Lacey prays to be blown-up with her whole family…on occasion. To Jesus. …Of course…it’s only if God sees fit. And so far He hasn’t, necessarily. But…He hears her.
Hello, I’m Lem’s brother. …This isn’t necromancy. …She’s not conjuring us. We’re just with her. It’s more like she’s in a permanent twilight state, even if she’s not dying just yet. It’s highly unusual but…let’s just say this: If Thomas Banks is her birth father her whole life is highly unusual. And God is good and merciful and not legalistic. She’s not into necromancy. And the reasons why she’s talking to us are very, very different than the heart intent of necromancy. …God understands our heart intent and judges based on that not only the law.
If you’re a Christian reading this…please try not be presumptuous.
I don’t blame her for wanting to be blown-up. Not at all. …My nephew, her son, has epileptic seizures and in his toddler years they almost killed him several times. This morning I was evaluating him and I was…filled with sadness. Lem held him in his spirit and I joked with him. He reminds me so much of kids I knew in the 1950’s and 40’s. My own kids. Their sense of humor. Their sense of things in general. …I’d like to go on a hunting trip with him and maybe my son…when they were kids. All of us together. With Lem and my dad. A boys weekend. In Heaven. And I can’t do that. And…that’s just a tiny bit of the gaping chasm of reasonable cause prompting Lacey to pray to God…to be blown-up.
Last night before she fell asleep she recalled a college professor who shared with the class that he prayed similarly to die or for his wife to be a better spouse. And he claimed she dramatically improved. …He shouldn’t necessarily have shared that but he wasn’t lying. …And she’s heard other stories like that. …God is real. He does hear us. …But she can’t quite figure it out.
Before she died Queen Elizabeth II, if there’s an Illuminati, sincerely chatted about blowing up Lacey and her family in a plane crash. With some men from the Middle East. …And it doesn’t quite work.
Yes. If Lacey found the real Illuminati she likes them…as people…but…knowing they might exist…and experiencing the violent hatred of some of them…coupled with the isolating nature of her experience of knowing them but not…is part of why she prays to die. She’s not schizophrenic. Nor bipolar. …And it’s incredibly demoralizing to be…ostracized by people who don’t and can’t easily comprehend what she’s saying at times. They’ve set her up on many occasions to sound crazy. Even though she isn’t. Not all of them but the most evil towards her. And she’s a very strong person but…it’s been difficult nonetheless. …God partially let her talk to us because He knows she needs caring people to talk to.
If there is an Illuminati and she found them…she’s heroic. A remarkably brave, astoundingly strong and stoic person. A fortress. A fortress of epic proportions. Because to endure what she has…should there be an Illuminati coupled with the onslaught of evil from others…is…amazing. …It’s also excruciatingly painful for Lem, my brother, to watch.
And even if there’s no Illuminati…I still am Lem’s brother. The ghosts are still real. She was just cruelly tricked. Pranked by evil. And that too would be painful for Lem to see.
Why would she be cruelly tricked? Well…because Tom Banks is her father, regardless. He has a great amount of genuine fatherly love for her. As he is her father or he’s chosen to be. They look alike. That’s no coincidence. Making her his daughter is easy. Or she already was. And just is.
A lot of people, including JFK, hate Tom Banks. And…a lot of people love him. …She’s also Lem’s other half for eternity. That’s spiritual notion that both Christians and New Age folks can agree on, mostly.
Yes, they’re targeting her because she is New Age people with call Lem’s twin flame. It’s they’re not just soulmates. Jack and him, I’m sorry to say if you like that, we’re not soulmates. That’s fiction. They were hardly anything alike and it’s always been a stretch to try to figure out why they were even friends. I think what happened is this: Jack was bisexual mostly gay, yes mostly gay. Lacey as astounding as this seems to some people, not to me, was JP Kennedy‘s soulmate when he was young. They think a lot alike in their minds. They think a lot alike. Lacey and Joe senior that is. His parents owned a pub in Boston Lacey’s father owned something like a pub in a sense in Minneapolis. They are both very intellectual people who are quiet and analytical. They’re both deep and that’s where they deviate because that’s where they diverge because he chose to be evil and she’s chosen to be extremely good in Christ. And he lost her as his soulmate but when he died, he couldn’t handle that. Her father is not listening but he’ll find out through the Holy Spirit. Her physical form is his ideal. It’s a very beautiful 1920s shape. Louis Hill Junior, Harold Loeb, and Joe Senior are all men of that generation. As was F. Scott Fitzgerald. If he’s her birth father, her mother married, in reality through Christ’s eyes, her mother married a man who is a lot older than her. They were married for a few years. Not legally, but in reality that’s how God sees it. It’s not a fetish for her and her mother it’s more that they just find older adult men attractive. It’s not a fetish it’s it’s it’s just something that they’re capable of doing. It’s not pedophilic certainly not pedophilic it’s just it’s for some reason genetically or some, for some other reason, they’re able to find other adult men who are older, attractive. So then that means that men who are older like Harold and Louis and Joe were men who she could find attractive. And that’s something that is complicated that I cannot completely discuss at this moment, but suffice to say there’s nothing perverted or weird about it.
So basically ah…Lacey and Joe were originally as God designed them soulmates. And let them being lonely and suffering and being confused found jack refreshing and fun. Kind of, and I’m sorry if this is hard to hear and hurtful, kind of like you’d find a puppy refreshing and fun. Lacey‘s cousin, speaking of puppies, who is married to Jess, who is morbidly jealous of her it seems, who ironically is one of our distant cousins from Tennessee on my mother’s side, named his dog after my nephew, her son. I’m a real ghost. That was very hurtful to us! I I I can’t guarantee that that’s why they named their dog after my nephew but I suspect That that’s what happened. Which is absolutely disgusting and heartless. Considering the animosity between people in our family relating back to black slavery in the south, that’s very caustic. The Seays were part of the family that had slaves. We didn’t, we were the abolitionists. The dehumanization of her son when he’s a child by naming a dog after him is absolutely disgusting beyond words to me. My nephew is slightly autistic, and he almost died several times before he was age 4. And in heaven, you’ll get to meet who he really is he’s different than what you think Lacey has seen glimpses of it. His voice is slightly different. His mannerisms are slightly different because he loses the autism and frankly, he seems more like Lem’s’s biological son, than he already seems. In Heaven he will be put in the same generation as Lacey‘s cousin’s father. . And our family unfortunately for them is still wealthy because we sided with the north and the north won.
I’d just like to ask Stephen: Are you jealous of my nephew because you had a shit father with mental health problems who didn’t take you hunting? Are you jealous of my nephew because his father is rich and loves him? Is that why you singled out my nephew who is a vulnerable slightly autistic child? He’s a genius with a heart of gold and a very sweet temperament. He is great company and someday in Heaven my children will cry that he wasn’t there and their friend growing-up as he’ll be one of their favorite cousins. They will love her daughter dearly, but her son will have for better or worse a very special place in their heart. that is it to say that they’d be willing to give her daughter up. They have a lot of love for her daughter her daughter is obviously their dear cousin in Heaven as well but I think to them her son is just really spectacular. I don’t think it’s any coincidence that he’s been so targeted with so many diseases fighting for his life since he was born, even in utero, he almost died. Part of that is that there is a panic because Satan knows that it’s very dangerous for him to be here and then part of that is also that people hate him for really evil reasons. Her son is a strong, moral white decent man. He’s sensitive and deep, but also very manly. That is not common unfortunately or it hasn’t been common. And part of the reason he’s been so targeted is that Jack has watched my brother love him and realized that their bond was not romantic. My brother is not a pedophile or a pervert but he got confused about the nature of his sexuality, and while he never was perverted, he didn’t know how to make something cogent in his head. So, at times he was paternal towards Jack, and he totally separated, that from any sort of activity that they did, but he loved him in an almost paternal way at times. And it was totally separate however and so when he did stuff with Jack, it was a very angry demoralized sort of servant-like mindless way. My brother really was straight; authentically heterosexual.
Lacey is not a joke. Neither was Matthew Nesheim’s father. I know that Stephen Seay and his family used to make fun of Eddie Nesheim behind his back, often. You know people can be funny Stephen, so are you. And someday I am going to treat you to your own medicine and you can see how you like it. I’m going to give you a little counseling!
When you talked to Lacey when she was at Messiah College and you told her that you didn’t think you could help her you had no reason to think that. My bet is that you just didn’t care. And I’m saying this to his spirit whether he reads this or not. The truth is what she needed to do was change her major. She had depression she’s not bipolar she’s not schizophrenic she might’ve had some post traumatic stress disorder, and possibly some ADHD, but those things could’ve been handled, she would’ve benefited from only merely simply just changing her major. That was all she needed to do. She would’ve still been somewhat depressed and traumatized, but she would’ve been OK if she had just changed her major. The only reason she didn’t is because of the demonic oppression on her life. She was a politics major. And you may or may not be able to accept this, but there is a sort of purgatory Episcopalians and Catholics still pretty much know that. And unfortunately, Jack chose to waste the grace and mercy of Christ by harassing Lacey and I think he thought it was funny to use demons to influence people to harass her and harm her. She discussed changing her major to art with her advisor in college, and that woman talked her out of it when really, if she’d been listening to the Holy Spirit she would’ve let her change her major. Lacey is a genius when it comes to politics. But her mind needed a place to safely rest and art history would’ve been that place. She would’ve graduated nearly on time and she would’ve done something with her degree.
