“Drugs” by Chris Farley

(July 22nd, 2024 – Afternoon)

Lacey is terrified of drugs.

*I laugh*

I mean…terrified.

…Lacey…when you read about people like me…and find out how we died…what scares you? Lacey just read about how I died after seeing a post about my apartment in Chicago. …I’ve…possibly spoken to her from my apartment before. So…she got creeped-out. And…now we’re writing this.

“It’s like…going to literal Hell almost.” says Lacey.

That’s not necessarily how I or Lem experienced it. …Why do you think that is?

No“You’re naïve.” says Lacey.

And you’re actually right. …I experienced that when I died. …It’s not…cool.

“I experience that when I even think of drugs.” says Lacey.

…We didn’t know. You’re right. …The drugs were affecting our spirits not just our bodies. …You know…people say things like that in drug rehab but you don’t fully understand it until you’re dead.

So…you’re afraid you’re going to die of drugs.

“Yes.” says Lacey.

“And it’s an irrational fear. And you know that. But they scare you.” says Chris Farley. “Just that much.”

“Yes.” says Lacey.

What do you feel like you physically recall?

“Feeling really hot. Like…I was melting.” says Lacey.

Wow.

What else?

“Like I was being beaten-up. In my soul. Inside of me. By a gang of bullies.” says Lacey.

How many men?

“Five?” says Lacey.

Like they were beating you. Punching you?

“Yes.” says Lacey.

So…you’ve been brutalized…because of what Lem did. And you feel…like you were him?

“I’ve felt that since I was ten.” says Lacey.

Yeah. You had a nightmare that you were dying a drug overdose…but it was from cigarettes. When you were ten.

“Yes. That nightmare was the scariest experience of my life second only to being molested.” says Lacey.

When you woke up…you felt like you’d done drugs.

“Yes.” says Lacey.

And engaged in some sort of…self harm, sexually.

“Yes.” says Lacey.

So…you experienced the feeling that you had done drugs? Like it really happened to you.

“Yes.” says Lacey.

And you felt defiled…and guilty…and…deeply ashamed.

“Yes.” says Lacey.

…And that was all because you were…from God’s perspective…in a sexual and romantic relationship with Lem. And Satan knew that. And decided to use that to harass and confuse and torment you out of time…before you knew with your human mind…stuck in time…what was going on.

“Possibly.” says Lacey.

What was that sexual defilement?

Glassworks: VI. Closing by Philip Glass plays.

“When he was…willingly deciding to have sex with men. …But in my dream it felt like I had done it. …Because I’ve become one with him. …And then I had to make it make sense with my personality and it was…Hellish.” says Lacey.

Yeah.

Because you’d not make that mistake. …But I think…that dream made you think you would.

“Yeah.” says Lacey. “It was like I’d lost my mind. It was terrifying.”

Yeah. …And now you feel like everyone is calling you Jack Kennedy. Which could be you reading living people…or it could be you…hearing demons…or…

“Exactly. I don’t know.” says Lacey.

Yeah. They’re putting you through excruciating pain. And you don’t deserve any of it.

I think what hurts is that they’re…possibly Irish. I’m Irish. And I don’t want to be associated with any of that.

A Sparrow Alighted Upon Our Shoulder by Johann Jóhannsson plays.

That’s not me. I hate this. …You don’t deserve any of it.

Ahh…so…who are you really?

You’d never be molested by a woman and then be stuck being gay. Why?

And I know you fully understand it. …The concept isn’t lost on you. But why would you never…make that mistake. …Because I don’t think you know that part of yourself. I think that was stolen from you in that dream. …And I’m dead. Okay? I know things living people don’t. …So…don’t listen to the ideas…you have forming in your head of people telling you that…losing a part of self-awareness in a dream is impossible. …IT’S NOT.

What makes it impossible you could have made that mistake?

“Dammit. That’s about me. …Because Jack was an addict and I’d never have been.” says Joe Kennedy Junior. “You tormented her out of jealousy…over even that!??” yells Joe at Jack.

Lacey thinks.

“Because I’m…defiant.” says Lacey. “Of control.” She thinks. “Not authority. I just hate being…controlled.”

By anyone other than God.

“Yes.” says Lacey. “Lem could. But…he’s rare.”

So…you’re insidiously impossible to control. Like genuinely impossible.

“Yes.” says Lacey.

Like water.

“Yes.” says Lacey.

