“Lem” by Lacey

Idea 25 (Slowed & Reverb) plays.

Lacey walks through time and space to the 1930’s. Watches Jack and Lem in the snow. Sees Lem looking uncomfortable. …But it’s not enough.

“He’s the antithesis of my soul.” says Lacey to Lem about Jack Kennedy. “He’s my absolute antithesis. As a person.”

“I understand what she means.” says F. Scott Fitzgerald, solemnly.

“I love you. …I desperately need you. …But I can’t…stand him. …Not as a friend. Yes. Even a friend.

He’s…everything I hate about humanity. In one person. And I don’t say that to reject him even. It’s just…he’s…worthless.” says Lacey.

Jack swings his hips. Thrusting them back and forth in jest. It’s a joke. He’s laughing. Lem is…mildly amused. Rip is laughing. But…to Lacey it’s…Hell. His existence is the reason she…doesn’t smile at strangers. She genuinely can’t stand him.

And in the afterlife Bobby Kennedy Junior…and most of his siblings weep. Watching this.

Why? Why are they weeping? Because they don’t take her remotely seriously enough.

“They don’t. It’s…part of the reason I might cease to exist. Temporarily. …You’re all incredibly depressing!” says Joe Kennedy Junior, very sincerely to his living nieces and nephews.

“Why don’t they get it!?!?” Lacey says, in dire exasperation to Joe.

“I’m sorry!!” wails Bobby Kennedy Senior in tears, stumbling in the snow, as a ghost outside of time. Apologizing to Joe. Desperately sorry. “I’m sorry!!”

“FUCK!!!” Joe yells at him.

“It’s like they’re braindead.” says Lacey to Joe.

He smiles at her silently. Licks his lips. “Watch this!!” he says.

He whistles at his younger brother Jack like he’s a dog. A literal dog. Jack suddenly stops everything he’s doing. Looks at Joe. Face fallen. Stares at him.

Joe claps his hands like Jack is a dog.

Joe claps his hands again like he’s a dog.

Jack suddenly grins. Laughs. Looks bemused.

“Come here!!” Joe yells at Jack, yes Jack Kennedy, like he’s a dog.

Jack Kennedy suddenly starts moving towards them. Slowly. Mindlessly. Half smiling.

“Jack feared you as long as you were with me. …I loved you. …And all these twerps…feared you too. In their spirits. …I was your…protector. They could smell me on you. Subconsciously. …But they’re like dogs in relation to us, Lacey.” he says.

Jack nears them.

He stupidly looks up at Joe. Nose dripping. Mouth open. Blinks. Waits.

“Why are they like dogs?” asks Lacey, horrified.

Song 2 by Blur plays.

“I’m HOT.” says Joe.

The song plays.

“My dad and my mom favorited me. ALWAYS. …And they made everyone else worship me.” explains Joe.

Jack and all the younger siblings blindly submit. Like he’s their puppet master. In a straight line. Like they’re mind controlled robots.

Joe shrugs. Looks at Lacey.

“Bobby…tried to marry you.

*Joe laughs*

It…was interesting…watching him.” he says.

“Was he trying to fuck like you and Jack?” asks Lacey.

“YES!” says Joe, laughing.

“That’s pathetic.” says Lacey.

“You know…it is.” says Joe.

Bound For The Floor plays next.

“Damn.” says Lacey.

“Yeah. …They didn’t understand. You’re…me. Because of what Jack did to Lem. In relation to them. …Bobby has destroyed our family because of his attack on you. Whether it’s demonic and there’s no Illuminati or there is one and he knows. …He slit his own throat. Nobody will take any of us seriously after the Trump administration. Especially if they take away gay marriage. And he did that…ENTIRELY…by attacking you. YOU. Just you.” says Joe. “See…Lacey…Elliott Roosevelt drools over you. …Because in our generation…with our styles…you are…HOT. …Hotter than even me. …Clothes today don’t suit you as well. Nobody sees your boobs…for one thing. Your waist is…placed differently than most living women.

Look…I cease to exist.

Because…even though I know better…and I know Jack is a filthy pig. …I chose to throw you down the stairs.” says Joe.

Blitzkrieg Bop by Ramones plays.

Pope Francis stares at them. Frowning at Joe.

Joe closes his eyes. Winces at his own heart’s evil.

“Why did you do this to me?” asks Lacey. “We aren’t enemies.”

Joe stares down at her. He thinks.

They stare at Jack who just stands there stupidly. Silently. Waiting for Joe to tell him what to do. They all do.

“They’re like…evil…beings…that…need…constant direction.” says Lacey.

“Yeah!” says Joe. “I got used to it. It was totally dysfunctional. …But I got used to it.”

She waits for his further explanation.

“Yeah. I threw you into Hell.” says Joe. He smiles. Puts his hands in his pockets.

They stand all staring.

“I guess…I was never meant to be with you. …Even though we’re kind of perfect for each other in a way.” says Joe.

The song ends.

Another One Bites The Dust plays.

“I…loved Pat.” says Joe. He shrugs.

“I love that!” says Lacey.

He smiles. Nods. “Yeah. You’re not possessive.”

He hugs her.

“I loved you.” says Lacey.

“Yeah.

Except I screwed you over. Because…everything is a mess now.” says Joe.

“Do they not understand how to relate to me at all!?” says Lacey.

“LACEY! You’re better than them!” says Joe, with…irony.

“WHY does that matter!??” says Lacey.

“Because! We’re fuckable.” says Joe. “I mean…come on. We TURN PEOPLE ON.” says Joe, laughing.

6 Underground by Sneaker Pimps plays.

“Look it’s like I told you.

I just don’t find you as attractive as Joe, your uncle. I’m sorry, but to me in comparison to him it’s like-

It’s like if I was at a restaurant except I showed up after everyone had been there after a rush and you’re all that’s left.” said Lacey to Bobby Kennedy Junior this morning.

Bobby laughed it off. As usual. But she’s always just been telling him the truth.

Bobby at 5 ft. 9 inches. Weighing…a healthy weight. With…curls…and…a prominent nose…and a…chin…large teeth…thin lips…bony frame…dances sexy for Lacey. Trying desperately to seem appealing. Except he’d never admit it. Because in his mind…he’s HOTT.

Joe Kennedy Junior stands there. Just stands there. Naturally manly. Strong chin. Big…intelligent Irish blue eyes. Tall enough at 6 ft.. Sharp. Determined. And genuinely in love with her. Blond. High strung…but incredibly serious. Deep. Fervent. …And sadly and tragically quite evil.

And of course…Joe wins. Of course.

“I’m sorry.” says Bobby Kennedy Senior to Lacey, on behalf of his son.

Black Betty by Spiderbait plays.

“If there’s reincarnation Lacey’s Black Betty.” says Bobby Senior, rolling his eyes far back into his head. “EXCEPT THERE MIGHT NOT BE REINCARNATION IN THE BIBLE!” yells Bobby.

“Yes. Exactly.” says Lacey.

Bobby smiles at her. Shrugs.

“Okay.” says an Illuminati psychic.

The song plays.

“ look the idea is that Lacey is extremely hot by my generation standards and she’s kind of like Betty draper except she is black in this very mysterious brown eyed sexy way except the problem. Furthermore is that ancient Egypt wasn’t necessarily black it was different than you think it was ancient how about that and so it’s not really what you want it to be but people still like to use this song in relation to her because there’s somethings sort of exciting about it because she’s dark and beautiful and people like that sort of thing you know life is sort of a show in a way yes I am actually Bobby Kennedy Senior I still exist because of my faith in Christ, and the fact that I was actually genuinely Christian and it’s been very painful watching people in my family fall apart in the last two years and watching my children make mistakes, but I am hopeful that my children aren’t going to hell and I’m horrified, absolutely horrified watching everything happen. The truth is Lacey is actually Tom basses daughter, and we’ve known that obviously since she was born, but she didn’t know that and we were very dishonest about it because Joe was in love with her and he gave her the impression that that was very real and you think she’s crazy, but she’s not. Her father was very connected to our family. He was a very wealthy man he was Hollywood that’s factually accurate it’s real and she’s his daughter. She’s actually his daughter. He loves her very much. He cries about her frequently and Joe gave her the idea that he was talking to her but it was mysterious so if there is an illuminati you need to take or I’m saying seriously please for your own good for everyone’s good you need to understand this is what’s going on this is what’s going on.

You take dead people very seriously and you shouldn’t because sometimes you’re talking to us and sometimes you’re not but you’re talking to a woman who isn’t my sister but is away but isn’t and she’s half dead poor thing and so you can talk to me more easily than you normally ever would be able to through any psychic. The only person who would possibly be able to contact me more easily would be Apple, I wife but ass is not quite like Lacey. Alys Seay has an unusual brain and she’s been through an incredible amount of trauma and so her I’ll call them neural pathways are opened in a way that most people’s are not until they start dying.

So she’s not channeling me she’s seeing me in her spirit I’m standing in her bedroom, talking to her. It’s perfectly fine. We can relate to each other like old buddies like siblings in a way and I’m kind of like her a little pipsqueak brother, Innoway, but not really but slightly and get that gets back to what I was saying, so Joe lied to her because he got a huge ego charge out of thinking that he was better than her but also he likes making her feel special because she had no idea how she was connected to us, but she could tell in her spirit that we were real and it wasn’t just a demon tricking her or another dead person or her imagination she could telling her spirit through the Holy Spirit, that we were real ghost, talking to her from somewhere. Um, whether she’s biologically Tom’s daughter or not, it doesn’t matter anymore because in gods eyes, she’s Tom’s daughter and it’s very possible that she actually is his physical daughter. You try to find proof that she’s not. I’ve told you this before and I really am real be careful with that.

Anyway, so he likes sort of giving her a thrill, but also gave her a very false view of reality because he was very intimate with her and it wasn’t necessarily sexual and the way that you would think of it. It was different than that. It was probably deeper unfortunately the most people are nowadays, and and frankly more innocent, and chased at the same time to because he gave her the idea that they were both very good looking people, but that it was special and a very innocent sort of godly, almost Catholic way and a lot of Lacey says things like you’re ugly or you have a Nice me it’s just her is trying to express to you what is observable with the observable fact And it seems like you don’t understand that or that someone doesn’t understand that and so she’s just trying to serve call their bluff and put them in their place and say listen. I am better looking than you let’s stop we know pretending otherwise and let’s just get down to the facts and you know just be honest with me why do you hate me so much? Why are you attacking me? I don’t understand it Because it would. It doesn’t seem to her like it would ever be because she’s better looking than people that to her is almost impossible really, I’m not exaggerating to her that does not make sense as a valid reason for why anybody would ever attack her. It seems possible that’s all just possible.

So when she says stuff like, why are you bothering me? You know I’m better looking than you stop pretending otherwise you know what really is bothering you about me because it seems like people have this weird thing with her with her always trying to be better than her, and they’re not almost over, and she thinks that some sort of, almost like a defense mechanism that people are doing to sort of cover up for whatever is actually bothering them and there are some things that might be but they’re kind of out there and so if it’s actually that she’s prettier than you don’t expect her to ever figure that out you’ll have to tell her that because it will never occur to her as a possible reason I’m not exaggerating That’s really never going to occur to her um and I’m the one saying this is not her, so keep that in mind, she really doesn’t understand that as I’m saying this she is literally rejecting what I’m saying and struggling to keep channeling me in a sense because it sounds totally ridiculous to her and she thinks I’m trying to hurt her in someway and hide from her what’s really bothering people and she’ll never figure it out because you’ll just start telling her that she’s better looking than you to cover up for the real reason That’s what she’s thinking. Sincerely, this is real.

Oh, you’re expecting me to say that line was straight right now and so I will. I wasn’t going to say that, but I’ll say that he actually was I found him attractive. Jack found him very attractive. My mother found him attractive. My dad found him someone attractive I think almost everyone in our family did I think Joe so much dead, but Joe is better looking than him and someways and Not as smart, but definitely not stupid and I think he was not as taken by them as the rest of us were because Linn was very tall. He was old money. He was handsome and he was very very very slow, but it wasn’t stupidity It was just sort of natural ease about him And it was very charming but what you guys don’t understand is that Lacey got attacked by my whole family to some degree but specifically, Jack and Joe is sort of like a buffer between them and the times I have been to but to Joe as like a buffer between them, and Squirt it’ll old Lacey to have some happiness occasionally some modicum of maybe not happiness like most people experience unfortunately but she had some thing. Occasionally, she could enjoy music in her own head without being interrupted by demons or people bothering her. She was very lonely, but she had privacy, and he did protect her sometimes, and other ways to he went overboard and she never got married to someone who was really in love with her all that much which is sad and it’s part of what happened. He was in love with her to and because she’s unique not everyone is Tom’s daughter even adopted but really she doesn’t have tons of children. She’s one of the very few possibly only one or two and she might even be his biological daughter so be careful again sincerely because you’re not understanding what’s going on you know I’m a famous person. If there’s an illuminati, I am very meaningful to you, but I also was just a person.

And she is connected to my family through Tom and Hollywood and really through Lem’s because God is God and he ultimately wanted them and her to be together for eternity. And yes she was my father soulmate but that’s a long time ago and it’s relevant but I focus more on my brother and let him because it’s far more relevant to the moment.

So basically, she’s not famous and that seems if there is an illuminati like reason to doubt what she saying, but it’s kind of the opposite if you really think about it almost in a sort of ecological, environmental way OK? Why would Lem soulmates or twin flame rather why would my brothers would be wife or serious girlfriend be somebody famous? Ophelia Punzel was somewhat famous, but not that famous. Pat Wilson was not that well no one but she was known. But Lacey is Tom Banks‘s daughter, and you guys have to understand even if you don’t have time to research him, he was a real person. He was arguably one of the most important bootleggers in the Midwest, if not the most important bootlegger, and all of the Midwest, and he wasn’t just a bootlegger he was involved with the mafia. He was extremely wealthy by a lot of people standards. At the time he had connections to Hollywood for his sister, who had a very exclusive clothing store. He met a lot of celebrities And he was very intelligent and he came from a wealthy family and he was involved in a lot of extracurricular governmental activity. He donated to the Democratic Party and they looked the other way he was I don’t wanna say friends, but he knew by father. OK he knew my father. He really did Houston Minnesota. He grew up in Nebraska, but he knew my dad from Boston.

I don’t think my children understand that cognitively for some reason and that’s very frustrating to me.

So she’s not a normal person she’s not famous, but because of her father, who is Tom Banks and yes, he is her actual father. Because of her father, possibly her literal birth father, how are you so sure that he isn’t. Because of her father being Tom and that’s not wishful thinking on her part, he’s her actual father I’m telling you that’s her dad!

