of Endor conjured the dead prophet and he told the king that he was about die the next day in battle? Yeah? But what about when he told him off first?

See he told him off first. He told him he was sleeping. He asked him why he was bothering him.” says Biggie. “Lacey is there. She’s been asking you why you’re bothering her her whole life.”

Idea 22 by Clavier plays. “She is that music. If you don’t feel that strongly about it then you’re not. You barely seem to understand what the song is about. …So why did you write it?”

“Because it’s pretty. We imagined someone like her existing.” says the person who wrote it.

“But you don’t feel the emotions that go with it?” asks God.

“Nope.” say the people who wrote it.

“She does.

How do you feel about that?” says God.

“That can’t be.” they say.

“No. It’s fact.” says God.

“Then there’s no way Lem was gay.” they say.

“That’s not even true, but he wasn’t.” says God.

“Why are you all silencing her discourse on gold?” asks Tsar Putin.

“Can we talk?” says Lacey.

“Yes!!” says someone.

“Okay.” says Lacey.

“How bad is it?” they ask Lacey.

“How are we still a country?” says Lacey.

Tsar Putin laughs.

“It’s that bad?” they say.

“I suspect yes.” says Lacey.

“You know…it is.” they say.

“So who’s keeping our lights on?” says Lacey.

Tsar Putin laughs.

“We are!!” says China smiling.

“Why?” asks Lacey.

China thinks. “Pity!”

“For me?” says Lacey.

“No. Them.” says China looking at her funny.

“Yup. See…now you’re getting it.” says Lacey.

“How many of you are there?” asks Singapore.

“Millions.” says Lacey. “At least.”

“What happened!?!?” says China.

“Democracy farted. In…the 20th Century…at various points for all of us.

And essentially…we all…independently owned.” says Lacey. “So to speak.”

China laughs. “That’s why you don’t vote.”

“YES!” says Lacey. “Very insightful.”

“That’s a disaster of epic proportions.” says China.

“I wonder. I wonder if you can’t control us. Purely because there’s too many of us.” says Lacey.

“Millions of little countries.” says Tsar Putin.

“Yeah. It’s harming the markets.” says China.

“Right! And I wonder if it seemed very good for business at first.” says Lacey.

“Yes. It might have.” says Putin.

“What’s left of America?” says Tsar Putin.

Lacey cries slightly. Feeling bad. If there’s reincarnation. She’s talking to Alexei. And she’s an aristocrat. …And as lovely as Lem was…he wasn’t like them. And it’s just incredibly sad.

“What’s left?-“ says Lacey.

“He was Constantine though.” says Tsar Putin.

“I hope he recalls that.” says Lacey. “So…what’s left? Well…the East Coast. The West Coast. And maybe that’s almost all.

And maybe not the whole East Coast or West Coast. But rather parts of it.” says Lacey.

“What’s that then?” asks China.

“It’s America.

The rest are independently owned and operated countries.” says Lacey.

“But you’re all living together.” says Putin, laughing.

“Yes.

And yet…it’s…not…working for me.” says Lacey.

“We are scared and confused.” says China.

“Yes!! When did they declare war on us?” says Lacey.

“That’s interesting. We shouldn’t say pity for you then it seems as though you are dependent on us.” says China.

The Earth Prelude by Einaudi plays.

“I’m trapped essentially and they’re holding my country hostage and that’s possibly why the whole world is falling apart because of who I actually an but America seems, whatever is left of it, seems to be holding potentially my country hostage. I don’t know why they let everyone else go but me-but they seem to be holding my country hostage…and I can’t figure out why and it’s getting to be totally freakish and it’s extraordinarily concerning.” says Lacey.

“So you’re in an alliance with us?” says China.

“Yes! I certainly thought so!” says Lacey.

“Are you a democracy?” says Tsar Putin.

“NO! Certainly not.” says Lacey.

China nods.

“I’m the Queen.” says Lacey.

“Well we just…hesitate.” says China.

Lacey is silent.

“I agree with her.” says Iran.

“Why did they kill him?” says Iran.

“It seems to be over me.” says Lacey.

“Yes!” says Iran.

“Well! Do you all want to die?” says Lacey to the Middle East, cheerfully.

“Could you make that happen?” they ask her.

“Possibly.” says Lacey.