Please stop all of you with your attempts to take her down. Because you’re not flattering yourselves, you’re not taking her down, it’s just extremely toxic and dangerous and evil. You imagine her getting flustered because demons and Jack have you thinking that. You imagine she’s getting flustered by your attacks on her or that she gets flustered easily in someway like Hyacinth Bucket or Mandy Moore in “Saved” or something but that’s not her she’s not really like that! What you hear is her being quiet and Jack pretending to be her and getting flustered. he mimics her in the spirit and some of you are so slow or deluded or fooled that you think that you’re sensing her. That rarely happens that people are so fools in that way. But this is a rare circumstance. She’s not that flustered! She’s not flustered at all but you are making her angry! Snd her rage is akin to Sean Connery’s rage, as hilarious as that might be, on SNL when he’s fighting with Alex Trebek. Whether there is reincarnation or not, that is her personality. She’s incredibly feminine and incredibly tender-hearted, but it’s the sort of rage that he had that you’re prompting in her. And the fact that you think that she’s like Mandy Moore or Hyacinth Bucket is actually very insulting to her. and Mandy Moore might be a very sweet person. Hyacinth made good dinners, believe it or not, but she’s not those people. That is not who she is and it is sick and sad that you people have been dumb enough to believe that at all.
What are you hiding from the fact that you’re fucking idiots compared to her in reality? I don’t know, but get that out of your fucking heads. There’s actual rage in her, and you keep igniting it more and more and more. You’re not getting someone flustered! She’s not flustered!! The people who bullied her when she was a child to her face, could tell you that! She doesn’t get flustered! …She gets quiet and calculates how to attack you. Another part of the reason why she prays to die with her whole family in some quick easy way, which they definitely deserve is because of this.  Being of an older generation she can tell that a lot of the people alive aren’t smart enough somehow to read her and that they need help as obnoxious as they’re being.  Jack was desperate to think that Lem was dumb and not as smart as his father and his older brother Joe when he died, and he’s still desperate to think that Lacey and Lem are beneath him and his whole family, but he doesn’t exist right now. Hopefully it’s temporary.  He has you guys laughing at things that aren’t funny that really just make you seem kind of retarded. And that’s something she knows and that’s part of why she feels so much despair. She can’t figure out how to reach you people to get you to understand that it doesn’t work; you’re being hurtful, but it also is just absolutely absurd. 
Hopefully me saying this will be helpful somewhat.
Well, I was alive I didn’t like thinking about Lem. Because I felt incredible despair when I considered my brother’s life. We were very cautious with what we said to the news and what we said to researchers. We were very careful. And I regret it because we always suspected that he was straight. There are some men like Richard Deacon, who are from birth, will say for now, not straight. That may or may not be something that’s good or healthy. And that’s a very complicated discussion and I resent people trying to force me to have it right now. That’s totally inappropriate. You see my brother was not born anything other than straight, and he died heterosexual. he was molested. He got very confused and given his temperament and his natural pitch of voice, that was not homosexuality, given his jawline and his glasses and his neck, he seemed gay and because he had a lot of recessive traits and people don’t know what they’re looking at, and they make assumptions because it’s easy and they’re lazy intellectually. Dick Van Dyke‘s brother has a voice like my brother Lem. Richard Deacon and him do not have the same voice. In the episode right before the JFK assassination when Richard Deacon is called Lem and they make a point out of it, Richard Deacon starts trying to sound like my brother. Go watch the television show! It’s there!!! …Richard Deacon starts trying to sound like my brother Lem. And he did that because he was trying to figure out whether or not Lem was actually homosexual for the CIA. They knew that Richard Deacon was a closeted homosexual. They profiled everyone famous. They had dossiers on everyone, and they knew that he was a closeted homosexual. He was actually bisexual but in a way that a lot of bisexual men who label themselves gay today are. He was capable of being with a woman, but not many of them. And they used him to try to get a sense of what was going on. He knew something was up. He didn’t know what it was. After Jack was shot that actor was shocked in a way that I think you think Lem was. Because they had to talk to him and fill him in, and their explanation was simply that they were concerned and they were using actors to try to get a sense of what was happening, which sounds totally schizophrenic and crazy, but if the CIA killed JFK and they did, they told him some far-fetched stuff. And what they told him afterwards is not something I’m privy to, but he has told us that they had to assure him that nothing he did prompted anyone to murder Jack. That was a lie, but it also wasn’t. None of the other actors on the show knew what they were saying. They were just reading the lines. At least I don’t think so I I think I think I think he was the only one who they actually talked to.  And you know part of that actually might’ve been them covering their ass because it’s a strange line and I think they somehow thought that it would stand out to him and then he would start to wonder. So they needed to find someway to give him some mentally confusing explanation that would silence him essentially. …That’s what she’s hearing me say and I’m either bullshitting you or that’s actually what happened. 
What is that’s actually what happened? Have you ever heard anyone else point out to you the irregularities in that television show leading up to Jack’s death? No, you have not! Or if you have, it’s never been something that you’ve take a note of. You think you’re so clever but why isn’t that strange to you that they used the name Lem Billings, before Jack died? Jack is useless. He is currently does not even exist. It is as Lacey says it’s his energy that’s attacking her, not his conscious ghost. He’s very dumb. I’m sorry to break your heart. And he has a problem where he doesn’t see the point. Instead of being angry at Lem and holding him accountable, he wants to be angry at Lacey for telling him what he already knows is true that Lem was straight and that he helped assassinate him. He’s obsessed with trying to convince her that Lem in some creepy, freaky way abandoned her.  Or that Lem was gay and she just doesn’t understand. But then in that last one if Lem was actually gay, she can quickly just think, “Well then I was fooled by the demonic and maybe I heard wrong and I’m supposed to be with Louis Hill Junior.” Because he was the first ghost she interacted with and she’s in St Paul and she could easily end up living in North Oaks and dying there. Why would she think that because I am a ghost and so is he and she can tell that in her spirit that we’re not necessarily demons. And she could think that because of the nature of what she’s doing that she’s been somewhat fooled but not completely and so then it’s like maybe she’s actually actually with somebody else.  And that is something that JFK’s energy and his ghost could never accept. 
You all are deceitful and so was he. You pretend like that doesn’t bother you, but it does. And you want her to be stuck thinking that she’s with Lem but can’t be at the same time instead of moving on and dealing with the situation. Because your goal is to torture her for being better than her for being better than you! YOU ARE THAT SHALLOW!
And if I’m wrong about that last part I’m sorry, but that’s what it looks like to me. Honestly, it does.
The truth is she actually is with Lem and he was straight and Jack wasn’t. He was a fruit as we used to call them. My brother wasn’t gay. I’m sorry his mannerisms confused you but he was not an actual homosexual. 
You say things to her spirit like, “Well why don’t you just go be with Louis Hill Junior then!” like she has to do it instantly and quickly like a whiplash or it’s not real. You don’t have that much power over her and your insane perception that you do is part of why she’s angry. And then you sense her anger and assume that she’s an idiot homophobe who can’t handle that Lem was gay. That’s not at all what’s happening you delusional narcissistic idiots! She’s angry, because you’re obnoxious and stupid beyond belief! It’s not because she suddenly flustered, realizing that Lem was gay for the first time ever! You delude yourself with her to astounding heights of narcissistic madness.
It’s not normal! But see if she’s a very meek, humble, rare beauty. It’s not showy. It’s very meek, even though it’s actual rare beauty. And she’s also very serious and quiet and naturally very kind, even though she’s ferocious like a wild lion. That’s beautiful but you’re not supposed- you’re supposed to give her space. Lem liked privacy, so does she. So did I. See we’re not showy people. In the hierarchies of things we are up there, but we prefer to be sort of puritanical and simplistic. So what you’re seeing is a sort of Puritan beauty in her. She drives an old Audi. Her house is beautiful, but small. She likes to look pretty, but she doesn’t like looking noticeable.