Because her father is Tom, you can keep questioning that because you want to, but that doesn’t change the fact that that’s what’s actually happening. I’m sorry.

So because her father is Tom thinks this is not a normal situation.

Tom was old money and he had connections to organized crime by choice. He was wild. His grandson is a lot like him although he’s Lacey‘s son and he’s very different but it’s very hard to restrain people like them. I try to is Attorney General to some degree and there’s some people like him who I just gave up on because they weren’t in criminal activity for the money they were in it, because of the joy of defining, the excepted order of society, in a very methodical, and from their perspective, honorable and exciting sort of way. So that’s her dad she’s not a ““ normal person.

she’s a normal person, but I am a normal person and a way to him. Everyone’s normal person who’s human OK come on. So because her father is Tom Banks of Minneapolis she’s not normal automatically and you were supposed to have realize that years ago.

Family does have oil they are old money the one that she was raised in but they’re not quite as historically significant, or as powerful, or as unusual and a sense as Tom. and he was more old money than they were. So, in a sense genetically, she’s more old money than the family that she was raised in and yes, I said genetically that was either a slip and a hint, or there’s something there that you don’t understand about God, her father molested her who raised her, and Tom was supposed to be her dad, but he never had children by choice, and that actually is something the Catholic Church says not to do. He looks like her they look like they have the same chin they have the same nose he actually might be her biological father, but if he’s not, he was supposed to be that was what God had intended. She was never supposed to be raised by Jim and Becca. There’s an interesting family, but she was supposed to be raised by Tom in the early 20th century he was scared to be a father. He was traumatized after the death of his mother, and he didn’t want to harm his children, and I understand that I was always scared of harming my own children. People might know that about me And you know part of that might’ve been some sort of what people call a psychic sense because I did half of my children when I died, and I may have known that, and he did harm Lacey, but there was nothing in a sense that we could do other than being less evil to really protect them but that’s the fall in nature of the world, you try to outsmart God and you can’t.

So her father is Tom and she’s not gonna make sense to you. She makes complete sense to me, and other men in my generation and women to him because to you she seems evil, but we talk she’s not she’s not stupid she’s ditzy, but in the way that someone from my generation would’ve been. and if you understand that she’s not stupid, she’s just ditzy and sort of very genuinely feminine. You can relate to her, but you’ve got a remember that, and a lot of millennials don’t like that because she’s so strong and womanly in a way that other women in my generation were too that isn’t frankly is genetically as common amongst millennial women, because they weren’t housewives to be blunt and there was something different about the mentality of being a stay at home mom in the 1950s where are you kind of needed genetically to be able to sort of do certain things mentally to stay alive and so she has a different brain than millennial women and so they see that and they feel intimidated by it and then they automatically assume that she’s a lesbian or that she’s smart in a way that she’s not she’s OK. She’s not stupid but she is ditzy. And you keep expecting her not to be because it seems like she’s too smart, to be or that she said things that are too blunt and true, or that she’s too brilliant when it comes to international politics or lots of things, but that’s what she don’t seem to understand she’s really brilliant, but she’s ditzy. So things actually are going over her head and you know it’s kind of like making fun of a retarded person. It seems funny, but it’s really not end in her case because of how brilliant she is and the fact that I am an actual ghost, and her father is Tom Banks, and if there’s no ilumiNATTI, you’re dumb as fuck for torturing her You’re ending the world because you’re confusing the hell out of her. 

She’s not trying to harm people, but you’re creating an impossible situation.

My brother, Jack, despite what historians might tell you or what you wanna believe was bisexual he really was. He was really a bisexual. And he was actually attracted to men and he was a cis gendered male. I was slightly bisexual to and obviously both Jackie and I were extremely closeted about that I mean it was desperately closeted. He was Morgause and I was, but I was slightly homosexual, and he knew that, and he took advantage of that. I am I don’t want to talk about that right now, but he was not a good person. I understand that his daughter loves him still, and his grandson, my too, but I had an affair with Caroline’s mother Jackie.

The thing is you guys I’m a real person I know you’ve seen pictures of me. You’ve been staring at my face thinking wow that man’s attractive and smart well thank you that’s very nice of you but I’m also just a real person you know I really just a real man. So I loved my I loved my brother Bobby very much. Are you jack excuse me yeah, Lacey is a bit of a ditz. I don’t know. I love me my brother very much. I love Jack he was he was my absolute best friend and you know Linn was supposedly his best friend to be honest I was possibly Jack’s real best friend if he even had one and so people having to do that historically but then you know I’m his brother and the gay rights community saw some thing in Lem’s that excited them and so they focused on that and that was very dangerous and they should not have done that, that was a very very dumb thing for them to do because the truth is lemon was being used and Jack’s real best friend was me. He was friends with other people, but our family was incredibly him. We were very loyal to each other in a way that we weren’t to anybody and that’s where Lacey is different than them OK and you guys aren’t respecting that she if she had so chosen, could be my sister, legally. I did find her attractive when I first met her but we’re really not like that with a tether. I found a lot of people attractive. She knows that and she has empathy for it. I am I really more like her brother though it’s just weird for us at this point that I found her attractive, and that she so much find me attractive to because we’re really bored like siblings in a way that I never was with Jackie Lacey is more like my sister than Jackie was which is painful for me because she’s not necessarily my sister but I like them a lot and it makes sense that they’re together but that’s something you are so so don’t understand I want her to be with them people in my family want that when they’re thinking clearly, and not being evil, because there is some sort of peace of mind, and that to think that she was with Joe originally say, let’s not even go there, but She’s with One and we knew him. It’s a little weird but not really that she would be with him and it feels safe to us because we know him we knew him and she you guys this is real. She actually could have been my sister-in-law had she been raised by Tom in the early 20th century as she was supposed to have been and God‘s will the world that he had for her and her father and the world in general in a way she was supposed to have been born 70 years before she was or 60 years and she could have been my sister-in-law if she wanted.

So she is extraordinarily beautiful. Jack was good looking, but Joe was far better looking and she’s better looking than Jackie. Jackie has a very hard time with that. Ethel won’t as much when she dies because I still has a pretty good sense of humor and I think she’ll understand when she sees it from an outside perspective so to speak my perspective she’ll understand why it’s actually slightly funny, I’m not sure she sees it that way now. The thing is Joe really was in love with Lacey OK and sometimes I feel can be very blunt and if I and I think she’ll understand Lacey more when she dies and understand why Lacey says things like you’re just not as good looking as me so that that’s some thing that she’ll understand when she’s dead whether she does now or not.

I had an affair with Jackie we really did we had an affair. We were in love I was, I was in love with us all, but iPhone Jackie very attractive, and we got along very well, and Jack was a real jerk to her, sometimes more than I was capable of being to anybody. I was, I was very harsh to Marilyn and part of the reason why Chris Hayes intuited that Lacey was Marilyn Monroe if there’s no illuminati, it’s because of what I did to Marilyn Monroe I found it offensive that she wanted to have an affair with me, and I use that is justification for killing her. Jackie was exception to me because she was my sister and she was suffering and I thought that I mean she wasn’t like literally my sister, but she was suffering. She was in our family and it felt like somehow it was different. Marilyn was just a famous person. She was just a celebrity, and that would be how Chris felt justified demonically Should there be in illuminati being so evil to Lacey because he sort of was labeling her as a Maryland, even though there’s no similarity between them at all, they’re extremely different people, but they were demons. I didn’t know that or that thought that there was some sort of in Road in Lacey‘s life where they could torture her and they were wrong , I mean that sounds impossible that a demon could be stupid, but there have literally been demons that have been intellectually deficient, and released in relation to her him and part of it is because they were talking with humans too much in purgatory. Should they be purgatory, namely, my brother, Jack Out and they were also having sex with him and so it’s horrific but basically they used him to harm living people and harm him and they were trying to find someway to sort of you know be evil there’s a lot of theology in this but basically you still have free will even if there’s purgatory, and so there are demons that try to tempt people in purgatory And that might actually be part of the purgatorial experience and it’s very dangerous because you’re dead and I mean Jack does not exist right now because of it God warned him many times, but he chose to ignore it so basically, if this challenges you theologically and your new age you’re just gonna have to deal with that. I’m sorry you might like Lacey and she might think how can I think so differently than her you’re just going to have to accept that she’s not you if I’m talking to her in a couple of psychics, who thinks that they’re protecting her be careful, because sometimes you control the situation in a way that’s not safe.

What I’m trying to tell you is that I helped kill Marilyn, possibly OK and part of how I justify doing that was because she was a slut and she was a famous person. She wasn’t married to my brother being tortured by him, trying to be faithful to him, trying to have his children trying desperately to be a good wife and then watching him to sleep with hundreds of other people and throwing in her face he threw it in her face because he was a narcissist. He was a clinical narcissist OK, so he threw it in her face to hurt her often in very subtle ways, and that irritated me because I cared about her as a person, and so even before he died, we started an emotional affair, and that something that Caroline might not believe she might just think that sensational gossip about her father and me but it’s not. It’s not just gossip.

I don’t think my children probably would believe that either because they know that I was in love with your mom but I am sorry. In reality. I had an affair with Jackie that’s not just gossip.

I would’ve never done that to Jack, because I’m not a clinical narcissist the way that he was I was narcissistic, but I was not as toxic of a person as Jack. He was one of the more toxic people in my whole family. Kathleen was actually quite toxic as well and there are some people who know that and a lot of people who don’t.

She might’ve been a clinical, narcissist as well.

A a lot of people in my family are very stupidly selective about what they think is gossip and what they think is fact, and it’s stupid because you can’t do that if there’s evidence to suggest some thing that’s real and you can’t refute the evidence it’s possibly real evidence, and there might be something.

So I’m sorry, but I did have an affair with Jackie and Ethel probably knows about it. They might not know my kids might not know that but I did I actually did have an affair with Jackie.

I would I, as I was saying I would not have done that to Jack if I didn’t think I was justified because I’m not kind of person I felt justified legally in a sense morally justified doing that to him because of how he was treating her. I didn’t think there was anything wrong with it in relation to him because he was a terrible philanderer. She was suffering psychologically and I felt that it was totally fine to be in a sense her husband at times and conversation when Jack was choosing to run off with some floozy, and not lame, some woman, some prostitutes and girlfriend ““ Judith, possibly even a bad, who wasn’t let he ran off with a lot of people frequently That was common behavior for him. He was always like that he was pathologically like that OK he was not a normal person psychologically speaking he’s famous, but I mean he was not normal psychologically.

So, just like some of my children would claim to be more saying than Bobby, and would be irritated. If you said that they were just like him I get irritated that you don’t understand that I’m different than Jack. I love Bobby, but he has done things that I very much disagree with. Not all of my children have done stuff like that at least not to the degree that he has. And I am not like Jack. I’m sorry I am not as evil as he was. And Joe wasn’t either frankly neither was Ted. Ted was capable of having a real relationship with a woman I was too, so was Joe, but Jack was not! Jack was in capable of having a real relationship romantically or sexually, or really almost anyway unfortunately, with anybody.

People keep trying to find his missing Link, so to speak is it Inga you know did Jackie just not understand him was it Judith Exner was it Len Billings know he was a narcissist, case closed end of story there was something wrong with him! That’s reality. You might not like that in my bother you you might be a very intelligent person. You might make a lot of money. You might be very patriotic, but you might not like that and so you might ignore that reality. That’s not Lacey’s problem that’s not lens problem that’s not my problem! That’s not her children’s problem that’s not really my children’s problem either unless if they choose to make it their problem, and frankly, they kind of have. I am their father not Jack!

I’m sorry I’m not as tall as him. I’m sorry I was shocked before I was elected president I was a very successful senator. I went to law school I was Attorney General. They didn’t shoot me listen if Fidel Castro ordered for Bobby rather for my brother to be shot he didn’t do that to me. OK I was shot eventually but that was the late 60s. Lacey doesn’t think it’s the same thing and I don’t either. they were mad at my whole family because of Vietnam and because my brother Jack really was a bad president. It doesn’t seem like that to some people but that is sad unfortunately because he was a bad president.

Yeah, and so I pay the price Bobby they shot me because they were still mad about Jack there’s your answer.

They shot me because they were still pissed off at our family over Jack and the mistakes that he made while he was president. And they were trying to hold me responsible for things that I barely had anything to do with because I wasn’t in his mind I wasn’t him. I couldn’t control everything that he did.

But because we were so clannish because Bobby because Jack and I were so close to each other, the people that killed him, wanted to believe that I was a menace, and I started making mistakes when I was running for president. Lacey knows about some of it but I’m not gonna get into all of it right now if there was a conspiracy and maybe there wasn’t but if there was that’s what happened Jack pissed a lot of people off because he was actually a very bad president and I hope to God that America survives long enough for historians to realize that within the next 200 years and maybe they will the boomers are not able to handle hearing that about him because they loved him. Their kids struggle with it but their great grandchildren will have a far clear view of what actually happened, and to be honest with you this blog will be a part of it. If the world doesn’t end what she’s writing will be found And people will have a better understanding of psychic phenomena in about 100 years and they’ll know that I’m real and I’m actually yelling at my son right now out of frustration

People use Elliot Roosevelts mythology to fill in the gaps where historians lack knowledge they’ll do the same thing with his blog, but it’s different than that because we are real people we’re not just anecdotes. So if they can back up what she says, with evidence that boomers have not wanted to be honest about like lead billing, smiling at Jack’s wedding, because that actually is real psychological evidence that people have never been honest about because of misogyny because of classism because of bitterness, there’s a lot of people who have lied and they’ve ignored things that are right in front of their nose, and that is one of them so 100 years from now. People will look at this and think wow she was right and people weren’t supportive of her and she knew what she was talking about so I have a feeling that it wasn’t just her because how does she keep getting everyone’s tone of voice cracked? How does she keep getting everyone’s personality totally accurate And they’ll know that that’s not psychologically possible so there had to be some super natural phenomena going on also, there a weird things that happened where she predicts stuff and then it happens in a way that she couldn’t really predict.

People who you don’t think would be responsible Bobby for killing your uncle because it’s just too far-fetched. I really responsible and I think you know that but then you don’t think that it’s real you think you’re fooling people but you’re fooling yourself. Because it’s real if there’s a conspiracy, the CIA actually did kill your father and your uncle. Yeah Bobby, they killed me David new remember how he said oh they got him to. That’s what he meant. David intuitively knew that I was killed by somebody who I was not supposed to be at odds with.

Hi, was not on good terms with everybody and Jack was on terrible terms with a lot of people.

