“So… I think you need to stop writing and I think grandpa Pantell needs to let you edit this blog with him and Christ and Lamb and I think he actually cares about you. I wanna warn you I think if you are a legitimate that Margie did actually love you. You are like a genius, Lacey, but at times you are ditzy and I don’t think you realize that until like the last year or two probably threw up but before being involved with Lem’s I don’t think you’ve ever really understood that about yourself and that it was like real that you actually are ditzy person like you’re not stupid people think that Seay and stupid are the same thing I don’t think they are. I think you could be really like Lacey unlike the joke is that you actually have like ESPN in your boobs, but not really, it’s you if you’ve got to realize that she’s a she’s not like a genius she’s an actual genius but then she’s very ditzy at the same time and then that’s what this is I think when Margie started crying if your illegitimate and Margie saw you, Lacey I think with Margie started crying that she was sad because she loves you. I think you have some other story in your head where she was crying because she was petting her self or she was here. She’s not stupid so she was crying because she was petting her self or she was crying because she was a, I put out look up Assissi and she just couldn’t take it like she just couldn’t handle seeing her daughter because she was such a worthless little piece of shit and so she just cried because she felt sorry for herself sweetie. I think that’s what you think now but it’s funny because it’s still somehow a little ditzy I don’t think so Lacey sweetie I don’t think so. I think I think your mother was crying because she was missing you and she loves you. I don’t think she was crying for the very sad tragic reasons that you’ve decided so yeah so I think maybe that’s just gonna be some thing that’s eye-opening to you, hope you think about it because I have a feeling Marji is not quite as awful of a person as you think she is and she abandon you but something tells me she knows that and I wouldn’t be shocked if she’s dead I don’t think that she’s confused by you thinking that she’s terrible and I have a feeling that she could be trying to be Scottish for you or is she just knows better but I don’t I don’t think I don’t think she would be confused about why Mel is your mom and grandpa pintos such a strong presence, and I think that’s some thing that she’ll have to deal with with God I’m a little worried for Margie if that’s a real memory though because I think it was actually very traumatic losing you and I have a feeling she’s more like you than you think and that she’s probably extraordinarily traumatized by this whole thing not the way you are but then that’s the problem if she actually loved you this is hell for her to some degree watching you suffer I don’t think cause I think she thought she was doing the right thing and giving you up because I think she thought you’d have a miserable life with her. I wouldn’t be surprised if she actually was being sacrificial and loved you so keep that in mind if Margie still alive when she dies it could be the end of the world. Do you have any idea on that note how old Margie is Lacey?” says a witch.
“ she is still in her 40s in my mind I’m still in my 60s I think in my mind but she’s in her 70s now well late 60s early 70s.” says Tom Banks.
“ so just so you know, some of the stuff that’s happened is because I am angry.” says Ron Craft.
“ OK did my nephew kill himself dad because you were trying to kill the whole family and you were trying to start with him?” says Curt.
“ yes that’s funny that you know that I would go that crazy. I did panic when I first died there might be purgatory or it’s some thing where I realized how bad things were. I am him I convinced him to join me, and then when he died, I realize that, it wasn’t like I thought it was and I was happy and relieved that he wasn’t going to have to suffer because he would’ve had a rough life when he got older the way that I saw it and there was certain things that I knew they knew he was going to experience, possibly with his girlfriend, possibly with other people and the way the world is I just didn’t see a reason for him to have to experience that pain. I just thought no I’m gonna make my own rapture starting in my family first.” says Ron.
“ how exactly do you kill people? I’m home because I thought that wasn’t allowed.” says Curt.
“ it’s not, but God is very merciful and yet far more just then Christians today understand. He allows free well, and that fools a lot of people into thinking that he’s not good or that he’s powerless but he’s not at the same time I don’t know what to say right now because I was raised in a family that was Lutheran Diane wasn’t and I don’t want to confuse people theologically, but there could be something sort of like purgatory partially out of Christ mercy he he may know that some people with free will can’t just give things up so quickly and he desires for us to actually be in a real relationship with him and so when you die, it’s not just like your mind goes to mush and you have no free well so that’s the idea of purgatory is that you’re allowed to sort of take as much time as you want With excepting your salvation if you you’ve excepted it but then it’s like working through that and for some people can be very sad, because like that woman that Lacey was talking to It might be a, real ghost, or might have been in the met, she could still be there, but she’s doing better. She literally possibly couldn’t move from that one spot. There was a memory attached to that spot, and she just couldn’t move herself beyond that because it was too upsetting to her ego at her sense of self and her memories and there could be some trauma which is where God was being merciful, possibly and letting Lacey talk to her because he knew that Lacey laughing at her because Lacey laughs in a different way than some people do today she really could be Tom’s daughter, and so Lacey laughing at her made her think about other little girl she played with when she was little And it’s like being left out by a little girl your age who you trust and then it’s like oh so this woman is laughing at me and she thinks I’m being silly. I wonder if I’m doing something silly so now she’s wandering around the whole foyer at the mat and she’s not just stuck in one spot because Lacey laughed at her and she excepted a little bit of reality that was hard for her to except But it’s OK now Lacey laughing at her it was comforting because it wasn’t really necessarily that Lacey was even wholly rejecting her. It was Maria. She said she thought she was being ridiculous to the point of humorous absurdity and then the woman is like OK I guess I’m not a total loser. I’m just a little girl Who is being funny and that gave her the strength to move on a little bit beyond that spot with us a thing, so are we allowed to kill people? No not really but I was so panicked. I was really panicked when I first died I was extremely happy and Lacey heard that, and so did Diane. I was very happy because I’m a very intelligent person I’m a objective person and I was operating in faith but I was shocked to find out how vivid And wonderful the afterlife really is it’s great and I just thought this is far better than I thought it was gonna be so that part of me was overjoyed you know I had faith in Christ I wasn’t as surprised as some people sadly might be, and Lacey has faith too, but my faith was bolstered by a lot of really positive life experiences were experience, Christ love, so I just kind of knew But I panicked because I saw her suffering it occurred. If you’re reading this blog that’s part of what happened. I saw Lacey suffering I Saul other a lot of other people suffering and I just thought these people are Christians. This isn’t right there is absolutely no reason for them to be suffering this much and then, if there’s an illuminati, I realized that too, I thought there’s no illuminati if there is one, my aunt my niece found the illuminati my actual niece found the actual him and I and no one‘s gonna really necessarily not believe her or believe her and then who does she talk to and know a lot of Christians are thinking it’s the end times it’s the end of the world And so I may have used the illuminati itself or Dave And’s to take Keith’s life to try to take keys to the other side because he didn’t have kids. He wasn’t married his girlfriend him might’ve ended up breaking up anyway and I knew that I didn’t want him to go through that so I thought no that’s gonna be heartbreaking. Totally unnecessary. We were close And he’s my grandbaby so I thought I’m taking my sweet little grandson to heaven right now I am sick of this.” says Ron.
“ why are you so panicked?” says Dianne.
“ because things are getting really bad. Spiritually the kids that are being sold there are more of them knowing there are thousands of kids were being sold and that is the darkest of dark. That is the evil of most evil and that is him something that’s very real, and it totally freaked me out and the fact that she am discovered the illuminati that’s doing that it’s just it was mind blowing to me and I just decided to take action.” says Ron.
“ I actually do empathize with you now as a grandfather myself, I got it. Yeah, I got it because he still young he didn’t have any children and you thought what is the point of him suffering that’s meaningless.” says Curt.
“ speaking of which Lacey you’re thinking of ending the world and there are people who are freaked out by that no doubt but there are actually millions of people sweetie and you know that who would be cheering you on and saying why the fuck can she go faster so let me just get this straight. If you are the world I have to probably accept Jesus as my savior repent of my sins, but the way that you do it it’s not dogmatic or evil it’s like if he’s a god that I think he is, and he’s loving and this is really the only way to salvation, that’s the premise if that’s not reality obviously you can say this and it probably won’t mean anything or you’ll be able to do some thing about it so I think that’s her a lot of people probably have excepted Christ with her because it it’s like what’s the harm? I can even attach that as a wedge to what I am saying where it’s like this is nonsense doesn’t mean anything not invited if her idea and I and her and her genius and her understanding of reality is actually just Reality and I have a feeling with purgatory that there are some people who are Jewish will end up in purgatory, but as a wedge, I am willing to go that far so it’s like if that’s actually what it is that’s just happens to be the soul deity who runs the whole show at the very least I am totally down if he’s a living nice God with excepting it was my savior I mean that’s not really that big of a deal and so then if I did that with a caveat that he would, I would think fully understand which because it’s not like there’s reservations in my heart for him it’s just so that you know you know if you aren’t real I’m not gonna be you know, put into some sort of curse or something oh just by honoring the salvation prayer so if I could do that, and then I died a quick painless death of like being blowing up or having my head chopped off when I was drunk and then it’s just like what is this and then there’s basically almost no pain literally almost no pain at all. I barely see it coming. I’m in a good mood and I’m just like blinking like what the Frick I just had my head cut off. I don’t feel any pain because I can’t my body was designed such that. I can’t feel that pain and I’m on the other side and I was God and I’m just like wow what happened I’m dead and then I look around and as someone who’s a Christian, presumably and a somewhat decent person I look at my kitchen side of me the refrigerator is brand. New is the refrigerator I was eyeing at Warner stallion for like $2000 and it’s mine, it was charged but I have good credit and all my bills are paid off. That’s interesting it’s full of food. My house is mostly paid off I have equity I have a house it’s not huge but it’s pretty nice no infestations there aren’t really almost any infestation to be there a few mice but they’re talking mice and they’re nice and they don’t really want to live in your house but it’s purgatory so they might if you’re not doing your job as a person, and then you have a nice backyard. There’s no pollution in your yard. The ground is gray it’s fertile you could have a garden there’s free television it’s like heaven but you know a starter pack and it’s pretty sweet. I am young again in my body as much as I should be, and my kids are doing well I might even have a boyfriend and things are going really well between us. I know it’s not imaginary he was a real person and we’re really meant to be together, but he died to and I’m just like OK let’s go a little slower because there are some painful things that I wanna process so I might regress my fridge raider to a new refrigerator worth $1000. I might take back some of my dad just to process that and then I said to her business that’s between me and God and we’re all good and then there’s times I might decide to enjoy having a little bit and like jump off a bridge and dive into the ocean or something and not drown or have a neck and Drey, and just like chill yeah that sounds pretty sweet Lacey that’s what you’re trying to bring everyone to is like a very old woman possibly so you’re like everyone’s protective grandmother or mother who’s like 103 or four and you’re just like I think we’re all done I’m very maternal I’m sharp as a tack. I’m angry and I think we’re all just gonna leave. I’m gonna take the kids the grandkids and we’re gonna head out because this is just a stupid situation and we’re done you’re putting your foot down. I was with your heavenly father and you’re just like Dad. I love you but this is stupid we’re leaving. Is that what you’re doing?” says a witch.
“Yes.” says Lacey. “But better.”
“ I was worried about that. Um, I think I think people are giving you way too hard of a time. I’m sorry that people have misunderstood you I don’t. I don’t understand the whole class thing and why that was so irritating to you it irritates me that was irritating to you, but I willing to talk to you about that because I think you’ve been genuinely misunderstood, if you do that and we all end up on the other side if I can processor things safely I will not be angry because I’m not so spoiled that I would appreciate it. I am you know really I am suffering enough at times overworked exhausted and depressed as possible environmentalist who is upset sincerely and I’m just like you know I can handle it. It’s not the ideal, but if she really wants to add the world in the next 40 years, I’m I am I’m OK with it personally and a lot of other people are too. It’s sad I think you’re sad on our on our behalf. You’re sad on your own behalf and you’re just sad and you’re like OK but let’s see with that sadness in a place where we can be sad and cried be safe in a Mercedes that’s ours not in this shit hole I think that’s what you’re thinking you’re just trying to take your kids and leave it’s sad and I’m not ready to say it and I don’t think you are either but if the Kennedys really did cause this in a very creepy way Lacey it is almost like you’re leaving Joe and you’re just taking all of us and you’re like I can’t stand these people relieving you’re just taking all the kids and going I wouldn’t be surprised if some people are excepting the fact that there’s a new dad and that grandpa is a scary man grandpa Tom is a very dangerous scary man but he loves us but he’s scary and I don’t wanna be on his bad side but that’s the thing so God has it all sorted out so I’m not terribly worried as a witch but I think that’s what’s happening if she really is this powerful in someway all right you know it’s like she is and so is Tom and so is lame I and other people to like Michael I really don’t think this blog is a joke anymore and I think it’s scary but I’m also slightly amused because it’s so human and it’s so human in the best sense or you know we we do care sometimes and moms especially and it’s just like a good mom who’s not sexually abusive and actually loves you is like a bear they’re scary and you know maybe that’s just what’s happening she’s just mad and we’re you know it’s that’s not it’s not going well. I just wanted to clarify that ilumiNATTI because I don’t think they fully understand it and I think there are a lot of boomers who ironically are like three years old in their head and they’re kicking and screaming because they want a mom who loves him that much and is that tough but that’s not the experience and so they’re kicking her because they’re testing her to see if she’s actually tough enough to protect them and she is but the problem you guys decide if you go to far are you could kill mommy because you’re adults and then she’ll in the world and if you’ve done something wrong, your spanking is going to suck like bad so be a little smarter.
There could be people on the other side, who have gotten so angry on her behalf, and in general, who have started the process already, which is where the fire in LA came, from which is where the train derailment came from the banking crisis that almost happened, the war, the pandemic.” says a dead Roosevelt.
