Lacey…I’ve been silenced. I was straight. And…you read me as that. Every time you examine me. …You read Richard Deacon as straight, possibly bisexual, or straight. Years ago. Quickly. If you’d spent more time examine him…you’d have thought he was bisexual, possibly. And actually…he was. …He was more gay than straight…however…he was technically bisexual. And so…even if you were a little off…you’d have been technically correct. And I know if you examined him the way you’ve examined me…you’d have figured out he was more gay than straight. …You never truly mess-up in your examinations of male sexual orientation. Ever. But…it takes you time. Or you get it right away. But…you don’t ever really mess-up. You’re just that good at it.
But as I write this there’s a group of demons attacking you…sent to you…by hateful living gay men who read your blog. …They’re loosely connected to Casi. …And so you’re doubting yourself. Doubling back to doubling check your estimations. Over and over and over and over and over again. …Because they keep insisting they’re well-intentioned. And that they have your best interest in mind. They don’t. They’re trying to pervert the Holy Spirit by imitating its voice in your head. Bobby and other living Kennedys are also a part of the attack.
The thing is…you read me as straight. And…I was. …There’s no secret path to me being homosexual. …Richard Deacon and I are similar men in our build. And we’re both from Pittsburgh. Close in age. …However I’m straight. And was. And he was not. …And you can read that in his voice if you really listen. … He’s extremely intelligent. And he was truly closeted. And a great actor. …So he modified his voice to sound straight. But it’s still there. …You’ve listened to my voice. It’s not truly there for me.
That’s all real!
…And Richard…not being cursed by the Kennedys as I am…can still talk to you in a loving way. …We can talk…but you barely hear my love for you at all. That’s the part that’s been silenced.
See…if your father was at all responsible for Jack’s death…part of the reason why they’re attacking you…is because of that. Not just me. But the fact that I’m secretly associated with you…on an unseen spiritual level…may have really made Jack mad. Bobby too. Because they feel…it’s unfair. It’s not. But…they took out their rage at you…instead of directly at your father and me…because they’re bullies end evil and because they assumed hurting you…would make us more angry. …But then they neglected to realize that you would get angry in your own right. …That you weren’t just “a woman”. You…had your own personality and that attacking you would be…dangerous. Because you’re you. Never occurred to them. They’re misogynistic. …You’re very feminine. And straight. And deep. And it just never occurred to them that you were a real threat on your own. Just as yourself. …They didn’t take your capacity to fight seriously, because it’s not physically manifested in this current life. You’re a small, fragile woman.
And for some reason they didn’t anticipate your father coming after them. Or me. In any meaningful way. …But mostly they underestimated you. …Because you’re straight. …And they have a very simplistic approach to people. Categorizing them in black and white boxes.
There’s no way I could be gay. It’s completely impossible. You can’t make gay energy straight. …Richard was bisexual. Even if Wikipedia says he’s gay. He was bisexual. …Gay “historians” have mutilated sexual history in the last 60 years. Possibly because they’re trying to make things better in their minds…but they’ve actually made it far worse. They just don’t understand that yet. …Oversimplifying sexual orientation and shoving people into categories in history was…foolish.
They don’t know! They didn’t know! …You can’t rely on other people’s opinions to guarantee someone’s sexual orientation. That’s…intellectually ludicrous. …How THE HELL do other people know so much?! Especially in the past. About other people!? …A lot of people today claim to struggle identifying themselves. Today! …Expecting people in the past to know that…is absurd. It’s sick!
An individual, such as myself…could think about it…and tell you. As a ghost. *I laugh* …As if that’s easy! …But relying on opinion of friends…or even family…is…very thin ice. It’s intellectually too dangerous even with certain people, like me.
See…it’s actually a byproduct of what they call “heteronormative culture”. The non-heterosexual people are different so…they’re easier to pick out, is the idea. You can separate them. …Because they’re different. …That’s the idea. …It doesn’t require intense effort that’s possibly going to be fruitless to analyze them sexually. …They’re cheap, is the idea. Because they’re so different. …Like with Richard. Because he was closeted but did leave behind historical evidence to suggest he was gay…and he had gay mannerisms that were real…he was categorized as gay. Just gay. …No nuances. No…intense analysis. …In reality Richard was more intricate and fascinating and illuminating than JFK. In his sexual orientation. …But…dozens of reputable historians have spent decades analyzing him…obsessively…to no…conclusive end. Often laboring under the assumption that he was heterosexual. …While Richard and men like him…are…totally ignored, mostly. Or are actually obliterated by cheap, toxic analysis.
He could have married a woman. But…he was mostly gay. …He was a very nice man. …Stable. Intelligent. Kind. …Why haven’t we realized that he’s not our enemy? His…”complicated” sexuality…is…our real world. That’s our actual reality. …It’s not as simple as we seem to want it to be.
…Would he…and men like him…have been capable of being my wife’s friend? YES! …If there’s reincarnation so was Rupert Brooke. …But they weren’t…safe. …Maybe most of the time they were. But she gets along well with men. Just as people. And…yet she’s so feminine and straight. And…she’s her. So…I would never trust Richard alone with her.
“Of course!” says Richard, smiling.
As much as they would be good friends. …And how do you…account for that? …You don’t. …Not really! …Men like me…who’s wives have friends like Rupert…are seen as paranoid. Even in 2025. …Because you all assume “gay” is…a guarantee. And maybe some people are completely homosexual. I know some people are, matter of fact. But…it’s not that guaranteed.
…And you know part of the reason why people in the past hesitated to be open about homosexuality was because they were afraid of opening Pandora’s Box. They felt that…ignorance was bliss. And actually…there was some common sense to that. …Even if it’s good to be honest, there was some sense to it. …People get confused by all of the possibilities. …It’s scary. How do you anticipate anything? How do you relate to anyone? …There are too many options and there’s not enough to go on. Not yet.
Pedophilia is never a thing. How humanity went off a cliff with that one…is…too much evil to easily qualify with one description. It’s far beyond gross. …And it only leads us to wonder if homosexuality is monstrous too. Is it? What is actual reality?
But with the help of Richard let’s discuss this:
That’s me. I was straight. Although I acted gay.
That’s Richard. He was a genuinely closeted mostly gay man. He wasn’t acting gay. He was somewhat gay. …And he hid that to seem straight.
Can you see that!?
Lacey can see it!
Who’s Lacey?
She’s extremely beautiful. In our estimation.
And she finds me…beyond handsome. And she’s have seriously dated Richard.
It’s not just about her facial features. It’s her eyes. And her body. Right down to her ankles. Her dainty, sweet ankles. …They’re strong. But not…masculine. Just…endearing. …And yet they’re so feminine too. You can tell she tries so hard to be brave. And for someone like me…it’s…good company. Because I tried to be kind as a large man. A large scary man.
Judy Garland has a slightly similar bravery to Lacey. But…she was…a drug addict. She could have found love. But she’d have had to be sober. …I’m just saying what it is.
It isn’t that Judy was too ugly! I’ve seen that explanation for her misery and it’s nonsense.
…But Lacey read that too. She knew Judy was too pretty to be as hopelessly, forlornly single as people say said was after her death.
So let’s be honest.
You don’t like that I’m straight. You all want to think I’m gay. I wasn’t. I was straight. But you want to think Robin Williams was straight (he wasn’t, he was bisexual but mostly straight) and that I’m gay. Because it’s your current narrative. You have…traits you don’t think can be gay or straight, when it’s not even like that. The homosexuality existed before the traits manifested. So…unless you can read that like Lacey does…how do you know? How can you tell!? …You rely on those commonly found traits. Like artistic ability in men. Or…a lack of frivolity and ornamentation in women. But those aren’t…the thing itself. …Do you understand!?
Lacey literally analyzed MY TEETH…to figure out if I’d find her as attractive as she finds me. And she analyzed Richard’s spine to see if going on a date with him would have been cause for…awareness. As in, don’t assume he’s not attracted.
“When we questioned Lem about his sex life…he told me that he ‘Fooled around with…men. With homosexuality.’” says George Bush Sr..
Help by The Beatles plays.
“It was almost verbatim what Richard Deacon says about ventriloquism. In the episode, ‘Too Many Stars’. …We felt Lem was a shoddy homosexual. And we felt Richard Deacon was…fully capable of being married to a woman. …We believed homosexuality was a mental-illness. And…we didn’t think Lem was that lost.” says George Bush Sr.. “All he needed was to be…helped.