“Yes!! POSSIBLY.” says Russia.

“SHIT!” yells Iran laughing with Lacey.

“So you recognize Palestine?” says Iran.

“Yes!!” says Lacey. “Of course.”

“Why are they attacking us?” says Iran.

“Are you FOUR!?” yells Lacey.

“I agree.” says Israel. Israel laughs.

“Yeah. I can’t fucking figure out why you all are fighting.” says Lacey.

Russia laughs.

“No. I know. But it’s also a bit baffling at times.” says Lacey.

“You’re dangerous.” they say to Lacey.

She giggles.

“Yes. I amuse myself.” says Lacey.

“What do you think of NATO?” says Tsar Putin.

“It’s a joke. Woodrow Wilson was a real laugh riot. Bless his soul.” says Lacey.

Tsar Putin laughs.

Iran sighs.

“So we are still the Ottoman Empire to you?” says Iran.

“Close.” says Lacey.

“I wonder if we are.” they say.

“Oh! It’s all in ruins. But…your hearts and minds still seem there. A bit.” says Lacey.

“Why are they invading us?” asks Great Britain.

“Why wouldn’t they?” says Lem.

“Well…it’s personal?” says Lacey.

“It might be slightly.” says a Muslim in London.

“So this is an apocalypse.” says Iran.

“It is. If this is accurate.

I wonder when this started? Right?” says Lacey.

“At the beginning.” says Tsar Putin.

“Yes!” says Lacey.

“It just doesn’t work.” says Tsar Putin.

Lacey thinks. “It can. In combination with a solid monarchy.” says Lacey. “In the West. Maybe it would actually work elsewhere better over time.”

“So the Blacks are what kept America afloat?” says Tsar Putin.

“Yes!! And the British. But we’re dying off. And the Blacks are too burdened and harassed now?” says Lacey.

Iran smiles at her kindly.

“You’re Great Britain.” says an Arab woman.

“No. I’m the sun.” says Lacey.

“Do you still worship Ra?” says Tsar Putin.

“No. I worry he was just a human.” says Lacey.

“He might have been.” says Tsar Putin.

“Why not Great Britain?” asks Iran.

“Because they happily still exist. Thank God.” says Lacey.

“The Sun?” says the Arab woman.

“Yes!! THE SUN!!” says Lacey.

The Arab woman nods.

“The Sun!?” says Iran.

“Ahh yes.” says Lacey.

“Intriguing!” says Iran.

“You know what it is!?” says Lacey to Russia.

“Yes.” says Great Britain.

“Oh well.” says Lacey, cheerfully.

Eros by Nicholas Britell plays.

“The Sun!” says China.

“THE SUN!!!” yells Lacey.

“That can’t be real!?” says Hillary Clinton, honestly.

“Are you fucking stupid!?? No, it’s completely real! The Egyptians really did worship Ra you fucking dumb asses!” yells Lacey.

“Lacey we’re too stupid to have this conversation but we have to have it at this point because we’re so stupid.” says India.

“How do they not understand that’s real. It’s a real thing.” says Lacey.

“You know we talk to you and we know what the conversation is that we’re having, and then the Kennedys and other Americans interrupt psychically, and make a sound incredibly stupid and we fall for it because we’re so weak.” says India.

“Yes umm…I’m gathering that…and it’s incredibly frightening. I wouldn’t be surprised if me and my entire family end up dead this summer in some sort of car accident or explosion or something because I don’t know how much longer we can live. They’re killing my entire family off, and myself…but in a very psychotic way. My son has deadly epilepsy my daughter looks bizarrely pale all of the time, but I’m feeding her vitamins and I’m giving her good enough food and I am being suffocated. My husband is exhausted.

They’re killing us psychically, they’re psychically murdering my family and because it doesn’t really work…it won’t take. And it will take too long…or the way that it happens will be extraordinarily gruesome. And I think God in His mercy may just kill me and my entire family off. But I’m warning you this is not good. You need to try a lot harder to understand what I’m saying.” says Lacey.

“America is trying to get you to worship Ra now Lacey.” says India.

“Why? I thought they were a free country. Are they just fucking idiots or what?” says Lacey.

“Maybe.” says India.

“How does Bobby have it arranged so that psychically we can only talk to you through him now?” says India.