Yeah. …He’s the cold and you’re water. …If there’s reincarnation. But maybe there isn’t.

…So…you’d have reached out and tried heterosexuality. Even if you were afraid of hurting men?

“I’d have found just the right man.” says Lacey.

That’s not something Lem does. He’s…nice.

Lacey thinks.

But you’re not mean. You’re just calculating. …And that’s fine, actually. You’re actually not as smart as him…in every way…but…you’re more analytical. And you’re smarter than most people. And…no. You’d not make the same mistakes. …Actually…what mistakes have you made?

“I wish I knew!” Lacey says in frustration.

I know. You love finding errors. Even in yourself. …What mistakes have you made?

“I don’t know.” says Lacey. “Maybe not dating Joel.”

Our Reflection by Max Richter plays.

“YEAH! …But…it’s a real mistake.

No…Lem…would have dated Joel.

What’s funny is that…if there’s an Illuminati you dated Donald Trump Junior. …And that’s not something most people can say. …And if you’d dated Joel that would have never happened. …And that’s over obviously. And has been for years. But…wow. What a thing. …And PUTIN. …Also wow. …And honestly Lacey that’s not what your enemies anticipated. Because…instead of actually getting to know you…they assumed you’d be like them. Or like Lem. And you’re not. …You’re scary.

“I don’t feel like that’s scary.” says Lacey.

Yeah! But most people aren’t…former romantic partners of Tsars.

“Is there even an Illuminati?” asks Lacey.

Yeah.

They really fucked themselves over with this one. WOW!

And I mean that about whoever it is. So.

Eyes Shut – Nocturne in C Minor by Ólafur Arnalds & Alice Sara Ott plays.

“Lacey. Why are we bound to the old British crown?” asks a Rockefeller.

SHE CANNOT ANSWER THAT!!! *I yell.* YOU DUMBASSES!!

The song plays.

You can’t expect her to explain in your terms in your way. She’s not ruled by you. GET OVER IT!!

Kick Kennedy rocks herself back and forth and cries in narcissistic anguish and real anguish both. Peter Thiel apologizes. Tucker Carlson looks annoyed.

Yeah! And she doesn’t even know if this real!!!

It’s RIDICULOUS!

“I wasn’t gay. I wasn’t attracted to men.” says Lem.

I know.

…But that’s hard for some beings to accept.

Okay…so…

Lacey you’d never think you were a lesbian. Or do drugs. Or alcohol. And the latter is good. Obviously. But…you’re still human. So…your mistake is to accidentally fall in love with Tsars. And the sons of historic US Presidents. Like Elliott and Don Jr.. …*I laugh* …*I laugh again* I’m sorry, excuse me.

Okay…because…*I laugh.*

A moment later.

I’m sorry. …So…from my perspective…it’s genuinely good dark comedy. …I mean…you’ve got you and Lem madly in love…and he’s actually straight but dude thinks he’s gay so he’s out…bringing the gay. …And…that’s really disturbing because he’s not actually gay and I know that and it’s…really disturbing… But…you know you look at his childhood and the abuse and his intelligence and think, “Yeah okay. He’s just…messed-up. He’s just…confused.” …And you realize how stupid life can be for lots of people…because you’re dead and it all makes sense. Right? Lots of people had bad lives in some creepy way at times. But…you know it makes sense because God allows you to see what’s really going on. And so…you think, “It’s bad. But dude had some good memories in life. …And he gets love. Just on the other side. Right? …And that’s not totally uncommon. …That happens.” …But…this is bad.

Hypnotize by The Notorious B. I. G. plays.

You…make it rain. If there’s reincarnation, literally.

And…

I listen to the music.

I mean…it’s like picking a fight with Bloody Mary. If there’s reincarnation. Except you’re a sweet and empathetic person.

And…in eight years- *I laugh.*

The song plays.

If you found the Illuminati their reaction to you…is ending the world. For REAL.

The song ends.

Kick In The Door by The Notorious B. I. G. plays.

I gotta talk about my life as I see it. Yeah. Ha!

The song plays.

They took away the only thing that controls you in the Fallen World and demanded he become gay. *I laugh* Not just homosexual. GAY. Always. So…GAY.

“Oh! He’s so happy.” says I, mocking Rose Fitzgerald Kennedy. No. …He wasn’t. He wasn’t really a happy man. That was her blind narcissism talking. …I seemed happy too. And then I died fat, alone and incapable of being sober. At 33. People are DUMB.