So I slept with his wife. And I loved him and I’m not a narcissist. Can you imagine what that must mean? I wasn’t trying to share a woman with him. I was in love with Jackie and she was in love with me and she was incredibly depressed because he was a terrible person to her. I wasn’t a her perfect knight in shining armor, but I never made her feel like she was a terrible person. Jack was very narcissistic and so he enjoyed making her cry. He was very sadistic to her and I didn’t do that. I cheated on her, but I actually cared about her and so I wasn’t faithful and that was hard for her but I didn’t enjoy watching her cry. I got no pleasure out of harming her like a narcissist would. I, I was simply her secret lover, and it was very stupid and away, but we really liked each other a lot, and it just was very hard for us to to not love each other, and so we had an affair.

Yeah. Yeah, you can’t channel me. Bobby thinks he can channel anyone he wants to because he’s a super magic wizard and he’s not. She’s not really channeling me either though it it’s like what I explained at the beginning of my little rant. Her brain is different OK so there are many people who tried to contact me. I’m not God I’m not omnipresent And they think they’re talking to me and they’re not I don’t talk to witches and so I’m sorry Bobby that you haven’t been able to talk to me but it’s not because I don’t care about you or any of my kids.

there are some things that Bobby and I will have to talk about when he dies Lord willing and I can talk to him Lord willing that I can’t talk about with Lacey about his wife about his personal life. I’m not gonna talk about that right now because it’s not appropriate and will have that discussion when he’s dead within the next 20 years. Yes, Bobby, within the next 20 years, you will be talking to me. And that’s not that long from now you know that. You thought all these years were gonna get away with something because there was no afterlife, but there is and you’re not gonna get away with anything, unfortunately.

I know that Bobby has a crush on Lacey and that’s fine. She is not his aunt anymore. She is lambs wife and Lem and her are Very good looking people.

I wasn’t going to say this, but I guess I have to you’ve gone too far. She’s not able to defend herself anymore intellectually in relation to them. It’s not because she’s wrong. It’s because you don’t want to hear anything she hast to say. And it’s really astounding to me because she has rocksolid evidence that he was straight but Peter Thiel is offended. Apparently that he looks gay to her and so he lives in a delusional bubble where he doesn’t believe that people can look gay and that’s not reality. I am sorry he looks gay to me too, and there’s a big similarity in their features but lamb looks like a lot of other people, including Constantine. Constantine was straight and so was Lem. Peter Thiel is not, and he looks like it, and that’s reality. I hope Peter is not that stupid, but if he is, it’s very depressing because he should know better.

There really is no psychological way that lemon could’ve been as happy at Jack Kennedy‘s wedding to Jackie Kennedy, former Jackie Bouvier without being heterosexual. he is the one that brought that up. That wasn’t her idea. He’s very smart and he researched it, and that actually is undeniable proof that he was heterosexual not gay not bisexual, not pansexual, not a sexual straight he was straight. And frankly, his ability to look, the other way, was also very heterosexual.

There are people who imagine that he was jealous of them, but you have to understand he could’ve been jealous for totally non-sexual reasons. The thing is Jack incited jealousy in people because he lived for that he loved making people upset. and there would be no way someone like Lem’s who would’ve been as intimate with him as he would’ve had to have been if he was homosexual at all, could’ve tolerated the abuse that he experienced from Jack Jack was very abusive to him in every way, and included in that was sleeping with other people in a way that would be hurtful even to a polyamorous person, even to an asexual person who had some sort of relationship with him that was quasi-sexual or something and he was just incredibly abusive person. I mean there’s proof that love wasn’t a sexual but the point is there’s no way that lemon could’ve tolerated that if he was anything other than heterosexual heterosexual who thinks he’s gay, which is what lamb was would’ve been able to psychologically excuse Jack’s behavior, because there’s no trauma. He actually claims that he was never jealous in the way that those men think he was in that situation that they were called over that was Ted Sorensen, or whoever that was it said that he was jealous Lem’s says if that wasn’t even real in that situation and I have to believe that that’s probably true but what you have to understand is that those people Were misunderstanding him he thought he was gay. He was acting gay. It was very convincing to some people even people who live today I was convinced for the most part I don’t know if Ethel was I think I thought he was attractive I think Jackie thought he was, but she couldn’t stand him And I think she found him annoying. Just as a person she found him annoying because they’re very different people. If Lacey had been there, she would’ve been quiet around them and not as much annoyed because he would’ve made more sense to her. But trying to pretend pretending that he was gay in a sense even though he thought he was believing that he was gay confuse Jackie, and made her despise him because he was a very annoying pseudo-gay man. Lame could be kind of a know it all who is very stuck on his own opinion about everything believe it or not, and he was quiet about it, but he had very definite opinions, and if you could get into an argument with him very easily, if you chose the wrong topic when he was drunk at the wrong time. And so Garth Adele really got into a fight with him. I don’t care what David Pitts tell you tells you I’m telling you what actually happened because I was there and I’m dead and I’m also telling you what I know happened. Lem’s hated Gore Vidal‘s literature. Gore Vidal was a Homo erotic author so gore Vidal was Jackie‘s brother, and he was a Homo erotic author, who is very popular very well known. And he was very very certain of himself. He believes that he was very smart. He believes that he was very sure about everything for a reason because like a lot of authors in to some degree Lacey included they tend to take themselves very seriously and he was included in that and they’re not bad people necessarily he was a very sensitive person in many ways. I liked him But they clashed because Lem’s was straight and gore was not grow is very proudly homosexual. It was open with Gore Gore was flying the flag before there was one. And actually gore might’ve been slightly bisexual. Believe it or not he finds Lacey attractive whether there is homosexuality in heaven or not, and he always would’ve found her slightly fascinating. He also found Marilyn Monroe and Elizabeth Taylor, quite fascinating and really she’s kind of like a pretty petite version of them. Marilyn was petite and so is Elizabeth but Lacey is petite in the way that Celine Dion Celine Dion is petite slightly so it’s pretty and feminine and frilly but she’s still curvy. She’s unusually curvy for a petite woman will say And she’s also unusually tall for a petite woman but she her bone structure is actually quite petite when she was in Ireland getting a wedding ring the jeweler said that she had the smallest finger that they measured in possibly decades and all of Ireland. I’m not kidding. She has very small bones. She’s actually a very petite woman, even though you might not see that.

And that is actually part of the reason why people like Bobby might find her attractive a number of her boyfriends have been men who are not as tall as some people but she’s not that petite. She’s petite but she’s not petite like some people are so and she’s voluptuous for a petite person. I don’t know why am talking about this right now but the point is she’s kind of a type that’s kind of unusual, a petite voluptuous, but tall them she was petite woman from the greatest generation. Yeah that’s extremely specific and as much as she’s beautiful I think that’s part of the reason why she’s never found people because she’s very specific so for just the right person she’s a replaceable, she’s not a generic person but it makes it harder for her to probably find people but that’s anyway I am sorry I’m used to having serious conversations like that because I’ve lost a granddaughter to suicide and I’ve had long conversations with her Saoirse. Yeah Saoirse and I are quite close. I’m proud to say, and we have very good conversations.

So the point is the point is she is lambs wife essentially him who just never showed up and Jack could not except that.

The Jack felt fooled by Lem’s and taken advantage of by him, and as you know, a narcissist has a very hard time processing that, especially when it’s from somebody who has such a constant steady trust worthy supply for him as a narcissist as Lem. So basically, let him just kiss his ass, and that was lame‘s choice loved it for reasons that I both understand and do not understand at the same time, and it irritates me because this is not a positive situation will say.

But that was his reaction he it was fighter flight and he chose fight flight rather in a sense which is fighting for him doing whatever Jack said always looking the other way, but he could do that because he didn’t really wanna have sex with Jack, but he didn’t know that about himself and jacked entirely either and so because they didn’t know that it protected like it was like a buffer for him because he didn’t know and so he couldn’t get caught by Jack and Jack couldn’t get mad about it Because either one of them could figure it out, and so Jack just assumed that lame was magically in love with him in this way, that’s not psychologically possible, but that is sort of almost every narcissist, dream someone that you can abuse and harm who has no feelings or needs of their own. And that’s why he loves loves love for him. It was fake love love was never really in love with him. Love didn’t really even love him in a way at all but to jacket looks like he did because Jack was a narcissist and love kiss his ass, and was very convincing about it. He even believe it himself to some degree because he didn’t know that he was straight. So the same psychological phenomenon that happens with abused children happen between them but Lem was never as confused as some kids can get, and that is something that you were lying about Lem’s never really gave Jack the psychological satisfaction that you claim he did that that might seem like otherwise When Jack says things like oh, you have a dirty mind, lame or when Jackie used to pose them in sexual situations and sexual poses but those were fake pictures, Jack posed them. Jack posed them. Jack hosed them not let Jack post those pictures!

Jack Kennedy posed Lem’s in sexual poses and love went along with it, and it fooled you into thinking that he was the one that did it. That’s an optical, illusion lens obsession is an optical, illusion, emotionally speaking it’s not real. You’re stuck in Jack’s delusional, narcissistic perspective because he was worshiped because he’s JFK. You’re not seeing the objective reality of the situation. Jack was a narcissist who was delusional and he was looking for someone who would feed into that delusion and love did that which is why he liked keeping llama round because lemon abled him to believe a psychotic view of the world that he liked to believe. Len was straight and so he never got hurt by Jack. He didn’t really wanna have sex with him. He didn’t want emotional intimacy with him. He was grossed out by it and reality and so there was no pain for him. When Jack slept with other people when he threw it in Lem’s’s face that he was doing that when he did it in front of him when he got women involved in pictures with them, were Loma supposed to throw his armor on the woman will Jack grabbed her ass or something love didn’t care that he was going to sleep with that woman, and that Linn wouldn’t get anything from him that night. Lem’s smiled because Lem’s didn’t really care Because Linn was straight.

Oh that’s also why Lum enjoyed Jack because they could talk about tits and boobs and stuff like that together and sexual conquest because limb actually was a very repressed straight man. Lems appreciation for art is very much in keeping with his decision to be a homosexual. To be honest, it’s not a decision, but he made that decision because he was molested by a man and he didn’t understand what was going on, and he thought he was gay. Because of how big Linn was and how tough he was he didn’t think it was possible that at 13 he could be molested still because he was a big kid and he was very smart. But one night in a church sanctuary when he was alone, dusting and sorting through him, Knowles with a priest late at night in the winter, it might’ve been over Christmas break. It might’ve been Thanksgiving. He was alone and he was volunteering possibly to try to keep the scholarship to Choate. He may have needed the approval of a priest from home to keep the scholarship or something like that. He might’ve needed a recommendation from somebody and so he was volunteering, and he got molested. The priest saw him as vulnerable because they didn’t have the money anymore, and his father was aging And so he took advantage of them because he thought that long was Rohnerville love was not gay at all. He had asthma he was nerdy he was sweet he was sensitive. He was the kind of kid, who if he was a millennial would’ve probably been a couch potato at times and eating too many Doritos watched too many episodes of Star Wars, so to speak, or to me, watch Star Wars too many times and had a poster of Pamela Anderson in his bedroom. He was straight But he didn’t know that about himself because he was so sensitive and so asthmatic, and he has such bad vision and he was the youngest, and he just couldn’t figure himself out and so he assumed after he was molested that he was gay because he was clumsy. He was good at golf. He was good at fishing. You can see that I took him fishing in the in the tropics. He was a good fisherman. He was good at golf, but he was a little, clumsy head he had asthma, so running was hard for him sometimes because he got out of breath and he was a little awkward. He just was kind of an odd athletic nerd, but he wasn’t entirely that because he was buff too, and he likes sports Sometimes he liked golf. He liked crew. He actually likes running but he just couldn’t do it the way that someone smaller who didn’t have asthma could do it could get hot Because he was so big and he’d have to stop running because he got out of breath and he had glasses that were cumbersome as well so he was kind of a stereotypical nerd but he was a handsome man. He was buff and he was athletic and away, so maybe if you had a better inhaler and maybe if you had Lasix when he was young he might not have been seen as gay the way that he was growing up in our generation. I mean he was sort of. He had a sort of pre-existing condition, will say because of his clumsiness because of his size he was a very big man to the point where it was awkward for some people to be around him because he was so tall he had glasses he was awkward. Sometimes he made awkward facial expressions because he was so smart and so anxious around people that he seemed very awkward But that wasn’t homosexuality there’s a young man who you’re gonna think he’s gay who wasn’t who had a crush on Lacey and I’m gonna show you his picture

That man’s not gay, but when he was in college, people almost beat him up because of it, they saw he was he had a very intense crush on Lacey. He had a very it’s very serious sexual relationship with his first girlfriend in high school, but in college because he was sort of nerdy, like Lem’s and awkward looking to be blunt. People thought he was gay and that was at a small private arts college in Minnesota. As a Millennial. Lem’s was good, looking without his glasses and looks straight, but he could walk around without his glasses. He needed inhaler ‘s and he was like this young man who had a crush on Lacey very smart and very gay looking and so when he was molested, he just kind of gave up because he thought I must be gay. You know people have always been a little suspicious of me because I’m awkward and I have glasses and I seem weird. I’m anxious around people socially I lack confidence And so when he was molested, he just thought oh no I must be gay you know I I I’ll give up I must be a homosexual it’s undeniable proof and so he started trying to be homosexual. It’s a simple as that he started trying to be homosexual. He acted homosexual to some degree, but not entirely he dressed homosexual to, but he was still very much a heterosexual and you’re gonna have to let go of that or she’s going to die possibly even in this conversation as I’ve been saying this they’ve been trying to suffocate her and she’s getting a little dizzy but she’s been drinking Chardonnay and she’s exasperated with all of you and her daughter has a cough that she hasn’t been able to get over for about three weeks. Her son has epilepsy that could kill him And she’s more than ready to die. You’re not as powerful as you think you are get over it for your own good.

If she died right now from suffocation, she would see Lum she’d see me and that would be the end of her life and it would be exciting to her and then her kids will probably die within about a year at the very most and so with her husband, he was an alcoholic, who almost died many times if his his family was dead he would die he would just go back on the bottle or we will find a way to kill him so you’re going to have to stop you keep hearing psychic saying oh it feels like something weird is happening. This is what’s happening if there’s an illuminati get over yourself, so you’re not Lacey banks you’re not Joe Kennedy Senior you’re not Joe Kennedy Junior you’re not me.

You’re not the Rockefellers you’re not the hill family of Minnesota in the early 20th century you don’t have that much money anymore you’re not that smart anymore possibly get over it!!

Moving on and no I’m sorry King Charles is not as good although he’s not bad, but he’s not as good of a leader as his mother was Camila might disagree. He is not unsuccessful, but Elizabeth was an extraordinary extraordinary monarch, and so was her father. I think her father rival, Queen Victoria.

