Listen to “The Power of Love” by Celine Dion.
Because of King Charles III…we will today…talk about…
Bill.
And…
LUCY.
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Epic.
The song ends.
Who are Bill and Lucy? Bill is a professor currently teaching in Great Britain. and Lucy is a professor currently teaching at a school in Oklahoma.
They both went to Messiah College although they are just characters. And they’re based loosely on people who I actually do know. So this is real, in a sense, but…they are just characters.
Lucy was a bit like Emma from the Jane Austen novel, Emma. Very much a British lass who strove to be her best. Of course, she was American, but I have a feeling she’s quite British. 
Bill is short and fat slightly, and he has a rare ailment that is deadly, when not treated with antibiotics, that he contracted on a mission’s trip to Africa with his parents, when he was seven. He also however, has a strikingly handsome face. And an IQ of at least 145. 
And Lucy wanted to marry a truly intelligent man. She’s bisexual and cunning, a bit like Emma. So she could theoretically, today, marry a woman. But I think she had it in her head that she was going to marry a man.
And here’s where things get ugly.
Listen to “Adoration of the Earth”, The Augurs of Spring – Dances of the Young Girls, by Igor Stravinsky.
Lucy…(what a lovely name)…was…shy.
And Bill…(what an awkwardly mature name for a 22 year old in 2005)…was…liberated.
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Bill decided to be a bit shocking to a lot of the ladies at Messiah, and gentlemen, and harness his inner bitch. 
He went around telling everyone, including Lucy, that he was madly in love with a particular young woman named Muirin. But he never told Muirin that. Oh no, no. He never told Muirin that at all. He told Muirin that they were friends, that she had a cute nose, kind of like a button… and that she should get her belly button pierced…because it would be hot.
The song ends.
Listen to “Adoration of the Earth”, Ritual of Abduction, by Igor Stravinsky.
Bill seems innocent, in a sense, when he tells Muirin this, because he’s so shy and unassuming and reticent. Shy like Lucy. Maybe even thoughtful and wise.
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But, as I have come to suspect as an objective observer of life, he actually had…far more nefarious intentions.
The song plays and then comes to an end.
Listen to “Bück dich” by Rammstein.
Bill… was being a bit… sadistic.
Bill is short.
And Muirin was actually kind of a “hot chick” at the wrong place and the wrong time. And Bill saw an elegant opportunity…
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He decided… to let Muirin burn.
Because why would it hurt a hot chick anyway?
Some guy would come along and take her off his hands at the snap of a finger. He knew she was hot and that there was just something strange going on because of how brilliant he is. He knew there was nothing wrong with her that she was just a hot chick at the wrong place at the wrong time, and that she still had the sexual magnetism of all the other “hot chicks”. 
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And as I said, he saw an elegant opportunity.
The song ends.
Listen to “Save Me” by Jem.
Lucy has good tits. She’s a very average gal, but there are certain things that are actually quite unusually nice about her. Not as perfect to Scotia, but… she’s very beautiful, in a way. 
I’d show a picture of Scotia, but that would not be appropriate because it’s very sexual, even though it’s a very objective observation about boobs. Scotia has epic boobs, somebody was bound to and she does.  …But Lucy was not unappealing. 
Bill- It’s sad that I should have to point this out, but I do. …Bill liked boobs.
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And what, dear little Billy…and his brain and body and soul and spirit, so desired, I highly suspect… was for Lucy to throw herself at him.
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The song ends.
Listen to “It’s Amazing” by Jem.
He was using Muirin. Yes, Bill was using Muirin.
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And it’s evil and sadistic and pathetic, but he really just wanted them to be honest, in a sense.
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It was up to them. But, I don’t think they ever quite figured it out.
Muirin was out bills league, and he was not quite honest about that. And he treated her like poo. Except not completely because he was very nice to her, but he’s not stupid and I don’t think he necessarily had perfectly innocent heart intent, towards her. He probably still thinks that she was the bitch who just rejected him, but he barely tried. And if her value and worth is equivalent to what he did to win her, why does he even care? He dodged a bullet. He barely really did anything at all. He vaguely asked her out once to some crap-casual date, told her she had a cute nose and called her once, when he was drunk at a bar. And she was sexually way out of his league. And she wasn’t actually an idiot, even though she’s very feminine and “girly”. There are much more virile, much more productive young men, who were taller… who she could’ve slept with in a heartbeat, and he totally ignored that. 
But she was effective for what he wanted. Because Muirin drove Lucy and about dozen other young women absolutely batshit crazy over him, Bill.
What he probably wanted, naughty young man that he was, hot sex. But not with Muirin. He wanted hot sex with our dear Lucy. 
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The song ends.
Lucy really is beautiful. Not like Muirin, or some other women, but she has a certain charm. And for whatever reason, he wanted her to knock on his door in the middle of the night and say, “Bill please I need you.” or something along those lines. Not to humiliate her, but because I think he felt like women were becoming very snotty and mean and withholding, sexually. And maybe in a way they have been. And I think to him one of those women, who were so difficult in his estimation, even though he wasn’t stupid and he knew they had something to offer… being that honest would have been to him, an epiphany, as as a person. It would’ve been one of his saving moments. If I’m right about who he is.
