“I’m Not Convinced” by Lem

“Umm…I’m struggling. I know that she’s supposed to be ending these blog posts and this isn’t supposed to be a problem for me as a reader, but I am just-I’m not.

I looked at pictures today of the Erin and I’m pretty sure that they’re describing her. …I know who that is. And I am not feeling it.” says Jonah Wiley.

“For real you guys we might just have to overthrow you if you’re this incompetent. No joke.” say billions of non-Illuminati people.

Jonah Wiley nods. Shrugs.

“I mean…she’s…not that attractive. Not if you’re into heterosexual sex. …She’s okay. But…I’m genuinely pissed-off.” says Jonah.

“What do you think of Cheryl Hines?” asks Hollywood.

“Yikes.

Ahh…do I have to answer?” says Jonah.

“Is she really far less attractive than we thought?” asks Hollywood.

“YES!!!” yells another straight man.

“Who else?” asks Hollywood.

“Angelina Jolie!!!” yells a group of men.

“Kim Kardashian!!!” yells a different group of men.

“Actually…most famous women.” says Jonah Wiley.

“Who do you find attractive?” asks Hollywood.

“My next door neighbor. The woman at the grocery store. …And women of the past.” say the men.

“So…Marilyn Monroe?” asks Hollywood.

“Yeah. But also Kim Basinger. Angelina Jolie in her youth. …And I don’t think it’s just aging. …You all have ruined so much.” say the men.

“So too much plastic surgery?” asks a plastic surgeon.

“Yes!!” they yell.

“Do you find trans people…pushy?” asks a trans woman.

“YES!! …And why do you always identify as trans!?” the men yell.

“To not trick you!” she says.

They think. “But then it’s scary. …Okay I understand. But…maybe you could be less aggressive with it? Unless that’s…something else?” They think. “I mean are you real or not? Those of us who aren’t…evil…or abusive…get confused.”

“Because you feel rejected?” asks a trans woman.

“Yes! …Are you…real?” they say.

“Maybe.” says one of them.

“Some of you are hot. I’d love to know if you’re real.” says a man. “It would give us more options.”

“Why do you like us?” they ask.

“We don’t actually like all of you equally and we’re not even sure if you’re real or not but there are some trans women who are really hot and I think men would like to know, ‘Am I looking at something that I can enjoy and-‘ Or am I looking at something that’s just a trick? And yes we do end-up feeling rejected because how do we-how do we enjoy you when you keep labeling yourselves as something that’s not a woman?” a man says.

“Fair enough!” says a trans woman.

“And feels…sleazy to demand you declare yourselves…on the market.” says a man.

“That is sleazy!” jokes a trans woman.

He stares at her. “Just be natural!”

“And maybe naturally I’m kind of a bitch.” she says.

He nods. “And then you thought you would just pull the wool over everyone’s eyes by pretending that you were still ‘just trans’ but then also demanding that we see you as a woman.”

“Is this a real man saying this?” says a trans woman.

“This is fact.

If you’re actually a real woman and not just mentally-ill and creepy and deranged and pushy and difficult to deal with…then yes there are real men who feel this way.” says a man.

“Are you trying to rescue us from this New Woman thing?” they say.

“Yes I’m sorry it’s really that offensive. If some of you actually are women you’re better looking than Erin…and I’m not trying to be unkind towards her if she’s your friend…but yeah, it’s upsetting.” the men say.

“So you’re just frustrated that you don’t know whether or not we’re real because you’d like to date us. You’d like to take us seriously as women. Maybe you care about us too as people. I respect that if you’re sincere. I sincerely respect that.d

Why does she scare you so much?” she says.

He laughs at her slightly. “You know really it’s just that she’s not as attractive. She’s just not as attractive. I’m sorry, I just I can’t feel that way about her.” 

“Why do you have to apologize?!” she says.

“Because women all seem to be horribly offended when anyone points out a flaw of another woman. It’s like a cult.” he says.

“Well I am not going to defend ridiculousness so if she actually really offends you that much fine. What is it? And hopefully I’m not being petty in asking that right now. But what is it?” she says.

“You know you were a man or you are a man. But if you were not a man I can tell.

And this is gonna sound harsh, which is why I’m hesitant.” he says.

She thinks. “Why do you think I can handle hearing this more than most women?” 

“Because you’re outside of the parameters of what’s considered normal still to some degree or you were so I am hoping you can be a little more objective.” he says.

“Yes. Alright I’ll try.” she says.

“Yeah I think I know what you look like and you obviously had some transition but there’s some sort of softness in your face that has developed over the years that as a straight man I find attractive and it’s not just that you’ve taken estrogen she has estrogen too. It’s it’s just, it’s it’s something about her face. I’m sorry, but it’s not attractive and it looks barren.” he says.

“So it’s just it’s not feminine looking? It’s just not feminine looking?” says a younger woman (who transitioned.) 