“ let’s talk about the class issue that being said I’m realizing that you’re just playing by the rules I’m not your daughter you don’t know how fallen or not fallen I am you’re not Buddhist or Hindu but I think you’re smart enough as a Christian to know that there’s something that’s there spiritually potentially not necessarily but potentially and so you’re like she’s like a daughter but I don’t know where her heart is with God and there are some people who are poor and they don’t deserve to be and I bet you’re extremely angry on their behalf, but you’re not sure about me and that’s OK I’m not actually necessarily offended by that and so and so I am gonna realize that it’s arbitrary to you. It’s not really arbitrary but in like a godly sense it mean something in a godly sense it doesn’t arm and you’re far more deep and intellectual than people have allowed you to be on in their minds so so with that in mind, I am not Betty Draper‘s daughter. I would never make fun of your perfect knows and the fact that my Jewish father Harold will say cause I kind of like Harold you know dad had a bad nose I guess you think it’s attractive and you think that my nose that I got from him is very pretty too and it’s on Jewish way and we’re rich and I’ve been tempted to get plastic surgery but you’ve talked me out of it because you think I look at like an exotic Middle Eastern beauty and you know what my husband agrees with you and not in the same with your mom he thinks that I am just gorgeous will say Anne loves my nose actually really well he thinks it’s really cool looking that is not an experience at all kids have Lacey and I think you think we just know that that’s just agreed that it’s like not all kids have Harrell loves their dad if their noses misshapened or if it’s just Jewish looking and see right away we’re off on a bad start because you’re thinking that’s not the shape and that’s Jewish or are we on a bad start OK so if Harold was my dad, I’d have a Jewish nose it would be a little less Jewish I think because I think you have a very I think your dad I think you’re Tom’s daughter biologically and I think you have your dad‘s nose and I think it’s dominant I think it’s a dominant gene so I won’t be surprised if your kids have your nose which is probably German ironically or Dutch possibly English but I won’t be surprised if it’s German or Dutch or Prussia and even at that that’s what gets me it’s like where is Caserio? I have a lobe nose and I look like an exotic beautiful Jew and that’s worst-case scenario because the Jews are not as prestigious as white people best case scenario I have a rare pristine Prussian aristocrat nose that has been painted and that’s if I’m your daughter and that’s like wow who am I the queen mother reincarnated and that’s the thing it’s like what the heck OK and I’m so I’m seeing it from your perspective OK so those are my toys with Harold as my dad it’s like I have a jewelry collection that’s growing I’ve diamond earrings, pearl earrings, a tiny, rare blue sapphire that no one can identify versus a blue diamond that no one can identify because I think it’s made of cubic Saccone because I am eight and it’s not so it’s a diamond those are my toys that’s my room and we help the other kids that are poor or we we try to be helpful and we love people. Oh and you’re just like that’s just how it is Ken there’s no ego attached and it’s just the joy of us if it’s of experiencing owning a blue diamond, which actually could be really cool but I have a feeling it’s not thrilling if there’s no ego attach the way some people think it would be because then it’s just mostly a sort of censorial sensual and not in a creepy way. I said sorry I didn’t make sense to some people so I was trying to be more down to earth but I think you both take that the wrong way, but will move on a sort of said sorrel is not censorial, but it’s sort of a tactile intellectual upper class, hold many experience of owning a blue diamond and it’s like this is a blue diamond isn’t it cool and you can look at it and wear it and it’s pretty and it’s sparkles and it’s blue and that’s about it there. Are there a little girls at the country club you might be like oh I want to blue diamond for my birthday but they could possibly get one and it’s not that big of a deal and maybe you’re sort of a trendsetter, but it’s no different than having your shoes. It’s just like it’s the same thing. Sincerely, that’s getting brand new shoes. If your lower middle to middle class I just I have the new shoes. It’s really possibly no different and so it’s just like I have a blue diamond they they have new shoes, but actually it might not be that different have an experience psychologically.
Oh, because we’re not you go to school people at my mother wouldn’t be I don’t think Carol was either. I think that’s part of it happened with him and Brad Ashley and why they’re soulmates because they’re really not egotistical people possibly he might be a little more than her, but I’m not sure, so we’re really humble and end and sophisticated, but we’re the Guggenheim is an aside so his mother side over the loaves and we’re very rich because she’s worried about losing the money for safety reasons which is interesting I don’t blame her. There are evil poor people and she might be safer with more money and I always wonder if things are so bad that she’s like do we need to just die I’m keeping that money to protect myself and my children but things are getting so screwed up that I am wondering if we need to just die because it’s not ego it’s really just safety and well-being with her. They’re very humble frugal people. I think Carol might’ve been at times two, I wouldn’t be surprised if you live on a farm somewhere in Canada and of all, I’m actually not missing OK but then mom if I may say so in this analogy, there are people who really get pleasure out of being better than other people do we get pleasure from that or none whatsoever?” she says.
Lacey thinks.
“ we do as a sort of divine, right.” says Lacey.
Tsar Putin laughs.
“ what does that mean?” she says.
“ we’re better than other people we don’t have much of an ego we’re kinder and smarter than most people I don’t like it I don’t like it for them. I like it for us but I don’t like it for them, but that’s just the shitty nature of a fallen world. So because we are kinder than most people and you know that if you were my daughter, because I actually really may be a.m. answer than you would be to so then I sincerely Suzanne Princess Diana I mean come on could be one of my relatives if there’s reincarnation soaker the Queen Mother, potentially somehow repair, possibly sincerely kinder than most people And even if there’s not reincarnation I’m sorry, but this is the truth you can except it or you can be a bitch.” says Lacey.
“ she’s right I can fully support that I am not as good of a person as she is but I’m a better person then some people think and they’re a lot of people are trusting me to come closer running the world right now because Joe Biden is laughable and someways bless his heart and so is Kamala Harris and Donald Trump is safer as a leader with me as a sparring partner so when you’re up and you’re so years in your self righteousness as a ‘light worker’ who thinks you’re tricking her keep that in mind.” says Tsar Putin.
“ fine maybe I’m not quite that smart or good as a person all right so if I’m your daughter I am and I am just that good of a person OK and I would know what you’re talking about. I’m gonna imagine that I think I had a guy sort of interrupted you by breaking my role so I’m better than most people and I know that because I actually am go on.” she says.
“ we have to be in charge and we can we can enjoy being better than other people in the same way that you would punch someone in the face if they were trying to attack you or if they were attacking someone who is vulnerable like a small child or an elderly person or an animal we would feel a sort of pride about what we were doing as we were doing it so it’s the same idea where it’s just like we’re were the were the hand of justice it’s possibly very British in the best sense so we are the head and maybe there’s some German in there to some German Christian in a real way so no, we are the hand of justice and in that way, if there’s some pride, but of course we’re humble about it because it’s heartbreaking and sad we’re not supposed to be better than other people that’s part of a fallen world.” says Lacey.
She thinks. “ i’m not understanding where we’re being prideful though mom because where is the pride in that it’s like we’re the hand of justice and so we’re better than other people gosh darn it but then the joy mom is that we’re kicking evil’s ass how much do we really enjoy being better than other people?” she says.
“ you know I don’t know it’s possible this is an area where mommy was not nurtured and so I really don’t know. Maybe you can elucidate it for me. I might be a bit blind in this way in my head do you? What do you feel and I would assume as my daughter that that’s the problem with us doesn’t quite work, but what is this? Is it a game that people play I’ve been better than other people I think I’ve been trying to play that game my whole life to sort of fit in enjoy things I grew up in the 80s where Ivana Trump was the queen, so to speak Queen bee and I think I looked up to her and women like her, because possibly in the absence of of of of my mother, who is actually my mother, I was far more beautiful and feminine in the mother who raised me and I didn’t have a role model, and I was blonder than my mother who raised me to so I just didn’t have anyone to look up to, and she sort of rejected me for being so pretty she was she was rather mean about it so I don’t know that I understand I think I was trying to get a like I think in a way I was trying to get maternal love and I thought it was some sort of game that I thought I was playing I’ve been better than other people, and it looks like she was having fun and I was trying to have fun too. I don’t know that I understand the game. What is it exactly?” says Lacey.
“ she’s right, she was blonde, long blonde hair. It was pretty blonde and some pretty brown eyes. Her mother didn’t have brown eyes. Her mother doesn’t have blonde hair and neither does her father. I have a feeling she is illegitimate somehow at least and yes she did use me as a role model.” says Ivana.
“ do you feel like you’re also our age?” says Donald Trump.
“ she can’t she couldn’t be she could be our age but as she got older, yes, she was unable to be, and she was slightly.” says Ivana.
“ it’s not a game.” she says.
“ it looks like a game.” says Lacey.
Ivana nods.
“ but Lacey is slightly evil.” she says.
“ but I think I thought that no one was taking it seriously because everyone was smiling so much and they were so casual about it.” says Lacey.
Lem laughs.
“ you love you really did not understand that gay men desire to other. You really thought it was some physiological thing really!?” she says.
“ yes because that’s what I thought I experienced and frankly there were a lot of stereotypes at the dovetailed with that wears like you could corrupt men and so I think I thought there was some men who we’re living, married, and happy and ignorant, less not understanding that they were really secretly gay times I think I thought it was more sophisticated than those people who just didn’t know any better which was rubbish, but I knew that at the same time did I think there was desire for gay men with other gay men? No, not really I didn’t really think that was how it worked I thought, I thought there was some thing like desire. It was sort of like desire, but it was really more friendship. I often wondered if Jonathan and David were homosexuals in the Bible and so in my mind I thought I thought that it was sort of like I wanted to certain apostles were gay, and Jesus was probably straight, but I wondered if one or two of them were gay so no, I thought there was something like desire, but not really desire, so I never experienced it right I didn’t do I didn’t ever expect no really I never experienced it, and that may have been part of why I was worried about myself that I was just a sexless nothing but I never I never thought they felt the way that they did about women. I thought that was just reserved for women, but I thought they might have felt something for each other that was sort of like desire, but not quite really it wasn’t that I thought it was friendship, I misunderstood friendship. I had feelings of friendship for a lot of men, and then I thought that was homosexuality because I thought it was gay and I didn’t realize that I was never attracted to them. I did I experienced it that I wasn’t attracted to them but I am I know I sound like an idiot, but I wasn’t and someways I was too smart for my own good, but and then my dad died, and I just got very confused, but so I experienced a sort of longing to be with men the same way that I made straight men experience that wanting to go hang out with their friends and watch a football game and I thought that was homosexuality because I thought I was gay so it’s like oh you know I experience that need them. It’s very complicated and she’s trying to hear it but that need to be around men and I thought yeah, that’s me being gay potentially, but that’s a ludicrous thought but that’s what I thought possibly at times and then I thought well but then it’s really not that we’re not in love but you know I wanna hang out with these men but I kind of think we’re in love I don’t want to be with them because I think I thought that gay man fell in love and that some maybe were capable of desiring much other in the way that I desire to be around friends, but then there was like something sexual attached to it and I thought I was either sort of lacking in someway or a maybe as a person, I just was sexless slightly really I wondered if I was at times or I thought maybe they were in love and I just hadn’t found the right man yet so I hadn’t found the right man and Jack was you know my husband so to speak but you know I did try dating other men at times possibly for that reason because I thought no I don’t know they were really in love. I don’t wanna be with him in a sexual way so maybe we’re really not in love and I should go try to find someone that I can really Love and I never worked because I was strays and those men would be very angry and frustrated and hurt because I didn’t wanna wake up alone. I didn’t want to be with them I was straight and no I never told him that I love them but I think there are some men who did get the impression that I really didn’t and we’re hurt by that because I was so nice at first, but what they didn’t understand was if that was actually just me wanting to be their Friend, so I can excited to go on dates because it was really kind of just hang out with the boys for me. I was a sensitive person I was good at golf. I was good at racquetball squash, but I wasn’t a football guy you know so some of those gay men would play golf with me and they were pretty good at it too. Maybe not in the same way that I was meant to be blunt but I I wanted to hang out with my friends, but I didn’t realize that that was straight and then they would get hurt because what I was really trying to establish with them as friendship but they didn’t understand that I didn’t understand maybe they did but I didn’t, but I think they may have misunderstood him and they get hurt and lash out with gossip like love just wants to wake up alone. He’s a jerk or he’s an asexual you know nincompoop and I wasn’t I was straight, so no this is what she’s hearing she’s being diligent and say exactly what I’m and I wasn’t I was straight, so no this is what she’s hearing she’s being diligent and say exactly what I’m saying as far as you can tell I know I really did not understand.” says Lem.
“ so when you went to these dirty shows lime on the 42nd St. in New York on the west side because she really did find that information for her. He really did find that information for her the witches don’t know this if there’s an illuminati we do watch what she does psychically and sometimes using her iPhone, because we have that kind of access to the illuminati so she was just sort of mindlessly looking through a map of New York City kind of like how some people let their hand move on a Ouija board like she wasn’t in control she was letting him control her brain, and he moved the screen he moved or how are used her hand to move the screen to the same spot like three or four times Near time square that’s where he told her it was he’s showing her images of this place from his perspective in the 70s and 80s which must be an interesting perspective. I have a feeling it’s a little bit like a taxi driver but like from a first person perspective and she’s been there. You might’ve even showing her in her mind psychic glimpses while she was there And that actually is fascinating, but so cause she was there. I wouldn’t even be surprised if she walked by his apartment building, I didn’t even realize it right not his apartment but his condo also because he did on it um, so at least she thinks he doesn’t he might have, but that’s the thing, so yeah I’m sorry if it’s hard for people to believe but I really wonder if this was his actual thought process I really think maybe he didn’t think it was like that I really do. I really wonder if he did not understand it was sexuality And he thought he was one, but he didn’t understand and maybe there was some of that too or it’s like he knew that he didn’t know everything but he knew that he thought he was but I also wonder if he actually thought this I really did I have a feeling to get a clear response to that or clear we’d have to back off and let them really talk to each other. My godson‘s though is that it’s more what he’s saying right now than the other that he just knew that he didn’t know everything, but thought he was gay. I have a feeling he actually thought that there might not be real desire and I genuinely don’t think he was trying to arouse Jack. I really don’t think he understood what he was doing. I don’t I sincerely don’t I don’t think he was trying to retraumatized himself I think he sincerely just didn’t understand Him and so ask your questions but you should know that he brought her not to the brothel. He brought her to that movie theater that might not even exist anymore. It might be a high-rise, a luxury, high-rise, or a deli or something or a parking lot and he got a little lost but I have a feeling he he got pretty close to where he was and a I’m sorry but no he told her to go to 42nd St. I have a feeling he did go there occasionally he found pictures from the late 70s and it is exactly what he described, it’s exactly what he described and she didn’t. She did not invent she did not discover any of that for herself. I’m sorry, but this is where you people are annoying that you think you’re so much better than everybody and that what you just got conned out of being like her or con daughter being like me And it’s just you know like you’re really secretly better than a Rockefellers but you know you just you know you didn’t get a chance there could be some truth for some people, but I don’t think that’s true for every fucking little middle-class person so for some people that could be true But I would be careful thinking that because a lot of you really just aren’t as smart as us or is gifted or maybe even his loving and I think you’ve gotten a little confused in the last 40 years about your grandeur so just keep that in mind.” says a woman in the Illuminati.
