“Marsie Explains” by Lem

“Lacey…do or don’t edit this blog.

Here’s a tip: We hate you. However! we actually liked you. And part of what confused us was that…we not you we were having fun pretending we were thee ultra rich. Right? Because that’s good perfume. So…essentially we wear real rich people’s perfume. Even if we’re not rich.

Did you know that!?!?” she says, worried.

“NO!” says Matthew Nesheim. “She didn’t.”

“Not at all!?” says Marsie.

“No! Not…almost at all.” says Matthew.

“Yeah! We do that!” says Bobby. “Except we were rich.”

“Oh! I had that figured out years ago. But probably in some crying fit in my 20’s I forgot.” says Lacey.

“Yes. Some man devastated her.” says Lady Spencer.

“Lacey what THE FUCK!?” says a gay man.

Indaco by Einaudi plays.

“Lacey, what did you think was happening?” says India.

“I thought that people were just collecting perfume and showing off essentially.” says Lacey.

“Oh, like actual rich people!” says Mr. Cologne 76.

“Yes like actual rich people! That’s expensive perfume, and the way you do it seems like you’re showcasing it. You’re showcasing it. How could she not interpret as you showcasing it?” says Ulysses.

“But like actual rich people don’t do that.” he says.

“No they do they really do because part of what you guys were doing was analyzing the perfume in this very almost worshipful-of-objects sort of way, which is how a lot of actual Old Money aristocratic rich people show-off like important portraits of fine art. And the more quality the item the better care they usually take of it, so they might put it up on the wall in just the right room with the right, sort of lighting and then they take good care of it because it’s like the one or two things that they you know really care about in the room whatever that they care about and so in my mind, I thought, ‘No these people must be extremely rich!’ because you know something else rich people do or really rich people do is they showcase tiny stupid things that are really inconsequential. So like sometimes in school in the morning kids would bring in maybe like a mug? Like a really expensive mug and that was like a status symbol because they already looked rich and it seemed like that was just the icing on the cake for them. Like a quality mug. Even in the early 2000s! Or like they’d bring in maybe a bag full of Blow Pops. Blow Pops were really super popular. Britney Spears shows us that in at least one of her interviews and they were in my my high school.

So like…all the girls who were really pretty and had like bleach blonde hair and like a tan would suck on like Blow Pops and that was a status symbol. So if you had an endless supply of Blow Pops people suspected that you were probably from some money…because it’s like how does this person keep bringing Blow Pops? Their parents are just buying them endless candy? I doubt that! No…I have a feeling that they ‘I don’t know.’

They have a lot of money somehow. So it’s- I mean people over analyze or they did but it’s just, it’s stuff like that. So I think I thought somehow that you guys were a lot wealthier than you were…and that might’ve been part of my frustration. It was that I just didn’t understand why people were so extremely competitive. Does that make sense?” says Lacey.

“So it seemed like we were just constantly striving to be better than each other, or better than our former selves in this like almost psychotic way?” says Ekaterina.

“Yes.” says Lacey.

“Matthew, would you have experienced that too?” says Marsie.

“I yes I did.” says Matthew.

“So what happened to you?” says Marsie.

“ so guys that I was in basic training with or who I was station with for from more middle to lower middle background were out to sort of brag about certain things that they were doing or had that my parents would never of allowed us to do or have because it was just too extravagant to them or too expensive or something and so I will try to fit in and kind of be like that’s cool. You know you guys are really cool that that you could do that and they would just get really quiet and kind of like freaked out by it and it was just weird and I thought what am I doing wrong? I’m just being a nice person I’m just be excepting of these people like I don’t understand what I’m doing wrong right now socially and then end and then, and then they were just kind of be sort of weirded out by me and think I was just awkward or something and I’m not really that awkward. I realize that since I died, especially that I’m not really as awkward as I thought it was our family shut up my generation a lot we were forced to be very quiet and listen and obey and really take things extremely seriously and that wasn’t bad because we were all raised to be very affluent people most of us are I was so much reasonably all I mean I wasn’t rich, but we were doing OK. My wife was a professor for a while and I was trying to be a writer and I had some money saved and it wasn’t an extravagant lifestyle at all but we were doing OK and that’s what we were raised with. It’s like you don’t break even if you have like Joni even if you have 14 million and some savings account combine with stock options you still sleep on someone’s floor when you’re visiting them in our family and she did in the last five years. She slept on Lacey‘s mothers floor and her condo in downtown St. Paul, even if she is worth more than JD Vance and his Wife, Yep I just said that that’s really what happened you guys seriously that’s my family so so then you don’t it’s like you don’t talk about stuff like that I don’t like someone might’ve had like their parents might’ve sent them a brand new video game system for Christmas for everyone to play in some room somewhere my parents would never have done something like that to us that’s some thing you do when you have like a Normas amount of money like startling amount of money probably be 30 million I’m not kidding we’re very frugal and so so then it’s sort of like you just you just don’t do that you just don’t do that where is coming from his background you do you do stuff like that it’s fun that’s like a extravagant thing but you do it for fun but I didn’t realize that I really didn’t. I wasn’t exposed to those people and neither was she so we were supposed to people who are upper middle class mostly in fairy catty and bourgeois and rude and we were always trying to get along with them so then when I join the military and when she started trying to relate to people who were not in the upper class in the perfume community or even maybe upper middle class we made it possibly a very similar very serious almost deadly mistake, because we just didn’t know that you guys did that like you don’t talk about it it’s not in the media I may be slightly, but not enough for us to know that it’s like something to consider and so it’s like oh yeah I’ve heard of that that’s right they do that but there is you’re saying it’s like they do that they do that they not you that just sounds awful and It’s. If you’re if you have a good heart intent like her, you could say it and it it might work. because she’s sweet and she’s a woman and she’s somewhat ditzy and so it’s like maybe this woman is not completely evil but if I were to say that you think I was a horrible person almost hands-down, no questions asked.