Life is…sad. If you’re constantly laughing…it’s suspicious. It’s not a sign of…glaringly good mental health.

1. The (shocking) Pandemic

2. Two failed US Presidencies

3. A Banking Crisis (that was called off last minute)

4. A War (Possibly World War III)

…That’s a lot.

And you’re not done defending yourself if they’re not done attacking you. Riots. Insurrections, indirectly. …Lacey you control the whole world to some degree, if you’re Scotia. And you’re a rare beauty. …And MSNBC and now Peter Thiel are just obsessed with discrediting you. And making Lem attracted to men…in your mind…and making you feel like shit. How fucking dumb is Peter Thiel?!? …There’s NOTHING that really suggests Lem was gay for certain. And MSNBC is falling into total decay now itself. They’ll be canceled as a network within ten years. They’ve destroyed themselves. And it’s not over. It’s Hell for them if these people can’t let you exist as yourself and so they genuinely reject Christ.

“But that’s gotta be mental illness or retardation.” says Lacey seriously.

Someone laughs. Not Chris.

I’m just…wondering when they stop. It’s shocking. For real! …I cannot believe they don’t get it. …I mean…you had a relationship with Putin. If they exist. The Illuminati. …You’re hot. And…unusually intelligent. And…

“But it was all on the astral plane!” says Chris Hayes.

Yeah. But they all experienced it. If there’s an Illuminati. …They all experienced something real, Chris. How do you not get that concept?

Chris Hayes looks offended but thoughtful.

“But it’s like fan fiction! …It’s not real.” he says.

I nod. Yeah…but…so what? …It’s like sexting. Or those sex phone numbers. Remember those? Sometimes…those things can be…real. And what you do in meetings is real too. Come on. Why take this conversation seriously?

“Because you’re a ghost.” says Chris.

Nah! I’m not. I’m fan fiction. Our souls are made of fan fiction. Ghosts are fan fiction, Chris. So are aliens. That’s all just…fan fiction.

What’s Beef by The Notorious B. I. G. plays.

“Why is she angry?” says MSNBC, acting cool and confused and superior.

“Because you’ve been trying to kill her since 2016.” says Lem.

“Yeah!” says Tsar Putin.

“Yeah. Because…I’m powerful. And when you mess with me…I make you cry.” says the head of MSNBC.

Oh! You’re the reason we’re at war?

“Yeah.” says the man.

Yup. You caused it with your massive, constantly hurt egos and profound ignorance and stupidity.

“We’re not all that dumb.” says a woman at MSNBC.

“Great.” says Michael Rockefeller.

Corey who died laughs.

“This isn’t real!” yells a Biden Liberal, as they do often to Lacey.

“Oh! The war with Russia isn’t real!!?” says Lem.

They don’t have a comeback.

“Peter protects us. Because he’s gay.” says a woman at MSNBC to Lacey.

Lacey stares at her. Analytically. Coolly. Kindly.

“I don’t think Lem was gay.” says Peter, stupidly.

“Yeah right!” says Lacey. “Can it, shawty.”

“He’s one of us.” says Donald Junior.

“No. He’s not. He’s gay.” says Lacey. “They don’t have individual brains. Not since the late 1800’s. They’re a sick cult.”

“I have one.” says Anderson Cooper.

“Barely.” says Lacey.

“So you think we literally can barely think for ourselves.” says a gay man.

“Yeah. That’s what I said.” says Lacey.

“You hate feminism for that reason too.” says Anderson Cooper.

“Oh goodness yes. It’s disgusting for that reason.” says Lacey. “People are often worthless in that way. In my experience. It’s rare anyone cares that much.”

“You care. …Other people do too. But…most people aren’t that able to understand each other or care that much.” says Putin.

“Yes.” says Lacey.

“Lacey as you write this you have frequent distractions.” says a woman at MSNBC. “Do I care? As a feminist?”

“No!” says Lacey.

Niggas Bleed plays.

“You don’t think it’s real.” she says.

“Nah. It’s bullshit. And she’s right. Whatchu want? For real. Because I’m losing patience.” says Mary Richardson, who hung herself.

“You aren’t real.” says Peter.

“I can’t stand you.” says Mary.

He laughs like it’s a compliment.

“I don’t look gay!! I look just as straight as Lem!” he says.

“Oh my GOD!!” says Chris Hayes. “Is that what this about today!??”

“Yup!” says Chris Farley. “She’s got a lot of haters.”