“ OK that could be true. Oh no that’s possible I don’t know I might be an exceptional person because I am able to do this. I actually wonder if I am a little more exceptional than most people but I do admit I have that attitude slightly and I think a lot of middle-class people do right now it’s all over the Internet. I mean really you don’t have to go on TikTok or Instagram for more than five seconds that you find somebody who is very normal but average and they think they’re an expert and they’re gonna explain something to you like you’re an idiot. I remember those like bullet points that is that attitude and the dancing and like the whole like aesthetic of like I’m gonna look cool and dance and do bullet points in the air for you on my TikTok Instagram account because I’m like an expert at some thing and it’s just like the world isn’t understand yet what I understand so let me lose it for you as I’m dancing that is repulsive and that is very common and I think I’m a little better than that but I hear you know this is so true yeah and then you have to deal with the fact that she actually is an exceptional person. It’s not fake if if it’s a fuck, she could actually be Socia if there’s reincarnations and that’s pretty exceptional, it’s hard for me to believe that she’s really that is it but if she is oh fuck her Lem’s are a lot alike because if he didn’t understand homosexuality and he really just faked it which is possible but it’s hard for people like me to believe that but if that’s what happens then OK he was far more that’s the thing Lacey that’s part of where to come to class issue because we’re not sophisticated in the 40s and 30s. Nobody in the middle class would’ve been faking being gay if they did, they probably would’ve been bisexual or insane or it’s possible they would’ve done that but there was such a hatred for homosexuals that I feel like he would’ve snapped out of it so to speak a lot faster and he would’ve never met Jack he just like I feel like he would’ve figured it out maybe to be honest he might’ve been confused until his 60s or 70s but he wouldn’t have probably died. He would’ve probably been bullied by his parents and they getting married and then he would’ve been happy to some degree and then when he was 60 or 70 he would’ve realize that he was just straight and confused, but I don’t think it would’ve been nearly as damaging to him ironically because we were so hateful of homosexuality so it’s hard for someone like me to believe but you can believe it and other people can’t who are wealthier or moral money that someone would be privileged enough at that time to really think that they could be gay and other family would be sophisticated enough to not know what to do with it is that they be sheltered by the upper class and then there’s Jack and he has more power than he should have. Yeah it’s not a scenario that we just instantly understand or maybe not as smart as you are, OK so that’s hard to believe because in a way it means that he’s more sophisticated than our families are as RR and I think some people have thought that he was an average person and he wasn’t OK and that goes back to the class thing to so it’s like OK he was upper class old money he was privileged. He thought he was gay and people humored him because of his social class but he wasn’t he was totally confused him and then we have to except that maybe we’re actually more hateful towards lab that we want to think we are especially people who are queer right now, and are angry at him for being able to think he was queer like almost 100 years ago and get away with it because there are some people who are middle-class right now, who still feel like they’re being rejected by their families or their peers and he he didn’t experience that very much I don’t think, and that’s very hard for us to deal with because then it’s a whole Nother level of class and V and it’s just like holy cow someone who straight could think they were gay and be accepted in Home. It’s so much privilege just on a psychological level that week I think part of our hatred and our anger and ours our resistance to this being possible even that’s probably what happened. I am a bitch, so I know that you’re probably talking to his ghost and it actually makes complete sense out of all the potholes and the assumptions and the bullshit he was probably straight and you know that he was regardless of what I think him and then you’re pissing the Kennedys off because they were expecting someone to come along and blow their cover. They were never anticipating you, which I have to say as a middle-class person with common sense astounds me, they are so naïve and so sheltered and their generation is alive right now. I have no idea why they thought they could get away with it. It is stupid as fuck it’s just sort of like common sense that something will blow up in their faces.
That being said him, and I want to say the Kennedys were onto you we are onto you people we are we’re figuring out that you weren’t straight, and that you guys are like totally fucked up psychologically all of you in someway.
I am so the thing is the Lacey that’s half mixup with Lem’s but whatever I guess maybe it makes sense and I actually could see you to being real twin flames and soulmates in a way where it’s like the whole thing of how him and Jack are it’s just some stupid, fucking joke I mean I don’t know who the hell you up with that idea that they really weren’t that much like him And I think that’s just a bunch of bullshit a bunch of colloquial ignorant backward bullshit I don’t think it’s possible that they were soulmates. I think that is such a fucking shit I mean it reminds me of Scott Zelda. I think he loved her but they had problems in their marriage and that’s where it’s kind of bothered me too. That people say oh they were like the same coin two sides of the same coin I have a feeling that in someways they were but I think people have overplayed it with people like that in the 20th century early 21st or it’s like there’s soulmates there twin flames and it’s like what the fuck not necessarily, I think Scott Zelda might’ve been soulmates. I’m not sure if they were twin flames they might’ve been soulmates and I wouldn’t be surprised if it’s hard for those two to separate I don’t think that lemon and Jack were soulmates or twin flames. I think that is a very gay interpretation of his depression after Jack died I think that’s a very gay reading of what he says, it’s a very gay interpretation of him and his whole life. I don’t think it’s the reality of who he was and I think if you’re more grounded in your understanding of things and less determined to find a gay character in history, you can accept that lame was probably street that Jack wasn’t but lamb was but then Jack was a narcissist, and so he sort of through all of that I wanted to let him because Lem’s was, unfortunately vulnerable and why was lime depressed after Jack died was he depressed in the way that you people think I mean? I don’t even know if the people even know what he was thinking if he never wrote a diary, if you never confided in people almost ever how the hell do you people think you really know he could’ve been depressed for a lot of reasons, even if he was depressed, and it looks like it was because of Jack And there were some things that he said that sort of indicated that we don’t really know he could’ve been depressed because his life was route. You really don’t know you really don’t know and I think the David Pitts novel is the dark side of progressive 20th century logic I think that is toxic progressivism and I think it’s sad because I have a very strong suspicion that he was straight, it makes so much more sense because Jack was a narcissist. It makes so much more sense it’s not just that one was smiling at Jack’s wedding, which is possibly incontrovertible truth that one was not get it all it’s that he put up with like way too much from Jack all those years and never seemed particularly bothered by it that’s not normal that is not psychologically normal.
And I think a lot of gay men think they know lamb or no men like lamb and he’s their best friend. No, he fucking isn’t. You don’t know him and I think it’s very likely that he was straight and then he actually might’ve criticized the whole fucking community and it just went over everyone’s head. I have a very strong suspicion that as a sort of queer person who identifies mostly as woman that I would get along with him better than David pets I don’t think he would get along with David pets the way, David Pitts assumes that he would. Lacey thought that she would somehow get along with Chris because Chris reminded her of Michael Rockefeller that’s part of how this whole thing started. She thought he was like Scott Fitzgerald art or Michael Rockefeller and he’s not and Diego knew that and Diego knew that and so Diego knew that And I think I think that’s the problem you might not actually know love the way you think you do I don’t know who it is that you’re interacting with David and other people like Louis but I don’t think it’s lame. I don’t think you guys can except how straight he looks of his pictures, and how much his gayness seems almost like hyperbole And then there’s like flaws in his eyes and his mannerisms where he looks straight yeah like really straight so I don’t know who it is it you’re channeling in your head when you think of him as a person but I wouldn’t be surprised if it’s someone totally random who’s alive right now or if it’s somebody who maybe would love to have a book written about them because they’re just an average person who’s been ignored by historians so there could be someone who you’ve conceptualized who does exist but it’s not lame and maybe they look alike or maybe you’re thinking of a Peter Thiel I’m serious or Anderson Cooper and you thought that was lap because both of those two men look a little bit like him have a somewhat similar energetics. Did they have a similar spiritual DNA so it’s possible that Peter Thiel or actually literally Anderson Cooper or who you think he was so it’s possible sadly especially if there’s illuminati that David hits research Peter Teal and Anderson Cooper through Lem’s and wrote a book about them being in love with JFK but that never happened what Anderson Cooper put up with Jack probably would Peter Teal slightly with they end up getting back together again yeah I have a feeling Peter Thiel has five boyfriends like that where it’s like he knows they’re not good man, but he did them anyway because they’re so attracted to you which other and same thing with with Anderson Cooper on occasion But then that’s that’s Anderson Cooper and Peter Thiel not Lem. I’m sorry this is this is so much more plausible than people want to think and I can say that as a witch people are so much more into witchcraft than they realize or New Age thinking because it permeates our culture for go to for better or worse and so I think people like Peter, or like David Are more intuitive than they think and they think they’re in she would Angoulême was and they’re assuming safely and they’re not and no it’s Lacey made the same mistake. She thought that Chris Hayes was Diego. Don’t know that Chris Hayes was Michael. I really think she thought that I think she thought he was Michael or possibly a F Scott Fitzgerald, but I really wonder if it was more Michael I’m serious you guys I think she saw him because you know I mean he’s the Rockefeller Center and we see it makes sense on a sort of scientific witchcraft level That she accidentally literally superimposed Michael’s energy on Chris Hayes and was interpreting everything he did through the perspective of Michael it and she’s very intelligent so it’s possible it’s possible David that you were actually interpreting Anderson Cooper literally or peter Thiel all those years cause that makes sense you researched it for 20 years so that’s like what 1988 that’s actually was dead and you’re not psychic necessarily the way that I am or the way to Laceyz so we might not make that mistake we might not re-search a dead person and get us confused because our stinker is better at reading the dead, the most people I don’t know what that means she might be slightly dead I could be too slightly But Peter but but I David I really wonder if you started reading Peter Thiel or Anderson Cooper they were alive they’re fascinating polarizing people like where did the idea come to you to even re-search up where were you? Where are you in New York City? where were you you were on the ocean where though We’re on the ocean was it in Maryland? Hello the Vanderbilts yeah was it in your Rhode Island? Were you anywhere near the breakers and that that is that I’m sure that the Breakers has a very strong spiritual energy. Were you anywhere if you were if you were next to the ocean were you anywhere near there? If you were sweetie I wonder I wonder if it’s Anderson Cooper who you’ve been fascinated with and you thought it was lame if if there’s an illuminati, he actually is a really nice person he’s very sophisticated. He’s very sensitive. He actually might even find Lacey very slightly attractive because I’m not sure that he’s 100% gay even if he’s mostly gay so it fits pretty well so I wonder if unfortunately, David you super imposed Anderson Cooper into the life of Lem Billings.
I know I have a feeling that the sexuality you’ve seen of lamb was actually heterosexuality even if you find him attractive yeah and then that dry crusty part of Lem’s that was him that such as the drug sweetie that was actually like the whole time and Lacey thinks it’s very attractive because she’s a straight woman with the nuts actually lamb he was going to peep show sweetie in the 70s with women. I don’t think he’s the person you thought he was the smiles that you’ve seen were probably straight they could be bisexual but I was feeling that in his case they’re straight there could be gay men who smile like he did, but I have a weird feeling it’s mostly straight and bisexual men who smile like him, at least his cousins are straight and they literally smile almost exactly like he did with smiles his facial expressions when he’s relaxed, who is young or probably straight maybe bisexual probably straight him. I can’t think of an actual gay man who looks like him even his facial features like exactly like him most gay men who look like him look like Jack and you, because you guys may be really are some thing from birth, so then I’m sorry but if you think about it like Anderson Cooper Anderson Cooper is in love with Jack interesting and Peter Teal as to the picture of the White House looks like Peter Teal except Lacey shares me as much as she can and I know she’s telling the truth and I actually Can see it too. He looks straight in his eyes which I know is a witch and she knows her self the eyes do matter so it has eyes in that picture. He looks straight in his phone structure. He looks straight, possibly even in the way, he’s holding his glasses. He looks straight and it looks like Jack is shoving him into the wall and he’s actually genuinely uncomfortable with it. It’s not fake he’s like actually uncomfortable. But I think he’s acting gay I think he’s acting gay very well but he’s acting yeah so people are like totally freaked out that you could act that well I have a feeling you can’t so he’s acting gay, but he’s not and I can see that, and so can Lacey But who is this gay man that he’s pretending to be possibly Peter Thiel or someone like that. I’m serious I could see it was kind a like Peter Teal. He doesn’t look like the same person. All of his pictures keep in mind he channel different types of gay people which is a huge red flag like that. It’s not real but in that picture, he looks like Peter tail He’s in the White House. He’s a man about town. He’s in a nice suit. I think he was feeling himself that day. I don’t mean it like that I just mean that he was really enjoying his aesthetic. I think he felt kind of fly you know kind of kind of he was digging himself that day because he was in the White House. He looks good. Good hair day good skin day I don’t know why straight man wouldn’t notice those things about himself and he was somewhat skinny. He might even smell nice that day his suit sprinkled but then that slumping Street in alcoholic so so his suit is a little wrinkled but it’s pretty good fitting suit and I think he felt pretty snazzy I think he felt pretty snazzy to and so then who is that person that you got a crush on who isn’t really lame yeah I’m sorry this is I’m getting I’m sorry I understand her frustration. I I literally think with my expert which opinion that it’s possibly genuinely peter Thiel Maybe it’s Anderson Cooper but I have a feeling it’s one of those two men. This is her Bobby is an idiot. He knew that they were sleeping together like years ago her and lame and that’s where Peter Herman is it tragedy because that actually is a lot like lamb, but long was a little more straight to me than that And show me what season is good looking Lacey find some attractive that’s her thing, but I don’t think Bobby could except that. I think he thought is convoluted as it is as embarrassing as it is to him I think he thought that that somehow lamb was tricking her that lamb was sleeping with her because he could as a ghost in someway where it wasn’t affecting him like maybe he was somewhat bisexual, but not really how do you who is this a Susa super powers as a dead person he could sleep with her without it, affecting him sexually Kind of like a demon and so he could sleep with Lacey but then it wouldn’t penetrate his gay suit so to speak I know it’s pathetic but I think this is what he thought that he could sleep with her without his gay suit being penetrated, and all his gay, super powers, being taken away, like being in love with him, and then that somehow he would still be straight gay and then in love with him and Jack and then tricking her. The Kennedys are obsessed with tricking Lacey it’s like an obsession with them Ethel has tricks are you thinking they were friends? Bobby has tricked into thinking they were friends Joe tricked her into thinking she was he was in love with her than he actually was and I think the act actually Apple was dependent on Lacey more than she realized her own safety but they’re idiots and that way with Lacey they keep thinking they’re tricking her with like love that’s not real and friendship that’s not real and needs that or like a nephew that aren’t real but they actually are I think they keep thinking they’re tricking her and like one upping her like you think you think you’re better than us ha ha we’re far better than you you loser we’re going to we’re gonna pretend like we need you and we love you and then pull the rug out from underneath you just to put you in your place and that’s their whole obsession with her it’s just bigger to live in there delusion that they’re better than her.