He thinks. “You know I’m not trying to be a jerk, but no it’s not just it’s not just the femininity. it’s that there’s something about her face that looks barren. Even if you couldn’t have a child you’re at least choosing to have more estrogen in your body. Do you feel like you would like to have a little less ideally or do you like to look as feminine or is fertile or something as you look?” he says.

“ I like looking like I do.” a few of them honestly admit.

“ do you like feeling like you do?” he says.

“ yes.” they say.

“ that I think this blog is tragic because you should have probably been kinder to Lacey and protected her more for this bullshit. I know that you people get attacked, but I see a lot of cattiness from you people towards her. I see a lot of cattiness from trans women towards Lacey. And I think part of it is that you want to fit in with the cool people and you’re jealous of how superior she is to you not because she’s backward because she’s better than you just because you’re a woman doesn’t mean you’re her equal she said she’s probably superior to you as well so I can excuse someone who’s this who’s stupid but a trans woman I have a harder time with and then I think are these people even women at all or just caddy people who are freaks and sort of weird or something. There’s probably something that goes beyond just your physical body about you and you should understand and be more empathetic and realize that it’s not that big of a deal you have to be on these horrible medication’s just to be yourself that’s awful You have a horrendous medical condition absolutely grotesque. Do you think you’ll always be that way or do you think there’s something wrong with you?” he says.

“ no it would be a medical condition.” says a younger woman.

“ then why wouldn’t you have more empathy for everyone in the situation she has with everyone’s trying to get or does she and then you’re you with this awful situation and then those women over there are too dumb to realize that you’re superior to them potentially in many cases, and that’s sort of insulting to you, but it just goes over your head and you don’t care that they keep calling you half mad or something and then she walks around with us every bitchy attitude all the time I can’t stand that famous woman I know who that is I can’t stand that person I don’t find her attractive and I think she’s just sort of an annoying prick.

And I think why can’t you be the voice of reason you’re adults? You can’t tell me that just because you’re women you don’t know how to think that’s absurd.

So why can’t you why haven’t you in the illuminati been able to say you guys? This is weird I think Lacey is a woman I don’t think she’s ever been a man. She knows that let’s respect that and let it go and stop trying to insist that she’s JFK reincarnated. That was disgusting!

And then you have this little bitchy whore I’m sorry I’m being blunt you have this little bitchy whore who is going around and she’s treating you like shit but you don’t even notice because you think oh I’m fitting in with this person you know you are you’re excepted by them but that’s temporary in about 30 or 40 years those people will turn on you and start treating you like they’re treating her if you’re actually women.

And that has made me think a lot less of you all because I can’t figure it out. Are you fake and you’re outing yourselves by being so weird or are you actually real and you’re all mostly just mean girl jerks?” says a straight man.

“Umm…huh.” says Dylan. “ if we’re women I think we’re all kind of Katie Hearon. I think a lot of translaminar Katie Hearon. trans women are Cady Herron from mean girls. If we’re actual women, we are the losers, who refuse to be nice to anyone who threatens our social status. And it’s pathetic. Your rights and I wouldn’t be surprised if I got attacked the way I did because people in my family found that despicable who are dead if there’s an illuminati if I’m a woman yeah there’s probably someone in my family that just thought it was really gross that I was choosing to sort of be such a Katie heron.”

“ were you prepared for this conversation because if you are women, she’s a light years ahead of you possibly literally.” he says.

“ no no we were not. We were not prepared for someone that was beyond excepting us and away, and then was mad at us for being jerks as women.” says a trans woman.

“ yeah and I’m sure that as much as she wants to help you come into some sort of self actualization realization about who you really are if you’re women yeah? It’s been a little much. I don’t know if she could do anything about that. My read on the situation is that this is what’s in her head and her heart and they sort of put her on a silver platter like she was some sort of you know prophet from the Old Testament. And it’s it’s just weird to me that no one has that isn’t a criticism of just you potentially but all the people who are saying in the illuminati where are you all? I can’t believe that there’s so few people who sees it was glaringly, obvious that this is a psychotic situation.” he says.

“ well, I mean really there are so many things to discuss are trans women actual women is homosexuality allowed in heaven, which is actually a very poetic way of putting it potentially why do homosexuals use people who are very likely mentally ill like pedophiles to sort of defend themselves there or are we just nuts right but those are so many serious questions that she’s been processing very seriously and a very heartfelt matter and then society has an answer those questions yet but yeah, we were light years ahead of ourselves where there are some of us who are convinced of certain things that you know Mary may not be true and then it’s just like everything else is getting torn apart at the seams and I I think you’re right we have to deal with those questions is there incarnation you know in in Christianity those are such ordinary things and away, but they’re not. They’re probably more fundamental to any sort of consensus or sanity and society going forward.” she says.

“ yeah sanity is key it’s it’s let’s keep things real and authentic and and and sane yeah and that’s part of what I see them doing is over labeling everything there so they’re super into the spiritual with an ignore what’s obvious and true because if you don’t have a way to label it, I think they think it can’t exist or you’re just you just lost the argument. It’s like we have to label this perfectly not leave any room for you know some thing that we don’t quite understand yet some thing complex something that we’re still struggling to ascertain let’s just let’s just quickly label everything beyond a doubt and I can’t figure out why we’re moving so quickly like where are we even going? Why can’t we just slow down and yeah, I have these discussions in a normal, rational way?” he says.