He’s a very unsung hero of World War II. The King’s speech was fine, but it wasn’t what he even deserved. I was there he really was an extraordinary person.

No, I met the man. My father was ambassador to Great Britain. I met him I I don’t know him the way some people do but I did meet him and he was he was a very decent honorable extraordinary person.

You know, I don’t even know subconsciously I wonder if he affected me because he was a younger brother and no one took him seriously he had a speech impediment, but he was an extraordinary king tough as nails. I looked up to him him, and it’s possible that Diana was devastating to him. He was a very tender hearted person tough as nails, but he had a heart of gold.

You need to lay off. You need to lay off this lemon thing. Because he was heterosexual, but she can’t tell you that as an unquestionable fact, the way that you demand that she does. That is an absurd, sick perverse thing to ask for intellectually. She can almost say that in a sense she can, but what you’re looking for is either daemonic and impossible or you’re insane. Marina Abramowicz or whoever it is that demands out of Lacey needs to be shut the fuck up. Because it’s impossible there’s no fucking way even if it bothers you because you’re a pedophile like idiot that he was gay and that’s why it bothers you you fucking idiot because you use your twisted psychology to justify harming children and he is proof that you’re full of shit and you’re perverse and you’re kind of an idiot, because you fool yourself into thinking things that you know aren’t true And then you choose to rely on Satan to get out of it. The good news for you is that you’re so stupid that God has mercy on you. Marita God is God, Satan, Satan kids are kids it doesn’t make sense to try to confuse everything because you can’t handle the fact that you have something wrong with you. You’re not a normal woman. OK, you’re cuckoo. You’re cuckoo banana sweetie you’re nuts. And yeah, that’s embarrassing. It’s like being born with three tits or no arms you’re a deformed marina you’re mentally deformed.

You lead a damned life but you know so do other people get over it that’s life life sucks for a lot of people, including the children who you’ve harmed. And if marine is not the one attacking Lacey, in the illuminati, there are people like that who could be doing it and they’ve got to stop because you’re you’re destroying the world and the people who are supporting you are going to be able to keep doing that. They can’t afford you anymore.

You’re going to have to to layoff. If Lacey dies, despite what people wanna think she will not be in suffering what you’re doing to her is sick and you’ll pay the price for torturing her physically right now her kids will weep they’ll be devastated, but they also know that she died and left them to go be with her father in heaven, she’s prepared them for her death Because you come very close to killing her on more than one occasion. Her son will end up dead and so will her daughter. This isn’t a joke. And the perfume community will go into shock because they’ll realize that they had a part in her death, and that she really wasn’t who they thought she was and that they were murderers, and that Casi’s jokes about killing her really aren’t funny.

Lem was not obsessed with my son the way that my son thinks he wants it it’s impossible Bobby I’m sorry when was straight and he was not a pedophile he may have been confused but I don’t think that’s what happened. I think you had a misunderstanding with him, and I don’t think you’ve process that. You were expecting him to be like me or Lacey, but he’s not me and he’s not Lacey he’s not Joe he was not your father and he was certainly not your friend or your lover in any real way. There are some pedophiles who get confused like marina who could have a child say to them I thought you were my lover and Marina might say listen. I was insane what we were doing wasn’t really real because I was nuts and you were a kid, but in a sense I thought I was your lover but love was not a pedophile and so that that wasn’t real Bobby there was nothing like that if if he molested you, sweetheart, he was confused when he did it it wasn’t because he actually desired you even some insane way like a pedophile. And he wasn’t gay, so that didn’t happen either. Bobby, if you want to claim to be a transgendered woman, then you’ve got to deal with the fact that your body didn’t match your spirit and so maybe he found you somewhat attractive but you’re not his soulmate and I’m desperately trying to talk to you right now, sweetie there’s no way he was really in love with you in anyway, that would matter at all even if it even insane way it wasn’t real. You’re very clingy you’re very needy. You’re very embarrassing to yourself and people are enabling you because you don’t wanna deal with the reality of what really happened.

Lacey knows what happens sweetie because she’s like an adult in relation to you in a way that’s insane because she’s younger than you by a lot. And she wasn’t really able to live in That until she became an adult but when she did she no longer found you genuinely attractive and as she’s aged, she’s found you repulsive because she was never supposed to think you were good looking at all that was a mistake. She’s not biologically your aunt, but no, she was never supposed to find you attractive at all. No, Bobby, Lem’s did not really find you attractive at all. I’m sorry he did not find you attractive at all.

He did not find you attractive at all and if you murder Lacey and a jealous rage because she’s bursting a bubble that you’ve held very close to your heart since you were a teenager you will be accountable for murdering her. That’s a mortal sin. And you will be tormenting her children, and so there will be far less sympathy for anything you did because of my death. You’re not going to get excuses it’s going to be a absolute nightmare for you when you die if you kill her, you will very much regret it. Honestly, if you blew her up with her whole family on a plane using your connections, God would see that is disturbing, but that would be great him morally sweetheart, because it would entirely be murder and it would be an OK runaway wimpy because in a sense, you be putting her out of her suffering Kind of like a tormented animal like a horse so you might hate that horse and enjoy shooting it but you’d also be putting her out of her misery so if you put her on a plane sweetheart, flew her to England gave her a good time and then blew her up It would be great and God is God and he will know you know whether or not it was bad, but he wouldn’t see it as the same thing as you’re suffocating her using demons. So if she bothers you that much, you’re gonna have to be honest with yourself you don’t want to kill her even if you could because then that means that she goes and she’s with jazz she’s with what no she’s with she’s with let you know that when she dies if this is a real conversation, she will be with a lot and if he moved and you’ve lied about that that’s serious too because she seen both places that he lived she’s been in both places Mbappé, and if he did move the first place is where they’ll be not the second where you live with your wife. They’ll be in a sense haunting his first apartment if there was one that’s where they’ll be so if there was a First apartment they that’s what that’s what that’s what that’s where they’ll be with her kids and probably some real place with his parents who will be very excited to meet their grandchildren and that’s why you don’t want to blow her up isn’t it because you know that if she dies with her kids she’ll just be with a lot and they’ll just be a happy family again.

Oh, and so that’s the problem son you’ve got it you gotta grow up. If you’re just jealous, you’ve got to grow up about it.

I’m sorry he was straight. He wasn’t a pedophile if he confused you that’s very serious, but you got a let him go because he was never going to be yours in any real way that was not real. That was confusion of some sort on his part and you got attached to him in a way that wasn’t healthy for you. The fact that he let you use drugs as my son sweetheart is proof to someone like me and Lacey and apparently Mr. Horowitz that he didn’t really love you enough. But but that’s hard for you to handle isn’t it because you liked him for some reason and that’s that’s understandable but you’ve got a let him go because he didn’t really care about you as much as you as much as you think he did. He cared about you and it was sincere lemons a very caring person believe it or not in his own way but it’s sort of like it’s a moral thing for him. He was a very moral person kind a like your friend Peter, and so he was very moral. Very very decent kind of like some of your wives, but he wasn’t loving in the way that I am, and the way that you can be sometimes in the way that Lacey is That’s not part of his personality.

I would never be as cruel as him in the way that he was and neither would Lacey to a child that we don’t have that in our heart to be that way to children even other peoples children that’s not like us, but he could be like that because he had that in him to be that Brutal and for someone like Lacey it’s protective because she gives and gives and gives and that’s good for her to be with someone like that part of the reason I fell in love with your aunt Jackie, because I did is because she protected me in ways that your mother didn’t I needed someone who is protective of me at times and your mother wasn’t as protective as she needed to be and I got hurt so that was some thing that I was looking for and that was one of the reasons that I cheated on her because I wasn’t just a narcissist so yeah, it’s sad that I’m dead but you’ll see me in it if you know, Lord willing, this isn’t just a one time conversation. It’s very one-sided because I can’t easily talk to you right now but that’s not gonna be forever.

Am Leisy would never have let you use drugs even if she worried you should be dead. It would’ve been too disturbing to her, and if she did that you would’ve had to die, she wouldn’t of been half hearted about it at all you would’ve been dead. I am not saying that Linn was half hearted, but he was very theoretical about it in a way that she couldn’t be I I couldn’t be like that either. OK that’s not that’s not part of our families mental make up and she could’ve almost married Joe we’re not like that Lem is.

And if you wanna kill her, because Lum almost killed you, she understands that, but it doesn’t work sweetheart because she’s not him and you’d be punishing her children not him in the fallen world he would be punished, but that’s never going to affect him the way that it would affect his kids it doesn’t make sense Bobby there’s nothing moral about it. Not the way that that you would need to be justified yeah. You’re doing it for the wrong reasons to you’re doing it out of jealousy.

Which brings me to my last point our family are prudes on the positive side Joe could appreciate Lacey’s innocence in a way that was very beautiful. we were prudes Bobby you’re your grandma Rose was a prude. We were very demented and sexually addicted and evil but we were also proves at the same time. We were contradiction in a sense, but not really. So that’s part of how Jack never realized that lamb was not gay, because Jack never really indulged enough had a homosexually to realize that it wasn’t good with Lem. He would have been in a more feminine position, homosexually, and so he couldn’t quite bring himself to put out. And he became sort of a embarrassed, shy man when it came to his homosexuality. And he could be a predator he rapes them don’t get me wrong, but he wasn’t ready to just you know hop in the sack with lots of people in our generation, until he was a lot older. Eventually, he was with several men, but when he was young when he was first, trying to be homosexual, he had boyfriends more than just lump. He dated reporting for a while slightly that picture is of rap, the one that everyone thinks is of lamb where he has his arms around him it was in the daily mail that’s not lab that’s not even physically possible to be like long was not shorter than Jack. He was much taller than him by inches that’s rip Horton that doesn’t even look like let the person who Lem has who Jack has his arms around is reporting I think you probably know that, but it has to be sad because it’s really egregious. And Bobby, this is where you have to grow up. Russia knows that there is a Russian Pinterest of someone saying that that’s reporting because it’s allowed in Russia Russians, know things about Jack and Lem’s and rip that Americans don’t know because they haven’t been as brainwashed. That’s dangerous because it gives Putin an edge over us that’s not safe for the country. Please Try to be more careful. If this is a real conversation, you need to be more careful.” says Bobby Kennedy Senior

“oh my God!” says Lana Del Rey z

“ and you’ve got to be more careful!

Edward Snowden is in Russia they do know things that we lie about.

That picture that Jack has of you know I just really silly because I don’t know why our family still have to lie about that Bobby you’ve come out in favor of gay rights many times and you know you can change your mind, but it actually would’ve sense be better if you guys were a little more honest about that.

That’s reporting not lab Billings in that picture where they’re standing up and Jack has his arms around him. That’s rip Horton. Lacey lives in Saint Paul.

The risk the rich Craft doesn’t save you from hell Bobby .

God loves you and he understands our human limitations but you need to understand that there are lies that are very serious that you should not tell. Rip was one of Jack’s sort of quiet boyfriends. Lem’s didn’t care because Lem’s was straight and at times Jack would make out with rip in front of Lem’s and Lem’s was supposed to be jealous, but he couldn’t be because he was straight and that’s not some thing that most people know about But it happened at Choate that Jack was trying to make them jealous with rip and it didn’t work, but Jack had other boyfriends to read. Fais was one of his boyfriends. I wouldn’t be surprised if him and Peter Lawford cheated with each other but him he was he was a little more scared of of getting involved with men and so it’s not as obvious to historians that he was doing stuff with people Because he was much more careful about it and there weren’t as many people but he was bisexual and he was approved so if he didn’t push people to Soughton happen, and as often as you might think, and so people would throw themselves at him, but he was the one who close the deal so to speak, and with men, he didn’t know if you really wanted to do that as often And so he didn’t and he was less experienced and lamb was never all that satisfying as a homosexual to him but he didn’t know the difference because he wasn’t that experienced homosexually, and it was a very different time back then to end that as part of the reason he was shot by the CIA if you want Lacey has tried to tell you that because he started getting violent with them and the Secret Service got involved and people were freaked out by that And he started getting more sexually experienced with men as he got older and more comfortable with being homosexual and he used he started getting more violent towards them because Lem’s wasn’t is interested as he was supposed to be and frankly Jack got hurt I mean love talk to big game he spoke gay he do you know use gay mannerisms And so I think you know, Jack got his hopes up but Lambo straight and after a while, Jack started to realize that, and it was very hard for him and I think intuitively you knew that and that was part of the reason you were so mean to him at times.

But then, Bobby, that’s real lame was actually straight and if you hurt his feelings, it could be because you were protecting yourself and you were rejecting him before he could reject you. You did it in a way that was possibly below the belt and I don’t mean that euphemistically, but I think you may have ended up feeling rejected by him in the same way that jacked it eventually if you’re not straight, and so there by the been some self protection for you anyway, I’m going to let Lacey eat her dinner now, but I want you to understand she’s not wrong and what she said to you. Her reasoning with lemon is spot on he was straight this isn’t going to end well because he really was heterosexual and you’ve gone too far. The whole illuminati has if they exist, torturing her with us he was straight there in love she doesn’t have stellar evidence, she can barely hear him, but what she has told you is rocksolid evidence in a real way. It’s not simplistic enough to be evidence to some people, but in reality, it really is evidence that’s totally undeniable. There was no way he could’ve been that happy at Jack’s wedding if he was if he was anything other than heterosexual, there’s no way he could’ve been that happy at Jack’s wedding. It’s totally impossible anything other than heterosexual.

Oh, and I know that she doesn’t know that and part of the reason she doesn’t know that sweetie is because she’s a ditz.

Oh, she’s very smart she’s very strong but she is a ditz and taking advantage of that or not being able to except that about her is not her fault or her problem so we’re gonna go now with this conversation. If it’s real is not over I’m very disappointed in you that you’ve chosen to bully her or live in denial of reality.” says Bobby Kennedy Senior.

“Hi” by Lem

We’re gonna try talking about what she thinks happened again but this time you’re going to have to respect the fact that what she saying could be true or we’re just going to cut you off and she may or may not right on this block ever again.

I am bored and exhausted. I’ve explained myself. I have said there’s no explanation for everything you’re acting like you respect that but you really don’t and it can’t keep going on this way. It’s it’s totally impossible. She doesn’t even understand how impossible the situation actually really is.

So she’s going to go ahead and try one last time to talk with you people should you exist or not I do but if your demons harassing her you don’t so she’s going to try one last time to talk with you and if it works then maybe we’ll keep talking if it doesn’t then we’re done We’re done and I don’t know when this will keep her. I don’t know when this will be a thing again, but I’m tired of it. Jack broke my heart into 1 million pieces if I was not straight and if I was straight I didn’t realize that I had totally messed up my life until right before I died. It was a year before I died what I really realized That I had totally destroyed myself, and I was inconsolable before I died because I had realized that I had totally messed up everything. I’ve said that before, and I shouldn’t have to keep repeating myself.