You’re not supposed to overly question her authenticity as old money. This is dangerous culturally as questioning monogram Louis Vuitton. No I don’t mean in the way you think necessarily. Yes monogram Louis Vuitton is common so is a $500,000 house. It’s not extremely common. Monogram Louis Vuitton in good shape still goes for more than an average bag. It’s more expensive than average her $500,000 house is not genuinely common. But questioning it the way that you people have for the last 15 years is very dangerous because you’re going too far. You can say that her tastes are somewhat common, but they’re actually very extremely refined, but humble. She has exquisite taste whether you like it, or not. It’s very rare and cultivated to a degree that is not normal genetically or otherwise. And it is old money. But you’re not questioning that. This is not the intellectual conversation or the normal conversation you’re having. What you’re questioning is sort of the authenticity of monogram Louis Vuitton completely. You’re saying that it was never a big deal that it has no history that it’s ordinary shit, and that it’s only a hoax as anything else ever. You’re suggesting that Coco Chanel and Katharine Hepburn and Audrey Hepburn and many other people in the elite didn’t use monogram Louis Vuitton as their luggage. Jack’s energy is insisting that right now because it’s not conscious and reflexively it instantly starts claiming stupid stuff. It’s claiming that they never carried that because that’s what it’s set to do. It’s not conscious, it’s residual and he’s just blindly on attack mode in this stupid as fuck way. He’s also determined to prove that Lem was gay when he wasn’t. Lem was actually straight and I know for a fact the Katharine Hepburn and Audrey Hepburn and many other elite people carry Louis Vuitton monogram. I know that happened when they were alive, that is historical fact. But he doesn’t want us to accept that because that means that Lem might’ve been straight, and that he’s just making a fool of himself. And the sad truth is a lot of you listen to Jack to get guidance in a way that you should be listening to Jesus Christ. A lot of you actually do idolize him and so you’re getting spiritual guidance from his energy now that isn’t even conscious. And I will be intrigued to see what happens with Louis Vuitton monogram after this conversation. She carries it. Because to her it’s luxury but it’s also somewhat humble. That’s why she likes it because she likes how it looks, and she doesn’t feel guilty in a sense, caring it the way that she would feel guilty, carrying a Birkin. …Should she just carry a Birkin and feel guilty maybe that would be better for her but I think it’s her it just makes sense not to spend the money on a Birkin.
But that’s what you’ve done with her is you’ve called the authenticity historically of Louis Vuitton monogram as a luxury item into question completely. And that is dangerous, that is very dangerous. See you’re causing a classified that sick and perverted. And there already was a problem. The James J Hill Library closed after you started going too far with her partially because you went too far.
As she’s writing this, Jack’s energy is desperately trying to find some way to silence her and suffocate her; literally kill her by strangling her from the inside out. They are that petty. She knows that when she dies she’s going to be with my brother probably on our farm and if her kids died at the same time, they would all really just have dinner at our kitchen table with my mom and dad and myself possibly my sister, a nice chicken, dinner with potatoes and peas like she makes sometimes with some fresh milk fresh and butter, and then they all separate go upstairs and sleep. And sleep the good sleep, and this would just seem like a bizarre nightmare. And her entire life and his life too would seem like a very strange, ugly dream. her kids would be fine. They already know that he exists. It’s not going to be a shock to anyone including Mark, who she actually practiced telepathy with, and it was effective the other week when they die and find themselves on our farm.
Yes, the other day she practiced telepathy with Mark. Umm…and they didn’t use the demonic. They used actual angels and ghosts to talk to each other. The Illuminati often relies on the demonic to talk to each other to give each other thoughts. end it works. She was able to literally talk to her husband‘s brain with her brain without either of them moving their mouse they just looked into each other’s eyes and she said stuff in her head and he heard her in his head. She asked for a cup of tea. They talked about their vacation to Canada this summer, and they got into a fight. I don’t know if you ever got her the cup of tea, but she was trying to talk to him and give him ideas that would feel safe to him to hear. And it was affective. They had these conversations out of the blue, and they silenced their heads right after that, but it was very weird to him, and yet he could handle it. He is an extremely intelligent man, and so he can cognitively comprehend all of it very quickly.
It’s not as hard to do as you think really. You could try it sometime with someone who you trust and you may or may not be able to get it to work. But then you have to realize that you’re opening up a part of your brain that you’re then going to have to try to pray to God to have closed or you could be very susceptible to hearing things that you don’t want to hear.
I am just trying to explain to you today what’s happening how I see it and how silly the whole thing really is. You cannot separate her mom you can’t take away their kids you can’t make him gay when he wasn’t or her day when she isn’t and they still aren’t. You can’t suffocate her when God’s not ready for her to die on more than one occasion we’ve had to find super natural ways to get her lungs to work because the demonic energy is so damn determined to try to suffocate her in some cruel, sadistic way. But the sad truth is that these people are fooling themselves like Jack because she doesn’t mean harm she’s just Louis Vuitton monogram. Yes it’s epic. Yes it’s grand. Yes it’s expensive but it’s not comfortable taking $10,000 from you and it’s durable because it’s plastic. It just wants to be a fucking luxury bag. She is she is she likes luxury she likes beauty but she’s not really trying to be a villain in that way like shit she is $2000 but it’s not like $10,000 and she’s not trying to bankrupt you. You can save up for her like try to get that in your head you’re attacking the wrong elite person. She she’s your sanity on their side. She’s the one listening to you trying to figure out how to help you without destroying everything. Bobby is not that he imitates that. Sometimes if he actually is that but that’s not really who he is, he imitates her. He and I think he probably thought Linn was in love with him. He wasn’t when was straight, and he still is. That’s a bunch of fabricated bullshit. You know if you go after the rich the people who are actually evil are the people who you should probably target I’m not saying you should shoot them, but Luigi was trying to lead by example he was trying to give you an example of someone to actually attack instead of attacking him, let’s say. Because he actually does care, and so does she they care they actually care. And why are you singling out her humble, old, money, prosperity and her sex skin enter intellectualism that’s authentic and her sort of stoic cold and rigid at worst sort of Scottish elite instead of looking at people who are actually the ones doing the evil things? I’m not saying she’s Scottish, what if she is and there’s reincarnations, she’s not your enemy you have the wrong person. And what if she’s just German in Nordic, you have the wrong person but if she’s German, Nordic and British, you still have the wrong person. She’s not getting flustered! You’re not impressing her and you’re not tearing her down you’re ripping yourselves apart, and almost causing her death. 
Landon was looking for her. He found Jack and things got totally evil and crazy my brothers innocent believe it or not, and Jack is not, but if there was anything it isn’t about Jack, you may be somewhat responsible for his temporary lack of existence, if you’ve been evil and conjured her, conjured him against her to his own peril. God understands your heart. He emphasizes to keep that in mind let that speak to your conscience. She’s not a joke maybe you are. And I’m saying that to adults not children I’m saying that to adults to take themselves way too. Damn seriously. 
“Lacey doesn’t read any authentic homosexual energy that belongs to Lem. In this photo or in any other.” says Dr. Billings.
Jack’s energy screams open-mouthed but silent. His teeth showing. Writhing in misery. Flinching. …If there’s reincarnation he looks Japanese slightly.
“That’s…what you’re all horrified by. …You can sense every time you’re nice to her…in any deep, meaningful way…that something feels ‘off’. …What you hear in your spirit is Jack screaming. Just as his energy is now.” says Dr. Josh Billings.
“Why!?” says a witch, laughing.
“Because it’s real excruciating emotional pain. …Jack actually is sincerely devastated. …But he did it to himself. And that’s why he’s been evil and avoided it. …He has the grace and mercy being offered to him by God…and did…to handle it…but…he’s refused. And instead he’s chosen evil. He’d have to humble himself before God…and…he chose not to. He wanted to believe he was a real heroic victim.” says Dr. Billings.
“Can I be honest?
I know Lacey finds my brother extremely attractive. But…he’s somewhat average looking. …She is not. …WHY…are so many people hyper aware of his good-looks right now…when that’s insane? And totally unhelpful?” says Dr. Billings. “Why are you stealing HER perspective!? YOU DO NOT PERSONALLY FIND MY BROTHER THAT ATTRACTIVE. …SHE DOES!”
Later.
“How is Lem not gay?” says a living gay man.
“You can see Richard’s homosexuality right there.” says Dr. Billings. “It’s physically in the way his chin is shaped. It’s not a recessive thing. So to speak. It’s his homosexuality.”
“Lem’s chin is soft. True! But it’s different. …Some would say he has more testosterone, but I don’t go that far. He does have more testosterone, as you can tell from his other features. However…it’s actually in the literal fat placement around his neck. …It’s extremely complicated and detailed. But…Lacey studied it. As a straight woman. And I’m curious as Lem’s brother and a scientist.” says Dr. Billings.
“You can tell that Richard might be bisexual though too.” says Lacey. “Richard isn’t neutral. He’s closeted.”
“I’m not really listening.” says the living gay man, laughing.
Richard Deacon nods.
“Yeah.
Why?” says Dr. Billings.
“Because I’m just setting you up!” says the living gay man.
“Yup! Why?” says Dr. Billings.
He thinks.
“You know…I was actually somewhat bisexual.” says Richard Deacon in mockery and irritation.
“Whatever!” says the living gay man, rolling his eyes.
“Come on! Let’s go! This is just stupid.” says Elisa Lam to Lacey. “ I am the reason she’s been eating a lot of Ramen lately I researched it and the fat is actually good for her because her body is been under so much stress and the warmth and the taste are good for her. They’re like lowering her cortisol levels so even though there’s bad things in it, she’s actually it’s actually benefiting her body. and right now I’m trying to tell her we should go watch a horror movie or something and eat ramen because you guys are really annoying.”
“ see you you literally have Lacey with like a Rahman binge lately. How many how many bowls of Robin have you have? You had her eating?” says a witch.
“Ramen!!