So things got me after a while because I was trying to fit in with people and no I was going around offending people and it was in a way where it’s like they couldn’t really just be like Matthew are you from a wealthy family and you’re kind of an idiot I guess not really an idiot, but you just have no idea what’s going on because these were dudes These reduce these were hard-core, conservative or tough dudes, especially in the group of people I was in a most of them are at least middle-class, but they were. They were really tough guys. I’m tough to, but not in the way that they were. I’m actually just as tough as them but it’s not in the same way, so I was eventually a leader in the group, and I lead very important, very dangerous missions used with involving like land, lines, and things of that nature, and it was kind of secret and important, and they gave that to me and I was honored, and my family was very honored and that was exactly the sort of thing that I wanted to do but it was frustrating, because I still felt some guilt and it was just part of my guilt was that I felt like I cheated somehow and I couldn’t process it when I died, and I started reading her blog out and totally floored me because I was like this is exactly what I was going through but I didn’t know that.

No I just I didn’t know that because we didn’t talk about people don’t talk about this. So no I didn’t realize that I came from this very sort of cold, Auster Nordic, aristocratic background I thought sort of beautiful bleak do you know snowy background in that beautiful and blue not just Blake but but that was that was what happened so personally so it’s like well, I I could try it is sort of feel less guilty but I could figure out how to feel less guilty. I say to Kamala Harris because I had not been exposed as much as Lacey to Hinduism and no I’m not saying that you should become people should become Hindus I’m saying that I’ll actually I’m starting to see what she thinks about things that I’m not entirely agreeing or disagreeing with her because I think people should know something about Hinduism not not a not a New Age Way in the old school Hindu way of seeing things before it became Americanized, the actual Hindu religion

So part of how she survived was reading about Brahman dating because she thought I wonder if that’s what I’m experiencing, and it made some sense to her so her understanding of Hinduism allowed her an insight into her own suffering given her hypothesis hypothesis about her background it gave her some sort of Emotional psychological outlet to let herself have breeze cause it’s like I don’t think I’m a bad person I I don’t know what’s going on but I think I’m a bad person I think something terrible is happening oh and I but I didn’t have that and I didn’t have that, so I had no idea that that was even a thing that beat that there could be such incredible resentment between classes in that very deep, seeded, horrendous sort of way.

So so I was like wow this makes sense I guess believe it or not I really I am sorry I am genuinely traumatized. I just told you a few minutes ago I thought in the war I thought and while she was enough it was Afghanistan or Iraq and maybe that’s for a reason, but I was over there, I know recently and I recently enough so to speak I’m her age and so no I was over there and I was doing work with with land mines and such and different secret missions and I was very risky and I lived I lived I lived I lived and I lived and I lived because I was somehow able to give my background. I had a better ability in America. I’m not sure it would’ve been like that in Great Britain so if there’s been carnation, her husband Lem’s died he did because in World War I the most brave, most heroic post aristocrat at people sometimes or often times lead the charge, because that was seen as their duty and their honor and a virtue and so in that culture they lead the charts in America we do that, but not in the same way, so I lived and I lived and I lived.

And essentially at some point, I got a mortal amount of immortal wound. I got a deadly amount of survivors guilt at least in part that was one of the things I got to me was just an extraordinary amount of survivors guilt the sunset I didn’t have a right to be so alive Because it’s like how does this keep happening how do I keep doing this? How do I keep living? I know that I’m unhappy that I’m alive but there’s something very weird about it. I don’t like this by I mean I like this but I don’t like that there’s something strange going on And I am I’m a pretty daring person right after my grandfather died and everyone in our family and her generation my generation jumped off this very tall bridge with a highway that goes over a river and you said it back then there was a $5000 fine to jump off the bridge. It was dangerous but all the teenagers with our family jumped off the bridge and she did not, she stood there holding everyone’s camera on the side of one of the Bluffs and western North Dakota. You know it’s like rocks and stuff. It’s just staring at us like we were all stupid evil and crazy and we all lived. We were very good swimmers and we were all good at diving but she knew she would die. Most likely she knew she drowned or break her neck And so she refused to do it which was not stupid. They’ll be a horrible way to die but that’s him a terrifying horrific death was not some thing she wanted to experience so so she just stood there but I did it I mean I was, I was like no skin off my nose and so it’s not like I was the person who played it safe but I just kept living and it got to me. I was happy and proud of myself that I thought this is really really fucked up

On my wedding my wedding day, which was in January and we were at this sort of expensive resort also and everyone of my family was there and it was like a destination wedding and Lacey showed up in this like silk black off the shoulder dress and she was extravagantly beautiful arguably were the most beautiful man I’ve ever seen in my life and incredibly sexy I mean it was just astounding and then my other cousin Linn, did you seen her picture, she looks hot and her husband is this like bath dark kind of like model looking guy who’s straight and is like super down to earth I’m kind of like Ken like the dog Ken a 

So so so so I was kind of freaked out because it’s like there’s cold is hot really unusually hot women in my family and then my sister is beautiful and she just won was North Dakota like I am around that time or she was about you but the other thing is it was it was weird to me and then Joni was getting into like modeling and stuff I don’t know Where all this oil money and I thought my wife is so great and then we had this house and parents just built this new house next to lake next to Devils Lake with a sprawling backyard. That’s stretched out to the lake and it was really nice with like a beach, that’s why I went home to this private beach on Devils Lake and I thought this is really screwed up.