Because, those women really were giving him the runaround. They were waiting for him to respond to their beauty and their charm and approach them first. But to be honest, they were not dressing themselves in any sort of seductive way. And they were very bisexual. And it’s not as though he didn’t realize that they might be interested in him, but I don’t think he felt amused.
I think he thought, “You know there are people better looking than me and you both. Why are you doing this to me?
I’m trying to be attractive. I get a tan. I lift weights.
I wanna be tall. I wanna look hot as heck, and be healthy.
Why are you making this so miserable to be Christian? Why are you making this so miserable to be right? Why are you making it so miserable to be intelligent and fortunate?”
But, of course, that’s the thing. We don’t know what happened in Lucy‘s head, from this perspective. We’ve assumed that Lucy would just die for a chance to kiss Bill.
But I suspect Lucy has moved on to the part of her that prefers women. And actually that would become all of her, if she was in a committed relationship with one.
The thing is, I think she is actually a bisexual woman. And I think that she actually may have found him attractive. And I think there were at least a dozen other women who found him attractive, as well. There may have even been some female teachers who thought he was good-looking. And the sad truth is that Muirin had absolutely no reasonable conception, of any of this. She may have had some inkling. But it was more of a far-fetched idea than something she was aware of.
He wanted to be loved, passionately.
Could one of those women have loved him? I worry one of them could have.
And would he be happier than he is now?
Listen to “Together” by The xx.
I don’t know how much his wife loves him. I don’t know how honourable she is…
I don’t know how much he loves his wife. I don’t know how much he loves his life.
People lie.
I am an unusually honest person, but he lied to Muirin, so I don’t have any idea why he wouldn’t lie again. Once you lie, it doesn’t matter if you’re happy or sad, people just stop believing you, if they have any sense. I see photos of him on Facebook with his three kids in London and I think, “Why the fuck would I care? You stupid bitch.” *I laugh* Of course I’m hoping he’s happy, but if he’s just trying to convince us that he is, I’m not remotely interested.
The thing is, I don’t know how much he’s in love with his wife. I don’t know how much she’s in love with him. And I’m saying that now with a tone of concern.
This woman singing is not me. I actually think she’s a joke, as a character, but I also think she’s human and I have grace for her with Christ and my own love for humanity, given my intellect.
Is that what his wife is like? A spoiled. stupid jackass who takes herself too seriously? A mediocre bitch who’s had life very easy despite what she might think? You know, even if she is, he might love her passionately. Men are like that.
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They are men, but they’re also just human.
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There are a lot of bitchy women in my generation. Heartless pieces of shit to women like me and Muirin. But a lot of them have husbands who love them and society condones them and exonerates them and worships them and kisses their fucking ass as they take a shit in it’s face.
Listen to “Young And Beautiful” by Lana Del Rey.
Ghislaine Maxwell was a sweetheart. Now she’s in prison for eating babies and torturing them. How hellish could some of these women be if they were given that much money and that much praise? Maybe they would surprise us with their holiness and common sense and wisdom, but I don’t know. The thing is, I’m more than just a sweetheart. I’m a Godly woman, in reality. 
But anyhow, sounds like this woman singing wants Bill up in Heaven to fuck the shit out of her. *I laugh*
And it kind of makes you wonder, because she is human, why she’s so desperate for his cock?
Listen to “Under The Influence (Body Language)” by Chris Brown.
I think this song is kind of funny. It reminds me of songs I used to hear on Sesame Street. *I laugh* That being said that kind of seems to go over everyone else’s head, because this is apparently one of the most listened to songs at the moment, when people are trying to have sex to music. 
So did Bill want to have sex to music like this with his wife or Lucy?
*I crack-up laughing*
You know, I have a very strong suspicion that I will not find out, until Heaven because I don’t think that those two will probably even talk to each other… which is just sick if they actually could’ve been deeply in love. This is the thing is he could actually just want to be married to his wife instead of Lucy. But, I don’t know that.
And a little part of me feels like I screwed something-up, because I didn’t know these people who I’m writing about.
Listen to “Great Gatsby” by Jonah Raine.
I knew Muirin. I knew Bill. I knew Lucy. I knew other people with the same name-
This is my sex. This song. Except, I’m not really having sex to the song, cause that’s just weird. This could be Lem though, when we fuck. This was Lem’s actual sexuality.
Fausta: Shut-up, dad. You are so loud.
Lem: I’m not your father, because you betrayed us, if there’s reincarnation.
Fausta: Then how am I hearing you? *she sighs and rolls her eyes*
Lem: Because, we’re being attacked.
I am incredibly sorry that you were ever my wife, if there’s reincarnation.
Ray? I don’t know. That could be the Sun.
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The song ends.
Listen to “A Little Party Never Killed Nobody (All We Got)” by Fergie, Q-Tip & GoonRock.
The thing is: what the hell happened?
Did he lose Lucy by just trying to get her to prostrate herself befor