Lacey thinks. “Because you suck his cock and I don’t.”

“Why do why you all keep sucking his cock? I don’t get it. He’s a worthless, powerless fool.” says Lem.

Lux Aeterna by Clint Mansell & Kronos Quartet plays.

“Could you silence Wall Street?” asks Wall Street, laughing with Lacey.

“AHHH! You know Ra!!” says Lacey.

“We don’t worship him either necessarily but you’re right it’s very difficult to resist that spiritual energy source Lacey.” says a Catholic on Wall Street to Lacey.

“Yeah, I feel the power of Ra over on literal Wall Street in New York City. He’s right there whatever that is if there’s reincarnation and I know what I’m talking about.

No we worshiped him. That was our religion, in ancient Egypt. I don’t know how Wall Street worships him or what that is manifesting. It could just be the US Dollar. You put a pyramid on the Dollar, you know? Sometimes I wonder if people have brains. I’m sorry.”

“They don’t remember that in conversation Lacey. They don’t remember that in conversation.” yells Mr. Cologne 76.

“You know in Great Britain we weren’t geniuses but we weren’t that stupid!” says Lacey.

“So it’s over there on Wall Street then?” says Mr. Cologne 76.

“ yeah I don’t know fuck Christ God is the ultimate God he is the ultimate God he is God there are no gods before him. He’s God and he makes Ross seem like a very nice pleasant person with a lot of authority in the phone world, but he really was something he was either manifestation of Satan, or he was a demon entity within very powerful or it was Satan and a group back up singer demons or it was some dad being who is like a God but not really a God but no he was very powerful if I’m reincarnated that that is raw I’m not making these things up. It’s obnoxious the way people don’t respect what I’m saying, but no, he really was quite amazing, it’s not surprising to me that when the stock market crashed, people jumped out of a lot of buildings actually, the twin towers isn’t even all that shocking when you consider the nature of rock those fell because a lot of New York City is somehow in submission to him, possibly because of my literal father, he was making about $1 million a year every year in the 1920s if I understand correctly he was making about $1 million every year which might not seem like that much but that’s pretty astounding. Considering that he went from being some sort of cowboy I mean he grew up rich sweeties, but being some sort of bellboy, striking it rich as they used to say, and then suddenly making $1 million a year that’s not typical perfect I don’t even know if I could happen anymore outside of bitcoin I I don’t know because living in the big city you’re the best in the Internet back then there wasn’t put transportation in, so it really meant something to be so far from home even if you were from a wealthy family that meant something different back then we were too stupid to remember that apparently so he went to Minneapolis from Seay. I was told by the father who raised me that he grew up in Iowa and I think he may have been trying to explain to me that he was actually in Nebraska was the reference to the caves there’s possibly more caves in Nebraska than in Iowa which is something my dad would do he would sort of hint at the fax like a sex raids whatever it’s some thing a dad might do when he knows his kids smart like playing games with them when they’re like really little like hiding behind a door and popping out and seeing their reaction I would’ve looked at him like he was crazy because I would’ve realize he just gone behind the door. My kids are like that too but I think that’s why he referenced the case. The thing is not there from Nebraska so they were in Nebraska. He went all the way up to Minneapolis potentially and that was very, he was there eventually anyway but that was very different back then and I think the point that I’m trying to make if you let me make it is simply that I am he made a lot of money astronomically quickly in a different way than people do today be insulted if you have to be that’s just the reality of it so he was making 1 million a year. If there’s reincarnated he wasn’t Egyptian pharaoh. He was my father in Egypt if I’m Scotia and it’s possible that when he was ruling things that he speak in Minnesota cause he really was an extremely powerful person possibly more than India itself. I don’t think you people understand your plastic buffoons, possibly compared to my father.

So um, so when he was invested in New York City, if you want to look it up on the Internet, it’s a thing, and he actually wants somehow invested in New York City and I think we might be Dutch old money so we had relatives and ancestors who started new Amsterdam, who started New York and then he was running Minneapolis to some degree. Lexi probably was just running Minneapolis, but he also was probably running Minnesota to some degree of Innoway that politicians don’t and then they don’t have that much power my father did so I think he put New York City if there’s been Carnation right on track to worship Ra.