I thought this is just this is screwed up and maybe some people don’t understand some people come from wealthy backgrounds in the military and it’s a different sort of way. It’s more obvious because it’s frankly less old money than mine. Yeah don’t don’t try to correct me right now because I’m not an idiot really there Are a lot of people in the military who come from wealthy backgrounds but they imitate the bush family OK that’s not necessarily genuine old money it could be but not necessarily my family really is old money week week we can trace our wealth back to the 1700s to a famous silver Smith who is very essential in Norway Who built a large house that we still have in the family. That’s not you most likely OK I’m sorry.

So you don’t understand you really don’t if you’re trying to be empathetic you don’t understand that just the head trip that I went through. It’s like you guys have this sort of understanding that you’re a little different than other people like Tucker Carlson would know that it’s like a wealthy wealthy Matthew like just let it go this is this is reality you know this is the survival of the fittest. Sorry, Matthew but that’s not what I grow up with, our money comes from the 1700s in Norway before the survival of the fittest thing was popular and so were these very Christian Lutheran people making silver and Norway not making actual sterling silver for people even wealthier and worse. Just a nice probably maybe in Sweden possibly in other parts of Scandinavia with a mark that belongs to our family just our family that’s how important we are in the silver Smith commute or silver community. I doubt there’s many antique stores that probably have stuff from our family, but there should be some somewhere, anyway do we have some seltzer? There’s some silver in the family and in the house on the fjord but the thing is that’s not you OK you don’t have some grand you know alpine a house in Norway that spin your family with sterling silver in it that you made that’s not who you are. I’m not saying that we’re not alike in someway I’m just saying I’m a little different than you and so whether you’re healthier than me or not I’m different.

And by healthier I mean psychologically and I’m talking to people right now who I like Tucker Carlson I didn’t have that. I’m sorry I didn’t have that psychological cushion so I went home to family that’s cold and aristocratic and a Norwegian like actually Norwegian.

So OK it seems like Vladimir Putin has some empathy for me. No really I can sense that he does which is actually more comforting to me and Lacey than you might think so I actually love our Nordic heritage, so does she but it’s it is cold when Betty says that line I’m not cold I’m Nordic it irritates me and Lacey both because it’s like people don’t take that character. Seriously they think she’s total worthless idiot and away but then that’s the representative that we have in media. No we’re not that stupid, we’re actually brilliant potentially as a culture but the idea is that I came back to this family I wasn’t expecting to be that well off because were so austere and humble and meek and Norwegian and Lutheran that it’s like no no the people with Xbox are probably superior to me. I just don’t understand. Somehow I must try to understand this to be a good person And then you live and they possibly actually might’ve died one of them or a few of them might’ve actually literally been blowing up and then you have to deal with that as a leader in the admin in your troop and the bothers you and then you go home and your parents built a brand new house next to a lake and everyone’s happy and beautiful and do you think What the hell? What the hell is this?” says Matthew.

“ if there’s ring carnation, is it just like a kind of a disconnect like I kind of wonder if you’re from some European aristocratic family too, so did you just are you and Lacey just you’re comfortable but then you’re just totally confused or like what never mind that’s probably too much information but anyway, I kind of understand what you mean.” says Mr. Cologne.

“ yeah I knew you would want to be honest I get the sense that you care and so does Lacey but they were all so irritated because it seems Rosa seems like you really don’t care at the same time that way that’s hurtful.” says Matthew.

“ aw, so know that that that is problematic on another family that’s been actually very therapeutic to me has been Lacey‘s family that she married into him the Jews, the Schiebel‘s because David was in Korea and he understood me and David and Harriet tried really hard to be loving to me and-“ says Matthew.

“ we just had a really fun time we’ve had a fun time. Matthew and I have a we’ve had a fun time

here you know OK?

the last time I saw Lacey I said to her husband let’s go get a drink.

Lacey you might actually be a saint, but it probably be recognized, but you might actually be one of sexual abuse victims.” says David Schiebel accidentally being recorded.

“I would be one that she would have us. Yes, patron saint of sexual abuse victims. Oh my gosh yes I’ll be a pinch of patron saint of lost love to death or something else. Tragic so then, because there be some pedophiles who ask her to pray for them, possibly maybe she has no but she’ll try to understand and God will try to understand indeed, and hold me accountable and save me from hell oh wow OK and then if I am some forces rationality, I would have to probably be a leader in my community probably end up being that loser.” says St. Patrick.

“ that was a accidentally recorded conversation between David Schiebel and Saint Patrick.” says Michael Rockefeller.

“ but OK Lacey is back now and I can actually speak intentionally. I was just saying she should be a patron, patron saint to Saint Patrick. My granddaughter in law should be a patron saint. I was just telling Saint Patrick that.

So the thing is so the thing is the arm a they hold you accountable they do they hold you accountable here I wasn’t trying to go drink and be you know evil with Matthew but we did go have a pint in Duluth sometimes ghost hunters don’t know who they’re talking to and they think they’re talking to someone who’s connected to the building or the land or there’s a portal they always say and you know there could be, but it’s possibly a little more mundane.