They were probably so much financially dependent on her father in the 20s or dependent on him socially and I don’t think they can except that that his daughter still is socially above them somehow even though Tom’s house was only 1 million and at most he had 50 million they can’t except that he never was inferior to them socioeconomically Even with his measly 50 million they can’t except it and so they keep trying to trick her and they do that to everybody. They’re obsessed with doing that to everybody. Bobby loves hurting people that way especially women so it’s not like she’s special in that sense but I think they’ve had a particular perception of obsession with her and Bobby let it cloud his judgment and I think he thought Linn was doing that to her to be cool And fit in with the other Kennedys. I think he thought that Joe hit tractor I was like pretending to be in love with her but not really but I think he thought that Linn was doing it too because she’s so annoying and stupid and so they were just going to like totally bust her balls. Ha ha ha Because that’s what Chris and Diego are doing to her I think they think oh my gosh like we’re ugly and sure I’m socially inferior and fucked up in our heads compared to you Lacey but because we’re so vain and narcissistic we can’t live in that reality so we’ll try to find somebody to one up here or they don’t cognitively process that you know that’s reality that’s reality that’s actual reality but Bobby doesn’t like that reality that he is actually a poor fucking idiot with a voice problem because he tries to sound really cool all the time. She thinks he’s a joke and he is but he doesn’t realize that about himself. He doesn’t realize that he’s broke he is and he’s dependent on Cheryl to like eat. He doesn’t know that about his own life. He’s a total fucking idiot in that way. Oh, but Lacey knows that and the sad truth is she still cares about them and she’s laughing at them I’ll probably almost constantly because it is funny to her. She sees the humor at that he takes himself way too seriously and then other people do too, because he’s actually very good at acting too, and that could be part of what they don’t understand about them is that he was like them in that way they were all people who took their delusions to seriously are there misunderstandings. I don’t think Linn was like that the way that they are, but I think it away they’re backward sort of hillbillies, and he fell in with the wrong crowd of people who had the same problem as him with the same headspace in a sense, but they were toxic in a way that he wasn’t him so then he ends up, trying to kill them with heroin, but I I think and they’ve never processed that. I don’t think that their delusion is narcissistic his was tragic, but there’s is narcissistic and I think in some part of Bobby’s heart where he’s not totally nuts, and Lacey knows that he’s hurt because he feels like the lamb really rejected him and he didn’t see it coming And it really hurts.
And so he keeps thinking that maybe we’re making fun of Lacey maybe there’s like a group effort to make fun of her which is insane but I think that’s what he’s thought that maybe they’re all just making fun of her and he needs to get in on the joke And try harder. Make movies influence television shows run for president and win and show her that she can’t run, but he can which is insane but I think that could be what Bobby was thinking it’s like almost like they’re the same age and he’s gonna run and show her that he can run for president but she can’t hear nanny Boo-boo and why would that be because he’s an adult and so is she and he’s not living in that reality entirely, his secret boyfriend who was never his secret boyfriend, ran off with her and he saw them kissing and it freaked him out because he realized that that he was possibly just nuts and delusional the whole time. Or that he takes some people too seriously and other people not seriously enough so he takes nut cases to seriously and sometimes they have good ideas about vitamins or maybe maybe even see it oils him but he takes those people far too seriously instead of doctors, and then he takes journalists who are kissing his ass and trying to get his favor Too seriously when those people have no idea what’s going on they’re homophobic they could even be envious of lame they’re stupid. They could be closeted people themselves and so they wanna enable Jack to be straight because it scares them because they’re bisexual themselves and so they’re just like oh no no no no Jack was straight. Love was good he was in love with all of you a boy or a shirt in love with you Bobby because you’re so good looking and then Bobby’s like oh that must be true because Bobby sort of retarded narcissist who’s been fairy coddled biased family so that he’s like lovers give me home because he loves me and I’m super handsome I’m a super handsome man and nothing ever happened because he was so in love with me do you see that’s like cognitive like dissonance and you know confirmation bias on Bobby’s part not on Lacey‘s wares just like oh he was so in love with me and that’s why nothing happened because I was so handsome and he was so in love with me, that’s what everyone tells me and those people don’t lie to me because they’re good people and why would you think they’re good people because they kiss his ass And agree with him in front of his face possibly all the time and I’ve always been like Bobby you’re so smart Bobby you’re so great Bobby you’re so handsome Bobby you’re so handsome you’re so smart and so that he takes them really seriously and thinks oh, I’m handsome and smart and I was in love with me. Oh my god that makes so much sense. He must be running away for me with a panic look at his eyes because he’s so in love with me Because Carol love asking perfect questions if nothing sexual ever happened in any way, not even like their eyes meeting it’s insane on Bobby’s part to think that anything ever happened. I mean it’s like almost clinically insane like he’s invented the whole thing in his head except it’s not in the sense that people probably told him that and so then that repeat his defense for not being a total nutcase is that people probably told him that Linn was obsessed with him that lab transferred all of his love from Jack to him. I mean people don’t realize this, but the Kennedys read the articles that are written about that they drink their own Kool-Aid and they have been for decades they read their own articles. They read their own books and so in a sense and we saw this with JFK Junior people noticed that that he was weird and his conception of his father and himself, and they romanticized it and made it something. Cool but it’s not. It’s possibly actually mental health issue. Sincerely, it might’ve been him being sort of unwell and not just a subjective, brilliant, romantic genius he may have actually had some sort of weird psychological problem, but I think Caroline has as well, and now her whole family has, where they can’t conceptualize the idea of who these people were in relation to them because it’s too traumatic, and so then they just look at the books and articles of the bullshit that we feed ourselves to believe the mess, and they start to believe it themselves, and then a distance themselves from the reality of what they actually experienced and make the cat process through their actual memories because they’re living in our delusion with us even as they are the people that we are delusional about. And that’s where I get angry on Bobby’s behalf because I see I see Jack Slosberg as being just as fucked up as Bobby just as fucked up if not more so saying that this asshole who is a fucking idiot was his hero he’s never even met his grandfather. Maybe he’s talk to his ghost in the ghost was nice to him, but I don’t think he has the experience of interacting with him in an honest way that he’s not like me or Lacey he’s looking for reasons to like this person, even if he’s talk to him as a ghost, so they’re not dealing with the the reality of things, but then he’s pointing fingers of Bobby like he’s a nutcase who is using Camelot while he jacks Lausberg is doing the same fucking thing, except possibly even more so. And I think that’s part of why Luigi did what he did. I think that’s part of why we have Donald Trump because they’re a real problem for the Democratic Party. They really are that family is a huge problem and she’s not saying this I am.
So no I think I’m a straight. I think they live in a delusional bubble where it long was in love with them and he was never in love with any of them. I don’t think but that’s what they think and I think David Pitts wrote about Anderson Cooper or Peter Thiel Possibly literally and I have to be honest with you if Anderson Cooper or Peter Teal were in Lem’s’s body I think he would look different if they if they were meant to be gay he was OK but I wonder if the assumptions that David Pitts made would actually apply with those to the thing is then why did Anderson Cooper and Peter Thiel sacrifice their lives David for a jerk You never you never you never analyze that you never analyze that in the book you never really do that I know of or Lacey knows of you never look into it and say why did he do this? Why did why did Lem’s sacrifice himself this way, so I was just like to quickly ask Anderson Cooper and then I’m gonna go back to the class issue Anderson why did you sacrifice if you’re lame, why would you sacrifice yourself for the shrine of JFK?” says the witch.
“ I don’t think either one of us would I think as normal bisexual mostly gay men neither one of us would probably ever do that. If I put myself in that position that was going to Choate and being his friend and him being attracted to me, I would say I was just there for the ride. I would just say I was there for the ride I was there for the show I found fascinating. I found his life fascinating I found the family fun and a day and time is illuminating and fascinating And that’s where things derail because I would’ve never gotten into drugs after he died I don’t know that Peter would if either I would’ve been depressed easily very depressed, but to be honest with you being normal street normal gay then we probably would’ve dated other people and I could see myself at least trying to MoveOn. Kind of like Jackie by my late 60s or 70s finding someone and it is sort of ending up in some sort of committed somewhat monogamous relationship with some man who may or may not be better than Jack I wouldn’t necessarily care I would just want the companionship and love and I might think you know what maybe this isn’t like Jack or maybe it’s better than Jack and I just don’t understand love yet And I would probably have it in a sense gotten remarried. I kind of think Peter would have to and yeah as much as it’s dark and dramatic as much as we love that I kind of don’t think it makes sense which is where I think people have gotten a little indulgent intellectually in the last 40 years it’s been dangerous because that’s that’s why biographies are usually boring that’s why autobiographies are usually boring because it’s reality and in the past people were very careful and so you end up just riding would actually happen which is fascinating especially if it’s a fascinating person but it’s rarely ever all that exciting and and I think I F Scott Fitzgerald noticed that that it’s for most people if not everybody there’s rarely ever this impossible love story that might actually literally be impossible and then another person falls apart anyway, and magically dies in a puddle of tears over nothing romance I mean, I’m not trying to say that I would have been in love with Jack, but I don’t think he would’ve been the love of my life and that would’ve been obvious semi Boaventura did that I don’t think that Linn was the love of Jack’s life but then something happened but that doesn’t really make any sense either. I I don’t then it’s like where did that person go? That’s insane I mean maybe it didn’t work out but that’s not how people are they don’t just have one dating relationship that works but doesn’t quite work in 1973 and then just give up completely for no reason that’s nuts because if it went so well, why wouldn’t they try it again that’s more normal human psychology and you can say well I guess I thought that it was just Jack or nothing why they had this wonderful experience are and so then it’s like no that doesn’t make any sense if if he had a relationship with someone else where is that person? Why did we write about them in that book? Why don’t we know about that? why don’t we know them by name why isn’t this person and he actually might even still been straight but if even if this is possible, where is this person where is this man? I’m not talking about some possible relationship and we have a name I’m talking about someone who has established that he was seen within public for years for yours in public so it’s like they went on trips together they went to parties together the Kennedys knew this man that’s what would’ve been required for this person to have existed and and then on top of that why didn’t it work? Why did that save lab from suicide? Why wasn’t he like I’m in a stable relationship maybe this won’t work but I want to keep trying because I’m at the end of the day. I feel like there’s hope I might find somebody I think maybe I need to just keep hanging on, no get back out there in the dating game. See if I can find somebody I mean you really think in New York City in the 70s and 80s and he could’ve found a boyfriend so then that’s where that doesn’t make sense and it really would make more sense if he was straight. Why did none of these relationships work out for him in the 18 years after Jack dies? They could’ve just not worked out that’s that’s pretty rare for a nice looking kind handsome man who is available in New York City who does drugs and parties and is open to not find somebody it’s possible but I feel like there’s something a little fucked up about that that’s actually kind of a big assumption.
And I think it goes so far that now he was probably straight and I mean he was straight. I can almost say with confidence as a journalist, and it seems like the Kennedys are desperate for him to be K like psychotically desperate.
I so I don’t think that’s real. I think Ploen was probably straight. It doesn’t really make any sense that he never found anybody or the people he found. It’s just like kind of a big nothing. It doesn’t last that doesn’t make an impression on him psychologically and then I go back to this relationship with Jack know I’m a gay man, so I’m sorry whoever is yelling at me from the Kennedys you can shut the fuck up I’ve had plenty of gay relationships that are stable. Bobby not just one night stands because I’m indulging myself. And I’m sorry if that’s harsh but it’s true. I’ve had actual gay relationships, Bobby and so now he’s going to insist that lamb was like him and that he wasn’t capable of a stable, gay relationship and that’s bullshit if he was capable of being with with Jack he was capable of being with somebody else to And it actually doesn’t the Barbie that doesn’t make any sense I’m so sick of that man and his bullshit.
So you know as a stable normal gay man if they exist I would’ve seen Jack as my youth you know, entertaining wild ride I would’ve looked sad at his wedding. It would’ve been in my eyes. You would’ve seen a picture of me half smiling and a half crying with no tears kind of like read possibly and I would’ve been seen as I guess one of his handsome boyfriends who is he just couldn’t commit to Who got used and then that would’ve been my youth and I would’ve moved on and probably dated somebody else but that’s that that’s her maybe David is a little excessive and his indulgence of his own artistic whims and fancy’s and he’s really writing more of a love story that’s not real it’s really more of a novel than a biography And it’s actually a fascinating novel but I don’t think it’s real. I think parts of it are somewhat authentic and somewhat actual historiography but I think it’s very indulgent. I think it’s very one-sided and I think he has an agenda and I I think that people are gonna have to except that some people have written stuff that seems very credible that isn’t And that’s not a no Republican conspiracy that unfortunately could just be the sad state of our intellectual affairs in the 20th late 20th early 21st century in there in the United States. I think we may actually be a little too antagonistic to intellectualism for all good.