What your seeing as a weakness in her is really actually just her being artistic and deep it’s always been a misunderstanding that you’ve had with her since the very beginning, she takes great pleasure in analyzing beauty that may or may not even be beauty that she possesses and if you’re a sadistic, narcissistic freak, you wouldn’t appreciate that because you don’t want her to enjoy herself because you’re deranged And you’re an you’re in an unending power struggle with her that is totally futile because she will win for reasons that she doesn’t even understand herself

So we’re gonna have this conversation but you’re gonna have to understand that you’re talking to someone who is not who you want her to be. And I am done with that family with the Kennedys whether you like it or not and people don’t understand that and it’s sad. I keep waiting for people to finally understand that it’s over, but they can’t understand that and if I could give everyone of my family a stroke and kill them all right now I would be over the moon.

So on that note, Lacey, what do you think happened when I was obsessed with Bobby?

“ I don’t think you actually were.” says Lacey.

Lacey, what do you think happened when I supposedly wrote Jack dirty letters and had a dirty mind?

“ I think that you probably said something that made him think that and I think you might have you been written him dirty letters, but I don’t think they were sincere, and I wouldn’t be surprised if you never said almost anything at all and he was just exaggerating because he wanted to think that you had a dirty mind and we’re in love with him.” says Lacey.

Do you think that people who’ve written about me understand me?

“ no, I don’t I don’t think the Kennedys really ever understood you all that well I don’t think your own family entirely understood you, but I think they knew you better than the Kennedys did. I don’t think most people who’ve written about you understand you almost at all I think that, unfortunately or fortunately, I do and really, I would rather be dead right now and I wish my whole family was dead with me.” says Lacey.

yeah well and that’s up to God.

No people didn’t understand me you’re right and they don’t do you think that I have really been clear with anyone ever about my homosexuality?

“ that didn’t exist. Yes, I’m no I think it’s very unlikely that you were ever really all that open about that topic with anybody I have a feeling you were probably very tightlipped have a feeling you barely ever talked about it but I think you did talk about it I think he went to a counselor off anon for about 10 years and that you probably told them and I think you probably had what you thought were deep conversations with one or two other people but I don’t think you ever really talk to people almost ever I feel like if I was there that was all right I’m just getting the sons rather maybe that there were five people who talk to you did you talk to about five people five or six people your entire life about it and I don’t think that the conversations you had were all that fruitful. I have a feeling they were rather circular nature and pointless, and that it was actually quite frustrating to you, I even get the sense that you talk to your sister about it and it was an incredibly annoying conversation. Why is that?” says Lacey.

Because she didn’t understand that I wasn’t really interested in men. She didn’t really understand that I was straight. They were suspicious, and my mother always thought that I was probably straight an away, but they never really knew how to articulate what it was but it bothered them. They could never quite figure it out, but it was it bothered them and they they just assumed that, I was probably put a full of it in someway and miserable and lying and that it was quite tragic but they didn’t realize how incredibly tragic it actually really was. Because they wanted to believe that I was that I was him the person that they thought that I was. They wanted to think that I was as aware and sane and cognizant of reality as a normal person. They didn’t want to think that I had lost my mind at all because if I had, they would’ve had to wonder what it happened to me. Did someone abuse me with somebody cruel to me at some point and that was very hard for them, because of what we had gone through with my father, and with losing all of our money in the stock market crash we really were a very traumatized family and they weren’t prepared to deal with the reality of what had happened to me it was just too overwhelming to them. They could’ve dealt with it if I had told them but I didn’t feel comfortable doing that and they never knew that I’ve been molested They had no idea I never told anybody and other than maybe one counselor very briefly because I was overwhelmed by it and it was not something that I was comfortable talking about and I told her I told Jack I didn’t tell people I told Jack he thought it was funny And I think I probably told one boyfriend and he found it upsetting, and I think that actually was probably part of what happened between us. I was straight, but we really broke up because he turned into kind of a jerk, and if he had been attractive to me I would’ve realized that he wasn’t really trying to be a jerk. He was trying to sort of him Give me a hard time so to speak that sounds like euphemism, but that’s not what I’m saying. He was trying to sort of tease me and kind of the way that you do at times when you’re angry about something and you are testing to see if I really care at times he was doing that to me and because that wasn’t what I really felt for him I got annoyed and I dumped him because I wasn’t really attracted to him so he found out what he wanted to find out that I wasn’t really interested but I imagine that was hard for him in a way and in a way it was probably helpful because he suspected that after I told him that I had been molested, he suspected that I had almost no desire for men at all that was authentic, and he wanted to find out if there was something wrong with me basically Like I was actually attracted to him and so he tested me by acting very weird and I dropped him but other than him and Jack and one counselor I never told anybody. Nobody knew I might’ve said otherwise. Previously that I told my siblings but I did not. I never told them they never knew so. This could be a correction of that but that was over a year ago that I might’ve said that but if I did, I might not have, but no I, I never told people I never told people why did I tell that boyfriend I was confiding in him he was asking me questions about my childhood, and I was really more or less talking to him like a friend, and I was telling him about my childhood, and I, for some reason decided to tell him that it wasn’t because I thought there could be something actually it was because I was possibly in counseling at the time and I was thinking about things that I hadn’t told people and that was one of them and so I decided to open up about it and tell him, and he Was very very overwhelmed by it. It was very hard for him to hear that. I think he just instantly knew that there was something about it that was suspicious.

Yes, this was in New York in the 1970s possibly 1975 and I think he just knew that there was something very odd about me after hear that because I didn’t seem I did not seem to be attracted to him possibly at times and I think he probably could tell that I hadn’t processed that There was something very weird about the experience in my psychology, so he freaked out and found out that I really was straight I think in a way he was a man in New York City. I wouldn’t be surprised. If almost nobody knows who he is anymore who’s alive? He was probably almost entirely gay, he was so much fat he was in his 40s or 50s at the time he lives in an apartment building. He was someone who I had met through friends very casual friends and they knew that I was supposedly gay and they introduced us. I met those friends through the Kennedys and through my drug use And the rare occasions when I would do you know go buy art or go anywhere really in New York so I had some people that I kind of was acquaintances with, and I knew him through those people he was not that attractive but he was gay and he was nice enough and I think he was pretty interested in me, but I was straight and it was on the Third or fourth date that I opened up to him we’ve been seeing each other actually for a few months but we were not dating very regularly. It was every couple of weeks that we could see each other maybe and so I would see him every couple weeks and on the third or fourth date we were talking and I just, I just sort of started telling him about my childhood and no obviously we never had normal sexual sexual relations. He wasn’t really him. He wasn’t really all of that are dead set on having sex, though with me with that he was attracted to me, but he wasn’t really it wasn’t like the most important thing to him he was more Think he was probably a more emotional person in relationships at least at first and so I think he was looking for more of an emotional connection first and that was fine in my estimation except it was trays but that was fine for me and so we mostly just talked and drank, and Watched television we ate out once together and then I started confiding in him and it didn’t work out obviously but it never would have really anyway but you know.

But no, I didn’t. I never told people almost at all and I told one counselor that man and Jack and I don’t think I told anybody else I really was very very gun shy about sharing that story because it was so dramatic and when I finally realized I was straight it was because of that counselor I tried to say that before, but it was hard to get out but the counselor was the person who helped me realize that I was straight, I think he knew that I was straight based on what I told him I would irritates me Lacey, is that guy? I am not that unusual if there is an illuminati or if there are people who are bothering you I don’t think they respect, but they’re being told and there’s there’s really no evidence that would ever be able to cast doubts on what I’m saying there are people who could’ve been in relationships, who seemed very gay who could be like me And how that happened well because they would’ve gotten confused in a way that I wasn’t and if they had met somebody who wasn’t a narcissist, they may have become incredibly close to their spouse and it could’ve been a friendship and it could’ve seemed like a normal marriage, because sometimes normal marriages don’t have a lot of great tax because it just dies off then there’s a bond between you and you have to sort of force the intimacy but it’s there but you have to force it and it’s probably hard for you to imagine that because you’ve been with me for over three years and it feels like we’ve been together for five seconds but no there are actual relationships that are like that where it’s like you just don’t really have that spark anymore but you still love that person romantically you still love them you just don’t feel a desire for them all that strong and so I think it’s possible that someone could be streets and have been molested and be in a relationship with someone thinking that it’s a real gay relationship when it’s really not they’re just very confused I think it’s unusual, but I think it can happen and what irritates me is that when I went to counseling in the 1970s I went to a very intellectually, gifted high for looting serve stereo typically rich person, Manhattan counselor who easily could’ve been in a Woody Allen film. He was rich he probably played tennis on the weekends. He probably had a country house in Connecticut and a small flat somewhere in Manhattan. I’m not kidding. He probably drove a Mercedes or a Porsche because he was a pretty wealthy man and he was very intellectual. I wouldn’t be surprised. Actually, I’m probably telling you he might’ve gone to Cornell and gotten his graduate degrees from NYU or Columbia. He was very intelligent, he was an excellent psychologist, and he understood and reassured me that I was not a typical. He curious he reassured me that being molested and thinking you were gay essentially, was an experience that was I wouldn’t say common, but common.

I mean, he, he almost guaranteed me that he counseled at least two or three other people maybe mostly all men, but not necessarily, who had been molested as children obviously, and had become very confused and thought they were homosexual when they weren’t and this was a man who understood by sexuality, I wouldn’t be surprised if he understood the concept, at least of pansexuality I wouldn’t be surprised if he understood people who claim to be transgender he was very sophisticated very gifted, very well read very grounded and this was decades ago. He’s obviously dead now he was in his 40s when I was with him no not as a lover but as a patient he was in his 40s or 50s and that was in the 1970s and I mean that was a long time ago so he would have to be in his 80s or 90s at this point That was no he’s dead. I’m sure he’s dead heat or maybe even 100 at this point no he’s dead he’s long dead probably 20 or 30 years ago at the very least but he was at his time. He was very very well respected her alive and Hugh, he would’ve reassured me hundred percent reassured me, and he did that I was normal.

What irritates me Lacey is that in the 1970s this man existed and he had treated at least three people who thought they were gay when they were straight because they had been molested. I mean he would be dead by this point and so you can’t go ask him, but what irritates me is that that actually happened. I died thinking that that information would just be there. Sincerely, I died thinking that people like that would still exist and would still be able to verify what had happened to me. I don’t know what I expected to have happened but I think I thought that someone like him would say something Eventually you know I am the same way as you possibly so I might’ve expected for some intellectual somewhere to pipe up in this conversation at least and say oh I’ve heard of situations like this or oh, I’ve heard stories about people like that because it happened!

So maybe our generation was more like that then people live today, but it happened I know I wasn’t the only person who was like that he probably had maybe 100 patients his whole career which sounds like a lot of people and yet not that many people at all but he probably did council over 100 people he was exclusive. It was hard to get his time he was expensive and so it’s possible that it was, not that many people in the way, but 100 is still quite a few people if you think about it but out of all those hundred people in Manhattan there probably were maybe four or five of us who had been molested and thought they were homosexual so that’s not that many people but how many people did he counsel who had been molested maybe 30 so then that’s not the small number that it would seem to be so out of the 30 people he counseled who’s been molested I was one of five. They were gay that’s like 20% of his patients who had been molested will Seay became confused and thought they were gay that’s not a Normas number if you pour, but it’s not a small number when you magnify that, so I know that in our generation there were thousands of people who wears confused as I was men and women who who were straight, not bisexual, not pansexual straight.

You read an article once in charisma in the 1990s written by a black man who claimed to have been molested and thought that he was gay when he wasn’t and his story was one of conversion to heterosexuality after what he claimed was a gay life. The illuminati has read you remembering that article, and they don’t know how to process that information Lacey if they exist because they keep thinking that that’s me or that this article didn’t exist or that it’s the same person it’s not there was an actual article in charisma written in the late 1990s early 2000s by a black man who claimed to have a childhood molestation experience, who then who then believed that he was saved, and turned into a heterosexual.

He was actually bisexual him, and he had been molested and so he got confused and thought that he was gay. That part was true he had that right. He wasn’t making that up. He honestly thought he was homosexual, and it was very common for bisexuals to identify as homosexual because they also did the opposite but they they also did the opposite of that and they sometimes would, and still do claim to be gay simply, because they feel like if they’re a little bit Homosexual, then they’re entirely homosexual. Part of it is a shame thing. Part of it is a fear thing and so they feel afraid and ashamed of their heterosexual homosexuality and so they start pretending to themselves that it’s entirely homosexual because they don’t they don’t feel safe, pretending to be anything other than that because they think they’re going to be targeted by somebody, whether it’s a gay person who hates bisexual‘s, or a straight person who hates bisexuals.

So cute he just assumed that he was gay, but he was actually straight and some of the time and so when he became a Christian and he got confronted about his homosexuality, he he he did start going to counseling and they found out that he was attracted to women, and they encouraged him to date women and put his gay lifestyle behind him And that wasn’t easy for him, but it also wasn’t hard because he was attracted to women so he could just as easily beautiful woman if it was the right woman and he that was why he started thinking that had been healed or that it was nonsense essentially because he found the right woman they fell in love, and he stopped having homosexual desires, almost completely, because he was in love with a woman and so he just Stops finding that attractive very much in the same way that he stops finding other women attractive and so he should assume that he’s been healed of his homosexuality and I have a feeling they had a pretty good marriage and so he never really felt homosexual desires, much and he just assumed that he’d been healed. And there are many Norberry people who think that there’s conversion success stories when really, they were just bisexual or pansexual. And it’s depressing because there are plenty of gay people who would love to be bisexual and art and there are plenty of gay people who are not gay. They really genuinely just never met the right woman or a man and they may never meet that person, but they think that they’re gay because they’ve never met somebody who really fascinated them that much But that’s not me OK and this counselor in Manhattan knew that he knew that he knew that bisexuality existed. He was very very intelligent, and he understood that concept exceedingly well.