Dr. Moritz nods.

“ I don’t think they’re smart enough.” says Dr. Moritz.

“ then how are we going to survive as a society?” he says.

Later.

“ turns out they’ve been giving Lacey potentially deadly used infections in her vagina if there’s an illuminati because Bobby Kennedy Junior wants Lacey to be JFK reincarnated. And being idiots women like Aaron and her other crew of assholes, like Olivia nosy, or threatened by Lacey’s, profoundly superior beauty to theirs. So Olivia slept with Bobby and they psychically try to turn Lacey into Jack because that makes them happy to think that she’s just an average to below average looking man and it makes Bobby happy because he thinks that he’s been loving but he really is getting narcissistically, soothed and high, because he’s very threatened by the fact that lame was actually straight. He’s not necessarily even capable of being in love with them let more straight, but he’s not even necessarily capable of being in love with then. Bobby is slightly aromantic and asexual. But they are trying to keep him and I would like to ask Bobby before Lacey gives up trying to reason with people who aren’t like me know what exactly is it that makes you want to keep that mad why are you holding him hostage?

I already know why Aaron wants to be the F girl, the new girl yes, the egg girl is an innocent, possibly accidental reference to whatever this may be when they talk about the new woman. I’m so Bobby what is it that makes you want to hold Lem hostage!?” yells a group of women.

“ I feel prettier and more superior when I’m around him. I mean it could be that I was happy and felt loved by him but I don’t think so. I think it’s that I actually just felt superior.” he admits.

“ was it an issue of social class? Did you feel like you were more old money when you were imagining yourself as his secret boyfriend?” she says.

“ yes I did. There was just something about him that open doors and just made me feel really luxurious and classy.” says Bobby.

“ did David get jealous of you because he wanted to date Lem too?” she says.

“ David was confused he did but he could sense that wasn’t quite what was happening and so he started saying why aren’t you letting me be with you to try to outlet him as a pervert but that wasn’t what was happening David may have realize that lamb was actually being held hostage, and that our family suck shit, and that could’ve been part of the reason he killed himself. Lamb died in 1981 David died in 1984. I think David might have felt guilty.

I mean, I just felt like really special.” says Bobby.

“ but that’s bullshit.” she says.

“ yeah but you know it’s like maybe it’s true.” says Bobby.

“ so you drink your own Kool-Aid but you know that it’s possibly also a lie?” she says.

“ yes, I guess maybe that’s true if I am being forced to be honest, which I am yes, it’s true. I might have thought that he was not really with me and then I like the thought of tricking him and someone else in to says stealing something from them.” admits Bobby.

“ so you genuinely were thief?” she says.

“ are you yes a I am a bit of a thief.” says Bobby.

“ thanks for admitting that, so yeah, you were trying to steal some thing from a couple who had been separated and some sad way and you got away with it. Do you get high off of stealing things from people?” she says.

“ yes I do.” he admits.

“ you know I think that’s a problem right now in the illuminati a lot of you were just Steve’s and you get really narcissistically high off stealing things from people all of you who are toxic in the illuminati seem to be thieves and it seems like you all enjoy stealing things from people yeah it seems like most of the illuminati is being run by a bunch of thieves.

And I don’t think any of you realize that you’re all like that because you’re all like that for the most part.

And honestly, I think that’s why you tolerate pedophilia because you’re stealing that child’s life from them or possibly their soul temporary some of you might hope it’s forever because you’re that vile but you’re desperately trying to steal from these people and I don’t know when anyone’s gonna cut you off until you’re dead But I think Lacey has tried.” she says. “ and I’m trying now.

I think you really are a bunch of thieves! And I think her neighbors planting those trees too close to her property is thievery as well. And honestly, I wouldn’t be surprised if they move in the next few years if they don’t die, or if those people, sorely regret that.

What I would like to see Lacey do in her next post because I think this thieving issue is a serious concern although 88 being somewhat maternal towards her in someway, possibly I I feel like no she’ll probably be OK she’s tough and honestly I just have to trust God that anything that gets confused in her brain and taken from her I will somehow come back to her because I think your people literally are stealing parts of her brain or numbing parts of her brain super naturally and that’s why her spirit is starting to sound so Scottish through her body. If there’s reincarnation, that’s what’s happening you are literally literally regressing her into a previous life or you’re forcing her into some other spirit or soul to survive as her self. She’s not a man she’s not JFK she’s not a man reincarnated that is desperate and sad.

So I would say to that gentleman that I was talking to you before however, that works out. I think that these people are thieves. I think they’re all thieves who get high off of being thieves. I think they get high off of stealing things from people the Kennedys receives. I think a lot of these people are thieves, and I have empathy for a thief. Some thieves are just poor and well intentioned, but I think a decent number of these people are con, artists, and thieves.” says a woman.