And…no. The actors didn’t necessarily know anything. …It was Desi Arnaz who did. Desi and Lucy. …And they understood that we were in a jam. With Fidel.” He thinks. “We really were. He was livid. …There was no reasoning with him. He wanted Jack Kennedy DEAD.”
“So did you all too, though!” says Judith Exner to George Bush Senior.
George Bush Senior exhales sharply. “Yeah.
He was…disgusting!
…I was bisexual. …But I preferred women.
And…so…I had a special hatred for him. Because I felt he had no excuse! …I would never have cheated on my wife. I would never have used a straight man like Lem. …Lem was used. And humiliated. And…destroyed. …I would never have…raped women. Or molested underage people. …So I found no explanation for his evil. His mental health…didn’t grant him…immunity. …Not to me. And I felt he’d used his consistent health issues his whole life to get sympathy from people who he then just cruelly used.” says George Bush Senior.
“I want to stop hating her.” says Steven Barger about Lacey.
“Alright. We can do a bit of conversation. But then you’ll have to just deal with it.” says George Bush Senior.
“Why couldn’t we hang out?” says Steven to Lacey.
“It was too weird.” says Lacey. “You stank. You literally were…smelly. …And I didn’t really want to date you. …But I think we both found each other slightly attractive. And it was just…weird.”
“What if I didn’t stink?” he says.
“Then it would have been even weirder.” says Lacey.
“Why weird!?” he says.
“Because I didn’t want to date you. …Our personalities aren’t right for each other. …And I didn’t want to go there.” says Lacey.
He thinks. “I was desperate for a girlfriend.” he says.
“YEAH. And…I just…couldn’t be your friend easily. Because…it was too weird. …You were on the hunt. And…then how was I supposed to just hang-out with you? …It felt…weird.” says Lacey.
“What does that feel like?” he says.
“Anxiety producing. Like I couldn’t really relax.” says Lacey.
He thinks. “How the fuck…have I never figured this out!??”
“Because…I’m dead.” says Lem. “If I’d been there…and you’d seen us together…you’d have realized it would be too weird between you and Lacey to be…easy platonic friends.”
“Was I mean to her?” says Steven.
“YES!” says Richard.
Steven looks sad.
“You couldn’t have clued her in!? At all!?” says Richard.
Steven thinks.
Steven looks shocked.
Steven gets quiet.
“You did mean things. …Like saying, ‘What if we’re secretly in love!?’ And, ‘You remind me of my mother. She’s beautiful too!’ …Lacey was a lot more beautiful than your mom! … And it was obvious…you weren’t in love with each other. …Your hygiene was awful. And you got bad grades. ….That matters. …And that was your choice. …That wasn’t her fault. …What was true? …You were sort of her type. That’s all. …You weren’t in love. …But she did find you attractive. And you knew that. …But she didn’t. …And your hurt that your bad grades and smell…mattered to her…made you lash out?” says Richard.
“Yeah, I guess that’s mean.” he says.
“Why did you two have to date? Why couldn’t you just…be non-sexual friends who found each other attractive?” says a Messiah College professor.
“Because it’s too weird. She’s right.” he says.
“Why?” says another professor.
“Because nothing will happen. But…it’s so close to it…that…it’s creepy.” he says.
“Why can’t that just be friendship?” says the professor.
“Because I WANTED A GIRLFRIEND.” he says. “And…it just felt…awkward.” He thinks. “But I liked her as person. And she enjoyed chatting with me. …So… But then that got weird. Because it was already weird.”
“Why didn’t you just ask her out!??” yells a man alive today.
“Because…I didn’t want to.” he admits.
A professor at Messiah nods. Smirks.
“You wanted control.” says another Messiah professor.
He thinks. “Yeah.” he admits. “I did.”
“You look like me. If I was fat. And abandoned by my father.” says Joe Kennedy Junior to Steven.
Steven stares at him.
“Yeah. …I used you.” says Joe.
Steven thinks.
“You don’t know that part of yourself.” says Joe to Steven. “We can be mean.”
“So I’m the misfit version of you?” says Steven.
“No! …You’re…the lost version of me. Your father failed. So you were lost. …And in a way I’m the lost version of you.” says Joe.
They think.
“Why couldn’t you just let her reject you?” says Joe. “I can’t either.”
Steven stares at him.
“We’re a lot more alike than most people would ever recognize. You’re…not privileged. …But…I’m not as…caring you.” says Joe.
“Do you hate her?” asks God of them both.
“No. But we can’t figure out why she’s not in love with us.” says Joe.
“So you both feel you have a right to her friendship and love?” says God.
“Yes.” says Joe.
“But it’s too weird.” says God. “Until Heaven.”
“Yeah. Okay.” says Joe.
“Is it an ego thing?” says God.
“YES!” says Steven.
“But…it’s not meant to be. You both need to try to understand that.” says God. “It just wasn’t meant to be.”
Steven thinks.
“Yeah. She leaves even me.” says Joe to Steven.
“You cheated.” says Steven to Joe.
“Yeah. Okay.
But…it’s not that simple.” says Joe. “Really.”
“I’d never cheat.” says Steven.
Joe stares at him suspiciously.
Steven laughs.
Joe laughs.
“No! I’d never cheat!” says Steven.
They think.
“No. You’d…come way too close to cheating.” says Joe. “Because it isn’t meant to be. And you’re like me. You’re…independent.”
“I’d break her heart.” says Steven.
“No. You would. Like I did. But…because you’re more caring than me…she saw it way ahead of time. …And…that’s not a bad thing.” says Joe.
“Yeah. She wasn’t that attracted to me.” says Steven.
“Yeah. …It was there. But not enough.” says Joe. “She liked my appearance better…but…over time…it’s the same thing.”
They think.
“We can’t have everything.” Joe says to Steven.
“I liked Becca too.” says Steven.
“She wasn’t as pretty as Lacey. Be honest.” says Joe.
“Yeah. Okay.” says Joe.
“Why’d you lie about that to Lacey at all?” says Joe. “That was…a bad idea.”
“Did you give me the idea?” says Steven.
“Actually…Satan and Jack did.” says Joe.
“What did I tell her?” says Steven.
“That she was plain compared to Becca. Plain and ordinary.” says Joe.
Beanie (Sped) by Chezile plays.
“That wasn’t remotely true!” says God.
“And what’s been really damaging…isn’t that she’s thought less of herself. She’s too scientific for that. Really. …It’s that…you made her doubt her perspective entirely. So she’s obsessive about analyzing things she shouldn’t be. …You once called her obsessive. …But Lem and her…are gifted. Not obsessed. They analyze. To extremes. That’s something Jack used to control him and make him seem like he was sincerely in love…when he wasn’t. At all. …It’s just them. Scott was like that too. …And people like Scott and Zelda and Jack and you…think it means more than it does. In Scott’s case it was coupled with real love…but…not so in Lem’s case at all. He just was mystified by Jack at times and felt the need to figure it out. …There was no attraction or love attached.” says Joe. “No. Obsession is madness. They’re not actually crazy. They’re…fascinated.”
“I called her that because I was feeling insecure.” says Steven. “And it made me feel better than her. And…I wanted to get at her. And ruin her friendship with Becca.”
Joe thinks.
Space Song by Beach House plays.
“Their friendship…was doomed…all along.” says Joe.
“No it wasn’t!!” says Steven, crying.
Joe laughs.
“Why?” says Steven, calming himself, calculating.
“Becca secretly felt she was superior to Lacey. The whole time. And…so…when Lacey gave her reason to doubt that…it broke her apart. And she HATED Lacey. Passionately.” says Joe.
“When?” says Steven.
“When she married Mark. …You all fooled yourselves. She was and is extremely hot. …But her parents used Purity Culture to control her.” says Joe.
“It was hard to land him?” says Steven.
“Damn near impossible. But she was the hottest thing he’d had. And they got along on a deeper level.” says Joe.
“Am I capable of that? Kind of pull?” says Steven.
“If you’d been raised better? YEAH!” says Joe.
“Yeah. I have a decent bone structure.” says Steven.
“And you’re tall.” says Joe.
“So I could be hot too?” says Steven.
“Okay. Not as hot as her. …But…as hot as me. Fix your teeth. Fix your speech. …It’s all superficial.” says Joe.
“Does Becca have that?” says Steven.