So I I think I think it’s sad. I think he wrote a fairytale and part of it is biography, part of its fairytale because no, I’m sorry I wouldn’t have had that life trajectory. It would’ve been a far more boring book but I would’ve not had a tragic death I would’ve lived probably in a sad state, I might’ve got into some drugs but I probably would’ve ended up pretty stable by the 80s and sober and you would’ve seen me with some man and it would’ve been understood that we were in a relationship and I probably would’ve died in the 90s of cancer or something boring like that.” says Anderson Cooper.
“ there are a lot of gay man, Anderson, who never experience pleasure or bisexual man, who never experienced pleasure with Women and We’re narcissistic enough in some cases did not realize that that is just us not straight, and that straight men experience so much pleasure with women.” admits Andrew Tate.
“thank you for admitting that.” says Anderson Cooper.
“ so lame what we’re understanding is that it’s not just that you were mystified by your lack of desire and then re-traumatizing yourself with Jack It’s that you really didn’t understand what was happening and that’s really astounding to some people alive. Stay as someone could be that confused what is that kind of mistake common in your generation?” says the witch.
“ yes, there were a lot of us who had frightening misunderstandings of things. There were some people who believed that if you had intercourse standing up, it wouldn’t get you pregnant and those were not necessarily stupid people. There were some people who sincerely believed that if you eat a salad with your with your food that you lose weight even if you had tons of fat on the salad that somehow you’d still lose weight if you’re eating salads. There were people who thought that if you got drunk and slept with someone, they were less likely to get pregnant because your sperm would be pickled. We’re not a stupid generation really but we had some frightening misunderstandings of things and yes, Lacey is one of us were really not stupid though keep that in mind our kids misunderstood that about us we’re really not just dumb, dumb dumb people we sincerely just didn’t understand.” says Lem.
“ could you have ever without being an evil hearted person repress yourself?” says the witch.
“ yes but that’s not Lacey. What should actually be obvious you can’t just make this is what you guys do possibly you can’t keep you can’t overgeneralize things. Your generation tends to try to make up hacks for stuff. You guys overgeneralized off way too much, and Genzie is worse it’s like oh you drink, oat milk you’re gay, it’s like what is this giving that is even a thing that that’s no way to analyze somebody but they have that absurd obsessive bizarre, almost perverse need for shortcuts for everything in my opinion I care about them, but it pisses me off intellectually how sloppy and lazy they are in analyzing things. I might blame the Internet and Wikipedia and Internet, and yeah and technology in their defense but that’s a different conversation. I really didn’t have desire for men I really didn’t. I did him I did understand things, but I was confused and I really was not aware that men felt things for each other in the way that they do.” says Lem.
Peter Thiel nods. “ would that have grossed you out?”
“ yes it actually would have but I would have been hateful about it. I wasn’t a hateful person, but I would’ve been grossed out and I would’ve thought that this isn’t what I signed up for so speak and I would’ve just sort of stop myself and that would wait a minute I’m gay, but this is gross and then maybe an actually to be honest Peter that was part of what happened in the 70s, I started picking up on that that men were desiring each other because I would see them maybe not at studio 54 but not necessarily not. I might’ve seen them in the 70s and realized the day that they were there or something weird going on because I might not have seen a lot of that before, even the pornography it wasn’t the same thing as watching two men who fell in love with each other Ito dance together when they were high so it’s possible that I saw that it’s also possible that I saw other things to really men going on dates with other and sort of shady or will say areas of New York City you know with their hands and others jeans smiling being you know with people to call cute but it was very clear that they were very obsessed with each other and that was shocking to me possibly in the 70s and I thought what the heck is that that that that what the heck is that oh, and then combined with the counseling that I might’ve tried to get into and you know my family is concerned about me and my own depression and then you know my porn section that was straight. It really was what I was at a peep show and I’m possibly on 42nd St. oh that might’ve been near there I think it was near there will say perfect. I know that it was near there possibly any more rundown peep show at 3 o’clock in the morning I I literally had an epiphany where I realized that I was straight and that was pretty hard to take and that was in my last year or two of life potentially or close to that that’s what she hears it might’ve been. Seay might’ve been earlier than that, but it might not have been. It might’ve been actually a 1980 or 1981 and I just I couldn’t handle it anymore I just couldn’t handle it. I thought this is awful. My life is awful. I’d rather just be dead on, but yeah I didn’t know I was not necessarily aware and I am right I really did see things things that shocked me as time went on it’s like why didn’t you say that in the 50s and 60s lab I just didn’t not really it looks like love back then very sort of pristine love between Matt Moore yeah K no I don’t I never really I don’t think I ever really saw anyone even at wild sex orgies in Los Angeles. No I don’t think I ever saw gay men making love to really or trying to make love whatever that would be I never saw that I saw I saw them you know finally regarding each other maybe holding hands, maybe looking into each other‘s eyes sweetly I might not realize it was more than sweetly and then later, when I saw them grabbing each other‘s butts and walking around it’s like, oh my word that’s what I imagine myself doing with my wife every night before I fall asleep I’m not making this up it’s like that’s the sexuality that I have for women no really that’s the sexuality that I have for women and they’re doing that and they’re both alive or they’re both real and they’re walking around like that and it was really shocking and then yes, I also saw straight people who were being more obvious with how they felt about each other and yeah it was very startling to me, very startling, and I really it was very very jarring and then in my last year or two I finally put all the dots together, possibly and realized that I was on realize that I was straight.” says Lem.
“ there are some lesbians right now or women that are wondering if they’re lesbians reading this blog who are wondering if they’re gonna experience that and there that’s not Lacey but there I am seeing it on an Asian woman who’s wondering that and you know what maybe maybe I have a feeling she did swimming already but I wonder if she’s worried that she’s going to realize that it was never the same thing with men and that she just was going along with people and that it was always just that she was a lesbian do you know what if that’s the case I don’t know who I’m talking to worst case scenario whoever you are you’re a lesbian you’ve dated women I get the sense I feel like this one isn’t like her 30s or 40s and she seems Asian you’ve dated women that’s good if you’re at I mean I think that’s good. Lacey might not but I’m not Lacey and maybe you’ll die and realize that you never met your your wife so to speak, but then at least you tried and I feel like it’s a little less depressing than them because you at least knew somewhat and you weren’t being held hostage by someone who is using you maybe you think you were for a few years with different boyfriends but you’re not controlling your whole life so you can you know I don’t I’m just saying that because I get sick of us with people thinking that they’re empathizing with her with or not they’re competing with her. Yeah I’m sure you can relate to let it be careful seven people can and then some people just think they can and maybe they slightly can but not really OK?” says an Illuminati psychic.
“ I don’t think that Jack is all that educated and someways and I think he thought that lame looks gay, but I don’t think he knows what men look like the way he thinks he does partially because he was never exposed to Jews. His father never let him beat juice. I’m hell lobe and lamb. Look a little bit a Lake also Jack was not old money he was new money and so he never met people like Lacey‘s relatives in the south or Paul Turton and so I don’t think he understands lambs chin line or his eyes or his sweetness. I don’t think he gets any of that and he thinks it’s all just gay and it’s not.” says another witch.
“ there are southern white people who are cracking up because they have a feeling Jackie given his tendencies with the most southern man or white or gay. I think he described a lot of things that are straight and southern to being gay, which makes me wonder what the whole character of Aiden is all about with his chicken and his belly jack if you did help write that series with the hell is Aidans thing with chicken it’s weird it’s not straight it’s weird.” says a Hart.
“ oh yeah, I think there are a lot of straight man who looks like lime really him like a lot in his generation with his GEN and his mannerisms his bone structure’s, but I don’t think that they ate I don’t think I did. I don’t think they understand but that’s just straight but it’s a it’s mean the Kennedys were in a sophisticated they think they were. I don’t think they met a lot of American men, and they were really very sheltered and very sort of narrow in their perspective they saw people who could do some thing for them. They didn’t turn the whole country really analyzing things and I don’t think they ever figured it out because now there are there are men who have come out of the grave, practically who look like lot who are straight and St Paul who can vouch for him being straight and it’s just like no that’s he look straight Lacey’s right he’s straight he has a straight phone structure. His facial features are actually very straight Eric there’s something about them that could be K but actually not really he he is not the most attractive man according to some people, he had a neckline that was not ideal. I’m just being blunt. He had a strong chin though, and I think people have thought that combination of his strong GEN and his neck was gay. It’s not it’s a genetic thing that Lacey slightly has that’s probably more just old I don’t think it has anything to do with homosexuality and she finds him attractive. I have a feeling it looks better in person than it photographed because there are certain pictures where he looks extremely attractive and it’s sort of the English sort of aristocratic look but it’s not gay. It’s not some thing that was gay I think it’s just his gym line, what would a gauge in line look like to be honest possibly more like Jack possibly Bobby possibly Peter Thiel there is a similarity between all of them and their chin. Be careful with analyzing it you don’t want to assume but I think there are some traits and I am sorry he doesn’t have them.” says a White Eugenics expert.
“ oh, OK so let’s just assume for a minute that llama Street why are we still angry? why do we want to think that he was gay? What’s making us angry right now?” says a witch.
“ you know I think Lacey we knew you were well off but people lie when they look at your stuff they still do in the last few weeks you’ve shown us bottles that are arguably worth thousands of dollars but then we think well she’s finding them for cheap, and we refuse to except that you could sell them and you’re choosing not to and then you never have financial problems that are that serious if at all which says that it’s like you’re not a totally dysfunctional person you could afford them you might be finding them for cheap but you can afford to keep them so we’re in denial about that and I think a lot of people were reading your sweetness and your beauty, the wrong way because you are exceptionally beautiful but I truly believe she doesn’t photograph well and so it was obvious that she was pretty but I don’t think we understood how breathtakingly beautiful she actually is and was. Casi should’ve never been comparing herself to you. It was an insulting thing to do she’s ugly as fuck compared to you. I think she thought you had some thing in common and your smile but that’s a joke you’re breathtakingly beautiful at perfect in a way that she’s not able to afford to be And never was able to be her crooked teeth. Are poor peoples crooked teeth, your crooked teeth or what happens when you don’t take care of your teeth and anyone that knows what they’re looking at could say that Lacey‘s teeth shifted Casi‘s teeth were never fixed and now that her teeth aren’t even remotely as pretty as Lacey’s. I’m sorry the smile isn’t even the same. You’re very different people and that was so fucking obvious. But I think Casi liked Lacey and couldn’t process that and so she made it something stupid like bisexuality in Lacey that doesn’t exist because she couldn’t except that she was just getting along with this person.
so no that is the problem though you guys did antagonize her and still do maybe not as much anymore but you’ve been up until very recently. You guys are antagonizing her but I I am sorry, but I don’t think any of you are as old money as she is or has much money and your proximity as she does, there could be some people who are worth more than her but I’ll be cautious and saying that considering the oil and considering everything else I I think you guys are delusional and she burst your delusion and you lashed out at her.” says the CIA.
“ that being said, people have given you guys a lot of empathy because I think we thought you were the underdogs and it’s like you’re evil and narcissistic, but am there a lot of left-wing people who thought you guys were the people who should be given sympathy purely because you’re the poor people in the situation and they’re very black-and-white and regressive and stupid and that way very on sophisticated but they like to think they’re super sophisticated and they’re not. It’s stupid as fuck. So I have a feeling there are some perfume people who’ve gotten confused and thought that she was lying or that there was something sympathetic about them there isn’t, and that way you guys are just assholes, who thought way too highly of yourselves and compared to like in comparison to actual old money or actual aristocracy. That being said, why did we want to give you Waze too much all the liberal activists in the illuminati why do we want to help you people because we thought you guys deserved it because we assumed that Lacey was experiencing some sort of narcissistic hi that I don’t know that she was experiencing I was letting a psychic talk and that person I think it was busy or had to leave so now I’m just a psychic in the illuminati the song is that I’m going to invite you to try to enjoy feeling better than the Casi.” says a psychic.
Lem laughs
The Way I Are by Timbaland plays.
Lacey thinks.
The music stops at 0:41.
“Hold on! why am I better than her?“ says Lacey.
“ let’s see oh shit because of class yes do you have this you’re kinder and better and and and sort of divine right.” says the psychic.
The song starts again.
Lacey thinks.
“ am I supposed to kill her then?” says Lacey. “That’s what it feels like.”
“ OK hold on.” says the psychic.
1:07 the music stops.
“ OK that’s not what we’re going for your supposed to be getting into that that feeling of superiority.” says the psychic.
“ but that superiority doesn’t make sense to me. I’ve never thought it through in this way I was always waiting for someone to explain it back to me. I get where I am superior in a sort of divine right way, but you guys have just been sadistically obsessively attacking me for the last 10 years I’ve never processed this. Why am I better than her in this way?” says Lacey.
“Umm…” says Chris.
“ because you’re just better!” says Casi.
“ all right but what does that mean? I literally have been waiting for someone to explain this back to me and you people just jump away from the conversation. It’s not necessarily my fault I’m not immature. We’ve been avoiding this conversation for 10 years and you’re obsessively attacking me psychically because you think that that’s making you powerful 24 7% for 10 years like a bunch of freaks with some sort of stocking disorder. This isn’t necessarily my fault that I haven’t process this work with me you fucking idiot!” says Lacey.
Bobby shakes in fear.
“ he or you a man right now, old woman?” says the bimbo aging Hippie.
“ I am a woman I am just stronger and more Alys than you. That’s the whole divine right thing you little stupid bitch! Now fucking use your brain!” yells Lacey. “ I don’t normally talk like this, but you’ve taken away all my filters with your stupid ass bullshit so deal with it you little bitch!!!” yells Lacey.
“ oh, OK fine I get why you’re angry at a humanitarian level I understand that you were saying little bitch to me only if I deserve it I actually appreciate the seeming pedantic nature of your assault that may not be assault. It is more self-defense if not completely self-defense and I apologize, um OK so you’re supposed to be feeling superior you’re supposed to be feeling superior Lacey like you’re supposed to be feeling superior.” she says.