Like 10 in the last two weeks.” says Elisa. “ I don’t know 5 or seven I mean she’s eaten quite a few.”
“ has she ever eaten Rahman ever before?” says someone.
“ like once or twice and she didn’t really eat much of it but I am like no we’re gonna actually make this the right way and you’re going to actually try to eat it and she did and it’s been extremely fun for her. It really has lowered her cortisol level significantly.” says Elisa.
“ OK Eliza do you understand why were angry at her or not?” says the gay man.
“ I do and I don’t! you guys things are really weirder than you think and you need to grow up!” she says.
“Did they kill you…because you had such a high probability of being a close friend?” says a gay man.
“yes.” says Elisa. “It was a stretch but yes. There are people who have been psychotically obsessed with isolating her.”
“How did they envision you meeting?” he says.
“ yeah the funny thing is now you’re OK with her being herself because I’m Asian and the thought of us being friends makes you feel less uncomfortable. I just want you to think about that.
You do the same thing with juice do you like seeing us together? It makes you feel safer and that’s a delusion on your part but that is how you feel as a white person you’re not just gay you’re also white man.
These are not the smartest people.
Lacey has Asian like politeness, and a lack of fear of intelligence that is more common in Asian women. And she’s also very elegant and demure in the way that Asian women often are. and she has brown eyes. And smaller bones than most white women alive today. And she was friends with a man whose parents started a famous Minnesota Asian restaurant chain called David Fong’s. She was one’s pretty close other. She didn’t know that but pretty good friends with Chris Fong. They got along very well, and she still has fond memories of just talking with him. Just as friends. He played a violin. She played a viola. He dated one of her friends very briefly, and they were just sort of friends. My family has an Asian restaurant in Canada. That those are the connections, we actually would’ve been good friends, but whoever was dead, and analyzing things, took those sort of random extractions, and made them into something that they were not.
I was also fascinated by F Scott Fitzgerald, and Sinema at her father really is top banks, so it’s possible that I would’ve met her somewhere maybe in some Instagram community that was celebrating Art Deco I might’ve been drawn to one of her pictures of Chanel perfume, especially if someone prompted her to visit California like 510 years ago or even three years ago I might have liked one of her pictures and then noticed how good of a photographer she was and realize that she was from St Paul and we might’ve just started talking and become friends that way through Instagram.
And I might’ve realized with my Asian background that she’s not demon possessed or into your calls or anything like that she’s different than most people in someway in her head, and I would’ve wondered if she was talking to the dead and again she’s from Saint Paul and I have a fascination with that. I also have a hallucination issue I did and I would’ve been like I need to talk to this check about what’s going on because I wanna know what I’m experiencing and her in comparison to what she experiences with talking to the supernatural cause I would’ve thought how much of what I experience is real or what even is it And I would’ve been able to talk to her about that and we would’ve been able to figure out some stuff that I was experiencing but it was you know like why I kept experiencing certain hallucinations and it would’ve been really helpful to me but it was out there was like a 40 to 50% chance that I would ever interact with her. It was actually really low it was like 40 to 50% but people knew that my company would be a significant like happy thing for her, and that it would really make a big difference just to have someone to occasionally talk with as a friend who didn’t hate her who wasn’t jealous of her kind of understood her and just talked with her as a friend. Also, her family takes trips to Canada and because I’d be a real friend like a real platonic friend. It’s possible they would a visit visited us him and we may have become good close friends over time. I would’ve taken 10 years for us to get close because that’s how we both are I am from Canada. I’m not American him, so would it take a while for us to build that friendship but it’s possible we really could have and I know it sounds totally fantastic and you’re probably thinking she’s a narcissistic Looney Tunes but really think about it. She’s not.
She gets set up with some of the things that she says to sound like she’s narcissistic, but you guys my parents on an Asian restaurant I was middle class there’s no reason to think that it’s that weird except for the fact that I had a very bizarre death.” says Elisa Lam. “ and even if it is sort of unusual cause I’m different in someway like why is this so out of bounds for her her father is Tom Banks she’s not really a normal person and one minute you guys want her to say that and then the next, and understand that, and then, the next minute you’re really angry at her for thinking that she is this person you can’t have it both ways.” 
“What did they think…was going…to happen!?” says another gay man.
“ they thought there was some spiritual connection between the restaurants themselves. And their energy.” says Elisa.
“ oh, was this the same group of people who did operation mongoose Eliza?” says the CIA.
“ yes.” she says.
“ what exactly did they think was the connection?” says a living gay man.
“ and our food supply chain.” says Elisa. “ we use similar ingredients. Or did. And they thought there was some sort of energetics arm flow that was linking us.”
“ yes do you laugh at them? That’s actually better for them than humoring them too much. i’m hearing someone laughing at them right now as I’m sharing this. And that’s the right response.
They assumed that there was some sort of energy connected to the actual food items themselves. So they thought that like the bags of food or the spices that we use things like that had sort of energy attached to them that was also attached to David, David Fongs, and then via Chris fog and her connection to him as a friend and the fact that she still owns her viola, but there was like a link that it was like an energy circle And that somehow through that I would end up being her friend. I’m not sure how I don’t know if they thought it through that deeply. They’re a little too hair brain to think things through to be blunt but they get ideas like that and then they just assume that they’re too brilliant to be wrong and then they just go with it.” says Elisa.
“ i’m actually fascinated by this how is there not an energy connection Elisa?” says an Illuminati witch.
“ because those food items don’t have as much energy attached to them if there’s energy at all the way that somethings do it’s possible that in the afterlife Ken Schiebel find this hilarious. The truth is Mark finds Asian women kind of attractive and it’s possible that if I hung out with them too much that over time because their marriage is so bad that we may have realized all three of us because Lacey is not possessive she may have realized that I would be better with her husband and she is I might’ve realized that too, and he might’ve as well and it’s possible that I would’ve ended up with him although I can’t guarantee that I’ve never talked with Mark But I’m very kind and it wouldn’t have been painful. It would’ve just been really unusual and if she trusted me enough, I think she would’ve been fine because she would’ve thought I’m not losing either of them. They’re just my friends and they’re happier together than that I was with, but either happier together, so I can’t guarantee that, but there was like a 30 to 40% chance of that happening overtime if I didn’t get married to someone else myself and that was another possibility they were aware of that but not really they were in total denial of that possibility and Ken‘s not in so he’s in his investigates it possibly and I am yeah they have to come to terms with the fact that a lot of the girls that Mark dates they don’t like it’s not just Lacey or his ex girlfriend or me they kind of have a problem with everyone that he likes And that’s kind of their problem and not our problem, but that’s way in the future, and I’m not even sure I’d want to be with him to be honest, but it might’ve been a slight possibility a very slight possibility, and actually would’ve been really happy if I was capable of loving him and he was simple loving me. It might’ve been a really happy ending because we both would’ve cared about her and it just went up and awkward. It would’ve been unusual, but not really awkward and I would’ve known that she was still friends with him, but then we were both be friends with her, and it obviously would not be like weird and sexual It would just be that we were both friends with her as a couple close friends with her and it really I mean, you guys understand how beautiful perfect that would’ve been but that’s not what happened.
And what happened instead was that I died obviously and now I’m friends with her in someway hopefully anyway but it’s really weird because I’m a ghost. But no, I mean you guys this is really this is a really weird situation like super weird, but getting back to the full food thing it’s not in the packets of rice, the packets of seasonings the packets of like the Raman if we ever used them in our cooking, all that stuff does not have much energy attached to it Silver does brass does stones do sometimes fabric even can but food doesn’t as much it can but not as much it’s just not it’s not as easy to attach that to food. It’s hard to explain glass could theoretically slightly but plastic not so much believe it or not and glass does but it’s like kind of dicey. It depends on the glass so there’s a lot of a lot of reasons why it doesn’t work entirely, but it was a huge stretch for them to think that little bits of plastic would have like a Normas energy attached to it, and would have this like spiritual gravitational pull on us, but that’s what they thought.” says Elisa.
“ so you were killed by the same people who are trying to attack Lacey and suffocate her?” says a witch.
“ not the same exact people, per se cause there’s a few people that are different Richard Ramirez. This is like he’s like he’s not himself anymore as possible that he him I had the choice of being himself or getting like basically like a brain transplant, and then going to purgatory humbly, when he may have chosen the latter to just obliterate his brain with gods grace, and then be humble, and he is like if that’s the case he’s just like losing it right now because he has so much to say about us, but because of what he did he’s not able to use but he would love to tell you guys so much like so so much.
Oh, don’t try talking to him I mean the thing is it’s not really safe because you could end up getting in touch with his old energy that’s dangerous and not him consciously necromancy is really not a good idea. Um, that being said, God is loving and gracious, and he knows your heart intent, but he says not to do stuff for a reason. But it is not the same people, but it is so there are some people who killed me who are not actively involved in trying to torment her and there’s some people who attacked her that had nothing to do with my murder, supernatural murder will say, but but there are some people in common as scary as that is creepy as that sounds now there’s a link between her torture in my death.” says Elisa.
“ is Jack and that link?” says a witch.
“ yes, he is absolutely.” says Elisa.