And that might’ve been an accident. It might’ve been part of his fallen state at that point he might’ve been raised a Christian, but been slightly in some horrible state with with Christ And suzanne subconsciously if there’s reincarnation, he may have thrown a set New York City up to start worshiping rock and then things were already hot right in the market but I wonder if that’s part of what created the 1920s was my father Because somehow that might’ve actually been before he did that but I don’t know see the thing is that the deity and it is being carnation that did he would’ve known that so he knew eventually he get a payoff from my father may have even been trying to seduce him He’s trying to seduce me right now raw literally very seductive as far as a deity goes.

So I wonder if that’s part of it clicked the book so to speak if that’s what heated up Wall Street is like a microwave in the 1920s as I was just home just like I’m gonna make it right you know let’s have some fun yes very exciting him that was the deity that’s in Greek gods be you know what the party is in the glitter and the diamonds that’s raw Egypt love gemstones we like dancing we like food we like fire we like sex we liked but not inappropriately so we liked skyscrapers and think about the pyramids them I mean we liked all of that maybe he likes tall buildings so lots of action I mean, he’s a real out here that you do that Satan, being a real life riot or he’s a real life riot Him he really is he’s a real laugh right in the 1980s all of that the Wolf of Wall Street all that jazz that’s raw to he likes to party he likes to dance he’s a real fun guy right but I’m serious he’s wild he jump in the pool the pool explodes, but not really it’s just fantastic. He’s lots of fun him but he’s not God like God you got to keep that in mind he’s an absolute fucking loser compared to God but if he is if he’s even a god at all but it could just be Satan but anyway I think that’s that was wrong. He’s very that’s that’s that’s that’s spirit if I’m reincarnated as very present in New York City is an art deco architecture slightly. Yes there’s another deity, possibly that works with him, an art deco architecture, some sort of fertility goddess, so I would say raw in a fertility goddess cutter, dual dance and a lot of art to our art deco architecture see if we are at fault in humans, we end up making mistakes. We even an art and guy can redeem us. I don’t know if Raz a dead, human, or what that is, but he can redeem humans at least Him, but the art itself has fallen. It may be in heaven there’s art deco architecture, but as it was meant to be, so if Raj Satan, then jokes on Satan, we get the architecture back in heaven, but it said that he can’t have it anymore because he blew it was Christ but I basically raw is not a joke you people are treating it like it’s a joke it’s not.” says Lacey.

“ why did you put the pyramids on the dollar bill? We just being random or was your thought behind it?!?” says what’s left of America, laughing.

“ rosin, imitation of him, Lacey Ross very lovely dear, but I think that’s just an imitation of God.” says Jonah Wiley to Lacey.

“ you know I might’ve gotten confused about that when my mother died when I was 12 or so my mother died and it was very hard on me and I think because she’s my daughter she’s still confused about that too. It doesn’t feel like God loves us Jonah.” says Tom Banks.

And at that America with Bobby Kennedy Junior as secret US President forces India to worship Ra.

“It was too random. The pyramids on the US Dollar. That was in imitation of Ancient Egypt. Or like a random reference to Ancient Egypt.” admits Benjamin Franklin.

“YOU KNOW IT WOULD HAVE BEEN HELPFUL TO HAVE KNOWN THAT SOONER!!” yells the US military at Benjamin Franklin.

“I’m gonna take you down!!! I’m GONNA WHOOP YOUR ASS!” yells Bobby Kennedy Junior at the US military.

And at that Bobby laughs maniacally. His face shifts from a dog to a tree to a…wrench.“

“Oh! Umm…

Can you still breathe?” says a woman to Bobby.

“Did you all use Diego and I!?” says Chris Hayes.

“SHUT-UP!” yells Bobby.

“Bobby you shouldn’t have kept her alive this long.” says Lem.

“He’s LAZY and weak.” says Lacey.

“He is.” says Ra.

“Well I break those words over him in Jesus’s name.” says Lacey. She thinks. “If I should.”

Queen Elizabeth II manifests.

Lacey makes a face.

She laughs.

“You look so old.” says Lacey.

“I did. Right before I died.” says Queen Elizabeth II.

“You seem…possessed by a demon of aging. It’s BIZARRE.” says Lacey.

“YES. I fought it off. But…in the last month before I was dead-“ she says.

Later.