“ why?” says Lacey.
“ because you’re superior.” she says.
“ how why?” says Lacey.
She thinks. “ I think this is more other peoples thing. I don’t think you even get it, but you know that it exists and you’re trying to join us and experience it with us without knowing what it is so the idea sweetie is that you’re better than her and it’s just like she’s just ugly nothing compared to you like really like who gives a crap about her.” she says.
“ that’s just like nonsense, though no one really thinks that that’s nonsense that psychological bullshit.” says Lacey.
Lem laughs.
“ OK so you don’t believe that that’s real?” she says.
JD Rockefeller laughs.
“ no 888 I think somewhere along the line I decided that that was just a fairytale written by sadistic weirdos. I’d I didn’t think that was a real phenomena that anyone would be that stupid as to think that that’s a thing.” says Lacey.
“ then what is this based on Lacey your argument of superiority to us? What is it based off of?” says Casi.
“ my actual superiority, my divine right you’re gaslighting me that I’m not smarter than you. I’m sorry I’m smarter than you. I’m smarter than you.” says Lacey.
The song plays.
1:29 it stops.
“ hold on you actually think some of us are just absolute trash like genetically like genetic trash?” says a witch.
“ you are.” says Bill Gates.
“ yeah I’ve got to listen if you might be I think you can be redeemed through Christ but I think there are some people unfortunately who have bad genes and if they have a good heart, then you know that’s the trouble people who have bad jeans and a good heart, but there are some people who they’re just genetically troubled and they don’t have a good heart.” says Lacey.
“and you thought I might be one of those people but you weren’t sure and you’re giving me the benefit of the doubt and then when I blasted you and violated your boundaries, you started to think I was just one of those people.” says Casi.
“ yes very much so argue against that it could be I could be wrong with doesn’t mean that my impression of reality is wrong. I’m sorry.” says Lacey.
Putin nods in agreement with her.
The song plays.
“Are we this man?” says a living poor Black man with a hood heart.
“YES!!!” says Lacey, as Scotia, if there’s reincarnation.
He nods. “And you are concerned about us. And…in your rage…at being pushed over the edge…you have decided it’s worthless to keep arguing. …Because you feel bad for us. And always have. …But them damn nigger Kennedys. And…*He shakes his head like a Black mother* You…are ready. And…you are bringing us to Heaven.” he says.
“That is very close to her heart for people.” says God.
“No. A good Black mom? …Don’t go there!” says a woman.
The song restarts.
“So it’s riots?” says a Black preacher.
“YES!! In LA.” says a dead white woman from West Virginia.
The song ends.
“See the problem is Casi you thought you were better than Lacey in that narcissistic way the whole perfume community did and then your narcissistic bubble was burst and so you assumed that she felt that way about you and she never did.” explains the Illuminati.
“So you really think that’s just narcissistic delusion?” says the aging Hippie.
“I know it is!
You could look at it from a Divine Right perspective like I do, and then there’s a sort of morality to it, that I may have thought, or may not have thought the whole time, depending on whether or not there’s reincarnation so by a sort of Divine Right I may actually be superior and then it’s my duty to kill her or lead her and that’s all it is there’s no pride beyond sort of a gloriousness for Christ.
This sort of delusion of her just being icky poo poo that you all have? You’ll have to explain to me how that’s not just insanity and nonsense because I don’t see how there’s anything scientific or rational about it at all.” says Lacey.
No Diggity by Blackstreet plays.
“Well because she is icky poo-poo compared to you and a lot of other people unfortunately.” says Katy Perry.
“How!? She is inferior, she’s inferior, but I don’t understand how she’s icky poo poo.” says Lacey.
“I completely agree with her.” says Queen Elizabeth II.
“No my generation would’ve understood that there are inferior people but they’re not that-to be just thrown in the gutter. What the hell are you people thinking?” says Lem.
“But then she becomes icky poo poo!” says Katy Perry.
“How? How did she become icky poo poo? See that’s childish nonsense.” says Lacey.
“Lacey, they don’t understand micro evolution, and evolution the way that you do.” says a Black man.
Casi nods, in agreement with him.
Jimmy Carter laughs.
“So why do you think she’s inferior?” says Katy Perry.
“Be-because, because I think that her genes unfortunately are on her father’s side are bad. I have a feeling her father was an asshole based on what she has said about him. Her parents had a bad marriage. Her father had bad genes, probably. His parents probably had bad genes! …There could’ve been some bad genes in her mother‘s family, but maybe not quite as much…and unfortunately they weren’t strong enough to withstand her father’s bad genes and so she has a combination of whatever good genes her mother has, and then her father’s bad genes dominated at times. And my sense is that his family were greedy, conniving, and probably a little stupid. And umm…I think that’s unfortunately what she’s like a little. She’s greedy and conniving and stupid, but then she may also have good traits from her mother and some sort of redeemable humanity left in her…and umm…that could be why people got so confused by her. See to me it’s a simple thing, it’s like whatever you sympathize with was probably her mother genetically and the part that you just whitewashed was probably her father and then you thought that you know the whole thing was just redeemable by Satan? Well that’s nonsense.
She has her father’s bad genes and her mother’s good genes and I have no idea why you chose to pit her father’s bad genes against me because I kind of felt like we were getting along somewhat and then you guys just made the whole thing infinitely worse because you felt sorry for her evil. And it’s insane! And that’s probably where a lot of southern people got mad at you all because they thought this is exactly what they do to us. We have something worked out that was hard to work out and then they just come right along and fuck everything up.” says Lacey.
Day ‘N’ Nite (nightmare) by Kid Cudi plays.
“OK so you’re not you’re not you’re not experiencing a narcissistic. high? Then what was it?” says the CIA.
“You’re not going to like this because it’s going to make her seem ditzy and lovable.” says Elsie Hill.
“She is actually very much a romantic like F Scott Fitzgerald.” says Jerome Hill. “So what she was actually thinking existed that does exist, but not quite the way that she assumed- Ahh…let’s see how do I explain this!? God help me!
*He thinks*
no I’m irritating Helena Bonham Carter right now because she just wants to pull the whole plug on the thing and say Lacey’s reincarnated and you confused her so if that’s what’s in the Bible yes that’s what happened when she was looking at Ivana on television Ivana, with her wealth, reminded her of wealth, Tom banks but then also her dead family in great Britain because they were so wealthy and so Ivana reminded her of a lot of the grand ladies of the 1800s in the Gilded Age and so she listen to what she was saying and took it really seriously and thought that that what we were doing was sort of like him like confused dinner party for lack of a better way to explain it a confused dinner party if there’s reincarnation and Putin very much understands release, he is coming from a and that’s part of how he fell in love with her because they have the same thing in their head they remember the same experiences of balls, epic balls, huge balls, and glorious ballrooms in Russia for him but she remember seeing that just some degree in 1800s Scotland so watch the original little women and the parties that they have with the dresses and that’s what Lacey grew up seeing because that’s about when she was alive is the 1860s and 70s when she was a really little girl. It was well it wasn’t quite that it was a decade or two after the end of Little women, but it was around that time, so those ballgowns and the lights and the candles and the silver and Leah love has some of that in his memory to obviously and if there’s not reincarnational, it could be a genetic memory for her maybe even for Putin but definitely for her and definitely for them because they’re old money and that I’m not even convinced that Anderson Cooper has an empathize with her because he remembers it too, and his DNA so they automatically instinctively understand that she’s just confused to but if there’s been carnation even know she’s confused so as a little girl, looking for a role model in a mommy, she and her sweet spirited love her life and God that she had thought Ivana was someone to emulate possibly because Ivana is actually slightly like Margie not completely, but slightly a and Ivana might have actually loved her children and Marty might have two somewhat so I think Lacey got confused and thought that the sort of grander was kind of on a sense of superiority over other people was somehow a thing that the loving adults were doing that it was somehow a loving thing there was something very Christian and redemptive about it.” says Jerome Hill.
“ OK so in a sense she liked me because I have that same posh sort of aesthetic?” says Casi.
“ yes and it wasn’t sexual sweetie. She thought you were she thought you were an ad mirable person because you reminded her of all the women who seem to have their head on straight. I think Ivana would’ve raised her kids or aborted them. I don’t think she would’ve ever put a child in the situation that Lacey is in, so I can see why Lacey admired her but that’s that’s that’s where this came from is this she thought know these people know what they’re doing and I can’t quite figure it out but I’m going to.” says Jerome.
“ the gay community, unfortunately is responsible arm. The trumps manifested, because we are pushing things too far with Lon Billings. You might not believe that I do as a psychic, and you and illuminati we defiled his gravestone. He had a sort of separateness from the Kennedys because he was buried with his family, and it was sort of understood that something it happened, but no one was sort of boundary violating. They weren’t going and fucking up his grave, and then David Pitts wrote his shit novel and David Pitts wrote his shit novel based on bullshit and spirits of fuck legalism and pedophilia got fucked up the ass because which is good but they’re angry at Lacey because it is unfortunately spirits of legalism and pedophilia they got angry at her when the trumps manifested.
Because they were controlling Lacey and controlling her life for her parents their parents or parents are very legalistic at times and controlling and very pedophilic, and she was her life was just in the trashy, but I think as long as we kept him as long as we kept sort of leaving Lum‘s grave alone, it’s like there was sort of a even keel little equilibrium because it’s like OK her life is in the trash, her butt when she dies She’ll be OK and there was a separate nurse. She had old money and her family even though her life was awful and it was sort of understood that things were just gonna work out somehow when she died.
But then the problem is that they went too far defiling his grave!  And they also went too far defiling his character in history. And for some reason it just was too much. It just was too much evil. It was just too much. I think it made his family angry because they kind of got brainwashed and bullied into thinking he was gay when they knew he wasn’t. So something tells me they’re mad. 
So they’re mad and Donald had wanted to run for a while, and I think some people in heaven had been putting up with stuff but then, when lambs grave was defiled, and David hits, his book came out, I think there were too many dead people who got too angry at the liberals, to be honest. Because it was just too much of a travesty Jack was very obviously a blatant, narcissist. He was worse than Donald Trump. He treated people worse than Donald Trump does within his inner circle. He was more abusive than Donald Trump. As much as you hate Donald Trump in the liberal circles. Jack was actually a far more evil. Sinister snake the Donald Trump, as a man. Donald is sinister, but he actually does care, and he might not know everything but he’s not necessarily as evil hearted as Jack was Jack was possibly very evil almost Perryville in his heart do you masqueraded as a good person and I’m not sure there was much good to him at all that was sincere. And I don’t care how his family feels about it they’re going to have to deal with that reality someday sooner than later, and I’m not here to keep placating them and patronizing them, and their stupidity. But I’m sorry there’s no fucking way that the jack and limb bullshit makes sense, and you have gay men chorus of south Florida, and a lot of other gullible gay men who are probably not intellectual and aren’t thinking it through an art realizing that your story doesn’t make sense I would that 90% of the people who read the David Pittsburgh never realized that it doesn’t make sense. Jack is too narcissistic to have a functional relationship with Lon Billings. As David Pitts describes it the book the whole premise is fucked up nonsense, and it’s very misogynistic and gay men’s part to not realize that being a gay man does it make you immune to narcissism and another man. That is misogynistic brainwashing bullshit. It is, that’s not a thing. The whole historical thing doesn’t work with those two. It’s David Pitts. His perspective is just a farce to begin with and there could be some actual historiography because he’s right there’s not evidence necessarily to suggest that something happened, but there’s some bullshit to that too because there is Jack did write sexual stuff to lame often And lame never really necessarily responded in a way that would confirm really confirm that he was gay it’s debatable and even if he did it still could you still might’ve been straight but actually I don’t think there was anything there, but there is for Jack Jack looks sexual lame does not in every picture they take together And people assume that Jack just has a sense of humor no Jack is obviously the sexual aggressor I mean that’s what it looks like it maybe that’s too much of assumption but that’s what it looks like so the homophobic controlling backward nature of the David Pitts novel I’m gonna call it and Louisville yards actual novel based on his asshole I guess I don’t know is just nonsense. It’s pure fucking nonsense at best.
But there are a lot of people who read those books and took them to Hart straight and gay both, and it’s in their subconscious now and those people got together, seemingly and changed love Blum’s grave with a fake head stout that doesn’t even look good. It is actually really a travesty, but I think they thought they were doing some thing, progressive and loving, but it’s not. I don’t know if his family likes that or thought it was disturbing but it is extremely disturbing from a psychic perspective and I’m sorry but if you’re mad at the Trump family for manifesting that’s how it happened Lacey was looking for a female role model, and I think people like Ivana or possibly even Ivana became her role model literally as a little girl and she had no idea what she was doing Which could’ve angered a lot of other people and powerful positions too so she was emulating the Trump’s being horrifically, abused and bullied and neglected, but strong as can be kind, loving and normal very resilient, probably superior genetically, baby spiritually opinion how you and I don’t know how God organized things And then the trump family became connected to her so when they defiled his grave, they manifested as an extremely powerful family sort of replacing the Kennedys, because it just went too far things just got to be too evil, and in the Kennedy family in that realm of thinking oh I don’t know who you’ve set possibly some abolitionists possibly oh my gosh possibly Abraham Lincoln himself possibly the Roosevelts I think we made a lot of people very angry The Rockefellers if they have an income on if it’s seriously if Michael died and his sister has been an agonizing grief and then they the Kennedys sacrificed Michael and they just looked the other way because I thought well it’s war were the Rockefellers we’re not stupid we understand and then it’s just I think it’s just a dick accumulated it and you know the girls dying Marilyn dying and then they shot Jack but she still dead anyway and Arthur miller was probably a grave because of it for the rest of his life that can you try to understand how big this thing is just try try please try to have a fucking brain.
So basically, you guys fucked everything up in the in the gay world OK I’m not saying that you meant to, but you guys really royally fucked up with a whole lame thing and I’m mad about it because I have a feeling this is literally what happened They’ve manifested and taken over all the spiritual authority that the Kennedys hat so because the gay community shit on mom‘s grave and fucked Lacey in the face with their bullshit and their misogyny we are now stuck with the traps replacing the Kennedys can you understand why I am angry or is that just too hard for you?” says a Liberal psychic in the Illuminati.