“NO.” says Joe. “It’s not superficial.”
“Does Becca know that!?” says Steven.
“NO!” says Joe, laughing at her.
Steven refuses to laugh.
Joe stops himself from laughing.
“What!?” says Joe, smiling.
“Well isn’t that sad!?” says Steven.
Joe stares at him.
“No!! She’s a BITCH!” says Joe.
“But it’s not her fault.” says Steven. “It’s just her, as it is.”
“I KNOW THAT!” says Joe.
Steven sighs.
“WHY DO NOT CARE ABOUT LACEY…AT ALL!?” says Joe.
Steven thinks.
Steven thinks.
And Steven thinks some more.
“What the FUCK!?” he finally says.
“Yeah!! I know! …I’m hateful towards Lem and Richard Deacon too. …But…that’s…not right. …And I’ve realized that in the last few weeks. …WE ARE BEING PLAYED, MAN!!” he says to Steven. “WE ARE BEING PLAYED.”
Later.
“How?” says Steven, trying to see if it makes sense, with great apprehension.
“WHY…can’t you let go of her?” asks Joe. “Nothing actually happened.”
“I could say the same thing to you!” says Steven.
Joe thinks.
“Look…I feel bad for Becca. …I’m partially having this conversation in my spirit. So…I’m getting insight that’s supernatural. …And I can tell we’re actually secretly more alike in reality than people usually can perceive. …But…then I’m sort of privileged too. …So I feel…bad.” says Steven.
Joe nods. “Yeah. Someday I’ll have fun chilling out with you. …We’re like twins. But it’s not romantic. It’s like brothers.
But…look…how is your worship of Becca…fair TO US?” says Joe.
“Because we’re privileged.” says Steven.
“Yeah. …But…we’re also human.” says Joe.
“Let’s keep that quiet.” jokes Steven.
Joe laughs.
They think.
They think.
“Do I feel…hurt…by Lacey…when I shouldn’t?” says Steven.
Joe takes a deep breath. And exhales.
They think.
“Dude…bro…she’d go for us. …When we look like me. …And you KNEW THAT. And yet…that’s not it!” says Joe. “I mean really…she’s a girl. …And…so…what we’re supposed to know…is that…she finds us attractive…but it work out! We’re supposed to know that! US! Not her. …Women have that all wrong in heterosexual relationships nowadays. WE ARE THE ONES…WHO…ARE SUPPOSED TO KNOW.”
Steven winces. Closes his eyes.
“Yeah. You’re right.” says Steven. “My dad didn’t give a shit. So I never figured out how I could affect women based on experience like you had.”
“My dad didn’t either…in a way.” says Joe.
Steven nods.
“So…was Becca that…deep?” says Joe. “Think! …Did she reject you for secretly deep reasons or not?”
“I don’t even know!” says Steven.
“Think!” says Joe.
Later.
“WHAT THE FUCK!?” yells Steven.
“YEAH!” says Joe.
Steven shakes his head no in disbelief.
“WE ARE BEING PLAYED!!” says Joe.
Steven laughs.
“It’s a GAY CONSPIRACY!” he says to Joe laughing.
Joe laughs with him.
“A REAL GAY CONSPIRACY!” says Steven.
“Oh really…what’s that!?” says a popular Millennial living gay man, flirting but also not. He dramatically bats his eyes.
“My brother.” says Joe.
Awkward silence.
“I’m making chocolate mousse!” says Lacey, uncontrollably.
“I’m clean! I promise.” half-jokingly says Richard to Lem.
“SHIT!!! …Do I impress you as this!?” says Steven to the living gay man. He’s appearing as a well bred version of his self.
“Yeah.” admits the gay man.
Steven looks irritated by that.
“Does that hurt you?” says the gay man.
“WHO AM I!?” says Steven, slightly freaking out.
Beanie by Chezile plays.
“I was playing along…to be nice…but now I’m realizing this is real.” says Steven.
The song plays.
He looks shocked.
Hot, sexy, women check him out. Flirt. And suddenly he…gets it.
“This is EASY.” he says to Joe.
Joe looks sad.
“They’re all over me!” he says, almost offended.
Joe laughs. “Come on! …Be nice!” he says.
Steven looks horrified.
Beanie (Slowed) by Chezile plays.
“What’s their love even worth!!?” he says to Joe. “It’s CHEAP.”
Joe nods.
“SHIT!!” he says to Joe. “It’d be easy for me to get totally jaded.”
Joe smirks sadly.
But then Joe pops up. Grinning.
Meet Virginia by Train plays.
“What about Lacey!?” he says, excitedly.
Steven stares at her.
“She’s not giving a shit.” he says. “She doesn’t GIVE…ONE…SHIT.”
“Yeah.
Does she seem gay?” says Joe.
Steven shakes his head no, smiling.
“See…that’s why we can’t let it go. It’s…fascinating.” says Joe.
Steven nods.
“But nah. She’s just with Lem.” says Joe. “That’s all it is. …But it’s difficult coming to that conclusion.”
“FUCK!” says Steven.
“Yeah.” says Joe.
They sit.
The song finishes.
Semi-Charmed Life by Third Eye Blind plays next.
“For all you know…Steven and I co-wrote this song. From the future. As actual buddies.” says Joe.
The song plays.
“Okay. They write it. But we may have inspired it.” says Steven.
“Did you give the notes?” asks a man.
“You’ll see!!” says Joe. “But no…you’re the real artists. We just had fun.”
“Maybe.” says Steven.
The song replays.
“So…basically…Becca…is…a jerk.” says Steven.
“Why?” says the living gay man.
“She…rejects me. For no damn good reason. It’s…weird. …She does it to Joe too.” says Steven.
“Is she queer?” says living gay man about Becca in a whisper.
“Whatever her reasons…she’s LACEY. She…is THE PERSON…I made Lacey out to be in my head after graduation. …And I thought Lacey was the jerk because she’s actually hotter. …But…it’s actually Becca. …Becca used Lacey’s…personality…to seem…nice.” says Steven. “It’s FAKE.”
“What does Becca do!?” says George Bush Senior.
Steven glares at him. But answers. “She’s…a liar.”
“How?” asks George Bush.
“Well it’s like this…Becca…for whatever reason…doesn’t play nice. She controls the narrative around her. And not by open fighting like Lacey. She’s SNEAKY. …So…Lacey would be…openly about her lack of interest in me, even though she actually found me attractive. …And Becca calculated that because I was so…underprivileged…and teachers didn’t respect me…that…Lacey would feel extra confused, rejecting me…to the point where she’d forget her real innocent motivations. And she’d start to sound…catty.
All that while Becca had my heart…and sympathy…
So…Lacey goes into the front lines. And takes the heat. While Becca gets away with whatever she wants. It’s EVIL.
And because Lacey is prissy and prim…and British…it’s even worse.
Because Lacey is gorgeous…it’s…PURE EVIL.
However…Lacey actually is…different.
*Lacey laughs*
So…she’s…Ally Sheedy in Breakfast Club. Not Molly Ringwald.” says Steven. “And that’s IMPORTANT. …Molly could be a real victim. In this situation. And ironically God could intervene more easily then. In her real weakness. …But Ally Sheedy is…Allison Reynolds. Not Andie. And Allison Reynolds…could make an alliance with Margaret Congdon and start…fires.” says Steven.
One Week by Barenaked Ladies plays.
“A…curious bisexual ‘gay’ like Richard Deacon…or a complex intellectual like Louis Hill Junior, Harold, or Lem…or Michael…could EASILY fall madly in love with her type. …Lacey wears her hair in private like Allison Reynolds. Wild and wavy and free. …But ‘we’ don’t like it. …Allison Reynolds…is tragic. …Because she tries to tame herself for…well…JOE. …And…guys like us. Me. …Good-looking players. With…some decency. …And that’s who Lacey married.
Lem as himself…bespectacled and tall and yet…actually attracted to women…and…himself…can…be her husband. He gets her. And he lets her hair be crazy. Because…he loves it. …How do you all not get it? Lem wasn’t gay. He liked being…rebellious. And different. …So does Lacey. …They HATE conformity. …And yet…they are the conformist standard.
…Ally Sheedy and Michelle Dockery are similar. Their spirits are similar. And that’s no mistake. That’s REALITY.
Lacey and Lem are lighter than Skippy Handelman and…Lady Mary. But…they’re similar.