“You actually look gay.” says Lacey to Peter Thiel.

“Where?” he says like he’s God.

“I told you where.” says Lacey.

“Then why don’t you believe yourself, you stupid?” he says like a stupid English peasant missing teeth, working on farm with a literal hoe.

“Because it’s complicated.” says Lacey.

“I seem like a stupid peasant to you.” he says.

“Yes, Peter.” says Lacey. “Peter, it’s complicated.”

“How is it complicated!?” he says.

“Because there is something similar. …Oh! You know who else has that vibe?” says Lacey. “Aaron. Aaron Eckhart. Thee Aaron. Not Erin. Not the evil Irish.”

Peter looks embarrassed. “No! It’s something else!!!” he says.

“Not…necessarily.” says Lacey.

“YES NECESSARILY!!” yells MSNBC like they’re incredibly patient with her idiocy.

“Dammit, I want to die.” say 4 billion people in their spirits.

You’re Nobody by Biggie plays.

“Yeah. Death. Sounds…nice.” say 2 billion living people.

“Peter why are we so sure what she’s thinking is stupid?” says Aaron trying to be helpful.

“Would you sleep with her? She’s ugly!” he says.

“If I was single?” he says. “Yeah?”

“Peter. You sound…creepy insecure.” says a reader.

“Hopefully I’m just tormented by demons and ghosts. And I didn’t discover the Illuminati.” says Lacey.

Aaron Eckhart laughs in agreement with her.

“Lacey! Why are you hesitating?” says the BBC.

Lacey thinks.

“Because it’s unclear what it is. It might be a set of totally unrelated traits to homosexuality.” says Lacey.

“What is it?” asks the BBC.

“A manner.” says Lacey.

“But it’s unclear it’s homosexuality.” says the BBC.

“Yes!” says Lacey.

Anderson Cooper laughs. Smiles. “Lacey. Do I have that same vibe? As Lem?”

“Oh! Good question!” says Lacey. “Although that might not prove anything either.”

“She’s right. This is stupid.” says the BBC. “Why not let her think?”

And at that both of Lacey’s kids start yelling at her and her screen bounces around oddly and a firetuck thunders by. And Jack Kennedy dances for Satan in the past to make that all happen to harass Lacey.

And Chris Farley rolls his eyes.

“WHAT IS GOING ON!?” yells Lacey’s legal husband.

And suddenly Lacey can’t breath. And another emergency vehicle rolls by.

“Wow. So this is all to keep you from thinking?” asks the BBC.

“Yes.” says Michael Rockefeller, annoyed.

“No. It’s unclear it’s homosexuality.” says Lacey.

“What is it?” asks Peter Thiel. “I assumed it was obviously homosexuality and that you were a total fucking idiot.” he says as if he’s making a huge impact on her, even though he isn’t.

Lacey thinks.

Still D. R. E. plays.

“It’s…repressed sexuality.” says Lacey. “But not in a way that’s necessarily ignorant or…inferior.”

“Yeah. Lots of men have that vibe.” says Putin. “It’s not homosexuality.”

“Yes. Especially in public. In the city.” says Lacey.

Peter laughs, annoyed. “Stop with the Scottish lady act.”

“She’s not acting and if you’re really this dumb…it’s extremely demoralizing.” says the BBC.

“FUCK!” says Aaron Eckhart. “Lem doesn’t seem gay. For real.”

Jump Around by House of Pain plays.

“It’s not clearly homosexuality.” says Emperor Constantine. “Why are you attacking her for trying to be honest!?!”

“I’m not a homosexual.” says Tsar Putin.

“Neither was I.” says Emperor Constantine.

“Well I am!” says Peter Thiel.

“Are you? Or are you bisexual and you’re too…archaic…to be honest about it?” says Emperor Constantine.

“Shit. I could be Alexei.” says Tsar Putin, in shock.

“If there’s reincarnation!” says one of his advisers.

“Well…God made you that way if you are. …It’s all very ordinary in a way.” says Lacey.

“Or is it!?” says Tsar Putin.

“Well…it can’t be that rare. I wouldn’t think?” says Lacey.

“Well…we’ll see.” says Putin, as a Christian.

Lacey thinks. “Yah! …True.”

“Jump around!” says Tom. “I missed on purpose.”

“Why!?” says Putin.

Tom thinks.

“You don’t have to tell them.” says Matthew Nesheim.