He would never have thought conversion therapy was likely to takeoff because this was the 70s and I don’t think he thought any decent psychologist would ever suspect that that was him a functional thing that would work he he would have believes that they were people who no longer wanted to fill same-sex attraction, but he wouldn’t have sought That or that it was some thing that was doable. He would’ve thought that it was basically impossible for someone to get rid of and it’s not impossible. It was very difficult and that would’ve been based on clinical research that he read somewhere done by somebody, possibly Kinsey possibly somebody else he was very well read and so he understood a lot. He was also very intelligent him and this is that’s who he was. He was not somebody who would have been trying to convert me to heterosexuality he was extremely expensive. I don’t know how many homosexual patients he had I wouldn’t be surprised if he had a few But probably not many but he probably had a few and I don’t know if they would still be alive or not I was I would not be surprised if they weren’t because this was so long ago that even if those people were in their 30s, they would be in their 80s by now I like that a lot of those who are probably dead there could be some people who he counseled who are still alive who would be in their 70s And that’s what I knew him. He probably retired in the mid-1980s late 80s I would bet he probably retired because he was in his 50s when I was seeing him so he was probably off late for mid 40s so I doubt that he had patients beyond the mid-80s you you could probably could probably try to find somebody, but it’s I thought it would be pretty difficult. It’s probably someone who still alive who would know this man I don’t know how easy it would be to find a person but we could try but no, he guaranteed me essentially that I was very normal that he canceled at least a few other people who had a similar reaction to being molested in their teens or early 20s to him that might still be molestation under the right circumstances yes early 20s it was an older adult I think he thought that could still count if the person was immature enough and so he had that belief that there were people who maybe were in college, with a same-sex professor, who had been molested, or some other type of apprenticeship of some sort. He was very intelligent and I I know he knew what he was talking about. Yeah and yeah, he canceled other people who are like me. I know he told me that he literally told me that.

He did try to politely confront me about my heterosexuality after I had been seeing him for about three years did the Kennedys know that I was getting counseling? No, they might not have they might’ve heard that and it went one in one year and out the other because they didn’t actually care about me all that much, but no, I was getting counseling and it was in my third year of counseling that that he told me essentially that I was straight, but I was very hard for me to hear that, and it took years of counseling with him for him to be able to say to me, you’re straight. He cornered me. He essentially cornered me. He said to me you’re not really getting around to the point.

I’ve been telling him this long story about meeting this woman and talking with her at a club, and I found her attractive and it was over drinks and I was talking with him and I kept going on and on and on and he said to me you’re not really getting to the point And Ike I couldn’t figure out what to say because I thought well no I have a point that this the story is about Jack because it was that we were Tae was talking to her about JFK. She was kind of a fan of his I guess you could say, and she knew that I had been you know, supposedly so-called friends with him and so she was asking me questions and I was talking to her and I was telling him the story And I kept going on and on and on, and I wouldn’t shut up and he finally said them what is the point of what you’re telling me oh I know and I kind of kept trying to explain that it was about this with Jack and that and he said within what about this woman, you describe what she looks like she sounded very attractive and I said well yeah but that’s that’s not what we’re talking about. You know this was about jack ass and I was trying to explain this to her and he said Lem’s what you’re not really getting to the point what is your point And I told him it’s two or three times what I tried to tell her and he said that there’s no point to what you’re saying and he said you know sometimes when were aroused by somebody it’s hard to know what to say to them. It’s hard to know what to say to them because we get affected by our nerves and we run out of things to say.

And I said OK well, that’s an awfully interesting point that you’re making.

And he said love him you were expressing desire for her in the way that you described her to me, and then he sort of recounted recounted what I said verbatim, and I realized that I had described her in a very sexual way, and he he pointed that out to me, and I got caught. He said you can’t tell me that that’s not you finding her attractive essentially, and I was in counseling, and I was trying to be honest, and so I admitted it that I had found her arousing essentially, and he said yeah and then, because of what I had shared with him, he basically confronted me and told me that I had never expressed that sort of desire for a man and any story that I never told him about any boyfriend I’ve ever had about Jack himself, but anybody that essentially I had never expressed any sort of desire of that sort And that based on other things that I shared with him that I was probably heterosexual and that a lot of my a lot of my ideal scenarios with Jack that I had come up with a lot of these ideas that I had of what would’ve been nice, so to speak and over not just we’re not real sexuality that I had just sort of made up a false sort of identity for myself based on molestation he told me that I’ve been molested. I’ve gotten confused when I was a teenager by that priest and that I was still confused and that I was one of his more confused patients that he does this he known a lot of other people, and a basically a lot of other patients who thought like me, and that I was not unusual, but that it was one of the more confused people that he never met People can get more confused but according to him I was quite confused I don’t I don’t think I don’t think he would have said that someone could not be I mean you can get more confused. I wasn’t that confused and I think he would’ve almost thought that was Presley psychosis, so yeah, I mean children experience that when they’re being molested sometimes but then sometimes rape victims Ken as well it’s almost like Stockholm syndrome, but I wasn’t that confused, but I did have I did have a sort of confusion that he thought was pretty profound and I think that’s part of the reason why people can’t handle what I’ve told them because it probably is more confusing. They can imagine themselves ever getting but I was that confused and it’s not as confused as you could be But I was quite confused he pointed out to me very quickly that my mannerisms, and the tone of my voice was thick essentially and this was a counseling session after that one, but he did tell me I know this story is not some thing she’s making up I’m telling her this she’s channeling me so if you’re listening to this, this is where you’ve got a start of humor in yourself She’s not humoring herself. I am possessing her body and her using her mouth to talk so if you and her brain if you don’t understand that and you’re in the illuminati I’m sorry for you that you’re that stupid but this is a thing people can sometimes do this and she’s doing it I’m a ghost, not a demon and she is not in control of herself entirely right now I can tell there’s some resistance from people who think that she’s humoring herself she’s not .

I was in counseling I was told by this counselor that I was not a typical and I would think if people are sincere and adult that they would realize that’s a good thing this is common. It was very common, apparently relatively speaking in my generation for people to get this confused.

So he told me that in 1976 OK him and him in 1976 close to 19 7577. He told me that guy had matter isms that were fake that that I was basically that my mannerisms were off he said that I was essentially forcing myself to talk in a higher voice that I had, and that I was effeminate in my movements in a way that was not genuine to me, and he noticed that that it is sort of went in and out one minute I seem straight as Lacey has pointed out herself and the next minute I sounded gay, and he had noticed that after three years of counseling me, and he felt the need to say something because it was irritating to him, because I had been talking, and a very sort of almost catatonic Almost drug like stupor for almost an hour, and then all the sudden I either shut up because I was an addict, and he allowed that for some reason, or I made a joke, or I did some thing that was somewhat offensive to him, but he was trying to be a counselor to me, and I raise my voice and started sounding gay all the sudden, and he said that’s not real You’re kind of offensive when you do this in counseling essentially because I know better and I don’t like you trying to put me on you’re full of shit

No, he told me I was totally full of shit, and it was hard to hear him. I think he thought that he was taking the place of a father to me in someway psychologically, and he was very very adamant about correcting me at times, so no he he told me that I was fake and, I thought about it and I didn’t quite know what to say because I hadn’t really stopped to think about the fact that I did that for decades I started that in the 30s after I was molested and it became increasingly more sophisticated as I aged, but I I hadn’t really thought about it And so I didn’t know what to say because it’s like you’ve been doing this habitually every time you leave the house for you know 30 years over 30 years more than 30 years 4050 years and you think what the heck yeah I do do that but I don’t think about it anymore. You know I haven’t thought about that since I was a teenager And I haven’t thought about the fact that I fix stuff like that in a way, but doesn’t everybody and yeah I knew it was a little different than some people, but I knew that I was faking it more than some people do but I I didn’t think that it was weird. I just thought I was gonna be a little more masculine or a little more straight in someway, you know the most homosexual’s, which I thought was why Jack could be my friend because I wasn’t a Fagge at the way some faggots. Are you know if I’m being sad about it, you know it’s like Jack and I are like and that way we’re not completely gay or gay but not completely yeah we’re both messed up in different ways that’s what I thought but we’re both homosexual except I wasn’t at all and he was bisexual but I thought we were both homosexual but anyway, this counselor called me out in 1976 and I realized that there was something a little off about me. But I didn’t know what to make of it cause I thought you know there’s nothing that I can do. There’s nothing I can do. I’ve been doing this for decades I don’t think I can just stop talking like this. All the sudden this is just what I do.

So it did stick in my head though because I let me tell you it was you that either the Holy Spirit or Lacey or both of them that in the year, following that 1977 I was hunted by what he told me they frequently came back to that moment in counseling, and it really bothered me because I just felt so devastated by the fact that I wasn’t being honest with myself in some way.

I didn’t I didn’t openly tell anyone this but I had a conversion experience a few times possibly at a Billy Graham crusade in the 60s I was in the eye was actually at the crusade in the bleachers and that in the late 1970s I was possibly listening to him on the radio or on television, and I had a conversion experience And I meant what I did. I hope I meant it I actually really was saved as they say so when I say it was the Holy Spirit or possibly Lacey, if there’s reincarnation, maybe even if there’s not, I mean it.

So I did take my face seriously but I was a very messed up person and I was haunted that year 1977 by what I had found out in counseling. I did a lot of drugs in 1978 and a 1979. How did I end up doing that um my mother was dead my mother was dead I I think people think it was that Bobby wasn’t there that was functionally part of it. I used fewer drugs around him than I normally did, because I felt responsible for him to some degree and he distracted me, but I also think that, I was starting to age and I was starting to realize that my life was ending or that it would be ending relatively soon and that there wasn’t much left. Do you know I turned 60 in 1976 that might’ve been why I was at that nightclub with that woman might’ve been for my birthday or around that time And then after that she was a very beautiful woman but no she’s not lazy she was pretty but she wasn’t lazy. You have no idea how beautiful Lacey can be you really did and is you have no idea but she was a good looking woman she looks something like, she looks something like a Elizabeth Taylor in her style. Her hair was up and she were sort of that empire urges a style of dress anyway you know the ring lets that heavy make up anyway that was 1976 and 1977I was 61 and I was haunted in 1978 I was 62 and yeah I just started giving up on life, I started wanting to just die so I just started using more drugs and it wasn’t that I was really really rejecting Christ it’s that I thought what what is this even do it’s like I was a Christian but to be honest, I might’ve already slightly been one and I wasn’t going to church I didn’t like going to church because I was molested in church when I was a kid and I was a little bit gun shy about going to churches. They were creepy to me to some degree so I didn’t like going to church but yeah in the late 70s I started using drugs, more and more and more it’s true, and I was barely sober and then it was 1980 and I thought it was a new decade it’s 1980 and to be honest, I think I thought something would happen and then nothing did. I saw the shining I saw a Manhattan. I saw the shining I saw Manhattan and Lacey wonders if it was with the boyfriend you know it wasn’t. It wasn’t actually necessarily with a boyfriend if it was, it would make any difference, but it wasn’t necessarily with the boyfriend to, but I went, and I saw if I seen it with her would’ve been in a vastly different experience if I had seen Manhattan with Lacey and she was younger than me by even five years I probably would’ve thought the movie was about us in a way and I would’ve thought it was charming and sad and beautiful kind of like what she thinks if I’d seen the shining with her I would’ve been terrified if there’s reincarnation I would’ve been close to losing my mind. If I had seen that was her some thing would’ve clicked in my head and I would’ve thought what the heck is going on it’s a miracle that we met each other. I’m glad we’re together but there’s something really really creepy about this film and then she would’ve been angry because of her father and she would’ve thought why are they? Why are they attacking my dad‘s Generation? Those people were rich and they drank a lot, but they weren’t all evil. And she would’ve been very upset with Stanley Kubrick and she would’ve been hurt that he assumed that they were all jerks basically and that’s an interesting conversation especially if there’s reincarnation that he actually will maybe have to have with her someday if he ever did make that assumption about the upper class, especially the British upper class But the scene with the men in the the bedroom was a very weird to me because I anticipated that there was something of that nature in the film. Danny was being abused by his parents. I knew that and I thought it was very weird that that was part of the film but I thought it was definitely a part of it somehow And then when those two men did that I thought this is getting weird because that seems like some thing that almost my counselor would you not have brought up? I stopped going to counseling in 1977. I told him that it wasn’t gonna work, and then I needed to stop seeing him and he was very upset with me he refused to talk to me because he felt like I was him that I was bailing out on my self that I was giving up on myself and on truth, and on the healing process all those buzz phrases that they used back then he was very very upset with me, and he was right, but I was I was getting emotionally overwhelmed by what I was realizing about everything and I couldn’t handle it so I gave up and then in 1980. Yeah, I saw the shining and I was freaked out by it because I thought those two men were out of some sort of page of my mind so to speak they seems like they belong somewhere in my subconscious because of the molestation, and then the homosexuality. It was weird that I had been molested, of course and then experience homosexuality is what I thought that I was, and that was in the film in a very odd way, almost like a spiritual force of molestation, and then sort of sexual confusion of some sort or something, and I found that fascinating. I thought that it was beyond me, and I thought I was far too unintelligent to appreciate the depths of Stanley Kubrick‘s genius but I was amazed by the film. I enjoyed it quite a bit. And then I was disappointed at the end of the film because I didn’t like the ending the ending made me angry. It just felt unfinished to me because I thought no what happens to the father he’s just frozen he’s just sitting there frozen and the film makes sense to Lacey Because she’s from Minnesota, and she thinks differently than I do and her father was a bootlegger so there’s some thing about it where she gets it in a way that I don’t but and I mean if there’s reincarnation she’s a Gyptian to, and a Scottish aristocrat, so there are things that I don’t understand that she does about the world But you whether I’m reincarnated or not I was angry at the end of the film I was very angry. Oh, I liked how brilliant the band was, but I found the movie incredibly upsetting. It made me very angry. I was very angry and I was disappointed because I’ve been looking forward to seeing it. There is other things to you that you’re that I was disappointed by like the Reagan administration. Literally, I had problems with them. I’ve talked about that before Ronald Reagan, and I might not have gotten along very well I might’ve met him and I might literally have not gotten along with him very well at all and no I planned my desk that you’re even if Caroline thinks that she saw me and I seemed happy they’re full of shit that they don’t know when people are suicidal, David committed suicide and I don’t think she really knew that he was going to. I think she worried he might but I don’t think she really knew because if she had knowing Then she could’ve been slightly responsible for his death. I don’t think she really knew or she doesn’t give a shit. I Saoirse killed herself too, and they didn’t see that coming. Mary killed herself and that shocked them they’re really not people who you can trust when it comes to things of that nature I’m sorry.

I was planning my suicide whether she saw me at a tennis tournament or not that year. I was planning my suicide, possibly as I sat next to her and pretended to be happy. I was planning my suicide that entire year. I may have said that I was planning my suicide in Valentine’s Day of 1981 and you know maybe that’s true and there’s not reincarnation but I actually did start planning my suicide in 1980 and started researching and analyzing how I could kill myself and away without people knowing that I had killed myself, I didn’t want people thinking of me as a suicide I wanted people to think of me as a suicide But in a very sort of sad way not not not like oh, he killed himself like Marilyn Monroe a more like he killed himself because he was so in love with Jack, or he killed himself because he was such a kind man and he just couldn’t handle what he done to Bobby and David and I was it was something like that that I was hoping for him or he killed himself what I really hoped for was that people would think I killed myself because I had ruined my life and all I was trying to say that Jack really had destroyed my life. I was trying to say that Jack had destroyed my life by killing myself on his birthday I was trying to say that I planned to kill myself on his birthday.