So we were in Minnesota because that’s where Lacey and her husband mice my grandson live and we visited them once and St Paul knows years ago but so so so we were with Matthew. We were having a paint avail and up at a pub and then they recorded us that Simon says what is the what’s your name it’s one of the nicer bars in Duluth yeah, I mean here and I had a good taste and Matthew likes to get a pint in so we had fun, we never got to do that they didn’t they didn’t have a wedding. You know they eloped Lacey and her husband eloped my grandson and that was actually really painful for Harriet and I so with Matthew being on the other side we had a really nice conversation. It was not like a wedding, but it was kind of nice. It was nice And actually part of the reason we were there. Yes this is coming to her now she wanted to have a reception for us in Duluth. This is real. She actually had that in the back of her head and just never worked out she told my son that if he remembers Him yeah I’m at I don’t wanna tell you the paranormal organization it’s on the block but I don’t want to say it again because I don’t want you to harass those people I don’t but no I got my name in this they said David David came through the name David came through and some device that they used Envoy let me tell you it was hard to keep talking to work. It was really fun. It was really difficult it’s like all you gotta use. You got to go get the energy and it’s difficult that it takes. It’s like playing with some sort of game that is really challenging, mentally and psychologically. It’s difficult Doesn’t usually happen. God doesn’t usually allow it I am and usually intelligent I had people helping me like Carol Loeb was a genius and Elliot Roosevelt though so helping me and Matthews pretty smart too that was his grandfather so so a lot of people in her family actually HB Nesheim was brilliant so she has some genius people working on it and yeah we got through. I got my name through and then I’m able to tell you which is also very unusual, so that’s one of the people in my voice actually even she heard my voice. They recorded my voice. They don’t hear everything they record. She hears it because she has an unusual brain, she actually hears things you guys don’t hear but they did get David say that you can doubt it and think oh no she’s just imagining things but no her husband came and my grandson came up with the idea to go to the Grant House, Hotel and that was our hook up. It was the Grant house hotel as one of the most haunted hotels in Minnesota. Those people are so nice they’re the ghost they’re very nice people and they were nice to her. They’re nice to me and it was a great weight with great way to sort of a bridge the gap so to speak Because they went there too they went there to and that was how she found them and they were there and they she got a recording of a ghost. It’s on her Instagram account. He was the man that you see flashing by the screen he’s from the 1800s he’s like a Penava and overseer of the hotel and you know it was a classy hotel but there are people there who are middle-class and working class who works there and he just raced by. He had fun. The thing is Lacey feels like she relates to him well and she does it. She’s not a jerk and he is a very intelligent person. He just really likes that hotel. She has a lot of very good memories there and got less you work through stuff so he just wants to be there for now and kind of just you know sort things through you know, we do matter a lot of a lot of you, psychics make the mistake of saying to ghost go to the light.

Yours are saying go to the light go to the light just go to the lights I’ll help you crossover go to the do you have any idea how abrasive that is it sometimes there could be some people maybe who need a little encouragement to do better with God and work on themselves a little more with his help if they can But a lot of us really are fine and we don’t need you telling us constantly go to the light go to the light just go to the light like really really you think we’re that stupid when we’re dead?

Like you really think that they will be ghosts but then, when they’re a ghost, we’re ghost, we just lose all of our ability to rationally think know I’m a ghost not an imbecile you know it’s like I have a brain I can think I am myself. oh, maybe when I was a life I was a little less smart than I thought like JFK. I’m sorry to say oh there could be some people like Lacey, who are gonna die and realize they’re more intelligent than they realize and that’s gonna be hard and shocking and lonely, and I could be preparing her for that partially, but that is not common a lot of people die and they’re about the same. I’m so saying go to the light. Thanks ever so much you know I’ll take that into advisement. You’re the fourth person to tell me that in the last two years good grief.

Oh, come on yeah yeah so I guess be careful going to the grind house that’s the other thing my relationship with those people Ron Craft‘s relationship with those people Ray Craft, relationship with those people at the Schurke‘s relationship with the people at the greenhouse hotel, good hills relationship, I mean we get along with those people, Louis Hill Junior gets along with them very well so just let them actually and Michael gets along with him at least reasonably well and Harold not as much this they actually might’ve been a little triggering to him and reminded him of his life in Canada and different things are painful to him but but but but he gets along well enough, but you know not everyone could go to that hotel and have a pleasant experience so some people could go there, and it would be very scary so that’s the other thing you have to be careful if your child don’t do that talk to god if you’re an adult talk to god if you go there and you’re trying to and you’re trying to sort of ghost hunt that away that’s not appropriate do you make it scared you make it haunted in like an attachment and that’s everything I want explain there are demonic entities to attach themselves to automatic entities who attach themselves to go centers then there are ghosts who also do it and some of those people have good intentions, and some of them have bad, but you have to be aware that you don’t know so it’s you know they’re always people are trying so hard to sort of protect themselves And sort of distance themselves and I understand but you also have to know that being too distant can also be a problem like you do you wanna be distant but you need to really be praying to God if you’re going to do that you shouldn’t do that, but if you do you need to be in touch with Christ, you need to be in touch with God Because you can’t, you can’t go into a situation like that with Ellen tent without hurting yourself or someone else.” says David.