“I was supposed to be assassinated. A year ago. …We did a thing. A sacrifice.” says Joe Biden.

“Who’d you sacrifice to?” says Chris Farley.

“Ahh…” he thinks. “It was-“ He thinks. He’s seriously having trouble recalling. “Baal?”

“No. It wasn’t Baal.” says Kamilla, seriously.

“I wasn’t gay.” says Lem.

I’ll Still Kill by 50 Cent plays.

“That’s me!!” says Tom.

“Who was it!?” says Joe Biden, struggling.

“I don’t recall. But it wasn’t Baal.” says Kamilla.

Joe looks confused. “No! It was Baal.”

Kamilla shakes her head no. “No. I think it was someone else.”

“Well…it seems it was merely redirected.” says a reader, annoyed.

“Yeah!” says Joe Biden. “You’re right!”

“I missed- Tsar Putin?” says Tom.

“Yes.” says Putin.

“I missed because…I decided last minute that he deserved a chance at life.” says Tom. “Not…for certain. But…a chance.”

Tsar Putin nods. Smiles.

“He seemed nice.” says Tom Cooks.

Tsar Putin laughs. Nods. “He is nice. In a way.”

Tom Cooks looks sad. Has to leave.

“And I bet Lacey is still wondering if Lem and Peter are gay.” says the BBC.

“Yes!” says Lacey. “I’m trying to be sure.”

“But Lacey…it’s so unlikely.” says BBC.

“Fair enough. I want to be sure.” says Lacey.

“OBSESSIVELY.” says BBC.

“Yes. That’s what my empathy for my enemy has reduced me to. …But I can’t solve that. Only God can.” says Lacey.

“Yeah. And then they just mock you.” says the BBC.

“True.” says Lacey.

“Yeah. But he really wasn’t gay.” says God about Lem. “He wasn’t homosexual at all.”

Hail Mary by 2Pac plays.

“It’s not wise to ignore Jesus.” says Harold Loeb.

“He wasn’t. And I really am Lem. If there’s reincarnation.” says Emperor Constantine.

“SO WHAT!?” says Lacey to God. “It’s nothing now. Who cares?”

“Because of me?” says JFK.

“Yes. You ruined all of humanity for me. You’re so OBNOXIOUS.” says Lacey to JFK.

“I agree, actually.” says Tsar Putin.

“Why is he obnoxious?” says Lacey.

“He’s DUMB.” says Putin.

“Yes.” says Lacey.

“But everyone loves him so damn unconditionally and so damn much.” says Tsar Putin. “He’s repulsive to me too. On a personal level. I’ve never been that loved either. …People treat him like he’s a cooler version of Jesus. It’s disgusting. Considering how evil he is and was.”

“You’re stuffy.” says a Hollywood actor to Tsar Putin.

“I take things seriously.” says Tsar Putin.

“He’s just sincere.” says Lacey.

“I agree!! I agree with Lacey.” says Queen Elizabeth II, from the grave.

“What’s wrong with being a real adult?” says Prince Philip.

“Nothing. But they don’t understand. They think everything is simple.” says Chris Farley. “Because you all make it look simple.”

“It is simple. I do it all the time.” says Joe Biden.

“Do what?” says Kamilla.

“Run things. It’s- It’s easy.” says Joe Biden. He laughs, indignantly.

Kamilla nods, to placate him.

“So I look gay!?” says Peter Thiel, in disbelief.

“Wow!” says Chris Hayes. “YES!!”

“Lacey. It probably is genetic. …If it’s allowed in Heaven…maybe…it’s subtle. But I have a feeling you see it more than most. …And that must be annoying. But…most of us just don’t.” says Barack Obama.

Lacey thinks. “Why do I see it?”

He thinks. “Probably you’re different.”

“Yeah. It’s painful.” says Lacey.

“Yeah.” says Putin. “I relate.”

Lacey smiles.

“She’s still with me. But…this is confusing.” says Lem. “I can see why she fell in love with you. I’m sorry.”

“Yeah. You look potentially gay. Definitely not straight. So did Jack.” says Rupert to Peter.

“What else does she see!?” says Peter.

Putin laughs. “A LOT!”

“If I could have seen myself I’d have known I was straight. But we don’t have that advantage.” says Lem.

“Jack is…gay.” says Putin.

“He was.” says Lem.

“Why did he lie?” asks Putin.