So…what the Kennedys didn’t know…and what Joe is embarrassed by…is that…you can’t…fight them. Not…really.
Because Lem…helped the CIA shoot Jack. …He really did. YOU GUYS!! …HE REALLY DID. …He was a very angry straight man. …But he acted gay well. And…nobody sees through it. Well…not enough and not really.
…
And…can you imagine Ally Sheedy dying over a character like Lem? YES! She’s not a two-dimensional person. No one really is.
Iris by The Goo Goo Dolls plays.
They don’t rebel against God. …They…are…dangerous.
They aren’t made to be broken. None of us are. Not…like that.
Making Lacey Mandy Moore in our heads…was STUPID. Making her Molly Ringwald…was…better…but…also really foolish. She’s NOT!!! GET…A…CLUE. …She’s Nicole Kidman and Ally Sheedy. And Lady Mary.
So…she’s…not just crying helplessly.
Song 2 by Blur plays.
Where Molly would be dead. Crying. And getting empathy. Finally. …She’s FIRING SHOTS INTO HEAVEN. And threatening…actual annihilation. FOR REAL.
Because that is…Allison Reynolds. Nah. Girl don’t play games, y’all. She starts…FIRES.
Fires to kill people? No. You can’t pin that on her. For real. …Bitch…it ain’t like that! …WAKE UP!!!
She’s NOT…GOING…TO CRY FOR YOU!
I repeat: YOU WILL DIE FIRST.
SHE IS NOT GOING TO…CRY.
…See…Molly Ringwald was arguing with you all about class for…reasons you kinda already knew. …Why was Ally Sheedy? …For…very complex reasons. …And because you were attacking her first. And she’s…not one to play.
You are…insane to keep fighting with her, if you are. …IT’S CRAZY.
Why? Why is it crazy?
See…women like Becca…misunderstanding Lacey is a problem. But I can address it.
They think because she’s cute and lovable and…so cute…that she’s…safe. Like…a bunny. Or a stuffed animal who can talk. …And she is loving. But…she’s like a wild bear. …And…you don’t…tease wild animals. In the woods. …Your meager…or imagined…human superiority…is…a joke.
So…people like Becca…sensing her genuine innocuous nature…assume she’s not dangerous. Or she’s vulnerable like…a stuffed animal. Or something. …Anyway my point is…she’s not…safe to make fun of.
Unless you have a damn good reason. Don’t.
Because she will not…let it go. EVER. You’re not…looking cool. You’re…starting a forest fire…that neither of you meant to start. LITERALLY.” says Steven Barger.
“This song is SO LACEY. …Really.” says God. “She’s not posturing. And if she is…IT’S A FAIR WARNING.”
“So she’s protecting Lem. Who’s hiding in the cave, we’ll say. …Because he got shot by hunters. And…she’s protecting her cubs. …And….we’re lost in the woods.” says the CIA.
“YES! And you think antagonizing her more…is going to help.” says George Bush. “She will…rip you to shreds. Even if it takes a thousand years. To SHREDS. …Brutally. …The only way you can escape is Christ. …Because she’s on full attack mode. And you keep telling her to beef it up.”
“Is Lem threatened?” asks a Gen. Z man.
“NOT AT ALL! …He’s worried about her. And she relies on him. …And it’s not because he was faux-gay. He was straight. But that has nothing to do with it.” says George Bush Senior. “It’s not about that.”
Later.
“Lacey…when you first saw me…you knew I wasn’t straight. Not entirely. If at all.” says Richard Deacon to Lacey.
She nods.
“They talked you into thinking I was straight.” says Richard. “But you genuinely knew better.”
She nods.
“What did you think of Casi?” he says.
“It wasn’t clear.” says Lacey.
He nods.
“But over time what became your conclusion?” he says.
“That they were poor.” says Lacey, very sadly.
“What if they actually are!?!?” he says.
Lacey gets anxious. Jumpy.
“No! What if they actually are!??” he says.
She thinks.
“WHAT IF THEY ACTUALLY ARE!?” he says.
“But that’s not what they say.” says Lacey.
“You’re right. But…that’s not necessarily…true.” he says.
She blinks.
“No!! IT REALLY ISN’T NECESSARILY TRUE!!” he says.
She looks unconvinced but as though she’s trying to consider it.
“NO!!! LACEY!!! …REALLY!!!” says Richard.
She gets very quiet.
“But they’re buying so much perfume.” she says.
He nods. “YEAH!” he says.
“I MEAN…WOW!” says Lacey. “WOW!”
“It’s possibly somewhat fake.” says Richard.
“No! Lacey I knew you were better looking…and richer.” says Franny.
“I don’t think she knew that!!!” says Richard.
Lacey can’t speak. She’s too busy processing information.
“No. You’re prettier. And I knew that!” says another woman.
“But it seems as though some of you don’t understand that!” says Lacey, sharply and clinically.
“Yes! …But…it’s that common.” says Casi.
Lacey analyzes.
“Why do I bother you so much?” she says, finally.
“Maybe you sincerely don’t get it.
Does second or fifth place matter to you…if you’re at the Olympics?” asks a woman.
“No! …Yes. Depending. But…not really.” says Lacey. “Maybe some. But not much.”
“So you won first place!! In the beauty contest!!” says Jan to Lacey. “Worldwide!”
“JAH!” she says.
“That’s great.” he says.
She very quickly nods. Then goes back to eating her soup.
“Hard won victory?” he says.
“No!” says Lacey, politely.
“Do you wish other women had won?” he says.
“YES! But it isn’t safe. …And I won’t concede such things.” says Lacey.
“So it’s a spiritual military maneuver to you?” says Jan.
“YES!” says Lacey. “I’m a woman. Always have been.”
“Yes. Your innate femininity and elegance and…good taste…are…assets.” he says.
“THAT IS ME.” says Lacey.
He nods.
“What does your beauty give you?” he says.
“Safety. Distance. …A safe distance. …You’re all quite…a challenge…it seems? …I have been saved many times by my beauty. From a lot of dangerous situations. …Or at least, it’s come in handy.” she says.
“She’s right!” says Putin. “It’s her beauty and then her decency.”
“I mean…she just is that. What exactly did you all think she was going to do!?” says Lem.
“Get confused and commit suicide??” says the CIA.
“NO! …I hope we’re not that bad.
I hope we just thought she’d…finally lighten-up.” says a reader.
“REALLY!??” says Lem.
“You expect her to fall apart. And do what?” says God.
“Be…vulnerable.” says a woman.
God laughs. “VULNERABILITY? …Yes. Maybe. …So you can do what!?”
“Be…dominant.” they admit.
“To fuck her?” says God.
“In many cases yes.” says the CIA.
“I know. …So does she. She’s ‘not that stupid.’” says God. “Some of you care. Just as friends. But most of you don’t.”
“Why can’t you just let her be herself?” says Lem.
“I agree.” says Richard.
“SHIT!!” says a woman reading. “BECAUSE WE FEEL…ANGRY.”
“WHY!?” says Lacey.
“Because you’re…better than us.” she says, crying.
Lacey looks baffled.
“Why are you crying!?” she says.
“I FEEL SAD!!!” she says, screaming.
“I DON’T GET IT!” says Lacey, exasperated. “Why!?” she says to Lem.
“Because it makes them sad!” says Pamela Anderson to Lacey.
“IT’S not that IMPORTANT!” says Lacey. “Do you need beauty for safety reasons!?” she asks them sincerely.
“No. It’s…about…pride.” says Casi.
“Lem would you love me regardless?” says Lacey.
“Yes.” he says.
“So…what do you all need it for!?” says Lacey.
“PRIDE!” says Casi.
“You can have healthy self-esteem without it.” says Lacey.
“She can.” says God.
“Did you create her better than us?” asks Casi.
“NO.” says God.
“Then how’d she get this way?” says Casi.
“GOODNESS…on her part…and…the fallen nature of things.” says God. “It’s very much not her fault.”
“How does your generation not understand this!?!” says a dead Greatest Generation woman, aghast.
“You guys…I think we messed-up.” says a living woman.
“There’s nothing clever about actual evil.” says the Pope.
Later.
“So she’s actually like genetically superior to most living people and her claiming that is not actually narcissistic?” says a reader.
“Actually yes. Yes, if this is real and not fake in some way yes genetically she is.” says the CIA.
“So she genetically is like my natural big boobs?” says Casi.