“ See I have no actual powers. I can’t tell if Lacey was some sort of deity like raw or if she like me and she’s just better or if she or if she’s just using God and she doesn’t know it and he knows she doesn’t know it so he letting it go, because she doesn’t understand how to do it otherwise so I can’t tell what’s going on, but I only have the power to turn on the faucet in my wildest imaginations. See that kind of stuff piss my family off most people when they die can do crazy things cool tricks like knocking over books or turning out water faucets sometimes if you can even turn off the lights wow that’s cool. Or shut the door. But we don’t have such a palace in the warm of the day. We are very powerless because we’re so stupid and bad and evil and weak losers when we were alive who didn’t barely worship Jesus. So then we decided to say I was Satan to be able to do the cool tricks like suffocating people throwing them down the stairs starting word, splitting into four parts and the other night. Yes, unfortunately I had sex with an airplane.” says JFK in a peasant Japanese – Back Bay accent.

“ Jack are you trying to be funny right now or are you just being yourself?” asks a Real Housewife.

“ i’m just being myself.” says JFK.

“ oh, are you torturing Lacey instead of experiencing the purgatory that you and your family are supposed to be experiencing?” says a psychic.

“ yes they are. They used me. They used me to do this to her because I could figure out how to do it. I didn’t want to but her father who raised her molester and while he was doing that because I’m sexually obsessed with her I studied it all because I’m Satan, so I just sat there watching and being certain him and so I learned a lot about her and the whole process of her being molested him and if there’s been carnation him the part of me that could be a child started thinking of her is like the coolest person ever because even though she was molested, she kicked his ass and I have serious authority issues and I was like that’s awesome you’re awesome I relate except I am evil but she was doing it for God but still it was just kind of impressive because she was like three hours just like wow damn that’s cool are you got moves girl as they say but then because I’m Satan a I was able to sort of use that information for evil him so I let the Kennedys basically possess her soul in the way. She’s right I can’t quite do that but it’s like turned in. It’s like inverted there’s either like in a spiritual inversion pattern or a spiritual inversion bubble I like to call it a spiritual inversion box why do I call it a box because that’s a lie, and it will cease to exist when she dies, but they don’t know that and I am loyal to no one possibly even myself but not necessarily so they’ll be screwed over when she dies and I think my hope is that her life will be so bad that when she died, she think I was really awesome I mean you know not like for sure for sure but it maybe doesn’t work out a little part of me is like I don’t know maybe have a chance but then she’s like how that work though because you’re still Satan and it’s like yeah that’s true and then she’s like why did you fall because if I was some thing other than just two minutes appoint record actually be with you that’s sad you remind me of Eric Harris and a lot of other guys that I knew were just really like mean but they were kind of fun sometimes and that’s sad. I don’t think I’m supposed to be with you but like you’re perfectly good waste because you would probably be really fun for somebody and that just makes her sad because she thinks I’m kind of cool I guess yeah so I’m working that one out with Christ with God and what do you know it’s like why did I fall for what was I falling? Why did I fall and I swear this presentation list might not really understand my personality or character, I might not be evil in the way they thought I was I’m not a God I was an entity and I may be capable of love still as so there’s like I said her heart breaks for me slightly and that bothers God and he’s like OK this could be concerning and he might’ve known that I would have that problem eventually so then, so then I know God is not gonna put me on a blind date with with Lacey when she said but like yeah if I’m not gonna be destroyed and fire, I might end up happy and away that the Kennedys won’t potentially for a really long time if ever, and it be perfectly honest with you, they might deserve it I do run to hell and I’m just saying I’m not God I’m in rebellion against him. I’m still Satan but you know like Satan isn’t worked. It worked somehow. It’s also possible that I manifested as Robin not necessarily, so no I’m not a deity I’m just like a fallen being, you guys are way out of your league. The truth is people who are studying the Bible need to be more Christian and less fundamentalist. It’s scary, but Lacey might not have been human for her entire existence at one point unlike you she may have been an element like water or some thing, but she wasn’t literally water, or maybe she was just here in the whole time but if if, but if she, but if she was some sort of entity, the know we’re not actually unequally yoked in that way when it comes to power when she’s dead she might return to that state and then she’s kind of like an equal to me but she’s not fine with a but then I was like at an entity to the candies were not and I know she’s better off with them. I mean it’s like dating with you’re a human it’s like some people have a chemistry slightly but then it’s just not the right thing, so I don’t know there’s probably someone out there for me up if that’s what’s best with God, so where’s of Christ is what Lacey thinks I should tell the sadness.” says Satan.