“ I just want to say this has been helpful if this is real I appreciate it that’s a good explanation. Would I be able to go to the Wabasha historic Wabasha hotel? I would pay an exorbitant amount of money to go sit in that basement with that be safe, if if I would’ve worked it out for myself or know somebody who would like to with that be safe?” says Ellen DeGeneres.

“ well, Ellen, I mean it depends on who it is. My daughters name is Ellen I’m sorry it depends on who it is Alan so you could do it. You could do it you would be OK if you went with God you could do it you could go in the basement and you would be fine. It would be possibly actually a little boring to be honest but you could do that, you could sit down there with a drink and not much would happen. You might experience some thing a little creepy there be someone maybe I was the corner of your eye that you keep seeing and you have a weird feeling about the walls possibly him and just kind of an overall like kind of an edge vibe like there’s things moving that you can’t see, like possibly dead cats to be honest, they could be a ghost of cats in that hotel room. They had a cat room Lacey saw it she members vividly and it was really lovely. It was actually an homage though to prostitution because it was in the back of the hotel by the stairs and in the 1800s that’s where the brothel would’ve been possibly kind of in the back of the hotel in a room that was very politely marked as something else and you sort of know what it was, but needs to serve stay away from that area, but then they may have someone who has a very twisted sense of humor at some point may have thought that it made sense to make that the cat room I’m sorry this is an adult blog. I apologize but know that they may have decided that that was the cat room and then the idea was that you would go in and pick out a cat that you rent for the night so there was a room full of cats and you can literally rent a cat for the Night and it was actually really innocent and sweet a lot of kids rented cats a lot of families dead. They actually were very good people and they took very good care of the cats so it was a joke. It was a very good joke to a lot of cheeky people in the 1990s and 80s who thought they were pretty hip and cool and edgy and rich they were a lot of them are really quite wealthy they would stay there, but you know it was innocent but it was like you’d rent a cat and it was kind of cute and the cats were very well taken care of but that that’s the thing though there’s a lot of stuff there that people don’t understand because they’re not like Lacey or myself, or other people, to who voice been aware kind of of certain things, and it will be a generational thing partially to know him and so the they don’t always pick up on stuff that the ghost hunters that she saw were in the basement and they kept hearing stuff that bootlegging and I don’t know why they didn’t get it or if they did and they didn’t say some thing but there was a bootlegging sort of actual speakeasy in that hotel, possibly in the basement and so the people who were in the basement with her father at a local man from Wisconsin you said I don’t agree with that. He said I don’t agree with it. I don’t agree with prohibition. He thought it was morally wrong he was possibly a pretty well a farmer from Wisconsin who genuinely thought that it was somewhat immoral, given his background and sort of the beer in Germany and other stuff like that, he believed as a German, American farmer in Wisconsin that it was immoral that he really literally thought prohibition was immoral and he tries to tell him that I didn’t irritated me too lazy thought this is historical. This is a monumental thing.

Oh yeah and Anne Bobby knew that and I knew that and a lot of people who were bootleggers like her father knew that, and we just expected people to be in all of the historical significance of the whole thing and it didn’t quite work out. It is possible that after that, Matthew Nesheim took us up to Duluth and explain to us that that’s just not how people are Who are alive today.” says David Schiebel.

Later.

“I’m DEAD!!!” yells Lacey’s living daughter. She’s playing a video game. “I’M DEAD!!!” she screams as if trying to make a point. “I’M DEAD!!!” she screams.

Lacey’s legal husband takes the game and plugs it in. She giggles oddly.

“What’s so funny?” asks Lacey, sweetly.

She sighs. “I’m dead.”

“You’re dead?” says Lacey.

“Yup!” she says eating her snack and now playing another game.

“She’s talking about the game.” says Lacey’s son. “It’s dead. Dad just plugged it in.”

“Oh! Oh, got it!” says Lacey.

Silence.

“Elizabeth you meant the game?” Lacey asks one last time.

“Mmhmm!” she says now totally distracted by her game.

“Yes you seem alive.” says Lacey.

“She is mom! …She just meant the game!” says her son casually in an almost British accent.

Exhausted by the madness of it all Lacey goes upstairs and lays down. Sighs. It’s ABSURD.

A psychic eating a Blow Pop thinks. “I get that reference I remember women eating candy like that too.” she says. “It’s a Millennial thing. It really is. It is a late teens early 20s Millennial thing.

Let’s talk to Matthew.” she says, sighing. “ Matthew I’m confused what David was saying was actually possibly historical evidence of ghosts that hopefully will be recorded somewhere other than just this blog not that that isn’t significant, but that is so unusual to have the whole thing makes sense, and then the name comes through perfectly and those people are authentic that I think she’s referring to. That’s very unusual, and it scares me because it reminds me of this blog it’s like those people are real ghost hunters they’re getting frighteningly real reactions out of ghosts and I wouldn’t be remotely surprised if it’s connected to her and her own supernatural activity and if there’s an illuminati, I mean, it’s basically connected to the illuminati just really quickly David for clarification, Tom Banks, her father in Christ and I, Wisconsin a German American Wisconsin farmer from somewhere near Wabasha and who who else was in that basement that I’m not on that occasion at at that the Anderson house who is at the Anderson house other than possibly you and your wife, Tom Banks, of a farmer from Wisconsin and who else was in that basement like there could’ve been lots of people I am aware of that but like so how do you say nobody on the street or the bar next-door but just in the basement in your party? Who is with you?”