“ OK so I’m starting to accept the fact that I might actually be straight but I’m starting to accept that some of the straight Guy things that I see you and him are real and I have to stop lying to myself about it. I am just for my own peace of mind, can I ask you a few questions?” says a living gay man.
“Okay.” says Lem.
He sighs. “do you leave the toilet seat up?”
“Yes.” says Lem.
“ do you shave anything other than your face?” He says.
“ no.” he says.
“ did you clean out your ashtrays or leave cigarettes sitting in them for over a week?” he says.
“I didn’t clean them enough.” says Lem.
“ did you not tailor your pants and they were occasionally too short on you?” he says.
“ yes I sometimes neglected to Taylor my pants to be long enough” says Lem.
“ when you were trying to act gay what cologne did you choose?” he says.
“ bye chose regular cologne sort of an herbal floral cologne. It might’ve been made by Lenthéric.” says Lem.
“ would you have worn something different?” he says.
“ for a woman yes, that wasn’t the only thing I used but no I would’ve chosen different cologne for a woman. I had it in my head that a gay man might be more reserved or sort of him. I don’t wanna see stuffy, but sort of a find than a straight man, so I was trying to trying to choose things for my hair quality to my clothes I chose things that were a little more refined than normal when I chose things I would’ve chosen some of the same stuff though for my wife like my Brooks Brothers suits those look good on me and sometimes I might’ve Horneland Sarah Claude, but I actually would’ve been more openly sexual enough to little bit different so I wouldn’t have looked worse but I would’ve looked a little different. I would’ve let my hair be more curly, and you wouldn’t have seen me be quite so prim and proper. I pose my face to look gay so much more than you think, I really got the exact like I gestures micro gestures on my face down to a science I mean I really worked at it and that might’ve been part of the joke with ventriloquism at my expense because I really worked at it I did I actually studied how I move my mouth I tried to look gay.
So if I wasn’t trying to look gay, my hair would’ve been significantly more curly. My facial movements would’ve looked more like they did when I was young. And more relaxed and frankly, probably more handsome, but I didn’t know that necessarily so more of a relax look but I would’ve had very curly hair. I would’ve just let my hair be curly I would’ve found someway to sort of stylet, but I would’ve had curly hair I would have straightened it part of the reason I straightened it was because I thought that was a more gay approach to styling my hair and it does it look nice on occasion but no women would’ve liked my curls and I would’ve let that happen so I would’ve had sort of a slicked back style but it would’ve been curly. I would’ve let the curls be what they were.
It would’ve looked good I wouldn’t have had buzz cuts. Either is why I had buzz cuts is because I was losing my hair and I was trying to sort of keep this one neat look I was trying to look neat that wasn’t a closeted look that was actually an attempt to look gay, but in a closeted respectful way, and so I thought, somehow that that was a neat refined gay look and it wasn’t. It looks slightly ridiculous but I got I got that I got that haircut a lot and I was losing my hair. But if I had if I’d had a wife or if I just realized I was straight I would’ve let my hair be what it was and I might have had lotta comb-over, but I might’ve had I would’ve let my hair look thin found someway, to sort of make it look stylish and attractive but maybe not a buzz cut
What cologne would I have used? Probably some sort of spice I probably would’ve not bay bay bay rum. Yeah, I know not not something more like an actual spice like some thing with some cinnamon in it or something something actually spicy. Like Cody cordon rouge. Yes, Cody cordon rouge. Which is interesting because it’s a huge bottle and that was partially because of me, but I was those partially said to humor. But so Cody Cody cordon rouge something with them with some actual like herbal spice and it’s perfectly respectable for a straight man but maybe a little on the flirty side, but not not not too far from what would I wear today Seattle no I don’t know, but I I have a I like a classic spell something very dry and masculine and spicy. I actually like when Lacey smells like that too, but part of that is because then she smells like me slightly but also still herself and no I just like it it’s used to I like smelling Alex are used to on her but but that’s no am I I am who I am here’s a picture of me
my daughter drew that picture of me those are curls on the side of my head, but I’m slightly bald. Would I have been more bald if I got married? Yes I would’ve been slightly more Boldt very slightly him or it’s possible that that would be me if her mother had married me when I was in my 50s or 60s. Maybe that’s what I look like right now I’m slightly bald with curls on the side.” says Lem.
“ she was trying to draw the man on Easter island, but then she accidentally drew you?” he says,
“ yes!” says Lem.
“ I have to be honest I get the sense as does she that this is actually all completely possible and then I think now it really is possible you search the curve just faked everybody out for real. And then and then I think what the heck why does everyone have a problem with us and so then I just start following other people and doubting it because everyone else’s cause I just think now, even though this makes sense there must be some reason everyone doubts us. I was scares me lame as I think the same thing is happening to her. I think someone’s doing it to everybody Other than jack is there any reason why people would be doing this to you?” he says.
“ no.” says Lem.
Later.
“Elizabeth Struhs. What do you say about that?” says the gay man to Lacey.
“Umm…I think you are looking for something to prove that Lem is gay?” says Lacey.
He pouts and glares at her.
“I’m not an idiot. I’m sorry, he was probably straight.” says Lacey.
“But you know what is the difference then Lacy!?” says a Liberal.
“OH MY GOD!!!” says a witch.
“Alright! Can witchcraft raise the dead yes or no?” says Lacey.
“ not often, if at all.” he says.
“The power of Christ can raise the dead and has probably thousands of times throughout history. It does happen and has happened. Ultimately Christ is superior to Satan.. But it’s very rare relatively speaking. It’s probably happened thousands of times which is a lot in a way but it’s also very very very rare. God has also healed probably millions of people throughout human history in very unusual circumstances probably millions of people which is again an astronomical number of people considering but when you consider how many billions of humans have lived, it’s not as common as some people think.
Why? Because Catholics have it more figured out that a lot of protestant Christians realize. Which means what that sometimes suffering can be redemptive in a way it’s not what we’re called to as Christians necessarily I disagree with Catholics on that somewhat, but I don’t think it’s as simple as protestants. I’ve made it out to be. So that’s where it starts is that it’s M it can be redemptive not necessarily there in a Catholic way. Were you have to be stuck in it more in the way we’re God can use it for the good. So sometimes that could even extend into someone’s death is pharmacy witchcraft. It is an away and it away it’s not. I actually understand where those people were coming from. Look look at it from this perspective. If I didn’t take my medication, I would be dangerously Nemic and my thyroid would very possibly have ended about 10 years ago and I would’ve had a heart attack I would be dead. So if I wasn’t taking my medication, which is what they would suggest I would be with them and it’s very possible that if I hadn’t taken it, I wouldn’t of had my daughter my son with her severe epilepsy might have died. Actually, he would’ve died without his medication so both my son and I would be dead very easily without medication to and then my daughter I don’t know we probably to be perfectly honest if she’s supposed to be with Christ as well, and she might die and some other way too and that’s because you’re not crazy new people just are scared shitless by how scary and blunt their faith really is.
So, from their perspective, there are some witches that I think her laughing with us right now, from their very holistic. Yeah, it is it is, it’s sort of an extreme holistic approach I’d be dead my son would be dead. My daughter wouldn’t have been born and then there’s no problem and a sense, because all three of us, or just with Lem’s and heaven And I would be praying to God to be blowing up. I would just be with Christ. and honestly if they actually do care about people and they might, I wouldn’t be surprised if that’s where they say I told you so I told you so you know and she’s an exact example of why they practice what they do spiritually it is just like I don’t wanna intervene if God‘s trying to bring somebody to be with him so we don’t they made they may see medicine is is being evil in a sense if God‘s trying to bring somebody to heaven. And no, that’s not completely crazy. It’s really not.
On the other hand, how do you know when God is creating a situation where someone will die because he knows that things are headed downhill so to speak versus a situation where someone needs to stay alive and fight for their life because they’re being demonically attacked and they need to take medicine or have a surgery because it’s possible that Satan could be so doggedly determined that you might actually I’m sorry I’m just being honest you might actually have to take the medicine. Listen, I have almost been killed several times through demonic suffocation. And if that’s not of God, I can tell that I’m not being killed by God I can tell that it’s a demonic attack and that I’m not supposed to die that way. Is it possible maybe but I’m fighting it because I can just sense in my spirit that it’s not of God.