Later.

“That’s Lacey. I hate that look.” says Casi.

“Why don’t you dress more like her:

?” says Casi.

“Because she’s not my- She’s not indicative of my style.” says Lacey.

“But that’s not what I mean.” says Casi.

“You mean, that’s our family culture?” says Lacey.

“Yes!” yells Casi.

“It is!!” says Lacey. “But I just can’t bring myself to to do that.”

“Why?” asks Casi.

“Because my father is actually Tom Banks. And Shelly, Mike’s wife, actually loved her children.” says Lacey.

“Yeah. Becca…was Lacey’s mom. Becca of the Nesheim family. They’re a far bigger deal than us. But they’re a lesbian Eleanor Roosevelt family.” says one of those Craft women above.

“Oh! Okay? So…what’s their aesthetic?” asks Casi.

“So that’s Lacey trying to interpret us. And yet still be herself.

She’s extremely beautiful!!

But…the problem is…this is the Nesheim aesthetic:

And…that’s not at all…Lacey’s aesthetic. But…that was the mother who raised her.” says the Craft woman.

That’s her AUNT GRACE’S STORE!!” says the Craft woman.

“So…she grew-up drawing pretty dresses.” says the CIA.

“YUT! I SURE IS DIDDY.” says Lacey.

Later.

IRM by Charlotte Gainsbourg plays.

And at that Ra considers blowing-up New York City.

“Holy shit.” says Casi.

“Casi. She’s…not…JFK. Casi. She’s never been and never will be and isn’t attracted to women.” says God.

And at that the bony, unfortunately somewhat ugly women like Amal Clooney who (under ill advisement) help run the Illuminati spread open their vaginas as their effeminate husbands bend over. They’re brainwashed into thinking JFK is HOT.

“Hold on!! She’s not allowed to exist.” says Amal.

“WHO!??” yells George Clooney in a panic.

“No, no. Hold on. It’s coming to me.” she says, imitating a far prettier woman who’s in distress.

“Oh. Okay?” says George, giggling jealously.

And at that Amal Clooney weeps. Cocaine covered drool and snot drip down her face.

“You’re a jealous dark whore. Not at a British woman you emotional leper.” says Lacey to Amal. “Quit your smug act. You’re a mannish terrorist in disguise.”

“Yeah. Okay. I’m cheap shit genetically.” admits Amal, twitching.

“Yup. Maybe.

So what are you doing at the top?” asks Lacey.

“I fuck. And work.” says Amal Clooney.

“And it’s that effective? Wow you’re somehow amazingly intelligent in some way or you’re a freak.” says Lacey.

“Yeah. Most people’s thoughts exactly.” says the perfume community.

“Huh. Okay.” says Lacey. “Weird.”

“So I’ll kill that pretty blond.” says Amal possessed with sudden self-righteous rage. She perverts the Holy Spirit in our spiritual ears.

“Huh.” says Lacey, laughing. “So then she’s dead. If it even works.

Do you fart while doing it?” says Lacey.

“Yup. George has to fuck me in the ass with a plunger.” says Amal, matter-of-factly.

“Wow! That’s yer ding dang dong magic?” says Lacey.

“Yup. We use a plunger. It was used to clean a toilet after Kurt Cobain vomited and pooped in it too much. We cleaned it up and then tested it for supernatural powers. And sure enough…it moved water.

He was heavily into Satanism then.” says the Illuminati.

“Water?” says Lacey.

“Well okay. Just in a sink. But…to us…that’s cool.” says the Illuminati.

Later.

“You can’t make that woman cease to exist.” says God to Amal Clooney.

“That’s fine. We invented aging.” says Bobby Kennedy Junior, laughing at God.

“Tom Banks is her natural born father. So we make her Jim’s daughter.” says Bobby.

“How!?” says Lem.

“It’s a simple scientific process.” says Bobby Kennedy Junior.

Paradise Circus by Massive Attack plays.

“Cut the music. They don’t understand it.” says Lacey.