“Yup!” says the CIA.
Silence.
“Casi Hart how are you with your big boobs? I mean you show them off but why do you do that?” says the CIA.
“ so that’s what it’s like being like her it’s like you have it and you sometimes sort of flaunt it because it’s like fun it’s just fun it’s just fun to flaunt stuff sometimes but not necessarily be better than other people even it’s just fun it’s almost like a toy but not really him and then the rest of it is complicated I’m not sure I mean they’re obviously not a toy I’m just trying to make an analogy but that could be taken the wrong way and used for perverse purposes so I shouldn’t say that but it’s it’s hard to try to explain it otherwise they’re not actually a toy at all. Let’s see it’s dammit. I just keep thinking that as much as it’s nice to look like this because I feel sexy it’s not actually that great of an experience and someways it’s heavy and people stare at you and it’s nice but it’s not really everything that people think it is. I mean it really is nice don’t get me wrong. I’m blessed but, it’s not really it’s not really that great of an experience I mean it’s it’s great but it’s not don’t give me wrong, but I think I just feel bad because if it’s not different than that to be that superior, I already have the experience with my boobs, I already know what it’s like and then I’m just an idiot.” says Casi.
“ it’s very similar and you are an idiot. I’m sorry.” says a dead English woman.
“ well, if I am an idiot, what is everybody else? Because fuck I’m the only person who seems to get this right now.” says Casi.
“ Shit what the fuck was I thinking it is a Phone world. It’s obviously just bullshit love is real you know beauty is real fun is real sometimes but damn.
OK, so Lacey I think that’s where you’re confused because if I didn’t understand that people sincerely want big groups like I have like they go through surgery they get sick to get them just to look like me and there isn’t even real looking like they look weird compared to what I have And some men probably still think they look good because they do but they’re not you know like natural like mine and they’re not healthy like mine to have I mean I never have to worry about silicone leaking… then it’s like I might be like you. I can see myself being like you somehow I don’t. I don’t mean that as an insult I actually might kind of understand. I’m not straight, but I’m not sure that’s even what it is if you’re straight and I am positive that you are, so I don’t understand but I do
OK, so I’m just trying to imagine me not getting that that people actually like died to look like me.
OK so when people stare at you you’re probably just like what the fuck like stop staring that’s weird and then when people give you compliments that are strange like oh I I bet shirts barely fit on you at all. You’re just like what the fuck I know how to find shirts that fit me you nitwit.
And then combine with the fact that let’s say that they developed weirdly later somehow, and not right away and so you were just like a regular C cup or because maybe the cup when you were a teenager and people were just like oh you know like they might’ve even occasionally made fun of you for being so small and then in your 20s you blossomed, and you’ve just been getting bigger ever cents I think it’s similar to that
Because you’re still thinking these people just think I’m like small or something no they don’t people don’t think that I mean I did sort of but it’s for convoluted reasons that really just went back to me being insecure and being like kind of ridiculous.
So no, you know it’s like I think people could do that to me with the way I show off my boobs at times I think there are some women who could think I was full of it and then I was like altering the photos because they wouldn’t be able to tell that they’re clearly not altered and that I really just built that way And obviously there was another bigger than me but no I am gifted that way as a person but that’s the problem. I didn’t realize you were that unaware.” says Casi. “ actually, I wouldn’t even be surprised if she has nice boobs because she she could easily be better built than she realizes and she’s like aware, but not aware just like she’s aware of class, but not aware of what it means to other people.
And by other people, I don’t mean like scholarly other people like demographics and group psychology, which is other people I don’t mean it like that I don’t mean it in that intellectual sense that you relate to the world in no, I mean like on a human level I don’t think you get it.” says Casi.
“ she’s been trying to say that for over a decade!” says Reta Banks.
“ OK so let me explain what you come across as because you’re totally clueless and when I take pictures of my boobs, I am fully aware that some woman somewhere I could feel insecure but I tell myself that I’m doing it for my own purposes and that it’s just you know what it is if someone were to come up to me though, and start being insecure in a way that I automatically would recognize as them being insecure about what they look like in relation to me alarm bells would go off and I would instantly know what was going on. I made fun of you so many times for being what I thought was rich and how insecure I felt was supposed to be obvious. I thought it was obvious that I was insecure. Do you recall that?” says Casi.
“ yes I do.” says Lacey.
“OH FUCK!” says JFK from 2001.
“ that’s interesting
so you do recall this?” says Casi.
“ yes I do.” says Lacey.
“ well, it was real I was actually insecure.” says Casi.
Lacey nods.
“ Lacey I’m insecure!” yells Casi.
“ that’s awful. I’m so sorry.” says Lacey sincerely.
“ Lacey I am I’m insecure!” yells Casi.
Lacey shakes her head in confusion.
JFK looks panicked. “SHIT!!!!! SHIT!!!” he yells from 2001.
“ what kind of response are you looking for? That’s awful I’m sorry.” says Lacey.
“ you’re supposed to be like really empathetic or mean or something!” says Casi.
“ I don’t understand why it matters. Because insecurity is insignificant, it’s just nonsense.” admits Lacey.
“ oh dear God, you don’t ever feel insecure?” says Casi.
“ no I think I might sometimes but I just ignore it because it’s nonsense that’s the bullshit you can’t let it get to you.” says Lacey.
“ True confession, someone’s telling me who just died that I should use that true confession I was homosexual! Lem’s was actually heterosexual, but I didn’t fully understand that and every time Lacey has been saying her whole life that she’s not aware of insecurity means I thought she was just lying. I didn’t realize that was actually her brain. Because I thought that was me projecting my like obvious superiority onto her.
How do you think that’s nuts but it’s not I am JFK I have an incredible amount of self-confidence. Jackie often said that my whole family knows that I have an incredible amount of self-esteem, self-worth and self-confidence. I am like extraordinarily self-confident, so when she would say things like I don’t understand their insecurity I just assumed that was me and then when she was so cold about it, I thought was holy shit maybe that really is her because I am not that mean when people are inferior to me I am like extra nice to them, and I admit, sometimes I am a little evil, but who isn’t oh my God and no I didn’t understand. I thought that the good parts for me and the bad parts were not me because I’m kind of a big deal I mean hello I’m JFK!” says JFK from 2001.
“ that actually is JFK’s energy. He doesn’t exist everywhere anymore but he talk to you guys before he says to exist in this moment because he’s dead and it’s outside of time. I just died in the world trade center. I was I really was fuck you Simmons, doubting this. Fuck you I’m a real ghost you stupid bitch!
I just died in the world trade center and I am being channel by Lacey cause she’s kind and honestly you guys are really dance. I don’t entirely understand. How are you cause I haven’t looked into it I just died. I have that sense but I don’t really understand what it is completely, but he was talking to us because he was freaked out and a lot of us were not as surprised as you think defined out that he was not straight, I don’t know how you people are so gullible, but you know a lot of us are from New York and we’ve met people like him who like pretend to be straight and aren’t so maybe some of us just know more than you guys do but but no he was obviously not straight and we just thought it was funny to have him. Come talk to you guys using like colloquial, gay culture language, to try to kind of make fun of him because he can sense that he’s somewhat evil for some reason in relation to us that we don’t fully understand And so we just wanted to make fun of him for his lies and obviously it’s not going over very well.” says a woman who died in 9/11 on 9/11.
“ which tower were you in?” says Chris Christie.
“ she’s not talking anymore she was in the north tower.” says an angel.
“ what was her name?” he says.
“ her name was Ashley.” says an angel. “ there may not be as many Ashley’s in the north tower, who died as you might think there’s no more specifics that Lacey is aware of, but her name was Ashley and she was in generation X.”
“ I’m not sure about that one but it seems like that’s the name that comes Ashley maybe she was in her 20s or 30s when she died?” says Lacey.
“ OK.” he says.
“ I actually think you guys are asking way too much of her to talk about that right now but because I I wouldn’t be so sure either if I was like her I think I would think what is this god or someone trying to make me seem like I’m lying now, so stop being so pathetic. I actually think that woman could really be in the north towers and be a real ghost but you’re also doubting that in a very pretentiously kind way to try to poke holes in what she saying so fuck you!” says Casi.