“ oh, well, it’s actually my wife and I weren’t necessarily in that conversation. Oh we might’ve wandered off in the basement scene. We might not have been in that scene so to speak.

That scene was Bobby Kennedy, Senior JFK a favor from Wisconsin and who was it? It was a bootleg bootlegging thing which was sort of like the underground railroad but for liquor to humans, what is their connections across the border to Wisconsin he was sort of like a safe house for the liquor to see you had a pretty big farm and I mean it was prestigious and I don’t think anyone was really paying that much attention to him and his family and that way so I am it was him, Tom Banks, I am, and then there was a man there who would rather not maybe be named but he was he was a friend of Tom’s he is maybe not in the best shape spiritually so there’s some demons that work with him, but he’s not necessarily in hell, but he was a he was a rather important person in the alcohol business in. He may have actually been connected to the Anderson hotel so he brought the liquor into the hotel possibly through some sort of means in the basement and possibly a cold shoot limit of use the cold shoes to deliver the liquor into the hotel, but no, I mean he was like a distributor. He was sort of a distributor for the alcohol in that area. He was wearing a trenchcoat and pants of a fedora kind of like a person would at that time and 100 people to who I don’t, I would rather not name because the Kennedys were there, Joe Joe Kennedy Junior was there often on with Pat Wilson and I she kind of keeps a tight leash on him yes and a Frank Sinatra and that’s seen at the Palmer house hotel that the lady asked who killed you who killed you in Frank Sinatra answers Ava.” says David.

Lacey laughs.

“ that was a joke Frank Sinatra was making a joke about Ava Gardner. They had a they had horrible fights him and Ava had horrible fights and him. He might’ve been trying to make a joke about their marital relationship, and possibly lighten the mood a little because things were getting really dark at that moment because of the situation that we’re in there’s a battle there is a battle there’s a spiritual battle between good and evil and a lot of historical battles as well and so yeah so some point Frank Sinatra was trying to lighten the mood so possibly between Lacey‘s family and the Kennedys by the woman says who killed you and Frank sativa is he’s trying to sort of make a joke and get the Kennedys to laugh and get Lacey‘s family to laugh and it kind of works but not really but kind of.” says David.

“ who keeps touching, if I’m talking to from the afterlife or if you’re talking to me and someone’s being kind and ilumiNATTI whatever who keeps touching me who keeps touching me?” says a ghost Hunter.

“ I touched you watch once I touched you once I’m sorry I found it funny. You were very irritating to me the way you were talking to me and that was just me so I kind of poked you were touched you up that was in the basement of a store in Wisconsin who are used to be a Chinese restaurant I think that was where it was, that was me. I touched you there. That was me at David Schiebel from Ohio Laceyz call him grandpa in law I touched you I’m not the best person, but I’m not the worst person. Other people have touched you as well. Some of them are from the 1800s and they’re Very uneducated to be blunt and they don’t really know what they’re doing. They’re kind of they’re not good people but they’re very poor and so when you say don’t you can’t touch us you can’t they do sometimes listen because they’re not associate the worst people, so you can tell them that enough that you should be talking to us anyway but um, but sometimes those people sometimes you get touched by demons. Sometimes you guys get touched by demons and then sometimes there’s-“ he breaks off to laugh. “ sometimes you I’m sorry this is hard to say for some reason I don’t know why it’s funny, but there’s something kind of funny about it sort of satirical. You’ve been in situations-“ he breaks off laughing.

“ oh, I’ll explain because David for some reason and Lacey find this funny I don’t know why entirely I think it’s just their sense of humor. So sorry it is kind of funny.

At times do you go to brothels? sometimes it’s women that touch you and sometimes it’s men which I think some people might think of and I don’t blame you for not thinking of it, but that that that in some cases so at least his notice is to sometimes you get inspired to think of something and it’s not just you so often times your girlfriend or your partner will say I’m so fascinated because I’m pretty sure there were brothels in this area and she starts talking about it and going on about Stone, tape theory and brothels, but there’s partially someone inspiring her to think of that and then that could be part of who is that could be one of the people who were touching you there could be some people who are dead, who worked at in the brothels, both men and women who worked in brothels who are basically soliciting your services.” says Elliott. “ excuse me other way around they’re offering their services there they’re offering to to to to do something I don’t know. I don’t know if they’re trying to make some sort of agreement with you. Yeah, things are dark in some cases on the other side so they don’t know why are there in some cases they could be trying to make some kind of pact with you believe it or not that is not necessarily entirely good.”

“ let’s talk shop for just a second what are good safe like instruments to use the rest of this won’t hurt you this device doesn’t hurt you it’s OK is that true or are there some that are a little safer or a little easier than others?” says a man.

“ the K2 is gold believe it or not that that actually works really well. You do pick up a lot of different things and that’s a problem and obviously a lot of scientist use that to debunk stuff because they’re like oh no it’s just you know enough it’s not super natural, but those actually do you work pretty well they’re not good at helping you figure out if it’s a demon or a human or where it is or keep you safe but if you’re looking for some thing and you’re trying to figure out if it’s somewhere near you, if it’s even trying to communicate with you because we’re ghosts so it’s like 40 versus 3-D and you are in 3-D we’re in 40 potentially, so is it just the surgeon try to try to explain so we could be communicating with you from Pennsylvania when you’re when you’re in the graveyard in Wisconsin if we were connected to the people you’re talking to. So there’s all these new connections and stuff so we can kind of talk to you pretty quickly it’s almost it’s not wildly different than the Internet but it’s not like that but it is pretty quick communication so the the case you fix up on all of that, so sometimes you could be in the middle of nowhere and it would go off simply because there’s somethings is somewhere else physically that’s trying to contact you personally.