And that’s I don’t see that is necessarily being any different. I feel led by God to take my Synthroid I feel led by God to fight for my life when I’m being suffocated, I feel led by God to take my iron tablets I do I feel led by the Holy Spirit to fight back against evil using medicine That he’s provided for me to have. I suspect that, instead of praying for that little girls healing him that they first should have prayed about whether or not, he was going to heal her in a way that was sane and honest. I am not convinced they’re sane. If they are if they are and they’re not evil then unfortunately, I think they made a mistake. I think they made a horrific mistake and they thought that somehow that it would work no the first thing that they should’ve prayed is is there something I would even want to do. Because she’s a little girl and it’s probably not going to be her death that would be best case scenario necessarily. And this is where things get really dicey and tricky and I hope she wasn’t being molested. I hope that this is I’m just being blunt. I hope that given global warming and her insulin that that this guys this is why you guys have to grow up let’s be real let’s be fucking real. You guys are living in the 1970s grow the fuck up! That little girl had type one diabetes, there’s no cure for that! Australia has terrible fires. The world is in crisis and she’s a little girl. Worst case scenario she did grow up to be in for early 20s and when she was pregnant she couldn’t get insulin because of global warming or some thing and then she abandoned a baby and like it’s year-old just as she was vomiting and having convulsions as a 20-year-old mother instead of a 5 or 6 year old little girl. And is it possible that those people in their ignorance and spiritual vulnerability were influenced by a dead person to let her die yeah, I’m being harsh as heck. No I’m sorry you guys sincerely, I don’t know if you’ve noticed but there’s a problem. Those people are probably talking noches to God but the dead people accidentally cause I was raised in groups like that, so is it possible that there is some person who died in a fire even who they were talking to who gave them the idea to let her die why is that impossible? That is not hysterical nonsense grow up!
I mean think about it you’re like an eight-year-old little girl and you have type one diabetes and you know you’re loved if she was and you feel safe and people are trying to save you but it isn’t working. That’s scary but that’s like six days of being sick in your own bed as a little girl with adults praying for you if she genuinely believe that they loved her and then she just died after six days and then now it’s like she doesn’t have to grow up and live some really painful life. It looks bad, but it actually could be used for her own good. Because she did have type one diabetes and I mean where is insulin and like 30 years where where is the world in 30 years? That’s some thing I consider with my thyroid medication it’s like if if I can’t get that I will probably die you know that people don’t think these things through.
So I mean, that’s where it’s like. I hope they get some leniency if they’re actually well-intentioned people who are just incredibly ignorant and got involved in the supernatural in a way that they don’t understand and then got totally confused because if they actually loved her and they weren’t evil, maybe they didn’t know what they were doing and they really were trying to do the right thing and what they thought was gods voice was actually somebody who just loves that little girl and thought she’s gonna suffer too much. These people might go to prison, but it won’t disturb their faith and I think we can handle it I mean, and maybe that wasn’t even if God, but they chose to listen to whoever whatever was telling them to let her die.
I mean I I don’t know I don’t know she doesn’t she didn’t sister desist I have a feeling she’s very traumatized and confused right now I have a feeling she’s very traumatized and confused, but you know I got I can use evil for good for people with people who are really trying, sincerely
The thing is though if she wasn’t supposed to die even if God can use it for the good and that’s where it again they said they probably needed to pray. I’m trying to be real they needed to pray about what they were doing and not just make assumptions that they were hearing from God and that they knew him because there are some things that are easier to do than others raising someone from the Dad is very difficult healing. Someone is very complicated it can happen, but it’s very Rare, him moving furniture with ghosts is difficult. I’ve tried it they can kind of move furniture but it’s pretty hard for them to do. They can sometimes move light fixtures slightly that that no not light fixtures but like fans like wires on fans, they can sometimes move parts of fabric and they can slam doors and stuff like that they can do stuff that they have to build energy and it’s really hard for them even with God helping them they can’t do stuff that I mean I’ve seen movies where they can write. I know they’re probably based on reality where they can, they can move chairs they can do crazy stuff but that’s hard for them to do for good and evil. It’s really hard for them to do and all I’m trying to get out is that somethings are really difficult spiritually it’s it’s like a challenge and in both good and evil
God is ultimately in charge, but it is a Phone world. Um, what is Princess Diana‘s ghost may have been saying the other day it’s heavy. This earth is very heavy, so moving things altering almost like the status quo. If a little girls body is headed towards death you have to intervene using insulin or you have to you know I hope the guy can do something but that is going to be challenging and he could do it but it’s it’s not some thing that I think you can do for whatever reason as easily as somethings so he can give people ideas he can probably affect their thought patterns a lot more easily. Then he can heal people or raise people from the dead or things like that and ultimately he can do whatever he wants but it’s just like sitting that he hast to work within the bounds of peoples free will and the rules that he created for a reason he hast to stay true to his heart and Tete so so it’s kind of like he may have been providing insulin for her to live, and that I have a feeling in my spirit was his first choice for her was for her to keep taking out an insulin But then he could use her death for the good because taking insulin is a little girl is awful and may be long-term it could be for her best and best interest depending on how bad the world gets with global warming it it could actually be a protection for her long-term for her to be with Christ But I mean it’s extremely harsh is extremely complicated but no I don’t think he can violate Freewill and I think he knows so much that some people do you have to die and other people have to live and I know that when I pray I’m fully aware that he knows a lot more than I do so I mean it’s very complicated but no I think I am I think I think I think sometimes he lets people die because he just knows that it work somehow or he can’t prevent it because he he truly cannot control peoples free will that is not how he operates he can fix the situation, but he I don’t think he can violate us in that way just on principle, I don’t think he ever does I think if we ask him to he he could or if we’re dead and we’re on our way to hell maybe he could although that’s very complicated but it’s not some thing he does per se he doesn’t violate our free will and again if we asked him to take away, or if we were when we were dead for some reason, or if we were, you know, we somehow lost our free will there could be some way that would happen if you were dead, and in hell or Something or close to it but as like a punishment, but I don’t think that he would ever do that otherwise ever.
So he can’t take away free will and so it’s possible that she was sick because of someone’s free will and him it’s very complicated but she probably needed to take that medication because that’s not her fault that she had diabetes and then that’s where it’s like it’s kind of just seems like common sense because it’s like it’s all girl with diabetes that’s not her fault she needs to take it if you’re an adult and it’s type two diabetes and you know that you could’ve prevented it and you feel like God was leading you to be healed could you as an adult decided to stop taking your medication I think that’s far less unlikely of a problem that if it’s a little girl, although you’d have to be careful with that but I think automatically if it’s a child, you don’t play around with that it’s very it’s just it’s like common sense but it’s very very thin ice.” says Lacey.
“ I think that they thought that she was going to be healed. They thought they were praying to God, and they thought that somehow she would be healed because they really believed that they were hearing from God they really believe they were hearing from God.” says someone.
“ does God tell her that lem is straight?” says the FBI.
“YES!!” says a living gay man.
“ so you were going to use that to attack her because you thought you’d really found a way!?” says the FBI.
“I mean duh!!!” says Bobby.
“ OK but her confirmation from God is no different than like a witches confirmation from their spirit guide. She also talks to his ghost.” says the CIA.
“Yes, but she ultimately relies on Christ and we think that’s dumb as fuck!” says a gay man.
“ but she just explained what I would think would be obvious. It’s easier for Christ to show people things in prayer then to raise the dead what she saying is just like fucking common sense you people are the ones that seem like the crazy ass fools who let the little girl die not her!” says a reader
“ but I mean it’s still God and it’s just a bunch of nonsense!” says another gay man. “ if you only knew what the church did the gays, oh my God!”
“ you’re in the illuminati are you brain dead?” says a witch.
“ no because that’s like different. That’s like Reiki healing and share with she does is rely on Christ to tell her stuff and I know that he doesn’t exist. It’s completely scientifically impossible and I know for a fact that there’s no way there’s just no fucking way that it’s any different at all then when God tells you to do something is diamond, letting a little girl die and I’m just trying to help her the less of a stupid fucking bitch.” says another gay man.
“I am OK, but there is a difference between God, showing us something and innocence being our spirit guide versus trusting that he’s going to move furniture.” says a scientist. “ I mean what is communication, which actually even on a scientific level could be easier than like expecting him to physically move something it’s possible that’s easier for her to hear from him and it might not even listen sweetie you’re dumb as fuck yourself because what if it’s not him and it’s just her birth father talking to her or what if it’s Lum’s dad or what if it’s lame himself and they’re all taking turns pretending to be God I mean, could you try to use your imagination and not just think you’re right all the time? Why would you assume that there’s nobody telling her that he’s straight because I have a feeling most the stuff that she asks about she gets an answer and it’s accurate and that isn’t normal because she’s talking to somebody. They’re giving her accurate answers. It isn’t normal to just be like. Oh yeah, I can talk to the error and it tells me shit way ahead of time that’s completely accurate that I’d have no way of knowing? Yeah that’s not a thing and then stuff does move that’s like light weight they can affect electrical currents. They can affect things with their energy and they can communicate with their energy they can’t is easily probably heal people or move furniture. How is this not just common sense and actually if there even is a God, what if he is the same way we are yet he can occasionally heal people, but it’s like what she saying.” says a scientist.
“ you know I’m not a 15 year old idiot Bobby I’ve had religious debates with people since I was about 10 and this reminds me of some of those childish debates. I am not about to get into some stupid argument with you because I don’t have the patience right now to get into a dumb ass intellectual argument that I will win I will then I will but I already have one. I’m not gonna waste my time arguing with you walk away for hours from now and realize that I’ve proven you wrong, but you’re too stupid to except it! No, I’ve had arguments with atheist over last 10 years about the existence of God people are far smarter than any of the people I’m talking to you right now I talked about string theory and alternate universe is an alternate dimensions 3-D versus 40 with people who are actual scientist, Bobby not just angry gay men. I know there’s got almost certainly I can 100% guarantee it but I’m quite sure they’re Scott and I say that was Faith try to get a scientist understand that concept is a childish, lunatic. I mean you want me to end the fucking world because you people are stupid enough for me to do it is I thought these things through if you’re too dumb to understand that there’s God could you die without going to hell possibly don’t tempt me!