Hi, I was trying to say something else but the illuminati if they exist or realizing that they’re obsessed with hurting Lacey in this repetitive dream like scenario where she falls in love, or she thinks that she’s loved and then she finds out that she really isn’t there obsessed with that and it’s because of Jack and their own problems but they are pathologically obsessed with that narrative with her.

I’m not going to ever let her down in that way even if I was gay I am with her that’s never going to change and if I ever harm somebody, I will just have to spend eternity trying to win her over. I’ve decided that.

But I actually very much was straight. I’m sorry.

So I was talking, and it was actually quite interesting, culturally speaking I think even Lacey is sitting here at her old desk in her old chair in her old house with her old perfume. There’s nothing in her direct view that’s new other than a box of a razors, a Victoria’s Secret lotion, a marble coaster, Sensodyne, toothpaste, and maybe a few other things everything else is pretty old for the most part it’s actually really fascinating, because it is easier to talk to her. It’s also harder, but it’s easier in a sense when she surrounds her self with all things and her fascination with that isn’t entirely what you think it is part of it is that those things bring her comfort in a way that she’s not been able to articulate because no one‘s ever been that interested sadly.

So her old bottle of Chanel 19 is extremely comforting to her because she looks at that and she thinks of my counselor and she realizes that he was probably real and to be honest Michael Rockefellers flirting with her but that’s OK for now because she needs that because you keep scaring her, and she need to be reminded that there are other men other than me who she could could find attractive, and Michael is extremely wonderful as a person he really is actually a really decent man for the most part, so I almost wonder if my Dad counselor brought him up I wouldn’t be surprised if he did.

Perfect I’ve start I’m hearing that it’s possible that her uncle Ron talked to my counselor and told the Holy Spirit to talk. Help me talk about this because he knew that that would be comforting to her so that’s interesting. Ron is Ron is a very intelligent man him at least he has such a complicated family, but that’s a different conversation Anyway and to be honest, you have no idea how complicated things are because Coco Chanel loves Lacey possibly herself and she may have even met Lacey‘s father. You would be surprised who he knew it’s possible she was even in Minnesota once or twice on his estate in the country on his farm had a party where they got drunk and shot things literally like birds and stuff with movie stars and I think she might’ve found him exciting to be with and he was handsome and I kind of wonder if Coco And I feel some sort of tenderness towards Lacey at times that is somewhat maternal to be honest but that’s also an entirely different topic.

What do you think of Lacey’s aesthetic though the way that she likes shooting and hunting and that she likes sweaters and skirts and that she’s fashionable but I’m sort of a more than a rooster Craddick way and then she’s so intelligent I think Coco feels a sort of tenderness in her heart towards that Because I think she relates to it somehow even though they were different people I think she finds it endearing

And to be honest, I am 88 Coco is angry a game at subtypes. It’s possible that that was supernatural because she was into the occult, and I wouldn’t be surprised if she was channeling her self, in some sort of sort of maternal anger outside of time that she wasn’t Cognitively aware of I think she was mad at Jack possibly for hurting Lacey when she said homosexual, rude women’s lives or there’s many a homosexual who’s ruined the woman’s life I kind of wonder if she was thinking of Lacey when she said that in her subconscious. She likes me though she likes me. I think it’s possible, if she would marry her off to anybody that she would marry her off to Constantine. I think she thinks he’s the one that should win because he’s the best.

If there’s an illuminati, she likes that Putin find her attractive again. She finds Lacey very endearing. She may even relate to her at times but but now I’m on good terms with her so we’re fine, right? It’s not quite like that. I don’t have to be on good terms with her, but if she feels maternal towards Lacey, it helps to be on good terms with her if she’s not in hell, and she cares about Lacey.

So in 1980 I wish I had married Lacey. I wish I wish you’d been there, and I wish I’d married her, but she wasn’t there.

And so I plan to kill myself the entire euro planet, I plotted in planned. How could I overdose? How can I really kill myself in a way that would really work? Oh, and IIII planned it very methodically that year and then in 1981 I was set I did go to Valentine’s Day dinner that year and fall apart and to be honest that might be Eric Harris his way of telling Lacey that there’s not reincarnation. You know it’s possible people witness to them as they were shooting people, and they even died as Christians. You’d be surprised how God tries to save people from Hell.

So I I applauded and planned the entire year of 1981 how am I going to kill myself in 1980 and then I actually did it you know it was Valentine’s Day at that 1981 that I really gave up it was in 1980 or 81 that I saw that pornographic film And I realized that my counselor was right and that I had been tricked most of my life by myself in a way, but really by a lot of people into thinking that I was homosexual because I know there were people who wondered if I was straight and I’ve not talked about that.

I didn’t want to bring that up but now I have to because it’s necessary for Lacey’s mental stability because it’s that meaningful.

Peter Lawford guessed that I was heterosexual. If there’s no luminosity, I did go to a party once at his house, and he was watching what I was watching. It was a sex party if there’s an illuminati, and I was fascinated by a couple who were having sex you were straight and yes, it was something like eyes wide shut And I was just standing there kind of with my mouth open, staring at them, and he saw that it was an orgy. It was a Hollywood sex orgy. That was actually a sort of steppingstone into the illuminati and that was in the that was in the early 1960s And so he saw that and he thought this is weird that he’s so hyper focused on that couple because they were straight and there were gay people and I wasn’t remotely interested in watching them. I wasn’t flirting with them. I was totally disinterested in what I was focused on were the heterosexuals, especially good looking ones and I just stood there, staring at them like an idiot And he was smart enough and intuitive enough as an actor to guess that I was probably heterosexual.

But he never told anybody and all of the years that I am sure he knew he was very quiet about it.

Likewise, Frank Sinatra also knew that I was probably heterosexual. And he actually has tried to convince Lacey to stay faithful to me and give me a second chance and it was real and she stayed with me because of what he told her. I mean I would’ve gone after her anyway, but there was at least one night when she left with me so to speak, and it was because he told her that I deserved a second chance and her estimation. He has a soft spot for her, and while she was young before she knew a lot of stuff, he had her listen to his music a lot because he wanted her to enjoy hearing him before any of this crap happened because he knew that she like his music, and he wanted her to be able to enjoy some thing of a life that she never got to have And so she has good memories of hearing his music because he knew better, and he understood that she really needed to hear it on tainted by all of this evil.

He was a very sensitive man. He was a ladies man, but he was also a sensitive person. It’s possible that by having a daughter of his own, though he also understood him some thing about her. I wouldn’t be surprised if she reminds him slightly of her daughter and his person and her personality and he might be a little bit like her dad, Tom, just a bit. I actually got along with him fairly well and I was never in a relationship with him, but I got along with him. And I I I have to say he knew that I was straight, not gay. He he thought I was straight and he was a he was very scared. He had to be kept quiet about it. Someone had to pay him off if there was an assassination plot to kill JFK. Someone paid him a lot of money, because he figured out that I was heterosexual.

They also agreed to let him live, so let him have a lavish life to some degree to never really go out of style and he didn’t because that’s how he works stuff. He new stuff and then you pay them off and you knew him. He was good for it um, so if I had some part of Jack’s assassination, they paid Frank Sinatra off and I was part of how he figured out what it actually happened. Nobody told him he wasn’t in on it. He wasn’t a part of it at all. He really was an artist he he had connections to the mafia, but he was first and foremost, an artist. I’m so people had to pay him off because he figured it out. It really was just that he figured it out. He saw him my playboy collection. Literally I had one. I don’t know why Bobby doesn’t think he’s ever seen it apparently but I really did have one. I don’t know how he never saw it but I had one. And he thought he knew that I subscribed him. He may been at my apartment sitting in my living room or something, and he saw a copy of it laying around.

Hey, he saw a copy of it laying around and he guessed that I was not homosexual. I think he had a very strong conviction of that he met me. He saw my mannerisms, and I think, being smart and being somewhat bisexual being streetsmart I also I think he knew instantly what he was looking at he might’ve even been slightly supernaturally, aware of things more than most people The night that he died Lacey‘s friend Sarah saw Frank Sinatra in a dream and he said to her friend well thanks for everything. I’m glad you came to the show or something like that and then her friend told her that that the night that he died he appeared to her in a dream saying goodbye. He did that he appeared to her friend as he was dying, so that it would be proof to her that there is a supernatural Because he knew that if she had that dream somehow it’s sexist, but he knew that it was just in her brain the way that she thinks it’s sexist, but he knew I did. It’s also not really sexist, but I’m saying that so that people don’t you know you know Disrespect him but he knew that it would just seem strange to her that she would think I must have known he was sick or I must have known somehow that he was going to die. I must’ve figured it out because I’m like that he knew that if he appeared in a dream to one of her friends that it would be too freaking weird he knew it would be too weird to her because why is this friend having a dream that he’s dead before anyone knew he was dead and it was a dream and it was her friend and it was just very creepy and so he did that as sort of a wink at her that this whole thing is it nonsense that Tom is her dad that he really had a link to Lacey specifically as a person And he did have connections to the mafia and so did Lacey‘s father arm so I think he might have felt again a sort of softness in his heart towards her where he might’ve felt like he needed to say goodbye to her or acknowledge her somehow, just briefly maybe more than some people he might’ve chosen a few people to say goodbye to in someway after he died, but she was one of them that he needed. He decided he needed to see use his energy that was left Him to sort of communicate with her and that was a very wise idea he was right that was very smart, but he was like that

Hey, he did know that I was heterosexual though, and he was quiet about it and that actually is part of the reason why he chose her to part of it is her dad and then part of it is that he felt guilty that he never said anything about me to almost anybody. Because he knew the misery that she was going to end up going through, and it was agonizing to him.

No he he was when he died he was it was you know straight to God give me the 411 I wanna know everything and that was some thing God told him and so that’s what he chose to do with that information was appear to her friend in a dream.

That actually happened OK that’s 100% fact.

But he saw that article, and he might’ve liked the magazine himself, and he just knew because he himself might’ve read it occasionally that there was very little likelihood that I was gay, and I think he made other observations previous to that but he just knew that I was not homosexual And he was a he was aware he was aware that I was straight because he confronted me about the magazine and said you’re a long time subscriber Halim to playboy can you hear him saying that that’s literally what he said essentially you’re a long-term so subscriber to the playboy Harlem to and I said yeah yeah I’ve been reading that dirty magazines since I was practically a kid it wasn’t around that long, but I said something along those lines am that wasn’t quite what I said, but it was that I had been reading it for a very long time And it was I kind of made a joke about being you know young maybe I said before I was bald I said something and he said you know, I’m not finding this funny lab the fact that you’re reading a dirty magazine whatever kept you from having a wife to and I said oh you know you know you know kind of you you know what it was I don’t want to tell you And he got very angry and very quiet and I had never seen him like that but he got very quiet. It was like Dudley quiet and we had dinner after that actually at my house and he was very distant but I didn’t think that a lot had happened but I, I assumed that he’d probably just kind of moved on you know in the conversation Lacey wouldn’t have thought that oh what do you know I pick up on other things that she doesn’t pick up on but she would’ve picked up on that that he figured something else, and shortly after that, he had to be paid off And there were some people who stopped talking to me after that because they were so mad at me because they had to pay them off and they couldn’t figure out why I handled things that way him and what they wanted me to do was to just if if there was an assassination plot this did happen whether there was an assassination, plot or not, but if there was an assassination plot, shortly after that is when I had to pay him off, we had to pay them off Rather if there was an assassination plot am II am I was supposed to have told him what happened I was supposed to have explain to him that I was straight I guess in essence or something like that because they really did think that if there was a plot to kill Jack George Bush Bush Senior thought I was heterosexual, and he thought that I was basically out of my mind for not married a woman, but he blamed Jack

And he thought that I am he thought that I was ruining my life but they had interested me in my sexuality when they were investigating Jack if there’s if there if there was a plot to kill him they were very fascinated by the Eno trying to figure out if I was homosexual And they decided that I wasn’t and they were going to help me and they were really adamant about it and I really thought that some thing was gonna happen to my life. You know that was happy because I was miserable before Jack died. It was already quite miserable. You know I don’t know if people notice this or not but I didn’t really take that good care of myself I gained weight Before he died I dressed so much sloppily on occasion. I looked good, but I actually didn’t take care of myself at times I really didn’t I was I was a handsome man it out. It looked neat but there was times where I had stains on my clothes or I didn’t. I didn’t have my pants or I wore clothes that were too tight or I gained a lot of weight because I was miserable. I really was I was miserable and I had the idea that that they were going to help change my life and you know sort of straighten things out for me if there was a plot to kill him and him, and then after he died, they lost interest in helping me. There was some interest for a short amount of time but it was not what I thought it was gonna be but I I guess I was supposed to have told them that I was heterosexual. I was supposed to have told them told told Frank That they thought I was anyway because that was the first time that I really wondered if I was heterosexual if I was just really messed up was when the CIA was planning to kill Jack if there’s if there was a plot to kill him that was when I first started to wonder if there is if I was actually straight, but it seems so far fetched it was so far-fetched me at that point cause I thought I could just marry a woman you know there’s nothing wrong with me. I have an aerial diseases and I’m old but my gosh you know I am that’s actually an option for me it’s possible, and it seems astounding, but then you know I had I didn’t take it real serious because I thought oh well I don’t know you know it’s just not right you know I’m probably gay that’s too hopeful. I thought it was too hopeful to think I was really a heterosexual so but but but Frank was quite sure that I was I guess and he figured out that I was attracted to women and he decided that I was straight, and he figured out that weed kill Jack if there’s if there was a plot partially through talking with me and they were very mad at me that I hadn’t handled the situation on my own in a way and paid him off myself possibly because I did have some money and I think they thought that somehow I was not covering them so this week I didn’t have their back and so there was a few men who had been friendly to me just in passing if I ever saw them who stop talking to me completely because they were just livid. They thought I was just a jerk, I mean they just went acknowledged me in public anymore because I just saw that I was a jerk and I think they also wanted to distance themselves from me because they thought that it was safe for them to see a lore on more disconnected to me just in case if Frank ever told anybody But no, he figured it out so him Peter Lawford knew I think Bobby Kennedy Senior knew in his heart that I was heterosexual, but he himself was slightly bisexual, and I think he was very embarrassed by that and about sexual things that had happened with other people in his family and I think like Jack for instance as one example and I think he thought that there was something creepy about the whole thing and it was embarrassing to him And so instead of sort of processing that, and realizing that he’s been molested to some degree by Jack, he decided to sort of pressured under the rug and just ignore the fact that he probably figured out that I was heterosexual to there were other people who aren’t famous who knew that I was heterosexual And they stabbed me in the back by not telling anybody or by actually saying the opposite saying that I was gay when they knew that I really wasn’t bad and Bradley may actually be one of them.