“ so you’re angry because you think we’re misogynistic bullshit artist and we should’ve realized that Jack was a dysfunctional nitwit and so the whole storyline of lemming in love with him is a farce there was something else going on?” says a gay Getty.
“ yeah that is what I’m saying. Congratulations as a man you figured it out. Why don’t you put your certified gay male stamp of approval on it and then we’ll really get things done!” she bites.
“ I don’t think we’re that bad I’m not sure how the Gettys feel about it but I don’t think we’re that terrible. I am happy to replace the Kennedys I I did not like falling down the stairs. I didn’t feel that much pain because I died I never had to recover. It was terrifying, but then I blacked out, Lacey had it worse. She didn’t experience the pain either right away but it is scary falling down the stairs. You have no control over your body and then she came to and she’s never been the same sense I died which sounds more horrific but that’s really just fear of the unknown and fear of death.
Hi, I understand why she ambulated me slightly. She’s not a Golddigger but I think some people have maybe thought she was because she’s imitated golddiggers like me who aren’t really golddiggers they’re more intellectuals, but I mean I was actually sort of a businesswoman and she knows that, but people thought of me as a Golddigger, and I was somewhat, and I was actually slightly proud about it, because that’s how I saw the world at a very dark day of the world, but she could sense that I was loving and that I loved beauty and I love being beautiful and I do and I did I know I can see why she looked up to me, but we actually feel very differently about things. She’s not my daughter I am I feel very very differently about a lot, but that, but no I don’t. I’m not repulsed by the fact I’m complemented by the fact that she looked up to me so much.” says Ivana Trump.
“ oh, that’s interesting so Ivana, Trump and women like her were her surrogate, maternal role models!??” says Chris Hayes.
The CIA nods.
“ hey you know I think a man can’t handle honey how weird we are lesbians are lesbians just bite the bullet and except that they’re weird we have a hard time with that and so I think we’ve clung to men like lab who are confused and straight to feel less weird but that’s one theory that I have but I think that’s weak and we probably need to just stand on our own 2 feet.” says Anderson Cooper.
“ do we remind you of Rupert Brock like all of us if you’re not assuming we’re like Jack and P are evil?” says the Getty
“ if there is reincarnation yes and then I feel scared and bad for you because I just think what the heck are they sick? Are they sad are they just are they just different are they happy?” says Lacey.
“ OK wow so you decided Ivana Trump was mommy she’s like Barbie but strong and not stupid and actually pretty not plastic him OK and then I am intrigued by your view of the world.” says Dan Levy, laughing.
“ there’s nothing she can do. Sincerely, she needed a lot of empathy, but she’s not stupid and she’s very resilient, and she means well but genuinely almost nobody has ever given that to her.” says Jerome Hill.
“ this is not this is fascinating, so so Ivana is mom in your mind Elsie what is she thinking is happening then?” says Dan.
“ so so Ivana is on the woman who wouldn’t be mean to her. Her mother was mean to her for being so pretty like she really wants who raised her but if she is actually a legitimate, Margie did paint her fingernails or her toes, a light, pink color and I got in Lacey‘s head that that actual maternal love feels that way, so she was looking for women who were like that who were really according to some people shallow but the way that her mother might’ve been at times so it’s like no you have to look nice all the time and then Lacey was like if I look nice, will you love me basically and a woman like Ivana being from Eastern Europe and just not giving a shit about certain pretensions and more or less going with her heart like an actual intellectual, because I think that was by choice and not stupidity and ignorance on her part was just like well whatever sure I guess you’re trying to be pretty. I understand that. I relate to it as a woman, you’re a cute little girl. Yeah I’ll hold you in my lap and give you a hug and a real smile and make you actually feel excepted and loved as a person even if it’s just because you’re trying to be pretty like me so even if we’re just being shallow together, you know, secretly, I really do love you slightly, and so then that’s how it works so that got into Lacey’s head with women like Ivana not every shallow woman not every narcissistic woman, but women who are like Ivana, who actually have a somewhat good heart, and are intelligent life of a real gold diggers those are the woman who she’s sort of became mother and buy a little tiny bits and pieces here and there.” says Elsie. “ I was like that myself slightly, which is how Lacey and I get along, and I felt bad attacking her because I am one of those women myself somewhat. I was a bit of a Golddigger, but I was into things like you know, nail polish and looking pretty and that as part of Lacey’s psychology, was it supposed to be nurtured in a more healthy way? Well, of course it was but those people never showed up it was women like me and Ivana, who allowed her to be herself and process her sexual abuse in a healthy way, and process her own self in a healthy way, and sort of develop an identity that was sane and authentic. so yeah, we helped raise her in her subconscious and that may be part of the reason why her soulmates are so extraordinary, lemon her I think we’re always meant to be together but he wasn’t necessarily you know Harrell lobe or Louis Hill, Junior or Elliot Roosevelt the irony of horses that if Thomas her dad, those are the men she might’ve ended up with anyway but then that’s the thing she was looking for an authentic mother and she’s a genius little girl so she found women who were pretty close to her mother, but not quite her mother but pretty close. and so if she seems like princess Kate that’s partially because they had a similar upbringing but they’re different people to Kates mother their family are coal miners working class people, but they were so much proud of that or they were very it’s like that’s part of who they are to that’s not Lacey‘s upbringing that’s not a Vanna that’s not a lot of these other women at Macy’s like you’re so sexual she might say to Ivana and then Ivana would say no of course I am kind of that’s just my aesthetic and Lacey‘s like well that’s cool you’ve got it figured out and that’s interesting because-
Because I wanna does have it figured out she didn’t understand she would’ve understood and does understand Lacey somewhat but that could actually be the banks in Lacey because her aunt Jana On owns a clothing store and Lacey would’ve been friends with Lauren Bacall and someone on good terms with Bette Davis actually, so that is sort of that auntie Mame Attitude that Elliot finds very fascinating. He married someone like that but that that’s Lacey. Oh Lacey‘s interpretation of Ivana is kind of like auntie Mame. She sees Ivana as auntie Mame, and thinks that woman has it all figured out to some degree and she is refreshing with her strength and determination to just live. And then that’s where Lacey becomes sort of old Bonnie and that’s different than Kate and her mother I did it I mean that’s what I thought I was trying to do was fit in with old money and with aristocratic people that was their whole aesthetic, and so then Lacey sees that things will but you’re not really old money You’re more just a model, but I like the fact that you understand the silliness of certain things kind of like auntie Maywood and then that’s where Lacey identified with these women so strongly because they just they were so free. They’re so liberated from a lot of bullshit.” says Jerome.
“ why is Dolly Parton on bad terms with Lacey because I would think they would get along.” says a reader.
“ because Dolly is sexually perverse and liberal, and Ivana is a Republican and even if she became perverse if she did she may not of she had a farm or a orthodox Christian frankly correct view of things sorry to be harsh.” says Jerome.
“ OK so she is imitating her role models who are golddiggers, but she doesn’t realize that because this was when she was a child and she didn’t have any of that figured out because she was a little girl.” says the CIA.
“ yes and she is Scotia or she is a doppelgänger doppelgänger for Scotia sincerely.” says all of Germany.
“ OK and I’m going to approach it like that because I suspect that’s just trip Lacey those are golddiggers.” says Dan Levy.
“ I like them though.” says Lacey.
“ no I hear you they are very liberated and free and sophisticated to and worldly and fun they don’t have they know how to have fun but the rest of us don’t act like that or think like that.” says Dan.
“ well, then I would rather be dead.” says Lacey.
“ indeed, but you’re not him what is so terrible about being like me for instance and I know that I’m not a woman, but what would be so terrible about being like me?” says Dan.
“ you’re not who I am I am not like that I like you I actually really like you, but I’m not like you I’m more like that.” says Lacey
“ it just feels weird and uncomfortable to try to be like me. OK I hear you you don’t have to be like me I hear you we’re just talking and counseling but I don’t know if you entirely know what I mean so like I know you’re not like me, but like I like to think of myself as liberated, but I’m just not as, I’m not as interested in money.” says Dan.
“And I think that’s complete bullshit. I think you’re just as interested in money as she is.” says Lacey.
He laughs. Nods.
“ what if she’s right I think she does like you, but I think you seem repressed to her.” says Melania.
“ see I don’t think of myself as depressed. I think of myself as independent and levelheaded and grounded, or something like that, but it looks repressed to you, or for you would feel repressive?” says Dan.
“ yes I would rather just be dead and I don’t mean that as an insult to you I I can’t be like you I’m just not like that I’m sorry.” says Lacey.
“ which would be why when this whole thing started conservative men automatically understood her because we got the sub textual subconscious reference do I wanna Melania and other women who are like her who we know who are probably not awful people they might be decent mothers they might actually very intelligent but they’re conservative usually or they marry Republican men or men who are very wealthy she’s not really a liberal Golddigger. She’s more of a Republican Golddigger or whatever Ivana was and that’s interesting because love I think actually kind of likes that slightly. I think he thinks it’s an interesting aesthetic but the nursery guys have to stop thinking he’s gay because this was a man who went to peep shows in New York City at 3 AM because he was a millionaire but he was straight and he ruined his life. He went to Choate. He went to Princeton. He went to Harvard. His family didn’t have money because they lost their money in the great depression will say, and it will actually was in the stock market crash of world war two will say but that’s not Lacey that’s me she’s more intelligent than that. She wants to say it was in the stock market crash of 1929, but that’s the thing they lost their money but they were wealthy and prestigious. OK so that was a good old boy lamb was a straight, confused good old boy who enable Jack and his old stupid good old boy mentality I don’t think he was really a misogynist, though I think he was more something that Lacey understands and Ivana probably understood that I don’t think I do, Skippy Handelman is not a good old boy. Neither is Alex Kayden, but llamas and so he went to P shows at 3 o’clock in the morning and yet he was fully capable of being faithful to his wife but I think that’s where Lacey is not someone that we understand OK Putin understands her but why wouldn’t he? He’s like that too they do these men do you think differently than us and they’re not Tucker Carlson Tucker Carlson is sort of a derivation of that but he’s not quite as authentic as she is or as llamas. The bushes are the middle class Episcopalian version of that what she is and what llamas is possibly a large part died out but Louis was that to some degree those men still kind of exist, and I think Woody Allen has secretly always wanted to be one of them or fit in with those men.
Oh, which is interesting I think F Scott Fitzgerald was sort of like that and yet not because of his Irish Ness and his fathers problems with money but that’s interesting isn’t it because I think we’ve got very confused over the years but who these people are but not love was a good old when he was straight and so he likes a woman who’s like Ivana Who is ditzy and doesn’t look down on him for doing that him and I have no idea what that means that is a sexuality that is exotic to me. It’s very old it’s very different and I don’t think it’s narcissistic. I don’t think it’s non-monogamous either I think those two are very monogamous, but I just don’t. I don’t think we understand why she’s not offended by that Because she’s not there’s something about her mentality where it’s like. Oh yeah, I went to peep shows at 3 AM in New York City because I was suicidal and a heroin addict my 60s. At least he’s like oh I understand her and then you know she expects him to be entirely faithful and and sober, and you know what he would’ve been entirely faithful and sober. I know he’s not autistic they’re really just that different.
But no, he likes her and Elliot did too, and I wouldn’t be surprised if Michael and Louis do slightly, Harold might slightly to like her wildness, which is really more Hollywood than Zelda Zelda was old money, but she was I think more of a proper, southern young lady, and Lacey Lacey is more of a glamour girl ha ha because her father was in Hollywood and she would’ve been friends with Lauren Bacall And friends with Betty Davis but she’s a born-again Christian and she’s yeah she’s more like the trumps in that way I really think her father might’ve been 88 when he conceived her with a 25-year-old who he was in love with. Yeah for real, there’s that wild and sophisticated and old money and rich.
So that’s Lacey and then she’s like wow them you really didn’t know that you were straight and he’s like no I was actually straight and she’s like oh OK well I had a whole different storyline in my head of how we were love but I guess you were straight so now I have to figure this whole thing out While Bobby tries to suffocate me using demons of anxiety . So I believe that he likes sultry stuff on her lingerie. They probably have a great sex life probably still will cause that’s just kind of who they are there wild I mean they’re wild people but not like in a bad way so he was private and appropriate cause he was trying to be respectful and Christian and then all hell broke loose and all the sudden he has to explain himself And make us feel intimidated by his sexuality because I actually I’m intimidated I am intimidated he’s very straight he’s very difficult to handle and then he has this wife that I totally understand him and he’s like yeah I’m looking at naked women at 4 AM in Times Square then he’s like I was really just looking for you and she’s like oh OK cool That’s not typical I think so anyway, that’s why she’s not really a Golddigger because she really means that she’s not just overlooking it to have his money. She’s overlooking it to have him because she’s just madly in love with him madly in love with him, and I think women like Ivana were golddiggers, but then also fell in love with their husbands because they actually were capable of doing what she does. It might not have comes naturally to them and they might’ve gotten very hurt at times but I think they were looking for what she has with them, if there was any innocence to them and decency, and to be honest, it is some thing that existed and still could exist. Are you suspect Camilla and Prince Charles have a little bit of that same understanding in the relationship it’s like I’m not gonna be overly suspicious if I sincerely know that you’re actually trying to be faithful to me or that you want to be Him so then Camilla was devastated at his wedding, but then overtime realize that he really wasn’t in love with Diana and the way he was with her and he just couldn’t get over her and then what happens well they end up married and I have a feeling he’s faithful to Camilla Which is not some thing that people in the middle class would expect for him to be so awful and then be capable of being faithful, but he actually wasn’t being awful. He was just extremely complicated like lame and that’s where you guys have to stop being so ridiculous. I think one was straight and I think we really screwed up when we defiled him.” says a Liberal.
“ but let me you wouldn’t be there if it were if you were married to her is that correct?” says a reader.