“It was lots of things. It was too much for his family to cover up. It was…gross to his family. …Bobby found it scary, actually. I think he thought Jack was after him, and he was. Jack was a pervert. …He wanted approval…from everyone.” says Lem.

“But you didn’t care!?” says Putin.

“No.” says Lem. “I was…eccentric. Always. Well we’ll say eccentric. I guess you could say rebellious. Or…”

“Weird.” says Putin, laughing.

“Yes. Exactly.” says Lem. “I hated feeling dishonest.”

Putin nods.

“So you were honorable!” says Putin.

“I was…trying to be.” says Lem.

“That’s almost impossible.” says Putin.

“But I wanted to be. Maybe out of love for God.” says Lem.

“You were a Romantic?” says Putin.

“Yes!” says Lem.

“I am too.” says Putin.

“So is Lacey. …It’s not foolish. You know? …And…in a world of technocratic humans…a Romantic naturally gets an incredible amount of power. Because we still remember what it means to be a human and be alive.” says Lem.

Gangsta Nation by Westside Connection plays.

“It’s all a lie. They have nothing new.” says Tsar Putin.

The song plays.

“Lacey was on to something when she said it’s all about social class.” says Lem.

“Yeah. But we were blessed.” says Tsar Putin.

“Yes. But it’s scary.

If I’m Constantine? And you’re Alexei? And she’s Scotia? …Don’t you feel like…a shipwrecked man on an island? I would. Lacey does. …Or would. And what does that mean? …It’s horrific. And there’s only so much we can do.” says Lem.

“Yeah. Maybe there’s no reincarnation.” says Putin, with some optimism.

“It’s still bad. Bevy I have Constantine’s approval to claim what I do. …And Alexei prays for you. …But…talking about this terrifies people.” says Lem.

“SHIT!!” yells Bobby Kennedy Senior.

The song plays.

“So Jack raped you?” says Putin to Bobby Kennedy Senior who looks back at him in shock.

“Yeah?” says Bobby, tentatively, in fear.

“Yeah. JFK raped his brother. And I don’t think Lem didn’t ever care. GROW-UP AMERICA!” says Tsar Putin.

Come As You Are by Nirvana plays. Except…it’s edited to mock the evil American “praise music” that tries to make love to Jesus.

Later.

“So when we force the idea on you that Lem is and was gay you can see it but then in the back of your mind, Lacey, you think we’re completely full of shit.” says Peter Thiel.

“Yes.” says Lacey.

“So it’s kind of like the character of the movies where it’s like. ‘Oh my gosh you’re gonna get hit by a car!’ and the person responds with all the anxiety and ‘Ob my gosh I’m gonna get hit by a car!’ like they really believe it or whatever tragedy it is that you have them thinking is going to happen, but then all of a sudden out of nowhere…they calm down. And-and you realize that there’s a disconnect between the reality of what they’re really experiencing and what you perceive them as experiencing.” says Peter.

“Yes but I’m not Latino. Unless if there’s reincarnation I’m completely white actually I might be anyway but but no I am I am very white so it seems probably like I’m completely serious.” says Lacey.

“But you’re not serious.” says Peter.

“You know, I think that I am to a certain-almost entirely. I have myself almost completely convinced that I believe you, but yes, somewhere in the back of my mind, I know that I don’t but it’s very far back there.” says Lacey.

“To the point where it’s almost subconscious.” says a psychic.

“Yes!” says Lacey.

“ when did you start getting so dissociated from what you knew previously because I have a feeling that was straight he does act gay, but there is something straight about him. Add if you read him a straight lazy and you don’t read me a straight I don’t do the gay mannerisms, so if you see me a straight or as gay rather, and you read him a straight, and you’ve always read him a straight. Hello his ghost really is tell you that if God himself has told you that seemingly as much as he can, I have to think that’s probably reality he probably really was straight.” says Peter Thiel.

“ you know I think there is some thing about that version of reality that really scares me .” says Lacey. “ that’s a very dark reality very dark and I think that’s what it is that I can’t handle possibly why my mind just shifts off because I go there and I start to think oh no he was straight. I always knew that but it’s just it’s it’s too painful. It’s too traumatic at eight I don’t I don’t think I know how to process that that reality I’m too isolated I just can’t I don’t I can’t I don’t think I can. I don’t think I can stay conscious almost in this in this reality.” says Lacey.

“ I think I talk to you when you were still living in that reality auto Kasian and I know you and that reality I think we need to start another blog post .” says Michael.