I’m not saying that for sure because that would be too upsetting to Lacey if she was wrong, and she wasn’t hearing from me, but he may have known that I was straight and then purposely lied about it to say face and sort of told the Kennedy line he may have even emphasized it out of gills, or because he was trying to draw attention to it in a very subconscious sub, textual subliminal way. I think he got spooked by the CIA. If if there was a plot to kill Jack, I think he got scared, and that’s part of the reason he started saying I was gay because he wanted to cover his own behind and his families behind, and he didn’t want anyone paying any attention to them so if there was a plot to kill Jack know, he knew I was straight intentionally, and then decided to lie about it, and people didn’t necessarily know that I was homosexual he said the opposite but but that actually could be the opposite and him, saying I guess everyone knew that lame. Everyone probably knew that one was gay I believe he’s one of the people that said, that may have actually been a hint towards the illuminati because they say things backwards and Satanism and he may have been hinting at some sort of high-level, illuminati plot to kill Jack by saying I guess everyone knew that Lem was gay.

He may have been trying to say the opposite that I guess some people knew that I was straight or rather I don’t think what would be the absolute opposite of that. Are you trying to tell me that some people didn’t know that lamb was straight ?

I think that might be more what he was saying if there is an illuminati plot if it was him that said that if he knew I wonder if that’s what he was saying it’s just more of a question like Like what are you telling me it’s possible someone was trying to warn him that I was straight at some point and that was his reaction. I don’t know who is trying to warn him on if it was a historian who suspected it and thought that maybe he would say something or if it was somebody in my family or somebody in the media, but I think he knew potentially that there had been some plot, and that I had been a part of that pot him if there was one.” says Lem.

“How much of that is true?” says a man.

“90%.” says God.

“So he really was heterosexual?” says the man.

“Yes.” says Lem.

“Yes.” says God.

“What part wasn’t true?” says the man.

“Some of the dates are a little off. And he may not have been…in that relationship.” says God. “He was heterosexual.”

“So everyone assumes he was entirely gay. WHY!?” says a man.

“Did he ever say he wasn’t attracted to women?” says a woman.

“No. He never said that.” says God.

“Ahh…do people just assume that back then?” says a man.

“Yes. Sort of.” says the CIA.

“Then why does Wikipedia say he was gay?” asks a man.

“Because…it’s Wikipedia. And…there are MANY people who were or are bisexual who aren’t identified correctly on there.” says Mark Zuckerberg.

“Okay…that’s weird that they do that though. I mean…why couldn’t he be bisexual!?” she says.

“Yeah. There’s absolutely NO historical reason to confirm his homosexuality instead of bisexuality. At all. …It’s…not…honest. …But that’s Wikipedia.” says the CIA.

“So…he NEVER said he was not attracted to women!??” says a woman.

“Yup.” says Lem.

“Then we’re totally trying way too hard to make them a couple. …I mean…why do we assume they’re still a couple!??” she says. “I don’t get it!”

“Because they fell in love young. And Lem died over him?” says a gay man.

“Did he though!? …And I mean…no. Eww! …Jack was a total douche.” she says.

Silence.

“Why would we assume anyone was still with him!? It’s not…normal.” she says.

“Because he killed himself on his birthday.” says a Boomer.

“That’s not impressive. That’s creepy.

That’s creepy.

There’s nothing about that that screams eternal true love to me.

If he’d lived his life and…been…sane…maybe? But…his self destruction seems…suspicious. …It’s not just grief. It’s…like…why…can’t he live with it? At all? …Why does it totally destroy him? …I feel like…a parent can affect you that way. Slowly over time. And some people do kill themselves over their spouse. But…he totally self-destructed. It’s weird.” she says. “Why hasn’t anyone been weirded out by the Dick Van Dyke Show?”

“So…you think he seems more haunted than grief stricken?” says a man.

“YES. He’s too…dark. …It’s not like he’s just sad. He seems…crazy.” she says. “Like he’s losing his mind.”

“We assumed it was just the drugs.” says Bobby.

“He looks…weirder than that.” she says.

“Like how?” he says.

“I’m not arguing with you.” she says.

“He…told me he was gay too. …But…it was…a casual commitment, I’ll describe it as a casual commitment. And it wasn’t…convincing. …I think the truth is…many of us knew he wasn’t gay.” says Frank Sinatra. “But…then Jack looked stupid. And he…had a lot of fans!”

“Why did Jack look stupid?” says the CIA.

“Because he smiled too much around Lem. Simple as that. He was…proud of Lem. Lem was tall and handsome. Okay? …And he was very smart! And Jack felt posh and aristocratic with Lem as his buddy. They both went Choate you know? Lem had a rich person accent. …Jack did not. …So…Lem made him feel elite. …And…yet…Jack lived to act better than people, to be honest. So…he needed Lem to be his inferior. He needed Lem to be obsessed with him. …And he told people that. He intimated it. Often! …A lot of people knew he had a room for him. It was common knowledge. In the inner circle. And…he sold that as…Lem being his…sex slave. …His secret gay slave. …Nothing serious. Just…slavery. …Real stuff too. Nothing…sentimental. …And Jack…was…a real ding dong.

…He FLIRTED with MANY MEN.

Me. Tennessee Williams. Peter Lawford. Gore Vidal. …Red Fay. Ben Bradlee. …MANY men. …We…knew he was really flirting. …Bing Crosby. …We knew. But you ignored it. Because it was shameful. …So you treated it like it was bad. Very bad. Yuck! Huge yuck! But…at the same time he would flirt with everyone!” says Frank.

Lacey laughs.

Jack smacks Ben Bradlee in the ass. Giggles.

“Jack!” says Ben.

Jack just laughs.

“Jack!” says Ben.

“What!?” says JFK, laughing.

Ben laughs too.

An hour later.

“I’d like to take a walk.” says Gore Vidal. “But…it’s so congested here in the capital.”

“Would you like to take a walk upstairs!? To my bed!?” says Jack Kennedy, laughing.

“Oh Jack! Silly!!!” says Gore Vidal.

“Actually…that’s not that far off.” says Frank.

“How obvious would it be to us today?” says Bobby.

“Mm…obvious. …He’s not straight. …And it would be much harder to hide that now. Speech writers couldn’t avoid the media. Back then there was less media. Less photos. Less cameras. People didn’t see as much. …Now..someone would see something.” he says. “Or his phone would get…leaked. He’d send dirty emails or photos to some man.”

“Who!?” says a gay man.

“Red!” says Frank Sinatra. “Definitely Red Fay. He…flirted with Lem. Because Lem was attractive to him. …But Red…was actually dirty. Not just…in imaginary land. Red…was passionate.”

“So Jack had many gay lovers?” says a reader.

“At least 6.” says Frank.

“And Lem was straight?!” says a reader.

“Yes.” says Frank. “He had to be. Do you really think a gay man could have put up with all that!? For years!? No! Never. …Listen…Red was very pragmatic. He married. They had sex in the military. Often. At war. When they first met. …Lem knew that too. How do you imagine he never gets hurt!? It’s…ludicrous!

Red and Jack were lovers. Real lovers. As far as homosexual goes. The whole gambit. But Red married a woman and that’s how he avoided getting more hurt.

…Ben…was married too. And he…avoided getting hurt by intellectualizing it. And being married.

I…preferred women. Jack knew that.

Bing…hated homosexuality.

Tennessee Williams was…using Jack for sex. And the thrill of it. Because he demanded we think he was straight. And Tennessee loved that act. It turned him on. The football player who’s bisexual or gay, secretly. Jack!

Yeah. He chose men who would be…easy to deal with. He loved provoking women. Men…scared him.” says Frank.

“Did he sacrifice Michael?” asks a woman.

“Yes.” says Frank. “If there’s an Illuminati. Yes. He did.”

“Because Michael found him repulsive?” says a reader.

“Yes. Michael found Jack…annoying and repulsive. If there’s an Illuminati. …And instead of being open about it at all Jack…hid that secret and…in 1960 he sat with a woman I’ll call Beverley…on a sofa at an Illuminati party…and over Tarot cards…on a luxurious coffee table…in California…they plotted Michael’s death.” says Frank.

“Why!?” says a reader.

“Because they were looking for someone to kill. Literally. It was very dark. Very…sinister.” says Frank.

“Why!?” says a reader.

“Because that’s their way. …That’s their religious belief. …You sacrifice a human…who’s…worth it…to bring…results. From some demonic or evil entity. It appeases them. Supposedly.” says Frank. “Michael was very decent. Very loved. And…Jack was gaining popularity. Among women, actually. …Rich women. Valley of the Dolls type of women. Stepford Wives. Who were into magic. And…exotic stuff. …As their friend. …They figured out he wasn’t straight. And they won his confidence.

So…Beverley tells him she’s in a jam. Needs a sacrifice. Quick! …And he suggests Micheal. Because he hates him. And…she’s open-minded. He’s nerdy. Sweet. Seems safe to her. No angry fathers-in-law.

And so…he requests Michael die. And…they put an intense curse on him. To kill him. Right then and there.” says Frank.

“What was that supposed to do for Jack?” says a witch.

“Bring him lots of happiness. …Good fortune.” says Frank.

“What did it actually do?” asks the witch.

“People turned on him. …Beverly herself ratted him out.” says Frank.

“So…Rocky knew?” she says.

“Yes!” says Frank. “Of course. They told him. And he blamed himself. But he felt no obligation to protect Jack from Retaliation. R.

“So…Fidel Castro?” says a woman.

“Not just him! …Krushev hated him!!

I hated him sometimes!

A lot of people hated him.

But yeah. I guess it was Fidel who finally decided to pull the trigger.” says Frank.

“Who else wanted to!?” says the CIA.

“ has anyone else noticed that this sounds like him in a way that I don’t think she could mimic?” says a woman.

“Krushev. …A mob boss or two. Marilyn Monroe. …He…assassinated her first. …They hated each other. …He used her…and then she started sleeping with lots of other men, including Bobby. And…that made…him…JEALOUS. …HE was jealous OVER HER. …And then he hid that and found a way to make her feel suicidal. Using Bobby. …Bobby knew he was trying to edge her towards suicide. And he went along with it. …It was one of the most evil things I ever saw him do. Bobby. …Because it was wrong. But she really pissed Jack off. And he decided to just kill her…by torturing her to death and bringing her to kill herself. …She was her own murderer. But they put her up to it. She barely did it herself. Just barely. …He was there. Bobby. When she did it. …He was her lover. And…they were…supposed to be together. But…he told her to kill herself instead. And she decided it was a good idea! …Jack was calling the shots though.

And nobody who loved her…forgot about it.

By 1962 he was doomed.

He just made far too many people angry.” says Frank.

“So…a group of Republicans decided to kill him. But Rocky couldn’t protect him? And…his gay lovers couldn’t either?” says a woman.

Pause.

“No.

See…I didn’t know.

Bing didn’t know.

Red didn’t know.

Gore didn’t know.

And Lem…who knew…was in on it. Because he was straight. And secretly incredibly bitter.

Tennessee didn’t know. None of us knew. Except for Lem.” says Frank.

“Did Elliott have a grudge?” says a reader.

“Yes! …He made a lot of people angry.” says Frank.

“So Lem…vomited. And wanted to go play golf. And if there’s reincarnation…Eric Harris watched and got deeply offended.

But…if there’s any way…could you tell me what it was like for an actual gay man who found him attractive to be with him?” asks a woman.

“We all hated Lem.

Lem…was…painfully unaware. And we felt it. Because he’d stand there happy. …And we were miserable. Jealous. And he was so…polite and at ease. …And it seemed possible he was one of us. So…it hurt. He really was annoying. For that reason. Jack used him.

The rest of us? Those of us who weren’t standing off in the corner pouring drinks like them. Half smiling. Silently like a slave.

We…were kind to each other. …Pretended not to care. Pretended to really just be his friend. Even Gore did that one. …Lem is really the only one who didn’t. …And he was straight. …But those of us who actually felt something…were in agony. Because we had to hide it! Badly. From each other. From…the press. From everyone. …Because we had no control.

See…Lem had control over his emotions. Because he simply didn’t care. …With Lacey he’s a wreck. And she can’t see that. And it would…kill her anyway. She loves him. …But…he managed to avoid that because he just didn’t care!! …He paid women to come take him off his hands. Regularly. …But we…felt no such relief.

Jack wasn’t polyamorous. He was a dirty man.

You’d feel special. One minute. …Two days later you’d find out he was off it.

Or sometimes far worse.

One man…made love to him. Jack got dressed. He got dressed. …Jack brought him out of the White House. They said goodbye. …And this youngish man…who was a rising Hollywood star…at the time…early 20’s…

He leaves and as soon as he leaves Jack calls his producer and asks him to give him the boot. Fire him. Right away. …Just to be sadistic. Just to make him scared. Too scared to tell a soul. And it worked. Sort of. …I think he was mad at Jack after Jack died.” says Frank.

“Who was that?” asks a gay man.

“Rip Torn.” says Frank. “I guess he wanted us to think he was that young. …Or she’s not hearing the name.”

“If it was me…I was bisexual.” says Rip.

“What were you fired from!?” asks a man.

“A musical.” he says.

“So…he…sacrificed Micheal. Rip Torn was bisexual. And Lem was straight.” says a reader.

“What role did you have?” asks man.

“A young cowboy.” he says. “She’s hearing this. Whether this is entirely accurate.”

“Did you like musicals Lem?” says Robert Osborne from TCM.

“No.” says Lem. “I didn’t. …You’d expect me to. But I actually didn’t.”

“Did Jack?” asks Robert Osborne.

“Yes.” says Frank Sinatra. “Jack loved musicals.”

“You really didn’t like any musicals?” Robert asks Lem.

“I didn’t. I actually didn’t.” says Lem.

“What did you like?” asks the CIA.

“Classical music. Jazz. …Opera. …Swing. …I liked…a lot music. …Beethoven. Dave Brubeck. …But I never liked musicals.” says Lem.

“Who was your favorite?” asks the CIA.

“I liked…King Harvest. Dancing in the Moonlight. Songs like that. A lot. …The 70’s had good music. In my opinion. …Beethoven. I liked Beethoven.” he says.

“Who