Gay

Micheal Kearns: I’m struggling.

Micheal Kearns: I had no idea-

If there’s an Illuminati I was always on board with assuming Lem Billings is gay. Because I thought I looked like him.

…Same eyes. Same smile. Same…look.

But I didn’t realize how-

Lem wasn’t gay. At all.

AT ALL.

Listen to “O Fortuna” by Carl Orff, as performed by André Rieu.

Michael: He’s not gay.

And Lacey doesn’t find me attractive at all.

She’d never have wanted me.

Do you understand how bad this is?

2:42

Micheal: He defiled himself. Publicly.

In a truly grotesque way. And…it was water under the bridge. We were moving on. And then the Illuminati found his wife. And decided to torture her. And they’re still together.

I’m in shock.

He truly just impersonated me. In a sense. And I couldn’t tell the difference. I couldn’t tell.

An actress: Why is this so serious?

Micheal: Yes.

That’s exactly it.

*He laughs*

It’s hard to see where you are. Here, it’s OBVIOUS. I’m…stunned.

Lacey: Is it something corny? Like we’re just soulmates?

Micheal: *Thinks*

No.

Well…-

*He sighs and rolls his eyes*

I am such an idiot! I have a daughter. And I should have realized that there’s no way Lacey could be that stupid.

*He thinks*

I knew that she had a husband, but I really thought I looked like him and she even sees what I mean. But I didn’t realize how much certain things don’t matter. He’s making the same facial expressions, but they’re not necessarily gay, and there are other gay actors who look nothing like him at all. And even if they are gay, they’re not inherently gay- It’s complicated- So it’s like he was making a gay facial mannerism, but then that’s not the right way- He was making a gay face. I don’t wanna say that, but that’s what it is.

He used to make…gay faces. So he used to be gay faces. But he wasn’t gay, and I didn’t realize that it was silly of me to think of intelligent woman would-

She doesn’t find me remotely attractive. Before I died, I should have had her look at photos of me and tell me if she thought it was attractive. But I didn’t do that because I assumed that she would think I was attractive and I didn’t want to break her heart or make her think that she wasn’t talking to the dead because I had a very strong sense that she was talking to dead people. I didn’t want her to think that she was an experiencing something because I didn’t know what was going on, and I didn’t want to ruin that because I could tell it was valuable to her.

But she’s not attracted to me at all. At all. And he was straight.

I guarantee you there are thousands of men alive, who look like me who are straight who would think that you were attracted to me. But you aren’t at all. And that’s perfectly reasonable because I was born gay and of course you wouldn’t be attracted to a gay man. You would never be attracted to homosexual.  And I should have tried to start a conversation before. 

Let me tell you if you are in the Illumination listening to this try harder to understand. 

OK, so there are two things that I wanna talk about.

*He laughs with Lacey*

First of all, she’s not attracted to gay men. There are few bisexuals that she’s attracted to. Who she’s attracted to. But she actually is not attracted to men who are truly gay at all.

It’s totally natural and I wish more women were in touch with themselves in that way or in touch with other people or whatever it is I haven’t figured that out yet actually. But she really is aware of what she’s looking at and it just doesn’t do anything for her. 

I need to make that first point because it really is significant.  There are a lot of men who don’t understand that and it’s affecting world politics.  This is just a blog and she’s just being artistic, but that’s part of the fictional narrative that she has here so it may be fantastic and absurd, but anyway she’s just going with it. 

But you, Lacey, are only attracted to men who are available in that way. And what that means is that Van Johnson either wasn’t gay or he stopped being after he died. I was the one that made you bring that up on your blog believe it or not. I managed to have that happen either retroactively or that was right after I died. So that means and I hide it in with a lot of other talk about stuff because I didn’t want people to focus on it until I was ready to talk about it and just the right way. He stopped being or he’s straight? You’ve never talked about that with anyone.

He actually was bisexual, but when you were involved with him, he seemed straight? So he either became straight because it actually isn’t allowed in Heaven, or he chose to be.

Which is very serious because that means that there’s no way that Bobby makes sense. The way that they treated Lem was egregious. And Lem obviously struggled, as did I, with the thought of never having a family. The fact that Bobby is insisting that he is with him still or that he’s still obsessed with his family and people are taking it so seriously is actually extremely serious.