Oh so no I do believe there’s God but even if there’s not these New Age people are not wrong in this situation and this exact conversation because how how do you guys know that I’m not hearing from mom like they said or my father or somebody else who knows what’s going on and they’re just letting me believe that there’s got how would you know that are you seriously gonna argue with me right now if there’s no ghost because that scientific bullshit location south would probably say that It’s just it’s you’ve said yourself that you talk to them what are you heard that they’re not fucking you Bobby I mean come the fuck on I am not sure what we’re really even talking about right now because I’ve already explained myself it’s a perfectly professional explanation how it’s different and you’re trying to make it the same and then I end up having to defend myself in a way, that’s really tedious to me intellectually.” says Lacey. “ I’m going to say that if you can’t accept it, then I’ll just have to shut up because I’m not gonna argue with people who are determined to be dumb. If you’re not listening to me, a Notes information telling you was going up your butt hole instead of your ears. That is not my fucking problem!
God talking to people getting their attention is a lot easier than moving like fallen objects that are heavy! But then you say ‘oh my God is God I thought you thought God was better than everything and he could do stuff!?’ It’s not that simple. He can’t violate free will he’s giving us medicine. He’s giving us science. He’s giving us common sense as a way to sort of combat free will with our own free will. So somebody’s free will allowed for that little girl to have life ending diabetes somebody’s free will allowed for that child to have that flaw somewhere.  Whether it’s environmental whether it’s genetic, there was someway that evil entered in almost guaranteed. Eugenics are real. but since she was a child, God gave her the ability in her parents ability to have a weapon for her to fight it off with his mercy and grace and love he used brilliant minds in the last 200 years to create pendant to create insulin that can be administered. He was very loving and merciful, and gave people the genius to be able to create that he didn’t violate anyone’s free will he used sex M probably good consensual sex to be blunt and 1800s or 1700s 
Soap. God uses Saks to help redeem humanity when it’s godly socks and it’s consensual when it’s good when it’s on a positive evolution airy experience, he uses love to better humanity I mean, this is just like so obvious isn’t it so within the last 200 years, he’s used a lot of women and men to create brilliant people, probably with the last 400 years and we’ve got really great really great medicine because of that that that would be his divine intervention to help innocent children like that little girl. But then how is he doing that through Saks through love through the mysteries of people falling in love and how does he do that but because it doesn’t Violet through well and he can probably work with people over time by giving them inspiration, inspiring a child saying don’t do that is different than you know, tying them up and force feeding them. So he doesn’t wanna tie us up and force feed us because that’s a violation of us but he’s also trying to work with us through like inspiration like a good parent would.
Was just goes back to what I was saying he can inspire us he can give us ideas he can give us signs he can give us dreams he can give us a perspective probably far easier than moving objects or altering body functions because altering body functions is sort of part of gravity. It’s sort of part of the laws of inertia in a science. Those are things that I don’t think he wants to mess with his much he could he probably cannot occasion, but I would bet that that’s not something he does often for some really good reason. It’s probably just not some thing that he can do without violating free will or some other principal like that it’s a fallen world and he is redeeming it but I don’t think he can just do magic that doesn’t have any repercussions.
So you have to understand that there’s a difference between him rescuing someone who keeps praying for divine intervention who needs to stay alive and there’s no reason for them to die in and someone who isn’t praying for divine intervention, and may actually be better off dead. Is it possible that someone could pray really hard and they would actually better off alive and they die anyway yes and then I could be where someone’s under severe demonic attack, and he hast to somehow do you something it’s a case by case Thing.
With me for instants then as I am praying for divine guidance that I’m not hearing from him he knows that I’m praying so if I’m off about them, I’m not worried because I have less that at the cross. I’m doing my best to survive and if I’m off, I’m off, I I know that I know that I don’t have a choice but to go with what I’m hearing I haven’t had a choice. I really haven’t had your lack of understanding in that way towards me is part of the reason why I do pray every day to die. Those of you who are listening to this, if there is an illuminati or the dead, or torturing me, which ever it is.
So um, no I mean it’s it’s like this it could be a disease, but I highly doubt it. There’s a hell of a lot of evidence to suggest that he was straight. You should probably try to analyze that someday when you decide to think about it in a real way, like a mature and normal person those of you who I might be talking to like Bobby, who refuse to, except it is someday when you’re able thinks through the evidence that his likely ghost has provided that his family has provided that George Bush Senior has provided Think through all of the mountain of irrefutable evidence that I provided you to prove that I am right and that you have no fucking clue what you’re talking about potentially at all. Bobby, unless if you know that he molested you you’re at the creek with no paddle you’re drowning buddy and you’ve lost. And I say that lovingly, but my gosh, unless if you know, for a fact that he molested you, this was one hornets nest, not to kick. Like you better shirts heck have knowing that he molested you cause if he didn’t this was very dumb and taking all these gaming with you and your little escapade of bullshit to hell was really stupid because I’m not sure they deserve to have been hoodwinked by you and turn into your travel, companions added escapades, dark, fiery evil and I’ll try to edit this someday cause I have a Safari less silly sounding.
But what I am saying is that it doesn’t make sense I’ve talk to his ghost in Christ and add I think that’s his ghost I sincerely do I don’t know it for a fact I’m not an idiot and I’m a Christian but I highly suspect that it’s his ghost, and that means something because I am an excruciating person when it comes to things of that nature, I do, I do put a heck of a lot of thought into it probably more than most people live Very meticulous. So I am pretty sure that’s his ghost enough to say that it it really it it it is I can say not be on a shadow of a doubt but I can say it it is and then no I’m sorry, but what the hell are you thinking attacking me like this? I can’t prove that God exists. I cannot prove that he’s talking to me, but I have faith that he exist, and I have reason to believe that he does, and I happen to know that there is most definitely an afterlife and in that context that there’s God and that it’s Christ and what does that mean? Exactly what I just said that’s not circular thinking that’s my mind and the fact that you’re trying to suffocate me as I’m telling you this because you’re pouting over the fact that you might not be crowned cabinet member over cereal. Yes, he is pouting that he will not be considered. He will not be crowned crowned princess of rice checks over all the land.
But that’s the thing, princess rice, Chex I am fried I’m pretty sure sweetheart that unless if you have irrefutable proof that he molested you and you don’t have that from what I can tell you’re full of shit then there’s no fucking way just based on evidence and facts that he was homosexual at all.
And how do I know there’s evidence and fax from his semen ghost from music from his actual ghost from his ghost Bobby I know his hat from his ghost.
I’m not saying, I know his hat I’m saying, I know that .
I know that from his ghost, I know that from his ghost, I know it from fact those are two sources that some New Age people with separate from God. Beyond that I just said, I believe there’s got others reason to suggest that I have faith to receive it it’s Christ I know that just certain degree to a different but it’s far more profound and I’m not about to get into discussion with you like you’re 12 and I’m 11. That’s not sophisticated to me. That’s stupid! Am I the thing is if you want to have a real intellectual conversation, that would be great but I don’t see that happening right now.
I’m saying that to you you little fucking nitwit.
I don’t like calling you nitwit but you’re acting like one and it’s really annoying. I’m not in love with you!
Why the fuck do you think people are always in love with you sweetie? they’re not.
Why am I calling you sweetie? Because to me, you seem like a dumb little boy.
That’s funny there was just a noise that was made downstairs or one of my children and then a ghost like figure ran across my sons room. I didn’t do it I didn’t. It was literally at the same time it was, but it wasn’t the exact same moment, and I didn’t conjure that in my head there’s somebody standing in his room I don’t know who it is, could even be him from the future.
I experience stuff like that all the time.
I know, but there is God and I think it’s probably a lot easier for him to talk to us than to alter the space-time continuum‘s or take away our free will and alter things physically like do you do you understand that in order to heal somebody there’s like I don’t know if he has a don’t know what he even does, but there could be some thermal thermodynamic complication When he heals people, because where does the energy go? The body is in decay there’s an energy that’s happening with the disease and the drugs in a sense maybe have their own energy which is and how it affects the disease because the drugs have their own sort of energy component and then that and then that is how the medicine works, right But he’s not doing it with the use of medicine so then how does he do that? How does he alter something like a disease? It could be very tricky for him to do that safely in a sense I can’t think of a better word to use other than safely but it’s possible that he has a sort of limited capacity as much as it’s like he’s God and he’s in charge. It’s also a fallen world and we have free will that he can’t violate, so in order to sort of save us and preserve the earth and not destroy it Qatar Hass to allow certain things to happen within certain boundaries probably so that things can happen as long as there’s someway like the Buddhist might say to sort of even it out or sort of make it make sense somehow But if he can’t do that, if it’s if things get too evil, then maybe that’s where things if he can start sort of intervening with medicine with with a divine intervention it’s possible if things go too far, he is within the grounds of science itself, and a sense of intervening, because they just get too evil but but he can’t violate sort of reality. I suspect I don’t know for a fact, but this is my working hypothesis is a Christian and this is my answer to you that he can’t violate like he can’t violate us he just can’t violate us cause he’s a good loving God so he hast to work everything for the good in order to do that, he hast to work with us, and not violate us.” says Lacey.