The thing that you’re talking to him that the thing I can’t think of the name of your apps off my head to the thing that you’re talking to a what works but it’s hard to use and it actually is hard on us physically we’re pretty much safe but it actually is a little. It’s it’s tiring. It’s very tiring to talk into that, I wish is part of the reason why the whole Estes method is flawed at times because it actually is physically tiring to us. It’s very hard to talk into that physically it’s like riding a marathon like we get tired so we can get a few words out, but then it takes a lot of time to get back to you with your next question or even try to figure out where you’re going with something sometimes it’s not safe to talk for us so no that is it’s affective but it’s it’s not necessarily the best method to use.

There really is no perfect way to do it because you’re not supposed to be doing it but God does understand he is compassionate. I’m just trying to be helpful.

Oh, this is going to creep you out by recording videos. The phones that actually is pretty much spot on. We get recorded more than you think and sometimes you really just don’t hear us. You really did capture my voice. Some of you have captured my voice and Laceyz heard it before, so she recognized me, but other people can’t hear it. It’s it’s sort of like it’s just hard I don’t know it’s just hard for your brains to hear it. Let’s see those little wind up things for it makes the noise and you walk past it. Those are used by people who are not very nice in a lot of cases partially because it sounds creepy. And it creeps you out um so sometimes those gets it off by people who are just jerks who are dead and then sometimes it gets it off by demons and sometimes children occasionally but not often I don’t sometimes if I try to be helpful and set it off but a lot of the people who said those off are jerks, which is why when you say step away Several way they don’t step away or if they do it’s like they come back because they want you to have to reset it they’re playing with you they’re trying to be irritating.

You’re not really supposed to be talking to us to be perfectly honest this is the best way to do it not that you should be doing it but through Christ if he’s allowing it because I’m actually talking to you I’m almost verbatim saying exactly what’s being written on this block, this is pretty clear is that it’s like the difference between a phone call and a telegram this is the phone call so what does shock you?” says David.

“ Matthew were you trying to comfort Lacey and sort of relate to her and you’re not being completely honest because you just think what the heck I want my cousin to Phyl understood I’m just gonna pretend like I live through something similar because I want her to feel like someone gives a shit other than just God and possibly lemon his family and her dad who’s probably very busy, so was it that cause I get the sense that he still busy even though he’s dead and she knows that, but sometimes she forgets that he actually might care, but was that actually something you lived through in the military or were you just being relatable and kind?” says a psychic.

“ and by the way, there are psychics I get the sense you guys wouldn’t do this, but I wonder if some of you actually would but if you could trust us yeah if you could trust us but there are some psychics that would totally go to work for you guys and your family and I don’t know if you pay us more than like 50,000 a year crap that would be astounding but no it would be actually psychics can make a lot of money but working privately on some thing that’s like really cool and probably living in someone’s house or something and then getting paid 50,000 and then finding your business being appropriate and then you know that would be that yeah you’re right I mean there be probably some taxed yet course exactly but no but post tax 50,000 damn sorry for swearing no that’s not a bad gig shoot for some psychics that would be a dream job. I really would be so single people would just be like if I had that gift and I was like 25 and I was a really good person and I could figure out how to be friends with these people and just get along with them and sort of be under their protection hopefully not for the rest of my life but we would there’s some of us who would volunteer to just work for your people just for protection just to figure out what the Hells going on who the fuck these people are, who are after you what entities they’re using where the entities are like our expert opinion, or understanding of all of it, and there are some people who would do that and I don’t know what to say, but I just wanted you to know that.

Oh yeah you guys were test me to see who I would approach with you. If that’s funny this might be a smart way to do it huh see you so if I’m actually a psychic contacting you if I’m not a bad psychic, but then where am I who am I Anyway, so not saying you should do that I don’t think so. If you would feel comfortable for spiritual reasons, I’m personally for my own safety, but I bet there are some people in your family that would, if they were concerned enough to do that um, so I wouldn’t even be surprised if we do this down the road hopefully Lacey doesn’t die but to tell you the truth, Lacey, if you and your family die I don’t know what your cousins and your family are going to start thinking and I don’t know what’s going to happen, but anyway, just as a warning, it is possible that people in your neighborhood might find this blog and think it’s wise to try to figure out what’s going on and I’m sure you want me to say that we should all be doing it in Christ if that’s even possible and ultimately worship him, so, but Matthew were you being kind or was that just some thing that you thought you should say because it’s it’s really what happened to you?” she says.

“ he’s too angry to respond right now. I am the lagging connection that David was talking about who worked at the Anderson house. I you can say that it happened basically OK it happened OK guarantee that for you but it happened to my note about an Xbox but there was stuff like that there were there guys some of them are like from possibly New Jersey from Italian families that were middle-class very patriotic, and I think Matthew thought from being from New Jersey having a house being so confident and sort of streetsmart and worldly that they were maybe had a similar class to him and they were not and so that there could be someone like that who is a real sticky wicket for him emotionally because that person is dead and he has no idea how to talk to them to be honest across to be some issues with Lacey because she’s made friends with people from that area. She lived out there Lemus from Pittsburgh her husbands from Connecticut. Her father has connections and so she gets along with his person in a different way than Matthew did and the first to me that even hurt Matthew because because it’s like that’s my cousin you seem like you think she belongs more to you than she does to me and I would it’s very complicated but I am so yeah but ultimately she is his cousin, but that it’s stuff like that that she’s gets to be very wearing was very wearing on him and he is coerced he still coping with it now.” says a bootlegger.