“ yes absolutely yeah absolutely I mean Lacey is a very chaste person but she’s sleeping with me and I’m a ghost. We really are just free, spirited wild people but we’re monogamous and we have a very innocent decent heart but but we’re not like people in the middle class in America and that way and so Lacey found a vodka or Avana rather as a role model and never found well. There was a few other women like her, but she never found anyone to replace that who is more socially acceptable because they’re just aren’t women that she could emulate who are like that her mother might’ve been like her Margie might’ve been like Lacey, but Marty didn’t raise her Susan Lacey had to try to find someone.” says Lem.
“ there really isn’t an archetype. Her mother was an exceptional person. There are not a lot of women like her and I was the closest thing she could find don’t try to make her like you.” says Ivana.
“ oh OK so so hell it is like Lacey, though and the character that Kim Cattrall plays is a little bit like Lacey to which is interesting…
So shoot oh shoot so then you really don’t think of me is icky poo poo you just thought that I was being creepy.” says Casi. “ Lacey people look down on me. They actually look down on me. They look down on Ivana to sweetie. They really do they look down on us. I don’t know if they look down on your mom because I have a feeling your mother seems like a really upstanding person and is in someway if she still alive they look down on people like me. They really genuinely do.”
Lacey thinks.
“ if there’s reincarnations, I haven’t changed all that much and you understand what I’m really doing and like a deal political intellectual way in a sexual way and identity way you understand in large part who I really am they don’t and you and I both know that there’s something slightly sad about that but they really do look down on me. They really legitimately do.” says Casi.
“ I didn’t necessarily think that was real.” says Lacey.
“ because they don’t do it to your face. If they do it doesn’t seem like they’re snubbing me. It seems like they’re judging me in like a Christian way so you assumed that they had moral contentions with me or like feminist contentions you didn’t think that they were snapping me, and pretending to have excuses for it, you thought they had legitimate reasons for snubbing me.” says Casi.
“ yes, I thought that you were just mistaken, then should be less evil, but I thought that you were free spirited.” says Lacey.
“ you know I am an away. No, I mean you’re not completely wrong you guys she’s not she’s not completely wrong. I am so much free spirited. I really am but Lacey that’s not what they think that’s not what they think!” says Casi.
“ that’s not the impression that I necessarily had of reality.” says Lacey.
Helena laughs.
“ well, um shit if there’s reincarnation sweetheart that’s nice I don’t think I’m a terrible person to be like on we’re both Mr. Craddick families I am sincere in saying that I don’t think I’m a terrible person to be like him. Are you so much like me if there’s reincarnation, were you actually so much like me?” says Casi.
“ yes, I mean if I if there is reincarnation Casi, I drink too much I was carrying on around a huge bottle of red wine good red wine I drink almost all myself if there’s weed in Carnation and then I got hit by a car and died. Does that seem like something that could happen theoretically to you?” says Lacey.
“ yes, I wouldn’t do that but I understand where you’re coming from. Yeah, I mean I was never necessarily that in love with someone believe it or not who is not in love with me it was never like that we weren’t twin flames I don’t think or if we are, I didn’t necessarily know that if there’s reincarnation him but I could see myself if I lost him getting that worked up and getting that drunk or that high in my case and then getting into an accident especially if he was trying to kill me I could see that it’s just like you got into a car accident or you fall or something happens and then you’re just Dad no I actually do empathized with that.” says Casi.
“Oh crap.” says the CIA.
“ so shoot no I mean I was married I was monogamous I would’ve never dreamed of cheating on him he was everything to me he still is if there’s reincarnation he still is but I mean what am I supposed to do is that the 1800s anymore and people don’t understand.” says Lacey.
“ you’re right they don’t I did. I made fun of you number when I said if there’s reincarnation if opiates were still legal we could get high together because I thought you were being stuffy but you’re just stuffy and it’s authentic. I wasn’t so much on and opiates probably would’ve killed you because you’re a different person than me, you probably this is where we’re different you probably are a better person than me but we’re a similar type of person in someway and they just don’t understand they don’t understand Lacey they don’t understand us they don’t.” says Casi
“ then I have no idea what to do I mean what the fuck am I supposed to do?” says Lacey.
Casi thinks.
“ I don’t know I think you just have to grin and Barrett and tell your dad. I have no idea sweetie I hear you I don’t know I hear you I guess you just have to live with it they tricked you into coming back if there’s reincarnations they tricked you and I think all you can do they’re all I’m gonna say you can do an actually I don’t necessarily know other than what I’m telling you is to just do your best I guess.” says Casi.
“ OK so we thought it with Kitcat Lacey remember we thought she was icky poo poo!” says Dan.
“ why would you think that?” says Lacey.
“ because they’re sexually uptight.” says Beyoncé.
“ i’m a see if there’s rain Carnation I I am Christian. I am very Christian. I don’t understand either Jim Atlee don’t understand why do you guys think she’s so awful?” says Lacey.
“ 01 are you putting a sign or are you being serious?” says Kate Hayes.
“ lame did you go see the young nymphomaniac movie?” says a gay man
“ ha ha that’s funny almost I am not kidding I almost saw it. I may have walked out a nymphomaniac sounded exciting and I knew it was a woman but she was too young or the whole concept was just pedophilic and creepy so I walked out there’s your answer.” says Lem.
“ what about the hooker one?” says Donald Trump.
“ I missed that one. I’m completely serious I missed that one I was busy.” says Lem.
“ well, that’s too bad would you liked it?” says Casi.
“ would’ve thought it was pretty average if you want an honest answer no I would’ve thought I would’ve thought it was average I mean they’re all kind of the same after a while, but I would’ve thought it was just sort of you know average.” says Lem.
“ they probably was it was probably pretty ordinary so this movie that you saw that was so life-changing was it European?” says Casi.
“ yes yeah it was an actual European porn film.” says Lem.
“ are you capable of being really evil or are you just too good into smart and too loving?” says Casi.
“ Ike with theoretically be capable of it but no, it’s more the latter.” says Lem.
“ yeah no you’ve chosen to be got to be godly that’s good to be honest there’s been carnation I shot myself in the foot, but not being more godly as Virginia.” says Casi.
“ well, I’ve always chosen to be godly. It was a choice that I made early on regardless of it being Carnation, believe it or not.” says Lem.
“ I am so confused right now, so Lacey, you actually feel as though we’ve defended Casi too much and yet not enough or you think we’re judgmental towards her and yet not enough?” says Monika.
“ yes!” says Lacey.
“ if that’s true, sweetie, I think we’re very puritanical in this country and I don’t think we understand you or Casi just to clarify it out. What the hell no and you’re not a tramp she might be at times you’re not at all what the hell what the hell was she thinking was going on though I wanna know more about that.” says the aging Hippie
“ and it’s like what Jerome said but he’s afraid of you guys thinking that there’s been Carnation and rejecting Christianity at the very least or if it’s just not in Christianity he’s afraid of you thinking that it’s there so basically it’s like this she this is pasta with the lies. I was trying to explain to you guys, Lacey sees hallways that look like Downton Abbey. Regardless of what was just throw reincarnation out right now. OK she sees hallways that look like the Titanic or Downton Abbey in her head. Huge hallways opulent beautiful hallways with lighting that is very warm and possibly it’s gas but it’s very beautiful and she hears people laughing and she sees people partying and sipping champagne and wearing you know long white gloves to, and she sees them later with Monicals nice people, godly, loving people Who are parting kind of the beautiful part of eyes white shot the part that’s godly if there is anything, I’ll be about it it’s a house like that and she’s there either is the daughter of the owner of the house or a visitor possibly niece and she’s there at the party as a little girl like 10 years old maybe and she might have a stomach flu and she’s wandering around in her nightgown watching everybody from the corners and shadows and of course they’re tolerant of her because they realize who she is and that she’s just a little girl, watching everything like little girls do looking at the pretty dresses Looking to see what everyone’s doing. Just admiring them that they’re a lot a little girls are possibly used to do that back then perfectly safe, perfectly innocent and she’s just wandering around watching people hand. That’s where she is in her head with this whole NV thing, except then fast forward to her being married, and possibly some confusion in her head Where it’s like she is going to have this grand entrance at the ball and everyone shall clap and bow and then this is work. It’s weird and it’s almost were like a dream but she doesn’t realize that.
So what she imagines you people doing is competing and then this is embarrassing to some people. It isn’t her, so she imagines this competition as Americans have created it. I think Putin might understand and have a very hard time, not being in love with her in the future, if there’s reincarnation, because he might empathize, but there’s this grand moment where there’s jousting almost and like fencing it’s competition I think that’s what she thought we were doing something very honorable, something very honorable and so you compete like I have a red Mercedes and then she say oh I have a red rolls rolls Royce.
And then the owner of the Mercedes would say uh-huh you’ve got me! I lost! You’ve got me I’ve lost. Damn I’ll have to buy a Rolls-Royce next time that must be something sneaky that you figured out must be all those oysters you people eat, which is a strange thing for her to hear if there’s not reincarnational anyway must be all that seafood makes you smart.
Word are you cows call Dan there goes the prestige of cottage house for the time being I shall come back next year with a better carriage than the Rolls-Royce, and you shall go down as they say.
Oh, and so then that’s it she wins ha ha the trophy is hers. She wins the prize. The cup is in her house for the following year. She won Wimbledon or something.
Because she had the this is where she really is her, the Dutch German brilliance to buy a Rolls-Royce you can’t fool German like her into buying a Mercedes.
Oh, and then Casi was supposed to say but I am still enjoying my Mercedes. Of course I’m fine I’m eating cake living in cottage house but I am on, but I am very upset. I’m extraordinarily upset and see this release. He isn’t a drama, so she sense that we were very upset extremely upset by these competitions and that was exciting because that sounds like riveting riveting experience as a human so she was probably fascinated with his competition and then Casi was very upset extraordinary that is a very important thing extremely important Lacey it’s like war, but we boil down to competition over car.
And the thing is we say stuff like that which could actually very stupid but we’ve told her stuff like that her whole life and she took it to heart so then the next year Casi was supposed to come back probably with I don’t know maybe a Maybach or something and be like no what And Lacey would say Dad you win this year, but not being as competitive him Casi would be like well I wan but you should try harder you’re slacking off I don’t think you’re trying to win.
Oh, and so I think that’s an actually this isn’t stupid this could really be what they did in the 1800s and Casi I don’t know why Casi was mean to Lacey but this is possible but they really did it in the 1800s him and so then I don’t because that’s where Lacey is confused because she really thinks that’s what we’re doing.” says Doris Day.
“ so then, Lacey what exactly is the protocol?” says Dan Levy.
“ I think you’re supposed to clap and I’m supposed to smile probably you’re supposed to bow to me and that I am supposed about you and that I’m supposed to just walk off and we’re supposed to have hors d’oeuvres.” says Lacey.
“ so so then that’s all that’s just that’s what that’s just there’s bowing in clapping and then it’s that you come back the next year and she beats you!” says Mica Craft.
“ yes!” says Lacey.
“ oh, that’s not what we’re doing. I’m going to say you don’t have to believe me but that’s not what we’re doing.” says Lacey’s cousin Mica.
“ well, then I don’t I don’t understand it I don’t understand possibly.” says Lacey.
“ oh wow so this is an interesting thing that you invented in your head. Did you think it through this point or did you just think somehow this makes sense and someone will have to explain it to me?” says Martha Stewart.
“ no it’s not what you said I didn’t think it through. I thought that it was than a tragedy.” says Lacey.
“ yeah because then what happens to Casi she loses and then she’s very sad is that were you got scared and you kept trying to talk to Mark and he could never figure out how to explain anything to you because you keep thinking what the hell she’s gonna be sad and then what?” says Martha
“ yes it’s like I go OK I just like what’s gonna happen. I have literally almost said that more than once possibly to Mark. It’s just what’s going to happen to her what’s going to happen if I just let this thing go what’s gonna happen?” says Lacey.
“ what are you worried about? Let’s just say there’s reincarnation author isn’t it’s an analogy what are you worried about?” says Martha.
“ I am worried that she’s going to have to stab her self with her family sword on her property and then they’ll have to throw her body in the ocean or a river somewhere.” says Lacey.
“ if there is reincarnation, Lacey, what if you’re confused and you created a scenario where that was happening except she’s OK because she was innocent somehow and we’re not?” says Martha.
“ the problem is that still wouldn’t be her fault.” says God
“ yeah that’s true. Do you feel pathetic around this issue of reincarnation do you feel like extreme panic?” says Martha.
“ she wouldn’t know the difference. She is very paddocks yes, whether there’s reincarnation or not.” says God.
“ do you know oh, you’ve tried to reason with us you’ve tried to explain yourself and we’ve just not wanted to hear you. I think it’s coming from the same place where we want them to be gay and he was probably just a very good actor and he was straight.” says Martha Stewart.
Later.
“So! What are you people doing!!?” says Lem.
“They’re shallow.” says an English woman.
“Which means what!?” says Lacey.
“Do we really think Casi is icky.” says a perfume collector.
“WHY!??” yells God.
“Because…she’s…lowly.” says Stephanie.
“So are you.” says Lem.
“Yeah! …But Stephanie didn’t take pictures of her boobs.” says a woman on government assistance in the UK.
“Stephanie also didn’t have those boobs.” says Lacey.
Casi laughs.
“TRUE!! …But that’s not what they mean.” says Casi.
“What do they mean? I have some inkling. But could you explain?” says Lacey.
Casi rolls her eyes. “They think…I’m…subhuman.”
Lacey laughs. “Then what are they?” says Lacey.
Casi thinks. “True. …But they don’t understand. …They feel safe.”
“WHY!??” says Lacey, shocked.
“You know…that’s perfectly…accurate. …Ahh… they fool themselves.” says Casi.
“See…I thought it was a moral thing.” says Lacey.
“It’s not! It’s class.” says Casi.
“ARE THEY BRAINDEAD?” says Lacey.
“No.” says Casi. “They…don’t understand.”
“God has to give me grace for this, Casi because it’s mindblowing to me.” says Lacey.
Casi giggles. “If there’s reincarnation…I did use you. To mock them.”

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