“ I just can’t believe that my uncle would ever be that evil. He was most amazing man to ever live. He might’ve molested me, but I doubt it. I had memories of him fondling my deck when I was four and I processed about a week ago um and you know it’s like I hear shit like that in my memory bank and I think no that’s not real. I don’t know who the fuck put that there if it was Russia aliens my family because they hate me, if it’s Donald Trump sick way of trying to control me before I can get the note confirmed. But I sure as fuck know that my uncle Jack would never have a child molester that is 100% impossible!” says Bobby Kennedy Junior.
“ so you actually have memories of him molesting you Bobby?” says CIA.
“ I’m not saying that it’s not that clear but they are the memories that I have that make me wonder if he may be dead but then I choose not to process them because I know that they’re not real and that they were put in my head by someone who hates me.” says Bobby.
“ it kinda seems, though like he was shot by people who thought he was a pervert. Do you think maybe he actually was one?” says Kurt Cobain.
“ I highly doubt it I mean that’s not that’s not no absolutely not. I’m not gonna fall for that. I can tell it’s some sort of weird attack. I can see that one coming from a mile away.” says Bobby.
“ oh, OK so how do you ever remembered that previous to the last two weeks?” says the CIA.
“ no, not really!” says Bobby.
“ but it seems like a real memory, Bobby?” says the CIA.
“ i’m not gonna talk about it anymore. This is not appropriate.” says Bobby.
“ bobby are you planning on coming out of the closet anytime soon?” says a gay man.
“ I mean maybe I don’t know is that what do you think it is you think there’s the prenup there so that it seems like I’m only gay because my uncle molested me?” says Bobby.
“ what I mean I’m willing to go with you down the bunny trail. I thinking it’s a fake memory that was implanted by Donald Trump.” says a living gay man.
Casi laughs.
“ I think that’s very unlikely. We’re reading him as he’s doing this and it’s her. It’s probably her real memory. I’m sorry.” says the CIA.
“ I mean the truth is I’m not quite like that but I was trying to do that and I’m not I would be doing it a different way. I’d be using a real memory not a fake one and how would he not have found it because he’s kind of an idiot who lives in a delusional world that doesn’t exist and he’s driven me crazy with that personally for over a year, I have given him this cabinet position partially because you’re supposed to keep your enemies closer. I’m trying to keep an ion him to keep him busy and give him something to do instead of shooting him know a lot of people who was she was just dead my approach is to give him a cabinet position, and then scrutinize his every fucking moment rightfully.
But then, as part of that, I’ve had to psychologically profile him, and I realize that he he does repress a hell of a lot and this is one thing that he repressed. It’s clear his day he has it we’ve talked about it unfortunately I’m not sure what happened but I highly suspect but it’s likely that Jack cross some sort of boundary with him of being inappropriate and abusive. I don’t know what happened I don’t believe Lem’s ever dead, but I think that they used them to cover for irregularities, across-the-board and perversion.” says President Donald Trump.
“ so you think Bobby is nuts?” says a Liberal.
“ you know I think so his theories are interesting. I don’t shut people up. I genuinely try to listen to peoples concerns. I am an independent thinker, but I also live within the realm of reason in science, and I disagree with him about certain things do I think he’s mentally ill. I’m not a liberty discuss that right now.” says President Donald Trump. 
“ so you think he’s nuts but you can’t say that?” she says.
“ listen he’s like an employee of mine. I can’t say that you’re right that would be totally inappropriate.” says President Donald Trump.
“ do you know what irritates me is that you guys shot JFK and just thought it made sense to cover it up and act like nothing happened it was just some weird freak mystery read how likely even is that really but everyone believes that and then you didn’t think it was ever gonna be a problem to just keep lying about who these people actually are how the hell does that how how does that work?” says the reader. “ because it’s absurd it’s like oh we got so desperate that Fidel Castro strong armed us into shooting our own president but it’s just a weird freak thing so all we have to do is just cover it up. I think that’s what happened I do I watched her her footage from the Dick Van Dyke show. It’s not a question it’s too much of a coincidence it’s impossible. Did you guys use the name Len Billings right before you shot Jack Anthony Monroe and then other crap like that no there’s clearly something going on, why the hell did you guys decide out to keep covering up the JFK dynasty? Why haven’t you tried harder over the years? Just sort of give us a hint that he wasn’t the great American hero that we thought he was.?”
“ you know because we’re we are naïve.
We sincerely thought that it was a kindness on our part to that family and whatever they were trying to do that was honorable and also we thought that it was kind to the Irish and Catholics in our country. We thought that it was better for their safety and the safety of lots of people in general not to say too much and we couldn’t figure out how to clue you guys in, we couldn’t figure out how to do it because how do you explain it without explaining their poverty and their poverty was very closely linked to their Irish heritage, and our minds at least we never realized we have not looked into you at that much and you know there’s some people in the family who are less messed up than others like Joe so I think we thought let’s just let it go out of kindness the people in the family that are pure evil and stupid. Out of kindness to people and you know in America, who are Irish and poor, still at that time or middle class or something certainly Irish Catholic out of no love and good faith towards them we weren’t we couldn’t explain what happened because you guys were just going to length those two things in your head and then just start making spurious conclusions about Irish, poor people or Catholics that they’re all just crazy weirdos.
And so that was one of the problems was trying to figure out so late explain what happened we could’ve called him a pervert, but then I think it starts to look bad because it’s like how the fuck did America elect a pervert? And nowadays that wouldn’t be a big deal but up until recently that was a very serious thing to say because people took the office of president super seriously and so it was like we can’t say maybe America is not a terrible idea but sometimes we will act as a dad. We could just outright say that. So we had to find ways to sort of alter the conversation I think sometimes you’ve tried to say things like Jack was it was a weirdo he was super creepy with women because I think we thought that might work, but it never does it and it’s never really worked. It’s just people don’t take that as seriously as they should and so it’s just not seen. Is this huge mark of shame anymore.
Anyway, no it’s like how do you explain what happened? How do you not make people look bad who don’t deserve to look bad and then also we wanted people to believe in mythology because we thought it was good. Bryn Seay, who will win in a home is a good or something to look up to him that they would have something to feel. Proud of that. They would have something to be excited about when it came to America and getting into politics, there’s so many people who’ve gone into politics Because of JFK and it’s been very useful a very useful recruiting tool and so and so we didn’t want to get rid of that because it’s been so useful to us.” says someone in the Illuminati.
“ but then he’s just a phony person.” says a reader.
“ yeah he is he’s not who he presented him as being in the really sad truth is that now at this point if this is a real conversation with the actual illuminati, who is she accidentally found we have historians that are being thrown into Credit One to question because they’ve got along with the mythology more than they should have not just David pets but a lot of other people there a lot of his story instead of just regurgitated preconceived ideas that were shoddily based on interpreted history intentionally to create a mythology you know it’s it’s not as if historians researching the Kennedys are intellectual purest or are particularly wholly intellectually. They’re not they might be offended by hearing that, but no, I don’t think any particular historian to discover them or research them who is done it that death has ever really been that serious of a scholar, that may change within the next hundred years if we don’t all die, but no their recent history there popular history, and so the people that have been fascinated with them are not necessarily the most scholarly diligent disciplined intellectuals.” says someone.
“ that has to be true I mean I don’t know for a fact, but I can’t imagine that’s not true.” says Dr. Moritz.
Joe and Steven laugh.
“ how are you saying this right now Dr. Moritz?” says the CIA
Steven laughs.
“ I don’t know.” he says.
“ did Stephen and Joe do something to your energy to make it easier for you to hear us the most?” says the CIA.
“All in the name of fun.” says Joe.
“ OK let’s move back to me because this is getting obnoxious so you guys can never focus on her for more than five seconds. I’m so Lacey I think we just let you go off a cliff even though you do not obviously going off a cliff because we’re too stupid to handle the reality of what we’re experiencing with you and I’m not falling for it because I can tell that it’s real. I am like that so basically it seems like Jackie has been messing with your energy and I don’t know why God let him do that but it’s interesting or maybe God wasn’t able to stop him because he had free will and that’s why he no longer exists hopefully temporary people need to be quite stop being so naïve about stuff. I actually think this is possible I’m a horror movie fanatic what are poltergeist like you guys get a clue.
Mom cell basically I kind of don’t think you got it so Lacey am insecurity yeah like when do you feel insecure?” says Casi.
“ and when I drive on the Minnekhada of golf course, and then I just told myself that my father was probably a member and a bunch of stuff like that or I just tell myself it doesn’t really matter, but I do feel a little bit of insecurity.” says Lacey.