The Kennedy Center Lacey is a very serious talking point right now in ways that even people inside the Trump administration do not fully understand. It’s extremely serious and it’s kind of going over everyone’s heads and I don’t think you fully understand this because it’s not something that you understand. It’s very important to people and I don’t think people fully understand that, in their subconscious it’s important and I don’t think people fully understand that.

It’s just incredibly meaningful and-

Understanding that he is sorely mistaken about something that he keeps resting his word of honor on is very important. Because he has taken a leadership role in a very troubled administration. And so he has a lot of power and taking him seriously right now is actually very dangerous but people haven’t quite figured that out.

I think, the way I think, if they could figure out that he was wrong about something that important and personal to him, the pieces would fall in order and they would start to realize that he wasn’t really trustworthy.  Because he’s not hearing from God, he’s not hearing from Lem, he’s not hearing from his family. He’s not really a man with insight.  And even as crazy as he seems at times people still think he’s very legitimate and they take him very seriously.  But if they could just comprehend that he’s way off even about his own family and his own life-  Because if you were really interacting with Van Johnson and you’re actually only attracted to men who are attracted to you or could be why would we assume that everything is as he says it is?  Maybe it seems silly, but it’s not. I know the way people think and I think they would figure it out if they could just piece that together about you and your observations. 

The second thing is that your family is very divided. There are people who think that you’re evil and stupid and there are people who think that you are very aware. And that’s very serious and very disturbing but here’s the plot twist: They’re not your family. They are as much as they can be, they are and that is the family you were raised in, but the family that I count is in California.

Your father‘s family still exists and they mostly live in California. And they don’t know you. But they think like you act like you, they taught like you, and if you could understand that you have no idea the implications that that would have on everyone alive.

Lacey, do you know it all in any sort of certain way that he was straight?

Lacey: *Thinks*

*takes a deep breath*

I’m sorry you’re just very fatherly and I’m a little overwhelmed by that. I just need a second.

*She takes a second*

Yes.

Micheal: I don’t think that…-

I don’t think that you understand how serious this serious this is. I don’t think you understand that this is really serious.

Get your head straight about it because you’re making mistakes. Sweetie, if there’s reincarnation, he’s Constantine. The fact that God is even allowing that in conversation is very serious.

So take a second and get your head together and stop being so open to possibility. I love that that’s wonderful that’s who you are. You wanna make sure that it’s 100% correct before you make a final decision. But you can’t keep doing that with this because it isn’t safe.  Elliott is not a problem.  He’s fine.  But… there are other people who are interested in you. There are other things that are happening and you cannot keep second-guessing yourself safely because it’s getting wild. 

I don’t think you understand. Satan himself is falling in love with you. That is not actually as common as you keep thinking. I recommended talking to Jesus tonight because I knew that you would clash. You get along very well with Satan. You two just have a natural affinity.  That’s not actually typical. There are women who find him attractive and used to be risqué. You’re actually talking to him and you’re getting along with him. That’s different. 

And he’s not the only person I’m concerned about that he’s definitely one. But he’s not the only one. There are actually people who you don’t even know yet who are starting to demand a chance to talk with you because they’re just so angry. And these are not people who are safe for you to be talking to. Not because they’re a danger to you and your family, but because if they start to interact with you, it opens up a portal for them to mess around in the world of the living. Because of how this is being arranged. And obviously Elliot and Lem were really innocuous. But some of these men are not. And you might be thinking I got Constantine. No there are at least three high-ranking Nazi officials. Yes you’ve had men from Nazi Germany interested but not like these fellows. These fellows are dangerous.

Handsome like Sebastian from Cruel Intentions. Nazis. Very into you. …Dangerous as heck.

You NEED to FIGURE IT OUT. You can’t be so…loving. I know you’re trying to be loving. Great! BUT NOW IS THE TIME TO GET IT ALL SORTED. *He taps his head*

And then shut up about it. …But get it clear in your head! If you don’t…one of those…Nazis…will come haunt you. LITERALLY. *He laughs with Lacey.* And they’re obviously not…pure evil. But…-

Lacey: Thank you. I needed to hear that.

Micheal: I thought so!