“ no that makes sense Lacey from a New Age perspective. Your God seems very possible I almost want to believe him. I believe he exists OK so he can talk to us the way that like I would say spirit guide Ken are you gonna divide again to see darkly and unfortunately, but but he can’t like make us do some thing?” says a witch.
“ yes unless if unless if unless of somehow that works he may be able to make us do some thing if it isn’t inappropriate in someway but I don’t think generally he ever does that that’s not really him that’s not him so that have to be a really good reason an explanation for it it’s extremely rare. I don’t think it’s likely even necessarily that that’s what’s happening but I kind of know what she’s talking about. You know it could actually be happening. I had a friend whose grandparents died and she got into a horrific accident and she always has said that she thinks her grandparents protected her. She thinks they literally held her car so that it didn’t fall off a bridge because she could have like fallen off of like a bridge and crashed. She came very close to the edge sheet, I think, for twirled once in the air, and then landed on her tires like right next to the edge of a bridge if I’m not mistaken, and she says she thinks she remembers feeling someone hold the car from falling over if she’s right, and those were actually her grandparents that might not be a violation of free will. Because maybe the grandparents were like no we can still protect her under the auspices of being just human grandparents. We can hold the car if yeah, if we can get enough people maybe together even to talk to use their energy to hold her car then I think we’re fine bro you know God might’ve even given them supernatural strength temporary early to do it and so I wouldn’t be shocked if stuff like that happens occasionally or he can use the dead to protect us Because as long as they’re staying within certain boundaries it’s possible that actually is one way he can do it it’s not that you should. I mean that I said that you should be praying to them, but I can see were some people would because I wouldn’t be surprised if they actually have intervened at times on our behalf , so there’s there’s there’s probably something there potentially, but that’s different that is different than God talking to us.
I’m not quite understanding with what the problem is with with me hearing from God why don’t you think God could talk to me by moving my head and confirming or disagreeing with something that I’m saying because that’s what he does. I let him move my head into a yes, or no when I’m talking to him I used to be able to just hear his voice, but that’s been silenced in the last 10 years so I try to listen and I just hear demonic activity and so now I’ve had to resort because I can sense that he could still move my head and I pray for the Holy Spirit to move my head and I ask him questions I ask questions that I would’ve asked him in prayer and he moves my head And then he knows that if I hear from him incorrectly that he hast to explain to me at a later time, but that wasn’t correct and it wasn’t him and whatever circumstance it is that he’s actually done that over the last two years he’s corrected certain misunderstandings that I’ve had in prayer with him But obviously that’s pretty paltry considering that I used to hear from him that I’ve had to resort to trusting that he can still move my head, but the thing is, I am surrendering my free will to him in that moment and letting the whole It’s Holy Spirit possess my body so I literally surrender my free will completely and just let him we gotta kill me if he wants to, and he moves my head as I have requested into a yes, or no I think there are some demonic entities in dead people who have tried to move my head to interfere, and he corrects those misunderstandings, but I suspect that more often than not, I’m hearing from him, or he could even use lambs father or his mother where is or his siblings to talk to me as well and move my head. If those people are willing to be you know give up their free will to him momentarily or something to help him move my head but that’s that’s what you’ve seen spiritually that’s what I’m doing and I don’t understand why you think that’s impossible.” says Lacey.
“ I just cannot imagine how you could be that special because then you sound like Mary the mother of God I give up my free will and he just does stuff. That’s bullshit Lacey you’re not that big of a deal.” says Bobby.
“ oh, except neither was Mary I’m not sure sweetie that is quite a special and rare as you think why don’t you try it yourself I think theoretically anybody could do it.” says Lacey.
“ I don’t want to. I don’t want to surrender my free well if I’m being honest, I don’t want to.” says Bobby.
“ then that’s your choice. That’s what you’re choosing.” says Bobby.
“ bobby why couldn’t the dead because I seen her body if there’s no god?” says a woman.
“ because then you’re getting into an argument about whether or not there’s an afterlife and I’m smart enough to know that there isn’t one.” says Bobby.
“ then how do you talk to the dead Bobby?“ says a man.
“ I meant that in a poetic, Irish sort of experiential sense I did not mean it scientifically.” says Bobby.
“ do you think Irish mythology and all of the stuff that which is due in Ireland is just bullshit?” says Ireland.
“ no I don’t think it’s bullshit. I think it’s a very mysterious experience, and I am intellectual enough to appreciate his aren’t you?” says Bobby.
“ yeah but Bob, you’re basically saying that I’m an idiot for taking my witchcraft seriously.” says Ireland.
“ I never said that I never fucking said that!” says Bobby.
Cheryl cries.
“ do you know I actually agree with you Lacey and I I’m not a Christian but I think you sense that there’s a deity and you believe it’s Jesus and you don’t think it’s like moving your head and honestly I am not going to question that because I am intellectual in the same way that you are and I know from experience that it’s not just scientific theory there are some things that are hard to quantify scientifically, but we can still innocent scientifically observe them. I feel bad for him do you?” says Ireland.
“ yes I do know it’s not about being special Bobby It’s I think just that I am being possessed I die I say in faith and it’s by the Holy Spirit and I say as a sort of Christian who is read a lot of CS Lewis that it’s likely that it’s Christ, and I actually can say more than likely if you need me to, but I am saying in my own words that it’s likely that it’s Christ and I mean it in a little differently than likely it’s extraordinarily likely to me it’s it’s absolutely true but yes, I do feel bad for him. I don’t know how to help him and I wish I could.” says Lacey.
She nods.
“ her explanation covers it intellectually she’s being possessed like Mary and she’s sort of giving over her Freewill to the Holy Spirit but that does work intellectually. I don’t know what they’re looking for because I think that they want some sort of materialistic. Masculine approached it and that’s not going to happen. There’s no intellectual flaw in what she saying, but it’s not masculine logic and it’s not materialistic.” says Dr. Billings.
Later.
“So Bobby forced Lacey to read my orientation in 2023. And as it was under duress she read me as straight. Possibly bisexual. …And since it’s on Wikipedia that I’m gay…according to social scientists…he has fervently believed that I’m gay. And that Lem ipso facto was too. …And that’s erroneous nonsense. But…he’s been determined.
I was BISEXUAL. NOT HOMOSEXUAL. …And it’s actually very aggravating as a ghost to have your identity, on such a personal level, analyzed by biased people. …A lot of famous people feel that way. All throughout history. …But rarely has it been used to terrorize just one innocent person.
But that’s what’s happening right now. …Lacey is…innocent. Bobby is not. …Lem was straight. People do and don’t know that. …I was bisexual. Although I identified as gay. …What do you expect!?
I’m mad. …I’ve been okay…but now I’m mad.
First…she’s gone above and beyond to be helpful. Making a possible fool of herself publicly.
Second…I was capable of marrying a woman. And I’m the audience Lem has in mind. Men he knew who were like me. Men who were decent and caring and loving who…just…felt it would be wrong to indulge. Because there was something wrong with us. …There are men alive who think like that today.
Third…what IN HELL do you all want!!? …She’s…explained. She has faith. She’s a Christian! …She’s hearing from God. And that’s allowed. …That’s not privilege. ANYONE can! …Why is her prayer walk suddenly YOURS to VIOLENTLY scrutinize like DEMONS!? …God is shielding her from an onslaught of hate. …Bobby may have tried to kill her tonight by making her slip and fall while she cleaned the floor on her hands and knees.
What’s WRONG WITH YOU PEOPLE!??” yells Richard Deacon.
“How would her death help him?” asks a man.
“He thinks it’s all a joke. He has the maturity of a teenager.” says Richard. “A sociopathic 14 year old.”
“OH DEAR GOD!!” says a reader.
Later.
“ I can talk telepathically in my head and out of my mouth at the same time it’s like cooking and talking on the telephone at the same time just in case if you’re wondering, my spirit guides just told me to tell you that.” says Bobby.
Later.
“I was a monster. At times.” says RFK. “My son…is…messed-up. …But…I’m proud of him at the same time.”
“We did cause Vietnam.” says residual energy of JFK as controlled by a demon.
“Yeah!!” says Fidel Castro.
“Were you sincere?” says a journalist.
“NO!” says RFK, smiling. “And yet yes. …I did care. But…I was also an arrogant ass.”
“What’s wrong with Bobby?” says a journalist.
“David is dead. My son David?? HE KILLED HIMSELF!” says Bobby. “Why…didn’t you all realize that that was…very bad news about that whole generation?”
They think.
“He was a decent journalist, you know? …He was smart! …And he actually cared! …Bobby tormented him.
…My older brother actually fell in love with Lem’s…twin flame (I hate using that language) Lacey. Joe, I mean. And Joe and I are a lot alike. Ask her!!!” says Bobby.
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