“ OK well, imagine if you didn’t have such great coping techniques, how they would start to affect you.” says Casi.
“ I would just get extremely quiet-“ says Lacey.
“ like what is extremely quiet?” says Casi.
“ like extremely quiet, like I would never say hardly anything ever!” says Lacey.
“ OK see you were just give up on talking completely?” says Casi.
“ yes yes until further notice yeah I would just completely give up on talking. What? What do I have to say that when that moment I have no idea what’s going on.” says Lacey.
“ him so clearly time being told you when you’re an infant a lot and you understand the concept of unconditional love then you have no idea how to process how to be anything other than just silent or like why are you quiet?” she says.
“ because I have nothing to say sorry Phyl I would feel as though I have nothing of value to say to you when I should just be quiet and my my manners mind, my place and just sterically watch and be content with observing.” says Lacey.
“ kind of like a servant?” says Casi.
“ I’m not quite certain level no not quite like a servant, but sort of along those lines, not call him! servant. If I was the servant, I actually I’m not sure that I would understand the concept of rebellion I’m not I don’t have autism at all I don’t have any of the issues that Anthony Hopkins had and remains of the Day That I’m somewhat like that I I don’t understand why I would need to say anything.” says Lacey.
“Because people have reason to talk with you???” says a woman.
Lacey stares at her.
“Imagine it’s us.” says Richard.
Lacey thinks. “I’m still just being quiet.”
“And EXTREMELY STOIC.” says a dead woman.
“Umm…
So that feeling you felt? That insecurity?” says Casi. “That’s how we feel.”
“Yeah. Huh.” says Lacey.
“But then we tell ourselves to be…doubtful about our reasons. …Because…we feel…sure…we are…loved. …By our parents. …And…we aren’t you. So…it intimidates us…for good reason. However…we have to try. Because….it feels like we have to try. To get at the resources you have. …A father who secretly ran the whole country. …And…so we lie.” says Casi.
“But why do you have to step on me?” says Lacey.
“Because it makes sense to us. It seemed…like a trampoline of sorts.” says Casi.
“It’s not.” says Lacey. “It’s a trap.”
Casi stares at her.
“I’m sorry. I’m not sure what to say to you.
But I’m sorry. It’s a shitty world in many ways. I guess.” says Lacey.
“Casi…she’s Tom Banks’s daughter.” says a dead woman. “Why THE FUCK…did it make sense to you all to walk up to her at the Minnekhada Club…while she’s washing dishes with a weird 1800’s Scottish accent and pick on her?” She laughs. “IT DOES NOT MAKE SENSE! …IT DID NOT MAKE SENSE!”
“ I mean she’s right if I’m at liberty to say so he may have been one of our most important members even though he didn’t have a lot of wealth compared to some people the most he ever had was probably 50 million in today’s money which compared to some of our members was not that much. We had some people who are part of our club in his day and age who were probably worth about 300 to 400,000,000 who lived in the state of Minnesota. That was one of the most prestigious clubs in the whole state. It’s a very grand club. And you’re not you guys aren’t really using empathy when you’re when you’re analyzing her other than to try to be sick and attack her.
Casi, maybe you’re kind of trying but without that I’m sorry if you really are. She spent two months with her with her father through this incredibly illustrious man who may have been Max Calvado, or whatever that persons name was, but then they made him into sort of a hoodlum in a way that he wasn’t because they were trying to just sort of hide his identity While still hinting at it, he was very British him and very privileged in that way and he was good friends with Humphrey Bogart who had that aesthetic because that’s who he really was and they got along very well. He was like that and he grew up in a wealthy family, even though it was Nebraska, and their family has been wealthy for generations. I mean the nursing homes are obviously old money to, but not as obviously Lacey, though, if she walked into them in a cottage club would actually have absolutely no reason to feel insecure her mannerisms her demeanor are very much her fathers and people can sense that and because we have believe it, or not genetic memories of her father and their family in our minds , those of us who is parents are part of that club or have been a part of that club if we met her, we would instantly perceive her as one of us it’s just in our DNAF Scott Fitzgerald made a joke out of it and he shouldn’t have because it’s not funny He was incredibly intelligent but at times he misunderstood certain things, and this is one thing that he misunderstood. It actually is genetic it really is unfortunately or fortunately it is in her DNA
So that’s who she is sweetie does very pretty round face, chiseled beauty with brown eyes, big beautiful, brown eyes. She has beautiful lips exquisite features in general, very chiseled yet soft that’s an unusual combination to have chiseled and soft features, both that are also distinct, and all very appealing, but that’s what she has, it’s poetic it’s gorgeous but you know I think what frustrates her though is that it’s not showy it’s a very quiet beauty it is exquisite but it’s more of a refined beauty that most people quickly process and so you can appreciate her but you’re not gonna just instantly be in awe of her consciously Unless if you’re a man or someone who finds women attractive, but basically speaking know, it’s some thing that isn’t as blatant as some people 
It’s blatant it’s obvious and you just look at her and you’re like wow that’s a 10 when you see her in person but that’s not what we’re talking about so it’s obviously the real thing it’s kind of like you know $300,000 emerald it’s like wow that’s gorgeous that’s a beautiful green and it’s like stunning and you’re like I would say that’s superior but it’s not gonna give you the same sort of affect as a $300,000 diamond Because diamonds have that you know persona they have that attitude they have that sparkle and so they’re worth the same. I would actually prefer the emerald because an emerald that large is rare and there are some people who would prefer the diamond, but I would prefer the emerald. There are so many prefer the emerald as well, so to speak but um, that’s more what she is like an emerald or sapphire or something that’s of rare nature.
So there is absolutely no reason him to see her is anything other than what she actually is but people I guess want to think that she’s an evil villain or something and that she’s like a diamond hiding is an emerald ore that emerald is the May birthstone that’s Jackstone that’s bullshit. OK emeralds existed before we decided they belong to the month of May and it’s just a stupid stupid argument make.
It makes no sense to go up to her and start a fight because she doesn’t know what’s going on the way that some people do like I would, and the way that she does know is because she keeps track of stuff for the purposes of running the country. why are you running the country because it’s genetic her father helps her in the country. It’s in her mind that she hast to keep track of stuff for that reason really probably more than Bobby Kennedy Junior their father was not running the country the way, Tom bakes was he never was doing that. That’s a delusion that they have. They were important. They were in the illuminati, but they never had the sort of influence that her father had they’ve had influence over the media they’ve had influence over how you perceive them they’ve been obsessive about that, and that’s sort of a way of exerting influence over people, but it’s not the same sort of power that her father had I mean her father was making decisions behind the scenes. It wasn’t just like he was on the cover of a magazine getting people to like him popularity matters, but when it comes down to like making military decisions, or when it comes down to making political decisions, you don’t go with the no the popularity queen, you talk to the army generals you talk to people who actually know what’s going on who are experts not just people who are appearing on the cover of time
Yes, if she’s been born in 1930 some thing they would’ve easily tried not to marry her off to Michael I mean that would’ve been perceived as a pretty solid marriage. People would’ve found that pretty convenient but if she married lab that would’ve been considered a problem that would’ve made just as much sense but she would’ve been expected to marry someone like that like Michael or lamb. Louis would’ve been a problem but I think they would’ve tried to make it work, but it would’ve been problematic because of how old he was and his marriage history, Harold would have been in eccentric choice. I can’t say it’s impossible because he was brilliant and fascinating and handsome believe it or not she thinks he’s handsome but he was and I think that he would’ve found her wonderful company so that’s not impossible and now they’re other people, but those are the biggest people Elliot is another one of those people and Who is very tied up with a lot of women, but he would’ve thought that Lacey was pretty fantastic so he might have tried to make some time for her so to speak and that would’ve worked out well too. It would’ve made him very dangerous more than he was, but it would’ve been an interesting choice.
This thing is, she’s ultimately supposed to be with Lem not because she’s Jack because she’s Lacey and they are actually very good together.
Oh why are you fighting her though because she’s Skippy Handelman seriously if if if you were to put her in the 1980s I was a teenager she may have ended up married to someone exactly like Skippy Handelman is she extremely beautiful yes she is. She’s very beautiful, but like she’s not Barbie, she’s Barbies, brown eyed chiseled, round faced friend, who is married to the wealthy Jewish doctor And I’m serious that’s who she is and as she is right now I mean she’s in our kitchen washing our dishes to stay in line out of respect for Christ.. no, she has some for some reason she’s in the middle collar club. She’s not sure why. No, not middle cloud, not middle collar Minnekahta.