“ who named her Lacey?” says psychic.

“ she thinks it was probably Tom I think he thought it was a pretty name and he’s a father to her and he understands her.” says the bootlegger.

“ are we dragging you guys down a little bit?” she says.

“ yeah you are that’s very kind of you to ask that pray to God protect yourself in Christ I’m saying that not because I hate you because I care and I don’t want you to be scared but then that’s you need to do you need to trust Christ for your protection and this is one of the reasons why we might not hire you because it’s pretty bad. The situation is pretty bad and I wouldn’t want my daughter or my niece or my cousin to be in that kind of situation, unless if it was some thing that God called them to. I don’t know if I want someone doing this knock not because now because they couldn’t figure something out but because it might not be safe for you.” says Mark Nesheim.

“ you mean to tell me that if there’s reincarnation, if there’s a carnation, I know it’s kind of funny. It sounds like that if there’s reincarnation, Harold Loeb was a wandering Jew, who died on Nesheim soil!?” says Pat Kaald.

“ yes if those ring carnation he’s there he’s buried by the mailbox Pat if you’re headed towards the school house he’s on the left side of the road very close to the mailbox.” says Mark Nesheim.

“ oh, so he’s like an ancient ancient ancient person who came back and became an author what the heck and then Lacey shows up?” says Pat.

“ I know why do we not talk about Ms. Taylor because it’s too painful Lacey that’s the sort of family we are you were supposed to have done some thing really glamorous. No one was supposed to tell you that but you were supposed to have done something.” says Gwen.

“ but I didn’t think that was excepted. I thought that was frowned upon.” says Lacey.

“ yeah we raised you very poorly in that way to be honest with you I’m a little freaked out because if we if your illegitimate we knew but we didn’t know and it’s psychotic. It’s like we knew that you weren’t ours and we treated you like you were adopted little person that was on want it for her mother but then we didn’t even know I I I don’t think we knew we didn’t know so it’s completely retarded. I mean we look like fucking idiots and maybe we are but I’m glad you have a sense of humor because I’m the one head it’s like you’re beneath me you’re a street urchin bitch that was on want it but then it’s like how the Frick up RRR am I even saying that because I really didn’t know and I can’t claimed I’ve had some higher consciousness. It was telling me that I’m not that insightful of which is why it’s so funny because it’s otherwise it would just be very evil but no, it really was funny because no, we didn’t realize that you were in ours in someway if that’s what happened, what is the way to do that issue? We were cold as ice to you, but then it didn’t really make any rational sense, and we basically just pooped all over ourselves.” says a Nesheim.

Silence.

“ what were what were you supposed to do well I mean you were supposed to hear supposed to probably do something I don’t know glamorous just something glamorous. My daughter was slightly glamorous and she married a Harvard educated doctor and her daughter is going to Johns Hopkins and her son went to university of Pennsylvania, but that sounds glamorous the way that I sold it sort of glamorous him. Linn was almost Miss North Dakota did a little modeling was a newscaster married a very dark handsome man and they have this posh upper middle-class life with a cabin in a nice house and dogs and cats and stuff him and there’s some thing foxy and down down to earth about it but it’s also a little glamorous, Alys went around the world, and in a almost died of malaria and Africa as a missionary came back it is now a medical professional, and Katie traveled to South America to learn how to dance like sisterhood of traveling pants, old money, North Dakota style or something and knows she’s a dance instructor she does popping and she’s pretty so pretty dated an Asian man who was very complicated and Buddhist for a while. Um has dreads and perfect skin could be a model if she was taller let’s see who else is there well, there’s a lot of other people, but most of them are very connected to the to their families there they’re very much family people with big weddings and pictures all over Facebook and that’s what you were supposed to do.” she says.

“ I was not aware of that.” says Lacey.

“ I was!” says Becca, the mother who raised Lacey.

“ I was too.” says Jim the father who raised Lacey. “ but my family is a little different than yours and we have a country is state. Her cousin JB has an $8 million state. None of you have a place like that and they own it. No debt my great grand Alexis excuse me my great uncle was knighted by the king of Norway. There’s not someone like that in your family unless if excuse me, I could be mistaken unless if the silver smith was a genius with silver Mike, Mike, great uncle was really that brilliant with words. He was really profound and less of the silver Smith in your family is of that substance I kind of think we’re superior to you so fuck you!”

Ruth Craft laughs.

Later.

Adagio for Strings by Telemann plays.

A man who was a bootlegger for the Anderson House stands and regards the building. Looks up in the night sky. In 2024. As a ghost.

“A lot of evil happened here.” he says to Lacey.

“I don’t want to be the music.” says Lacey. “I didn’t volunteer my soul for that.”

Satan picks up her meaning.

“Dear friend…she’s not in jest.” says the dead bootlegger to Satan.

The song plays.

“YELL AT ME!! Yell at me…you nigger.” says Matthew to a stuffy old white Frenchman.

“Alright. I’m game!” says the man.

“Are you serious?” asks Lacey.

“YES!” he says.

The song ends.