So she’s in our club washing our dishes in weirdly manifesting a Scottish accent dress in like a used Lanvin evening gown with brand new Manolo Blahnik’s looking absolutely fantastic arguably one of the best looking women there and her choice of a used Lanvin gown is not actually inappropriate. She has very good taste, and it looks good. 
Do you know if she’s wearing her $10,000 cocktail ring unless if she has a $30,000 Batman skin or diamond on the other hand coupled with a $3000 trinity band and then it’s that’s you know that’s her jewelry and she’s wearing the necklace that she took off that the ring is putting it around her neck and then that’s like all she had OK like I got it it’s a beautiful aesthetic it’s very strikingly beautiful she’s strikingly beautiful and her Scottish accent is sexy and pretty and fun but she’s in the kitchen sweetie. She’s in the kitchen washing dishes. Does that make sense to you?” says a dead Gen. X woman.
President Donald Trump shakes his head no.
“ yeah she’s in the kitchen at the manicotti club dressed for an evening of dancing and instead she decides to go wash dishes and it’s not entirely clear why but for some reason she is under the strong impression that that’s her place and I’m sincere, so why did you guys go to the kitchen and attack her, why did Jack attack her instead of her father? Why are you all thinking that she’s a trampoline to the top I don’t get it explain this to me.” she says.
“ how nice is her house?” asks a reader.
“ it’s extremely nice. She has exquisite taste. It’s a mess. It’s small but it’s extraordinarily well curated so to speak of the colors the flow of colors the wood is the choice of fabrics and the choice of everything the little lighting. It’s gorgeous absolutely gorgeous and I’m not referencing JFK. I’m telling you what she’s like. 
I can sense his energy is strongly attacking her right now, and I’m not surprised I’m trying to fool all of you because Bobby is obsessed and he can’t handle the fact that Lem was straight.
When he dies if the illuminati is real, this is argue argue we going to be the most embarrassing, 20 years of his entire fucking life.
To be honest, there are times when he’ll look back at this and think why didn’t they just shoot me I am making such a fucking ass of myself and I’m just saying that to warn people.
why are you in our kitchen though? What are the what the fuck are you guys doing making a beeline to our kitchen?” she says.
“ and because we smelled her expensive perfume I never got around to telling her how she comes across to people we smelled her expensive perfume. Let’s just say that she wears portrait of a Lady everything body oil body wash and goes through like two bottles a year because I could see her doing that that’s a really good perfume it’s timeless it’s excellent and I have a feeling that that is definitely something that smells good on her. I didn’t realize that that even though she can wear stuff like that that she’s not that she looks like she does I hadn’t really met somebody who is as much of like a leading lady character who looks like her Jackie had brown eyes and darker hair but she’s not like Lacey who has like curves, and all the right places that I speak and it’s like sexy and bubbly and silly and ditzy that’s not some thing I’ve seen before I don’t recall any movie stars even from the golden era who I really liked that Natalie Wood was slightly like that but they’re different. I don’t know why you guys never cast anybody like that maybe they don’t photograph well I don’t know. I almost wonder if they don’t photograph as well, some people but I really don’t know, no I mean people wanna compare to Ingrid Bergman but hurt her beauty is different Ingrid Bergman is or Scandinavian looking Lacey looks German or Dutch and somewhat Norwegian but it’s not quite as strongly Scandinavian as Ingrid Bergman so it just doesn’t and Laura Harring and Lacey look more like a Laura is German I mean it’s obvious Lacey is probably illegitimate, so why did we do that because she’s wearing portrait of a Lady and it’s loud it is loud and so you walk in you smell portrait of a lady still lingering from like 15 minutes ago and then you follow it to the kitchen and then you realize it’s the woman washing dishes who is wearing it and you notice that she’s wearing Landon but then you think that’s old that’s all Lanvin and then you noticed that those are brand new Manolo Blahnik‘s and that they’re like expensive like yeah like Ford like $2000 no Bonnick‘s or something and you notice that there’s like a $10,000 ring around her neck and like another $40,000 one on her other hand, but you think she yourself this woman has like her hair in a bun. I don’t think she gives a rip about how she looks that’s expensive stuff but maybe she’s a lesbian because it doesn’t seem like she cares about her make up and hair the way that straight women do.
Why do you do all that because if she’s not a lesbian if she’s not faking it somehow or a crazy person or something then it’s like why the fuck is she in the kitchen washing dishes? It’s like why is she in the kitchen washing dishes? I don’t understand and then you think yourself maybe they made her go into the kitchen and she’s vulnerable so I can jump on her like a trampoline because no one‘s gonna care cause she’s just some crazy lady washing dishes?
And and then you think hold on and why is Dr. Moretz from Cambridge crying over her? He’s not Caroline Calloway plus Caroline Calloway is Hart. He is still very much in touch with Cambridge and they may use him.
But then he walks away, and you think is this princess like crazy?
And then you hear her talking to ghosts and you see the moving things, and you think she’s a witch?
End it never occurs to you that her $500,000 house and old Mercedes Benz in mint condition mean something.
And why is that because she’s washing dishes and we didn’t think that was a thing. We didn’t think that someone like her would just wander into the kitchen and start washing dishes. We also did not sink that you guys were relatable, and that we were just making asses of ourselves with our pretense.
Oh, so why don’t we think that because it’s kind of scary it’s scary. It’s scary it’s like why is this woman in your kitchen washing dishes? It’s impressive and hard to handle because we’re narcissistic and we don’t wanna think that we’re really that stupid Ruby narcissistic she challenges ours are assumptions about everything because she’s so impressive but then she’s not at all narcissistic and so then a lot of us who are narcissistic just end up, feeling stupid around her Because the process who she is requires us to be honest with ourselves about the fact that we’re probably nuts. Well nuts and or off in our head like there’s something really wrong with us and we’re being evil and it’s just weird. It’s a lot easier to think that we’re not the weird ones in that way but if I can step back and in and try to think OK I’m narcissistic so I’m a little off but OK so then she’s in the upper class and she’s old money but then why is she in your kitchen like I get it but it just it’s really scary from the perspective of someone who’s feeling really insecure there’s just something extremely unnerving about it like why is she in the kitchen?” says Casu.
“ Because she got the impression from Jack that that’s where she belongs. He told her that that’s where she belongs and she didn’t question it.” says Lem.
“ are you there with her?” says NBC.
“ of course I am you people are dumb as fuck to not understand that by now I really was straight. I really was.” says Lem.
“ so you’re a ventriloquist Lem?” says the CIA.
“ no I gave that up and I realize that that was not my thing.” says Lem
“ casi, you questioning her the way that you guys have out of insecurity has only solidified her perspective that she should be in the kitchen but it’s also made her very determined to be how do I say that’s almost like in charge of what she’s in charge of, so she tries to be humble about the kitchen, but then someone also will say put her in charge of the entire lighting of the whole Minikahda club and the music and so she is extremely like hyper vigilant about all of that and that’s not bad because it looks great it’s romantic it’s elegant people are loving it who have poor taste but for some people it’s been a hard adjustment because sometimes she takes requests from people like Louis Hill Junior will say and so we’ve got like 1920s jazz from like what is his name yeah it’s that guy who was really popular but was yeah I can’t think of his name but it’s like real hard-core 20s music like being pipes throughout them in a cotton club. I know there’s a lot of boomers to find it entertaining but not preferable there’s a lot of Gen Xers that are just baffles, but they’re trying to find it amusing and there’s a lot of new money people we’re just like appalled by it because they don’t realize how sophisticated it actually is which is sad but it’s stuff like that so it’s like you’ve given her this like Dad dog and determination to cling to her power because she sees it as like precious and rare. This woman is not relaxed anymore sweetie why I still don’t understand, I still don’t understand it.” she says.
Sweet Anita Mine as performed by Jelly Roll Morton plays.
“This isn’t her show. She’s not the star.” says an actor.
“Why is Lacey Handelman washing the dishes?” says Casi.
“GOOD QUESTION!!!” shouts a woman being forced to listen to Windy City Blues as performed by Jelly Roll Morton loudly over cocktails.
“No! This cannot be a real analogy.” says Casi.
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